#i also think about whizzers question in what would i do….

[t4tcecilos]

soooo interesting to me that a lot of what marvin sings to/about whizzer in act 2 are questions (this isnt even all of them) i think it shows how much he changed since act 1

“when am i gonna get over this?” “what is he doing here?” “how could i know without him, my life would be boring as shit?” “would it be possible to see you or to kiss you or to give you a callll?” “do you knoww all i want is youuu?” “what more can i say?” “how can i express how confused am i by our happiness?” “what more can i do?” “can you tell i have been revised?” “do you know all i want is you?” “who’d believe that we two, would end up as lovers?” “im not scared-what good is a lover who’s scared?” “what would i do?” “who would i be if you had not been my friend?” “who would i be if i had not loved you?” “how would i know what love is?” “no simple answers but what would i do? if you had not been my friend?”

[milolovesbmc]

Thinking about Bowtie Productions Falsettos, and I see no one talking about it, so here's a fun little thing I noticed!!

During March of the Falsettos, the men are wearing baseball uniforms, i think it's interesting how in this specific production, the mens childishness is shown by (their love for) sports. As in, in the bit in MOTF where they're muttering and talking at the very start they're muttering "baseball" and sport related stuff, which I think is a really interesting way of portraying this immaturity.

Anyways, where I'm getting with this is, their baseball (MOTF) uniforms say Falsettos at the front, which I think is really funny, because that means this literally is the march of the Falsettos, they're LITERALLY the Falsettos. In the back, they each have a different number, like you would have in any baseball uniform, and THAT'S what I want to focus on. I think this is really well done because MOTF is all about how Trina views the men, as childish and immature, but also about how she views each of them:

Starting off with the most obvious one, Whizzer's says 69, which wildly known to be the number of/the number that represents sex, this is because Trina views him as lustful, this could tie back to the view/belief that existed at the time around gay men being overly sexual and perverted, but that's a whole other can of worms I could get into some other time.

Marvin's says 01, which very obviously is tied with being the first, the one on the top, the best, basically. This is tied to his need to control everything and everyone, of "wanting it all", he needs to be at the top so that everyone will do as he says.

Moving on, Jason's number is 13. In Judaism, 13 signifies the age at which one becomes a man, due to this being the age at which a Jewish child has his Bar Mitzvah. Obviously, in MOTF, Jason isn't 13 yet, he's somewhere around the age of 10 or 11 years old, and we actually get to see him get Bar Mitzvah'd during the end act 2. This could signify how, even though he's not literally a man yet according to Judaism, Trina views him as one. Jason's portrayed as the most mature of the four men, seeing as he is the only one who isn't singing in Falsetto (in a high voice), this is how Trina thinks of him.

Finally, the one I'm most interested by, Mendel's says 42. Funnily enough, I first thought this was a reference to 420 (since they couldn't put a 3 digit number) and they were somehow implying Mendel smoked weed or something, I don't know why but that was what I first thought of. However, 42 is apparently the number gives as the answer by a supercomputer to “the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything.” in a novel by Douglas Adams, making this number signify the answer to the ultimate question (the meaning of the universe, everything, to put it simply). Was this intentional? Most probably not, but I think it's really fascinating that Mendel has this specific number, it could signify how during Trina's song (previous to MOTF) Trina treats marrying Mendel as the thing that'll change her life, the thing that will (supposedly) finally make her happy, she sees (her upcoming marriage with) Mendel as the answer to everything.

[djdoezntexizt]

MENDEL AND HIS BEHAVIORS [ACT 1]

Note: This is going from the original script because that’s all I have on my laptop. I also did not proofread.

In the beginning of act 1, Mendel raises the question, “What do they do for love?” which, in many ways, is answered throughout the musical. However, Mendel’s ways of finding “love” and gaining a family are questionable.

Mendel had only heard about Trina through his patient Marvin, since she was his ex-wife at the time, and eventually had her as a patient as well. During the therapy session of “Love is Blind,” we start to see Mendel as a character, or at least what he shows now. He starts saying how lovely she is while she’s telling him about her husband giving her STD’s. I feel like that alone says enough, but when she gets to talking about Jason, he seemingly approves of Jason saying Marvin isn’t his dad and he’s a prick. He even ends the song saying how he’s never married and how “work is his passion,” but after his first meeting with Trina, he says he ‘admires’ her.

“Marvin at the Psychiatrist” is the first song that we see deeper into Mendel’s true intentions. He spends part 1 of the song making sure that Marvin loves Whizzer, almost making sure it’s not just some fling, so that he can get to Trina. Mendel, knowing about psychology and the inner workings of the brain, uses gaslighting and manipulates his words in a way to be controlling and control someone’s thoughts. In part 1, he uses pointed questions that make Marvin think more about whizzer and his feelings for him rather than his family problems, talking about it at psychiatry almost making him feel like it’s more important than his family problems he more than likely needed to talk about.

In part 2, we get a look into Marvin’s perverted intentions with Trina, starting the part with how her “meager glories” and “tragic stories” move him in unreported ways, and if you’ve ever watched the musical, you’d see what he means by that. He follows up how she’s a very good and wonderful woman, and even asks Marvin if he minds that Trina came to speak of Jason. This already sets off red flags, since doctor-patient confidentiality laws had already been in effect for at least 5 years at this point, and knowing it’s set in New York, these laws had to have been upheld well there. He even mentions he hopes Jason continues to act out and misbehave, more than likely he wanted to use Jason as a tool to continue talking to Trina and getting closer to her, and that there are a few more things he wants to ‘explore’ about her. He asks about basic things at first, if she was vicious, if she beat Jason, if she was faithful, but these questions start going south quickly. Marvin just saying the word ‘breast’ makes him go out of control, and he even asks Mendel what’s wrong with him. In response, Mendel asks Marvin if Trina sleeps nude. After his little outburst over the word breast. Okay buddy. He asks if she wears a negligee, and even sniffs a scarf she left behind, Marvin catching him. This song is where we see the most of Mendel’s personality, and even though everyone’s a little messy in act 1, he’s just outright creepy.

In ‘This Had Better Come to a Stop,” the family and the little bit of sanity holding it together finally starts to crumble, going downhill as Marvin and Whizzer get in yet another argument. Mendel, being who he is, assures her it’s not her fault and it’s through anyways. Trina, frustrated and seeking for answers as any woman with a gay ex-husband in the late 70s would, asks who’s responsible, and Mendel just says not to ask him questions and how he’s frightened of them, but he’s glad the marriage is coming to a stop and how he’ll help Trina mend herself after this.

From here on, the family starts to fall apart. Trina breaks down, everyone is fighting, and Trina admits that she thinks she likes Mendel, but continues to say how she only wants a man who can love, like, or help her, which Mendel helps her and seems to be obsessed with her, which she probably takes as his love.

By the time Mendel comes to the house for Jason’s therapy, he is fully ‘swooning’ over Trina, for lack of better words. Even just shaking her hand, he says he’ll “probably faint” but he’s probably “doing better-than-the-norm restraint,” which I’m curious what he meant by that and what he must think the “norm restraint” is, since he’s LITERALLY JUST FUCKING SHAKING HER HAND IT ISN’T THAT HOT OR BOTHERING WHAT THE HELL. By the time he meets Jason, he admits he looks miserable and appreciates his uninspired attitude (seen in the sage cues/notes). Through the whole therapy session, Mendel doesn’t do anything to help Jason or really heart what he says, simply stopping him and telling him to “just be alright” and try to make the periods of being alright longer and longer. Jason even questions if this is what therapy is, which, spoiler alert, it really isn’t!! Mendel shows up so often that Marvin repeats “why is he always here?” several times throughout the song, showing how Mendel had to have been overstaying his visit, even if he’s giving Jason therapy, that doesn’t mean he should constantly be there enough for Marvin to question his frequency. Jason even realizes Mendel’s feelings towards Trina before anyone else, saying it’s “not his responsibility to ask” about Mendel and his intentions with Trina.

Mendel is now proposing to Trina, and one of the first things he says is that she’s “never near [him] enough to tell if [he’s] delightful or not.” If he’s PROPOSING to her, why would she not be close enough to tell if he’s delightful or whether he’s not. On top of how inappropriate of a relationship this is to have with your client, but he continues to go on in the marriage proposal, saying “I crave your wrist, I praise your thigh… I love your eyes, I love your face… Don’t touch your hair you’re perfect.” She then starts to cry, and Mendel probably assumes it’s out of joy, but you need to understand how confusing and overwhelming this must have been for Trina. She had started to break down and her family has been falling apart bit by bit. She gave into the idea, but most likely does not truly love him, only settling over him to take some control back in her life after her breakdown.

Tight knit family reprise, oh how I love you. Mendel says how his “acts of theft are incredibly perverse,” acts of theft being him ‘stealing’ Marvin’s family. Mendel mentions how his perverse actions are embarrassing, but he’s got a family now, even if he feels guilt or annoyance for his previous actions, which he probably doesn’t because Mendel is a P.O.S. Mendel says how he has power now, and Mervin retaliates calling him King of the Losers. That isn’t relevant I just think Marvin popped off a little there. Marvin and Mendel then go on to say how they’re “needy and wanting… greedy as swine,” which is reflected both in their actions and words. Mendel went and stole the family from Marvin because he saw the weakness and issues in the family and took his opportunity, even saying at the end how he got it all, while Marvin has always just wanted it all.

March of the Falsettos is the first time Mendel says something useful in my opinion. Jason asks if his father being gay means that he’s “a fairy,” which also is terminology for being gay. Mendel replies saying it’s a stupid theory, basically assuring Jason that just because his father is gay, doesn’t mean it’s genetic, something that Jason has wondered since the beginning of act 1.

Entering Trina and more of her messy feelings about Mendel. Trina’s song (Reprise) originally starts with Trina in Mendel’s clothes, something that I find an interesting detain in this section. We have seen that Trina has had doubts about this entire situation with Mendel, especially with how odd of a situation it really is. She’s trying to push her way through it and make her own decisions, which ultimately ended in her doubts with settling down with Mendel. She says, “As for doubts that I’ve been feeling, I’ll ignore them when I can.” Even after Mendel and Trina are planning to get married, she still has doubts about her decisions deciding to be with him but chooses to just ignore them and go with the decision she made to “try and get the things [she] need[s].” She’ll just fight Marvin and beat the odds by ‘having good sex,’ as if she believes that’s what will get her this happiness in her marriage with Mendel. Later, we find out that part of their life isn’t even very active, but by then she had gotten used to him and found some feeling for him. This will be discussed later in act 2.

In “Making a Home,” they finally start to make a family and a home. In the set of the revival, this is where new objects other than the block pieces are introduced for the home other than in breaking down. We see flowers, books, pillows, and more as their home starts to repair and heal from the damage caused by Marvin before. That’s something I really enjoyed about the revival set design and one of my favorite pieces of symbolism within the set. I’ll be geeking about that in another essay though.

They start with saying they want to fill the space and set the tone for a home and what it should feel like. I feel like this is when Mendel starts to change some, make himself seem lovely enough to be with and love. This also follows the path of manipulation I’ll discuss after act 1 and act 2. He mentions how he becomes a happy wife, but Trina follows up with how he decides the role for her to assume. More than likely she’s the one who decided for him to do this, but also could be manipulation tactic. Most of the song is just Mendel and Trina talking about their home and making it. Not long after Whizzer enters, while Mendel says “Loving our – lives,” Trina only said she liked her life. Not once in the musical so far has said she has loved Mendel.

By Marvin Hits Trina, Trina has gotten used to the idea of being with Mendel, and he becomes a somewhat decent character. Trina says how Mendel isn’t a maniac, how he’s sweet, and how he’s warm. Next, she mentions how he loves her. Yet again an instance of Trina not even loving him, but mentioning that she’s loved, which probably only matters to her due to the events of her last marriage. Marvin acts out so bad even Mendel says Marvin acts “untrained” and how he’s “ashamed,” as Jason watches. This makes Jason’s mind see Mendel as good, since he’s standing up for Trina with no question.

I feel like having a family changes Mendel to be more loving than lustful, and I wholeheartedly believe the end of act 1 is their lovey-dovey “honeymoon stage.” In “I Never Wanted to Love You,” he admits to Trina that he didn’t mean to love her as much as he did and says again how he loves her and loves their family.

The only thing to discuss in “Father to Son” about Mendel is how he changed Jason’s view of love, which is further discussed in act 2 and I already have a smaller post about.

[lightlysaltedsalt]

2016 falsettos or OBC?

and, what’s your favorite song(s) from each version?

Oooooh the hard questions!

Personally I prefer the 2016 revival, mostly because I like the musical style a little more (the harmonies make me go feral lol) but also because the symbolism literally eats me alive (the cube?????? I could write 5 million essays on the cube. I am so Normal about the cube.)

