#hm. that's new tho. anger? at ???

[eddiesghxst]

perv loser eddie is something that can actually be so personal. it’s in the way he’s such a loser borderline obsessed little stalker.

i’m not quite sure how to put this into words but he is whipped, the true definition. yes he loves you, blah blah blah. let’s go deeper into that love. it’s psycho, when he sees you for the first time his heart bursts, he follows you around in the halls when you’re in school even tho you don’t know him and he doesn’t even know you. you think it’s a weird coincidence that he’s always there. And when you confront him, his knees literally almost drop to the ground in your presence. when you go see him during a hellfire club session, he stops all d&d when he sees you wait outside the closed door. he ignores all protests from the guys that this is a huge campaign, one HE’S been planning. it doesn’t even matter, he would end all d&d sessions 15 minutes early if you asked him to, he’d cancel a session if you slipped him a note before saying you’d be home with no panties on, he’d forget to tell dustin that he had to blow him off because you needed him to take you out to a new chick flick movie.

like i said previously about the inspiration from an ex thing, i love the way cigarette smoke smells. my ex was a smoker and he knew this and it was “our thing”

i think eddie would be majorly turned on if he found this out. i’m not talking about something odd like this ex of mine would blow smoke in my face or whatever but i’m just saying it was a comforting smell. i’m currently out of the country in europe where everyone smokes and i can smell it drifting up to my apartment window. i can just imagine calling eddie who’s back in indiana and telling him how horny you are, how the smell reminds you of him. he’s such a fucking loser tho. he’s been desperate since you’ve been away, having withdrawals, he’s an addict. he fucks himself to sleep with his hand every night and fucks himself awake every morning trying to get some release, his flesh light and hand won’t ever compare. he smokes and plays guitar and thinks of you, each exhale of smoke and he gets anxious thinking about you.

but when you’re back, he doesn’t let you out of the trailer for a good 24 hrs. his only plan is to smoke with you and fuck your brains out. i mean fucking like a madman. he’s fucking his anger and stress out on you, stress about you being away from his side, anger that you’ve been touching yourself away from him. i’m not talking 2 orgasms and you’re done. we’re talking about several upon several chain orgasms he’s bringing you. he wants you sobbing, he never wants you to leave his side.

he’s a loser.

- 🫶 anon (i went overboard)

no bc ur so right stink. everything abt this is so fucking correct, i’m sick to my stomach i want him

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i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, eddie has no spine when it comes to his girl. meaning, he will drop everything he’s doing to please you or do whatever you ask for, no matter the request (if he’s in a mood, he might bitch about it a little, but he will bitch and get the job done okay).

so when you ask eddie if he can pick you up from the airport on the day he’s planned to have dnd, obviously eddie pushes his campaign back because hello, his girl needs a ride.

he’s waiting for you at your terminal with a single rose and a cute little teddy bear and you giggle when you see him because he looks so out of place wearing his usual black leather clothing and heavy chains whilst holding the soft items.

you tell him all about your trip on your way to his trailer, telling him about your time sightseeing and trying new foods and meeting new people.

you’re still rambling about your trip when you walk into his trailer, but it doesn’t last long before eddie’s got you bent over the edge of his bed, clinging to the soft teddy bear and moaning his name. “fuck, i missed this pussy. did she miss me? she miss how good i fuck her, hm?” he pants against your ear. you quiver beneath him, crying out for him as you push back against his hips.

“feels so good, eddie. gonna cum, please can i cum?”

and eddie’s shaking his head and clicking his tongue, “no i don’t think so, sweetheart. i gave you one rule—- told you no touching and you broke that rule.“ he says, low with a patronizing tone and you sob into his sheets as a chorus of sorry’s leave your mouth.

“so you don’t get to cum until i say you can, okay? and i plan on really taking my time with this precious cunt of yours since she seemed to miss me so much.” his hand cracks down on your ass cheek and you cry out as he lets out a satisfied hum.

and eddie kept true to his word, he didn’t let up until he was thoroughly satisfied and you were nothing but a cock drunk mess. you both wouldn’t have it any other way <3

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more loser perv!eddie ♡

[pablitogavii]

Hii i love your story’s I wanted to know if you can do a jealous Pablo/reader please thank you sm I love you

She’s my girl, tío!

You came to one of his trainings which Pablo usually ADORED but right now he was in a particularly bad mood seeing Joao staring you down.

“Que haces tío!?” He said after Pablo kicked the ball and it hit his head which angered the boy. You just giggled knowing exactly why your boyfriend did this. You know him that well ;)

“You’re not paying attention! Not my fault!” Pablo raises his arms as Xavi walked up and told them both to quit it.

“Do you see what happens when you distract my boys??” Xavi joked seeing you as his daughter and obviously knowing how crazy you are in love with Pablo, and only Pablo.

“Lo siento mister! Can I take my boy home early today??” You asked with puppy dog eyes and the man shook his head saying you can take him home right now.

“Before he kills my new striker!” He added as you jumped up running down towards the pitch to tell Pablo good news.

“Xavi said that we can go home cariño..” you said when Pablo ran to see why you were not sitting on the stands anymore.

“Cierto mister??” He asked having extra trainings every morning for the past week and the man nodded knowing he deserved a break before a big game.

“But no hamburguesa chaval!” Xavi said and Pablo blushed while you giggled promising be won’t eat anything off his diet day before the game.

“She’s the boss..” Pablo tapped Xavis shoulder and the man ruffled his sweaty hair.

“They always are chico” Xavi said and you thought it was adorable the relationship they had always looking like a father and a son.

“Vamos princesa!” He snaked his arm around your waist about to walk away but then Joao called you name and you turned around feeling Pablo’s hold tighten.

“Let me give you that signed shirt before you leave!” He said and you nodded while he ran back to the changing room. Your friend is his HUGE fan and begged you to ask for her so you did. Pablo didn’t know that and wondered why HIS girl wanted some other boys jersey!!? Oh now he was really in a bad mood!

“Here you go” he said giving you the T-shirt and Pablo watched your hands slightly touching as you grabbed it thanking him and leaving with Pablo shortly after.

He was in no mood for the rest of the day and you can clearly tell it was something to do with Joao so you started the topic firsts.

“Let’s just talk about it amor..porf?” You say sitting next to him feeling awful that he was not holding you like he always would during movie nights. Boy is a giant cuddler!!

“Nothing to talk about. You have every single version of my jersey but you want his! You wanna wear it for the next game!!?” He was already fuming mad but wasn’t yelling because he knew you didn’t like that. He always respected your boundaries even during arguments like this.

“Wear it!? It’s not even for me Pablo! Tu eres tan tonto cariño!” You chucked seeing his very much confused face.

“Pero..why did you ask for it then??” He asked and you moved closer straddling his lap and kissing his lips.

“For Maria! You know she’s crazy about Portuguese boys” you roll your eyes moving closer grinding slightly on Pablo’s lap and whispering into his ear “I don’t get what she sees tho..it’s the Spaniards that drive a girl loca” you kissed the side of his neck and he moaned smirked to himself.

“Spaniards!?” He said referring to the plural tense you used in your sentence.

“Hm..actually one Sevillano in particular is driving me absolutely loca!” You said and he smirked kissing you passionately and he kissed you back grabbing your bum roughly. Let's just say you had a fun night together ;))

The next day, you got ready wearing his jersey and some shorts knowing it would make your boy's mouth water like always. You liked he effect you had on his very much. Little did you know, it would catch someone else attention as well.

"And Y/n is so nice. Such a sweet girl!" Joao was talking to Lewa who took it upon himself to teach Pablo some proper English lately so he knew the boy could understand everything.

