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BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM
Alex Albon x Horner!Reader
Summary: Max Verstappen and Sebastian Vettel may be Christian's favorites. But Y/N Horner has her own favorites.
The Tortured Drivers' Department series
A/N: one of my favorite tracks and i hope i could give it justice. let me know what you folks think
Taglist. @tea-bobba @boiohboii @c-losur3 @haikyuen @stelena-klayley @stinkyjax @0710khj @jinimon-tr
I'll tell you something right now you ain't gotta pray for me Me and my wild boy and all of this wild joy
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LittleMissY/N what a fun winter break bonding before the 2019 season starts. aren't we cute #GiveYouButterflyWings
PierreGasly the disrespect, my face is cut off after taking so many photos of you!!!
LittleMissY/N sorry not sorry PierreGasly Seb is also upset that you didn't even include him in that photo. LittleMissY/N tell the man to make an ig first.
MaxVerstappen33 why did the rookie get a solo shot before I did???
LittleMissY/N don't be jealous maxie, atleast you're still in the family mantle MaxVerstappen33 you are not slick Y/N tsk, im telling your dad LittleMissY/N respectfully, fuck off!
Alex_Albon it was nice meeting you Y/N!
LittleMissY/N its so good to meet you too alex :))) PierreGasly suspicious behavior!
User3 enjoy your time out there with the boys!
User5 anyone notices how Y/N is literally teasing everyone and then when it comes to alex she seems shy
User7 I smell a crushhhh User9 be for real, maybe its because alex is a rookie and Y/N didn't bond well with him yet.
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LittleMissY/N dad took me to work and not bad for a rookie!
ChristianHorner I'm not taking you to work again
LittleMissY/N don't you miss me?? i thought you missed me ChristianHorner not anymore LittleMissY/N too bad, im applying for a job in f1
PierreGasly are you even watching the race??
LittleMissY/N yeah, you missed the points lmao! PierreGasly i hate you
Alex_Albon not a really good start for me but I'll try better next time!
LittleMissY/N dont stress, you have plenty more opportunities to do well! I'll see you next GP? Alex_Albon of course, I mean I'm being paid to drive that car hahaha LittleMissY/N you're funny PierreGasly are you seeing this MaxVerstappen33 MaxVerstappen33 im dying out of laughter LittleMissY/N I'm gonna pay your mechanics to miss out a few screws
User5 she is so pretty!!! how come she is christian's daughter?
User7 I met her during FP1 and girlie is so in love with a driver
User8 i think we know why Y/N is coming around the races.
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Alex_Albon happy to get some points for today! My first in my rookie year!
User2 Amazing job today Alex
User3 Alex Albon, you make us all proud!!!
LittleMissY/N GET IN THERE ALEX!!!!! BLOODY AMAZING!!! SUPERB DRIVE!!!
Alex_Albon thanks Y/N, i can hear you shouting from Red Bull to Toro Rosso LittleMissY/N this is amazing news and everyone has to hear it!!!!!
User5 alex and Y/N are so cuteeee!!! Y/N is so excited for Alex's first points
User7 anyone else ships Y/N and Alex??
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F1Fans OOF! Albon suffers a big crash during the practice session in Shanghai. Do we think choosing Albon is the right choice for this season?
User1 nasty crash, too bad that he will be missing qualifying.
User2 c'mon be a little more lenient to the guy, shanghai is a difficult track
User3 should be sacked tbh
User4 why are they allowing albon to drive? he isn't that good.
LittleMissY/N oh get over yourself. i bet you can't even drive an f1 car even if you tried. Drivers crash every now and then, Alex Albon is a fantastic driver that's why Toro Rosso got him. This is just a bad weekend for him but I'm sure he will bounce back for the actual race. User7 my surprise when I realize that its actually Y/N Horner defending Alex Albon's honor User8 we love Y/N in this household.
User9 praying for a better race results for Alex
PierreGasly posted a story...
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LittleMissY/N replied: HOW DARE YOUUU???? WHO IS THAT RAT???
LittleMissY/N but tbh thats a genuine reaction. imagine starting from p20 and ending up into p10??? LittleMissY/N OH PIERRE QUIT IGNORING ME! LittleMissY/N i hate you so much
Alex_Albon replied: oh no, what happened to her??
PierreGasly your biggest fan has a bit of a teary moments. She is currently filling up my DMs with how much of an amazing driver you are Alex_Albon that's really nice of Y/N
MaxVerstappen33 replied: man Y/N is down bad
PierreGasly i knowwww MaxVerstappen33 christian just walked in to ask if Y/N has a crush on Alex PierreGasly its so obvioussss MaxVerstappen33 well except for alex lol
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GeorgeRussell63 with my best mate Alex_Albon !!
LittleMissY/N Well hello there georgie
GeorgeRussell63 hello miss Y/N Horner, what are you doing around here?? LittleMissY/N just saw you tag alex and figured i should say hi to his bestie GeorgeRussell63 im watching you LittleMissY/N ditto :))
Alex_Albon we look good there!
LittleMissY/N you look extremely handsome there Alex MaxVerstappen33 simppppp LittleMissY/N im gonna crash your car
User5 another bestfriends making it to formula 1 together
User7 its so funny how Y/N shows up in any tagged photos of alex, miss maam you are whippedt!!!
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LittleMissY/N I'm off to crash anyone who crashes him in the next race. Mark my words!!!!!!!! Still a great drive from AA, my favorite driver <3
Alex_Albon thanks so much for the support Y/N. No need to crash to anyone
LittleMissY/N okay but my offer will always stand
PierreGasly you are sooooo down bad
LittleMissY/N I'm going to put you down
User6 is Y/N, Alex's girlfriend.
User7 i think she likes him and alex is so oblivious User9 yeah, Y/N likes alex so much LittleMissY/N shut it.
User11 i just love how supportive she is with alex being a rookie and all
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ROOKIE ALBON DEFENDS Y/N HORNER.
In a recent interview, someone made a mistake of putting Y/N Horner in a bad light. Not to worry because Toro Rosso driver, Alex Albon is there to rescue. The whole thing starts with a simple question of what does Y/N contributes to the team to which Albon answers that Y/N is the social media manager. The interviewer made the mistake of commenting how anyone could do that job. This statement seems to anger the rookie as he defends her by listing down her educational achievements and how her role is important to the team. Albon refused to answer any question with that reporter and Christian Horner has placed an indefinite ban for his drivers to speak with the reporter.
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LittleMissY/N when he defends you:
PierreGasly i would have hit that reporter's face if i was there
LittleMissY/N awww pierre, i knew you always had a soft spot for me. PierreGasly only we (max, seb, danny, and me) can make fun of you MaxVerstappen33 facts! LittleMissY/N good to know
User4 red bull boys lining up to protect their princess
User5 i swear, aren't they together yet???
GeorgeRussell63 when did i consent being posted as a meme???
LittleMissY/N since you became my new bestieeeee GeorgeRussell63 i also don't recall consenting to that LittleMissY/N its only a matter of time before you accept it.
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LittleMissY/N gonna miss you so much pierreeeeeee anw time to transfer to red bull
User4 not the black and white photo
User5 its so weird to swap teammates in the middle of the season
PierreGasly dumbass.
LittleMissY/N I'll continue cheering you on always PierreGasly aren't you the sweetest? LittleMissY/N this is available for a limited time only
Alex_Albon thanks for the welcome again to RB maxverstappen33 LittleMissY/N
PierreGasly hey i gave you my seat, a little thank u would be great Alex_Albon thank you Pierre LittleMissY/N stop fighting alex, he is so kind PierreGasly oh c'mon!!!! MaxVerstappen33 mate, Y/N will always drop us for Alex. Dont forget that LittleMissY/N smartest person as ever Max
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Alex_Albon the car is feeling really good for my first race in Red Bull. Good race from p14 to p5!
LittleMissY/N PROUD OF YOU ALEX!!! THAT WAS AN AMAZING DRIVE
User1 i swear Y/N you have notifs on for alex Alex_Albon thank you Y/N!!!
User3 Alex really deserves to be moved up with that RB seat
User4 RB proving themselves to be a big challenge to Mercedes this year
User5 sucks that max dnf this race, just imagine the next race where they can be stronger!!!!
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LittleMissY/N i hate corona so much but im facetiming my bestfriend Alex and life seems a little bit better. Stay safe everyone
PierreGasly my beSTfrIend Alex
LittleMissY/N go to hell Pierre PierreGasly lolololollllll whippedt culture
User5 im pretty sure you miss the races as much as we do
LittleMissY/N for real but we have to make sure that its safe to race again
User5 queen Y/N!
User8 i love their little livestream on twitch every now and then. Its the best thing to pass time
User10 love you queen Y/N
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LittleMissY/N BACK TO RACING AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
Alex_Albon quite excited to support us again?
LittleMissY/N of course, im red bull's biggest fan! MaxVerstappen33 red bull fan or alex albon fan? LittleMissY/N its good for you to know your place luv
User7 ITS RACE WEEKEND!!!
User8 look at them wearing masks, you should all do that too
User9 i cant tell you how much i missed races
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F1Fans ICYMI, Checo Perez is getting that second Red Bull seat in 2021.
User1 wow checo??? congrats man!
User2 what about alex???
User3 im pretty sure a certain Horner is not happy with the decision User4 Im actually waiting for her reaction
LittleMissY/N AND THIS IS HOW I WILL FIND OUT????
LittleMissY/N you broke this family apart ChristianHorner LittleMissY/N BUT WHY???? User7 Y/N is just like us for real
User8 good riddance for albon, max needs a better teammate
User10 the only reason why albon has this seat is because Y/N Horner likes him a lot. LittleMissY/N everything that alex does is based on his pure talent. My dad won't even let me into meetings that's why im just as surprised as everyone regarding this decision. and fyi im gonna send this to my lawyers. User9 don't play with Y/N when it comes to alex.
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LittleMissY/N Grill the grid episode, the one where I made them cook for my birthday
ChristianHorner happy birthday dear
User1 happy birthday to our queen, i hope lando made something edible for you!
User3 look at Y/N's birthday full of red bull current, former, and reserve drivers
PierreGasly sorry I couldn't make it but happy birthday to my soul sister
MaxVerstappen1 hoping for more birthdays for you Y/N
Schecoperez happy birthday hermana!
CarlosSainz55 Happy birthday little miss Y/N
Alex_Albon Happy birthday Y/N, hope you like your birthday!
LittleMissY/N thanks alex <3 User4 everyone been commenting on her post but she only responded to alex User9 girlie u r so whipped!!!
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GeorgeRussell63 I wish you can get a seat next year mate
User5 i know, i think alex is wasting his potential being red bull's reserve driver
User7 right?? checo's chemistry with max is really good and i dont think christian will sacrifice that User8 i just want a decent team for alex
LittleMissY/N Are you cooking something georgie?
GeorgeRussell63 that depends, are you helping? LittleMissY/N for our common friend, absolutely User9 now what does this mean???? User10 anyone wanna tell me what's george and y/n conspiring together???
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F1Fans No news about Albon's contract in 2022 and today we have seen Albon talking with Christian. It doesn't seem like its about contract renewal.
User2 anyone wanna bet that Christian is talking to Alex about Y/N
User3 what is going on, where will Alex be in 2022
User4 if alex switches teams then would Y/N switch too?
User5 i mean she already did it with toro rosso and red bull User6 but this is like the same group. What if Albon goes to Mercedes or McLaren, would Y/N join there too?? User7 blood is thicker than water everyone User5 i dont think yall understand how much of a simp Y/N is that she can go anywhere Alex goes.
User9 i just want alex to be in an f1 seat in 2022.
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LittleMissY/N new hair, new color!
