#i am SICK AND TIRED of being alone and single 😭

[heavnlyhetfield]

desperately need to know how anyone can go to a bar by themselves and get flirted with bc i would just be so anxious and awkward

[badgyalshii]

ITS NEVER OVER |||

+ (WHERE HAVE YOU GONE)

word count: 1.7?

Paul atreides x Reader (Always safe for POC + PLUS SIZE) Paul POV!!!

warnings: signs of depression? were happy in there tho, proof read? yeah something like that (god i am not good at these😭) y/n is not in this chapter but ofc shes mentioned entirely throughout the text.

A/N: AHHHHHH THE FINAL CHAPTER BEFORE THE FINALE, IM EXCITED TO POSTTTT, i hope you guys enjoyed and i love the feedback i recieved! i love you all, have a good day/night, whenever you get this! (Also, considering that this is from pauls POV i thought that i might add an extra title)

Hey! Have you read the first chapters? You didnt? What! Read it here!! I . II . III . IV.

Hmm? You said you like shii’z writing?! Omg me too! Check out her masterlist!

He let out a heavy breath before he ripped his mask off of his face. He wasn't supposed to be out alone considering he was the new crowned emperor. But he was, and he was searching for you and he wasn't gonna give up until he did. He wore heavy clothing to try and hide his identity from others, and a bag that slung around his shoulder consisting of his journal, water, and other things he might need. He settles for the night in a rock. A rock with a beautiful view. He has been on the road for so long, he's forgotten how long, he didn't really care to remember either, considering it would help motivate to find you. He walks around the rock, searching for anything to give him clues of you or if you might've been here.

As he looked around, It was clear that someone had been there before. He looked at the bad attempt of making a bed, but he didn't touch it. His eyes slightly closed from trying to study the bed, there were still prints of a body, maybe two, on the bed. He hunches over. There was a piece of hair, as disgusting as it sounds…he picked it up. It was the same as yours, he took a rather long pause before thinking, maybe he should smell the bed? No, what if he smells something he doesn't like. He shook his head before looking at the single strand of hair that was in his hand. He sat down on the bed, setting the hair gently aside before taking off his glove and putting the strand back in his palm. Everybody's hair could be similar, he thought. He let out a sigh before looking ahead of him. He didn't know what time it was, but all he knew was that he was tired and heart broken. He didn't miss his home, not at all, not with you not there.

He put his glove and his mask back on before placing the hair into his bag. Out of everything that was going on, at least the view was beautiful. He stood and walked to the view of the rock, carelessly taking footsteps before he sighed and dropped down, his legs open and his elbows on his knees as he took in the view. He let in a deep breath. ¨tired. I am tired¨ he let out in a whisper. He fought his sleep often because he knew it would make him less confident and he would grow to slack, but sometimes he just couldn't take it anymore. The yawns leaving his lips, difficulty holding onto the hooks that latched onto the sandworm, but he thought he could finally settle here for a while, as a reward for finding a piece of hair that have a 5 percent chance of being yours.

As he watched the view, he thought of you. He didn't cry as much anymore. When he cried, he cried alone in private. And during that time, he cried until he couldn't anymore. Every time he saw Irulan it made him sick to his stomach. As much as he wanted to blame her, he couldn't. His heart was too good and he knew better than to let a weak desperate moment turn into anger. ¨why did i offer?¨ he would think over and over, countless times, wondering how could he be so careless. But he wasn't, he didn't want to marry her for the reason of love, just wanted to keep her safe as a promise to the retired and overthrown emperor. Thinking about it made him question his character, who has he grown to be? hed remembered what you said, he always thought of the smart and wise things you had to say.

¨its okay to feel how you feel, paul¨ you looked at him with a pity smile on your face while your hand was on his cheek. He had another nightmare. He didn't want it to be true. ¨this is gonna make me go crazy, y/n¨ paul whispered back, leaning into y/ns touch. ¨don't let it fool you, don't let it phase you, don't let it change you¨ you replied. At times, all paul wanted to do was give up. He didnt wanna be the chosen one. It was all too much. He could stay here forever, with you. For all eternity if he could.

Paul sighs and looks to the side. Remembering what you said, he wished things weren't so quiet.he laughed to himself, all the dreams he had of the future, but none of you. He sat alone, all alone, not one book, not one sound, just him, by himself. He felt empty, he wants you, he needs you, he needed someone to make him feel complete again, but days spread thick and long, bored, fighting himself back and forth between hope for finding you and wondering if you had just moved on. He wished he had a dream of you, of your blue eyes glistening in the sun, of your laugh, He wished it was so vivid that he touched you, that he could control his dream and talk to you, make love to you, but he had nothing, nothing at all. Nothing to remember you by, just a stupid suspicious piece of hair, tears brimmed his eyes, he needs you. There was no one he could pray to if he was the chosen one. No matter how hard he fought, how he tried to distract himself from work, it all lead up to one person, not one other thought, never out of sight out of mind, he knew what he wanted and he fell so deep he felt like he just couldn't grasp it anymore, how was he supposed to live his life without you. Your soft gentle hands grazing his face and answering the stupid and goofy questions he asked. There was no one else and he knew that now, didn't even find anyone else attractive. Lonesome nights, he didn't want to be on his own, ever again. Once he found you he vowed to never let you go, no matter how loud your voice is, no matter if you kicked him down, your in his heart and he just cannot let go, but how long could he search? Huh? How long would it be until he found you? When will he hear your voice again? When will he kiss you again? He didn't even say I love you before you walked off, for all he knew, that was his last goodbye.

