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#how she ***** ** *** ***** and like…. i sound kinda jealous talking abt it BECAUSE I AM! i do not see that version of her at all. and that
pepprs · 2 years
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ok mutuals. i am waiting for my first layer of paint to dry (it looks like shit rn lol but if this turns out good i might post it) and im still debating whether or not to say anything now that ive written the letter. like to say that this sucks. there’s that post i just rbed that’s like don’t hold back bc you think it’s cringe but then i saw another post tonight abt a Very specific situation that is not fair for me to be thinking abt in this way but the jist of it (removing the context) was that u shouldn’t burden ppl w ur grief when they make necessary decisions that make them happy. so it’s like ok. and again this is me taking that latter post completely and inappropriately out of context but realy shouldnt / doesn’t ir apply to all situations where someone is making a choice for their own happiness that takes their idealized version of you away from them. grief and everything that comes with it is burdensome and makes the other person feel guilty when ultimately it isn’t even about you. and i know bc ive been on the other side of this situation so many times and have been angry and frustrated when (specific) ppl grieve me for not being who they needed me to be. but this is my first time EVER being on the other side actually in a way that is actually real and not just in my head or metaphorical lol. i fear it literally all the time ofc but this is the first time in my life where someone is leaving me (and CHOOSING to) and not when im leaving either by choice or by like… by virtue of having to progress into a new school or mandatory study abroad or whatever. and it fucking sucks so bad.and if it was me doing this i would want her to talk to me abt how hurt / angry / sad she was and *i* would be hurt / angry / sad if she felt like she needed to hold back but… she is wired differently and needs different things and i truly think me telling her that this is dealing me psychological damage i will carry with me for the rest of my life is only going to be unhelpful and make her angry and uncomfortable. lol
#if i had a relationship w her where we talked abt feelings (like everyone else on our staff team but me 😍) then it would be ok. but in order#to tell her this i would have to be making like a huge leap of saying yeah no we haven’t talked like this before and im forcing us to. and I#uhhhh do not think she would react well to that. i would do it if it was anyone but her but i am terrified of burdening her with me. which I#have proof of btw like she just.. idk. i mean it’s not proof. but every time i have talked abt emotional stuff when she’s been present she h#has like… idk. checked out. visibly and tangibly. i can’t go into a lot of detail abt it LOLLLL but this is a pattern. and then i hear abt h#how she ***** ** *** ***** and like…. i sound kinda jealous talking abt it BECAUSE I AM! i do not see that version of her at all. and that#is literally all i want if i talk to her abt it. to just say like.. hi. we have not talked like this before but you are about to leave and#it has destroyed everything including me. this is hurting me for particular reasons some of which may shock you. i need you to know that. an#and i want us to start telling us things and being close even though you’re literally leaving and won’t be an everyday figure in my life#anymore like you have been for the last 4.5 years lol bye 😍😍😍😍😍😍 like that’s all i want. is just to establish the closeness and make plans t#to maintain it. idk. it’s like cringe and creepy. and i KNOW also that if we talk and i try to tell her how i feel i will do that thing wher#where i cry so hard i can’t even speak through it which im almost certain i will do in front of her tomorrowanyway LOLLLL so. but yeah i#don’t think she is gonna be very comfortable with that and i can’t make her u comfortable or burden her bc she needs to do this for her and#i want her to be happy even if it’s not here. but it hurts soo fucking bad like do you realize how important you are to me and how i was#looking forward to this so much and you fucking pulled out the rug from under us and i don’t know how to be without you. lollllll. CRINGE#purrs#delete later#ok my paint is almost dry lol! win#but also there’s like. ok i will shut upi promise. bit there’s also like… am i thinking this thru clearly / rationally or am i projecting#and assuming things and like… fumbling my way thru this situation for the first time bc ive never been in it before and don’t know what to#do or what’s helpful and what’s not. i know i am depriving myself of love and comfort and things that would make this easier to cope with b#but is that the right thing to do or is it stupid and foolish. i don’t think there’s a right / good / painless way thru this. lol#<- freak <- irredeemable <- embarrassingly immature and naïve given requirements of current job let alone life experiences to this point
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sillygreenrat · 4 months
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I have some more smokeybat headcanons, got inspired now
#. Sam gets a big crush on Uzi, he wants to try impress her and hang out with her. So he tries asking her out whenever he can, Uzi oblivious to his crush agrees and hangs out with him a lot.
#. Uzi shows him anime and he ends up liking anime quite a lot, his favourite type being chill slice of life or the cooking anime. Makes him jealous they can't eat like humans can
#. He makes her a badge of their favourite anime character for her to wear on her beanie.
#. Sam is a talented artist and has a sketch book full of drawings and abstract work too. When he on magnets is when some his most colourful work is done. He has a very detailed drawing of Uzi he keeps special. It's of her in class reading, she looked so pretty that day.
#. Sam got a bit jealous when Thad started talking to Uzi , he could see Uzi seemed to like him a bit and was a little sad by that. He got more upset when N showed up because he could definitely see Uzi big crush on him.
#. He talk with Uzi about N and he encourages her to tell him how she feels, being a wingman.
#. Sam writes a love note to Uzi along with a drawing and sends it to her anonymously, hoping to impress her. He was too scared to sign it.
I have more if you like to listen to it
i am SO sorry for taking so long on these lmfao???? i really wanted to think abt these. tysm for sending me all of these delightful thoughts to grab and run with i would absolutely be willing to hear more
1 + 5: it was a crush that's been there since the begining, uzi was always kinda cute and charming, the way she interupted class with sarcastic wit on occasion, the way she would go above and beyond what the assignments were just to have her own fun. sam has always been the more quiet, shut in type, always following rules, never usually being the type to speak up or make a sound, but whenever uzi does something particularly silly he can't help but laugh a little (and boy shes a whole fucking circus so lemmie tell you). though he had to eventually start making moves once thad god involved.
for the record, i do NOT ship thad n uzi, i get it as a ship, but it just aint my thing, however im a big fan of unrequitted love, and i can absolutely see uzi just not being interested in the popular jock type (shes more into the silent stoner type COUGH COUHG(J)), seeing thad as more of a close friend due to him being so caring when no one else seemed to be.
unfortunately for sam the only time he was able to fully talk and get to know uzi was AFTER she was already introduced to his oil (lmfao)
2: this dude wants to eat so bad, let this man manifest some robot mac n cheese for his ass. its not 'hunger' but its like, some fuckin program malfunction due to the magnets that you could compare to stoner munchies but lord does he get angry when uzi puts on a ghibli or some shit and they start makin ramen or some shit.