"I would watch my mouth, or Gavi might kill you kid!" man said walking towards Gavi tapping his shoulder and winking. He leaned in whispering "she's yours, so there is no worries" before leaving to the pitch to warm up.

"Felix!" Gavi called asking him to stay behind while everyone else left and Xavi asked them to make it quick.

"I'm gonna say this only once..she's my girl, tío!" he said touching Joao's shoulder and the boy nodded his head knowing that he needs to watch out his comments since he just now realized how serious Pablo was about you actually.

It wasn't unusual for footballers to be in non serious relationship, but yours was definitely not one of those and the boy needed to back up (or Gavi just might kill him).

"You're a lucky man" Joao said and Pablo nodded his head letting go and grabbing his water bottle.

"I know" he smirked before running out towards the pitch looking up at your happy face from the stands. He waved and you sent him a kiss turning around to show him his name on your back..yeah, you were all his and everyone knew it now ;)) <33 !!

In the end of first half, Pablo scored being assisted by Joao and they both rushed to celebrate together. It made you happy that they were still friends and colleagues at peace that it wouldn't affect their play.

Pablo kissed his jersey touching his heart and pointing to you as his new celebration and you blushed cheering and sending him a kiss as camera caught it.

"Amor!!" Joao pointed at the two of you yelling in the camera and Pablo smiled hugging him as they returned tot heir positions for the rest of the game.

I hope you like it <333

[mikobeautifulheart]

☆Master list☆

--->There is NO smut btw just some suggestive. (or not yet)

Rules and about me here

♧Megumi♧

Drunk Megumi's over due confession

Synopsis: Megumi gets unknowingly drunk on his birthday and spills a secret.

Yuji's little sister

Synopsis: You join Jujutsu high with your older brother yuji, meeting Megumi as well.

The same.

Synopsis: Yuji dies and the weight falls on your shoulders, the only way you thought to take it of was but hurting yourself.

Crying over Megumi

Synopsis: Megumi find you in your dorm after your mission avoiding him.

Pervy Megumi (Thoughts)

Synopsis: Not a fic more just like general ideas of him.

When he finds out you harm yourself

Synopsis: Usually you don't get into much danger when you harm yourself, but his time Megumi found you.

MEGUMI SERIES

Synopsis: Gojo watches as his son grows and is there every step of the way (even if Megumi dosen't know it)

Megumi and get caught up in the moment (And on Gojo's phone)

Synopsis: Megumi gives up on his mind and follows his instincts. And Gojo bares witness.

You and Megumi have your first official date

Synopsis: You and Megumi sneak out at night only for you to be pleasantly surprised by your fist date.

Bed bugs

Synopsis: He could care less about the marks he leaves.

☆Yuji☆

Yuji being horrible at comforting you and getting jealous over a 'guy'

Synopsis: Yuji hears you crying uncontrollably but after he fails to console you Gojo interrupts. which pretty much dose the trick.

♡Yuta♡

Nothing yet...which is kinda weird because he's my favorite character.

There is a bit of him in the various fics tho.

♤Toge♤

Nothing yet...

~Gojo~

7 Minutes in panic (College AU) 1700 words EXACTLY.

Synopsis: You go to a party for the first time and run into your Chemistry partner. As luck would have it the night goes wrong when your drink turns out to be spiked and your stuck with him in your closet.

Mafia Gojo needs to go to work but you could care less.

Synopsis: Really short less then 100 words. Gojo has to go to work but you convince hm not to.

Assassin partner Gojo tries to make up for his mistakes.

Synopsis: Gojo's made a few mistakes in his job when it comes to you but in the end he knows you weren't one of them.

When you are replaced.

Synopsis: A new transfer teacher comes to Tokyo jujutsu high and she seems a bit to friendly.

Geto

Look at the various or go to the series section for '5 satges of greif'

¤Nanami¤

Teen Nanami and the random trampoline

Synopsis: Nanami just feels like a happy kid.

Teen Nanami winning cards.

Synopsis: In a game of cards, Nanami competes for the first prize which you gladly give him.

▪︎Sukuna▪︎

Sukuna switching with Yuji when your both asleep.

Synopsis: Sukuna wants a feel of what Yuji gets.

Intervention

Synopsis: You were going to go get married off to the Gojo clans strongest, how ever you disappear when you marriage was announced. The only clue anyone has to your disappearance is the monster lurking in the woods.

Choso

He gets jealous of your new pet cat.

Synopsis: You find a stray cat and Choso is not a cat person.

-Series-

5 stages of grief

1 Denial, Megumi Fushiguro

Synopsis: After Megumi's death you start seeing him everywhere, but every time your reminded that he is dead.

2 Anger, Suguru Geto

Synopsis: After his death you cut yourself off and busy your life with work, however when your called into Shibuya you can't bring yourself to kill him, until he assures you that its okay.

3 Bargaining, Satoru Gojo

Synopsis: After Gojo's death you try everything you can for years but nothing will bring him back.

Various JJK men and scenarios:

-Pretending to be your boyfriend and saving you from creeps:

Synopsis: Creep approaches, their there to save you.

Megumi and Yuji

Gojo and Geto

Nanami and Toji

Sukuna and Choso (Coming soon)

-When you forget your umbrella:

-Synopsis: You forget your umbrella but they find solutions.

Yuji and Megumi

Teen Gojo and Office worker Nanami

-When the train is crowded

Synopsis: The train goes thorough rush hour and you guys got stuck in it.

Yuji, Megumi and Yuta

-When the secretly hear you sing

Synopsis: You don't like singing infront of other people, but they want you to sing around them.

Megumi and Yuji

-When they accidently fall on you and vice versa

Synopsis: Its exactly what it sounds like.

Yuta and Yuji

-When you go to your first festival with them

Synopsis: You go to the festival for the first time with

Megumi, Yuji and Yuta

-When you turn delusional

Synopsis: From sleep deprivation to blood loss.

Yuji and Toge

-When you think they would hurt you.

Synopsis: When arguments bring your instincts back, they almost drop everything to love you again.

Yuji and Megumi

Yuta and Gojo

-Movie date but things get heated.

Synopsis: A simple movie in an almost empty cinema is good enough. (Not smut but suggestive)

Gojo and Megumi

-When they eat the last donut

Gojo and Yuji/Sukuna

-When they have an older GF

Yuji and Yuta (Aged upish, nothing illegal okay)

-Their morning voice

Megumi and Yuji

-When someone breaks into your house

Megumi and Yuji

If you want anything else or the same thing for a different character, just request I don't really have any rules-ish.

More to come!

Pleseee give me request, i'll die if I don't write anythingggggg.

