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its-short-for-jackalope · 2 years

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Some Of My Favorite Cool Staging Choices in NPMD: a ramble, by me!

(is "staging" the right term? idk I wasn't a theater kid)

this will contain spoilers, which you can probably guess since it will be tagged as such.

When we see Richie getting attacked in the cold open, he's facing the audience; when it happens again (haha whoops) he's facing away from the audience & we get to see his attacker. idk man I just think the change in perspective is rad lol

Richie and Ruth taking the stage first for "High School Is Killing Me" because they're the ones who... y'know. (rip 💀)

when that first curtain thing lifts and reveals the rest of the stage 👌🏻

when Steph is trying to get Pete to help her cheat on the test the spotlight on them also lights up Grace before she butts in and gets them in trouble (foreLIGHTENing eh? eh?)

the rotating nerd huddle in "Literal Monster" brings me so much joy like Yes, put those nerds on a giant Lazy Susan and watch 'em go

the nerds sneaking along in the background when Max is singing

the bit with Miss Tessberger (sp?) leaving and returning to the stage from the opposite side

just everything about Pete & Steph's phone call. everything.

the stage going almost completely dark at the end of "Cool As I Think I Am" is fucking epic ok it's such a cool transition. also Max's "I bring light to darkness" and the lighting changes for that. they're both so cool

the bathtub prop. it just looks like it was fun to make. :)

when Steph is talking to Ruth & Richie and then she just turns and they're sneaking into the bathroom. it's like a movie transition in my brain. (also Mariah's little jump like she's trying to look into a stall is adorable)

NERDY PRUDES GOING TO THE WAYLON (sp?) PLACE MY BELOVED 💙 1. walking around the orchestra pit is cool & it's a fun, slightly-more-distanced throwback to when they walk thru the audience in TGWDLM & BF; 2. cool blue lighting + silhouettes, need I say more; 3. the tattered background descending as they walk is fucking magical

it's technically not part of the show at all but i have to give a shoutout to the person near the camera who goes "oh? oh?" when Pete & Steph exchange their cute lil looks in the Waylon House 😂

Richie moving behind the tattered curtains with the camera. also I know it isn't visible but the knowledge that the skele'on costume glows in the dark gives me life. (and Steph giving Ruth a thumbs-up when she's scaring Max??? adorable)

did they blur the npmd logo and put it over Max as he's dying? i fuckin love it no joke

that row of lights onstage just silently clicking off before Max shows up to get Richie 💀💀💀 and then they slowly come back RED

wHEN THE REST OF THE CAST LINES UP TO SILENTLY STAND WITNESS FOR RICHIE'S DEATH 💀💀💀💀💀

the pauses in Jeff's announcement to let everybody groan after their name is called (Joey's "ouhh noo" gets me every time)

I haven't really mentioned choreography because idk how to talk about dancing but... "Hatchet Town" my beloved <3 (all of the choreography in the show is so fun & cool)

BBQ monologues!! the stage is a stage! (whoa, is this tgwdlm???) Love the brief single spotlight on Ruth when she goes on, and bonus points for the red, white, & blue lighting bc barbecues are intrinsically linked to the 4th of July in my brain (🇺🇲🔥)

when Grace is talking to Detective Shapiro I love how gray the stage goes, especially after how colorful the BBQ monologue was, like ugh <3 it makes it feel more serious and important like shit's about to get real (it is)

Officer Bailey (I think that's his name? i do not trust my ears) just angrily moving the chairs after Grace steals his gun and escapes custody 😂

obligatory Beanies Paulkins & HCB scene 2.0 mention <3

Pete sweetie you were just at a football game how did you mix it up with baseball you fuckin nerd (affectionate)

The Chair Mishap™ (I'm not sure but I think all 3 of them broke there, to varying degrees)

Max chasing Solomon off the stage is fun, loved that. (oh shit if he gets you next make it thr... four. you'll be four. or five, technically...? are we still counting Max? this point got derailed.)

the squad car! the lights up top, the brake lights, and also I love when the car turns and everybody just leans to the side (SiS is my favorite for this). also Max just nyooming by as Shapiro takes off is hilarious.

HOLDING COURT WITH THE VOID!!! the increasing whispers, the lighting, the LORDS APPEARING, holy SHIT

the white lights & fog during the slow-mo bullet scene idk it just makes it for me

the homecoming disco ball and the different spotlights are great :D

the group pose at the end of "Best of Me"

the colored lights & Lords laughing at the beginning of "Dirty Dudes" 🤩

okay! that's everything that caught my eye on my fourth watch, lol. obviously there are many many many more awesome little details and funny bits but I wanted to focus more on the set & staging type stuff. it's really cool and interesting to me, especially after Black Friday's glorious secret Wiggly.

if you read all of this I hope you had fun!!

if you didn't have fun, feel free to keep that fact to yourself! 👉🏻👉🏻

#jack jabbers #rambly man will ramble #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #nerdy prudes must die spoilers #npmd spoilers #starkid #team starkid #hatchetfield

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carruechedaily · 1 year

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The only point that Summer has, is the point from A to B, and back to Point A bc the correlation isn't there. Jayda had Loyal and stopped, and yes we know Baby cheats on her.

Summer had a baby by London, got cheated on, moved on quickly to another man (who literally gives off cheater vibes) then had twins by him, got cheated on, and moved onto Meech who also gives off cheater vibes, got cheated on multiple times, then finally left. She chose 3 "Lil Baby's" and has 3 little babies by 2 of the 3 "Lil Baby's" she chose as a bf. She can't use Jayda as a stepping stool to make herself feel better in this situation just bc she left the guys when they cheated, sorry.

🎯🎯 mind you she’s like Londons 3rd or 4th baby mama, her situation makes Jayda look like a genius lol

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trainwreckweather · 2 years

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#day 2 with very little sleep because I'm forcing myself to wake up at 5:44 every #morning #today at midnight I was woken up by my sobbing younger sister #her bf cheated on her for the 4th time (that we know)#and then broke up with her.#i am on comfort watch #I'm very bad at comfort watch but I try #not only that but my father has been drinking sm more again and he's fucking so annoying #and loud and vile #i need sleep PLEASE #but #i'm sticking to it #I'm gonna stay disciplined #maybe I'll get an hour or two in tonight #and chug coffee all day idk #what else am i doing with my life?#people are pressuring me to apply for disability but that feels a lot like giving up #anyway goodnight word #this is a k*egan hate space now #feel free to slander and hate bc my sister is the sweetest person in the world #she's the last person on earth who should've been put through hell like that

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youngbloodlisk · 3 years

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Personal Lives // Lee Sangyeon

- divorced father sangyeon

- fem reader, sangyeon's daughter's teacher

- mention of a cheating bf

- soft dom sangyeon (omg lisa doing something SOFT dom?)

- fingering

- vaginal penetration

- no contraceptive, just pull out (be smarter than a fanfiction, it's fiction for a reason, plz practice SAFE sex)

- sorry for the hiatus and how long it took for this to get finished

"Here, let me help you with that."

"Oh, th-" I turn to see the familiar man in a nice suit, bowtie perfect and white shirt crisp. Strange attire for the 4th grade holiday party. I try to look away from him as I feel my cheeks heat up. "...Thank you, Mr. Lee, but that's okay. You're here with your daughter, right?"

"It's no trouble. She's having a slumber party with a few of her friends, so I'm free of dad-duty for a night." He chuckles. "I'll take those for you." He picks up the stack of dirty paper plates I had been forming, as well as a few dirty paper cups off the table, carrying them to the huge trash bins across the room.

"Thank you!" I call out.

That marks the end of our interactions for a while, both of us just cleaning up on opposite sides of the classroom along with my assistant teacher. Once the room is back in order and the assistant teacher has already left, I'm putting some finishing touches on my desk when I feel a tap on my shoulder and hear that voice behind me again.

"I'm about to head home. Did you drive here?"

I turn to face him, my heart stopping for a moment at the sight of his undone bowtie hanging around his neck.

"No, uh- my car wouldn't start this morning. I took the bus, so I'll be taking the bus back."

"The bus? This late at night? By yourself?"

I nod lightly.

He sighs and shakes his head.

"Would you want a ride home?"

"Huh?"

"I've got a car and an empty passenger seat... and I don't want you to take the bus by yourself so late. There are some creeps out there."

"Um... Mr. Lee, I don't know if I should-"

"It's just a ride. If you feel uncomfortable at any point, I'll drop you off at the nearest bus stop. Besides, I'm saving you the cost of bus fare. What do you say?"

"Well... I'm still gonna be a few minutes."

"That's okay! I've got all the time in the world. I can wait."

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His left hand rests firmly on the steering wheel, his right hand sitting on the middle console.

We've been riding in silence for a few agonizingly awkward minutes, so I decide to try to spark conversation.

"I know I mentioned it when we came out to the car, but it's really nice. How long have you had it?"

"Three years or so. Well, technically we both had it for a year, but then I got it in the divorce a couple years ago. She got the flat screen television and the king size bed, I got the car."

"Oh- I'm sorry if I-"

"No, no, don't be sorry. It's alright. It's in the past. I'm at peace with it."

"It must be hard to raise a little girl alone."

"It can be, but honestly it's not much different from when I was married."

"Really?"

"She never was very hands on. She's a doctor, and she took her job very seriously. She just... didn't have the time for a family."

"Other women are doctors and still make time for their family."

"Yeah, that's true... She just... didn't."

"I'm sorry, I'm probably getting far too into your personal life. It's truly none of my business-"

"Hey, no apologizing. I'd rather talk about my failed marriage than have boring small talk about weather and stuff." He smiles warmly, taking his eyes off the road for just a moment to show me the reassurance in his eyes. "But, I think that gives me a pass to pry a bit. What about you? Past relationships? Boyfriends? Girlfriends? Dogs?"

I chuckle.

"No dogs, my apartment won't allow it. Then again, if that's the rule, they shouldn't have let my last boyfriend in the doors either."

Sangyeon can't hold back his deep laugh.

"Not a great guy?"

"That's an understatement. He was nice and all, a pretty decent boyfriend for a year and a half... until I found out he was cheating on me."

"Cheat on you?! Asshole..."

"No kidding. But, at least that explained why-... Nevermind."

"Explained what? You got me curious now."

"No, it might be a bit inappropriate to discuss with my student's parent."

"Hey, no judgement here. What happens in the car stays in the car. You clearly wanna get something off your mind." He states before honking the car horn and scoffing at someone who just cut him off. He mumbles a "watch what you're doing, asshole" under his breath.

"It's just that... there never was a proper spark or connection, you know... in bed."

He exhales dramatically.

"I definitely understand that. You're not alone."

"You and your wife?"

"Like two strangers who had no chemistry. That was part of why we split. Neither of us could stand it anymore."

"Yeah, eventually it started getting to the point that I was planning to talk to him about it but then... yeah. Then it all made sense. His connection was with the other girl, not me."

"I'm sorry, that's really shitty of him."

"Yeah, it's okay. At least I'm not dealing with it anymore."

"Have you found the connection since then?"

"Hm? Oh, um..."

"That may be too far, sorry. You don't have to-"

"No, no, it's okay! Um... no. I haven't. I've had a few hookups since then but everything's been lackluster at best... What about you?"

"Same here. Bringing home girls from bars every once in a while or getting a Tinder date, but nothing special at all. All of that happens only when my daughter is at a friend's house, of course."

"That's very considerate of you. I'm sure many people wouldn't bother to wait until their kid is out of the house before bringing home dates."

"She's already been through a lot at such a young age, with her parents splitting and only having me. I'd never wanna do something that I know would only make things worse for her."

Every word he says seems to make him more and more attractive. A loving, single father with the decency enough to be considerate to his daughter and her life and well-being...

Extremely attractive.

At that moment, we pull into my neighborhood (thanks to the directions his car's built-in GPS gave him) to see a bunch of flashing red and blue lights up ahead... in front of my neighbor's house. And blocking my door.

"Well, that doesn't look good. I wonder what happened..." I mumble.

"Looks like you aren't getting home anytime soon... hmm..." Sangyeon is clearly in thought, wondering what to do.

"Don't worry about it, you can drop me off. Maybe I can get them to let me by."

"No way, I'm not letting you out here alone." Sangyeon turns the car around and starts to drive out of the neighborhood. "We have no idea what the situation is. It could be dangerous for you. I don't know if you would be comfortable with it, but you could stay the night at my house."

"Oh- I- Um-"

"I would sleep on the downstairs couch, of course. You could take my room."

"I'm not sure if that would be..."

"I understand, I understand. But I'm not letting you go home tonight. Like I said, you don't know how dangerous this situation could be... How about I get you a hotel room? Drop you off, let you spend the night there, and then I'll pick you up in the morning?"

"No! No, no. I couldn't let you spend your money on me like that."

"Will you let me do anything for you? Please?"

"Mr. Lee, I don't know what I've done to earn your kindness."

"You should hear the way my daughter talks about you. You're an amazing teacher, you're making a real impact on her life. I couldn't ever be kind enough to repay you for that. So, where am I heading? Home or the Hilton?"

An hour and a half later, I'm not sure how I got where I am.

Well, I know how I got to his house. The car. But that isn't what I mean...

Maybe it's desperation, maybe it's attraction, maybe it's both. Either way, it's coming from both of us equally, and it's taking physical manifestation with Sangyeon hovering above me on his bed.

His lips mold against mine like gears in motion.

His hands caress my bare torso, until one hand travels down to the waistband of my pants. Sangyeon pushes under the fabric, tracing his fingers along my slit.

He groans against my lips upon feeling me get more and more wet for him.

The touch of his fingers causes me to squirm, resulting in him placing more of his weight onto my body to keep me still.

"You like that? You like my fingers?"

"Y-Yes-" I manage to get out as he slips one finger inside of me.

His lips work on my neck, and his hand works on thrusting his finger in and out until he eventually adds a second one. Pumping rhythmically and curling just enough.

"Sangyeon... Sangyeon, please, I..."

"What? Go ahead, baby."

"I need... I need you... Please."

I can feel his lustful energy grow.

"What's wrong, hm? My fingers aren't enough for you? Tell me what you want, I need to hear it from you."

