#haven’t gotten sleep

[nellasbookplanet]

I know that after Downfall the perspective of 'the gods are a FAMILY' has permeated fandom on both sides of the kill-all-gods argument, but frankly that isn't all they are and acting as if it's suddenly their only motivation flattens both them as characters and the narrative they (and bells hells) are in.

The Wildmother and The Raven Queen didn't 'let' Lolth get away with nabbing Opal and killing Cyrus because she’s their sister. Come on man, we've already seen that the primes are plenty capable of opposing and fighting their siblings on the side of mortals (is the calamity a joke to you??). I'm not saying the primes aren’t capable of picking the lives of their betrayer siblings over mortals (downfall showed as much) but that's not what the situation with Opal and Lolth was about in the slightest.

They let Lolth 'get away with it' not because she’s family, but because this is the very rare instance of them not only having the same goal, but of them actively fighting for their lives. As far as we know that has only happened once before on Exandria, and that time they also entered a truce to defend themselves. The vast majority of the time, the primes picking their siblings over mortals won’t happen because mortals can’t actually threaten the gods (normally), making the 'they're family argument' a moot point. The primes won’t necessarily agree with Lolth's methods, but they won’t go throwing away both hers and their own champions in a meaningless struggle when they need all their strength to stop the fucking apocalypse.

[napping-sapphic]

I really do know that physical appearance isn’t everything but i also really hope that one day i get to experience someone i love looking at me and thinking i’m pretty

[urcasualtkofan]

maybe

maybe hunted and broken could be friends

hunted senses his depressed vibes and thinks he needs fixing or is injured and tries to help

they can hide under furniture together

[mxtxfanatic]

@zykamiliah Ok bear with me because I’m just writing off the top of my head.

I think I misspoke a little in the tags on your post: I don’t think Shen Yuan attributes all of his good deeds and skills to Shen Jiu throughout the novel; I think he attributes them to Shen Qingqiu the Character. Now, walk with me a little:

I like playing video games, especially those in which I can customize my own characters. Two such games are The Sims and Dragon Age. In The Sims, you can create your own character from scratch, meaning you are in charge of their looks, their personality, their backstory, their narrative, and life progression. You are in charge of everything if you so choose to be. Dragon Age, however, is not like that. You get to decide what your character looks like (to an extent), but you don’t get to create a backstory. You can decide romance but you are not in control of the story beats of those romances, just the choices you make in them. You can influence certain aspects of your character, but they will always go through certain events and always arrive at a predestined conclusion. How does this apply to Shen Yuan? Well, he’s just been stuffed into the character of a seemingly Dragon Age-type narrative.

Shen Yuan doesn’t get to decide Shen Qingqiu’s backstory. He doesn’t get to decide what his story designation is; he is automatically assigned the “scum villain” role. He doesn’t even get to decide Shen Qingqiu’s personality until he unlocks the ooc function. Shen Qingqiu is already a teacher, he is already a powerful cultivator with a renowned name, sword, skills, and he is already Luo Binghe’s abuser that will eventually throw him into the Endless Abyss, all story points that are unchangeable. And Shen Yuan is fully aware of this—uncomfortably so, in fact, with how the system exists to monitor his every move in order to keep him “on track.” It’s not unreasonable, therefore, for him to believe that this predestination applies to everything and everyone else, so much so that he believes that his small acts of kindness can only serve as pockets of reprieve for the “characters” before the predestined hardship arrives, nothing more.

But, as we find out, these “small acts of kindness” are narrative-changing—much stronger than the so-called predestination—and it is the formerly stated awareness and surveillance that leads Shen Yuan to be unable to see this, disregarding the tangable ways that his style of playing Shen Qingqiu has altered the narrative written by the author and upheld by the system. This applies to as early as Ning Yingying’s bolder personality and as late as Luo Binghe’s corruption by Xin Mo. It’s probably very significant that just how much the world of pidw had diverged from the original book is revealed to Shen Yuan only after Shen Qingqiu the Character self-destructs and Shen Yuan resurrects himself using the plant body. From that point on, he has to contend with how his actions have changed things, how Luo Binghe has been changed by him, enamored with him—not Shen Qingqiu the Character—and how, actually, the book he has transmigrated into doesn’t have a predestined ending because he has broken everything wide open.

And this isn’t to say that Shen Yuan doesn’t fully see himself as Shen Qingqiu, but it’s the difference between seeing himself as a part of Shen Qingqiu vs. seeing Shen Qingqiu as a part of himself. “Luo Binghe can’t love me because Shen Qingqiu is his scum villain.” “I can’t love Luo Binghe because Shen Qingqiu is his shizun.” “PIDW is destined to be a stallion novel, and Luo Binghe is guaranteed happiness with his harem.” These are the “predestined facts” that Shen Yuan has been shaping his pidw experience with, until they stop being facts and he has to actually look at the changes he has wrought and what he wants out of them, not what Shen Qingqiu would want or expect or react to. And I don’t think he ever fully divests himself of this mentality (we can still see him being casual about his skills even in the extras), but he is much freer in his actions and desires at the end of the story without the weight of Shen Qingqiu the Character dogging his expectations and even more so in the extras without the system acting as enforcer to his thoughts and behaviors.

