#gods plsssssssss

[bhaalbaaby]

thinking things about halsin

[explicitmadrid]

oh hes sooooooo pretty

[onewingedangels]

ok finally watched iwtv se2 finale and now i have to wait for 1-2 years for season 3

[cosmogyros]

modern music sucks, people need to sing worse and write better songs

[swftlore]

i feel like we should be able to look through our tumblr likes by tags. i dont like scrolling through my thousand liked posts. my fingers are tired. :/.

[bunnykitty13]

i havent been able to finish a meal in like two days and i think my throat is getting swollen . uh oh girls

[trashlie]

My Year in Review (Webtoons)

Idk if Webtoon is going to give us a year in review this year or not, but I’m making my own! I don’t talk nearly enough about the other webtoons I’ve read/been reading, so I’m going to use this as an opportunity to at least name them all and talk about why I enjoy them. Who knows - maybe some of my followers/mutuals are also reading what I am and want to gush! 

Frankly, I cannot really rank things because I’m wishy washy and terrible at listing favorites, so this will be in no particular order. Read what I have to say about it, rather than where I ranked it, haha. 

I attempted to limit the number of webtoons I fastpassed on but... uh. I wasn’t good at it. Sometimes I just did it all in one go, sometimes it’s a steady, every single week deal. These such webtoons are denoted with an F. I’m not gonna say me fast passing means it’s a favorite, because sometimes I end up fast passing because I just REALLY want to see what happens next, so... don’t assume it means it’s the best of the best lol. 

Sometimes I get SO into a webtoon that when I hit all of what I can read in English, I’ll go look it up in Korean and try to read THAT lol. I’m not totally good at it yet but it serves as really good Korean practice so I’ll keep it up. These such webtoons are denoted with a K.

Let’s dive in!

I Love Yoo (F) Drama

I’m putting this first because that’s what a lot of people follow me for, and that’s where it deserves. I haven’t dedicated this much time and energy to many fandoms in the last 5 years, and ILY just reigns supreme there. Honestly, it’s exactly what I want out of a character-driven story that explores the complexities of our experiences. I understand why people want more out of it or aren’t fans of the slower pace, but that’s them, not me, and I LOVE it. Without fail, I fast pass this one so I can barf out all my thoughts on reddit and then yell some more over here. I love grey characters, I love complex characters, I love sad characters. Everyone does it for me, I stay winning! 

How to Become a Dragon (F) (K) Fantasy

Lol I say I try to read this one in Korean but lol this one is WAY  out of my league. Eon is a creator I already ADORED from Super Secret, so when HTBaD dropped, I was so excited. I’ve been reading it ever since and it’s been a steady Fast Pass for me. Bari is just... absolutely endearing and the whole of the story is fantastic. There’s a lot of hurt in the past to uncover, a lot of character development to witness, and so much fantastic lore. Admittedly the translations can sometimes be a little difficult, but that hasn’t been a very common occurrence. I say I don’t play favorites but if I did, this would be up there. Genre-wise it’s very much a fantasy, very light on the romance. PLEASE I beg of you guys, go read this and fall for Bari’s adorable Imoogi form! 

Seasons of Blossom (F) (K) Drama, Romance

You wanna know how much I absolutely love this one? I bough physical, Korean copies! Seasons of Blossom is separated into four stories (one for each season, beginning with spring) that all weave together through the characters involved. Spring is sweet and innocent and subverts a few tropes in a fun way. Summer is oppressive and overbearing and I sobbed so much. Full disclosure, summer follows two characters still dealing with the suicide of someone five years prior. Fall is, ironically, a time for starting over, for turning a new leaf, as a character who was bullied in her youth tries to get revenge. I haven’t started winter yet... I’m bad at endings and I’m sad that this will soon be over and I’ll probably binge and catch up on it really soon lol. I genuinely, ardently love this one SO much. Please! It’s beautiful, it’s wonderful, my heart ACHES so much. It’s perfect! 

Romance 101 (F) Romance

The only reason I haven’t read Romance 101 in Korean is because it’s complete and I need to pay to do that and I still haven’t figured out if there’s a way I can actually pay for it lol. It’s one I’ve been considering buying in Korean, though, so... yknow. Romance 101 is SO well done, and I’m obsessed with the art. All of the main characters are so wonderful and endearing, and Bareum makes a delightful main character, a university student who has never made room in her life for love and is thus sorely inexperienced and also sits on the cusp of true adulthood. There’s a love triangle that will tug at your heart, and so many WONDERFUL demonstrations of friendship! That’s something I appreciate a lot - a romance that isn’t about just the romance and acknowledges the importance of platonic love as well. 

See You in my 19th Life (F) (K) Drama, Romance [completed]

I can understand why people have been put off by the “age gap” in this story - when you’re a person who has remembered every single life you’ve lived, you are mature beyond anyone you’ll ever meet. But despite that, I was really, really sucked into this one and absolutely read ahead in the Korean version lol. There’s just something about Jieum that I love so much, and the way the story connects everyone, but most importantly, how much Seoha means to her. There’s also some fantastic family relationships, and character growth that’s fun to watch. Idk I love this one and I felt SO sad when it ended! The spin off stories were sweet additions, though! Everything tied up so nicely I’m not so much left wanting more as much as just knowing I will miss this ensemble cast for months to come. 

Act Like You Love Me (F) Romance 

God, this is one hell of a love song to tropes and cliches, and I say that in a really positive way and mean it! The writing absolutely knows it’s making use of many tropes and is just haven’t unabashed fun being what it is. There’s boss/employee, cohabitation, bouts of fake dating, a love triangle, a touch of fantasy ? Idk this one is so fun to me and I remember feeling really bummed when it had a short hiatus lol. I’m not currently fast passing but I know I will when I’m ready to binge. Like, look the premise is just SO fun - possessing a plushie you can use to make a famous actor do anything you want? Famous actor and normal person falling for each other? It’s just GOOD FUN! 

Odd Girl Out (F) Drama, Romance 

This is another one that I fast-pass off and on. Full disclosure, I much preferred the first season of this story to the current one, but mostly because the first had so much wonderful friendships between the girls. The second season has a lot more focus on Nari’s romances and love triangle and I just don’t currently feel compelled to fast pass but we’ll see when it changes. Don’t get me wrong, I love good romances, but I ALSO am a sucker for wonderful girl friendships. Regardless, it’s a cute coming of age story and the plucky lead is neither meek nor dull, and the running theme of people being drawn to her for the colorful, wonderful person she is continues throughout! 

Our Secret Alliance (F) (K) Romance 

God, this is my catnip. Childhood friends to almost strangers to lovers? Fake dating? Really cute art? Man this is IT! Is the story terribly deep? No. Are the characters wildly complex? Also no. But sometimes I just want to enjoy a sweet, saccharine story filled with really pretty art, and this scratches that exact itch. It feels like it’s coming to an end and I find myself more sad that I expected to be about it. It’s just so endearingly cute to me and I’m gong to miss it when it’s completed! 

