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chaoticriderlessb · 2 years

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As a new "Sims 4" player...can we like, get some poses where the model is like, performing simple magic tricks 😅🤣? I'm not talking about actual sorcery magic. I mean like, bouquet of flowers popping out of the cane, making a coin or something disappear and reappear with hand gestures, pulling a coin out from behind an ear, etc.

Y'all know what I mean?

I was looking for something like that, earlier, but haven't been able to find anything other than witch/wizard magic poses 🤷🏻‍♀️.

#mika squawks #life of mika #random post #imma nerd #the sims #the sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 poses #magic tricks #an idea maybe #i don't have the right stuff to make it myself though #pc games #pc gaming #the sims community #sims #sims 4 #simblr

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ravinoforre · 2 months

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Michael and Leaf Pokemon but they've suddenly been isekai'd to Sylvarant oops

The template @frayed-symphony, @ciryze and I collectively put together.

...also uh 👉👈

there's this

#the stats aren't super specific tbh #i just kinda based them off of Genis and Colette from my various saves at that point and just tweaking where i felt like it #and i know this template was more or less made for ToS OCs but since i don't have any...#...and uh.. may as well admit that this specific scenario is something i've thought about for well over a decade by this point...#uuagh just allow me to indulge in my bullshit for a moment #this applies to myself too btw #like it's perfectly ok to do stuff like this right #so why does *this* feel scarier than me posting any other kind of art?#whatever don't think about it #it's there now and it was fun to make and it took far too long to not dump it /somewhere/ for the public to gawk at #still too nervous to put this on my twitter right now though god fuck #maybe after a sleep i'm exhausted #ok proper tags time #trainer michael #trainer leaf #pokemon xd #pokemon frlg #tales of symphonia #ravinoforre

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belethlegwen · 5 months

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The Rescue - Chp 53 - Still Dealing With The Sting

Good morning my lovelies and lurkers <3

The newest chapter of The Rescue is now live! Christmas and the Holiday season being what it is, I haven't had a ton of time (though, mostly energy has been the problem) to write, but I should still have something to go up in two weeks for you all :)

I hope you all have a lovely day and wonderful weekend! If I can get my ass up on time I'm thinking I'll catch The Boy and The Heron today as a step in helping me wind down a little. Honestly really excited to see it.

Enjoy the reading! Thank you all, as always, so much for the comments and kudos and shares <3 I apologize I haven't been able to respond to all the comments like I want to. My brain is deep in scrambled-egg territory.

Love you all, take care of yourselves and each other as best as you can!

~ Belle

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keeps-ache · 1 month

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wink blink look !!

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #sona #ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhgghhhh #am i RIGHT guys hfhvs #:33 #//not many thoughts recently #not many thoughts for a while actually lol #must've talked myself weary! huh!#/let me try at this though - i feel like i have some little part of my brain that's all stopped up #it's been like that for a minute !#/ah but a question - do you ever stand by a bit of forest and hear what are distinctly Whispers ?#i know it's definitely the wind but it's fun to think it's anything else lol :>>#ghosts or fairies or the road down the hill for whatever reason #/oh and speaking of hearing i got a weird + shrill + loud tone in my ear the other day and it just didn't happen again #a sudden EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and then it stopped lmao #funky stuff man. wonder what's up with that hfhs #//anyway i'm working on my artfight references rn lol :)#i've finished one! what a miracle!! hfsh-#it looks a lot better than the one last year like Wow. don't think the same person made these you know what i mean hfh #//ah i've also started using padlet for realsies this time :>#it's a neat spot - it's gonna be great to just have the palettes i need on another device loll #that's the biggest problem i have on this planet! having to scroll my blog for palettes is not the most fun thing hfsh #/anyway gonna get back to it!!#i'm sort of tired but i Really wanna make kira and hid's this yearrr #they are very ~+~+~ <3 ~+~+~ to me lol :>>#so toodles ! here i go again hfhsv

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justalittlebluetiefling · 6 months

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Saying you can host Thanksgiving when you're the planner in your relationship and you work in a retail-adjacent career is really just digging your own grave.

