#god i wish that were me jpeg

[schadentekkers]

[c0rpsedemon]

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[mag200]

i took this photo of my tv’s screensaver the other day bc my wife and i were just chatting and this came up and i was like well shay mag200 has gotta get in on this

i cant believe im a household name and for this. thank you. powerful image <3

[plzu]

welling up watching a scene where a nonbinary teenager feels completely comfortable divulging information about recreational drugs and their first kiss with their mother: huh. hm. we don't have time to unpack all that

[yuripoll]

[theglizzardwizard]

hey im "who the fuck is andy" anon i genuinely do NOT fucking know what youre talking about. i found your posts in the toontown tag ?????????????????????????? why the fuck do you instantly jump to calling me names and assuming im a fan of this person youre just ranting about on the games tags😭😭😭😭😭

Word. Please understand that you are one of however many people sending me asks and I cannot be ASSED to figure out who's on some CSA apologist shit and who's blissfully unaware of the inciting incident.

Like. If this all turns out to be some Random furries getting mad I don't like the porn they make, totally unrelated to the to-be-convicted pedo furry that's mad at me for dumb reasons? I'm still going to wig the fuck out on whoever started it.

[yardsards]

there's so many posts floating around that are like "if you stop joking about wanting to kill yourself, you won't think about suicide as much!"

and. in my experience, that's just been dead false.

when i was younger, i would casually joke about my suicidal urges all the time. it made my (often equally depressed) peers laugh along and connect with me, and it made the urges feel less scary, like i could conquer them and laugh.

i stopped joking about suicide as i got older. everyone said it was harmful to do, so i quit. and i think it actually made me feel so much worse. my suicidal ideations are now a dark taboo swirling around deep within me: something that i can't show outside of serious conversations in therapists' offices or to friends preceded with "can i vent about something?". serious conversations that don't really make me feel better and often manage to make the suicidal feelings look even BIGGER and more unmanageable to me.

i wish i could joke about it like i used to, but i can't. i'm more conscientious of others' feelings and reactions to me than i used to be (which is in some ways a good thing, but in some ways leaves me constantly muting and molding myself just to be more palatable to outsiders). so i can't bring myself to risk upsetting anyone with my dark jokes anymore: no matter if it's fellow suicidal people who may be understandably hurt by the subject, or if it's just mentally healthy people clutching their pearls because i dare be mentally ill in public.

and joking about these things is a lot more taboo now that it was just a few years ago as a teenager in the late 2010s. humor was more dark and ironic overall at the time. you could post like, a deep fried jpeg of a shrimp captioned "i want to krill myself!" and there was a general understanding that like, yeah some of the feelings there might be genuine, but it's still a joke and you can join in on laughing. but now something like that would be treated more like a cry for help.

i don't really have a solution to this cuz like, yeah there were people who were negatively impacted by the ubiquity of suicide jokes back then, and it's probably not something we as a culture should bring back overall. but GOD sometimes i miss it.

[straightedgesavior434]

Not really dnd movie spoilers but there’s a halfling who’s current and ex girlfriends are both large barbarian women and god I wish that were me dot jpeg

[pride-of-pantala]

you dont know mr beast?! god i wish that were me dot jpeg

behold the glorious and beautiful rock i live under! there are no celebrities here

[stormieneko]

I'm just gonna scootch right in here (cuddles in bed with you)

God I wish that were me dot jpeg 🥹

Yay :D Maybe that would help me go back to sleep for a bit

[twinkleomorashi]

Re: your several omorashi enthusiast friends - God I Wish That Were Me Dot Jpeg

It really is truly bizarre that two people I know irl are also into this lol. And the fact that one of them is literally one of my best friends?? And the other I’ve known for over 10 years??? crazy. Now if only I had a gf who liked it too lol.

[bees-nest]

vent

Sigh. My mom is a schoolteacher and i was helping her sort a bunch of papers for her new classes, and it’s one of those getting-to-know-you first day of school assignments. And.. School was hell for me, certainly. But seeing all the things kids are putting under “what do you like to do?” is really bumming me out bc it’s like. Oh i remember when i did things! I remember doing things! Wow, all these kids just do things? God I wish that were me .jpeg. I want so badly to fucking DO things but all i do is sit in my room and digitally pace in a stressed haze for days on weeks on months on years on over half a fucking decade. I can’t do anything without structure but i haven’t had much experience under any form of structure that doesn’t also make existing worse for me (the one exception i can think of being a really good psych hospital i went to..) so I feel so stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Though even then, my rate of Doing Things vs just feeding my brain entertainment to distract from the ever-present haze of stress until it was finally time to go to bed was not very high. I’m envious of these kids who can actually maintain hobbies and stuff. Would love to feel like I have any control over what my body does for more than 3% of the time. Would love to be as skilled at those hobbies as i would be right now if i had been able to actually put time into them since middle school.

I guess finally getting a therapist that is an expert in autism relatively recently is reason to hope that things will change soon. But it’s hard to feel very positive about it just yet…

[fearsomeandwretched]

Hannah being able to rent an entire house for $800 in Iowa. God I wish that were me dot jpeg

[heelhausen]

ASH JUST SPANKED XIA BROOKSIDE GOD I WISH THAT WERE ME DOT JPEG!!!!!!!!!!!

[farmersliga]

OH and I was wondering why serge was with thilo's family at the world cup lol looks like they're still friends then, that's nice

god i wish that were me dot jpeg

[xqueenofthecraziesx]

Every new, bizarre mcr concert pic I see of Gerard Way gives some kind of gender envy that I cannot begin to explain or express