#i actually don t know why i made this. LMFAO

[chonnysinferno]

uhmmmmmmmmmmm

[hypegirl1]

The formula of love (fem! reader x Yoosung Kim)

-Note: Hii,this is my first fic lmfao,I did it the best i could,I hope my Mystic Messenger players here like it,enjoy!I´m very sorry If there is any mistake,just correct me

Summary: You and Yoosung try to help each other to study for an important physics test,but both of you end up being worse than the other when it comes to physics,and there´s something else Yoosung might be hiding...

Word count: 941

Warnings: None

You were at the empty classroom trying to understand a lil something about the previous lesson,but your thoughts were as empty as the classroom,you cocouldn't even focus,the only few things that came to your mind were about what you were gonna eat today,it was 12:30pm already,you were hungry,but you had to study for this super important test.

-Come on! Why am I getting everything but the result in this problem?!

You were exhausted,hungry,you couldn't focus,what could go worse? Until you heard the door open slowly,revealing one of your classmates,shiny blonde long hair,lovely purple eyes,usually with dark circles,but this wasn´t the case,and an awesome charisma,Yoosung Kim,he wasn't the smartest at your class,but he tried,he was better at other things of course,but let's say that physics wasn't also one of his strong points,like you.

-"Y/N,I didn'/ knew you were here,are you also trying to study for the test?"

-"Yeah,trying...I don't understand anything,I've been stuck on the same problem for like 10 minutes"

-"Well,maybe I could try to help you,if you want me to..."

He was a little bit shy,you knew he wasn't the best at this,but at this point,rejecting some help,even if it was usseles,didn't make sense.

-"Sure,why not?We can help each other if you want"

He sat next to you,pulled out his stuff and checked out your problem.

-"I think I found out the problem,why are you putting this in kilometers? It´s supposed to be in meters"

You were in disbelief,as much as Copernicus when he found out the earth wasn´t the center of the universe,and neither what Yoosung said made any sense.

-"What?No,what are you talking about? The problem tells you that the result must be in kilometers"

-"I know,but in order to do that,you have to transform this into meters to do this operation"

-"What operation? You are adding extra stuff for no reason,just get to the point,don´t make 78 operations!"

-"But to get the final result you have to do this!"

Perfect,now none of you were saying coherent things,because none of those answers weren´t even close to the final result that you had to get.

-"Yoosung,you aren´t helping me that much you know?"

-"What? I- sorry,I´m just trying to help you,but you´re not listening"

-"Because your process makes no sense!"

-"It does! Look, you have to- wait,that doesn´t actually make sense"

-"I told you"

-"But your process is also wrong,both of us are arguing for nothing"

You couldn´t help but laught at the situation,you just spend 5 minutes arguing nonsense,but you liked it.

-"I can´t believe we argued about nothing"

-"Yeah...you shouldn´t have accepted my help,I´m not that good in physics haha"

-"Oh Yoosung don´t say that,I was desperate for some help,It didn´t matter from who,but if I´m being honest,you helped me forget a little bit about all this stress I have,thank you"

You could see how Yoosung was slightly blushing,oh wow,he was- cute,at this point you didn´t even knew what to say or how to react,you couldn´t just suddenly start catching feelings for one of your classmates,that you never thought about it before,that you only saw sometimes at class,if he wasn´t absent playing LOLOL at home,and those only times that you saw him,he was sleeping at class or playing on his phone,these last weeks you saw him at school everyday,and he was coming to classes,and paying attention?What was going on?

-"Really? If that´s the case,I´m glad I could help you in something"

His smile was so pure and innocent,maybe you were starting to catch feelings for him...

-"Yoosung,this might sound weird,coming from someone who is just your classmate,but,would you like to have lunch with me after school?"

-"Sure! I would love to,I don´t have nothing else to do"

Weird,did he just denied being at home playing LOLOL until 1am for having lunch with you? Or was he just being honest? Whatever it was,you were happy about it.

-"Really? Thank you,could I ask you something?"

-"Anything"

-"You´ve been coming to school a lot these days,why? I mean,I don´t want to sound rude,but I barely see you at school,you rarely come,if there´s something going on you can tell me"

-"Oh,thank you for your concern Y/N,but everything´s fine,I live all by myself,it´s just that- I stay up too late playing LOLOL,and I don´t like school too much,haha"

-"I´m happy you´re fine,but how come these last weeks you haven´t missed a day?"

-"Oh uhm- that´s-"

Yoosung didn´t knew what to answer,was he really okay?

-"Alright,I never really pay attention to anyone or anything,but the other day when you woke me up after class,I saw you,I never knew there was a girl as pretty and kind as you,I mean,you woke me up when the class finished,and I just wanted to see you these days as I only see you here,and try to appear as a good student in your eyes"

-"You-you were trying to get my attention?

Now you were the one stuttering,he was trying to get your attention? Because he thought you were kind and pretty? He-liked you?

-"Yeah,it sounds desperate I know...but I barely come here and I never study,what girl likes a guy that doesn´t even try at school"

-"I do"

-"Wha-what?"

He was in disbelief,did you just say that?

-"You don´t need to be a top tier student so that a girl likes you,Yoosung,you might not be good at physics,or sports,but I´m sure you are very good at other stuff,that I would like to know about"

-"I would love to tell you about them,should we leave to eat?It´s pretty late now"

-"Sure"

You packed all your stuff and left with Yoosung,a lovely smile on both your faces with a very strong blush on your face,maybe you did liked him...

This was short AF,and probably the worst thing I ever wrote to start my page lmfaooo,but I tried

[chasseuses]

reasons why i love jade leech part 3

I don't know why I'm doing this again I am a big fool goodbye ☠️ but ahhahahwhahjwhsjfhfjfnfkbdsjbdkdbjd im a doormat for him so. haha. I'll just. fukcignvkjgknv everyone pls look away this is the last post i swear 🤩

Part 1, 2

So.... 🤡 Hi I'm back again with another simp post I'm your local Jade simp and I'm here to point out reasons why I'm an absolute doormat for this eel and why I'm staying as one.

I'M FUCKIFNCGD. SCRVEN AMWIANAJWBAJVWKQVWKAGAKAVDKFBYKDGSKEIANSJAMEINSLENDKEBEKSBEKSHEKDJEKSJRKDJRKDHSKDHKEHSKEBSKEJDLDHDKDBDKHRKDBEKSHEKSUSMS

Ok so, URGFKFHDKDUDKSJSKFHDKGDKDHD if you've been here long enough or something i think i posted something about his initial birthday suit up illustration here which i wrote while i was sobbing and being overly emotional over him.

BUT BASICALLY. IT WAS ABOUT HIS SMILE. I MEAN RTHGJKHJGK JADE LEECH..... SMILING.............N N .VJV.JV. WITHOUT ANY ULTERIOR MOTIVES...... IM FUCKFING DEAD YO!!!!!

HEAR ME OUT. I JUST GJVKJGKVNGKV ... dont u think there's just something about someone as shady as jade who looks shady 90% of the time look like he's not shady for the first time ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ

idk if that made sense but yeah.

ALSO IDK IF ANYONE WAS SIMPING HARD ENOUGH TO NOTICE BUT LIKE 😭 IF U COMPARE HIS HANDS TO FLOYD'S THERE'S A DIFFERENCE.

and now if you've known me long enough to know that i am a big fan of his hands, you'll know that i went absolutely crazy over this detail!!!!!! THEY WERE ROUGHER THAN FLOYD'S AND THAT WAS JUSTHGJJGKGKFNKFKGNGKGNFKDDJFKGNGKFJF A DIRECT HIT TO THE GUT WHAT THE FUCK DISPLEX YOU CANT DO THIS TO US 😭😭😭😭😭

do u see the fork he's holding?

yeah

i wanna be that fork so bad

im not even kidding

i legit want to be that fork.

why?

