#happy relationship? nah mental illness

[vmmisfit]

Bro got married in vr chat to a dude in a different country and had the AUDACITY to call me delusional for just being in a happy relationship and moving in with my boyfriend???

[ud505]

Josh hcs :)

Requested by: @rosettaserves Happy birthday :)

• Half-canadian.

• He has a horrible relationship with his father. He hates that he never considered him his son no matter how hard he tried.

• He wanted to be a film producer, but his father completely crushed his dream by telling him that he wasn't good enough for it. He ended up giving up but making films is still his hobby.

• He's a gifted kid and the one who noticed that was his paternal grandfather. One day, when Josh was like 4 or so, they went to his house and his grandpa had a broken watch that he couldn't repair, so he took it and did it for him. When his grandpa told his father, Bob was like "nah, he's just silly, there's no way he's that smart" and completely ignored it.

• He was really popular in high school and really liked partying, but was a bit of a loner at the same time. There were times when he totally disappeared (even from school) and no one (except the twins) knew abt him for a month or so.

• He has no shame, he has never really cared abt people's opinions and tries to make his loved ones realize that people aren't that important.

• His parents don't believe in mental illnesses and only agreed to take him to a psychiatrist when a teacher from his school realized abt his sh.

• Cuts, and really bad.

• Even with depression, he was an amazing older brother.

• Doesn't believe in God, he used to, but after his parents sent him to a "pastoral well-being center" he started feeling like it was some kind of cult.

• He's really good at drawing and has multiple notebooks with drawings of the people he cares abt the most (Chris, the twins and Sam)

• Sells weed. No explanation for that.

• A few years after he got diagnosed with depression, he started doing boxing so that he would feel less stressed, but ended up liking it.

• He raised his siblings by himself bc their parents were almost never at their house, so he knows how to do a lot of things (cooking, repairing random things, making hairstyles...)

• The only times when the whole family was together was when they went to blackwood.

• Despite being rich, he worked a lot and at a lot of jobs (as a barista, as a warehouse porter...) bc he needs to be constantly doing things.

• Josh relates a lot to Hannah bc when he was little he used to be very sensitive and naive, but his father made him "grew up of it" in a harsh way, so he tries to teach her the same but in a nicer and more comforting way.

• Smokes a lot and has problems with alcohol, but doesn't care abt it bc he says that it's balanced with his healthy lifestyle.

• He's a big gossiper to the point where he made some fake accounts to stalk people.

• He is a bit scared of dogs bc one bit him when he was little.

• Whenever he is with another person and they're near to the road, he holds that person's hand bc it is a force of habit (his sisters ran around a lot)

• He spends the whole night googling up some weird shit so he knows a lot of random facts.

• He probably got into the deep web when he was really little bc his parents wouldn't control what he was watching.

• When they we're 16 and 17, he traumatized Sam bc he sent her by accident a gore video related to how meat is made or smth like that. From that moment on, she couldn't even smell meat without feeling dizzy (and she became vegan)

• Speaking of Sam, they never really talked until they were 11-12 (even though they met each other in 1st grade) but ended up being best friends.

• He started liking Sam at 14 but has a way to show it that really confuses her (she can't tell if he likes her or not)

• Josh loves games with a storyline, especially the choice ones bc he likes to see the way that an insignificant thing can change someone's path completely.

• Has made lots of manual things for his sisters (toys, shelves and even a mf wardrobe once) Hannah and Beth just stare while he's doing everything and end up gossiping together.

• Beth and Josh had a friendly rivalry bc the both of them had a crush on Sam, but the both of them would've been happy if the other ended up dating her.

• If someone hurts any of his loved ones (either his sisters or his two best friends) he will always seek the most painful and humiliating revenge that the person can get, and you'll never know when he's gonna do it.

• Makes tapes of everything and he has a huge amount of cameras (all of them with full storage)

I feel like this is a crazy amount of hcs but I hope u liked it :)

[hazbinstohell]

I'm going to be honest, I had no idea that charlastor had so many haters. I joined the fandom in 2020 from watching the pilot and started shipping them based on their dynamic and chemistry. Admittedly, I wasn't keeping up with discourse because I tend to stay on my side of the fandom. Finding out that ppl have this much vitriol for it is crazy yet not shocking. Unfortunately, whenever it comes to a popular male character being shipped with a woman and that ship has some popularity going for it that's when the pitchforks always come out. I could write a dissertation about how internal misogyny has ruined fandoms and shipping but I won't. I just don't like hypocrites. When it comes to charlastor, suddenly there's a laundry list of reasons why ppl shouldn't ship it but that energy is never kept when it comes to slash ships. I know for a fact they're not spouting that BS when it comes to shipping Radioapple, Radiodusk and any other gay ship involving Alastor. I have more respect for a hater who is honest about why they don't really like Charlastor instead of just making up shit. It's because she's a woman and we know how MF ships get treated often in fandoms. God forbid you don't immediately ship the popular male character with another male character then you're all kinds of phobics, problematic, close minded etc etc. Nah, a lot of these ppl suffer from internal misogyny and like to fetishize gay relationships and don't want to admit it. Charlastor fans mind their business and stay on their side of the fandom. How unfortunate these miserable POS can't do the same. Shipping wars have always been insane to me but shipping wars over animated characters bring out a different level of mental illness in a lot of ppl.

Yes, I never really understood ship wars. There is a lot of angst regarding a lot of MF ships. I’m happy where I am in this ship, and I have talked to some awesome people who just want to have fun shipping these characters! So, let people ship however they want!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for the way this friendship ended?

It's over and done now but I still feel guilty. I met this person on tumblr years ago, like ten, and we got close, sort of big sister/little sister sort of thing since we had a bit of an age gap, I would try to give advice, we sent each other parcels, that sort of thing. Last summer, I even flew to visit them for quite a few days and we had a really good time. They confided in me about being nonbinary and after I went home, I spent more and more time every day sort of fielding...their drama. About their family and their mental illness and their gender identity, they sort of just spouted it all out and I tried my best to be really supportive and not put them down even when it was complaining about how their parents got takeout from the wrong place. (Yes, a rant that I received at least once a week.)

It got worse from there. I ended up staying up until 3am, 4am, having these long text conversations about the problems in their life, and since they talked about suicidal (and I talked them down SEVERAL times during the course of our correspondence) I never disagreed with what they were complaining about, even if I did think they were actually in the wrong. I didn't want to upset someone who seemed in a very delicate place.

Anyway, one morning I wake up and they're telling me they want to make a cake to reveal their gender identity to their parents. Specifically a blue and white and pink cake. I asked why they wouldn't use the colors for the nonbinary flag, since that was, until that moment, what they had always told me they identified as, and they got really mad, said I was transphobic, didn't message me until later to inform me that after telling their therapist what I had done, they could move on. So I was a little confused since it seemed that they had decided they weren't nonbinary anymore, and this argument started over a hypothetical cake. Also I was a little frustrated that they had--the night before--given me the list of things they were going to talk about with their therapist and instead spent that time complaining about me, who at that point was so sleep-deprived from staying up late every single night just trying to keep them from feeling suicidal...idk I was frustrated.

Anyway, after a few days, they contacted me, and I told them that I couldn't keep doing the whole sounding board thing. I couldn't just be the person they complained at, and it wasn't fair to me that they were placing so much stress on me every time they would talk about being suicidal and use me as a way to come down instead of someone in their house who could actually physically be there. I also admitted that I would lie to them and say I agreed with their complaints because I wanted them to stay happy with me and not feel attacked. They replied that I was obviously very untrustworthy and we could no longer have any sort of relationship because of what I had done. And we basically cut all contact. They deleted all their social media and I was forbidden from texting/emailing them so I literally have no idea if someone I cared enough about a year ago to spend the money to fly to visit is still alive.

I just don't know. I feel super guilty about it all and AITA for this? I thought I was doing my best to be supportive but I just screwed everything up and lost a ten year friendship because of a make-believe cake.

What are these acronyms?

[wangxianficfinder]

Fic Finder

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1. Hello, I've been struggling to find a fic, which is Annoying me since i think it was fairly popular.. all I remember is that WWX was helping out JGY and liked him, up until he ran in on him trying to kill Rusong, since he had health-monitoring talismans on people he cared about.. There was also a big reveal where he ran with Rusong to Lotus Pier, and Huaisand with I think XXC and SL came to warn JC that WWX is alive, and WWX started laughing? Please help, it's driving me crazy xD @yumehbby

FOUND! Unbreakable Heaven, Luminous Earth by carolyncaves (M, 96k, wangxian, canon divergence, graphic depictions of violence, Secret identity, sharing a bed, literal sleeping together, suicidal thoughts, angst w happy ending, blood & injury, hurt/comfort, caretaking, fluff, power imbalance, JYL lives, not everyone dies au) sounds like Unbreakable Heaven, Luminous Earth by carolyncaves; most of the scenes described happen in chapter 10.

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2. Hello I need to employ the services of your fic finder! There’s this fic I read not that long ago with thief!lwj and assassin!wwx and they were living their best domestic life together while also not knowing about the other’s occupation until lwj was kidnapped by the wens for stealing from them and then wwx went to bust him out. I remember there were three chapters, lwj pov, wwx pov, and lwj pov again, and I feel like it was a relatively newer fic but idk. I do know I found it on this blog but I cannot for the life of me find it again. I loved it and I wanna read it again so fic sleuths help me pls I’m desperate

FOUND! all the problems we could solve by Stratisphyre (T, 20k, wangxian, modern, getting together, fluff, humor, violence, meet-cute, identity porn, thieves au)

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3. Hi! I am looking for a fanfic where wwx was resurrected but in a different body than MXY not long after LWJ was punished. WWX went to Cloud Recesses to find A-Yuan but found a wounded LWJ lying in Jingshi. Oh and WWX had a curse that was preventing him from being happy because every time he felt happy, he began to bleed from his forearm that would result in him dying. And i think that he was resurrected in Nie OC body??? I'm sorry for any mistakes in grammar and thank you !!! :)

I remember 3. It also involves lwj being infected with resentful energy which is preventing his healing and wwx gets rid of it. He gets caught by lxc who decides to protect him, and the terms of his curse is he can never be happy.

FOUND! A Storm of Laughter in the Stillness of the Jingshi by OnlyMeAndMyBones, 2nd in series (T, 74k, wangxian, LXC & LWJ, LXC & WWX, angst w happy ending, hurt/comfort, injury, recovery, mental illness, depression, PTSD, rehabilitation, slow burn, empathy, guilt, forgiveness, suicidal thoughts)

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4. Was wondering if u can find me this omegaverse fic which happens during modern setting , wy and lz are both alphas and roommates and in the fic everyone was telling wy he shouldn’t room with lz because alphas are super territorial but wy is like nah we are besties and it’s kind of dark lz as lz ends up using drugs? I think to change wy into an omega tho wy doesn’t realise it’s because of lz.

FOUND? the twisting of secondary genders by HeavenlySkyfarer (E, 7k, wangxian, modern, ABO, non-con secondary gender modification, extremely dubious consent, dead dove do not eat, forced heat, baby trapping, dark LWJ)

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5. Hi was hoping u can find this modern au fic and it’s like sushe’s POV if I’m not wrong and hes not really a piece of shit but the setting is in University and wangxian is doing long distance and sushe kind of into lz but doesn’t believe he’s in a relationship until wy shows up on a motorcycle at their uni

I think #5 of the fic finder (the Su She POV one) is Mine by kippalittlefox, but I guess it has been deleted! It was a a sequel to cicer's 'You've ruined my life (by not being mine)'. The ao3 URL ends with /works/24860230 if anyone wants to try webarchive

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6. A modern au where wwx is sick and meant to call jyl but texted Lwj instead. The text was- Omg I'm dead I'm dying I'm gone... beautiful light of my life, save your baby bunny, I need soup

FOUND? The curious dating rituals of one Lan Zhan (as observed by Wei Ying) by Scrippio (T, 7k, wangxian, modern, College/university au, fluff)

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7. Hi! I’m looking for a Wangxian fic i read a long tiem ago, but I can’t remember the author or title, and was hoping you could help! I’m pretty sure it’s a modern friends to lovers au? Wwx keeps taking random pics of lan zhan and making puns that rhyme with hanguang jun. There’s at least one scene involving a martial arts class at a Chinese community center i think, and wwx might be involved in environmental activism? Anyways, thanks for the help!