"I need your-" Slight embarrassment stops me, but the moment he pulls his fingers out of me and places them in his mouth with no hesitation... suddenly I'm feeling more confident. "I need your cock in me, please, Sangyeon."

"Well... what the teacher says goes, right?" He teases with a smile, causing me to smile with him.

The large-framed man stands up next to the bed, unbuckling his belt. Just his presence is enough to make me feel like I'm practically shrinking.

He pushes his pants down, hooking his fingers under his underwear to take them along with the pants.

I felt a bit disrespectful staring at his cock so intensely once it was revealed, but I couldn't bring myself to look away. My mouth was watering, my whole body reacting to the mere thought of touching it. Much less having it in me.

Sangyeon got back on the bed, placing himself on his knees and bringing my legs to either side of his torso.

"Tell me how it feels, okay?" He softly caresses my thigh as he speaks, the action seeming involuntary. "If you want me to stop, just say it. Just say "stop". Got it?"

"Okay, got it."

He nods and runs his tip through to line up, and once he's found the perfect spot, he pushes in slowly.

My breath catches in my throat, causing my moans to break into pieces. He groans and exhales heavily, his eyes falling closed in bliss.

Sangyeon leans over once he feels he's reached maximum capacity inside me, hovering over me again.

"How do you feel?" He asks.

"Feels so good.... full..."

"Am I okay to move?"

I nod rapidly, hoping he would get with it.

"No, I need to hear you say it."

I respond verbally, slightly annoyed at the hold-up, but very appreciative of his concern to have my full verbal consent.

Sangyeon begins to rock his hips back and forth, back and forth. My hands reach up to hold onto his back.

He keeps a steady moderate pace, not very fast but not too slow. And very deep.

Our moans are only silenced when he attached his lips to mine again. There's a certain passion in his kiss, and his approach to sex, that's more... yeah, that's it, just more than anyone else I've ever been with.

Maybe it's the maturity, maybe it's the fact that he used to be married, maybe it's just natural for him...

Who knows.

I'm just glad I get the privilege of experiencing it.

After a bit, Sangyeon stops kissing me and looks in my eyes.

"Where do you want me to cum? Cause I'm getting close."

"Stomach, if that's okay with you?"

He nods, thankfully, cause our breathy strained conversation was a little pathetic to listen to.

"Sangyeon, I'm close."

He reaches one hand down to stimulate my clit as he keeps his steady pace to the best of his ability, knowing that I have to cum before he can. By the way his movement is changing, he's very close to his orgasm, and desperate for it.

The way the pads of his fingers rub delicately, and his thrusts hit in just the right way, I'm feeling the mildly familiar wave of pleasure come and go before I can hardly realize.

Once my body goes lax and I've ridden out the high, Sangyeon pulls out and only has to jerk himself a couple time before his own orgasm is dotting my stomach and chest.

Exhausted, he lays down next to me.

"One second to catch my breath, then I'm gonna get a towel for you, I promise."

"I understand, I don't have as much energy as I used to anymore."

"Exactly."

A couple minutes later, he's helping me clean up. I carefully consider if I should actually say what I wanna say next, but decide I have nothing much to lose.

"Sangyeon?"

"Hm?"

"What was that?"

"... What do you mean?" He sounds genuinely confused, understandably, at my vague question.

"I mean, what did that mean to you? Was it just sex? Was it something more? I don't mind what the answer is, I just need to know."

"That's kind of a heavy question-"

"I know. I'm sorry, I don't mean to be putting pressure on you-"

"Hey, you didn't let me finish. I was gonna say... that's a kind of a heavy question for most people. But I know my answer. I know I've admired you since the day I brought my daughter to her first day in your class. I know my admiration has only grown since then, as I've discovered your personality and your story. I know I love the way you make my daughter feel confident and free to be who she is. I also know that... this thing was primarily an endeavor of neediness and desperation. But that doesn't change how I feel. In fact, I felt it. I felt the spark. The connection we were talking about in the car. But, if we were to become something, I'd wanna take it much slower than having sex before the first date." He chuckles at his own wording.

"But, you do want us to be something?"

He finishes cleaning my stomach off in silence, before tossing the towel to the side and hovering over me, this time being much more wholesome than the last.

"I know we don't know everything about each other. A teacher and her student's parent, there isn't much opportunity to get to know each other fully. So, I won't say anything official yet. No pressure. Just, would you give me a shot?" He kisses me lightly on the lips before uttering my teacher title of Miss and my last name.

I can't help but giggle.

"I'd love to give you a shot, Mr. Lee."

#ciiikbwork #sangyeon smut #the boyz smut #tbz smut #lee sangyeon smut

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purplesurveys · 4 years

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survey by tickticktmr

How many...

How many times have you skipped class? I skipped one day a year back in high school, and that cut was always for this day-long event that the school would arrange to serve as a break from academic classes; for example, for those days we had like themed classes like knitting and it was also usually a themed costume day. I didn’t see the point in it, so I always skipped.

I cut a lot of classes in college that it’s impossible to count because, welp, it’s college lol.

How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? Hundreds.

How many years have you known your second closest friend? 10 years.

How many alarm clocks are in the house? We don’t have any alarm clocks, but we have alarms built into our phones. If those count, then we have five.

How many people have you argued with? I don’t think I can count this. I’ve had arguments with various people ranging from mild bickering to full-blown fights.

How many times have you watched your favorite movie? I watched it every day for a certain period several years ago and I go back to it at least once every year. It’s probably been a little more than a hundred times.

How many people do you live with? Four, my parents and two siblings.

How many pairs of boots do you own? Zero.

How many people have told you they're in love with you? Just the one.

How many times have you cried over the opposite sex? A handful, but all have been in the non-romantic sense. I used to cry all the time when we’d drop my dad off at the airport, and I’ve cried over my grandpa’s and Nacho’s death as well.

How many people have been in your house at one time? Do you mean what’s the most number of people that’s stayed at our house at one given time? Not sure...maybe it was the time the entire executive board of my org came over for a meeting before the official start of the sem? It was only a little over 10 people, but then again my mom doesn’t appreciate too many visitors.

How many stuffed animals are in your room? There are a couple of plushies, but not anything bigger than that.

How many cellphones have you went through? Tons. I was my parents’ nightmare. I’ve gone through 8 so far.

How many pets do you have? We have two living ones, both dogs.

What would you do if...

What would you do if you could never listen to music again? I’d be really distraught over never being able to listen to my favorites anymore. Even if I don’t really listen to music when I’m depressed, i.e. now, I still like having the option to tune in when I feel like it. So even if it won’t be the end of the world, I’d still feel pretty damn lonely.

What would you do if your current bf/gf cheated on you? I don’t have one anymore but I’d be really puzzled and be betrayed if she had, given how much she hates cheaters and the act of cheating.

What would you do if you could never wear jeans again? Rejoice for the most part, but also be sad over mom jeans because they’re the only comfy kind of jeans and that’s the one type I genuinely enjoy wearing.

What would you do if your dad became president? Expect him to tap me for help almost immediately. I think he’d make a good leader considering he’s already one at his work, at least a far better one than my mom ever could be.

What would you do if you lost your most important possession? Right now that’s my laptop. If I lost that, I’d mostly be scared of the possibility of my parents whooping my ass; but at the same time my company just gave me a company laptop anyway so it’ll be easy to start over.

What would you do if your house burned down? Stop taking this survey, obviously. Then I’d grab my phone and Kimi, since he’s here with me in my room.

What would you do if your best friend didn't want to be friends anymore? I’d be devastated and start thinking if I’m the problem.

What would you do if you had to move do a different state/province? Thank fuck. I’d be relieved to have the chance to start from scratch, and I’d be all for it.

What would you do if someone shaved your head? Be furious, especially if they did it while I was asleep or otherwise unaware.

What would you do if Jesus came to your front door? Think that it’s probably an act and ask them to leave.

What would you do if your house was robbed? Check if my parents, sister, and dogs are unharmed.

What would you do if your sister/brother got married? Puzzled because 1) they are both single, 2) we are still in a pandemic and why would either of them want to get married right now, and 3) they are 20 and 17.

What would you do if dogs became extinct? Idk, be upset.

What would you do if the last person you kissed proposed to you? I’d be conflicted and a mix of emotions. I’m not sure I would take it well now, even if that’s all I wanted in the end.

Have you ever...

Have you ever broke a body part? I’ve mildly sprained an ankle, but I’ve never broken a bone or had an organ severely malfunction.

Have you ever broke someone else's body part? I don’t think so.

Have you ever changed for a guy/girl? I’ve adjusted a lot. Idk about change.

Tried to jump on a celebrity but been stopped by the security guards? Kind of? Greyson Chance walked into the mall right when I was exiting and my first instinct as a 14/15 year old was to grab my phone and start taking photos, even though I wasn’t even a fan and could not name any song of his and was just excited to see a Hollywood person in such a mundane circumstance lol. But it wasn’t the smartest move, obviously. I got to be a little too close just because we were crossing paths; I wasn’t trying to be near him, but that’s what his bodyguard interpreted so he asked me to back off.

Have you ever complained about the last person you spoke to? I don’t think there was ever anything to complain about Hans. We’ve always been on amazing terms and he’s one of the funniest people I know.

Have you ever cried on your mom's shoulder? As an infant.

Have you ever dialed 911 as a prank? No. I’m not a jerk.

Have you ever won a talent show? I don’t have anything to show off, so I never joined those.

Have you ever spilled a drink on a expensive electronic item and ruined it? Nah. As clumsy as I can be, I’m always careful with liquids and gadgets.

Have you ever fainted when someone told you shocking news? Nope. I’ve only fainted because I was extremely hungry.

Have you ever swooned over the Jonas Brothers? In 4th grade. I still like them, but I haven’t swooned over them in a while.

Have you ever bought a piece of makeup that cost over $100? No, I don’t buy makeup period.

Have you ever been cheated on by someone who claimed to love you? I haven’t.

Have you ever got food free because the waiter thought you were hot? No, and ew.

Do you...

Do you have someone who will always be there for you? Yeah, I’m lucky I have friends who remind me all the time.

Do you have a membership at a gym? No, was never interested.

Do you act dumb to get guys/girls to like you? No. Hasn’t this been debunked a million times?

Do you know anyone who smokes a pack of cigarettes a day? Possibly more, yes.

Do you follow the rules? As much as possible, yeah.

Do you have a friend who secretly really annoys you? Eh, kind of, but I don’t count her as a friend per se.

Do you always have Pepsi at your house? I don’t think my parents buy Pepsi whenever they get softdrinks. I’ve only ever seen Coca-Cola bottles.

Do you flirt with anything that moves? No.

Do you watch Sponge Bob? I watched it regularly as a kid; as an adult, I’ll watch the older episodes from time to time.

Do you count sheep when you can't sleep? No.

Do you sweat easily? Nah. I’ve been told I rarely look like I sweat, actually.

Do you like pineapple? Not at all.

Do you refuse to wear something that's out of style? If it’s something that’s recently gone out of style, like culottes, then yeah. But if you mean like 90s stuff like fanny packs and mom jeans, I believe those things are back in style all over again.

Do you type 'u' or 'you'? I type both, depending on what I feel like using and who I’m talking to.

What is...

What is your best friend's name? Angela. Maybe Gabie? But mainly Angela.

What is your first girlfriend/boyfriend's name? See second name above.

What is your neighbour's name? I have no clue what any of their names are other than the director who lives two houses away; his name is Mac.

What is your least favorite swear word? Faggot.

What is the best and most romantic way to propose to someone? I think it will always be different per couple, and if a given couple wants a romantic proposal in the first place.

What is something that always makes you laugh? The show Friends.

What is the name of your hometown? That’ll stay a secret.

What is the most gentle way to turn someone down? Idk...haven’t really had to do this before, and the one time I did wasn’t the nicest way.

What is the ugliest girl name? 1) Can’t think of any, and 2) that’s just mean.

What is the most boring thing to do? Technically, waiting. Especially if it’s for something mundane, like lining up for a government service.

What is the funnest kind of question to answer? On surveys? I appreciate random questions the most.

What is the most useless thing you know? I’ve read a lot of ‘useless’ trivia on Reddit that I’ll probably never have to use or bring up in this lifetime.

What is your favorite pair of pants? My mom jeans, which I always mention when asked this.

What is the best flavour of ice cream? I personally root for cookies and cream.

#survey #surveys

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prorevenge · 6 years

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I waited 6 years for this...

To say I waited 6 years isn’t an exaggeration or an joke. I still smile at my pro revenge 6 years later. Ehehe…

So, to explain background on why QueenBee (QB now) hated me was… because I stole her panda *rolls eyes back into my head*

We had a 4th grade project where we needed to pick our favorites animals to research and I only picked lizard (lame I know) and the QB and her lackeys in front of me were blabbing about their ideas and she said “I want pandas!” And in my 4th grader mind I thought “Ah why the hell not?” And guess who got it by announcement by the teacher?

The girls turned and glared at me like I murdered their freaking puppy and I knew this was going to be hell.

It was. To say QB terrorized me would be putting it lightly, she was smart enough to know not to physically hurt me but in Girl Scouts she made sure at every event I was excluded and mocked behind the parents back until I couldn’t stand it anymore and abruptly quit (my mom made me stay in for 2 years because before I was incredibly shy and unsure about myself, a perfect target) And through these next 6 years she would mock me in front of others and humiliate me and make sure her 20 or so friends did it too until I grew spine and stood up for myself.

Now, let’s set it to sophomore year, she finally stopped being a total C yoU Next Tuesday (to me, a bit) but instead ignored me but gave me nasty glares any time I spoke or made a noise. Yeah, I hate you too chick.

Let’s begin the set up!! She was in my English class sophomore with the handsome King Bee (KB) But.. she wasn’t dating him, she was dating this lacrosse player in my geometry class, K, such a nice guy! Now, I sat behind QB/KB several rows back and watched them proceed to flirt over the semester *gag* when it clicked, she was cheating! To say their flirting wasn’t obvious would be a far lie, especially with the way he touched her thigh, tickled her and made sure to lean REAL close. Trust me, it was obnoxious and gross af. I observe this for a few weeks, watching… waiting. Plotting.