MaxVerstappen1 booooooooo!!! navy blue supremacy
LittleMissY/N i won't be taking any fashion advice from the man who literally wears only Red Bull merch. MaxVerstappen1 hey once upon a time you were always wearing our team merch especially when its no. 23 LittleMissY/N have fun crashing in the next race.
WilliamsRacing we like the color! Suits you!
User1 what is going onnnnn User2 i think alex is transferring to williams RedBullRacing im watching you
RedBullRacing we miss you queen!
LittleMissY/N aww, miss you!
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WilliamsRacing Albon joins Williams for 2022! He will be partnering up with Nicholas Latifi, who retains his seat.
LittleMissY/N LETS GO!!!!!! FINALLY, ALBON BACK IN AN F1 SEAT
User1 Trying to beat Y/N in commenting and liking first, failed.
User3 so this is what george and Y/N is cooking.
User8 goodluck to alex!!!
User7 hoping that this time around, he can stick around for the long run.
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Alex_Albon seas the day
User1 OMG BOYFRIEND ALEX????
User3 i think my bestie Y/N is crying somewhere rn
User4 i didn't expect alex has a girlfriend
User5 alex?? what are you doing?? this isn't Y/N
User7 have fun at your vacation alex!!!1
MaxVerstappen1 mate, who is she??
PierreGasly you should have warned us you were softlaunching someone
CarlosSainz55 congrats with the relationship bro!
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Alex_Albon exploring the city with her.
User5 she takes so good photos of alex!
User7 queen Y/N its been 36 days since you last commented
User8 i fear girlie is heartbroken User9 i hope Y/N is okay
User10 alex and his girl are so perfect together
MaxVerstappen1 who is she alex??? cmon answer your phone
PierreGasly I swear were not sent by Christian to ask about this new girl of yours
WilliamsRacing pretty girl for a pretty boy!
Alex_Albon indeed <3
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LittleMissY/N unbothered queen, so sorry for stabbing you GirlInRed
GirlInRed it hurts kind of little but anything for your therapy
User4 not Y/N fake stabbing someone because of Alex's girl
User6 this is so funny, Y/N
User8 so beautiful! you deserve better
MaxVerstappen1 well you know violence isn't always the answer.
LittleMissY/N oh really coming from you? MaxVerstappen1 cmon, I'll pick you up. Tell me where you are and lets talk LittleMissY/N i don't need to talk, im happy where i am
PierreGasly are you sure you're okay?
LittleMissY/N I have answered you a hundred times, im fine!!!!! PierreGasly Im still getting you ice cream LittleMissY/N awww pierre, you didn't have to
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Alex_Albon merry christmas everybody!
MaxVerstappen1 hold up, did i miss a chapter or something???
PierreGasly is this a joke or something???
User4 I thought you have a girlfriend???
User7 all along its Y/N??? IT WAS Y/N ALL ALONG?
User9 lucky lucky lucky
GeorgeRussell63 FINALLY! I have been laughing so much with all the conspiracy online
MaxVerstappen1 you knew and you never even told us??? LandoNorris mate why didn't you even tell me? I thought we are 2019 rookies trio Alex_Albon sorry mates, i just have to keep this a secret a little longer
WilliamsRacing what a happy couple, so can we post your photos now?
RedBullRacing she is still our girl WilliamsRacing i think you should ask her about that
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LittleMissY/N thankful for almost a year and a half with you
User4 what??? A YEAR AND A HALF???
User7 this is probably going on ever since Alex has moved to Williams
User8 my romeo and juliet!
ChristianHorner why am i not informed that it has been this long?
LittleMissY/N but daddy i love him :< ChristianHorner no. LittleMissY/N but what if im carrying his baby? ChristianHorner jesus christ, tell me you are kidding. LittleMissY/N i am but see it could be worse. i mean we just hid our relationship and not an entire family. ChristianHorner fine. invite him over and lets talk LittleMissY/N yay!!!
MaxVerstappen1 who knew you could keep a secret for that long???
PierreGasly Im more surprised that she was able to bag alex, are you sure you are perfectly sane Alex_Albon? Alex_Albon well I really really love her LittleMissY/N alex :< you used the love word Alex_Albon i mean you should have been used to it when you hear it everyday from when you wake up and before you fall asleep MaxVerstappen1 YOU TWO MAKE ME SICKKKKKK!!!!! NOT IN MY COMMENT SECTION
User10 folks i think we should apply to Y/N's school of being down bad and manifesting their dream partner
User15 what a lovely couple they are, goals!!!
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ื… ๊ขพ๊ฃ’ find the MASTERLIST here.
PREVIEW. you always get what you want, spoiled with the love of everyone around you. and it's all innocent love, at least that's what everyone thinks. it comes with much surprise therefore, when heeseung makes a move on you. thirteen long years of being in the brother zone having made him utterly clueless that if heโ€™s going to date you he has to pass through your actual brothers first. and he knows how scary they can be. especially since they are known to have a sister complex and heโ€™s been the third scary one with them, numerous times before.
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๐ˆ check out the PROFILES.
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PLS READ THE CONTENT BELOW ALL THE CHARACTER INFO IS LISTED IN JUST THIS ONE POST !
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๐ˆ๐ˆ tune in to the CHARACTER INTERVIEWS ( given by the characters themselves ! )
CHOI YN 20 ( fashion ), well what do i say? hello everyone i'm choi yn! im sure everyone knows me already ^^ .. what else do i say? hmm i love my life a lot! i love my brothers and heeseung and wonie so much, they are the closest people in my life! oh shit sorry riki too hehe oops. college has been fun since im doing exactly what i wanted and it's fun to hangout with won all the time. seungie brings me snacks all the time and binnie lets me eat cakes everyday even though junnie has scolded them not to cause i easily get dental problems and then he has to convince be to go to the dentist, eww.
LEE HEESEUNG 23 ( film ), if you ever stop hearing from me, please know that my day has come and i have chosen to be exposed. as much as jun and soobs love me, and as much as they love tiny(my yn, she's just real cute) if i ever dare speak of that kind of love with tiny in the same sentence it's my last moment on earth. jay and taehyun help a lot and i'd give everything to thank them for it but man they still haven't been able to actually help me get with yn?
CHOI SOOBIN 24 ( law school ), yes my sister is my everything, each one of her wishes no matter how stupid and idiotic they are, must be fulfilled. i think i was like ten when ynie said being a lawyer would be so cool, and it's been my life's motto now. law school kicks my ass yeah but whenever i think of how happy she'd be to see me as a badass lawyer it feels like nothing. i could easily help her win the divorce that's a plus point, i think i should start looking into divorce attorney things.
CHOI YEONJUN 25 ( model ), i swear scaring away my baby sister's admirers is one of my full time jobs besides runaway modelling but alas she is my sister of course she's a beauty. i know she will date and marry a motherfucking guy one day, and i won't be able to stop it but i hope that day takes the longest time to come. she was one of the first ones to say how good my dressing style was, if it wasnt for her i would not be one of the rising faces in the fashion scene today.
PARK JAY 22 ( music production ), being lee heeseung's childhood friend has been my life's greatest downfall. and being his emergency contact number one is probably the biggest mistake of my life. it's so so so infuriating to see him do nothing and panic over the fact that some might sweep her off her feet right before his eyes like fucker you gotta sweep her off her feet rather than worrying over how someone else might sweep her off her feet. taehyun probably understands me.
SIM JAKE 22 ( physics ), it's fun, so so fun i can not express it verbally man, 'm having a blast! there's so many new things to learn i am so happy with my major and my astronomy club thing is going so well too, it's been amazing so far. the only thing i dont like is my mates ignoring me, like i tell them about all these quantum mechanics things and how it's works like it's legit the coolest thing ever and they don't wanna listen me and then come to me for help with assignments like dude? there's no give and take here and it's not high school anymore? but i do it cause im nice :)
PARK SUNGHOON 22 ( communications ), first of all i gotta thank my man taehyun for letting me copy off of him to pass my semesters so far. as a full time commercial and photoshoot model, college is just a side quest for me at this point, just need an arm candy degree to show that i am infact educated contrary to what people think. oh and i'd like to tell this, don't tell anyone, i actually know all the drama going on and it's so funny but i gotta stay low if i wanna be safe. sometimes i do think of stirring things up but yeonjun man he scares me, i better be on his good side.
KIM SUNOO 21 ( journalism ), for real god am i the only one working my ass off here cause why the hell all these dicks be fucking up their lives and copying off people to survive like? look at me, every little gossip on campus and you know who to go to get the full info! exactly how it should be for a journalism major. i swear i am doing all the shit ass work here. i admit i slip sometimes especially with heeseung's secret in front of god forbidden yn but 'm just a human, and humans make mistakes yk? and please tell kai to fuck off please, thank you.
YANG JUNGWON 20 ( fashion ), it's a different feeling when three guys trust you with their precious sister. and it's a different feeling when that precious real spoiled girl treats you like the best buddy she could ever have. but it's not so fortunate when you gotta dash to protect anytime the brothers ping you, it's like a national secret agency part time job and it's the hardest thing when the target is someone like yn. i treasure her a lot, as a friend! yes, yet the times when her brothers get jealous of me are some of the most nerve wrecking times.
NISHIMURA RIKI 20 ( photography ), are we surprised here? no wtf have y'all not seen the pics i post on my twt like i got talent you have to accept it. especially a lot of talent in gaming and luck, my luck be through the roofff. just started lol a year ago and my YouTube Chanel six months ago and im already almost a diamond and about to hit a million subscribers.. talk about god's favorite! ha that's me. but the thing is more than that i wanna be yn's favorite like i know she says won and i are same but i know that kitty is closer. for now i like being glued to yn, but after figuring out things so easily it's hard to keep quiet.
CHOI BEOMGYU 23 ( film ), with the amount of hate train behind me it's a miracle i am still breathing and in one piece. praying all this ends quickly and my life is returned back to me or i'll go crazy it has been like what two? three? years already! i need my freedom. i can count and name with my fingers the people who hate me. actually no it's everyone. anyways, i share all classes with heeseung and lord is it the scariest part of my life. at least yeonjun and soobin would need time to hunt me down but lee heeseung? he's right behind me two rows, staring down my every movement. look it's not my fault okay?
KANG TAEHYUN 22 ( communications ), it wasn't consensual. it is very important to clear this up. i did not give my papers to park sunghoon by choice. he had to pay me hefty for that so there's no thank you man, dude is pretending. and i am fucking sick of covering for heeseung all the time like dude grow balls, real balls dig up some manly guts and fucking do it before i lose patience and fuck shit up. every moment of listening to him lamenting over his feelings is the most frustrating shit ever. make him hear this one for god's fucking sake.
HUENING KAI 22 ( journalism ), no matter how much everyone denies it, i know they won't survive a day without me like? i provide sunoo with all the gossip of our side? how else do you think heeseung sneaks around yeonbin with his feelings? god it's me i do the passing the parcel of info. i mean taehyun is also involved with them but then i am more useful than that reality check of a guy, i mean who needs reality when you can live in a fantasy! hehe i just outdid everyone with that! or not anyway moving on yn's crโ€” SUNOO: shut the fuck up bitch!
๐ˆ๐ˆ๐ˆ learn about THE GROUPCHATS.
01. HEEYN TRUTHERS heeseung, jay, jake, sunghoon, taehyun and sunoo: the group that has been supporting heeseung in pursuing his feelings since he first revealed it to them. for whenever he fucks up and they have to discuss how to save his ass. normal chats happen too.
02. BOSS BABIES yn, jungwon, riki: the trio that has been friends since middle school, and sticks together. yn spends most of her time with them, that is in college. often goes out to hangout and these two are yn's only actual friends!
03. SHOOTERZ 4 YN yeonjun, soobin, heeseung and jungwon: they use this chat to text each other whenever someone upsets yn or she's going somewhere alone and they need jungwon to secretly tag along to give them updates later.