Not FOUND might be ❤️ save a sword, ride a socialist by sysrae (E, 33k, wangxian, modern w magic, college/university au, fake/pretend relationship, single parent WWX, homophobia, light angst w/ happy ending, idiots to lovers, fluff) . If not OP might enjoy it

FOUND! Out of the Bin and Into Your Heart by Alaceron (T, 27k, WangXian, Modern AU, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Oblivious WWX)

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8. Hi! I had previously asked for a series of some 20+ fics which was about emperor lwj taking in wy as concubine after lqr and elder keep pressing him about it, much to lqr and elders' dismay. I got the answer from here, but i forgot to save it :(. Now i can't find that post here . Help me out pls

FOUND? The Concubine Mo Chronicles Series by Enigmatree (T, 79k, WangXian, Royalty AU, Prince LWJ, Concubine WWX, Mild Hurt/Comfort)

FOUND? The one where WWX is not LWJ's concubine AU Series by Lookingkindofdumb (Varied, 89k, WIP, WangXian, Non-Cultivator AU, Emperor LXC, Concubine AU, Rumors, Humor, Politics, Extended family chaos)

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9. Hi ! Can u find me a fic? The summary is basically future wy transports to the past where everyone is basically stuck in this cafe and they solve their emotional trauma and after that is solved both wys go back to their own timeline and everyone lives and no one dies

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10. Hi there! Thank you so much for your great work!

I am looking for a fic that I am pretty sure was a Tumblr thread fic. In it WWX was kept with other prisoners in water and then Wen Ning was killed by water being poured over his face covered in paper.

It was not finished when I read it and I have not run into it again, so I really hopes it was continued.

Everyone's help is greatly appreciated!

is either by @besanii or @sarah-yyy

FOUND! Rebuttable Presumption by @/sarah-yyy

FOUND! Shattered Mirrors by @/besanii

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11. Hello there! I'm looking for a fic I just read but can't even find the post that recommended it -_-

It was in a modern setting but the same universe and lan zhan doesn't remember wei ying when he meets him as a substitute cultivator at the jiang clan. Turns out he was cursed with a mark behind his ear that made him forget wei ying completely. The curse was to cure a japanese h-something disease which was basically being super love sick and puking up flowers? @iwannhaveacoolone (do you mean Hanahaki? - Mod C)

FOUND! long have you been alone by martyrsdaughter (E, 56k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Modern Cultivation, Amnesia, Curses, Hanahaki Disease, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Workplace Relationship, Light Angst, Sexual Content, Mild Painplay, Overstimulation, WWX Has a Breeding Kink, Light Bondage, Mild Gore, Mild Breathplay, Brief Mentions of WWX/Others and LWJ/Others, other relationships are past tense and off screen exclusively)

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12. Hii i dont know how to use tumbler properly so i decided to ask here. I am looking for two wangxian fanfcis.

A) The first one begins with wei ying and lan zhan's death - mo xuanyu's core is not strong enough to help wei ying reach immortality just prolongs his life. lan zhan decided he does not want immmortality if wei ying is not with him so lan zhan shares/sustains wei ying and himself with his golden core until he runs out of energy and they die toghether in the jingshi. However, next thing you know they are in the past. That is all i can remember

on the first one. I read it on ao3.

B) The second one i don't remember much - just that there is a part in the fanfic where wei ying finds out about lan zhans scars and how he got them. They end up in the cold spring/cold pond and wei ying somehow heals all of lan zhans scars using energy? while there. Not sure if it is spiritual or resentfull? After i know Lan zhan ends up in front of the gusu lan elders i don't remember why ther find out that wei ying has cured him/healed his back scars because they are gone - his back is smooth again and wei ying appears in front of the elders to threaten them no to hurt lan zhan. I am not sure how long is the fanfic but i know it doesnt revolve around this particular thing. Also read this one on ao3.

I am sorry for the errors in spelling english is nit my first language. Thank you in advance for finding the fanfics. @dacika98

12A)

FOUND? in case of fire, break glass by Jenrose (T, 65k, WangXian, Time Travel, Established Relationship, Hurt/comfort, Everyone loves/nobody dies)

12B)

FOUND? This one sounds like Silver & Gold by beeswaxing  (E, 162k, wangxian, post-canon, de-aging, fluff & angst, happy ending, fix-it of sorts, family bonding, established relationship, non-sexual intimacy, BAMF WWX, pining, protective WWX)

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13. It's been a while! It's boyfriend! (Hello again! - Mod C)

There's a fic that I have been trying to find for a while now and I forgot what it is about. All I remember is this:

- Madam Yu good so is the rest of the Jiang

- I think it's something about time travel fix it

-The Jiang Family + Wei Wuxian talking about Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling's weird naming of dogs and then they said something about Sect Leader Jiang naming the Sword suibian. Someone in the group said it runs in the family to which Jiang Cheng refuted it by saying his name and Yanli's name were good names. Madam Yu just laughed and said that it was her who named them and not Jiang Fengmian.

I'm sorry that's all I remember but anyway thank you in advance!!

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14. Hi, the fic i am looking for takes place post-canon. I think the focus point was A-Yuan trying to find out more about his past and coming to terms with his wen family and how they were treated by the other clans.

There is a scene where he sits on a roof with Jin Ling and they drink together. LSH talks about having problems with forgiving people he loves and JL gives him advice? I think they also apologize to each other and JL tells him to talk to Jiang Cheng.

Pretty sure I read it on AO3. The scene is just really stuck in my head and I would love to reread the fic bc I love A-Yuan trying to navigate the impact of all those relegation at the end of Canon have on his life. @fangirl-oracle

Hi, #14 was "history" by tongzhi on AO3. I found an old save of ao3 tabs and it was there, but thanks for looking <3

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15. Hello! I'm searching for this one fanfiction but I forgot what tags it had (I'm a doof I should've marked it read later sadge)

It's about WWX annoying LWJ so much that LWJ used the silencing spell on him not because WWX was breaking the rules, but because he was annoyed and the spell was too strong for him to break cuz it was put on out of strong emotion.

((I also remember SS saying something like "Oh the Great and Powerful second jade made a mistake, not feeling so great anymore don'tcha" or something along that lines))

Pls help me because I am lost at fic finding😭

FOUND! Couldn't Scream Couldn't Shout by mermorgie (T, 42k, WIP, WangXian, Not for jc stans, i tried to not bash jc too much but like, Muteness, Sign Language, references to selective mutism, Homophobic JC, canon jc characteristics, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Anxiety Attacks, Pining, LWJ is a Panicked Gay, Supportive Sibling LXC, JZX Tries, LQR Tries, Protective JZX, Scheming NHS, Bisexual, JZX, LWJ is Bad at Communicating, WWX Has ADHD, Autistic LWJ, WWX Has a Fear of Dogs, Jiāng Family Bashing)

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16. Sorry to Bother, but can you find a fic for me? All I remember from the story is LWJ and WWX live in Gusu. One day LWJ goes to teach and WWX talks to A-Yuan and Jingyi. WWX told them he wanted to demonstrate his latest innovation, but before he could do so LWJ came with a letter from JC. The letter says that JC asked WWX for help to investigate "something". Then it was discovered that there was a man who practiced demonic cultivation and there was "something" that supported him. At the end of the story WWX managed to seal the "something" in a rock with his life force so that the "something" would not be able to escape. Thank you(⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) @hjgn1010

FOUND! Hating Separation by thelamespaceace (T, 60k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Post-Canon, Case Fic, Yunmeng Shuangjie, Reconciliation, Miscommunication, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, Cultivation as Plot Device, Brotherly Love, In-Laws finding common ground, Angst with a Happy Ending)

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17. Hello, I'm looking for a fic where Wangxian is Princes in a modern world. It involves a social media post (insta/twitter/something?) from WWX and create gossips between Yunmeng and Gusu? WWX being oblivious as usual but in the end Wangxian is together. I think it has very amazing profiles with pictures in it for each Royalty/Kingdom/Palace and news/gossip/media articles in it. I think there's Nie Mingjue/Wen Qing/Jiang Cheng in it, maybe triangle love or political fake repationship?

FOUND? A Clear (Mis)Understanding by devinokaze (T, 73k, WangXian, XuanLi, Modern AU, Social Media, Royalty, happy fic, Fluff, Just some light reading, Humor)

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18. hey i've been looking for this fic i read a while ago that i just cant find again.

I don't really remember what it was about but it was modern au and i remember there was a scene where wei wuxian meets lan xichen and then he's like "wow he is so perfect it makes me seem like a gremlin haha" and then lan wangji pulls out his phone and starts showing him embarrassing pictures of lan xichen like a live laugh love poster in his and meng yaos living room and a picture of him being extremely drunk at his engagement party bc he made an entire photo album with embarrassing pictures of lan xichen to show people.

I don't remember anything else tho, sorry, but maybe that sounds familiar to any of you. @razzleberryicedtea

FOUND! OMEGA GRAD STUDENT GETS PREGNANT: YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHAT HAPPENS NEXT by attackofthezee (noxlunate) (E, 21k, wangxian, modern, ABO, past WWX/Other, mpreg, omega WWX, alpha LWJ, unplanned pregnancy, graduate school au, pining, falling in love, kid fic, fluff)

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19. hiii i have this fanfic i forgot the tags to 😅 in the ff wwx and jc were motorcycle racers and lan zhan was a sponsor i think. in one of the races wwx gets into a accident because of jin zixun and his motorcycle slams into him and gets him into a hospital. i remember a baby jin ling being really worried and same goes to a-yuan. i hope you can help me and thank you so much!!! @vicleey​

FOUND! Let's you and me go on a ride by rinsled05 (T, 21k, wangxian, modern, racing au, bikers, motoGP, romance, falling in love, love confessions, brotherly love, fluff, hurt/comfort, love at first sight)

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20. Hi can you help me find a wangxian fic wherein wei ying got save from falling of the cliff and he didn't die, he live with his master in the mountains he has been given another name because he got an amnesia

FOUND? The Porcelain Lotus of Yunmeng by The Feels Whale (miscellea) (T, 16k, wangxian, JC pov, amnesia, JC & WWX reconciliation, LWJ pov)

iirc involves Baoshan Sanren and Lan Yi saving him. He either had received a core from a Wen remnant or bssr transferred her own. He learns to cook while having amnesia and wears clothes that have talismans sewn into him that disguise his appearance.

FOUND? Until The End by abCEE (M, 365k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, war changes people, resulting to OOC, no pinning, Established Relationship, Mpreg, Good Uncle LQR, a little grey LWJ, a bit of JC bashing from LWJ, BAMF JYL, 16 years of yearning, mainly CQL verse but has scenes from the novel as well, LSZ is WangXian's Child, WWX Has a New Golden Core, Canon Rewrite, Happy Ending, Fix-It of Sorts)

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[purretty-purrincess]

hey

the shit ton of art youre all about to get has roleplay lore i have to explain

quick disclaimr: i mnew none of these peopl. not a single personn. we couldnt plan any of yhis out before hand, nor would we if he couldve.bthis was all made on a whim, so some ends will unfortuabtely be loose, and not everything will nake sense. ill probably adjust lore in the futurebbecause i actually like this idea in yhe future, though

lore under cut

miku is asleep in her bedroom, peaceful and happy

BOOM

someone breaks in

someone will not get a name because they are not important. well acrually they can get miku fan #1

more people brake in, stars getting freaky

ANOTHER person breaks in. tis equius, bu miku does not yet know his name. mike fan #2

"okay, fuck you guys. whorver leaves first if yje 1 fan and gets a sloppy makeout from me"

miku fan #2 immediately exits the room, followed by miku fan #1

"ok you horned bigch yiu win come bere"

im not iving detaiils on ther makeuot

"woha.. whats ur name.." miku asks, asyonished by k actually i dont need to write a whole fanfic in here. what the fuck am i doing man

tjey kiss, miku finds out name, they get frwaky, MORE PEOPLE FUCKING BREAK IN AND START PARTUINH. they are important actually. their names are jake english and aradia, rveealed by them talking to each other

equius and milu find a new home, get freaky again??

miku tries to get equius to dom, equius is hesitant, miku yells at him. first signal of mikubeing toxic, bht equius ignores it. they cuddle instead

miku leaves for 'food', but is rlly cheating at a mcdonalds w jake. in front of aradia (WHO HAS A CRISH ON JAKE!!!) aradia leaves 'to give them lrivacy' bit actually tells equius

equius is like nahh its good its MIKu. im honored to just b in her prescense. meanwhile miku is callling equius a pathetic loser

miku comes back, accuses equius of cheating w aradia in a huge outburst (they werent, aradia was just telling him. they were a good distance away too). aradia flees, equius takes the verbal abuse again, miku chases aradia and screams at her in fromt of jake. jake calls it hor, they get freKy AGAIN, miku bites jakes tongue off and cuts his dick off, leaves back to equius eelictantly bc "hes probably getting worried.."