K and I were friends in class and chatted during assignments (my math teacher loved me and I hate the math subjects lol) and he brought up dating QB for at least a year now *evil smile appears mentally* I proceed to say calmly that I thought she was dating someone else. He grows confused and asks who Me: “oh KB! He’s in my English class and they’re constantly flirting and touching I thought they were dating.”

K: …what?

Me: *everyone in the room has gone silent* KB? Yeah they’ve been doing it this entire semester.

K: *gets up and looks pissed as he pulls out his phone and starts texting madly*

(Out of the corner of my eye I see my math teacher trying not to laugh as he knows exactly who I’m talking about QB/KB and he knows the history)

What happens next I did nothing. It spreads like wildfire that QB has been cheating on K for months now with KB and K lost his shit and was beyond hurt (he’s the nicest guy in our school) and he proceeds to cheat on her with one of her best friends, causing a whole ton of drama and I simply sat back and smiled as in English class the cheats were separated and how embarrassed they were when others laughed at their separation. QB and BF no longer speak and I made sure everyone remembered her cheating tendencies through high school before she finally found out I told K. I did that on purpose. The next time she saw me she glared extra daggers at me and I slowly smirked and she realized I wasn’t backing down she looked away and didn’t meet my gaze the rest of senior class.

F*ck you and your stupid pandas b*tch!

(submission) (story by anonymous)

#submission #prorevenge #pro revenge #revenge stories #pro #revenge #last10

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youngjusticeaddict · 6 years

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catching up below:

Jan 2018-Mar 2019

so over the last year it’s been really weird.

I was living with 2 brothers and one of their boyfriends this time a year ago. It feels like a lifetime ago. so much has changed.

I met my current bf around then and I never thought things would turn out like they have. Its been a roller coaster.

He and I were together about 2 months before I met Mr. Regret and my bf left me so I could try things out with the new guy. My bf had this one thing about him: if I found someone else, I could try things out with them. He meant with girls, since I was polyamorous then. But he was really jealous of other guys and in reality, I wanted both of them. He didn’t want to do that, so he let me go.

I wish he had fought for me.

Mr. Regret and I went hot and heavy right away. I slept over the very first night, and never left his side for long for those next two months over this last summer. He promised me things I’d always wanted, talked of marriage and babies and a house. He wanted me to be a stepmom to his two boys, and have a child of our own. He gave me everything he had and I don’t think even he realized just how damaging that would be when the time came.

I moved in right away and signed onto his lease. He began talking about his boys, and how his ex wouldn’t let him see them now that she knew I was with him. He hadn’t seen them when I met him either, not for at least 3 months They were finally getting to hang out when he told her about me.

He talked about her a lot, and I wish I could have seen it back then how much in love and desperate he was for her attention. She was abusive to him physically and emotionally when they were together and convinced him that he deserved to be treated that way. I treated him much better, and I don’t think he was ready for that.

He spent a week away from me, with her and the kids the week of 4th of July. He promised to hang out with me at his parent’s house for the holiday and just ignored that entirely.

He came back the night of the 7th and told me he had been cheating. I was so naive. I was so blind. This was world shattering. I didn’t sleep and ended up having the worst panic attack at work the next day when he paraded his happy little family in front of my register on purpose.

I still had the apartment, he was on the lease and all his stuff was there. I packed it up and threw it all on the couch, and pushed it to the door. I couldn’t leave the house for 3 days, I was too dizzy to make it down the stairs. I was really fucked up.

Current bf came by to check on me, even though he had a new gf at that time. He hated this guy for hurting me. He stayed and comforted me for hours just in case Mr. Regret came back.

Eventually, I got him out and off the lease, with the assistance of my mom and the local police when he and his ex-now-current-gf came to pick up his things and started a fight.

Things were hard. I managed but it took a long time for things to heal. I still can’t go to the grocery store where he works if there’s no one else to go with me. I can't see him without getting scared about all the things I shared with him, and him possibly telling the world everything personal about me. I don’t see him all that often when I go with mom, and I haven’t seen him in my store at all since Black Friday, but it’s still a worry that makes me paranoid.

Current bf had a lot of issues with the girl he was dating. He would tell me about them when he came to visit and check on me. Eventually, he talked about a breakup in early September, and by the end of September, we were together again.

There was a lot of drama surrounding that at work, since all 3 of us work there together. Everyone thought I stole him from her, and just shut me out of everything and made me feel unwelcome at the one place I went to for refuge during my time of healing. Unwelcome from my safe space.

But now things are getting better. There are only a few people now that disapprove, and they are pretty easy to ignore.

Back in February however, I found out I was pregnant. I was about 8-9 weeks along when my doctor confirmed it, but I had known since about week 5-6. That news exploded at work, and it was a really great few weeks.

Until the 22nd.

I lost the baby that day. They said that because it happened so fast, and I didn’t require invasive medical care, that it had been doomed to fail. I was 10 weeks and 1 day.

I’m fine now. We’ve put away the baby things we bought in hopes that it may happen again, but we don’t know when that will happen.

We moved into a different, bigger, apartment in that same complex since it’s the cheapest in town. He has finally moved in with me and things are almost perfect. He is the best life partner anyone could ask for. I just wish we still had our little unplanned gift to prepare for.

I had internet before I moved into the last apartment with Mr. Regret. He got it about 2 weeks before he left me, and then took it when he left. Until about early November, my phone couldn’t use the data my service plan offered. I got a new phone and I’ve been able to have internet. Then it was spotty, and now I have internet in the apartment again thanks to Mr. Right/current bf. I’m gonna try to be on more, and pick up my fics again, but it’s been a really rough year.

Thanks to those of you who have kept on following my inactive blog. I appreciate it. And thanks for catching up with me.

#liveblogging life

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bts-reacts · 6 years

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Info Game

Well it’s my turn here we go

Last

1. Drink - Arozina green tea with honey and ginseng this runs through my veins

2. Phone call - My boo

3. Text message - Also my boo

4. Song you listened to - Well if you don’t count what I’m currently listening to, EOEO by UNIQ

5. Time you cried - This morning. I AM A VERY PASSIONATE SINGER AND I SAW A VIDEO WHERE THIS GIRL ON THE UNIT HIT A BEAUTIFUL, PERFECT HIGH NOTE. THEN THE GROUP DID AMAZING HARMONIES It was The Yellow group singing Jackpot. I got shook

Ever

6. Dated someone twice - when I was in 4th-8th grade and didn’t knw what dating was I went back and forth with the same guy every single damn year

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - Every boy I hooked up with during my senior year I was discovering myself through a hoe phase

8. Been cheated on - my ex cheated on me for 6 months of our 1 year relationship. Then called me a crazy bitch for calling him out on it and telling the girl he had another gf. I am still blocked on all of his social media

9. Lost someone special - I was raised by a single mother until I was about 7 years old. My step dad was the first man I had in my life to be considered a father, and in 2012 he passed away in a motorcycle accident. He got hit headon by a semi truck while he was planning a ride for our church

10. Been depressed - I am the shining definition of depression

11. Gotten drunk and threw up - I don’t touch alcohol because the yeast smell is disgusting

Fave colors:

12. Pastels

13. Not pink I have red hair so I grew up dressed in pink because “it made my hair look nice”

14. Honestly it depends on the day. Some days I have a favorite color, other days I have a different one.

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends - do my coworkers count? I mean I’m around them 40 hours a week. That’s more than my family

16. Fallen out of love - I’ve been with my bf for over a year so I’ve actually done the complete opposite

17. Laughed until you cried - Totes

18. Found out someone was talking about you - Honestly I don’t remember

19. Met someone who changed you - I had an old coworker who made me realize just how gross some guys can be. He got excited when my bf left for China and asked me everyday if he could be my “temporary bf”??????????????

20. Found out who your friends are - Well I’ve only ever had two true friends so I guess I found out who my friends are years ago

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - My grandma and my boo?

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - Honestly a lot of them knew me through school, but I didn’t actually know them personally. I’ve gone through and deleted people eveyr now and again because I don’t know them and I don’t want them clogging up my feed

23. Do you have any pets - I HAVE SO MANY. Three cats: two grumpy old men and one excited young kitty. AND 3 BEAUTIFUL PUPPIES WHO ALL THREE COME RUNNING WHEN YOU SHOUT FOR THE BABIES TO COME HERE

24. Do you want to change your name - I used to. No one spells it right, or says it right the first time. When the teacher would do roll call on the first day of school I would know they were talking about me when they paused and stared at the list. It’s spelled Shaina. I’ve had Shayna, Shania, Shanna, and one girl at a starbucks spelled it Shanea. I guess it just makes me unique so I’ll stick with it.

25. What did you do for your last birthday - My bf and I took a small vacation up to Chicago and visited museums, aquariums, AND ATE HOTDOGS AND DEEP DISH PIZZA

26. What time did you wake up today - 12:30ish

27. What were you doing @ midnight last night - playing Detroit because Connor is a gorgeous puppy who needs protection

28. What is something you can’t wait for - I can’t wait to move out of my mom’s house in a month or so

30. What are you listening to right now - Generally, I’m addicted to (G)IDLE’s new comback. Literally and currently, my spotify is playing Cypher Pt 4

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - Honestly I have a terrible memory so I don’t know

32. Something that gets on my nerves - Everything. But really, people who act like they’re better than you just beause they have more experience in something or have been somewhere for a long time. I have a coworker who thinks he’s right about everything because “He’s been working there a long time”

33. Most visited website - Gmail and CreditKarma. School just started so I’m obssesive over my email and I’ve always been obssesive over my credit score

34. Hair color - Dark red. Not most ginger’s red. As I’ve gotten older, it’s darkened towards a brownish red

35. Hair long or short - very long. It’s halfway down my back when I put it in a high ponytail and need at least 2 holders to keep it up in a bun

36. Do you have a crush on someone - nope

37. What do you like about yourself - I love my hair and my brain. My hair and eye color is a unique combination (brown eyes w/ red hair). I’ve always been extremely creative since I was little and that’s such a big part of who I am

38. Want any piercings - Ever since I was emo, I’ve wanted my lip pierced

39. Blood type - I have no clue

40. Nicknames - Depends on who you ask. My grandpa calls me little red, my friend calls me Shay, an old friend from high school caled me Shane Dog

41. Relationship status - Surprisingly taken

42. Zodiac - Pisces

43. Pronounce - She/her

44. Fave TV shows - Anything I watch is a fave tv show

45. Tattoos -None but I desperately want some

46. Right or left handed - Right. But when I was younger my cat bit my right hand so I couldn’t move it. So I can eat comfortably with any hand, but I only write with my right hand

47. Ever had surgery - Nope

48. piercings - The traditional one piercing in both ears

49. Sports - Dancing and I still love softball even though I stopped playing in th grade

50. Vacations - I high key want to visit Madrid and Mexico City.

51. Trainers - ???

More general

52. Eating - Last thing I ate was the best ramen ever for dinner

53. Drinking - Lipton green tea I love green tea

54. I’m about to watch - Well I’m currently in the middle of Bromance and Strong Girl Bong Soon

55. Waiting - to go to bed

56. Want - to transfer to my dream college that on the other side of the country...

57. Get married - I feel too young to be married atm. Plus my bf and I have only been together for a year. But if I do my uncle can legally marry me so that’s sweet

58. Career - Currently working as a cook at Applebee’s. But my dream career is to be a business owner of my own bakery. or a singer, I want to sing so badly but that’s unrealistic :/

59. Hugs or kisses - Hugs all day

60. Lips or eyes - I am just mesmorized by single lid eyes idk why

61. Shorter or taller - a bit taller. like a few inches

62. Older or younger - Older

63. Nice stomach or stomach - I’ve had both and I didn’t love myself either way. I’m more worried about feeling comfortable in my body so I don’t care about which one I guess?

64. Hookup or relationship - relationship. Hookups will still text you every month asking if you’re single yet so you can hook up again. They’re too stressful tbh

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - Little of both

Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger - Unfortunately yes

67. Drank hard liquor - I’ve had sips of my mother’s wine that is it

68. Lost glasses - I’VE LOST LIKE 3 PAIRS OF GLASSES SOMEHOW???

69. Turned someone down - Yes

70. Sex on first date - Another unfornately yes

71. Broken someone’s heart - Not that I know of

72. Had your heart broken - The first boy I loved broke my heart when I was 15

73. Been arrested - I cry when I get pulled over for not wearing a steatbelt. I’ve never been arrested

74. Cried when someone died - my step dad dying came as a shock. I did the whole stare into space, sit down and continue staring, then sob. It was like a tv show

75. Fallen for a friend - nah

Do you believe in

76. Yourself - Kinda

77. Miracles - Hell ye

78. Love at first sight - I used to, but then I learned that that is not love.

79. Santa Claus - I did until I was almost in high school

80. Kiss on first date - My first date iwht my bf, he hugged me goodbye and gave me a little kiss on the should r that was really cute. So if it’s those kinds of kisses yes

81. Angels - Totes

Other

82. Best friend’s name - Katlyn and Alex

83. Eye color - Dark DARK brown

84. Fave movie - The Harry Potter series. ALl day every day

85. Favorite actor - I really like Benedict Cumberbatch for some reason?

Wow that took me forever. There’s more about me tho!!! I better go to bed because it’s almost 1 and I have a class tomorrow at 9 kill me

~Admin Red

#admin red #pray for me #i can't drink caffiene because it gives me panic attacks so tomorrow is gonna be fun #large amounts of caffiene anyway #gonna be walking into class trying to stay awake by drinking a nice iced tea #then I have to stay there for 3 hours #and stay at the school even longer because i need to do stuff for my online classes

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maximuswolf · 4 years

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Is there anything I can do on my side to help with this? via /r/BPD

Is there anything I can do on my side to help with this?

