#honestly it's so smart of them to be like Ooo look gay people i have smth for u! and then get everyone online going

[munamania]

right can i just. okay. lesbian is not a genre so im not looking to lump all these shows together. got that out of the way. im also not looking to pit queer people against each other so ok checking that off the list. i am however going to go ahead and throw the misogyny card out here because it’s fucking annoying how shows that center women, especially when theyre woc and/or queer, still just don’t take off even in progressive online spaces the way any shows with our darling young gay male couples will. i’m not saying that’s, like, the Cause of them being cancelled either because we’ve been shown numbers don’t matter. and many of the “”lesbian”” shows that have been cancelled were popular otherwise. just complaining xo!

[centuriantalevevo]

Draco x Nonbinary Reader

Reader is AMAB, also this contains my headcanons lmao- hella OOC because of that (one of my headcanons, Draco has like.. multiple cousins who are basically on crack /j)

TW: transphobia and enbyphobia, with talk of biphobia. LGBTphobia in general. Misgendering

    5th year is.. Hectic.. Especially for a certain kid, Y/N L/N, who had to deal with a literal pink toad this year. Like.. ew? What made it worse, was they seemed to be the only kid in the school, well Slytherin specifically, that was… Different. Not in the normal, cliche sense, where ‘oh Y/N was drop dead gorgeous but abused by everyone around her, she can sing amazing-’, no. This isn’t your typical x Reader story, Y/N was different in the sense of Identity, Gender, specifically Gender Norms. They seemed to be all alone on this feeling, a feeling of discomfort, a feeling of loneliness despite multiple friends being in the room with them at this moment. They were away from earth, where no words can hurt. Where the erasure cannot get to them.

Oh god did the words hurt.

Oh? What words? You’re about to find out.

    “No, but did you hear some of the bullshit Umbridge was saying?” He asked, he as in the blonde. Draco. Draco Malfoy. “Especially to my cousin-” “You have a cousin?” Pansy asked, “Welcome to the conversation, first time speaking to me?- Yes, you are hella late to the conversation.” Draco groaned, “Now let me get back to the story” “Continue, which cousin? Darla?- Dominic?-” Blaise asked, “No, Jamie..” He responded quickly, “Oh hold on, what did the toad do to Jamie? I swear, if she hURT THAT PRECIOUS CHILD- Gryffindor or not, I love that girl to death” Blaise said quickly, interrupting Draco.

The blonde sighed deeply, “Blaise.. I love you to death but holy shit let me finnish, alright..” He took a breather, Y/N came back from their little world, queuing into the conversation. “Okay, so Umbridge had the AUDACITY to misgender MY COUSIN OVER AND OVER again! Misgendered her, invalidated her, you know that rule about like.. Something distance from the opposite gender? Yeah she’s forcing Jamie, a literal girl, to distance from girls and not guys-” He halted for a second, “No, my bad.. She’s forcing Jamie to stay away from both because she believe that Jamie is gay.. No, Jamie is a whole straight girl..” Draco ranted, “um.. Sorry to interrupt but… Jamie’s a girl? So how was she invalidated?” Y/N asked, tilting their head, Draco’s eyes moved to them, softening some.

    “Oh, you didn’t know? I thought everyone knew. Jamie is trans, she’s a trans girl specifically”

THERE! THERE IT WAS! They weren’t alone now.. There was someone who understood, yet they’d been clueless this whole time.

“I swear I will jack that woman UP” Blaise said lowly and Draco nodded in agreement. “Jamie was CRYING when she came to me, she could barely speak. That poor girl passed out from crying so much. She felt so hurt and the amount of dysphoria she felt was astronomically high.” He sighed, even he wanted to cry. “Like, damn bitch you didn’t have to out yourself as a whole LGBTphobe, you could’ve just stayed quiet and it would cost you nothing yet you chose to mess with a child who is related to the MALFOY family, very smart yes mhmm..” He growled in aggravation “Only merlin knows what she’d do if there was a nonbinary in the school, she’s probably dehumanize them.” He shook his head.

    “I’d commit a hate crime if I’m honest” Dominic said, coming from the stairs of the boys dormitory, “The LGBT had their way for a moment because she hadn’t thought about the gays, bisexuals and lesbians. Well.. the gays and lesbians, I don’t think she thinks Bisexuals exist..” He hummed, “She’s enforced the rule so now Darla can’t be near Daphne, luckily I don’t have a boyfriend.. The one time being single is a good thing.” Dominic dramatically cried.

“I will prove bisexuals exist, damn seems like I gotta stay away from ALL of you, sorry” Draco jokes, but was dead serious at the same time. “Until then, if there are nonbinaries in the school, technically they can by-pass the rules, if they present as masculine one day feminine the next. Or just androgynous to confuse the toad.” Draco then added, “I think I have to stay away from you guys too, shit Bisexuals can’t do ANYTHING” Blaise said, pretending to get up and leave.

So.. the students know of the nonbinary gender…

“Although, no surprise, Snape is always the decent one, along with all the other professors, and respect the trans kids pronouns, I’ve gone into his class to give him something during one of his lessons and heard him deliberately calling out kids that misgendered Jamie, it was amazing. And everyone says Snape is a bad teacher.” Draco says, smiling some at the memory. “Ooo! Speaking of which! While in Umbrdige’s class I think.. A few days ago, Snape actually found out about the incident and told her the fuck off for it-” “Damn, snape really said ‘trans rights are human rights’, go off honestly” Dominic interrupted, Draco nodded “The best look honestly, it was pure bliss watching that.” He responded.

Y/N finally managed to form words. “I.. didn’t know there was a trans person in the school.. A fellow trans person..” They said, mumbling the last part quietly, but Draco, Dominic, and Blaise caught it. “Fellow trans person?” Blaise tilted his head, and Draco glanced knowingly, the last part of their sentence was all he needed. They shook their head quickly, “Nothing” They shrugged, “Just nice to know”

It hurt, to be misgendered everyday, to be fair no one knew they were misgendering the kid. But they were so scared of being erased, discriminated against, that they said nothing. Since 1st year, pretty much.

They stretched some, “I'm gonna head to the library, I need to get studying done for Defense Against the Dark Arts, I’ll talk to you guys later.” They smiled, getting up, and grabbing paper, a quill, ink and their books from their dorm. Speed walking out, though it didn’t take long to hear a second pair of footsteps racing after them. Who the-

    “Hey, Y/N..” Draco trailed of, catching up to them quickly, “What’s up?” They looked at him from the corner of their eye, “There’s something you never told anyone, isn’t there?” He asked. Y/N averted their eyes and shook their head, “Nn… No..?” They sounded unsure, “Is that a statement, or a question because you don’t know?” He asked. He didn’t wanna be rude, but this was the only way he could truly confirm. If there was someone he had been accidentally misgendering, he wanted to stop that quickly.

    “I don’t wanna sound rude, nor put you on the spot.. You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to but.. What are your pronouns?” he asked, he knew of the nonbinaries, he knew of them.. So it’s fine to tell him, yes? He was basically defending them. They shook their head, not ready yet. “Not ready? That’s fine, I can respect that. You can always tell me, you know that right? I’ll understand. And if not me, then Jamie will.” heHe had sincerity in his voice, Y/N simply nodded. “Noted, thanks Draco..” They smiled and headed to the Library.

    The next day, Defense Against the Dark Arts was boring as ever, all because of Umbridge. But she had a new lesson today, not the normal one though. She had been doing her usual bullying of Jamie, Draco had been on edge and heard about it earlier, fairly quickly too. It was like it was her MISSION to be an LGBTphobic idiot with no life. Jamie had mentioned nonbinaries before she dipped from class, arguing about trans in general with the woman, or.. Monster.. Both terms work. So she was now here, in front of kids, spewing out enbyphobic shit, and not planning on stopping.. Y/N was starting to cry, but tried their best to hold it in.

The first person to notice the distress was Draco, Hermione did too, as she sat behind Y/N but could see them jolting some, “These.. Non-binaries, are less than human. You’re either a boy, or a girl. Everyone agrees, yes? If you are born a girl, you’re a girl. If you’re born a boy, you’re a boy. It’s a mental disorder, and you need to be fixed-” “They’re normal.. They just happen to not feel like a guy or a girl..” Y/N said quietly, “Trans folk are human, they aren’t an it.. That’s incredibly hurtful..” They said, it took all their strength to keep their voice from cracking.

“What was that Mr. L/N?” Umbridge smiled that sweet yet disgusting smile, tilting her head.. No, that smile had more dangerous intent behind that. They flinched. “Is there something you would like to say sir?” She asked, stopping in front of them. “Trans people.. Are people.. Just because you’re too ignorant to learn doesn’t.. M..mean you- b-bring someone down b-beca-use of it..” Their voice started to crack, they hiccuped some. “I’m sorry.. Do you think you have more knowledge than me?” She asked, her tone was dangerous. “Y..yes. Clearly, I’ve d-done my research on this, th-there is science tha-at defends us” They said.

“Detention Mr. L/N.. For talking back to a teacher, when I am giving a lesson you are to listen, you’re too caught up in whatever freak show you tra-” Umbridge was cut off, “Don’t you DARE finish that damn sentence, I can promise you I am not against hitting a teacher and a woman at that.” Draco intervened, “There is a lot of science that backs transgenders up, plenty of brain science has shown there is a female and male brain, that’s what backs up trans girls and trans boys, the nonbinary is still being researched, but I can assure you it is much more than a mental illness. Yes, dysphoria is a disorder, it CAN be treated, it can be treated with Hormone Replacement Therapy, or HRT. It can be treated with transitioning. Some nonbinaries transition, some don’t feel dysphoric enough to transition, but at the end of the day they are still a they, I am still a he, and you are still a she. Just imagine if someone called you ‘he’, or even ‘it’ because they didn’t believe you were actually a girl-” “DETENTION, for BOTH of you.” Umbridge screamed, glaring daggers at both of them.

    “I’d take detention over hearing another second of the erasure, you’ve hurt my cousin enough, I’ll gladly take the blow for her. I thought Snape would’ve taught you.” Draco muttered, staring at her, “Both of you, leave. Now.” She said with a huff, Draco grabbed his things, but stopped Y/N when they tried to collect theirs, getting it for them, “Come on.” He said softly, leaving the classroom with the student.

He handed their things to them gently, “I.. Noticed you got really upset..” He said softly, “More like panicked..” They said softly, “It’s easier said than done, but try not to let her get to you. Some people just choose to stay stupid. Sometimes even I hurt from some of the shit she says. Damn the amount of biphobia I have heard from her is ungodly.” He sighed, “You’re bi?” They asked curiously, “Yeah, I thought it was obvious by now. I kinda stopped caring at like.. 2nd year, hell I made out with.. A lot of guys in 2nd and 3rd year, mostly to piss my father off because he’s also LGBTphobic, but also just because it’s fun, and guys are cute.” He said with a small grin, they laughed. “Fair enough, do what you can to piss the oppressors off” They joked, drying their eyes. He turned to head to the Slytherin Common Room, when their voice ringed out again.

“They/Them..” Y/N said, he turned around and tilted his head, “You asked what my pronouns are.. I use they/them. I’m nonbinary” They said softly, and Draco smiled with a nod. “Is there a different name you want to be called?” But they shook their head, “The name I introduced myself as is the name I want to use.” Y/N said, “Alright, come on. Lets go to the common room” Draco said, “I can probably try and get Jamie in there too..” He hummed softly.

    Later that day, it was after dinner, and all the Slytherins were in the common room. Aside from Draco and Y/N, “Do you want to tell them? Most of them are accepting, aside from a few exceptions, Pansy surprisingly is accepting.” He said quietly, and thought for a moment.. “Blaise told me a few of the kids got told off because they agreed with us.” He added, “I think.. I was always scared to say anything because I didn’t wanna be made fun of.. I didn’t know there was someone who was trans like me til you talked about what happened with Jamie..” They said, “Well, you’re safe here. Hell, I’m more than 110% sure that our headmaster is gay, so.. Do with what you will on that information” He said with a small lighthearted laugh, Draco kissed their cheek with a small hum “It’ll be okay.”