#i did this to myself #my partner is southern-ish (don't tell him i said ish but he's from virginia it hardly counts his mom is from south carolina though)#and he's got the whole hospitality thing and he loves hosting stuff #so i was like yeah sure we can do thanksgiving here #because i want to make sure he feels like moving to my small hometown was worth it right #but also i forgot that he just is NOT good at planning things #which is weird because he is a project manager so it's all he does all day #also i've been sick for like 5 days now? so i didn't even pick up on the lack of a solid plan until today #i don't have time for this #it feels like i've been in meetings for two weeks getting everything for work set up #and now i also have to plan out this menu 2 days before the actual holiday because no one knows what's going on #listen he TRIES to do the planning he really does but he gets too excited and things spiral lol #personal

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moe-broey · 11 days

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Going to the mall as I am now (kinda punky/extremely autistic) is kinda funny like. That's a nice shirt. However, it's not one of my thousand beloved black graphic t shirts and it is such a texture and kind of a weird shape to it and honestly I don't really wanna buy any sort of fast fashion type shit or brand shit. Don't care. Oh they have patches. Kinda cute but straight up I can just make those. In fact, I would prefer to. Don't care. Also I'm not buying that.

#i've kind of become a very hard person to please but it's deceptive. in both directions #what i really want is materials. and incredibly specific things.#also just. something about the patches that were designs/artwork like. i feel like i'm being sold an aesthetic #when like. yeah. yeah you are quite literally LMFAOOOOOO #i wanna start a for real battle jacket.... a sturdy but lightweight enough vest for daily wear...#i have a vest but it's flimsy as fuck and not the right shape for me. so i think i'll scrap it for patches #i still gotta figure out how to make nice patch designs though. that is something i struggle w for some reason #but like. i'm not buying mall patches LMFAOOO like. idk it almost feels insulting #idk idk maybe i'm taking it too seriously LMFAO but it does feel like brazen commodification #of something that's like. you're supposed to do it yourself. kinda goes against the whole point #ideologically too. but again maybe i'm just too serious about it.#but like above all i don't want Things i want stuff to make things.#OH MY GOD I GOT IT. those fucking patches were the live laugh love of people who want the aesthetic and edge of punk #but none of the roughness. none of the shittiness. and none of the actual philosophy behind it.#gooooddddddddd i probably sound insufferable though LMFAOOO #i also just feel like a poser myself at times like. i could go deeper i think.#anyways. most important thing and whole point of the trip was manga. got some manga 👍🫡

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olehoncho · 14 days

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How I would fix Dr Who (revisited)

While I am sure there are folks that love the Doctor Who show and the direction it has taken under Chibnal, I know there are others who are not satisfied with certain developments. Ever since the end of Matt Smith's run there have been issues with the continuity of the series: - The expansion of The Doctor's regenerations was first explained via a "time lord energy infusion" in Town of Christmas, but was later revealed to be an aspect of the Timeless Child. - The swapping of sex/gender was first done with the Master and later explored with the Doctor. - Letting go of a Time Lord's power was explored in Human Nature and later in Uptopia, but revisited as being a "female presenting" quality later. - The Bi-Generation creating two time lords.

A lot of this new canon has been... not easy to absorb. And I'm not going to say there's any connection to ratings or audience scores, but as someone who is more interested in the science fiction aspect of the show, I think there is enough of the new canon to play with to fit in with the long-running series canon.

Make The Doctor a distinct being separate from The Timeless Child. - This is the main one, and could be done a couple of different ways. My previous theory was to make The Timeless Child the Time Vortex at the heart of the TARDIS (which explains why it is different from other TARDIS). This would explain the leeching of memories and power to other individuals as well. - Another way to do this would be to have The Doctor either be a bi-generation from The Timeless Child, or perhaps be the son of The Timeless Child who inherited some memories. There are options.