.

haha.

you dont need to know

ANYWAYS. ONTO THE STORY 🥰

we got a lot of lore for the twins this time around and i am tHRIVING :BIBBEK:

"However, and this is unusual for me, but so many people wishing me ‘Happy birthday’ has made me rather embarrassed." HELP?????????&(&!4(£;#(-__8-##(-_(£+£(£ I II I I I I HUCHJWNWISHEJDHWOHSKWGSKSYAKGSKA HI KAUAKSGKAGSKSGSJAYJAGSJAGAJSYSIGSJGSJSHSJAHsks

Their mother!!! Uses!!! -san!!!! At the end of their names!!!!!!! Which got me going 🧐 that is not usual at all!!!!! wtf is going on in the leech household

a lot of ppl theorized mafia stuff and all of that which honestly makes sense imo and also because i find that hella hot HAHSMDGSKDHKSJS mr leech...... 😳 mafia.... HELPGKFJKGJFKF

wait. won't that mean he's rich.

bonus points eyy /j GFJFHFJDHJFNF

"Well, they do say that married couples take after each other… It’s good that they get along well." MR LEECH YOUR HAND IN MARRIAGE RFNJVJKHKGKGKOGJGKVJKFCKIJGKTJKFFJKDHDKXHFFHFJ

guys im losing it

if that wasn't already obvious RHUFHGUF

HELLO????????? ONE OF THE REASONS WHY HE LIKES TERRARIUMS??1?"!"!'! HELPFKVKV CONTROL IT'S CONTROL

"Whether they live or die is also up to me…" i just think.

no i dont think but you get what i mean why the fuck is that line lowkey hot lmfao something is wrong with me

i dont knwo why the fuck but the fact that he likes unpredictability is also kinda????? lmao how boring was ur life that everything u did went exactly your way 😭 how does that bring u amusement i cant relate gomen mr leech

or am i completely wrong idk 🗿 mr leech tell me more about you onegai

Ok honestly, before the birthday card came out, I thought their earrings were like,,, from their parents or something. like heirlooms!! i thought they were precious in that aspect but what i rlly didn't expect is for them to fckinghgkgngknfkf FIGHT A DAMN STURGEON FOR ITS SCALES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

deadass why would a sturgeon challenge them anyways 🧐 and the twins were just like, "ok sure but can we have your scales if we win" and they rlly did 😭 just how strong were you guys before middle school wtf!!!!

and they turned the scales into earrings 🧐 which is now what they wear!! p cute

they're apparently popular to use as amulets in the coral sea so i. i fucking rotted over this AHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA hrufhfigjofhckfbcjc should i delve deeper into this? no. but perhaps you can find out what my rot is about just by reading this single bullet

"Floyd and I have gone near beaches on nights with fireworks as well." HELEPEHLEPDFKLEGSLDOSODB EGHFKCNDKMCURLDHLDGSMX

WATCHIFNFG FIREOEKSKF WITHHF JADE AJFNJFVJFHKDHF

ohmigod this is getting way longer than intended 🤡 should i continue

yeah fucj it HFJVHFJHCJFHJCJ everybody pls ignore my rot 😌

as all of you know, jade wears purple eyeliner. that's right.

Purple eyeliner.

Why does this matter, you ask? Oh sweet summer child, it may not matter to you but to me—eyeliner is super fucking hot I kid you not I started crying at night when I thought about this and wrote a mini essay about it like a fool so I'm just going to.

I am legitimately losing my shit over this like-?? Who allowed you to fucking put on eyeliner? You're already deadly without them and more so with them.

It honestly makes me wonder if he puts this on his own or not but seeing how deft he is with his hands, it's not a stretch to assume that he puts it on his own.

And I find that really hot since look at those clean strokes..!! He's better at applying them than me. I have this desire to let him do my makeup but when I think about it I start making incomprehensible noises and bury my face into my pillow. Purple eyeliner just-? Looks so good on him?

It should be illegal at this rate he looks so tempting I hate it. Sometimes I just have this urge to ruin in, I don t care how I just want to smudge it for some reason. Like deadass, I just want you all to appreciate how good his eyes look!

HELP HIS EYESDHFHTKHEKFHDKFHDMFHKDHFKSGDK IM FUCKFINDG LSOING IT

WHY DO I LOVE HIS EYES SO MUCH I DONT FUCKING KNOW I'VE NEVER BEEN A FAN OF CHARACTERS WITH MISMATCHED EYES BUT WITH HIM IM JUSTHGJJFJG KG NVM

His eyes are fucking beautiful, man. 🤡💞 Could stare at them for hours and never get tired!!!!

Need I say more?

BRO IM FUVKGIGNVJKGVKNGKFHFKFFJF HIS TEETH IM CRYIGGN WHAT THE ACTUALLY FUCK I KNEW THEY WERE SHARP BUTJGKVJGKGJFKGJCKFJKCFJKFFHKCJFKGJDOFHKDHFKDHDKDHDJ BARKBARKBARKBARK

I mean what 🗿

guys displex is insane because they literally made jade have two ssrs in a row with banners that were available at the same time do you know how painful that was for me

when jamil bday card dropped all i lost ebg because i panicked over the thought of a jade bday card and started saving!!! and i did!!!! i managed to save up 100 pulls and i was so fucking chill after that but then,

abema stream happened

i was asleep when that happened so when i woke up i had like 283628 pings in discord telling me that he has an ssr for the halloween event and i was just 🗿 yo say sike his bday is soon displex must be joking

haha nope! they were dead serious.

that shit was painful i started crying 🤡 what the fuck because i didn't have enough gems for both ssrs and his halloween card was just absolutely beautiful.

so i went insane and saved 200 copies of the same jade card in attempt to make him come home before pity so i dont have to whale

I mean,

Black nails.

The bandages.

The harness.

The hat is kinda ugly but that's ok.

THE BELTS AT HIS WAISTFJTKDJRKFBFKFHOFHDKDHDKSGDKSHSKXHSKJS

SO I WAS REALLY DESPERATE AHHSHDHFJFGHJFJF THANKFULLY THEY BOTH CAME HOME BEFORE PITY SO TYSM JADE I LOVE U FOR THAT AHAHJAHDJ

oh shit this got long so imma just end this here 🐬 if you read this far, congrats HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

[fockbambi]

okay so, this week has literally been my worst----- i’ve had like . continuous panic attacks n i literally thought i was abt to Die, so I went to Get Some Help like the Big Kid I Am , and Basically, i need to turn my life around .

i’m usually active at night (idk why but my muse is rly strong after midnight ): big F in the chat), but i want to sleep early n wake up early, and get used to writing in the morning. SO, this change might take me a few days to a few weeks. i might just focus on a few threads, might not be writing for a while, or might just post headcanons and solos. Who Knows . but im letting you all know.

also im going back to screenwriting classes, bc i really, Really , want to succeed in it. and actually, i made this blog more as a character study (im actually writing a Show abt,,Bambi..w0w,), and i’m not gonna lie IM REALLY HAPPY ABT THE THREADS I’VE HAD WITH ALL OF MY RP PARTNERS BC WOW, I RLY GOT TO DEVELOP MY TRASH BOI, THANK U. and so, i might like , also slow down a bit to focus on bambi’s script (i want to get to class with smth in hand and just work on it throughout the whole Semester and try to sell it by the end of 2020 ...i kno, this is Very Big Dreams but i Believe in Myself).

but also this means looking for more pre-established plots and very in-depth threads . i rly want to focus on bambi’s key character aspects (like his memory loss, his music and Very Much his gender identity) and especially ESPECIALLY his dialogue. i think atm it’s kind of lacking. im still trying to find his voice. diff threads might not b cohesive since i’ll be trying different . . . voices. u might not even notice a difference tbh sdfkjsdkg BUT ILL KNOW.

SO ANYWAY ENOUGH ABOUT BAMBI . i’ll be taking a break from life starting this week until january. i’ll hav more time to rp, but i’v prepared a bunch of hobbies for me to delve into so pls don’t count on my free time to be here at all times. i’m gonna try to practice sticking to a rp writing routine (perhaps 2hrs a day? 3hrs? or 2 days a week) and uh, nothing more. KEYWORD: TRY.

i rly want to focus on painting, reading books, going to the movies and exercising-- plus anything that’ll help me improve my writing. i’d hope that by the end of march, i’ll see some kind of change in either my body or my writing (or hopefully both lmfao , ,, ), and by proxy, an improvement in bambi’s story :----)

to conclude; changing my lifestyle, will def affect my activity on here . bambi’s story might or might not go through huge changes . i’ll be removing things, adding things, changing, editing, rewriting, re-editing, deleting-------------- you get it . i’m going all in for this bitch because I. WILL. SELL. HIS. STORY.

I WILL DO IT. I WANT TO WATCH MY BABY ON TV. AND I’LL DO JUST THAT.

thank u for coming to my ted talk . but for real,  you’re interested in deep character development, don,t hesitate to IM me. im very very serious when it comes to plotting and will not stop until we’re both satisfied with the level of development. i’m also HELLA into headcanons and love to improve upon our muses’ relationships/plots beyond our threads. MESSAGE ME. i’m slow, but i’ll do it, i promise.