on the topic of anime tho uzi would absolutely be into anime and try and get sam (and by extention N and possibly V) into anime
current hyperfixation is firmly beliving shes be a nutcase over jujutsu kaisen (would love the curses and their vibe of 'we wanna take over humanity' but the humans are pretty cool too she GUESSES) but i think shed also be into shit like kill la kill, evangelion, maybe even a smidge of ouran on the side bc damn it she wants to be surrounded by a buncha cute boys (and low and behold be projecting trasmasc feelings onto uzi but boy she'd feel a sense of 'man i bet i could pull off a suit' and she WOULD)
3 + 4: him being obsessed w/ drawing n stuff is honestly a small headcanon i had personally!!!!! glad its a thing for another person ugh (positive) he would totally pay attention to the characters she hyperfixates on and go CRAZY making her posters and small keychain hangers and such (probably has an old laminator in his house that he uses to seal the all to keep them from getting ruined). i like to imagine he likes to draw/paint skyscapes, trying to find really interesting cloud formations or spots where the moon shines through them to draw cuz he thinks that kinda shits beauitufl, would absolutely love earth sky's so fucking much let this man see them
6 + 7: N IS BEST WINGMAN. i ship all of them together in one homoginous poly so i can confirm this happened and it was real. would absolutely help sam before he even considered allowing his feelings for uzi show
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yuukei-yikes · 1 year
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What are your thoughts on Haruaya friendship? I wish it was explored more in canon
they are so best friends and the gossipy crush talk they forced on ayano and takane in canon really truly belongs to ayano and haruka. *shakes fist* i completely agree. they deserved so much more focus together:( i understand why they didn't cuz there's a lot going on but Man what a wasted opportunity
especially post str heheheheheheheheheheh cuz i can go crazy insane in this setting god bless post str. with shintaro and takane and their fucked up insane codependency haruka and ayano understand each other's struggles a little bit. i think haruka would be the one to talk ayano into therapy LOLLLL cuz like!!! she is trying to keep herself together for her siblings bc they were alone for so long and she wants them to be able to let go and let her take care of things but girl... LIKE AYANO UM SHE IS DEPRESSED. she literally committed suicide and ya it was cuz of a plan but also *plays additional memory* and also both her parents died. like her parents are deadddd and she LOVED THEMMMM and she has to act like a big sister bc shes been away this whole time and feels like such a failure and like she abandoned her siblings and ON TOP OF ALL THIS SHE JUMPED INTO A RELATIONSHIP WAY TOO QUICKLY AND HER BOYFRIEND IS A MAJOR DICKHEAD so she kinda. feels like she has no right being upset abt the family stuff bc she truly feels like she's abandoned her siblings all this time and needs to be strong and do her part so she is like Basically the only reason i am sad is shintaro doesnt pay attention to me (it is 1000% not the only reason and she knows it). she is depressed in general, traumatized, feels like a failure of a big sister and a girlfriend. #slay
takane keeps relationship therapying her and shintaro per ayanos own request bc takane is the only one able to talk sense into shintaro when he's being a total ass which is like a weekly thing. and ayano is accidentally growing to resent takane because whyyyy is SHE the one who can talk sense into shintaro and not her. cant he see ayano is trying her best!!!!!! its not fair!!!!!!!! and she remembers all this stuff she thinks abt her being no good for shintaro bc he needs someone to drive him and how takane felt called out to the point of staying with him all that time and now it's still like this and ayanos like. ohhhh my god. what if he likes her and not me. takane is clearly better for shintaro than me. BUT ITS NOT FAIR I LIKE HIM MORE *silly girl moment* the whole thing sounds like stupid hs crush crap because thats exactly what it is minus the hs and plus the trauma so ayano also feels incredibly stupid bc she's like god there are bigger issues and im here being jealous over a boy. but she cant help it. and also its like she was rly robbed of her silly crush time because she was so busy fucking investigating her dad trying to kill her family and friends. so its like she mentally relaxed a little bit and unconsciously focusing on stupid things out of spite for this. like dammit. so what if i want to be fucking irrational and be jealous of takane. it's just such an easy feeling to feel. its so much easier to hurt over this than everything else. so she's really jealous even if its super stupid ayano is utterly jealous of takane. AND THATS WHERE HARUKA COMES IN
ayano going to haruka cuz aren't YOU jealous and haruka's like well yeah a little but lol ayano u should talk to shintaro instead of me abt this issue. and ayanos like hehe No. SIT WITH ME AND DO MY NAILS♥️ and haruka's like 😐... hehe ok😊
they kind of find this middle ground. ayano intended to go to haruka bc if anyone understands its him but haruka.... the thing with haruka is that he doesnt rly entertain the jealousy thought and he's rather like yeah this is just a very convoluted relationship dynamic all 4 of us need to work on♥️ and ayanos like EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE?!?!IN OUR QUARTET!?!? AND ITS NOT ME!?!?!??!*spirals again* and it kind of. forces her to look at things differently. i dont wanna make it sound like haruka is completely out of the unhealthy bit i could go in detail for instances where haruka shows to be pretty perceptive of the ppl around him but maybe another time. so he totally realises the dynamic going on and he talks to takane abt it but he's all like. "BUT ITS OK TAKANE I UNDERSTAND WHY ITS HAPPENING AND I JUST WANT U TO BE COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY DONT WORRY ABOUT ME OKAY BABY STEPS ♥️ how about one night you sleep over with me and the rest u sleep at shintaro's. oh you also wanna bring him over when we should be alone? THATS OKAY LIKE I SAID BABY STEPS♥️(slowly going crazy)" like he's very much aware but also a little (very) spineless and like ayano well he is also jealous at the end of the day. but unlike ayano being like WHY NOT MEEEEE WHY HERRRRRR haruka is more like. terrified of takane breaking up with him. bc he knows if it came down to making takane choose between him and shintaro she would say shintaro. he'd rather have every date with takane bringing shintaro than not have any dates at all. so hes scared that if he presses the issue takane will be like byeeeee (she wouldnt but haruka is so. yknow takane is super best friends with the dan and the whole thing with shintaro and etc and harukas like what the fuck does she see in me) (harutaka are so insane they feel so undeserving of each other but ill go on abt that probably some other time)
SO yeah he is aware but approaches the situation with painful painful painful hesitance and kid gloves which. doesnt really DO that much. like he brings it up enough that takane is aware its an issue at least but shes also so much like nahhhhhhh whaaaaat shintaro and i codependentttt naaaah ur craaaazy and harukas like haha yeah it was silly. *both know its true and sit there awkwardly* and then takane can be like yeah ok sorry we'll work on it but its difficult bc she needs the help of a third to tell her what to do very firmly like she needs haruka to be like DONT bring shintaro over or else i just wont hang out with you but ofc haruka isnt gonna do that but if takane doesnt have that she'll just keep talking herself out of the problem and haruka is completely like. YEAH ITS OK IF U SAY ITS OK (DONT BREAK UP WITH ME PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEEE DONT DUMP ME) its also difficult to talk abt bc haruka doesnt wanna say it in front of shintaro and his ass is ALWAYS THERE
erm. oh yeah haruka and ayano. yeah they clearly find a bit of comfort in each other during this lol but what i originally wanted to go into before getting sidetracked with the shintaro and takane circus was that haruka kinda also talks ayano into talking abt her other issues about her siblings and parents bc he's like yeah all this shintaro stuff on top of all ur family stuff... and ayano's like MY FAMILY STUFF *breaks down*
because. no one else had pointed it out before. ayano thinks she is totally undeserving of mourning before her siblings can. idk if that makes sense. like ofc she can be sad but not sadder than her siblings, she has to be strong, and she feels like such a failure because her siblings are used to rock and rolling by themselves by now and shintaro wont open up to her and basically ayano is sitting there like. i need someone to need me so bad but no one seems to need me but in case anyone suddenly DOES need me then i am 1000% available. so i cant cry abt my parents clearly :3 and for haruka to casually bring up "yeah ur going through a lot with this and that" ayano feels so validated bc its truly the first time someone realises and says it and if he is saying that then it means she isnt selfish and a horrible person for daring to be sad. and she feels so ashamed bc haruka is someone she had also failed to protect back then but he comforts her and takes care of her and tells her its ok and everything she is feeling is completely valid. also they both cry together abt kenjirou bc haruka also loved him as a dad. *goes crazy*
anyways lol she starts therapy👍
they have 0 self confidence. they think they can smile their way out of emotional constipation. they can't bring up an issue without immediately chickening out. they are best friends forever.
