BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM
Alex Albon x Horner!Reader
Summary: Max Verstappen and Sebastian Vettel may be Christian's favorites. But Y/N Horner has her own favorites.
The Tortured Drivers' Department series
A/N: one of my favorite tracks and i hope i could give it justice. let me know what you folks think
Taglist. @tea-bobba @boiohboii @c-losur3 @haikyuen @stelena-klayley @stinkyjax @0710khj @jinimon-tr
I'll tell you something right now you ain't gotta pray for me
Me and my wild boy and all of this wild joy
LittleMissY/N what a fun winter break bonding before the 2019 season starts. aren't we cute #GiveYouButterflyWings
PierreGasly the disrespect, my face is cut off after taking so many photos of you!!!
LittleMissY/N sorry not sorry
PierreGasly Seb is also upset that you didn't even include him in that photo.
LittleMissY/N tell the man to make an ig first.
MaxVerstappen33 why did the rookie get a solo shot before I did???
LittleMissY/N don't be jealous maxie, atleast you're still in the family mantle
MaxVerstappen33 you are not slick Y/N tsk, im telling your dad
LittleMissY/N respectfully, fuck off!
Alex_Albon it was nice meeting you Y/N!
LittleMissY/N its so good to meet you too alex :)))
PierreGasly suspicious behavior!
User3 enjoy your time out there with the boys!
User5 anyone notices how Y/N is literally teasing everyone and then when it comes to alex she seems shy
User7 I smell a crushhhh
User9 be for real, maybe its because alex is a rookie and Y/N didn't bond well with him yet.
LittleMissY/N dad took me to work and not bad for a rookie!
ChristianHorner I'm not taking you to work again
LittleMissY/N don't you miss me?? i thought you missed me
ChristianHorner not anymore
LittleMissY/N too bad, im applying for a job in f1
PierreGasly are you even watching the race??
LittleMissY/N yeah, you missed the points lmao!
PierreGasly i hate you
Alex_Albon not a really good start for me but I'll try better next time!
LittleMissY/N dont stress, you have plenty more opportunities to do well! I'll see you next GP?
Alex_Albon of course, I mean I'm being paid to drive that car hahaha
LittleMissY/N you're funny
PierreGasly are you seeing this MaxVerstappen33
MaxVerstappen33 im dying out of laughter
LittleMissY/N I'm gonna pay your mechanics to miss out a few screws
User5 she is so pretty!!! how come she is christian's daughter?
User7 I met her during FP1 and girlie is so in love with a driver
User8 i think we know why Y/N is coming around the races.
Alex_Albon happy to get some points for today! My first in my rookie year!
User2 Amazing job today Alex
User3 Alex Albon, you make us all proud!!!
LittleMissY/N GET IN THERE ALEX!!!!! BLOODY AMAZING!!! SUPERB DRIVE!!!
Alex_Albon thanks Y/N, i can hear you shouting from Red Bull to Toro Rosso
LittleMissY/N this is amazing news and everyone has to hear it!!!!!
User5 alex and Y/N are so cuteeee!!! Y/N is so excited for Alex's first points
User7 anyone else ships Y/N and Alex??
F1Fans OOF! Albon suffers a big crash during the practice session in Shanghai. Do we think choosing Albon is the right choice for this season?
User1 nasty crash, too bad that he will be missing qualifying.
User2 c'mon be a little more lenient to the guy, shanghai is a difficult track
User3 should be sacked tbh
User4 why are they allowing albon to drive? he isn't that good.
LittleMissY/N oh get over yourself. i bet you can't even drive an f1 car even if you tried. Drivers crash every now and then, Alex Albon is a fantastic driver that's why Toro Rosso got him. This is just a bad weekend for him but I'm sure he will bounce back for the actual race.
User7 my surprise when I realize that its actually Y/N Horner defending Alex Albon's honor
User8 we love Y/N in this household.
User9 praying for a better race results for Alex
PierreGasly posted a story...
LittleMissY/N replied: HOW DARE YOUUU???? WHO IS THAT RAT???
LittleMissY/N but tbh thats a genuine reaction. imagine starting from p20 and ending up into p10???
LittleMissY/N OH PIERRE QUIT IGNORING ME!
LittleMissY/N i hate you so much
Alex_Albon replied: oh no, what happened to her??
PierreGasly your biggest fan has a bit of a teary moments. She is currently filling up my DMs with how much of an amazing driver you are
Alex_Albon that's really nice of Y/N
MaxVerstappen33 replied: man Y/N is down bad
PierreGasly i knowwww
MaxVerstappen33 christian just walked in to ask if Y/N has a crush on Alex
PierreGasly its so obvioussss
MaxVerstappen33 well except for alex lol
GeorgeRussell63 with my best mate Alex_Albon !!
LittleMissY/N Well hello there georgie
GeorgeRussell63 hello miss Y/N Horner, what are you doing around here??
LittleMissY/N just saw you tag alex and figured i should say hi to his bestie
GeorgeRussell63 im watching you
LittleMissY/N ditto :))
Alex_Albon we look good there!
LittleMissY/N you look extremely handsome there Alex
MaxVerstappen33 simppppp
LittleMissY/N im gonna crash your car
User5 another bestfriends making it to formula 1 together
User7 its so funny how Y/N shows up in any tagged photos of alex, miss maam you are whippedt!!!
LittleMissY/N I'm off to crash anyone who crashes him in the next race. Mark my words!!!!!!!! Still a great drive from AA, my favorite driver <3
Alex_Albon thanks so much for the support Y/N. No need to crash to anyone
LittleMissY/N okay but my offer will always stand
PierreGasly you are sooooo down bad
LittleMissY/N I'm going to put you down
User6 is Y/N, Alex's girlfriend.
User7 i think she likes him and alex is so oblivious
User9 yeah, Y/N likes alex so much
LittleMissY/N shut it.
User11 i just love how supportive she is with alex being a rookie and all
ROOKIE ALBON DEFENDS Y/N HORNER.
In a recent interview, someone made a mistake of putting Y/N Horner in a bad light. Not to worry because Toro Rosso driver, Alex Albon is there to rescue. The whole thing starts with a simple question of what does Y/N contributes to the team to which Albon answers that Y/N is the social media manager. The interviewer made the mistake of commenting how anyone could do that job. This statement seems to anger the rookie as he defends her by listing down her educational achievements and how her role is important to the team. Albon refused to answer any question with that reporter and Christian Horner has placed an indefinite ban for his drivers to speak with the reporter.
LittleMissY/N when he defends you:
PierreGasly i would have hit that reporter's face if i was there
LittleMissY/N awww pierre, i knew you always had a soft spot for me.
PierreGasly only we (max, seb, danny, and me) can make fun of you
MaxVerstappen33 facts!
LittleMissY/N good to know
User4 red bull boys lining up to protect their princess
User5 i swear, aren't they together yet???
GeorgeRussell63 when did i consent being posted as a meme???
LittleMissY/N since you became my new bestieeeee
GeorgeRussell63 i also don't recall consenting to that
LittleMissY/N its only a matter of time before you accept it.
LittleMissY/N gonna miss you so much pierreeeeeee anw time to transfer to red bull
User4 not the black and white photo
User5 its so weird to swap teammates in the middle of the season
PierreGasly dumbass.
LittleMissY/N I'll continue cheering you on always
PierreGasly aren't you the sweetest?
LittleMissY/N this is available for a limited time only
Alex_Albon thanks for the welcome again to RB maxverstappen33 LittleMissY/N
PierreGasly hey i gave you my seat, a little thank u would be great
Alex_Albon thank you Pierre
LittleMissY/N stop fighting alex, he is so kind
PierreGasly oh c'mon!!!!
MaxVerstappen33 mate, Y/N will always drop us for Alex. Dont forget that
LittleMissY/N smartest person as ever Max
Alex_Albon the car is feeling really good for my first race in Red Bull. Good race from p14 to p5!
LittleMissY/N PROUD OF YOU ALEX!!! THAT WAS AN AMAZING DRIVE
User1 i swear Y/N you have notifs on for alex
Alex_Albon thank you Y/N!!!
User3 Alex really deserves to be moved up with that RB seat
User4 RB proving themselves to be a big challenge to Mercedes this year
User5 sucks that max dnf this race, just imagine the next race where they can be stronger!!!!