[sh0tanzz]

What would Riize's reaction if their partner chetaed on them, i live for chaos 🔥

FUCK ! LMFAOOO ok so (these are just headcanons barely based on their charts)

Shotaro

hm well he’d probably pick up on the fact that something was wrong and would be passively throwing jabs at them to hint that he knows something’s up. he’d investigate to find out allll of the details and information of what happened like he’d find out EVERYTHING. would confront them and will say some pretty cutting things like HURTFUL. the betrayal would make him lose feelings probs they might be..literally dead to him after that I won’t lie

Eunseok

he’d feel annoyed. extremely annoyed. because he feels like he wasted his time on them. he’d probably deadpan stare and just cut things off no matter how much it upsets/irritates him. he’d force himself to suck it up even tho he’d be literally pissed and will probably think “this is exactly why I give nobody a chance” and will try his best to move on to the next because in his mind life must go on

Sungchan

mad as hell to be very real. in public he’d have a “I don’t need a bitch, I’m what a bitch need” type of attitude but privately by himself he’s very angry and hurt and will even start to question and doubt his self worth, would ask himself if it was because he wasn’t good enough, would it not have happened if he did different things better ? he’d release the anger at the gym save all the emotional turmoil for when he’s alone in his room and he’ll never forget what they did and definitely tries to pop out with a new s/o that’s 3x hotter

Wonbin

he’d be filled with disgust honestly. his image of them in his mind and heart would be shattered and they’d no longer be of any sentiment within his heart. breakup through text probably because looking them in the face would upset him even more. it will take him a while to get past this completely, his sad playlist will be on for a WHILE. he’ll try to get past it but it will linger within him for a while would nap his way through the pain

he might get his payback I won’t lie

Seunghan

Not only is his heart broke but his ego as well. He’d have a permanent bitter taste in his mouth even thinking about them. He probably wouldn’t even want to talk about it or confront, will let you know he knows and disappears. once he feels kinda ok again he’d tell everyone about what happened so they’re in the know and can get it OUTTT of his system. will spend the first half staying to himself avoiding the outside world feeling his pain and then uses fun activities to kill pain the next half

Sohee

breaks up with them blunt as fuck says whatever he needs to say to them so he can go on with his business. he’d be upset 100% but in his mind “I can’t go out sad like this” says his piece, and dips. he’d try to stay on the positive side and be like “well at least I can talk to whoever I want now” or would think of what good could come from cutting the person off like more time to work, more time to be selfish, more time to have fun. will def talk shit and then similar to Eunseok try to move on and have fun + meet new people

Anton

it would take everything in him to avoid cursing them out through the phone. 😭😭 all of his softness will melt away and he’ll be able to become cold and even cruel. If they had anything of his that he gave to them he’d want/get that stuff back immediately and would give back anything they gave him. translates alll the upset emotions he feels into his music, swimming and other hobbies he has. allows himself to be pissed off and mad before finally reaching his zen (a shopping spree buying everything his now ex can’t!)

[hopelessdelusional]

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labyrinth

EDIT: i fucked up and forgot to add a pic and it won’t let me so. yeah. also i fixed the out of order mistake i’m so sorry😭

ONCE AGAIN THE OC JORDAN IS NOT MINE‼️‼️‼️ it’s the dearest @kotoprincesa !!

hey…life…am i right?

yeah hopefully you saw the post LMFAO ya boy has had a weird week

i’m sorry this is a short one but like i said shit is crazy

i rlly hope i’ll have time to write tomorrow 😭

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AND SINCE THIS IS LATE IM GONNA FINALLY TELL U HOW EVERYONE GOT THEIR NICKNAMES FROM BKG MWAHAHA YES:

Sero-tape arms/soy sauce:

1. tape arms is from when it was their freshmen year of high school, and sero once got RLLY drunk at some senior’s party….anyways he got tied up by a bunch of girls. with tape. (yes he did cry as the gang ripped off the tape) fun fact!! Jordan was actually at that party (their cousin was the hostess) and was the one who told the bakusquad abt him getting taped up!

2. soy sauce is from the very first prank Kaminari did on the channel where he gave sero a glass of soy sauce but told him it was coke (sero didn’t speak to him for three days afterwards)

Mina-pinky/raccoon eyes:

pinky is like rlly obvious she has pink hair, BUT raccoon eyes is a much more funny story! you see, just like her lover; kirishima, she too had a sort of…alt-y phase. in her case, she experimented with black clothing but more importantly, black eyeshadow. like. a LOT. kirishima thought it was the CUTEST thing ever and was low key upset when she stopped doing it💀

Kirishima-weird hair/shitty hair/spiky:

he just had a rlly bad haircut when they came back to school for their sophomore year, it was legit like how teen guys had it in the early 2000s-gelled up into spikes 🫥

Kaminari-Sparky:

he tried rewiring their broken fan in college. got electrocuted. went to the hospital. yeah.

Hitoshi-eyebags:

he may not get sleep now, but it was RLLY bad their jr year of high school dear GOD. everyone would have to FIGHT him to get him to go to sleep, even putting that powder melatonin in his drinks 😭😭 (it was actually kats’ idea :(( such a sweetie)

Shoto-IcyHot:

shoto had this…phase…half way thru sophomore year of high school where he would over work himself with sports/work that he would literally put on icyhot every. single. day. (it drove EVERYONE crazy but no one dared to say anything)

Jirou-headphones:

ALL throughout high school jirou always had her headphones in. there wasn’t one time where she wasn’t listening to music and bkg being the old man he is thought it was “incredibly rude” and “disrespectful” (karma is a bitch tho bc after this HIS nickname was old man)

Momo-ponytail:

yeah the gang wasn’t kidding when momo went thru an INTENSE ponytail phase like she would gel it and everything😭😭😭the girls would be begging for momo just to keep it down or else she’ll keep getting called jojo siwa by the freshmen

Iida-four eyes/glasses:

….uh it’s kinda obvious LMFAO

Ochako-pink cheeks:

so bkg and ochako were actually #besties after they put their differences aside (after bkg apologized to izuku) and she would ALWAYS go to him and rant abt her crush on Iida. so, as “revenge” he would call her pink cheeks whenever she was talking to Iida. HOWEVER that so backfired on him bc the nickname made iida think bkg liked ochako (he also noticed their newest infatuation w/each other) and iida one day went to bkg to tell him HE liked ochako and was like “i see that you and ochako have made a new relationship, but i just need to tell you i have feelings for ochako.” anyways. bkg was going thru new anger management stuff and he had to take VERY deep breaths in order not to lose his shit LMFAO

Izuku-Nerd:

….do i really need to say anything? 🤨🤨

hope you enjoyed that! thank you for the wait i love u guys 🫶🫶🫶

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fun facts! ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

- you know it’s bad when kats is up at 1AM

- ain’t i a genius for that thomas the train gossip account? huh? hm?

- Jordan keeps their man in CHECK (they love each other) and Sero is half scared, and the other half find it very sexy

- also when i wrote that part all i could think of is that one song “walk him like a dog sis” because toshi and Jordan got that covered

- do u like mina and kiri’s users😇😇 idk if i do but whatever

- that gc has…some stuff in it. mainly just all the things of bakugou’s the gang has taken, broken, or lost LMFAO

- toshi and kam are just so cute i’m throwing up sobbing rn

- kiri always scowls at “unnecessary” language but then cusses too… double standards (he has never once called out mina tho HA)

- i feel like i’ve said this before but i need to say it again; i just KNOW in my SOUL kiri uses the laughing emoji

- sero and kam are mina’s ultimate hype men

- kacchan and deku-bed friends forever!

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[devy30]

This is gonna be super terrible.. 😭

The clock read 3AM Shit.. Abby will be pissed when you get home.

You guys weren't dating, maybe screwing here and there but.. it was friendly.. right? You couldn't think anymore, your head pounding from both the music and the drinks. Your friend Dina invited you to a party, and who would say no. Free drinks and some banger music? Yes please. You had told Abby and she gave a gruff, ' ok. ' before going back to her room with a slight angered face. You didn't know why she was angry, but went anyways.

By the time Dina pulled out Infront of your house, you could see her room light on. Which wasn't strange, but at 3AM? It was strange. You thanked Dina and stumbled out of the car, walking up to the door and fumbling with your keys. " Shit.. cmon..." You mumbled. Right before you got the key in the door swung open and strong arms pulled you into the house. You give a slight scream, a hand covering your mouth. It was Abby, you could tell by how she smelled. Maybe she had got out of the shower? It didn't matter. Only thing that did was how you could feel the bulge in her pants. God her strap game.. it could have anybody sore for days, throat also sore for screaming.