She’s Hopeless (F) (K) Drama, Romance 

From the creator of Orange Marmalade comes this story about a high schooler hired to be a chaebol heiress’s secret bodyguard. The catch? Said heiress has a nasty, nasty temper, and it’s his job to try to get her to get along with her classmates and shed her prickly exterior. This is one that I read off and on, catch up on and binge when the mood strikes. I do enjoy me a terrible female character sometimes when her motives are good and her personality is complex and this one does it SO well. It has a nice touch of enemies to lovers lite and some forbidden romance for those who dig that lol. 

Wished You Were Dead (F) (K) Drama, Romance

Man a lot of people dislike this or find it too drawn out but idk I don’t share that sentiment with them. I guess it depends on your patience and what you enjoy lol. Arranged marriage where Emperor Karloi is betrothed to the daughter of his enemy and his Empress wife, Evonne, is actually the child who saved his life many years ago. But she can’t tell him that, because she’s forced to live a lie to keep her mother safe, and a magic spell prohibits her from even attempting to reveal her identity. As you can imagine, it’s created incredibly frustrating situations where poor Evonne, who is really Rue, endures hardship after hardship, while Karloi is unaware that the person who he is so cruel to is the person who sought out his whole life. HEAVY enemies to lovers, like I mean HEAVY. A lot of people are frustrated that Karloi hasn’t figured out Evonne’s identity despite him having nothing but a nagging sense that she reminds him of Rue. It’s one hell of a slow burn and I, for one, enjoy it (though honestly I’m like is this even gonna HAVE a happy ending or is this man gonna die miserable....) 

Rewriting the Villainess (F) (K) Drama, Romance 

I know isekai is really overdone but I never read them lol so this is fresh yet to me. Liza has returned from war only to find her one true love, her fiance, Illian has fallen for the princess of the very kingdom she went to war against. Hearbroken and anguished, she drowns her sorrows in alcohol only to wake up in the modern world, where she finds not only is she a character in an incomplete story written by Doeun, but she now occupies Doeun’s body. And even worse, she finds out she was not the protagonist of the story but, in fact, the villain. Angered by the way the writer planned to complete the story, she intends to ruin the author’s life as she lives it, until the day they can switch back to their respective places but... well, that doesn’t go according to plan. Honestly this one is SO fun and there’s a lot of mystery to unravel about Doeun and how they ended up in this place at all. There’s also some incredibly WONDERFUL exploration in different kinds of loves, and how familial love vs friendship love vs romantic love all differ from each other, which is something I’ve GREATLY enjoyed. The relationship between Liza and Illian is not a very healthy one, which is something she needs to learn for herself, and boy is she loving. It’s DELIGHTFUL, I’m having so much fun with this one! I tried not to fast pass it so I could save my coins but I couldn’t help myself ;~; 

Daytime Star 

Remember my love for saccharine little romances? This one fits the bill! It’s sweet and pretty and not terribly complex but I still find myself having fun and enjoying the story. The art is SOOOO pretty like WOW so pretty! There’s a part of me that wants to fast pass because I do enjoy it but I’m saving it for now! Besides the romance side of things, it’s just really fun watching Yura, a struggling actress, finally get noticed and start to make a name of herself in the acting world, and ngl that’s probably the thing that keeps this from being a story that fades into the nether. I don’t say that in a bad way, either! 

Beyond Virtual Drama Romance [Hiatus]

Full disclosure, this one has been on hiatus for most of the year and I DON’T KNOW WHEN IT’S COMING BACK. There’s not even a Korean version of this?! Even though it’s DEFINITELY a Korean webtoon?! PLEASE I need my fix! I really, really dig this one and I didn’t expect to enjoy it as much as I wound up! It takes place in a near distant future where the world has fallen into further ruin due to climate change and pollution, where people turned to VR to escape the misery of the real world. In VR they can see flowers where there are none, blue skies, animals that have gone extinct, and live the lavish lives they will never have in reality. They can also participate in events with virtual reality idols, who can beat out any human any day. Sora is one such high schooler who is content to live out her fantasies in VR and go on dates with her idol bias. Her best friend, though, has other ideas, and rejects the world of VR. He’d rather be a real human, in the real world. There’s actually lol a LOT of parallels in Beyond Virtual and I really love the story being woven, and the war against VR, the fight to turn to the real world and appreciate what is tangible and real. Okay, I ALSO enjoy the friends to lovers, so sue me! 

Operation True Love (F) (K) Romance, Drama

Listen. I started this like, last Friday. lmao I JUST started it and I’ve devoured it completely, which isn’t a surprise, but I’m also fast passing it AND have started to read it in Korean AND I’m already feeling itchy for more lol. Suae knows her boyfriend is scum, but she can’t help that she’s still into him. But everything in her life goes sideways when a pink Jellypop phone appears in her locker. It’s not just any phone - it can show the amount of love that anyone will receive in life as well as how much life they’ve already received. And Suae? She’s 0/0. She’s got to convince the creator that she’s not a bug in the system and that she can defy the rules and change her 0 into a 1. And look, if she has to do it by using her scummy boyfriend’s best friend, then so be it. After all, she’s already found out there’s a lot more going on with him and her adopted sister than she thought. AND LISTEN I LOVE IT. I love it SO much. The art is so good, it reminds me a little of I Love Yoo but also maybe a touch of Daytime Star? Suae is WONDERFUL and I absolutely LOVE her antics with Eunhyeok. Raim makes for a really complex, if not awful lol, antagonist and I’m really looking forward to seeing how things play out. Look I’m all caught up with this thing and the Korean version is only one!!!! episode ahead of the English FP what the heck am I to do?! (I translated it. lmao this is my Korean practice now, translating the Korean episode.) 

When the Day Comes Drama Romance [Complete]

The creator, OMOYO, is up there with eon in that when I first started using webtoon, I binged their webtoons. The Story of Those Around Us was fantastic and I really enjoyed OMOYO’s art a lot, so when I finally got started on When the Day Comes, I knew I would be utterly charmed. And I absolutely was! OMOYO has a wonderful kind of humor and even more importantly, presents stories in a really candid way. Ngl this one really tugged at my heart in MANY ways - like I found myself having a sweet little mournful cry one night lol. It’s just. Idk delightful, really well done. I look forward to whatever OMOYO works on next! 

Rumor Has It Romance Drama [Complete]

I don’t really like daily pass webtoons because I’m bad at keeping up with them. I can’t even remember how I started reading THIS one. Boredom and need to read something, probably? It’s very up there in saccharine, sweet little stories, and follows two exes who end up as neighbors as they enter college. It’s a really fluffy story, not incredibly deep, and is a generally fun read! 

