#i done did it before its fine 🥴

[todayisafridaynight]

so. uhh. any rgg meetups at animenext this weekend or 🥴

[neverlookatthisblog]

Bad for business

A/n: I was very inspired hope you enjoyed this let me know what you think I haven’t wrote anything smut related so I was very excited to write this 🥴🥴

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Smut

Scalvo x reader the instigators

Life in Boston wasn’t how you expected it to be when you planned to move there with a couple of friends just for a few years later not to even be in touch with them anymore

With your Family back in Chicago you had no one yes you could always go back home but you knew you had to make a life of your own now

You were a successful lawyer working on cases sleepless nights Ironically enough this is how you met Scalvo you’re off and on boyfriend

“I’ve got another case for you” Amanda said handing you the file yawning taking the file ‘Another one’ you thought it never ends with your job you reading the file you wanted to know more about him who he was

“Scalvo” you asked Amanda

“Yup I heard he’s a tough one” she said

“Great” but it only made you more curious about him

You’ve worked for lots of people,Scalvo was different to you in your eyes you loved the way he looked at you even though it felt like he hated everything and everyone

To say the least you were stressed

Turns out Scalvo got himself into some trouble beating up some guy and needed a lawyer and it happened to be you,you took the case

“Why why why” you said to yourself as you made your way inside the building

You approached a tall man sitting down with fluffy hair,jacket,with a hat

“Are u Scalvo??” you asked holding his folder

“Yea let’s just get this over with “ he said getting up

“Hold on wait you can’t just get this over with this takes time especially after what u did” I said making him raise his eyebrow

He groaned sitting back down

“So tell me how you go yourself in this situation” I said taking out my note pad

“Are you really about to write this down” he snickered

“I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I’m serious about my job” you said

“Fine” he said

You ended winning case got him out of that shit hole you guys started talking getting to know each other he wasn’t someone you’d date usually it was date nights for you but with Scalvo it was joining him on robberies and much more……

•••

(Present day)

You had the day off spending time at home you made yourself comfortable on the couch seeking into the cushion but that didn’t last it wasn’t for long until Scalvo busted through the doors straddling you

“Hey we need to talk” he said

“Talk about???”

“I know you don’t like this next heist but I have to do it there’s money involved” he said you shook your head

He hurried around the house grabbing his bag

“No… scalvo you’re not doing that” you said eagerly following Scalvo around the house as he gathers things in his bag him doing this kind of stuff was normal to you even when it shouldn’t be

“Are you fucking serious scalvo” you said

You knew he was bad for you but that’s what made it exciting for you loving the thrill and you loved him you knew it wasn’t safe being with someone like Scalvo but you couldn’t resist it

“Y/n please just shut the fuck up I have to do this I made a promise !!!”he said continuing to put stuff in the bag

“No..,Promise to who??? I’m not letting you do this! And if you walk out that door that’s it” you said stopping him he gave you a glare dropping his bag

“The fuck did you just say” he said backing you up until your back hit the wall

“You heard me I said we’re fucking done I’m tired of your shit” you said

“You don’t mean that….” he said making eye contact with you

“Yes I do I’m tired of your shit we’re done” you said pushing him but he wouldn’t move

“And I want you to be done with me too scalvo I’m seri-“before you could say anything he crashed his lips onto yours fighting it you eventually gave in pulling away

“Well I’m not” he said before He picks you up eagerly entering your shared bedroom throwing you on the bed kissing your neck his hands made its way to your button up shirt roughly ripping it

“Scal” you said

“Shut the fuck up” he said kissing your lips his right hand roaming your body until it made its way inside your pants his fingers lightly rubbing circles around your clit

“If you meant that then you wouldn’t be letting me do this to you” he said

“Oh my god” you moaned gripping on to his arm gasping as he continued his movements

“Right??? But your not shit talking now are you?” He said you moaned as he continued on with his movements

“Answer me” lightly chocking you feeling two of his fingers push in and out of you

But you knew you couldn’t You could barely answer mumbling words

He kissed you knowing that you were on edge

You kissed him harshly gripping his tightly

“I can’t….im gonna-“ you cut off by his movements as his fingers repeatedly pushed against your spot

“I know”he said kissing you until you came

Slipping his hands out your pants licking his fingers he hummed as he sucked them clean

“You taste good” he said

“ I’ll be back” he said making his way to the bathroom

He finally came back you wasted no time flipping him over now on top of him you kissed him your hands roamed his around his body but before you could continue he stopped you for a second looking into your eyes you smiled at him

“I know you don’t want me to do this but….”

“Yeah but what??” You said your smiled faded getting off of him

“I’m sorry y/n but I have to do this” he said turning to you both laying on your side

“I knew you would still do it anyways”you rolled your eyes

“Well what did you expect”

“I expected you to not go through with it” you said

“What you thought just because you said we might be done that was gonna scare me” he snickered

“I’m not bluffing scalvo If you do this….” you said shaking your head

“I’m doing this whether you like it or not” he said looking at you

you knew you couldn’t trust him because no matter what you said or did he would’ve did what he wanted to do anyways

that’s just the part that hurt the most was knowing that he may not come back…

[nightswithkookmin]

Hey Goldy

Hope u are doing good cos i am not atall. When JK said Be happy even without us and cried on Live. He Literally cried infront of millions of people. Why did it felt like a Good Bye ? My heart is broken. I am sad. I have never thought about being happy without BTS in my life. I know this day will come when Army will have to learn to live and be happy without BTS but not now not anytime soon. I am not ready but what JK did in that Live has left sadness in my heart. I am happy about Set me free pt 2 teaser and been streaming it. Its going to be Legendry. I am excited for Jimin album but my damn mind keeps thinking of JK and his face with tears rolling down is bothering me. I dont know whats going on with him but i am praying to God that it was just Alcohol and nothing more.

I was bopping my head and sobbing along till I read goodbye

Ma'am step away from the light I will not lose you

Saying goodbye to WHOMST???

Not me cos he and I are not done

We have JJK1 to promote, stream and get to number one.

Goodbye, chileee I will move into his basement and ship him from there. now both he and I are uncomfortable staring at eachother cos my fat ass didn't fit under his bed.

Jungkook is not going anywhere hajima😫

Like you said, he switched on live television to cry in front of millions of people. If he had somewhere else to go with his angsty ass he wouldn't be here doing al that 🥴

Imagine being his 'girlfriend' and seeing him shed tears and cry himself to sleep drunk in front of million strangers when he could have come to you and cried and be vulnerable with you so you console him

When I think about all the times Jimin said I was talking with Jungkook, caressing our phones, crying, talking about how I want to be with the members for a very long time- these people have girlfriends my ass

Tae can't relate

I was expecting this around covid and around the time they announced their Solo careers. Seems he didn't give himself time to take it all in and deal and now it's hitting him hard🥴

I think it's good he is processing pent up emotions and externalizing certain thoughts. There are so many things I want to address from that video but will save it for another blog.