LittleMissY/N i hate corona so much but im facetiming my bestfriend Alex and life seems a little bit better. Stay safe everyone
PierreGasly my beSTfrIend Alex
LittleMissY/N go to hell Pierre
PierreGasly lolololollllll whippedt culture
User5 im pretty sure you miss the races as much as we do
LittleMissY/N for real but we have to make sure that its safe to race again
User5 queen Y/N!
User8 i love their little livestream on twitch every now and then. Its the best thing to pass time
User10 love you queen Y/N
LittleMissY/N BACK TO RACING AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
Alex_Albon quite excited to support us again?
LittleMissY/N of course, im red bull's biggest fan!
MaxVerstappen33 red bull fan or alex albon fan?
LittleMissY/N its good for you to know your place luv
User7 ITS RACE WEEKEND!!!
User8 look at them wearing masks, you should all do that too
User9 i cant tell you how much i missed races
F1Fans ICYMI, Checo Perez is getting that second Red Bull seat in 2021.
User1 wow checo??? congrats man!
User2 what about alex???
User3 im pretty sure a certain Horner is not happy with the decision
User4 Im actually waiting for her reaction
LittleMissY/N AND THIS IS HOW I WILL FIND OUT????
LittleMissY/N you broke this family apart ChristianHorner
LittleMissY/N BUT WHY????
User7 Y/N is just like us for real
User8 good riddance for albon, max needs a better teammate
User10 the only reason why albon has this seat is because Y/N Horner likes him a lot.
LittleMissY/N everything that alex does is based on his pure talent. My dad won't even let me into meetings that's why im just as surprised as everyone regarding this decision. and fyi im gonna send this to my lawyers.
User9 don't play with Y/N when it comes to alex.
LittleMissY/N Grill the grid episode, the one where I made them cook for my birthday
ChristianHorner happy birthday dear
User1 happy birthday to our queen, i hope lando made something edible for you!
User3 look at Y/N's birthday full of red bull current, former, and reserve drivers
PierreGasly sorry I couldn't make it but happy birthday to my soul sister
MaxVerstappen1 hoping for more birthdays for you Y/N
Schecoperez happy birthday hermana!
CarlosSainz55 Happy birthday little miss Y/N
Alex_Albon Happy birthday Y/N, hope you like your birthday!
LittleMissY/N thanks alex <3
User4 everyone been commenting on her post but she only responded to alex
User9 girlie u r so whipped!!!
GeorgeRussell63 I wish you can get a seat next year mate
User5 i know, i think alex is wasting his potential being red bull's reserve driver
User7 right?? checo's chemistry with max is really good and i dont think christian will sacrifice that
User8 i just want a decent team for alex
LittleMissY/N Are you cooking something georgie?
GeorgeRussell63 that depends, are you helping?
LittleMissY/N for our common friend, absolutely
User9 now what does this mean????
User10 anyone wanna tell me what's george and y/n conspiring together???
F1Fans No news about Albon's contract in 2022 and today we have seen Albon talking with Christian. It doesn't seem like its about contract renewal.
User2 anyone wanna bet that Christian is talking to Alex about Y/N
User3 what is going on, where will Alex be in 2022
User4 if alex switches teams then would Y/N switch too?
User5 i mean she already did it with toro rosso and red bull
User6 but this is like the same group. What if Albon goes to Mercedes or McLaren, would Y/N join there too??
User7 blood is thicker than water everyone
User5 i dont think yall understand how much of a simp Y/N is that she can go anywhere Alex goes.
User9 i just want alex to be in an f1 seat in 2022.
LittleMissY/N new hair, new color!
MaxVerstappen1 booooooooo!!! navy blue supremacy
LittleMissY/N i won't be taking any fashion advice from the man who literally wears only Red Bull merch.
MaxVerstappen1 hey once upon a time you were always wearing our team merch especially when its no. 23
LittleMissY/N have fun crashing in the next race.
WilliamsRacing we like the color! Suits you!
User1 what is going onnnnn
User2 i think alex is transferring to williams
RedBullRacing im watching you
RedBullRacing we miss you queen!
LittleMissY/N aww, miss you!
WilliamsRacing Albon joins Williams for 2022! He will be partnering up with Nicholas Latifi, who retains his seat.
LittleMissY/N LETS GO!!!!!! FINALLY, ALBON BACK IN AN F1 SEAT
User1 Trying to beat Y/N in commenting and liking first, failed.
User3 so this is what george and Y/N is cooking.
User8 goodluck to alex!!!
User7 hoping that this time around, he can stick around for the long run.
Alex_Albon seas the day
User1 OMG BOYFRIEND ALEX????
User3 i think my bestie Y/N is crying somewhere rn
User4 i didn't expect alex has a girlfriend
User5 alex?? what are you doing?? this isn't Y/N
User7 have fun at your vacation alex!!!1
MaxVerstappen1 mate, who is she??
PierreGasly you should have warned us you were softlaunching someone
CarlosSainz55 congrats with the relationship bro!
Alex_Albon exploring the city with her.
User5 she takes so good photos of alex!
User7 queen Y/N its been 36 days since you last commented
User8 i fear girlie is heartbroken
User9 i hope Y/N is okay
User10 alex and his girl are so perfect together
MaxVerstappen1 who is she alex??? cmon answer your phone
PierreGasly I swear were not sent by Christian to ask about this new girl of yours
WilliamsRacing pretty girl for a pretty boy!
Alex_Albon indeed <3
LittleMissY/N unbothered queen, so sorry for stabbing you GirlInRed
GirlInRed it hurts kind of little but anything for your therapy
User4 not Y/N fake stabbing someone because of Alex's girl
User6 this is so funny, Y/N
User8 so beautiful! you deserve better
MaxVerstappen1 well you know violence isn't always the answer.
LittleMissY/N oh really coming from you?
MaxVerstappen1 cmon, I'll pick you up. Tell me where you are and lets talk
LittleMissY/N i don't need to talk, im happy where i am
PierreGasly are you sure you're okay?
LittleMissY/N I have answered you a hundred times, im fine!!!!!
PierreGasly Im still getting you ice cream
LittleMissY/N awww pierre, you didn't have to
Alex_Albon merry christmas everybody!
MaxVerstappen1 hold up, did i miss a chapter or something???
PierreGasly is this a joke or something???
User4 I thought you have a girlfriend???
User7 all along its Y/N??? IT WAS Y/N ALL ALONG?
User9 lucky lucky lucky
GeorgeRussell63 FINALLY! I have been laughing so much with all the conspiracy online
MaxVerstappen1 you knew and you never even told us???
LandoNorris mate why didn't you even tell me? I thought we are 2019 rookies trio
Alex_Albon sorry mates, i just have to keep this a secret a little longer
WilliamsRacing what a happy couple, so can we post your photos now?
RedBullRacing she is still our girl
WilliamsRacing i think you should ask her about that
LittleMissY/N thankful for almost a year and a half with you
User4 what??? A YEAR AND A HALF???
User7 this is probably going on ever since Alex has moved to Williams
User8 my romeo and juliet!
ChristianHorner why am i not informed that it has been this long?
LittleMissY/N but daddy i love him :<
ChristianHorner no.
LittleMissY/N but what if im carrying his baby?
ChristianHorner jesus christ, tell me you are kidding.
LittleMissY/N i am but see it could be worse. i mean we just hid our relationship and not an entire family.
ChristianHorner fine. invite him over and lets talk
LittleMissY/N yay!!!
MaxVerstappen1 who knew you could keep a secret for that long???
PierreGasly Im more surprised that she was able to bag alex, are you sure you are perfectly sane Alex_Albon?
Alex_Albon well I really really love her
LittleMissY/N alex :< you used the love word
Alex_Albon i mean you should have been used to it when you hear it everyday from when you wake up and before you fall asleep
MaxVerstappen1 YOU TWO MAKE ME SICKKKKKK!!!!! NOT IN MY COMMENT SECTION
User10 folks i think we should apply to Y/N's school of being down bad and manifesting their dream partner
User15 what a lovely couple they are, goals!!!