miku comes back, makes a nice drugged dinner for equius

equius KNOWS itxs drugged but is like "nah babe its good. you just didnt measure shit right. uhh but i do feel dizzy" miku tales him upstairs, chops off his dick so other girls cant touch jt also before this she banned equius from talking or looking at other girls

she then chops off his horns and legs, carries him to coffe shop, kills a worker there bc equius told him everything and he was gna call the police, goes back home, leaves to cheat again, RATS COME IN AND RUIN IT ALL, miku flees, the goes back to jake who is PISSED and now dating aradia bc aradia is the only sane one. besides the fact that she out nair in mikus shampoo and miku is now bald , and aradia explained miku was juts using him for sex. moku is PISSED, goes back to equius (who was in a jail cell??), equius helps her ruin aradia and jake by trying to ceget arafis to cheat w equius, fails bc jake made friends w the rats and sicced them on equius, so equius fleed, miku verbally abuses him again , jake and aradia aarrive on the scene w tha ratd. miku screams at everyone, then turns to aradia and.. applogizes. she apologizes for everything. aradia laos alologizes for making her bald. they start to flort, leave the boysin the house ( also th boys are fogjting each other and the rats are atta king equius), aradia and miku get freekayy . also i wna mention that aradia was played by a girl named super freaky girl 2 ehich is finny as fuck to me, miku leaves, finds equius om the floor, breaks up w him, breaks the news that their relationship actualy sucks ass a d they both need mental health, and just as everything is looking up-

miku is sniped by one of the rats

END.

[catgirl-catboy]

sorry if this comes off as rude or in bad faith but i'm interested in hearing your reasons on why you dislike saiouma? again, not trying to be rude, i'm just interested since it's one of the big popular ships and i think you have interesting danganronpa takes

@crowssoul2 sent another ask with the same idea, so allow me to respond to them both here instead of trying to cut an essay in half.

Nah! You didn't seem rude at all! I am more than happy to overanalyze Danganronpa, since I love Danganronpa to death. I am just as happy to be asked what I thought they failed @ then to be asked what I liked. Hell, I'll even enjoy civil discussion about why you disagree with my takes. (except maybe my take on the great Chihiro discourse, since bystanders always get pissy at that one)

Also, to preface this, this is a ship and let ship blog. I'm glad all you Saiouma shippers are having fun. Also, I love all the ship art you make. If you enjoy what we got, this isn't a personal attack. Honestly, I wish I were one of you since there's so much more content that way.

I feel like I dislike Saiouma because their canon dynamic went against the themes of the work. Kokichi, as a character, represents lies, which is one of the major themes of Drv3. (The same way Makoto represents hope and Junko represents despair) This seems really obvious to say, but is important to my point. A characters relationship with Kokichi should mirror their relationship with lies.

A good example of this done right is Kaito. Listen, his writing irks me, but his relationship with Kokichi is one of my favorite things about him. (Still can't get behind Oumota bc of Kaito's personality, but that doesn't mean I dislike the foils OR the shippers)

Kaito pretends to hate lies, as heroes should. But his heroic personality is in fact, a lie he tells. Not out of malice, but because that's who he wants to be. (Think Kaito:Hero as Gundam:Dark God) He lies to protect people, and hide his illness. As a result, he's willing to work with Kokichi to... protect Maki, conceal his identity, (which includes hiding his illness) and from a certian POV, be a hero! It makes perfect sense.

Another good example of this is Maki. She hates Kokichi, because she hates lies. Her hatred of Kokichi is actually tied to him revealing one of her lies, a lie that was causing her quite a lot of stress. But... she also directly benefits from Kokichi. He saved her life. Unrelated tangent (sarcasm), what was revealed to be a lie in Ch6? Her feelings for Kaito. Let me rephrase that sentence: She hates LIES but she also directly benefits from them (her feelings for Kaito improving her mental health)

I wish that theme carried over into other characters the same way it did for those two. There are some other parallels I can draw (Ryoma liking Kokichi to an extent, Kirumi playing tag with him) but those two are the most obvious and explicit.

So its sad that characters with a complicated relationship with lies don't also have a complicated relationship with Kokichi, the embodiment of lies.

Himiko lives a lie. Lying is needed for her job. But her lies almost got her killed in chapter 2, and Tenko going along with her lie doesn't help. How does this reflect in her interactions with Kokichi? It doesn;t.

Kaede lied to us, the motherfucking audience. Honestly, thats arguably just as impressive as Kokichi ever pulled. What is her relationship with Kokichi? Kokichi acts sort of like a mentor figure to HER in the tunnels, and stands up against her. I like that, but give that plot beat to someone else. (Kaito makes the most sense, but give it to Tenko since I love her.)

Danganronpa itself is a lie, a work of fiction. And Tsumugi is obsessed with it.

In fact, this applies to the v3 casts dynamic with Kokichi as a whole. Almost everyone dislikes and distrusts Kokichi, despite the big reveal of being liars themselves. I'd write it as "everyone pretends to hate Kokichi (lies), but actually don't mind him that much. However, they think everyone else hates Kokichi so they go along with the group." to foreshadow the big reveal that they themselves are lies told by Tsumugi.

And Shuichi suffers from this the most.

Shuichi's Ch1 arc is summed up by "Shuichi learns to face the truth for the first time with that case, and stops averting his eyes." In other words, on the Truth vs Lies scale, Shuichi begins the series aligned with LIES.

The rest of the game shows Shuichi gradually becoming a paragon of Truth to go against Kokichi's lies- ONLY FOR IT TO BE REVEALED IN CH6 THAT HE HIMSELF IS A LIE.

That he is, a fictional character and a pawn in someone elses game. It then becomes a Schrodinger's cat on the alignment scale I mentioned earlier. Was Shuichi's journey to the Truth end of the scale fake or not?

The game settles upon a hesitant no at the end of it, (I disagree, since the games mechanics tell a different story) when Shuichi ventures out into the world with the other survivors to find the truth upon whats out there.

Thats a HECK of a complicated relationship with lies. It should equal a heck of a complicated relationship with Kokichi, right? WRONG.

The canon Saiouma dynamic is basically

"Kokichi likes and teases Saihara, while Shuichi is annoyed by Kokichi until his death, when he gradually begins to come around. Despite this, Kokichi (and the lie mechanic) is surprisingly helpful in trials"

(actually the localization changed this quite a bit, but I'm going off the English version since this is what I actually played. That being said, its a fascinating topic that you should look into if you're as obsessed as I am.)

While the fanon is more akin to:

"Shuichi gradually gets drawn in by Kokichi and learns to accept his quirks."

(maybe shippers will disagree with me about those dynamics, since again, not my cup of tea.)

Meanwhile a Saiouma dynamic I can get behind is:

"Shuichi is drawn in by Kokichi (lies), and feels a sort of magnetism to him. But he knows it isn't a good idea, and he knows it isn't right. Kokichi's feelings are unclear at first due to his nature, but it turns out he has a love-hate relationship with Shuichi (truth). He'll rely on him sometimes, but rebuff him at others with seemingly no logic from his end."

In other words, I'd do a semi-reversal of the canon dynamic.

NOTE: I am not saying I'm a writing genius or anything. Hindsight is 20/20, and I'm sure if Kodaka could magically remake his games he'd stomp my rewrite to the ground.

You asked why I dislike it, and that's my explanation. But please allow me to go a step further and speculate why things are this way.

At about the same time you sent me your ask, my good friend Crow sent me this:

"I don't like Saiouma because well Komahina is exactly what the black romance should be while Saiouma is just feels like another Shuichi ship. Do you get my point?

Shuichi and Hajime is entirely different characters while Komaeda and Kokichi different af too like, they can't hit the Komahina dynamic like they intended to do, this is why Saiouma is just another Shuichi ship while Komahina is THE SHIP.

If you want to do a homoerotic Shuichi ship who would be the next Komahina you shouldn't do that with Kokichi at all, maybe Rantaro? But Rantaro isnt work well too like there is no Komaeda for him to work the Komahina. Saiouma felt poorly executed idea of a black romance, if I need to be honest Oumaede would be more fitting for the Komahina dynamic despite Kaede is just pov character.

So yeah there is no Komahina in drv3 because they tried to play the same tropes with very different characters and very different stories, I even felt more interested in Saihoshi despite Ryoma only been around 2 chapters than Kokichi. That is the problem in here"

I felt like I can't answer one of these asks without referencing what I said in the other ask, so I just both answered them both together. (no hard feelings?)

In case you haven't read Homestuck (wise call, honestly) Black romance is basically non-sexual hatefucking. Usually, there's an undertone of mutual respect, but not always. Felt like that context was important.

Komeada and Kokichi ARE different characters. From a narrative standpoint, Komeada completely turns existing themes like Hope and Talent into complex issues in the Drverse, while in THH they were pretty black and white. Meanwhile, Kokichi's introduction is the introduction to the theme of truth vs lies.

In other words (Makoto is to Nagito (and later to Hajime and Izuru) as Kokichi is to Shuichi) The second takes the theme from the first, and massively expands on it! ...Despite Shuichi and Kokichi being in the same game.

Despite this, the reason people think they are similar is because Kokichi piggybacks too hard on Nagito and Komahina's success.

What does Nagito have in common with Togami, other than being an antagonistic force. Not much, actually! Togami fucked up a corpse while Nagito fucked up his own body, and that distinction is all that needs to be said I think.

Togami would look down upon Nagito if they ever met, and Nagito'd be into that.

What does Kokichi have in common with Nagito?

They want to make an unsolvable murder in which poison was involved and they got someone to kill them.

They both have a one sided crush on their protagonist, that the protagonist doesn't think exists. (Kokichi confessed, but perks of being a chronic liar)

They both are the MVP in almost every trial they are in, with one notable exception for each of them. Thats... kind of a lot, actually! I do think they are noticeably different characters, especially on a thematic level, but I can see why people notice that. I can also see why people would find that bad! Nagito was the star of Dr2, hands down. If you were one of the few people that isn't a total Nagito simp, then a very simmilar character getting screentime might be annoying since you have Nagito fatigue from the last game. and if you are a Nagito simp, then Kokichi will likely never be his own dude with so much in common. You'll see him as a lesser Nagito and want him back. I agree with Crow when he says "Saiouma just feels like another ship. I found it hard to articulate why I feel that paradoxically feels like a rip-off of another ship I liked, but also had no bite to it. And then it hit me. Until Chapter four, Kokichi never did anything that warranted Nagito levels of hatred. (of course, this is entirely subjective. I hate Kaito pretty much for being annoying and fitting into tropes I dislike without commenting on it. If you think this is enough to hate Kokichi, power to you!) By the end of chapter one of Dr2, Nagito:

Attempted to 1st degree murder a fan-favorite character, with a deliberately confusing and unsympathetic (at this point in time) motive to do so.

Goaded another character (that most fans hated, but still) into committing that murder FOR him. The only time we ever saw that level of insanity was Celeste, and Teruteru is no Hifumi in terms of gullibility. (Celeste had plot armor anyway.)

Sat back and monologues while everyone's ass was on the line. If Hajime and the others voted wrong, everyone would have died.

Showed NO remorse over any of it. Seemed to enjoy it.

This one is more meta but: he shows despair eyes, which previously were only seen on the big bad of the first game. Characters have every reason to hate the guy. Soda and Nekomaru were absolutely correct in taking him out, and I'd argue that you should maybe go father by putting him in a public area and gagging his mouth unless it's mealtime. Meanwhile, by chapter three, Kokichi has:

Stood up to Kaede in the tunnels, which most students agree was the right call.

Showed emotions over Rantaro's death, but due to his lying they can't be sure if they were genuine.

Was civil (if a bit wierd) to Kaede right before her execution.

Bullied Kiibo. Yes, bullying is- bad but look me in the eye and tell me its worse than murder. You can't.

Shared the motive videos in the insect meet and greet. This is the major strike against him, but its reasonable to assume he did this with good intentions.

While doing that, tortured them with bugs when it wasn't really needed for the plan to work.