On the first day, he acted as if nothing happened, but then he realized you weren't there, he couldn't pick at your dinner plate, he could hear your laughs, he couldn't feel your pity hits after he whispers a dirty joke. He had no one to talk to, no one to ask him if he was okay. Was he...okay? Had he known he was okay? Or has he grown so long to the point where he wasnt and he just didn't know it. He wished he said more, begged you to stay, cried about it, weeped about it, there was so much he could've done and he didn't, he only said a short explanation of how he was waiting for you and now he's on the run, on the search. He was so tired, so tired of looking at the same spice on the ground, carving on the rock of the walls. He wanted to be next to you, holding your head in his shoulder, hear your soft snores as you slept like there wasn't a care in the world. He'd never expect this, a life without you. He sighed and shook the thought out of his head, noticing he was in too deep and he wiped the tears that slowly dropped from his face, letting out a sniffle as he looked ahead. He didn't want to be too deep, of course he missed you, but he wanted to find you with a clear conscience, a healthy mind. He needed something to keep him going. His eyebrows furrowed as he looked to the ground. He placed a palm down and leaned closer to the floor. What is this? This imprint on the floor? Looks familiar.

He looked over it, careful not to move or make any sudden movements. ¨y/n?¨ he muttered. Any normal person would've thought paul as crazy, looking like he's searching for spice on the floor, and then wanting to jump and cheer, because, well, because what?

The necklace

The necklace Paul got for her. It was there! Clear as day. What a time to cheer! He couldn't fight off the smile on his lips. She's alive! She's alive! What a joy, out for two years! Been all around Arrakis, and at such a time he was going to give up, go home, force himself to get comfortable with his new situation, you were out there. Shall he go home? To tell stilgar and have a celebration? Sweet red wine sounded like heaven. He wiped his eyes as finally, finally tears came down. Tears of joy, he waited for this moment, oh so long! He was so happy he could take the dirt and put it in his bag also.

He laughed, he found it funny how he grew so tired of being next to his queen that he went and found you himself after he told you to come back. He grew impatient. He took out his journal and wrote, writing his life away as he thought of you, as the warmness of love and hope crowded his vision and spreaded throughout his body. This is all he wanted, to find you. And he was so close, so, so close.

He hadn't felt like this in a long time. He got up and collected the dirt from the necklace in his hand and watched it fall from his gloves. Looking around and seeing the footsteps, all yours he believed! He looked before following the footsteps, he followed them foot by foot until he was in the sand again. He hunched over, trying to search for the footsteps as they were getting lost from the wind of the sand until he couldn't anymore. He stood and pulled out his compass for the direction that you went. When it pointed he saw and lifted his head in the direction you went. This was it, this was the final piece, this was the end.

You were home.

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@ennycutie @cookiezxx

[eatmeandbirthmeagain]

Hi! Im so happy your requests are open again because Ive been meaning to send over this one if youre interested ^^

Could you write something about Baldwin and his scholarly wifey who studies astronomy as one of her hobbies (she's the type to write several manuscripts about her studies & findings tirelessly alongside her queenly duties )

Which means that Wifey is often up all night to study the stars and would sometimes forget that evenings are usually the only hours Baldwin gets to spend intimate quality time with her! Maybe theres a scene where she apologizes and reassures him saying " no star in the sky could ever compare to the one i have in my arms" (something along those lines) as she gives him lots of affection 🌌

♧ Star Boy - King Baldwin x Reader ♧

♧ Angst ♧

A/N: Hello Anon! Thank you for this amazing request, I have been so exited to do this one, it is so cute! I hope this is what you had in mind. Apologies for no fic yesterday guys I am pretty sick right now 😭. As always this is based on the film Kingdom Of Heaven, not the real historical figures. Enjoy!

TW: Leprosy

The queen of Jerusalem was never a princess.

She was never the daughter of a lord or lady either and she was certainly never royalty before meeting her husband.

Instead, was an astronomer. Turning to the stars instead of the earth when things became difficult.

Y/n was famous amongst the kingdom as the most successful female astronomer for her time.

Some frowned upon her, shaming her for being an unwed woman with a job. Cursing her and her “lack of knowledge”, simply for being female.

But this never stopped her or deterred her from her work. Infact, it encouraged her to continue.

And it stayed this way until the day she met Baldwin and was wed to the king of Jerusalem himself. It was by no means a marriage of arrangement. It was certainly one of love.

Her profession never bothered him, Baldwin loved his wife's work even before their meeting, he had read each and every one of her manuscripts, poured over her notes and loved each and every word.

As the years passed, their love for eachother grew and grew, but as did their time apart.

During the day, they were both busy with separate royal duties and by night, the now queen was busy with her studies.

The evening was the only real time Baldwin had to himself and spending that time alone was becoming increasingly common as y/n returned to the chambers later and later each night.

This continued until by the time she returned, Baldwin was already sound asleep, tired from a long day.

She would simply get changed and climb into bed beside him, tucking him in and giving him a kiss on the forehead or cheek before going to sleep herself.

Some nights, she would not return at all and Baldwin would wake in the early hours of the morning to find himself alone in the bed.

Most mornings, y/n would rise before him so again, the king would wake to a cold space beside him with the only confirmation she was ever there in the first place in the form of a note on his desk about her plans for the day and words of love.