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lunar-lair · 3 years
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ok say hello to my insanely new oc who ive made entirely to be a villain who is still an excellent adult and a decent parent, probably. cares too much abt kids. think reigen mob psycho with a drop or two of milla. worked under Nick From The Mailroom and was actually in on his scheme.
has always been rather cold and brash towards adults, but is more caring towards kids. in my brain he has a brooklyn type accent? rough and tumble, walks around without a tie, yknow? they keep him cause he sorts mail real good, though.
(added a read more because this got INSANELY LONG AKSKSK i spent like an hr on this h)
he was a delugeionist, but only because he kinda just wanted to rip the world apart a little; lysandre vibes, thinks a lot of it is scum and needs to go. thinks the *psychonauts* are scum and need to go. hes psychic but suppressed it, think aquato parents but extra toxic about it, and straight up just saying being psychic is unnatural. wouldnt go to loboto parent lengths tho. so he adopted that thought of 'being psychic is unnatural and wrong', which contributed to a lot of self hate that was never learned out. likely, he realizes hes a shitty person and thinks he needs to go too. so like...yknow hank, dbh? kinda the vibe im gettin right now. way more formal, of course, and while usually gruff, is more polite when its needed; can and *will* beat the shit out of you verbally in a factual way, though, and can talk more street-lingo if hes talkin to real thugs. (probably winged it on his own after failing college or smth, hes got the vibes.)
anyways, its this plot where he slinks off and starts planting mistrust in the psychonauts or something. and inevitably he just...shows up and starts kidnapping people. dismantling things from the inside and all that. he left and formed a group who also hated psychics at some point, likely friends of his parents and friends of friends, all from his hometown. all of them fight *insanely* dirty, and a lot of them are insanely vulgar. the kids are supposed to be kept away.
but theres a line to follow here.
this man is a fold to raz. hates the psychonauts, hates being psychic, adopted his parent's hate of psychics, hates the *world.* raz is young and unburdened and unjaded...mostly. hes not the shock of water some young characters can be when it comes to being the foils of other characters; think steven with a villain or something, right? but raz is sassy and a little jaded, and not total sunshine positivity.
hes a child this man could look down on and not be immediately annoyed by, who is worried by yet respects raz's realization of the world as it is, however little that is.
and yet raz is still his foil. he still mostly loves the psychonauts, despite it all, he loves being psychic, for the most part, he dodged adopting his parents previous values, he still seems to have an even view of the world as a whole.
raz is jaded, if only a little, but he moved past it and accepted that things could still be bright. this man is jaded, but he stayed in his stormclouds, never looked for the sun.
ok where. was i. RIGHT ok so. at the beginning of this...story? the man finds raz being talked down to by one of the office workers; someone with weak psychic powers whos insanely jealous of his prowess. an adult who envies the young prodigy. and theyre giving him some insane task to do, like cleaning all of the closets within the hour, but hes saved the world twice, so he smiles and nods along, because he said he would help around the motherlobe, and this adult is asking him to do something that seems simple enough.
and this guy, internally, goes 'bitch.' for a good long second bc 1. dude even if you envy a kid, kinda fucked to show that?? not their fault 2. WHY are you asking a 10 year old to do that. why is there a 10 year old here. holy shit thats a 10 year old oh my god hes so tiny (no one told him there was a 10 year old because they knew hed stomp right up to management but. regardless. he is going to stomp up to management after this and no one can really stop him. except maybe raz well see)
so yknow. dude fixes his slight slouch and walks forward and politely tells this woman that 1. hes 10 why are you jealous of him and 2. hes 10????????? and shes like shit hes 10. and apologizes. and walks away
and raz is VERY ?? bc she was doing what? why is him being 10 important? and its that young part of you that gets pissed when people try to keep you from doing things because youre young and hes DEFINITELY yet to learn that piling responsibilites that should be handled by adults onto a child is fucked up in its own special way (looking at you ford, *nick*)
and the dude calmly explains because yea. he gets that. and he still sounds gruff and a little peeved but he squats down to razs height and he talks simply and factually, telling him straight on why it isnt right.
and. huh. people dont really do that for raz. except for sasha, sometimes, everyone likes to dodge the truth a lot with him, because hes 10, and sometimes, hes too nice to tug it out of them.
and this guy, this man that raz is already polishing a trophy for 'good adulting' in the back of his brain with his striking statements about how adults should handle things and kids should-kids should...get to have fun. not be traumatized.
for the shock on his face when raz said hed already saved the world a couple times, whats some closets. he reigned it in, said that its weird he saved the world, because thats usually their jobs.
and this guy offers his hand on instict before he stands up, even though he doesnt seem very sweet and kind like the adults that usually offer raz a hand. and he takes it, i think. he takes it.
warm. warm, a little nice.
reminds raz of his dad, maybe. he wonders if this man has any kids himself, but keeps his mouth shut, because he thinks he already has the answer, and its yes.
(he doesnt have any. he would wish he did, but he knows hed fail to raise them right.)
and when he stands, he asks raz what he was asking that woman for, and he says hes doing tasks around the motherlobe because his papers are still coming in. the man doesnt ask. (he knows what 'papers' means, realizes this is the tiny junior psychonaut every room in the damn place has been buzzing about, and he has fucking words for forsythe.) he just offers for the kid to sort mail under his supervision.
and that sounds boring. at least, it usually would.
this man is interesting, and a good...person? a good adult? hes...hes new. hes new, and calm, and a little like sasha but a lot not, and he thinks he trusts him.
so raz grins and says yea, mail sorting sounds nice.