No Longer a Heroine Drama Romance [Complete]

I don’t use the term guilty pleasure, but I guess if I did, this would probably be considered one. In some ways, this story is really makjang - it just goes OUT there and there are things in it that genuinely made me go “oh shit I didn’t see that coming”! It’s also very much up there with complex, unlikable female leads. I know the art isn’t very pretty, but if this was a drama, people would eat it up solely FOR the drama. I can’t say a lot without spoiling it but I genuinely like where they went with the romance, I didn’t expect it but it was exactly what I’d hoped for! 

Back to You Drama Romance [Complete] 

Full disclosure, this is now a daily pass and I have not finished this one lol. I can’t say why exactly - I guess I kind had a feeling of where the story is going? I think maybe I could have enjoyed it more WITHOUT the romance, actually? That’s the element I wasn’t here for. The idea of going back in time to change the past, to save a person you deeply cared about? Love that. The idea of messing with time and being messed up back? SO good. The irresistible urge to create big ripples and alter the entire timeline? YESSSSS. But meh @ all the romance that happened, I guess? lol Now that it’s a daily pass idk if I’ll ever finish it? I peeked at the ending when it completed, though! I think if this were a drama, I’d probably have quit it, too, because there were some things that were just too frustrating for me to deal with lol. But it may be someone else’s cup of tea! 

The Star Seekers

LMAO look I don’t expect most of my followers to read or take interest in it but as a fan of TXT lmaooo I am. It’s cute, it’s fun, I like fast passing it, Viken is an ADORABLE rendition of Beomgyu, I’m really into the Star Seekers universe and was hoping this would give me insight to the MV storylines. IT DOESN’T! But I’m still having fun lmaoooooooo 

Special shout out to Super Secret, which is now a daily pass, that I reread again because I will never tire of it. It’s so fluffy and sweet and I just love it. I also have already reread Beyond Virtual because it’s been SO LONG SINCE IT UPDATED PLEASE BRING IT BACK 

Everything else that follows is stuff I have begun but maybe haven’t gone back to or just go back every so often to catch up on! 

Honey Lemon My Reason to Die Maybe Meant to Be  Sunny and Rainy Our House Our Time Vampire Husband Unfamiliar Our Beloved Summer Your Letter  Heavenly Eats Your Smile is a Trap Seven Years Later Exchange Student Spring Once Again

And here are things I started and dropped!

To You Who Swallowed a Star (I cannot overstate how MUCH I could NOT stand this afljkafjkajkfkjafjkafkaljajkf) A Summer Night’s Dream  To Love Your Enemy I guess Back to You? Superstar Associate Manager There’s Love Hidden in Lies What if Feels to Date You Loaf App To Love and Be Loved

One day I will properly start Purple Hyacinth and maybe I’ll get into my TBR list (and probably drop some lol) 

[maaneskin]

did you see the petition to make Julian Alvarez dump his gf 😭😭😭 bllk characters would be so mad if that happened fr 🥱

can imagine sae calling everyone he knows to shut it down and rin calling sae to call everyone he knows 🤣

### had to google who julian alvarez is ,, so no i did not see that,,,,,, but i was a 1d & 5sos fan in 2015 so petitions for gf dumping is nothing new 😭😭😭

SAE WOULD BE SO ANNOYED PLSSS

[kit-bramblecraft]

I hate it when I'm doing fine for months and then get symptoms of my crohns disease and I have to be like FUCK I have CROHNS DISEASE

[riki-dazed]

imagine riki getting a sleeve tattoo and letting you color it would be adorable☹️

- 🫧

this + straddling his lap in bed + him shirtless.. his warm skin😭😭 i can imagine him admiring you all sleepily in the dimly lit room as you color away,, my soft baby 💔 god he'd look so good with a sleeve tho RIKI PLSSSSSSSSS maybe when he's older.. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[writingsofwesteros]

Daemon x septa reader part 2! Like full on smut scene! Maybe in the sept!!!

Shy reader is super scandalized but extremely horny! Also Daemon finishing inside her, telling her she'll have his baby while she panics and says no but doesn't push him away cause she does secretly find it hot!! First part was a tease! I want a full smut plsssssssss

AN: Hi, I hope you like it x

NSFW

“Daemon….” You whimpered out; your bare body spread out across the marble table. The candles of prayer flickering around you. Your dark locks moving over the table with those bright eyes of his locked onto you. The stare alone had you shivering. Your own thoughts racing through your mind at how wrong it was.

Your walls fluttered around his own throbbing cock as his jerking slowed down; savouring the moment. Daemon only chuckled as he watched you fall apart; his hands moving up your chest. His hand engulfed your breasts; palming you. “We shouldn’t do this…” You whimpered out breathlessly.

“No…do you want me to stop?” Daemon couldn’t help but taunt you. His fingers brushing over your pebbled nipple. Your face was so prettily screwing up with pleasure with your cheeks flushing. Your heart pounding in your ears as you arched forward. “Please…” You hardly knew what you were begging for. 

He slowed his thrusts as the rogue Prince leaned in; brushing your noses together for a moment. Your soft breasts pushed against his chest. “I think you want me..you want this pleasure.” He locked eyes with you as Daemon continued to taunt. He leaned closer and pushed his cock deeper. 

He watched as you so prettily reacted to him; your eyes rolling as a soft gasp escaped you. “Good girl..taking me so well.” Your legs began to shake; your stomach tightening in pleasure. His bright eyes moved down your body once more; fixated on your stomach as his hips moved quicker.

You squeezed your eyes shut as they welled with tears. Gods, this was so wrong. They had to forgive you. Daemon’s chuckling echoed around and had you blushing even more. “Open your eyes.” You whined some more as the rogue Prince quickened his thrusts. The movement had your eyes fluttering open.

“Good girl…you want to be good?” Daemon purred as you could only nod. “Yes…please..” You whined. That was all you ever wanted to be. Daemon knew it; his smirk only widening as he had you where he wanted you now. The Rogue prince only hummed as his own stomach was tightening. 

Your walls fluttered around his cock once more as he began to pick up his pace. The sounds of your wetness echoed around the room and only had you blushing even more. Gods, it was so obscene. Gently, you reached for Daemon’s locks; your fingers brushing through them as he leaned closer.

His cock pushed deeper; hitting your spongy spot again and again. All you could do was babble nonsense. “Fuck, that’s it…” Daemon moaned; his eyes locked onto you as his orgasm ripped through him. You whined; your body shaking as his cum filled you up. Your eyes widening at the feel.

“No…oh gods…this…” You could hardly get your words out as you continued to shake; your own release coming over you. “Shh, you want this…” Daemon purred as he chuckled. Your hand trying to push at his stomach. He gently grabbed your wrist and brought it above your head.