(okay, this one didn't actually happen and I will die on this hill, but the main group thinks it did so I'm counting it) Tricked Gonta into helping with his plans.

Saved our asses in the second trial.

Saved our asses in the post-trial portion of chapter 2

Not joined a cult that was forming in our school. Also did not stop Gonta from joining the cult, which doesn't point to a pattern of controlling behavior from Shuichi's POV.

Was key in getting to Angie's body. Pun intended.

Helped out during the seance.

While arguably not the MVP in trial 3, he still contributed a great deal. Do those lists of crimes seem equal to you? It takes Kokichi 3 chapters to do something that is, at most, Hiyoko level. Maybe Byakuya level, but thats pushing it. Yet, the characters treat Nagito and Kokichi with about equal annoyance and disdain. The v3 cast, of course, doesn't know that Nagito exists. But we, the players, know. Its like we got prologue Nagito for almost four chapters, but prologue Nagito was also kind of a bitch? But also possibly well-meaning and OP as fuck. This concludes my analysis! Do you agree? Disagree? I'd love to hear thoughts.

[blubushie]

I can only talk from my own experience but seeing people's opinions on the distinction between "human" and "person" has always been interesting to me cause (outside of normal relationship labels -friend, lover, discord kitten-)

"Human" is like basic respect, probably wouldn't put myself in harms way to help you but I'd do my best to make sure you got help, you're not really an individual but another blank face in a crowd

"Person" is go out of my way a little to make sure you're good, I'll recognise your name when it pops up, might shank one or two chavs for you depending on the occasion

And then there's a secret third thing

And I think part of the issue is people don't look outside their own definitions of "human" and "person", some may have never even thought about there being a distinction between the two labels until that moment, and thus they jump to outrageous conclusions because they refuse to recognise that the human mind is complex and confusing and every single fucking thing you do has layers and nuances. The world is not black and white, it never will be, and every strict example of morality or ethics you have will be some shade of grey to someone else, whether you like it or not.

Which seems to be an issue to them I guess because it means they can't cast sweeping judgements that everyone will agree with 😚

Nah yeah that's exactly how I feel.

"Human" level is basic respect. I will go out of my way to help you, same as I would any other animal, but I don't care about you or who you are, I don't care about what your name is or what your life story is, you are a thing to me equal to any other animal. You are just another one of the dogs in this dog-eat-dog world. When I'm kind to you I'm doing it for kindness' sake, because the world needs a little more kindness. I'm not doing it because I care about you as a person, because you aren't one to me. You're simply something I don't want to see suffer because suffering sucks.

"Person" is a step beyond. I care about you beyond you simply being another organism that I would help simply because it's the right thing to do. I'd help you because I want to help you. If something were to happen to you, I'd be distraught. I would fight for you. If you're high enough on the pole I'd even die for you. I'd go scorched earth, even, should something happen to you. If you're a person to me, I care about your name, I'll give you one from me personally, I'll learn about the things you like and memorise them and try to curate myself and my behaviour to things you like so that you're content with my presence. I will give you gifts or cross my own boundaries for your sake if it would make you happy. I will show you a better more personable side of myself because you'd earnt the right to see the man I actually am compared to the mask I wear so people like anon won't fucking yell at me for being mentally ill in a way I can't change.

[angelliicc]

depend on you

“a hand that reminds me of the faith in my dreams

hold it harder every moment”

masterlist

a/n hello everyoneee!! heres. semi short story, enjoy!!

warnings mental health, not proofread, possible suicide warning

| you and your mom always had an off and on relationship. one day, she’d be admiring you, telling how much she loved you and that she would do anything for you. then the next day, she would yell at you, you never do anything right, that you can’t show your emotions and you can only feel a certain way all the time.

one day, you and your mother got into an argument, and you just burst. all the emotions you were bottling up started to explode. when she went to bed, you got your keys and drove to the only person you trusted, ellie, your girlfriend. you cried, the tears couldn’t stop flowing on your face. all you thought about was being far away from your mom.

you drove to her house. a 5 minute drive seemed like 50 minutes. as you got there, you texted her.

r: “are u awake?”

e: “yeah, why?”

r: “im outside”

the next moment, you heard footsteps shuffling. she opened the door, immediately seeing your face all rough. mascara and tears all over cheeks.

“oh my god. what happened? whats wrong?” ellie immediately asking you. she grabbed you for a hug, and immediately cried in her arms.

“its okay, im right here. you can tell me in a moment, alright?” she reassured, kissing and rubbing your head. “lets go upstairs, alright?”

you nodded your head and agreed, as she was still by your side.

you both plopped on the bed, immediately you started to cry again.

“i don’t like seeing my girl like this. what happened?” she asked, feeling aching in her heart seeing you all upset.

“its my mom again, she’s never happy with me.” you told her “im tired of this.”

“hey.” she told you “you’ve told me a lot about her. its gonna be hard, but let it roll off you back. you have a couple of years until college, and you will be free baby, okay?”

“i’m trying, i really am. im tired of her. i dont think i can do this anymore.” you told ellie, breaking down.

“hey, hey, hey, what do you mean by that?” she asked, concerned.

“nothing, its nothing.” you told her, wiping your tears away with you sweater.

“it’s something. baby you know you can talk to me.” she said, now sitting next to you on the edge of the bed.

you gave her a look, signaling for her to know what it meant.

“baby, no, please don’t even think about doing that.” she told you, holding your face.

“im tired baby.” you told her, still crying a little bit.

“you’re not going without me, im gonna help you. i don’t want you to think like that, ever. okay?” she said, lying down and pulling you on top of her. you held her arm as you both lied down. “okay.” you told her.

“i love you, and i will always love you, okay?” ellie said, kissing your head as she played with your hair.

“i love you too, thank you els.” you said, whispering.

“you wanna stay the night?” she asked.

“nah, i dont wanna get yelled at even more.” you said getting up.

“text me when you get home. ill see you tomorrow. i love you.” she hugged you and rubbed your back as she gave you a kiss before you left to go back home.

slowly i’ll hold your hands

i know you've been waiting for me

[bellenatty]

do you ever get tired of like. having new realisations about yourself

my therapist said 'you know, i think you might have Pure O OCD'

and i was like me? OCD? nah

but no i definitely do

and lately i have been thinking maybe i'm just aro bc i just. can't be bothered with dating or relationships. i'm happy on my own

i thought i was just too mentally ill to date for years but maybe i just don't want to?

[kdjdhdhebx]

nah bro how r u gonna have everything u gonna be the saddest person with all mental illnesses but also crazy connections with multiple people happy pictures and not just artifical happy m talking ab the very specific u feel comfy enough to be naked with friends going to raves and doing acid trips like literally transdential type of relationships and happiness have a good relationship with parents but also trauma have all piercings in ur face look weird but also be I'm Cambridge like what

[ao3feed-johnnylawrence]

wake me up when september ends

https://ift.tt/4cx6aZQ by zillygoose Robby Keene’s life sucks year-round, but things have a habit of escalating in early autumn like clockwork. Even though Shitshow September has blindsided him in the past, this time around he’s prepared and determined to make it through the next thirty days unscathed. All he has to do is keep his head low and hopes even lower like he promised himself. No sweat. That is, until a cute, curly-haired boy with a heart of gold moves into the neighboring apartment. Abandoning his plan could end up being the biggest regret of Robby’s life, but where’s the thrill without any risk? Maybe the universe has something good to offer after all… Words: 1085, Chapters: 1/14, Language: English Fandoms: Cobra Kai (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: Gen Characters: Robby Keene, Miguel Diaz (Cobra Kai), Johnny Lawrence, Carmen Diaz (Cobra Kai), Rosa Diaz (Cobra Kai) Relationships: Miguel Diaz & Robby Keene, Robby Keene & Johnny Lawrence, Miguel Diaz & Carmen Diaz & Rosa Diaz, Rosa Diaz & Robby Keene, Miguel Diaz & Johnny Lawrence Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - No Karate (Cobra Kai), hi-yah? more like hi-nah, September Sucks Club, Shitshow September, Shitember, My First Work in This Fandom, Miguel Diaz & Robby Keene Friendship, Pre-Relationship, Queer Robby Keene, Intersex Robby Keene, Bisexual Robby Keene, Queer Miguel Diaz (Cobra Kai), Trans Miguel Diaz (Cobra Kai), Biromantic Asexual Miguel Diaz (Cobra Kai), making them gay just as god intended, Robby Keene Needs A Hug, Miguel Diaz Gives Good Hugs, thinly veiled flirting, Blatant Flirting, they’re both clueless simps, Rosa ships it, Johnny is also clueless but just not a simp lmao, Coming Out, Annoying Neighbors to Friends, Holding Hands, Cuddling & Snuggling, Platonic Cuddling, Transphobia, Hate Crimes, but I promise everything turns out okay, Gender Dysphoria, safe binding is self care!, depictions of mental illness, mentions of death and trauma, Fist Fights, Angst, Fluff, Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Swearing, Rated T for swearing, uh and for the other stuff tagged I guess, Rating May Change, tags may also change because who tf knows where this is going?? (spoiler: not me), I do actually have a vague plan though so hopefully this fic won’t completely go off the rails, Author Is Sleep Deprived, I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping, like I’ve worked on this exclusively between midnight and 4am so far, rip my sleep schedule, author is projecting, I’m only projecting a little bit though I swear, author hates september, fuck september all the homies hate september, author is mentally ill, author is queer, Happy Pride, pride is every day bitches source https://archiveofourown.org/works/49889674 September 05, 2023 at 03:30PM

[sl33pyperson]

hello. its my favourite thing to do. talk about moon knight and post screenshots while i have an amount of alcohol in me

straight up. i fucking hate the 1985 run. its only 6 volumes and i fucking hate it. disgust. very upset about marlene being the one to suggest the galleries but like, not in a disgust way, in a “oh sweet summer child” way

and THANK GODS IT DIDNT LAST LONG. OHHHFHGHHHH

these were just very cute <3 not pictured: me being emotion about dd stalking foggy bc they arent talking anymore. my poor boy.

how did i never fucking know caps secret identity was a fucking comic artist. who is drawing about himself. what the fuck. im instantly a thousand more times in love with this version of cap. what a fucking nerd.

ok back to what we actually care about. moon knight. THIS COMIC WAS SO FUCKING GOOD!! ANNA NOCENTI WHY DIDNT U WRITE FOR MOON KNIGHT MORE idk like. the ONE WRITER currently to ACKNOWLEDGE BRAIN SHIT. ohh my god marlene is SO BAD IN THIS ONE BUT ITS SO GOOD BC LIKE. YEAH. SHE DOESNT FUCKING GET IT. “or from the devil” u literally say this to the man u think u love? maam??? i am fucking screaming. reconsidering her “i was just [marcs] teddy bear” like, oh god, mk really does rely on her to keep himself grounded to what (at least steven?) believes is the real world. as much as mk pushes u around, u really depended on stevens money and enjoyed urself and was just. ouughhhhhhh.

SCREAMING!,! I SAT THERE ACTUALLY IN FUCKING SHOCK AT THIS PAGE!!! LIKE!! THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF WHAT THE SYSTEM IS GOING THRU, valid fears (especially to steven, who fucking HATES marc, he WANTS to be his own man and his own person away from marc so badly). also like, merging being the “nyrotypical” thought of “getting better”, when like. all systems are different, some work better in tandem with each other and still being seperate (not that these boys r anywhere near that holy fucking shit)

i genuinely love how fucking terrible marlene is in this comic. like. yeah. as much as this “hypnosis” “therapist in training (i think??)” lady thinks shes qualified, shes just so. gods. ur partner is freaking out and dissociating (i dont care if its bc the moons doing weird shit, hes still mentally zonked out) so you JUST FUCKING RUN AND LEAVE AND GET DRUNK?? marlene is so terrible. its so good. this is such a bad relationship for both of them but steven truely fucking relies on her too much at this point. screaming.