" A-Abs I'm sorry.." You whined once she let you go. You couldn't see anything except her muscled arms, and those creamy freckled arms. " Why where you gone for so long. Hm? " You heard her say, her voice sooth but powerful at the same time. She was pissed. " I-I didn't mean to... " You whined. She stayed silent and you thought she was going to leave and go to her room before you where turned around, pushed against the wall. You could feel her strong body against yours, her breath fanning your ear. " Who where you with.. huh? Can they fuck you better than I can?" She hushed out. She herself couldn't pinpoint why she was jealous. Maybe it was all the men and maybe women who rubbed against you, gawking at your body. " Shit.. " You sighed before speaking again. " I was just with Dina and them.." You breathed out. You could feel that strap that she always used on you, rubbing against your thigh. Why was she doing this?

Silence. You still felt her against your body, grinding yourself back into her. " Stop grinding whore. " She growled, grabbing one of your hands and forcing it behind your back. " I'd fuck you right here sweets I would.. but ya' don't deserve it. " She Hummed out, giving a chuckle. She then let go of you completely, letting her hands linger on your hips before sighing. " maybe.. Maybe next time Bunny. " She said. You whined loudly, moving and turning around to beg her, but she was gone, that quick. You gave a sigh and looked around, touching your face. You where hot, probably redder than a tomato.

" Well.. Guess it's time to use that new vibrator Dina got me... " You said quietly, locking the door and going upstairs to your room.

Ok so. It's 9 for me, and I was playing red dead before I remembered that I said I'd write something. My fingers hurt 😭 I think if this gets like, enough love? I'll do another one, or if anybody says they want a part 2. Thanks for reading tho

-Dev

[blankpaigefics]

I have an idea for you: around Christmas time, you always visit your family or (go on holiday, whatever you prefer) with Seokjin and your child but lately you and Jin have been having issues so even tho you're trying to keep things looking normal, there's a lot of tension and stuff during this holiday that'll either make or break your relationship this time, hm? 👀

sorry it took so long (like 5 years I think) but I finally did it. I almost left this on a super angsty level but it made me sad so I had to change the ending. Hope you enjoy.

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Christmas tension

Genre: angst

Word Count: 1443

Member: Jin

Warnings: postpartum depression

You and Jin had decided to go and see his family for the Christmas holidays. Part of you hated the idea. It was your first Christmas with your daughter, you just wanted to stay home with your own family. But instead, you both agreed to make the four-hour drive to see his family. After all, they still hadn’t met your 6-month-old daughter. And it was much easier to travel with her by car than by train. 

You put on a happy face, but you’re sure his family could sense the tension between the both of you. You’re sure they can hear your hushed arguments from the next room over. Life with your firstborn hadn’t been the life you both expected, especially not after the complicated birth. His family were aware of that, it had put such a strain on your body, mentally and physically. 

Over the past few months, you had begun to notice that you and Jin only really spoke when it was about your daughter. He noticed it too. And that's how you began to argue about such small things. But they weren’t small things, not to you anyway. 

His parents were nice enough to let you stay in their guest room, and they had cooed after your daughter so much it gave you a much-needed break to have some time to yourself.

But it wasn’t quite the break you needed. With all the excitement from new faces and many, many gifts, your daughter did not sleep easily that night, which meant neither did you. 

The day after Christmas you had already both agreed on an early start. Breakfast with the family and then hit the road to make it home by lunch. Maybe once your daughter fell asleep in the car, you could get some shut-eye also. 

You balanced your daughter on your leg with an arm tucked around her as you scoffed down your breakfast. She had been whining all morning, but as you bounce her, she begins to break into a full cry. 

You sigh in defeat, pushing your food away so you can hold her properly. 

“Maybe she’s hungry, dear.” Jin’s mother tells you. 

“No, I already fed her.”

“But you gave her that powdered stuff. She needs fresh milk.”

You can’t stop the frown that crosses your face. Was Jin’s mother taking a jab at how you’ve been feeding her? She doesn’t understand your struggles. It’s not your fault.

“Mum!” Jin’s brother calls from behind his coffee mug. “You can’t say that!”

“What? I’m just trying to help.”

“Ignore her Y/n, you’re doing great.”

You feel a pain in your chest. That’s the first time someone has said that to you. 

“She’s not hungry,” Jin’s father chimes in. “It’s a dirty nappy. She probably needs to be changed.”

You give a heavy sigh. 

“She’s just tired.” You can hear the anger creeping into your voice. 

“Hon,” You look at Jin. “Maybe take her out of the room for a bit?” He gives you a slightly stern look. 

You say nothing, exiting the room swiftly, leaving your barely-eaten food behind. 

You barely spoke for the remainder of your trip. You let Jin’s parents coo and cuddle over both him and your daughter as you sat in the passenger side, wanting nothing more than to go home. 

Finally, you were all buckled in for the long, quiet drive home, the air still filled with tension. 

—

You head downstairs after finally getting your daughter to sleep in her crib. You sigh heavily as you plop yourself onto the couch.

“So, are we just going to ignore what happened this morning?” Jin asks from the kitchen behind you. 

You tip yourself sideways to lie down and rub your tired eyes. 

“Which part?” You finally ask. 

“So you don’t remember getting snappy with my parents over breakfast?”

You sigh again. “Jin.”

“It was pretty disrespectful towards them, y/n.”

“Me, disrespectful?” You sit up and glare at him. “How about your mother telling me how I should be feeding my own daughter?”

“She was just trying to help.” He defends. 

“Yeah, you’re right,” you say sarcastically. “That’s more help than you’ve given me since she was born.”

“That’s not fair.”

“How is that not fair!? You’re always working! When was the last time you got her during the night and let me sleep?”

“You know how demanding my job is.”

“That’s no excuse to not be a father. You didn’t even try to defend me back there. You know I can’t breastfeed!” You bite your lip, hard, trying your best to hold back the tears. 

Jin’s blood begins to boil. First you were rude to his parents, now you call him a bad father. He can’t hold back his anger, raising his voice to match yours.

“How is that my fault?”

“Do you even hear yourself right now? Can’t you see that I’m struggling?”

He scoffs.

“How? How could you possibly be struggling? You don’t work. I buy you anything and everything you need. Is it really so hard to look after our daughter? Why can’t you just be a good mother?” He didn’t mean these words. He was just angry, and the situation was getting out of hand. 

“Because I hate her!” You scream at him, gesturing to your daughters room. “I hate her!” You feel a rush of words finding their way past your lips before your brain has time to register what's happening. 

“She doesn’t sleep, so I don’t sleep. And she cries all the time! And I never get any help because you’re always at work or away on business trips. And I can’t breastfeed because I’m always stressed, and I barely eat, yet I’ve gained so much weight, and I feel so ugly and my face has been breaking out. I can’t stop biting my nails. My back is killing me because she gets so damn fussy if I don’t hold her while I cook. I can’t even get 5 minutes to myself to take a goddamn shower! And I’m just so tired all the time and I-” You can’t stop the tears as they spill onto the floor. “I hate her!” You sigh in defeat. “I just hate her. I hate me.”

The room falls quiet. Not even your daughter stirs despite all the yelling. 

“Y/n.”

You’re both aware of what this is. Postpartum depression. Only, you’re still in denial about it. 

“It’ll be okay,” Jin tells you through his own tears. “We’ll book in to see a doctor first thing in the morning.” 