“Good girl, hmm, going to breed you so good.” Daemon purred as he watched you whine. Your head shaking as your eyes began to well up. “My little whore.” He hummed; his tone warm and without malice. You whimpered some more; your cheeks blushing as Daemon gently removed himself from you.

His hands slowly moved down your sides now as he lovingly watched you. Your body still shook as Daemon brushed up your inner thighs. Goosebumps spread across your soft skin as you arched from the table. His slender fingers brushed against your weeping, sensitive pussy with a chuckle.

You jolted at his touch as you moved to reach for his wrist once more. “Dae…I can’t..” You began to babble. His fingers brushed against you, collecting his cum before two of his fingers slipped inside your weeping pussy. He curled them expertly and found your spongy spot with ease.

His thumb swiped over your clit; your whines of pleasure echoing as you felt your stomach tightening once more. “Good girl..hmm, you like this?” Daemon purred as he watched your face so prettily screw up in pleasure. “Tell me…” He whispered; his fingers leisurely moving in and out of you.

“Yes…yes, I love it.” You babbled out. Your soaked, sensitive walls fluttered around his fingers as he pushed his cum deeper. Daemon’s smirk only widened and you couldn’t stop blushing now. Daemon leaned over your body and passionately captured your soft lips. Whimpers of pleasure escaped you.

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[suntaeshine]

lemmie get uhhhhhhhhh one post-performance backstage soobin smut plsssssssss

dis my bestie go bestie apparently requests are now a drive through service love that energy

Stress Relief

Choi Soobin x Reader

Smut, 18+ MINORS DNI

word count: 1.3k

warnings!: angy soobin, wall sex, kai is a little shit and soobin is Done,

Kai was close to getting choked.

Soobin was close to banging his head against the wall.

Kai, his sweet little maknae, was clingy, tired, emotional, and overall such a handful that Soobin was contemplating locking him in a backstage room before the concert.

"Hyung! Hyung!" Kai calls, voice getting higher and higher with every word.

"Can you go annoy Beomgyu?" 

"But, hyung~" 

It was like taking care of a toddler and Soobin absolutely blames Yeonjun for waking Kai up from his nap earlier this afternoon.

As the door opened, you walked into the room alongside some of the makeup crew. You usually hung around them to not be suspicious- something like the makeup caddy. It helped, of course, that your best friend was the lead artist and always kept you company.

Oh, thank God. Soobin was going to cry in your lap and beg you to get Kai under control- he actually listened to you.

As you help get the cases of makeup, hair supplies, and tools to fix up TXT's faces, Soobin gets closer and closer with each second. Once he was sure there were no cameras, he clings around your waist from behind, making your friend laugh.

"Can I help you?" you question.

"Tell Kai to stop acting like a toddler."

"You're the one wrapped around me like a baby," you tease, turning in his hold.

You ruffle his hair, figuring he was about to get it made up for the show anyway.

A call for the boys to gather makes all five head to separate areas (Kai being tug-of-war'd by Yeonjun and Soobin to sit down).

You were sure to give Soobin his kiss of good luck before and after finishing his makeup then sent him on his way to the stage.

The performance didn’t help. Soobin’s voice cracked a few times and he messed up some of the choreography. Him. Soobin. The leader of this group. His pride and confidence went down the drain. He was the leader and he was screwing up- what kind of picture would people get if the group’s leader was the one making mistakes?

The bathroom door slammed shut behind him and you jumped, turning around to look at him. You’d just praised him and congratulated him on the amazing show. He said nothing to you and told Taehyun to tell others that he had a makeup issue and dragged you to the bathroom.

“Baby, what is it?” you ask, reaching up to cup his cheek.

“Everything is going wrong. Everything is messed up. I messed up,” he rambles, closing his eyes.

“No, no.. Soobin, you did great out there and-”

“Don’t,” he pleads. “I just need to not think about it right now.”

“Okay..” you mumble.

You were about to ask him why standing in the bathroom made it so he didn’t have to think about the tiny mishaps when he grabbed the wrist of your hand on his cheek and tugged you closer.

“Clear my mind, love,” he whispers before gently kissing your neck under your ear.

“Soobin, we’re at work.”

“Concert is over. Work is over,” he mutters against your skin. “Can you please help me out?”

“You can’t wait until we get back to the hotel?”

“The guys will be there. This is our free time.”

You hated that you buckled so quickly.

“Be fast,” you warn.

Soobin grins cheekily, turning you around to face the wall.

“You’re so good to me, you know that?” he asks, flipping your skirt up.

“Okay, lover boy,” you tease, placing your forearms on the wall to stabilize yourself.

Soobin hums and you hear him unbuckle his belt.

“I mean it,” he insists. “Today has been shitty. But, you make it all better. You make all my days better.”

You blush, smiling to yourself. His words always had a way of sending your heart into a flutter.

He knows it, too. That’s the bad thing.

Soobin presses his chest against your back, lips connecting to your neck once more. His hand slides from your side to your front, gently squeezing your breast before massaging his way down. His fingers sneak into your underwear, pads of his fingertips finding that sweet little pearl tucked away between your lips.

“Soobin,” you gasp, closing your eyes and resting your head against your arm.

“My sweet baby,” he sighs happily, free hand gripping your waist to keep you in place.

He’s hardly done anything and you’re in shambles. It’s the small things he does that gets you riled up.

The way he whispers in your ear.

The way he knows all the right spots.

The way he talks to you, like you’re more than special to him.

The way his touch is enough to make you lose your mind.

He whispers more compliments in your ear until you’re whining, pushing his hand out of your underwear and spreading your legs wider.

“Already, baby?” he hums, lowering his boxers.

“Yeah,” you huff. “Come on. Want it now.”

“I’m the needy one right now. That’s not really fair,” he teases.

You don’t verbally reply. Instead, you reach behind yourself, pulling your underwear to the side to show him where you wanted his attention.

Soobin couldn’t help but relent. He needed this. He needed you.

With a grunt, he rubs the tip of his dick over your hole a few times, eyes rolling back in his head once he pushes into you.

Tension left his shoulders and he takes a long deep breath.

“You good?” he makes sure.

“I’m more than good. Please move,” you answer, ready to push yourself off the wall and onto him if he didn’t make a move now.

But, he was already ahead.

It’s a soft roll of his hips first. For a few minutes, he just pulls you back and forth on his dick, enjoying just being inside of you after such a hectic day.

“You still in there, hyung?” Kai asks, knocking on the door.

Fuck. Soobin bites his bottom lip in frustration. He really loved Kai but today was not the day.

“It’s just me!” you call, covering for Soobin.

“Oh.. Sorry, ___! Do you know where hyung went?”