They’d chosen to tell them, they didn’t want to feel misgendered any longer, Umbridge aside. “Oi, everyone shut your trap for a second, I have something to say- THEO… Thank you” He said, after staring down Theodore for a moment. “Let us reintroduce someone, but properly this time. This is Y/N, they’re nonbinary, use they/them pronouns and the moment I hear any of you say something against that, I will personally come for you, with Jamie in tow.” Draco said, Y/N smiling a little with a small wave. “Could’ve told us sooner, but glad you did, especially after Professor Umbridge, good job” Blaise said.

    Even Pansy was accepting, they were all proud that you had the courage to say come out, and also that you said something to Umbridge.

This was fine, everything is fine. Umbridge wasn’t fine, but.. This was nice, being accepted as who you are, by people who you’d think would be the last people to ever accept you. The person you thought would be the last person to accept you ended up being the most accepting, which is ironic when you consider his dad. 

This was bad 😭

[costellos]

tell me who you’d take on a date and where you would go! — CLOSED

@thisbloghasnoaesthetic​ asked: Id love to take Jotaro on a date. Just something chill. Like getting some good food. Or just sitting together doing nothing. I'd love to just read a book with my head on his shoulder. Just enjoying eachothers quiet comfort :)

omg that sounds like a great date for Jotaro! he definitely seems like the type to want a chill date. he’d probably opt for something that offers takeout if you’re referencing Part 3!Joot, somewhere a little nicer but just as casual if you’re referencing Part 4!Joot. and while you’re reading, you might just catch a teeny, tiny smile on his lips. but don’t say anything or you’ll ruin the moment 🤭💕

anonymous asked: i would wanna take kakyoin out to an indoor roller rink so we could rollerskate together 🥺 it’s one of the things i like to do most and i’d wanna skate around w him while holding hands! also cause he’s tall, i feel like it’d be hard for him to keep balance and prevent himself from falling lolll. but we could go out to an ice cream place nearby afterwards and watch the sun set (if the time is right) 💗

how cute!! sharing something you love with the one you love most... I dig it. Kakyoin would be soooo embarrassed, though! he just wants to impress you but his center of gravity is absolutely awful. rip. at the end of the day, however, he’d be so appreciative that you shared something so personal with him. ❤️ let him pay for the ice cream, it’s the least he can do!! and maybe hold your hand while you watch the sunset 🌅

@lavaicerinkk​ asked: I would ask mista, probably to like a concert or something like that. We'd probably go as homies, then when we get home id be like "what if we kissed haha" and hed be like 😳😳 ok, and then we live happily ever after

LMAAAAOOOOO. I feel like this is v in character for Mista.... he’d be caught so off guard by it! esp since he probably would’ve accepted that you were just friends. not that he’d say no, tho 👀 he’d just be like, “wait, for real?” and waste no time kissing you after you gave him permission. what a happy ending. 💕

@murcx04​ asked: Take someone on a date huh hmmmmm- Josuke is my bet HAHA Hed be so refreshing to be with óuò. And we'd go shopping kfbfjfn And that where- he'll just show his pleading eyes and want you to buy the shoes he wants oh boy-

I agree, he would be a very refreshing plus one! I think a shopping date would be v traditional with him. I’m imagining you both at the mall, where he cackles at all the weird sex stuff at Spencer’s and shares his food court soft pretzel with you. 🥨 he probably wouldn’t explicitly say that he wants new shoes, but he’d nudge you and be like, “hey. if you wanna know what to get me for my birthday...” and point to the Air Force 1′s on display. so subtle. 🙄

anonymous asked: tbh i think i'd like to take kira out to dinner and go on a walk. i know its a simple date but i think he's really neat and i don't really like big or flashy events and i don't think he would either kjfnksnjks. its just sumn that would suit both of us nice

ooo interesting choice, nonnie! I 100% agree with you on this one. Kira would probably take you to one of those restaurants that have private rooms. I think some ritzier places are like that? anyway, he’d want to focus this date all on you. no mindless chatter from other patrons, no screaming children — the more noise he can minimize, the better. and during your walk, I can see him allowing you to take the reins on the conversation. he just finds everything you say so fascinating! 🌷💗

@catnymous​ asked: I'd take Fugo first to just a simple lil cafe then to the park :3

Cat!! I missed you!! you should come into the askbox more often, I always enjoy your replies. in the meantime, Fugo probably overthinks a lot so this date would be casual enough for him to relax. he would probably opt for some coffee and a slice of cake that he can share with you 🍰❤️ and a stroll through the park would be the perfect way to walk off the calories! (plus when you get to a fountain he’ll probably make some corny wish about getting to spend more days with you like this a;sdfkjl)

anonymous asked: Idk if you’re familiar with part 7... but I would bring Johnny to the planetarium; it’s a place that I love, and bringing him to a place special to me would mean a lot, I think. I’d tell him all of my favorite things about space. And, it’s a little mushy, but I’d remind him that just because you can’t always see the stars doesn’t mean they’re not there; every one is special and the same is for people. And of course, it would be a fun day out to appreciate the beautiful things in the world

unfortunately, I’m not familiar with Part 7... :( but thank you so much for sharing nonetheless! this is such a heart-warming confession 💕 I wish there was more I could say; I love that you’d share all your favorite things about space, and how everything and everyone is special. 💫 such a beautiful confession. 

@serenityblaze44​ asked: I would take Bruno and/or Abbacchio to a conservatory or garden, maybe bring a picnic. Nothing too exciting, just time to relax and spend time together. Then go home for cuddles.

por que no los dos? ahaha nah I’m joking... unless 👀 no but for real, this sounds ideal for both of them! ❤️ they would both appreciate the time to unwind. I could see Abbacchio prepping all the food, while Bucciarati handles everything else (packing the blanket, utensils, alcohol, etc.). they’d probably opt for somewhere outside of Naples since it’s far too crowded in the city. afterwards, be prepared for a gr8 nap between two warm, loving boys!!

anonymous asked: I'd take Kakyoin on a date! I think it would be really fun to go somewhere like an amusement park or arcade so we could just kinda be stupid together and forget our problems. Id go on the Ferris wheel and try to kiss him at the top but he'd probably shake the cart the whole time to freak me out 😂😂 After everything he's gone through, he deserves to have a lot of fun and id love to see him smile 🥰😍

aw friend, this is such a sweet scenario! hopefully the Ferris wheel doesn’t give him too many bad memories of Death Thirteen though ope,, anyway, what a lovely way to forget about all the stuff he’s endured! he’d playfully challenge you to some arcade games (and I’m using “playfully” lightly here) and then destroy you. 🙄 but it’s okay, any tickets he gets will immediately go to a cute stuffed animal just for you 🧸

@hadesaedes​ asked: OOOH I’d have to go with either Yukako or Koichi (even tho i have like TWO hands either is fine). Yukako is a very passionate and strong lover which I LOVE cause im shy with affection so being bold with it is MWUAH. While Koichi is also passionate I like to think he enjoys more simple and low key dates which is my type of thing. Having to just bask in each other’s company without having to fill the silence is GREAT. THEY ARE BOTH GREAT!!! In this essay I will-

AHHH A+ CHOICES, FRIEND. Yukako and Koichi would spoil you so much!! they’d handle any date expenses (movie tickets, food, etc.) and would adore having any opportunity to hold your hand 😊 Yukako would probably be more physically affectionate; she’ll either have her hand on top of yours or her feet wrapped between yours when sitting. Koichi would opt for compliments, praising you on how cool and smart you are! wow, what a supportive pair 🤝

anonymous asked: It's very hard to choose, but I'd go on a date with Bruno. Idk I'm just very gay for him. He knows a lot of nice and fancy places in Naples, but since that's not really my world, I'd take him to a small coffee shop or something. Nothing fancy or expensive but still very enjoyable. Maybe some ice cream. Walking through the city and going to a restaurant in the evening. Maybe something fancy this time, or just a simple pizza

how lovely!! Bucciarati would honestly be open to try anything, but I think a small coffee shop would be v enjoyable for him. there’s so much you can learn about someone over a cup of joe. ☕ since he’s been living in / around Naples his whole life, he’d probably share some neat facts about the city while on your stroll! “the Amalfi Coast is best known for its limoncello liqueur. I know a great place to try it if you’re interested.” 🍋

@moloko-tyan​ asked: Hello, little bird💫sending you rays of love and positive energy! This new event is so much fun. Several hours I wondered with who I wanted to go out, ahah. And I think it would be Erina. She deserves to have fun especially after all those awful events in her life. We would go to atelier. We could go through fabrics to choose which fits the best. We would look at lovely laces, buttons, jewels and we would argue about models of dresses and evening gowns. I want her to feel safe🌻 thank u so much!

friend! I always get so excited when you pop into my askbox!! ty for participating 💕 Erina is such a great choice imo. and this is such a creative date! she’d have so much fun running her fingers over all the interesting fabrics. Erina would take the most beautiful dresses and hold them up against you, saying how lovely the color suits you. 👗 although she’d be too shy to try those dresses on herself, she would have so much fun spending the day with you!!

anonymous asked: I hope it's okay to send this (I honestly don't want you to get overwhelmed)! But if it's okay: I would love to take Fugo on a date! I love this boy with all my heart and I would love to travel with him to my country to a town next to the sea and give him a tour of its history (and visit the local art and history museums there)! And later grab some ice cream and walk along the seafront in the evening where there are less people and just enjoy the walk together as the sun sets. -Turtle Anon🐢

oooohh, Turtle Anon!! thank you for your concern. you’re all good, don’t worry! anywho, that’s a wonderful date for Fugo. he would have an absolute blast reading about all the art and history your country has to offer 🏛️ you might have to push him along though, he’s the type to absorb everything n really slow down when reading... but at the end of the day, as you’re walking along the beach, he’d thank you for sharing a part of yourself with him. he’d be so honored! ☀️

anonymous asked: tbh i'd love to take narancia on a super spontaneous date... only the date and time are set, the entire day is just going around town and doing whatever stupid fun random things,, eating street food and going into shops to try on random fits and running around laughing, mayhaps go to an arcade, or do some karaoke. and then wind down at like a mcdonalds late at night, tired but happy and satisfied.. hhh nara is v fun i just wanna hang out w him honestly 🤕😔🤕😔

yeeeess this is the perfect date for Narancia!! he loves spontaneous stuff like this. he’d have so much fun gorging himself on street food and playing around with weird fits. he’d probably put on the stupidest things he can find, like this. and if you go to karaoke, be ready to screech some absolute bangers. he will not take anything less than confident (yet bad), loud (yet joyous) singing. 🎤 n while he might be falling nodding off at the McDonald’s, he’d sleepily tell you how amazing the day was and how he wants to do this again 💕

@tomomi012​ asked: I'm going to share another ideal date idea, but with Kakyoin. I'd like us to go to one of those cat cafes in Japan. I mean, cats, coffee and a cute Japanese boy, is this heaven? and I would tell him: "Nori, today I am in heaven"

ofc, share all you want! omg... I love this idea..... Kakyoin would be so soft anytime a cat approaches him. he’d do a little “pspsps” and hold out his finger for them to smell. and once a cat actually nudges him, he’d just melt! he wouldn’t show it outwardly, but you can see it in how bright his eyes get. I think Kakyoin would be the type to either attract a ton of cats or cats hate him, there’s no in between. 😭❤️ both make for some gr8 scenarios, though! 