Favorite songs is much harder

In general, across all Falsettos, my favorite is You Gotta Die Sometime. For the lyrics and incredible vocals regardless of which version I listen to, and the immense pain of grieving for yourself while you're still alive. It is, strange as it is, my comfort song.

I think for the obc specifically I have to give it to the chess game - largely for the incredible staging (something about Marvin aggressively sliding furniture around and causing a scene while Whizzer just sits there is so. Everything to me.) I also feel like there's a more Genuine sense of anger between Marvin and Whizzer in this version which I like.

For the 2016 I think it's What Would I Do (this had better come to a stop being a close close close second). The way Andrew Rannells and Christian Borle harmonize together is absolutely incredible, their voices blend so well it's insane. The staging, forcing them apart when it's clear how badly they want to go to each other, the brilliant lighting that slowly fades off Whizzer at the end,,,, it's just incredible.

Thank you for the ask :)

[nettlespinning]

whizzer my good friend whizzer and I have been talking about shame holding us back from being self-indulgent so I wrote whilst thinking about me and lilia. in a sappy way. unedited idc about accuracy I have an essay to write right after this

someone like me, who's already experienced so much of my world, who's dedicated their life to understanding its history and culture and form, being torn out of it and sent to a completely different dimension where I know nothing. nothing! and I'm stuck with all this useless information on religion and war and language and monarchy that means nothing to anyone because, well, it's not their history. for all they know, I'm completely making it up.

and so the only thing I'm really good at is null and I have to teach myself thousands of years worth of new stuff when everyone around me has had a life's head start, all while I'm dealing with the horrific reality that I will likely never see my world again. I do think about how much mourning I would go through while at nrc. I've been completely removed not only from my immediate reality, but also from my culture, my history. I will never get to go back to my family home. I will never see the ocean from la rochelle again. I will never be able to read the books I love or see my favorite paintings. not even online, ever. they don't exist in this universe. a huge portion of my identity is effectively nonexistent and left up to my feeble human memory to preserve.

I and I alone am weighed down with the knowledge of an entire universe, filled with lingering questions that no one here can answer. places I will never see and things I will never learn.

it's a lot like dying.

and I just have to live with that. and what's more, no one really cares! I'm expected to just assimilate to this world without causing any problems. as if my entire reality hasn't collapsed around me, as if I don't feel like with every passing day I lose more of myself.

then there's lilia.

weighed down with the knowledge of eras long past and thousands of memories of things that don't even exist anymore. ever-curious lilia, who loves to travel, to learn and experience. lilia who would exchange stories with me, who would find my recitals of ancient wars and art movements fascinating. who would lend me stories of his own, one by one until I have a basic foundation for this weird place.

lilia! who I could talk to for hours without getting bored, who would let me go on until I run out of things to say, or until my retellings of myths and revolutions turn into personal quips. who makes me comfortable enough to believe him when he says that he doesn't mind hearing about my life back home. he likes learning more about me, actually. he finds me interesting.

lilia, who understands what it feels like to be homesick for something you can never return to. who understands how it feels to mourn. who starts to see the worst sides of me when my personal anecdotes turn to my failures, my angers, every account of how I've hurt people in ways I feel I will never rectify. all the people I will never be able to apologize to now. lilia, who reassures me that he still likes me- he's probably done worse, after all. he says it with a smile but there's something painful behind that. I tell him the same.

lilia, who's there when I want to grieve on days that would have been holidays back home. he wants to understand completely, but we both know that isn't possible.

he still tries.

lilia, who always seems to be awake at just the right hour when I'm bored and can't sleep, who's always prone to bending rules so we can do whatever. what's the headmage going to do, stop him? impossible. lilia, who wants to show me that he cares, so he starts attempting to make me food. his cooking abilities do not improve. of course, I accept every gift. I insist on returning to favor to him, at least once a week. I'm always sure to make enough so I can feed his poor children something edible.

and slowly, through exchanges of unbaked cookies and tupperwares of soup, I'm visiting him daily. lying on his bed and complaining about silly, trivial parts of my day while he sits at his computer. asking about all the weird shit in his room. feeding his kids again. he starts haunting ramshackle, hanging upside down in the halls between my classes, following me around to oh-so casually leer over me when I'm working or rest his elbow on my shoulder. one time he waits in my room for three hours to startle me when I come back. another time I start slipping condiment packets in his pocket while he's not paying attention for him to find later.

he asks me where I would take him if he got to travel in my world. I say europe. he asks why. I say because it's my home.

we hold hands, sometimes. we have our own bad thoughts and bad dreams about things we both hoped we've moved on from. unlike everything else, we don't talk about them. sometimes when I lie in his bed he lies with me. one night he makes me recount le petit prince from memory, sits in silence the entire time, and then asks if they really rereleased morbius just for it to flop a second time.

he starts holding my hand a little tighter, and wondering if it's possible to be in love, at his age and circumstance. one day he tries to kiss me and I dodge on instinct, expecting a bite. he laughs about my reflexes and kisses me anyway.

I can't understand his homesickness just like he can't understand mine. we still try.

we dye chunks of each other's hair one night and the next morning we wake up in the same bed. at some point he says he loves me like it's the most natural thing. I understand. I love him like it's breathing. it feels like the easiest thing about this world.

[falsettos-tight-knit-family]

30 Day Falsettos Challenge in 2 Days

I found this challenge on Google yesterday, but since I feel like answering a question a day isn't very interesting content, I'm just gonna split all of them up into 2 longer posts. I was planning on doing it all in one, but then realized how long some of my answers were and that you probably don't want to read all that. So here's the question list

And here's are my answers to the first 15 of them:

1) Favorite Character: Whizzer. This should come as no surprise, I love this man with all my heart

2) Least Favorite Character: Charlotte. Not because I like her less, I just wish we got to know her more. Since she and Cordelia only got one act, I feel like I didn't get to know them as well, especially in her case.

3) Most Overrated Character: Ngl i have no idea- It's a very character-based musical and I feel like they all deserve the hype they get from what I've seen

4) Most Underrated Character: Caroline /j But honestly, any of the women

5) Favorite Couple: I love them all, but I'd be lying if I said anything but Whizzvin

6) Favorite Song: Currently, probably The Thrill of First Love. What can I say, I'm attracted to both actors and love a good argument song

7) Least Favorite Song: Something Bad Is Happening Reprise. I appreciate the pain it brings through the implication of Marvin also having AIDS, but it's ultimately only a couple sentences long and doesn't impact me as much as Falsettoland Reprise.

8) Favorite Scene: Off the top of my head, probably the Racquetball scene from A Day in Falsettoland. To be able to see them genuinely happy and having fun together as a couple is so satisfying, and it just shows how much healthier their relationship is now.

9) Funniest Scene: Again, first thing I think of is "You are gonna kill your mother, don't feel guilty, kill your mother" "Everyone hates his parents, now I see why-"

10) Saddest Scene: Fuck man idk at this point- Unlikely Lovers gets me on a lot of levels though; Marvin refuses to leave Whizzer's side, Whizzer tells him to go home so he doesn't worry (even though Marvin by his side is probably the thing he wants most), and everyone trying to focus on happier things to distract from the fact one of them is about to die. Especially on Cordelia's part, up to this post, she's basically always been smiling no matter what, and I think this is the first time the smile starts slipping and it's so important to her character to me-

11) Best Character Development: I haven't delved too deep into the depths of their characters, so I'm gonna go with the most blatant change from Act 1 to Act 2, Marvin. He goes from a complete asshole whose internalized homophobia and misogyny fuck over everyone else in his life, to a genuinely good father and partner who has learned from his mistakes.

12) If You Could Change Something About The Musical, What Would It Be? I'm the worst critique, does it count if I say I wish they'd kept a lot of the lines from the original versions of the songs for the revival? Both ones for comedic value ("It's queer Mr. Marvin") and ones that give more depth and understanding to the characters (Can't find the exact quote, but there was a cut line from Trina explicitly about suicidal intentions)

13) A Moment That Made You Change Your Mind About A Character: I remember thinking Mendel was more annoying in the beginning and I'm not sure exactly when it changed. It might have been a Marriage Proposal when I got to see he and Trina's chemistry together that made me see him as less annoying and more just awkward and endearing.

14) A Song You'd Want To Be In: Either The Thrill Of First Love I'd just really like to be part of that choreography, or The Baseball Game because literally any role in it would be fun in my opinion. Either I'd be done with Marvin's bullshit or, in Cordelia's case, laughing my ass off at his antics.

15) A Character You'd Want To Play: Either Whizzer or Cordelia. Whizzer because he's dramatic and petty and I think he'd be fun, and Cordelia because she's just me as a girl so I think I could do her justice.

[scarletwitching]

I’m sure you’re probably pretty six of parentage/retcon questions at this point but here’s another (sorry):

What do you think, if any particular reason, is keeping them from undoing the retcon? I don’t think it would be that difficult if they wanted to.

Maybe they’ll do it now, since (spoiler alert for DS MoM if you care: mutants are kind of in the mcu now and mcu scarlet witch is implied to be dead) but it seems like they’re doubling down on the “magneto is their dad but not biologically” thing (which I don’t love since he’s not a good dad and they already had Django).

Assuming they’re sticking with Natalya (because getting rid of her is really the only way to get rid of the unfortunate implication of a magical Roma family) but they could just say since the scarlet witch is a magical title, Wanda could inherit it as Django’s daughter, biological maximoff or not. Might even be able to connect to Billy and Tommy. They could even include a little bit about Wanda and Pietro being in Natalya’s care at some point between their time with the high evolutionary and Django and Marya when she considered them her own, perhaps prior to being… killed by a vengeful magneto? I’m unsure.

I just think this is all very odd. The Whizzer backstory lasted like 5 years, they’ve been “non mutants” for 8 now so I’m worried it’s going to stick

I mean, the real answer here is "Disney." Certainly, nobody at Marvel seems to want this. As for why Disney cares about this particular issue, I could not even begin to guess. I truly do not know why they're meddling in this. And if people don't believe me that Disney meddles in this stuff, here is someone who worked at Marvel in the 2010's saying as much, albeit about other issues:

My instinct is that the people making these decisions have no understanding of comics or the comics audience and believe that someone who wants to get into comics from the movies is going to be confused. Or something??? I don't know. That makes no sense to because 1) they will not be confused and 2) who the f is getting into comics from the MCU?

I recognize that everybody's got anecdata about them or their friend starting to read comics in 2012 because of the first Avengers movie, but statistically, "person getting into Marvel Comics because of the MCU in the year 2022" is a made up character who doesn't exist.

People love to say, "Oh, any comic with Wanda is selling so many copies now." It's fake news! These comics don't sell that many copies. To wit:

Marvel is literally synonymous with the very idea of “comics” for a meaningful percentage of the American population, they utterly dominated pop culture for multiple years here, and the source material of comics is actually usually better realized than the various bits stolen by the adaptations.  Plus, on top of that, they have “Star Wars” (and also all of the 20th Century Fox library now) – it is absolutely incomprehensible to this observer that they are not entirely dominating the sales of western comics to adults.  And yet, they can only sell a single book into the bookmarket at over 10k copies.

And that book is Infinity Gauntlet. These numbers do not account for the direct market, but those numbers aren't any better. These comics aren't Where the Crawdads Sing, no matter what their position is on an Amazon list. I feel weirdly passionate about this because I know many voracious readers who have tried to get into Marvel comics since the MCU has started, and it never sticks. They buy 1 TPB, complain that they either don't like the way the characters are written or they don't understand what's going on, and they go back to reading Saga.

So, I have no idea why Disney thinks this is necessary. I don't know why they thought killing off Doctor Strange was necessary. Their decisions seem like nonsense to me. I can't imagine what it's going to be like when they start properly meddling in X-Men comics. There will protests in the streets.

[kurtstinypurse]

for the prompt meme thing: 18. celebrity!au + 9. strangers to lovers + “i’m rambling again, aren’t i?” pretty pls. for the rambling of it all and us etc

so this is way longer than that prompt post had in mind, but. I needed to give this the length it (and you) deserved!!

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Kurt shouldn’t be checking his Instagram comments, and he knows it.

In fact, he makes a point not to, usually, because he knows what he’ll find - a sea of half-assed compliments and ass-kissing that, as nice as they are, all run together, and a scattering of rude remarks that will inevitably stick out to him and ruin his day.

And so he doesn’t check them, simple as that.

Well - until now, apparently, and he isn’t even really sure why he’s doing it as he opens the app, goes to his own page, clicks his most recent post.

Maybe he’s a masochist looking for reasons to feel insecure and beat himself up, or maybe he’s a narcissist and looking for an ego boost, or maybe he’s bored, or maybe it’s the fact that he’s home alone on a Friday night, two glasses of wine deep - but that part of it is pretty much business as usual.