He is at the height of his career and he knows it. He's gonna process that somehow, the doubt the uncertainty, the fear, I just hope it doesn't paralyze him. Suga went through a similar phase as did Namjoon. Every artist goes through this.

People think it's easy to step out of the shadows of a big band as BTS and just catapult into the lime light- they should as Zayne Malik💀

As RM said, it's just too many voices telling you you are no good without your bandmates, too many people tearing your self Esteem apart, telling you you will fail, suddenly you are doubting if that song you made is good, wondering if you will become successful etc

For Jungkook I heard him saying all these, raising all these questions and curiosity about a solo career even before they announced it. I don't think it's easy for him. There's a lot of expectations and pressure to excel. Poor thing.

I really wish Jimin was free and had time to cuddle him. He just needs to be spooned. He will be fine 🙂

I think sometimes they don't realize the effect their tears have on us. Especially when they're crying and being sentimental and ominous about your career😫

I don't think it's just the alcohol. There's something going on with him. But i think he will be fine. the fact Namjoon told him to be quick and release his album means he has something in the works which is good. I don't want to analyze him too much cos it will take me away from Jimin.

We love him and I'm sure he feels the love.

The best we can do is support him and assure him we will be here for him whenever he needs us.

I feel Jimin is competing with a lot of people for army's attention. I love the competition but it's becoming ridiculous.

Let's stay focused. Let's learn to prioritize.

When we are done with Face, we have all the time in the world to discuss Jungkook's moody phase.

I want to hug you and tell you everything will be fine

Here's something to cheer you up

If that don't do it try this🥵

In a few days he's gonna be dropping an MV that's gonna keep all the girlies active 🥺

That still doesn't cheer you up? Crazy😩

Fine. I'll post a full analysis soon😓

[vampcubus]

from experience and from tales told by my piercer, it's always the big tough guys that are the cry babies.

Reiner would go in thinking it's nothing then be TERRIFIED and whining while it gets down. Also super embarrassed how fast his nips get stiff when rubbed so they can be pierced.

My friend who is in all other parts of life a (lovingly) cry baby, did fine, so Connie's all nervous and gets even more freaked out because Reiner's getting worked up but then he's like "it's over?? that wasn't that bad!" tears in the corner of his eyes that were preemptive but he's fine.

Armin who Is Babie gets his done while everyone else is nearly pissing themselves and all he does is wince and honestly it's so cute seeing his face scrunch up in a little pain, Eren sends Armin's s/o that clip and they want to fuck him immediately. Promise to be gentle, get home now.

Berthold's a nervous wreck to the point they keep asking him if he's Sure he wants to do this, yes this is indeed his own choice, no one is forcing him to do this, accidentally moans.

Jean: biggest baby after Reiner, if he wasn't with the rest of the guys he would definitely bolt instead of going through with it. absolutely canNOT look the piercer in the eye at all, before or after. he very loudly yelps when it starts to go through.

(Also probably by himself or with you, because he knows you'd love it and those brats keep going on about "the perks") Levi is stern as ever but you notice him shifting a little on the table and he visibly gulps a little when the sanitary wipe goes over his nipple, actually really nervous he never even got his ears pierced but takes it like a champ.

Mikasa saw Eren's piercings (very easily, so visible through his shirt and also he walks around shirtless so much while it's healing cause he's a pussy too). and decides to get hers done. Fully stoic about it and ends up loving them, fully agrees it makes you hotter.

Sasha was actually the first with pierced nipples and thinks it's so cool that suddenly everyone's joining her, 100 'free the tiddies' gal yet people keep forgetting she has hers done??

- @animeniac-writings (hello lovely! I hope you don't mind, I love talking peircings)

I AM SO OBSESSED WITH YOU RN THANK YOU FOR THE FOOOOOD, EATING ALL THIS UP LIKE ITS GOURMET 🥴😩

Reiner and Jean being babies about it is so endearing you’re so right about everyone!!!

Omfg bertholdt accidentally moaning as the needle goes in??? 😳📸

Omg rip Armin after he gets them done because I’d be obsessively playing with them (after they’ve had a bit of time to heal ofc) he wouldn’t be able to catch a break, is wholly convinced it was either the best or worst decision he ever made cus now his nympho partner can’t keep their paws off his nipples for two seconds hnnn.

S-Sasha and Mikasa with their nips pierced hhhh plssss I- I am not strong enoughhh 😩😩😩 Mika’s so unfazed when getting them but when she notices how much you like them she’s all blushy, especially when you get her all kinds of jewelry for them (OMG LIKE ONE OF THE CHAINS??? I wanna tug on them so bad)

[mcc1334]

Just talking into the void at this point 😅 Anyone, if you see and want to talk, cool, but also feel free to ignore this post, I just need to vent a little.

To no one person in particular... sometimes 8 just cant stand people. I have had my project car for a little over a year and a half now, got it like May 2022. I was told by everyone that they coukd and would help me get it on the road, otherwise I would never have touched something so outside of my ability. Fast forward to now, Ocotber 2023. I have gotten about 2 things done to the car out of the probably like 50 things that need to be done before it is on the road again. About 3 weeks ago I finally got a confirmed "everyone is out" basically so here I am, no help, and an unfinished car. No problem, its all on me, fine. Then its time for everyone to PISS OFF. No advice, no suggestions, no 2 cents, you all had your chance, so get out of the fuckin' way.

I call around, talk to a few shops, find one I feel comfy with that has a guy over 50 who knows about older cars. Not some young 22 year old saying "I can look at your 1967 car!" 🙄 No junior, I am good, I will go with the mechanic who used to work on these when they started in the industry. Tenatively set up an appointment to drop off the car and have them give it a once over and tell me what it will take to be DRIVEABLE. I wanted to take the week and think about a few things and make a list of the issues I knew of with the car before saying a final "yes" to getting it looked at. (There is a post buried on my blog with a little more info on the car if curious. It does have some tags like 1967 dodge etc, I think?)

