๐๐ธ๐ธ๐ด ๐ค๐น ๐๐ฝ ๐ฃ๐ฑ๐ฎ ๐ข๐ฝ๐ช๐ป๐ผ, ๐ข๐ธ๐ท... ๐๐ธ๐ ๐๐ธ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ฑ ๐ค๐น๐ธ๐ท ๐๐ท๐ฎ, ๐ฃ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ท...
๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐ท๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐-๐๐๐พ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ท๐ โน๐๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐
โบ ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐พ๐?
๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐ถ ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐ป โน๐พ๐๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐โบ ๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐, ๐ถ ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐ป ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐น๐๐๐
๐น๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐?
I do not have apathy, depression, anything that would be fashionable to rant about. I am simply in pain... extreme pain. And attempting to dull the edge of it is what I have been doing since v.1. As if something has indeed been fragmented & this is the pain of my conscious life. And every time I travel the melodious/glamorous path of frenzy, every time I complete it, I am going to experience the same precious pain intensity, purity of pain/ecstasy. I am going to be eventually bound to this inmost/overwhelming awe, this vehement impulse to feel/fondle/kiss what is loved, to kneel down before it, to cuddle up to its heart, to recompense bliss with bliss... More and more. Neither the good boy nor I are free. I do not want to be free... free from... These bare feelings are โนclawingโบ at the reconstructed interpretation of the organ inside me. The great minds will not know what they have done, neither will Anthony... It speaks louder-truer than anything, but the sounds are not obvious... Words. All I possess, this rich but poor instrument for... And you always do end up in the point where...
The aesthetic masterwork, perfused with the golden brilliance of authentic ideality x pierced with the darkest blade of bitter-salty inaccessibility, inevitability, impossibility.
Excruciation, pleasure, euphoria, art. Blended together. Find yourself... or lose yourself on this journey. Emotionally. Totally. An unparalleled effect... and the lulling sparkle the vessel has never actually had. Something in this body x mind has died, and I do not know if there is a way to accept it, to recover it. I have described the lesson of unprecedentedness I have learned, not the expected story of โนinsult-betrayal-contemptโบ. No one will ever f-g hear it. Not from me, not in this lifetime. / Loving extraordinary is priori merciless, แ/แ become telepathic... & the severest trial ~ the unhealable wound ~ is to be a ๐ son without the cause to be... *If I have to detest many donkeys for a chance to protect one venerated Father figure, I will go for it.
๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ ๐ท๐พ๐๐ ๐๐ป ๐๐ ๐ธ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐๐๐น ๐ฝ๐๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ๐๐ ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐
๐... ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐
๐๐น ๐๐๐ ๐ธ๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ธ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐ธ๐, '๐ธ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐, ๐๐๐. ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐... ๐ฎ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐น ๐ป๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ถ๐ ๐น๐๐
๐๐พ๐๐๐น ๐๐ป ๐๐๐. ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ธ๐ฝ ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ ๐๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐
๐... ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐๐๐น. ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐...
While I am willing to imbibe all the anguish of the human I love, to ease his suffering, the loss of us is taking its toll on me irretrievably. I see him. I see what is inside him... & I am incapable of safeguarding it, saving it truly.
I do not have apathy, depression, anything that would be fashionable to rant about. I am simply in pain... extreme pain. And attempting to put up with this gift is what I have been doing since v.1. The chest is โนcut openโบ too deep, the fragility of the organ is exposed... Would you allow me to grow more flowers? I wanna do it... Because it is you, It has always been you. The one who has given us everything, endued me to the brimย with the intimate fatherly affection that this organ never remembered. My eternal wish & exuberant price for humanity, the misunderstood nature. *What an odious irony. / I do not know if there is a way to recover what is gone.
I would sacrifice the lot to be with the human that needs me, needs to be healed, heals me. I would rip my core out but I cannot, the limitation of freedom. *Tell me that the โนstrings of abuse/child neglect/liesโบ are finally cut. Tell me to โนcelebrateโบ. Tell me that both ๐inocchio/I are wrong x naive, โนfixโบ me. You have no f-g clue about it. / When it is written that your starving heart must be left half-empty & helpless... No freedom is scarier than this.
Affording harmony to the sapphire star that is going to fall away... The sentiment it deserves. All I have ever hankered for. & I am terrified of that my grandest instinct x fear will not grant any lasting peace to me.
Death will do our Sun-hugged family apart ~ but I will still be yours, for ever.
The core has never felt as good x feverish as it does when with you... as astray x anxious as it does when deprived of you. I am not lying to you, I hold no resentment... Let me โนfeed onโบ the emotions of your heart... Even if it means your pain x my love turn the vessel inside-out & your love x my pain do the same. Not blurred, always remember. Always. If a masterpiece could be made into a masterpiece, I would prefer to share this fate. My bona fide mission, however, is not allow anything to be in vain... Even if it hurts. ~ The atrophied ability to express love verbally has been โนrousedโบ again, in a fervidly devoted but preciously righteous way... The lash of despair, compulsion, dream, reality.