[bigboysteveharrington]

Jonathan being physically and verbally affectionate toward Argyle in a platonic way because he’s trying to be an ally to Will and show him that it’s okay for guys to be affectionate toward each other and that he doesn’t have to be constantly terrified that people will immediately know what he is if he lets himself show affection toward his crush and that Hopper won’t flip his shit on Jonathan for it when he sees it happening so Will doesn’t have to worry about Hopper seeing him hug Mike for a little too long and out of nowhere flipping the switch and pulling a Lonnie

And that goes according to plan just fine with lots of long hugs and arms around each other’s shoulders and playing with each other’s hair and “I love you, man”s and sitting much closer together than is strictly necessary and holding hands while Jonathan leads Argyle around and nicknames and talking about how much they appreciate each other and how much the other means to them and Jonathan is enjoying it and obviously Argyle is too, but then Argyle figures the national progression of whatever’s going on is to kiss Jonathan and Jonathan immediately is like oh maybe I’m more than just an ally and maybe this is more than platonic behaviour and seamlessly transitions into I guess I’m dating Argyle now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And Will still gets to see the way his family reacts to that when Jonathan and Argyle are very obviously an item and he doesn’t have to worry in the back of his mind about how they would react if they knew that Lonnie had been right about him all along for sure

[akaashii-keiji]

Yall max has to stop looking at my MC like a kicked puppy because I'm feeling guilty. Jin is my day one I'm sorry stop making it so hard to stick with Jin.

[alluralater]

just finished moving around/reorganizing my entire bedroom. i have cried three times today but now i’m laying in bed, my room smells of roses, and i’m eating french bread. this was not the bipolar hot girl mania i was promised but damn if i don’t do it well

[doctor-ciel]

I’m thinking about how in Blue Period, a part of the story was dedicated to the idea of the naked body and how the main character is ashamed of his, feels disconnected from it, thinks of it as just a pile of putty, how nakedness is extremely vulnerable and terrifying. And they talked about how close everyone is to death. And when he painted a live nude model, he recontexutalized all of these feelings about nakedness into seeing it as something beautiful.

And then later in the story, they introduced a character with him unveiling a fuckoff huge nude self portrait of him draped across a couch. What a effective and efficient way of telling everything you need to know about him as a person before he even says anything. Like, normally a character being introduced like this would be a quick way of saying "this guy's an arrogant asshole," but with the specific themes the story built about nakedness, it says that he's a very transparent and confident guy who knows himself well.

Also, they used the ocean to represent death during that arc, with it taking place in a hotel that overlooked the ocean, and he spends a lot of time there too fishing as a hobby.

Edit: I’ve been informed that that’s not himself he painted. But being this comfortable about nudity still shows more or less the same point. Also, I haven’t finished the manga, so I can’t say whether this ends up being an accurate assessment of his character, just that this was my first impression of him.

[faeriefully]

tragedy: woman needs to fall asleep early and therefore cannot fall asleep at all

[catacropolis]

Playing totk , majoras mask, and twst while helping my friend playing fear and hunger termina at the same time is making the ol brain begin to function again

[goldkirk]

Got my first meeting with a psychiatrist in over a year since the last one demanded details about trauma when I was visibly sweating and shaking! Let’s hope today goes much better and that I have the prefrontal cortex online enough to leave if necessary instead of tolerating that kind of thing again

[thisispoggers]

Sometimes I wonder if Duri’s personality comes from Oboi’s actual trait or the fact he got dropped on his head as a newly appeared elemental cuz Gopal commented that on his BBBG debut episode/gen

Cuz I would rewatch season 1 at times and I would remember that lil detail

Also yowch but Solar’s debut was worse cuz he was literally born during one of the worst battles in the series and got yeeted into space during the same day he appeared also ngl that is prime angst material now that I think about it

Actually why are these two night and day when it comes to centric fanfics I could have a cute gardening fic with Duri and it’s next door neighbour is Solar getting bullied (I mean I’ll eat that shit up ngl but bruh) (also I sound stupid I should really sleep)

[witch-without-gender]

Hey weirdos I want ur opinions

Feel free to reply, reblog, or send an ask with ur opinions but uhhhh I’m thinking about going into law. Like, maybe to become an attorney.

Yes I got the idea from playing Ace Attorney and being so horny on main for Phoenix Wright (why him? Don’t have an answer to that question. Genuinely no clue) but uhhh also the more I look into it the more I think it’d be a great fit for me.

Like I’m calling around to local law firms and asking about the job and the schooling and such and like. Man. It sounds like a dream job practically. Obviously there’s gonna be parts of it I don’t care for but like, even some of the stuff the attorneys I spoke with said were bad I was like ???? how’s that bad? Like one of them was saying if I were to open a private firm it’s a lot of like, running your own business (of course) and he made it sound so bad but I was also genuinely considering opening my own business at some point so like. That’s something I already think I’d be at least decent at and have looked into a bit.

Anyway. I just really like philosophy and debate and research and I wanted to be a teacher to make a positive impact on people’s lives but can’t really handle that environment so like, law seems so great for me because I’d also be able to make a positive impact and like, wouldn’t have to deal with bullshit like teaching common core 💀

[sekaitransparents]

hey guys, sorry for the slight delay! we’ve been really busy the last couple days. but, all the transparents for the new event should be out in the next day or two!

all of the 4 stars have already been submitted in, so all we need to do currently is finish airi’s, and clean up those submissions. and then post them all, obv.

[tonguetyd]

Ooooooh big Mister Stark I don’t feel so good kinda day

[roboticlover20]

Hello yall from @abandonedvirtualfriend blog! As you might know me im robo the one who started the “computer attic” thing

As it come of recently i might be a little while until i get back to the “asking questions” on the blog

Basically i have quite a bit of assessment due and be planning to move out in a couple of days so i may not be able have time to add to the story

However i will be online to skim browse and reblog. I’m excited how you guys and creator may take this storyline and im happy you guys like our little story thing we got going there :)))

Thanks for understanding <3

And for the people who are my followers ill soon to post alot of kinito related stuff as soon as ive settled in :D