Honestly I wonder if anyone’s ever read Chilchuck’s “I cheated on her” admission as an implicit reference to prioritizing alcohol over his marriage and feeling guilty abt it.
Ohh… "I cheated on her" as a half-truth because something ended up taking priority over their marriage, because emotionally he was elsewhere… "I cheated on her" because after having all the time in the world to think about it now that he’s alone, he realizes that that might have been how she felt, and that’s how it felt like to him too.
Love that. I def think he’s ironically someone who deflects guilt a lot, in a similar way that he compulsively goes "You’re wrong! I don’t care about you guys at all! I’m an asshole!" he flees emotions by making the problem something else that’s fake, a burden easier to bear, he’s so used to being seen for what he’s not after all.
I went into it a bit in one of my fics and in a couple meta posts, but when it comes to his wife he was very much like an ostrich with his head in the sand, seeing her fall into a bad mood on the outing before she left him but dismissing it as something "sudden" that’s not worth thinking deeper about. Overdrinking is a problem for future Chil. I think he did a lot of "You want me to drink less and you’re afraid for my health? Get over it lol" and "I should be less strict with the girls and raise my voice less? My father was a strict drunk and look at me, I turned out functional and great! The girls are literally fine and love me" and "Oh? My drinking is affecting our family? No it’s not smh smh get off my back"< Drunk a significant portion of the time he spends at home since he’s off-work and somewhere he can relax.
Type of guy to always dismiss any issues that might exists because he prefers ignoring them as if they’ll go away. All his problem solving energy is spent during work and the issue is with his family he already likes things as they are, they’re his comfort zone and change is scary, he doesn’t want the change, even if it’d be better. He doesn’t want to change, his unhealthy habits are guilty pleasures he wishes people didn’t try to make him feel guilty for
BUT POINT IS he struggles with guilt and like. Letting it be a feeling that he gets sometimes, so it’s all bottled up and festers and gets twisted into frustration or such like how his worry usually does. I like this take, wether it’s something he’s already thought a lot about or it’s something he’s repressed that came suddenly pouring out of him like blood out of a wound, now that he’s putting it into words with someone for maybe the first time.
It’s interesting how he didn’t refuse going up to the bicorn, I’m sure part of him wanted to see if it would like him, like the virtue test it is. Would a monster that loves despicable men be magnetized to him? Would it confirm his fears?
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hm. zenigata comes down with a cold or something and has to stay home sick for a while..... lupin finds out and manages to sneak into his apartment and leave him some homemade ramen in the fridge with a lil note saying "get well soon pops! <3"
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♥ - family headcanon
I'm finally here! Now I can barf about the sillier side of family headcanon I have.
Which involves @sjofn-lofnsdottr 's old man viera, Bjalla.
The man who started off as 'bunny Dusk' and asserted himself as an old stubborn man of his own wormed his way into everyone's hearts and became his own thing. Grandchad, if you will.
Farron and Bjalla have had a few interactions in our rp so far, which involve:
Sparring with Farron numerous times and 'grounding him'. Literally. With his axe!
Training him in how to be a warrior and... grounding him yet again when he lost control of himself.
Giving him love and marriage advice, which basically consisted of the two of them going 'fuck it, just ask Dusk to marry you.' Rabbits do not know or understand patience in this house.
He also recently accompanied Farron to the Gubal Library for research about totally-not-vampires. They also had to clear out the monsters along the way, which Bjalla decided was a grand time for Farron to get a crash course on 'how to tank'.
Basically, Farron was so excited to meet another male viera, especially an elder, that he looked up to Bjalla straight away. The fact that Bjalla was also the nicest viera he'd ever met pretty much sealed the deal on Farron adopting him as a dad. They haven't talked about it, but considering Bjalla adopts everyone out of habit, they don't really need to. ♡
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Me: I don't really ship anyone in RainCode. They're all just so good and I don't know, I don't really see any ships in general. I just see them all as friends/found family. Yuma, Halara and Vivia are my favourites!
Also me: -reads almost every single Kokobolt fic on ao3 and likes all posts in the Tumblr tag- .... Oh fuck. I ship them don't I... Or at the very least they're a brOTP
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its so funny to me, because i went into good omens a die-hard david tennant fan. like he’s my favorite doctor, ive watched most of broadchurch, hes like my emotional support bbc actor. and this is not me saying i love him any less, bc thats not true! hes a brilliant actor and a lovely human and is one of, if not, my most favorite actor of all time.
but mr. michael sheen…………. i have Words for you sir.
//all good words i am in awe of you my guy//
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Fuck, AkiAngel has a hold on me now and I can't stop thinking about them.
The angst. The AU potential. THE AU FLUFF. THE DYNAMIC. THE SNARK. THE PINING. THE THE THE (dies)
AND THIS WHOLE SCENE I WAS SCREAMING LIKE A DERANGED CAT
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