THIS WAS SO SWEET AND CUTE LIKE. nature is filled with contradictions, the system is filled with contradictions, but they balance everything out. every bit is necessary and needed. theres no “evil”, no “good”, just. being. and it balances itself out. every part is needed. ough. ouuugghhhh. i want to eat this comic. mwah mwah

ITS WACKO TIME BAEBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YOU WANTED DEEP INTROSPECTIVE LOOKS INTO MK PYSCHE? ITS ONLY SHENANIGANS FROM HERE ON OUT BAEBYYYYY LIKE HOW THEY ALL FUCKING DIED AND KHONSHU WAS LIKE “lol nah ill just tell my boy 5000 years in the future to get ya 🤫”

khonshu is still such a dick. cool panelling

THE PRIESTSS i didnt actually mind them tbh. lil weird but i mean, its comics for ya

RANDOM BULLSHIT GO!!!, he truely just has like. so many stupid gadgets and additions that they feel the need to show off All of them everytime. its kinda cute. i miss his truncheon. i wonder if marc misses it too. OH SHOUT OUT TO ANNASA COMIC FOR LIKE, SAYING MOON KNIGHT WAS A FOURTH PERSONALITY, I DIG THAT

frenchie <3 where the fuck did that bottom bar come from. uh. shout out to mk just spacing out in front of villains. hes also really cute. U DONT KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM THEY GOT RID OF THE 1985 MASK AAHHHHHHH MY LIL SHADOW BLOB IS BACK!!!! YEAH!!,!,!!

how many fucking photos can i add oh my god this isnt stopping. this is cute

[khuzena]

Since we’re talking about chamber angst I got one in mind hehehehe….

Chamber and f reader are married and had one kid but their kid died due to an unfortunate accident. Chamber wants a divorce since there’s no point in staying since his child is already dead, but reader finds out chamber is cheating on her long time before their child died.

Idk if this makes sense but it’s been stuck in my head for days. You can choose on what happens to reader :>

His love died a long time ago

Chamber x fem! reader

Tw: angst, hurt no comfort, bad habits, cheating, major character death, they all die at the end, fluff? Nah, schizophrenia, mental illness, su1cide in ending 1, I added a plot twist lol

I'm back from my short hiatus ehehehe, anyways this fic is just chamber being a major red flag, he's a good father but not a good lover

From the day you and chamber met it was like you both clicked together. He was a fine man who's words were laced with a hint of flirting but true love. Chamber brought you to his parents and they were delighted that their son had someone as perfect as you, they planned you and chamber's wedding and were the ones to bless your son when it was born.

Though day by day after the child was born it was as if the relationship was hanging on a thread, he'd always say he had work when it was 5 am and dismiss any dates together unless the child was involved. You thought that maybe his schedule was really packed and he wanted to make use of the spare time to bring your son with you so no one gets left out. As the child turned 6... Chamber stopped trying. It was like he's only doing everything for his son and nothing else for you.

His blood, sweat and tears were for his son and not you. Your parent-in-laws didn't know what was going on but you all weren't stupid, he was losing interest in you. Trying to ignore the signs and you loved and stayed with him for years and in a flash his adoration for you is suddenly gone by a flick of a candle light.

It hurt so much. You would never forget that incident ever. Your husband was out for work and you got a call from someone.

"Hello? Are you the mother of (son name) Fabron?"

The caller asked nervously and their voice was shaky though you replied,

"Yes? What is it?"

"Your son got into a fatal accident, we need you right away"

The wine glass in your hand dropped in an instant and it was everything was falling apart.

You immediately called Vincent and pleaded him to come straight to the hospital and you both arrived at the building, blaring sirens of the ambulance ringing in your ears and when you turned around you saw many other children with severe injuries and you hope to god that your son is safe.

"Fuck, fuck What happened to my fucking son?!" Chamber screamed at the officer with tears in his eyes as he threatened to burst inside the building to hold his only child but the officers blocked him and tried to calm him down. You could only watch this tragedy unfold and your mouth was left agape and couldn't say anything because god it aches every muscle in your body to know horrible shit happened to your baby.

After a few minutes you both entered the hospital room and from the glass window you saw him unconscious with bruises and blood all over his skin, the sight making you almost puke in disgust and when you looked up to chamber's face, so much regret and sadness was plastered on his face; his only joy and happiness on the brink of death and him not being able to prevent it made tears run down his face as you both pathetically sob in the room.

All the top-notch surgeons, nurses and everyone did their best to bring your son back to life but it was useless, he only survived for 2 weeks before passing away from extreme physical trauma from some fire at the school and metal that hit the kid's back continuously.

This is it.

The funeral ensues and all people pay respects for the deceased one, but... Chamber just stared down on the glass coffin with a grim expression, it was then you knew the chamber you once loved died with your son.

"Thank you, y/n." He says with a sulky voice while arranging the flowers infront of the grave.

Choked sobs escaping your lips and tears dampening your black attire, you ask, "For what?"

"For giving me (son name).. but I am afraid my love for you died with my son."

...

"What do you mean by that?..."

He only stares at you with an empty expression and walked away, not saying anything else but only muttered a small, "We'll talk as soon as we get home" it was too quiet but loud enough for you to hear.

When you arrived home, you were terrified about what he's about to say, it was like deep inside you knew damn well what's going to happen next. Your son was the only thing keeping your relationship with him intact and now that he's gone, that glue that held you and chamber together was gone as well. Chamber cleared his throat as he lazily sat down on the couch, some documents lay infront of the coffee table and you had no idea what was to come next, "So.. I was wondering that we should file for divorce."

'why?'

"It's because there's no point with being together anymore, if I'm with you, all I'll remember is (son name) but if I re-married I can start all over again," each word sent shivers down your spine as you stood in shock with tears forming in your eyes, "Besides, the only thing that kept us together was our son, but without him, I don't need to be with you."

"Is this a fucking joke?! Were you already cheating on me with that bitch after I gave birth? You piece of shit I hate you—" you were cut off by him by his simple reply, "Yes, a long time ago I met some young woman, she's quite demure and perfect and your beauty faded when you focused on (son name) more, I lost all attraction for you but I couldn't leave you with the kid still around, I'm very sorry but you should pack your things and leave."

The last line broke every sanity you had left and you fell into madness, you screamed and threw shit everywhere but you calmed down after a while and packed your things while glaring at the man, before you left, all you saw was relief washing over the man as he no longer had to be stuck with you.

"adieu, mon amour" he said under his breath while slowly closing the door as you escort yourself out of the mansion with luggages in your hand.

Both endings will hurt. There is no good ending.

la mort de mon âme- (where reader kills themselves) skip to second ending if you want

After you left the mansion, you had no idea where to go. Your mother-in-law asked you what was going on and you just told her everything that Vincent left you for another girl and you could hear the disappointment in her voice through the line.

"Where are you going to go now?" She asked nervously, she was a good woman. Her posh attitude and lifestyle didn't get in the way of her morals though, she would always support you and was the one who helped you through anything. She offered you a place to stay but you politely declined, your current mental health being too broken to even make correct decisions so you decided to block your in-laws for good.

You had nothing now. You had no one to help you anymore. It was clear you needed mental help but you wasted all your money on drugs and alcohol; getting high in the middle of the night and wondering if things would be better if you had never married that son of a bitch, you tell yourself that you're fine but you still cry at chamber's posts online, with his new fiancee in just 2 weeks of divorcing and the love in his eyes when he looks at her.

The pain is unbearable at this point, no drugs, no wine and no doctor could ever fix you now. So you decided to just step on the stool and hang yourself goodbye but before you do, you text chamber's number in hopes of him reading your last words.

'It has been 5 months without you, I truly still love you Vincent and I wish you all the best.. one last thing before I feel the sweet release of my last breath, did those years of loving me really worth it? I won't see your reply anyways, by the time you've received this I'm gone. Adieu.' your hands shaking as you type the short paragraph and knees buckling since you're supposed to die now, it hurts though.

Meanwhile, before you sent the letter, Vincent was sat on an armchair while filing out new documents for his work.

Getting wed after mourning wasn't a really good idea, there was chill on his spine telling him there's something wrong. He thought it was just the cold air kissing his skin in the office as he continued to sign some paperwork.

Ding.

One message from mon chou ♡.

Chamber internally sighs as he ignores the message, he thought it was just you pleasing him again to come back to you but his instincts told him to just read it and just get it over with.

His nimble fingers swiftly opened the phone and read the contents of the paragraph, the more he read it the more he felt mortified. He thought he stopped loving you.

But the last line crushed his soul entirely.

That night he cried into the silk sheets he once slept with you on, he gripped the pillows you both shared together and poured all his grief out.

And that night, was also the day your son was born and the day the news flashed about some suicide.

Maybe his love did die a long time ago, though his love that was only a speck of dust was still left in his heart.

Ending 2

la vie continue- (where reader is pregnant with chamber's child after the divorce)

After you left the mansion, you had no idea where to go. Your mother-in-law asked you what was going on and you just told her everything that Vincent left you for another girl and you could hear the disappointment in her voice through the line.

Before she could say anything else you hung up and blocked all your in-laws. The stash of money that you got after separating ways with chamber was a lot and you were so out of your mind you decided to just get some wine to drink the pain out.

The wine glass in your hand as you stared out to the horizon, you took a sip and just cried alone on your desk at the apartment you rented, you could go get a job or shit but you doubt anyone would want to hire a hopeless wreck like you.

Though the next morning you were puking so much and you had weird food cravings but you knew damn well what that meant, in a hurry you bought a pregnancy test from a nearby pharmacy store and it turned out positive.

Getting your shit together, you stopped buying crack and alcohol and focused on yourself. Buying a ton shit of baby essentials for the baby and eventually got a job as a chef in your cousin's restaurant so you could save up.

After the baby was born though, someone who knew Vincent and you asked about the divorce and who was the father, you refused to tell the nurse because you knew she was going to snitch and so she did.

Raising with so much love and care did it grow as a wonderful teenager, a respectful and smart one. It was like life gave you another chance but it all went down hill once again. Rumors started spreading about who was the father and it eventually reached chamber's ears about his secret new child he never met before. Though he was a married man now it wouldn't hurt to get in touch with you.

He visited your apartment when no one was around, ah! Small picture frames of you and the child he never knew and a broken frame with only you and your first son. It hurt that there was not even a picture of him on the walls but why would you? He's the one who broke your trust and your heart.

Then he left after a few walking around the house, he made sure when he broke in was that there was no sign of anyone breaking inside so no one could catch him. But as he was leaving the neighborhood, he bumped into some kid.

It looked exactly like you, same bone structure and fashion with the same eyes as him.

"Hello sir? Are you lost?" Your daughter asked him, he seemed like he wasn't familiar with the neighborhood and she wouldn't mind to help a stranger out.

"Oh I'm not mademoiselle, I was wondering if you knew about (reader)?" He tried to keep his calm but his composure was breaking one by one.

"Oh she's my mother, do you need anything?"

"Nothing, I'll take my leave."

'Hmm that was pretty awkward, it was like I met him before— oh well, mom's waiting for me back home..' the kid thought to herself before she went back to the apartment.

Chamber now knew about the secret child, though he didn't know what to do. He was married with a girl named Reine but he quickly realized the girl was infertile. His initial plan was to divorce the girl to go back to you but his reputation took a hit after his first divorce, oh the amount of connections he would lose if he chose that decision.

He came back again to the apartment 2 years later, it was empty this time. The stench of blood reeking in the bedroom and as he went inside, the sight of your dead body with flies flying over you. Bottles of pills spilled on the hardwood floor that he was careful to not step on, maybe he was too late. 2 years was too late.

He awoke from his slumber with tears dried on his cheeks, he forgot.

You and the daughter was already dead 2 years ago; he must've forgot to take his medicine.

This gotta be the cringiest ass fic I've ever wrote, I regret writing ending 2 💀. Thank you for reading and requesting though 😈

[bottoms-movie]

SAMBUCKY FIC RECS

so a lot of people seemed interested this so here it is! if ya’ll like this, i can make more parts! this is split into three categories: based on tfatws, canon divergence, and au. all fics are on ao3. all of the fics are complete. some fics do include smut, but i included the ratings, so make sure to check for that based on preferences!

also, feel free to send me asks on your thoughts on any fics or if you’re interested in another sambucky fic rec post!

BASED ON TFATWS

Fill the Hole in my Heart | Not Rated | 4,848 words

Bucky dives into the world of online dating. The girls are nice, but there seems to be something missing. When he goes to Louisiana to meet Sam and his family, he realizes what that something was.

Skip, Reverse | Explicit | 7,945 words

Sam stood in the middle of their local Target with a throw pillow in each hand. The one in his left hand was butter-soft and matched the drapes in the living room, but Bucky had walked by five seconds ago and declared the one on the right “absolutely fucking hideous,” and so now Sam kind of wanted it more than he had ever wanted anything.

Sometimes romance is just bickering with your superhero partner/roommate at several different Target locations.

just won’t do right | General | 7,524 words

Sam's eyebrows go up, impressed, and he reaches over to squeeze Torres' shoulder, "This is amazing, kid. Thanks, really."