04. PRINCESS & HER KNIGHTS yn, yeonjun, soobin and heeseung: the main starsโ€” spoiled baby and her overprotective boys. usually text her when it has to do something with the four of them, like when yn goes out or she needs someone to pick her up or accompany her or when they have dinner at each other's place and someone's missing and likewise.
05. PSYCHOS W/ SICKOS yeonjun, soobin, beomgyu, taehyun, huening kai and heeseung: well this is heeseung's other friend group with the yn brothers' friends that become his own after a while. this is yeonbin dominated friend group chat and beomgyu is main character lmao
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Love Me Like A Rockstar (9)
Chapter 9: You (Show Me Where My Days Went)
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Author: bvidzsoo
Pairing: Song Mingi x female reader
Warning: cursing
Word count: 9.8k
Genre: university!au, enemies to lovers!au, rockstar!au
Summary: Love. You wanted none of it. You had already been heartbroken very badly once, you didn't wish to go through that ever again. But the Universe works in intricate ways and, somehow, you found yourself webbed up in a local rockstar's life, Song Mingi. He was everything you expected him to be, yet nothing like you imagined him he would be. What happens when you find mutual understanding and have heartful conversations? Will he be able to break down your walls? Will you be able to chase away his darkness?
A/N: Hi, lovelies!! LMLAR is BACK!! I am sooo happy I could finally update and just write, y'all have no idea! I am so sorry for making you wait so long for this update, but finishing my thesis was super important! I still have to study and such this month, but I promise next update won't take as long as this one did! (I'm writing other stories too while writing this one, so that kinda backfires sometimes lol) I am forever grateful that you are patient and stick around for the new chapters, this story is so dear to me you wouldn't even believe it. I am also super grateful and happy whenever you leave feedback, so please, keep on doing just that!<3 This chapter only exists because I was randomly inspired, and I'd like to apologize if it's a little rusty, I always have to get in "character" when I write this story lol. I am soo excited for next chapter, I think it's going to surprise you hehe. PLS PLS imagine that airport look from Mingi when reading this chapter, the pics from the moodboard, you'll see during which part! I also have a very small surprise at the end of this chapter hehe. I hope the time jumps aren't too confusing:(( Please, listen to the song called You before or while reading! Enough yapping, I hope you enjoy and leave feedback! (Taglist is always open for those interested! ^^)
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Later that day
I hate him: heyโ€ฆjust checking in that I got home safely what are u up to?
I blinked, fingers tightening around my phone before I locked it, leaving the message on unread. My motherโ€™s shuffling outside my door caught my attention, bringing a smile onto my lips as I watched her struggle while bringing all the dirty laundry to the bathroom. Then, I got off my bed to go help her.
Friday (11:30 am)
I hate him: i see u still havenโ€™t checked my messageโ€ฆ nothing too worrisome u certainly know how to make a man yearn for you lol that was a jokeโ€ฆdont freak out on me pls (lowkey true tho)
Friday (12:50 pm)
I hate him: lol, wooyoung has been bitching about seulgiโ€™s professor for half an hour now mr. kwon u know him? i meanโ€ฆi suppose he also teaches u i should take a sneaky video for uโ€ฆwooyoung looks like a clown hanging upside down my bed and pouting like a damn child too (dont say im also one, thanks)
Friday (15:26 pm)
I hate him: wellโ€ฆik my messages are going through so uhโ€ฆ why tf are u ignoring me???! *cries and dies in loneliness* entertain me dollll!!! im so bored pls ohโ€ฆu said u had an important assignmentโ€ฆi bet uโ€™re busy with that sorry for spamming u (text back tho when uโ€™re done, im dying hereโ€ฆwooyoung is with seulgi and so is seonghwa with hongjoongโ€ฆthe single life sucks, bestieโ€ฆlets be single and depressed together<3)
My jaw clenched as I heaved a long sigh, falling back on my bed as the sun shone brightly through my open window, the light breeze making me shiver as I only wore a t-shirt and sweats. Autumn was slowly turning into winter; the weather wasnโ€™t so warm anymore. I threw another look at my phone, unlocked it, and stared at the received messages from Mingi for a second before finally deciding to delete them from my notification center, rolling over in bed to muffle a frustrated scream into my soft, and purple, pillow.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Saturday (9:09 am)
I hate him: i had the weirdest dream and im not even sure i want to tell u about it LOL but uhโ€ฆa grisly was chasing me??? and then u appeared on a fucking white horse like a prince LOL and threatened to likeโ€ฆslay it if it didnt leave me alone??? honestlyโ€ฆwhat a slay, bestie good morning, btw, doll hope u had a better nightโ€™s sleep than me (and dreamed of me ehehehe)
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Saturday (17:40 pm)
I hate him: i cant believe i allowed myself to be fooled like this back in highschool yuyu and i used to play baseball for shits and giggles and hongjoong (that rich prick) rented a whole ass baseball field for us for the afternoon and let us play with some of his (rich af) friends and uhโ€ฆ i think i wont be able to walk straight for another week with how much running i didโ€ฆ hongjoong kept scoring homerunsโ€ฆi wish yuyu was here to kick his loser ass (dont tell hwa or hong i said that PLS) yo dollโ€ฆeverythingโ€™s alright with u? uh uโ€ฆreally havent answered me sinceโ€ฆ ykโ€ฆi stayed over and waited for the rain to stopโ€ฆ have i done something wrong?
I sighed and put my phone on โ€˜do not disturbโ€™, suddenly having lost all of my appetite as I forced the rest of the lettuce down my throat. My mother was sipping her kiwi and apple smoothie, eyes narrowed as she muttered to herself while trying to memorize the recipe of a dessert for later. Desserts were never her forte, unfortunately.
โ€œIs it Seulgi?โ€ She asked absentmindedly as I took a large gulp of my own smoothie, staring down at my salad, steak pushed to the side in my plate.
โ€œHuh?โ€ I asked distracted, eyes still glued to the dark screen of my phone.
โ€œTexting you, your phone keeps buzzing, my starlight.โ€ I rolled my eyes at the nickname, but didnโ€™t bother to comment on it. I took a peek at my mother and her eyes were narrowed at me already, video on YouTube paused. Fuck, I had to answer her now or else sheโ€™d pester me all day long. And that would be a nightmare.
โ€œYeah, itโ€™s Seulgi.โ€ I lied, trying to make my voice sound convincing.
โ€œWell, answer her then, donโ€™t be rude.โ€ My mother chastised me, pressing play on her video again, pursing her lips as she shook her head at whatever the man baking was saying.
โ€œLater.โ€ I whispered, biting my lower lip as my eyes remained glued to my phone, stomach clenching and heart dropping.
But I couldnโ€™t.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Sunday (1:01 am)
I hate him: โ€ฆyouโ€™re ignoring me, arent u? im sorry, y/n, i dont know what i did wrong, but we can talk about it weโ€™re friends, after allโ€ฆright?
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ใ€ŽWhen you came along, I knew what was wrong
If you want to know exactly what I've missedใ€
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Monday (present time)
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  It truly would have been a missed opportunity if Seulgi and I wouldnโ€™t have grabbed coffee and went to sit in our usual spot in the back garden. The campus of our University was huge and that was perfect, because it meant people migrated and didnโ€™t stay in one spot for longโ€”at least long enough to irritate me to no end. Last week deemed to be rather rough, and I still didnโ€™t feel like completely myself. To be honest, I thought about staying home todayโ€”and for the rest of the weekโ€”but I couldnโ€™t afford missing any of my classes as exam period was slowly nearing, and so, I had to force my ass out of the house this morning before my mother could come and nag me about my weirdly unusual broody mood that has been going on for the past few days.
I hummed as I took a sip of my sweet coffee, enjoying the taste of warm caramel as Seulgi sighed loudly next to me, both hands cupped around her own coffee cup. The scent of cinnamon wafted from her cup and I scrunched up my nose, not too fond of the ingredientโ€™s smell. Our classes started early in the morning today and weโ€™d be here for at least four more hours, caffeine seemed like our only hope to stay awake and aware at this point. Given the fact that my baffling thoughts kept me up all night yesterday, I felt grateful that I was still on my feet at two oโ€™clock at noon. As Seulgi fidgeted again, I chuckled and finally turned my head to look at her. She had a sheepish look on her face, and I tried not to laugh as I knew she was bursting to tell me all about her date with Wooyoung on Saturday.
โ€œWell,โ€ I started as I took a sip of my coffee, prolonging the suspense for her, โ€œhow did your date go?โ€
โ€œIt was amazing!โ€ I had barely finished asking as Seulgi exclaimed, her cheeks turning rosyโ€”and it wasnโ€™t due to the cold air, โ€œWooyoung isโ€”everything I thought he would be. Heโ€™s sweet and up for anything, he makes me laugh until I feel like passing out, and thereโ€™s just never a dull moment with him, you know?โ€
โ€œOne would expect that from him.โ€ I muttered against my cup, laughing as Seulgi nudged my side, not looking too happy with my comment, โ€œOh, come on, it would be hard for Wooyoung to be different than the way he mostly presents himself; donโ€™t you think?โ€
Seulgi grumbled something against her cup as she lightly bit into the carton, shooting me a pointed stare, โ€œWell, yes, butโ€ฆhe makes me happy. Treats me well and all that, you know, heโ€™s the perfect embodiment of what a boyfriend should be like.โ€
โ€œBoyfriend, huh?โ€ I teased with a smirk, wriggling my eyebrows at my best friend as her cheeks flushed an even darker color as she bit her lower lip, trying to mask the huge grin expanding on her lips. But as soon as I started giggling, Seulgi also broke out in a fit of giggles, hiding herself behind her wavy hair, pressing her cup of coffee against her face.
โ€œGod, Iโ€™m so down bad for him, Y/N, I donโ€™t think youโ€™d understand.โ€ She mused, voice airy as she threw her head back, leaning back against the back of the bench. I chuckled and took another sip of my drink.
โ€œMaybe Iโ€™d do.โ€ I muttered, memories of my relationship with Yunho resurfacing. Thankfully, however, I managed to repress them as quickly as they came. They didnโ€™t feel so gut-wrenching anymore, and to my surprise, didnโ€™t leave a bitter taste in its wake either. What has changed? Certainlyโ€”certainly getting closer to his best friend didnโ€™t influence the way I feel about Yunho, right? Right.
โ€œSo,โ€ I glanced at Seulgi from the corner of my eyes as she swung her legs, looking down at her feet in the process, โ€œhow are you?โ€
โ€œFine, why?โ€ I asked confused, angling my body to face Seulgi better.
โ€œYouโ€™ve beenโ€ฆdistant the whole weekend. I could barely reach you.โ€ Seulgiโ€™s voice sounded small and I gulped, feeling bad for making her worry about me, โ€œYou knowโ€ฆthe last time you pulled away and disappeared, it was bad.โ€
โ€œI promise you I am doing completely fine, Seulgi, youโ€™d be the first person to know if I was in a bad headspace again, alright?โ€ I reached out and grabbed her hand, squeezing it reassuringly. Seulgi sighed and then raised her head to look at me, lips pulled into a thin line.
โ€œPromise?โ€
โ€œOf course, I promise.โ€ I smiled at her warmly and she hummed in contentment, squeezing my hand back as she took a sip of her coffee. I followed suit before removing my hand from hers to fiddle with my half empty cup, โ€œIโ€™m just dealing with some things right now. I think Iโ€™m confused.โ€
โ€œAbout what?โ€ Seulgi asked curiously, leaning closer as I continued to avoid eye contact with her.
โ€œIโ€™ll tell you once I have my thoughts sorted about it.โ€ I chuckled, making Seulgi roll her eyes in displeasure.