You feel a lump in your throat. Your chest heavy as you struggle to breathe. You shake your head.

“I can’t do this.” You mutter.

“Yes, you can. We’ll get through this.”

“No,” You shake your head again as you grab your jacket from the back of the couch. “No, I can’t do it anymore. I can’t stay here right now.” You pick up your keys and head for the door.

“Y/n!”

“I’m going to stay with a friend,” You mumble as you open the door. You turn to look at him once more. 

“I’m sorry Jin.”

“Wait!”

You close the door before any more of his words can reach your ears.

Jin picks up the closest item to him, one of your daughters plush toys, and hurls it at the wall. He runs his hands through his hair, grabbing fists full of it. How could he be so blind? So stupid? You needed him. You still do, now more than ever.  

He glances up toward your daughter's bedroom. It remains silent. He runs for the front door and throws it open, seeing you on the next landing, making your way down the stairs to the lobby. 

He rushes down the stairs, skipping every second step, and crashes into you from behind, wrapping his arms tightly around you and refusing to let go as he buries his face in your hair, soaking it with his tears. 

“Stay, please.” He begs you. 

You cling onto his arms like your life depends on it as you sob in his embrace. 

“I need you, more than anything. I won’t let you go. Please stay. We can get through this. But I need you with me.”

Your mind can’t process his words properly, only hear them.

“Okay.”

Refusing to let go of you, he leads you back upstairs to your apartment, his voice quiet as he tells you he will take time off work, go with you to the doctor, spend every second he can with his daughter and let you rest. 

Above all else, he promises to never let you go.

[schnaf]

I kinda want to ask you all of them, but these are my favourites: 5, 10, 11 and 25 for the End of the Year Asks ✨

OOOOOOOH i would have been fine with that too ♥

5. TV show of the year?

oh godddd ironically i didn't watch any tv series this year (or at least i didn't finish any or it wasn't worth remembering i guess)....... but oh i've got a web series i guess? i got into UNHhhh this year and it became my comfort show ♥

10. Something that made you cry this year?

wOW before i looked up this question, i was still dwelling on that time on the train when i cried the whole time and then i saw there was a new episode of UNHhhh and it actually made me stop crying for 15 minutes ♥ i cried many, many times this year......... well, every year and it won't change next year i guess (except i donate my tear glands to science). i mostly cry out of frustration or anger, sometimes i'm straight up sad i guess, but i'm going to pick something nice and that's said train trip. it was the day after a concert and the concert was so neat and i was so happy and the next day.............................. i just cried for hours. because i missed it i guess? because i wanted to go back? but not even in a sad sense, in a "it's gone now and who knows when it will happen again". it was a lot.

11. Something you want to do again next year?

once again, i can refer to the previous question 😭 i want to see bands i love live again. luckily, i already bought tickets for january. (HOW AM I GONNA HANDLE IT WHEN ALL OF MY CONCERTS ARE OVER) i also want to go to london again which is connected to the january tickets. and i'd love to write a lot again ♥

25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one

OOOOOOF. so i don't have many actual oc's, most of them aren't worth mentioning. (i gave one of my main characters a little sister tho and i'm quite content with her because she's bitchy but also lovely) but hm in the big fic i started this year i have a set of besties and i love them and their dynamics ♥ one of them is rational, the other one emotional but the rational one can be really soft and the emotional one really mean. they're really close and even when they spend more time with their boyfies, they still don't let go of each other ♥

thank you so much! ♥

End of the year Asks

[yesyourstalker]

Nurse: and you said you just found them sitting in the grass?

Lieutenant Behi: yes all by himself, he sustained an energy to his ear. I didn't have time to disinfect it so I banged it up and took him to the chopper.....*sigh*

Nurse: well he's safe..... For now at least.... Here's his file. a272245 Neta Verns he's 15. Join military at 14 just a day after his birthday........ Hm... He was a part of the troubled youth program. Seems that this was supposed to set him straight.....

Lieutenant Behi: what got him in the program

Nurse: ....... Issues with authority, fighting students, fighting teachers........... He threw a desk...... Anger management issues... Self-destructive behaviors.. Possession of drugs or appearing under the influence.....

Behi: my cod He's just a child

Nurse: It's very typical for kids like him. Absent father, mother passed away......unsafe living quarters..... He's from the sewers. He's not the first and he certainly won't be the last troubled child that we have....... He'll probably end up in jail or dead...... shame

Behi: hm.....has he had any visitors in the last couple of days or any contact with his family

Nurse: no we alerted his father but he hasn't shown up yet.

Behi: Am I allowed to talk to him?

Nurse: sure, he won't respond..... I don't think he'll know you're there

_______________________________________________

Day 1

Behi: Hello Neta.... I'm lieutenant Behi. Since we've technically colleagues you can call me Behi

Neta: ........................

Behi: do you remember me? I helped you.... I carried you to the helicopter and brought you here.

Neta:...........................

Behi: hm. Well I can see if I can visit you again sometime. You know just to check up on you. I'll bring something next time.

Neta:............................

_______________________________________________

Week 1

Behi: hey Neta. I'm back like I promised. I uh really don't know what boys your age like anymore hahaha so I got you a sweat shirt..... Some new slippers and mp3.

Neta:........ Mm

Behi: yeah I had earbuds with them but I'm not allowed to bring that in here I'll try to get headphones.

Neta:.........hm

Behi: I see you soon ok champ

_______________________________________________

Week 2

Behi: hey Neta. Good to see you again

Neta: ..........

Behi: so the nurse told me you've been refusing to eat some of your meals....... She also told me you threw a bottle at the wall.... we can't have that....

Neta:..................

Behi: I get it tho those vanilla meal replacements are disgusting.....they got a weird after taste..... and they always seem old...

Neta: *heh*..

Behi: see you get it........ I can try to get the nurse to give you more chocolate or caramel replacements next time they're a little bit better.

Neta: hmm

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Month 2

Behi: Neta it's good to see you

Neta:................

Behi: hehehe I hope you're improving it's nice outside.... maybe we can open up some windows.

Neta:mmmmm

Behi: see it's nice. Good old sunlight..... Well technically it's artificial sun panels but it's still nice. Why don't we look outside for a while huh

Neta: mmmmm........ hm

Behi:...*sigh*........... When they turn on the sprinklers I'll wheel you out next time

_______________________________________________

Month 4

Behi: hey Neta! Sorry I haven't visited in a while, work and all. I heard your father came to visit.

Neta:.....................

Behi: Look what I got you.............. It's a cushion! It's shaped like an octo!

Neta: ... ...............

Behi: They only had green ones I tried to find a yellow one, they're hard to find..... It's nice you can use it as a back rest or hug it like a little companion. sleep on it. Brighten up your room a bit

Neta: hmmm.........*sigh*

Behi: I'm glad you like it.... see you in a couple weeks

_______________________________________________

Month 6

Behi: Neta..... happy birthday Neta

Neta:...........

Behi: I know this isn't the ideal place to celebrate a 16th birthday but I'll try to make it work. I got you a balloon.. don't worry it's a foil balloon. If it pops it won't be loud, I have a slice of ice cream cake and a pack of birthday cake flavor meal replacements. This one isn't half bad you'll like it ......... And I pulled some strings and look what I got....

Neta: *uhh*

Behi: yeah it's your guitar! I didn't know you were a musician... That's cool. The nurse said you're improving so you can keep the strings on it

Neta:......................

Behi: I won't ask you to play it now but I would love to see you play one day. I see you later

Neta:........thank you......