But regardless, there he sits, scrolling through the comments on his latest picture - a snapshot of a model wearing his newly finished suit, floral and understated, a design he’s content with every stitch of.

As to be expected, the comments run together. There’s a lot of them these days, a larger following than he ever expected to get, back when he was an up-and-coming designer.

He’s not so up-and-coming anymore, though.

He’s established, made a name for himself and kept it, a big name, actually, becoming one of the most sought-after designers to create custom suits for events in New York - and, ironically enough, for most events in the Broadway world, for premieres and awards shows and the like.

It’s a small connection to the very world he once thought he’d be immersed in, but at the end of the day, he’s happy with what he has.

Kurt is scrolling, and he’s scrolling, and then- he pauses.

A blue verified check mark sticks out to him next to one username, and so he stops to read the comment, finding a name he recognizes, one he hadn’t expected to see.

blaineanderson ✔️ this is incredible! your designs are always great, but this one really captured me. fingers crossed I can wear one of your pieces one of these days!

Oh.

It’s interesting, actually, that Blaine hasn’t worn one of Kurt’s pieces before.

Kurt’s been aware of Blaine for a while now, vaguely tracking his progression from a stand-out off-Broadway to an understudy on Broadway to, finally, a full-fledged lead role.

He’s a hot topic, having been labeled as one to watch more than once, and Kurt knows Blaine attends the events and premieres Kurt often designs for, but they just...never crossed paths.

Or apparently they had, and Kurt’s just been missing it.

He blinks, and he reads the comment again, and he takes a long drag of wine, and he swallows, and he blinks, and he reads it again.

He realizes he’s smiling, down at his phone all alone in his apartment, no one to see it, no real reason to be doing it.

There’s no real reason why he clicks on Blaine’s profile, either, and there’s definitely no reason to explain why he clicks to follow Blaine, but if that wasn’t enough -

He clicks again, and he pushes away all room for logical thought, and he composes a message.

kurthummel: hi! this is really random, but I thought your comment on my post was really sweet, plus if you meant it, I’d love to design for you. anyways, just thought I’d say hello and thank you.

He presses his phone onto the couch cushion beside him, and he drains the rest of his wine, and he goes into the kitchen to refill his glass, and when he’s back - there’s a message there waiting for him already, much to his surprise.

blaineanderson: hey, kurt! this message was really exciting to see! I’ve actually been following your work for a long time now, and...wow. do YOU mean it? I’m not sure I’m worthy of wearing one of your designs, but at the very least, I’m so glad you said hi!

Blaine’s gracious, and he’s sweet, and Kurt already knows he’s handsome, and-

Kurt has had far too much wine.

And he has been single for far too long.

But Blaine… In a single comment and a single message, Blaine has managed to make Kurt feel more special than he’s felt in a long time, and he’s not sure why.

It’s probably the wine.

The wine is also why he writes back again - and another time, too.

kurthummel: of course I meant it! and why wouldn’t you be worthy? I actually happened to see the falsettos revival on opening night, and yours might be my favorite interpretation I’ve seen. I’m a big fan of the show, of course, and being such a lover of broadway, too… I’ve seen quite a few boots at this point, but your whizzer might have tugged at my heart the most. and your voice!

And your eyes, and your face, and your smile.

Shit.

The wine, the wine, the wine.

kurthummel: sorry, I’m rambling...

He wants to apologize for a lot more than that, but he manages to stop himself.

blaineanderson: no need to apologize! I...wow. again. you’re so kind, and it means even more because you’re so talented, too. your visions for your designs are just so thoughtful and original, especially that last one, and so I’m sure your ear is just as well-tuned so…yeah. wow. now I’m the rambling one! anyways, whizzer quickly became such a personal role for me, and I’m so happy to hear that shines through even a little bit. 

And they kind of go from there.

They keep complimenting each other for a while - there’s probably a ridiculous amount of compliments traded, actually, but they’re both doing it, and it feels like a creative exchange, almost, on topic and essentially business-related. It’s meant to be a precursor to business, actually, hopefully culminating in a project for Kurt and an attention-grabbing, show-stopping outfit for Blaine.

But then they just...keep talking, about their careers and how they like the city, about how they got to the city and where they were prior, about the songs they like and the shows they’ve seen and the movies they’d managed to miss.

It turns out they have a lot in common.

They keep talking, as Kurt finishes off his bottle of wine, as he moves to the bedroom and crawls under his sheets, burrowing into the pillows and blankets with no light but his phone screen illuminating the dark room.

At some point, he realizes he’s smiling, and he’s been smiling, to the point where his cheeks hurt, actually, but he just kind of lets himself.

Just for tonight.

-

But then it’s the next morning, and Kurt wakes up to a message from Blaine, and the conversation continues, direct messages scattered through the morning, during Kurt’s commute to the office, at work when he has the chance to sneak a moment on his phone.

And he finds himself looking for those moments to sneak a read of a message or a reply to one, kind of whenever he can.

Which is exactly what he’s doing when his boss, Isabelle, pokes her head into his office.

“Why are you smiling at your phone?” she wants to know, raising a curious, knowing eyebrow when Kurt shoots his head up to look at her, phone clattering onto his desk. “A new guy?”

“There’s- There’s no guy,” he stammers, because there isn’t, at least not the way she means, and he’s not sure why his face is getting hot.

Blaine is nice, and Kurt is nice back. That’s all it is, really - it’s nice to have someone new to talk to, to get to know, especially when they’re so- well, nice.

Isabelle hums like she doesn’t believe him, and Kurt suddenly isn’t completely convinced he believes himself.

Blaine posts a new picture of himself on Instagram that night, a classy shot from behind as he watches the sun set over the city from a tall skyscraper’s balcony, and if Kurt falls asleep thinking about the narrow lines of Blaine’s waist and the way his ass looks in those pants, well.

Kurt’s only human, after all.

-

He’s not sure when things start to change, exactly.

He can’t pinpoint the moment, but their conversations go from friendly and sweet to something more - deeper, first, a gentle delve into Blaine’s complicated family, a brief conversation about Kurt’s mom and his stepbrother, and then just- just more.

He’s sitting at his desk at work, poking at his salad with his fork and grinning at a silly picture Blaine sent him when he realizes - he feels light, and he feels giddy, almost, and he feels towards Blaine a sort of way he thought he couldn’t feel, not anymore.

But he’s feeling it, and he’s been feeling it, and he realizes, too, that he just kind of knows Blaine feels the same way.

It’s in Blaine’s messages, and it’s in the compliments that reappear when Kurt least expects it, and it’s in the emojis he uses, and it’s just-

It’s everywhere, and Kurt sits there, and he blinks, and he blinks, and he chews thoughtfully for a moment, and he decides, yeah.

He’s not going to question it.

It’s that night that Blaine asks for his phone number, and it feels like a step, and Kurt can’t help but wonder if maybe Blaine’s going to ask him out for coffee or for dinner or for drinks - they live in the same city, after all, and they know a ton of the same people and essentially run in the same circles, and it would be so easy, so easy to just take another step forward and make this real.

Kurt should be scared of that - and in the past, he would be, with a string of brief failed relationships and over three years of being fully single in recent history. He has no reason to think - well, anything.

But he’s just...not scared.

He’s cooking dinner when his phone vibrates, and he reaches for it with his free hand, expecting to find some sort of question or invitation, but instead he finds-

A video.

Unknown Number: Hey, you. It’s Blaine. I know I haven’t told you about this, but it’s only because I haven’t really told anyone about it. But besides just singing on stage, I like to try my hand at arranging my own songs, too, and I felt like sharing this one with you. xx

The attached video is just about three minutes long, and it’s of Blaine on his couch, dressed down in a sweater that screams cozy, and he has a guitar in his lap, and he smiles shyly at the camera before starting to play and to sing.

It’s an upbeat sort of song, and Blaine sings about being a king, about thinking he has it all worked out but figuring out he’s wrong, about his kingdom falling apart but being okay, about being foolish and unexpectedly falling in love.

Kurt knows it’s not for him - he isn’t stupid.

But his heart is stupid, and it’s racing in his chest, and his mouth is stupid, too, because he can’t force away his grin, and his hands are worst of all, because when the song is over, he presses to replay it, and then he replays it again.

And then he picks up his phone, and he types.

From Kurt: Blaine, that was… I don’t know what to say! The lyrics were so clever, and you’re so wonderful at guitar, and you know how I feel about your voice. I listened to it a few times, honestly, and I already want to listen to it again. Sorry, I’m rambling again, too, aren’t I? I...guess I tend to feel kind of foolish around you, actually.

From Blaine: It’s funny, I wrote this song almost a year ago with nothing to apply it to. But it’s starting to make more sense, I think. Or maybe I’m foolish, too.

From Blaine: Besides, I love to listen to you ramble.

Kurt breathes out shakily, and he blinks, and he reads the message again, and he blinks, and he smiles.

He doesn’t hesitate, and he knows he won’t regret it.

From Kurt: Are you free tomorrow night?

Blaine’s reply is near instant.

From Blaine: For you? Anytime.

-

It’s only been a week, Kurt realizes the next night as he fusses over his hair in the mirror, picks an invisible string of a thread from his vest.

A mere week since he messaged Blaine, a mere week since Blaine messaged back, and yet-

It feels like so much longer, so much more than that.

Blaine has agreed to meet Kurt at a cozy, low-lit cafe a few blocks away, one of Kurt’s favorite spots that’s coincidentally one of Blaine’s favorites, too.

It’s funny, really, how connected they’ve always been, even when they didn’t know each other yet.

Kurt isn’t used to not wanting to cancel at least a little bit. On every first date he’s been on in the past handful of years, he’s had to practically force himself out the door, force himself to try, already knowing nothing will come of it.

But now, he has to force himself not to leave for the restaurant too early.

Of course, time moves forward as it inevitably does, and it comes time, and so Kurt heads out, and he walks down the street with a rush in his chest, pulling his jacket close around himself, ready.

A breath catches in his throat as he sees Blaine waiting outside the restaurant, rocking slightly up and down on the balls of his feet in an impossibly endearing nervous motion, a bouquet of colorful flowers in his hand.

Kurt can tell the very moment Blaine sees him, too, eyes locking with Kurt still about a block away, and Blaine positively beams, radiant and happy and beautiful, and wow, Kurt made him do that.

Once he gets close enough to say hello, close enough to see all of the colors and the softness and the warmth in Blaine’s eyes, close enough to touch, Kurt is pretty much done for.

He isn’t the type to kiss on the first date, particularly not before actually having the date, but he’s not the type to pay so much attention to his Instagram comments or send someone a direct message out of the blue, either.

As he pulls Blaine close and presses their lips together, Kurt finds he’s never been happier to surprise himself.

-

(A handful of months later, Blaine wears a Hummel Designs original to the premiere of the Waitress revival, an adaptation of the very suit he commented on the picture of - with Kurt on his arm, too, there to stay.)

[maybeeatspaghetti]

Would you say Marvin is an example of toxic masculinity? In 'This Had Better Come To a Stop' Marvin sings "Whizzer's supposed to always be here. Making dinner. Set to screw. That's what pretty boys should do" and it's mentioned many times how Marvin needs everyone to love him. In the line he is implying that he thinks Whizzer should take the "housewife" role in the relationship. The whole In Trousers is basically about how Marvin has the need to be "the man" in everything.

Toxic masculinity is defined by the Good Men Project as:

a narrow and repressive description of manhood, designating manhood as defined by violence, sex, status and aggression. It’s the cultural ideal of manliness, where strength is everything while emotions are a weakness; where sex and brutality are yardsticks by which men are measured, while supposedly “feminine” traits—which can range from emotional vulnerability to simply not being hypersexual—are the means by which your status as “man” can be taken away.

What I’m going to do is list a number of toxic masculinity behaviors and see how Marvin embodies these behaviors. And I’m going to focus solely on Falsettos since I know this show much better than In Trousers and I have notes and annotations written in my Falsettos script that I can draw from. 

Stoicism – not showing “weak” emotions

Marvin certainly does not show his vulnerable side in Act I. He reroutes his disappointment and upset into anger and condescension.

Being Aggressive and Violent – the need to prove masculinity in this way

This is essentially an expansion of stoicism in that aggression and violence are considered “masculine” emotions, whereas anything less is perceived as “weak” and “feminine.” In “The Thrill of First Love,” Whizzer begins by needling Marvin about picking up his clothes and about his dress sense, but Marvin seems to be more the instigator when it actually comes to physical fighting (”when he pushes, I pull,” ”let’s both fight, Whizzer,” “so I’ll cheat, Whizzer, and I’ll shove”). It’s shown over the course of Act I that Marvin can be quite aggressive—he punches the wall and kicks the suitcase, etc.—which culminates in him actually slapping Trina in the face. 