@pommmejuice​​ asked: for your post about taking a character on a date :,) i think i’d like to take abba to art museums/cultural centers ,, i’d love to talk to him about my culture and what life is like (if he’d be interested;; lol) n maybe afterwards while we get italian food he can talk to me about what italian culture is like, the parts that aren’t shown in the media 🥺 so uh a date where we’re both learning new things about each other hehe

n maybeeeee take fugo to a café where we can study together n talk about our favorite things in our lives/culture.... n maybe hold hands on the table and maybe stare into his eyes tenderly ... you know because he’s my BFF (Best Friend Forever) .. you know how best friends do.. 😳

ooo Ireeene I figured you’d say Abbacchio :3c but that’s such a cute date for him! ofc he’d be interested in learning more about you!! you wouldn’t see it, but every time you share something you that you love about your culture, Abbacchio’s gaze on you would be so loving... 💖 he adores that you’re sharing so personal with him (of all people!!). and he’d get a kick out of telling you misconceptions about Italy. don’t get him started on how much he hates the Mario Bros.

as for Fugo, he would react similarly. I could see him ask more questions about your culture, while Abbacchio lets you go on and on. he’s so interested in everything about you!! and the moment you hold his hand... wow... get ready to see some intense blushing... he wouldn’t pull away, but his attention would turn to something else and his stutter would be apparent. pull yourself together, Fugo! 😤

anonymous asked: I'd take Rohan on a date, I'm a lil gay for that trash man. Tbh, it would either be an amazing date or a total disaster. I think we'd plan something fun and relaxing, like going to an art gallery or seeing a movie, but we'd end up in an adventure because that's what keeps happening to Rohan for some reason. At the end of the day we'd go to a restaurant to put a normal ending to that strange day

HAHAHA omggg friend this is a pretty accurate description of Rohan’s life. I think he’d be really annoyed that the day ended up this way, but he’s glad that he got to spend it with someone he tolerates. 💕 Rohan would try to push past those feelings once you go to the restaurant. this date is still salvageable!! he might complain a lil, but ultimately, he’d try to focus on you and what you enjoyed 🥰

@xxbluejayxx​ asked: For the Jojo date thing, I'd take Abbacchio. Well not really picky about the kind of date, I feel a nice quiet one at home would be best. It could be a homemade dinner, a movie night, or both. When it comes down to it, for me anytime spent with someone I love is time well spent, and that is something I will willingly admit

this is such a peaceful date for Abbacchio! I agree, a quiet date at home would be best. 😊❤️ as I mentioned in other scenarios, he’d likely take over kitchen duties. no need to worry about anything, just tell him what you want and he’d whip it up for you! and when it comes time to watch the movie, he’d tell you to sit a lil closer to him... he’s not very good with verbalizing affection, but he loves when he can feel your skin against his.

anonymous asked: I reeally wanna take Polnareff on a date. He deserves it sooo much. He's such a handsome sweetie. Id turn on the charm for him for once, like he always does. I have a beautiful image in my head of an outdoor patio restaurant with hundreds of strings of lights. We both dress up and have a lovely meal under the stars and magical lights, and then our favorite song plays and we have a dance beneath the lights. I think it would be goofy and romantic, stepping on toes as we attempt to dance around 😍

ahhh Polnareff would be so flattered to have you flirt with him! he’d probably get a lil flustered since this is nicer than what he’s used to, but seeing you dressed to the nines would make make him go 🥵 likewise, he’d push himself through the situation by just focusing on you. and when you start dancing... wow!! he’d lose himself laughing and being absolutely miserable at showing his moves. but it doesn’t matter, because he’s here with you and everything is okay ⭐

@rat-makes-stuff asked: Ok so I would take Giorno back to my home state of Michigan. Mafia boss has got to be tired as hell, so what's better than walking through the woods and collecting rocks at Lake Huron (I'm biased that's my favorite lake no CAP). We would watch the sun set and then look at the stars when they come out. Wildflower picking, trying to see how many deer we can find, and picnics by the lake? Yes pleaseee

before I start, Tumblr wasn’t letting me tag you in this!! so I hope you still see my response :( anyway, this is such a relaxing date! Don Giorno would love to unwind in nature. he’d probably take some stones he found near Lake Huron and turn them into a bouquet of flowers for you! 💐and since he’s probably never seen the sky without light pollution, he’d be astonished at how beautiful the sky is. he wouldn’t be able to say anything, just pull you close to him and thank you for taking him out here 🌠

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Ooo if you’re still doing the character ask how about L, Light Yagami, and Misa from Death Note :o

OH HELL YEAH. answers are under a read more bc it got LONG

Light Yagami

do I like them:

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh no*

*he IS well-written, and I love him as a character. I just also really, really hate him

5 good qualities:

 potato chip

he’s actually very smart even if he doesn’t know how to apply that intellect literally at all (high intelligence low wisdom king)

he plays mario golf with ryuk which is very cute

doesn’t know how to act straight even when he thinks he’s acting straight. I respect that

he lives for the Drama of everything he does. very dedicated to the aesthetic of having a Rival and Enemy

3 bad qualities:

extremely manipulative, and he treats the women he dates like shit. actually, he just doesn’t treat women very well in general (sees naomi and thinks “well, she’s a woman, so I could physically overtake her if I need to.” yikes.)

who wouldn’t like Misa she is a gift, fuck you light

god complex, and he kills for no reason but convinces himself there’s a reason

favourite episode/etc:

“New World” because he dies <3

otp:

Light / death <3

brotp:

honestly, I love Light and Ryuk’s dynamic. Light gives him apples and plays video games with him, and Ryuk makes fun of Light while also doing all his weird shit

ot3:

none

notp:

Light and any girl tbh, it makes me uncomfortable

best quote:

I can’t think of the EXACT wording, but when he’s on the bus with his fake date for the bus jacking, and the girl he’s with is UNDERSTANDABLY freaking out because there is a guy WAVING A GUN AROUND, and Light just looks at her and is like, “What’s wrong?”

Light,,, you’re trying to act like a normal high school student,,, at least Google how people tend to react when threatened with a gun, jesus christ

head canon:

mario golf is the only video game he owns, and he just has it to seem like a normal teenager, but he doesn’t actually enjoy it

BUT he also has to be perfect at it so he’s clocked in like 500 hours of gameplay before he even met Ryuk

also, he’s gay

Misa Amane

do I like them:

MISA!!! I LOVE HER!!!!!!!!!! GOTH QUEEN!!!!!

5 good qualities:

in love with love, which is very romantic of her   

have you SEEN her??? an absolute fashion ICON!!!! she knows what style she likes and she ROCKS IT!!!!!! good for her! good for her!!!

she’s very loyal, even if that’s also a negative, since it causes her to be blindly devoted to Light despite him not treating her well. BUT, she’ll do anything for the people she loves. Misa would be the friend who you could call at 2 am to help bury a body, and she’d do it. She’d also kill anyone you asked her to, especially if they wronged you

she’s really smart!!! but people don’t expect her to be smart, which lets her weaponize her intellect. she can take those who doubt her by surprise and put them in a grave

she’s very friendly and sweet!! she’s willing to be friends with anyone as long as she thinks they’re a decent person, and I love that about her

3 bad qualities:

blind devotion, as I mentioned before. Misa, just because Light killed the person who murdered your family doesn’t mean he’s worth your time :/

doesn’t respect people’s personal space, especially when she’s excited

 doesn’t dump Light’s ass for Rem, which is a CRIME, Misa, please, you have that amazing monster girl romance potential, why waste it

favourite episode/etc:

I actually really like “Performance”?? It’s when Misa is meeting with the Yotsuba group. The scene between her and Rem in the bathroom is really good to me, and I like seeing Misa’s acting skills in all their glory

otp:

Rem / Misa. Rem is literally willing to die to keep Misa safe,,,,, hhhhhh it GETS TO ME, dude ;-;

brotp:

Misa and L!!!! All their interactions are really cute, I think. Also, I like Misa and Mogi. they’re fun

(I’m going to push my p5 / death note crossover agenda and also say Misa and Akechi <3)

ot3:

none

notp:

Misa and Light. Misa, I love you, and you deserve better

best quote:

When Rem tells Misa that the only way to kill a Shinigami is for them to fall in love with a human, and Misa says, “What a wonderful way to kill.”

head canon:

she only listens to evanescence. also, she’s pan

L

do I like them:

Absolutely, L is fantastic

5 good qualities:

determined, and will go great lengths to accomplish what he thinks needs to be done

even though he WILL do things that are morally questionable (or just straight up immoral), he doesn’t like putting people’s lives at risk

his posture is a Mood

extraordinarily smart, knew Light was Kira basically immediately and never gave up on that theory even after they started getting close. get his ass, L

 king of one liners imo

3 bad qualities:

does go too far with his methods, even if he thinks they’re necessary (the way they held Misa in custody, for example)

please for the love of god eat a vegetable

gets worked up a little too easily sometimes… as he says, he’s childish and hates to lose, and that can work against him

favourite episode/etc:

“Silence.” I really love the entire tone of the episode where L dies, and his urgency when Rem starts killing… holy shit

otp:

L / a very long, good night’s sleep

brotp:

as mentioned before, I really like L and Misa!! I also like the dynamic he has with soichiro yagami?? all the conversations they have about Light are phenomenal, they make me feel Emotions

ot3:

L / a very long, good night’s sleep / being alive

notp:

hmmm, I’m not really in the death note fandom, so I’m not aware of what ships are Popular for him besides L / Light, but…. I don’t like the idea of L / Misa existing :/

best quote:

when Misa is twirling them around with ~let’s all be friends together~ and he just goes “wee, yay, fun.” I quoted that ALL THE TIME in high school sdjlkhfksjdhf

head canon:

L sometimes puts his hair into little pigtails like Misa’s, because he thinks it’s cute. let him have nice things

also, he’s nonbinary (he / they) and gay

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What are the top 5 things you love about druck?

Ooo thank you for this ask!! I actually had to put a lot of thought into this. Other than number 1 being number 1, there isn’t really an order to these, but here we go:

1. Matteo

Ok I will admit, this one was easy. I love Matteo with all my heart. In just one season he managed to become one of my favorite characters of all time. I relate to him on so many levels it’s insane, and I wouldn’t have watched Druck at all if it weren’t for him and s3. I’m not sure there’s really ever been a character quite like him on tv, and Michi played him SO WELL. Matteo is the depressed, unsure, affection starved, big hearted gay kid I didn’t know I needed in my life but totally needed in my life. I just love him?? So much???

2. S3 in general

The whole season was just stunning, honestly. I know this covers a lot of ground, but the way s3 was adapted from the original and made to fit the show was so well done and touching. The setting and flow of the season was flawless. Season 3 also gave us David Schriebner who is obviously one of the best characters ever created. (I mean seriously, look at him. What did we do to deserve David Shriebner? (The answer is nothing, and nothing we will ever do will make us deserve him either)) The pool kiss is, in my opinion, better than the original. There were some things I still wish had been addressed better (read: Matteo’s mental health) but those things don’t prevent the rest of the season from being amazing. It was also the first season I ever actually was able to watch live, which brought about one of the best experiences with fandom that I’ve ever had too. Season 3 was just such a bright spot in my life I have to list it as a whole as it’s own thing.

3. Amira

Amira is just such an amazing Sana (I’m still sad we didn’t get to see her and Matteo get close but oh well). She was smart and loving and energetic, she never questioned her faith even when she wasn’t sure how to navigate it, and overall she’s just one of the best characters in the show. Even though they kinda messed up the very end of her season, I still think pretty much everything before that was handled incredibly well. She’s just so lovely, and I don’t think they could have picked better actress to play her either. Can you feel my love for Amira? I have a lot of love for Amira.

4. The social media

Not technically the show, but still. I loved the social media use! It was just utilized so well, I loved all the smaller insta specific stories that didn’t impact the show, like Sara and Leonie messing around at school, or Sam working at the lake, or when Hans went on that business trip thing. And then every episode I swear we got almost an extra episodes worth of ig content that was just the actors messing around in character and it was honestly just fun to watch? It rounded out the characters and just made the Druck world more immersive. Also nothing can beat florenzifriday and matteomonday being posted EVERY WEEK.

