#hyperfixating since 2022

[runningupthatvecna]

[generichoneydew]

Of all the duos I was expecting to get out of II15, this was certainly not one of them 32/52

[wachtelspinat]

i can't help but feel like my drawing days are kind of over. not entirely, i'll still be drawing from time to time. and deffo not because i want to. but i'm having this exact same feeling since mid 2022, since i was really struggling with my elective period, i kind of disconnected with art there and never truly found my way back. on top of everything that came after - moving, starting a job and working to be good at it which leaves such little room for other things because i can't handle my life well - there is just so much horrible shit going on. and i'm having a hard time comprehending it.

a part of me also feels very stupid for drawing one thing for almost 4 years now constantly, but another part of me knows "hey, but this makes you happy". it's a constant battle in my head because online spaces are like school grounds, and i don't actually wanna stand in the corner as that one kid that just can't shut up about that one character. but then again all i ever did was drawing fanart so... what does it. who gives a shit. be cringe and be free alright. but it kinda feels so hollow, esp. when you're at it for so long. a lot of mutuals move on. some are not even active anymore anywhere. and i wonder what happened. plus a huge chunk of the tone of the fandom has changed. also with the source material getting butchered so hard (since the release of ow2) it just kills the fun. playing this game used to be fun. playing this game was one thing that helped me getting through the last meters of university. it's like watching the downfall of the simpsons again without making the comparison too set in stone, just... this thing that used to be decent and nice and watching it getting ruined in real time (broken promises about pve, the recent gameplay changes?? the lore was fucked up from the start but they kind of tried, now it's just skins for 20+ dollars) while still having feelings for the characters is shit. anyway...

i recently went through a big folder of stuff i'd drawn at the age of 12-15 and there were so many fucked up but cool monster and cyborgs designs and just silly stupid stuff and all i could think of was that i felt so distanced from it, like i don't even know i think this is normal? because a lot of time has passed and a lot has happened and i knew i've drawn all this but i wasn't able to locate the person who did in my present me now and... it's just so normal that things move constantly forward but i feel like i missed huge chunks and passed a few stops and now i'm kind of lost.

i don't even know what i'm trying to say here anymore. i just feel sad because it feels like sth is slipping out of my grasp or sth has changed tremendously and i don't know how to make damage control.

i keep trying tho, i try to draw once a week at least. it's just like as soon as i take a step back and look at it i don't feel it at all. gonna continue tho, until it makes sense again i hope.

[achillean-knight]

I don't really like the perspective and outcome of this, but I kinda do??? it also might grow on me eventually KJHJGHSD so I'm uploading anyways!

[sunnibits]

feel the need to say that as of this month it’s officially been two whole years of sunnibits izzyposting, everyone give it up for this wet little freak <3

[sonicbooom]

mizu5 grabbed my ankles and is trying to kill me

[fried-manto]

Saiou is so sunflower tho

[retrobr]

Well, having the strongest hyperfixation on Lazytown wasn't on my 2024 bingo card, but here we are...

Not that I'm complaining though. This silly-milly show is making me unbelievably happy and I don't even know what to do with that XDD

[bigmeandragonlady]

i wanna talk about hyperfixations for a minute, and how much they fuckin suck.

Not the fixation itself with the burst of creativity, passion, or the inability to think about anything else without, at best, your hyperfixation playing in the background- but rather the inevitable crash if you don't have a new hyperfixation to replace the old one.

I know hyperfixations are a quirky, fun thing here on tumblr but they're just. They're rough.

If you're someone who gets hyperfixations and finds yourself crashing out in a pretty nasty/cataclysmic way, I think it's worthwhile to look back at what might start the cycle or keeping an eye out when you do get into something new for that feeling.

Sometimes you'll be able to figure out what triggers hyperfixations and avoid/stop doing that thing. Unfortunately, that might be something you like doing. Then you have to decide if the crash out it worth it, and personally, it's not.

And I'm sure I'm making it sound so easy, but it's not! It took me years to figure out and avoiding that trigger fucking sucks!!!

[kirschflix]

They’re both all about love

GIF credits ,, reanimating

Read my rambling in the tags !

[mistermarston]

[sagesolsticewrites]

oh my goodness, I just realized 🥹 I’ve had this blog for two whole years now

[shima-draws]

Big shoutout to One Piece for awakening my motivation and inspiration to draw when it was dormant for *checks calendar* over a year

[moonstruckdraws]

Been struggling to start the 3rd illustration, and the change in my schedule hasn't helped lol

I hope I'll have it done this weekend because I really don't have the time to do it later and I want it done before Friday. So I can only really hope for the best.

I might try drawing something else, since I was able to sketch in my sketchbook, and try to get into a better drawing mood. Or take a nap, no downside to that other than I could end up asleep lol.

[theriverpointace]

What’s your favorite fandom you’ve been in so far? :)

okay so this is a long answer, cause i switch fandoms like every month or so. give or take a month. so idk about favorite, but some honorable mentions are:

miraculous ladybug, which was the first fandom i wrote fic for, and the first one that i really got excited about analyzing and extrapolating and theorizing and all of it. being an mlb fan made me into the fan i am today.

harry potter. it's something i guess i'm kind of ashamed of, considering, yk ... everything. but for a long time it was a bit of a comfort media for me, really—another one that shaped how i fandom. i really loved house unity-type stories/ideas (being a hufflepuff, lol). it also kind of kickstarted my love of background characters that nobody pays attention to!!

newsies, one of my favorite musicals ever. i think this is the only fandom i really have an elaborate au for (ask me about the unexpected power au!!). i love thinking about the background newsies and exploring the relationships and dynamics there.

bmc. quite honestly, bmc feels like one of the first fandoms i was properly part of. my thoughts were heard, my art was seen. i've always been a bit of a lurker and it's so nice to really be a part of that community

community, for very similar reasons as bmc. but ngl i might like community better lol. community has troy idk

and chess. i love chess. god. chess. no real reason it's on this list i just fucking love it.

[5-htagonist]

i love art, im very grateful for adderall for gifting me with the executive function, ease of prioritization, and clearness of thought <3