(debatably, raz does not take his hand. hes too jaded when it comes to adults. debatably, he does not feel any warmth from this man who has taught him every adult has been telling him wrong. debatably, im projecting. but thats the whole point of ocs, hm?)
and then holes crop up in motherlobe systems. people are kidnapped.
raz keeps seeing the strange man, keeps telling him things, keeps hearing back, gruff and factual and a little annoyed, but raz can almost-just-barely tell its not at him, with the way he talks.
he can tell. he can tell.
he can never tell. this man is making sure he can tell.
raz trusts the man, is still polishing that trophy for 'best adulting' he has settling in the back of his mind.
and then the man comes with a militia.
he did not seem jaded. he did not seem hateful. he never showed any anger or hate towards raz.
but thats because he knows kids dont deserve it.
an excellent moral or two. a rotten, broken heart.
and at first, they keep the kids away, because these people fight dirty, because this isnt their battle, because the man has been sending emails about why 15 year olds are in a secret psychic agency.
(he does not mention raz. by razs second visit, he had just marked the boy down as another reason to hate the psychonauts as a whole, and especially its higher ups.
hes also regretting his alliance to nick by about the third. if he had known the man would puppet a child as if they were a toy, he would have organized his own rebellion ages ago.)
but eventually, the psychonauts need all hands on deck.
they send the children to find the missing agents.
the interns are fought on the way. some of them avoid the child, know the boss would pummel them.
they get to the base, and the strange man, the one with the broken trophy for 'best adult' (still barely-polished, because hes still so sure) still nestled in the back of razs brain, is still there.
the junior psychonauts are spotted. one of the guards throws a few rocks aimlessly.
they surprise them. one almost hits raz.
its intercepted instead.
and the other junior psychonauts watch as this man, their enemy, a villain, in their eyes, reprimands the other man for even accidentally daring, for even trying. for doing something they might have done just a month or so ago, if they had decided he was too much weirder than they already had.
and he yells something like, "Why the hell is he even here?! This is an enemy base, of whats a rebellion! This is a *10 year old*! What kind of adult sends a child *near* something like that?!" and he truly sounds angry this time, raz finds. hes too angry to keep it in. he still sounds gruff and oddly proper. raz is standing there, arms hanging. hes baffled in a specific way, the way he was every time the man's brow furrowed when he mentioned a harrowing story, the way he was the first day they met.
and he asks, a little quiet, a little small, a reminder of how young he really is, "Why are you still trying to keep me safe? We're supposed to be enemies now."
And his brow furrows further before flattening out, and he tilts onto one leg, and he swears he almost kneels to a knee.
He cant believe it. He really cant.
"You're 10." he says simply, softly, that factual way. "You shouldn't even be here."
and raz pauses. the interns freeze.
"...well, here I am."
and i think...it would be so intriguing if this was done halfway out of the mind, because this man is so against anything psychic. it would be so *compelling.*
so raz steps forward and asks again, asks why hes doing this.
and the mans eyes harden, he tries to turn off that soft heart, trying to remind himself of all that he hates. because he hates the psychonauts, because he sort of hates the world.
and raz asks why he could ever hate the psychonauts, head tilted, before listing off the few he knows to be true. but other than that, how? and ok, the world sucks a little, yea, hes seen that, gets that.
and he appreciates that this kid isnt totally gung ho about existence.
but he hates that he isnt, too.
and its this back and forth. everything the man hates, why he hates it. raz saying why its good but admitting why its bad.
and hes swayed, just a little.
but the man stands up from the kneel hed inevitably instinctively put himself into, and walks forward, hand held out yet again.
"You shouldn't be in the Psychonauts," he tells him, soft, factual, brow furrowed. "Come with me. I'll bring you back to your parents, or wherever it is you want to go."
raz contemplates. thinks, for a long moment.
he grabs the mans hand, warm and firm, yet again, for a terrifying moment.
before he reaches up to slap a mental door on his forehead, and astral projects into it.
he thinks this man is good. thinks hes just jaded.
thinks hes the best adult hes ever met, one who just happens to hate a lot of things.
hes only 10.
hes not letting someone who can tell him so clearly whats wrong and right for adults to tell him go that easily.
aaaand yknow. raz does his razzy thing. learns about why the guy hates the world and the psychonauts and himself. helps him learn that its not all bad, that he was excellent to raz, and still is, that things can be bad and good all at once.
the man concedes that raz is very capable, very smart, and can do a lot. but that doesnt mean he should have to.
raz tells him, though, that he likes working for the psychonauts. its his dream. and he realizes some things he was told to do were kinda screwed up, now. that maybe, in honesty, he was dealt a bad hand.
but hes done what he can with that hand, and he ended up with a royal flush.
and uh! yknow!! then raz leaves his mind and he calls off the rebellion! its like a rhombus of ruin type adventure, except without the villain being present beforehand. its just not clustered in insanely close with a ton of other wild shit.
anyways this got really long? sorry?? its an oc i just saw good adult and slight father vibe potential in the vibe i instantly got on him and then i went feral???? rip maybe someone will read this and if you did. congrats i honestly really liked how the whole foil and good-yet-bad and consideration of raz being 10 thing worked out. this oc is almost like our representative in the psychonauts world the way reigen is for the audience in mp100. yea :) i match them up a lot but thats just cause they vibe a lot. anyways its 1:40 am now and i spent abt an hour on this hope it vibed mildly byeeee
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tendouluvr · 3 years
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Share some hcs you have about Karasuno please ! Literally anything. 💕🥺
where do i start😪
ok high school, pre timeskip hcs
tanaka and nishinoya will hold doors open for you but you’re like 20ft away so you have to awkwardly speed walk
i think they would also coordinate roaming the halls together at specific times. they would both ask to go to the restroom and if theyre in different classes they’ll just pass by each other in the hallway and laugh for the fun of it
if they’re in the same class then the teachers tell them one person at a time because they know not to let them out together
you always see at least one of them in the hallway any time you need to use the restroom or refill your bottle, you’re all friendly with each other so they would def stop to talk to you in the hallway and youre just tryna get back to class
yamaguchi knows everything about everyone. he just happens to overhear a lot of things even if he didn’t mean to (lowkk be gossiping but he just knows too much he has to tell someone)
yK HOW HES Really Tall. Ugh he helps you reach for books if you can’t reach it. that’s so polite of him 🙄 also helps you carry books and boxes if he sees you in the hallways
yamaguchi is in theater club.