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Love Me Like A Rockstar (9)
Chapter 9: You (Show Me Where My Days Went)
Author: bvidzsoo
Pairing: Song Mingi x female reader
Warning: cursing
Word count: 9.8k
Genre: university!au, enemies to lovers!au, rockstar!au
Summary: Love. You wanted none of it. You had already been heartbroken very badly once, you didn't wish to go through that ever again. But the Universe works in intricate ways and, somehow, you found yourself webbed up in a local rockstar's life, Song Mingi. He was everything you expected him to be, yet nothing like you imagined him he would be. What happens when you find mutual understanding and have heartful conversations? Will he be able to break down your walls? Will you be able to chase away his darkness?
A/N: Hi, lovelies!! LMLAR is BACK!! I am sooo happy I could finally update and just write, y'all have no idea! I am so sorry for making you wait so long for this update, but finishing my thesis was super important! I still have to study and such this month, but I promise next update won't take as long as this one did! (I'm writing other stories too while writing this one, so that kinda backfires sometimes lol) I am forever grateful that you are patient and stick around for the new chapters, this story is so dear to me you wouldn't even believe it. I am also super grateful and happy whenever you leave feedback, so please, keep on doing just that!<3 This chapter only exists because I was randomly inspired, and I'd like to apologize if it's a little rusty, I always have to get in "character" when I write this story lol. I am soo excited for next chapter, I think it's going to surprise you hehe. PLS PLS imagine that airport look from Mingi when reading this chapter, the pics from the moodboard, you'll see during which part! I also have a very small surprise at the end of this chapter hehe. I hope the time jumps aren't too confusing:(( Please, listen to the song called You before or while reading! Enough yapping, I hope you enjoy and leave feedback! (Taglist is always open for those interested! ^^)
Taglist: @orshii @or5i @lovely-red2 @scarfac3 @juicy-red
@sunaswifes-blog @voicesinmyhead-rc @teez-the-time @maru-matt @kyeos4ng
@deathbyyeekies @chicksmoothie @mjlbn01 @xhexy @tmtxtf
@hwashiningstar @thatfavouritesong @ateez-atiny380
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Later that day
I hate him:
heyโฆjust checking in that I got home safely
what are u up to?
I blinked, fingers tightening around my phone before I locked it, leaving the message on unread. My motherโs shuffling outside my door caught my attention, bringing a smile onto my lips as I watched her struggle while bringing all the dirty laundry to the bathroom. Then, I got off my bed to go help her.
Friday (11:30 am)
I hate him:
i see u still havenโt checked my messageโฆ
nothing too worrisome
u certainly know how to make a man yearn for you
lol
that was a jokeโฆdont freak out on me pls
(lowkey true tho)
Friday (12:50 pm)
I hate him:
lol, wooyoung has been bitching about seulgiโs professor for half an hour now
mr. kwon
u know him? i meanโฆi suppose he also teaches u
i should take a sneaky video for uโฆwooyoung looks like a clown hanging upside down my bed and pouting like a damn child too
(dont say im also one, thanks)
Friday (15:26 pm)
I hate him:
wellโฆik my messages are going through so uhโฆ
why tf are u ignoring me???!
*cries and dies in loneliness*
entertain me dollll!!! im so bored pls
ohโฆu said u had an important assignmentโฆi bet uโre busy with that
sorry for spamming u
(text back tho when uโre done, im dying hereโฆwooyoung is with seulgi and so is seonghwa with hongjoongโฆthe single life sucks, bestieโฆlets be single and depressed together<3)
My jaw clenched as I heaved a long sigh, falling back on my bed as the sun shone brightly through my open window, the light breeze making me shiver as I only wore a t-shirt and sweats. Autumn was slowly turning into winter; the weather wasnโt so warm anymore. I threw another look at my phone, unlocked it, and stared at the received messages from Mingi for a second before finally deciding to delete them from my notification center, rolling over in bed to muffle a frustrated scream into my soft, and purple, pillow.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Saturday (9:09 am)
I hate him:
i had the weirdest dream and im not even sure i want to tell u about it LOL
but uhโฆa grisly was chasing me??? and then u appeared on a fucking white horse like a prince LOL and threatened to likeโฆslay it if it didnt leave me alone???
honestlyโฆwhat a slay, bestie
good morning, btw, doll
hope u had a better nightโs sleep than me (and dreamed of me ehehehe)
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Saturday (17:40 pm)
I hate him:
i cant believe i allowed myself to be fooled like this
back in highschool yuyu and i used to play baseball for shits and giggles
and hongjoong (that rich prick) rented a whole ass baseball field for us for the afternoon and let us play with some of his (rich af) friends and uhโฆ
i think i wont be able to walk straight for another week with how much running i didโฆ
hongjoong kept scoring homerunsโฆi wish yuyu was here to kick his loser ass (dont tell hwa or hong i said that PLS)
yo dollโฆeverythingโs alright with u? uh uโฆreally havent answered me sinceโฆ
ykโฆi stayed over and waited for the rain to stopโฆ
have i done something wrong?
I sighed and put my phone on โdo not disturbโ, suddenly having lost all of my appetite as I forced the rest of the lettuce down my throat. My mother was sipping her kiwi and apple smoothie, eyes narrowed as she muttered to herself while trying to memorize the recipe of a dessert for later. Desserts were never her forte, unfortunately.
โIs it Seulgi?โ She asked absentmindedly as I took a large gulp of my own smoothie, staring down at my salad, steak pushed to the side in my plate.
โHuh?โ I asked distracted, eyes still glued to the dark screen of my phone.
โTexting you, your phone keeps buzzing, my starlight.โ I rolled my eyes at the nickname, but didnโt bother to comment on it. I took a peek at my mother and her eyes were narrowed at me already, video on YouTube paused. Fuck, I had to answer her now or else sheโd pester me all day long. And that would be a nightmare.
โYeah, itโs Seulgi.โ I lied, trying to make my voice sound convincing.
โWell, answer her then, donโt be rude.โ My mother chastised me, pressing play on her video again, pursing her lips as she shook her head at whatever the man baking was saying.
โLater.โ I whispered, biting my lower lip as my eyes remained glued to my phone, stomach clenching and heart dropping.
But I couldnโt.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Sunday (1:01 am)
I hate him:
โฆyouโre ignoring me, arent u?
im sorry, y/n, i dont know what i did wrong, but we can talk about it
weโre friends, after allโฆright?
ใWhen you came along, I knew what was wrong
If you want to know exactly what I've missedใ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Monday (present time)
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย It truly would have been a missed opportunity if Seulgi and I wouldnโt have grabbed coffee and went to sit in our usual spot in the back garden. The campus of our University was huge and that was perfect, because it meant people migrated and didnโt stay in one spot for longโat least long enough to irritate me to no end. Last week deemed to be rather rough, and I still didnโt feel like completely myself. To be honest, I thought about staying home todayโand for the rest of the weekโbut I couldnโt afford missing any of my classes as exam period was slowly nearing, and so, I had to force my ass out of the house this morning before my mother could come and nag me about my weirdly unusual broody mood that has been going on for the past few days.
I hummed as I took a sip of my sweet coffee, enjoying the taste of warm caramel as Seulgi sighed loudly next to me, both hands cupped around her own coffee cup. The scent of cinnamon wafted from her cup and I scrunched up my nose, not too fond of the ingredientโs smell. Our classes started early in the morning today and weโd be here for at least four more hours, caffeine seemed like our only hope to stay awake and aware at this point. Given the fact that my baffling thoughts kept me up all night yesterday, I felt grateful that I was still on my feet at two oโclock at noon. As Seulgi fidgeted again, I chuckled and finally turned my head to look at her. She had a sheepish look on her face, and I tried not to laugh as I knew she was bursting to tell me all about her date with Wooyoung on Saturday.
โWell,โ I started as I took a sip of my coffee, prolonging the suspense for her, โhow did your date go?โ
โIt was amazing!โ I had barely finished asking as Seulgi exclaimed, her cheeks turning rosyโand it wasnโt due to the cold air, โWooyoung isโeverything I thought he would be. Heโs sweet and up for anything, he makes me laugh until I feel like passing out, and thereโs just never a dull moment with him, you know?โ
โOne would expect that from him.โ I muttered against my cup, laughing as Seulgi nudged my side, not looking too happy with my comment, โOh, come on, it would be hard for Wooyoung to be different than the way he mostly presents himself; donโt you think?โ
Seulgi grumbled something against her cup as she lightly bit into the carton, shooting me a pointed stare, โWell, yes, butโฆhe makes me happy. Treats me well and all that, you know, heโs the perfect embodiment of what a boyfriend should be like.โ
โBoyfriend, huh?โ I teased with a smirk, wriggling my eyebrows at my best friend as her cheeks flushed an even darker color as she bit her lower lip, trying to mask the huge grin expanding on her lips. But as soon as I started giggling, Seulgi also broke out in a fit of giggles, hiding herself behind her wavy hair, pressing her cup of coffee against her face.