Physical, Intellectual, and Sexual Dominance – real men are supposed to be dominant, another way to prove their masculinity

Marvin definitely has a need to be the dominant one in his and Whizzer’s relationship. He’s likely threatened by the fact that Whizzer is physically taller than he is, so he asserts his dominance by insisting on having the final word and pushing Whizzer around and trying to mold him into a housewife. Marvin also requires intellectual dominance over Whizzer, beating him at chess, needing to be the “smart” one. In terms of sexual dominance, the following section explores this more at length, but in terms of what happens onstage in the 2016 revival, Marvin flips Whizzer around to press up behind him, and then pulls his shirt open and his belt off and pushes him down on his back at the end of “The Thrill of First Love.”

Sexual Aggression – among other things, the belief that men are entitled to their partners’ bodies

Marvin is sexually aggressive toward Whizzer from what we see in Act I. He absolutely believes he is entitled to Whizzer’s body. Case in point, the line you mentioned, anon: “Whizzer's supposed to always be here, making dinner, set to screw.” It’s clear that Marvin feels entitled to Whizzer’s body whenever he wants, and that Whizzer should expect it and be ready for it. Another line that backs this up is “now Whizzer, ciao Whizzer, bend,” wherein “bend” can be interpreted as an order to bend over for Marvin in a sexual way.

Rigid Heterosexuality – the belief that homosexuality is less masculine; showing violence or anger toward gay men

Marvin definitely has some internalized homophobia in Act I and struggles with wanting a traditional tight-knit family and Whizzer. He and Whizzer have an incredibly dysfunctional relationship; Marvin tries to force Whizzer to be his housewife, as though trying to preserve some illusion of heteronormativity will somehow cushion him and allow him to keep his masculinity (as if he would have lost it by being in a relationship with a man).

Not Engaging in Household Tasks – not participating in any kind of cleaning, cooking, etc.

Housework is still generally considered a “feminine” task, but especially in the 70s, and a man participating in it would be seen as emasculating. Whizzer picks up after Marvin, and because Marvin expects him to, we can safely assume that Trina almost certainly cleaned up after him their entire married life. Marvin also expects Whizzer to cook for him (”Whizzer’s supposed to always be here, making dinner”), which Trina did for him, as she says it is her duty as a wife. 

So in conclusion, the answer to your question is a definite yes. Marvin is a very good example of toxic masculinity. But on the flip side, he’s also a good example of how much a person can change their behavior; by the time Whizzer reenters his life in Act II, Marvin has lost most, if not all, of the behaviors that define toxic masculinity (and I say “most” because, for example, we don’t see anything about housework in Act II, but pretty much everything else we do see at least a glimpse of is much, much healthier). 

[hello-yue-here]

About your atla ship songs, I have a couple of questions (sorry if my phrasing comes out wrong, english isn't my first language and I worry it might across as accidentally defensive): how did you end up with the choices for zukka, jetko and yuekka (note: I haven't seen the great comet, so feel free to obsess over it, I'm intrigued now and the hype is appreciated!)? Sidenote: I think the mailee choice is HILARIOUS and the tokka one just make me sad, I didn't expect to be attacked like this😭

kdjfha;s i love you im gonna obsess SO HARD over great comet now. you may regret this

this is gonna be so long so the rest is under the cut whoops

yuekka: no one else from great comet

where do i even begin. WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN

okay so background information on this show: it's based off of a 76 oages excerpt from war and peace and its centered around a woman named natasha (and this guy pierre but he's irrelevant to this song so we wont worry about him) and natasha's bethrothed is off fighting in the war right now. she hasn't seen him in a while but she is in love with him.

every single lyrics of this song SCREAMS yuekka to me. the innocence and purity of their love. the love at first sight. and even the melancholy ending just- i go apeshit for this song. i love this song so much. and denee benton's voice??? kljsdhflwksugf please listen to this song if you haven't already. listen to the whole show. your life will be changed forever.

onto the lyrics (i stg this is ab to be the whole song whoops)

"the moon"

THOSE ARE THE FIRST WORDS ON THE SONG. natasha and andre (her bethrothed) met underneath the moonlight. Sokka and Yue first spoke to eachother at night and always met each other for their most intimate moments under the moonlight. also yue is LITERALLY the moon so like: right of the bat with those two words it's yuekka.

"and i saw your eyes / and i saw your smile / and the world opened wide"

sokka fell in love with yue the moment he saw her in the canal. she literally enchanted this motherfucker. everything about her made his heart go crazy. and 'the world opened wide' to me is from yue's perspective. Yue had never left the north pole and sokka had seen a good chuck of the world at the point. He took her on appa, he told her about his adventures. he saw the world yue wished to see and you know damn well that Sokka would have done anything to give it to her.

"oh the moon /oh the snow in the moonlight / and your childlike eyes and your distant smile / ill never be this happy again / you and i and no one else"

natasha sings fondly about the moon and the snow, seeing as it was where she fell in love with andre. yue and sokka LITERALLY fell in love in the same place: in the snowy nothern water tribe under the light of the moon. childlike eyes: THEYRE CHILDREN!!! distant smile: this is where it gets a little sad. theyre both children with way too many duties during a world that has known nothing but war for the past century. they want to be happy but yeah, theyre smiles are distant and far away because happiness seems out of reach for them most of the time. i'll never be this happy again: the moments yue and sokka shared together were probably the happiest either of them ever were. they were able to ignore the war and the world in the moments they shared together. and with no one else. no one else would be able to give each other this sense of peace and happiness and love.

"joy and life inside our souls / and no body knows just you and me / it's our secret"

Yue and Sokka had to sneak out in secret at night to go and see each other. Yue and Sokka couldn't be together for real because Yue was already engaged, but they were literally in love so she decided to see him anyways in secret. kasdjfhklasjd im losing my mind over them at this point.

"this winer sky / how can anyone sleep / there was never such a night before / i feel like putting my arms around my knees / and squeezing tight as possible / and flying away"

these are my FAVORITE lines in the entire song. yue and sokka had never felt this strongly about anyone before and that's why they are so drawn to each other. they had never experienced love before and they wanted to hold onto it for as long as they could even though they knew they couldnt. Sokka takes yue up on appa and she is wistful and wishes she could live like he does every day: ie flying away. oh my god these two deserved so much better. so much fucking better.

now for the saddes part. the saddest fucking part.

"maybe he'll come today / maybe he came already / and he's sitting in the drawing room / and i simply forgot"

natasha misses andre so intensely at this point. when i first listened to this show and heard this song i was like "wait a min... is andre like... dead?" and im sure i wasnt the only person who assumed that this was why natasha felt so sad by the end of such a beautiful song. (spoiler alert andre is fine)

but this line really exemplifies how sad natasha is, and hints at the fact that andre may never come back. it implies that their relationship is doomed (at least in my opinion) and that's all yuekka. Sokka misses yue intensely when shes gone. Yue accepted her fate almost immediately but sokka was in denial. he thought there had to be another way. but in the end it wasn't meant to be. and sokka will go on, loving yue, wishing for her back, even though it's not possible.

fuck im gonna cry.

zukka: all i've ever known- hadestown

"i was alone so long / i didn't even know that i was lonely / out in the cold so long / i didnt even know that i was cold"

sokka is from the swt so theres where the cold comes in. also in the gaang (initially) it was just him katara and aang. and katara and aang were much closer to each other than sokka was with aang and the two of them were benders so sokka was kind of an outsider with the two of them. He also represses a lot of his emotions and feels the need to do everything himself so i do see a lot of loneliness in sokka. and the fact that so many people in his life have left him (his mom, yue, his dad, suki briefly, etc...) he is known to keep people at an arms length. i see a lot of loneliness in sokka.

zuko's loneliness is a lot more obvious: he has literally been cast out and abandoned by everyone except iroh. and even then he still feels the need to be alone (remember zuko alone? thought so) these boys look after themselves and push others away and revel in their loneliness in order to keep themselves from getting hurt. at least in my opinion on canon and also some fanon because id be a liar if i said fanon didnt influence how i view ALL my ships (not just zukka)

"all ive ever known is how to hold my own / but now I wanna hold you too"

COME ONE MANNNN, they just wanna hold each other. theyre both very big protectors as well and kljhflkasdhg they wanna protect eachother like kljdhfl im gonna lose it rn.

"You take me in your arms / And suddenly there's sunlight all around me / Everything bright and warm / And shining like it never did before / And for a moment I forget / Just how dark and cold it gets"

SUNLIGHT SYMBOLISM. zuko is literally powered by the sun. i don't think i even NEED to elaborate on this one anymore lol. They find comfort in each other away from all of their trauma. when they're together nothing else matters and i personally love that for them. they both deserve love.

"I knew you before we met / And I don't even know you yet / All I know is your someone I have always known"

these two are extremely similar in canon. many parallels. older brothers overshadowed by their prodigy little sisters. longing to make their fathers proud (granted one dad is good and one is fuckin evil), both are pretty bad with emotions. both are seen protecting others before themselves (sokka protecting suki during the serpant's pass, sokka protecting toph on like multiple occassions, zuko protecting katara in the final agni kai), the list goes on. they know who the other is because they see themselves in the other person. they already know each other because they are each other (in a way, not entirely, but the similarities are strong in my opinion)

"I'm gonna hold you forever / The wind will never change on us / Long as we stay with each other / Then it will always be like this"

i just think this line is so cute and sweet (ignoring all the symbolism and foreshadowing that comes with the last line in the musical itself. im gonna pretend this is nothing but happy) and i think these boys deserve happiness so yeah. this song is zukka to me lol.

jetko: thrill of first love- falsettoes

if you've never listened to this song go an do it now. you will know INSTANTLY that it is jetko because of the dynamics alone. marvin and whizzer are pure jetko and i take no crticisms.

marvin and whizzer are both extremely stubborn, and they don't always get along, and they fight a lot, and they get mad at each other a lot, and they are both passionate as hell, and they will bring this passion into everything. they love each other that is without a doubt, but they arent perfect and they are once again stubborn and determined as fuck.

sound familiar? it's literally jetko.

the lyrics aren't what remind me of jetko, but the dynamic itself. the lyrics are too on the nose for a gay couple in 1970's america so that rlly cant apply to jetko all that much. but the way these two characters bounce off of each other and get annoyed with each other and argue with eachother reminds me of jetko. because let's be honest: these two are the most stubborn characters in the whole show. they will fight for what they believe and it will take literally everything to change their minds.

i love jetko but i think they would have petty arguments all the time and get aggravated by one another so easily. and this is even seen in canon: they work so fucking well together but they did not even HESITATE to fight one another after neither of them would give in and let the fight about whether jet was right or wrong about zuko being a firebender. like i cannot say it enough they are stubborn as fuck.

but underneath all that stubborn pettiness and bickering: marvin and whizzer still love each other. and jet and zuko would still love each other. because even though they are stubborn when it comes to arguments, they are even more stubborn and determined when it comes to each other. these two passionate motherfuckers are in love.

(now when i chose this song i decided to ignore the fact that this song literally spells out the fact that marvin and whizzer's relatinoship is doomed because they literally say passion dies. thats the difference between jetko and whizzer and marvin because i dont think passion dies. i chose this song strictly for the bickering lmao)

and i know you didnt ask about tokka but,,,,

i rlly wanna talk about the tokka one

so im going to

tokka: on my own- les mis

look. i KNOW this song is about unrequited love and i love tokka as a couple but,,, the unrequited love in this song just SCREAMS unrequited tokka to me so thats what i went with.

eponine is a girl who has neglectful parents who lives life by her own rules: toph. eponine is shown to be tough and confident and spunky to others but behind all of that she has emotions, she feels love, she hides her vulnerability so much: toph. she is in love with a guy she cant be with because he loves someone else: TOPH

eponine is toph to a t and toph is eponine to a t. this is not up for debate lmao

"without him i feel his arms around me"

toph is always seen grabbing onto someone (and its almost ALWAYS sokka) when she's somewhere where she can't use her feet to see. FEEL and ARMS cmon. look at it.

"and i know / i know that he is blind"

COME ON. IMAGINE TOPH SINGING THIS LINE. this line is already powerful enough in les mis but having toph, a blind character, sing it just makes the symbolism even deeper. toph sees the potential relationship they could have together. toph sees that sokka is oblivious to this. toph is not blind to the truth or the potention, but sokka is blind to her feelings. im about to lose my mind over this line.

"I love him / But every day I'm learning / All my life / I've only been pretending / Without me / His world will go on turning / A world that's full of happiness / That I have never known"

i need to sit down for a moment. toph grew up in a household where her parents did not understand her. she has learned to hide her true emotions and vulnerabilities from everyone. and its the fact that toph knows that she and sokka will never be together and the fact that she still loves him in spite of that is what makes this even more heartbreaking.