5. Mia and Alex (specifically them breaking up)

I almost feel like this is dangerous to put here. I will preface by saying I’m not actually against noorhelm. I definitely think there’s some issues and I’m generally not a fan of William characters, but overall I think they’re in love and don’t think they’re bad for each other or anything like that. Druck also put in a lot of work to make Alex recognizable as a William while also trying to fix a lot of the issues people have with og season 2, which I appreciate. I just never felt like their relationship was a lifelong one, even though it’s often treated that way since it’s one of the Big Relationships in the show. I never felt that noorhelm was built to last, so Druck breaking Mia and Alex up, in a way that respected both characters and allowed them to grow? I really liked that. Also, like I said, I’m not a fan of William characters. I just got kinda tired of spending energy on a relationship where I wasn’t invested at all in one of its members. Maybe they’ll get back together in future canon but for now this felt reasonable and well thought out and is just an example of why I like this show so much. (Even though they stole from Amira’s season to show this part and I actually kinda hate that but I’m focusing on the positive)

I know the last bit was kind of roundabout but yeah here’s what I got! Thank you for the ask this was fun to think about!

[09yards]

Night Glo

You alone is enough. Tell me, can we work this whole thing out?

part one of the series

“Why would you give a ten-year-old a knife?”

“He felt unsafe.”

“Now I feel unsafe!”

“Would you like a knife?”

“Don’t you mean another knife? I’m good I have enough weapons on me.”

“I thought we agreed no more knives in the bedroom!”

“Fuck off Johnny. Frankly, you can’t complain at me for giving Jisung a knife, he’s sixteen not ten. How old was Mark when you first gave him a weapon?”

“Shit, he was fifteen.”

“Sorry, I thought we’d established that grown men don’t mumble. Speak clearly to me Johnny.”

“He was fifteen when he first had a gun. B-but it was only in training, he didn’t leave the centre with any weapons! I swear!”

“I gave Jisung the knife because he gets scared about people breaking into his room, it’s never happened and I’m the only one who ever wakes him aside from Kun who rarely does so; we know what we’re doing. He happens to be trained to use it too but as you know, we’re planning for Kun to start teaching him on a more permanent basis. I can’t keep him from violence but I can make sure he does something good.”

“Now, strip.”

“Oh, angry sex? Tae you are killing me today.”

“No. We agreed no weapons in the bedroom, get them out.”

“Hey, it works for Yuta and Sicheng apparently! Maybe we could give it a go sometime?”

“I really, really hope you’re joking. For your own sake.”

“Are we done fighting now then? I’d very much like to kiss you and not to be brash or anything but I would very much like a cuddle session with the countries scariest mafia boss who is definitely the little spoon whether he admits it or not.”

“Shut up and kiss me already you twat.”

“Ooo, talk dirty to me... baby boy.”

≪ ≫

Johnny loved waking up to the sight of Taeyong curled up into his side. Their bed sheets tangled between them as were their naked bodies, a sliver of moonlight spilling into their home - not enough to see clearly but enough for Johnny to make out the sharp structure of Taeyong’s body, his pale skin almost sparkling at the contact.

It was moments like this he really thought it was worth it. The hiding and the lying was all worth it to spend time with the one he loved. Even if it was only for a few hours - it was enough.

But, once again, he was painstakingly brought back to reality at the sound of a crash downstairs. They lived alone. Carefully trying to slither out of bed, untangling his limbs from being intertwined with his lovers.

“Johnny, it’s cold and late, where are you going?”

“Sshh, don’t worry, I think there’s someone in the house. I’ll take care of it, go back to sleep.”

“Just don’t make a mess, blood is a bitch to clean off the walls and I deep cleaned the house yesterday.”

So, Johnny made his way downstairs, grabbing his gun from the pile of his clothes, as quietly as he could, missing the steps where he knew they would creak and keeping close to the wall. As he turned to go the kitchen where the back door was now left slightly ajar, he noticed the lamp on in the living room and the soft muttering of “what the fuck?”

Clicking the safety off, he gently pushed the door open, “Freeze! Don’t move, who are you and why are you in my house? Talk.”

That was when the anonymous figure turned to face Johnny, the most definitely not anonymous figure and in fact very, very familiar figure.

“Dude, what the actual fuck. You live here? You’re in what looks like a long-term relationship with Taeyong?! And why the fuck are you naked?”

“Jaehyun, your order tonight was working the bar, was it not? I think I’m the one who should be asking the questions.”

“Sorry boss but we’re all sick of you not telling us where you’ve been going! It was either Lucas or me who was going to follow you tonight and you better be glad it was me – for both your sake and Lucas’s because Yuqi is not doing well with his shifts getting longer. Now, I’ve explained my part - you need to start talking.”

“I’ll go put some clothes on then I’ll explain everything, I swear.”

“Hey babe, it’s Jaehyun, got some business to discuss - don’t worry he’ll stay downstairs he doesn’t know anything.”

“Too bad, I hate seeing you put clothes on.”

≪ ≫

“Okay boss, let’s hear it.”

“Right. Well, yeah, I live here and have done for nearly four years. Me and Tae have been together for five years, this time anyway - we were together for a couple years back in high school too. It’ll be six in a couple weeks.”

“Jesus Christ. I know the two of you were never rivals but you come home at the end of the day to him?”

“He usually comes home to me to be honest; they’ve got more business he has to finish up whereas we’ve only got the bar and the garage.

Look, I know this is going to be hard for you to understand but we are in love, we’re happy and who knows maybe we will work together in the future. I want to marry him Jae, I’m planning to propose on our anniversary. If he says yes, we will all be working together - whether you like it or not.”

“I just can’t believe we never knew. And that you felt like you had to hide this when you didn’t, we’d always support you, we love you. At least you didn’t hide it because you never told any of us you were gay!”

“Literally everyone aside from Lucas is gay, even he dated some guys before he got with Yuqi. The bar is a whole gay parade. I’ve literally talked about how hot certain people are with you, did you think I was gushing over Namjoon’s man tiddies and dimples because I thought it was the right thing to do? No, he’s hot and Jin is one lucky guy.”

“I’m so going to have to call Jaemin and get him to stop trying to set you up with Kun then if you’re practically married. Jaem did say he was being pretty stubborn about it though so to be fair I really think he just wasn’t interested.”

“Of course, Kun’s not going to agree to a date with me when he’s the one helping me pick an engagement ring.”

“Oh fuck.”

“Oh, fuck indeed. Honestly you guys are such morons at times. And if you’re here, who’s working the bar?”

“Oh wow, keeping quiet, now are we? I thought I told you about working Mark at night, he’s too young and he has to go to school! I enrolled him in that private academy place for a reason and its costing a bloody fortune, you could at least make sure he goes. You’re dismissed Jaehyun. I don’t want to see you out of place for a while, and don’t breathe a word of this to anyone else. I will not hesitate to punish you.”

“Yes sir, sorry boss. It won’t happen again – I’ll tell everyone I came up with nothing.”

“Good night Jaehyun.”

≪ ≫

“JOHNNY!”

Shit, shit, shit.

“Whose muddy boot marks are in my living room and kitchen. If it was Jaehyun oh my god so help me, he treks through the forest when it’s been raining for two weeks straight.”

“Sorry babe, I didn’t have chance to lecture him on his boots with everything else.”

“What’s happening, is it work?”

“Just some issues with an, uhm, with a delivery yeah. New shipment, new items, you know how it goes.”

“Did Ten send you new weapons?”

“No, no. It’s a shipment for the garage, new parts so hopefully I’ll finally get the 1957 porsche working.”

“Sure, okay. Pancakes?”

“I gotta dash, I love you.” With a quick kiss to the forehead Johnny was gone, practically running out the door.

≪ ≫

“I am so sorry I’m late Kun, I know you don’t get much time. Taeyong was questioning me on some business this morning, couldn’t exactly tell him the new shipment I was talking about was an engagement ring.”

“It’s not a problem, I’m only tutoring Jisung today. They gave me the day off, something about the chairman being worried at the number of hours I’ve been working. Oh well, gives me more time to find this ring – he’s going to be so happy.”

“Thank you, this really does mean a lot.”

“I am happy to help, two of my best friends getting engaged? Count me in.”

“Do you think I’m crazy for asking us to join our businesses if we do get married?”

“Not at all, I spoke to him about it once. He said it’d be nice to have someone to share it all with, he does get lonely sometimes.”

“I would give him the world if I could, every moon and every star. I just want him to be happy.”

“You make him happy Johnny, more than you could ever know.”

≪ ≫

“Hey, I know, I am so, so sorry I am late but I had to stop by the garage on my way home.”

“It’s fine, I was late too so I just picked up a takeaway, well Sicheng did and I got it from him but not the point. It’s in the oven heating up now.”

“Good, we need to have a quick conversation.”

“Johnny, what’s wrong you look all serious?”

“Happy anniversary Tae.” He was clutching a small blue velvet box in his hand, good thing it was strong or he probably would’ve broken it with the death grip he had on it.

“I told you not to get me anything.”

“And, contrary to popular belief, I am smart enough to know that meant get you something. But, you don’t like roses and besides they’re expensive and only die anyway, so I got you this instead.”

Hesitantly, he got down on one knee, then proceeded to struggle to open the box and Tae couldn’t help but let out a small snicker.

“Fuck, oh there we go. Will you, please, do me the honour of marrying me?”

“Of course, you idiot. Yes, yes, yes.”

Johnny pulled him in for a soft kiss, sweet and tender.

“Kiss me properly now Johnny.”

“Always so demanding.”

Johnny leant down once again, pulling Taeyong into a passionate, deeper, hungry kiss. One hand holding his waist, the other reaching down to cup the back of his thighs. With a quick tap to his leg and a breathy “Jump”, the kiss turned needy, pressed against the wall – the sound of whiny moans soon filling their kitchen.

“You know Tae,” kiss to his jaw, “I think that ring,” kiss to his neck, “will look a lot better” kiss to his collarbone, “when it’s the only thing you’re wearing”, kiss to the sensitive spot below his ear – producing a breathless moan of Johnny’s name.

“Johnny, bedroom now.”

“Takeout can wait?”

“We can eat later?”

With hungry eyes and a quick smirk towards Tae once again, “I think I could eat now.”

“Oh really, what kind of food were you thinking?”

“You.”

[canyousevmyheavydirtysoul]

Bodyguard II: Familial Ties (Part I - Chapter 8) (Brendon Urie x Reader)

Punching a code into the keypad situated at the garage entrance into the S.H.I.E.L.D facility, Brendon tossed a permissive look over his shoulder at his teammates.

“Clear,” he nodded a moment later, stepping back to allow The Hounds to do their bit.

He and Dean held open the heavily barred doors for Seth and Roman, who hoisted the unconscious body of The Phantom Warrior out of the back of the SUV and into their arms. With Roman keeping a firm grip under the assassin’s arms and Seth taking care of his legs, the two agents hastily made their way over the threshold of the entrance and into the facility.

“Holding cell or infirmary?” Seth asked, using his elbow to knock against the button mounted on the left wall of the hallway and call for the elevator.

“Cell,” Brendon answered, letting go of his grip on the door and striding into the building as well, followed closely by Dean, “I don’t give a shit about any injuries he might have.”

Seth and Roman shared a quick look of dubiousness, but didn’t make a move to say anything. Dean, on the other hand…

“Well yeah, but he’s no use to you if he’s coughing up blood or breaking out in cold sweats,” The Lunatic remarked with a scoff, prompting the brooding agent to toss him a cold, hard glare. “I’m just sayin’, if I were you-“

“But you’re not me, now are you?” Brendon silenced The Hound with a sharp response. The older man grinded his teeth together before continuing. “And if I wanted your input, Ambrose, I woulda asked for it.” He snapped his head in the direction of Seth and Roman, the elevator open and waiting behind them. “Cell. Now.”

