#he just needs a few moments first

[factorialsotherfandoms]

Halves of a Whole

So I watched the end of the Tazercraft stream. Have a ficlet in two halves I guess. Disclaimer - I speak no Portuguese so a lot of things are guesswork. And this didn't quite do what I wanted, but I need to get groceries and stuff so... Enjoy?

Warning for what should probably be interpreted as suicidal thoughts

It is dark, and it is cold, and even if he screams Mike can hear nothing. He tries to claw his way out, but his fingers can find no purchase. There is nothing here, at least, not that he can find.

There is nothing to stir the silent void in his heart.

The void, just like the one into which he fell.

He thinks of everything, but most of all of Pac screaming for him - of screaming back.

He should have been more careful, more cautious, more restrained. He should not have been so distracted by the enchanted apple as to not see the weakness in the floor. At least Pac stayed back, at least he was not taken again, not when he has yet to heal; at least it is only Mike who is gone, gone, gone-

Mike cannot live without Pac, just as Pac cannot live without Mike. They are sides of a coin, halves of a whole, each other's heart and soul and the blood in their veins.

He is so, so tired.

He must do this again.

At least it is him taken this time. At least Pac is not alone. It is no mercy from the Federation, but it feels like one at least.

He cannot sleep; he must fight and break out and find his way home, find his way back.

Fight his way to where Pac will be fighting and searching for him.

(He wants to dig down and down and throw himself into the void and never have to think again)

The air remains frozen.

His eyes flicker and fade as they search for a light.

His only thought is of his other half's screams.

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It is dark, and it is cold, and even if he screams nobody will hear Pac. He cannot move, he cannot try; even if he had the strength to, Richarlyson has stolen his fingers, child gripping tight onto him.

It does nothing to quiet the screaming void in his heart.

The void, just like the one where Mike fell.

He cannot think of anything, nothing but Mike screaming for him - of screaming back.

He should have been faster, closer, braver. Or stronger, louder, firmer. Should have gone with Mike, or should have pulled him back. Because now he is gone, gone, gone-

Pac cannot live without Mike, just as Mike cannot live without Pac. They are sides of a coin, halves of a whole, each other's heart and soul and the air that they breathe.

He is so, so tired.

He cannot do this again.

Why could it not be him taken this time? Why must Mike be alone? Why is the Federation not merciful, why will they not just leave them be?

He just wants to sleep, and sleep, and sleep, until death takes him or Mike finds his way home.

Until he gathers the strength to go out, and find Mike just as Mike found him.

(He wants to throw himself into the void, and find Mike there at the bottom of hell)

His body remains frozen.

His eyes remain on the flickering light.

His only thought is of his other half's screams.

[dreamaze]

A collection of some of my favorite details in Minhyuk's vocal performances (studio & live) ♡

The Dreaming: all of this range but especially the gorgeous & fleeting lowest note One Day (No Limit Tour 2022 in Seoul): the one-note melody change in the final chorus (taking a higher note in the chord on 'I'm' — it's so good I'm devastated it's not in the studio version) Wildfire: the quick melisma on the 'in' of 'inside' thanks to a happy accident in the recording booth that became permanent Love Killa: all of this lovely melting tone in the bridge but especially the vibrato on the final note (we love thoughtful vibrato choices!) Beautiful Liar: the floating countermelody in the ending Rush Hour: that growl that only happens in certain performances Gambler: another (subtler) growl between 'calling me' that is unique to his interpretation (Kihyun doesn't do it in his earlier part) Gambler (It's Live, ft. Kihyun): because how could I not love him performing the upper harmony live with no backing track!

[pop-punklouis]

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[alluralater]

hey everyone, i won’t be as active for a while. got home last night super late after being on the road for 20 some odd hours. dealing with some family things and as an older sister, my priority of taking care of my siblings comes first before anything else. being on here is amazing for me but i don’t think i’ll have much time for it. reminder to please treat those in your life who are battling addiction with patience and care. i lost my older brother (sweetest person i’ve ever known and he remained that way up until his last night) to suicide and alcoholism, trauma and ptsd, depression and his feelings of hopelessness. talk with the people you care about. another of my siblings is dealing with the same and i refuse to let it escalate to such a terrifying end twice in less than a fucking year. remind the people you care about that there are beautiful things to live for. show them kindness and love. there is all kinds of misinformation out there but know this, you can make a difference for someone. don’t let them suffer in silence.