First attempt at committed relationship need advice

I’m a 28m I’ve been with my partner 36f for around a year and a half It’s been full of short lived highs followed by many lows My background: I don’t have great relationship experience myself I never actually wanted a committed relationship until me and my ex broke ( we started as fwb ended up getting on amazingly well and had a very strong team like relationship going on , eventually it dawned on me that things were getting very serious and she has two of her own kids , I wasn’t ready for that lifestyle so we agreed to part ways) after that I felt I was truly ready to go for a committed relationship in line with my life goals (plans to travel) , before this I actively didn’t want a relationship I was more into fwb arrangements , I’d had a couple of relationships in my late teens/early twenties which i pretty much just ended up in knowing I was ready for it yet , none of them were bad relationships I’d ended them due to me knowing it’s not what I wanted (I’m aware I’m an asshole for entering them in the first place)

Her background: In her teens she started a 10 year relationship which was nothing other than abusive , constant cheating on both sides it was constant hurt and abuse according to her , she then had a few relationships which haven’t really been spoken about in between and then she met her ex at work who she’d been with for 10 years , she said she new from the off she didn’t love him or what they had and he didn’t have the lifestyle she wanted (they’d work together , come home and sit infront of the tv all evening on repeat) she said it was just easy , other things to note she doesn’t get on with her parents

Fast forward: She started working at my place and we got on like a house on fire , she didn’t tell me she had a boyfriend but I’d heard it from someone else and found it on her Facebook (she wasn’t aware I knew) so I ended up backing off abit , she then started getting really friendly with another guy at work who’s the same age , same shape ,same hair/beard style , similar interests as me and would actively flirt heavily with him infront of me , I didn’t react.. she then went out with him to a festival/met his mom and at work that week she told the guys I work with about it knowing they’d tell me (she eventually admitted this) once I found out I reacted by giving up on the idea of me and her , later that week she turns up at my house saying she did it to see if I get jealous so she knows if I like her , I told her I do and that’s when she confessed she has a bf and needs to leave him , after this she started to tel me how much the other lad at work fancies her/is in love with her (she’d constantly becoming to me saying all the things he’d said and playing the love songs to me that he’d sent her all with a massive grin trying to get a reaction but I knew what she was doing so never reacted) that just got worse and she started meeting him more , I confronted her on it after the 3rd or 4th time and said if this happens again I’m done it’s so disrespectful towards me and I will not tolerate it , she agreed and said she can see how wrong it is and how sorry she is for it and that’s it’s bad what she was doing to him as this lad really really liked her , a week later she’s back saying she’s met him again and I said were done , I managed to keep out her way for abit but she kept trying and trying with me until I gave In, on top of that everytime I was around her at work around another male she’d be talking heavy sexual stuff and I could see she was going extra knowing I was there , I called her out on this

After that things became seriously intense between us , she’d told me all about her traumas in life , literally everything about her expecting me to do the same , I found it strange but thought due to the intensity of the love I’ll do the same , there was a lot of strange deep questions from the off , but everything felt like a true love story during this period and almost felt unreal , after about 4 months things took a major turn , constant off and on behaviour at any moment I could change between one or the other , it almost seems as if it comes in cycles I’ll get a few weeks of her been okayish followed by a month of heavy off and on heavy short intense moments of love followed by complete offness until I finally explode (I stopped reacting/pointing out what she was doing and tried to accept her for who she is until it would become to much) I was then been told I was manipulating, gaslighting , controlling , when I’d ask how there be zero response just complete silence when I’d ask how I’m doing any of this , she’d always say these things to me just after she’d been doing them and I’d give her straight examples of how she was being manipulative, gaslighting controlling ect (I learnt the terms from her), another example she was convinced she is a physcopath , eventually she started to say she thinks I’m one and it would make me burst out laughing each time she said I was one , from that each time I’d laugh she’d start crying and saying don’t take the mick out of me so I stopped laughing and eventually started to believe that I’m a physcopath, after a short bit of research this is exactly we’re I learnt what projection was , since her going to therapy she finally has realised she’s not a physcopath and hasn’t said I’m one either , again when I’d ask how am I one there’s be no examples or explanation for it The cycles started going her been off with me for days on end , completely denying being off when I ask her what’s up (one word answers for everything , not talking to me touching me or even looking at me) she’d always say ‘why what’s up with you’, she’d then be praying on my every move waiting for me to mess up , as soon as I would it would explode and all sorts of random accusations would be thrown at me , when I say mess up it’s normal something as simple as me turning the bedroom light off before she’s got into bed , some of the accusations were complete ludacris and as usual I’d ask for examples or where she’s got it from and she’d just go completely silent , anytime I’d stand up to her accusations and ask for how she’s got there that would be me ‘telling her she’s wrong all the time’ , ‘not validating her feelings’ ect. Examples She’d say I’m destroying her , I’d ask how or what am I doing to destroy her then thered be silence and I’d get the old ‘not validating her feelings’ or ‘I’m telling her Shes wrong all the time’ This has been a very common thing , her throwing something similar to that at me , me simply saying ok how have you got to that conclusion what am I doing , no answer , conversation steered to how I’m not validating her feelings ect

Ontop of this when I’ve stated boundaries or my own feelings , like I went through a period were my sex drive dipped , I made it clear it was not related to her it was me going through a rough patch in lockdown , she piled on intense sexual pressure and new sexual needs from that moment onwards

When I’m having a bad day I’ll straight up tell her why ‘I slept crap last night so I’m feeling pretty anxious and low today so I’m not myself it’s not related to anything with us’ that would always cause her to go off with me no matter how much I reassure her I’m not feeling like this due to the relationship, it’s cause I’ve not slept well , I’ve had a stressful day at work ect

These cycles are still continuously happening sometimes I feel like we’re past them other times they seem to be more frequent and more intense

We just had a months break and I explained my problems in this are the constant on/off behaviour, setting me up to ‘slip up’ so there was a reason for her on/off behaviour, not letting me go through my own shit and having bad days , there the main ones I’ve highlighted and have brought up on numerous occasions

Throughout the relationship when she’s exploded I’ve constantly asked what am I doing wrong in this? To which she can’t come up with anything , I study my own behaviour deeply and struggle to pinpoint it to cause there must be something I’m aware that I must be playing some part In this but can’t figure it out, after each explosion/cycle there’s always new and obsurd reasons for her behaviour it’s always got a different reason behind it , she even recently told me it was normal woman behaviour all of them are like this

We met yesterday to signal the end of the break and to talk , I asked what her thoughts were on us and she said she hasn’t really thought cause she knows she’ll just get told she’s wrong , I’d turned up with the intention of ending things but I just ended up in awe of her as she seemed really different and we got on really well

I ended the chat by asking her to state her problems in this and cause her to treat me like this they were all new ones.. 1.she gives more , when I asked the whys and how’s she got to this there was to answers which I said fair enough to Sexually she gives more , I admitted to this and explained again about my sex drives and certain things she’d said to me in the past like ‘don’t worry about me I really like just giving to you’ and the other was that when we go away for a drive I don’t put half the petrol in which she’s never ever stated , we’ve been away about 15 times and on 3 of those occasions when she’s gone to get petrol I’ve got out the car filled the tank and paid for it (she normally tried to stop me doing it) but this would cover 6 of those trips She’s cooked for me a few times and cleaned my house and then complains that I do nothing for her , it turned out that I’ve helped with what I can , I can barely cook but started to learn to when she said I don’t cook for her , other than that she’s completely renovating her House and I’ve offered and helped every step of the way , I’ve spent numerous times helping or asking if I can help , she’s currently out of work and I’ve offered to pay her bills and mortgage until she’s sorted

She doesn’t like how I point out her behaviour (I do this pretty much at the end of each cycle when I’ve finally had enough of the silent treatment) or that I used the word behaviour , she doesn’t like how I don’t validate her feelings ( this is when she’ll throw a statement at me and ask her how she’s got there and she has no answer , for some things she will have an answer and I’ll then give it to her and say fair enough I can see that now and I’ll do something about it which I do , but I’f I don’t agree or she has no explanation for her statements it’s me telling her she’s wrong)

And the third is that she never knows where she stands with me , note on that every single argument we’ve had right from the beginning right up to this moment she’s asked if I’m leaving her , I left her once and that was after the whole psychopath incident, when she said she doesn’t know where she stands I asked how and she said she feels like I’m just going to break up with her at any moment

My points to her were: 1. The same I’ve been saying for atleast a year about being off with me for days on end ect. I’ve explained I’ve got no problem with her having problems and it’s never really the outcome of her explosions that bother me , it’s more the constant off and on treatment I get that bothers me , I’ve said that when she’s off (she’ll deny it but knows it) that it’s perfectly ok for her to say to me that she needs abit of space to herself to sort out wether it’s something in herself or something she needs to raise to me , or if it’s just a bad day for her to state that she’s just having a bad day it’s not to do with us

2.she needs to communicate her issues , like if me not putting exactly half the fuel in is an issue I need to know

That she needs to listen to me and let me have bad days in myself without her being off with me about it

That I never know where I stand because of the constant off/onness it comes out of literally know where and can change at any moment

TD;LR , first time trying in a committed relationship, do I just not understand woman or how they work or is this not right?

Submitted September 18, 2020 at 07:15AM by Fai_Kirby via reddit https://ift.tt/3iJC4OG

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abnormal-angel · 7 years

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The U.S. Open Papping Train Wreck:

Okay, I felt I had to post something publicly about the train wreck that was the papping of Norman and queen of bitch yesterday, since so many of you are wondering what is going on.

1.The Papping of Norman (Again): Most people agree looking at the papping pictures that they look staged af. The more she does this to him the more, the more it looks like one desperate attempt after another to to try and prove they are a “loving couple.” Too bad she has resting bitch face in most of the pictures and he looks awkward as fuck being papped, like he wants to run. Funny the staged “happy” smile she put on for the jumbotron was not seen the rest of the day.

2. The Gross Staged Kiss: Man, it is like pap walk of shame all over again and I know you are all feeling it. The first “kissing” pic that came out was legit fake, they were staging it. Their lips weren’t even touching and he was hiding that by his sweatshirt. The other two that came out that showed their lips touching, reminded me of the pap walk. He legit is just standing there awkwardly while she does all the work. And please, she is forcing herself to kiss him, it looks so awkward and not anything like a loving kiss. I mean jesus is that how you would kiss him? Hell no! Staged af.

3. The AMC Handler: Today more pics come out and we see that Norman arrived with Jill, the AMC handler he took to the same open last year. She sat with him and dk, as if it were just a friendly outing. I am hearing the staged PDA didn’t start till Jill left. I guess dk knew that AMC was watching her ass and she pulled her shit when she was gone only. Otherwise, all the pap pics till then legit looked like two friends, near strangers, watching the game. She of course smiled directly at the camera because she is the one who paid them to be there, you can tell when she knows her paps are taking her pic vs when legit press is. The one with his arm awkwardly around her i think was legit press and they looked miserable together, because that is how they really are together. But, when she is spinning her rag /pap bullshit she is acting so “in love.” It is so fake it is so obvious. I again, really worry for Daryl in this shit storm she has created because we know the network hates her papping shit. So another hit at his career for her! Yep, totally something you do to someone you “love.” -_- What is she going to do if he gets kicked off? She will lose his name recognition. Which, let’s be honest is all she wants out of him.

4. It Doesn’t Add Up: He didn’t walk the carpet with her, he went in with the handler. Why? If he was using this to out them publicly why not pose with your supposed gf and not meet inside? I doesn’t add up. Why does she always have to pap him every time she is seen with him? I legit am starting to think this entire thing is a show they are putting on or she is for press. We know her Cannes win got her delusional enough to thinking she has a chance at an Oscar nod. I think hell would have to freeze over for that, from what I hear elite Hollywood thinks of her, she is a laughing stock and dragging Norman’s name down with her.

None of his behavior up till Costa was saying he was remotely interested in her. She kept showing up unannounced, knowing she wasn’t supposed to be in GA, doing it anyway. Most every weekend he told her to fuck off, only a couple he let her ass stick around (Memorial Day/Moth Gate - Cookie Gate he drove her ass out of state, and road trip fro awkward af “you call that love” hell). The rest he has consistently told her to stay away from him and out of GA. We know he told her to fuck off on the 4th of July weekend and ran away from her to upstate. The facetime papping, well Shadi seemed to prove that was surely a papping he didn’t know about and on set, which again got him in a shit ton of hot water. But, she doesn’t care she got her pic.

She was hella pissed no one believed her facetime shit and I hear it effected her Leroy job, getting her part cut down. She was fucking pissed he didn’t answer his phone and that she had to fake a facetime with him and it looked fake af too. Guess she doesn’t have a graphic artist on her payroll lol. Then after that she begged to go to Costa. He told her to be good. What did she do? Out their location day one and out andy and greg’s location. I hear another argument over that. Then they were barely seen together except the charity thing and her papping bullshit. Where she proceeded to pap Andy and his family, driving a huge wedge between the two. Andy hates paps and never wants his kids papped, I hear he is beyond pissed. Again, something a “loving” gf does? Nope. Norman walked off when he saw her bring her paps back, pissed, and another fight ensued.

Then we have him ghosting her, aside from ig likes here and there, in real life since costa until now. I am hearing she skipped out on her movie premiere Thursday and flew to NYC instead. Probably, hoping to go to Mingus’s show. But, nope. She wasn’t there. Wouldn’t that be something he would bring his “loving gf” too? But, nope she didn’t go and was probably hella pissed he wouldn’t let her go and then the open happened.

There are two ways this could have gone down.

#1 - Norman wasn’t in on the papping at the open:

We know she has papped him several times before without his permission, so him not knowing she was bringing her paps is a possibility. If this is the case again she fucked him over. He could have said, sure come but as friends and nothing in the spotlight. And bang, she paps him again. She has a tendency not to give a fuck about his wants or wishes, she walks all over him and his friends and acts like she has done nothing wrong. Meanwhile, she is tanking his career and health.

#2 - Norman was in on the papping at the open:

The staged af kissing has me believing he might have agreed to the papping. If so. Why? They legit look miserable nearly all the time together. the Costa papping was painful, he looked miserable as fuck and then the bitch papped Andy and Greg.

So why would he be in on it?

