#goewiththeflow

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[youdonthavetocallmedarlinnn]

I should be doing school work right now 🙃👩‍💻

But here I am instead? 😇

[youdonthavetocallmedarlinnn]

I've been on this journey to self fulfillment and accept for a little over 4 years now. I was in a long-term, emotionally abusive relationship for almost 9 years beforehand. I had a lot of unanswered questions, and I had no choice after sitting with myself for a while, except to actually start working out why I was the problem as well. I was working from a place of dysfunction because I had developed poor coping skills through codependency. I first developed them in my childhood as a means of survival in a dysfunctional home. I became worse after enduring almost 9 years of heavy emotional abuse. I have to work every day to keep those learned behaviors at bay and do my best at implementing better coping skills. Just like with most things, it's my responsibility to not fall back into old habits. Sometimes, I fail just as everyone does. That's life, and I have an opportunity to do better every day.