The bitter iciness that accompanied his presence hung in the air even after Brendon had started down the hallway, walking towards the communication centre with strong purpose. The company of his newest prisoner unsettled him more than he cared to admit, and he needed to take his mind off of the situation and regroup before attempting to proceed with his plan.

The Hounds watched intently as their fellow agent made his way down the long hallway, not saying anything. Once Brendon had rounded the corner and was out of earshot, Dean piped up yet again.

“I’m telling you guys,” he shook his head before turning to his friends and stepping forward to join them as they backpedalled into the elevator, “if he doesn’t see (Y/N) soon, he’s gonna snap and kill all of us.”

~

Whenever Brendon was in this particular state of mind – emotionally volatile and anxious – (which, honestly, was an incredibly rare occurrence), Spencer had always been his go-to; his best friend would talk him down and help him regain his mental balance.

But since Spencer (and well, everyone else) was under the impression that Brendon had been blown up on a quinjet a number of months ago, calling him was not exactly an option. And so, he settled for the next best thing…

“Vodka,” Dallon nodded, though it seemed to be mostly to himself, “Vodka always helps. Do you have vodka over there? I’m sure you’d be able to find some somewhere; it is a Stark-designed facility after all.”

“I highly doubt that alcohol is the answer I’m looking for,” Brendon sighed, gripping the edge of the desk with both hands and leaning forward. His eyes were heavy and tired and he blinked a couple times in the hopes that it would help. It didn’t.

“Wouldn’t hurt to try,” the techie shrugged, readjusting his glasses that were slipping down his face with one hand while the other twirled a Chewbacca pen.

Brendon raised his head and looked at Dallon’s face on the screen in disdain, narrowing his eyes in irritation.

“You’re fucking awful at this, you know that?”

“Hey, I’m trying my best to be the guy-support-guy that you need!” Dallon defended, straightening up in his chair and clutching a hand to his chest. “But I’m, like, one of the most anti-social people you’ll ever come across. I’m not at all skilled in the art of consoling people.”

Brendon let out an aggravated growl. “I’m not in mourning. I don’t need consoling. I just need-“ He stopped talking and closed his eyes, hanging his head and drawing in a deep breath.

On the screen was a blown-up picture of you; one taken at a charity event hosted by Tony Stark a few months ago. You were smiling into the camera over your shoulder, the low backline of your dress exposing your smooth skin.

The sheer radiance of your beauty caused Brendon’s throat to tighten and his knuckles transitioned from their usual colour to a much paler white as he took his frustration out on the desk (in a reasonably peaceful manner).

A second later, the image disappeared and Dallon’s face popped back onto the screen, this time with a hopeful expression.

“Did that help?”

Yes and no. Yes, because now those errant thoughts that had been plaguing his mind a couple minutes ago had been replaced with the nagging reminder of what your skin felt like, and how badly he wanted to touch you again. And no, because he knew that those new thoughts would consume him from the inside out, until he had you in his arms again. He wasn’t sure which feeling he preferred, to be honest – the one he had before seeing the picture or the one that came after. Both were equally torturous.

But of course, Brendon didn’t offer that as an answer and instead responded to Dallon’s question in a painfully Brendon-like manner.

“If you ever blindside me like that again, I’ll shoot your dick off, Weekes.”

“Thought so,” Dallon smiled, reading between the lines to pick up his friend’s answer of ‘yes’. “She’s doing good, by the way. At least, she was last time she checked in.”

Brendon’s brows knitted together in confusion and he stood up straight, removing his hands from the desk. “What do you mean ‘last time she checked in’? She’s not at HQ?”

Dallon shook his head no. “Nope. She’s in a desert in New Mexico on a consultation with Doctor Ro- Shit,” the techie immediately shut his mouth, swallowing harshly and averting his gaze when he realised the trouble that he had undoubtedly just caused.

Brendon felt an immeasurable wave of fury wash over him. “She’s what?”

“Uh… Ooo! Do ya hear that? Fury’s calling for me. I, uh, I gotta go. Talk soon,” Dallon rattled off, nervously fumbling over his words.

“Weekes, wait-“ Brendon groaned in anger as Dallon signed off before he could stop him.

Hearing that you were with Aaron Ross in the middle of a goddamn desert doing who knows what made his blood boil, and in an effort to rid himself of even the tiniest bit of anger, Brendon grabbed one of the desk chairs and tossed it across the room. Chest heaving, he shut his eyes for a second before running a hand through his hair and starting for the door, heading for the cell on the lower level.

~

The scratchy fibred sack was roughly ripped off of the assassin’s head, exposing his reddened face to the cool air of the holding cell. He blinked a couple times, squinting his eyes as he tried to adjust to the harsh white light cascading down upon him.

Once he regained his orientation and his vision cleared, he could properly see the three burly figures towering over him. A slight smirk appeared on his chapped lips.

“While I admit that you are a bunch of strikingly handsome gentlemen, I’m afraid you’ll have to find someone else to join your little party; I don’t swing that way.”

“Jesus,” Dean muttered to his friends under his breath, “He even sounds like him.”

“So if you wouldn’t mind letting me out of these restraints-“ he continued, raising his hands as best he could while tied up. He was cut off by Seth.

“Listen, bud, you can cut the whole confident jackass act,” The Architect narrowed his eyes in irritation as he gestured at the prisoner, “’cause it’s not gonna work here. Believe me.”

“I suggest you get comfortable, ‘cause you’re not leaving anytime soon,” Roman informed, reaching down to tighten the belts around The Phantom Warrior’s wrists, just to emphasize his point.

“Really, gents, I’m sure you’re making an excellent effort at all of this,” Mason spoke with a condescending tilt of his head and a chuckle, “but I promise you that there’s no form of torture I haven’t been through. There’s no way you’ll get me to spill whatever you’re hoping for.”

The Hounds turned to each other and shared an amused look before turning to look at Mason with smiles.

“You’ve never seen torture quite like what’s waiting for you behind that door.”

On cue, the thick metal door to the cell opened with a gust of wind, and in strode one of the world’s most intense forms of torture.

Brendon walked with a confidence that only he could exude, checking his smart watch as he strode towards the prisoner. He stopped a mere two feet away from him, and delivered a smirk much more devilish than the assassin had given a few moments ago.

“Hello, big brother.”

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Journal 3

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Journal 3

So! After typing up the last blog post, it was like… 6 am, or some shit like that. And so I finally went to sleep, very very very tired.

Silly and I had planned for me to have the buffalo chicken dip ready before she got home form work, but I… fucked that up, and slept until like 630 pm. She didn’t seem to be upset by it, but I kind of was so. Anyway!

I started on the dip, and she came home, I welcomed her (I love welcoming her home. It makes me look forward to being here long-term). Dip didn’t get started in the crockpot until like 730, 8 (I had to heat freezer chicken so it was cuttable and not frozen, I used the stove) (normally I use regular raw chicken, but I got nervous while shopping with silly’s mom so I like. Just got freezer chicken.) It turned out pretty well actually! The freezer chicken tasted very good on its own, and I’m just now realizing that after a couple days in the fridge the chicken starts breaking down in the dip anyway (I didn’t realize this until silly pointed it out, cuz I’m a [not stupid, but I don’t pay very much attention to things around me])

On that note, me and silly have started, like. Trying to be mean to ourselves less. It started cuz she. Is very mean to herself, but I then realized I still am too, so we’re! trying to do that less. It’s neat I guess. I like it. Kindness is good.

Don’t remember what was eaten for dinner that night. Something? Went upstairs to watch something while the dip cooked.

The dip was good! Silly says it was good, and that makes me very very happy. I added like. A good amount of buffalo sauce after it was done cooking, cuz it still needed some more kick. Ya know? Some  kick? (I’m typing this on my laptop so I’m like. Kind of zoning out while I’m typing it. Dw about it)

Around then I realized that silly might have problems eating that as a meal bc chips are carbs are sugar, so… bleh. Still, *I’ll* eat it as meals, nyeh. I think I’ll ocntinue using raw chicken for the dip at home, it’s nice to have the leftovers from it to put into spaghetti. Chicken spaghetti.

That night I resolved to just not sleep and stay up and eat breakfast with silly before she went to work, because that seemed very fun and nice ya know? Watched a lot of adventure time, I think I’m up to like. Season 5 now (the long one)

But… around an hour before she was scheduled to wake p I was like “oh well I mean it’ll be fine if I just… sleep for an hour and wake up with her…”

Long story short I slept until about 530 pm, and was startled to wake to an empty bed. Apparently I sleepily said I loved her before she left, though, so I guess that’s not a total loss.

So! Later that night, silly comes home all excited, and like. “Hey we should buy an xbox one”

And you know I am nothing if not someone who is willing to make very expensive decisions for like no reason. So long story short we go to gamestop, and make a delightful purchase of Halo: master chief collection, two controllers, Mass Effect: Andromeda, and NO t-shirts that say gamer girl >>>:(

Ate a place in town that is apparently The Local Wing Place. I got. Mild wings, which honestly were barely even hot. I guess I shoulda heeded the menu bit that said the mild was mostly butter. A fool am I. The fried pickles were spears not slices so they were like! Still good, EXTREMELY hot but still good.

Came home, set up the xbox. Halo requires downloading of all the games (because of course). It’s like. 70 GB, but we reduce this by setting Halo 3 to higher priority and disabling Halo 4.

Playing 3 with silly was very fun. She’s way way better at it than me, mostly bc she is smart and stays back whereas I, dumbo raised on normal difficulty that I am, rush in and die quickly in heroic.

She spent like. An hour and a half or something updating her old xbox account. Her new xbox avatar looks way better, and is extremely cool (like her). She says it feels really nice updating all of that to her new self. I can understand the feeling: ridding the wolrd of another footprint of a you that’s a lie is. Very nice, I think.

So we played more halo! No highlights, I think, but it was really nice. And fun. I’m a girl and I’m gay now and I love jesus, but I still love halo C:

I ALSO brought fable 2 along, and played it while silly slept. Gotdamn I fucking love fable 2. Silly says I’m cute when I’m really excited about something. I was REALLY excited about fable 2. I think this is the first time I’ve ever done a run that’s (hopefully) gonna be mostly strength, and possibly I’m gonna use a hammer, where before I always ALWAYS used a katana. But. I just unlocked third level shock (oo) and a very pretty steel cleaver (ooo), so… ….. hopin’ I’ll be a good bastard.

Next day. Went with silly to work, as it was Friday and Time For The Magic Commander (Commeownder, in the local parlance). I only played commander a little bit, though, before silly called me over “hey do you wanna join the draft so that there are 5 rounds and everyone suffers” (my words not hers), and of course yes, that sounds so fun.

So! What draft is is each table (of I think eight people?) opens a pack of cards for each person there. You pick out the card you want from that pack, and pass it on to the next person. Then pick a card from the new pack, then the next, then so on and on. It was very fun, and I fell kinda quickly into running a Golgari (green and black) deck, which went well for me I think? (Also I just. Like golgari. They’re cool, and not annoying like blue). I had a lot of undergrowth effects, which depended on how many creatures I had in my graveyard. MEANING, that I had a lot of creatures in my deck, and enough land to keep them flowing. So, at one point, I had a, I think, 13/13 or 16/16 (idr) Rhizome lurker (gains +1/1 for each creature in graveyard), so that was… cool? Neat?

I won my first match of the draft, largely due to my opponent offering me a lot of tips cuz I was new (the boyfriend (boyfriend, right? They’re not married?) of the person silly had an encounter with a couple months ago. I think that was before we were dating. But that guy was my first opponent, and it went well?) largely due to his help, I won te first game of the match, then the second game timed out.

Second match was against F, who everyone silly knows apparently has a crush on (I also have a crush on them (they/them)), they were very very sweet and I enjoyed my game with them a lot even though they kicked the love of god out of my ass. But they also like. Told jokes during it, so whatevs. (turns out a deck of flyers will kick a goglari deck with no reach/flying in the ass.) they also helped me edit my deck, so that was very very kind of them, and I very much appreciate it.