“He mentioned-” you cough as Soobin snaps his dick deep in you.

“What?” Kai asks.

You clench your eyes shut, biting the inside of your jaw as Soobin’s speed picks up.

“Backup dancers!” you force out. “Thanking the back up dancers!”

“Okay, thank you!” Kai calls, moving away merrily without another thought or word.

“Soobin, I’m right there,” you caution, knees shaking.

Soobin hums, wrapping an arm around your waist and front. His other arm reaches down to your knee, pulling you up. You startle at the sudden movement, face planting into the wall as you tried to stay up on one leg.

“That’s it,” Soobin whispers to himself, grinding his hips into yours.

With your face pressed tightly against the wall, all you could do was jerk your bottom half to meet his.

“Coming,” you gasp.

“Go on, baby,” Soobin urges, tightening his grip to pound into you harder and faster.

Your words become null and void as you bite your lip, clench your teeth, and anything else to keep your noises down.

It’s like a warm sun washing over you that drenches you in freezing water- a back and forth feeling that leaves your head spinning as you cum on his dick.

“There’s my baby,” Soobin moans, slowing his pace to drag your orgasm out. “Look so pretty coming undone like this.”

You whimper, tiredly slumping against the wall.

“I’m almost there, love,” Soobin assures.

He pumps into you one more time, as deep as he could get. Slowly, he pulls out and the stimulation of your walls trying to keep him in while being covered in your cum makes him fall apart. He pulls out, cumming on your back.

There’s a pause of silence as you catch your breaths.

“Better?” you ask him.

“So, so..” he kisses your shoulder. “So much better.”

You scoff and he puts your foot back on the ground. You turn just as he’s stuffing his cock back in his pants.

“You’re lucky I love you,” you pester, wrapping your arms around his neck and tugging him down for a proper kiss on the lips.

“Beyond lucky, baby.”

[lyranova]

Omg so excited for you!! Congratulations on your milestone!

Fuegoleon x reader for a god au plsssssssss. Where Fuegoleon is the god of flames or something and reader is a mortal?

Hiya anon! Thank you so much 🥰, and of course you can! I didn’t really mention what kind of god Fue was in this since it wasn’t really relevant to the idea I had, but I did kind of try to hint at it towards the end. But I hope you enjoy 🥰!

Taglist: @thoughtfullyrainynightmare

Word Count: 1,127

Warnings: None

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Fuegoleon watched as the people of Clover began to find places to sit or stand along the riverbank, each one excited for the upcoming meteor shower that was to take place.

“ The Star god must be in a very festive mood today! They say this is going to be the biggest star shower yet!” One woman said excitedly as she sat down on a blanket, the man who sat beside her nodded in agreement.

“ He must’ve really enjoyed the offerings we gave him this week if he decided to do this for us!” The man said excitedly.

“ Oooh look it’s starting!”

Everyone's gaze drifted up to the starry night sky, and they watched as one by one the stars began to fall in rapid succession.

The humans ‘oohed’ and ‘aahed’, but Fuegoleon felt a pang of sadness in his chest as he stared up at the sky. If only the humans knew the real reason as to why the stars were falling…

“ A glass of wine for your thoughts?” A soft voice suddenly asked from beside him, he quickly turned and his heart stalled in his chest.

It was her, the mortal who had stolen his heart. His gaze traveled from her eyes to her outstretched hand which held a glass of wine out towards him.

“ Are you trying to bribe a god right now?” He asked with a slightly raised brow, and the woman shook her head.

“ Of course not, it just looked like you needed a drink,” She told him as she grabbed his hand and placed the glass in it.

Fuegoleon stared at the dark liquid that swirled in the glass and smiled a bit, of course she would notice when something was on his mind. It was like her sixth sense.

She sat down next to him with her own glass of wine in her hand and stared up at the sky.

“ Do you want to talk about what has you looking so sad?” She asked as she glanced at him out of the corner of her eye.

Fuegoleon swirled the liquid in his glass as his eyes got lost in thought.

“ It…isn’t really my place to discuss it,” He admitted after a moment, and the lady nodded.

“ I see; so, your sad thoughts have to do with a friend of yours,” She deduced, and Fuegoleon hummed.

“ I wouldn’t say he’s a friend, he’s more like a junior colleague,” He replied slowly, his brows furrowing slightly in thought.

He and Yuno weren’t really friends like he and Nozel or Yuno and Asta were, but the two were friendly and would occasionally work with one another so…a senior-junior relationship would describe it well right?

His frown deepened a bit; did Gods really have such roles and titles though? They usually saw each other as equals…

“ I assume this junior colleague is a doctor as well?” She asked, and Fuegoleon had to suppress a wince.

He had nearly forgotten he had lied and told her that he was a doctor instead of a God…

“ He is, yes,” He confirmed with a nod before sipping his wine, and the woman hummed.

“ I see; is he perhaps struggling with something that happened at work?” She asked casually, and Fuegoleon shook his head.

“ No. It’s something more…personal,” He admitted after taking another sip of his wine.

“ Personal…” She trailed off as her gaze moved from him to her own glass of wine, her eyes staring into its depths as though it were a crystal ball that would tell her what to say next.

Fuegoleon glanced over at her and his heart filled with regret; even though she was trying to hide it, he could see that she really wanted to help in some way. Whether that was giving advice or just lending an ear to his troubles, she wanted to be helpful.

So, he decided he would let her be helpful, at least a bit.

“ My colleague’s struggling with his…conflicted feelings at the moment,” Fuegoleon admitted softly as he looked back up at the shooting stars.

“ Conflicted feelings?” She repeated with a frown as she looked towards the vermillion haired man, and he nodded in confirmation.

“ He’s…fallen in love with someone, but at the same time he’s still in love with his former lover,” He began slowly, trying his best not to divulge too much.

“ I see, that is quite the conundrum,” She agreed softly, nodding her head slowly as she listened. “ Well, does he want to move on from his former lover?”

Fuegoleon hummed in thought.

“ I think he does, and yet at the same time…I don’t think he does,” He muttered softly as his gaze moved back to his wine glass. “ All he’s ever known is the love and embrace of his former lover, so that’s where he’s most comfortable. But…” He trailed off, trying to find the proper words.

“ But?” The woman beside him encouraged softly as she turned to fully face him.

“ But he wants to leave his comfort zone and take the risk. He wants to explore this new love he’s found, he wants to see where it leads him and how it all plays out.” He told her softly as he looked up and over at her.

“ As his friend, what do you think he should do?” She asked curiously as she leaned in close, and that’s when Fuegoleon realized there was a misunderstanding between them.

He was talking about Yuno and his relationship troubles, but she was talking about him!

Fuegoleon opened his mouth to correct the mistake, but hesitated.

