#i don't mean to be insensitive

[black-quadrant]

ADHD isn't silly or quirky. it can hinder productivity, create a cycle of overcommitting and overextending to keep up with life, can give rise to feelings of guilt for things like resting and overall impacts relationship health (just to name a few). it's hard to manage and it's miserable.

[ratcandy]

do you think that zote ever gets bullied for having mismatched horns

I guess it would depend on how much symmetry is valued by bugs hDKHSG. which caused me to look things up and find a study that tells me Yes bugs can in fact recognize Symmetry/Asymmetry to some extent if trained to recognize it. So that's neat

ANYWAY your question. I'll go with a Maybe. I'm sure it gets pointed out often enough considering he's one VERY few asymmetrical guys around here. With the only other one coming to mind being Divine due to her mask

But I dunno if it would be as much bullying as it would be "hey why are your horns different sizes? did one break and you couldn't molt a new one properly" and he goes "YES I lost it in a great battle. It was a devastating blow no bug could've seen coming. But I did. Alas. The beast was too quick even for my nimble reflexes. it got a Lucky strike and I earned a heroic scar " or whatever.

i could assume it's commented on to the same extent that like. heterochromia would be commented on. Brain sees asymmetry and goes Woah that's Asymmetry that's Crazy

[kimmiessimmies]

Wistfulness (12/34)

James turned to Dan, “What happened? Was she alone when she died?”

“Dad said she probably died in her sleep. Her gardener found her in the morning. She doesn’t seem to have suffered. She was just old.”

James nodded solemnly.

“What’s going to happen to her house?” Sarah asked.

Dan shrugged, “I don’t know. My dad says your parents and mine will arrange everything for the funeral. We’ll probably need to go down to Appaloosa in a few days, and after that, we’ll hear about the inheritance, I suppose.”

[six-white-venus]

pick an object to your right and tell me about it

[laceratedlamiaceae]

it's so on-brand for Ed that even his suicide attempt would involve endangering and inconveniencing everyone around him

[can-i-see-your-passport-please]

If you told me someone would genuinely try to argue to me that this series is completely unserious, and everything, INCLUDING EVERYTHING IN THE FUCKING CLONE FIGHT (INCLUDING THE MAIN CHARACTER'S SUICIDE ATTEMPT) was a joke I would think you're setting up a strawman but LO AND FUCKING BEHOLD

[per1w1nkl3]

yes estrogen would've saved kurt Cobain but asexuality would've saved richey edwards

[sparksflys]

"you don't get to tell me about sad" is a scary lyric 😵‍💫

[shopcat]

been having the mother of all morality ocd spirals and the only way i can help it slash stop it is SAYING: tldr taikas been dumb but i still "like" him/(mostly ed) (who he plays). with a lot of flashing lights and disclaimers around "like".

And if you can. please like ❤️ <-👍👍👍 this post if you see it. (or you can unfollow me if you like no hard feelings but if you don't read the tags either i do Nawt support slash stand for the dumb shit he as an actor creator whatever says i think he does stupid shit)

[arklayraven]

Yeah I ain't continuing that thing now for sure... (talking about my writing blog. not here)

[weedle-testaburger]

there was a pretty good comment in a strange aeons video i watched the other day where she said 'how much of 2000s humour was just bullying?' and it made me realise something interesting. in the 2000s that bullying was masked as humour, in the 2010s that bullying was masked as activism

[43406]

Love ur blog but id recommend against making light hearted jokes about wilbur soot with all the shit going on around him

Hmmm well I mean. I'm making fun of him bc he's an abuser. I'm not making fun of the situation at large, or of the ppl he abused. I get where ur coming from but I think it's okay to point & laugh at shitbag losers like him

[katyspersonal]

3 for Aldrich, Aldia, Willem & Laurence

9 for Maria

11 for Micolash & Aldrich

24 for Laurence

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

3) What first drew you to this character?

As for Aldrich, I vaguely recall finding out that he checks the traits I like the most? He was one of the characters I've learned about through fandom and not on my own, and I think this ancient meme about summarises it:

Also:

@val-of-the-north SHUDDUP you're basically so horny for Laurence/Logarius/Snatchers that you can't even picture them in your mind in any way but being naked!!!!!!! *casts the stone back at u*

With Laurence, like with Mico, it was the very first glance at the character in Youtube compilation with boss themes and concept art image. I did not know the lore yet, but the design and the music made me imagine Laurence as sort of aged, sagely librarian. I could not imagine back then that his boss fight would be him being a "helpless abhorrent little mewmew" as kids call it! Heck, I thought he'd have dialogue despite the monster form x) In a way, my first impression was not wrong, with the cut content of him actually talking even in a beast form, and implication of him being a son of Cainhurst cut content librarian NPC! I have intuition for cut content before having information, hahaha!