Behi:.................... You're welcome Neta

_______________________________________________

Month 9

Neta: I don't know. I want to go to college but that means they have to spend another couple years in the military...... I don't think I'm mentally ready for that

Behi: I can see what I can do... You've already finished and got enough credits for high school..... You can start college next year if you are willing.. what do you want to do?... What do you want to study?

Neta: I always wanted to own a business.....I also want to study history...... Heh... I probably won't...this thing will probably go nowhere

Behi: hey! Don't say that....You have your whole life ahead of you.... you're very talented and you're very smart and whatever you do I know you're going to succeed.....

Neta:..................ok.........

Behi:..... Hey you're a good kid. I know you'll do great things.

_______________________________________________

Month 10

Behi: hay Cora.... just here to see Neta

Nurse: he's not here anymore...

Behi: what?

Nurse: his father picked him up today... He not here anymore

Behi: oh...... oh... Ok

Nurse: you really impacted that boy...... You should be happy

Behi: I am...... I'm happy for him.....*sigh*.... He'll be ok

_______________________________________________

Several years later

Warabi: sucks that your grandpa died dude. I'm sorry

Mahi:.....*sigh*..... Yeah......... it sucks that it took my little bother to tell me he passed.... I barely know him but he gives more of shit about me than my parents......... I'll miss him.......*sigh*....... Whatever he gave me his watch so that's pretty cool

Warabi: if you tell Neta maybe he'll let you leave early...

Mahi: hay Neta... Neta... Neta!

Neta: what! What is it Mahi!

Mahi: my grandpa died........ Is that an mp3? cod how old are you?....... My grandpa died can I go home?

Neta: yeah... Yeah sure go home...... sorry for your loss.......fuck you. I'm tired of y'all kids calling me old.

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Neta: Cici!! Daddy's home!...

Cirrina: hi dad! You got a package!

Neta: ooooo a package. Gimme gimme gimme!! [Kiss] hey babygirl.....

Cirrina: hehehe I'm going to turf.. see ya

Neta: bye sweetie....... Let's see this package..... . 'hello Neta. If you're reading this then I have passed away. You probably haven't heard my name in a long, long, time. You probably don't remember me but I will always remember you. I'm so proud of you Neta, I've seen you around the news and articles. You've grown up to be an upstanding young man. It feels like just yesterday I picked you up on the battlefield, now you have your own store just like you said you were. Congratulations Neta let's hope your life keeps going up from here.-Behi'

.................Behi...... oh my cod he died...*sniff*... oh man.........*sniff*............. what's in the box? ......*Sigh* ......'neta I give you my military tag and my metals. I've been holding onto your promotional pin. Congratulations captain Verns you have been promoted to major Verns. I'm sorry it took 17 years to tell you.'.............. hehehe..*sigh* ...... thank you Behi .... for everything

_______________________________________________

Mahi and their grandfather I guy belongs to @fish-at-fish-fish-resort

[exx-ceptional]

heya mick!! i hope ur doing alright! i know you recently got a dahlia from skullgirls request and i hope you don't mind if i request one too D:

could i request a black dahlia (skullgirls) with a female significant other? like some angst? like dahlia cheats on the reader with someone else?

im sorry tho, you don't gotta do this if you don't want to, im just a sucker for angst😭😭

But, you'd always leave me behind.

More requests, ILY :3 had to do this during exam night but don't care cause ANGGSSTTTT Black Dahlia X fem reader _______________________________________________

"It's not cheating, love. I'm only there for their body- I love you wholeheartedly, swear my beautiful girl." Those words, shitty lies of an experienced phony. Yet, her voice felt so comforting and warm behind that mask you're already used to. If just for one more second, she could return to hugging you, protecting you from everything. The many times, just so hard to count and let it slip by just for the sake of some type of love. Truthfully, your heart screamed in betrayal, hurt, and sorrow. Never anger, never rage. Just stuck in the dilemma of ignoring a false-looking truth. No, this can't go on at this point... something's got to give. You loved saying the words 'I love you' so honestly to her, no matter if you were just dismissed with a wave of her hand in return. It felt special, really happy. Fuck, why can't we just do it right, Dahlia? ____________________________________________________ Another night, Dahlia is back with lovebites and her usual poker face ridden with lipstick stains on her mask. "Y/N, you're sulking up again- what's the matter, love?" Her ignorance is bliss, but it's so heart-wrenching to you. How many times has she returned like this? Where even you couldn't complain, you can't really... If you could burst, if your emotions could just get out of control- that's inconvenient? As if you'd care. "It's about the gals, isn't it? Told you to never care about it. You know I love you, hm? You'll love me as well either way, mhm?" She hummed with a smug smirk behind her mask keeping her hands to herself, she didn't even have the heart to at least comfort or touch you whole-heartedly. Fucking liar, fucking.... Her harsh actions fulfilled the dreams of everyone but you, of everyone deserving. Does loyalty not play a part in respect anymore? What, why would she just say that, those thoughts are mind-consuming. But, it's the truth. For her, you did so many of the cruelest acts just for the kindest of reasons. And that is, love itself. But, it's not different to anyone- this sacrifice is not as abnormal as you would've hoped it to be. If like, you could be different and have the good enough hurt in your life to be noticed- maybe. You were just an ignorant innocence slowly being twisted by the truth you wished you just... never saw, maybe. She stood so far away from you, cleaning herself up with no reaction- not even minding to hide a thing from you, and it was just so annoying... no, it's a stronger hate containing only powerless malice. You sat silently, torn with sadness as you cooked a hot meal with a solemn heart. No, this isn't even any special... just food, just some stuff to eat. If really, you could make this with the love you really had for Dahlia- if like, some things could change then maybe... All the ideas and all the thoughts of what characteristic you probably lacked is the only thing that fueled you awake, how better are those women? Better than you, to be sure. The food is set for two, and you sit down- the table lacks its duo, its partner. Seemingly, Dahlia slips away with just some cold snack for tonight- planning to spend a long time with someone else, the minutes and hours you also crave yourself. Looking down, spoon motionless in your hand as you can't cry anymore, you can't expect new hope anymore at this point. How much change, how many things do you need to do to get those cold arms to embrace you again... Everything's cold again, this house is just a building as you tremble with tearless sobs. Wow, you really do love me, Dahlia. ____________________________________________

FIN

A/N: I didn't review by the way made at 11 25 pm with love and pickle water so probably kinda messy

[indrasixxer88]

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[twig-gy]

so i already know it’s going to be like. a collection of scenes. but

1) longterm. how will we make scenes interesting every time? how will we make the relationship develop and make that clear? i can’t just have ‘argument-slightly okay interaction-argument’ the whole (pun) time i need to think it through a little.

okay so aside here: once as one of my extremely few longfics i was writing fic called ‘love-hate’ which is basically soulmate au where you can’t think ill of your soulmate/not for long at least so it would be bkdk developing into an extremely toxic relationship. and i REALIZED. i wasn’t actually developing the relationship meaningfully! i was just making deku angst scenes! which like okay, cool, but That Was Not The Point. so i find it cool that these projects are basically ‘a collection of scenes showing how whatever relationship develops without focus on A Plot or anything’. and i need to learn from that and make my scenes more directed which will be hard because I Hate Outlining. No. but sometimes i do need to think it through!! which is what i’m doing rn!!