[werewolfwilds]

i redid an ask meme that i had originally done ~3 years ago to see the comparison so for archiving purposes im putting it in a lil journal entry here ! i wanna start doing small journal entries again it was fun when i did that

new answers bolded

1) what images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpapers?

my desktop bg is literally just…. a collage of kageyama manga screencaps a h a,,,, and my cellphone bg are drawings some gay drew me like 74724 years ago :v // my desktop rn is actually a background from one of the dmmd routes LMFAO..... idk which one it is but i’ve always liked those bg pics!! my cell lock screen is p5 art and my bg is leopika

2) have you ever had a crush on a teacher?

nooooope // nah

3) what was your last text message?

my phone is dead so i wouldnt be able to tell you lmfao i dont even remember // it was a gif from kelly lol

4) what do you see yourself doing in 10 years?

hopefully working a job i enjoy and making costumes and being happy!! // god i have no idea and it freaks me out... hopefully working,,

5) if you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be?

hoommee ((or at katsucon tbh)) // at the beach with friends maybe

6) what was your coolest halloween costume?

a white cat probably lmao // i dont think ive ever had a particularly exciting halloween costume but one year i was sharpay from high school musical and i think i peaked then tbh

7) what was your favorite 90s show?

uhhhh….. i didnt really… start watching tv until like… the 2000′s so i really cant tell you man lol // spongebob started in 1999 does that coUNT,

8) who was your last kiss?

(answer redacted) // :/ someone should kiss me so i can change this answer lmao

9) have you ever been stood up?

nope //  nah

10) favorite ice cream flavor?

vanilla w/ vanilla oreos ok u need to underst a n d // this hasn’t changed i haven’t had this particular ice cream in a long time but i still stand by it

11) have you been to las vegas?

nahh // nope

12) your favorite pair of shoes?

idk i have these black ones i wear everywhere lol // i have a pair of white sneakers that i refuse to stop wearing now

13) honestly, have you ever cheated on your significant other?

i wouldnt even consider it. // no bc i’m not a piece of shit lmao?

14) what is your favorite fruit?

hmmm…. pineapple orrr…. strawberries but only if they’re the really good kind like they have to be perfect // pineapple!!

15) have you talked to anyone on tumblr that you could see yourself  dating/having sex with? if possible?

….. ye s… yes. // in the past apparently so but thinking about it now nah lol

16) are you into hookups? short or long term relationships?

hookups arent my thing eh i prefer long term relationships altho i cant really say ive been in a “long” term relationship pffff // i don’t think hookups will ever be my thing, emotionally long term relationships are what i’m here for but i’m also a Very Impulsive Person so i cant tell you if this will stay a fact :’)

17) do you smoke? if so, what?

nope dont wanna // no thanks

18) what do you do to get over your anger?

usually talk to people or shout into word // i have to vent about it to someone probably a thousand times even months or years after it happens tbh

19) do you believe in god?

nahh // nah

20) does the person you’re in love with know it?

i aint in love with anyone rn so no? // i’m not in love with anyone.

21) favorite position?

………….. for w hat………. // oh honey lmfao... N/A

22) what’s your horoscope sign?

virgo/ox ovob // Virgo/sun, Aries/moon, Libra/rising and Cancer/midheaven

23) your fears?

literally everything i already named a few so ill name some others… ghh anything in… the ocean or lakes and stuff frightens me and i really dont know why bu tlike…. fish and crabs and jellyfish and seaweed cuz it’s evil and stu f f basically anything that’s not a mammal or turtles or penguins…. lo l im a baby // uncertainty is a big fear of mine and also people being mad at me lmao... as far as physical fears though i have debilitating fears of almost all insects/arachnids and lobsters/shrimp/crawfish :^)))))

24) how many pets do you have? what kind?

two cats and a dog!! // one cat one dog

25) what never fails to turn you on?

i dunno,,/////// // lol neck biting/kissing oof

26) your idea of a perfect first date?

im okay with mostly anything i just really like spending time with the person ; v ; // i’ve never really had an answer for this? thinking about dates has always made me so anxious for whatever reason but i’ll be happy to just spend time with them doing whatever honestly, i’m a super indecisive person aha

27) what is something most people don’t know about you?

i dont really know tbh lmfao // i’ve considered in the past looking into mental conditions (anxiety/bpd/etc) to see if i might have one or two but i never want to say anything about it because i don’t want to self-diagnose anything.

28) what makes you feel the happiest?

nice weather and nice conversations w/ best people u//v//u // nice weather and hanging out with people who are fun and easy to talk to

29) what store do you shop at most often?

does….. arda wigs count or… // does arda wigs still count bc mood lmao but truthfully now it’s probably target

30) how do you feel about oral? giving and/or receiving?

kkdkjsfkjkjfj??fsfj/// go for i t??? i have no problems with i t??? i dont think ill ever be willing to put a dick in my mouth though // these random sexual questions thrown in here are something aren’t they lmao. not going to disclose much but i will stand by the fact that i will not put a dick in my mouth lo l

31) do you believe in karma?

sometimes ye // i believe that people will eventually get what’s coming to them but i don’t believe in karma as a solid concept if that makes sense? like i don’t think it’s guaranteed

32) are you single?

yup yup // yeah it’s been wild lmao

33) do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize?

i think being sincere is the best way to apologize– if you truly mean it the person will know. you dont need to buy your forgiveness. // the best way to apologize is just to apologize sincerely and change your behavior if it’s applicable.

34) are you a good swimmer?

ehh??? im ok i guess– i took swimming lessons as a kid but i havent done legit swimming ever since then lmao,, ive always been best at the backstroke tho yea // i mean i have the ability to swim but i’m not olympic-worthy or anything lmao

35) coffee or tea?

ehhh im not big on either tbh // chocolate milk and you can fight me

36) online shopping or shopping in person?

depends what your shopping for i guess?? online is more relaxed i guess // online probably because shopping in person Gives Me Anxiety

37) would you rather be older or younger than your current age?

ehhh im happy where i am tbh // older

38) cats or dogs?

do not make me choose // cats and dogs* there i fixed it for you

39) are you a competitive person?

ahaa,,,,, oh god yeah,, // OOF yeah

40) do you believe in aliens?

i believe there’s life on other planets somewhere?? so i guess?? // i believe in aliens in the sense that there’s no way we are the only living life forms in the universe but not in the science-fiction way you feel me

41) do you like dancing?

i do but i suck at it lmao // i do but i: A- suck, and B- have no stamina

42) what kind of music to you listen to?

nearly everything tbh // i’m not picky when it comes to music but imma be real w u. almost all of the music on my phone is kpop. seventeen is my favorite group along with astro, and i also enjoy super junior, shinee, red velvet, etc among so many others,,, im pretty wide spread !

43) what is your favorite cartoon character?

i will never be able to pick just one // i’ll literally never be able to answer this

44) where are you from?

philadelphia uvu // philly!

45) eat at home or eat out?

hmmm at home. // at home

46) how much more social are you when you’re drunk?

i never plan on being drunk tyvm // i’ve never consumed alcohol in my life and to be Quite Fucking Honest i want nothing to do with it

47) what was the last thing you bought for yourself?

bracelets ! ; u ; // uh... excluding food and music... earrings i think

48) why do you think your followers follow you?

uhhhhhhh lmfao i have no idea i think… a good amount are for my cosplays at least?? or id like to think so lmfao but i really dont know pfft // my followers have just accumulated and hung around over the years... i know i gained a good amount from my snk days as arlert-the-troops and then through my haikyuu phase, whether it was for my cosplay or other posts that i made... whenever someone follows me now im not entirely sure what its for but i appreciate everyone who’s stuck around!

49) how many hours do you sleep at night?

it’s never regular man // 6-9 (lol) hours is pretty normal for me

50) what worries you most about the future?

everything tbh // the future as a concept worries me lol

[silversarcasm]

have you seen Runaways on Hulu yet? I've heard great things about it

I watched a couple of episodes and uhhhh I wasn;t impressed at all

I think because I adore the comic books I find it hard to understand the changes they made, especially in how it kind of tears out a large part of the point of the comics by having them be at least for a while….not runaways…

like the starting point is a lot of rich teenagers who are quite suddenly confronted with the evil of their parents and abandon their advantages to live on the streets in order not to be a part of it, it’s tragic and a lot about kids learning to survive together and having them for the first part of the show continue to live in luxury and carry on with their normal lives is bizarre

also I hate hate hate the changes to Chase, like he is viciously abused by his father for not being ‘smart’ and this is especially tied up with the eugenical ideology of the parents and the idea that they have to have the ‘perfect’ children and chase did not fit that, again a lot of his character is that he’s a lot rougher than the others and knows more about how to survive because hes kinda had to, but the show decided he wasn;t interesting enough and made him really smart in the show lmfao like hmmmmmm maybe this abused kid should be more like how his abusive father wants him to be!!! fuck off!

