#he really said bro chill

[brother-hermes]

WHEN METATRON SCREAMS BRO CHILLL!

So I had a strange mystical experience on Saturday right. It was one of those things I can’t explain with words but it ties into awareness beyond any of the base forms we think of. Like, after meditation I even tried to read and the sensation continued. Then heightened until I stopped everything again and went further into the silence. Forgive the vagueness but these things don’t translate.

Reached out to my spiritual director and a few adepts from various orders all of whom landed on the same thing- it was beyond their experience. Some people would rejoice in that but I feel it’s dangerous to be beyond the level of our teachers. Anyways, a fellow acolyte suggested doing a quick draw and asking Metatron for guidance. The theory being if it’s beyond our human understanding then receiving guidance from one who isn’t confined to human thinking may clear it up.

I drew a four of swords. Contemplation , recuperation and rest right. “So clarify as that’s what led me here please.” 9 of cups. That’s the bro chill card in this instance. You made it. Your spiritual practice has brought you to a place of peace. Accept it and sit with it.

So I did that. Big chilling in Yesod with the homies. I spent the evening creating art and did my regular prayers over areas I struggled with during the day and went to bed. I let Monday be a day of real rest and didn’t do much beyond light writing and prepping for a YouTube video. Maybe an hours worth of work and I spent that listening to low-fi and chilling with my child.

Today is back to the grind so I returned to the deck and asked a simple question: what am I really doing? The answer is the spread you see above you. 3 out 5 cards beyond my ever present Prince Of Wands are Major Arcana. It’s really basic past, present and future setup so this spread is really straightforward. I only asked for clarity on staying in the present. Hierophant meets the social intelligence of the Queen of Wands drawing guidance from the Hermits inner Source. Obviously, later adjustments are to come but fire water and earth will deal with the motion of air later; it’s not todays problem. However, I should be aware that adjustment is always present while remembering the materialistic aspects of my own nature- savvy capitalists understand why the Prince of Disks floats around in the past leading up to the Hierophant of today.

My guy really said continue evaluating and reflecting on your spiritual truths and don’t tamper with divine balance. Be present and teach.

I say all that because this is what the Tarot is for. Self evaluation and understanding where your consciousness is in relation to the cosmos; like what part do you play in the divine balance currently? Granted, there are other types of readings but my spiritual disposition keeps me far from those. Divining the future or trying to unravel the cosmos has never been the aim for me. I don’t particularly care what other people do so long as I treat them with compassion regardless. Humans be humaning right. Although, this spread does reveal a need to strike a balance between a desire to teach and financial security.

Some of you know this is a question I’m wrestling with. Is it right to receive payment for teaching people how to find their concept of divinity and being lasting peace into their lives? I’ve gone out of my way to give away every piece of practical spiritual practice to others for free knowing I’ll eventually sell a few books. Maybe that is the balance but as of today continued contemplation is in order.

[turtleblogatlast]

Something I like about Leo is that he’s honestly really chill? It’s easy to remember the moments where he’s being obnoxious or excitable but I feel like most of the time he’s incredibly “go with the flow” and has an overall affable demeanor.

[metaphorthejesterdraws]

(UNDERTALE SPOILERS) I AM DEFINITELY READING INTO THIS WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY TOO MUCH BUT

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THE DUALITIES! the parallels between 'a chip on my shoulder' and almost 90 episodes later, 'a fish on my shoulder' are SOOOO NEAT... a duel!! to settle a dispute! to mend ones honor! to say sorry.. i LOOVE how the riptide crew has evolved n blossomed over time....

[blowflyfag]

Gonna fucking boast uh I came out to my little brother about being a guy and it went really well :)

[fala-alfredo-pasta]