Anywho, here is where I make my mistake. I start to mention on Monday and Tuesday, in passing, to 2 of the people (the ones who were supposed to help me) about finally making progress with the car and bringing it to a shop. Friday I called and confirmed the appointment, hammer dropped. Car will go there, Tag, you are it, tell me what I need to get it running when I drop it off. Hand clap, I am done. Ahhh, bliss... Now, all weekend, everyone is texting me again offering advice (something I asked for and was basically given 🤷‍♂️ as the answer from everyone before they bowed out) and telling me what shop to bring it to, or "let me call so and so and see if they have any ideas" or "you really should do this BEFORE you get the car running as it could damage the engine if not" 😑😶 . . . Like what the F U C K. SERIOUSLY? 😶 Now, now, NOW is when everyone crawls out of the wood work and wants to second guess things that I had discussed, in detail with them, for them only now to say there is a possible problem with the order of things I was trying to get the work done in?? 😵‍💫🤯🥴 I was basically seething when the last person I clearly told "dont call anyone, I am all set, I do not need to owe anyone any favors or anything. I am good. Dont worry about it" That donkey told me today "oh, I reached out to that guy who doesnt do this any more, that you told me to leave alone, and I told him you asked me to reach out to him to see if he would be interested in helping." Literally do the thing he always tells eveyone he doesnt do anymore cuz it is a pain and he doesnt want to? Wow, thanks... after I told you NOT to? Sweet...

So, yeah, kinda bullshit at everyone who told me they were done with helping but now has all kinds of advice and shit. Piss off, donkeys, I really cant wait to have this beast on the road and just drive by knowing the only thing they all did was slow me down from driving her sooner. And to smash the gas and light up the tires while they sit their with their kids in the family minivans. 🖕🏻

Ok, I am doing ranting into the void. At least for this matter.

Again, not really looking for nor expecting comments or whatever. Just needed to vent

[darby-draws]

Questions for cowboy dogboys: how do the gang handle their liquor, if they drink? Is there a specific cowboy or farm activity that Mutt really enjoys? Does Dorian try to help on the farm? Bonus: could you assign any Orville peck songs to them?

Cowboy Dogboy!!!! Thank youuu.

how do the gang handle their liquor, if they drink? Mutt: Mutt can hold his own, but you can tell when hes hit his limit when he starts getting weepy and nostalgic. Bea: Not sure if she drinks! 🤔 Undecided… But if she does I know she'd be doin just fine keeping up with Mutt. Dorian: one shot of whiskey and he's done for 🥴 oh but its okay he can manage TWO glasses of champagne before hes- whough,,, he's done for 🥴

Is there a specific cowboy or farm activity that Mutt really enjoys? I first imagined this was a sheep farm. So he likes sheep shearing,,, yearly lil seasonal haircut time.. More regularly just likes goin out to feed the animals and spend time with em they're his buddies he's very much a keep to myself all my friends are animals type of guy.

Does Dorian try to help on the farm? I mean, tries,,, maybe. 😳 I think he's gotta in exchange for a place to stay, at first so he does something yeah for sure. Not sure what he'd end up doing nothing sounds appealing to him can't he just lean against the fence and look pretty? It's tough work but someones gotta do it...

Bonus: could you assign any Orville peck songs to them? It took all my courage not to tack my absolute favorite Orville songs to them without actually thinking about it bc they are my favorites, but I did phew. Dorian gets my favorite Orville song anyway after such consideration, sorry baby boyyy.

Mutt - Nothing Fades Like the Light Dorian - Curse of the Blackened Eye Bea - Bronco Extra Bonus: Mutt/Bea - All I Can Say Mutt/Dorian - C'mon Baby Cry

[sleepyheadgallavich]

⛤It's weekly tag Wednesday but I'm late again who's surprised!⛤

tagged by these cuties: @spookygingerr @stocious @deedala @thepupperino @transsexual-dandelions

and @iansw0rld

what is your current hair like? it's currently my natural color, I cut it short after having it long (for me lmao) back in June, and then went even shorter just before I went to Chicago back in August

what is your natural hair like? It's very thick and curly/wavy. It's more obvious when its longer, the back of my head will still curl lol, it's long enough back there

whats your favorite hair style/color you've had? Fav color was always anything I did that was purple, my favorite style is right now! It's like a mullet meets mohawk? Kinda lol. I plan on going even more into the mohawk side on the next trim (I'm low-key obsessed with it so I'll drop a pic in the read more 😌)

What hair style/color do you find most attractive on other people? I don't really care about style too much. Color on the other hand 👀 I'm a slut for a redhead ngl. But also just like, really cool colors, I love when people use their hair to express themselves! 🖤

what's your biggest hair regret? Not doing what I have always wanted sooner. I have gotten so many lovely comments on my hair I'm like bitch you should have done this a long time ago lmao

what's the longest your hair has ever been? I am very overstimulated by my own hair lmao, so it's never been like terribly long, but it was like, mid chest? But I'd always wear it up in a bun, so it wasn't obvious lol

what's the shortest your hair has ever been? I have had many different short haircuts. I tend to always come back to short hair. I think technically what I have now is probably one of the shorter styles. But I actually plan on probably shaving the sides this time instead of short by scissor work. I really love it, and I want it to last longer so I think I'm gonna go clippers over scissors next go!

what’s your go to style when you’re due a hair wash? It's so short that I just use a little dry shampoo, and fluff it around and it's usually fine for another day or so lol.

jump scare below the cut 🥴

Also no tags because I'm v late hehehe

Boystown club fit went hard af just saying 😌

[tabbytiger]

Girlies I am so concern w my brain /rant

TL:DR My psychotic ass is going more crazy than it already was, and also dissociative amnesia needs to get off my dick because Its starting to become a danger.

I’m so glad I wrote down all the details i could remember from that near miss while I still could recall it bc that was yesterday and I can feel it’s already starting to fade away again.

Nobody honking or anything is really throwing me off bc now I’m sitting here like “Did it actually happen or did I make this up or was it a dream that I had?”

Like I’m going to forget it entirely again soon and theres nothing I can do about it.

I should be idk like going thru ptsd or something I quite literally was going to die. But I’m still sitting here feeling fine and normal, and I was fine and normal when it happened too. I don’t feel anything about it and thats really concerning me.

Instead of like being distraught over the near miss instead I cried in my car in a dmv parking lot for literally 4 hours because I was like “Why the fuck am I starting to lose days, weeks, months and even years.”

I’m not quite blacking out in the middle of a day or anything but I am only remembering bits and pieces of a day and I’m recalling things out of order. I’ve always dealt with dissociation but its never been quite this bad.

Also I’m just like. I don’t know what to believe because I have psychosis.

I’ve just been lying in bed with thoughts looping in my mind and it all looks like this:

Do I have Schizophrenia? What if this is a delusion? Maybe I just think I have it but I don’t and its making up false memories or something to go with it. Are all the stuff that I remember going through when I was a child real? Did I make that up too? If I already feel like I didn’t exist the previous days or weeks then how do I know it happened? I see that I typed out all these messages but I really feel disconnected from the person that wrote them even if that was me on that date and time.