And then having some fucking weird love triangle with gert, chase and karolina was wack and how warped the whole chase/gert romance was rly upset me, in fact they gutted a lot of gert’s character and as far as I got didn;t have a single mention of her socialism lmao they just have her be like…a libfem who is actually just ealous she cant this jockboy ooooh how exciting bleurch

Also changing Nico’s powers I think takes away a large part of her character too, like the whole idea of her staff is she has to say a spell using any word but she can only say it once, so she constantly has to be aware of what she says, when she uses spells and is terrified of running out, fear of not being good enough of not having enough is a large part of Nico’s character, she is intensely insecure, and having such an uncertain and finite power is a fantastic mechanic to show that but instead its like yh she thinks it it happens cool????

and having Karolina be some kind of pseudoscientologist was weird and again I couldn;t work out why, especially in how her lesbianism is treated as some sort of rebellion thing against her upbringing which uhhhhhhhhh yikes

I will say I liked the Nico and Alex interactions a lot, even if I don;t understand the point of the dead sister story in it and I’m sad they got rid of Nico and Gert’s friendship

The death of Molly’s parents was possibly due to them being mutants but I’m not sure? again it seemed an odd change and gets rid of how tragic the running away situation is for her trying to grapple with the fact that her parents were evil and she has to get out at ten years old (her interactions with wolverine regarding this kill me lmao) and instead relegating that to backstory is a shame

Alex was probably the best portrayed out of them, his isolation, nerdiness and leadership skills were showing through in those first few episodes although obviously his major character moments come a lot later and I didn;t get to that point and I do worry that they’ll mess that up to lmao

Anyway I haven;t watched a lot of it so maybe some of this gets corrected and maybe it gets a lot better but I was so excited by the casting and I had high hopes and they got crushed pretty quick which sucks cause I’ve been waiting for this for over 8 years :’)

[bbangjaes]

ahhhhh this is such a cute idea!!!! i’m actually like this (except i practically live in leggings)

tysm for this request i enjoyed doing this one a lil too much hehe

-mik

SF9 REACTION: Seeing Their Girlfriend In A Skirt/Dress For The First Time

Youngbin: 

Binnie would be v v v v v into you wearing a skirt or dress (i just see him really liking more feminine and girly girls but idk). I see him being in the middle of scolding one of his members (who would most likely be Hwiyoung lmfao) and then you walk in to tell him you are ready for your bubble tea date and his whole world just stops when he sees you. This boy would freeze tf up bc he was so surprised that you weren’t in your usual sweatpants and t shirt attire. No, you were in a flowery dress and boy was he here for it. He’d practically fling whoever he was talking to across the room (have a nice flight, Hwi) to get to you. He’d def tell you how beautiful you looked and would be on cloud 9 to have someone so smokin as a gf.

Inseong: 

This little shit would be cheeky af if you wore a skirt. He’d be laying down on the bed scrolling through twitter or somethin and you’d walk out of the closet with a miniskirt on bc all of your shorts were in the wash (i guess it’s Inseong’s lucky day *wink wink*). He’d see you walking past him out of the corner of his eye and he’d whistle at you, “Helloooo, gorgeous.” Having had it with his shit, you’d throw a shoe at him. He’d masterfully dodge the flying projectile, lick his lips like a little perv, and prob make a joke about it being pointless for you to even put that skirt on bc, with the things it was making him think, it won’t be on you for long (LOL I KNOW THIS DIRTY FORGIVE ME).

(FUCKING HELL THIS GIF ISNT MAKING THIS ANY BETTER IM SORRY)

Jaeyoon:

I feel like our honey voice would be very pleased to see his gf in a frilly dress of sorts. I imagine him taking one look at you and his face lighting up right away. He’d twirl you around and fake waltz with you like a complete loser bc he’d be over the moon to have you looking so cute and to have you be his girlfriend and no one else’s. He’d probably sing you a song all dramatically and say to you, “You look like a literal princess, Y/N. How did I get so lucky?” I also feel like the world’s biggest butt guy ever Jaeyoon would take the chance smack dat ass in celebration.

Dawon:

*crack knuckles* Moving onto the king of extra, the master of memes, and the gold medalist in the sport of being dramatic, Lee Sanghyuk (i’ll hold for the applause). This boy would not let it go unnoticed that you were wearing a skirt (he would practically scream from the rooftops that you were not wearing jeans like you usually did). You’d walk in the room where all of the members were hanging out to ask Dawon a question and his eyes would nearly fall out of their sockets and roll around the floor. He’d quickly look around at the other guys and their heads would all snap down to look at their hands or their phones or whatever so that he wouldn’t kill them for looking at you. He’d go over to you and sort of whisper-scream at you, “Y/N, WHERE ARE YOUR PANTS?” You’d be really confused and he’d smack his forehead bc you had no idea that you were dangerously close to giving him a raging boner nosebleed (I’m so sorry I don’t know what is wrong with me today I think it’s my hormones).

Zuho:

This boy would love love love to see his girl wearing a short skirt. When he saw what you were wearing for your date, he started blushing so hard that he looked like an actual tomato. Seriously though, I think he would like he had transformed into a literal fucking tomato he’d be so red (i think i said this in my bf post for him but i feel like he has a thing for legs so you wearing a skirt would murder him). He would be so flustered he that he wouldn’t even be able to speak, he’d just sort of grunt in shock or something (he’d try super super hard to not look you up and down bc he is a getleman but bruh he would be struggling).

Rowoon:

SEOKWOO WOULD GO INTO MOM MODE FASTER ZUHO CAN RAP WITH COINS IN HIS NOSE (damn, mik, that’s fast af). As soon as he saw what you were wearing, he would be both immensely turned on and horrified. This literal mom would sprint to you and use his giant body to shield you from the confused gazes that the two of you were receiving from the rest of sf9 (who would just be chillin at the other end of the room). He’d bend down to you and whisper, “Hi, sweetie, you look really really pretty today in that *gulps* skirt but I have a super comfy pair of sweatpants with your name on them in my room.” You’d look at him for a sec then smack him in the back of the head and go on with your business bc you’re an independent woman who don’t need no man telling her what to wear (fuck yea, you go girl). Don;t worry though, the defeated mom would live to fight another day.

Taeyang:

Hold on a second, I’m laughing just thinking about how lit Tae would be if you wore a skirt in front of him…….. ok, I’m good. I can see him just chilling on the couch and you walk past him in your short skirt and making him literally fly out of his seat and into space bc he’d be so fucking lit. This sunshine would dance for joy and probably body roll his way over to you and tell you how much his boomy boomy liked that (you know what i’m just going to own how much of a perv i am at this point). He’d tell you that, as much as he really liked it when you wore yoga pants, he might like it even more when you wore skirts bc FUCK YEA SKIRTS MAN.

Hwiyoung:

Cheeky lil shit Hwi would really like to see you in a skirt (though the mega perv would prefer if you didn’t have anything on at all, but that’s besides the point here). I imagine him just chillin with the guys and you walk in to sit down across from him while looking at your phone when you suddenly hear some noise that sounds like an infant crying (i’m laughing so hard rn idk why i just wrote that). When look around all confused bc srsly wtf was that, you suddenly notice a crazed Hwiyoung flying toward you. He latches onto you and whispers in your ear, “You look so pretty, Y/N” (sheesh, what a creep).

Chani:

This poor boyfriend would be in shambles if you wore a skirt. He wouldn’t be able to focus on anything. Like he’d be pouring himself a glass of milk or some shit and totally miss the cup bc he was too busy staring at you in your itsy bitsy skirt. Or if he was in dance practice, he’d space out bc he was thinking about you looking freakishly beautiful in a skirt. He would go through the whole day wanting to pull his fucking hair out bc of what you were doing to him. When he had finally had enough, he would pull you into a room where you two could be alone and just sort of hand you a pair of pants, “Please, end my suffering, Y/N.”  (idk why i made his reaction so angsty but it just felt so right)

[imagine-the-fandomz-blog]

Could I request Ryuji "Bon" and confessing to his crush?

((Ok, this turned out cliché as fuck, like literally everything about this is cliché and I’m so sorry [not really all that sorry] lmfao. Also Bon is very OOC, so I apologize about that too, but like how he acts in this kind of fits him in a way I guess?? At least I can see it haha. Anyway, I hope you enjoy despite the overused tropes xD))

–

Today was the day. The day that he would finally confess his true feelings to you.