He kept every single one, no matter how much they secretly hurt his heart.

Baldwin knew how important this work was to her and did not want to put pressure on her to stop her schedule for him, but it tore him apart each and every day.

He wanted his wife. He wanted to see her, hear her voice, feel her presence.

Until one day, he could simply not take it anymore. It was then that he decided to speak with her about it when she returned to the royal chambers that night.

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Baldwin sat alone at his desk with his head propped up on his hand. His mask lay on the desk beside where his elbow rested, leaving his freshly bandaged face exposed to the cool night air.

He was tired from the day, but not tired enough to sleep just yet. He was usually asleep by now, but he had to stay awake.

He needed to speak with her.

This simply could not continue, he wanted her. He wanted her words, her love, her affection.

Baldwin waited, and waited and waited until the moon was high in the sky. He felt his eyelid's growing heavy but he needed to stay awake so he straightened his posture to avoid dozing off.

The king sighed heavily.

This was not what he wanted to do. But it was necessary.

Until finally, the door opened quietly and the young queen slipped into the room.

Noticing the candles still lit, y/n’s eyes widened with surprise at the sight of her husband sitting at his desk, still awake.

“Oh Baldwin, I thought you would be sleeping by now,” she said with a smile, walking over to her closet to get changed.

“Yes, I have been meaning to speak with you, y/n” the king said, swallowing a lump in his throat and getting to his feet.

“What's wrong, love?” y/n asked, suddenly nervous.

“I have no intention of offending you when I say this since I know you are very busy” Baldwin paused, rethinking everything for a moment. Maybe it was best if he did not do this now? No, he had to.

“Yes?’ the queen prompted, her slight nervousness turning into fear for what he would say next.

Baldwin took a deep breath before speaking again.

“I miss you y/n. I miss spending time with you, I barely see you now. You're always either in the astronomy tower, writing manuscripts or out of the city. I don't feel like your husband anymore, more like a second choice” Baldwin took another shuddering breath, his eyes filling with tears.

He sat back down at his desk and put his head in his hands as y/n looked at him in silence.

Her heart broke at his words, the realization hitting her quickly. How could she have been so careless? She had completely rejected him, just leaving him alone so many nights and assuming he was okay with it?

“Oh my poor baby I’m so sorry” y/n said urgently, approaching him and taking him in her arms quickly.

Baldwin was fast to wrap his arms around her midsection and bury his face into her robes.

His silent tears eventually turned to broken sobs. After weeks of holding back everything, he couldn't take it anymore.

“Baldwin i’m so sorry” the queen said softly, tears welling in her own eyes.

“I can't believe I have been neglecting you like this”.

Y/n bent down to look him in the eyes, taking his hand in hers and kissing it gently.

“You could never be a second choice Baldwin. You are worth more than any star in the sky”

The king smiled weakly, tears still streaming down his cheeks.

“I promise my love, I will never leave you for my work again. You will forever be my first priority” y/n told him before wrapping her arms around him.

Baldwin nodded and buried himself into her robes again.

“Come on darling, let's get some rest. You must be exhausted” she said, as the two got to their feet. 

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Once under the covers, Baldwin cuddled against his wife, happy to finally be back in her arms.

Y/n chuckled at his affection.

She had forgotten how adorable he could be. That thought almost brought her to tears again but she held them back, for his sake.

“I love you so much, y/n” the king mumbled before yawning softly.

“I love you too, Baldwin. And I always will” she cupped his cheek in her hand, tilting his face up to look at her.

He smiled sleepily, his tired eyes filled with adoration.

“I've missed you” the queen said, fighting back tears.

“I've missed you too” Baldwin replied as y/n kissed his forehead and pulled him against her body.

She held him as tightly as she could that night, vowing to never let go again.

As soon as he was snoring softly, y/n allowed the tears to fall from her eyes. She bit down on her cheek to prevent herself from crying out loud as she sobbed into the pillow.

“Oh my love, I'm so sorry” she whispered through tears.

How could she just leave him like that? How could she get so caught up and distracted, neglecting him completely.

He was her husband, her HUSBAND. The one man in the world who had dedicated his life to stay by her side no matter what, and she had just ignored him completely.

“Never again” y/n thought to herself as she drifted into sleep.

Never again would she leave his side for anything. Evenings were now for him only, and that is how it would stay.

[rhey-007]

The Mystery of Love

Fernando Alonso family fluff

|| P2 of Fernando x goth mommy!reader

• | socialmedia au

Summary: After spending the night with THE Fernando Alonso, you two start to act like an old married couple. The following day after your escapade, Fernando invites you to the German GP where all hell breaks loose and rumours start to spread like crazy.

A/N: P2 of "Love is a flame that thrives in the darkest corners of our hearts". I regret choosing such a long title... -_- I had to change it. Aaaanyway... I can't let go of this little fam wjnvhebhvb So I decided I'll make more! I'm really into socialmedia au's recently (if you haven't noticed) and thought that it suits well to continue this as a socialmedia au fic. I already am making another part cause my brain is flooding with ideas. So if you'd like to be added to the tag list just lemme know! Enjoy!

Masterlist

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F1 NEWS

Fernando Alonso noticed on the paddock in company of a mysterious woman and... Kids?

Spanish F1 driver Fernando Alonso arrived to the German GP with a mysterious woman and kids. Asked about their relationship the man denied anything romantic.