This is the question no one knows yet. But, it could be they have an agreement to look like a “couple” in the public eye as she can’t admit she threw away JJ just to be a fuck buddy, a very casual one at that. Funny, how we know Norman has been with plenty of other women throughout the three years since Sky. Yet he hasn’t been seen with anyone female since the pap walk. Almost like it was agreed upon to make this thing look legit. We all remember the pap walk, it also was staged af. He was only happy coming out of the bar.

An agreement for her Oscar bullshit seems to make the most sense to me at this point. Because that is not love at all and they both know it, don’t tell me they don’t. She is miserable. He is miserable. But, they have to sell this image that they started in March. I think he really regrets that pap walk. Without it no one would ever have thought they were anything official. Again, she had to make it look like they hadn’t been already sneaking around for two years and that Norman was exclusive to her now, which I don’t believe is the case according to things I have heard. But, that is the illusion she is selling.

Why Norman would go along I don’t know. I hear his depression is at a all time high. He is losing friends and family support left and right because of her shit and he has to hit the bottle every time she is around. He has aged 10 years in 1 because of her bullshit. I would hope that Norman sees that she wants him isolated so she can get away with bullshit just like this. She papped Andy to get him pissed at Norman, because she hated that Andy didn’t like her and knew she was bad news for him. She has brought his castmates into her bullshit for far too long and now everyone is shying away from him. Which I fear only pushed him further toward her and back to his toxic habits and life. You know she encouraged his heavy drinking and who knows what other toxic behaviors. Because, she gets her way, probably because she threatens to out those same behaviors to the public if he doesn’t play along.

5. Just Worried At This Point: At the end of the day, after all of this information we know, I am just really, really worried for him. She has fucked his career so bad, just by being associated with him and the cheating. He hasn’t gotten any offers since her bullshit. Daryl could very well be on the table right now with the network just done with her papping and rag bullshit. Notice she mentioned TWD in the latest daily mail article after the open last night, bet they will LOVE that. -_-

On top of all that his health has just nose dived with all the drinking he has to do to just be around her. It looked like he was yesterday too. And he is losing his close friends and family, who were there to help him cleanse his toxic before her. I believe he has fallen into a depression trap and legit doesn’t know how to get out. Everyone is shunning him, his twd family has lost respect and that has to kill him inside, and she just keeps showing up and won’t leave.

I am wondering knowing all of this if, (if) he did make an agreement, maybe this is the only way she would leave. I mean you have to be spotted together and be seen to be a “couple,” and we know till recently he has hidden her and told her off (aside from the pap walk). Now this open thing when the media is actually talking about her for once. They legit aren’t seen much together and she keeps putting out articles about their “long distance relationship.” She is trying so hard to make them look like they are a couple, when in reality they do nothing a couple does. Does a couple need to pay paps to take their pic when they could have just posed out front? Nope. Does a bf not invite his gf to his son’s runway show? Nope. Does a gf pap her bf’s best friend, knowing he would blow his lid about it? Nope. Does a happy couple look miserable af when their own pap cam isn’t on them? Nope.

It could also be dk made him feel guilty for being part of the reason JJ kicked her. Most people agree that Norman was just something on the side she did to try and make JJ jealous. That didn’t work. JJ ran. Probably, relieved someone else she had to leech on. She really hates that JJ didn’t take her back you can see this in all her rag shit. She just using Norman to get back at JJ and save face in Hollywood, imo.

What worries me in the end is his physical and mental health. He is an amazing man with a great heart, but he isn’t good at sticking up for himself. He needs to see what he is doing is hurting not only others, but more importantly, himself! I feel like he is in a pit of despair and for whatever reason can’t get out of her shit.

This is all for show. I am damn certain of that at this point. The reasons why he might go along with it? I am not sure. But an agreement of some kind seems to make the most sense at this time. We know she is the type to leak shit on people, so who knows if she has something on him or like I said, this is the only way she will let him go without dragging him through the mud after he leaves. His behavior has screamed he is done with her since May. This doesn’t add up to anything more than an agreement to me. Their behavior says it all.

That ain’t love. Not even close.

[EDIT]: And sadly, her career only rises because of this and his will fall. Not that she cares. Because all she cares about is herself and whatever image she is selling this week. He needs to cut and run. She will do nothing but bad things for him, his relationships and friendships, and career.

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I think that is all I have on the subject lol. Sorry it was long, but I have been fielding questions all night and day, so I wanted to just lay it out there for you all to read. At the end of the day we agree her papping shit since costa came out of nowhere, as his behavior before that was showing he wasn’t with her and she was just showing up unannounced. So here are my thoughts.

My advice to anyone who needs to step away, do it. I had to with JJ. I completely understand and it will save your sanity not to see her spinning her bullshit. But, at the end of the day that is all it ever is. Bullshit.

#dk wank #norman reedus

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whyldkratts · 7 years

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for the ask meme: all of them, but if thats too much maybe just the last 10?

Sorry for the long post aaaa1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? [I bought lottery tickets bc I was in texas and they’re not legal where I live and the cashier at the gas station didn’t even ask for my id. I tried to show him and he just shook his head and let me go???? He didnt even care wtf]2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? [Nah]3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? [Yea a little bit. I mean if it was just occasionally that’s probably fine? But a lot of my family has fucked up their entire lives with drugs so anything like that is iffy for me. It depends on how often they smoke ultimately]4: Do you find it easy to trust others? [I’d say yeah, probably. As long as you don’t fuck me over or guilt me within the first few weeks of knowing me id probably feel comfortable messaging you if I needed someone to talk to]5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? [Scrolling Tumblr]6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? [Probably my irl bffs lindy and raven!]7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? [Dump them. Adios fucker. I hope they’re happy with whoever they cheated on me with]8: Are you close with your dad? [Yeah I’d say so? I love him and he usually let’s me do my thing]9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? [Nah]10: What are you listening to? [Run by hozier]11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? [Sweet tea!!!! I’m from the south baby]12: Do you like hickeys? [Never has one so I don’t know!]13: What time do you go to bed? [Uhhhhhh 5am?]14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? [My siblings.]15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? [Nope I fuck up spelling a lot and have to go back and fix it no matter how many hands I’m typing with]16: Do you always answer your texts? [I try!! Unless I’m emotionally tired or forget]17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? [No. She’s my best friend now, actually]18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? [LIKE 3 MINUTES AGO I was complaining about how long it car ride home is]19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? [My irlbest friends, the cars discord chat I’m in, and a lot of my wk friends]20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? [I was writing ducktales fanfiction in my head]21: Is anyone else in the room with you? [I’m in a car with my mom for the next uhhh 7 hours?]22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? [Karmas a bitch]23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? [I was visiting family in Indiana, so yea probably? Tho I am pretty happy now too]24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? [Sometimes, with my old pal cat. She did some bad things so I stopped talking to her, but sometimes I want to catch up and see how she’s doing.]25: In the past week, have you cried? [YEAH over a darkwing duck episode]26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? [Grey. It has Mickey mouse on it!]27: Do people ever call you by your last name? [Noooope]28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? [I wouldn’t know]29: Do you have a best friend? [YEAH everyone in the cars discord and raven and lindy]30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? [No it was my great grandma lol]31: Who was your last call/text message from? [Call: red cross asking for my blood. Text: raven saying “dang”]32: Are you mad at anyone? [Not really? I don’t get angry very easily at all]33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? [When I was a freshman I was dating a junior]34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? [My great grandma! 88 I think]35: How many more days until your birthday? [LIKE a whole entire year. August 2nd]36: Do you have any summer plans yet? [Help my friend after her spine surgery p much. Visit family around the 4th of july]37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? [I have tons of girl friends!! All my best friends are girls (except em but they’re a good friend still!!!)]38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? [Lindy doesn’t know I’m trans]39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? [Uhhhhhhhhhhh next question]40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? [I try not to regret things like that]41: Do you think age matters in relationships? [UH YEAH?? An adult dating a minor ain’t my deallll]42: Are you available? [Lmfao yeah but don’t hold your breath I’m awful at relationships]43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? [My ex and bff dksdkdiajsai kill Me. I’ve had small crushes but I don’t rly let them grow too much if I realize they’re poppin up]44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? [Septum]45: Do you believe exes can be friends? [Yeah!!!!! I just reconnected with my ex from freshmen year and he’s cool]46: Do you regret anything? [Times where my mouth moved before my head could think and I hurt someone I cared about. Times where I didn’t listen. Times where I hesitated. But the past is a different country, and I try not to waste the present lamenting what I could’ve done.]47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? [Home. And the mistakes I’ve made.]48: Did you ever lose a best friend? [Yeah. She moved away and we just… talked less, and less, and less.]49: Was your last kiss a mistake? [Nah it was my great grandma]50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? [They have a bf and also dont like me plus im unlovable and bad at relationships and feelings *shrug emoji* the other person I’m interested in lives too far away and also doesn’t like me like that]51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? [Twas my gg and probably when I was a baby]52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? [All these last kiss ones are so angsty and sad and it was literally my grandma 5 hours ago I’m laughing]53: What was the last thing you ate? [McDonald’s French fries!!!!!]54: Did you get any compliments today? [Nah I’m in my road trip attire so I look like a mess]55: Where are you going on your next vacation? [New Orleans in October for voodoo fest!! Gonna see the foo fighters B)]56: Do you own anything from other countries?[I think I have Canadian money somewhere…]57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?[girls!!]58: Where have you lived most of your life?[Sweet Home Alabama]59: When was the last time you took a long drive?[DOING IT RN!!!!! 13 HOURS]60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?[yea but it was like, mashed up with truth or dare. Instead of kissing we asked them truth or dare]61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?[nah I’m pretty mild]62: Who do you text the most?[raven probably? Or max]63: What was the last movie you saw?[spirited away I think??? First time I ever saw it]64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?[I’m single, don’t remind me :P]65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?[I was 12 and right smack dab in the middle of my ugly awkward phase (thays still going on today!) So I had none lmao]66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?[nah]67: Do you curse around your parents?[GOOD LORD NO]68: Are you happy with where you live?[I? Hate Alabama. My city is okay but I want to move somewhere nicer]69: Picture of yourself? [I have a selfie tag. I would upload but I’m lazy. Maybe if I find a pic I like later I will]70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?[polyamory All the wayy!!!!! But monogamy is cool too]71: Have you ever been dumped?[probably in elementary school but I don’t remember? I usually am the one to end it bc I get freaked out and skittish around people genuinely caring about me so I break it up before they’re disappointed]72: What do you most like about making out?[being comfortable and close enough with someone to do it.]73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?[yup!]74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?[depends? I’ve asked to kiss someone and I’ve been asked equal amounts.]75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?[eyes? Idk there’s a lot that goes into finding someone attractive it’s hard to narrow it down]76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?[my mom]77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?[virgin]78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?[virgin]79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?[Any cartoon character I’m currently hyperfixated on]80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?[yes. But i would go slow and I wouldn’t want to meet their child until we were both sure this was something we wanted long term.]81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?[no its usually me? Wait i take that back!! One girl did while I was in hs but I’m pretty sure she only did it bc she just figured out her sexuality and I was queer and there.]82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?[nope I bottle that shit up!!!! But if it’s a long standing crush I’ll tell a few people eventually]83: Do you miss your last sweetie?[No.]84: Last time you slow danced with someone?[my friend Franklin at prom. We pretended to be spies on a mission forced to act casual as we scoped out potential enemies]85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?[??? Don’t like the skeptical quote marks. I’ve been in long distance relationships before, yes.]86: How can I win your heart?[just like…… be nice to me, ever, and I’m into it. Talk about things you like, ask me about things I like, try and get into/understand my interests and I’ll do the same?? Don’t make fun of me and don’t belittle my interests. The bar is low]87: What is your astrological sign?[leo]88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?[sleeping]89: Do you cook?[pasta!!!!!!!]90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?[yeah!!! 3 years of no talking and I reconnected with max recently]91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?[uh it’s complicated. Yes but idk if I’m in a good place for a relationship. I haven’t even begun to transition at all.]92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?[you say that like I could get multiple people to date me]93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?[nice dress style?? Glasses are good too. Idk questions like this are hard augh]94: Name four things that you wish you had![money, a job, plush darkwing duck toy, a car]95: Are you a player?[no]96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?[nooooope]97: Are you a tease?[hahahahaha no]98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?[nope!!! Not yet]99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?[maybe. But I don’t think you can love someone too deeply who doesn’t love you back]100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?[sure, plenty]101: Hugs or Kisses?[both??? Both is good]102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?[It’s Not shyness, it’s rejection I have a problem with]103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?[girls are pretty]104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?[Yeah I guess]105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?[If it was an open relationship and everyone knew the situation, then yea prob?? If not, then no.]106: Do you flirt a lot?[not really]107: Your last kiss?[my grandmaaaaa]108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?[not in a romantic way]109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?[not in a romantic way]110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?[next question]111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?[nope!! It’s a hopefully nice surprise for future me]112: Does someone like you currently?[probably not lol but ive got no idea!!]113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?[sure]114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?[I want to fall in love.]115: Ever made out with just a friend?[yeah]116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?[in a relationship I think?]117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.[just send me an ask and ill answer it]

This got a bit of self hatred dashed in there whoops sorry!!!

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mirkwoodshewolf · 7 years

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Mate of the Alpha’s daughter; Owen Grady x teen reader

Okay everyone here is the last Owen Grady oneshot that I have for you all to read and enjoy. Now for this request for the boyfriend I went ahead and put a name of a certain heartthrob character from a certain 90′s TV show that my dad and sister watched a lot and I have been watching reruns whenever they come on Teenick so I hope I’ve filled some of your 90′s fantasy bf’s everybody. I hope you all enjoy and happy reading :) I won’t be posting anything else until Monday cause tomorrow I’ve got my transfer orientation and then Sat. and Sun. I’ve got AWESOME CON!!

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I was refilling the raptor's food barrels when I suddenly felt someone's hands over my eyes and a voice said in my ear.

"Guess who?" I giggled and said.

"Oh gee I don't know umm.... It couldn't be my father".

"Here's a hint". I felt a kiss on the sweet spot on my neck and I smiled widely.

"Okay now I know who it is," I turned around and the hands dropped from my face and there I saw my best friend turned boyfriend Shawn Hunter. I wrapped my arms around his neck and said, "hello Shawnie".