"but only on my own"

TOPH AND EPONINE SWEETIES I LOVE YOU

thank you for indulging my theatre kid nonsense. you are very sweet and kind and lovely and awesome and i hope you have a lovely day bestie :) <3

ask me why i think these songs go with these ships

[what-kinda-fuckery]

Hey so, I was one of the star struck falsettos stans that spent the forty dollars for the webinar, and I took notes (like a weirdo). So I decided I would share my funny moments and updates from the cast here!

- Host: Everyone should be keeping their audio off.

Christian: Oh alright!

Host: nO Christian not you

- Christians in Manhattan and his hair is back and he’s wearing a Superman t-shirt.

- Brandon is with his parents in NJ

- Stephanie and Brandon still love each other

- Brandon: Meat should be cooked just right

- Betsy: Stephanie are you in maple wood?

Stephanie: Well thank you for telling everyone where I am (she’s in NJ)

- Stephanie: Are you fucking kidding meee!!!

- Tracie is in LA, she looks like she’s in Costa Rica and I love her dog.

- Anthony’s VOICE IS LOW EVERYONES FREAKING OUT

they’re all talking about Anthony’s clear skin

- Andy Randy is in LA with a fresh haircut his boyfriend did it and he’s watching too much TV

Andrew: I’m watching this is America

Stephanie: SO GOOD

Andrew: SO GOOD

- Everyone’s having hard days

- Christian is acting out tracies dog’s pathetic bark and everyone’s like WHAT are you doing bc it looks like he’s about to throw up

- BETSY IS A WEEK AWAY FROM HAVINGA WHOLE CHILD

Betsy: What else do you do during a pandemic? Have a baby!

Andrew: Can I toss out another baby name? Celery.

Literally everyone: Goodnight Andrew goodbye!

- Christian is living with a girl (?) and playing board games instead of watching television

HE COOKS NOW EVERYONES PROUD OF HIM

Christian: yesterday I made pork filet en croute

Stephanie: I MADE PORK WITH SAGE AND APPLES ON WEDNESDAY

Stephanie: In mean girls they wear pink on wednesdays. In falsettos they make pork.

- I can’t get over Anthony’s voice

Again everyone returning to his literally perfect skin

- Stephanie: When watching four jews in a room in the beginning who’s in China?? I know the answer I just want to hear someone say it.

Andrew, with a thick accent: It was Bryna, in China, with a torn miniscus

- Christian: Did anything interesting make it on to the telecast between me and you? Andrew? Actually I dont remember I need to do my research.

Andrew: There’s been some strange comments about Christian and I- (AT THIS POINT IM WHEEZING)

HE MENTIONED THE TONY BONY

HE SAID IT WASNT A THING

HE DIDNT HAVE ONE

Andrew: No that’s not a thing that happened

Brandon: Andrew i want you to know that it’s okay if it was. It’s a safe space just the seven of us. (Lol)

- Bill Finn would take two steps into the room: “WROONG”

Stephanie: he wanted me to sing the end of I’m breaking down up the octave and I said #notmytrina

Brandon: #NOTMYTRINA

- Tracie what did you do during act 1

Tracie: Betsy and I sat in that dressing room for like an hour and a half

Andrew: You SANG the WHOLE SHOW TRACIE

- Betsy watched parts of the first act to feel like she was there

- Betsy sprained both her ankles at one point during the run and was a trooper anyways

Brandon reenacting Betsy limping during look look look look

Everyone dies laughing

Christians LAUGH makes me SO HAPPY

- Betsys screen is frozen like this: 🤨

Andrew: What if she went into labor??? (This is a common thread throughout the zoom)

- Anthony: I’m getting a lot of glitching so Stephanie is just like “HUH UH UH UH”

- Betsy comes back and everyone is like

YOU GUYS ITS COMING!!!

- They bought Andrew an ice cream for his birthday from the vending machine at rehearsal

- Andrew: The Hawaii crop top

Betsy: I would give anything to have that

- Tracie: it was very hard. Very precise bringing the blocks together

Brandon: Trying to be like oh my god we’re going to a funeral

Andrew: MY DEATH IT WAS MY DEATH

- fan question: What did the blocks weigh?

Stephanie: They were like thick yoga blocks. Not heavy but awkward shaped

Andrew: Significantly heavier when Anthony sat on them

Anthony: I just realized how much I got thrown around

Stephanie: Anthony were you proud of yourself? #proudofyou

Anthony: The one moment I was cringing was father and son

Christian: HERE WE GO *SLAPS TABLE*

Betsy: Anthony’s like BLAH BLAH BLAH blah my line BLAH BLAH BLAH my line BLAH BLAH

Christian: I LEAVE THE PAUSE IF YOU CANT GET IN THATS ON YOU

Anthony: I was blinking in that number like constantly

Christian: THE WHOLE THING LIKE A SALAMANDER

Oh Anthony.

- Andrew: I HAVE A STORY ABOUT CHRISTIAN BORLE. Tech for what more can i say. He was laying on me. We were shirtless in underpants under the blankets.

Christian: SLOWER

Andrew: he leaned over; He sniffed his armpit and said “I hope you like France”

EVERYONE DIES LAUGHING INCLUDING ME

Christian: i haven’t worn deodorant in 10 years true story

- Christian: i seem to remember holding our pillows and blankets pretending like we were partying on fyre island and Andrew said:

Andrew: WHATS YOUR NAME???

Christian: No no it was something like:

WHAT HOUSE ARE YOU STAYING IN??

Andrew: WHAT HOUSE ARE YOU STAYING IN???

Betsy: James lupine I feel like we’re ruining this show

- Andrew: The shenanigans were real but so was the sadness

Stephanie: We’re real and we’re funny what you gonna do

- Andrew talking about how hard the show was to do: Finding some liberty, It’s a hard world to live in all the time. It was a hard time especially for Christian. I would sometimes go home and cry for no reason

Brandon: Building up emotion with nowhere to put it

Betsy: then Lesbians come in and provide all the levity

Stephanie: Although Dr. Charlotte brings in horrible news

Tracie: Everything’s beautiful at what more can i say and I’m like not so fast

- Tracie always had a funny thing to say

- Who broke character the most on stage?

Anthony Stephanie and Christian

Anthony: it was when I said “I don’t want a bar mitzvah” and I spit in your face a lot and you went like *puts arms up* and someone at stage door was like very condescending like it’s not professional

Christian: Oh my bad we’re people sorry

- Stephanie wrote a line in the show “YOU HAVE PAINTINGS OF DICKS”

- James wanted her to cut off her finger during I’m breaking down

And turn around with a bandaged bloody finger

- Betsy’s nose bleeding during something bad is happening

And Tracie was like something BAD IS HAPPENING

Tracie: Christians throwing up right now

Betsy: Bloody Kleenex up the nose THE SHOW MUST GO ON

- Fan question: Stephanie how do you belt with a banana in your mouth

Christian: Practice practice practice

Stephanie: just shove it in your cheek. But Really that wasn’t supposed to happen

Anthony’s nickname in the rehearsal room was little bananas because he had to gather up all the pieces of stuff after Stephanie shoved the table over with her rear. Sometimes he didn’t have enough time to put it somewhere so he would just put the pieces of banana in his mouth and that’s where it came from

That’s why

- Andrew: Stephanie your glasses are very chic

Stephanie: Oh my gosh thank you *shocked*

- Betsy: Bill was like I’d rather DIE than change lyrics for the pbs special

FLaT aS a LaKe

- Cue everyone accidentally talking over each other and saying what at each other for 30 seconds

Christian: what? what? what?

Who is it?

What’s going on?

- If you could play anyone else in the show who would it be

Anthony said Mendel

Tracie said Mendel

Brandon said Trina

Andrew said marvin

Betsy said whizzer

Stephanie said Mendel

And I honestly couldn’t hear if Christian said anything whoops

- Brandon: If someone could at some point explain to me the Mendel eats dirt meme? People have been Asking me if Mendel eats dirt? I don’t think it’s about Trina Trina is not the dirt. I was overwhelmed. Can someone in the Q&A explain this? *A few seconds later* oh It was from a meme generator?

Christian: Greaat.

Brandon: It’s a fan fiction about Mendel eating dirt and getting aroused by it

Everyone: WHAT

- They still get fan art

Someone recreated the whole soundtrack 8bit and also with KAZOOS

- Brandon: CONGRATS CHRISTIAN ON LULOS WIN FOR LITTLE SHOP. If you haven’t seen Christian in little shop it’s revelatory I’m not just blowing smoke up your ass I have not laughed that hard in a while at the theatre

- Christian talking about little shop

Christian has a 12 inch Batman toy in his dressing room and he misses it

- Ticket prices were getting out of control before corona everyones hoping this will make a difference

Brandon and everyone think it should get more accessible

- Brandon: Hear hear I need a refill

- Stephanie: Your hair looks incredible Brandon (it did)

Christian: She’s been waiting to talk about it for 53 minutes

- Andrew: Well Betsy what I’m wondering is have you crowned yet??

Proceed everyone dying

Brandon, taking a picture of the screen: This moment will go down in history as When Betsy was asked if she was crowning

- Everyone mimicking zoom freezing by starting a sentence and freezing halfway through

- Christian: What new Steven sondheim musical are you excited about Anthony *devilish grin*

Anthony having no idea what Christian is talking about

Christian: Come on Anthony you know the answer. Ugh. The minds of the young. You’re smoking pot now aren’t you??

Christian: We have a lot of fun

- Andrew: I’m trying to get people to pay attention to me

- Christians pretending to be frozen

Cue a lot of yelling: Stephanie BRANDON STEPHANIE

NO CHRISTIAN

Everyone accusing each other of being frozen

NO YOURE FROZEN

- Andrew: Let’s all act like we’re frozen

Steph: I see Andrew acting like hes frozen

Betsy: Watching you do that is killing me

- Listening to the cast recording for the first time together

Stephanie: Why was I the a-hole that couldn’t be there???

Christian: That’s a question only you can answer

- Betsys husband came in everyones like BETSY LOOK OUT

Christian: that scared the shit out of me

- What is marvins last name and what was his line of work

Christian: we definitely said it at some point right? (They didnt) but he was in advertising. What was the last name? Gardens? O’Malley?

- Andrew: Betsys gone oh no

Betsy: I’m right here!!!

Andrew: She’s giving birth (again)

Stephanie: Betsy Wolfe is a ceiling

- Brandon: Welcome back Anthony. You’re here now.

Anthony singing merrily we roll along over Betsy trying to tell a story

Christian: STOP SMOKING POT IN YOUR BEDROOM ANTHONY

- Betsy: Steve (Steven Sondheim) comes to the door I call him steve

Into the woods is the reason Betsy is in theatre

- Betsy: Andrew was nervous singing at the tonys for Book of Mormon and he got dry mouth he sang like 😬I BELIEVE and he licked his lips so much during the song.

Brandon: Did you have a boner then too?

Andrew: GUYS DONT BE DICKS

Stephanie: It’ll be like dry mouth, boner

Andrew: BETSY YOU FUCKIN BITCH ITS ACTUALLY NOT THAT BAD

Stephanie: Bets maybe we should wrap it up

- Brandon sings MARRIAGE PROPOSAL

EVERYONE TELLING HIM TO STOP SINGING I took a video it was beautiful might post that later

- “Tracie Thomas from Lent!”

Tracie having stage fright

Tracie: Billy porter said “oh child we all forget the words” and walked away

- Anthony said WHO SHAT THE BED in four jews once

Anthony: That’s my contribution. Steph got her line, I got who shat the bed

- Steph: We lost andrew oh no

Christian: Um, we lost andrew ten minutes ago. Yeah when Brandon started singing

- Then Betsy sang a song by Bill Finn beautiful

- Steph: Wear your masks and eat pork on wednesdays

That was it!! I hope you enjoyed and people who were there if I got anything wrong that’s my human error it was hard to note everything I wanted to. Smooches! Byee

[castielstiddies]

Okay so I'm balling over this goddamn song and destiel and I need to let you all know why so here it is: An Analysis of the Lyrics and Why They Fit Destiel Perfectly.

I just want to point out that Andrew Rannells (Whizzer) and Christian Borle (Marvin) perform this perfectly and I love them.

This is a very long post so be warned before you press that button.

It's important to have context so we can connect these two pairings together properly and bring more meaning out of this song like it deserves. So the main part of the synopsis says:

"Marvin, after Whizzer’s death, reflects on their relationship and how loving Whizzer has changed his life. Whizzer’s spirit come back, dressed as he was in the first scene, both commenting on how they changed each others lives and on the future they were robbed of."