โGod, Iโm so down bad for him, Y/N, I donโt think youโd understand.โ She mused, voice airy as she threw her head back, leaning back against the back of the bench. I chuckled and took another sip of my drink.
โMaybe Iโd do.โ I muttered, memories of my relationship with Yunho resurfacing. Thankfully, however, I managed to repress them as quickly as they came. They didnโt feel so gut-wrenching anymore, and to my surprise, didnโt leave a bitter taste in its wake either. What has changed? Certainlyโcertainly getting closer to his best friend didnโt influence the way I feel about Yunho, right? Right.
โSo,โ I glanced at Seulgi from the corner of my eyes as she swung her legs, looking down at her feet in the process, โhow are you?โ
โFine, why?โ I asked confused, angling my body to face Seulgi better.
โYouโve beenโฆdistant the whole weekend. I could barely reach you.โ Seulgiโs voice sounded small and I gulped, feeling bad for making her worry about me, โYou knowโฆthe last time you pulled away and disappeared, it was bad.โ
โI promise you I am doing completely fine, Seulgi, youโd be the first person to know if I was in a bad headspace again, alright?โ I reached out and grabbed her hand, squeezing it reassuringly. Seulgi sighed and then raised her head to look at me, lips pulled into a thin line.
โPromise?โ
โOf course, I promise.โ I smiled at her warmly and she hummed in contentment, squeezing my hand back as she took a sip of her coffee. I followed suit before removing my hand from hers to fiddle with my half empty cup, โIโm just dealing with some things right now. I think Iโm confused.โ
โAbout what?โ Seulgi asked curiously, leaning closer as I continued to avoid eye contact with her.
โIโll tell you once I have my thoughts sorted about it.โ I chuckled, making Seulgi roll her eyes in displeasure.
โYou know, I tell you absolutely everything about myself and how I fell, and you always shut me out and tell me how you felt about a situation when itโs been over for years.โ Seulgi pouted, narrowing her eyes at me, โHowโs that fair, Y/N?โ
โHey, we work differently, donโt try to guilt trip me now.โ I chuckled and took a sip of my coffee, making Seulgi roll her eyes, โAnyways, what did you do on your date with Wooyoung?โ
โWe went to the cinema,โ Seulgiโs face lit up once again, grinning from ear to ear, โHe bought me roses, a big bouquet. And after the movie we went for a walk and ended up stargazing in his cabriolet. It was really romantic.โ
I smiled, feeling happy for my friend, she deserved someone like Wooyoung, โThat actually sounds really amazingโฆand romantic.โ
โOh, my God, are you really Y/N? Where is my friend that hates anything that has to do with romance, cute stuff, and love?!โ Seulgiโs shocked face was mocking and I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms in front of my chest as I leaned back against the back of the bench.
โI donโt hate it, Iโm just not a huge fan of all of those things, okay?!โ I shrugged, letting my arms fall from my chest as I pushed them inside my coatโs pockets.
โWhoโs the culprit?โ When I raised my eyebrows at Seulgi, a sign that I didnโt understand her question, she chuckled and leaned closer, โWhoโs the man thatโs changing your views on life, huh?โ
โMan?โ I asked with a scoff, giving Seulgi a deadpanned expression, โDoes it always have to be about a man? Canโt it be just the fact that I had a change of mind?โ
โSure, because of someone.โ Seulgi had a smug look on her face, acting as if she won the argument. But there was no argument here and she had no idea what she was talking about.
โWhateverโโ But I got cut off as her phone dinged loudly. Seulgi, very comically, scrambled to reach for her phone and as she opened it up, a wide grin stretched onto her lips. It didnโt take two braincells to realize who had texted her, and thus, I chuckled and turned my head. I sipped my coffee, taking in my environment while Seulgi answered her boyfriend, giggling quietly every now and then.
The campus was finally silent and not as busy as it usually was in the early morning hours. The cold weather also helped in keeping the garden a little quieter as most people preferred to stay inside the warm corridors and classrooms. But the chilly air was good, it soothed my nerves and erased thoughts that werenโt productive. Similar to that, were the emotions that I didnโt want to deal with again, like the guilt thatโs never left me ever since Mingi walked out of my house wearing Yunhoโs old clothes. It felt wrong letting him take them without knowing the truth about them, but I didnโt feel ready to tell him yet about the truth. I was scared, surprisingly, of what heโd think of me once he found out about Yunho and I. I was scared thatโheโd walk away, like Yunho had once done. And that was a very frightening thought. But when had I become so attached to Mingi? When has Mingi managed to infiltrate himself so thoroughly in my life, that the thought of completely losing him became scary? And why was I taking the past few days so badly? Itโs not like we were as close as Seulgi and I, or him and Seonghwa and Wooyoung, yet, ignoring him felt like the wrong move to do. However, the reasoning I always circled back to was the fact that I needed space. I had to clear my mind, to find the purpose of this whole friendship thatโs been blooming between us, and to make sense of everything. I had to figure out first why Yunho barely scraped my thoughts now, and why was it was Mingi who I found myself thinking of so often. In case you were wondering, no, I still havenโt found the reason, and it was becoming frustrating quite quickly. That near kiss was aโmistake. Yet, it could have been so much worseโit could have been a real kiss. And a real kiss would have ruined everything. I didnโt want to open up to anyone just yet, not when the memories of Yunho still haunted me in my dreams and drawings. Drawings that now more often than not consisted of Song Mingi.
And to my horror, the flipping of paper sheets is what alerted me back to my surroundings as I had been lost in my thoughts, oblivious to Seulgi putting her phone down and grabbing my sketchbook that lay between the two of us on the bench. As I turned my head, my eyes widened as Seulgiโs expression held surprise but amusement as well. She chuckled as she looked up, making eye contact with me. I lunged forward in an instant, trying to take my sketchbook out of her hands, but she leaned back and away, putting it behind herself.
โBitch, Iโm not the only one whoโs down bad for a man.โ She said with a laugh, making me groan as I gave up trying to snatch my sketchbook back from her.
โIโm not down bad for a man, Seulgi, stop this non-sense.โ I hissed, cheeks burning in embarrassment as she kept flipping through my drawings.
โPlease,โ She scoffed, turning my sketchbook around and making me grimace as I came face to face with an exact replica of Mingi, sitting in his chair, at his studio that one time he invited me inside, โWho the fuck draws so many drawings of one single person if they arenโt in love with themโโ
โIโm not in love with Mingi, stop it!โ I exclaimed, heart beating fast as Seulgi raised her eyebrows at me, looking unimpressed, โDonโt ever again say that, Seulgi.โ
โOkay, calm down, whatever. Youโre not in love with Mingi.โ She chuckled, closing my sketchbook but she didnโt hand it back yet, โBut letโs face it, Y/N, you have a thing for Mingi. Itโs super freaking obvious even without the drawings.โ
โWhat the hell are you talking about?โ I hissed and finally snatched the sketchbook out of her hands, clutching it to my chest. I knew bringing this along today would turn out to be a mistake, and here I was, facing the repercussions of my actions.
โThereโs this glint in your eyes whenever you look at himโโ
โYeah, itโs called dislike.โ I scoffed, rolling my eyes.
โAnd I see how you struggle to refrain yourself from smiling when youโre around himโโ
โBitch, be for real, Mingi and I arenโt even often together around you for you to notice that.โ I scoffed, completely appealed by whatever absurd claims my best friend was making.