hinata (& bokuto) is emotionally intelligent. my smart boy💭💭
i wanna say he waits for you when you need to tie your shoes, but he might not even notice you stopped walking in the first place until he’s like a bit ahead and realized you weren’t there to answer his question
but dw he sprints back and apologizes a lot and waits for you
on the other hand, daichi does notice if you stopped walking and would politely wait for you while you finish tying your shoes
also waits for you at the end of lunch to walk back to class together
one time you forgot your water bottle with him and only realized when you were already in class so you walk back out to get it but daichi was actually walking towards your class to give it to you at the same time so you guys were going in circles and you came back into class seeing your water bottle on your desk </3
sugawara is happy to help you always but he’s kinda passive aggressive about it for whatever reason
intentional or not, everything he says always sound like it has subtext and you’re just ,,,, 🕴🏻
he is helpful though so you just ignore whatever you think he’s trying to say
tsukishima actually slacks off on schoolwork a lot, he’s smart and has really good grades but he’s also tireeeeddd
if it’s due the next day, he’ll start on it late at night because he claims he’s more productive at night. if it’s not due until a few days later, he’ll keep it till the day before. he does get everything done eventually but he puts it off and it stresses him out even more
comes to school purposefully looking stressed sometimes so no one bothers him
kageyama would unintentionally remind the teacher about homework.
he didn’t mean to.. all he did was asked, “is there homework?” to the person beside him because he genuinely didn’t know, but he was a bit too loud and the teacher heard
he can’t decide whether he’s sorry or not :// he doesn’t care about his classmates honestly, but now he has homework too :((( not like he does it
asahi gets mistaken as a teacher by new students all the time and the other third years just laugh while he stands there trying to tell the newbies he’s also a student
yachi 😆 always has the best looking projects, slideshow, presentation, poster, etc. her teachers are always looking forward to seeing what she comes up with every time. she never runs out of ideas. the people who takes school seriously are jealous of her, and the ones who don’t care still thinks it looks nice but they don’t really care lol
she’s like 4 feet so some people who don’t know her thinks she’s like some super smart middle schooler who got to skip grades and go to high school early
you see her in the hallways a lot and she will always wave at you. it’s so cute
kiyoko,, hmm she takes any school assignments a little too seriously. it’s not a bad thing, she’s doing this to keep her good grades, but if the class/assignment is something that can just be quickly googled and the teacher doesn’t care kiyoko would still research as much as she can and then memorize everything she wrote to do a maximum-of-5-minutes presentation
in which the teacher does allow you to look at your notes if needed TT
ennoshita he thinks anyone that looks at him a bit too long has a crush on him
whether they do or don’t, he doesn’t do anything about it either way but he would definitely subconsciously start acting mysterious so he can seem hard to read,, -_-
lowk thinks this way cuz it helps him with his confidence
idk abt kinoshita and narita that much D: they got like 10 mins of screentime and all ive seen them done is react during games and play a little :/
but i assume they’re best friends (all those bench warming bonding moments am i right) so hc that they have a third bff who’s not on the team but you guys hang out together all the time
they play a lot of video games
hang out together on saturdays a ton
the typical neighbor friend
kinoshita secretly says pog and epic a bit too much :// his little sisters are tired of him
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wonhoonz · 5 years
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 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐞 𝐱 𝟏𝟎𝟏 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐣𝐢𝐧𝐰𝐨𝐨
ok so lowkey this is based off of true beauty when jugyeong was doing makeup for the guys in pick pick boys
this is my first imagine bullet thingy whatever so please bare with me :’))
lets get it
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you were the younger sister of one of the stylists for produce x 101
and since your sister was young, she’s been hella into makeup and growing up you kind of picked it up as well
so the both of you were like the makeup gurus of your family
so when one day the produce x 101 staff for hair and makeup is lacking a person
the producers and directors were asking if there was anyone who could help out last minute
bc they were already half way through shooting an episode and these boys were literally abt to perform
they needed as much help they could get, so ur sister
being the genius she is
was like “ holy shit i’ve got a sister who might as well be as talented as me “
ngl tho you probably were 
anywaY 
your sister had organized everything, she had told the producers, she had told you and everything was set
lemme just tell say, that you were lowkey p a n i c k i n g
you did keep up with produce x 101 but you weren’t exactly a die hard fan
you knew some fairly popular trainees and the only connection you really had to the show as that your sister was working there
so then your first day came
to be honest, all you really did was help out with minor things and passing stuff around for the first half but then 
one of the other stylist ladies had asked you to take over for her
and you were n e r v o u s
mostly bc these guys were basically idols already as they had already gained popularity on the show
the guy ( more like boy ) that you were assigned to was none other than
haenam’s boy, the only boy, lee jinwoo
you knew exactly who he was
you weren’t living under a rock, your friends were constantly talking abt the trainees in pdx101 and jinwoo did come up in one of your conversations once
and you felt like you were hit by a bus
this boy’s visuals were no joke
despite him being rlly rlly cute on screen, he was pretty shy in real life
you guessed it added to his cuteness tho
the two of you were the same age and you didn’t know if that made it awkward or not ??
you were just confused to be real yall
your first encounter was  … awkward
the two of you have introduced yourselves and you both were rlly nice
its just
the two of you were blushing like you were about to have a heat stroke
it didn’t help that you had to stare it his face while trying to makeup on him
and you were just dead 
d e a d
y/n.exe has stopped working
and jinwoo was the exact same
he’s still relatively young, so love was kind of like
non-existent for him
the only type of affection that he received that wasn’t from his parents were from his fangirls
his noona fangirls
that being said, his main priority was always to debut
but that didn’t mean he was immune to crushes
yeah sure jinwoo has had some small crushes here and there
mostly girls who were older
but you were different
omfg the cheesiness send help
the only people jinwoo interacted with his age were the trainees that were his age as well
which wasn’t alot
and even then he was closer with other trainees
  * cough * jinhyuk * cough *
that being said, the two of you were whipped the moment you saw each other
thankfully, the two of you were able to survive your first encounter without bursting
but that wasn’t your last day there
at that time, the trainees were going through the position evaluation
so jinwoo was performing to my youth
after your experience you started following pdx101 more thoroughly
mostly to see jinwoo
seeing him acting all cute n shit in the episodes
probably gave you minor cardiac arrest
anyway, the staff liked having extra hands around
they didn’t have to move around so frequently and things were just easier when you helped out
so the next time the boys needed to get prepared for something
you were there
this time, you and jinwoo actually had a proper conversation
you were also able to help and meet some other trainees
seungyoun was especially rlly friendly
he just had a big brother type of vibe u know ?