"Hey babe". He said as he leaned forward and captured my lips with his. His arms wrapped around my waist but I stopped the kiss and stated urgently before things got too out of hand.

"Shawn you know we can't be doing this during work hours".

"I know but I missed you".

"Shawn I left the catwalk just two minutes ago".

"Two very long, unbearable minutes". I playfully slapped his arm then I said.

"You know my dad doesn't like it when the workers slack off".

"Yeah about that, how come you haven't told your dad about us yet? You ashamed of me?"

"Never! It's just that—"

"Yeah I know, the last boyfriend you had was a real asshole. He's just trying to protect his daughter from getting hurt again, but you know your dad loves me, we grew up together for a couple years before you moved away, remember?"

"How could I ever forget? You saved me from almost falling off the monkey bars at our school's playground on my first day. It was at that moment I knew I had found my mate".

"And the day I found mine". He pecked my lips and nuzzled his face into my neck and every now and then I felt him kissing up and down my neck.

Backstory time. Shawn and I have been friends ever since my dad and I moved on Pennsylvania when he was still in the Navy, it was shortly after the start of my kindergarten year when I decided to play on the monkey bars, but my foot suddenly slipped and I was soon dangling really high up crying for help and just when I fell, someone caught me and when I looked up I was staring into the eyes of a six year old Shawn Hunter.

From that moment forward, Shawn and I were the best of friends that was until the 4th grade when my dad got transferred and we were forced to move to Costa Rica. Shawn was deeply upset and didn't even want to talk to me but just before my dad and I got into the car to drive off to the airport, Shawn suddenly came running up to me.

He took my hand and placed his lucky plastic ring he found in his cereal box and said to me.

"Keep it, so that way I can find you again someday".

"Thanks Shawn, I'll miss you".

"I'll miss you too, and I'm sorry I was behaving like a jerk to you, I just didn't want to say goodbye, not to you". I then took a bold move and pecked his cheek and said.

"I understand, goodbye Shawn Hunter". And with that I got in the car with my dad and we drove off as I looked through the back window of the car and placed my hand against the window until I couldn't see him anymore.

Years later when I turned 14 my dad was picked by the people from Jurassic World due to his strong will and ability to take commands like a leader to be chosen as a Raptor trainer for their newest exhibit at the time. Soon my dad retired from the Navy and we moved to Isla Nublar and my dad soon started training our four girls, and when my homeschooling was done for the summer I would work with my dad with the girls and got to know them and soon they became like my own sisters.

But it wasn't until the next year before I turned 15 just shortly after my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with this hot little blonde who works at the baby dinosaur rides exhibit, that I met a familiar face working in the raptor exhibit, Shawn Hunter. Apparently his parents had given up on his rough behavior in school so they sent him down here to live with his uncle Vic Hoskins (yeah I know right? I was shocked when I heard that too) for discipline behavior and Hoskins being head of security knew exactly how to keep Shawn in line (even though Shawn still acts up at times).

When I confronted him, he went berserk recognizing me and he immediately hugged me so tightly I thought I was going to explode. We then started catching up on everything that went on ever since I moved and within 4 months of our reunion, we shared our first kiss and we knew right then that fate was good to us and brought us back together. And here we are just 6 months into our "secret" relationship.

"(Y/n)! Where are the girls' food barrels!?" I could hear my dad exclaim from my walkie-talkie. I pushed Shawn off of me and grabbed the food barrels but Shawn grabbed my arm and I said.

"Shawn let go!"

"Pay the price for that shove, one more kiss". His smug grin and his hazel puppy dog eyes. I then quickly pecked his cheek and giggled but not before he came in front of me this time to open the door as he said in a terrible British accent. "My lady".

"Why thank you kind sir" I stated the same way then I walked out and headed back up the catwalk.

When I reached my dad he said.

"There you are, what took you so long?"

"Kinda got a little distracted, sorry dad".

"It's okay just make sure it doesn't happen again, it'd really crush me if I had to fire my own daughter in front of everyone".

"Oh please you'd glad to fire me". I joked.

"I would not!" My dad brought me in a headlock and noogied me playfully making me growl out playfully as I tried to make him release me. As I walked away I stopped and said,

"Oh and when the girls are done training, lead Echo into her pin for her bath".

"You know I could always get someone else to do it".

"Not a chance dad, Echo is my baby after all and I'm the only one she really trusts into giving her a bath, same with the other girls. I've done it a thousand times before and I'll do it a million times again, stop being so overprotective of me".

"I can't help it, you're my little girl. No matter how old you get, I'll still see you as a little baby raptor egg". He said as he came up to me and embraced me.

"Ohh gross dad stop comparing me to them!" I shoved him against his chest and walked back down to get the bath supplies ready.

After their training, the bath was all set up with soap and I got my sponges and hose ready and soon Echo came in and I said.

"Hey girl, how you doing?" Echo chirped and nuzzled against me. Echo and I had formed a bond with each other like my dad and Blue's as well as Uncle Barry and Delta. Echo can sometimes be a little too affectionate at time but when I put her right, she calms down. "Okay girl, into the bath". Echo then got into the bath and I proceeded to clean her up.

As I washed her skin with my soapy sponge I could swear her purring and chirping was in rhythm to a song I always sing to her and the girls. I smiled and asked her.

"Do you want me to sing that song again girl?" Echo looked at me and purred and chirped once at me making me smile then I began singing the song "Lavender's blue Dilly, Dilly". Ever since I saw the Cinderella movie and heard that song, I thought this song was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard and one day when I was giving echo a bath I couldn't help but softly sing the song and ever since then she's wanted me to sing it and I guess she's even told that to her sisters since every now and again Charlie, Delta and Blue would purr the tone and ask me to sing it.

As I sang I was unaware that Shawn had snuck in and was hearing me sing. He leaned up against the door with a smile on his face and stared at me in awe at my beautiful singing. Echo then turned her attention behind me which made me stop in the middle of my singing and I turned to see Shawn. I groaned in embarrassment and he said.

"No, no, keep singing. It was beautiful. Really".

"Ohh Shawn why did you have to hear that?"

"Because I wanted to see if my girlfriend was keeping anything from me, and apparently she was". He came up beside me and wrapped his arms around my waist. "How come you never told me you could sing?"

"Because I don't like singing in front of others to impress them, it's just better that I sing to myself when I'm stressed out or in a peaceful state".

"Well I think you should sing more often, especially when I'm around". He kissed my cheek and said, "Hey my uncle is going to be working overtime with security, wanna sneak out and have a picnic here tonight?"

"I don't know if I can Shawn".

"Just try, it's been awhile since the two of us had a romantic night out".

"Okay, I'll try". We kissed each other then Echo chirped wanting the attention back. Shawn leaned his head against mine and he said, "hello Echo". He reached his hand out and Echo leaned into his purring softly.

"She likes you".

"And I like her, as well as her sisters. It's a shame of what my uncle sees in them. Weapons to be used in wars, I'm sorry (Y/n)".

"It's okay. That's what my dad, Barry and I try to teach people that they're more than test subjects or money for warfare. They are intelligent and smart creatures".

"That's because they've got a strong and beautiful Alpha taking care of them" he said as he grinned at me. I giggled softly and leaned against him and said.

"Okay you now get out so I can finish cleaning the girls up. I'll meet you here later tonight".

"9 o'clock, dress cute". He kissed my cheek then left the room leaving me to sigh deeply. Echo looked at me like a "you got it bad" face.

"Oh Echo, you have no idea. I mean he's always been there for me even when we were kids. Heck you should've seen him when we ran into my ex just a few weeks ago. The dick actually came towards me with a new girl on his arm and he began insulting me of how she's more flexible and always has her legs open for him, Shawn went all out on him and almost literally beat the shit out of him in front of everyone". I then finished washing Echo off and she got out of the tub and shook herself getting me a little wet in the process and I told her to bring in Delta next.

For the rest of my work time I cleaned the girls all up and when I was done, I cleaned up and put the bathing stuff away and soon it was time to head home.

I showered and made myself look cute for my night date with Shawn tonight. When I came out of my room I was fortunate that my dad was too busy with some paper work that he's slacked up on and the higher ups are on his tail about sending them in, I put my alibi to action.

"Hey dad I think I left some of my paperwork back at the paddock I'm gonna go and grab them okay?"

"Alright just be careful heading out there" my dad said then I left the bungalow and rode my bike towards the enclosure.

When I got there, I went inside and saw Shawn had actually set out a romantic candlelight picnic inside the enclosure. Knowing the girls were in their pins every night we had nothing to worry about. I opened the gates and entered inside to see Shawn standing up and he gestured with his arms at the picnic.

"Low and behold mademoiselle, your dinner awaits". I saw the candles lighting up the atmosphere nicely (they're candles surrounded by glass tubes so don't worry we're good) our favorite foods were sprawled out and our favorite drinks, he also had a stereo lying beside us playing soft classical music.

"Oh Shawn, you did all this?"

"Yeah a bit".

"When did you ever become such a romantic?" I said as I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his arms around my waist.

"When I met you, I want to give you everything you deserve". I awed him and kissed him softly. "Come on, sit. Eat". I smiled and we sat by each other and we ate our picnic and just talked for what felt like forever.

My head was laying on his chest and he rested on his back as we both looked up at the sky to see the billions and billions of stars in the sky.

"Wow look at all of them stars" said Shawn.

"Yeah, one good thing I loved about moving around during my dad's Navy days was whenever we'd move to a country state so that at night whenever I was alone or whenever my dad could, we'd go out together and just look at the stars forever. Making pictures and he telling me about the constellations in the sky. We'd even make some up of our own".

"Really?"

"Yeah like you see that one right there?"

"Yeah?"

"My dad called that 'Raptor's claw' see how it curves around like a raptor's claw".

"Oh yeah I see it, mind if I try?"

"Go ahead".

"Okay umm.... Ohh that one right there, just to the right of the moon. I'll call that 'Fearsome Alpha' named after you".

"Aww, you know as the Alpha's daughter I'm supposed to be protected at all times. Any male who takes a female from an Alpha's pack is a threat to the Alpha's position".

"Really, then I guess your old man's not a good Alpha for allowing his precious daughter to be nabbed". He buried his face into my neck and kissed and nibbled on it teasingly making it tickle. I giggled and squirmed as I said.

"Shawn stop it that tickles".

"Oh yeah, does this tickle?" He then proceeded to tickle me around my waist making me shriek. He tickled me for a few more minutes until I was now laying on the ground with Shawn hovering over me smirking. "God you look so beautiful" I smirked and said.

"And you, you handsome devil are one sexy beast" I stated as I combed my fingers through his silky brown hair. I then shivered slightly from the cold.

"You cold?"

"Yeah, it's amazing how in one of the hottest places in the world as soon as the sun sets it's almost freezing".

"Here, take this". He then removed his leather jacket and wrapped it around me. I smiled and wrapped it further around me and nuzzled under his chin and said as I looked up at him.

"I love you, Shawn Patrick Hunter".

"Not as much as I love you, (f/n) (m/n) Grady". We leaned into kiss each other when the lights suddenly came on blinding us and the sound of the alarms started up. "What the hell's going on?"

"I don't know". We then heard rustling in the bushes. My heart was racing in fear not wanting to believe what I was fearing be true. "Did you see that?"

"Yeah, okay, okay just stay calm okay". Shawn came up and wrapped his arm around me and whispered, "it's gonna be okay, maybe it's security purposes. My uncle trying to mess with us maybe". I then heard the sound of the gate closing when I turned to see that it was, I cried out Shawn's name and we both ran towards it only for it to close up on us.

Oh god. No way out now, the gate could only be open from the outside and we're now trapped here at night, we'll have no way of knowing where the girls *if they're even out* are at and they'll come right for us.

Soon my worst fear was realized when the girls suddenly came out in full hunting mode. They roared and growled at us as they kept their eyes right at us. My heart raced as I banged on the cage repeatedly and Shawn and I both tried to manually lift it open. But when it didn't work, my fear got the best of me as I fell to the ground almost hyperventilating, that's when Shawn made a bold move.

He got in front of me and like my dad, he held out his hand and ordered them to back up.

"Shawnie, what are you doing?!" I squeaked out.

"Protecting you".

"But you're not their Alpha, they'll kill you!"

"I don't care! As long as you're safe I don't care what they'll do to me!" I stared at him with amazement but also fear. I begged to God or whoever is up there to protect Shawn.

I don't think I'll ever forgive myself if anything happens to the boy I love.

"Blue. Stay!" Shawn commanded as best as he could. I knew he was scared beyond anything but his protective instincts he's always had for his friends made him stay strong for me, but I still feared for his life. Blue snapped at him and Shawn snapped back "Hey! Hey! You don't do that to me!" The girls all roared and hissed at Shawn when he stated firmly again. "Delta don't you dare go near here! Back up!" Delta roared at him fiercely.

The girls all surrounded Shawn and hissed and eyed him but they didn't attack, at least not yet.

"None of you come any closer to her! You understand me! Kill me if you want but don't. You. Dare. Hurt your Alpha's daughter!" I can't believe Shawn was really saying this to them. He was willing to die in order to protect me, if that's not a man I don't know what is.

The long wait felt like forever in fear and anxiety of wondering what the girls were going to do next, kill Shawn? Or back away? Soon we heard the sound of clicking from a familiar flicker and a voice said from above.

"Okay! Eyes up!" The girls soon looked up and the voice continued, "Good, and we're moving!" The girls then backed up and followed the voice towards another part of the catwalk and from the lights as Shawn got down beside me and held me in his arms we both could see our rescuer was none other than my dad. "Whoa! Alright that is good. That is damn good". He used his clicker again and proceeded to feed the girls their white mice and then my dad finally stated "eyes up!" The girls raised their heads and my dad gave them the command to head back to their pins.

Once we were in the clear, the gate opened behind us and Shawn picked me up bridal style and got me out of the enclosure and set me down and cupped my face in his hands.

"You okay?" He asked.

"Yeah. You saved my life". He smiled softly and kissed my forehead and we both hugged each other when my dad came up and cleared his throat.