โSo youโre not denying itโwould it really be so bad if you liked Mingi?โ But Seulgi ignored all my interruption as she raised her eyebrows at me, smiling softly, โHeโs a nice guy. Very well-mannered and with a big, and good heart. Wooyoung loves him a lot and is always worrying about him. He says Mingi hasnโt been the same ever since his best friend moved away for collegeโโ
โMingi is Yunhoโs best friend!โ I blurted out before I could stop myself, finally feeling like a stone was taken off my chest as I bit my lower lip, averting my eyes from Seulgiโs shocked expression, โMingi is the best friend Yunho had always talked so much about while we were together. Iโdo you understand why it would be so bad if I ended up liking Mingi?โ
โY/N,โ Seulgi whispered, eyebrows furrowed, โfor how long have you know?โ
โLong enough.โ I muttered before clearing my throat, โSo please understand that Iโm not ready for whatever the hell me drawing all those sketches of Mingi could mean. A month ago I was close to bursting out crying even at the thought of Yunho, and now I fail to remember his existence on my best days.โ
When I dared take a peek at Seulgi, she was smiling softly, almost proudly, โFine, Iโll pester you about this later on, when youโve figured things out, but until thenโyou canโt deny Mingi isnโt hotโโ
โCan we stop talking about Minโโ
โHi, girls!โ I jumped in fright at the overly excited and shrill greeting as both Seulgi and I turned our heads to be met withโฆWooyoung and Mingi. Speak of the devil. Suddenly, there was a lump in my throat, and my heart started beating just a little bit faster as my eyes fell on Mingiโs tall form. It didnโt help that underneath his coat he was wearing Yunhoโs sweaterโthe one I had given him.
โHi.โ Seulgi giggled as Wooyoung leaned down to press a kiss against her cheek, the two looking sickly in love. It was actually endearing, but Iโd never admit it out loud for my own sake as I knew Iโd get teased about it by Seulgi. I averted my eyes from Wooyoung and Seulgi as they were muttering things to each other, and so, had no choice but to look up at Mingi, who lookedโexpressionless. Something in my stomach dropped at his cold demeanor, and it was worse that I wanted to assume it was my fault that he looked like that. But just as I was about to look away, he cracked the tiniest smile ever, and I exhaled, licking my lips.
โHi.โ My voice was small as I gulped, eyes trans-fixated on the tall man as his smile became just a little wider. I donโt think I had the power to ignore him anymore, not when he was standing right in front of me, looking like he wished to be anywhere but here.
โHi, Y/N.โ Having not heard his voice in days, it sounded even deeper and raspier than usually, making butterflies erupt in my stomach as my grip tightened around my sketchbook. I felt a little awkward, perhaps even tense, as Mingi didnโt say anything else, just continued gazing down at me with his sharp dark brown eyes boring into my own. I had so many things that I couldโve said to him, but I felt tongue tied. I didnโt know what would be the right way to approach him after I ignored him for so many days. Would he understand? Is he mad at me now? Does he hate me now? Will he forgive meโ
โOkay,โ Wooyoung chuckled, syllable drawn out and sounding amused, โI feel like Iโm interrupting something here, yet they are basically just staring at each other.โ
โYouโre right.โ Seulgi giggled, and I finally looked away from Mingi, throwing a glare at my best friend as she had leaned into Wooyoungโs side, who stood next to the bench and her.
โShush, you two.โ Mingi beat me to telling the two love-birds off, and I couldnโt help but smile, โDonโt poke your nose where it doesnโt belong to.โ
โLook whoโs lecturing me about poking my nose where it doesnโt belong toโโ
โWooyoung.โ Mingiโs tone held a warning, and it made Wooyoung giggle as he leaned down and pressed a fat kiss against Seulgiโs cheekโagainโmaking her push him away playfully.
โWeโre headed to class, are you coming over later?โ Wooyoung smiled down at his girlfriend, playing with a strand of her hair.
โMaybe, if I get to finish my project.โ Seulgi said with a pout and Wooyoung hummed, leaning down to press a kiss against her lips this time around. I averted my eyes, not a fan of seeing couples kiss, only to catch Mingi already looking at me. He was expressionless once again, but he was fidgeting with his fingers, looking almost nervous. And as Wooyoung stood up straight and ruffled Seulgiโs hair affectionately, Mingi took a deep breath.
โWill you come to Outlaw this Friday?โ He asked in a rush, sounding almost reluctant as his eyebrows furrowed slightly and he chewed on his lower lip. To my horror, I found my eyes fixated on his plush mouth and I gulped before I quickly averted my eyes, praying that nobody caught it.
โYes.โ I answered before Seulgi could, and nodded, smiling a little bit, โI wonโt miss it.โ
A beautiful smile spread on Mingiโs lips and he nodded once, looking too happy for something so little. I donโt think Iโll understand anytime soon why he gets so excited and happy when I listen to his songs or watch him perform. Iโm no expert when it comes to music, my feedback is merely amateur and Iโm not even a fan of his band yet.
โCool, see you then.โ And Mingi didnโt wait for Wooyoung as he turned around and walked away, steps hurried. I didnโt miss the confused glance Wooyoung and Seulgi shared before Wooyoung was off, chasing after his best friend. And maybe I would be soon able to make sense of my thoughts and feelings around Mingi, figure out what they meant and why they felt so real at times.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Monday (16:58 pm)
I hate him:
hi
Me:
hi
I hate him:
would it be a lot if i asked to meet u tomorrow?
Me:
no, im free in the afternoon
I hate him:
cool, me too
so uhโฆwe can hang out in my studio?
Me:
or we can go to that new cafรฉ with pottery
I hate him:
really?
Me:
u did say u wanted us to goโฆ
I hate him:
i certainly said so
iโll pick u up around 4
Me:
u donโt have to
iโll meet you there
I hate him:
come on, y/nโฆlet me drive u
Me:
uโve driven me around too many times by now
iโll meet u there and thatโs final.
I hate him:
okay, boss, see ya there
Me:
:))
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Getting here before four oโclock and having to wait in front of the cute cafรฉ had no business being this nerve-wrecking. Yeah, Mingi hasnโt shown up yetโbut perhaps thatโs because there were still ten minutes until itโd be fourโand I knew I had no reason to think heโd bail on me, but we hadnโt spoken since yesterday, when he had asked me if we could hang out. And so, waiting for him shouldnโt have had me breaking out in a sweat despite the cold weather, making me bite my lower lip harshly as I tried to smooth down the wool, green, brown, and beige patterned coat I was wearing. First of all, why the hell would I be so nervous about meeting up with Mingi alone at this cute cafรฉ? He probably wanted to talk about that near kiss, and once we had that cleared, things would go back to normalโright?!
And maybe that was the reason which made me want to vomit on the sidewalk, the thought that I knew Mingi would demand answersโanswers that I wasnโt yet ready to hand out. Why did I even agree to this? Because I missed him? I should have just stayed at home and done the project Iโve been procrastinating onโagain. But when I heard the rumble of Mingiโs old Hondaโs engine, I knew there was no turning back, catching the bus and running home to hide underneath my blanket.
As Mingi took his time to parallel park, I took a deep breath and gripped onto the strap of my tote bag harder, looking down at myself. My apricot orange sneakers matched the color of my blouse, the top two buttons out of five undone, but not showing too much skin. My blouse was tucked inside my washed out high waisted mom jeans, the black belt matching the color of my tote bagโI know black isnโt a color, Iโm an arts major after all. My hair was pulled in a low ponytail just to prevent the wind from blowing it in my face, and I was thankful that I chose my wool coat as it kept me warm enough. I have opted to wear quite a few rings today, and because my neck felt too exposed, I decorated it with three necklaces of different length. I gulped hard one last time as Mingi got out of his car and took a few seconds until he managed to lock it. However, those few seconds were exactly what I needed to prepare myself to not pass out at the full sight of him.
Mingi, in true fashion to him, wore all black, except for his jeans that were a very dark shade of blue, almost black too. His turtleneck was tucked inside his jeans, a black coat with a hood keeping him warm from the cold late autumn weather. It almost made me smile upon seeing his own tote bag, black, and funnily matching mine. Except that his was plain, while mine had Claude Monetโs Water-Lily Pond painting painted on it, done by none other than yours truly, me. Mingiโs eyes were concealed by black sunglasses, and I snorted as he almost splashed himself up by stepping a little too enthusiastically into a big puddle. Two necklaces hung around his neck, reaching down his chest. A very obvious and sturdy silver cross necklace, and another longer chain that had pearls scarcely strung on it. ย And in true Song Mingi fashion, his rings werenโt missing, only two of his nails painted black on each hand, almost as if he didnโt have time to finish doing them. My heart racing in my chest so fast just at the mere sight of him, certainly wasnโt healthy, right?
