#guess wich one is autistic

[esmeisamilf]

[batwithin]

heres every thing i know about Queen Marika's giant family for now

Godfrey:

hes like, The Father Radagon kids love him his actual name is Hoarah Loux but Marika tried to gentrify him and gave him a white guy name aparently has a daughter out of the marriage but no one talk about that he fucked Radagon at least once

Radagon:

Queen M malesona all his kids hated him cool dog tho blessed the whole bloodline with luscious red hair tbh didn't seens that he has much going on he just hot and mute

Rennala:

the reason why Marika had a malesona pulled the baddest of all bitches by being autistic silliest hat ever a very powerful sorcerer her husband left her to marry his lesbian self wich is kinda sad got that mental illnes going on and we love her for that

Godwyn:

... he dead he was cool he was banging a dragon aparently tbh thats the only thing i know about him

Morgott:

he seens nice :) he's an Omen, wich was a good thing till god said it was a bad thing his momma threw him in the sewer ppl like to poor little meow meow the shit out of him and they're right loyal to the golden order even tho they're shitty to him HES NAKED ALL THE TIME AND I RESPECT THAT

Mohg:

WORLD WORST GAY REP just saying, he would make a GREAT priest Rykard:

literally the only one with a normal life sure he's a god devouring snake but its all that he wanted his wife loves him so much its ridiculous cute snake daughter too

Radahn:

HORSE GIRL very big man, he give Ganondorf vibes yeah i don't vibe with him very much but he was a hottie tho very tragic ending

Ranni:

mad powerfull, could have done everything herself if wasn't for the weak body she seen very serious but its actually a dork cool big hat with the LED strips cannonically fell in love with someone that die in every "try jumping" troll message voice make her sound pissed off 90% of the time kind of a Bissexual queen (we stan)

Miquella:

little guy had all the braincells he hated the golden order too, king shit rip Miq you would have loved to overthrown the government with your big sis could have gone far if wasn't for the child molestor tbh i though he was a girl pretty hair runs in the family

Malenia:

she was kind of a himbo also didn't had much going on, just like her father i support her rights and wrongs too had 5 childrens her dick game must be insane (i know they're spore kids leave me alone) just wanted to protect her brother also has a very tragic ending SHES ALSO NAKED ALL THE TIME JUST LIKE HER BROTHER

Honorable mentiouns to: Melina who could have been Ranni other self (like Radagon), Godrick and Godefroy i guess they're Godwyn's kids?? Roderika who either Marika or Godrick's daughter based on that Hewg dialog, Nepheli Loux implied to be Hoarah's descendant, all of Malenia's girls, Blaidd and Maliketh.

[kleefkruid]

Hello, this is autistic anon from this summer who asked about the summer camp for depressed people . I have now started that, but after spending just one day there I then needed two days to recuperate (like spent one day sleeping and the other one so tired and hurting that I didn't feel up to anything). So I'm wondering did you experience smth similar at first? Did it get better? Because things feel a bit hopeless right now. If you don't mind talking a bit more about this at least?

Hi! You might have send that to someone else bc I don't have any experience summercamps like these? I did do a non-residential stay at a psychiatric hospital for 3 months (before my actual residential stay) so maybe that's what you're referring to? In any case it's close enough that I can give an answer on the subject of being incredibly exhausted by treatment.

Doing an active treatment when you're in a deep mental health crisis is always exhausting, if you'd compare it with walking uphill, the first days/weeks/months are always the steepest and it gets better gradually, but it does take a long time.

The only thing I can really say is don't give up on it, because the thing that's so exhausting is also the only way to overcome being this exhausted. Try to not have anything else going on in your life, so whatever energy you do have can go 100% to this. How far 'dropping everything' is realistic depends on the individual situation of course, but in an ideal situation you drop any other commitments, take time off work/school, live with family/friends/a partner who preps meals etc, hold off on dating, really putting your life on hold every wich way possible. Don't be afraid to ask for help, this is the same as when you for instance get your foot operated on and you need to avoid walking for a few weeks and someone else has to do your groceries. It's a medical event and you deserve rest, you need to take rest.