Restore the Regeneration Limit and explain how it was bypassed. - The previous explanation is that The Doctor is the first Time Lord and therefore has endless regenerations. This never felt right. The Doctor being a Time Lord whose uniqueness comes from their decisions, the promise to be "The Doctor" rather than their particular history is the key to the character. - You could do another bi-generation backstory into The Doctor's past, and that part of The Doctor has been dormant, sleeping aboard the TARDIS for near a thousand years (my personal choice would be the regeneration from 2nd to 3rd Doctor). - Then you would have to explain that The Doctor who has been adventuring has been part of The Doctor, but a being who got mixed up with The Timeless Child and is therefore confused. Then explain that the reason for the regeneration limit being bypassed is because of the TARDIS - so many Doctors regenerate in the TARDIS and this is shown to have led to many explosions of energy which were not present in earlier regenerations because this version of The Doctor is growing unstable. - Time Lords are not meant to live more than 12 regenerations, because the energy in their bodies becomes more than they can handle, like a dying star they either go supernova or become dwarf stars.

Kill off the current version of The Doctor and bring in "The Original" - This could be a series-long arc involving The Valeyard - with the "current Doctor" being the Valeyard and "The Original" questing to stop them, but would end up with The Doctor dying and creating their grave on Trenzalore that is eventually visited by 11 and Clara. - The "original" Doctor would then continue the adventures, absorbing all the memories of their alternate selves - and resume the regeneration limit from 3 (a new 3, not Pertwee) and then regenerating into 4.

Anyways, that's how I'd rework Doctor Who if it was up to me. But it's not, so whatever.

#Doctor who #tardis #seriously though I stopped watching because I hated how mean 12 was to Danny Pink #Like there was no reason to be that rude to your companions love interest #I just could not jive with Capaldi and could not bring myself to go back to the show #kept up with the lore and the drama and felt satisfied I stayed away #but can we stop race-swapping people please #I mean I guess its fine when you consider alternate realities but that was never Doctor Whos thing #Like time travel is fine and all and they really haven't done enough fun back to the future or quantum leap stuff about fixing timelines #but as part of a larger trend I just think race swapping historical figures is lame #Now fictional characters is fine and dandy #But like if Doctor Who went on an adventure with Sun Wukong I wouldnt want the Monkey King played by a scotsman #So its just weird to see Isaac Newton played by Nathaniel Curtis #And then to have the showrunner attack fans as racists #Like he was the one who changed the race of the person showing he was the one with the problem in the first place #this is my problem with folks who cry racism or sexism or shout at fans for not embracing changes #they're the ones who made the change from the source materials so doesn't that mean they are the ones with the problem #like don't say its the fans fault for not accepting the changes you make blame yourselves for not getting it right #but again that's just the way I see things #not a shipping post #yeah I'm done talking about doctor who #I bloody stopped watching the show 9 years ago why do I even care

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torchickentacos · 9 months

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anyways. having fun with the album project thing I mentioned. Using the flat small brush from here for krita. One brush only, no undo button, all done on 1/54th of a 1.5k x 1k canvas. it's actually pretty therapeutic, I listen to the album I'm drawing while I draw it. This does mean that for AM I got to like. track 2 though and most of that was bc of formatting issues lol.

#vent in tags though bc i need. somewhere that isn't yet another 4:30 am vent google doc. too many of those and they're not helping #i don't want to talk but i don't want to be fully alone right now but i can't just spring this on someone in dms either so . tags it is #tw death. like really not a fun time over on torchickentacos dot tumblr dot com right now. genuine warning here #but i'm not doing well and i need this right now. anyways told my therapist i feel like i should be more okay right now than I am #and he was like. you. think you should be MORE okay after someone you knew died?#like. ah. hm. i see. now. how that might not be rational thinking.#i mean in my brain it was like. okay we're approaching day three and i haven't reached back out to my other irls #and i'm awake at 4 am #and i feel like need to pull it together because other people need me for stuff #and like. this happened before but harder. i should KNOW that there's no way to expedite this #because unfortunately I've been through this before!!! people make that choice to leave and it sucks and that's that!#like i KNOW how hard this is especially since it's a very personal topic.#but i'm still trying to rush myself here #it stresses me out to think that I'm not there enough for myself to be there for other people right now #sigh. i wonder how much of it's because i feel like i should have been there for those friends more even though it's irrational.#because that's genuinely not how it fucking works and I KNOW THAT PERSONALLY yet I still put that on myself.#people can have all the support they need and still choose to not take it. and there's not a damn thing you can do about it.#well. tomorrow i return to socializing and being a human person again #little bit at a time.