On the topic of Nagito resenting Izuru, I actually think it could go beyond that. Something that I'm not totally convinced about is none of Class 77 having any hard feelings towards Hajime. While them loving him inside the simulation makes perfect sense, would that really carry over smoothly once they were back out? Because his actions led to both them being brainwashed and for their deprogramming session being sabotaged in the first place. And to add insult to injury, he can take some solace in feeling less "tainted" than they are. Izuru had more autonomy and self-control during the Tragedy, while they were reduced to vicious idiots acting on whatever violent impulse came to them. Like with Sonia, she has to live with being known to the world as the tyrant queen who brought her homeland to ruin (though I personally like to headcanon that Novoselic is recovering). Meanwhile for the few people who are aware of a 15th Remnant, Hajime is "that one other dude with the long hair that we're not even sure killed that many people". I mean if I came out of the NWP with all that mental (and possibly physical) baggage, and the dude in our group who was most responsible for the rest of us becoming so fucked up was conversely the least guilty of us AND got handed a thousand super-talents...well I think I'd be a wee bit resentful and jealous. And going back to Nagito, it also seems a bit unrealistic to me that in most fanfics there doesn't seem to be any resistance from him to accepting medical aid from Hajime. Or dismay at discovering it was done while he was in a coma. Because on top of him probably not feeling like he'd want to prolong his life, accepting that kind of aid from the former Izuru would probably feel kind of infantilizing to be honest. Dude gets handed everything you ever wanted including a better version of your luck, he betrays Hope's Peak because he's bored, does absolutely nothing while someone dear to you is murdered and you and your classmates get brainwashed, sets things up so that your attempted suicide will actually result in you getting possessed by your nemesis...and now you're just meant to let him assert the power of a doctor over you and welcome him as your savior? I just think there'd probably need to be a moment where Nagito is convinced to accept treatment, rather than it being done to him without his consent. Make him feel assured that he has agency and control over his own body, and that continuing to live was his own choice. Because otherwise I think it could get really nasty. " I don't care that you're the most talented man alive. Even if I'd wanted to live, you, of all people on this planet, YOU are the last human being on Earth that I would want help from."

Ooo this be a spicy take! But some very good points! First off, sorry for taking so long to reply to this question it just this got me back into my Dangan theorist mode, and I wanted to replay all of Chapter 0/6 as well as read a summary of Zero in order to re-examine how the game and novel present Izuru Kamukura.

I’ll try my best not to derail this because Izuru’s whole existence and backstory is just…..such a brain worm for me that I can speculate on for hours. There’s just so much we don’t truly know if we’re basing this solely on the games (which I usually prefer to do seeing as the anime is filled with contradictions). But, doing so would mean having to excuse his involvement (or lack of) in preventing Chiaki’s murder and class 77’s brainwashing since there’s nothing within the games that indicates such things happening since even within game it flat out states Junko manipulated her high power connections (ie: the Ultimates), one by one and not in a batch.

She really only used video footage of explicit killing to manipulate the Reserve Course into rioting (Dr0), the rest of the world into more despair (Dr1) and as a way to taunt the Future Foundation (SDR2). Hell, technically, there is no proof that Chiaki actually existed in real life if we’re going only by the games too. That was something canonized by the anime.

Well okay. There may be ONE thing in the second game that can potentially confirm Chiaki’s existence in the real world and that’s her presence being listed in the book Nagito got with everyone's info. However, this was given to him by Monokuma and Nagito did destroy any of the information regarding his classmates time in and out of  school that could have very well revealed that Chiaki wasn’t ever there—but I digress and this aint about Chiaki rn this is about Izuru.

What we do know of him through the game is that he sees himself as being used by Junko and thus brought in a flash drive with her AI to insert into the Neo World Program as a virus so he could use her instead. This feels contradictory though, if the end result would be Junko taking over all their bodies. You can’t even argue that he did it so Hajime could override his present self and come back because that would have happened regardless (that was literally what was SUPPOSED to happen). So then why bring Junko back? How was he using her in that regard? Well, the only thing I can think of is that he pretty much already knew how it was all going to end, and that creating a killing game was the only way to ensure everyone stayed alive whilst retaining their old memories thus decreasing the chance of them falling back into Ultimate Despair when re-awakened and in a way saying “fuck you” to Junko’s despair and destroying the last remnants of her both in name and digitally.

Cool beans. He still lied to them all though. Junko states that each of them willingly went into the program knowing well that her virus was going to force them into a killing game to cause despair. Izuru, though, didn’t tell them his whole plan or how it was truly going to end, otherwise no one would have joined. And that’s not necessarily bad–he was doing it for their own good! Except, well, there’s not conclusive proof that he did so for their sake (and since we don’t know if Chiaki existed irl we don’t know if he did this for her). Also given how indifferent he is in-game, the fact that his surgery left him emotionally distant, and his lack of connection with class 77, well it’d be easier to believe that Izuru did this all purely out of self interest in a way to get “revenge” at Junko and perhaps alleviate his boredom.