bc the universe was on our side, you were able to work with jinwoo again
this time you were feeling a little less like “ i’m not gonna talk and our faces are gonna be rlly close but im still not gonna talk and it’s gonna be rlly awkward “
bc no one wanted that
lowkey everyone could see you two had small crushes each other
like cmon
jinwoo was blushing during and after you had done his makeup last time
anyway you both got to know each other
he found out that you two were roughly the same age
he was lowkey vv shy and was nodding like 70% of the time
but he was rlly sweet
jinwoo didn’t exactly have a lot of friends his age, especially after joining produce
in school he always just had a few friends but eventually everyone wanted to be his friend
and he sorta knew why and he just wasn’t interested
he was glad there was someone that he could talk to aside from the other trainees
and it wasn’t like he was going anywhere else
so the two of you exchanged numbers
the boys aren’t really allowed to use their phones while being apart of produce
so it was kind of pointless
nonetheless, you were happy
at least you had moved past the awkward stage
you took every chance to go visit
eventually the two of you were joint to the hip
you had your own inside jokes and the two of you were rlly close friends
for a bit the two of you just kinda stuck with friends bc you didn’t know each other too well
but after awhile those initial feelings of attraction came back
you came over every time the boys had to perform, once you weren’t able to do his makeup but it didn’t matter bc the two of you were still talking even from all the way across the room
you did his hair and makeup for pretty girl
you were able to watch it live
and idk if it’s physically possible to bust out an uwu
but you did
he did so well, his dance ? phenomenal
facial expressions ? legend
your wig ? in china
anyway, a few weeks pass and you haven’t seen him and life is
dull
cue dramatic sad music
but then you get a call as your waiting for the next episode of produce to play
and your heart nearly stopped functioning bc jinwoo was calling you
and at first you didn’t realize that he had his phone even though he wasn’t supposed too
anyway this boi was crying
and you were like huh wait what boi whats wrong
and he tells you he had been eliminated and you were devastated
you didn’t expect him to get eliminated but more because he was really crying his eyes out
you had missed the episode because you had moved to your room instead of the living room to talk to him
eventually your comforting over the phone had worked ( miraculously ) and he had stopped crying
i mean he’s still a whole child, the both of you were
you didn’t really know what to do to get him to feel better
you two kept talking after he had stopped crying
you could occasionally here his sniffles over the phone and you tried not to squeal 
bc aghem i am calm and i don’t have feelings for my friend
you two had agreed to hang out the next day
you two got ice cream and basically spent the day together
honestly him getting eliminated is what brought you two closer
you helped out with the debut evaluation bc even though jinwoo wasn’t on produce anymore
you had still made a lot of friends on the show
they all asked you how jinwoo was
especially jinhyuk and wooseok his parents
you told him he was getting better
after all he was still sixteen ( in korea ) 
he had a whole future ahead of him
eventually you both had realized you were head over heels for each other
not necessarily love, you two were still going through puberty and well life
but you knew you both wanted to be more than just friends
both of you hung out a lot
and multiple times you just wanted to squish his cheeks and hug him
one time it was freezing out but despite that you met up to hang out
the two of you were wrapped in big jackets and scarves
you were walking around a park and it started snowing
a snowflake landed on your nose
and as cliche as that sounds
maybe the universe was making an exception for two cute human beings who were just too pure and soft
he had laughed and wiped it off your nose with his gloved hand
you were really near each other
you both were just laughing softly and were just looking at each other
like wow ok i’m friends with the smolest person ever save my heart pls
you looked away after you realized you were staring at each other for quite some time
yes you were blushing
so was jinwoo but he tried to hide it
he laughed again and smiled at you
you were mentally telling him to stop being so smug and cute
you grabbed his arm and told him to hurry up so you both could eat some ramen
jinwoo was dragged by you to some local convenience store
the two of you shared some ramen and multiple girls had asked for a photo
ngl you were kind of jealous
some of them were nice
but some of them were looking you up and down
liKE EXCUSE ME MISS IM HIS FRIEND AND YOU’RE NOT GET OFF YOUR HIGH HORSE
but you’re way too nice for that and jinwoo was watching
mostly the second part
after that you both walked to your house, where his mom’s car was already parked
eventually your parents met because your mom kept wondering who you were leaving the house so much for
not that she was complaining
she kept up with produce too, she knew who this soft boi was
he said goodbye to you and your mom
before getting into the car 
he had hugged you
and mumbled a bye with his chin on your shoulder
you hugged him back ofc
bc who were u to reject a hug from this cute ass boy
although the two of you weren’t exactly waiting for the other to make it official
you both kind of knew that you liked each other
with the help of the other trainees ofc bc you all had a group chat together
you two acted like a soft couple that only shared hugs in public
and held hands only when you two were alone
the farthest you’ve gone is cheek kisses
after a date you were about to leave when you turned around, ran back, and kissed his cheek before saying thank you for the fun day
and you basically ran away after, looking like a whole ass tomato
but he was blushing just as much
to summarize, you two are the cutest non-official couple in the whole of korea
not just the south
im talking about the whole goddamn korea
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nightttdreamers · 6 years
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You’re in the Band! (Klance) Chapter 2
Hi! Here’s the second chapter of a fic I’m currently writing which is basically a Voltron band AU, focused on Klance but w/ other stuff too ofc.
AO3 link
Hope y’all like it! Feel free to show some love if you do. Thank you!
It had been a month and Lance still didn’t know anything about Keith.
The band met up at least twice a week, usually three times, for a few hours. So, it was safe to say that all of the members were pretty close. When it came to Hunk and Pidge that was true, Hunk was basically family and Pidge knew everything there is know about Lance. But Keith might as well have been on a different planet. In fact, Keith went out of his way just to make sure that his private life was confidential. Every one of Lance’s attempts to learn more about him (“When did you get that guitar?” “Have you always lived in New York?” “What shampoo do you use?”) were shot down with some vague response and a shrug.
Keith had become such a mystery to him that Lance started a new note on his phone, titled “THINGS I KNOW ABT KEITH”
1: hes a guitar god and were not worthy of him
2: he travels a lot (stickers on his guitar case from weird places)
3: likes pidge more than me
Number three really got Lance heated. Although inside she was a softie, Pidge was snarky, sarcastic, and cynical, not exactly the “friendly” type.
Eyeing the other two from his spot at the minifridge stack, Lance was practically fuming while he eavesdropped on some argument Keith and Pidge were having.
“...but it’s just people shooting at each other for ten movies!”
“What? You can’t just simplify it like that!”
“Star Trek takes place in the future, they have women in power ! It’s showing what humanity can do!”
“Star Wars is an entire other universe with complex history that makes logical sense -”
“Jar Jar fucking Binks!”
“Guys! Guys,” Hunk said, stepping between the two and placing a hand on either’s shoulder. “I understand that being huge nerds is really important to you, but please, stop arguing. Star Trek is science fiction and Star Wars is fantasy, you can’t compare the two.”
4: keith prefers star wars over star trek
Keith stepped away from Pidge, who just stuck her tongue out at him. They did this almost every rehearsal, come in either gabbing over something weird or fighting over something weirder. Ever since Keith volunteered to escort Pidge to her apartment after a late-night practice, the two were always bonding , and the sight made Lance want to gag.
Not that he was jealous, or anything. That’s stupid. He didn’t even know Keith! Why would he be upset that the guitarist liked Pidge more than him?