I’m forgetting earlier points brought up literally minutes ago in a conversation, and I’m going in and out the whole time so I’m not even hearing the full thing. Its so bad that when before I would misplace like 1 thing and then find it later.

Now its like, me spinning in circles because i keep thinking about doing something while I’m actively doing something else and I’ll forget that I haven’t done what I was thinking of doing and believe that I did it only to run back downstairs because I indeed, did not do it.

Like the number of times I have left for work at 3:30am thinking and REMEMBERING that I actively put my key in, turning the lock, and locking the door, only to come back home 8 hours later to my dad telling me I didn’t lock the door.

My dad has also told me a handful of times before about something I apparently said but I don’t remember saying it in the way that he’s recalling it, and I’ll be like “I don’t remember saying that” and he’ll be like “whats wrong with you, that’s exactly what you said” but I’m suspicious that he’s making stuff up and maybe hes pulling one of his “not funny and hard to tell if he’s serious or not” jokes.

Though I’ve also had instances on VC with friends where I’ll apparently say something and forget that I said it, cuz they’ll be like “thats what you said you literally JUST said it” and I’ll be like “huh?? I don’t remember saying that” except my friends wouldn’t lie to me and try to make me think I did something I don’t remember doing so I’m just like “I can’t trust my own memory 🥴”

I was so distraught driving home I missed the 1st ramp to get on the highway, and I was actively fighting not to dissociate while driving I missed my exit and had to drive over the white lanes back into a lane. How I remembered getting home and getting there is a miracle at this point.

I think its definitely saying something if me almost dying have no effect on me, and when I think about if I had died I’m still apathetic and neutral. And part of that is also because I have been dying so much lately in my dreams (Sometimes I wake up confused because I thought that dream was real and actually happened) that I’m just like.

“Its okay If I did die, It’ll only hurt for a second, and I’ll feel regret, and then grief but then everything will be calm and all that would have happen would be that I just quietly drift off into the nothingness and It’ll be the most peaceful last thing I’ll remember.”

Like this happened recently and I deadass shot up in bed and I was so confused and disoriented I was literally making sure my body was there and that I could feel. Bc I was like “Did I reincarnate?? Did I reincarnate and very soon I’ll forget all of my past life and this is the last thought I’ll ever have of my old self?” but like no bitch its called waking up 🥴😭

[hnychn]

KARASUNO’S MANAGER !!

SYPNOSIS — karasuno’s new manager joins them for the training camp and unexpected events change his life

WARNINGS — there aren’t really any, c-block lev

AUTHOR’S NOTE — once again i am self indulging and simping for kenma through writing ㅠㅠ if only they were real

ngl you were excited for the training camp!

you see, you were the oldest child of six and your parents were hardworking people who struggled to pay for anything really, but always strived to give their children a good life.

so you never really left your little town of Miyagi. and you were fine with it.

on the bus ride, you sad next to asahi hoping to get some sleep since your little twin brothers threw a fit all night when they found out you would be gone for a whole week

and you wanted to 👶🏼🔫❌🔥😡🤬💀

but you didn't 😌

only because your mother would have killed you

so you get there

and whoo wee,

and whoo wee,

it's hOT😳

but not because of the sun

no no

when you exited the bus, rubbing away the sleep that lingered in your eyes and squinting at the bright sun, a flash of blond hair caught your attention

he was much shorter than you, a whole head really

you grew to 6'6 the week before and hinata and noya nearly killed you in envy.

his hair was obviously dyed blond, seeing as his roots were showing, but you liked it 🥰

though his eyes were what caught your attention. big golden irisis stared into your own, a look of caution and hesitation laced in them. they were cold and calculating, but all you felt was a small heat rush up your cheeks the longer you two held eye contact.

you only looked away when kiyoko asked you to carry some of the boys' bags for her, a cold feeling replacing the warmth at previously made home in your chest.

anyways, enough simping 🥴✋🏼

you were carrying many of the boys' bags, so your main focus wasn't really on the cute blond you saw (tragic)

plus this training camp was full of 🤢 men 🤢

more specifically, men who could hurt kiyoko and yachi

who you grew a close relationship with after you stood up for them at the tournament. she even attempted to make you cookies but poor babes burnt them 😭 but you still ate them

like- 🤢 mm 🤢 so- gag - so good 😀

done near gave you food poisoning 😀 but the smile on her face was worth it 🥰

anyways,

you're just trailing behind the girls, carrying all the bags, looking around, when GASP-

WHAT IS THAT!?

dropping the bags, you sprint over a little ways away from the girls where there's a little kitty 🥰

so obviously you pet it 🥰

oblivious to the world around you 🥰 and the pain you were unknowingly causing the second years 🥰

——

"stay away from our managers, city boy," tanaka growled, "you wouldn't want to anger our male manager."

noya nodded in response, an evil glint in his eyes, "he's murdered people! you don't wanna mess with him!"

yamamoto gulped slightly at the revelation. not only did karasuno have two beautiful managers whole nekoma failed to even have one, they also apparently had their own bodyguard.

he was not ignorant to the rumors that spread about their male manager. yamamoto heard about the fight he had gotten into during the small tournament in Miyagi, and he heard how the other guy had to go to the hospital for a broken nose and multiple cuts. he was said to be a giant, nearly seven feet tall and had a killer glare. rumor also had it he was a criminal, having sold drugs in another prefecture and ran to the country side to evaid the cops. yamamoto shivered at the very thought of coming face to face with someone so terrifying.

"he's over there with the girls," tanaka jabbed his thumb behind him, "probably guarding them like a-"

it was silent as all three boys took in the view in front of them. you, crouched down with your head resting on your knees, the curls on your head bobbing with each movement of your head and the crinkles in your eyes scrunching with every smile.

a little kitten lay on its back in front of you, it's paws thrathing about as it played with the chains and bracelets on your wrist, "aren't you a little cutie"

your voice had risen an octave or two.

nishinoya deadpanned, "baby voice. he's talking in a baby voice."

"our scary manager. . ." tsukishima snorted, slapping a hand over his mouth before laughs escaped him, "is playing with a kitten."

you looked up at your team, your eyes still crinckled shut and your smile nearly blinding everyone present, still oblivious to the scene you were creating, "look, yachi-chan! isn't he so cute?"

yachi fisted the fabric of her shirt as she bent down slightly, a flush present on her face, "he's too cute. . ."

so it's safe to say nekoma and the other schools present did not fear you 🧍🏽‍♀️

not what tanaka and noya were going for. . . but okay. . .

so you all went about your days, filling water bottles and handing out towels

and you completely forgot about the blond you saw earlier

until koari, a manager for fukurodani's team, asked you if you could bring out some of the heavier boxes from the storage

something about beating emo bokuto or something 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk

so you go back to the storage and find the box she was looking for

but when you pick it up-

"HOLY SHIT IS THAT A DEAD BODY?!?"

you drop the box on your foot in surprise when you suddenly come face to face with a guy sleeping on the boxes

and fuckkkkk-

😀😀 that shit hurted

the boy jumps awake and literally glares into your soul

and oh!!

it's the cute boy from earlier!