โ€œYou know, I tell you absolutely everything about myself and how I fell, and you always shut me out and tell me how you felt about a situation when itโ€™s been over for years.โ€ Seulgi pouted, narrowing her eyes at me, โ€œHowโ€™s that fair, Y/N?โ€
โ€œHey, we work differently, donโ€™t try to guilt trip me now.โ€ I chuckled and took a sip of my coffee, making Seulgi roll her eyes, โ€œAnyways, what did you do on your date with Wooyoung?โ€
โ€œWe went to the cinema,โ€ Seulgiโ€™s face lit up once again, grinning from ear to ear, โ€œHe bought me roses, a big bouquet. And after the movie we went for a walk and ended up stargazing in his cabriolet. It was really romantic.โ€
I smiled, feeling happy for my friend, she deserved someone like Wooyoung, โ€œThat actually sounds really amazingโ€ฆand romantic.โ€
โ€œOh, my God, are you really Y/N? Where is my friend that hates anything that has to do with romance, cute stuff, and love?!โ€ Seulgiโ€™s shocked face was mocking and I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms in front of my chest as I leaned back against the back of the bench.
โ€œI donโ€™t hate it, Iโ€™m just not a huge fan of all of those things, okay?!โ€ I shrugged, letting my arms fall from my chest as I pushed them inside my coatโ€™s pockets.
โ€œWhoโ€™s the culprit?โ€ When I raised my eyebrows at Seulgi, a sign that I didnโ€™t understand her question, she chuckled and leaned closer, โ€œWhoโ€™s the man thatโ€™s changing your views on life, huh?โ€
โ€œMan?โ€ I asked with a scoff, giving Seulgi a deadpanned expression, โ€œDoes it always have to be about a man? Canโ€™t it be just the fact that I had a change of mind?โ€
โ€œSure, because of someone.โ€ Seulgi had a smug look on her face, acting as if she won the argument. But there was no argument here and she had no idea what she was talking about.
โ€œWhateverโ€”โ€ But I got cut off as her phone dinged loudly. Seulgi, very comically, scrambled to reach for her phone and as she opened it up, a wide grin stretched onto her lips. It didnโ€™t take two braincells to realize who had texted her, and thus, I chuckled and turned my head. I sipped my coffee, taking in my environment while Seulgi answered her boyfriend, giggling quietly every now and then.
The campus was finally silent and not as busy as it usually was in the early morning hours. The cold weather also helped in keeping the garden a little quieter as most people preferred to stay inside the warm corridors and classrooms. But the chilly air was good, it soothed my nerves and erased thoughts that werenโ€™t productive. Similar to that, were the emotions that I didnโ€™t want to deal with again, like the guilt thatโ€™s never left me ever since Mingi walked out of my house wearing Yunhoโ€™s old clothes. It felt wrong letting him take them without knowing the truth about them, but I didnโ€™t feel ready to tell him yet about the truth. I was scared, surprisingly, of what heโ€™d think of me once he found out about Yunho and I. I was scared thatโ€”heโ€™d walk away, like Yunho had once done. And that was a very frightening thought. But when had I become so attached to Mingi? When has Mingi managed to infiltrate himself so thoroughly in my life, that the thought of completely losing him became scary? And why was I taking the past few days so badly? Itโ€™s not like we were as close as Seulgi and I, or him and Seonghwa and Wooyoung, yet, ignoring him felt like the wrong move to do. However, the reasoning I always circled back to was the fact that I needed space. I had to clear my mind, to find the purpose of this whole friendship thatโ€™s been blooming between us, and to make sense of everything. I had to figure out first why Yunho barely scraped my thoughts now, and why was it was Mingi who I found myself thinking of so often. In case you were wondering, no, I still havenโ€™t found the reason, and it was becoming frustrating quite quickly. That near kiss was aโ€”mistake. Yet, it could have been so much worseโ€”it could have been a real kiss. And a real kiss would have ruined everything. I didnโ€™t want to open up to anyone just yet, not when the memories of Yunho still haunted me in my dreams and drawings. Drawings that now more often than not consisted of Song Mingi.
And to my horror, the flipping of paper sheets is what alerted me back to my surroundings as I had been lost in my thoughts, oblivious to Seulgi putting her phone down and grabbing my sketchbook that lay between the two of us on the bench. As I turned my head, my eyes widened as Seulgiโ€™s expression held surprise but amusement as well. She chuckled as she looked up, making eye contact with me. I lunged forward in an instant, trying to take my sketchbook out of her hands, but she leaned back and away, putting it behind herself.
โ€œBitch, Iโ€™m not the only one whoโ€™s down bad for a man.โ€ She said with a laugh, making me groan as I gave up trying to snatch my sketchbook back from her.
โ€œIโ€™m not down bad for a man, Seulgi, stop this non-sense.โ€ I hissed, cheeks burning in embarrassment as she kept flipping through my drawings.
โ€œPlease,โ€ She scoffed, turning my sketchbook around and making me grimace as I came face to face with an exact replica of Mingi, sitting in his chair, at his studio that one time he invited me inside, โ€œWho the fuck draws so many drawings of one single person if they arenโ€™t in love with themโ€”โ€
โ€œIโ€™m not in love with Mingi, stop it!โ€ I exclaimed, heart beating fast as Seulgi raised her eyebrows at me, looking unimpressed, โ€œDonโ€™t ever again say that, Seulgi.โ€
โ€œOkay, calm down, whatever. Youโ€™re not in love with Mingi.โ€ She chuckled, closing my sketchbook but she didnโ€™t hand it back yet, โ€œBut letโ€™s face it, Y/N, you have a thing for Mingi. Itโ€™s super freaking obvious even without the drawings.โ€
โ€œWhat the hell are you talking about?โ€ I hissed and finally snatched the sketchbook out of her hands, clutching it to my chest. I knew bringing this along today would turn out to be a mistake, and here I was, facing the repercussions of my actions.
โ€œThereโ€™s this glint in your eyes whenever you look at himโ€”โ€
โ€œYeah, itโ€™s called dislike.โ€ I scoffed, rolling my eyes.
โ€œAnd I see how you struggle to refrain yourself from smiling when youโ€™re around himโ€”โ€
โ€œBitch, be for real, Mingi and I arenโ€™t even often together around you for you to notice that.โ€ I scoffed, completely appealed by whatever absurd claims my best friend was making.
โ€œSo youโ€™re not denying itโ€”would it really be so bad if you liked Mingi?โ€ But Seulgi ignored all my interruption as she raised her eyebrows at me, smiling softly, โ€œHeโ€™s a nice guy. Very well-mannered and with a big, and good heart. Wooyoung loves him a lot and is always worrying about him. He says Mingi hasnโ€™t been the same ever since his best friend moved away for collegeโ€”โ€
โ€œMingi is Yunhoโ€™s best friend!โ€ I blurted out before I could stop myself, finally feeling like a stone was taken off my chest as I bit my lower lip, averting my eyes from Seulgiโ€™s shocked expression, โ€œMingi is the best friend Yunho had always talked so much about while we were together. Iโ€”do you understand why it would be so bad if I ended up liking Mingi?โ€
โ€œY/N,โ€ Seulgi whispered, eyebrows furrowed, โ€œfor how long have you know?โ€
โ€œLong enough.โ€ I muttered before clearing my throat, โ€œSo please understand that Iโ€™m not ready for whatever the hell me drawing all those sketches of Mingi could mean. A month ago I was close to bursting out crying even at the thought of Yunho, and now I fail to remember his existence on my best days.โ€
When I dared take a peek at Seulgi, she was smiling softly, almost proudly, โ€œFine, Iโ€™ll pester you about this later on, when youโ€™ve figured things out, but until thenโ€”you canโ€™t deny Mingi isnโ€™t hotโ€”โ€
โ€œCan we stop talking about Minโ€”โ€
โ€œHi, girls!โ€ I jumped in fright at the overly excited and shrill greeting as both Seulgi and I turned our heads to be met withโ€ฆWooyoung and Mingi. Speak of the devil. Suddenly, there was a lump in my throat, and my heart started beating just a little bit faster as my eyes fell on Mingiโ€™s tall form. It didnโ€™t help that underneath his coat he was wearing Yunhoโ€™s sweaterโ€”the one I had given him.
โ€œHi.โ€ Seulgi giggled as Wooyoung leaned down to press a kiss against her cheek, the two looking sickly in love. It was actually endearing, but Iโ€™d never admit it out loud for my own sake as I knew Iโ€™d get teased about it by Seulgi. I averted my eyes from Wooyoung and Seulgi as they were muttering things to each other, and so, had no choice but to look up at Mingi, who lookedโ€”expressionless. Something in my stomach dropped at his cold demeanor, and it was worse that I wanted to assume it was my fault that he looked like that. But just as I was about to look away, he cracked the tiniest smile ever, and I exhaled, licking my lips.
โ€œHi.โ€ My voice was small as I gulped, eyes trans-fixated on the tall man as his smile became just a little wider. I donโ€™t think I had the power to ignore him anymore, not when he was standing right in front of me, looking like he wished to be anywhere but here.
โ€œHi, Y/N.โ€ Having not heard his voice in days, it sounded even deeper and raspier than usually, making butterflies erupt in my stomach as my grip tightened around my sketchbook. I felt a little awkward, perhaps even tense, as Mingi didnโ€™t say anything else, just continued gazing down at me with his sharp dark brown eyes boring into my own. I had so many things that I couldโ€™ve said to him, but I felt tongue tied. I didnโ€™t know what would be the right way to approach him after I ignored him for so many days. Would he understand? Is he mad at me now? Does he hate me now? Will he forgive meโ€”
โ€œOkay,โ€ Wooyoung chuckled, syllable drawn out and sounding amused, โ€œI feel like Iโ€™m interrupting something here, yet they are basically just staring at each other.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re right.โ€ Seulgi giggled, and I finally looked away from Mingi, throwing a glare at my best friend as she had leaned into Wooyoungโ€™s side, who stood next to the bench and her.
โ€œShush, you two.โ€ Mingi beat me to telling the two love-birds off, and I couldnโ€™t help but smile, โ€œDonโ€™t poke your nose where it doesnโ€™t belong to.โ€
โ€œLook whoโ€™s lecturing me about poking my nose where it doesnโ€™t belong toโ€”โ€
โ€œWooyoung.โ€ Mingiโ€™s tone held a warning, and it made Wooyoung giggle as he leaned down and pressed a fat kiss against Seulgiโ€™s cheekโ€”againโ€”making her push him away playfully.
โ€œWeโ€™re headed to class, are you coming over later?โ€ Wooyoung smiled down at his girlfriend, playing with a strand of her hair.
โ€œMaybe, if I get to finish my project.โ€ Seulgi said with a pout and Wooyoung hummed, leaning down to press a kiss against her lips this time around. I averted my eyes, not a fan of seeing couples kiss, only to catch Mingi already looking at me. He was expressionless once again, but he was fidgeting with his fingers, looking almost nervous. And as Wooyoung stood up straight and ruffled Seulgiโ€™s hair affectionately, Mingi took a deep breath.
โ€œWill you come to Outlaw this Friday?โ€ He asked in a rush, sounding almost reluctant as his eyebrows furrowed slightly and he chewed on his lower lip. To my horror, I found my eyes fixated on his plush mouth and I gulped before I quickly averted my eyes, praying that nobody caught it.
โ€œYes.โ€ I answered before Seulgi could, and nodded, smiling a little bit, โ€œI wonโ€™t miss it.โ€
A beautiful smile spread on Mingiโ€™s lips and he nodded once, looking too happy for something so little. I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ll understand anytime soon why he gets so excited and happy when I listen to his songs or watch him perform. Iโ€™m no expert when it comes to music, my feedback is merely amateur and Iโ€™m not even a fan of his band yet.