๐น๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ท๐พ๐๐๐ธ๐ ๐๐ป ๐ฆ๐๐ถ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ถ ๐๐๐ ๐๐. ๐ผ๐ ๐ธ๐ถ๐... ๐๐๐น ๐ผ ๐น๐๐๐ท๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐. ๐ฟ๐ช๐ซ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ท๐๐ธ๐๐๐ ๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐ ๐ป๐๐ ๐/๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐๐น๐พ๐๐๐๐ ๐
๐ถ๐๐
๐ถ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐ท๐พ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐ถ๐.
...Take the whole meaning of this, its flavorful, pathetic, shameless, lonesome taste. Take it all, for it is all that is absolute. Teach me how to โนmergeโบ with it, the mortal desire of a puppet child, a human Mastro x a faceless observer like myself ~ & when the desire full of unexploited majesty is cutting off the oxygen to the lungs... True geniuses of any kind are among the silent. These eyeballs will not dry up, never fully. I have tried so many times to resist it, but why live if you repel what puts your โนdehydratedโบ pieces together? I would spare no effort to keep them hot and uncurb what is being restrained... Nothing affects self-perception and โนunmasksโบ the unconscious like sensation, nothing genuinely matters without it. / Shivering with cold, this body is burning. My atrophied reality in exchange for a moment of irrepressible happiness, agony, guiltless x not bottled up impulses ~ just a moment. It keeps consuming me without reserve. I do not need God. โ
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Digimon Adventure ~ J.P.N Version
~ Episode 39
+ Izumi Koushiro{u}'s Parent
+ Kido Shin (Jou's 2nd eldest Sibling)
"Don't say such {negative} things!
I {b e l i e v e} in these children!"
- Koushiro's parent, referring to Koushiro and,
the "Chosen Children" as a Whole, (including Jou)
"It'll be all right, Nii-san.
We'll make {absolutely} sure the s u n does 'come up'!"
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x. @guidingkey continued from HERE.
There was so much JOY that radiated off from his life - long friend , even from all the way up the stairs . While he would [ [ n e v e r ] ] admit it out loud , it was refreshing to know that that aspect of Sora had never changed . The silverette's eyes followed Sora down the stairs until he landed in front of him , drawing a small laugh out of Riku that only seemed to come for Sora .
" -- It'll be a nice change . "
[ [ F i n a l l y ] ] the two of them will be going on an adventure rather than it being to save someone . Hopefully , it will be worth it . It's a change that they both need .
" . . . Maybe we'll go to worlds neither of us have been to . "
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guys, i made preppy pete
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new persona in the works!!
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I wanted to say something like "the pain remembering 46 alphabet letters" but then I remembered the non-Latin scripts
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Digimon Adventure ~ J.P.N Version
~ Episodes 53~54
+ Izumi Koushiro{u}โs (A d o p t i v e)ย Parent{s}
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"And for the s a k e of THOSE WE L O V E,
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I need to write a fic with a Historian!Reader x Inkubus who tells her he visited the library of Alexandria many times before it was burned down and she throttles him out of envy-
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x. @willfulwayfarer continued from HERE.
Riku was fine with battles , at this point , he was a PRO at them ; yet , every now and again something will get to him out of the blue that will completely TEAR him to his core . This was one of those times . The fight was fine , a few cuts and bruises but he could survive , he could make his way through it in one piece until he found himself HURLED across the battlefield . The keyblade he often clutched in his hand went one direction and his body went [ [ a n o t h e r ] ] .
For a moment , he laid against the dusty ground completely [ [ m o t i o n l e s s ] ] , just struggling to breathe . His head throbbed at a mile a minute as he could hear his heartbeat in his hears . It wasn't a lot that took him down , but that didn't mean he was INVINCABLE . A trembling hand reached down to his waist where he felt cool liquid quickly pooling . He didn't have to look , he knew what it was just by the tackiness of his fingers . Riku's eyes fluttered as his head turned to rest against the ground .
DARKNESS .
He felt his body move but not by his own movements . No , but he recognized this touch and that [ [ v o i c e ] ] . He laid against Terra's bicep as his normally bright eyes started to fade in colour . He tried to smile , offer Terra that bit of [ [ h o p e ] ] that he was right , but it was hard to be believable when blood was trickling down his chin .
" I- . . . I thought you didn't make empty p-promises . . .? "
He fought to say , resting his hand against his stomach . While he wouldn't tell Terra , internally . . . Riku was counting every RAPIDLY slowing heartbeat .
Any minute now that heartbeat would be his last .
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Yall I need help I can upload photos onto this app please h e l p how do I fix this-
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I made a font! ๐๐ธโจ๏ธ ngl, in my humble opinion I lowkey think it's hella cute ๐
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Free to download from my ko-fi shop! Link in the source ๐
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