Uh… other highlights… uh, I played silly’s ex (they dated for like. I think a month? But still. He’s not nearly as big as silly described him), and apparently hurt his feelings because I am a. very very mean and abrasive person if you take the things I say seriously. I. feel bad about that. And I spent the rest of the night noting to please not take the things I said seriously. I ended the night with 1 win, 1 draw, 3 losses, but that’s? very very much better than I expected, tbh. I guess using a deck I actually had a hand in the creation of helps a lottttt. So that’s cool! Silly said my deck was good, but that as after F edited it, so idk if it counts?

Silly says she’s glad I actually enjoy magic and I’m not just humoring her. I do very much enjoy it! I don’t think I want to get to the level she is at (due to cost, if nothing else), it at the very least will be added to my long list of “things I have or had an interest in, that I have a dabbling or casual knowledge of that is beyond the average person by a degree ranging from slight to significant, but still pales in comparison to the knowledge of an actual practitioner”.  … this list is much much longer than the list of things I actually know things about. ;;

Spent like 30 minutes after the draft talking with silly and two regulars. I was annoying and unkind, and felt very unhappy with myself following. I also had to actually leave the store after it closed, since that’s like. The Rules. Silence and isolation (waiting in the car) are not conducive to recovery from self hatred, so that festered a little bit. I was fine eventually, though. Uh… yeah! Had to make a mark in my calendar.

Tried to stay up and play fable, but ended up falling asleep like 10 minutes after silly (I am a fucking scourge and I fail regularly to sleep at the same time as her. I am a Night Bitch)

Oh, also I was unmedicated for the entirety of the draft night, so that’de, like… that’s why I was so fucking annoying all day. That just kinda happens when I’m off it long enough, I guess.

I don’t remember more from that night, so let’s move on.

Got up w silly the next day, ate cereal, went up to the store. Woo!

Sat down with silly’s ex, some other dude. Started reading the book gf gave me about Learning Magic Good And Shit, it was actually real neat and cool! Apparently that’s what he wanted for Christmas, so it was. Slightly awkward!

I read that for a while, then joined in on a magic game. Players: one of the regulars talked to last night before closing, some girl I’d never seen called E (who was very sweet, I now love her), and some dude I don’t remember at all.

We had two games, I only remember that in the second one I ran Estrid The Masked as commander, and that was a. Long Fucking Game. Partially because I had like 11 enchantments on the board at one point, and kept using Estrid and Oath Of Terezi (planeswalkers do TWO things on a turn). Uh…

Highlights:

I had “every time someone casts a spell, make them pay an extra mana or else you can draw another card”, which I then doubled with Estrid’s invocation (at least until I had too many cards to know what to do with, so I put some enchantments in the graveyard before I ulted with estrid) I ulted Estrid like 2-3 times, lmao At one point between ults, I had “all enchantments are creatures” on the field, and then E played “destroy all creatures that aren’t pirates”, so I. lost. Uh. All my motherfucking creatures, except Estrid (not a creature), and a God (had a mask). And ALL my fucking enchantments. WARB- anyway next turn I ulted estrid again and got them all back. Lmfao. at the end of the game it cost about 14 mana / creature to attack me, it was AMAZING, the guy who made fucktons of tokens couldn’t TOUCH me so anyway. I used sacred mesa, plus like 48 mana (untapping all my enchanted lands is GREAT) to create 24 pegasi, which then became 24 4/4 flying angels (Divine Visitation), which was GREAT holy DAMN

I lost in the end, got milled by regular dude for like. 55 cards in one turn.

I coulda prevented this by exiling the creatures he used to mill me, but I just… didn’t. Ever. :C because I’m a foollllllll I also could’ve prevented this by swinging angels at him at the same time I killed the other player (E left before then, I guess she had work or something), but I just. Didn’t do that, because I was scared something would happen to them? It was an eminently foolish thing to not do, especially since I could make So Fucking Many angels. Always. Jesus I could make so many angels.

Meanwhile, silly was moving a shitton of boxes for the Big Fuckhuge Sale the next day. I felt bad that I couldn’t help, but I couldn’t bc if I got injured I could sue. Fair, I guess, but doesn’t make it easier to just sit on the sidelines. At least I brought ibuprofen from home.

Said quick goodbye to regulars who were chill, and who I played my first couple of games with.

Silly got told to just. Go home when her shift ended yesterday, which was upsetting bc she’d been looking forward to playing magic like. The whole day. Not quite the same, but we did play a few games when we got home. So that was nice C:

I ate dip for dinner, silly ate chicken buffalo. She is so. SO bad at eating all the meat on the bones. She says it’s cuz gristle is gross, but like .it’s. it’s MEAT. Eat the meat. So I ate all the gristle off the end of her wings while she said I was disgusting.

We finished halo 3 last night. I felt like. Stupid and bad because I was bein a failure at it, but god that was like. Soooo stupid. Lmfao. I shouldn’t have done that!

I finally managed to log in to my Microsoft account. Apparently my fucking username was staffgripper36, and I have no goddamned clue why that is my username for that.

But I made an avatar and she’s like. Cool af and she has a sundress so I guess I can’t really complain too much, can I?

We also started ODST! It is Neat, and I really like it thus far. I can’t remember ever seeing that intro cutscene in my life, but I guess that’s cuz I was an impatient 12 year old at the time, lmfao.

Then I played fable 2 til 7 am while silly slept. I. Don’t know why I fucking did that. I did get married, though. To marion the bookshop owner. We live in the corner house of the bowerstone market, just like the one playthrough of fable wherein I remember the name of my wife to this day (Hannah the Traveller) That house is my Home, you got me?

Finally onto today! 2520 words in. If words were feet, this journal entry would be a half-mile.

Alright… it has now been more than a full week since I started this journal entry. I’m back in Texas, and I… feel bad for that. I fear how much has been lost.

So! Next morning, I get up with silly and we go to The Work Place. The Big Fucking Sale is going on. I still wished I could help more, but unfortunately that is… not a possibility…

Wandered around the store for a while. Picked up: 4000 AD, a very old-looking game that seems neat. Mostly bought it cuz it looked old and aged as shit founders of gloomhaven, a game I got cuz it reminded me of marielda Anime Chess, that’s not the real name but silly said she’d been thinking about buying it for like. A While, so I bought it because I hate her an AD&D character sheets book, that still had some old character sheets in it (fuckin score) some VERY old vampire the masquerade stuff, including what I’m guessing is probably the first book that offered playing a hunter rather than a vampire? Also the sourcebook as of like 1992. More is the same than is different, though I guess that’s also cuz I barely know modern world of darkness

Sat around and read the hunter book for like. Basically a couple hours or something? Idk. Talked a little bit with some of the regulars, T and her boyfriend.

Eventually, left and went to the ice cream store across the street, ate Goat Cheese Ice Cream Oh Boy, and started writing this journal.

I wrote school’s motto on the chalkboard there, and later heard someone say “I… don’t know what that means. Should I know what that means?

Was surprised by the entrance of Silly. Goodness me I love her so much.

We then went home and like. Chilled.

She made alfredo/lentil pasta (so she doesn’t die from carbs) and fish. I, meanwhile, attempted to make raspberry cheesecake.

I got kinda stressed by the cheesecake process, cuz I was trying to multitask but still didn’t feel like I was going fast enough. I started doing that dumb anxiety over-done stuff thing that I do sometimes.

I then proceeded to open a very-fizzed dr pepper and just kinda. Break down a lil bit. I managed to keep it together until I had the cheesecake done, at least, I’m kinda proud of myself for that!

But yeah. Then I started crying or something, I don’t fully remember. I remember I accidentally made silly cry because I am an idiot, and also I was feeling bad because I felt helpless and pathetic, and typical consolation doesn’t really help with that. I’m sorry for that, darlin.

Anyway. She’s a really good fucking cook, like she’s better than my mom and dad both. Like not to be the kinda person who overpraises ther significant, but :eyes: !!! who knew that adding spices and not cooking from a box improved things??? @mom

I don’t really remember the rest of the night, nothing interesting I suppose. We probably played halo odst or something, and cuddled.

The cheesecake was… not to my taste, personally. Silly claims to kinda like it, but personally it fell into the “this isn’t really that good at all, why do I keep wantng to eat it”, probably my favorite part was the pre-baked crust.

Yeah! Stuf like that.

We got up the next morning. Busy day!!! The next 3 days, silly had em off and we were gonna make this day fuckin WORK for us

So we went to like. The nearby game store

There was a cat! And also I bought some magic card boosters. No news. Why the fuck was there a shitton of pathfinder corebooks on the Shelf O’ Unloved Games. Rude.

Had a fun conversation at a pet store

The game store near where silly worked had some things. She got halo 5, meaning she had The Complete Collection, not that it matters cuz everything after reach sucks. But anyway. She also got an application for there! So that’s really good, yay! Woo!

The nearby hobby shop was very neat, it had a shitton of gundam stuff, and like. Model trains! Wow! Apparently model rockets don’t fuckin come with the engine or anything.g that seems a little silly to me. Also they had some 3-d printing stations, but they’re apparently out for now. Idk whassup there.

Got some jingle bells at the nearby craft store, or whatever. Ran into a coworker of silly’s. she revealed that she almost named herself Katherine, and would’ve shortened it to Cat, meaning we fucking skated THIS close to me just absolutely refusing to talk to her in that alternate timeline.

Ate at dairy queen bc I had a gift card

THRIFT STORES

I made some very VERY nice discoveries. Oh HO, how delightful… some nice mugs, that I decided not to get on account of I was already transporting 3 of the things back home. But uhhh…. I got some cute skirts I think, basically just some bottoms, from the first store. Learned that my feet are not made for thrift store women’s heels. Sob.

Thrift shop two I found some very VERY nice things, including BASEBALL MOM SHIRT, and also a shirt for a basketball team for the immaculate conception high school, or some shit. I’m so excited to reveal that one. Also some things that were actually women’s tops, that might actually fit me or some shit (spoiler, they will not once I retry them on) (lol)

I uh… THINK after that we went home? And made tacos!!!!!! Holy shit silly makes such good fucking tacos oh my god. Like. I used to hate taco night at home, cuz that meant like. Dry hamburger meat with Taco Seasoning from HEB, in a hard taco shell.

But. I have discovered the truth of mixing a bit of salsa, corn, and beans into the meat, and getting it all moist, and also applying sour cream to the tacos. God they were so good holy fuck. Holy fuck. What a goddess.

We then proceeded to, I think, finish halo odst. What absolute heroines we are. I think we also watched all of otgw. I gushed about, like. The painfully o bvious metaphors and stuff that I knew about, and silly thought I was dumb I’m sure. But she did cry at the end, bc it’s very good and also because I was crying.

Stayed up later than silly did. Cried a little bit before I went to sleep because I. love her so much. Dear fuck I love her.

Ate breakfast the next morning. Returned from showering to find that silly was shooting me with a nerf gun. The fucker. We had a nerf gun fight and I’m PRETTY sure I got the better of her, because I’m very good and also extremely cool. :3 side note but she’s so amazing and I love her so much. NOT tearing up a little bit about how I am so extremely blessed to have met her. Jesus.

But uh. After that it was time to start packing, kind of. There was a not-small amount of crying. And divvying up of stuff, since I like. Did NOT have space for all of my things. Three piles: taking with me, hopefully to have mailed back to me (seriously, I need some of that stuff please. :C ), and Giving to silly because I love her and I love giving her things.

In that last group was: my first fountain pen (idk if that one or the one leye gave me was the first one I owned. But hey. Meh.) (I’m just gonna pronounce that as Ley-yey for the rest of my life. For anyone who’s not me, though, it’s like lye). She used it to write poetry on the piece of paper I used to demonstrate how to use it, and to get the ink going, and stuff. She then folded it up to look like a heart, because she’s the biggest dork on earth and also my favorite person ever to live. She did this while she was, in her words, “picking stuff out of the downstairs laundry baskets”, which is why I walked in on her doig this. The second time a ploy like this was foiled by my walking downstairs. What a loser. And yes I cried a LOT on reading that poetry, because, just… jesus. How could I not. my tentacle skirt. Please take care of it, it’s important! Hopefully I have found suitable replacements for it… probably some other stuff? I don’t fully remember… sorry….