Maybe…maybe he wasn’t only talking about Yuno; perhaps, in a way, he was also talking about himself and his own complicated feelings…

Gods and mortals were forbidden to be together; if they were caught then it could spell a lot of trouble for both the god and the mortal. The god could lose everything and be thrown in jail or worse killed, while the mortal would either lose all of their precious memories or worse…

All Fuegoleon knew was Elysia and his life as a god, it was where he was safe and happiest. But after meeting her…he realized he wanted something else, something more, something…exciting.

She had reignited the once extinguished flame in his heart.

“ I think…he should take the risk,” Fuegoleon said quietly as he leaned in close to her as well.

The two leaned in closer…and closer…and closer until finally their lips met in a deliriously sweet kiss that was better than either one could have imagined!

Fuegoleon didn’t know what tomorrow held for them, and at the moment he didn’t care, because no matter what it was; whether it was the Gods of Elysia, or a meddlesome patient, the two would face it together as a couple.

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Thank you all so much for reading, and I hope you all have a good day~!

[lady-margaret]

bridgerton season 3 episode 2 screaming thoughts (unedited)

guys is it wise to watch bridgerton in public (like while playing bingo 😭) i had to leave the dorm for the event and therefore had to cut my watching time short 😔😔😔😔

also it completely escaped my mind that it was only 4 eps until next month this SUCKSSSS i wanted to binge til early morning

DID EDWINA MARRY THE PRINCE

AW VARLY SO CUTE

i fck with the mondrich storyline kinda slay

DAMN pen looks good in that dress

OUF AJSJJSHDSJDHSJDH if only u knew colin

PEN PLSSSSSSSSSES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😓 PEN NOOOOO

hyacinth is my queen

i rly feel like kate will step up and take over francesca’s debut situation

COLIN???????????????????? anthony season 1 vibes

i rly thought it was ben before my eyes focused 🙃🙃🙃

he chugged that water LMAO

did she… enter the wrong room HEY DONT BE CREEPY

OH MY GOD ITS THE DIARY SCENE im glad i reread the book before watching

colin’s pen game is also 🔥🔥🔥🔥 theyre meant to be

YAY A BOOK CANON SCENE im happy

for a good sec i thought shed catch kathony being themselves again

i predicted that eloise would ask about her lmao

HAHAHAHAH the curtsy-off is funny asf

BENEDICT IS SO FUNNYYYYY

prudence and philippa’s husbands are funny asf too like? such losers but so cute

SPEAK TO LORD DEBLING

“and YOU are penelope featherington” 🥺🥺

PEN MADE HIM CRY 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 WTAFFSGSGA

eloise………….. why would you tell her that

eloise is so charming

DYNAMITE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

PHILIPPA WHAT PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

CRESSIDA NO OKAY THANK FUCK CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT PLS DEAR GOD

oh! remington is pretty handsome tbh

HES SO CUTE HAHAHHA this whole interaction is so cute

WHO TOLD

FFS CRESSIDaA

okay tbf to cressida, eloise like did not hold unto that secret at ALLLL she wasnt even discrete about telling mere seconds after being told not to say anything jeeeeez

SLAY FRANNY !!!!!!!!!!!!! the queen sure does loves her pianoforte

PORTIA WTF

EYYYY ITS THE KISS SCENE!!! FROM THE BOOK!!!!!!!!!! *insert the captain america “i understood that reference” gif*

EYYYYYYSHSJSHSJS THEY KISSED 😔💕🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵🫵 colin i know u felt a spark buddy !!!!!!!!

[lookismaddict]

Lookism Chapter 430 Memes/Thoughts I Have:

(SPOILERS !!! I don’t own any of the Lookism panels and the translations. Only the memes that I made.)

I ALREADY KNOW EVERYBODY ON TUMBLR IS GOING CRAZY OVER THIS CHAPTER RN. I STG. 💀💀💀💀 (But same guys… 👀) AND HERE ARE THE REASONS:

Honestly, all of us in this chapter because it’s gonna be a DOOZYYY. 🤭

Oh boy. Back to this photo again.

I kinda already had a feeling this was the case because why did Charles freak out during that time when he visited Daniel?

Ooooooo, new ally? 🤔

Uhhhhh…. 😬

SURE JAMES… YOU MAY LOOK LIKE AN ANGEL, BUT I FOR SOME REASON DON’T TRUST YOU. AFTER THAT LITTLE STUNT YOU PULLED WITH THE WORKERS AND YOU BETRAYED CHARLES CHOI, I DUNNO… KINDA FISHY TO ME. 😑 (I have a feeling he’s going to betray Daniel… maybe. Idk that’s just my hunch.)

Uh ha ha, Mr. James Lee… WE KNOW WHERE THIS MAN IS AT!! 

DANIEL I DON’T TRUST JAMES. PLSSSSSSSSS NOOOOO. NOT YET.

Bruv. LMAAOOOOO NICE SAVE, IG. James be like, “Uh... ok?” 💀

Oh god, oh god, oh god oh god... Jake and Lineman....

Bro, I bet most people forgot that this was a war amongst TEENAGERS. 

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

The crazy eyes, bruh. I cannot... 😬 

Awww, Ryuhei... 😭 Missing Samuel. ❤️

Literally Ryuhei @ Samuel Seo:

HELLOOOOOOO????? PTJ????? YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID WITH THAT PANEL, SIR. IT WAS YOUR DECISION TO DRAW THAT. WHY DOES HE HAVE A GAG, AND WHO’S IS IT???? KINKY ASS- 👁👄👁 

BRUHHHH IM SCREEEAAAAMMMINGGGSAHJDKFHLDJ!!!!!!!

HELLO??? NEW GIRL CRUSH???? 👀👀👀👀

Oh...

Well I expected that she was working for them. Sorry Samuel, ya done now- 

Oh... x2 Poor Johan, Samuel, and Daniel bruh. R.I.P. Ayo, Workers First Affiliate???? HOLD ON NOW-

DANIEL BEING THE BOSS ASS BITCH THAT HE IS!!!!! YESSSSS KIIIIINNNGGGG. YOU GO AND MAKE YOUR OWN CREW AND THEN GO BEAT THEIR ASSES!!! 😤😤😤 (Even though I believe that’s what Gun wanted from him in the first place from that one chapter.) ALSO DAMN, LOOK AT DANIEL’S MUSCULAR YET BROAD BACK. MODEL MUCH? 😩😩

THE 3 BIG J’S ARE BACKKKK!!!!!!!!  I GOT CHILLS, BUT IN A GOOD WAY.