Bon had woken up confidently that morning, his mind set on telling you how he felt for you after having concealed his feelings for the entirety of your relationship. Truth be told, he had fallen for you at first sight, but he held back on telling you until after you two had become more acquainted with one another. He never did, however, find an appropriate opportunity to confess (mostly because he chickened out last minute and decided to shift the conversation elsewhere whenever he tried bringing it up).

Today would be different, though. The anticipation of telling you was eating him up and he wanted- no needed, to know if you felt the same way. Even if you didn’t return his feelings (which he was hopeful that you would, of course), he would feel better just telling you and getting it off his chest.

Bon had texted you earlier asking if you wanted to hang out for the day since it was the weekend and classes weren’t in session, to which you agreed. Of course he was elated once you sent a message back, but at the same time his confidence of confessing slowly deflated and his nerves seeped in. Thoughts of backing out from his confession flooded his mind, but he was extremely stubborn, as well as determined, to tell you.

“No,” he told his reflection in the mirror, sternly, “you will not back out of this today. You need to tell them how you feel.” He glowered at himself before sighing and getting ready to go out to the local park where you both agreed to meet up at.

Once he threw on a pair of jeans and a clean T-shirt, he slipped into the pair of tennis shoes that resided by his front door, then gathered up his wallet and phone and shrugged into his hoodie. He stepped out in to the cool fall air, locking the door behind him before he did so, then made the trek to the park. It didn’t take him long to arrive since he lived just a few blocks away, and he noticed you weren’t there just yet. He decided to sit on a nearby bench to wait for you.

Bon ran a hand through his hair as he thought about what the best way to confess to you would be. He thought about different scenarios he saw on TV he could possibly use, but ultimately decided each one he thought of was too corny and he would most certainly make a fool of himself if he were to act out any of them.

Growling slightly, he hunched over to rest his elbows on his legs and rub his temples with his fingers. “Why is this so difficult?” he pondered aloud, “Why can’t I just tell them…?”

“Tell who what?” came a voice from beside him, causing him to jump. Glancing up at the figure who stood before him, he noticed that it was you and relaxed a bit. However, it then clicked that you had heard his mumbling and his cheeks slowly turned a soft shade of pink.

“A-ah nothing, (Name), don’t worry about it,” he responded, rubbing the back of his head nervously and shooting his gaze off to the side, a slight pout on his lips.

Narrowing your eyes at the teen before you, you hummed a bit as you leaned closer to his face and tried to peer in to his eyes as a means to get more information from him. The sudden lack of space between your faces caused Bon to become even more flustered than he already was, which was quite the sight for you. And as much as you wanted to tease him, you knew better than to do so.

Your current method of trying to get Bon to confess the truth of his earlier statement only served to cause the poor boy to become even more flustered and he absolutely refused to look you in the eye, which was, if you were honest, quite out of character for your tough-looking friend. You sighed exasperatedly before straightening back up as he let out a visible breath of relief. You couldn’t help but to grin.

“So,” you began, shifting your weight from your right leg to your left, making Bon finally look up at you, “Did you plan on us just sitting on this bench all afternoon, or did you want to actually do something? Not that I would mind to do that, per se, but I figured you might want to go grab a bite to eat or something.”

“Y-yea, that sounds great,” he stuttered out while standing from the bench a little too quickly, “Let’s go to that little cafe down the street. I-if you’re okay with it, that is-!”

You chuckled. “Yes, Ryuji-kun, that’s fine. It’s actually one of my favorite places to go!” You shot him a warm smile with your eyes closed, head tilted slightly to the side, missing the deer-in-the-headlights look he gave in response. You then skipped off in the direction of the cafe while calling out over your shoulder, “C’mon Ryuji, let’s go!”

“S-so cute…” was Bon’s only thought as he stared in awe at you, feeling his heart beat rapidly in his chest and his cheeks grow warm for the umpteenth time during his exchange with you. After a moment or two of staring, he then followed after you, the blush still present on his features the entire way there.

–

You both arrived at the small cafe a few minutes later, and immediately went up to the counter to order your favorite snacks and beverages. As you were pulling out your wallet to pay, Bon shook his head and placed his hand on top of yours to stop you. “I’ll cover it, (Name), don’t worry about it.”

“Oh thanks, Ryuji! That’s very kind of you!” you beamed.

He blushed before grumbling out a “Yea, yea,” then handed over a few bills to cover the cost of the food to the cashier. After getting his change back and getting your food and drinks, he led you over to a small table off to the side in a secluded area where the two of you chatted about random things and enjoyed each other’s company in semi-privacy.

Bon, after a while, elected to just sit and listen to you chatter away, inputting his thoughts when needed, as his nerves started creeping up again. He was still very much determined to confess to you, but he couldn’t help but to be nervous. What if you rejected him? What would happen after that? He didn’t want to lose you completely, as you were one of the most important things in his life. You made him strive to be a better person and was always there for him when he needed you the most. A frown found its way on his lips, and you took notice almost immediately.

“Ryuji?” you called out, breaking him out of his reverie as concern swept over your features, “Is everything okay? I’m not boring you am I?”

Slightly panicking at that statement, Bon quickly replied, “No, no (Name), not at all. I’m just…thinking, is all.” He shifted his attention to the warm cup of coffee in his hands.

“Oh,” you leaned forward a bit on the table, pressing for him to continue, “What about?”

He grunted in response while he blushed, one of his hands shooting up to fiddle with one of his piercings. It was now or never he supposed. “A-about…us.”

You blinked, already assuming the worst. Bon had always told you had a bad habit of jumping to conclusions, to which you brushed him off each and every time he did so. “…What about us? Have I done something wrong? If I have, just tell me and I’ll fix it-”

His warm, calloused hands suddenly encased yours, and this time it was your turn to blush. “You haven’t done anything wrong, I promise,” he sighed before looking you in the eye, “Look, (Name), I’ve…I’ve really liked you for the longest time. More than just as a friend. I-I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to make things awkward between us, but…I needed to get this off my chest. I can only hope that you feel the same way as I do.” He could feel his heart beat, almost painfully so,  and his face felt like it was on fire as he awaited your response.

The silence that dragged on was unbearable, so Bon simply sighed and closed his eyes in defeat, withdrawing his hands from yours, “I-I’m really sorry, I know I’ve just made things really awk-”

A pair of soft lips against his forehead was honestly the last thing he expected from you. His eyes shot open just as you were sitting back down since you had to stand a bit and lean over the table to give him the short kiss. Gawking at you, he noticed that your cheeks were dusted a nice shade of pink and the sweet smile you donned on your lips.

“Ryuji, I-I’m so happy you feel the same way,” you said, grabbing one of his hands in both of yours. Your beautiful, (e/c) eyes sparkled as you continued on with your own confession, “I had a feeling you did by the way you acted around me, but I was too nervous to say anything in case I had misread your behavior.”

It took a moment for Bon to register this new revelation. Once he did, however, he didn’t bother to hide the gentle smile that grew on his face. “Well, if I had known that I would’ve confessed a long time ago.” You both chuckled.

Finishing up your drinks soon thereafter, you both left that cafe in high spirits. You couldn’t help but to feel the whole situation was a bit cliché, but honestly neither of you minded. You wouldn’t have had it any other way.

[calvinlepesh]

Interpret how u please but know it saved my mind and soul.