She gave me the shirt for the now-defunct electric company owned by the Shithead dad of her childhood friend. Holy FUCK the perfect gift for me. Wow. I love artifacts!!! (we are both magpies lmao)

Never did find that pair of compression shorts she gave me last time I was down. I hope those turn up sometime, they were super handy.

Uh… so yeah. We packed up. Got most of my stuff sorted out, and figured out an outfit for the next day. I think here was where we watched otgw, actually. But yeah! Uh…

I don’t really remember much more, except hugging each other and crying. And remembering that soon I would be apart from her and feeling a deep, yawning sense of loss. And a longing to graduate so I can join her up north.

I tried to go to sleep with her, but I failed. I ended up closing my eyes for a little while, then stealing the 8.5x11 boarding pass I printed and gave to her (we each got one of the boarding passes, and one of the like. Ticket printed things? Of when I went up there. Even), and wrote her a letter on it with my/her fountain pen. I don’t remember much of what it said, beyond that I loved her in a way I never thought possible.

Went to the airport. Cried a little bit on the way there. Focused more on keeping intact for both of our sakes, since we were going on the Frightening route to the airport. I started to break down as I started getting close, thugh. Cried into her arms a little more as I got out of the car and left her behind for another few months. God,  Ihate it so much.

Writing these journals this far after the fact is bad both because I don’t remember as much, and also because I start missing her all over again. :C:C:C:C:C

But uh… yeah,  Ithink that’s it. Became emotionally dead as I went through the airport. Had to rush to make my first flight. Cuz… wanted to spend as much time as possible with my beautiful girlfriend before we had to go to the accursed birds’ nest. The TSA saw me as a girl. That was cool, but then they patted me down real fuckin thoroughly. Ate a biscuit after getting through. Basically slept through the rest of the thing.

Only started crying again once I got home.

Alright. We’re done here I think. I know I forgot a lot and that *hurts* me, but it’ll be alright. Honk.

These journals will likely get less detailed as time goes on. But as their number is yet small I think it’s okay.

[fish-nibbler]

Didn't read them all but you asked for is so- 1-100 and 1-44 >:3 Also *hugs*

1. What have you eaten today? Uh.. Nothing.. and it’s 5:00 pm

2. Who was your last kiss with? Was it pleasant? My last kiss was with my ex.. awhile a go, before things changed.. and yeah, it was awesome. I hope I can do that with someone again soon

3. What color shoes did you last wear? Black and white converse

4. Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week?  I haven’t really laughed very hard lately.. but my friend Kat usually gets me to laugh the hardest.

5. What is your favorite scent? Oooo.. I have a few. Lavender, Vanilla, the scent after it rains, fresh linen

6. What is your favorite season? Why? Probably Fall.. It’s not raining all the time, it’s pretty nice out temperature wise(at least before it starts snowing) and the colours of the leaves are really pretty.

7. Can you do a handstand or cartwheel? I haven’t done either in years

8. What color are your nails? uh… normal colour? I haven’t painted my nails in a while

9. If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be? A tiny star by my eye

10. What is something you find romantic? I haven’t really been able to be in a relationship where anything was “romantic”.. most of my relationships don’t last more than a week and the only one that lasted more than a month is the one where I was being abused.. so.. I don’t really know what I’d consider “romantic”.. maybe stuff like going out to dinners or sitting in a park and looking at the stars.

11. Are you happy? No

12. Is there anything in particular making you happy or sad? I’m pretty broken over my last relationship - I really wanted to have a chance with her but she’s changed a lot.. and she was probably waaay out of my league anyways..

13. Dogs or Cats? Cats

15. Which do you prefer:a museum, a night club, the forest or a library? The forest

15. What is your style? Yoga pants, flannel, baggy sweatshirts, mens/baggy t-shirts, hoodies, leather jackets… I don’t really have a “style” .. I don’t think

16. If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be? Being with/ dating one of my crushes.. but uh.. that would be assuming this is a different universe where she doesn’t have a boyfriend.

17. Are you in a relationship or single? Single..

18. What makes you attracted to the person you like right now? Honestly.. After the stuff I just went through with who is now my ex.. I don’t really know.. I feel sorta numb right now. When I said I wanted to be with one of my crushes it’s because I never really got over her after her and I were together.. but right now I don’t know how I feel towards anyone.. or why I like anyone.

19. If you could replace your partner/best friend with a celebrity of your choice, would you? Who with? *cough* Jared Padalecki

20. Are you holding on to something you need to let go of? If so then what? My ex..

21. How did you celebrate last Halloween? I wasted it with some asshat who thought it was a good idea to basically use me as some kind of servant and who thought it would be a good idea to try to make me feel like my depression wasn’t a real thing and she made me think that I was just some kind of freak for always being sad. Her and I don’t talk anymore.

22. Have you recently made any big decisions? Kind of?

23. Were you ever in a school play? Yeah, when I was really little I had to go to a private christian school and it was pretty much required that we participated in plays and reenactments for the church.

24. What movie would you use to describe your life? I don’t think there is one..

25. Is there something you have dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it? I don’t know.. I think there are a lot of smaller things that I want to do. Such as, I really want to get into cosplay.. but the only person who could help me get into cosplay is probably starting to hate my guts(despite what she says) and probably doesn’t want anything to do with me.. so..

26. Complete this sentence, “I wish I had someone with whom I could share…” I wish I had someone with whom I could share my life and my love.

27. What are two things that irritate you about the same sex? Drama. God the drama is terrible.. and the second is probably how easy some women are to wanting to fight. 

28. What are two things that irritate you about the opposite sex? The fact that I swear half the guys at my school either don’t know how to shower or they don’t know how to pull up their pants or, lets see.. guys in my school are always starting fights or they don’t know how to pull their damn pants up or- … lets just say theirs a lot.

29. What is the best thing that has happened to you this week? Nothing. Nothing good happened this week.30. What is something that makes you sad when you think about it? My ex, my cousins who have killed themselves bc they were gay and my family couldn’t accept them, realizing how alone I am because I’m always begging people to spend time with me, realizing that I’m a disappointment to my family, realizing that no one will ever love me in any sense of a relationship.. there’s a lot that makes me sad.

31. How long was your longest relationship? I think 10 months? Almost a year - but the only reason it lasted that long is because she was abusive and was using me.32. Have you ever been in love? Yeah.. then within a month I had my heart torn out, shown to me and then crushed with a tiny hammer. Let’s just say I tried to kill myself after..

33. Are you currently in love? I don’t know..

34. Why did your last relationship end? Because I’m a fucking screw up and I messed everything up. It’s completely my fault.

35. What jewelry are you wearing right now, and where did you get it? I’m not wearing anything right now.

36. When was the last time you cried and why? Earlier today because I hate myself for everything I did to my ex.

37. Name someone pretty. @frozen–roses @yurifreak15 @aerllette

38. What did you receive last Valentines Day? A box of chocolates, I stuffy elephant and some self-hatred.

39. Do you get jealous easily? Kinda… But the sad kind of jealousy where I just feel really lonely.

40. Have you ever been cheated on? Probably.

41. Do you trust your partner/best friend? Yeh

42. Ever had detention? Nope

43. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city? Countryside, there are less lights out there to block the stars

44. What do people call you? Smol, Liz, shorty

45. What was the last book you read? City of Bones

46. How big of a nerd/dork are you? Heck I don’t even know. On a scale of 1-10 probably a 13

47. What kind of music do you listen to? All kinds.. except country

48. How tall are you? 5ft(152.4 cm)

49. Do you like kids? Noooooooo

50. Favorite fruits? Tomatoes, watermelon

51. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Neither, I swear yoga pants

52. What’s your earliest memory? I don’t know right now..

53. Ever had a poem or song written about you or to you? HA I wish

54. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind

55. Do you have a collection of anything? No.. My mom made me throw them away

56. Do you save money or spend it? Save

57. What would your dream house be like? Small and cozy

58. What top 5 things make you the angriest? Idiots. Lying. Breaking promises. Animal abuse. Ruining/touching other people’s art projects without permission.

59. What top 5 things always brings a smile to your face? I don’t know..

60. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? Fuck it, save the dog, I can hope that if my boss has a heart he’ll let me go this time.61. 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? a) I don’t tell many people that I’m dying; b) I’d try to have fun with people, maybe try drugs, maybe try drinking and I would for sure have sex with someone.. ooo, or make it interesting and with a few people..hmm; c) I don’t think I would be afraid, I think I would just be anxious

62. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. Love.

63. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? OOOoo!! Germany! Or Japan!!

64. Do you like the beach? Eh.. kinda

65. Ever sleep on the couch or a bed with someone special? Technically yes.. but it was after I was guilt tripped into having sex with them and had a panic attack during.. it was pretty scarring..

66. Do you have a middle name? If so what is it! I do have one! My middle name is Patricia

67. Do you talk to yourself? Yes, all the time

68. Describe your hair. Short, really soft and fluffy

69. What is the meaning of life. 42

70. What is your ideal partner like? Taller than me, definitely the more dom of the relationship, really nice and patient… typical stuff

71. Do you want to get married? Yeh!

72. Do you want to have kids? Nooooo

73. Like or dislike your family? I like a couple people.. I dislike most of them.

74. Are you Chunky or Slim? Sorta in between

75. Would you consider yourself smart? No

76. What would you change about your life? Almost everything..

77. Religious or Not? Nope

78. You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? Shit I don’t know who’d I be with but I’d hope I’d have a sweet night with one of those hot women.

79. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? It might be.. I don’t know.. she’d probably just avoid me..

80. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? No..

81. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Falling asleep in their arms..

82. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Yes..

83. Do you like when people play with your hair? Yeah.. I find it really calming

84. Do you like bubble baths?Yes!

85. Have you ever been pulled over by a cop? Yeah, but only for a burnt out tail light

86. Have you ever danced in the rain? Nope

87. Do you trust anyone with your life? Eh.. I don’t know.. Sort of lost that trust when I told people I wanted to kill myself and they laughed at me..

88. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? “Why am I such a screw up?”

89. If money wasn’t an issue, what top 10 places would you travel to? (You get to stay at each place for a week) Germany, England, Canada, Ireland, Iceland, Japan, California, Washington DC(again), Poland, and maybe Texas

90. How was your day today? Eh.. It sucked..

91. Play an instrument? I play the flute, and I’m trying to learn how to play the piano

92. Describe the what you think of the ocean. No. Nope. Not doing it.

93. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? Kinda, I mean.. I believe there’s something else out there.

94. Honestly, are things how you wanted them to be? No.

95. Do you have a mean bitchy scary side? Depends on if you are able to piss me off. 

96. When are you vulnerable? Always.

97. How much free time do you have? A lot

98. Do you like to go hiking? Yeah! I just don’t always get to and I usually come home covered in ticks..

99. Odd or Even Numbers? Both?

100. Would you ever go sky diving, bungee jumping , cliff diving, wing suit gliding, parasailing, snorkeling, or other extreme activities? Sure! I’d be willing to try.