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candlebel · 3 months

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I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.

#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you.#I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible.#I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me.#I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth.#I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely.#I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin #I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't...#I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it #or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away...#to this day...#I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again #I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that.#I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY #that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back #that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed.#“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again.#By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant.#I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did.#The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement.#Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF.#You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do.#I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha #No I do not look at your blogs.#The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one.#I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel #safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time.#I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore.#And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry...#I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too...#vent

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dewitty1 · 7 months

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Saturday Six (Stuff)

The Dude (@super-ultra-mega-kami-guru-blog) comes home Monday night!( ´͈ ॢꇴ `͈ॢ)･*♡

I guess the kittehs have been good company. Leeloo has been a typical kitten aka a terror. (^・ω・^ )

As much as I don't want my parents to interfere in my business I do want my mom to ask her bestie, WTF, because I did an estimate for her and I have heard back and I need money like now. Mom said no, and rightfully so, but still, lol.（’-’*)

Speaking of parents, Mom asked me to come hang out at their old people gratitude dinner today. Umm, yeah no thanks. Once was enough. I'm fine hanging out with myself.٩(•̤̀ᵕ•̤́๑)ᵒᵏᵎᵎᵎᵎ

Seriously the worst part of being a small business person is worrying about money. We hates it.( •̀ω•́ )σ

And even though he's a jerk about it, Dad is helping me get tires on my car. That's one good thing, he'll always keep the car up. Though he still calls it "his" car. s(・｀ヘ´・;)ゞ

Bonus: Happy End of Daylight Saving Time weekend! Tonight most of the USA imitates Cher and turns back time, the Standard clock. WHEEEE. (not fun. We hates the dark) (´～`)

#Saturday Six #About me #Personal #November 4 2023 #please do not reblog #Carey rambles about life and stuff and her parents and it's amazing that her mom actually thought that she might be a little lonely which y #But I do not want to hang out with a bunch of old - now sober - drunks - most of whom are jerks anyway and have a pseudo Thanksgiving #I'd rather do accounting - which I actively LOATHE lolololol #And I'm making chili (con carne & frijoles for you sticklers)#so yeah anyway #I'm excited for the dude to come home #I guess - though it's been nice having the house to myself #I hooe their dad has talked to them about working 🙏#Alrighty enough rambles in the tags #I hope you have a great day or night wherever you are #Don't let the current events happening get you down #I hope all your loved ones are safe #Hugssss from mom or just a friend whatever you need right now ٩(๑•◡-๑)۶ⒽⓤⒼ❤💜 💙 💚 💛 ❤️ 💕 💖#I appreciate y'all reading my nonsensical ramblings every time I throw them out! 💗#Now back to your regularly scheduled programming

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mctreeleth · 2 years

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Something something commodification of hobbies resulting in alienated leisure as parallel to alienated labour... disconnect from “product” in both instances... alienated from leisure activities through need to commodify under rules of post-Fordist neoliberal capitalist hustle culture... if the goal is to enjoy the effort, putting a price on that effort transforms said effort into labour/done for profit rather than enjoyment, and so the individual is alienated from their goal of enjoyment in service of the new capitalism, in much the same way that a worker is alienated from their labour under Fordist capitalism... something something “the market” as boss to self-employed individuals... something something the algorithm is more fickle than the man in head office and you don’t even have a union....