โ€œCool, see you then.โ€ And Mingi didnโ€™t wait for Wooyoung as he turned around and walked away, steps hurried. I didnโ€™t miss the confused glance Wooyoung and Seulgi shared before Wooyoung was off, chasing after his best friend. And maybe I would be soon able to make sense of my thoughts and feelings around Mingi, figure out what they meant and why they felt so real at times.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Monday (16:58 pm)
I hate him: hi Me: hi I hate him: would it be a lot if i asked to meet u tomorrow? Me: no, im free in the afternoon I hate him: cool, me too so uhโ€ฆwe can hang out in my studio? Me: or we can go to that new cafรฉ with pottery I hate him: really? Me: u did say u wanted us to goโ€ฆ I hate him: i certainly said so iโ€™ll pick u up around 4 Me: u donโ€™t have to iโ€™ll meet you there I hate him: come on, y/nโ€ฆlet me drive u Me: uโ€™ve driven me around too many times by now iโ€™ll meet u there and thatโ€™s final. I hate him: okay, boss, see ya there Me: :))
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ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Getting here before four oโ€™clock and having to wait in front of the cute cafรฉ had no business being this nerve-wrecking. Yeah, Mingi hasnโ€™t shown up yetโ€”but perhaps thatโ€™s because there were still ten minutes until itโ€™d be fourโ€”and I knew I had no reason to think heโ€™d bail on me, but we hadnโ€™t spoken since yesterday, when he had asked me if we could hang out. And so, waiting for him shouldnโ€™t have had me breaking out in a sweat despite the cold weather, making me bite my lower lip harshly as I tried to smooth down the wool, green, brown, and beige patterned coat I was wearing. First of all, why the hell would I be so nervous about meeting up with Mingi alone at this cute cafรฉ? He probably wanted to talk about that near kiss, and once we had that cleared, things would go back to normalโ€”right?!
And maybe that was the reason which made me want to vomit on the sidewalk, the thought that I knew Mingi would demand answersโ€”answers that I wasnโ€™t yet ready to hand out. Why did I even agree to this? Because I missed him? I should have just stayed at home and done the project Iโ€™ve been procrastinating onโ€”again. But when I heard the rumble of Mingiโ€™s old Hondaโ€™s engine, I knew there was no turning back, catching the bus and running home to hide underneath my blanket.
As Mingi took his time to parallel park, I took a deep breath and gripped onto the strap of my tote bag harder, looking down at myself. My apricot orange sneakers matched the color of my blouse, the top two buttons out of five undone, but not showing too much skin. My blouse was tucked inside my washed out high waisted mom jeans, the black belt matching the color of my tote bagโ€”I know black isnโ€™t a color, Iโ€™m an arts major after all. My hair was pulled in a low ponytail just to prevent the wind from blowing it in my face, and I was thankful that I chose my wool coat as it kept me warm enough. I have opted to wear quite a few rings today, and because my neck felt too exposed, I decorated it with three necklaces of different length. I gulped hard one last time as Mingi got out of his car and took a few seconds until he managed to lock it. However, those few seconds were exactly what I needed to prepare myself to not pass out at the full sight of him.
Mingi, in true fashion to him, wore all black, except for his jeans that were a very dark shade of blue, almost black too. His turtleneck was tucked inside his jeans, a black coat with a hood keeping him warm from the cold late autumn weather. It almost made me smile upon seeing his own tote bag, black, and funnily matching mine. Except that his was plain, while mine had Claude Monetโ€™s Water-Lily Pond painting painted on it, done by none other than yours truly, me. Mingiโ€™s eyes were concealed by black sunglasses, and I snorted as he almost splashed himself up by stepping a little too enthusiastically into a big puddle. Two necklaces hung around his neck, reaching down his chest. A very obvious and sturdy silver cross necklace, and another longer chain that had pearls scarcely strung on it. ย And in true Song Mingi fashion, his rings werenโ€™t missing, only two of his nails painted black on each hand, almost as if he didnโ€™t have time to finish doing them. My heart racing in my chest so fast just at the mere sight of him, certainly wasnโ€™t healthy, right?
โ€œHi!โ€ I squeaked out and wished to burry myself instantly as Mingi chuckled, a very charming smile spreading onto his lips. It was a little annoying that I couldnโ€™t see his eyes, forced to stare at his plush lips insteadโ€”letโ€™s be real, nobody forced me, I did it because I couldnโ€™t help myself, โ€œThe sun is quite blinding today, isnโ€™t it?โ€
And of course, in good old fashion, my mouth worked before my brain would agree to saying something out loud, and my cheeks were burning as I knew Mingi saw me look at his lips. I had to divert the attention somehow, and teasing him was my best method, actually. It always worked. ย 
โ€œIโ€™m trying to make a fashion statement,โ€ Mingi grinned as he gripped the sunglasses and took them off in a very unnaturally hot way, โ€œbut hello to you too.โ€
โ€œNo need for a fashion statement when itโ€™s just the two of us,โ€ I narrowed my eyes, finding Mingiโ€™s hair very soft and fluffy looking, almost as if he had recently washed it, and it wasnโ€™t completely dry, โ€œIโ€™m not one of your fans.โ€
โ€œPity,โ€ Mingi hummed, stepping slightly closer to me, โ€œI thought I might just finally wove you.โ€
I scoffed, and as I was about to tell him off, he grabbed my tote bag and pulled me after himself, headed for the entrance of the cafรฉ, โ€œDid you have to wait long for me? Traffic was busier today, I had to take a few detours to get here in time.โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t worry,โ€ I smiled as he opened the door for me and let me walk inside first, โ€œI only waited half an hour for you to arrive, runway princess.โ€
โ€œRunway princess?!โ€ Mingiโ€™s eyes bulged for a second before he started laughing loudly, making a few customers glance our way as we made it inside the cafรฉ. I elbowed him in the stomach gently, not too keen of having people glare at us as he disturbed their peace.
โ€œDonโ€™t like the nickname?โ€ I asked with a raised brow as we neared the front desk. The cashier had a friendly smile on her face while she greeted us as Mingi and I looked up at the menu, trying to decide what weโ€™d like to have.
โ€œNever said that,โ€ Mingi answered with a chuckle as he threw me a quick glance, โ€œitโ€™s just surprising coming from you.โ€
โ€œWhy, canโ€™t I call you a princess?โ€ I chuckled, turning to face the cashier as I have made up my mind about what Iโ€™d like to have.
โ€œUp until now you seemed to prefer the term โ€˜broโ€™, but Iโ€™m fine with whatever you decide on calling me, doll.โ€ The look the cashier gave us made my cheeks flame up and I cleared my throat loudly, shooting Mingi a look that told him to shut up.
โ€œSorry about that,โ€ I muttered embarrassed, smiling at the cashier, โ€œcan I get a strawberry cheesecake?โ€
โ€œSure, right away, and you, sir?โ€ Her attention was on Mingi now, cheeks flushing the longer she looked at him. Okay, I could totally understand why. Mingi looked quite good right now, it was hard not to ogle him.
โ€œA mint-chocolate cheesecake and a cappuccino?โ€ Mingi hummed, eyebrows furrowed in thought as he looked down at the cashier.
โ€œPlain cappuccino or with vanilla?โ€ The cashier typed in our orders as she asked Mingi, averting her eyes shyly once he looked at her, pursing his lips.
โ€œPlain,โ€ He decided at last, turning to look at me, โ€œare you not getting anything to drink?โ€
โ€œAn orange fresh will be alright.โ€ I said as I reached inside my bag to fish around for my wallet.
โ€œAnd would you also like to paint some pottery?โ€ The cashier asked, pointing behind herself at all the displayed options. Mingi and I shared a look and I smiled as I nodded at him, making him grin from ear to ear.
โ€œYeah, weโ€™ll paint some pottery too. Can I have a cup?โ€ He asked, pointing at one on the higher shelf. It was a smaller cup, specifically made for drinking coffee. The cashier nodded and then looked at me expectantly.
โ€œUh, a mug will do for me.โ€ I said and thanked her once she handed us the pottery and the paint that was used for painting these. Then, she tapped a few more on her tablet and told us the total. I opened my wallet to pay for my purchase, but Mingi had a card in his hands, the cashier already typing in the total sum for him to pay.
โ€œMingi,โ€ I hissed quietly, looking at him with a frown, โ€œwhat are you doing?โ€
โ€œIt was my idea to come hereโ€”โ€
โ€œNo, it wasnโ€™t.โ€ I cut him off, fingers curling into the scratchy fabric of his coat as I reached out to hold it, โ€œI suggested we come here instead of going to your studio.โ€
Mingi sighed and pocketed his card, already having paid, then turned his body to face mine. I didnโ€™t let go of his coat just yet, โ€œYeah, but when I drove you home during that downpour I asked you if youโ€™d come here with me. So technically, it was my idea. Initially, anyways, it really was.โ€
โ€œMingiโ€”โ€ I started, but soon swallowed my words as he stepped closer, invading my personal space. My fingers tightened more into his coat and I gulped, suddenly feeling nervous due to our proximity. He faintly smelled of vanilla, it was a fragrance I didnโ€™t except to smell on him.
โ€œCan you not fight me on this one, please?โ€ Mingiโ€™s eyebrows slightly furrowed and his eyes softened up and Iโ€”struggled to breathe for a second as I stared up in his pleading eyes, mouth going dry. He lookedโ€”adorable like this, and I did not like the way I felt myself getting lost in his soft gaze.
โ€œLetโ€™s find a table.โ€ I muttered, forcing myself out of the trance he placed on me, and grabbed my mug and the painting supplies. Mingi followed suit as he took his own cup and followed after me closely. We walked further inside the cafรฉ and found a smaller table in the next room, closer towards the window. The walls were painted a faint orange and were decorated by white stripes that created abstract shapes. The chandeliers were white and hung low, the place well-lit for those who wished to paint pottery.
I placed the things in my hands on the table carefully, and then discarded my coat on the back of my chair and my tote bag by the leg of the table, pulling my chair out for myself. Mingi followed suit, however, he managed to almost send his cup tumbling to the floor when he took his seat. His eyes were wide as he just barely caught the cup, and I giggled as I watched him while opening the box that held all the paint. Thankfully, the table was spacious enough to harbor both our pottery and paints as the cashier brought out our delicacies. She threw Mingi a lasting look before she hurried back to the front desk, glancing our way at times.
โ€œThis is going to be a tough one.โ€ Mingi said before scooping up a bit of his cheesecake with his little spoon.
โ€œWhy?โ€ I asked with a chuckle, choosing a thin brush to start painting some flowers on my mug. My cheesecake could wait.
โ€œBecause Iโ€™m literally sat at a table with an arts major, having to decorate some cup by painting.โ€ Mingi sounded stressed and I chuckled as I looked up at him, amused by his expression. His hair fell in his eyes a bit, and I found myself absentmindedly reaching over the table to brush it to the side. Almost as if realizing at the same time what I had done, we both froze. It felt like time stilled around us as I watched Mingi with a gaping mouth, slowly but surely, my cheeks becoming the color of a fire hydrant. But Mingi wasnโ€™t better off as he bit his bottom lip, averting his eyes shyly as his cheeks turned the faint color of pink. Clearing my throat and accidentally choking as I hastily pulled my hand back, I averted my eyes and fought for my life to not choke. Thank God the orange juice was right there, I quickly took three large gulps.
โ€œThโ€”thanks.โ€ Mingi stuttered, staring at the table as he licked his lips, โ€œUh, itโ€™s gotten long, my hair, I mean, I have to cut it when I get the time.โ€
โ€œYeah.โ€ I nodded, grabbing my mug and chewing on my bottom lip in embarrassmentโ€”God, could the Earth swallow me up right now? Why the hell did I do that?! โ€œYeah.โ€
โ€œDo you think I should change it up a little?โ€ I paused as I had dipped my brush in red paint, and slowly looked up at Mingi, โ€œDo something fun with itโ€”like going blonde?โ€
โ€œI hate blonde hair.โ€ I blurted out before I could stop myself. Nice one, idiot. Yunho was blonde while we were together, and thus, yeah, Iโ€™ve hated blondes ever since. And to be fairโ€”and this is not me shitting on my exโ€”but that hair color did not suit Yunho at all.