“Um,” Lance cleared his throat, putting his drink back into the minifridge and stepping over. “Not that this -” he gestured to the three. “-isn’t important, but can we rehearse? That thing that people usually do when they’re in a rehearsal?”
After some affirmations, everyone had moved into their spots. Keith either stood between Lance and Hunk or against the back wall during rehearsals, never showing interest in claiming a space for himself. It kind of made Lance uneasy, like Keith would just leave at any moment, because if he was gone there wouldn’t be anything to even show that he was in Voltron. Which is why Lance tried to have him learn the whole album and be ready to record in a month. Thanks to his un-fucking-believable talent, Keith was ready, as was the rest of the band.
“I think we should just play through the whole album, make sure it’s perfect, no stopping,” Pidge suggested, simultaneously typing out something on her laptop.
Hunk nodded, responding, “If we’re all good, we should record later this week. Album out as soon as possible.”
“Can we even call it an album?” Asked Keith, not looking up from his guitar tuning. This caught Lance’s attention, Keith voicing his opinion? He usually put in his two cents about chord suggestions or timing, but never actual band stuff (another thing that made Lance uneasy; He was unsure if the guitarist really cared about the band). Keith clearly picked up on Lance’s surprise, looking at the other and straightening up. “I mean, it’s really an EP. There’s only seven songs.”
“Officially, it’s an EP, yeah, but it would be an album if we could pay for that much recording time,” Pidge replied.
Lance rolled his eyes, grabbing the mic. “Guys, EP, album, it doesn’t matter. Let’s just play!”
It took a few tries, but they managed to play all the way through, perfectly. The album (well, EP) was just comprised of the band member’s favorite songs out of the dozens they’d written, so it had actually been finished for months. All they’d needed was a guitarist (check) and an actual recording (soon-to-be check).
And they sounded great . As great as they could, at least, in the recording they would layer on more sounds and then sound awesome .
“Guys, this is gonna sound awesome !” Lance said once they had dispersed. There were a few positive affirmations from the group, who seemed to all be in a hurry. “Should we go out? Celebrate? Get drunk and watch bad movies? Get high and watch bad movies?”
Pidge tucked her laptop into her backpack, then made a beeline for the door. “Love to, but I am late for my shift, later!”
Lance’s grin faltered, since when did Pidge get a job? He turned his attention over to Hunk, texting on his phone.
“Hunk? Buddy?”
The bassist looked up, quickly shoving his phone away. “See, uh, I kinda have plans. Plans with this girl-“
“YOU’RE GOING ON A DATE?” Lance shouted, dropping his backpack and rushing to Hunk. “Is it with Shay? It’s totally with Shay, just tell me it’s with Shay!”
Hunk tugged at his collar, glancing away. “... Maybe.”
Lance grinned, wrapping his arms around his friend. “This is your night, dude! Woo her! Remember my advice!”
“Your advice sucks.”
“So then remember not to follow it.”
Hunk slid out of Lance’s arms, heading towards the door. “Thanks, man. Wish me luck!”
“Good luck!” Lance shouted after him as Hunk left.
Why didn’t he tell me he had a date? Especially with Shay? He’s been trying to ask her out for like, a year.
“You okay?”
Oh, right. Keith was still there, his brows furrowed. That was his default face, just looking confused and disinterested and pissed off. But, he sounded pretty concerned.
“What? Why wouldn’t I be okay?”
“Um, you look really sad.”
Lance straightened up, grabbing his backpack again. “I’m not sad, I’m just… confused. If you had been trying to go out with a girl for, like, forever, and you finally got a date with her, wouldn’t you tell your best friend?”
Keith shrugged. “That would never happen, so, I don’t know.”
“Why not? You got the whole ‘bad boy’ thing down, chicks love that.”
Keith just shoots Lance a look (not just any look, an are-you-fucking-kidding-me-you-idiot look), and shrugs again, kneeling down to open up his guitar case.
Lance pursed his lips, folding his arms.
5: he really hates me
Maybe Keith wasn’t the best person to ask for advice, or talk to, or just interact with in general. But he got along so well with Pidge when they talked about nerdy stuff, so what was the issue with talking to Lance?
“So, you like Star Wars?” You sounds like someone’s awkward dad, that’s why he always gives you that look, why do you even try?
“I guess,” Keith says, picking up his case.
They fall into another silence and Lance contemplates being swallowed up into the abyss right there.
Okay, McClain. You’re a people person, conversation is your thing. Use your charms! There’s gotta be something he wants to talk about.
“How’s being in the band?” Lance asks the other, just as he’s about to step through the door.
Miraculously, a hint of a smile tugs at his lips as Keith turns his head away. “It’s cool.”
“And what about the EP? Any thoughts?” The cuban boy asks, stepping closer.
“Not really.” Fuck , Lance thought they were actually getting somewhere with that.
With a dejected nod, the singer slides by Keith and steps through the door. “Okay, then, see ya.”
Why do you even fucking bother? Who cares if you don’t know everything about Keith? Maybe he’s secretly a shitty person who kicks puppies and-
“I like robbers.”
Lance turns around, on the sidewalk outside of the Garrison. He quirks a brow at Keith, standing in the doorway behind him. “What?”
“The song, robbers, on the EP. I like it.”
Lance exhales, smiling. “Oh, the song. I thought you meant like, burglaries and stuff. I don’t know why you’d mean that, that’s stupid, unless you’re really into being a thief and stuff. I don’t judge, well, I kinda do, how can you not-” Lance catches sight of Keith’s face, which did look less pissed off for a moment, but is now reverting. “I’m sorry, uh, I talk a lot.”
Keith nods, unamused. “I can tell.”
Oh no, they will not fall victim to another awkward silence. “Why do you like robbers?” Lance blurts out, nearly shouting it.
Keith steps out of the doorway, beginning to walk. He tilts his head in the direction he’s going and after a moment of being unable to read a social cue, Lance follows alongside him. “It’s a good song, it’s… different.”
“What do you mean, different? Like, good or bad different?”
“Neither, it’s just not the kind of song I thought that I’d like.”
Now it was Lance’s turn to knit his brows. “What kind of music do you usually like?”
Keith paused, glancing over to the other. He looked hesitant, then shoved his hands into his pockets and continued to walk. “Rock.”
“Wow, you’re picky, that’s not a broad genre at all, very specific.”
“Okay, classic rock.” Lance rolled his eyes, sighing and making sure Keith could hear it. “You can’t just ask someone to narrow down their music taste like that!”
And then, Lance’s heart did a little thing in his chest because, fuck , Keith was actually pretty cute. Especially when he was mad, his voice cracks and his shoulders stiffen up. Lance can’t help but crack a smile at the sight.
“Dude, chill, I’m just asking questions.”
Keith looks away, turning his attention back to the sidewalk before them.“Right, sorry.” The two were quiet for a second, but it wasn’t as awkward as before.