But keep doing what your doing treatment wise. It's really is a 'it get worse before it gets better' thing. Because depression is so tiring and then you're gonna jiggle things around in your head? Of course you're going to reach levels of exhaustion you've never seen before and it's totally fine to feel this way.

It's training, it's uphill, it's exhausting, it's takes a long time but all of it is soo worth it when you one day notice "hey, I"m not as tired anymore, I still can't do much but I can do something" and that's when you look back and see all the distance traveled.

I currently don't need to take off days after even big events anymore, and I used to have to recuperate multiple days after doing anything. It was absolutely a long process but I'd never tought I'd be able to get to this point, so who knows where you'll end up if you keep trying, there's literally no way to guess at this point, but wherever it is, it'll be worth all the effort and pain and occasional steps backward.

Also, sidenote, even mentally healthy able bodied people need to take days off sometimes when things get intense, so make sure to not beat yourself up about it ;)

[just-an-enby-lemon]

This post is different for my normal posts. It is a rant about TERFs and one of the miriad ways in each they are wrong and fill my heart with anger. If you are a TERF please block me. And if you are trigerred by transphobia and TERF discourse, I wish you the best, but also this post isn't for you (we will he back to the silly batman things soon) keep scrowling, find better blogs.

Anyway TERFS piss me off.

Like all they say are just soo wrong. And was talked about for soo many people, all smarter and better than me.

But there is a particular thing people often don't talk about: the adultification of trans woman. As an example I recently saw a video where a terf used the old and stupid conservative tatic of "think of the childrem" by saying more or less this words (I'm evoking them for memory): "If I sended my 5th grader daugther to a summer camp and discovered there was a man calling himself a woman sharing sleeping in her cabin, showering with her, he would be in jail. Firstly my husband would beat him up and them he would be in jail."

Now there are a miriad of problems with this rethoric, but a thing that draw my attencion was that she is talking about a 5th grader summer camp and so her speach can mean only two things:

1. She would be totaly fine with a grown woman sharing the cabin with the kids, sleeping and showering with them as long as this adult in the mist of 10-11yo was cis. Wich I think is weird. Why would you see no problem with a 40 yo woman showering with a bunch of ten year olds? And what kindda of weird summer camp even let the monitors sleep and shower with the childrem? They have their own private cabins for a reason.

2. Or this hypoteticall "man" is a 10 year old transgirl. In this case she is saying she thinks is okay for her husband to beat up a child and that after the same kid should be locked up in jail. Not even juvie. Jail. This ten years old comited such an awfull crime by existing and being herself that she deserves to be beaten bloddy (by an adult man) and throwed in jail. Because nothing says "down with the patriarchy" more than grow man beating up and locking alway a little girl for the crime of being different, I guess.

I do belive the second option is more likely what the TERF wanted to say (or she is stupid and dodn't really though his analogy through, as always in 50/50 in the game of malice or stupidy with this people). That she ignored the consequences and used the word man with so much enphasis because to people like her trans woman are pedophiles, they can't be kids because they are dirty and evil and sexual abusers who attack our woman and childrem and all this bigotred bs. This is the image she belives and so is the image she wants to sell people. And to do that she was to see this imaginary transgirl as a random adult man that only her can see. That while everyone is seing a kid, she can see the harmfull monster behind it, she can see how this can't be a child. Because the thing in her fantasy her husband is beating a pedo, a slimy, creepy, adult man pretending to be a little girl and that is the narrative she will tell and a lot of people will be afraid and agree without realizing that what they are actually agreing with is that her husband should beat up a little girl, that this adult man should be beating a 5th grader bloddy while his wife and other bigots sheer.

We talk a lot about how TERFS infantilize trans man (I even like to joke that between being a transman and autistic most upper class white woman must see me as a literal toddler) but we often forget to talk about how they adultific young transwoman and how this narrative exists as a way to further the non-sensical and damaging narrative that transwoman are predators and pedophiles.