"Y/N is just my close friend and the kids are NOT mine. I invited them over as the boys are in love with this sport, and the small one is finally old enough to come and watch"

The man explained. But is this the truth? Fans already noticed Fernando didn't spare the woman compliments nor sweet words. And the way he interacted with the little boy caught their attention too.

Will we see the family alongside Alonso again?

F1 NEWS

Fernando Alonso winner of the German GP!

"I'm so grateful for Y/N and her sons for joining me today. [...] They're my lucky charms. [...] Without them I wouldn't be even on the podium"

Said Alonso in an interview with F1 News after his win in Germany.

His words only made fans believe that the mysterious woman is more than just a friend for the Spaniard. Will we see the family again next week in Spielberg, Austria?

Fernando was quick to answer our question, with great enthusiasm and hope.

"Hopefully. I wish they could attend every race but unfortunately it's not possible. The time will show though"

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INSTAGRAM

liked by sebastianvettel, lance_stroll, astonmartinf1 and 198,200 others

•fernandoalo_oficial: Thank you for being with me in Berlin and helping me win!!!

•user1: the kid adopted him and he adopted the kid. change my mind (you can't)

•user2: they're so cute together dhuwhdxkxjidh!!!

•sebastianvettel: great to see you finally happy! sending love for the new fam! 💞

→ •fernandoalo_oficial: calm down Seb were not together

→ •sebastianvettel: shush I know better 😏

→ •user3: spill the tea bruv ☕

→ •sebastianvettel: nope 🤭

•user4: love how the kid couldn't peel off you throughout all the interviews! You two are so cute!!! 💞

•lance_stroll: old man finally found himself love! Good for you!

→ •fernandoalo_oficial: I'm not old...

→ •lance_stroll: sorry pop's 👴

INSTAGRAM

liked by f1, astonmartinf1 and 250,376 others

•fernandoalo_oficial: another tiring weekend, this time in Spielberg, Austria 💪🦬

•user5: Nando turned into a dad

→ •user6: imagine having such a cool and hot daddy 😩😎

•maxverstappen: those good luck charms of yours work too good... And are too sweet! 💞

→ •charles_leclerc: agree.

→ •danielricciardo: me too! the little one even called me uncle 😭✋

→ •user7: not the random kid already stealing all the drivers hearts and calling them uncles 😭💞

→ •user8: I think he stole all of our hearts...

•user9: is the older one single?

→ •user10: we need his ig 😩✋

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INSTAGRAM

liked by y/n._.l/n, fernandoalo_oficial and 365 others

•kl.au_s: great weekend in Spain! just wish I could be there alone...

•fernandoalo_oficial: alone?! then who would take you those sick photos?!

→ •kl.au_s: not you old man

→ •fernandoalo_oficial: you didn't even tag me :(

that's mean...

•user11: WE FOUND HIM!!!

•user12: THE Fernando Alonso is your stepdad and you DARE to complain???

→ •kl.au_s: he ain't no one's step dad 😑

•user13: you single? asking for a friend 👀👉👈

F1 NEWS

Fernando Alonso spotted yachting with the strange woman's older son.

Fernando Alonso got spotted in Spain, yachting with the son of his close 'friend'. Fans start to suspect the boy was sent there to make up with his soon to be stepdad, after noticing their weird dynamic under the boy's Instagram post.

The rumors are spreading like crazy, although the driver keeps denying every single one of them. Will we ever know the truth?

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Tag list: @morgan-getty

[ox1-lovesick]

hi love I HAVE A RQQQ- TXT OR ENHA WITH A SICK S/O PLEASE!! i have a killer cold and the worst dizzy spells ever nd i would love some comfort 😞😞 thank u sm

★ ✯ ☆ TXT WITH A SICK!S/O

★ pairing. txt x gn!reader genre. fluff, comfort warnings. mentions of food wc. 100-300 each

✯ synopsis. txt with a sick s/o!!

☆ a/n. firstly i am so sorry this took 4 months 💀 writers block is the bane of my existence. i do hope this manages to bring you some comfort though :( please do take care of yourself and get well soon! (even though you are most likely not sick anymore 😭) also how ironic is it that i'm currently sick... :')

YEONJUN | 연준

by your side 100% of the time you cannot get rid of him.

he's over your bed when you wake up in the morning, waiting outside the bathroom door for you, laying right next to while you're sleeping. everywhere you are, so is yeonjun

will bend over backwards to get you anything you need

water? medicine? soup? more blankets? less blankets? he's on it before you can even ask

cooks for you !!! tries to make your food as interesting as possible so you won't get bored, without adding things that will make you feel worse or aren't good for you

you're bedridden. don't even try to fight him

he won't let you lift a finger, he wants you to get as much rest as possible so you can get better as quickly as possible

infact don't even speak, he'll learn morse code so you can just beep him whenever you need

if his schedule allows he'll stay home with you and be by your side every second of the day, if not he's texting you every free moment he has to make sure you're okay

would definitely call in sick if you were feeling particularly tired and need his care that day

has multiple reminders to make sure you're taking your medicine on time, will scold you if you're even a second late

he'll never tell you but he secretly enjoys you being sick . . .

he love love loves to take care of you, especially when you call on him to do things for you it makes him all giddy knowing you need him (he's not a creep i swear)

he's ontop of you so much he probably catches whatever you have

atleast you're sick together

SOOBIN | 수빈

hates to see you sick

1. because it's gross 2. because he hates seeing you in pain but mainly because it's gross

you're not staying in his bed i'm sorry he's gonna come over to your house to take care of you during the day and go home to his snot free blankets at night

gets your medicine mixed up all the time and complains it's the doctor's fault for prescribing ones that look so similar

low-key takes advantage of this situation so he can skip work and spend some quality time with you LMAOOO