#I don't regret dropping out of PhD because I am alive to look back at it and therefore I made the right decisions #because the wrong decision would have been pushing on even though it was so so so bad for my mental health that I wouldn't be here #but I spent a good few years railing against post-Fordist capitalism and then went and got myself a very Fordist factory job #and I am much happier doing that than I think I would be trying to commodify the activities that I do for leisure #I put in my 38 hours of time and yes someone else is making money off of it #however #every time I see a reel on instagram that is a small business literally dancing so that the algorithm will favour it #I see the parallels between all these people who ''are their own bosses'' and me who has an actual boss #both of us subject to the whims of *some other thing*#but my creative output is not mired in capitalism's tendrils #I am connected wholly to the things I create #it is for me it is not for ''the market''#I don't need to care that what I do at work is an atomised part of some larger thing when I can make a coat start to finish after work #but somethings you have a thought and realise you gave up the chance to just write this sort of stuff properly for the rest of your life #like okay yes that would have also made me utterly utterly miserable #and maybe I would not have had this particular realisation were I not literally at a factory job right now #but it was nice to have my thoughts validated by people who knew their shit

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majouartings · 2 years

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some autumn outfits~ 🍂🎃

#oc #not fanart #mori kei #hello friends! it's been a while again hasn't it #I meant to post this last month but then forgot I hadn't haha #oh well! if the shops are going to start stocking christmas stuff in october I reserve the right to keep posting halloween stuff in november #holiday creep works both ways now. I don't make the rules sorry #anyway anyway #autumn is the best season for fashion #like... you can layer! you can wear cute sweaters and knit socks and big stompy lace-up boots!#you can replace your head with a pumkin!#pumpkin heads are VERY in at the moment. trust me I'm a fashion design major #the dress on your right is actually one I made myself irl! it's sort of based on a regency morning gown #can confirm it's insanely comfy and very easy to use as an impromptu basket haha #(and yes of COURSE it has pockets what do you take me for)#anyway I hope you're all having a lovely autumn so far! eat some nice stews. jump in some leaves #watch over the garden wall if you haven't already. watch it again if you have #I shall see you anon! hopefully sooner than two months this time though haha

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keeps-ache · 1 day

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ggghhg i hate vehiclessssssss ghghghhghhhhh [dies dies dies forever]

#just me hi #i'm going to get right back to it but i need to complain or i'll turn into a stale loaf of Bread lmao :3👍#so here it is. why's it gotta be so hard hhghfh #okay buildings suck i hate buildings. but also they don't make me want to immediately explode at the merest hint of actually drawing them #vehicles?? Vehicles ???? i am going to just. what if i just put everyone in magical cardboard boxes and did that huh. what is the point !!#i have to draw motorcyclessss and carssssss and i'm okay with bikes to a degree actually <3 and horsessssssss and truckssssssssssss #god forbid you pick an older model with like 20 articles on it cuz most of them are going to only have a side profile and 3/4s view of that #dang thing. which yea sounds manageable 'why is this a problem keeps' i cannot properly see the FRONT #i have to guess?? i have to Guess ???? my dearest wish i think i'm just going to live in the sewers. with the sewer creatures #GGHHHHHHHHHHHH #i am going to practice drawing this stupid thing that i'm going to use for like 7 panels MAX and then i'm going to commit a FOUL crime. lik #rearranging someone's usual playlist without them knowing so they're confused every time they listen to it afterwards #//okay enough of that. we're good hbfhsfh :3 #i have done other things today ! i've actually made a rough timeline for pi.e so thaaaat's cool :D #that and found a cool artist to follow on pillowfort. i. forgor their user but they have cool art .w.#/also i'm past the halfway mark on this first chapter which is !!!#i don't want to jinx myself cuz i know i'm really good at that hfhsv - but i think i'll start storyboarding the next part if i can get a #couple more pages done :D #//also the cowboy au grows stronger everyday hhhgfshvbh #i kind of knew some sort of au was inevitable but i did not think it would be an old west one loll :3 #still trying to figure out the logistics #i wanna find some good historical fiction from those eras (1860s-70s) but i do not have the brain space for it rn fbhs - so this will do :>#it won't have any of the magic or gods i think bc of that but i'm having fun regardless :D #it Does have some occult though. because i was playing the story for my brother and i Do enjoy scaring him hhbvhfhsfvh #there are devils on the ranch!! or are they devils?? he hasn't gotten that far yet lol :>#//i also may have some sort of weird lean towards the spooky because Somehow each of my stories end up containing some sort of thriller #element?? lmao rip my siblings #but it never happens on purpose. again; rip my siblings hfhhvsh #//oo running out of tag space lol <//3 #i shall return. probably with more wip stuff cuz i started like 4 canvases in 2 days hhghghdvs - toodles !!