โHi!โ I squeaked out and wished to burry myself instantly as Mingi chuckled, a very charming smile spreading onto his lips. It was a little annoying that I couldnโt see his eyes, forced to stare at his plush lips insteadโletโs be real, nobody forced me, I did it because I couldnโt help myself, โThe sun is quite blinding today, isnโt it?โ
And of course, in good old fashion, my mouth worked before my brain would agree to saying something out loud, and my cheeks were burning as I knew Mingi saw me look at his lips. I had to divert the attention somehow, and teasing him was my best method, actually. It always worked. ย
โIโm trying to make a fashion statement,โ Mingi grinned as he gripped the sunglasses and took them off in a very unnaturally hot way, โbut hello to you too.โ
โNo need for a fashion statement when itโs just the two of us,โ I narrowed my eyes, finding Mingiโs hair very soft and fluffy looking, almost as if he had recently washed it, and it wasnโt completely dry, โIโm not one of your fans.โ
โPity,โ Mingi hummed, stepping slightly closer to me, โI thought I might just finally wove you.โ
I scoffed, and as I was about to tell him off, he grabbed my tote bag and pulled me after himself, headed for the entrance of the cafรฉ, โDid you have to wait long for me? Traffic was busier today, I had to take a few detours to get here in time.โ
โDonโt worry,โ I smiled as he opened the door for me and let me walk inside first, โI only waited half an hour for you to arrive, runway princess.โ
โRunway princess?!โ Mingiโs eyes bulged for a second before he started laughing loudly, making a few customers glance our way as we made it inside the cafรฉ. I elbowed him in the stomach gently, not too keen of having people glare at us as he disturbed their peace.
โDonโt like the nickname?โ I asked with a raised brow as we neared the front desk. The cashier had a friendly smile on her face while she greeted us as Mingi and I looked up at the menu, trying to decide what weโd like to have.
โNever said that,โ Mingi answered with a chuckle as he threw me a quick glance, โitโs just surprising coming from you.โ
โWhy, canโt I call you a princess?โ I chuckled, turning to face the cashier as I have made up my mind about what Iโd like to have.
โUp until now you seemed to prefer the term โbroโ, but Iโm fine with whatever you decide on calling me, doll.โ The look the cashier gave us made my cheeks flame up and I cleared my throat loudly, shooting Mingi a look that told him to shut up.
โSorry about that,โ I muttered embarrassed, smiling at the cashier, โcan I get a strawberry cheesecake?โ
โSure, right away, and you, sir?โ Her attention was on Mingi now, cheeks flushing the longer she looked at him. Okay, I could totally understand why. Mingi looked quite good right now, it was hard not to ogle him.
โA mint-chocolate cheesecake and a cappuccino?โ Mingi hummed, eyebrows furrowed in thought as he looked down at the cashier.
โPlain cappuccino or with vanilla?โ The cashier typed in our orders as she asked Mingi, averting her eyes shyly once he looked at her, pursing his lips.
โPlain,โ He decided at last, turning to look at me, โare you not getting anything to drink?โ
โAn orange fresh will be alright.โ I said as I reached inside my bag to fish around for my wallet.
โAnd would you also like to paint some pottery?โ The cashier asked, pointing behind herself at all the displayed options. Mingi and I shared a look and I smiled as I nodded at him, making him grin from ear to ear.
โYeah, weโll paint some pottery too. Can I have a cup?โ He asked, pointing at one on the higher shelf. It was a smaller cup, specifically made for drinking coffee. The cashier nodded and then looked at me expectantly.
โUh, a mug will do for me.โ I said and thanked her once she handed us the pottery and the paint that was used for painting these. Then, she tapped a few more on her tablet and told us the total. I opened my wallet to pay for my purchase, but Mingi had a card in his hands, the cashier already typing in the total sum for him to pay.
โMingi,โ I hissed quietly, looking at him with a frown, โwhat are you doing?โ
โIt was my idea to come hereโโ
โNo, it wasnโt.โ I cut him off, fingers curling into the scratchy fabric of his coat as I reached out to hold it, โI suggested we come here instead of going to your studio.โ
Mingi sighed and pocketed his card, already having paid, then turned his body to face mine. I didnโt let go of his coat just yet, โYeah, but when I drove you home during that downpour I asked you if youโd come here with me. So technically, it was my idea. Initially, anyways, it really was.โ
โMingiโโ I started, but soon swallowed my words as he stepped closer, invading my personal space. My fingers tightened more into his coat and I gulped, suddenly feeling nervous due to our proximity. He faintly smelled of vanilla, it was a fragrance I didnโt except to smell on him.
โCan you not fight me on this one, please?โ Mingiโs eyebrows slightly furrowed and his eyes softened up and Iโstruggled to breathe for a second as I stared up in his pleading eyes, mouth going dry. He lookedโadorable like this, and I did not like the way I felt myself getting lost in his soft gaze.
โLetโs find a table.โ I muttered, forcing myself out of the trance he placed on me, and grabbed my mug and the painting supplies. Mingi followed suit as he took his own cup and followed after me closely. We walked further inside the cafรฉ and found a smaller table in the next room, closer towards the window. The walls were painted a faint orange and were decorated by white stripes that created abstract shapes. The chandeliers were white and hung low, the place well-lit for those who wished to paint pottery.
I placed the things in my hands on the table carefully, and then discarded my coat on the back of my chair and my tote bag by the leg of the table, pulling my chair out for myself. Mingi followed suit, however, he managed to almost send his cup tumbling to the floor when he took his seat. His eyes were wide as he just barely caught the cup, and I giggled as I watched him while opening the box that held all the paint. Thankfully, the table was spacious enough to harbor both our pottery and paints as the cashier brought out our delicacies. She threw Mingi a lasting look before she hurried back to the front desk, glancing our way at times.
โThis is going to be a tough one.โ Mingi said before scooping up a bit of his cheesecake with his little spoon.
โWhy?โ I asked with a chuckle, choosing a thin brush to start painting some flowers on my mug. My cheesecake could wait.
โBecause Iโm literally sat at a table with an arts major, having to decorate some cup by painting.โ Mingi sounded stressed and I chuckled as I looked up at him, amused by his expression. His hair fell in his eyes a bit, and I found myself absentmindedly reaching over the table to brush it to the side. Almost as if realizing at the same time what I had done, we both froze. It felt like time stilled around us as I watched Mingi with a gaping mouth, slowly but surely, my cheeks becoming the color of a fire hydrant. But Mingi wasnโt better off as he bit his bottom lip, averting his eyes shyly as his cheeks turned the faint color of pink. Clearing my throat and accidentally choking as I hastily pulled my hand back, I averted my eyes and fought for my life to not choke. Thank God the orange juice was right there, I quickly took three large gulps.
โThโthanks.โ Mingi stuttered, staring at the table as he licked his lips, โUh, itโs gotten long, my hair, I mean, I have to cut it when I get the time.โ
โYeah.โ I nodded, grabbing my mug and chewing on my bottom lip in embarrassmentโGod, could the Earth swallow me up right now? Why the hell did I do that?! โYeah.โ
โDo you think I should change it up a little?โ I paused as I had dipped my brush in red paint, and slowly looked up at Mingi, โDo something fun with itโlike going blonde?โ
โI hate blonde hair.โ I blurted out before I could stop myself. Nice one, idiot. Yunho was blonde while we were together, and thus, yeah, Iโve hated blondes ever since. And to be fairโand this is not me shitting on my exโbut that hair color did not suit Yunho at all.
โOh, noted.โ Mingi whispered, pouting a little. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling, hating myself for the weird atmosphere I have created.
โMingi, you can do whatever you want with your hair.โ I spoke up, leaning down to try and look him in the eyes as he was busy staring at the table, โMy opinion shouldnโt matter. Itโs your hair. Go crazy with it, have fun, try out something new. Really.โ
โBut do you think it would suit me?โ Mingi was still pouting as he finally looked up at me, looking quite crestfallen. My eyebrows furrowed and I tried to imagine him with blonde hair. He was quite blessed with his skin complex as most colors looked good on him, but perhaps I preferred Mingi with dark hairโblack hair, more specifically. Like he had it right now. He lookedโgood. Handsome, even. Completely gorgeous. Fuck.