โ€œOh, noted.โ€ Mingi whispered, pouting a little. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling, hating myself for the weird atmosphere I have created.
โ€œMingi, you can do whatever you want with your hair.โ€ I spoke up, leaning down to try and look him in the eyes as he was busy staring at the table, โ€œMy opinion shouldnโ€™t matter. Itโ€™s your hair. Go crazy with it, have fun, try out something new. Really.โ€
โ€œBut do you think it would suit me?โ€ Mingi was still pouting as he finally looked up at me, looking quite crestfallen. My eyebrows furrowed and I tried to imagine him with blonde hair. He was quite blessed with his skin complex as most colors looked good on him, but perhaps I preferred Mingi with dark hairโ€”black hair, more specifically. Like he had it right now. He lookedโ€”good. Handsome, even. Completely gorgeous. Fuck.
โ€œI think it would suit you.โ€ I settled on saying that. He didnโ€™t have to know my train of thought, like at all. Mingi hummed in appreciation, and I watched as he reached inside his tote bag, pulling out a case that held his glasses. He took it out of the case and put it on, pushing it up on the bridge of his nose. He grinned when he looked at me and I chuckled, shaking my head as I looked down at my mug, finally starting to decorate it.
โ€œThere goes the cool, mysterious, hot celebrity act.โ€ I teased under my breath, not expecting Mingi to hear me. But he did, and he started laughing, giving me a cheeky grin.
โ€œNot quite a celebrity yet, but at least you admit I am hot.โ€ Of course he was smirking as I gave him a deadpanned look, about to argue him on his statement, but he didnโ€™t let me as he continued talking, โ€œBy the way, letโ€™s exchange our cups when we are done. The mug will be mine and the cup will be yours.โ€
I tried to fight the smile off my lips, โ€œSo that you get the artwork of a talented artist for free to sell for an outrageous price later on when Iโ€™m famous?โ€
โ€œI fear you have misjudged my character, doll.โ€ Mingiโ€™s eyes narrowed playfully, but there was truth to his words. I might just have misjudged his character.
โ€œI still think youโ€™re arrogant and selfish.โ€
โ€œOf course you do, didnโ€™t except anything less from you.โ€ Mingi winked and then looked down, his cheesecake forgotten as he started decorating his cup, tongue just barely sticking out as he concentrated hard on whatever he had in mind to paint onto the cup. I chuckled and shook my head before focusing on my own mug, the silence thatโ€™s settle around us comfortable, as always.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย  Mingi and I were the quietest table in the cafรฉ as we worked in silence diligently in, painting our own pottery. Mingi, at times, would hum along quietly to the songs that were played on the radio. Despite his cup being smaller and easier to paint, I finished painting mine before him, and so, I took the time to savor my cheesecake even if it had gotten warm and a little too soft. Mingi was hunched over in his seat, glasses low on the bridge of his long nose, with his full lips either pursed or with the bottom one bitten as his eyebrows would furrow every time he almost made a mistake. It was a funny sight, and I grabbed my phone without thinking much, and snapped a few pictures of him, leaning lower and even closer to his face to get the funny angles, all while Mingi remained oblivious to it. I chuckled as I looked at the pictures I had taken of him, looking at him when I felt eyes on me.
โ€œWhatโ€™s so funny?โ€ He asked curiously, eyeing my phone for a second.
โ€œYou.โ€ I chuckled and stuck my tongue out as Mingi rolled his eyes, leaning back in his chair as he heaved a long sigh.
โ€œIโ€™m finally done.โ€ He grinned and I looked down at his cup, taking in the yellow chicks he had painted quiteโ€”clumsily. Well, not all of us had the skills of a painterโ€”not that it was an issue or anythingโ€”itโ€™s just that itโ€™s been long since I had seen someone have the skills of aโ€”kindergartner, โ€œItโ€™s pretty sick, huh?โ€
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from giggling and nodded with my eyebrows furrowed, โ€œIโ€™d give it a seventy out of a hundred mark.โ€
โ€œHey! Thatโ€™s too low!โ€ Mingi said, looking offended. I chuckled before shrugging.
โ€œYouโ€™ll have to work on your skills for a higher mark.โ€
โ€œFine, next time you come to the studio, Iโ€™ll make you sing.โ€ Mingi raised his eyebrows, making me narrow my eyes at him playfully.
โ€œOh, I didnโ€™t know we are in a competition.โ€
โ€œWe werenโ€™t, until now.โ€ He winked and then stood, grabbing my mug and his own cup carefully as he took it to the front desk for drying. I gathered the items we had used to paint the pottery with to place them back in the box, and couldnโ€™t help it but sneak a glance at Mingi. He was leaned up against the front counter, grinning widely at the cashier as she spoke to him, using her hands for big gestures as she was probably explaining something. My eyes narrowed as Mingi leaned slightly closer to her, only to detach himself from the front desk and walk back towards our table. I looked away and busied myself with my glass of orange juice.
โ€œSo, weโ€™ll get them delivered to our houses once they are dry and all.โ€ He said with a smile, sitting down, โ€œI hope you donโ€™t mind I gave her your address too.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t.โ€ I muttered, chewing on the straw for a second, โ€œI didnโ€™t think youโ€™d know my address.โ€
โ€œWell,โ€ Mingi flattened his hands on the surface of the table, โ€œIโ€™ve been to your house twice now. I think itโ€™s only right I remember your address, doll.โ€
โ€œRight,โ€ I muttered, โ€œyouโ€™ve been to my house.โ€
Mingiโ€™s eyebrows furrowed, and I figured he didnโ€™t like the tone of my voice. But before I could correct myself and explain that I had nothing against that, he spoke up, โ€œY/N, Iโ€”I didnโ€™t mean to scare you orโ€”I donโ€™t knowโ€”make you think that I want anything from you. I meanโ€”we are friends, and I respect you as a woman and as a friend, and I know we almostโ€”kissed. But Iโ€”I donโ€™t want you to think that Iโ€™m playing some sort of game with you to getโ€”to get in your pants. Iโ€™m your friend. And even if I wasnโ€™t, I still wouldnโ€™t do that to you.โ€
Hearing him say all that felt wrong. I didnโ€™t deserve any explanation from him. I was the one thatโ€™s overreacted that day, and Mingi was the one that deserved an explanation and apology from me for the way I have acted. I knew I couldnโ€™t completely open up to him right now, that some parts of the truth had to be omitted today, but he also deserved to know why I had pulled back. And I wanted him to understand that it wasnโ€™t his fault for the way I reacted to everything.
โ€œMingi,โ€ I offered him a small smile and gripped my empty glass for some support, โ€œIf you think you are the reason why I ignored you, please, stop thinking that. Itโ€™sโ€”we both leaned in, okay? We were both about to kiss each other, itโ€™s not like you initiated it or forced me to do something I didnโ€™t want to. And nothing even happened, for Godโ€™s sake. I reacted that way because Iโ€”โ€
When I paused, Mingiโ€™s eyebrows furrowed, and he leaned over the table, gently poking my hand with his ring clad fore-finger, โ€œYou donโ€™t have to tell me anything if youโ€™re not comfortable sharing it, Y/N.โ€
โ€œBut I want you to know this, Mingi.โ€ I averted my eyes and took a deep breath, embracing myself for what I was about to tell him, โ€œI had a boyfriend back in high-school who completely broke my heart, shattered it into pieces. And I know that happened a long time ago, and yes, I am over him, but Iโ€”I am scared people will treat me like he had treated me. Iโ€™m scared that if I let you close, youโ€™ll justโ€”leave. Like he did. And I know ignoring you for days was very shitty of me and I shouldnโ€™t have done thatโ€”because quite frankly, Mingi, you deserve betterโ€”I just didnโ€™t know what to do. I needed a few days to myself, to figure things out. Itโ€™s a bad excuse, but itโ€™s the truth, and I think you deserve to know it. Since we are friends.โ€
Mingiโ€™s face conveyed no emotion for a few seconds and I gulped, feeling nervous all of a sudden. Did he figure it out now? That I was talking about Yunho? That maybe I have started feeling something for him too, for Mingi? Would he stand up and leave? But to my surprise, a wide smile stretched onto his lips and he hummed, adjusting his glasses on his nose.
โ€œThank you for trusting me, it means a lot that you told me all that.โ€ I bit my bottom lip, looking down at the table abashedly, โ€œAnd I was never mad at you for ignoring me. I completely understand you, Y/N, and for the record, I have zero intentions of leaving you. And your ex is a fucking asshole for breaking your heart like that, tell me who he is and Iโ€™ll beat him up when I cross paths with him.โ€
There was nothing funny about what Mingi had said, especially since he was talking about his best friend, but the comically tough look on his face made me snort loudly as I shielded my mouth with my hand, trying to stop myself from laughing too loudly. Mingi started grinning like an idiot, his giggles deep, and making something coil in my stomach. When has Song Mingi become adorable instead of annoying?
โ€œI doubt youโ€™d want to kick his ass once you find out who he isโ€ฆโ€ I grimaced once that was out of my mouth, regretting it instantly. What was it about today that I couldnโ€™t keep my thoughts and mouth in check? It was turning really frustrating.
โ€œSo, you plan on telling me one day?โ€ Mingi wriggled his eyebrows, making me snort, โ€œLike real besties gossiping and shit.โ€
โ€œYou never fail to make me cringe when you call us besties, Mingi.โ€ I shook my head, taking a glance at my wrist watch. Oh, the time had flown away, it was well past five now, and the sun was going down. Iโ€™d probably have to head home soon to have dinner with my mother. I was becoming hungry too.
โ€œWell, thatโ€™s what we are soโ€ฆโ€ He cleared his throat before slowly standing up, making me look up at him, โ€œDid you know today weโ€™re celebrating the Festival of Light?โ€
โ€œNope, I had no idea.โ€ I shook my head, standing up too as Mingi wore his coat, โ€œI donโ€™t follow the events our city organizes.โ€
โ€œPity, itโ€™s really pretty.โ€ Mingi pouted, waiting for me as I grabbed my tote bag and pocketed my phone, โ€œShould we check it out?โ€
โ€œI meanโ€ฆmaybe?โ€ I shrugged and Mingi beckoned me over as he crossed his arm with mine, making me chuckle as I looked up at him. He wasnโ€™t much taller than me, but his sneakers had a thick sole and they made him even taller, โ€œWhere is this festival held at?โ€
โ€œJust down the street, at the Citadel.โ€ Mingi smiled as he led the way out of the cafรฉ, waving at the barista as she blushed again, making me chuckle as I subconsciously nuzzled up against Mingiโ€™s side, the air chilly as the sun had set by now.
โ€œThat barista totally has a crush on you.โ€ I found myself saying as we walked down the sidewalk, trying to avoid crashing into the people that came towards us. Yeah, there certainly was an event on-going in the city, otherwise you wouldnโ€™t see so many people out and about around this time. Everyone preferred staying inside after the sun had set, not keen of the cold nights.
โ€œYou think so?โ€ Mingi mused, bottom lip jutting out as he narrowly avoided a child that was running around, โ€œI didnโ€™t notice.โ€
โ€œYou must be really dense then.โ€ I snorted, eyebrows furrowing as I looked up at him, โ€œShe was constantly blushing, and she was totally looking at you with hearts in her eyes.โ€
โ€œHow do you know when someone is looking at you with heart eyes?โ€ Mingiโ€™s question threw me off, and I detached myself from his side, clearing my throat as I looked ahead, pushing my hands in my pockets. He was warm, it made me realize as the cold bit at my skin now that I wasnโ€™t nuzzled up by his side anymore.