1. Any scars? Many

2. Self harmed? Yes

3. Crush? Lets not talk about it anymore

4. Kissed anyone? Yes

5. Coke or Pepsi?  Pepsi

6. Someone you hate? My abusive ex

7. Best Friends? Yeh

8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? I wish

9. What’s your dream job?  Uhh.. I don’t know

10. Ever been in love? Yeah.. It didn’t end well.

11. Last time you cried? Today

12. Favorite color? Lavender, shades of blue

13. Height? 5ft

14. Birthday? April 13th

15. Eye color? Blue and Grey

16. Hair color? Brown

17. What do you love? Snuggles.

18. Obsession? ...uhhh.. I dunno..

19. If you had one wish, what would it be? To be loved

20. Do you love someone? My ex.. Though I know I need to get over her..

21. Kiss or hug? Depends on who you are

22. Nicknames people call you? Liz, Smol, Shorty, ..cute

23. Favorite song? Lost Boy

24. Favorite band? Panic! At the Disco

25. Worst thing that has ever happened to you? One of my exes(not the most resent)

26. Best thing that has ever happened to you? The last person I dated.. she was the best thing that had ever happened to me..

27. Something you would change about yourself? Everything

28. Ever dated someone? Yeah

29. Worst mistake? There are a lot..

30. Watch the movie or read the book? Both

31. Ever had a heartbreak? Yeah

32. Favorite show? Right now: Archer.

33. Best day of your life? I dunno..

34. Any talents? Uh... 

35. Do you wish you could ever start over? Yes

36. Any bad habits? Cutting..

37. Ever had a near death experience? Probably a few

38. Someone I can tell anything to? My best friend, Elena

39. Ever lost a loved one? A lot..

40. Do you believe in love? Yes

41. Someone you hate/Dislike? again, one of my exes. She was a manipulative asshat who guilt tripped me into having sex with her and then laughing when she hurt me.

42. Are you okay? No.

43. Relationship status? Single

44. Selfie? I’ll post one later when I have better lighting

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Since you made the questions you should answer them too

1. Name your two favourite characters from a current TV show My two favourite characters are Arizona Robbins and Izzy Silva2. For the first of your favourite characters, let’s call them A, talk about why they are your favourite The lovely Arizona Robbins. She’s an amazing character in Greys Anatomy, she brings so much happiness with ever scene she is in. I love her because when she first came into the show, the fact that she was gay was never hidden. She has always been proud of who she is which inspires me. She can just smile and it makes me happy. The way she wore skate shoes around work, the way she’s always happy, the way she is super bubbly. Everything about her makes her my favourite character. If it wasn’t for her, I don’t think I would still be as obsessed with Greys.3. For character A, talk about what you find attractive about them Oh god, where do I start. Arizona Robbins has the most beautiful smile. When she smiles her whole face just lights up. Her eyes, oh god her eyes. I could gaze into them for days and never get bored. You just have to look at her and you’ll instantly see how beautiful she is. Her hair always lays so perfectly, and her skin looks flawless. I even find her whole personality attractive, her bubbliness is everything.4. For the second of your favourite characters, let’s call them B, talk about why they are your favourite The amazing Izzy Silva, where do I even start. She’s so funny and full of life. I started watching You Me Her after seeing that she was in the show. She drinks a lot and smokes a lot of pot, both of which make me love her because seeing her like that makes me smile and laugh. Seeing her smile is perfection, she is so cute when she smiles. She also has this confidence that makes me want to be like her, it’s everything.5. For character B, talk about what you find attractive about them What’s not to find attractive about her?! Her eyes, her smile, her body, her hair. Everything about her is so attractive. She doesn’t even have to try, she just always looks so beautiful – even when she’s just woken up. The way she looks is how I aim to look one day. Her personality too is the kind that I look for in a friend. She is literally friend goals – and girlfriend goals. She has such a good sense of style too which just adds to how attractive she is, the leather jackets, the jeans, everything she wears – especially the underwear.6. For character A, talk about the actor/actress Jessica Capshaw, damn she’s great. I remember when I first saw her I was just amazed. She’s not much different to Arizona Robbins to be honest. She has that same bubbliness about her, which makes her so amazing in my eyes. She has the most adorable children too, they are just the cutest. Then on Instagram, she makes it clear that she can’t work snapchat which I just find too cute.7. For character B, talk about the actor/actress Priscilla Faia is honestly amazing. I only knew who she was after watching Rookie Blue where she played Chloe Price. I was completely in love with her as Chloe so started following her on a lot. I love her friendship with Missy Peregrym, they are honestly friendship goals. They are just so funny together, from the pictures to the videos. Every time I see something to do with Priscilla I just smile instantly. She’s so like the characters she plays because she always has that quirkiness about her, which I love.8. Talk about if you think characters A and B would be friends if they were in a TV show together I think they would be friends. Izzy is a bit younger than Arizona but I still think they would be friends because they have the same kind of personality. They are both bubbly and happy which is why I think they would be friends. I also think there is a chance of them dating, maybe not at first but after a while of being friends then I think they would grow close and possibly date – which would be so cute.9. Talk about what part character A would play if they were in character B’s TV show Ooo if Arizona was in You Me Her…I think she would play Izzy’s best friend. She would be the sensible one of them both, and she would look out for Izzy but she would be such a great friend to her.10. Talk about what part character B would play if they were in character A’s TV show I think Izzy would play one of the interns in Greys. She would be the bubbly, eager one. I think she’d work in Peads under Alex, and would be friends with Arizona. Her best friend there would be Jo though.11. If you had to give a ship name to these two characters what would it be? I would call them Arizzy – I think that’s a super cute ship name12. Talk about what made you start watching the show that character A is in Someone in work had been pestering me for ages to watch Greys and I finally did. I had also seen lots of people talking about “Calzona” so that had me completely drawn to it.13. Talk about what made you start watching the show that character B is in I had read that Priscilla Faia was in You Me Her, and I had just finished watching Rookie Blue so I decided I needed more Priscilla in my life and chose to watch it – best decision.14. If you had the chance to meet the actors/actresses that play your favourite characters, what would you say to them? I think I would cry if I got to meet either of the actresses. I have no idea what I would say, I would be totally star struck. They are two of my inspirations in life and meeting them would be the absolute dream.15. If character A was stranded on an island, do you think they could survive? I think there is a very good chance that Arizona would survive on an island, I don’t think she would like it but I think she could survive. She’s strong and she’s been through a lot of difficult times that I think they would help her in being able to survive.16. If character B was alone in a bar, would they have the confidence to go up and make friends with the nearest group of people? God yeah, Izzy is such a confident character. She could make friends with anyone, no matter where she was. She would make it as if she had known them for years and just have fun being there.17. Is character B the type of person to get high? What about character A? Izzy gets high all the time, she never goes anywhere without her pot so yes, she is the kind of person to get high. I’m not too sure about Arizona, she seems too sensible but I think if she was with someone who did then she might try it for fun.18. Who is more sensible, character A or character B? Arizona for sure, she’s the most sensible of them both. It’s not that Izzy is irresponsible though, she just likes to have fun because she’s still very young19. Can you imagine character B ever having kids? If yes, what do you think they would call them? Hmm at the age Izzy is just now I can’t imagine her having kids but if she ever did I think she would name them either Maya or Nathan20. If you had the chance to go out on a date with character A, where would you take them? Why? I would take Arizona to a romantic restaurant, then we would go for a walk down by the harbour before heading up to the rooftop overlooking the city where we would lay on a rug and watch the stars above.21. In your mind, what would the home of character A look like? I think Arizona would live in a large new build, but it would look like a cute bungalow from the outside with the wooden porch and features. Then inside it would be very chic, but very homely at the same time.22. If you were on a night out with character B, do you think they would be a bad influence? If yes, in what way? Yes, Izzy would be such a bad influence. She would have me doing shots, drinking lots and smoking pot. I would enjoy it so much though because she would be so much fun to be out with.23. You’re stuck in an elevator with both characters. What do you do? Who freaks out first? I think we would play some music, dance a little, smoke some pot (since it’s Izzy’s thing) and just chat for a while. I don’t think anyone would freak out to be honest.24. It’s Christmas Day and both characters are in your house. Who is most in the Christmas spirit? Who is in the kitchen cooking? Who’s drinking all the alcohol? I think both Arizona and Izzy would be in the Christmas spirit. Arizona would definitely be cooking in the kitchen, making the perfect Christmas dinner. Izzy would be sitting drinking all the alcohol whilst waiting for the food to come. Then Arizona would get on the alcohol too and we would all celebrate.25. You’re on a safari with character B, they ask you what animal they remind you of. What do you say? Hmm, what animal does Izzy remind me off…a Cheetah. I don’t know why but there’s just something there that reminds me of her.26. Character A is decorating their apartment/home, what colour do they paint their bedroom? I feel that she would paint it in pastel colours – blues, pinks, greens, yellows.27. From the way character B acts, how old would you think they were? What about character A? From the way Izzy acts I’d think she was around 19/20. From the way Arizona acts I would think she was around 27/28.28. Who do you think has the better sense of style, character A or B? I think they both have good style, just in different ways. Izzy is very casual, very modern and young in the way she dresses. Arizona dresses very professional and smart because of where she works.29. You’re having a bad day and need some cheering up. Who do you call, character A or B? Why? It depends how I wanted cheered up. If I wanted someone to come over and just sit and talk to then I would call Arizona. If I wanted someone to come over and drag me out to cheer me up then I would call Izzy.30. It’s a Friday night, you’re home watching TV. Who is more likely to call you to go out, character A or B? Why? Izzy would definitely be more likely to call me to go out, she’s the party type and loves to be drinking and getting high31. Character A comes to you and tells you they killed someone. What do you do? Now this can be taken in two different ways. If she came to me and told me she had killed someone at work (she’s a surgeon) then I would sit and comfort her. However, if she came to me and said she had killed someone out of work then I would help her hide the body and cover it up as if it never happened.32. Who do you think would last longer in prison, character A or B? Why? Well as Arizona once said “I’m too pretty for prison” therefore I think Izzy would last longer. She has that slightly tougher side to her than Arizona, but sometimes Arizona does have the tough side to her – I still don’t think she’d last too long.33. Talk about the first time you saw character A on the TV show they are in. Did you instantly know they would be your favourite? What was it about them? The first time Arizona was in Greys was when she was sitting at the bar after work and she followed Callie to the bathroom and ended up kissing her. I instantly knew she was going to be my favourite because she was so bubbly right from the start and she was so forward, which I love.34. Halloween is approaching, who is more excited – character A or B? What would each character dress up as? I think character B would be more excited about Halloween because she is younger and more into going out drinking and partying – even though Arizona is into that too. As for dressing up, I think Izzy would dress up as something like the girl from The Ring or Insidious. Then I think Arizona would dress up as either Tinkerbell or Alice from Alice in Wonderland.35. Honestly, who do you think you would get on better with – character A or B? Why? I think I would get on really well with them both. I’d get on with Izzy in the way that we could go out together, drink, smoke, and dance and just have fun. Then I would get on with Arizona in the way that we could stay in and eat pizza, or go out to a bar for a few drinks.36. Character B’s birthday is coming up, what do you plan? Will you go out or have a night in? Will there be lots of people invited or just close friends? I think for Izzy’s birthday we would have a night in with close friends, maybe eight or nine. Just have a house party with music, pizza, drink, shots, pot. That would be a good way to spend her birthday.37. It’s late and you’ve just come out of a club. Who would you call to come get you? Why? I would call Arizona to come get me because she’s the more sensible of the two. She would happily come get me and make sure I got home safe.38. Who is more likely to cook dinner for you? Who would be more inclined to order a takeaway? What would they make/order? Arizona is more likely to cook dinner for me, she would probably cook something like steak or a roast dinner. Izzy would be the one ordering a takeaway, in most cases pizza.39. If character B was still in school, what do you think they would doodle on their work? What about character A? I think Izzy would doodle little pictures of the things in life she loves so there would be pizza, pot, music and dancing. Then I also think there would be doodles of the person she likes at the time, maybe their name in a heart and other little things to do with them.40. Out of your other favourite characters, who do you think would be friends with characters A and B? Would they be the goals of friendship groups? Well I think that Arizona and Izzy’s friends would be Eliza Minnick, April Kepner, Clarke Griffin, Alex Danvers, Nicole Haught, Andy McNally, Maura Isles, Regina Mills, Bridget Westfall and Annie Wilson.