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tachiisms · 1 year

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#on like strictly an ooc basis though i know i haven't been here in a while and randomly just popped on to shitpost #'cause laura's post made me laugh (ty! ily!)#but i'm still mostly over on my other blog. i've had a lot going on and like being with my soft girls right now #and also star wars hasn't really been sparking joy recently and it's been making this dash feel claustrophobic in a way idk how else #to really describe? like it's nothing to do with the actual people or characters on this dash it's more just that it's almost all star wars #if that makes any sense at all?#(which is probably stupid because no one really cares about the muses on my other blog so i'm only playing myself here lmao)#(but idc they make me happy and it's fine that they aren't popular)#but i also find that it can be kind of hard to branch out from star wars to get a wider range to rp with on siri #'cause it's mostly just modern type or crossover type verses #and that's been feeling Hard lately just because of the star wars stuff i just mentioned #but i do have a star wars related project with a friend that'll be...sometime upcoming? so i'm hoping that it will spark the joy again #but for now i'm mostly over on my other blog but since i follow a lot of the same people i sometimes see things and pop over here lol #anywhomst if you're at all interested in sigrid from the hobbit or susan pevensie from narnia (or breha who's also star wars)#(idk i'm not having the same problem with breha as siri probably because she's on the multi? anyway back to the point)#then feel free to go follow my other blog which is @viaminvenia but no pressure!! sigrid and susan don't have star wars verses #ily all you're all so talented and such good writers and just *chef kiss* all over the dash #ooc

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catinfroghat · 10 months

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Half finished cat I drew on my hand at work

#i didn't finish it because I'm washing my hands a lot right now because we have a stomach bug in the department #amd i don't want to get sick #so i washed it off before i did its face and whiskers #also i was so busy today because i was the only one in again so i had to do all the emails and calls by myself #as well as the stuff i usually do like voicemail and patient waiting list #tomorrow my coworker is coming in so she can help me though :D #also hopefully the office manager in the other office will be back from being ill as well #because when she's not there her staff don't seem to answer the phones as often so it gives me more work to do to help them #i think she must make sure they're working because i heard some of them are a bit too chatty but maybe thats just department rivalry #omg it's so bad as well because when they don't answer the phones and i have to check the voicemail for them the patients are all getting #sooooo angry because no one is getting back to them about sometimes urgent matters and i feel so bad #because i can't help them (i don't have permission to contact patients directly or change clinics) but i want tooooooo

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bluejayblueskies · 1 year

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i feel like i've got whatever the opposite of imposter syndrome is going on in grad school rn where i constantly have to be like 'actually, i do have a background in this and i do know what i'm doing and i'm allowed to make mistakes without being looked down on because of them'

#my bosses and professors are not the problem (they're all super chill and actually really good at. you know. trusting me with stuff)#it's my classmates and coworkers #(specifically my male classmates and coworkers though given that my program is male-dominated idk how much that actually says)#like. i don't want to jump right to it being bc i'm female presenting but also. idk idk #it's just really frustrating bc like. idk #i was talking about one of my projects with one of my coworkers yesterday (who i work with a lot and am semi-friends with)#and i was talking about how i'm seeing some things in the analysis of the recordings i made of myself etc. etc.#and i was like 'but you know since it was just me i would need a bigger sample size in order to make a conclusion about this'#and he was like 'yeah yeah like an actual professional saxophonist'#and i was like '.... i *am* a professional saxophonist' bc. i am! i have a degree in saxophone!#never forget the time a guy came into the office asking me to take some stuff of an SD card #off*#and then when i was having trouble finding it (turns out it was compacted into this weird file type i'd never seen before)#''''helpfully'''' told me that files are usually stored in folders #anyway. i'm very tired #personal

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