โ€œWell, they have this look in their eyes, you know? Itโ€™s warm, and soft, and it lasts.โ€ I explained, feelings my cheeks heat up, โ€œAnd their eyes always linger on you when you arenโ€™t watching them. Itโ€™s likeโ€ฆpuppy eyes, I suppose? I wouldnโ€™t actually know, Mingi, nobodyโ€™s ever looked at me like that.โ€
When there was no response, I looked back to find Mingi looking at me intensely. My eyebrows furrowed as we have arrived to the Citadel, the gates open for the visitors of the festival. The place was packed, this wouldnโ€™t be so fun anymore. I wouldโ€™ve turned around and walked back home if I didnโ€™t see how excited Mingi was when I agreed to come check it out.
โ€œThereโ€™s lots of people here.โ€ Mingi muttered, and then walked closer to me as I led the way inside, a little baffled by his reaction to my answer. I just merely gave an answer based on my beliefs. It was him that was acting weird now. But as I looked at him, I could see it in his eyes that he didnโ€™t want to talk about this topic anymore, that he wanted us to drop the subject. His last comment was a way to veer the conversation in a different direction. What was it about us today making everything weird? I sighed and just walked further inside, trying to avoid the big crowd which seemed almost impossible as it stretched on and on. The Citadel, however, was beautiful as it was coated in darkness, only the little paper lamps and fairy lights illuminating the place. It had a certain aura to it, almost romantic, and I soon found myself smiling as we walked down the cobblestone path, still trying to avoid people and stick close to each otherโ€™s sides. The air was chilly but the walls of the Citadel did a great job at keeping the breeze out, and the crowd certainly kept the place warmer than it was outside the stone walls.
I found myself admiring the dรฉcor in wonder, my mouth hanging open as I took in all the little lamps placed down on the ground, following the cobblestone paths, illuminating our way. It was truly beautiful, it almost felt like the scene was taken out of a fairytale. I found myself filled with excitement and happiness as I turned to grin at Mingi.
โ€œThis is so beautiful!โ€ I giggled, absentmindedly grabbing the sleeve of his coat and dragging him away from the path and into the dying grass as there was a panel covered with paper, and people were writing on it. Mingi remained silent, but as I searched around for a pen or pencil, I felt him watching me, โ€œWhat, do you not want to write something?โ€
โ€œIf you manage to find a marker or pen, I will, sure.โ€ He said with a shrug, adjusting the strap of his tote bag before he pushed his hands deep in his pockets. I chuckled and looked around for a marker, but it was hard to see it in the darkness whether they were laying around in the grass or not. To my surprise, a little girl standing next to me looked up at me with a small smile on her lips, and offered me her purple-coloured marker, saying she was done with her drawing. I thanked her with a chuckle and turned to face Mingi with a grin.
โ€œI found one!โ€ Mingi chuckled and took the marker from my hands, being able to reach high up where the paper was still empty, due to his height. The panel was illuminated from the inside so you could actually see what was written on the paper. I watched him as he wrote on the paper, hesitating for a second, before he stepped back and handed me the marker. I raised up on my tip toes curiously, and craned my neck to see what heโ€™s written. โ€˜The moon is beautiful tonight.โ€™
I felt a smile spread onto my lips as I looked back at Mingi, whoโ€™s expression was serious and almost sad-looking as he adjusted his glasses on the bridge of his tall nose. I craned my neck back once more to gaze at the dark sky, at the moon, and indeed, there she was, beautiful and shining brightly. It was a new moon. Taking a swift glance at Mingi, I raised back on my tip toes and stood close to the panel, reaching up, just underneath Mingiโ€™s writing. Thankfully, I could reach just bellow it, and I grinned as I quickly drew a new moon, adding a little shading to it and dents as well, creating the illusion of a real moon. Mingi remained silent as I took a step back, admiring our work. I handed the marker to another child as I fished my phone out of my pocket and snapped a picture quickly of our artwork.
โ€œThe moon turned out beautifully.โ€ Mingi commented once we had stepped away from the panel to let others draw too, headed back onto the cobblestone path.
โ€œStill, itโ€™s not as beautiful as the real one, but I tried my best.โ€ I chuckled as I crossed my arms in front of my chest for a second, avoiding a man as he wasnโ€™t looking in front of himself as he raced down the path. Mingi threw him a displeased look before looking down at me.
โ€œYour drawings and paintings are always beautiful, Y/N.โ€ Mingi said and I found myself blushing, thankful that it was so dark he wouldnโ€™t be able to see it. I uncrossed my arms and turned my body a little to face him. There was music coming from one path, the one which led to the southern part of the Citadel.
โ€œAre you nervous about Friday?โ€ I found myself asking him as Mingi veered us towards where the music was coming from. He looked at me for a second, and then shook his head.
โ€œIโ€™m rarely nervous when we have to perform.โ€ He said nonchalantly, the back of his hand brushing lightly against mine. My heart did a somersault against my ribcage, but I ignored it.
โ€œOh, youโ€™re such a cool guy.โ€ I teased him with narrowed eyes, making Mingi chuckle.
โ€œI rarely get nervous, to be honest, even less when it comes to performing.โ€ He hummed, looking up at the dark sky for a second, โ€œI trust myself and my bandmates that everything will go well, so, thereโ€™s no actual reason to feel nervous.โ€
โ€œBut Iโ€™ll be there on Friday, that still doesnโ€™t make you feel nervous?โ€ My question was meant to be teasing, part of our playful banter, but the way Mingi gulped and quickly averted his eyes told me that perhaps I hit the nail spot-on. Well, now I have turned things awkward again. I sighed loudly, chewing on my bottom lip as Mingi remained silent, the two of us walking down the narrow path as the music became louder as we were nearing the stage. Jazz music was playing, the lady who was singing had a powerful and smooth voice that carried over the crowd neatly. There were a few people dancing in the crowd.
โ€œPerhaps having you there will make me nervous.โ€ Mingiโ€™s voice was barely above a whisper and I tensed when I felt his pinkie brush against my own, making me clench my hand into a fist. But a very quiet voice inside my head demanded me to accept Mingiโ€™s subtle request, and willing my heart to stop hammering so hard in my chest, I relaxed my hand and slowly slipped it into Mingiโ€™s. If he stopped walking for a milli-second, I didnโ€™t say anything about it, and he also ignored it. His grip turned firm as he intertwined our fingers together, gently pulling me closer into his side as he smiled at a mother who apologised for his son almost running into us.
I gulped and kept my eyes ahead of me, too nervous to look at Mingi. Holding his hand like this meant nothing in particular, but it was a nice feeling. It made my cheeks warms and heart race. And I didnโ€™t have to look at Mingi to know he was smiling like crazy, his cheeks just as red as mine as we came to a stop behind the dancing people.
Have I started falling for Song Mingi?
ใ€ŽIt's you, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm just saying it's you, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
You, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
You're what I've been chasing
Show me where my days wentใ€
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so...the festival of light scene was totally inspired by me and my bestie attending it in our city lol; it was sooo beautiful and the pictures in the moodboard were actually taken by us; also, her and I kept laughing about the romantic vibes we were getting, all in all, we had a nice time...and OFC we make everything about Ateez so :))
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I wrote that LOL I'm like Mingi, tall enough to reach the top where people haven't scribbled onto yet lol
also, this is what y/n's outfit looks like for anyone wondering, except for the colors as they are the way I have described them in the scene ^^
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My name is Rachel, so that's what our OC will be referred to as in my fics. I'll be working on a smut request next.
Send any requests about Leah Alexia Rachel or Alessia
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"Here's your water bottle, Rach" Leah smiled shyly as she handed you your bottle after a grueling training session.
"Thank you darling" You replied and watched as Leah's cheeks turned red.
"Uh- Anytime" The blonde stuttered before abruptly leaving.
"You do realised she fancies you right?" Katie says to you having watched the interaction.
"she actually does, doesn't she?"
"course she does. And i know you like her too. Right?''
''how can i not? Have you seen her'' You said in a daze as you watched Leah walk over to Lia Walti.
What are you waiting for then? Ask her out" Katie exclaims excitedly.
"Nahh I should have some fun with it since i know" You say with a look of mischief"
''I have an idea hang on"
"HEY GIRLSS! TEAM BONDING AT MINE AND CAITLIN'S PLACE TONIGHT" Katie yelled being her loud self
"6pm sound good?"
You chose to wear a casual sweatshirt with a jacket over it. You were waiting for Beth to pick you up as arranged. Your phone pinged with a message from Beth stating they were outside.
"Helloo, we brought Leah along too" Beth exclaimed and you got into the back seat with next to Leah.
"Hello Williamson" You said using her last name.
"On last basis now are we?" Leah mocks hurt.
"Mhm or do you prefer darling instead?" You smirked as Leah blushed
"Tone it down lovebirds!" Beth teases making Leah blush deeper, almost the same colour as the red hoodie she wore as you looked at her in amusement.
You were in the kitchen with Katie, helping her with drinks
''i have a plan''
''This better not ruin my life McCabe''
''Hey! my ideas arent that bad'' the Irish woman defended herself
''mhm..whatever you say''
''wanna play truth or dare?''
You gave her a look. This might not be such a bad idea after all as only a handful of girls came round.
They were sitting in a circle with a bottle in the middle.
''I'll go first!'' Katie exclaimed
''viv, truth or dare?''
''truth''
''what do you see in beth?''
''HEY!''
''Im not sure to be fair'' The dutch international replied with a teasing look at Beth.
As more drinks made there way down thier thraots, the spicer the game went.
''Caitlin, who's the top in bed''
''MEEE!'' Katie yelled before the australian could answer.
''i dont know mccabe, you're giving bottom vibes to me'' You said pretending to look thoughtful. The others laughed as Katie smacked you around the head.
Caitlin spun the bottle and it landed on Lia.
''dare''
''ooooooohhh''
''shut up beth''
''call someone from our team and confess your undying love for them''
Lia called Alessia
"Less, we need to talk"
"Oh sounds serious, what's wrong?"
"This is might come as a bit of a surprise but I'm in love with you. From the moment I laid my eyes on you I wanted to jump in bed with you and show you how much I love you" Lia said trying to sound serious as the rest of us muffled our laughter behind our palms.
"O-oh umm well I mean t-thats..yeah OK thanks?"
"Chill Less she's pulling your leg it's a dare" Katie said into the phone as Alessia laughed.
"I hate you guys"
Lia spent he bottle and it landed on Leah
"Dare" Leah said hesitantly as Katie smirked at me.
"I dare you to....sit on Rachel's lap for the rest of the game" Lia smirked at her best friend. Looks like she's playing match maker as well.
The rest of the team fell silent and watched wondering how this would end as Leah got up. She walked towards you with her face as red as the hoodie she wore.
She awkwardly stands infront of you not knowing what to do. You gently took her hand and brought her down to sit on your lap wrapping your arms around her waist as she got comfortable. She looked at you with a red face, blushing even deeper when you smiled at her.
You casually moved your hand on your waist down to her ass watching as her face flush for the umpteenth time.
The girls decided to go watch a movie after the game. Katie and Lia made sure you two were next to each other. At the beginning you could feel Leah's eyes on you from time to time admiring your side profile. You put your hand on her tight and looked at her as she inhaled at her contact.
"Do I make you nervous darling?"
"N-no"
"Your face flaring up every now and then says otherwise.''
''How about we get out of here and hang out at my place?"
She nodded
As soon as you two entered your flat you closed the door and pushed her against it making her gasp in surprise.
"Tell me. How do you feel when I'm near you?" She looked down with her face red .
"When I touch you?" You said caressing her cheek with your hand tilting her chin to look at you in the eyes.