โI think it would suit you.โ I settled on saying that. He didnโt have to know my train of thought, like at all. Mingi hummed in appreciation, and I watched as he reached inside his tote bag, pulling out a case that held his glasses. He took it out of the case and put it on, pushing it up on the bridge of his nose. He grinned when he looked at me and I chuckled, shaking my head as I looked down at my mug, finally starting to decorate it.
โThere goes the cool, mysterious, hot celebrity act.โ I teased under my breath, not expecting Mingi to hear me. But he did, and he started laughing, giving me a cheeky grin.
โNot quite a celebrity yet, but at least you admit I am hot.โ Of course he was smirking as I gave him a deadpanned look, about to argue him on his statement, but he didnโt let me as he continued talking, โBy the way, letโs exchange our cups when we are done. The mug will be mine and the cup will be yours.โ
I tried to fight the smile off my lips, โSo that you get the artwork of a talented artist for free to sell for an outrageous price later on when Iโm famous?โ
โI fear you have misjudged my character, doll.โ Mingiโs eyes narrowed playfully, but there was truth to his words. I might just have misjudged his character.
โI still think youโre arrogant and selfish.โ
โOf course you do, didnโt except anything less from you.โ Mingi winked and then looked down, his cheesecake forgotten as he started decorating his cup, tongue just barely sticking out as he concentrated hard on whatever he had in mind to paint onto the cup. I chuckled and shook my head before focusing on my own mug, the silence thatโs settle around us comfortable, as always.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Mingi and I were the quietest table in the cafรฉ as we worked in silence diligently in, painting our own pottery. Mingi, at times, would hum along quietly to the songs that were played on the radio. Despite his cup being smaller and easier to paint, I finished painting mine before him, and so, I took the time to savor my cheesecake even if it had gotten warm and a little too soft. Mingi was hunched over in his seat, glasses low on the bridge of his long nose, with his full lips either pursed or with the bottom one bitten as his eyebrows would furrow every time he almost made a mistake. It was a funny sight, and I grabbed my phone without thinking much, and snapped a few pictures of him, leaning lower and even closer to his face to get the funny angles, all while Mingi remained oblivious to it. I chuckled as I looked at the pictures I had taken of him, looking at him when I felt eyes on me.
โWhatโs so funny?โ He asked curiously, eyeing my phone for a second.
โYou.โ I chuckled and stuck my tongue out as Mingi rolled his eyes, leaning back in his chair as he heaved a long sigh.
โIโm finally done.โ He grinned and I looked down at his cup, taking in the yellow chicks he had painted quiteโclumsily. Well, not all of us had the skills of a painterโnot that it was an issue or anythingโitโs just that itโs been long since I had seen someone have the skills of aโkindergartner, โItโs pretty sick, huh?โ
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from giggling and nodded with my eyebrows furrowed, โIโd give it a seventy out of a hundred mark.โ
โHey! Thatโs too low!โ Mingi said, looking offended. I chuckled before shrugging.
โYouโll have to work on your skills for a higher mark.โ
โFine, next time you come to the studio, Iโll make you sing.โ Mingi raised his eyebrows, making me narrow my eyes at him playfully.
โOh, I didnโt know we are in a competition.โ
โWe werenโt, until now.โ He winked and then stood, grabbing my mug and his own cup carefully as he took it to the front desk for drying. I gathered the items we had used to paint the pottery with to place them back in the box, and couldnโt help it but sneak a glance at Mingi. He was leaned up against the front counter, grinning widely at the cashier as she spoke to him, using her hands for big gestures as she was probably explaining something. My eyes narrowed as Mingi leaned slightly closer to her, only to detach himself from the front desk and walk back towards our table. I looked away and busied myself with my glass of orange juice.
โSo, weโll get them delivered to our houses once they are dry and all.โ He said with a smile, sitting down, โI hope you donโt mind I gave her your address too.โ
โI donโt.โ I muttered, chewing on the straw for a second, โI didnโt think youโd know my address.โ
โWell,โ Mingi flattened his hands on the surface of the table, โIโve been to your house twice now. I think itโs only right I remember your address, doll.โ
โRight,โ I muttered, โyouโve been to my house.โ
Mingiโs eyebrows furrowed, and I figured he didnโt like the tone of my voice. But before I could correct myself and explain that I had nothing against that, he spoke up, โY/N, IโI didnโt mean to scare you orโI donโt knowโmake you think that I want anything from you. I meanโwe are friends, and I respect you as a woman and as a friend, and I know we almostโkissed. But IโI donโt want you to think that Iโm playing some sort of game with you to getโto get in your pants. Iโm your friend. And even if I wasnโt, I still wouldnโt do that to you.โ
Hearing him say all that felt wrong. I didnโt deserve any explanation from him. I was the one thatโs overreacted that day, and Mingi was the one that deserved an explanation and apology from me for the way I have acted. I knew I couldnโt completely open up to him right now, that some parts of the truth had to be omitted today, but he also deserved to know why I had pulled back. And I wanted him to understand that it wasnโt his fault for the way I reacted to everything.
โMingi,โ I offered him a small smile and gripped my empty glass for some support, โIf you think you are the reason why I ignored you, please, stop thinking that. Itโsโwe both leaned in, okay? We were both about to kiss each other, itโs not like you initiated it or forced me to do something I didnโt want to. And nothing even happened, for Godโs sake. I reacted that way because Iโโ
When I paused, Mingiโs eyebrows furrowed, and he leaned over the table, gently poking my hand with his ring clad fore-finger, โYou donโt have to tell me anything if youโre not comfortable sharing it, Y/N.โ
โBut I want you to know this, Mingi.โ I averted my eyes and took a deep breath, embracing myself for what I was about to tell him, โI had a boyfriend back in high-school who completely broke my heart, shattered it into pieces. And I know that happened a long time ago, and yes, I am over him, but IโI am scared people will treat me like he had treated me. Iโm scared that if I let you close, youโll justโleave. Like he did. And I know ignoring you for days was very shitty of me and I shouldnโt have done thatโbecause quite frankly, Mingi, you deserve betterโI just didnโt know what to do. I needed a few days to myself, to figure things out. Itโs a bad excuse, but itโs the truth, and I think you deserve to know it. Since we are friends.โ
Mingiโs face conveyed no emotion for a few seconds and I gulped, feeling nervous all of a sudden. Did he figure it out now? That I was talking about Yunho? That maybe I have started feeling something for him too, for Mingi? Would he stand up and leave? But to my surprise, a wide smile stretched onto his lips and he hummed, adjusting his glasses on his nose.
โThank you for trusting me, it means a lot that you told me all that.โ I bit my bottom lip, looking down at the table abashedly, โAnd I was never mad at you for ignoring me. I completely understand you, Y/N, and for the record, I have zero intentions of leaving you. And your ex is a fucking asshole for breaking your heart like that, tell me who he is and Iโll beat him up when I cross paths with him.โ
There was nothing funny about what Mingi had said, especially since he was talking about his best friend, but the comically tough look on his face made me snort loudly as I shielded my mouth with my hand, trying to stop myself from laughing too loudly. Mingi started grinning like an idiot, his giggles deep, and making something coil in my stomach. When has Song Mingi become adorable instead of annoying?
โI doubt youโd want to kick his ass once you find out who he isโฆโ I grimaced once that was out of my mouth, regretting it instantly. What was it about today that I couldnโt keep my thoughts and mouth in check? It was turning really frustrating.
โSo, you plan on telling me one day?โ Mingi wriggled his eyebrows, making me snort, โLike real besties gossiping and shit.โ
โYou never fail to make me cringe when you call us besties, Mingi.โ I shook my head, taking a glance at my wrist watch. Oh, the time had flown away, it was well past five now, and the sun was going down. Iโd probably have to head home soon to have dinner with my mother. I was becoming hungry too.