Busted.

We separated and I saw my dad looking at us very angrily with his arms crossed over his chest and his eyes staring daggers at us.

"(Y/n) (m/n) Grady, you mind telling me what's going on here?" I lowered my head sadly and I finally confessed.

"Shawn and I are dating dad. We've been dating for the last 6 months now. I know I should've told you but I was—I was afraid you'd never let me see him again. He's not at all like what (ex's/n) was. He's sweet, funny, loyal, and I love him".

"It's true Mr. Grady, we're sorry we didn't come to you first, and I'm sorry I almost got her killed tonight so I—I can understand if you don't want me to see her anymore" Shawn stated sadly. My dad looked at us and said.

"Normally I would kill you for endangering my daughter's life in the middle of the night, and you missy would be grounded for life for recklessness and for lying to me. What you both did was beyond stupid and dangerous! Had I not been here to control them you'd both be dead. And if not then your uncle would have my ass hanging by a thread and have me fired for endangering two teenagers who couldn't keep their hormones in check!" Shawn and I flinched as my dad's voice raised with anger. Just when we both expected our punishments to be stated out, my dad said. "Fortunately that's not the case, and you passed".

"What now?" I asked.

"You finally chosen a good boyfriend (y/n), any man whose willing to sacrifice himself to the awaited dangers before him for the girl he loves, is an okay man in my books".

"Wait, wait, wait, you mean this was all—a test?" I snapped out.

"Obviously. And either way I had my suspicion about you two for a while now. A little bit after you started dating actually". Shawn and I looked at each other then I stepped up to my dad and punched him repeatedly in the chest and shoulders as hard as I could making him cry out in pain.

"WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT!?!? WE COULD'VE BEEN KILLED IN THERE YOU KNOW HOW THOSE GIRLS GET!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!" Shawn held me back as I tried to get out of his arms to beat my father once again.

"Easy (y/n), easy, easy".

"HOW THE HELL CAN YOU BE THIS CALM SHAWNIE!?! HE COULD'VE HAD YOU KILLED!!!"

"TO PROTECT YOU!!" He yelled back. I calmed down and he said again, "All those things I said back there are true. I mean even when we were little kids in kindergarten I was willing to do anything for you. I always protected you from anyone who dared try to insult or make fun of you, and I was there when (ex's/n) insulted you a few weeks ago. (Y/n) you are someone worth sacrificing my own life for, and I'll gladly do it again however many times that may be". I smiled and hugged him and sobbed softly.

"But please don't. I could've lost you tonight, I couldn't bare to think what I'd do if I really did lose you". Shawn hugged me and rubbed my back comfortingly.After our embrace we turned back to my dad and I said to him as I walked back up to him."I'm sorry I flipped out daddy".

"It's okay kiddo, perhaps I shouldn't have gone too far in order to prove Shawn's worthiness". He then walked up to Shawn and placed his hand on his shoulder and said to him, "you're a good kid Shawn. You've made my daughter happier than I've ever seen her in all her life. You've given her everything I ever did plus more that I can't. But let me tell you something, if you break her heart or hurt her in anyway, I won't hesitate for even a second to throw your little punk ass back in the enclosure, all gates sealed and double locked. And I'll know because the Raptor's know all!" It was then my dad left us with one final warning, "don't ever turn your back to the cage!" When Shawn turned around he saw the girls all peeking their heads through the bars growling and snarling warningly at him, following their Alpha's threat.

Shawn leapt back shrieking into my arms as the girls really went back to their pens and my dad had them closed and the lights went off on the enclosure.

"So now what do we do?" I asked.

"Well it is pretty late and Shawn your uncle has been harassing me with calls on where you are so—why don't the three of us head back to the bungalow for some s'mores". My dad suggested. Shawn and I cheered happily then we all headed back to the bungalow for some s'mores and other variety of junk food.

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countdownto65 · 7 years

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Empathy for Self

What is the nemesis of shame? Empathy.

What is the root of most of your shame? Attention seeking, codependentcy and sexual misconduct.

Empathy. You were the oldest in the family fighting for parental attention against two babies.

You hit puberty early. This was a 2 fold problem. You started getting attention furthering the tight shirts but in turn Everyone in 4th grade started calling you a ho. You had never even kissed a boy. You were not a ho and kids are fucking mean.

But you know who else’s attention you got by having boobs, dressing in body suits and seeking attention at 11 years old? A fucking pedophile. While your behavior made you an easy target, NO ONE DESERVES TO BE SEXUALLY EXPLOITED AT 12, 13, 14, OR 15 YEARS OLD. Did you fuckin get that? No matter what your actions it was not your fault they targeted you. Even if you agreed to it at 13, 14, 15 you can leave that self blame right here bc that was their bad NOT YOURS. This is where you learned sex = attention, power, control. They would buy you stuff, get you high and drunk, make you feel like the best person they know all (not explicitly stated) for sexual behavior. I learned a skewed view on relationships and appropriate sexual behavior in adult married behavior. I learned to emotionally detach from sex. I learned to over ride the “this shit ain’t right” feeling you get in your chest when you are uncomfortable in a situation. All of these things are what set your boundaries and your very left field view of what kind of attention makes you feel worthwild. This was not your fault and sometimes life has shitty things happen that effect our outlook forever.

So it sure was easy to sleep with boyfriends, I mean you “loved” them, they were always older, sex was something that didn’t come from everybody so with my sexual skills I learned from the pedophiles I was the best gf a 16 year old could have. And bc I could so easily separate sex from emotion (as a conditioned response to molestation) and it was a way to get boys I liked to notice me, I gave it up easily. Not necessarily sex, but sexual acts. It was one way I felt power and control. Boys treated me special on the surface bc I was pretty with tight clothes…but I failed to realize the power was momentary at the cost of respect. Both self respect and respect of everyone else. This was when my first experience with the fuck and run type of dude came in. The first time I cared. After that I didn’t at least I told myself I didn't but This was when I began codependency. They didn’t always fuck and run. I was good at getting boys to stick around for a while. I was a serial dater. I had to have a significant other to feel worth so I had too many boyfriends. Always one on hand one on the backburner. This was you reaching out for real connection, something you felt had been missing both with your parents, your abusers and your random sexual encounters. When I had a bf I was faithful. I know that sounds fucked up bc I just said I had a backburner but I was never sleeping with this other guy. I just friend zoned him knowing he liked me so I could establish my safety net. So one day at 17 Ieft home, went to a house party, hooked up with the guy who’s house it was (Matt) and that was the start of my first adult relationship. I loved him from the bottom of my toes but he often cheated on me and I never left him for it. It was at this time that I severed my relationship with my abusers. I was old enough to at least have an inkling something wasn’t right, plus now I considered it cheating and I didn’t cheat on him. He started selling drugs. We both got into cocaine. It was easy bc I dated the dopeman.

Then he went to prison. I continued the relationship with him but continued to date/sleep with men while he was away. This was when I caught an std and began stripping on weekends. This is still caused by poor boundaries and a skewed idea of sex and power… Set in motion by sexual abuse. By now I had slowed way down on cocaine but had a huge weed and alcohol habit. I worked at a catholic preschool during the week but stripped to pay for my substances on Sat nights. This set off a little bit of the uncomfortable double life feeling but I pushed it down. I also hustled people for substances. Although I never slept with anyone for money or drugs. But I def made them think I might so they would get me high. Never felt bad either bc if your a dude willing to be got you deserved to get hustled…that was my mindset. I also saw stripping as a hustle. Hustle to me means fuck with a lame walk with a limp. I mean if your gonna be thirsty I’ll take your money. This is probably when I acquired my mindset that most dudes were creeps and out to get me. I realize now that by appearing easy I was literally attracting creeps but at the time I enjoyed the attention and the feeling of superiority and has a huge sample of men to confirm my bias.

Every now and then though I got tricked out of my hard exterior and caught feelings. This is my deep emotional need for connection, to feel worth while. This is where I met my daughters father. He was a giant red flag but problem with bad boundaries and emotional regulation is if I liked you I would ignore red flags and become overly obsessed with you. This has continued to be a problem throughout adulthood.

Anyways I dated Tony until He went to prison, then Matt got out of prison until we broke up, then Tony got out of prison and we has Olivia. Then Tony went back to prison and I met Jason, I left Jason when Tony got out of prison but when Tony and I broke up I went back to Jason and we had Leah. Are you seeing the boomerang effect of codependentcy and back burner relationships. One stable relationship was not enough.

I wanted Jason to be different. To be a family but unfortunately Jason turned out to be very abusive mentally, physically and emotionally. He was an alcoholic and a mean one. But for some reason I loved him and let him stomp on me over and over. He took my confidence. He took my pride. He took my soul. I tried to break up with him 30 times he would say no and just wouldn’t leave. I was faithful to him until I moved out into subsidised housing. But even then I didn’t have multiple men just one man that to this day I love. This guy put up with being #2 for 2 years on and off. Maybe he knew I loved him, maybe he knew that I was stuck with Jason, maybe he knew I needed to feel wanted and worthy. During this I felt guilty and shameful. I eventually bought a house and moved Jason in. That is when this other guy got a new gf and left me alone. It was like mourning a breakup that I couldn’t tell anyone. Eventually I legally evicted Jason and this left me with a self worth and connection black hole.

I acted out for a minute on my usual single m.o.. Then an old friend from middle school came in. He was different then others in that he was genuinely nice and cared for my well being. Unfortunately he also came with a huge dose of depression leading to at the time an inability to keep a job or help with housework. But I stayed with him on and off for the next few years bc I loved him for his emotional support and that he made me feel worthy. Plus it was safe. As a woman in her 30s, I am at the point that if I’m in a relationship I don’t cheat or scope out new guys or have a backburner. It kept me emotionally reeled in. But bc of my trust issues, bc of my lack of feeling worthy, bc of my resentment for him watching me struggle, and bc of my need for excitement or passion (see drama) I couldn’t be with him forever. Even after he got better and held a job and helped my brain short circuits and told me that our lack of connection was insurmountable. I broke his heart and he did nothing wrong. I am just still searching for that lasting “in love” connection that I am not sure exists. I harbor huge guilt here. Both for his feelings and for what could be wrong with me that I left what I said I wanted. That maybe my brain will never let me really love. My only empathy here is that I am working on my shit and all I can do is that.

Every time in my adult life when I have been unhappy in a relationship I’ve left instead of fixing. I have searched out attention through suggestive facebook posts or selfies or sexting. I have been emotionally raw towards men. I had a shitty attitude toward relationships. Anytime that I was single or had freedom I either had a fuck buddy that I didn’t feel anything for or sometimes I would make a strong connection and go all in. I would rush it sexually (again not necessarily full sex but messing around for sure) and more times then not I get played. Within 2 weeks after they no longer answer my texts or calls. This is the shit adult shame is built from. How can you be so blind and stupid? Why can’t you be stable and happy? But here is where I need an empathy piece. Your sexuality was already not healthy then Jason stripped you of any self worth. He often told you no one could ever love me bc I was such a low down terrible person, a piece of shit mother, a whore. Six years of that and you begin to believe it. So if a man comes along and sells you a dream of being loveable its hard not to want with all your heart to believe them. And sexuality is my only tool I know for reeling them in. But when things get too serious I start getting scared of being broken or having to work on things that historically haven’t worked or old scars become obsessions.

I am at a point in my life now that I want to change but Tbh I don’t know how. I want to regain respect for myself and I would like to change peoples opinion of me or better yet not care. This has sent me into a major mental health crisis. I want to know how to reel it in and gain respect while still being true to myself. I still yearn for spark, sex and connection but I want to do it healthily. I want to take the emotional polarization and shame out of sex. Instead of not caring at all or being a crazy obsessive smothering weirdo and throwing myself at someone then feeling like an idiot for falling so hard. So maybe dates in public, counting actions over words and putting time in between the spark and the sex.

I am still struggling with what to do about social media. I mean I need to chill on the provocative selfies, attention seeking posts, and entertaining anyone that messages me… but I still like to be noticed. I want to post selfies and I think dirty memes are funny. Anyway this is long. I am still figuring shit out. And I can’t just look at empathy without taking inventory of what I could have done differently. But this post is empathy and it did help take off a small piece of that shame.

(*when I say act out sexually I don't mean I've had hundreds of partners but rather I have been quick to sexually experiment but I have also developed a "stop point". Don't get it too twisted.)

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mrsjugheadjonesthethird · 8 years

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The Best Revenge Plan (Jughead x Reader)

Prompt: Heyyy. Could u do a rly angsty Jughead x Reader where the reader catches Archie (her bf) making out with Betty or something and she goes to Jughead, her best friend, and asks him to help her make a revenge plan? They start acting all lovey-dovey to make Archie jealous of what he lost and they make sure he finds them in 'compromising situations'? I think it'd be really cute and funny. Thx!!!!

A/N: I'm going to do that so the reader finds out about Archie and Miss Grundy instead of Jughead as she's walking past the classroom. Hope you like it! (Sorry I’m not the best with angsty stuff ugh) Requests are welcome!

Warnings: Archie x Reader (in the beginning), Cheating, Underage relationship (stupid Miss Grundy), Small amount of swearing,

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The Best Revenge Plan (Jughead x Reader)

You had a bad feeling in your gut. Your boyfriend of a few months had been canceling dates and avoiding both you and your best friend Jug.

He was supposed to go on a roadtrip with Jug on July 4th but instead you and him sat in Pop’s trying to figure out why Archie canceled on the boy.

“It doesn’t make sense, Jug. He told me yesterday that you guys were leaving early?” You sigh and frown at your melting milkshake.

“I don’t know, (y/n)...”

“Do you think he got into some sort of trouble?” You push the basket of fries towards your best friend. The thought of your boyfriend lying to both you and him made your appetite disappear.

You glance out the window of Pop’s.

Why were you even dating Arch?

Everyone thought Betty was a better fit but you knew the blonde was more confused about everything.

You had talked to the blonde before saying yes to Archie. You knew she liked him and didn’t want to go against one of your best friends.

You were surprised when she told you that she was starting to question her sexuality anyways so she didn’t want to date Archie when she was trying to figure herself out.