"sorry guys yn's still dying i can't come to work today"

at first it's fun because you just have your average head cold so he doesn't worry too much

but then it starts getting worse and he comes home to you falling over yourself in the kitchen because of your dizzy spells and nearly has a stroke

panik

he starts stressing like a mad man after that

probably gets himself sick just with how stressed out he is it's a problem

definitely calls his mom for help he doesn't know what to do

updates her on every little thing you do

"mom they just took a really deep breath does that mean something"

buys the entire pharmacy

wants to kick himself for not taking it seriously when you first got sick he feels so guilty 😭

although you did enjoy his company and the endless marvel marathons so all is well

will not leave you alone. you have to shit with the door open.

will do everything for you even if you're perfectly capable of doing it yourself

from brushing your hair to fluffing your pillows he's gonna do it all

he'll even clean for you, that's his ultimate declaration of love

in the end he didn't really do much to nurse you back to health but A for effort

BEOMGYU | 범규

i know practically everyone in moaville would say he'd tease the shit out of you but in my head he'd be the most worried for you

googles every single one of your symptoms and then cries himself to sleep because myonlineclinic.com told him you have cholera and 6 days to live

the only reason he'd tease you is to mask his worry

he'd watch you go through 60 boxes of tissues and be like "omg my snotty baby" but on the inside he's freaking out 😭

your pain is his pain, the way you feel affects him and his mood drastically

he's irritable when you are, he's tired when you are, your appetites probably sync too

puts a curse on whoever spread their nasty germs to you with ginger roots and vinegar

i think he'd also be the most sympathetic since he gets sick a lot more often than the others

so gentle and understanding compared to his usual self it's a little scary 😭

surprisingly good at negotiation like you're being stubborn because you don't want to take your medicine and he's like "if you drink the cough syrup i'll let you listen to the demos for our next comeback" and before you know it you've sold your childhood home to him for 3/4 of the initial price

will whip out his guitar and sing for you in a heartbeat if you ask him too

obviously tries to crack jokes and make you smile so you don't feel too miserable, he feels so accomplished even if you just scoff at him 🙁

gets back to his usual annoying self once you're better though

TAEHYUN | 태현

ironically, he doesn't know what to do

he rarely gets sick and when he does it passes in a day or two, so when you've been coughing like you have bronchitis for the past week he feels so lost

his first instinct is to take you to the doctor to figure out what's wrong but gets into a fight with doctor for charging him 19382928 won just to press his hand to your forehead and tell him you have a head cold (terry is against this capitalist society)

also buys the entire pharmacy

changes your entire lifestyle to the maximum efficiency so you get better as quickly as possible and makes sure you stick to it

strict like a prison warden, sometimes you wonder if he actually loves you

which he obviously does, but it's hard to believe so when he avoids any unnecessary contact with you as if you have the plague

takes you outside every once in a while to get some fresh air, he feels stuffy just watching you sit around

it also keeps you active 💪

he's always pestering you to wash your hands

will not let you touch him otherwise

makes sure he keeps your space clean, always has tissues and anything else you might need within your reach

at your aid 24/7

you take up a colossal space in his heart he's so soft for you

flying to your side before you even say anything

you don't even have to tbh he can read your mind

"how'd you know i wanted water?" "you looked thirsty"

if he notices you're feeling extra miserable he'll sing for you to cheer you up

swallows his pride because he's down bad and pulls out his best southern accent when you ask him to sing country music

he will be teased for the next millenia but it was worth it for you

he's like an overbearing mother but you get better the fastest when he's taking care of you

HUENINGKAI | 휴닝카이

another mama's boy

probably calls his sisters too

hiyyih would tell him to soak your pills in vegetable oil as a joke but he'll actually do it because he's just that hopeless

he's unable to think straight he just wants to do everything in his power to make you feel better 😭

although he gets the hang of it pretty quickly, he's a fast learner and genuinely enjoys taking care of you

always praising you !!

"wow yn!! i can't believe you ate all your soup!!! you're so cool!!!"

tries to distract you by showing you his entire collection of pokemon cards

probably lies and tells you they're all super rare and he's the only one in the world who has them

does his best not to cause you any stress, he just wants you to focus on resting

the things this man does because he loves you istg

he cleans the entire dorm because it's a breeding ground for bacteria and he doesn't want anything making you more sick

the guys come home to the house spotless they're just like 🤯🤯🤯🤯

taehyun asks you to get sick more often if it means he doesn't have to fight his way through the ironing board and bike to get to the sink

he even lets you play on his DS he's down bad

side rant: i feel like kai is secretly a neat freak, he abhors the sight of filth but is just too lazy to do anything about it so he forces himself to deal with it 💀

anyway he's such a sweetheart :( does his best to keep the mood up even if you're feeling miserable because your nose is so filled with so much snot that you can't breathe

his positive energy definitely rubs off on you!!!

he actually does a good job taking care of you, he's a bit stressed at first but you're back to good health in no time !!!