Just to end in a nicer place: trans woman are woman, trans man are man, nb people are valid and no form of queer identy turns someone into a predator or a pedophile. We are just people trying to live our lifes with basic human dignity and if anyone has a problem against it they are the disgusting weirdos.

[dalish-empress]

so I might be autistic which tbh is kinda great n a huge relief bcs it means that there's actually not something fundamentally wrong w me but that I'm just built different 😎 apparently 2 of my adult cousins r also getting checked n I've been going through my family history w ny mom n my childhood since she was the one who brought it up. I've been looking into especially later in life diagnoses from adult cis women wich pretty much describes my entire life along w getting diagnosed w bpd first n the fun combination of adhd n autism. anyway since it's not official yet, only my doctor agreeing that it could be the cause n wanting to check for it, I don't wanna idk get my hopes up? but it would feel nice to have a word or term to explain I guess me lol.

[mwagneto]

DVDs are great and you don't even need to buy them many times you can burn them on empty CDs you can buy pretty much everywhere if your computer allows you to play DVDs on it.

So I double in downloading movies and burning them up on CDs and buying official ™ one's because I just like collecting them.

Also you have no idea how expensive that Inglorious basterds dvd was as anything ib themed is wich is a problem because guess what my special interest is? Yes it's Inglorious basterds and yes I have bought action figures for a total of 600 euros as one does djdndjjdjd.

Being autistic is a field day fr i just wish it wasn't so expensive 💔

And and if you want to starts collecting DVDs, DVD players are pretty cheap and you can find them in almost every flea market I've got mine at one couple of years ago for 20 euros together whit the DVD of all the three jaws and the first crocodile Dundee (they were in the same box and couldn't be purchased separately for some reason)

600 EUROS??? HOLY FUCK.....

yea my like... method?? trend??? idk is that if im really really really extremely obsessed with something then i buy it on dvd, if im not 100% long term crazy then i just keep it downloaded on my laptop, i almost bought the dvds for some mcu movies but then decided against it coz they were like 1000 forint per dvd (that's like. 2.50 eur i think) and i deemed it too expensive and im rly happy about that now, i would've regretted that so much lmfao 💀

[homunculusgirldick]

So i am just gonna vent into the void for a bit, because i'm a trans girl so of course i have a complicated relationship with my dad.

So, my dad sometimes says some shit that i hate, but it is also so filled by an entirely alien undestanding of my identity that it comes of as... almost funny? Like the post about the tities and the granpa with dementia? You know the one.

So, one of the things that always bafled me was that, one of the first things he said was that he was woried that if i was, well, openly myself, i would get judged, bullied and most importantly, he worried it was gonna "affect my career".

Like i get him worrying about "bullies" but does he think i didn't know? I particularly found funny when i hadn't come out yet, but my sister painted my nails, and he asked me almost shyily if i knew people bullied men with painted nails. Like, i am sorry, but not only is it very common for men my age to use earings and shit, like its a whole trend, but also, i don't care? And that's the thing, maybe i am too autistic to get it but did he really thing that what people think about me when i paint my nails or act a little fruity is such a weight it would stop me from being trans? Because he really seems to have that as his main concern.

"I think you can be watever you want, just keep it private, only tell friends or close ones, you dont have to make too much of it". That is essentialy what he told me! And out of concern, always almost shy, making a kind sugestion, and i know that he cares, but he is so out of touch with my reality, that he genuinly cares more about how i am persived by others than my hapiness, and deep down, i think he cares more about what makes HIM uncomfortable, that what makes me happy.

Because of course, he doesnt undestand that it makes me happy, like he thinks that a career is above doing what makes me happy, above being myself. For him is just a weird fase that he is trying to negosiate with, because of course he seems to think i must be either unsure or just confused.

