#how am i supposed to function rn

[trashcreatyre]

I will not spoil the movie. But oh. Oh my fucking god. /pos

[taetebebe]

|| Enhypen for #TAMBURINS

[corner-collects-rocks]

happy new year to neil josten who didnt sign it. he gave me a contract but i didnt sign it. he couldnt make me. this doesnt mean anything. im still a fox.

[stardustamaryllis78]

Me eating up all tdp news like Kirby:

If my current mood was a song title, it would be MCR's "I'm not okay, I promise".

[leighsartworks216]

My friend recorded and shared Exclusive Care with me and y'all I- 🫠

[justaaveragereader]

I just wanted to pop in here and say that I re-read your Hongjoong and mingi fics you wrote for me all the time and they're saved in my tabs.

And I just finished re-reading the sub!mingi one again and it just- AWW ITS ELECTRIC ⚡️

Okay but hear me out,

Why do I feel like mingi would love the spooning position because he can adore you w/o necessarily looking at you because he's so shy?

Can you just imagine his warm chest and strong arms tightly holding while he languidly thrusts into you from behind?

'You're so beautiful...I love how you take care of me...I'm yours, I'm so FUCKING yours'

Just wanted to share that thought with you.

My love I’m convinced you like fueling my delulu sessions😭! I appreciate you re-reading them🥹💙! You know Sub!Mingi turns my brain into soup! #1 Sub!Mingi supporter right here😔👏🏼.

OOOHHHHH MMMYYYY GGGAAWWWDDDD! Him in a spooning position has me sicckkkkk! The amount of whimpering you’d hear in your ear bc of him?!? With that husky voice?!? Straight jacket me.

I feel like his admiration for his partner, mixing with him being shy would cause him nothing but whining and whimpering. Him just being so needy for his partner but opting for the spooning position bc he’d feel so many emotions, he’d be worried about cumming early.

Now just imagine you reach on of your arms back, and grab a handful of his hair. I feel like that would just shove him right over the edge. Or if you laced your hand with one of his hands that’s holding your body close to his. His tight grip holding you close, while his hands just roam all over your body bc no matter what he will never be close enough to you.

“I’m yours, I’m so FUCKING yours.” IM TO MENTALLY DELULU FOR THIS😭🤪!! I just think of him saying that thru a broken whimper, with that deep voice?! 🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️I gotta get outta here, the thoughts that are being thunk rn are criminal.

[sundial-girl]

wtf

get out of my fucking spreadsheet you piece of shit left mirror sound bitch

[spineless-lobster]

I am a changed man.

[kendallspussy]

in case nobody told you - a lesbian breakup FUCKING SUCKS

[hearts-hunger]

danny tattoo

moodboard for danny tattoo

[mr-rainmaker]

Shit

[entropys]

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[beenovel]

Anyway last week my professor told the class "coworkers will put up with poor technical skills but they won't put up with weird" and after class I just went and sat in my car and cried bc how am I supposed to survive if I still don't seem "normal" even though I've been doing behavioral therapy since first grade but masking hurts so goddamn bad that I'm only doing two classes a week rn but I'm still falling apart and barely functioning every day and barely getting my work turned in bc i come home from class and collapse for days at a time and its just not fair, its not fair, why do other people get to be the normal, why do jobs get to be easy for other people, why are 66% of autistics unemployed/underemployed its not FAIR

[maroon-winestain]

going insane i swear

[jackass-jones]

I’m getting kinda feral about Ryuki today so I wanna bring up something else

Since the entire Ryuki side of the story is pretty much just everything he tells Mizuki about what happened 6 years ago, this begs the question: is his summary including the parts that are from the future, or is this just a writing error?

It’d make sense if it was just an error like. First off if Ryuki could see the future that’d be a whole mess, plus the future he’s seeing here isn’t even in the right timeline, it’s all what happens on the B side. Plus, the whole twist of not knowing what the proper timeline is is already a pretty iffy twist because it’s only a twist to the player, not to the characters. Since it’s kinda flimsy to begin with, I can see how the writers could’ve just completely fucking forgotten to fix the Ryuki side to make sense with this twist. They kinda forgot about Ryuki a lot in the second half of the game after all and a lot of the writing around him is messy as hell so I can believe it

But, let’s pretend this all WAS intentional, that Ryuki DID include information about the future in his story to Mizuki. This would go perfectly with the idea that Ryuki is a frayer and that he’s being haunted by knowledge from the past and future and is incapable of distinguishing the two. It’s already true that Ryuki has trouble telling what year it is (during the practice launch on the Mizuki side we see Ryuki in a trance waiting for Shoma to get off the ferris wheel even though that’s an event that happened 6 years ago, Ryuki makes constant references to Date being disappointed in him,etc) so it’d make sense if he got his wires majorly crossed when telling Mizuki what he remembers about the case from 6 years ago. If this is the case, then Ryuki’s powers can extend across not just past and future, but also multiple timelines

It’s not like Ryuki is the only one with this power. Date remembers when he was hospitalized in the Mizuki route during the true ending and gets confused about why he’s remembering things that never happened. Mizuki is able to remember Jin being referred to as the almighty despite her not hearing about it in that timeline. But it is interesting that Ryuki is the only one who seems to be plagued by his knowledge. The other two protagonists will be just kinda weirded out by their ability to know things that didn’t happen, but they recover pretty quickly. Ryuki though, he doesn’t know what timeline he’s in and he’s constantly speaking and thinking in riddles and drowning himself in liquor to forget everything and is only able to function in the A side BECAUSE the somnium failed and he wasn’t able to remember tearer’s true identity

Basically Ryuki cursed with evil timeline powers and it makes me wonder if he’s an unreliable narrator on purpose or on accident and honestly, I don’t know if I wanna know

Had an epiphany last night and I haven’t seen anyone talk about this (maybe because it could be just so obvious no one felt the need to but shhh) but look here at the veeeery beginning of the aini flowchart

We got the Ryuki somnium as the first split and as we know, this split happens based on whether or not you (or ryuki in this case) know the name of Tearer. You can only get the Mizuki side of the story if you have played the Ryuki side and have heard Tearer’s name. The somnium will also be much more complex and dangerous

So essentially on the B side, the psync is unsuccessful. Mizuki doesn’t really help Ryuki, and she barely learns anything about the hb case. Ryuki is left in the same mentally unstable state he was before, and he can’t hold a conversation without babbling and laughing maniacally. This leaves Mizuki to do her investigation without any of the past help at all, which is how the true route of the story is supposed to go

This isn’t anything new, we know this. What I do wanna revisit is the A side, where Ryuki doesn’t remember Tearer. The psync is actually successful and the results are significantly different than the B side. Ryuki sobers up and is able to tell Mizuki everything that happened to him 6 years ago. So basically the Ryuki route (the parts from 6 years ago) is everything that he’s telling to Mizuki

This means that there’s a whole separate version of the story in this timeline where Mizuki learns everything about the past, including what happened to Date. And what’s getting me feral about this is. How did the investigation proceed afterwards??? Did the two of them work together to finish the case? Did Mizuki get a chance to mourn Date? Did she lash out at Ryuki? Did Ryuki even mention his involvement with Tearer or Bibi’s existence at all? How would everything had changed if they worked together?

IM GOING INSANE I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THE A SIDE TIMELINE DAMMIT-

[hoe-in-deepspace]

So Caleb just casually says the cutest fucking shit at any given opportunity ???

Like ??? How am I supposed to just continue on with the conversation after these ??? I'm literally a giggling and blushing mess rn ??? God forbid he smiles at me too like I'm done I'm not functioning anymore send help