2) shortterm WHAT SCENE IS COMING NEXT. HELP. AAA. ooo wait i could break up the mind-heart interaction with mind asking help for once….. however i feel mind would only Ask For Help at some sort of breaking point. that has to be a climactic moment i think……..

okay so what To Do Then. well obviously he attempts to put his new thesis of ‘don’t bully heart every millisecond of the day’ in practice. but in what way does he do that, also make that interesting perhaps????? hmmm maybe like he tries to help heart out of depression instead of diss track

also Side Note. pretty sure this is ooc. like in Just Apathy he’s trying to help heart? but no actually, rembering just apathy i don’t think that was really true??? aughhh i’m remembering why i hate writing because CHARACTERIZATION. i’m so scared and afraid i cannot write the thing in a way which is canon* so.

anyway let’s try to get back to point 2. shortterm. because i need to write something. well should i actually try to outline scenes???? i Really do not want to. outlining = distasteful (such a mind word btw).

so i don’t have to post this so i’ll just have a few basic ideas of what could transpire

mind realizes maybe bullying bad idea, instead try to coax heart -> possibly go back to old patterns/instinctively argue/forgor his thesis

i mean like. what will i get out of This Scene In Specific. that’s probably an important question. like how is this scene going to help the “”plot””?

i don’t want to think about this ughh why do I have to ask Myself these questions. ug i guess i’ll just find out for myself /reference

an easy idea is just. he realizes this Is Not Going To Be Ez GG. so there’s that. is that enough for a scene? hm

or just have him like. boiling with repressed anger the entire time as he tries to Interact Normally. just the whole time he’s like ‘okay he’s fine. i’m fine. i shouldn’t insult him. i need to remain calm and cordial. okay. this is fine’. that would be a teeheemaxxing idea

i think we’ve reached the Main Question, the longterm question again, ‘how will we make scenes interesting every time? how will we make the relationship develop and make that clear?’ because i need to figure that out if we’re to find that golden hue /reference Okay unnecessary reference aside. we need to figure that out if we are going to figure out the scene’s purpose. so we need to somehow show a sense of growth through the whole (pun) fic

okay but How. could you please imagine a big whiteboard right now. and the only thing on it is the word ‘HOW?’ circled thrice in very big handwriting. jeez guys this is a lil tricky….. a lil difficult, an unreal question if you will, hard to figure out, catastrophically challenging (2 at the same time!), not a medium amount of hard, horrific and nowhere near easy… i’m going insane it’s just so terrifying, even tho i know that’s an extreme reaction, i can’t help it being intense bc this question is just so remorseless and i hope i don’t have to cut my hopes down to nil….

so if you didn’t get that completely unnecessary reference those were jtoh difficulty names bc jtoh difficulties are easy (a bit harder than mega fun obby), medium (ooo wraps?? whar??), hard (okay getting a bit tricky now..), difficult (this is where it starts to get real with all the jumps), challenging (actually becoming spooky now), intense (big jump from challenging), remorseless (gameplay becomes even tighter, ridiculous wraps), and then sc difficulties which are insane, extreme, terrifying, and catastrophic, then we have the difficulties so hard they aren’t canon: horrific, unreal, nil

diatribe aside i need to get answer. i kinda just wanna Write And Then Figure It Out but it’s not like answers will miraculously appear to me that way???

hm. so i was planning to have them have lots of difficulties (pun) with this, setbacks, and i was trying to think of a way to justify that… but maybe i don’t have to give each and every one a purpose, besides showing … well that it’s hard! and that they’ve been arguing for so long it’s hard to figure out how not to. and that even when you’re trying your best, you can still lapse into old, destructive patterns, but that doesn’t mean you’ve failed, nor that your progress has gone away. there’s still hope, there always is. you’re trying, and that’s all you need at the end of the day

and this is fanfic, which like. i don’t have to give every scene a reason? that sounds bad but well. i don’t have to be so serious about it?

what i’ve learned from this diatribe: writing is hard and i am confused

if you read it all and are interested in what i’m writing PLEASE SAY SOMETHING I LOVE PEER VALIDATION‼️‼️‼️‼️ also go to my ao3 if you dare………….

[skzxlevanter]

stray kids reacting to you being used to toxic behavior in your previous relationship

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skz!maknaeline x gn!reader

warnings: mentioning of toxic relationship/behavior , cursing , pet names (baby/babe;angel)

gifs belong to their original owners!!

not proofread now!!

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[ hyuwngline / pt1 ]

han jisung:

“y/n i told you to stay away from the computer and now the damn file is gone! can’t you listen to me for once?” jisung said with a raised voice, eyes trained on the computer, clicking frantically.

“i- i- didn’t mean to- i swear just wanted to get something from the table and then accidentally touched the keyboard-“ you stumbled, fiddling with your fingers as tears start to build up at the brick of your eye.

“well this still doesn’t bring the file back” he answered, extremely upset and frustrated, finally turning around to face you as he raises his arms up to stroke his hair.

but in the exact moment he raised his arms, he could see you flinching, noticing the shaky state you were in and immediately, all his anger turned into concern, as he quickly pulls you into a tight hug.

“y/n did you think i was going to hurt you? god i’m so sorry i swear…i never let anything happen to you” he said as he pulls away from you to look deep into your eyes, the ted teary state making him coo. “you’re save with me baby, you don’t need to worry about anything, seriously…what do you think of a movie with cuddles to make this up to you,hm?”

lee felix:

felix was extremely sweet and patient most of the time, but at this particular day he was extremely exhausted from work, his nerves already hanging by a threat, when he found out that you used up the flour, he got extremely annoyed since he was trying to bake to calm down a bit.

“seriously y/n can’t you ask me before you use up all the flour or at least consider buying a new one? i already promised the others to bring them something tomorrow and now i come home and find fucking nothing!!”

your whole body started to shake at his words, you never heard him that aggressive before and you couldn’t help but feel extremely scared as tears started falling down your cheeks. “i’m really sorry” you mumbled over and over again, scared that he was going to hurt you, but as soon as felix got a glimpse at your state, he was more angry at himself than anyone.

“please, y/n i shouldn’t have screamed at you, i am so sorry, please don’t cry because of me angel” he said, also tearing up a bit while pressing soft kisses all over you, his hands drawing soothing circles all over your body while whispering the most precious things into your ear.

“you truly deserve the world, and don’t you dare to think otherwise”

kim seungmin:

“why do i always have to clean the dishes it’s not fair”, seungmin sighed once again. usually he’d do that with a more joking, ironic way but today it was nothing but real annoyance. “really y/n , maybe consider helping for once because i’m really tired of always cleaning up”

you could already feel all the tension building up in your body, not being able to answer and instead of that being completely frozen. “so you’re gonna ignore me too now?” seungmin continued his ranting, not seeing how affected you are since your in the living room while he’s still in the kitchen.

but even tho he was really annoyed, the ling silence that followed after he was speaking seemed concerning, which is why he decided to look after you, just to find you crawled up in the couch, loud sobs leaving your mouth.

he wrapped his arms tightly around you, softly swaying from side to side while shushing you gently.

“y/n” he said, voice soft while slowly patting your back with his hand. “i didn’t mean all of this- i was just a bit- annoyed today- but that’s not your fault. please don’t cry because of me, you’re just perfect as you are.”

yang jeongin:

it was nothing out of the ordinary, you just went to the kitchen to get yourself a glass of water, but as you walked back to the living room, you stumbled over something almost losing balance, catching yourself in the last moment before falling, hissing as you spilled some water over you.