Now let me just change some words here and we'll see how we all feel:

"Dean, after Cas’s death, reflects on their relationship and how loving Cas has changed his life. Cas’s spirit come back, dressed in his trenchcoat, both commenting on how they changed each others lives and on the future they were robbed of."

Are you crying yet? Don't worry we haven't even seen the lyrics yet.

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"[MARVIN]" Now I'd like to start off by saying that Marvin has been with both men and women and he's struggled with his own internalized homophobia and has found it difficult to openly love Whizzer throughout the show. The parallels are clear between Marvin and Dean.

"What would I do If I had not met you?" You can think of this two ways. One - What would Dean have done if Cas had not met him in Hell and saved him? Still getting tortured or more likely torturing others, an experience that he hated and wished to never live through again. The second (and I think better) way to think of this line is, when Dean met Cas on earth. How meeting Cas changed his life forever, opening him up to a whole new world of having someone who thought that he deserved to be saved and who gave up an entire army for him. Who proved his love and loyalty to him time and time again. So what would Dean have done if he had never met Cas on Earth? What if Cas never reached out to him after saving Dean from Hell? A little bit later in this verse Marvin sings...

"There are no answers"

...in regards to this question. Because there really are no answers to what would Dean have done without Cas because we simply can't imagine it. The same goes for Dean. Cas has changed his life so much that it's impossible to imagine what his life would be like without Cas.

"Who would I blame my life on?" When Christian Borle delivers this line on stage it's said with a small, sad laugh. Similar to how Dean uses humour to hide his feelings, Marvin does too.

"Once I was told That all men get what they deserve Who the hell then threw this curve?" Despite everything Cas has done wrong, Dean and all of us know that Cas did not get what he deserved when the Empty took him. We believe he deserved to be happy with Dean and Dean thinks so too.

"There are no answers But who would I be If you had not been my friend?" The word 'friend' here is what really ties it to Dean for me because they were friends first, they helped eachother through thick and thin before love started to seep in as well. Sure there was attraction from the beginning but it's about the fact that Dean's only shown to have one true, close best friend, and that's Cas.

"You're the only one One out of a thousand others Only one my child would allow" Alright so this line I did struggle to link to destiel, I was thinking about Jack and Claire but they're Cas's children. But what if we think of the 'child' as Sam. Dean raised Sam so it's easy to see him as his 'child' and it's important to Dean that Sam accepts the people that he's friends with. This is even more important with Cas because Dean may want to have a relationship with him in the future and also Cas lives in the bunker... with them. Dean definitaly needs Sam's permission if he wants Cas to live in their home. It's clear that Cas and Sam are the people Dean cares about the most and to have Sam 'allow' Cas to stay in their home and share their space is something that's really important to Dean.

"When I'm having fun You're the one I wanna talk to" Cue every gif of Dean smiling while hanging out with Cas or talking to Cas over the phone.

"Where have you been?" Where has Cas been for all of Dean's life? He completes Dean, builds up his self-confidence and assures him that he is wanted, needed and important. Just where has Cas been for all of Dean's life?

"Where are you now? So on this note there's a beautiful key change into the next part and it just makes it so much more profound. (Also Dean has no gosh darn clue where Cas is, who tf is the Empty?)

"Who would I be If I had not loved you?" This moment is fucking beautiful. It's Dean finally speaking his truth and telling Cas, wherever he is, that he loved him. He loved Cas and that changed him for the better, made him into the person he is today.

"How would I know what love is?" Dean has never been told so openly and honestly by anyone about how he is important, he's worthwhile and that he deserves to live a happy and full life, no one has done that besides Cas. No one has shown their loyalty and love to him in the most blatant and profound ways possible, giving up an entire army, rebelling against their own family, sticking by his side no matter what. Staying. How would Dean know what true love is without Cas constantly showing him what love means and what it feels like be loved fully and truly. Of course Dean has experienced love before, he's been in at least 2 other relationships (that I can think of off of the top of my head) but he's never felt love like the way he does with Cas.

"God only knows, too soon I'll remember your faults Meanwhile, though, it's tears and schmaltz" Of course as Dean relives memories of Cas, he'll be reminded of all of his faults, all of the things he did wrong even when he thought that what he was doing was right (Leviathians, Lucifer). But for now, Dean will breakdown and cry and grieve but most of all he'll remember Cas and how much he loved him.

"[WHIZZER]" Alright so Whizzer is a character who has never been shy about his sexuality, about how much he likes being with men. Similar to Cas who simply doesn't understand why people hide who they're attracted to until Dean came along and taught him differently.

"All your life you've wanted men" I like to think that this line applies to both Cas and Dean and I'll explore that with the next two lines.

"And when you got it up to have them Who knew it could end your life?" This is getting a bit meta now. When Dean was so very close to finally speaking his truth on screen, he died. (And in some versions he does speak his truth but that's another story). There was no reason for Dean to die in the finale, who knew that when he finally shared that he loved another man he would be killed for no reason two episodes later.

This line can also be in reference to Cas's experience. When Cas was finally able to tell Dean that he loved him, when he finally gained to courage to not only share his feelings but also to have his happiness ripped away from him, he died. Dean and Cas both knew what was going to happen when Cas said those words. It wasn't a surprise, yet it still felt like one.

"[MARVIN] I left my kid and left my wife" This is the moment when I could not stop crying and thinking about destiel when listening to this song. Dean left Lisa and (totally not) his son in season 5.

"To be with you" Of course it's a little bit of a stretch to say that Dean left Lisa and Ben solely for Cas (expecially since I think Dean realised his love for Cas in Season 7-8 so the timeline wouldn't make sense for me) but I like to think of this line from the perspective of Dean grieving Cas and looking back on how Cas changed his life. Of course he would remember that he left Lisa and Ben in order to be with Cas because that was 10 years ago and the memory is now muddled with grief, time and his now unwavering love for Cas. "To be insulted by such handsome men" This line just reminds me of the scene in the car when Cas and Dean are arguing (you know what I'm on about)

"[WHIZZER] Do you regret—?" Cas is asking Dean, do you regret loving me? Do you regret letting me into your life? Do you regret our friendship? It's beautiful to think that Cas feels vulnerable in this moment, he thinks that Dean regrets letting him into his life.

"[MARVIN] I'd do it again I'd like to believe that I'd do it again And again and again..." Now Dean's the one to build Cas back up, to assure him that he does not regret a thing. He's building up Cas's confidence and supporting him just like Cas has been doing for Dean.

"And What more can I say? [WHIZZER] What more can I say?" They're both lost for words, what do they say now? They know that they love eachother and they know that they won't be able to be together because of Cas's deal. What do you say in that situation?

"[MARVIN] How am I to face tomorrow?" Dean still has to continue living, without Cas. In 15x19 he's drowning himself in beer as he grieves the loss of Cas. How can he face tomorrow after Cas has confessed his love for him and then died in a matter of minutes? How can he face tomorrow knowing that saying that he loves Dean, that by having Dean know that someone loves him, is the happiest moment Cas has ever felt?

"[BOTH] After being screwed out of today" Haha screw...

"Tell me what's in store" They're still looking to eachother for guidance and support despite the distance between them.

"[MARVIN] Yes, I'd beg or steal or borrow" Dean's turning to things that he can control in order to deal with his grief. Despite the finale ending I think it's widely accepted in the Destiel fandom that Dean would work night and day until he got Cas back from the empty.

"If I could hold you for One hour more [WHIZZER] One hour more [MARVIN] One hour more [WHIZZER] One hour more [BOTH] One hour, one hour more" Now that they know that they both love eachother, that they could have had everything they wanted if they just told one another. They're begging all of the higher powers that there are that they could enjoy what could have been for one hour. Simply relishing in the fact that they are happy and in love and that they are both wanted.

"[MARVIN] What would I do [WHIZZER] What would I do [MARVIN] If I had not seen you? [WHIZZER] If I had not seen you? [BOTH] Who would I feast my eyes on?" Once again I'm just thinking about the idea of that 'one hour more' and how they would constantly compliment one another and freely look at each other without shame or embarrassment and to just allow themselves to have everything that they wanted.

"Once I was told That good men get better with age [MARVIN] We're just gonna skip that stage" This can be seen two ways, one is that Cas simply cannot age and Dean is once again using humour to hide his grief. Or my favourite version which is that Dean never got to grow old with Cas, (I strongly believe that Cas would allow his vessel to grow old with Dean). Dean wanted to live a normal life, he wanted to get a job and stop hunting but most of all he wanted to grow old with Cas.

If you watch the live version of this song here: https://youtu.be/ZscL4LOLP7Y

You'll hear how Christian Borle's voice cracks when delivering this line. The rest of the lyrics are repeats of lines that I've already covered.

And I'm done boys. Thank you for sticking with this very very long post but I needed to get this out somewhere.

I highly recommend watching Falsettos for yourself if you want to get a better insight into how Marvin/Whizzer and Destiel compare or if you just like the look of it.

[secretly-tword-obsessed]

Just One More Game

Hello lovely gigglers! This is a tickle fic for the musical Falsettos! 

Summary: Jason wants to play chess. Whizzer and Marvin want him to do Bar Mitzvah practice.

What is ‘normal’? 

Well, according to Jason’s mother Trina, ‘normal’ was socialising with other children: making connections with people your own age. But that just wasn’t how Jason rolled. In fact, Jason’s strongest connection was with somebody more than double his age, his best friend Whizzer. Who also happened to be Jason’s fathers boyfriend, so they lived together half the time. 

Jason much preferred the time he spent at his father’s house to the time he spent at his mother’s. Trina was always nagging him to go play outside like a normal kid, but Marvin and Whizzer just accepted him for who he was. 

It was a dull Sunday morning, and Jason was doing Bar Mitzvah practice in his room at his father’s house. And he must admit, he was finding it very difficult. It was almost impossible to concentrate on the Hebrew letters before him when there was a chess board on the other side of his room just begging to be played with. And of course, his playing side won.

Mavin decided to walk in to the room to check on his son, and couldn’t say that he was surprised by the sight that greeted him. 

“Jason, you should be doing your Bar Mitzvah work”, he sighed, knowing that it was probably no use. It was Jason after all.

“I will after I finished this game”, he grumbled, spinning the board around and advancing a black knight.

“Well”, Whizzer said, walking into the room, “You may ‘swell have someone to play with kid!”. He sat himself on the white side of the board. 

“Whizzer”, Marvin groaned, “Your not helping”.

“What?”, Whizzer defended, “He said that after this game he’d get back to his Bar Mitzvah work!”.

“And you believed him.”

“Of course I believed him!”

“Guys, stop talking about me like I’m not right here!”

Marvin just sighed again, not knowing what else to do: “Fine, but after your done, back to work!”.

Yet after the short game of chess, Jason easily emerging victorious, he had no intention of going back to practicing, like Marvin suspected.

“Another game?”, he asked.

“Oh come on kid, you made an agreement with your father”, Whizzer reasoned.

“No I didn’t”, Jason said, “I never agreed to anything. Marvin just made a statement which I neither confirmed nor denied”. 

“Ok”, Whizzer said, trying to sound stern, “Iv’e been easy with you kid for the last few months, but it’s about time I set some boundaries, as I am kind of your second father. So, get to work now or you will regret it. Trust me, Iv’e had experience with naughty children before, I know how to make them listen to me”.

Jason just smiled. Whizzer definitely wasn’t the hitting type. 

“Oh really”, he said smugly, “Demonstrate”. 

Whizzer eyed him, “Ok kid, you asked for it”. 

In a swift movement, Whizzer grabbed Jason by his belly and placed him in his lap. He held him down and started tickling him.

Jason chuckled: “Nice try, that doesn’t work on me”. 

“What?”, Whizzer said, stopping his fingers, “You mean your not ticklish?”.

Jason shrugged: “You shouldn’t be surprised. I’m no normal child after all”.

“Wow”, Whizzer remarked in slight disbelief, “You really are something kid”.

Jason wiggled himself out of Whizzer’s lap and resumed his position on the black side of the board. 

“Ok, just one more game, please?”, he begged.

“No”, Whizzer replied stubbornly.

That was the moment that a rather cheeky thought crossed Jason’s mind. 

“Well”, the twelve-year-old began, “I just so happen to know some adult disciplining techniques to”. 

Whizzer chuckled: “And what might they be?”.

Jason slowly crawled towards Whizzer, his smile doubling in size: “Oh, same as yours”.

Whizzer’s eyes widened, realising what the boy meant. He instantly went red, hoping that Jason hadn’t noticed his sudden change in mood. Yet Jason picked up on the smallest of details, and just by looking at Whizzer, knew that he must have been hysterically ticklish. And boy, was Jason ready to wreck him!

The only question was: How? Jason was very small for his age, and Whizzer was tall and strong and manly. How would Jason manage to tickle him without getting injuries? That was when he got an idea.