Your parents and Arch’s Dad were happy when you two announced the relationship.

Sometimes you felt the relationship was making everyone else happy instead of you and him.

It’s not that Archie wasn’t a great boyfriend. No, He was a gentleman and did everything right.

Or at least up until summer started.

It was into the first week of school when you found out.

You were walking along the halls during your free period when you walked past the music room.

There he was.

Your heart drops as you watch Miss Grundy, the music teacher, step a little closer to your boyfriend.

He puts an arm around her waist and glances down with that charming smile.

Was he cheating on you? With the damn music teacher?!

“I don’t think so, Andrews.” You mutter and rush to find your best friend. Your blood boiling at this point.

“JONES.” You almost screech when you see the famous gray beanie.

He jumps and turns to you with a glare, but drops it with concern when he sees your face. “What happened?”

You grab his arm and drag him into an empty classroom.

He rubs his arm when you let go. “(Y/n) what-”

“Archie’s cheating on me.” Your voice breaks a little as you interrupt him.

His face changes. “What? With who?”

“The fucking music teacher, Juggie! Out of all the people, a fucking older woman is the one who he cheats on me with!” Tears gather as your voice raises a little.

Jug instantly wraps his arms around you. “I’ll kill him.” He growls as he holds you.

“I have to break up with him, Jug.” You mutter against your best friend’s chest.

“Okay. Do you want me to punch him for you?” You let out a giggle at the thought. “I’ll do it. He shouldn’t get away with this. With hurting you.”

You pull away slightly and grin up at the angry boy. “Thanks Jug… Actually I have a plan.”

Your eyes meet his. “Will you help me, Jug?”

Step 1: Break up with Archie Andrews.

“Archie!” You call out when you see his bright red hair on his porch.

“Sup, (Y/n).” He looks up at you, making your stomach turn.

“Can we talk?” You keep your voice soft. Not wanting to show him just how angry you were with your childhood friend and soon to be ex.

“Of course.” He shrugs and places the guitar down behind him.

“Listen, Arch.” You sit down in the chair next to his. “I think we should break up.”

“What? Why?” He frowns, immediately questioning you.

“Arch, You’re never around anymore.” You remind yourself to use your words carefully. “I barely saw you all summer and you won’t answer my texts.”

“I went on that roadtrip with Jughead! You know that.” You glare at the ginger.

“I’m not stupid, Andrews.” Screw this step, this boy is getting your fury. “I was with Juggie all summer! Hell, He took me to see the fireworks instead of my boyfriend!”

“(Y/n).” His voice gets lower.

“No. I’m cutting this off. You weren’t into me and I wasn’t that into you. Simple choice, we break up.” You stand up. “Oh, and have fun with that cougar of yours.” Your voice sharpens with every word.

Instantly, He grabs your arm hard. “What? (Y/n), what do you know?!” He harshly whispers at you.

You shake out of his grip. “You know when you’re cheating on your girlfriend with the damn music teacher, maybe not do it in the music room during school hours?”

He grabs your arm again. “You can’t tell anyone, (Y/n).”

You shove him away from you. “Screw you, Archie. You don’t even deny it! And why shouldn’t I tell everyone in town?! You hurt me, Arch!” Your voice getting louder.

Before he could say anything, Jug came around the corner.

“(Y/n)? You alright?” His voice laced with concern.

“Yeah. I’m just leaving. Walk me home, Juggie?” You make it down the steps when Archie goes after you.

“You can’t say anything, (Y/n). Or…”

“Or what, Archie?” Jug interrupts, glaring at him.

“It’s a little late for that bud.” You step towards Jughead.

Jug puts his arm around you. “Come on, You look like you need a milkshake.”

The ginger boy watches as you and your best friend walk away, one holding the other.

“So, You broke up with him?” Betty and Veronica both frown when you told them about the break up.

“Yeah. He was never around and he cheated on me so yeah. But I’m more hurt that he cheated rather than him not being that into me. Our relationship was more of a label than anything else.” You shrug as Jug glances at you. “Plus, Juggie here is excellent at cheering me up.”

He rolls his eyes and pats your head. “Anything for the princess.”

“Woah, wait a minute. Princess?” V raises a brow.

“What about it?” He shrugs, taking a bite out of the burger in front of him.

“Since when did you call her princess?” V crosses her arms as Betty giggles.

“Ronnie, He’s called her princess since we were in like third grade.” Betty leans into Veronica side.

“Yeah. I got jealous that he was always wearing a crown so He made me a paper one and crowned me ‘Princess’.” You grin at the memory.

“You know I’m surprised you haven’t punched Archie for cheating on (Y/n), Juggie.” Betty changes the subject back.

“I wanted to but Princess here has a different plan.” All eyes turn to you.

“Oh god. Another plan. What is it this time?” Betty groans and V claps her hands.

I grin at Jug. “Well like I said, Jug has an excellent way of cheering me up.”

“I absolutely approve. Oh My God.” V smirks at you two.

Step 2: Have Archie catch You and Jug in Compromising Positions.

“Juggie, You don’t have to do this. I can find someone else to help me.” You tangle your hands in his black locks.

“I don’t mind. Plus do you really trust another guy to keep his hands to himself in these situations?” He smirks and nods to the position you guys were in.

You had Jug push you up against the wall in the back of the library and you had your arms wrapped around his neck.

“True.” You giggle. “But You’d break their hands if they touched me the wrong way.” You kiss his nose, making his face turn red.

“Stop.” He tries to keep a stern face. “I still hate you for knocking my beanie on the floor.”

“It had to happen Jug! He won’t believe it if we don’t pay attention to detail.” You roll your eyes at him.

“So what are we doing again?” He keeps his voice down so no one can over him.

“Betty invited him to study with Her, V and Kevin. Kevin is going to point us out to him when he sits down. Before that, You’re going to have to kiss me. One more chance to get out of this, Juggie.” You brush a strand of hair out of his face.

He shakes his head. “I told you. I don’t mind helping you. Plus It’s not like we haven’t kissed before.”

Both of you blush at the memory.

It was before Archie asked you out. You had been dating one of the guys on the football team.

He broke your heart and Jug broke his nose.

Then later that night, Jug climbed in your window and held you while you cried.

“Why am I not good enough for them?” You had voiced your insecurities to him.

“What are you talking about, Princess? You are beautiful and deserve way more than him or any stupid guy like him.” He had kissed you a few moments after.

You simply replied with a smile and a “Thank you for being my knight in shining armor, Juggie.”

You turn your gaze to a flash of red and varsity jacket. “He’s-”

Jug gently presses his soft chapped lips on yours. Your heart speeds up.

You kiss him back with a bit of force and grip at his hair.

He places his hands on your waist and tugs you closer to him.

You faintly hear Kevin say something but Jug bites at your bottom lip and you lose all thoughts.

A chair slams against the floor, scaring you both apart.

You glance back to see the group all staring in shock as Archie storms out.

“You know..” Jug clears his throat, trying to hide the creeping grin. “The best revenge plan would be if we somehow started dating..” A faint blush makes its way up his neck.

You lean in and kiss him again. “How about we just date because we like each other?”

“I love you.” He sighed.

“Gross. Why?” You giggle as he captures your lips again.

Step 3: Scrap the plan and Realize the only one for you is Jughead Jones the Third.

A/N: Ahhhhh It’s not as angsty as you requested but I hope you still liked it!

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🌻rules: once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag.

I was tagged by @fixationpsychosis ! (thank u!)

🌻LAST…

 [1] drink: zero ultra monster energy fsdjlfkjds (its the only Good(TM) monster so i had to specify)

 [2] phone call: my grandma probably. if skype calls count, then dirk. 

[3] text message: my grandma...

 [4] song you listened to: ok it was the schuyler sisters from hamilton but it was bc i was doign a colorguard routine to it which probably doesnt help but

[5] time you cried: idk... a couple days ago

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: yeah

 [7] been cheated on: uh you know what? probably, yeah.

 [8] kissed someone and regretted it: not immediately??? but yeah

 [9] lost someone special: yeah i mean.. i hope its not permanent but yeah

 [10] been depressed: all day erryday

 [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: nah

🌻 LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS…

 [12] pastel pink

 [13] the one shade of red u know. like my blog aesthetic

 [14] orange but its gotta be soft

🌻 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

 [15] made new friends: yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i made so many new good friends somewhat recently!! i love them!!!

 [16] fallen out of love: im trying

[17] laughed until you cried: yeah

 [18] found out someone was talking about you: hhhh yeah

[19] met someone who changed you: mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

 [20] found out who your true friends are: hh yeah

 [21] kissed someone on your Facebook list: ive only kissed two people ever and theyre both BLOCKED AS FUCK

🌻 GENERAL…

 [22] how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: (sidenote: i dont like the term “real life” when talking abt friends bc just bc u have ldrs doesnt mean u dont know the person in ‘real life’ bc u do. but i know what its asking so im just gonna answer that) 3... because i panicked and deleted almost everyone off my friends list

 [23] do you have any pets: i have a cat named Pico de Gato

[24] do you want to change your name: legally? yeah. but idk im ok w my name(s) rn

 [25] what did you do for your last birthday: hhhhh I CRIED BC NOBODY WAS ABLE TO HANG OUT AND I SAT IN MY ROOM ALONE but then the other day my friend brought me weed as a belated bday present so whatever

[26] what time did you wake up: 6 am

 [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleepin

[28] name something you cannot wait for: GREEN DAY AND AGAINST ME CONCERT NEXT MONTH!

 [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: oh god last summer i think im not sure

 [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: not having bpd and ruining all of my relationships

[31] what are you listening to right now: against me bc i remembered the concert for #28...

[32] have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i went to middle school w someone named tom and i had him in social studies and he wrote a song for a class project on guitar except it was really bad

 [33] something that is getting on your nerves: this one kid i kind of know thats.. actualyl terrible i want them to die....

 [34] most visited website: tumblr/youtube  

[35] elementary: idk what these are actually asking but i... think its asking where... i started to kindergarten at a school in south dakota, and then a different school here from then until 2nd grade; 3rd grade in texas; 4th in rochester, minnesota and 5th in winona, minnesota

 [36] high school: currently in rn and it sux

 [37] college: either going to a technical school here to get a degree as a diagnostic medical sonographer or going somewhere??? to get a phd in psych to be a clinical psychologist. prolly the former tho,,

[38] hair colour: black but rly badly dyed

 [39] long or short hair: idk its like to my shoulders when its down but also i have a mohawk

 [40] do you have a crush on someone: YEA IM RLY GAY FOR MY BF

[41] what do you like about yourself: my eyes and Musical Abilities(TM)

 [42] piercings: idk i dont really want any,,

 [43] blood type: idk ?? ??????????????

[44] nickname: roxy (if that counts..), kasp, rox, friendly ghost

 [45] relationship status: IM LVOE DIRK

 [46] zodiac sign: picses/aries

 [47] pronouns: god i dont fucking know.. any?? except if we’re not close u cant use she/her but. yeah idk. any.

 [48] fav TV show: hm twd probably

 [49] tattoos: i dont have any, BUT  im going to get a bike helmet? idk where yet though. and then just those plastic vampire teeth, and finally, the Most Important one, the word ‘drown’ in morse code on the inside of my left arm. im gonna?? try to meet tyler joseph and have him write it for me.

[50] right or left handed: right

🌻 FIRST…

 [51] surgery: i had surgery on my tongue in like 1st/2nd grade bc i couldnt like. lift it up

 [52] piercing: none

 [53] best friend: a girl named zaneb

 [54] sport: uhhh i tried to do bmx for a while but ive never been in a sport rly until now if u count colorguard

 [55] vacation: hm my familys always been poor so like. we’ve only gone to texas and south dakota to see family

 [56] pair of trainers: wh.. what

🌻 RIGHT NOW…

 [57] eating: nothing but i just ate a cookie i baked. also i know this isnt what it asked but i just want to say ive ate 7 tacos in the past 3 day.

 [58] drinking: ALRIGHT i started writing this post like 4 hours ago but im still drinking that monster

 [59] I’m about to: nut

[60] listening to: against me

 [61] waiting for: dirk to come online?????

 [62] want: dirk to come online?????

 [63] get married: probably not..

 [64] career?: diagnostic medical sonography or clinical psychologist

🌻 WHICH IS BETTER…

 [65] hugs or kisses: hugs... kissing is honestly disgusting and ngl like 95% of the time ive kissed anyone i just found it Gross dskfjds;ld

 [66] lips or eyes: eyes.....

 [67] shorter or taller: ok i dont actually care either way but listen. dallon weekes is 6′4′’ and he can W R E C K M E

 [68] older or younger: i dont care but i usually just happen to like ppl older than me? but not by much like a year at most

 [69] romantic or spontaneous: both

 [70] nice arms or nice stomach: idc s’all cute

 [71] sensitive or loud: idk both but at different times??

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship...

 [73] troublemaker or hesitant: idk..

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER… 

[74] kissed a stranger: god no. i tried once when i was 12

 [75] drank hard liquor: yeah but i was depressed and we dont talk about that period of my life

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses: i dont.. wear them.

[77] turned someone down: i dont think so... nobody is interested in me ever lmao

[78] sex on first date: GROSS

 [79] broken someone’s heart: i dont think so

 [80] had your own heart broken: yeah

[81] been arrested: ....listen

 [82] cried when someone died: no

 [83] fallen for a friend: hm i dont think so. unless u count dirk but i had a crush on him like immediately

🌻 DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 

[84] yourself: every other wednesday

 [85] miracles: eh

[86] love at first sight: no but i think u can kinda have a connection at first sight. like a “i know im going to love you” at first sight.

[87] santa claus: yeah ofc

 [88] kiss on the first date: hh it depends idk

 [89] angels: i am an angel so like

🌻 OTHER…

 [90] current best friend’s name: i never have like actual best friends bc nobody likes me but idk ill go out on a limb and say martin

 [91] eye colour: blue

 [92] favourite movie: the labyrinth or heathers or little shop of horrors. or book of mormon if we pretend thats a movie

im too lazy to tag people i am SORRY if u wanna do this then say i tagged u tho!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

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