Jus now, he told me about some student of his, president of the student assosiation and obiously well liked, and he is gay, or atleast, my dad thinks he is gay, it is entierly posible he came to that conclusion based on the fact that he paints his nails. And of course, i am not an idiot, i know my dad mentions this succesful yet "afeminate" man because he thinks i will like, want to be like him? Like he is essentialy showing me alternatives that he finds acceptable, because he doesn't get it at all. Like, i don't even like men?! I am a lesbian, trust me, i have gone through other posibilities and i am fairly certain that i am not a gay man. But he doesn't know much, beyond "hey there is this faggot i deem worthy of existing, why don't you do that insted? Because you won't make it, and people will judge you if you keep trying to go the way your going! not me! I accept you, just let me never correct myself when i dead name you :)".

I have heard him literaly say that he is okay with gay men as long as they are not "maricas", and other such words meaning anything afeminate, wich is fun, concidering he sees PAINTING YOUR NAILS AND EARINGS as inherintly unmasculine thing, like, my childhood friends who turned into the most steriotypical example of a man my contry could have has fucking earings.

And like, he never shits on this things as inherently evil, i think he knows that they hurt no one, so he either says that they are not his thing, or uses the argument that people will treat you different, that they will bully you, because in his time, he would have bullied you, if he had met me when he was a teenager i am fairly sure he would have mocked me, and maybe beated the shit out of me. So i guess he thinks the rest of the world works like him.

In a sense he has gone quite far, in not expresing his viseral dislike of what i am as a person as outright hate or denial, but rather worry and, aparently, shame.

Well, rant over, dont know if its better to say it here that just rant in my room alone.

[inkkusgoesbrrr]

Intruduction thing I guess?

So um... I exist-

Kinda just wanna ramble about my things because I have nowhere else and I've heard that this is a better place to ramble rather than Twitter or Amino.

I think I will just write or make an entry when I feel like it. I'm not the best following schedules, so don't expect me to post at a specific time or a specific amount of entries.

I am also still very new in this app, so it will probably take a while for me to get used to it and make better entries.

Things about me include:

Probably Asperger, still waiting on a diagnosis

Have a lot of interests

I have a hard time showing emotions without the use of slang or emoticons. I don't like emojis (the person and faces), but sometime I do use them.

Even though, I use a lot of sarcasm (I'm just copying sarcastic characters and I can't stop)

I don't know if I should get checked on this, but I get a lot of anxiety in social situations, even via Internet. If you are reading this it means I have collected the courage to start the proyect. It's been a week since I wrote this. Guess I finally got the guts.

I like drawing, reading and playing videogames

Non-binary folk, specifically agender. Because, just like atheists are atheists because they don't believe in god, I am agender because I don't believe in gender

I refrain from saying my place of living. I can speak both fluent english and spanish, and understand a bit of portuguese

Overthinker. If it takes me too much on writing or doing anything it means I am indeed overthinking it, seeing the worst it can happen and making a list in pros and cons.

It is safe to say that even if I weren't autistic I'm hyperfixated on some things that haven't gone away:

Ghostbusters (It was an old interest, came back with Afterlife)

Five Nights at Freddy's (since 2015)

Sonic (At first only with Boom's TV show, then Forces came out and quickly became my favourite)

Reborn Live, spanish streamer (Kinda have been on a hiatus)

Minecraft (ever since 2010, I like building)

I have many other interests wich I will talk about, that ranges from cats and wildlife, passing from forensics and parapsicology, and even Undertale and Halloween.

Also, feel free to ask questions. I think it would be a good exercise to start being more talkative- Of course I won't answer personal ones.

Thank you for reading.

-Ink

[ladydorian]

If most of the continent can get to find self-aware or yelling, subliminal messages about self-respect and consciousness that people would temporarily mind off under their circumstances, then it could prove to also be an act of hatred in reluctant display in wich part of that people will never want to move out? And what'd be your answer at any users who could even get to the point of taunting racial ships like Brommet (redhead + black characters can be highly referred in both fiction and irl)?

It's 10AM here, the cat is trying to knock the mug of coffee from my hand while simultaneously sitting on the keyboard, but I'm going to try to answer this as thoughtfully as possible.