Bucky sits and watches in utter horror as the pink darkens on Torres' cheeks.

Oh, he realizes. Oh. Fuck.

body language will do the trick | Explicit | 12,598 words

“There’s no way you’re going to win this,” Bucky tells Sam. “I am going to love language the shit out of you.”

Sam gives him a considering look. “You do seem like you’d be really good at that.”

Bucky’s cheeks flush with heat. “Thanks, pal, I—”

Sam smirks, and Bucky’s eyes narrow. He shoves his elbow into Sam’s side and stalks off, leaving Sam cackling behind him.

“Your ass looks great today!” Sam yells.

Bucky reaches up to flip Sam the bird, and he definitely does not feel grateful that he wore his good jeans today. Bucky’s ass looks great every day.

checklist | General | 4,716 words

Bucky Barnes keeps a mental checklist of things he knows to be true at any given moment. Sometimes the checklist changes, because he's learned something else about himself. It changes, for example, when he starts realizing that maybe he would like to kiss Sam Wilson. Maybe.

best laid plans | 3 parts | 26,808 words

part 1: baby you’re the wave and I’m ready for the crash | Explicit | 6,616 words

Nah, my plan’s better,” Sam declares, before clapping Bucky on the shoulder.

“I’m sorry, what plan? Was that a plan? It didn’t sound like a plan to me, it sounded like a vague intention,” says Bucky, still scowling, and Sam grins.

“We’re winging it, the plan is a work in progress! Now c’mon, we gotta make some wardrobe adjustments if we’re gonna get into that club.”

Sam and Bucky have some unorthodox methods of going undercover in a club.

He Doesn’t Deserve You! | Teen | 5,154 words

Sam and Bucky have an argument that results in Bucky being left at the bar. A group of drunk strangers assumes Bucky just got dumped and quickly adopt him for the night to make him feel better.

Reconstitution | Not Rated | 10,228 words

“I didn’t back Steve on the Sokovia Accords,” Sam says unprompted one day. They’re so close to apprehending the Flagsmashers and wrapping up this ridiculous saga.

“I don’t follow,” Bucky says.

“I was the one who refused to sign it first. Not Steve.”

Sam says it so softly that Bucky has to strain to hear him. Sam is loud and chatty and half the time he keeps up a constant stream of chatter just to get on Bucky’s nerves, but Bucky’s coming to realize that when he really wants to make himself heard, he’s soft spoken and mild. Bucky doesn’t entirely follow his train of thought, though.

Or: a breaking down, remaking, and coming back stronger than ever before

Stuck On You (You Suez, You Luez) | Explicit | 10,136 words

Sam and Bucky’s mission was simple: stowaway on a ship suspected of weapons-smuggling in the Suez, gather enough intel to report back, and hop off again in Port Said. Something gets in the way, and a day-long recon session turns into a week of chess, bickering, semi-successful movie references, and trying not to go slowly insane.

His Touch | Mature | 1,006 words

When Baron Zemo touched Bucky’s face, Sam Wilson saw red.

Bucky just wants Sam to comfort him.

rusted | Teen | 2,358 words

Bucky doesn’t grace him with a sound of acknowledgement. He’s been quiet, ever since that night with Zemo. Well. Quieter. It’s almost like. Every time he opens his mouth, he’s half-expecting the Winter Soldier to come out.

He hasn’t, yet. Won’t, ever again. Not unbidden. Sam’s sure of that. Bucky, not so much.

‘You busy?’

‘’m scouring the—’

‘Good,’ Sam cuts the idiot off, ‘I need you to help me shave.’

advanced therapy methods for large adult men | 2 parts | 11,717 words

part 1: The Gottman Method for Dealing with Conflict | Mature | 4,187 words

Bucky and Dr. Raynor have a follow-up session and two entirely different conversations about his relationship status.

Or: Let's do more couples therapy, James.

it’s always Bucky’s Fault | 3 parts | 20,089 words

part 1: Did you see it? | Explicit | 3,905 words

In which there's supposedly a viral video of the Winter Soldier on his knees sucking off Captain America.

Everything is, like always, completely Bucky's fault.

CANON DIVERGENCE

Even in the Present (I Am Living in the Past) | Teen | 16,977 words

Sometimes Sam still questions everything about his ability to shoulder the 80-year legacy he now bears. His history, and the history of his loss, sticks with him and even in healing he doubts whether or not he is able to fulfil his purpose, and whether he may find lasting peace and happiness.

Told in fluid-fragments, the story moves between his therapy sessions after his return from active duty and the post-Endgame present.

You never forget your first | Teen | 3,650 words

The story of Bucky and Sam getting together in a series of firsts.

leftovers | Mature | 19,249 words

With the New Avengers up and running, Sam finally has time to start dating again. Unfortunately, it's not going as well as he'd hoped.

Partners | Explicit | 7,235 words

Sam's not sure if he can be Captain America. He's not a supersoldier. He can't throw the shield. He's just a dude.

And Bucky Barnes is just a nuisance, albeit a pretty good-looking one.

I’ll explain everything to the geese | Explicit | 50,949 words

Bucky is so competent that it hurts my feelings is not a rational complaint to have about a person, and yet, after a year of being Captain America and partnering up with Bucky for the new and improved, post-Blip Avengers, that’s kinda how Sam’s feeling.

It’s not great. It maybe leads to Sam making some rash, ill-advised decisions like claiming he has a previously undisclosed superpower, and then getting caught in a web of lies when he ends up actually developing that surprisingly inconvenient superpower. Talking to birds had seemed like a harmless superpower, but it turns out that birds have a lot of opinions, and they don’t hesitate to tell Sam about them, especially when it comes to his supposedly subpar courting skills. Which is ridiculous, because Sam isn’t courting Bucky. Right?

Night Swimming | Teen | 2,056 words

“Come on. The princess has a new arm for you and I gotta see if there’s a barber around here willing to tackle your…” Sam waved a hand at Bucky’s face.

“I don’t want a new arm,” Bucky immediately bit out.

And then -

“I can cut my own damn hair.”

Sam just raised both eyebrows. Crossed his arms over his chest again.

Dared Bucky to prove him wrong.

AU

Cpvert Coffee & Flirtation Specialist | General | 5,542 words

The reporter says "—for Captain America to—"

And Bucky rolls his eyes. "Oh, here we go."

Sam looks at him then tips his head sideways, got a weird grin on his face. "Not a fan?"

"Not that. Just… the guy seems too good to be true, right? Wings and a shield?? Come on."

"Uh, is that why your eyes are like glued to the screen whenever he's on?" Kate says. "Is that why you call him Captain Tight Ass?"

"He's a goddamn show-off, and you know it. Tight ass or not."

Just then Sam snorts, real loud, grabs his coffee and suffers a horribly controlled laugh on his way out the door.

Stolen Moments | Teen | 98,767 words

“No,” Sam said, chuckling. “I don’t cheat,” he swept his gaze up and down James’ body, “even with guys who look like you. But, I’m bored and a little pissed, so if you wanna sit here and shoot the shit ‘til my man shows back up, I’m game.”

Never one to back to back down from a challenge - especially a challenge who looked like Sam Wilson - Bucky took another swig from his bottle and replied, “Sure, doll. I’ve got nothing but time.”

Steve has Sam. Bucky wants Sam. Sam wasn’t expecting any of this.

Such a Whirlwind Since I Saw You | Teen | 10,871 words

The Men of Letters turned Bucky Barnes into a weapon. Hunters Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanov are determined to save him, but they're going to need Sam Wilson's help.

“So you want me to ditch work, drive across America with you until you find your friend, who you thought was dead - all while avoiding some high-tech hunters who are out for blood?” Sam is asking.

Steve shrugs a shoulder, looking a little sheepish. Natasha almost laughs at the dry tone of Sam’s voice, but he's not wrong.

You Got What I Need? | Explicit | 37,588 words

Sam and Bucky are both in a bind, professionally. Nat points out a solution that neither men like. To save their careers they play along or rather, stop playing all together.

[biggest-stupidhead]

Turning Point (Levi x reader)

Summary: After graduating college, you are presented with the opportunity of becoming a “counselor” at a small rehab facility located in the vast Montana wilderness. You didn’t know much about it, just that it was for troubled teens, ran by a privately funded staff. You are eager to meet the “campers” and your fellow counselors, but you know that it won’t be easy. You’ll have to build a strong relationship with both your coworkers and the campers, who aren’t exactly happy to be there.

Warnings: vomiting, lice, rehabilitation mentions, allusions to ED, mentally ill teens.

Word Count: 6.2K

You hadn’t slept much at all that night. Connie had been hunched over the toilet into the early hours before he finally exhausted himself. Levi had scooped him up and laid him on the cot, covering him up with the blanket. You had barely contained your laughter as you watched him haphazardly throw the blanket over the boy.

“Get some sleep. Breakfast is in three hours.” He said as the two of you crept up the stairs.

“Okay...Hange never told me the position that I was going to be working in here….do you have any-”

“See Erwin sometime tomorrow, he’ll pick out a job for you.” Levi cut you off before you could finish your sentence and you couldn’t help the slight tinge of annoyance.

“Got it.” You mumbled and turned on your heel to head back towards your room. But the sound of a choked sob coming from upstairs made you pause. Levi noticed and rolled his eyes, pushing past you he took the stairs two at a time.

“I’ve got it.” He said and you wished that you knew more. Had more experience, but that was what you were doing here after all, learning. You heard the crying cease and the sound of the bed creaking as he settled into it. You were surprised he was so diligent with the teens. It was admirable, especially given how crass he came across. You felt torn between going upstairs to be of use and the idea of the bed waiting for you just across the hall. It had already been such a long night and you knew that it was only going to be more taxing as the days wore on. Besides what could you do? You had little to no training in this field, and you had barely been of use with Connie, supposedly the easiest kid.

After a moment of hesitation, you turned and fled to your room. With the door shut behind you, the sobs were almost muted. Almost. You leaned heavily against the door, the weight of the day really crashing down onto your chest. You had known that it would be difficult, but it was so much more intense than you had imagined. Admittedly, you had very little experience with troubled kids, having grown up in a small town where mental health was hardly ever mentioned. You began to doubt your choice, how could you make a difference here? You sighed and stalked across your room, not even bothering to change out of your clothes before you fell onto the bed and buried your face into the pillow. All you could do was take it by the day, and soak up as much knowledge that the staff could give you. Your eyelids drooped and you stared at the window, which had a thin layer of mesh between the glass and the screen, much like the other windows in the house. The countryside was already bathed in a pale light, the sun just rising from the east, it coated the trees and fell effortlessly onto the dewy grass. You couldn’t help but feel at peace, even if it was just the calm before the storm. With that thought you closed your eyes and let sleep take over your body. ___

You woke up to the strong aroma of bacon and what you assumed was eggs. The sounds of dishes clattering and the wooden floors creaking as people shuffled through the kitchen. You rolled out of bed and wiped some drool from the corner of your lips. One glance at your watch told you that it was already six in the morning. So you quickly got dressed in a pair of worn jeans and an old shirt that you’d thrifted, like most of your clothes. You didn’t check which you had put on, too drowsy from the few short hours of sleep you’d managed to steal. As you fastened your belt around your waist, you wandered out into the dining room, where the same thin brunette was setting silverware down. She turned and surprisingly beamed at you. You blinked at her in shock but managed to smile authentically back at her, seeing as she was the only kid that had smiled at you besides Connie.

“Good morning sleepy head!” Her voice was bright and bubbly despite the shake of her hands with the small effort of holding the bundle of sporks.

“Good morning.” You pulled your messy hair off of your face as you turned your sights to the kitchen, where Hange was leaning on the counter with a steaming mug in her grasp. The blonde chef was lining an array of plates out on the counter, each with a perfectly prepared piece of french toast and an array of fruits as well as bacon.

“Ah beautiful morning isn’t it?” Hange said with a bright smile, Niccolo scoffed and slid another plate onto the counter.

“Coffee?” A woman with short blonde hair and a thin frame asked as she reached up into one of the cupboards for another mug. You nodded and came to stand next to Hange.

“This is Nanaba, Nanaba this is the newbie, (Y/n)” Hange introduced you and you waved with a friendly smile at the woman who beamed back. She passed you the warm mug and you leaned up against the counter next to her.

“Nanaba is the teacher around here, can’t let these kids run around uneducated!” Hange babbled as Nanaba rolled her blue eyes.