WAIT, DANIEL. IS THAT WHO I THINK IT IS??????? PLSSSSSSSSSS

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *VELOCIRAPTOR SCREECHES* OMGGGGGG!!!!! JAAAAAYYYYYY, OUR KING IS BAAAAACCCCKKK!!!!! IM CRYING, PISSING, AND SHITTING MYSELF RN. OUR PRAYERS HAVE BEEN FUCKING HEARD, LETS GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! 😤😤😤😤😫😫😫😫😫😫😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HE LOOKS SO FUCKING GOOD BRUH, I CANT. IM SOBBING RN. YOU DONT KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM TO SEE THIS MAN AFTER 200+ CHAPTERS. 

OHHHHHHHHHHH SHIT. ANOTHER MEMBER TOO? WHO IS ITTTTT???????? 

Bruh. I’m betting it’s the Hudson dude who Daniel fought with. If not, then I’m guessing Vin Jin. OR TAESOO MA. Those are my two guesses. PERO OVERALL, THIS MF CHAPTER ASDGHFASKJDFHASKJFHSADKHJF. SO MUCH WAS GOING ON HERE. I feel bad for Big Deal for being forced into hiding like that. I just hope that they join with Daniel’s crew eventually so that they can beat the Workers. Also, free ya bois Samuel, Johan, and Daniel’s 2nd body. They really need it rn. 😔🙏🏽 AND WE GET TO FINALLY SEE JAYYYYYYYYYY!!!! OUR SOFT KING.  DANIEL PARK’S KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR. 😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕 I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE. SHIT IS GONNA KEEP GETTING INTERESTING FROM HERE ON OUT. 

(ALSO, I’M SORRY THAT THERE’S LESS MEMES IN THIS CHAPTER. THERE’S TOO MANY THINGS HAPPENING AND I CAN’T SEEM TO THINK OF GOOD IDEAS BECAUSE THEY’RE ALL MOSTLY SERIOUS.) 

[cowgurrrl]

Requesting and begging for an OFTM uni where actress!reader is heavily pregnant and there’s a cute little family pool day (Joel being overprotective of reader in the pool bonus scene plsssssssss) happening at home with Joel taking care of dessert and he burns the pie or something and it’s actress!reader, Tommy and Joel in the kitchen trynna salvage whatever with Joel trying to get her to move away from the smoke and Tommy just takes the pie and the actress!reader in, looks at Joel and goes “you really can’t pull out anything in time huh???”

Stop this made me laugh so hard I love this

Daylight

Pairing: rockstar!joel miller x actress!reader

Author’s note: now what the fuck do y’all know about a Texas Trash Pie

Summary: An almost perfect Texas day with the Millers [2.3k]

Warnings: pregnancy, talks of body image, Hank Miller being the original Shit Stirrer, June your Texas is showing

You love your husband. You really do. However, sometimes you question his choices, like taking the entire family down to Texas before the twins are born. Hank and Lucia are more than happy to see their grandkids, but you're twenty weeks pregnant with the girls and absolutely exhausted. Ethan, Sarah, Ellie, and Dina try to get you out of the house to go to H-E-B with them, one of their favorite things to do when they're in Texas, but you're so sick, you can't even stomach the thought of a car ride. Tommy and Maria, who's also pregnant, are there too, so they can help with Sam. Lucia is also a great help, practically bossing her oldest son around to help you. Not that he needs it, he's always been so supportive, but it's fun to watch their dynamic.

It also doesn't help that Texas is experiencing a record-breaking heatwave while you're there. You can normally withstand heat after so many years in California, but Texas heat is just different, and the extra weight pulling you down makes it ten times worse. The joys of pregnancy, right? Thankfully, the Miller men (and Ellie) help clean and set up the in-ground pool Hank put in a few years ago so you guys can have a family pool day. 

Sam gets slathered in sunscreen, a big floppy hat, a sun shirt, and floaties before Tommy throws him in the pool, the little boy screeching with joy the whole way in. Sarah sits poolside with a book, cheering her husband on while he, Ellie, and Dina throw a football around in the water. Hank grills while Lucia fusses over you and Maria, making sure each of you is comfortable and drinking enough water. And Joel, dear, sweet Joel, is baking for you. 

When you guys got married, Lucia made you what is affectionately known as a Texas Trash Pie. It has chocolate chips, coconut shavings, pecans, pretzels, graham crackers, and probably an ungodly amount of butter in it. Hank's grandmother passed down the recipe when they got married, so she wanted to make it for you guys. It was amazing, perfect, and so Texas that it fit right into your little wedding. With two grown kids and a toddler, you almost forgot about the gooey monstrosity until you returned to Austin. In the few days you've been here, you've been craving it nonstop, and Joel finally decided to make it for you. Lucia tried to help him, but he pushed her out of the kitchen, ordering her to relax so he could make something for his wife. 

So, that's how you end up watching Joel through the windows of his parent's house, making sure he doesn't burn anything down. The girls kick at you and each other incessantly, and you have to push a hand into the side where Baby B lives to get her to calm down. "Would you leave your sister alone, you psycho?" You say, looking down. The big hat Joel forced on your head casts a shadow over your bump, but you're still able to make out a little foot pressing against your skin in protest. Maria catches the movement, too, and makes a shocked noise from next to you, and you laugh. 

"Oh, my God, do they always do that?" 

"Yes! I swear, they're always kicking at each other like they're trying to find more room." You say as Lucia walks over and pulls up a chair to sit between you and Maria.

"How're my two lovelies doing?" She asks, resting a hand on each of your bellies. "Or, I guess, there's five of you if we're counting these lovelies." One of the babies kicks at Lucia's hand, and she laughs. "Well, aren't you just a little troublemaker?"

"You have no idea. This one," you say, moving her hand to where Baby B likes to hang out. "Is only awake when this one," you move her hand again to where A is. "Is asleep. It feels like they only both fall asleep when I'm working or we're driving." 

"That's what she's doing too! She gets antsy if I'm sitting for too long." Maria chimes in, and Lucia shakes her head. 

"The boys were like that too. Now, Joel," she says, looking at you. "Joel was quiet a lot of the time, but if he heard music, forget about it. He'd be up for hours. And Tommy," she looks at Maria. "Tommy would only fall asleep if he was listening to music. Nearly drove Hank crazy."

"He still can't sleep without something playing in the room," Maria says, and you laugh. 

"Miller men are resistant to change. I'm convinced they've got stubbornness in their blood at this point. I barely got Hank to change his soap after he'd been usin' the same one for thirty-five years. Turns out, it was irritating his skin, but he thought it was exfoliating." Lucia says.

"You talkin' bout me?!" Hank calls from his place at the grill, and Lucia shakes her head. 

"You're hearin' things!" She yells, and he points his spatula at you and Maria.

"You girls see how she treats me? Y'all are gonna have to call Elder Protective Services on her." 

"I thought you were forty-five, Grandpa," Ellie says mischievously from the pool, and Hank laughs loudly.

"Shit, that's why you're my favorite!"