Personally, I love how kids cartoons are becoming more diverse. We're going past the "token black kid/girl/nerd" and getting groups of friends that have multiple POC/LGBTQ makeup, characters that are autistic, characters that are not all of one body size or style. Kids are seeing themselves represented, they're seeing that interracial and "non-traditional" relationships exist and I think that's doing a lot of good for how the world views these relations in the future. Like, Brommet is such a great pairing bc of the jock/nerd trope and the chemistry between them with their differing personalities, I find it hard to believe anyone playing the game (and everyone who I've seen playing the game all seem to be decent ppl) would just detest it bc they're not the same race. I guess this kind of went a little off the rails, but I think the more diverse we can make games/shows/cartoons, etc, the more ppl will come to appreciate these differences and fight for them (like the surge we're seeing with younger ppl protesting now). Idk I hope this helps and doesn't seem offensive...I'm not POC so I can't really speak for their experiences, I can only speak to my own opinions (and please correct me if this post is inappropriate or offensive in any way).

[owlispls]

My Problems with Food.

You know… I always had a huge problem-based relationship with food. Sugary, salty and fatty foods. There where times, when I used it as a problem solver. When I used it to get back from my energy-crushes, wich I got from food itself.

On one side those come from depression, from crushing back from caffeine, and it comes from my thyroid. Some months ago I found another reason of this lack of energy. It may have an ASD. An autistic spectrum disorder. There was this video YouTube suggested to me about the differences between Social Anxiety and Autism. It instantly blew my mind, when I saw this girl describing my problems in such easy words. Words I never could have translated this way from my feelings to a way people could actually understand. But this is not fully about this video. I will write another story of my way finding out, I have an ASD as soon as I get around it. This story is about my ongoing journey with food.

I want to make a clear cut to get healthy. I want to change something my life always make turns around. And I have anxiety because of this so huge it's actually ridiculous.

As I already said, I am exhausted all day, everyday. I feel like I'm lacking a huge bucket of caffeinated drinks worth of energy. So carbs are always the way to go. No matter what.

I tried to change my diet so many times. I never wanted a short related diet to lose weight quickly and then getting greeted by the time I gain all of this back in a short time again. And yet I don't want to fall into an eating disorder. I was so anxious getting to be anorexic at some point, that i over-compensated with food. guess what I already am in an eating disorder. I kinda am in this for years now. And i never really got around to the thought I may be binge eating as soon as I'm feeling bad again.
But also there's a point in fast food: it's consistent. In a bad way it is always the same. But you know yourself that it is actually consistently unhealthy. And as much as I love consistency, I hate change. So here I am, trying to change everything I eat for like a year now. I had the point where I cut crease and being paleo two times the last year. Both times, where I cut out one of the things I always ate and all of the rest was cut down to a crave-free point.

Neither of them worked. “Why”, you may ask? I always had the point where I blindly got into the store and get myself an energy drink or a huge amount of pasta. People telling me "wait? you wanna live gluten free? That's way too overpriced!" or "You'll never be able to cut out milk big time, girl." and my favourite "did your doctor tell you to do this? No? Well then it can't be a healthy thing.".

What is not healthy about not having bread or normal pasta for the rest of your life? What is the point in being unhealthy all the time and lacking energy, when I feel better about everything when I am on a paleo-diet? I always will eat sometimes not paleo. I will never tell my mother to stop cooking the stuff she wants, just because I don't wanna eat anything of it, except there's the point in being allergic to it.

But my problem is, that I felt good with a paleo-based diet and still not staying with it. It was expensive: yes. But even tho this got me back to buy 2kg of pasta this wasn't the huge point I broke through my healthy diet big time again. I am addicted to fast and consistent food. Even though it may be bad for me. I always come back around to this stuff, because I need fast energy. Every day is exhausting for me. Meeting people is something I really love. But at a certain point I am sick and tired of being alert what people say, what i may say or overthinking, if people really like spending this time with me. I am observing e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g because I kinda have to. I misread so much people say if it is verbal or just body language-wise. I can't read emotions at a given point. I take stuff very seriously sometimes, because I can't read the little smile at the end or this particular tune in the voice that should tell me "hey I am just joking with you!" even though I search for these things in every response that gets to me. And this is exhausting me to a point, where I need fast energy sometimes. I am at a point where I want to change completely. 