[abrushwithdeath]

((I'm gonna try to be around a little bit today, so let me know if you want me to send memes your way!!!

This goes for people I'm already writing with AND anyone I haven't had a chance to write with yet, by the way <3))

[nerosdayinanime]

wait. random idea. Pathetic(blame candy) muzan & kokushibo are exes from Centuries ago and he has Complaints hed like to talk about w him but all hes getting to now is Nakime. hes so sick of his bullshit and just enduring it and goes to kagaya like 'i have to kill kibutsuji. ill help you kill him & the other upper moons just PLEASE im so sick of this shit. i need to kill him' 'well you arent killing me so ill give you the benefit of doubt-'

since they broke up he's hacked at the curse to the point he can snap it Whenever without muzan noticing, he finally did so & went to kagaya bc he can Feel shit's gonna pick up soon. he has his memories but he Ignores Them bc hes ashamed and kinda projecting it onto muzan. he has to kill muzan to kill his shame kinda fucked up coping mechanism yk?

the hashira try to kill him On Sight together but he calmly deflects everything while explaining hes working with them to kill kibutsuji. reluctant acceptance with the note from kagaya giving him a pass. most of them fully believe its a trap tho.

koku seeing tanjiro & his earrings and starting to approach, giyuu already has his blade lodged in his neck as a warning/threat & tanjiro staring at him in shock like 'HUH?? THE MAN FROM MY DREAMS?? HES A DEMON NOW? WAIT WHATS HE DOING HERE-'

[blushy-tigerrr]

vent in tags sorry

cw: mention of loss

[elisedonut]

One thing I like about Marcus is that he's kind of

Schrodinger's Death Eater

Like yeah he's a Slytherin

He's an asshole

But

He is never mentioned again after the third book.

Not once.

Not even a different Flint is ever mentioned

you don't even hear about like his parent being a death eater which means

You can make him one if you want

if you need him to be for the story you want to tell

Or you can choose not to if that fits better

and immediately neither of these actually go against canon

Which is really fun to me

Because you can make him and his family just literally leave the country if you want

Or maybe he is just a death eater

Or if you like me like him being close to the others that we know around his age and are also allergic to making OCs you can make him a spy with Percy

maybe they both work in the ministry and he uses the fact most people won't watch him as closely as they do Percy to get things done that need to be done. Very Percy is the brains of the operation and Marcus is the actual body of it because they both know Percy really can't step out of line too much.

But similar to how Hogwarts was during that last year of the war people just assume that as a pureblooded Slytherin Marcus is just on their side by default so don't even look twice at him

Or you know just a Quidditch boy

[theyarebothgunshot]

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[aroacesigma]

i would do anything for a sigma light novel of what he went through before joining the doa please asagiri i will kill i will do anything i literally need it so bad

[lemonyinks]

I didn't like Mekt much but I do hate seeing him only utilized as a villain, as if Legion Worlds didn't happen.

Where is the Mekt who admitted that he was wrong to let his loneliness and jealousy dictate how he acted? Where is the Mekt that worked to be better? Where is the Mekt who welcomed Ayla home and put himself in harms way to help her save their parents farm? Where is the Mekt that delighted at the idea of seeing Garth again and was sad to hear he wasn't really coming back?

I don't know. Maybe it's just me but Mekt works so much better as a character of redemption and reconciliation than as one who stays bitter and antagonistic. He's more interesting that way

[ren-lui]

we'll grow out of it, surely

[phantajam]

my hot take about descendants is that NONE of the core four were ready for a relationship until maybe like, the third movie (rant in tags)

[sysig]

Someone’s looking out for you ♥ (Patreon)

[i-could-be-so-much-more]

It frustrates me to no end that everyone I talk to someone new my brain catastrophises to the point where even though I know logically it’s fine, and normal, and fun, I end up making it a bigger deal in my head that I know it is…I think myself into spirals that the logical part of my brain knows are ridiculous and dramatic and improbable, which stress me out more than is entirely necessary…it’s so tiring to exist and participate in the social world sometimes

[tariah23]

Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)