Two heartbreaking things about "I was a whim. Yeah, just a whim to you, like your fancy toy unicorn boat and your wife."
Has Ed been imagining that he was just a part of Stede's pirate fantasy and that Stede ran off when the fantasy ended and all he was left with was Ed?
We see in the same episode that Ed knows Stede is gay and would not just randomly make out with a woman, so the fact that Stede left to go back to Mary means it was Ed that Stede didn't want (also brings up the "I'm sorry if my horrible naked chin disgusts you so much").
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Stolitz, and their fear of rejection and sense of worthlessness turning into a self-fulfilled prophecy.
Blitz—
Does anybody love you, Blitzo? / No.
Eventually everyone goes...
Stolas only cares about having a rugged peasant raw-dog him into his mattress. It's nothing... You know. It's nothing else.
I'm going to die alone, aren't I? Just a wrinkly, old, withered waste.
Royal demons don't give a shit about guys like us. They're all the fucking same.
Stolas, don't act like what we have is anything but you wanting me to fuck you. You make that really clear all the time.
But you don't want to do things alone, Blitzo.
I mean, Stolas is just a loud, thirsty bitch who loves feeling the thrill of being dicked by the lower class. It's a novelty to him.
And then he'll call me and try to see how my day was, and he'll pretend to care about me, and comment on my photos, and laugh at my jokes... /Oh well that's definitely your clue right there that it's all bullshit / I know, right?!
It's all my fault. I'd hate me too. I mean, I do hate—
You're going to die alone. You're gonna die alone, Blitzo.
[My worst fear has come true. He couldn't possibly want me. This has to be a joke. He's selfish and an asshole, just like the rest of them. He's trying to get rid of me; that's the only explanation. I'm just a broken toy he's finally gotten bored of, just like I knew would happen. He won't even fight for me, and why would he? I could never be good enough for him. It's happening again. I'm being abandoned by someone I care about. I really am going to die alone.]
Stolas—
Would he want me if he was free? And if he's only here as a prisoner, what kind of monster does that make me?
I mite b bsuy / I wouldn't want to bother you!
You see... I seem to have found myself with, um. Feelings for him. And I'm not sure if it's a mutual thing.
Dearest, I know better now, I must give you this choice.
I'll save us both before we grow cold.
What's between you and I? Just a comfortable lie.
I'm sorry it's a bad time yet again, Blitzy...
He deserves the choice to stay or go.
So I'll grant you this mercy, this bind on our souls needs to end...
Next time you come over, maybe we can talk about what happened at Ozzie's? / Y? / I'm sorry! Nevermind, it's not a big deal.
What's left for me and my broken heart if I cannot have you? Unless it's me, and no matter what in this world I could give, it's not enough to get through the walls you've conjured up to live...
I'll believe him, and not the voice that says I'm not enough.
I'll fucking die alone if this goes bad!
[My worst fear has come true. I truly am not worthy of being loved. He's rejecting me— no, mocking me for even thinking he could ever want to be with me if he didn't need my book. I've been taking advantage of him all this time, all the while believing we had something real and being naive enough to think he could love me back. I am a monster. And now that he can, he has chosen to leave me. So now the least I can do is quietly let him—the only person I have ever wanted and felt alive with—go. I really am going to die alone.]
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The only thing I'd like to add to the discourse is how Pattaya and it's nightlife (?) is a living breathing character in Moonlight chicken . It feels like how in HP hogwarts always protects its occupants, and help is given where it's asked for ; everything ends well .
I've never been to pattaya , but some shots , the making and enjoying of the local cuisine, liming riding his bike in the late night traffic , the festivals bringing people together , the common struggles of people living in and around an area ...
It's such a simple yet very heartfelt loveletter to pattaya , just like the chicken rice . Only minimal ingredients, but still a fulfilling and cozy meal to the hungry working class of pattaya. ❤️
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Astarion playthrough thoughts so far (finished Act 2)
The original content is there (mostly in Act 1), but I'm not sure if it warrants doing an origin run, considering what you lose when Astarion's not in the companion role. Basically you get a Tav with Astarion reskin, pretty much.
One thing that made it a little worth for me so far is that with all the small comments he makes, it did make me notice how eloquent and proper his speech patterns are...there's definitely some old- timey english slang in there as well. It's adorable.
but other than that
Someone summed it up better than I could.... Without Tav being there to give a damn, Astarion's playthrough feels super lonely. There's no reactivity with his questline when it comes to companions, they make no comments or even acknowledge any 'milestones' of his personal quest. (And they DO SO when he's a companion, seems like a real oversight.) Everything is handled so very privately, scars on his back are an inner dialogue starring the narrator in Act 2 for ef sake. At this point I'm not sure why he should choose the redemption route when nobody seems to care about anything concerning him at all, the LI included. :( It just makes me feel like he pretends to be a better person that he is, which in turn feels super sleazy, because he doesn't even try to canonically do that as a companion. :P
I'm planning on finishing Act 3 because my completionist soul wouldn't let me stop. BUT at this point I'm just doing it to be free of this game. XD This is it. The end. Next playthrough in 1-2 years time I SWEAR to GODS.
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ohmygod. you just made me realise that from Wus perspective it goes like this. 1) send a letter to your crush thst reveals all of your deep heartfelt embarassing emotions. 2) find out she started going steady with your brother some time soon after. no wonder he was like "well I guess I'm never revealing I have feelings ever again."
DUDE NOT JUST THAT
he never heard ANYTHING back. not even an ‘i don’t like you like that’ or anything. straight up NOTHING. did she get the letter??? is she pretending she never read it???? he doesn’t KNOW. and then she’s with garmadon and it doesnt really matter anymore, does it? as long as they’re happy. no sense bringing it up now.
and THEN, forty odd years LATER, he finds out that she did get it, yes, and she wasn’t ignoring him........ because she didn’t know it was FROM him
this is why i said wu has every right to be upset. the invasion of privacy and broken trust from garmadon, and..... those DECADES of not knowing what i first pointed out
can you even IMAGINE.
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Today, I just wanna to be held by you, not just the warmth you brought me or the calm before the morning rush would start. But in the way you held me in your eyes, I could feel all the immense amount of love in them, ready to swoop me up and cradle me like if I were a baby… today I miss you. Today, I just wanna be able to call you and say “Hey you, wanna go get coffee and just spend time with me? We don’t even have to talk…..”
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