“So, classic rock?”
“Yeah, classic rock.”
They spoke for some time about their tastes in music, and music in general. It seemed to be the only subject Keith was good at speaking about. Every time they drifted towards another topic, they’d end up right back where they started. But, Lance didn’t mind. In fact, he actually liked talking to Keith.
“And you write all the lyrics?” Keith had asked, later into their walk.
Lance nodded, beaming with pride. “Yep! Well, Pidge and Hunk sometimes give me ideas, but, the actual lyrics are all mine.” He pulled out his phone, opening it to his notes and handing it to Keith. “They’re all under ‘song lyrics.’”
Also, the best part about talking to Keith? He made the singer feel like an actual member of Voltron. In the past, if he ever brought up that he was the songwriter, reactions were typically “eh” or “what instrument do you play?” To which he’d have to go through the awkward “oh, none, I just sing.” But, Keith was actually really interested in his lyrics, and Lance felt great.
“Yeah, I just write down lyrics all the time, whenever, wherever. Once I have enough little sections, I put them in my notebook. Editing on a phone is just easier, though,” Lance explained.
There was a silence from the other boy, then, “I don’t hate you.”
Lance looked over to Keith, then glanced down at his phone in his hands. “THINGS I KNOW ABT KEITH” was in bold atop the screen. Suddenly, Lance regretted everything ever and wanted to crawl into the manhole that was just a few feet away. They’d call him the manhole-man, and he’d never have to face Keith again.
“Do you think I hate you?”
Lance shook his head vigorously. “No, no, I just- uh, okay, so, I thought you hated me, but that was like, an hour ago! Then, we had this whole bonding sesh,” his hands gestured to the two of them. “And now, I don’t think you hate me anymore! Right? Unless, do you?”
Keith’s expression was blank save the curl of his upper lip, giving a pretty good clue as to how he felt. “No, I don’t hate you. Why would you even think that?”
Lance flung his arms out, shrugging (once again, too exaggerated). “Uh, I dunno, maybe it’s because every time I’ve tried to talk to you for the past month you’ve responded in five words or less. Or because the three times, I counted, I’ve asked you to hang out you’ve declined before I could even finish asking? Not to mention that you only talk to Pidge and now, apparently, Hunk? And it’s not really an uncommon thing for people to hate me, like it’s a daily thing! Should I go on?”
Now, he could read Keith’s expression. He looked… embarrassed? No, that was guilt in his eyes, for sure. And then, that guilt was all over Lance’s face as he straightened up and frantically waved his hands.
“But it’s fine! I get it, you’re just not a big talker! It’s okay!” Nice going, asshole, first you think he hates you, then when he says he doesn’t, you give him a reason to.
“I just… I don’t really talk to people often,” Keith said, the way he bit his lower lip slightly before speaking catching most of Lance’s attention. “I don’t mean to come off like an asshole, okay? I don’t hate you, so this whole list is wrong.”
“The whole thing?”
“Yeah,” Keith said, handing the phone back over to Lance. “I’m not a god, chill. I just really like guitar. I don’t travel a lot,” he gestured to his case, which was on his back ( how did that not hurt? ). “These stickers aren’t mine, I’ve never even been out of the country. I don’t like Pidge more than you, nor do I like Star Wars over Star Trek, they’re incomparable.”
And just like that, Keith Kogane made Lance feel like an idiot. An idiot who keeps tabs and notes on people instead of just talking to them, which defeats his purpose of trying to know someone better by blocking that person out instead.
For lack of anything else to say, Lance simply stopped, gesturing to the building behind him. “Um, I live here.” And, once again, trying to make conversation; “Do you live close?”
Keith shook his head. “No, I actually live across town, west side.”
“Seriously? That’s like, really far, man. Why would you walk me all the way here?”
Keith’s response, unsurprisingly, was a shrug. “Like I said, I don’t hate you.”
With that, Keith turned around and walked back in the same direction they came from, and Lance watched his figure, although mostly obscured by the guitar on his back, fade away.
Wow.
Later that night, Lance was in his bed, scribbling in his notebook.
They call me the manhole man.
I just don’t feel whole, man.
Because I feel like an idiot, which I am.
And you’re just there looking like, damn.
Not all of his lyrics were great.
“Where’s the Redbull?”
“That shit’ll stunt your growth, Pidge.”
“Hm, interesting. Never heard that before, what’s also interesting is I don’t give a shit.”
Lance rolled his eyes at Pidge, resting his headphones around his neck. She didn’t seem to care, returning to whatever tech stuff that was happening on her computer and launchpads.
Keith, who after the Almost-Disastrous-Walk-Home incident a few nights ago began to actually speak with Lance, chimed in, which was something the band hadn’t quite gotten used to yet. “Lance,” he said, gesturing to what was occurring outside the recording booth.
Hunk was leaning over the soundboard, his attention (that would usually be on the board) turned to the girl working it. His eyes were all big and soft, like how he looked when he saw a cute animal video or well-made desserts, totally fixated on her. Shay, the aforementioned girl, was beep boop ing over on the board (a technical term, according to Lance), explaining to Hunk as she went along.
“Hey! Hunky Hunk!" Lance shouted, to no reply. The door was open, so there was no reason for him to be ignored right now. "Tonka Truck! Fudge Chunk! HUNK!” Lance continued to yell, waving his arms. This, after too long, earned the attention of Hunk, who quickly hurried into the recording booth.
“Sorry, sorry,” he apologized hastily, picking up his bass.
Shay leaned into the mic outside of the booth, gesturing for everyone to put their headphones on. “Okay, guys, we don’t have that much time to record, so try and make it count, okay?”
The group gave a few positive cheers and nods, Keith even gave a thumbs up! (Which was probably not as monumental as Lance thought it was.)
“Alright! Ready?” Shay asked, waiting for another affirming response. “Awesome! Voltron, track one, take one. And… go!”
It took all day to record the album (or EP? They never clarified). The group arrived at Balmera Recording Studios at seven in the morning, and left at almost midnight. It was a long, draining day, filled with plenty of caffeine breaks and yawning. One thing that made recording easier was the knowledge that their time was discounted. It helped that their bassist was dating the girl working at the record studio, and this earned them a pretty good deal. However, the catch was that it was only for a 12+ hour session.
It worked, and they got the discount. But, they paid the price of complete exhaustion by the time they were done.
“One last thing before you guys go,” Shay said, just as the group was halfway out the door. The four members simultaneously turned their heads, each of their expressions dull and lazy. “I just need the song titles."
Lance nodded sleepily, pushing past everyone and moving at a snail’s pace to Shay.
“Just type it in, right on the computer.”
self titled: an EP by Voltron
1.  I’m not Famous [E]
2.  Vowels (And the Importance of Being Me)
3. The Beach
4.  New Perspective
5.  Robbers
6.  All Over
7.  i heard you were looking like the moon
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