"so-sorry. . . i thought you were a dead body.."

"dead body?" the boy scoffed as he pulled out a nintendo switch from his pocket, "that's stupid."

you flushed at his words, a bit embarrassed you made a fool of yourself in front of a cute boy; but that embarrassment washed away when you heard the familiar sound of animal crossing starting up.

"you play animal crossing too?!" you nearly threw yourself at the boy, temporarily forgetting you were literally the size of a giant, "i love that game, but the spiders always kill me."

you shivered as you thought back to the many times the spiders snuck up on you while picking flowers or cleaning up your island.

kenma didn't respond but watched you from his peripheral vision, your eyes wide with wonder as you looked around his island and made a few comments here and there. your head was nearly resting on his shoulder, and normally, kenma would have pushed you away and hiss about personal space, but it was something about the warmth that you gave off that kept him craving for more.

the two of you sat in the storage for a while, the box kaori needed lay forgotten beside you and the hues of sunlight filtering through the small barred window near the top of the storage room.

this is peaceful, kenma thought, i like it-

a sudden weight on his shoulder brought kenma's attention to you, only for the warmth he felt in his chest to flare up and flames of warmth crawled up his neck and burned his cheeks.

you were asleep on his shoulder, soft snores escaped your mouth and your curls fell perfectly over your eyes. the lack of sleep from the night before finally caught up to you and claimed you as theirs.

the soft background music that came from kenma's switch drowned out to white noise the longer he stared at your sleeping face. occasionally, your nose would twitch and your mouth would part and drool slightly leaked out, but kenma couldn't find it in himself to be repulsed by it. it was endearing to him, really.

kenma wasn't sure what the feeling building in his chest was, and despite it being foreign and unknown, he didn't fear it - he welcomed it; craved it, even.

creep, kenma chided himself, you're being creepy. stop staring. and he did, only occasionally looking back at your face when you shifted or let out a weird noise.

kenma smiled, how to describe this feeling?

when you woke up you realised kenma had fallen asleep too and you just 🧍🏽‍♀️

what. . .WHAT DO I DO?! 🤡😀🧍🏽‍♀️

so you just sat there like a stiff board for a bit before realising it was night time

and your teams were probably worried

so you sucked it up and picked up kenma

aND NEARLY DROPPED HIM

WHEN HE CUDDLED INTO YOUR JACKET

LIKE DJJKDKS PLEASE STOP MY HEART 😩🥰😀😳✋🏼

you brought him to where nekoma was staying, and it was kinda awkward having to explain to kuroo what happened and why you were carrying their precious setter

yamamoto thought you killed him and just- 🤬❌😡🔥😤

"uh, no. he fell asleep in the storage room."

after that day, the two of you became close !!

which didn't go unnoticed by your teammates

kuroo kept noticing how kenma would stare at you when you walked into the gym with water bottles

and daichi noticed how you always tried to be the one who gave kenma a water bottle or towel

so the two capitains were like. . .

🧍🏽‍♀️🔫 please

because FUCK HOW??

THE TWO OF YOU ARE SO QUIET AND SUCH INTORVERTS PLEASE-

but they were determined to get you two together and came together to devise a plan 🥴

they would try to get the two of you alone, so you can have another moment and hopefully confess, while they would stirr up your feelings

like, "kenma's looking real cute today in that jersey, huh?"

"look at y/n, kenma! doesn't he look so cute in that sweater?"

"i bet you wish you were that water bottle, don't you, y/n?" nudge nudge

"oh to be one of y/n's chokers 😩 right kenma?"

iTS FULL PROOF 🤪🤪

until it wasn't.

you see

fUCKING LEV MAN

HES SO PRECIOUS BUT FUCKING LEV

when he first saw you he was so amazed by how tall you were, especially considering he's never met someone as tall as him or taller before,

so he just wanted to be your friend 👉🏼👈🏼

bUT HE WAS BEING SUCH A COCKBLOCK

whenever you and kenma were alone and it looked like one of you was gonna confess-

BOOM THERE'S LEV

when the two of you are sitting off to the side talking during a break,

🧍🏽‍♀️L E V 🧍🏽‍♀️

yaku has never wanted to murder that kid more 😡❌🔥🤬

it seemed like the two of you were getting a bit annoyed he kept interrupting too, but you never had it in your heart to tell him off

he is literally like a giant puppy dog please-

but kenma is another story

my guy would be throwing the meanest glares at this kid like-

i'm gonna kill him. i'm gonna kill him. i'm gonna kill him. i'm gonna kill him. i'm gonna kill him. i'm gonna kill him. i'm gonna kill him.

and one day, he just snaps 😀

like lev is walking up to the two of you while you were out back sitting on the hill despite how H O T it was, because ✨alone time✨

kenma sees him and just-

"nO- NO GO AWAY LEV! I SWEAR IF YOU TAKE ANOTHER STEP CLOSER I'M GOING TO SAW YOUR LEGS OFF AND USE THEM AS STILTS! I'M TRYING TOR CONFESS TO Y/N BUT I CANT DO THAT IF YOU KEEP INTERRUPTING-"

while he's telling you're just sitting there like. . .

huh. . .wait a minute. . .WAIT A MINUTE-

WHATDIDHESAY????

😀 my feelings are returned??? 😀

so you, being the bad bitch that you are,

you kissed him 🥰

kenma's gasped, his screaming suddenly silenced and his eyes wide as he processed what was happening. lev also stared in shock, slowly backing back into the gym, closing the door behind him to give you two privacy; not that it stopped the others from watching from the windows.

your eyes were closed shut, big hands cupping his small face as you kissed him. your lips were soft, kenma realised, and he wished this moment could last forever.

before he could kiss back, you pulled away. a little frown pulled on your lips when you realised he didn't kiss back and you hoped you hadn't made him uncomfortable. he still stared up at you with big golden eyes, widened in shock; unmoving.

you rubbed at the back of your neck, looking off to the side with an embarrassed flush on your face, "sorry, i thought you-"

it was all so quick. kenma grabbed you by the collar of your shirt, your chains rattling loudly. he pulled you down to him with much more force than you anticipated, the two of you falling to the ground behind him, your forearms holding you up beside kenma's head.