I wanna do a clean cut. Which is filling me with anxiety and I don't know how to do it, because I have no one who will help me with this. I have no one who will go out grocery shopping and give me a huge bump as soon as I wanna get pasta or pre cooked dishes. I need someone to write me what i will eat in a week. And at that point someone else is involved and I will have to talk about how it worked out day by day. But who would do such things for me without me paying them or living with me in a relationship?

I need help with this.  Please help me.

[archived-twigwise]

ultriaprime

Can't dissagree. I never thought red alert as autistic though. I always thought of him as cautious. Didnt syart reading mtmte till recently so all i grew up with was the g1 series (wich im proud to say have all of them on dvd)

To reply to this in a far more serious way than you probably thought I would, other than me being Red Alert being “proof,” the little we see of him in Auto Berserk, actually kind of supports the “theory” that he’s autistic!

For one, he clings to one person (Inferno) as his “safe person,” someone he can trust and be more himself around. Inferno acts as a buffer between him and the other Autobots- once that buffer is removed, he becomes paranoid and lashes out at the other Autobots, who don’t understand him.

For another, his paranoia and “caution,” as you put it, is a nonstandard/atypical symptom of autism! One I, myself, have. “Anxiety and fear are predominant emotions” in people with atypical autism.

Another one that could be considered proof of him being autistic, is how he basically has a breakdown when overstimulated- after Rumble’s missile blows him up (the overstimulation or initial trigger- loud sound, tactile input, and visual input) he is very sensitive to how other people perceive or act around him. When Optimus insists he let Hook examine him, that’s an emotional overstimulation trigger that puts him over the edge, and he has a meltdown/breakdown. Once he flees and Starscream finds him and takes advantage of Red’s need for someone to listen and calm him down, he’s much better, though still suffering from a “faulty logic chip.”

“Faulty logic chips” are kind of an autism thing too! for many auties, our brains process logic differently than allistics. Circular logic or faulty logic are very common. Common sense is difficult!

Other Atypical Autism traits that very much fit Red Alert (just from what we’ve seen in Auto Berserk) (as found in this list of Atypical Autism Traits)

May have a strong interest in computers, games, science, graphic design, inventing, things of a technological and visual nature. More verbal thinkers may gravitate to writing, languages, cultural studies, psychology (Ability with computers and technological things, being security director. We mostly see him working with computers initially.)

Highly intelligent, yet sometimes can be slow to comprehend due to sensory and cognitive processing issues (Completely missing the danger posed to the Autobots and Negavator when the Decepticons were near, leading to an ambush)

More open to talk about feelings and emotional issues than people with typical autism (talking to Prime about his feelings that he was the victim of a coup or a scheme to eliminate him)

Hates injustice and hates to be misunderstood; this can incite anger and rage (his meltdown/breakdown after the Decepticon ambush)

Perceived to be cold-natured and self-centred; unfriendly (common fandom interpretation of  Red Alert when examining only G1)

Is very outspoken at times, may get very fired up when talking about passions / special interests / obsessions (again, talking to Prime about his obsession over the perceived “coup”. Also, explaining things to Starscream)

Doesn’t go out much. Will prefer to go out with partner only or children if they have them (Inferno being his “safe person”)

Will not have many close friends, and will not conform to gender stereotypical activities with friends, or have get-togethers to “hang out” with friends (again, we see this in how Inferno seems to be Red’s only friend)

This might just be me projecting, I’ll fully admit that. I feel strongly about this due to being literally Red Alert. But I feel like just from what we see in Auto Berserk (and I guess the little segment in.... Dinobot Island, was that the episode? Temporal Rift two part-episode) there’s a good amount of evidence to support the idea that Red Alert is autistic.

(Now, don’t get me started on IDW/MTMTE, because that’s a whole another can of worms where I would say he’s not only autistic, but also has OCD with an emphasis on paranoid obsessions)