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[thaleleah]

awe tal 🩷 don't even apologize!

no girl same i have not met a single step parent who's at least a bit decent! my uncle recently married this woman who has two grown kids, my uncle also has two grown kids. and let's just say that both my cousins disowned their dad 👀 his wife and her daughters are all so problematic that my uncle only hangs out with them and he doesn't even talk to his sons anymore. it's honestly so sad how divided a parent and their child's relationship becomes. and they are so blind to it!

my stepmonster is 43-44! same age my older sister 🥴 and her dad is a year younger than my dad like it's actually so gross 🤮 i do not have an issue with huge age gap relationships, i was in one myself 2 years ago, but when it comes to it being the same age as your own kid or dad i'm like ew dad 😂

and tell me about it? how can they still get it up is the question 😂 my stepmom is actually sick. you know what she would do? she would come up to me and tell me how good my dad fucks her 😑 like bitch i don't want hear how my dad is in bed. i was about to throw up with the details she was providing me 🤢

also girl don't even feel bad for my dad. he fucked up his kids lives so much. he's been a serial cheater since he married my mom, which is why they got divorced, and yet he claims he's still in love with her like what? 😂 and my mom is just selfish. both did so much wrong. my dad actually has a girlfriend on the side rn 😂 and stepmonster knows, but it's all about the money for her. it's a mess of a shitshow lmfao 😂

i just went on a long ass rant i am so sorry girl 😂

your poor mom 😢 your step dad is such a pos. and of course he uses religion as an excuse to control your mom 🙄 "God first, then the husband, then the children" - fuck off clown. he knows damn well it's the kids that come first, you're not even her father? like stfu dude.

girl i get you, i also have to be civil, and it's so hard. i can't imagine how hard it is for you 🩷 it's so sad we have to keep the peace in order to still be in our parents lives 🫤 it's so unfair to us. some parents are just selfish. both mine fucked up everything for their own sake and happiness and completely forgot how it would affect us.

but... thank god we're not alone 🩷 like we always have each other to talk to about this stuff and that helps a lot to know that there is a lot of us who have gone through this!

thank god for tom blyth cause that man is my happiness atm 😩 he literally makes me so happy. whenever i see his face i have this instant smile on my face like an idiot 🥰 i honestly can't for june!

and tal, my love, you have gift.... that tom blyth drabble ughhh 👄💦

THE FUCKING DRAMA WHAT

First of all, I take back everything I said about your dad lol. That man is a cheater and therefore I have ZERO sympathy for him.

I agree that the age gap isn't an issue but it is superrrrrr uncomfortable for him to be older than her own dad and her to be the same age as his daughter. Those vibes are NOT it 😭

Also, your stepmom is fucking horrid. Staple her lips shut cause no! No one wants to hear about their parent and how they are in bed. And that man is almost in his 80s. I'm sorry but there is no way he's fucking anyone that good. He'd probs break a damn hip, be so for real right now. I'm actually so curious how "attractive" your dad is to be having a side chick at 78. Or is his side-girlfriend trying to get money too? Is the side-gf nice at least???? How old is she??

I have so many questions lol. Tell me the tea ☕️ (if you're comfortable of course, no pressure)

My stepdad is the absolute worst. Nothing pisses me off more than someone using religion to control people and cause harm but it seems more and more that that's the norm. Also like... she loves me because I'm her daughter. She chooses to love him. He won - can he stop this bullshit feud now? I'm tired of it. Having to deal with him and constantly be in survival mode, plus seeing how he mistreats my mom has absolutely fucked me in terms of my own romantic relationships. I have never had a relationship that lasted longer than a month cause if I see even one thing that reminds me of my stepdad, I'm gone. He completely messed up my sense of trust and I'm trying to work through it but its sooooo hard.

Also, he threatened to take me to court once cause I pissed him off. That's not relevant to anything other than to further show that he's an asshole lol

But yes, you can 100% always talk to me about this cause even just going through these messages was actually really cathartic. I don't have any siblings so anyone that I talk to about this really can't understand anything completely from my perspective so its nice to talk to someone who gets it.

JUNE CAN'T COME FAST ENOUGH. I'm so excited for the new episodes, I'm gonna be completely unbearable for a lot of people lmaooooo

Thank you, babesssss 😏 I'm glad you liked it! I'm proud to serve 🫡

[julia-highstorms]

When Jane Was Here - ILITW

Summary: Noah reminisces about a happier time when his twin sister was here.

Note: After over three years since it’s finished, I am writing a prologue for "If Jane Was Here" (revised and posted on AO3). Because I just can't get enough of my kids even after all these years. Read more of my ILITW fanfics here

Disclaimer: Characters belong to Pixelberry Studios, not me.

Rating: PG-16 (angst. Trigger warning: depression and death mention) 

Song: Lonely by Palaye Royale screams Noah to me😭 my poor boy

Word count: 980

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The boy with a beanie and a denim jacket sat down on one of the benches at Westchester’s town square, cursing through gritted teeth. As usual, he had an argument with Mom and left the house. It always felt like he would suffocate when he was at home.

The next day would be the first day of senior year. 

It had been 10 years since Jane’s death.

Not that it changed much. Things were still crap.

When Noah woke up that morning, Mom was already talking his ears off. She always got more emotional at the beginning of each school year. Probably thinking about how it would have been if Jane was still here.

...Because that was exactly what always passed through his mind every single year.

Not that it changed much. Jane wasn't here anymore. 

She hadn't been for a long time now. 

For ten years. For ten years, Jane has been gone. 

Noah sometimes wished he could turn back time to when Jane was here.