Now, present Hajime WOULD have an emotional investment in class 77 and it’s that reason he sticks around to help them recover. But, honestly, I agree that the ex-remnants would take some time to come around to fully trusting him again because remember: they ARE still recovering from despair. It would not be surprising if their residual remnant emotions feel betrayed by him for lying to them and essentially killing off Junko for good. Add in their in-game memories conflicting with their past memories every time they see Hajime and he’s not quite the same Hajime they befriended thus reminding them that he’s also  that guy who just randomly showed up one day then manipulated them into a scheme for seemingly his own self interest, yeeeah it might take them a while before being buddy buddy with him.

Though they will eventually, but let’s focus on Nagito for a bit because he’d be the absolute last person to come around in fully trusting Hajime/Izuru. Because you see, while it was stated that the remnants agreed to be part of the killing game, we know for a fact that not ALL of them did so. And we know this because of chapter 0. In it, we see Nagito meeting Izuru for the first time (as Nagito literally says he’s never seen Izuru before), thus Izuru has not been in contact with Nagito to inform him of the plan (which actually brings into question WHY Nagito is even there/agreed to re-programming but that’s a theory for another day). We also see Nagito being very confused about Izuru’s talking about his flash drive with Junko’s AI in it. And, although he doesn’t fully understand what Izuru is planning, what he takes from it is that he’ll be able to see Junko again and get the chance of killing her himself. Izuru does not correct him or inform him of anything else. Meaning, Nagito knows absolutely nothing of the killing game he unknowingly signed up for nor of the possibility of his body being taken over by Junko.

In other words: NAGITO DID NOT CONSENT TO THIS AT ALL.

Unlike his classmates who can forgive Hajime’s actions as Izuru because yeah technically they DID agree to it, Nagito was not even informed much less had the option to say yes. You can argue that Izuru did so intentionally knowing that Nagito’s strange half-remnant state and intense resentment towards despair and Junko would have made him too much of a risk to the plan that is was better to leave him in the dark, but it still doesn’t change the fact that Nagito didn’t get a choice. Add in our previous discussion of why Nagito would be resentful towards Izuru because of all his gifted talents along with this and I’d say yeah, Nagito wouldn’t be all that welcoming toward accepting Hajime’s help post game.

This doesn’t even add in your note on pro-longing his life without his input or anything from the anime, so if Chiaki’s death was actually used as a trigger for class 77 and Izuru could have done something about it–YEAH that’s going to make the resentment exponentially worse.

So your last tidbit of Nagito getting a chance to decide something for himself just hits so strongly given he never got the chance to do so before. It’s the least he deserves now.

[thereisnofood]

i hate my welding teacher and theres soo much tine between my morning hvac class and the welding class at 1:30 cuz my first class is basically like. if your group finishes with a car early and theres no other cars to look at you can just leave so my group got out like an hour and a half early so im just sitting around dreading going to welding cuz the teacher is a huge dick. i understand why hes a dick and welding is very serious and if you dont take the equipment seriously and understand what you're doing it could have major consequences. but hes an asshole about it though

[random-fandom-person]

Strange little occurrence during a boss fight I had one time that I find myself giggling about every now and then

Like

He's just chilling for a second. It's so fun to me

[dreamsy990]

roxas comes back btw hes alive again. love that roxas is just kinda there its kinda funny

YEAH I KNOW!!!!! you go to twilight town and hes just there hanging out with his friends

[deva-arts]

She's corrupting him with brushed hair, skincare and head scratches. Soon he might actually be tolerable.

On a side note who gave him that smarmy shirt. Someone, anyone. Go compost it.

Bonus scribble and speedpaint under cut!

Making the ratman want to go back to the sewers

Video!!! A video!!! I love ibispaint's niche little features <3

[youronlybean]

Rewarding myself for being productive by reading The Great Space Opera for like the 20th time. This is self care <333

[artificerstimetable]

So uhhh hilda ocs yo

[noxtivagus]

listening to endwalker ost outside of the game hits different fr 🥹

[no-one-hears-me]

another day another male friend to reject

[yoonstudios]

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[bucket-o-slime]

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