SUMMARYWe have primitive speech in comparison to aliens/ superior being/s/ {Our God self]DONT FUCKING READ THIS IF U ARENT OPEN MINDED! DEADASS FUCKING SERIOUS UR GONNA MISS OUT.to become open minded you must have some form of empathy. Some form meaning you must have to have either the almost perfect understanding empathy based on your ability to place yourself in somebody elses position along with all of their past tramas, what they just fucking ate, basically whatever relevant to the situation apparent or not. I.E do I help this guy for gas hes asking the clerk hes begging he says hes got no money has to get home to his family. seems like a good dude. not making a fuss. being very nice about it. I paid for his fucking gas. Thats good energy right there. sent away and returned in ways that probably already occured but I don't reconize them as a direct result from helping. If you did what you thought was right or whatever you wanted to do actually. Which is what you're going to do anyways cause thats what you fucking decieded you wanted yourself to do. So if this doesn't hit you like it hits most people and myself included. Then just close the book and call me insane. If being insane is living content in my beliefs and my tommorow during the today but with passion for the future. then im fucking insane. Because thats what my program has done for me Truly search for good and if it isn't what you want to spend your time trying to help or doesnt concern you. You weren't meant to be concerened by it and thats okay because it will concern someone else at the right time. etc considered and making a choice based off of critical information secured from a display of empathy. If you cant show empathy practice please fucking practice before you continue reading. Actually idgaf you do you. Your life do what you desire.Speech is used to manifest things into reality of time. Typically faster if done consistently. Tested and proved. By many. My barber for example. little over 7 months ago living in a 1 bed room dumb girlfriend cat and hes cutting hair in his kitchen. The entire time throughout the year  hes telling me about this house hes getting his own very first house brand fucking new completely taylored to him. He told me saying Lep yeah my mom is helping me buy a house and get my career moving finally. After long periods of being told to basically fuck off his mom basically has a change of heart randomly. Hes got a 3 bedroom house. A barber room with checkered floot. 3 tvs niceass fucking interior furniture hes painting the house and has done many renovations over the last few months of him having this house. Just returning there earlier tonight actually I had walked in and had to check if he changed the paint in his front room again! Truly He doesn't even realize it completely. Hes almost so dumb hes smart. in a sense that being happy is being smart. He isn't stupid tho. My barber is on some of the same shit I am. Some. thats a different story tho. The point is he talked to me everytime he cut my hair for 6 month. Not just me I know for certain. He would talk motherfuckers ears off im sure they hated it. Honestly I hadn't been enlightened at this point. I fucking hated it. OMg yeah we fucking get it bro u want checkered floors. So many motherfuckers are talking nowadays. But do they always talk the same shiteveryday? Ill say it again. Do you talk about the same thing everysingle day? Do you talk to someone every single day? I don' t even have to ask what or why you do it. You're doing it because you have the desire of the company of that person. or their opinion, Whatever they have of value or beneficially or mutually beneficially to you or both. My barber talked about all the cool shit he was gonna do with his house. Having a pit bike track in the back. making a fire bit. building a deck. Making a TV back drop out of stained wood stained nailed and cut by him and I. Painted the entire house. CHECKERED FLOORS MOTHERFUCKERS. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO is MANIFEST IT IN YOUR LIFE. The sooner you start talking about and creating this lifestyle and figuring out how you're going to do it one day at a time. Talk to the person ur nervous to talk to. If they fall in love with you. THATS FUCKING KICKASS. if he thinks u dont belong in his universe right now understand thats a huge fucking positive in your life. Now you can live in this moment in time and know in this moment in time that it isn't happening because if it isn't meant to happen yet if at all. For all you know you could meet  him in 5 years and get married have 3 kids live happily ever after. Straight the fuck up! Right now im consistently talking to a girl i had the hugest crush on but never did anything about it. WHY DIDN'T I DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. CAUSE HOW FUCKING AWKWARD WOULD IT HAVE BEEN in minnesota when im visiiting and havent been home for christmas in 5 years that we just so happen to go get breakfest at a taveren like wtf? and its where she works serving. Top it off while we are walking in I see the sign of the place and reconize it from an instagram post that she posted and I had liked and inturn she liked my picture. whatever not important. all im trying to say is the future is 100% unpredictable in every sense. but at the same time it will be 100% guarenteed with my mindset program if applied properly. You never know tomorrow and that may scare you but what if you already had chosen what happens tomorrow long before anything existed? Do you trust your own judgement? The best part is you dont even have to trust your own judgement. YOU DONT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING YOU DONT WANT TO DO. But sometimes doing them is what you're meant to do typically for your benefit anyways, if not its a punishment, and if it isn't your benefit its somebody elses and they may or may not know that you're the direct cause. you may or may not know ever. But I believe that when we die we are enlightened and are shown the purpose to life. whether a test or a simulation. multiple tests inside one another or something uncomprehensible to myself or anyone. But thats different. What I do know is that a key to a good life Is a good mindset. Choose the mindset of I'm the shit. Cause I am, Cause I decieded I am, Im good fucking looking, People may call you a slut or whore but honestly it may be disgusting a little bit but they're probably jealous of all the hot people you've been with. Or even the fact ur getting laid. most single people hate on girls anyway. aint no boy in a nice healthy relationship talking shit on females and if he is he probably likes u and is trying to hide it. anyways besides the point. You need to develop something you say to yourself {I recommend} outloud {especially for getting started} whether written or set as an alarm for your phone ur background to your phone it could be a picture with a completely hidden message behind it. just associate something or have something that has things you know deep down in your soul you need to say to yourself. For example for me, Ive always been sensitive, still am a lot less than I was alot, But over time After being outcasted from my family at 15 being legally kiddnapped, and broken down on all aspects of self with many failed although maybe not completely failed attempts at bettering myself to the way that works for normies or the purposefully chosen people to be uneducated of the power of speech. They were esentially taking me in at 15 with a metaphorical emotionally broken leg. { ie i hate myself and im a bad person i dont give a fuck and i just want to die cause i dont understand the world} that was my attitude ie the broken metaphorical leg that I came into the school but for the sake of this metaphor this hospital with. However pretend in our metaphor the break in my leg is un noticeable. if ur slow as fuck just know the broken leg is a metaphor for my fucked up thinking. The hospitol or treatment center/school I was at cant fix my leg without me telling them my leg is broken. Now they knew something is wrong or else I wouldnt be there. Many claim at that hospital upon recent arrival that there's been a mistake and they don't need to be there. many times I laughed with everyone else at group along with the director Parker. Parker I believe knows alot about this but would never share with the group for possiblities of the kids claiming they're being brain washed or told to believe such things without an adult or atleast enlightened soul and mind these practices may sound slightly lucritive. Anyway back to the story. Metaphorically I tried many times to dodge and weave around questions asked in therapy sometimes even hamming it up to seem cool because of how insecure I was. trying to seek acceptance from my therapist lmfao very dark times. Which got darker with small light at the end of the tunnel. Thats the thing about parker he never took away full hope and if he did he had a good reason for doing so. I completely trust his judgement even to this day. Lying to ur therapist or even if they think you're lying to your therapist which usually they're right. The only reason they were ever wrong with me lying was because the decision was made based on previous situations of past lies. Lied before you'll lie again? possibly. Anyway, the darkness brought upon u metaphorically and almost not was the wall/work crew. ADAYONTHEWALL In a way this is tramatic but it almost shouldnt be. It was trautic because I put myself there many times. Purposefully yes in a sense but not the living sense. I wanted to be the perfect student at Liahona. Be the leader everyone looked up to. Be the family fucking leader. But I literally just was to immature and weak in all aspects. Too much so to do any of those things. Now that I think back the beauty of it Is I did eventually get all of those things. Because I manifested them. I desired both with my words and the vibes my words created in my body that the universe recieved. My body had translated what I wrote in my daily evals every night at Liahona. I attended Liahona for 711 days. 9 Days short from 2 years. The program is 9 months long. Back to the main subject. The wall. 6 am wake the fuck up. HEADCOUUUUUNT!!!. Big ass motherfucking dude named Quando shouts it at the top of his lungs. LMFAO pretty funny to think but this guy would scare the shit out of new kids in the mornings. shouting out of their beds. I definitely woke up thats for sure. The whole facility of 50-60 boys come out of there room pretty much as fast as possible although groggily everyone dressed in the same navy blue shorts and grey liahona t-shit tucked into our gym shorts with either white black or grey solid socks. No designs or wild shit. All the rules at Liahona were created over the years it had transitioned from an old house to the facility to the newer facility. Everything from tuck in ur chair at all times to. turn off the lights when you leave a room. Hundred of rules probably around over a thousand actually. I hated it off the bat but what was I gonna do? anyway. After everyone lines up in a U- formation with quando standing in the open portion of the U. He would say the same things every morning. Almost as if he was designed to say the same or relatively the same thing. One thing was for sure the message was clear every morning. Go back to your rooms  Today is a new day its a beautiful day make your beds and start studying your quote or doing whatever you're aloud to do until you go for the morning run and breakfest. Now quado probably used a great deal more broken english being from the pacific islands one of em sorry dont actually know. anyways. we dismiss. or atleast. everybody else does. perusual here I am. I sit down in my LIFETIME costco chair sitting mere inches from the head of my twin mattress. I will now sit in this chair for the remainder of the day unless instructed or allowed otherwise. 6-7 morning shift arrives. Can't look away. I think to myself staring at the wall. The desire to look is bad but even the thought of having to write another 300 word essay although they've become easy now, pointless to get one for something so easily avoidable. putting my elbows on my knees I duck my head do as If to pretend im studying the quote (a passage of around 100 words- alot of fucking words that must be memorized in full word for word straight the fuck up and recited to either a very trusted upper level or staff member who will tell you when you mess up and must stop and either use one of 2 hints allowed by parker to figure out whatever word u forgot or fail and take a 300 word essay, However if the quote is failed to be passed off before friday then your points for that week will be cut into half basically prolonging your stay to an extent given points are used to determine not in full but definitely play a large part in even the opportunity of you being recommended to get your next level Ie the quote is very important, very difficult, and I fucking hated it so fucking much you have no idea, Fuck the fucking stupid fucking quote. Parker is smart for the fact that he knows theres got to be something that seems and may possibly be a punishment that is time consuming and benefits those who work harder and faster destroying room for socialism. Basically parker created the quote to see who the fuck is really trying and how hard. Based on when you pass off the quote, If you pass off the quote, and how long of the quote is and whats in the quote. Parker can determine your loyalty to the program and therefore your recovery) Sitting in my chair and ducking my head between my armpits I can finally look around in a small area on each side of my body without getting too ballsy. This is my entertainment for the remainder of the day. Besides playing with my hand/feet. Tapping my feet/hand. looking at the US map{ and sometimes if they put u on the other wall or farther down you got the south america map. To this day can name the south american countries for the most part in alphabetical order. Crazylol. I can do the states right now. anyways. } Eating Oats and water with 2 of the gnarliest fucking red delicious apples every fucking morning. YO WHERE DID U FIND THOSE FUCKING APPLES MARK AND WHOEVER THE FUCK SHOPPED? jesus christ. Still don't eat red delicious apples THERE NOT FUCKING delicious. liars anyway. Before that when morning shift arrives typically shortly after if not immediately after their arrival we do another headcount. Of course yelled much less.... whats the word.... manly lol. Derek had the lamest headcount call. His unenthusiastic Severous snape from harry potter like almost moan like noise. anyways fuck u derek. Derek would take us to get our shoes, at both the new and old facility there are shoe closets that contain every students single pair of running shoes. The new facility also has our never to be touched til we leave or go on a visit personal items. After getting our shoes on. We went outside. line up on the concrete basket ball court in 5 lines spanning accross the entire court each student assigned to a 'family' upon arrival in no paticular order I hope but idk. Usually it was the one with the lowest amount of students but some family leaders would try to boost by trying to speak with newer students asap and within the rules. Communication of any kind with any student not directly monitored without being directly told otherwise is strictly forbidden. No form of communication head bobs nods winks smiles smirks laughs even eye contact for long periods of time. Although of course these rules were broken many times over the course of my stay. I definitely stopped talking to kids. Literally it taught me and im kinda glad it did it taught me to not ask my peers but elder people with wisdom and knowledge for help. However in therapy groups they allow us to communicate freely with the presnence of the therapist who was 1 of two therapists. However he would quickly correct any advice given from a student to a student to not only teach us the correct way to solve whatever issue being discussed  or shared. but almost in a way indirectly teaching you that experience and age are similar but not the same and to seek those that give the best advice and help the most which tend to be the people u want anyways. I did learn many many many many useful things that I still use today from Liahona. Because of going im now 1000x ahead of an average person my age. Given my experiences and newly found and enlightened self. Given to me when I was ready to give it to myself. When I learned I control this reality with how I feel. And I tend to feel how I talk. Because my talk conveys my emotion. Talk good feel good do good deserve good. Lined up on the basketball court right my bad Im side tracked for the millionth time. gimme a break lol anyways. We line up in  5 columns of anywhere from 10 to 13 students typically ten atleast. 50 jumping jacks Go!" 1..2..3..4..5..6..7- ......49..50.  50 laps chop it up. At 8 laps a mile  50 laps was common but not that common. For awhile it was daily. All of our days depended on how all of us acted as a whole. If one person tried to run and doesnt succeed obvisouly never have never will. Everybody goes on lock down. No talking no moving everybody sits  in a circle. study a gigantic quote for that week cause homeboy tried running. or whatever the case is. Basically if you dont pull your weight somebody else has to and that weight is only their cause you are inturn now they hate u lol. Definitely was unlike for a vast majority by the vast majority however luckily in the end all works out as does all things in this universe in my world or currently my world.story sorry again 50 pushups now in unicen aswell 123-49-50 Then he tells us to go run and sometimes he'll tell u how many laps and sometimes hed tell u when you get to his standing spot at the finish line after your first lap. He does this to guage how and when certain students put in more effort. Shorter run? more harder runners? longer run? Whos putting in effort regardless of circumstance ie whats going on in ur life. Ie how many laps you got How are you moving before you know what your next move is. Are you jogging that first lap until derek tells you to save your breath cause you're banking on it being a longer run. Have you been running slow for 3 laps but the run was only 8 today so ur wasting ur time being lazy. Derek would see when you would run hard. who made u run harder cause u wanted to beat them. how many laps does it have to be minimum to run on the first lap. Whos running hard the first lap regardless of circumstance. They could tell who you were and what you could offer before you even knew anything about any of that. Because honestly you didnt give a fuck about trying before. atleast I didn't. I soon did. Over those 711 days I ran 95 percent of the week day mornings. was in niceass shape too for 17. weekends we got off thankf uckign god. After the blisters heal and you get calices on ur feet from running in the beginning being a new student it sucks alot don't get me wrong and it'll suck for awhile but you'll eventually learn to adapt and conquer by anymeans. I quit after 6 laps my first run. Not even a mile. sat down said I needed my inhaler. I didn't even have one.