When Jane was here…

When Jane was here, everything was better. Mom and Dad were still together, even though they were always fighting and it always ended up upsetting Jane, it still was better. 

Although things weren't great, they still were better. 

At least, better than now.

It was always better, because Jane was here. 

…Not that it changed much. Because Jane wasn't here anymore. 

When Jane was here…

If Jane was here...

A resigned sigh left the boy's lips and he looked around the square. It was a typical Sunday afternoon, with some people walking around, living their own lives.

And then, he recognized a few of them. His former friends.

He saw Lucas entering the library, looking busy as always. A while later, Lily entered the same building. Stacy and some girls he recognized from the cheerleading team chit chatted among themselves, probably shopping or doing whatever cheerleaders did during their free time. Andy and his friend, Tom, showed up at some point too, leaving the movie theatre just across Westchester’s town hall, talking animatedly with one another. Beanie boy noticed that the only movie playing was an ancient cheesy-looking horror film titled “Blood Sacrifice II: The Return of Dracula’s Revenge”.

Although he saw all of them, none of them seemed to notice him. 

Not that it changed much. After that day, none of them talked to each other ever again. 

When Jane was here…

He was so sick of always being tired and alone.

That day, he not only lost Jane. He lost all his friends too.

He missed all of them. Not just Jane, but all the gang too. He missed playing with them. 

Everyone plays together…

Soon, those obsessive thoughts were back to floating around his mind.

Noah bet that no one would miss him if he simply vanished. Dad left them as soon as Jane was gone. Mom couldn’t stand to face him. He had lost all his friends on that day. Jane wasn’t here.

When Jane was here...

To be honest, his life didn’t mean that much to him. Noah felt that he was living up for Mom and Jane. But what was the point if Mom couldn’t stand the sight of him without thinking of Jane? And what was the point if Jane wasn’t here?

What was the point of all that? If Jane wasn’t here?

If Jane was here...

When Jane was here…

He stayed there throughout the day, the hours passing by. That was how he spent most of his days. To avoid staying in the same environment as his mother for more than thirty minutes, the teenage boy preferred to waste his time watching people doing their things, going on with their lives.

He just watched the days pass by. It’s been like that ever since Jane had been gone.

Just watching people and daydreaming.

He would spend most of his days daydreaming. Daydreaming of when Jane was here. Daydreaming of a world where Jane would be here.

If Jane was here…

Daydreaming of a time when Jane was here.

When Jane was here…

When Jane was here, things were better. 

Everything was better.

Mom and Dad didn’t hate him, Noah had friends, and Jane was here. Things were better when Jane was here. So much better.

He didn't feel lonely. He was happy. Noah was a happy boy.

When Jane was here…

...But Jane wasn’t here anymore.

Noah snapped back to reality and looked around. Night had already fallen. 

How long had he been there? 

He looked up to the big old clock at the town hall. Half past nine. He should go home. Mom probably was out, playing cards and gambling at one of her friend's house, like she always did.

The tall and skinny boy stood up and dragged himself home.

A few minutes later, he was on his own, walking down the long and narrow road on the border of Westchester. He cursed, his hands shoved in his pockets. It was a chilly night.

He hated living so near to the forest. Even after all those years, it still gave him the creeps.

Noah hated the sound the wind made through the trees. It almost felt like it was calling for him. If he didn’t know how crazy it sounded, the boy could swear that the wind called his name whenever he was near the forest. Calling his name, calling him to come to play.

As if Jane was here.

If Jane was here…

When Jane was here…

The boy shivered, glueing his arms to his body, in a failed attempt to protect himself from the freezing wind that passed through the trees and hit him.

“Noah…”

He could hear it. But he didn’t want to. He couldn’t let himself believe that the wind was calling him.

He just couldn’t.

“Noah… let’s… play… together…”

When Jane was here...

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[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here bestie with what may be our penultimate RNM song since we're apparently getting a wedding (and you're right, a bolo tie??!!). I feel like we've done this one a few times but I can't think of anything more perfect for this episode than Two, a song about carrying the weight of the one you love. We saw Michael do this physically and emotionally for Alex most of the episode, and had it beautifully turned around at the end when Michael thought he failed, Alex gave him one last push 😭😭

Going into this final season with the Echo proposal I was leery of hoping for a Malex wedding, and then with Alex being gone most of the season I was even less hopeful. But we are really getting Malex husbands! The writing may have done the absolute bare minimum to earn this, but as we have see the past 2 episode, Vlamburn are going to deliver and I’m so excited about it! (Now lets hope they don’t take a page out of KR’s book and stick the wedding in a wordless montage intermingled with other things in the last 3 minutes of the episode. (I think Vlamis would riot though. This wedding is his and he was a groomzilla for sure! 🤣 though I’m wondering how much say he had and if he approved the bolo tie?)

This song is soooo perfect for this episode and I loved after all the bungled writing all season, that we really got to see Michael fighting for Alex and helping carry him and when he gave everything and was ready to give up, that strength and hope he gave Alex all episode was gifted back to him as the final spark of inspiration. I know we talked about this song at least once before for Malex before season 3 so it’s going to be interesting to look at it now and how far they’ve come!

sweet heart, you look a little tired. when did you last eat? come in and make yourself right at home- stay as long as you need. tell me, is something wrong? if something’s wrong you can count on me. you know i’ll take my heart clean apart, if it helps yours beat.

it’s okay if you can’t find the words, let me take your coat and this weight off of your shoulders.