“no no no, shit not right now” you suddenly heard as more curses came out of jeongins room, wondering why he seems so distressed all of the sudden, but then it hit you: you stumbled over the wifi cable. and jeongins was in the middle of a meeting which didn’t make things any better at all.

you were quick to plug the cable bag in and a few moments after that you could hear your boyfriend talking again, but the panic in your body doesn’t settle down. you tried to sit down and concentrate on the show your watching but you can’t help yourself from fiddling around and as jeongins stepped into the room you couldn’t hold back

“i’m so so sorry, please, i didn’t mean to-“ you were interrupted by a gentle kiss on the lips. “what are you sorry for babe?” jeongin questioned as he pulled away slowly, his hands finding their way to your hips as they hold you tight. “the wifi- at the meeting- it was my fault and i-“ you were silenced by another kiss. “bane please don’t worry about things like that, it’s really not a big deal…and besides that…” he paused to place another short kiss on your lips “i was actually quite glad about having a small break”

masterlist - part 1

a/n: school once again took away all my time and energy so sorry for the long wait for part two- but nevertheless i hope you enjoyed reading!!

[shugojima]

Toji x Ushijima x ♀️

I did it lmao I hope you enjoy!

Next up will be Oikawa x Gojo x ♀️

Strength kink, Size kink, Mommy milkies, Double penetration, Breeding kink, Praising

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You had now idea how you ended up taking these two man home with you after you danced your ass off in that little bar in Tokyo.

You immediately layed eyes on Ushijima, the more quiet and reserved one of the two, while Toji was being all confident and straight forward, already used all his charm to talk you into fucking.

And he had absolutely no struggle doing that whatsoever, looking at you with a dirty smirk on his beautiful face. He had something to him; something dark and mature that made you go insane.

Ushijima tho, just kept staring at you from the other side of the dance floor, where he just stood with his whiskey in his hands, sipping on it every now and then. His gaze was strong and made you feel ways. Toji noticed and smirked.

"Wanna take that boy with ya? Yk I don't mind having some competition."

You looked at him with wide eyes, a little shocked by what he'd just suggested but how stupid would you have to be, saying no to that offer.

So here you are. Legs spread widely, Ushijimas big frame hovering over you between them, Toji's tongue buried deep in your mouth, a trembling hand on his big, soft chest, squeezing his breasts.

"You like that, kid?"

"Mhm.."

Ushijima's breasts were just as big, only his buds a little smaller, already hard you noticed as Toji pulled away from the kiss, spit connecting your mouths. Next thing you new was Toji almost suffocating you in between his breasts, His hand holding you in place.

"Imma fuck her first, big boy. You a lil thicker. I don't wanna have it stretched already." The man with the scar on his lips demanded, leaving the olive haired disappointed as he growled "Don't fill her up. That's my job."

"Come again?? Sure will, stupid. Can't leave her empty like that, can I?"

"... I'll take her mouth then." He said but he sure wasn't pleased and wouldn't let him have his way like that.

"Mhm... Good boy." Toji smirks, knowing exactly how much it angers Ushijima to be praised by him like that. Oh he'd fight for his place, don't you think he'd just back off.

He watched closely as Toji licked his scar, his green eyes hungrily staring into yours before he grabbed the base of his thick cock, slowly dragging it along your slick folds, slapping against your clit once, before positioning at your entrance.

"Mmm you gonna be a good girl for daddy, right?"

"Yes, I will... Don't- nghh stop teasing please.. Just.. fuck me already."

"Wouldya look at that big boy. She's all desperate for us, hm?" He mocked before pushing his fat tip inside your hungry, tight pussy.

You whined and dug your nails into his strong biceps, already feeling how big he was, how much you'd have to take. Toji's breast slightly bounced up and down when he bottomed out, not giving you any time to adjust to his monstrous size.

You arched your back more than you thought was possible, looking do the side you found Ushijima stroking himself just a few inches from your face.

"You need to concentrate on me, babe. Don't let him distract you, you hear me?" He said looking at the moaning mess in front of him.

You nodded, mouth wide open for him to put it in, if he'd even fit, that is. He was a little thicker than Toji, who was already way too much.

His balls big and full, cock slightly cured, his v line prominent, leading straight to paradise.

He was beautiful, a stunning man to say the least but you had no time thinking about it because Toji grabbed your chin, holding your mouth open for Ushijima, as his girthy cock rubbed along your lips, throbbing hard, waiting for you to take care of his problem.

You started sucking on his tip, tongue flicking and swirling around when he threw his head back, deep moans leaving his throat as he felt yours vibrating on his cock.

Toji didn't slow down, even though he held you in place on Ushijima. God, you never felt filled up so good. There was literally no air left inside you as those big men fucked you stupid right there. Toji now holding one of your legs on his shoulders to reach your spot perfectly, pushed you now completely on the big boy's cock. Throat desperately trying to push him out again, you choked and teared up but none of them gave a single fuck. They had trust in you, they knew you could take it if you just tried hard enough.

"Fuck." Was all that left Ushijima's mouth as he hit the back of your throat, mouth agape, breathing heavily, fully ignoring the tears streaming down your pretty face. He was sensitive, very much so and you would've feasted on the way he reacted because of you but it hurt. Your jaw hurt so much from the strong stretch, you couldn't keep your thoughts together.

"You're doing so well, love. So well even though he fucks so hard into you. I'm very proud of you." Ushijima said, carassing your cheek with his thumb when he pulled out, your fucked out head hanging down in exhaustion. He leaned down, kissing your forehead before he whispered, for Toji not to hear

"Daddy's very proud."

Toji turned you around as he pulled out, leaving you empty and whining.

"Nawww don't be sad, kid. Already missing my cock? I just pulled out a second ago." He chuckled slapping your ass hard, thrusting inside again, holding onto your shoulders, pushing you just a bit more onto his now twitching cock, about to put his baby straight inside your belly.

"Don't ya think for a sec I'll take care of this bastard. Hear me?"

"T-toji!! Then don't..."

"Nuh uh... That doesn't change the fact I have to fill you up, kid." He laughed, a moment before he fucked his kids inside your belly.

Your womb bulging a little from how much he left inside you as he thrusted in a few times more, making sure it settles right where he wanted it.

Meanwhile Ushijima shot hot ropes of his cum all over your face, stroking himself slowly as he pushed Toji aside roughly.

"Thanks to you asshole I wasted it. Move. Let's see if he's growing to be the next ace or an orphan. Dumbass."

How was this man instantly hard again after cuming all over your face a moment ago? Stamina... Lord have mercy. You were already stretched to the limit by Toji but he, so big inside you, forced you to scream as loud as you never did in your whole life.

"USHI-JI- AHHHHH FUCK FUCK!! TOO MUCH!!"

You whined and cried as he pushed his cock through Toji's cum, which was almost completely leaking out of you at this point.

"You gonna make me a father. I don't want you to have his kids, you hear me?"

"Y-YES!! NGHHH GOD!!"

"We'll see about that..." Toji chuckled licking along your jaw line before continuing to fuck his fist.

"I can't.. I-"

"You can. You're nghhh.. doing amazing, love." Ushijima said as he came undone, his big heavy balls, which were slapping so deliciously against your ass emptying in your belly.

You felt the heat inside pushing you over the edge as well as soon as Toji bit down on your hard bud.

You came screaming, back arching, sucking Ushijima in as if your life would depend on it. You were done with this world. This was something else, something you weren't sure you could take a second time but you never felt so damn good.

Ushijima collapsed on top of you, Toji spilling everything left inside him over your face as well, mixing it with the big boys cum, intentionally shooting a little on Ushijima's face.

Oh shit.

"Awww look at you. You look prettier like that, man."

The look he shot him was the most scary thing you had ever seen but you couldn't help but giggle a bit.

"I'll need your numbers to inform you of your child."

"Nah you won't need mine, kid."