your eyes were blurry with the sudden movements and you worried you crushed kenma with your sudden weight, but before you could ask him if he was alright, he crashed his lips onto yours.

it was messy and uncoordinated, teeth clashing unceremoniously and you were sure he had bitten your tongue at one point; but it was addictive. the taste of him invaded your senses and destroyed every relational part of your body that told you to stop. you didn't listen.

no matter how high the flames in your lungs grew from the lack of oxygen; you didn't stop. no matter how loud the cheering and whooping from the gym got; you didn't stop. it was only when you could feel kenma tug at the buttons of your shirt, nearly ripping a few off, did you stop; even then, you had to force yourself to.

the two of you pulled apart, a wreck of gasping for breath and puffy lips. you pulled your hand out from beneath his jersey. when you put it there, you didn't know, nor did you really care; the feeling of his soft skin engraved into your hand like a branding iron.

it was then, in that moment, could kenma explain what the emotion growing higher and higher like uncontrolled flames in his chest was:

love.

so yeah 🤪

you got a boyfriend now 🤪

and ugh the two of you are so cute like bro-

THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE

LIKE A WHOLE HEAD-

your sweaters swallow kenma up, but he wouldn't have it any other way 🥴

sometimes after school or on the weekends, you'll take the commute to Tokyo just to see kenma

cough simp cough

it's okay me too

and you'll just let him sit on your lap and lay your head on-top of his while he plays video games-

UGH STOP IM TOO SINGLE FOR THIS

y'all play mincraft together too 🥺

you're a pretty good builder so you'll be the one to build the houses and stuff while he mines and protects you 🥺

he killed your cat once and you nearly cried pls-

everyone is so disgusted by how cute you are like- 🤢 stop. i'm gonna be sick

but god forbid someone messes with him -

not only do they have to face literally all of the nekoma vbc, but they also have to face YOU

a 6'6 still growing guy, wHO LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE HE WOULD BE A CRIMINAL ON CRIMINAL MINDS-

so yeah 😌 no one's messing with your baby 😌

or so you thought . . .

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[ystk-archive]

We always look forward to your thoughts about each and every Nakata album release, and we know that we've seen the partiality of them about PLASMA (album) here. I guess you may take the floor and share to us your overall or detailed thoughts about the album. Either way is fine. :)

I don't generally enjoy talking about Perfume releases because their audience is touchy (there was some minor attempted drama last month because of my commentary on Spinning World? or something? lmao idek anymore) but since you asked and since I apparently love attention... 🥴

The singles for this era were very heavily J-pop, moreso than they've done in the past, and having not read any press for any of those releases I don't know their explanation for the shift in style (if they provided one). It's a strong appeal towards mainstream tastes; on PLASMA they're safer than they've ever been as a pop group and they were already very safe to begin with. These singles naturally led to a very poppy album with no big dance track moment and also little new content to pick from: most of the Polygon Wave EP being dropped unceremoniously onto this is a bit of a slight. Granted it provides much-needed balance against things like Saisei and Sayonara Plastic World, but that just gives the impression that there could've been a Polygon Wave LP (full-length album) that got cut down into an EP -- they did say in late 2020-ish Nakata made all the songs that eventually were the EP + meager new offerings on PLASMA. I'm splitting hairs about this basically because I would prefer an album made from scratch (this will never happen with them tho) but I also think their fans would rather hear fresher material with an album. And also in this industry you don't, like, release a mini-album and then put those songs on an album later lmao...

Bear in mind I'm not saying they had no J-pop in their sound at all -- the core of this group is a balance between elements that are palatable to a non-electronic-music-listening audience and elements that are not. I just think they've swung harder in one particular direction this time than they have before. Nobody really discussed the fact that Polygon Wave was presented with an entire chunk missing as its de facto, public-facing incarnation; what a huge contrast from Polyrhythm which has an almost completely forgotten "extra short edit" and a fun #inspirational story about how Nakata went to Tokuma HQ and lobbied for them to not excise his CD-skip-esque polyloop bridge… It's just weird for me lol.

But yeah anyway, the track order here is more up-and-down that their usual as a consequence of the contrast. PLASMA (intro) is somber and ~mysterious~ and sets the stage for… Time Warp? Lmao this is why it's not really worth talking about J-pop albums in a serious context, they're just not planned and created as standalone works 90% of the time, they're always functionally singles compilations with bonus material and serve as a basis for a live tour… He knows this and he's talked about it plenty and I think he tried here to tie things together and even it out, but he can't just leave off A-sides like Saisei, Flow, and Time Warp that completely break the mood (and genre). What I'm left asking myself is if this was always such a glaring issue in their albums or if it's more pronounced here because they serve me stock-standard idol-y Saisei and then go back to their normal selves in the following track. Like I love GAME to death but does it hold up as an album? Or was it just the new songs that made it so incredible?

(Someone's going to say "well this just shows they can do a diverse range of styles," like yea I guess, but they did it before in a way that wasn't so…glaring. Like Nakata could've just sold Time Warp, Saisei, and Plastic World to any run-of-the-mill J-pop act. I think the only other song in their discography that's similar is Puppy love, and that was cute and fine as a feel-good album cap, but…)

At this point I probably sound like I hate PLASMA and I don't, it's just not an album to me. It feels as if nothing was released at all: the intro is two minutes of unremarkable ambience, Time Warp has barely audible modifications, Mawaru Kagami appears here in an inferior (though more album-oriented) form. Drive'n The Rain is clearly the only standout album-specific track, but that's…one song. I disqualified Spinning for being pre-release but I could be nice and say it and Drive'n are good. (I don't want to talk about Hatenabito. It isn't worth the words and it shouldn't have been released. Lol.)

However I am entertained by stuff like Spinning World and Drive'n for the self-indulgence of it all production-wise. (I'd praise Saisei for the same but no amount of sleek music producing can counteract the sheer corniness.) They're also different and mature in a way that feels "right" for them. But it'd be nice if they could someday overcome their lifelong intimidation and actually work with Nakata on their music or, better yet, do what should've been done many years ago and threaten their company to allow them to work with other music producers… I don't understand why they're permitted concert-only pieces by other people but can't canonize this music in release format. I actually really enjoyed this performance at their little tech demo showcase with music done by Kurotaki Setsuya. I don't think they're gaining much from having that "exclusively produced by Nakata Yasutaka" aspect in their marketing. And there are only so many things one person can draw with the materials provided, though he's done well with a sort of return to form with Polygon Wave.