“That’s so cool!” You said as you lifted the cup to your lips. Hange hummed and turned to look back at the stairs, the sound of them creaking alerted you of someone descending them. A girl with short, choppy hair rounded the corner, a red scarf wrapped around her neck. She wore a black Slash band tee and a pair of distressed Levi jeans. Her eyes were lined with black makeup and her face was pale, with round grey eyes. But what really caught your attention was the thin scar that was peeking out from behind her bangs.

“Good morning Mikasa, how’d you sleep?” Hange greeted as she pulled a plate out and passed it to the gloomy girl who shrugged.

“Would’ve been better if Annie hadn’t been screaming.” Mikasa huffed as she turned to take her place at the table. The brunette girl set her sporks aside to greet Mikasa, throwing her arms over her shoulders and pressing her face nuzzling into Mikasa’s cheek.

“Want something to drink Mika?” The brunette asked and Mikasa turned to glare pointedly at Hange.

“Coffee would be fantastic.” She deadpanned and Hange wagged a finger in her direction.

“Your coffee privileges have been revoked, you can thank Zeke for that one!” She tutted and Mikasa turned to cross her arms over her chest. You smiled tensely as you watched the brunette flaunt into the kitchen, leaving Mikasa to finish setting out the sporks.

“Sasha dear, could you pour the orange juice?” Hange asked and the brunette nodded, reaching into the large stainless steel fridge and pulling out a glass jar of orange juice. Sasha began pouring out equal servings of juice and lining them up with the plates on the counter, although it was slow work, seeing how shaky her hands were. The stairs creaked under the weight of another person and you turned, eager to meet the next kid. Nifa rounded the corner first, holding her hand out for the tall girl, but she breezed past her with her chin held high. Nifa was unphased, however, tailing the girl from a safe distance. The girl dropped into one of the seats closest to the door, her eyes shifting uneasily across the room.

“Good morning Addy, how was your sleep?” Hange asked conversationally, Mikasa placed a fork by the girl and she flinched at the motion. Mikasa paused and looked to Hange, as if waiting to be scolded, but it never came. The girl looked away from Hange, her long bangs falling over steel grey eyes.

“That’s alright, the first nights are usually the roughest.” Hange shrugged off the rejection with ease as she picked up a plate and handed it to Nifa, who then placed the plate in front of Addy.

“Do I need to do anything to help?” You asked, placing your cup aside, eager to be of service.

“Nah, we like to let the kids do the work in the kitchen,” Hange explained as she grabbed two glasses of juice and handed them to Mikasa who was waiting for them.

“Oh, I see.” You said as you watched Mikasa place the juice next to her plate as well as another plate next to her before coming back for more. You had been so busy watching Mikasa, you hadn’t noticed the stairs creaking as two boys rounded the corner, one with sandy blonde hair and the other with a chocolatey mop of hair. The two walked right up to the counter and snatched their plates, the brunette dropped into the seat on Mikasa’s left, the girl turned and her face opened up at the sight of him. You raised a brow as you watched her pat him down as if she was making sure he was really there.

“Hands off Mikasa.” The boy grumbled, shrugging her off, her face fell but she rallied, pulling her skirt over her mouth and facing forwards.

“You can hang on me Mikasa.” The other boy said, sitting opposite of the pair, pushing his food around with his spork. Mikasa’s face screwed up into one of disgust before she reached for her juice and took a small sip.

“Shut up Jean.” The brunette sneered, jade green eyes narrowing at the other boy.

“Well its obvious that you don’t want her fawning over you!” The boy threw his hands up in frustration and Hange clicked her tongue as they continued to bicker.

“These two never quit.” She said with a wry smile as she jabbed a thumb in their direction.

“-well she obviously doesn’t want to fawn over you either!” the brunette snapped, standing abruptly and slamming his palms flat against the table. Mikasa reached out and gripped the sleeve of his flannel and he almost immediately desisted, sinking back into his seat and crossing his arms.

“Do your cookie breathing Eren.” A meek voice called from around the corner, a small-framed blonde wandered into the dining room, his hands fiddling with the buttons on his own flannel. Eren sucked in a deep breath through his nose before, his shoulders tense. After three seconds he exhaled slowly out his mouth, the tension visibly leaving his body. Mikasa nodded her approval as the blonde grabbed his plate and sat down calmly next to Jean. After sitting down he tapped his finger three times against the tabletop.

“Morning.” Jean greeted, hazel eyes on the small blonde who nodded, although he seemed a bit absent-minded.

“Armin, how was your night?” Hange greeted as she brought him and Jean a glass of orange juice. The boy shrugged and tapped his finger three more times on the tabletop.

“Fine….but Annie seemed….agitated.” He turned and looked up at Hange with a worried expression. Hange frowned and patted his back before stepping away, absently ruffling Jean’s shaggy hair. Jean grunted and shook his hair back into place.

“So I’ve heard,” Hange mumbled as she brought her mug up to her lips. As if on cue, another girl rounded the corner, two others close on her heels. The girl in front was short and blonde, with distant blue eyes, directly behind her was a lanky brunette with freckles splashed across the apples of her cheeks and a wolfish grin on her lips. Rounding out the group was another blonde, her hair was pulled back into a loose bun, unlike the first girl, her eyes seemed to catch every movement. As Nanaba shut a cabinet she whipped her head to take in the cause of the sudden noise, once she deemed it nonthreatening she relaxed slightly.

“Historia, Ymir, and Annie.” Nanaba said as she set another empty mug out on the counter. You hummed and watched the trio take their seats.

“Won’t be long until-” Before she could finish her sentence, two more boys padded into the dining room, a broad blonde and a lanky boy with dark hair. The two sat next to Annie, who blew her bangs out of her face and tried to ignore them as they both took their seats. The large blonde boy accidentally elbowed Annie, who turned and slapped his bicep, hard. You winced and looked to Hange, unsure of how she would respond to the girl lashing out.

“Annie, what have we talked about?” Hange asked with a stern look. The girl rolled her eyes and crossed her arms like a toddler. The table fell silent as they waited for her to respond, but the girl seemed set on keeping her silence.

“Annie….” Nanaba placed her hands on her slim waist and arched a brow. Even Niccolo paused his work in the kitchen, making the room fall unusually quiet.

“...Keep your hands to yourself.” She grumbled and shot an icy glare to the blonde who shrugged and turned to talk to the lanky boy on his left.

“Very good, thank you, Annie.” Hange praised before picking up some plates for the boys. You let out a slow breath, feeling the atmosphere return to the significantly lighter tone it had been previously. You tapped your foot anxiously on the black and white tile floors, the table was nearly full, save for two seats that were set but had no occupants. The sound of someone stumbling down the stairs made you perk up. The other kids seemed uninterested, except for Addy, who lifted her head and pushed her bangs out of her eyes.

Her sister was breathing laboriously as Moblit guided her to the seat next to Addy, who much like Mikasa had, began patting her sister and pushing her matted choppy hair off of her face. The girl groaned but leaned into her sister’s touch, the table once again fell mostly silent as the other teens checked out the fresh meat. You watched as Moblit and Nifa began pouring meds into tiny plastic cups, murmuring softly about what meds they were lacking.

“-Zeke should be here any minute, Erwin is waiting for him outside at the gate,” Moblit muttered as he shook the last two pills out of a large bottle. Nifa nodded and looked up at the teens, Armin was scratching his chin, which was blossoming red, Eren was still glaring daggers at Jean, who was scratching at a dent in the table. You looked to Hange once more, to see her jotting something down on a small notepad before shoving it deep into her pocket.

“What’s on the docket for today?” You asked and Hange hummed as she bit into a crisp apple.

“You’ll be with me today, but at some point we’ll need to stop by Erwin’s office to discuss a long term position for you.” She said, reaching into the fruit basket on the counter and tossing you an orange. You jabbed your nail into the top of it and began absently peeling the fruit, keeping a wary eye on the antsy teens.

“Do we need to wait for Connie? We all know he’s probably puking his guts out still.” The brawny blonde scoffed as he pushed his bacon aside. His comment earned an amused huff from Eren and a low growl from Jean.

“Shut up Reiner.” Jean snarled, and for a brief moment you admired his loyalty to Connie, but that was short-lived when the sound of someone stumbling against the doorframe made all the heads turn towards the entrance.

“Speak of the devil.” Ymir chuckled darkly, Connie was propped up against the doorframe with a weak smile on his lips and Levi’s jean jacket slung over his shoulders loosely.

“Nice fade.” Sasha chirped and Connie winked at her. You slowly stood up straighter, waiting to see what Hange would do, but she seemed content to let the scene play out.

“Thanks-” Connie lurched, cheeks puffing out and all the teens winced, waiting for him to hurl all over the dining room floor. Niccolo grabbed a towel and wiped his hands off, stepping out of the kitchen to see what the commotion was.

“Levi gave it to me. But I think that some of the lice-” He paused again, eyes widening and then he sprinted, straight into the kitchen, hands catching the counter and head disappearing into the sink followed by the sound of dry heaving. A bark of laughter made you look back at the table, where Ymir was holding onto Historia’s shoulder as she laughed at Connie’s expense.

“That’s rich! Just what I needed to start my day!” She literally slapped her knee and reclined back into her seat as Connie staggered back into the dining room.

“Want some crackers Connie?” Sasha offered, tuning out Ymir who was still cackling.

“Uh no. I want my hair back.” He glared at Ymir who howled with laughter, slapping Annie on the back, the blonde bristled but seemed to remember what had come of her hitting Reiner. So she crossed her arms, fists balled tightly before closing her eyes and breathing deeply.

“Ymir...settle down it’s not that funny.” The lanky boy said a bit quietly, the brunette turned and glared coldly at him.

“Or what beanstalk?” She smirked when the boy visibly clammed up, a bead of sweat rolling off of his temple, he opened his mouth before promptly closing it.

“That’s what I thought.” She huffed and turned to drape an arm confidently across the back of Historia’s chair. Connie leaned against the counter near Hange, looking up at her with puppy eyes and Hange reached out to place a hand affectionately on his shaved head.

“Can I get that hug now?” He asked, making grabby hands at her and she scoffed, withdrawing her hand.

“Not here Connie, go take a seat.” She shoved him towards the table, but then her face screwed into one of concern.

“Wait, what are you doing out of detox, you were supposed to be down there this morning too. Did someone let you out?” You saw her eyes shift in your direction momentarily and it felt like a boulder had settled in your gut.

“Oh yeah, Levi left the door cracked after he gave me his jacket,” Connie said as he dropped into the seat next to Sasha.

“Really.” Hange crossed her arms and Connie nodded, pulling Levi’s jean jacket closer. Hange sighed and waved her hand dismissively.

“Moblit, you and Nifa supervise while I take (Y/n) out to meet the truck,” Hange ordered as she marched towards the door. You scrambled to follow her, Connie perked up when he noticed you and you gave him a small smile.

“See you babe!” Connie called after you before the screen door slammed shut. You jogged after Hange as she stalked across the meadow. Sure enough, the sound of a truck rolling up the drive caught your attention, a few moments passed before an ancient truck breached the trees. In the driver’s seat was a shaggy blonde man with round glasses. He parked in front of you and leaned across the car to push the passenger seat open.

“Hop in.” He said simply and Hange motioned for you to go first. You smiled awkwardly as you settled on the bench, thigh pressing against the strangers.

“Hello, I’m Dr.Jaeger, Zeke Jaeger.” He offered you his hand and you shook it firmly. Once Hange slammed the door shut, he pulled the gear into drive and the truck rattled up the drive, pulling into the small paved space behind the pole barn.

“Let’s get these meds in the storage room shall we?” Zeke said as he pulled the keys from the ignition and shoved them deep into his worn jean pockets. The three of you gathered at the bed of the truck, Zeke popped it open and leaned into the bed, pulling out a box and passing it to your waiting arms. It was heavier than expected and you let out an involuntary huff of air as you adjusted to the weight.

“Got it?” Zeke chuckled and you smiled tensely before nodding.

“In through that back door and to the right.” Hange directed and you took off towards the barn. Shortly after you had found the door, Hange arrived with two boxes, she jutted her hip out, and you fumbled to find the right key on her ring. Once the door was open you were greeted with the sight of shelves filled with old flat balls, dusty file cabinets, and some collapsed boxes. You added the new boxes to the shelves, Hange reached into her pocket and tossed you a pocket knife, you cut into the box and found it to be full of pill bottles.