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Episode 1 Confessionals

This is an interesting tribe. I feel at a bit of an advantage being that I am already in games and at the same tribe as some of the people on my tribe right now, I just hope this doesn't turn into a total fuck fest.

SO, My BFFL Ryan is on my tribe and im so excited. I know i can trust him with everything. I'm literally meeting him in 3 weeks irl so yeah lol. DO NOT EVER SEPARATE US. Anyways, I know jordan pines from India survivor and he's ok. I don;t think i'd ever trust him, but i have nothing against him. I know he pretty pushy in games. I know Jay because he's host me like 2 or 3 times in tumblr and that's scary because he saw how i play and how dangerous my connections and social game can be. Hopefully he takes it as well she's trustworthy so i'll work with her. Who knows. I know Jay and Jordan knows Ryan and I are friends too so that is dangerous. Ryan said he knows emma and can get her with us so that be baller. I'm going to try to make some more friends.

AAAAAAAAAAAAA. It started. Right away I felt a connection with Eric, Carson, and Zachary. I'm hoping I can be more strategic in this season than in Azores. Hoping to find myself in a majority alliance soon. Also all the returning players on my tribe are so good like 1st, 2nd, and 4th. Go them! Hope that they can teach me some tricks at how to play better.

I love my tribe! Jay n Luke n Emma n Jordan are my faves so far also

Okay so i'm back as one of the eight returnees, and i'm excited. I placed second in Bahamas, and i'm planning on making it to day 39 again but this time... actually winning. HOW ICONIC. WIG! Regarding like game-related talk, i'll just go through a first impressions type thing and just ramble I guess. So first, we have Bryce. He's someone I didn't know prior to this game, but he is a returnee. I kind of clicked with him at the start... and I do kind of want to have this unspoken truce between the returnees for the most part so that the newbies don't gather together and pick us off one by one. I don't have much to say about him to be honest. Carson, another returnee. I REALLY love Carson, and i'm glad we're reunited. We have only ever played one game together, and we weren't on the same side (he voted me out at final five rip). However, as he's one of the few that I know, i'm really excited to actually work with him. In addition, he's really social with me and I feel like our conversations aren't at all fake, but more genuine, and I like that. Charlotte. We are in two games together, this and Kuang Si (TS season). Although I don't think we're super close right now, I do want to work with her for various reasons. I trust her to an extent, and she is a returnee as well. However, i'm a little threatened cause she is a winner and she seems to do really good in various survivor orgs, so that's something to watch out for. Chris. I talked to him not once. I think i'll worry more though when it's appropriate, but he's definitely on the outs for me. Perhaps he talks to others more though. Next is Eric. I knew of him before this game started, but not really. We are, like Charlotte, in two games together, but we're not working together in either. However, I do like him and maybe him and I will forge a bond, but i'm not expecting much. I'll probably just try to make him a puppet of mine (it won't work likely hehe) Katie. Katie is my favourite newbie. Like, entirely I don't know her AT ALL, but she's really social and I like that. She's also competing hard and putting in effort in the immunity, which is respectable. I feel like she's someone that will go really deep in the game, so I would like to work with her but i'll probably try to get her out early jury. Lastly, but not at all least, is Willow. Her and I have a little history. She flipped and betrayed me in a game, but then again I never spoke to her so aJSFDKGFl. I know all my friends LOVE LOVE LOVE her so I am wanting to work with her all the way. I will die for her tbh. She's a sweetheart and I think her and I connect. Overall, I think im well situated with the cast, but you never know! Whew