But uh, I suppose it's fairly cohesive despite the whiplash track order. Future Pop was pretty cohesive too though, and we all know how their fanbase largely thinks of that album... For people who really get into saccharine J-pop melodies but also enjoy the quirky robo-chic that is (was?) this group's bread & butter this is probably a great album. I don't know! The poll results were pretty funny because the cornball bloc of songs ranked the worst, but I'm also aware that there are about ~5 people who still regularly check this blog and their preferences in his music may align with mine and skew the results. Elsewhere I've seen overall praise for it. I guess I generally agree that it's a step in a better direction for them; I am still left craving dance music and the small challenging components of Perfume that made them so fresh and interesting 10-15 years ago.

[zread]

You wanted to see Z in a bunny outfit, 🔞🐰

So today is the day before Easter, if ur reading this on the day before Easter it’s currently Apr. 16 Saturday, which means tomorrow is Easter, on Sunday,

wanna see what u and 4*town members are doing for Easter tomorrow lets take a look

You and 4*town are just sitting on the couch just watching tv, until Robaire say,

Robaire: “what are we going to do today Any suggestions?”

Jesse: “no not rlly”

Aaron T: “nope”

Tae young: “um”

Aaron Z crosses his arms while on his phone while sitting next to you.

Y/n: “you know what would be the cutest thing?”

Aaron T: “what?”

Y/n: “Z in a bunny outfit”

Bruh just imagine how cute that would be picture it in ur head.

Aaron Z looks up at you with a certain look on his face.

Y/n: “come on babe you would look adorable”

Aaron didn’t like the sound of it until he said this.

Aaron Z: “fine😒”

He kind of blushed a little bit, he thought it would be embarrassing to see is girlfriend looking at him in a bunny outfit.

He puts it on and u teased him a bit.

Y/n: “aww, you’re such a cute bunny man~”

His face was turning red just a little, awwww our shy athletic boy, imagine seeing him in a bunny suit 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭❤️

Aaron Z: “y-you like seeing me wear this?”

Y/n: “you’re the cutest why do u think I picked you to wear this?, You’re my boyfriend i have to support you somehow”

Aaron Z: “i love you bbg~”

Y/n: “i love you more bby~”

But then Z explains why u cant let tae see him in that outfit you know his favorite holiday is Easter, one time he hid colorful eggs around the apartment, and ppl were complaining about that.

Tae thinks hes the easter bunny.

Anyways u show Robaire, Jesse and Aaron T.

Robaire: “aww bro u look so cute in that outfit”

Jesse: “normally I wouldn’t say anything, but that’s cute”

Aaron T: “yup thats my brother, he makes a cute Easter bunny”

Y/n: “T, you did not just say that😨 Z! Hide”

You kiss him before he hides from tae he loves the Easter bunny hes like a man child and u love it 😂❤️.

Tae young: “ Easter bunny? Where?”

Y/n: “uh tae theres no Easter bunny”

Tae young: “but someone said Easter bunny”

Y/n: “oh idk i dont think hes here”

You tell Z, who’s hiding behind the couch not to hop out from behind the couch. Tae asked you who’s behind there.

Tae young: “y/n?, who’s behind the couch?”

Y/n: “huh? Who are you talking about?”

Z accidentally hops out from behind the couch and tae is surprised.

Tae young: *gasp* *whispers* “its the Easter bunny”

Y/n: *whispers* “i-“

Tae young: “Easter bunny?!”

Y/n: “tae thats not the easter bunny, thats Z”

Tae young: “what?!”

Aaron Z: “uhh- yeah im the easter bunny heh”

Tae young: “yay! Can we go hide eggs?”

Aaron Z: “i- ok im done wearing this im not wearing this anymore”

Y/n: “but babe i-“

Z grabs your cute squishy face with one hand and say this to you

Aaron Z: “is this what you wanted bbg To tease me like that~”

You blushed so hard and realized u fucked up for this 🥴🫠

Aaron Z: *whispers* “I’ll have to punish you later~”

He kisses you cheek slow and soft your face is red. And tae gets upset so he wanted to wear the bunny outfit Z hands it to him.

Tae young: “yay! Imma be the easter bunny i’ll go change”

Tae went to go change while Z and you are making out- until tae got back with the bunny outfit u try to look but. Z turned your head back towards him so he can keep kissing you.

Tae young: “im going to go hide some colorful eggs outside byee”

Hours later You and Z are still making out just a little bit.

Tae comes back panting 😮‍💨

Tae young: *panting for air *

You are sitting right next to Aaron Z on the couch and, he has his arm wrapped around your waist.

Aaron Z: “what the hell happened to you?”

Tae young: *panting for air* “I got *pant* chased by wolves”

Y/n: “i think you should stay here for now”

Tae young: “but- my eggs😔”

Y/n: “tae, look, little bro- i love you staying here with us is safer ok?”

You tell him everything is going to be ok and that you dont want nothing to happen to him u give him an egg with something inside of it,

Tae young: “ooh whats this?”

Y/n: “its and egg and it has something is inside of it”

Tae young: “really?! What?”

Y/n: “open it and find out”

Tae opens it and finds jelly beans

Tae young: “ooooh jelly beans! Yummy!”

Tae young’s dove 🕊 fly to him.

Tae young: “whats the matter buddy?…..your sibling is hurt?……ok im on the way”

Also Tae young: “ok guys i gotta go, my dove is injured”

Robaire: “ok bro see ya later”

Tae went in his room and Aaron Z looked at you and u remembered what was going to happen, so he picks u up over his shoulder, and carries you to his room and shuts the door- you know what was going to happen, you had the best Easter gift you could ever ask for.

Sorry it was so short i was sitting in the bathroom on the toilet and I thought of this story it just came up in my head so i had to write it for y’all. Hope y’all enjoyed!^^

[iu-jjang]

[TRANS] 210623 IU replies to fans’ comments on Fancafe (part 2)

Q. Unnie, what books have you reading nowadays??🥺

IU: It’s been a while since I last read a book 🥺🥺

Q. Did you write any lyrics or songs when you were filming Broker too?

IU: I have one which I’ve only written its melody but it seems to be really good!

Q. Unnie, do you still have a strong urge to cut your hair short!!!?

IU: No, I seem to find long hair quite pretty these days.. ☺️

Q. What food do you crave for the most right now? :)

IU: I had soft tofu stew just now

Q. I can’t even open my eyes when I watch clips of reporters bursting all the camera flashes. Jieun unnie, are you fine with it? ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 😭

IU: When you face it in real life, it doesn’t flash as much as what you see from the screen

Q. Write memos in your phone vs write an entry in your diary

IU: I do both these days!

