#i am overwhelmed

[ninacarstairss]

there is a part of me that will always be a little sad when watching heartstopper. i didn’t really find a supportive group of friends who could watch me go through crushes and heartbreaks and fights and challenges. i don’t really have a little queer family to feel incredibly comfortable with. i never got to have all that in my teenage years, i hardly have it now. but heartstopper is also the reason why i know this is possible, that this kind of love and queer joy and pride exist. so there is a little part of me that will always be sad i didn’t get to live this slice of queer life, but there is a much bigger part of me that is so grateful for this kind of representation, for this kind of love and friendship, this kind of acceptance. there is a huge part of me that can never thank alice enough for creating this world that is now my safest place. there is the biggest part of me who will always turn to heartstopper to find comfort and queer joy

[stymecoulli]

so much stuff has happened to the tmnt fandom in the past few days and i am so here for it

if i missed anything please tell me 🙏

[unimportant-ramblings]

[ozarkthedog]

He looks so handsome & healthy — I’m losing my mind 🥹

[crawley-fell]

Not only will Aziraphale and Crowley reunite but besties Michael and David get to work together again and that is truly a gift

[marimeeko]

You wanna know what's hitting me about this panel?

I mean, besides the obvious things.

What's getting me is that it looks so much like when Katsuki looks at Izuku after their fight. It's the same angle on Katsuki.

But not only is he softer, serene, and looking relieved to have spotted Izuku...

But for me, the shot of them looking at each other after the fight, when All Might is setting them up as two halves of a whole, as the two equally important parts of heroism...

That shot of them looking at each other was the last thing I remember watching before finding myself actually shipping them. That's the shot that did it. The foreshadowing of their duality. The first look they shared where neither of them was being hostile or defensive. Truly seeing each other for the first time.

Just, openness. Being receptive. Reaching an understanding.

And now horikoshi has done it again, and made it SO MUCH MORE IMPACTFUL. Now its packed with so much emotion its overflowing. Its the first time they get to see each other after everything went to hell in their fight, its Izukus first confirmation that Katsuki is ok, and katsuki....Katsuki already desperately wanted to see Izuku again, and we know he is Chronically worried about Izuku fighting alone and hurting himself, so to see him, mostly in one piece has got to be a comfort to him, knowing that he is there now to help Izuku if he needs it. When they finally see each other we get THIS MOMENT that just screams of so many feelings in their shared gaze.

And like literally "their feelings become one"

Dare I say, it's just romantic.

The lead up of like 4 panels for Katsukis gaze to scan over to Izuku also? Amazing.

The fact that this is shot for shot echoing that moment that actually made me ship these two as opposed to multi-shipping as I had been up to that point.... I am so appreciative of that connection

I mean...tldr, I guess this is why I ship them

[tripthelightfandomtastic]

The terrifying passage of time, I just realized that Starcatcher comes out THIS FUCKING FRIDAY?! LIKE ???????? ITS BEEN AGES AWAY UNTIL LIKE TODAY?!

[im-not-a-l0ser]

Can someone please edit Richie’s trivia section to include the stuff that Jon Matteson has said about him so that I can just go there instead of scrubbing through a vod, which I fear I am about to do?

[saturnskyline]

#maybe even with the inherent homoeroticism in there depending on who you ask

me, me, me, ask me!

~*~*~

Kim is sixteen when he wants to move out. His father doesn't say no, but he might as well. He tells Kim that nowhere is as safe as their house and that Kim can move out when he can defend himself properly, and by properly, he means Kim has to win whatever fight his father organizes. Kim is a good fighter, a natural one, he gets praise from Chan, and nobody except Pete gets praise from Chan. But his father is a cunning man, and when Kim gets attacked by Big, Chan and some burly dude he has never seen before, it only takes them a few minutes to win.

"Who was that?" he asks later when Pete ices his sore jaw and tells Kim what mistakes he made during the fight and what he needs to work on next. 

"Game," Pete says because Pete knows everything. "I've seen him with Khun Vegas."

Ah.

~*~*~

"What do I get out of it?" Vegas asks because Vegas doesn't do favours, not even for his family. 

"You can pretend I am Kinn and beat the shit out of me?"

Vegas snorts and ends the call.

~*~*~

Kim trains harder than ever and still loses. Fucking Game pulls a knife on him, slaps him, and fights like he has no honour. This time Pete is silent as he holds an ice pack to Kim's bloody nose.

~*~*~

"No," Vegas says instead of hello. 

"What would it take?" Kim asks because he hates the house he lives in, hates the chain on his neck, and hates not following his dream.

There is a long silence. 

"Why?" Vegas asks in English.

"I want to get out, and he won't let me leave otherwise." 

Vegas laughs, but it sounds hollow. "Sucks to be you."