Wow hi this confessional is long overdue but I've been super busy but I have some time let's GO!  I'm just gonna do a tribe analysis because why not: Adam: I've probably talked to him the least out of everybody but what conversation we have had has been nice. Nothing much else to say. Emily: Jordan says that he thinks he could potentially get her to work with us which is cool. I talked to her a little bit and idk she seems kind of difficult to talk to? Like the conversation all felt very weird to me but I guess we'll see how that goes. Jay: So Jay is a winner like me which is great because I was super nervous about being the only returning winner on my tribe so it's comforting that he's here but I think out of the two of us that I'm the winner that's more likely to be targeted. I think an alliance between me, him and Jordan is in the works so that's fun. Jordan: Okay so Jordan seemed super stoked to see me on this tribe since we haven't played together since Westeros happened. He immediately proposed an alliance of me, him and Jay with Willa on the side which I am fine with because we would have the numbers to at least tie a vote if it ends up being returnees vs. newbies but we'll see. Jordan also asked for a final 2 but I'm not going to the final 2 with Jordan, no way. He thinks he can trust me but I'm going to be the one holding the knife behind his back waiting to strike. Lexi: Lexi seems lovely! We talked the first day and the conversation flowed really well and she seems awesome. Jay says that he thinks Lexi could be the key we need to avoid a tie vote at tribal council because he hosted her in India. Since she is also a winner of an ORG I think we could rope her in since the newbies might see her as a threat so we'll see. Ryan: I haven't talked to him much, he seems nice and our first conversation was about food which is my greatest interest so that was iconic. I think I'd be interested in working with him down the line but we'll see how that goes! Willa: WILLA! I think Willa is awesome, I just hosted him in Forbidden Forest and whilst he didn't do well, I know how he plays because I hosted him. I also think that my connection with his boyfriend Kai will be enough for him to trust me. He already said he wants a new Kai that can be social for him and I offered up since I'm British and about as close to Kai as you can get since I was accused of catfishing as him lmfao. I think I can use Willa as a number more than anything. PS: this confessional made me realise how much i say "we'll see how it goes" 

I have nothing interesting to report yet. Everyone seems nice so it won't be fun if we have to vote someone out this week. Hard pass.

I WANT AN ALLIANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was picked a lot for the draft- nice.

I wasn't picked at all for the draft- sad.

Being that I want an alliance and I really don't care if I do bad because it's just a game, I am going to be straightforward and completely different from how I played previous seasons. Hopefully it works out for me, but I want someone who I can trust as much as they can trust me.

I'm back!!! yeah. basically, everyone i know is on the other tribe which is really ugly but its fine i guess i can make new friends/relationships/etc. i used jessy to bond with katie, so we have each other's backs, also i know zach from other games so i obv asked to work with him so we can work together and take over!! [8/30/2017 5:07:00 PM] zachary rae: is this the carson [8/30/2017 5:07:07 PM] zachary rae: like the carson that voted me out in las vegas and RUINED my dreams [8/30/2017 5:07:17 PM] carson: god... [8/30/2017 5:07:18 PM] carson: SDKJSDJK [8/30/2017 5:07:23 PM] zachary rae: ASJFKDGF [8/30/2017 5:07:26 PM] zachary rae: a tragic memory [8/30/2017 5:07:29 PM] zachary rae: how’re you long time No seeeeEe [8/30/2017 5:07:30 PM] carson: don't bring up las vegas that's ugly [8/31/2017 4:19:38 PM] carson: DSKJSDKJSD I KNOW [8/31/2017 4:19:39 PM] carson: i guessed [8/31/2017 4:19:41 PM] carson: ichinca?? [8/31/2017 4:19:44 PM] carson: i think its called [8/31/2017 4:19:47 PM] carson: we have to like... [8/31/2017 4:19:55 PM] carson: separate which ones are valid and which ones aren't god [8/31/2017 4:20:10 PM] zachary rae: so i just pick a random town or campsite [8/31/2017 4:20:12 PM] zachary rae: and "search" [8/31/2017 4:20:37 PM] carson: yeah [8/31/2017 4:20:40 PM] carson: and its once per round [8/31/2017 4:21:19 PM] carson: also idk if this is too quick but i know u and trust u so do u wanna work together kdssjk [8/31/2017 4:21:38 PM] zachary rae: oh god this idol gonna TAKE FOREVER [8/31/2017 4:21:42 PM] zachary rae: and AJSFDGK yes [8/31/2017 4:21:52 PM] zachary rae: i dont know like anyone really either and im aware of u so like [8/31/2017 4:21:55 PM] carson: god YES skjska [8/31/2017 4:21:55 PM] zachary rae: obviously im ont going to vote u out [8/31/2017 4:22:01 PM] carson: i wont vote u out either <3 [8/31/2017 4:22:03 PM] carson: I'm worried about [8/31/2017 4:22:08 PM] carson: half returnees half newbies [8/31/2017 4:22:19 PM] carson: like i feel like they could just team up?? but i don't rlly know the otherreturnees dskjsdkjs [8/31/2017 4:23:06 PM] zachary rae: AKFSDLG [8/31/2017 4:23:11 PM] zachary rae: yeah i like the returnees for the most part [8/31/2017 4:23:15 PM] zachary rae: like charlotte [8/31/2017 4:23:22 PM] zachary rae: but im also worried that the newbies will team up too and [8/31/2017 4:23:23 PM] zachary rae: yikes [8/31/2017 4:24:29 PM] carson: yeah I like charlotte/Bryce but sKJSDKJ [8/31/2017 4:24:36 PM] carson: i feel like I'm too into it i don't wanna eb hyper strateigc [8/31/2017 4:24:53 PM] zachary rae: yes yes i talked to bryce too [8/31/2017 4:24:56 PM] zachary rae: they seem nice! [8/31/2017 4:24:57 PM] zachary rae: and ASJFKDG [8/31/2017 4:25:04 PM] zachary rae: dont worry i literally am here ot have fun so like [8/31/2017 4:25:10 PM] zachary rae: if u wanna strategize im all ears [8/31/2017 4:25:14 PM] carson: I KNOW i just wanted a fun experience bc when i played [8/31/2017 4:25:17 PM] carson: challengers vs champions the main ssn [8/31/2017 4:25:19 PM] carson: i got way too into it [8/31/2017 4:25:24 PM] carson: and didn't rlly have fun?? [8/31/2017 4:25:41 PM] carson: but we gotta make up for las vegas so lets do this bitch sdjsdjk woo. those are the core 2 im planning on working with, but i definitely like bryce and wanna work with him. i want a returnees alliance just so we dont ge tpicked off, so that forces me to work with charlotte who i dont.. hate?? idk im still getting a feel for her. so, that leaves eric/willow/chris. willow sends like.. super long responses which i kinda wanna vote her out just so i dont have to send paragraphs to reply to someone, but she at least talks and is fun to talk to. chris talks the least out of those 3.. we've barely talked but i just used me knowing jenna/adam/jenn to bond with him bc he played egypt. hes ok?? i should talk to him mroe i guess. and eric.. idk i dont really like talking to eric. it sounds mean but its just the truth hes not that fun to talk to and ehes just rlly naive i guess. but i do know him from other places so i feel like he WOULD trust me. so, between those 3, my order of voting them out would probably be.. chris > eric > willow which is fine i guess?? i kinda like this tribe. also willow said compared to others i talk a lot even though we've had like 5 conversations, and i forgot that side seasons arent supposed to be as serious, so i gotta tone it down!! but.. still in this seaosn i wanna try controlling/doing good/etc in stuff and not be a wishy washy bitch. as well, in this scavenger hunt... im not as much as use with these items so im hoping our tribe does better. eric isnt rlly helping that much so if we lose, i think i would go after him over chris PURELY bc it would be easiest to rally other people against, so im hoping we win so i dont have to do that! also, i dont wanna get hte most or the least, so im gonna try and use my social game to keep me in a good place as of now, and form bonds with the returnees+ katie.

At least I'm not first boot like robbed Zoe.

So, we won by a landslide. I mean, I would consider it a landslide. It kind of sucks that they had two people not submit for them though .. it puts them at a huge disadvantage. Thankfully, Ulta was here to Play. So far everyone seems nice enough, which I've said before, so I don't really have any thoughts or anything Problematic to say. Stay Tuned. PS: Earning 193 points on my own might put a target on my head... but I'm hoping time will show that I am a flop and this was simply a fluke. 

Ugh I'm doing so bad socially. I only click with carson I need to step it up. But i send messages and they give such disinterested response but ill be persistent

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