Q. Unnie, you like (wearing) overalls these days, right..? Of course I like it too 🐥 Unnie looks adorable in overalls ..

IU: I also find overalls comfortable and nice since young 🥰

Q. Can you share one TMI of the day? 🙂

IU: I knew I’d make soft tofu stew

Q. We love you so much. I think the amount of tears that I’m shedding now proves how much I miss you.

IU: Please don’t cry, it’s important to stay hydrated during summer...😢😢

Q. Unnie, lil spoiler for this year’s schedule plz 😢

IU: What do you want!!

Q.

*Picture of the fancafe From.IU notification /Writing on a day that isn’t any special] is “hot”/*

IU: So this is a hot (popular) place~~~~~

Q. I’m so happy because unnie sounds excited…💜 hehe I’m out shopping with my mom right now and I met unnie just now >_< kkkk Today is the best ㅠㅠ

*Picture of an IU Jestina poster at a shopping mall*

IU: Oh, it’s a picture that I like 🐥

Q. Hey unnie.. You didn’t get sick from the heat the time you took the June birthday clip right?? You looked super exhausted 😢 (Please don’t fall sick!!!!!) + and I’ve always wondered kkk who decides on the filter for the UAENA birthday content?! 🐣

IU: I was kind of exhausted from the heat that day. It was really hot and I filmed in the grassland for the whole day kkkk As for the filter, it’s always (chosen) by me… 🥰

Q. Jieun-ah, Lilac album has been topping the album chart for 17 weeks now. *It’s the second album to top charts for this long. Congrats on this amazing album. Love you 🤍

IU: 🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥🐥💜

*t/n: Translation may be inaccurate as the original Korean sentence has grammatical errors.

Q. I miss you. You’ve worked hard all this time. Please have a good rest once you’re done with your schedule.

IU: 🥰 Thank you

Q. IU nim!!! Please recommend a movie by director Hirokazu Koreeda^^

IU: I like ‘After Life’ the best!!

Q. Is there a reason for making Lilac the first track (on the album)??

IU: To make everyone feel good starting from the first track 🐥🐥

Q. Unnie, might as well change your profile pic while you’re in here! 🥴👀🐥

IU: It’s not something for me to change though-

Fan: Uuhh I mean the picture in the round icon that appears when you leave a comment, not the cafe’s picture 🤭

Q. Ah unnie.. I’ve waited so much for unnie’s survival report but why did you appear when I had to attend a meeting?? I was wondering when unnie would appear yesterday too ㅜㅠㅠㅠ

IU: Ooh~~~ A meeting~~~~ an *adult huh~~~~

(*written in teasing manner)

Q. Though it’s not like I have any lingering attachments! But between us! When you leave...say goodbye before you go!!! 😮

IU: I’m not leaving though 😃

*t/n: The fan was probably referring to the comment section (telling IU to say goodbye before she stops replying)

Q. Can we start looking forward to YouTube fanfood (update) now?!

IU: I’m sorry, I didn’t manage to shoot even a single YouTube clip when I was filming (the movie)..— In early July (I’ve decided to give up on about one day of my rest time!!!) and shoot (the content). If we take into account the time needed to edit the video too, I’m guessing that it’ll be delivered to UAENA around mid-July 🥺

Source: https://m.cafe.daum.net/IU/LqmI/192?svc=cafeapp

Translated by IUteamstarcandy

[toutallyahoe]

Also I'm sorry for not interacting with you that much </3. I honeslty just kinda of forgot about Tumblr, idk how but I just did lmao. But yeah, love your navigation and stuff and I'm literally so excited for when you finish the show. I just love your writing style sm, everything is so well described and so easy to read and imagine, I'm just literally so in love

I'm not sure if you've answered this before so I'm sorry if you have but who's your favourite character?

- 🐇

its fine bunny, things happy and before i became more online here in tumblr, i literally just come and go. old gremlins know how i just randomly disappear to a few days to full months and then just pop right back in lmao

and aww, youre too sweet and precious bunny! im happy to hear you enjoyed my writing 💙💙💙

gosh, you just came back and now your making me soft for you. this is unfair. such a wholesome darling we have one here in a sea of horny 🥺🥺💙💙💙

but anyways, i actually like sang-woo a lot. he may be a bastard boi who broke all our hearts from the shit he done, but he is just an interesting character. and also he is fucking hot 🥴🥴

[pumpumdemsugah]

how did you get an adhd diagnosis as an adult? i tried to tell my counselor in college but she said i was probably just anxious and depressed (i think she thought i wanted amphetamines). i have a new counselor who asked me after a few visits if i had adhd and i said i think so! but ive been treated so cautiously whenever i bring it up to a professional. i had been seeing your posts about it and i relate, especially with avoiding confrontation due to the blind rage thing 🥴

hii

well im in the UK so i don’t know if this will apply to where you are

The NHS doesn’t take adult assessments for ADHD seriously so it can take a really long time when you finally get your GP to even refer you and my GP was basically like if it wasn’t picked up as a child you don’t have it so i used a service that works with the NHS called psychiatry-UK which i had to pay for

The service is fully online and everything is done through emails and video calls and mail so its fairly quick. You  just have to remember to fill out the forms they send you in time before the appointment. I had my appointment booked for like a week later but didn’t see the forms attached : )) so waited another week on top that. Then 2 weeks later they send out the written prescription and you can go to a pharmacy to pick it up. But because its a controlled medication and in my case the meds were 20mg for 7 days, 30mg for 7 days and 40mg for 14 days, most pharmacies didn’t have it and said they could order in so make sure to call ahead to find out if they have what you need. I went Tesco pharmacy and they had 20mg so i got the 7 days worth and they ordered in the rest for me to pick up in a week and that’s probably what might end up happening be it if you’re in the UK or not. I’d imagine if someone is outside London it might be harder but i phoned 5 places and went to a few different pharmacies before i remembered Tesco has one

If you’re in America ( which i just assume everyone is unless i know or they say) this advice won’t be applicable to you but i have seen lots of videos on youtube by people with ADHD that got their diagnosis in uni. From what i saw you do have some sort of entitlement for the student services to help you. It might be worth looking for the assessment questionnaires they use to help do an ADHD assessment to see if any of it describes you and have a glance at what the law says and ADHD can be a classified as a disability under circrumstances . The symptoms can be so varied among people you might not have the language to describe it properly 

Lool the blind rage thing makes me look fully mad so i try to avoid it as much as possible so people tend to think i never get mad and fine it hard to imagine what im like angry, nahh im avoiding situations that will make me look crazy because when i start yelling and punching people up loool.  ive not been angry like that since i was a teen and had my older brothers pin me down until i stopped but those were rare and i don’t even remember what got me mad. As an adult i know i can just avoid that so i do and adults are a bit better at emotional regulation than teens 

But there’s more resources if you’re in university ( US or otherwise) to get an assessment 

Maybe someone that got dx in uni outside the UK can help

Good Luck : )))