“Ha, I feel like I’m dealing drugs.” You almost immediately regretted the comment, but to your relief Hange chuckled and nodded, clapping her hands, signaling for you to throw the knife.

“It can be surprising, but it takes a lot to keep this place running.” Hange agreed as Zeke stumbled in with the last three boxes, you took the top one off of the stack and placed it next to the others.

“Sure does.” Zeke agreed as he set the other boxes aside as well.

“How long can you hang around?” Hange asked, brushing her hands off on her jeans.

“Couple of hours,” Zeke said with a sigh as he reached up to stroke his beard.

“Great, we got two girls who need to get checked out. They are pretty rough on the edges.” Hange warned and you frowned, thinking back on how torn up the girls looked.

“Sure thing, let’s get right on that shall we?” Zeke turned and walked out of the room, clearly, he knew where he was going. Hange matched his pace, you followed closely behind as she told the man about the girls. He listened to her intently, taking in every word.

“Is Erwin here?” He asked looking around the large field as they got to the steps of the large home. You could hear the kids making conversation with one another as they were guided into another area.

“He said he was going to the gate to meet you,” Hange said, her eyes also drifting to the large gate which was still opened.

“He’s probably still in his office. Have you briefed him?” The man asked, light reflecting off of his lenses as he looked down at Hange.

“Yes.” She said, her voice calm as she spoke as if remembering something. You felt lost as they talked like you should have been somewhere else.

“Okay then, we should separate them, I want to talk with Alice first.” The man said, Hange nodded before looking back at the gate which still hung open revealing the large dirt road that you had ridden in on the day prior.

“Okay, I’ll get Mike to close it, then (Y/N) can help us with the girls.” She said, pulling out a small walkie-talkie and speaking into it, you could hear Mike's voice on the other side. Soon you saw him walk Leisurely out of the large pole barn and shut the gate. Zeke examined you, almost as if he was trying to figure something out, all you could think to do was give him a small smile, which made him shift his gaze back to the brunette.

“We should go now, they just finished breakfast so they’ll be going to the barn for rec time and group.” Hange said looking between you both. Zeke nodded and led you into the home which was now quieter than before, the only voices heard were two hushed boys in the kitchen, though you couldn’t see them you had a suspicion it was the small blonde and Mikasa. The two girls were still sitting at the table, the taller one was watching as Alice took small bites of her breakfast, it looked to be a taxing task for her.

“Hello, girls,” Zeke said, his tone soft as he pulled up one of the small stools that stood at the mismatched table and brought it close to the teens. The taller one practically jumped in her skin when he got close, placing a protective arm over her sister. While she looked at the man, her body looked so small as she met his eyes with a still expression. You had now noticed the two nurses from before, both standing at the ends of the stairs. Zeke was met with cold stares from Addy, he seemed used to it.

“How are you two managing? I know adjustments like this can be hard.” He said his expression kind as he spoke to them.

“The moon,” Alice said softly, her voice partially gone from the screaming she had done the night before.

“What about it?” Zeke asked, seeming to take note of what she had said, it was the first words she had spoken since she had got here. You could tell Hange got excited, her glasses glinting in the morning light. Alice looked as if she was about to speak more but Addy opened her mouth before her sister could.

“She’s always liked to see it, it calms her. She can’t look at it through the barred window in the attic.” She said, looking directly at Zeke, almost as if it was a demand he had to meet.

“What do you like about the moon?” He asked the girl, who seemed to open up at this question, turning her body towards Zeke so she could talk.

“No matter the date it always has a precise agenda, you know where it’s going to be every night, you know how it’s going to look. And even if you can’t see it through the dark clouds, you can always see the light. You always know it’s there.” She said, her voice light as she spoke about it, Zeke nodded intently as she opened up to him. You noticed that the sleeves of the long sweater she wore were frayed as if she had bitten at it. Addy watched the two, anger building up inside her as her sister began to converse with this strange man.

“Would you like to come to my office with me and tell me more about it?” Zeke asked, that same soft smile from the car appearing on his lips as he asked her the question. The girl nodded, looking more innocent than any kid here did. Holding a look in her eye that you couldn’t shake, pure joy.

“We don’t go anywhere without each other.” Addy hissed, her eyes widening as she held her sister back.

“We have something else planned for you, you’re going to go hang out with the others for a while and get your chore list,” Hange said, chiming in before the girl could get too aggravated.

“I’ll be fine,” Alice said, looking up to her sister who started to stand from the large table.

“I promise I won’t keep her long,” Zeke said, giving Addy the same smile he had given her sister. Hesitantly she removed her hand from her sister and watched as the two nurses led the small girl out of the room, each letting her stabilize herself on their arms. Zeke followed behind them as he told her what they would be doing.

“Ready kiddo?” Hange asked the girl, whose eyes lingered on the doorway where her sister once stood.

“That’s a stupid fucking shirt.” Addy spat, her eyes now fixated on the colorful t-shirt that you had been too busy to look at this morning. You looked down to see the black letters on your shirt that read “ smile while you still have teeth.” A wave of embarrassment flew over you, you crossed your arms over your chest as Hange tried not to chuckle at the phrase which she had also just seemed to notice now.

“What?” You asked, actually finding the wording clever when you purchased it at the old thrift store by your parents' house, it brought back memories you didn’t even know you had.

“It's pretty bad.” Hange laughed, before walking over to Addy who had a smile hanging loosely from her lips.

“I thought it was funny.” You said, clearly hurt by the words that had just been exchanged. Addy scoffed and pushed past you and marched towards the main hall, Hange turned and beckoned Armin and Mikasa to follow. The odd group stood on the porch for a moment as Hange addressed her staticky radio. Armin was looking at you with wide, curious eyes and you gave him a friendly smile in return.

“Hey.” You greeted and he smiled at you widely.

“Hello.” Mikasa watched the exchange with careful eyes, clearly ensuring that Armin was handling the situation well.

“My name is (Y/n).” You introduced yourself and Armin nodded and extended a hand to shake.

“Armin, and this is Mikasa.” He gestured to the girl and her chin lifted at the mention of her name. You nodded and shook his hand firmly.

“I’m excited to be here with you.” You said and he shrugged.

“First time?” He asked, making you recall the way Connie had introduced himself to you.

“Yeah, that easy to spot?” You chuckled and he shrugged indifferently.

“Well, when you’ve been coming here as long as we have….new staff members aren’t that common.” He explained and you felt dread drop into your chest. This facility was practically year-round, it amazed you with how many kids were spending their teenage years here.

“Ah, that makes sense.” You weren’t sure how to appropriately reply to that, but Armin seemed to think it was funny, he giggled and folded his arms over his chest.

“Alrighty kids, they’re just waiting on us!” Hange exclaimed and the lot of you all crossed the lawn and entered the pole barn. Now the main floor was filled with metal folding chairs. All of the kids were gathered in a circle, Levi was bouncing a dodge ball absently in the center of the circle, the ball was the only sound in the room. The three kids that you and Hange had escorted took the open seats and Hange and you stood back as Levi continued to bounce the ball. Once the three were settled he caught the ball and raised a brow.

“So...who’s going first today?” He barely got the words out before Connie’s hand shot up at full force, his chair screeching against the concrete as he planted his feet into the ground, propelling him backward. Levi tossed the ball and Connie caught it with his raised hand, bringing it to hug against his chest as he grinned at the teens.

“My name is Connie, and I’m 16 years old. I’m bald now because I had lice, I also have crippling anxiety and a history of drug abuse.” He nodded, pleased with his share and looked to Levi for his reaction. When Levi motioned for him to keep going, he inhaled and looked up thoughtfully.

“This is my third year here at Turning Point. Uh I keep coming back because the ladies here are fine as-”

“Connie” Levi scolded, eyes narrowing and lips pressed into a firm line. Connie’s shoulders dropped and his eyebrows cinched together, the happy facade falling for a brief moment.

“In case you haven’t noticed yet...I cope using humor, as Zeke tells me anyway.” Connie’s eyes drifted to Levi, looking for his approval, Levi nodded and Connie lit up once more.

“That’s enough.” Levi grunted and Connie surveyed the group before winding his arm up and tossing the ball to Eren who caught it with ease and tapped his hand against it once before opening his mouth to speak.

“I’m Eren, I guess I have anger issues and anxiety. The only reason I’m here is because it was either this or juvy, so it was a lose-lose situation.” Eren looked over to the side, losing his focus for a moment, his expression detached. He looked to Levi who motioned him to speak more, he obliged with a slight shrug of his shoulders.

“I guess I’ve always been angry, gotten into a lot of fights, got kicked out of my home, got kicked out of school. I haven’t gotten lice though which is a step up from Connie.” The boy gave Connie a fake smile, which made Connie itch his head while glaring at the dark-haired boy. Ymir scoffed and Levi shot her a glare.

“Okay Eren, pick someone to go next.” Levi cut into the boys, visibly annoyed with how immature they were acting. You had to hold in a laugh as Connie stuck his tongue out at the angered man who didn’t respond to the action. Eren handed the ball to Mikasa who in turn chucked the ball across the room, the ball smacking loudly against Jean’s head.

“Why me!?” Jean yelled, rubbing his cheek dejectedly, the ball rolling to a stop at Levi’s ankles. He sighed and picked the small dodge ball up and tossed it gently back to Mikasa. The girl scoffed and squeezed the ball, knuckles turning white. She shot a pointed glare at Levi before she spoke.

“My name is Mikasa, I’m 16 years old and this time the court ordered me to be here, but in the past, I’ve been admitted here for my depression….” Her eyes shifted to Levi and he gave her a curt nod and she tossed the ball in Ymir’s direction. The brunette smirked and hit her palm against the rubber ball with a loud smack. Several kids jumped at the sound, but the most noticeable was Historia, who was seated to her left.

“The name’s Ymir, and the only reason I’m here is cause some jackass messed with me and I lit his car on fire-” You had been so invested in the sharing time, that you didn’t notice the man approaching you from behind. A strong hand landed on your shoulder and broke your concentration.

“Sorry for the wait. Welcome to Turning Point (Y/n), my name is Erwin Smith, I’m the director here.” You turned and craned your neck upwards to meet his shockingly blue eyes.

“Nice to meet you, sir.” He chuckled and shook your hand firmly.

“There’s no need for such formalities.” He said quietly as he broke the intense eye contact to look at the group. You were surprised to see Levi looking at the two of you, but once your eyes met his, he returned his gaze back to Reiner, who currently held the ball.

“Let’s take this conversation into my office.” He suggested, eyes still on Levi as he spoke. You nodded and Erwin’s hand returned to your shoulder, guiding you around the perimeter of the barn towards one of the few back rooms. Hange tailed behind you, her arms linked behind her back as she walked. Erwin opened the door for you, motioning you in before him. The space was surprisingly minimalistic and modern. There was an array of photos decorating the wall, one in particular that caught your eye was a photo of Erwin and Hange on a beach, Erwin’s arm looped around her waist. Erwin sat behind his desk and Hange leaned up against the door casually. You slowly sank into the seat across from Erwin and straightened up your posture as Erwin opened his laptop and began to scroll through it.

“As I understand you graduated with a major in psychology and a minor in sociology, very impressive.” He mused as he took his eyes off of the screen to meet yours once more.

“Yes that’s correct.” You clarified, crossing your legs.

“Excellent, well seeing that you have no prior experience in facilities like ours, I believe that the best option for you here is to shadow one of our more experienced members.” Erwin seemed to almost be speaking to himself, not really seeking your opinion on the matter.

“Hange, do you have any recommendations?” Erwin asked, eyes on his screen once more as his fingers flew across the keyboard.

“I would volunteer but I took the last one and we all remember how that worked out…” Hange scratched the back of her neck awkwardly and Erwin let out a low chuckle as he nodded in agreement.

“Levi it is then.” He made some final notes before closing his laptop and linking his fingers together and resting his chin on them.

“Any objections?” He asked, you shook your head and he flashed you a bright smile.

“Excellent. It’s settled, from now on you’ll work with him on all his usual assignments.” Erwin said, standing up from his desk and you did the same.

“This’ll be rich.” Hange snickered and Erwin shot her a stern look.

“You’ll get along just fine,” Erwin assured you and you felt an uneasy feeling settle over you. Hange laughed once more and strode over to you, draping an arm over your shoulders and pressing her cheek against yours.

“Who knows, maybe you two will hit it off!” She teased and even Erwin cracked an amused smirk at that.