I love this song so much and this is hitting right in the “Alex has been missing in a pocket dimension for a week or two and probably needs some care and attention” feels. And now that Michael knows Alex is sick he’s taking extra care to make sure Alex is fed and warm and has someone to lean on. Michael has always been the “you know i’ll take my heart clean apart, if it helps yours beat” type and that really came through with his “I’m scared to death I’m gonna lose you today” line but he isn’t giving up on Alex even if it kills the both of them. Just like Caulfield, it’s better to die together than to live alone after the other is gone (hellooooo finale handprint agenda!). We also have the “let me take this weight off your shoulders” of it all with Michael helping support Alex while they’re rushing around and telling Alex not to worry about anything or anyone else because they’ve got it handled and Michael’s priority is getting Alex home safely.

like a force to be reckoned with, a mighty ocean or a gentle kiss, i will love you with every single thing i have. like a tidal wave, i’ll make a mess. or calm waters if that serves you best. i will love you without any strings attached.

Uuuuugh this chorus always gets to me! We have seen a lot of their love over the years coming out in the “tidal wave” form, making a mess of everything, but right now? Ooooh we are in the “Michael is a fucking force to be reckoned with” stages and I am loving it! We really see his duality here, being soft and gentle and calm with Alex because that’s what’s needed of him, though when he’s ready to give up and Alex tells him to make it work, we get that force to be reckoned with coming out strong and I think it’s really going to culminate tomorrow because Michael did NOT save Alex only for them to all die at the hands of some Jones knock-off, and he will not lose Alex to some alien radiation poisoning. Which leads us to the next line... 

it’s okay if you can’t catch your breath, you can take the oxygen straight out of my own chest.

*chanting* Handprint healing! Handprint healing! Handprint healing! I want to see Alex fading and Michael holding him and pushing every bit of his own life force that he can spare into Alex’s chest. I need to see it, and I need to see them both being overwhelmed by the force of what the other feels for them. Because they’ve been known now that the other loves them, but feeling viscerally exactly how much?! It’s going to change everything and there will never again be any doubt. I know there was hope that a handprint would open their eyes in their angsty days about what they were feeling because they could not communicate for anything, but I kinda love the idea of it happening now, after they HAVE communicated, and they DO know that they both love each other and some of those older wounds have started to heal, and the handprint just makes everything that last little bit clearer. 

i know exactly how the rule goes: put my mask on first. no, i don’t want to talk about myself- tell me where it hurts. i just want to build you up, build you up ’til you’re good as new and maybe one day i will get around to fixing myself too.

Man, this song is coming for my throat right now! We’ve talked a lot about Michael but boy is this hitting in the Alex “I don’t want to talk about me dying, let’s focus on you and on getting a last happy moment together” Manes feels. Before, they were both focused on pushing their own needs aside but we have seen them do so much work on themselves as well as building each other up! Bur right now I’m getting the distinct sense that, yes Alex is asking for something for himself for once, but also that he’s doing this wedding for Michael so Michael will always know how much Alex loved him in the hopes Michael won’t fall apart and blame himself when Alex is gone. BRB gotta go cry into a pillow for an hour about Alex accepting his death but making sure Michael doesn’t blame himself for it.

i don’t even know where to start, already tired of trying to recall when it all fell apart. and i just want to love you, to love you, to love you well. i just want to learn how, somehow, to be loved myself.

This part breaks me every time. These two have spent over a decade trying to figure out how to love the other the way they need and hoping that if they give enough of themselves that they might get some of that love back in return. And now, they HAVE figured it out! They know how to love each other well, and have learned to be loved themselves, but now they are on the brink of losing it all, just as they’ve found it. I can’t....

like a force to be reckoned with, a mighty ocean or a gentle kiss, i will love you without any strings attached. and what a privilege it is to love, a great honor to hold you up.

like a force to be reckoned with a mighty ocean or a gentle kiss, i will love you with every single thing i have like a tidal wave, i’ll make a mess. or calm waters if that serves you best. i will love you without any strings attached, i will love you without a single string attached.

Love is a gift. Neither of them knew before that the other was giving the love without strings attached and they each invented the strings they thought the other was putting on their gift of love leading to so much heartbreak for so long, but now they are both finally in a place to accept the gift for what it is! I have talked a lot about Michael being a force to be reckoned with, but we cannot ignore Alex in this episode being that final driving force in the end. He is actively dying a slow and painful death but when he sees that Michael isn’t giving up? When they are so close to getting home? He pulls up every ounce of hope Michael gave him, and that formidable will he’s always had, and he demands that Michael doesn’t give up. This is a time when calm waters and a gentle kiss aren’t what serves them best and Alex reminds Michael that his mind, the alien’s powers, their love is a force to be reckoned with. I don’t talk a lot about Max either, but him anchoring himself in his love for Liz, despite all the fear he has and using that as a driving force not to destroy their enemy but to rebuild something that someone else could use to save them was *chef’s kiss* and the kind of energy we’ve been missing from Max/Echo for awhile.

This was absolutely the correct song choice for this episode and I’m now drowning in feels! Hopefully the finale gives us a moment to cry about painful Malex angst, and ends (as all SaL songs tend to do) with hope and the start of a new life together. (Who else is going to go absolutely broke with the Vlambase drop?) Also, how perfect is it that the animal for this Enneagram type is a dog? Malex adopting a three-legged rescue beagle when?