โWell, thatโs what we are soโฆโ He cleared his throat before slowly standing up, making me look up at him, โDid you know today weโre celebrating the Festival of Light?โ
โNope, I had no idea.โ I shook my head, standing up too as Mingi wore his coat, โI donโt follow the events our city organizes.โ
โPity, itโs really pretty.โ Mingi pouted, waiting for me as I grabbed my tote bag and pocketed my phone, โShould we check it out?โ
โI meanโฆmaybe?โ I shrugged and Mingi beckoned me over as he crossed his arm with mine, making me chuckle as I looked up at him. He wasnโt much taller than me, but his sneakers had a thick sole and they made him even taller, โWhere is this festival held at?โ
โJust down the street, at the Citadel.โ Mingi smiled as he led the way out of the cafรฉ, waving at the barista as she blushed again, making me chuckle as I subconsciously nuzzled up against Mingiโs side, the air chilly as the sun had set by now.
โThat barista totally has a crush on you.โ I found myself saying as we walked down the sidewalk, trying to avoid crashing into the people that came towards us. Yeah, there certainly was an event on-going in the city, otherwise you wouldnโt see so many people out and about around this time. Everyone preferred staying inside after the sun had set, not keen of the cold nights.
โYou think so?โ Mingi mused, bottom lip jutting out as he narrowly avoided a child that was running around, โI didnโt notice.โ
โYou must be really dense then.โ I snorted, eyebrows furrowing as I looked up at him, โShe was constantly blushing, and she was totally looking at you with hearts in her eyes.โ
โHow do you know when someone is looking at you with heart eyes?โ Mingiโs question threw me off, and I detached myself from his side, clearing my throat as I looked ahead, pushing my hands in my pockets. He was warm, it made me realize as the cold bit at my skin now that I wasnโt nuzzled up by his side anymore.
โWell, they have this look in their eyes, you know? Itโs warm, and soft, and it lasts.โ I explained, feelings my cheeks heat up, โAnd their eyes always linger on you when you arenโt watching them. Itโs likeโฆpuppy eyes, I suppose? I wouldnโt actually know, Mingi, nobodyโs ever looked at me like that.โ
When there was no response, I looked back to find Mingi looking at me intensely. My eyebrows furrowed as we have arrived to the Citadel, the gates open for the visitors of the festival. The place was packed, this wouldnโt be so fun anymore. I wouldโve turned around and walked back home if I didnโt see how excited Mingi was when I agreed to come check it out.
โThereโs lots of people here.โ Mingi muttered, and then walked closer to me as I led the way inside, a little baffled by his reaction to my answer. I just merely gave an answer based on my beliefs. It was him that was acting weird now. But as I looked at him, I could see it in his eyes that he didnโt want to talk about this topic anymore, that he wanted us to drop the subject. His last comment was a way to veer the conversation in a different direction. What was it about us today making everything weird? I sighed and just walked further inside, trying to avoid the big crowd which seemed almost impossible as it stretched on and on. The Citadel, however, was beautiful as it was coated in darkness, only the little paper lamps and fairy lights illuminating the place. It had a certain aura to it, almost romantic, and I soon found myself smiling as we walked down the cobblestone path, still trying to avoid people and stick close to each otherโs sides. The air was chilly but the walls of the Citadel did a great job at keeping the breeze out, and the crowd certainly kept the place warmer than it was outside the stone walls.
I found myself admiring the dรฉcor in wonder, my mouth hanging open as I took in all the little lamps placed down on the ground, following the cobblestone paths, illuminating our way. It was truly beautiful, it almost felt like the scene was taken out of a fairytale. I found myself filled with excitement and happiness as I turned to grin at Mingi.
โThis is so beautiful!โ I giggled, absentmindedly grabbing the sleeve of his coat and dragging him away from the path and into the dying grass as there was a panel covered with paper, and people were writing on it. Mingi remained silent, but as I searched around for a pen or pencil, I felt him watching me, โWhat, do you not want to write something?โ
โIf you manage to find a marker or pen, I will, sure.โ He said with a shrug, adjusting the strap of his tote bag before he pushed his hands deep in his pockets. I chuckled and looked around for a marker, but it was hard to see it in the darkness whether they were laying around in the grass or not. To my surprise, a little girl standing next to me looked up at me with a small smile on her lips, and offered me her purple-coloured marker, saying she was done with her drawing. I thanked her with a chuckle and turned to face Mingi with a grin.
โI found one!โ Mingi chuckled and took the marker from my hands, being able to reach high up where the paper was still empty, due to his height. The panel was illuminated from the inside so you could actually see what was written on the paper. I watched him as he wrote on the paper, hesitating for a second, before he stepped back and handed me the marker. I raised up on my tip toes curiously, and craned my neck to see what heโs written. โThe moon is beautiful tonight.โ
I felt a smile spread onto my lips as I looked back at Mingi, whoโs expression was serious and almost sad-looking as he adjusted his glasses on the bridge of his tall nose. I craned my neck back once more to gaze at the dark sky, at the moon, and indeed, there she was, beautiful and shining brightly. It was a new moon. Taking a swift glance at Mingi, I raised back on my tip toes and stood close to the panel, reaching up, just underneath Mingiโs writing. Thankfully, I could reach just bellow it, and I grinned as I quickly drew a new moon, adding a little shading to it and dents as well, creating the illusion of a real moon. Mingi remained silent as I took a step back, admiring our work. I handed the marker to another child as I fished my phone out of my pocket and snapped a picture quickly of our artwork.
โThe moon turned out beautifully.โ Mingi commented once we had stepped away from the panel to let others draw too, headed back onto the cobblestone path.
โStill, itโs not as beautiful as the real one, but I tried my best.โ I chuckled as I crossed my arms in front of my chest for a second, avoiding a man as he wasnโt looking in front of himself as he raced down the path. Mingi threw him a displeased look before looking down at me.
โYour drawings and paintings are always beautiful, Y/N.โ Mingi said and I found myself blushing, thankful that it was so dark he wouldnโt be able to see it. I uncrossed my arms and turned my body a little to face him. There was music coming from one path, the one which led to the southern part of the Citadel.
โAre you nervous about Friday?โ I found myself asking him as Mingi veered us towards where the music was coming from. He looked at me for a second, and then shook his head.
โIโm rarely nervous when we have to perform.โ He said nonchalantly, the back of his hand brushing lightly against mine. My heart did a somersault against my ribcage, but I ignored it.
โOh, youโre such a cool guy.โ I teased him with narrowed eyes, making Mingi chuckle.
โI rarely get nervous, to be honest, even less when it comes to performing.โ He hummed, looking up at the dark sky for a second, โI trust myself and my bandmates that everything will go well, so, thereโs no actual reason to feel nervous.โ
โBut Iโll be there on Friday, that still doesnโt make you feel nervous?โ My question was meant to be teasing, part of our playful banter, but the way Mingi gulped and quickly averted his eyes told me that perhaps I hit the nail spot-on. Well, now I have turned things awkward again. I sighed loudly, chewing on my bottom lip as Mingi remained silent, the two of us walking down the narrow path as the music became louder as we were nearing the stage. Jazz music was playing, the lady who was singing had a powerful and smooth voice that carried over the crowd neatly. There were a few people dancing in the crowd.
โPerhaps having you there will make me nervous.โ Mingiโs voice was barely above a whisper and I tensed when I felt his pinkie brush against my own, making me clench my hand into a fist. But a very quiet voice inside my head demanded me to accept Mingiโs subtle request, and willing my heart to stop hammering so hard in my chest, I relaxed my hand and slowly slipped it into Mingiโs. If he stopped walking for a milli-second, I didnโt say anything about it, and he also ignored it. His grip turned firm as he intertwined our fingers together, gently pulling me closer into his side as he smiled at a mother who apologised for his son almost running into us.
I gulped and kept my eyes ahead of me, too nervous to look at Mingi. Holding his hand like this meant nothing in particular, but it was a nice feeling. It made my cheeks warms and heart race. And I didnโt have to look at Mingi to know he was smiling like crazy, his cheeks just as red as mine as we came to a stop behind the dancing people.
Have I started falling for Song Mingi?
ใIt's you, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm just saying it's you, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
You, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
You're what I've been chasing
Show me where my days wentใ
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so...the festival of light scene was totally inspired by me and my bestie attending it in our city lol; it was sooo beautiful and the pictures in the moodboard were actually taken by us; also, her and I kept laughing about the romantic vibes we were getting, all in all, we had a nice time...and OFC we make everything about Ateez so :))
I wrote that LOL I'm like Mingi, tall enough to reach the top where people haven't scribbled onto yet lol
also, this is what y/n's outfit looks like for anyone wondering, except for the colors as they are the way I have described them in the scene ^^
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