"Hey!" Sarah shouts, suddenly looking up from her book, and Hank throws his arms up in defeat.

"Oh, now you're listenin'?"

"When you're talkin' shit, I am!" She says, a twang peeking through her words. Hank and Lucia laugh, but Joel steps out of the house as the words leave her mouth, and he gives her a look.

"Sarah Beth Miller, I know I didn't just hear you talkin' to your grandfather like that." 

"Grandpa started it!"

"Would ya leave the girl alone, Joel?" Hank teases from the grill, and Joel's jaw drops, making you laugh.

"I'm a grown man, and if I curse in front of you or Mama, I still get read the riot act."

"Me too!" Tommy argues from the pool.

"Well, you two ain't our grandkids."

"That's right," Lucia says, and Joel shakes his head, smiling, as he walks over to you. He leans over your chair and kisses you, bumping your hat in the process, and you smile. 

"Ew!" Ellie yells, and Joel flips her off, still kissing you. He scoots to sit next to you, grabbing your hand as he stares at you. Lucia and Maria start talking about something else, giving you two some semblance of privacy, and you send her mental gratitude for it.

"My pie in the oven?" You ask, and he laughs as he kisses your knuckles.

"Yes, ma'am. Should be ready soon."

"Good because the girls are getting impatient."

"Are they now?" He asks, and you nod. He presses the back of his hand to your cheek and furrows his brows. "You're burnin' up, babe. Why don't you get in the pool?"

"Well, here's the problem with that," you start, and his eyes twinkle with amusement. You blame the pregnancy hormones, but you just want to squish his face. He's so goddamn cute. "There are two babies in here, making me huge, and if I get in the pool, I won't be able to get out." 

"You ain't huge."

"Well, I feel like I've got a basketball attached to my body at all times, and that's not small." You say. You are about to launch into a tirade about it, but he kisses you before you can continue. He tastes sweet and a little bit salty, the Texas heat making him sweat, and you can't stop the smile from spreading across your face.

"If I get in the pool with you, will you get in?" He asks quietly, and you take a deep breath.

"Pie's almost ready?"

"Nearly there."

"And you'll help me get out if I get stuck?"

"Always."

"And you'll still think I look good in a bikini even though I'm five months pregnant with twins?"

"I think you look good all the time." He charms you, and you roll your eyes. Finally, he helps you stand from your pool chair, and you pull his purple Red Hot Chili Peppers shirt off, revealing the black swimsuit underneath. Joel wolf whistles when you turn around to hang the shirt on the back of your chair, and you slap his arm. Still, he holds your hand and helps you step down into the pool's cool water. The water helps take some pressure off your hips, and you have to try hard to avoid thinking that you're pretty much a human submarine for your twins. Still, you sigh in relief as you stand in the pool, a satisfied smirk on Joel's face. "Feel better?"

"A little bit." 

"Mama!" Sam yells from the other side of the pool, and you and Joel both turn to look. "Watch what Ethan and I can do!" Ethan hauls Sam onto his broad shoulders without any further warning, and Ellie ducks underwater so Dina can sit on her shoulders. Then, the four of them get into the most dramatic, over-the-top game of chicken you've ever seen in your life. Ellie and Ethan splash at each other blindly while Sam giggles as he holds Dina's hands. Eventually, Ellie tips back and takes Dina down so Sam and Ethan can win. Everyone cheers on Sam and Ethan, including Ellie and Dina, who are good sports about losing. Sam stays on Ethan's shoulders and starts pretending to be a pirate, and you turn back to Joel with a big smile.

"Our kids are pretty cool." You say, and he nods as you wrap your arms around his shoulders.

"Yeah," he puts his hand on your bump. "You think these two will be just as cool?"

"I think these two are gonna give us a run for our money." 

"Yeah?" 

"Oh, yeah. They've been battling it out with each other all day." You say, and he makes a face as he pauses, waiting to feel movement.

"Seem pretty quiet to me. Maybe they just like me better." He snarks, and you give him a look. He laughs and pulls you close, kissing your forehead, but you try to push him away. 

"Oh, Joel Miller knows everything about this pregnancy! Excuse me, Mister Professor!" You exaggerate as you try to swim away from Joel, but he catches you and pulls you back. You smile when he pouts and ducks his head to kiss your jaw.

"I was just kiddin'. I'm sorry." He mumbles, and you laugh, shaking your head.

"You're fine, Miller." You say. He wraps his arms around your waist, and you turn in his arms, his chest to your back, so you can watch the kids splash around together. The sun is high in the cloudless blue sky, and from here, you can see the acres of the Miller ranch, the stables not too far from the house. Barbeque and chlorine hang in the air as a perfect ode to summer, and you smile as you watch Sam jump in the water to the cheers of his adult siblings and their partners. Joel hums as he rests his chin on your shoulder and traces patterns into your skin.

"D'you ever think we'd be here? Married with five kids?" He asks, and you shake your head, giggling to yourself.

"No," you admit, and he laughs. "But, now that it's here..." You try to come up with the words to explain what your family means to you. How they've changed your life, your career, everything. Except, you can't. You'll spend the rest of your sunshine, kid-filled days trying to describe what this means to you. You could cover every mile of the earth, see every wonder the world has to offer you, meet people from different walks of life, and still never be able to explain why watching Ellie carry Sam through the water tugs at your soul the way it does. Or why seeing Sarah and Ethan relax into each other by the pool makes you want to cry. Or why you look at Hank and Lucia, almost fifty years into their marriage, and see hope and unconditional love and a glimmer of you and Joel. He seems to understand, nodding against your shoulder.

"Yeah," he says as he kisses your cheek. "Me too." You turn to kiss him again, but Hank emerges from the house with a blaring phone, pulling your attention.

"Joel, your phone won't stop goin' off. Now, you know I'm not good with all that tech stuff, so here ya go." Hank says as he hands the phone to Joel. He stares at it, confused like he can't figure out why his alarm is going off before his eyes widen, and he pulls himself out of the water.

"The pie!" He yells as Tommy steps out of the house with a beer. He seems to realize what's happening at the same time Lucia does and quickly turns on his heels to go back into the house. Seconds later, you hear the smoke alarm go off. You laugh and, with Ethan's help, get out of the pool and pad inside. You follow Joel's wet footprints through the house and into the kitchen, where Tommy stands with the burnt pie in his oven-mitt-clad hand. He looks at you, down at the pie, back at you, before looking at Joel, and you can almost hear the thought before he says it.

"Can you just not pull anything out on time or..." He says, and Lucia smacks the back of his head before he can even finish the sentence.

"¡No digas mierda así!"

"¡Pero Mama es verdad! Mira, mira, mira-"

"¡Ay, no! Help your brother!" She yells as she leaves the kitchen. "And help him make a new pie!"