He flung himself towards Whizzer at full force, knocking him over, and he instantly sat on the mans stomach. With Whizzer in this position, there was no way that he could escape, no matter how strong he was. Plus, he wouldn’t want to hurt his little buddy. 

“Now”, Jason said, “For the last time Whizzer, will you play one more game of chess with me?”.

Whizzer shook his head: “Nah kid. And I’m not even ticklish”.

It was worth a try, right?

Jason smirked and poked the man’s belly, causing him to yelp and jerk.

Jason gasped in fake offence, “You lied to me!”. He swiftly dug his ten little pointy fingers into his best friend’s sides. He tossed his head back in hysterics, laughing and squealing and giggling. Jason gave him an evil look, and raised his fingers closer to Whizzer’s underarms.

“Nohohho Jahahahahson!”, he cried, wiggling like a worm.

“One more chess game, pleeeaassee”, Jason whined, continuing his attack.

“NOHOHO YOHOHOHOHOUR DAHAHAHAHAD WOULD KIHIHIHIHIHIHILL MEHEHEHE!”, Whizzer exclaimed, completely helplessly. 

Jason was highly amused by the state that he was managing to inflict on the tall, deep masculine figure beneath him. He was the least likely person that you would expect to emit girlish shrieks. 

“Well, I’m already killing you, aren’t I?”, Jason teased, scratching at Whizzer’s underarms.

“SHIHIHIHIHIT YOHOHOHOUR GROUHOUHOUNDED YOUHOUNG MAHAHAHN!”, Whizzer laughed hysterically, his legs flailing around uselessly beneath the weight of Jason on his stomach. 

Marvin noticed the commotion. 

“Hey, whats going on in he-”.

He cut his sentence short at the sight before him. He wanted to be angry at his son, after all, he was supposed to be doing Bar Mitzvah work; but he couldn’t feel any other emotion besides bliss at hearing the sound of his boyfriend’s adorable laughter. And of course, the amusement that his rough and tough boyfriend was being reduced to near tears by his twelve-year-old son.

“HEHEHEHELP MAHAHAHRVIN!”, Whizzer begged.

“Oh, whats wrong babe? My little boy too much for you to handle?”, Marvin teased. 

Jason halted the attack immediately: “What did you just call me?”.

“What do you mean, ‘What did I just call you’?”, Marvin asked his son.

“You just called me ‘Your little boy’!”, Jason complained.

Marvin chuckled, “Well you are, it’s the truth”.

Jason narrowed his eyebrows, before turning to the complete red-faced mess below him. 

“Ok”, Jason said, “Heres the deal. Dad is very ticklish on his neck. If you help me tickle him, I won’t tickle you”.

Whizzer just grinned up at Jason: “Sounds like a plan kid”. 

Marvin instantly bolted out the door, he knew how much of an evil tickler his boyfriend could be. 

“And”, Jason added, not the slightest bit worried about Marvin getting a head start, “Every second he’s in hysterics is fifteen minutes of me doing Bar Mitzvah practice”. 

“Oh, he’s in for it!”, Whizzer announced, which sounded a bit like a battle cry. Jason chuckled and got off him, and in a matter of seconds, Whizzer had managed to tackle Marvin onto his own bed.

Marvin struggled beneath him: “Whizzer, no!”.

“The kid says that for every second your in hysterics, he’ll do fifteen minutes of practice. Isn’t that nice babe?”, Whizzer cooed before attacking his boyfriend’s hips with wiggly pokes and drills. And of course, Jason went for his neck.

Marvin didn’t even try fighting back his hysterical laughter, for he knew that it would result in more Bar Mitzvah practice for Jason. But boy, was this unbearable.

Metaphorically speaking; Marvin actually was quite fond of laughing his head off. It made him feel careless and free. But most importantly, loved.

“NOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!”, he cried, “STAHAHAHAHAHAHAWP!”.

“Stop? Why? We’re just getting started”, Whizzer teased.

“You know what, I think he likes this”, Jason said. 

Again, the boy could pick up on small details that others couldn’t. Like the twinkle in his father’s eyes, and the way that his cheeks tinted at the corner of his lips. 

This comment made Whizzer laugh and blush harder. Jee, he hoped his son was keeping track of the numbers.

“Ok, stop now, one straight day is a bit much”, Jason said, lifting his hands.

Yet Whizzer kept it up. 

Jason groaned: “I’m serious, stop”.

“What? No amount of practice is too much practice kiddo”, Whizzer said, as he spidered his quick fingers across Marvin’s belly.

Jason shook his head, and pounced on to Whizzer. And soon, both men were wrecking the tall man.

What is ‘normal’?

Well, I guess normal is a word that we use to describe something that the majority of the population does, feels or enjoys.

And sure, Jason couldn’t be typically described as normal. He was a young and sassy boy who could outsmart every adult in his life! But he still did partake in the common tradition of family bonding. Even though he was never the clingy type, he loved his family more than anything.

I guess thats ‘normal;’.

[kuraagins]

My highlights from falsettos UK

Please scroll past if you’re going to watch the show and don’t want spoilers!! Also feel free to ask if you have any other questions about his production <3

-Trina is is four jews instead of Jason!!! We see her get married to Marvin and they use the veil as baby Jason

-The ‘slavery’ is Trina being pregnant/going into labour

-When Jason comes on at the end of the song Whizzer gives him a piggy back and it’s so pure

-“When I put the steak in” Oliver literally thrust against Daniel from behind

-They were so snarky and flirty with each other I loved it

-overall there were more Whizzvin kisses throughout the show than both broadway productions, which obviously I LOVED

-the tango break in thrill of first love was about half the length and was more dancey, they kind of dipped each other but it wasn’t anything overly extravagant

-They had a VERY passionate kiss at the end of the song gay rights

-Daniel gave us anxious Marvin rights, in Marvin at the psychiatrist he was like hugging his knees to his chest and speaking all soft about Whizzer

-THEY KEPT IN “its queer mr Marvin!” which is honestly one of my favourite jokes in the show

-Elliott’s ‘my fathers a homo’ was HILARIOUS he came on doing this really camp dance and it honestly had the whole audience in stitches that kid could ACT

-Laura’s ‘I’m breaking down’ was PERFECT, her voice is literally incredible and she perfectly captured Trina’s despair despite keeping the song hilarious

-like one of the choruses she just hummed the lyrics while drinking straight from a bottle of wine

-I cannot praise this woman enough she is the perfect Trina

-Jason and Mendel dancing in Jason’s therapy was adorable as usual

-I loved Joel as Mendel in the marriage proposal

-He was so awkward and Trina was so confused it was so funny yet so so sweet

-A personal highlight was him starting to cry when he said “don’t start to cry” and Trina immediately being like “I’m... not crying?”

-At the end of Tight Knit Family (reprise) Jason is stood in between Marvin and Mendel and Trina comes on and protectively takes him off stage

-Trina’s song was SO beautiful it moved me to tears

-She was in her pyjamas and was basically getting into bed while she sang, but Laura just looked so sad and desperate it broke my heart

-Which lead us perfectly into march of the falsettos! In this production it was staged as Trina having a nightmare; Jason crawls out from under the bed and the men walk on in really stiff, creepy movements and torment her

-The song had to be pre recorded because the men had on these REALLY creepy smile masks covering their actual mouths

-Also on “asses bared my delight” MENDEL is the one who says it I think because on that line he bends Trina over and basically shows her ass to the audience

-during the chess game Marvin was drinking the whole way through, and you could see him drinking more quicker as he was getting more and more frustrated

-there was no love in this version, Marvin is patronising and mean towards Whizzer, who doesn’t want to take any of his shit

-when Whizzer wins Marvin basically goes around and slams/hits a bunch of furniture and he looked really apologetic immediately afterwards, until Whizzer sang the “Whizzer’s supposed to make the dinner” section of the song, and he got PISSED and packed Whizzer’s suitcase on stage while they sang and then threw it at him.

-Marvin hits Trina had me SOBBING

-When Whizzer says he doesn’t love Marvin you can SEE him get all tense and angry as he paces between all of the characters before the anger comes out in a burst as he hits Trina

-basically when the hit happened he got real close to her and she had her back to the audience as he slapped her face. Mendel pushed Marvin away and Jason called out for his mother and hugged her with Mendel.

-Daniel boys had these WONDERFUL moments of vulnerability with Marvin. After the hit he looked so shaky and small, and he was breathlessly trying to apologise but he was almost scared of himself

-One of my favourite moments in the show was during the “he’s mine” section of I never wanted to love you. Marvin is trying to talk to Jason but Trina is holding him so protectively as if she doesn’t want Marvin anywhere near him.

-Father to son was beautifully simple. Minimal lighting with Marvin and Jason sitting cross legged on the floor. They hug and Marvin kisses his head as act one ends

-this version of welcome to falsettoland was EVERYTHING

-When the Reagans are mentioned they’re projected on the picture frames around the stage and Whizzer looks so disgusted

-THEN the lesbians come on stage covering their faces with signs saying “sodomy is sin”, but when they’re introduced they turn the signs around and they say “Love is love” !!!!!!

-also the lesbians got the HUGEST applause, as they deserve

-the ‘congregate in Central Park’ line now refers to them congregating for a protest march!!! The other characters have ‘no nukes’ signs

-There was the CUTEST ad lib between Jason and Mendel in the Everyone Hates His Parents dance break (which was iconic by the way

-it basically went

Mendel: “they should put this in a musical, we’re good!”

Jason: “Which one?”

Mendel: “I don’t know, I’m tired”

-I adored the restaging if what more can I say

-Basically Whizzer was falling asleep while reading on a chair, and Marvin is being all soft and adoring, and he takes Whizzer’s glasses off for him and takes the book off his lap and make sure he gets to bed, it’s so domestic and adorable it melted my heart

-Charlotte And Cordelia’s chemistry throughout was PERFECT

-at the end of more racquetball, when Whizzer collapses he ad-libbed like “Marvin I’m fine, I’m fine!” But Marvin was so concerned and worried about his boyfriend and immediately rushes to his side and holds him.

-Then theres the sound of ambulances and the lights on stage dim and the projection portraits flash and a voice over says ‘Dr Charlotte to emergency’ and a projection of a heart monitor appears above Whizzer and beeping can be heard, it’s all a really nice touch and really sets panic in you for Whizzer

-Laura’s holding to the ground was beautiful, as anticipated, and as she sang they set up the hospital and got Whizzer into bed, Charlotte and Marvin fussing over him. It was a subtle but really nice scene.

-In days like this Marvin gets Whizzer this ridiculous cartoon ‘get well soon’ card and Whizzer looks so disgusted by it but Marvin puts it up anyway

-cancelling the bar mitzvah was another one that made me cry, Elliott was crying real tears, which made Laura start crying, and they were hugging each other so tightly and his voice was muffled because of this, and they just had this perfect, believable mother/son dynamic

-during something bad is happening (reprise) Jason is the only other person on stage which COULD be interpreted as Charlotte telling Jason what’s going on with both Whizzer and his dad :’(((((((

-I loved Ollie’s take on you gotta die sometime. Instead of belting at the end he was so quiet he was barely audible, and he’s so weak and hunched over before Jason comes in and he tries to look strong for him.

-At the end of the bar mitzvah Jason stands on the table and sings his Hebrew (Mendel hands him the Torah but jason doesn’t take it as he knows the words by heart :’) ) and he holds his hands out to Whizzer, and Whizzer tries to take it but he collapses and the tight knit family surround him and try to help him and Jason says in this tiny, heartbreaking voice “Whizzer! No, I want to help!”

-In What would I do Whizzer is still alive and in his hospital bed and at the end of the song the heart monitor projection goes flat as the tight knit family surround a sobbing Marvin

-Mendel sings falsettoland (reprise) and blows out a candle lit during the bar mitzvah

-also at the end the cast (in costume) are projected onto one of the photo frames and it’s so beautiful

-anyway I love this show if you can please go and see it!!!!

[whatdoyoumeanyoudont]

So Play (Whizzvin Drabble)

I wrote a thing! Not sure if I can call this a fic, more of a drabble word dump, but it was in my head, so I wrote it out. @eggrollsandfandoms suggested the prompt Racquetball shenanigans, and well, I didn’t manage to get to the racquetball playing, but more of how they got to play in the first place.

(Set briefly after Marvin and Whizzer got back together, around or a little before A Day in Falsettoland)

(Also apparently I can't write fluff for the hell of it, so it's going to be an angsty ride)

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Whizzer was feeling... off.

He had no doubts about why it was so. Getting back with Marvin was - a big change, to say the least. He'd tried to remain distant, (no, really, he had tried) but in the end, he was only human.

He'd missed Marvin, he'd missed Jason. God forbid, he'd also missed Mendel and Trina, despite the chaos that the tight knit family brought to his life. Life had been boring for the past two years, and while he'd tried to spruce it up with his many exploits, none of them had filled the void quite like Marvin did.