He ends the call but messages Kim two days later. The message contains nothing but a time, date and address. Kim has three days to figure out how he can sneak away; he has a feeling Vegas does not want witnesses. 

~*~*~

Vegas is two years older, taller and stronger. He fights to win, and he fights dirty. He enters the abandoned apartment with a scowl and wastes no time with pleasantries, dropping a bag and going after Kim like his life depends on it. He pushes Kim into the broken coffee table with a kick in his stomach, and it's on. Twenty minutes later, Kim is on his back, bleeding from at least ten different places, and he isn't sure that a few of his ribs are not broken. His head hurts, and his wrists are firmly pinned above his head. Vegas grins with bloody teeth, and something in his eyes makes Kim realize that maybe it was not a good idea to show up alone, with nobody to protect him.

"See you in two weeks," Vegas finally says, disappearing before Kim gets enough strength to sit up. He stays like that for a while, wrists still above his head, and if he closes his eyes, he can still feel Vegas's hands around them.

~*~*~

It takes a while to unlearn some of the things Big and Pete have taught him, but Kim is a quick learner. Where Vegas might be stronger, Kim is faster, and where Vegas is more aggressive, Kim can use that momentum against him. That and he learns to use anything and everything around him to fight Vegas. The first time he throws an old vase, Vegas actually stops and laughs, looking at the broken pieces around him. Kim punches him in the jaw to shut him up. Later he yields to Vegas when they roll, and the ceramic pieces cut up Kim's back badly enough that he needs stitches.

~*~*~

Five months in Vegas shows up with a bruise on his face, his lip swollen and bloody. 

"Cheating on me?" Kim asks, pushing Vegas against the wall with a strength he didn't have months ago. Vegas growls like an actual animal and swaps them around so viciously that Kim almost loses his balance. His head hits the wall with a loud thud. Kim's so used to the pain, he ignores it. Vegas goes for his stomach, and Kim risks leaving it unprotected. He punches Vegas in the mouth, splits the lip open again, and Vegas stumbles backwards. 

Kim wastes no time, aims for legs and kicks hard enough that Vegas falls, and the adrenaline rush from knowing that this might be the first time he wins is so heady that Kim almost falls himself. He knows he is not strong enough to make Vegas yield just by pinning down his arms, so he uses his body to pin Vegas down, punches Vegas in the mouth once and then twice and then the third time, enough to make Vegas dizzy, to make him forget who is stronger. 

"Yield," he orders, looking down at the blood smeared all over Vegas's mouth. 

Vegas looks at him. It's a strange look, like he's calculating something, and Kim pushes his knee deeper into Vegas's stomach. "Yield."

Vegas surges up and bites Kim's lips with such strength that the blood that Kim tastes is his own. He yelps in pain and surprise, and the next thing he knows, Vegas flips them around, grinning like he always does when he knows he's won.

"What the fuck," Kim turns his head, breathless still, and spits blood on the floor. He should have aimed for Vegas's face.

Vegas, the crazy motherfucker, leans down and licks Kim's jaw like Kim is some prey to be eaten. 

"See you in two weeks," he says, leaving Kim on the floor, covered in their blood.

~*~*~

Kim disarms Chan, Game and Big four months later and gets his apartment keys. If Vegas is surprised to see him a week after, he doesn't let it show. He pushes Kim against the kitchen counter, and Kim breaks a dish against Vegas's cheek. It's on.

first of all, before i go any further, this is in reference to my tags on a previous post about kim and vegas bonding through violence:

second of all.... TUMSA????? TUMSA. YOU'RE LITERALLY INSANE FOR DUMPING THIS MASTERPIECE IN MY INBOX 😭😭😭

well idk what i'm even supposed to say gdhfsdjfhsdf. i'm glad you volunteered for the sake of "inherent homoeroticism" bc you are going to be the reason i put the vegaskim? kimvegas? (probably both. they're fighting for dominance after all) tag on my blog for the first time 🥲 thank you for your service bestie <3333

[littlesolo]

[slashingdisneypasta]

I made the mistake of crunching the numbers this morning and trying to figure out how, on my salary, I am going to move out and now I'm getting a Ko-Fi, considering an Etsy store side hustle, finishing my book and looking at courses to get my upgraded certification.

[circusjuney]

i'm not built for real life please just exempt me from all adult responsibilities so i can keep making my fake people and my fake world and telling my depressing little story

[justbreakonme]

I always think I’m not affected my social media then I am and I’m like, oh fuck, this is what they’re talking about, then I scramble back to tumblr like it’s a underground burrow and I am a capybara in a wildfire.

Tumblr is social media, but, not Like That™️

[dark-visitors]

[marinersubmariner]

Baby's first seedlings

[katemagic]

thinking about how half asleep achi said "please don't disappear" to karan in episode five and how karan responded by saying he wouldn't go anywhere

and he never broke that promise ever either :(((