I have nothing to say about Willem. It might be a memory gap thing, but I swear at some point I feel I was turned off and then booted back up with liking this character already installed in my system x) As for Aldia.... ugh for fuck's sake... yeah, it was this legend:

I was absolutely floored by this stupid vid even without knowing any context, but I also instantly liked this character. I didn't even know his name yet, but the voice acting and long yapping about philosophy already pulled me in XD (Also unironically, this video is precisely how I give relationship advice fhfhdds)

9) Does this character remind you of anyone you know? Does that affect how you see them?

Yeah, I know this person. I know them very well. I know them more than anyone else. Someone who was misguided (by their destructive influence mentor figure, by their own foolishness and past history, or combination of both, who can tell anymore?) into committing awful things, then despaired over their sins and attempted redemption but also failed in some way? This person is me. At some point I've found myself in front of horrible truth about my past life and personality, and knew I was guilty and sullied forever. That it was over for me as a human being, but that didn't matter, and I could only keep people safe by locking myself away and trying to serve something better.

......annnnd it took a few years of more informed people to (metaphorically) shake me and slap my face into lucidity, explaining to me that I've fallen for the "BPD demonization" that was going far beyond than my individual failure as a friend, and we are always accused of abuse and causing irreversible harm when the worst we do is being emotionally overbearing. I kept losing trust to those friends, telling them that they were enablers who tried to gaslight me into thinking I was not 'that much of a monster', until it was other people with BPD who 'shook me and slapped my face into lucidity'. xd Nonetheless, even though now I know the truth about how society treats BPDs, I remember the feeling of being so monstrous and harmful that I was not even allowed to "touch" people with my dirty hands, how my reality used to be. So, I could write Maria going through this effortlessly, especially considering what she did was more plain and tangible!

In fact... thank you for asking me about this, because I kept wondering why I had such frequent dreams about being Maria, and why the Maria in my dreams acts like abused child that took back control against Gehrman despite my portrayal of the guy being so different. And now the puzzle is solved! That part of me still lives inside, it seems.

11) How did you “fall in love” with this character?

Already answered this for Micolash here: ( x )! As for Aldrich, it was through properly analysing the bigger picture and context of his actions. I've figured that his madness was, in fact, being informed on what was far too ahead of everyone else around him! He, like the rest of the cast, is trapped in the rotting, doomed world in which the only choices are 1) "die with dignity" or 2) commit something unthinkable from moral standpoint for a chance to escape. And will morality of the rotting world will matter in the new world anyways? Won't it all be left behind and be forgiven?

The guy also tried to take everyone else he could with him, like sort of a fucked up Noah's Arc! I can tell that they reused the concept with Rykard, at least, I am glad they know what works xD I'd say that the sadism he experienced upon eating people was either result of insanity (he understood a thing no one should understand), or still didn't exclude the bigger purpose (egotistically revelling in how holy he is helping everyone and doing what no one else dared, which would be like my Laurence). In any case, I have the strongest respect to the courage it takes to transcend the bonds of morality and compassion in order to to greater good. Being burdened with the knowledge of how the world really works, and choosing to push through instead of still being bound... This is why I also like Fauxsefka; learning how this world works, she chose to turn people into Kin so they can't ever become beasts. I am weak for this trope, you don't understand.

24) Do you ever dream about this character? If so, describe a dream you once had about them.

Laurence appears in my dreams only in two contexts: 1) Micolaurence or 2) dreams about finding secret files in Bloodborne that reveal his canonical appearance before beasthood! I can tell the latter comes from my everlasting unsatisfaction with my design for him, because I love it but it doesn't feel "fitting" and I can't identify why!

The former, I think, fandom rubbing onto me x) In two of these dreams, I was Laurence. In other two, I was Micolash. In one of Laurence dreams it was mutual, in the second one I was in love unrequited. In one of Micolash dreams, it was mutual, and in another it was not.. Basically, my dreams allows me to experience this ship from every possible angle. o_o Waiting for more I guess fhhdfsfd

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Thank you for asking! And.. without exaggeration, you've just done quite a psychological work on me by just asking the right thing. I need to think about that, hahaha

[orcboxer]

When I was like 5 (I mean that literally, I wasn't even in kindergarten yet) my mom did her best to convince me that I was the soul of a damned sinner who escaped from hell and into the body of her unborn child while on the run from the Hell Police or whatever and if I didn't do my chores and mind my manners demons would figure out who I really was, rip my soul out, and drag it kicking and screaming back to hell

I need to lie down

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

I feel like whenever people discuss "gender roles" on social media and just in society at large, they simplify it way too damn much.

[valaratminaforaldrar]

i'm kind of sick of the way people treat self-harm like it's like?? disturbing?? like i almost feel like some people treat it like it's the same as like. murder or something like that level of disturbing. and they think that that's empathy but like you really just made me feel like a horrible disgusting person thanks