Which was why he was back, lounging on the back of Marvin's sofa on a lazy Saturday, despite his brain chiding him incessantly.

Marvin felt different as well.

Whizzer was understandably reserved in getting back into the relationship. He had scoffed at Marvin's requests (he didn't mean it), pretended to sleep around (he couldn't, not anymore) and refused to move in with him (but he was staying here like five days a week anyway).

He knew he was stalling - waiting for the inevitable blow-up that was going to happen. They'd fight, Marvin would be controlling, Whizzer would be cruel, and it would be over again, just like that. Best not get too attached.

But it had been weeks now, and nothing had happened. Marvin was... cautious, for a lack of a better word. He wasn't obsessing over Trina any more, seemed genuinely fine with her remarriage, and seemed to be getting along with Jason as well, as long as the Bar Mitzvah stayed out of the conversation. Whizzer had spitefully burnt dinner, or just conveniently forgot about it in multiple occasions, and Marvin just shrugged and took out takeout menus. He'd withheld, trying to convince himself that the hunger in Marvin's eyes meant nothing to him, that it wasn't getting him as impatient as Marvin apparently seemed to be. Marvin had just swallowed hard, nodded, and showed him out. (Whizzer's pride did take a hit on that one, until he spared a glance downward before he left and - yep.)

He doesn't know what he was expecting, to be honest. But whatever it was, it never came.

So Whizzer was restless. He was forcing his fight-or-flight instinct to stay up, but it wasn't easy when everything else seemed so - relaxed. Even the deep ache in his body after they had - fucked - last night wasn't getting him nervous. Over the clinking sounds of Marvin preparing breakfast (the sheer idea!), he glanced around anxiously, trying to keep alert, when -

Of course.

Whizzer smiled bitterly. Best to rip the band aid out quickly - he thought, and made up his mind.

"Marvin?" He called, and he tried to ignore how is voice was sounding just a little bit stuffy.

"Yes, Whizzer?" Marvin replied, the noise from the kitchen slowing down.

Whizzer took a deep breath.

"Want to play chess?"

A pause, then silence from the kitchen. Whizzer held his breath. Then footsteps, coming towards him, then stopped.

Whizzer looked down on the ground. He could hear Marvin open his mouth, pause, and then -

"I thought you hated chess."

Whizzer braved a glance toward Marvin, at his stupidly attractive body, stopping briefly to register that he was wearing a stained apron that had to have belonged to Cordelia at some point. His face was full of something Whizzer couldn't - was it concern?

Whizzer smiled, but it felt weak even to him. Marvin's eyebrows drew closer together, and he winced internally. "But you like it."

Marvin just stared at him like that, and Whizzer, not able to bring himself to drop the gaze, stared back, trying to find answers in the troubled blue eyes that were obviously thinking a mile a minute.

"It's just chess, Marvin. You look like I've asked you to calculate the theory of relativity." Whizzer gave another attempt at a smile, and this one felt a bit more successful. Christ, Brown. Get your act together. Marvin chuckled at that, and that meant it was okay, right? (But it was not going to be okay, and wow, why does he have to laugh like that all light and gorgeous and -)

"I mean, I appreciate your asking, Whizzer," Marvin said, "but um, maybe not? I'm sure we could find something else to do today."

Whizzer balked. Marvin? Refusing to play chess? Passing over a sure way to assert his superiority all over Whizzer?

"But you love chess." Whizzer repeated, and it sounded empty even to his ears.

"Yeah, well," Marvin scrunched up his face (adorable) at that, and sheepishly brought a hand up to scratch at his hair, something he'd always do when he was nervous. (Why was he nervous?) "But you don't, and I'd rather not put you through something that you hate just for my sake."

Whizzer could only stare back, dumbfounded. Marvin continued. "Besides, ever since... well, let's just say I hadn't enjoyed it as much as I used to, after, uh." He laughed nervously, hurrying over the subject. "But we could do something else? You uh, like racquetball, right? I've seen you carry your gear around. We could try that."

"Racquetball?" Whizzer's eyebrows were shooting straight up into his hairline, as he gaped at Marvin. He couldn't quite take the incredulity out of his voice. Marvin? Volunteering to go play sports? Mr. I-hate-baseball-I-really-do Marvin? "You want to go play racquetball with me?"

"Yes?" Marvin regarded him calmly, but he was messing with his hands, a sign of nerves that Whizzer had learned to recognize, but why would he be -

"You'll lose if you play me." Whizzer's mouth was dry. He had to say it. He needed to avoid the-

But Marvin was laughing, the laugh he'd fallen in love with (oh god, he was in love with Marvin) since the first time he'd laid eyes on him, the deep, guttural laugh that came from deep inside his chest and shook his whole body, as well as Whizzer's world. He was too busy admiring the lines or Marvin's eyes that he almost missed what came afterwards.

"If I had to lose to anyone, it would be you, Whizzer."

And then he was bending down, cupping his cheeks and kissing Whizzer, and oh, he'd missed this. The world was spinning, the curve of Marvin's lips and his scent and his taste was the only thing left in the universe now, as time stopped. Whizzer let himself lean into the kiss, hungrily devouring the only semblance of sense he could hold on to in these confusing times.

Marvin pulled back much to soon, and he was talking, why was he talking, they could get back to kissing again right now, and Whizzer let out a high-pitched whine.

Marvin chuckled, the bastard, and kept talking. Whizzer only broke out of the haze in time to hear the end of his question. "-aking that as a yes then?"

"...Yes?" Whizzer blinked, trying to pull Marvin back onto his lips, fixated on the curved of the now-swollen Cupid's bow.

Marvin smiled, a real soft one, and kissed Whizzer again, chastely. "Then it's settled, we'll have breakfast, and then we're going out to the racquetball court." And then he pulled away, but Whizzer was too shocked to protest.

"We're what?"

Marvin laughed again, the full laugh, as he got back up. "Breakfast will be ready in ten, Whizzer. Get yourself ready, I'll probably need a lot of help."

And then he - for a lack of a better word - sashayed back into the kitchen, still clad in that ridiculous apron and that ass, wrapped in flannel pajamas that really should be off-putting but weren't, and disappeared behind the wall. Whizzer was left staring at the spot where the ass had disappeared, head reeling and horny.

He took a deep breath, and relaxed back into the couch.

Well then.

Whizzer was feeling better now.

[aaa-bees-bees-bees]

dont know what to call this but its a fic from school that im still working on so.. enjoy??

Whizzer was anxious to see his boyfriend after two months of not being able to see each other. Whizzer was dressed very daintily as always and arrived precisely at 5:00. Whizzer took out the key to Marvin’s dorm room and went in. Marvin didn’t hear him as he was watching T.V. Whizzer took this chance to look around. After looking around for a bit at the ragged room Marvin finally turned and looked at Whizzer. The sullen look that was on his face was gone and Marvin rushed to his boyfriend. They kissed for a bit but really just enjoyed the presence of each other. Marvin apologized for the mess of his dorm but Whizzer didn’t mind. Whizzer was going to sleep there over the weekend and he realized he didn’t bring any clothes. Marvin didn’t mind and would let Whizzer wear some of his clothes even though they would be a bit small on him. Once they both changed Marvin commented on how cute Whizzer looked and they fell asleep cuddling. Whizzer woke up that morning as the sun glints through the blinds in Marvins room. Whizzer looked over at his sleeping boyfriend and smiled. Whizzer really loves this man. Whizzer untangled himself from Marvin and made some breakfast. About an hour later Whizzer had just finished breakfast and was now waiting for Marvin to wake up. About 5 minutes later Marvin came out of his room. Marvin looked at Whizzer and stared at him for a good 10 seconds before walking past him and out of the room. Whizzer just stared at the door very confused. Whizzer shrugged it off thinking Marvin just had to be somewhere. Whizzer finished eating and Marvin still wasn’t back. Whizzer knew his way around the college and was worried about Marvin. Whizzer cleaned up and then went looking for Marvin. After about 10 minutes of searching, he was about to give up but then he saw him. Whizzer got mad instantly and almost ran up to Marvin and the girl he was making out with. Whizzer just tapped Marvin on the shoulder and whispered in his ear “we need to talk..” and that made Marvin almost jump out of his skin. Marvins excused himself from the girl and he and Whizzer went back to his dorm. “So.. who was that?” Whizzer asked with a seductive smirk. “No one. God, can’t I just live my life?” Marvin asked looking at Whizzer. Whizzer was taller and more dominate so there were ways to get Marvin to spill anything. “Cheating on me..?” Whizzer said with that smirk on his face still. Then it happened. No one saw it coming. Whizzer just stood there, hand on his now burning cheek where Marvin had slapped him. About 5 seconds later Marvin realized what he had done. Marvin took a step at Whizzer and Whizzer took a step away from him. “Whizzer I-” Marvin began but Whizzer cut him off “Why?” He asked in a low voice. “I’m so sorry. I.. I don’t know what came over me. I swear it’ll never happen again,” Marvin said and he was telling the truth. “I’ll stay if you do one thing... Break up with that girl,” Whizzer requested and Marvin ran out of the room holding Whizzer’s hand. They run over to the girl and Marvin does a stupid quick breakup. Marvin turns to Whizzer and kisses him. They run back to their dorm room and Whizzer cooks up something little as Marvin hadn’t eaten. They then go to Marvin’s couch and cuddle up while watching Newsies. This is the ending Whizzer wanted. He didn’t care if he died right now. He was just happy knowing that Marvin was all his and that they would be together forever. Well, almost forever. 

*three years later*

Whizzer walked through the door of his house with a box in his hand. He wanted to surprise Marvin with a little something. The box was shrouded with a blanket so that no one could know what was in it. Whizzer walked by Jason’s room where he was trying to amplify his music. Jason already knew about Whizzers’ plan so Jason just nodded and didn’t question it. Whizzer walked into their bedroom and saw Marvin foraging for a little gift. “Marvin?” Whizzer asked and Marvin’s head popped up. “Oh, hey Whizzer. Whatcha got there?” Marvin asked, curious. “For you..” Whizzer said as he took the cat out of the box. Marvin stared at it mesmerized. He loved it so much, he knew it would be hard to be tolerant of it but Marvin didn’t care. When the cat made a hoarse meow Marvin shot out of the room to get it some water and Whizzer just giggled.

*about a month later*

There may have been three ants that Marvin had to kill but it was okay. Marvin and Whizzer had just finished eating the luscious dinner Whizzer had made, they were kind of tired so they went to sit on the couch and cuddle Marvin did love seeing his boyfriends hair in disarray, they were also very warm with their blanket teeming over them and it made it even better with their bodies touching. Marvin wanted some background noise so they turned on the news. They showed the outside of a building and there were distinguished people who were protesters. Whizzer laughed at this and Marvin (who was getting mad at these people) switched the channel. Whizzer didn’t know what they were watching but he did know that he liked all the publicity on the show. Marvin didn’t care for it but he left it on, only because nothing made him happier than seeing his boyfriend happy. After about 2 hours Marvin said he was gonna go to bed. Whizzer said that he would come soon but that was a lie, Whizzer was very scared. Whizzer looked at the time. 4:02 A.M. He was weary and knew that he should sleep. He laughed at the one thing keeping him up. Ants. He had always had a fear of bugs but ants were the scariest, followed closely by spiders. Marvin had always laughed at his fear and told him that everything would be alright those were the times Whizzer got mad at Marvin. They were really trying to fox their relationship but when Whizzer had just seen 3 ants crawling around the house Marvin had to kill them all because Whizzer was too scared to even go by them. Whizzer then looked at the ground and saw the most horrifying thing ever, thousands of ants crawling around the interior of the house. Whizzer screamed and woke up the placid Marvin from his sleep. Marvin than started to yell and bicker at Whizzer and stopped as soon as he heard crying. Whizzer was crying for many reasons some being that there were ants everywhere, the fact that Marvin was yelling at him, and the fact that this was all just too much to take in all at once. The ants seemed untamed as they made their way to where Marvin was. Whizzer was just trying to hide at this point but he was still shaking from the anxiety. Marvin saw the ants come in the room and climb into the bed Marvin really didn’t care until he felt something bad at his feet. The ants were starting to eat him alive. Marvin screamed and Whizzer got scared and confused at the usually content man never screamed like that in his entire life. By the time Whizzer had built up the confidence to go and check on Marvin, the ants had already finished him. Whizzer screamed and sobbed. He knew the cops couldn’t do anything and there was no way the hospital could save him as he had no more skin or organs to keep him alive with. Whizzer had lost everything. He had lost the man he loved, he probably lost his sanity by now, but he did gain something. Some nice PTSD about ants, people dying, and eating certain things. I guess they wouldn’t be together forever in the end.