When she looked speechless you decided to get to the point.
"How would you feel if I kissed you right now?" Leah suddenly pressed her lips against yours while standing on her tippy toes.
You were taken aback on where the blushing girl got the confidence from. Her confidence didn't last long as you kissed her back harshly pressing her against the door making her gasp in to your mouth.
You took this opportunity to slip your tongue into her mouth making he rket out a small moan and your tongues made contact.
Your hands rested underneath her tight making her wrap her kegs around your waist. You walked toward the couch, as she peppered kissed onto your neck.
You laid her on the couch climbing over her to resume your make out session. You trail kisses from her jaw line to her neck, nipping and biting eliciting a moan from the blonde.
You pulled back and looked at the girl, panting with swollen red lips and a faint mark forming in her neck.
"Let me take you out on a date tomorrow"
''9?''
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Heyy! I saw you wanted to try out writing a request or two, so here I amโœจ
I was wondering if I could request a Dean and/or Sam winchester x reader (sepperately if you choose to do both, like two sepperate one shots in the same post) with an established relationship where they get a motel room that only has two beds, so reader has to share a bed with the winchester they're with, and it's just some awkward fluff where both are just figuring things out in this fresh relationship
Thank you!!
there was only two beds -
I love that actually!
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Dean winchester x reader, established relationship, fluff
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Its been a Long drive to Colorado for this seemingly complicated case, it seemed like forever since you have gotten a good nights sleep and tomorrow morning you have to hit the morgue first thing if you want to see the bodies before they are transported to the funeral homes.
you want nothing more than to go kick your boots, peel the layers of clothing off of you and Finally lay down, but to your surprise when Dean opens the motel room, there was only two beds.
All three of you look at each other, unsure who should go in first or where - but before you can really think about it Sam shrugs and goes directly on the closest bed to the door, drops his things, and into the shower he goes
โ€œwhat a bitchโ€ Dean says with a roll of his eyes, making his way to the other bed before you stop him
โ€œwait where will I sleep then??โ€
he looks at you a little confused, then a little awkwardness can be seen on his usually confident face
โ€œI- uhmโ€ he clears his throat, โ€œI assumed weโ€™d sleep together?- I mean- not like that- of course not like that its been a long day but I meant- if you dont want to I can sleep on the couch its fine-โ€œ
you find it hard not to crack a smile at the usually confident and full of bravado Dean who is now closer to an awkward teenager in his first sleep over
โ€œoh no no its okay- im- donโ€™t worry its alright I donโ€™t mind-โ€œ you say with a small chuckle, a little awkward yourself
he goes to put his bag away and places yours next to it, he unpacks a change of clothes for himself and then looks at you hesitantly before reaching into your bag and getting one for you as well
and for a moment there between the silent movements and shuffling of fabrics, you get to see how softly he holds your belongings, how much care and love he exudes for a pair of pants or an old band t-shirt, and god if you could fall in love all over againโ€ฆ.
he gets up from where he had placed the bags on the ground and hands the fresh clothes to you, avoiding eye contact like the plague of course.
โ€œ..Thanks Dean, appreciate itโ€
โ€œyeah dont mention itโ€ he risks a look at your soft smile, and a blush starts to creep up his neck, to which he quickly breaks the moment โ€œSAM ARE YOU GONNA BE THERE ALL NIGHT?? WE HAVE BEEN IN THE CAR FOR THE LAST TEN HOURS TOO YOU KNOW.โ€
you laugh a little at his chosen method of checking on his brother, but it actually works quite quickly as Sam comes out in the next couple of minutes and flips him off. you laugh again.
Dean asks if youd like to go in first, Sam strongly suggests you take him on that offer before he โ€œgrossens up the placeโ€, but for deans luck youre a little more tolerant than Sam and you let him go first
the moment hes in, you can see Sam unpacking and putting things aside before he sleeps, but he throws you a look or two of acknowledgment, which make the silence a little less awkward - but not completely.
โ€œdo you think I upset him when I didnt assume weโ€™d be sleeping in the same bed?โ€ you asked in a low voice, hoping the walls arent too thin
Sam looks at you with a small smile and a soft look, โ€œnah I think hes just not really used to howโ€ฆ.normal relationships function I guess? I think hes more scared of upsetting you than anythingโ€
โ€œohโ€ it just hits you now that you might be this guys first actual relationship in years, and the awkwardness might not be only from your side of the coin โ€œoh god did I scare him?โ€
Sam, now laughing, โ€œhonestly? maybe, he is a little more insecure than he lets on; but I think you can just assure him and itll be okayโ€ he shakes the chuckle in his throat away โ€œhonestly for a couple who are both older than me, it feels like im watching a highschool first crush first relationship kind of situationโ€
โ€œoh fuck off like youve never had an awkward moment beforeโ€
Sam contemplates for a moment โ€œsure yeah, when I was 16โ€
and with that, you also flip him off, making his success rate of getting flipped off today 2 out of 2 times a 100%
he chuckles and seemingly actually lays down to sleep this time
and conveniently enough for you, Dean comes out of the shower just then, leaving you no time to sit alone in the unsettling motel silence
โ€œI uhโ€ he clears his throat again, youre starting to think he does that whenever heโ€™s nervous โ€œI cleaned it for you - contrary to what Sam might think Im actually good at cleaning soโ€ฆ.youre all good to goโ€
he also avoids your eyes mostly saying this looking down or around before going in the beds direction while youโ€™re going to the bathroom, when you pass each other in the middle, you give him a quick kiss on the cheek and whisper a sincere thank you directly on his skin, he mumbles a โ€œno problemโ€ under his breath in that overly deep voice of his when hes awkward, and makes quick strides to the bed as you go to take a long awaited shower.
when you come out, all clean and fresh, you notice the clothes you are gonna wear neatly folded in pile on the bed next to a โ€œsleepingโ€ Dean who is so tense you could use him as a rock solid analogy, and trying to take such little space its almost funny seeing this six foot man trying to be so small
you change quietly to not wake up Sam, then slide in bed behind Dean and hug him from the back, to which he tenses even more - if thats even possible - before slowly relaxing into your hold
โ€œyou okay?โ€ you ask in a whisper, unsure if hes gonna continue playing asleep or will actually reply to you
his reply comes half a minute later โ€œI should be asking you thatโ€
โ€œand why would that be?โ€ you say back, trying to put as much sass in a whisper as you can
โ€œyou know why.โ€ if eye rolls could be heard, you just heard it in his voice
before you get to reply though, he continues
โ€œim sorry I didnt really think when I was asking for the room and im so used to asking for doubles because its usually just me and Sam- I didnt mean to make you uncomfortable or assume anything I know this is all a pretty new arrangement and-โ€œ
you cut him off, โ€œhey hey heyโ€ฆ Dean, its okay, I swear im not uncomfortable I was honestly just surprised by the bed sizes, it didnt look like itd fit two people, but when you said weโ€™d be together I knew we would be able to fit because I trust your judgment okay? and I have definitely had worse sleeping arrangements than being tightly stacked next to my male-model-pretty boyfriend you know?โ€ your voice was low but soft, full of sincerity
you can hear him chuckle lightly before turning around to face you, โ€œits just been a while since ive had a similarโ€ฆ situation, with anyone - and I really dont want to fuck this upโ€ฆI really like you you know?โ€
it was your turn to chuckle now, โ€œI know, and I really really like you too, Dean. Believe me itd take more than a tight bed to get me to even slightly be annoyed at you, youre fine, were fine, okay?โ€ you pause to give him a light kiss โ€œand if Im being completely honest with you, I was kind of hoping this would happen because I really need one of your strong hugs to put my bones back in place after todays driveโ€
he huffs out a laugh and gives you a kiss too, โ€œin that case, I will gladly become a weighted compression blanketโ€ he says as he changes your positions.
now holding you impossibly close, he hugs you tightly and pulls the covers over your shoulders, with his nose in your hair and your face to his neck, you start drifting to sleep
โ€œI love youโ€ you say in an almost undiscernible ๏ฟผwhisper, half asleep
โ€œI love you tooโ€ he whispers back to himself as he is sure youโ€™re already no longer awake
he stays awake for a bit more in the quiet soft night, holding you tightly and softly smiling to himself
โ€œI love you tooโ€ he says once more before falling victim himself to sleep
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this is my first fluff one shot since I tried writing for the first time a year ago or so so I really hope you like it !!^^
and thank you for the request^^
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qualityrain ยท 4 months
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shaking you and telling you its actually genius for tachibana to make shinpei a yandere which is a selfish character trope to foil satoko & kotaros selflessness its the two extremities of being selfish to the point of hurting others v the selflessness to the point of hurting yourself the way its literally a perfect foil to satoko marrying for her family like the way satoko was intending to marry whoever accepts her illness and engagement talk first and shinpei accepting the first marriage proposal from somebody who accepted his killings the whole โ€œin the end ill put my feelings first even if it makes you unhappyโ€ and satoko willing to have a marriage of convenience even if it makes her unhappy the wh(im forcefully dragged away)
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idolomantises ยท 1 year
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there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities
#txt#was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn#and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting?#i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings#im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to#overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do#its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice#the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you#still lack#even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is.#and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included)#i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at#such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them#i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own#personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes#people really do find things that they love within them.#anyways I know this is getting long but Iโ€™ve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art#sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on#and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me#but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back#and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit#that itโ€™s all worth it. ya know?
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mspaintpetfinder ยท 14 days
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getting back on the grind
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rearranging-deck-chairs ยท 6 months
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been doing some no pronoun doctor writing and it's fun to realise which expressions dont automatically have personal pronouns attached and which do
like, you can hug someone impersonally but taking them in your arms is harder. you cant shake your head impersonally, though you can turn that verb into a noun and then it works. you cant open your eyes or talk with your mouth full impersonally. you cant hide something behind your back or surprise yourself. you cant bite your tongue. and 'the doctor blames the doctor' means something slightly different than 'the doctor blames []self'
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I know the Musk "trillion people means more Mozarts" thing is stupid as fuck but I just saw a prominent blogger reply to it by saying anyone has the ability to be a Mozart and I'm sorry but "talent doesn't exist" discourse has officially gone too far, and I say that as someone who hates the word "talent" and has replaced it almost entirely with the word "skill" in my vocabulary.
Not everyone is a prodigy. Yes, prodigies get lost because they lack opportunity, but that still doesn't mean everyone is a prodigy. If everyone WAS then everyone with enough wealth and opportunity WOULD be and like. I'm sorry, have you SEEN what a fucking moron Elon Musk actually is?
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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inthewychelm ยท 2 months
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wait, has anyone done eddie leaving hawkins after the events of season4, be it government pressure or just hightails it bc fuck hawkins, but like instead of going to the city(chicago or indianapolis) or out west to make it big, no he goes south, back to tennessee, he ends up making the right connections with producers and such and eventually makes it big as a musician/songwriter except the party never finds out because he's working under a pseudonym And in a totally different genre (im learning towards folk/bluegrass)
anyway this specific blorbo thought was brought to you by "who will sing for me" by the stanley brothers playing at work a lot recently
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Thinking about using the journal I got for writing my dad's eulogy for trying to process my grief with it. The letter from me I found in his lockbox is still in that front sleeve, along with one of the memorial folders they had at the funeral.
I think I don't want to write it all on here. I think I've talked about my emotions too much as of late.
#speculation nation#negative/#kind of. i guess.#the thing about grief is that it really just never ends.#so im done with the funeral. the time is over. here i am. hes dead. im alive. time to move on.#but it's not that simple. of course it's not.#but would my followers who followed me just for my writing even Care?#honestly surprised i havent lost more followers. or any? idk i havent been paying much attention to numbers#but i know it hasnt really gone down much if at all#i just feel. like im not the person that people initially followed.#and i dont know when im going to be that person again.#there's no enthusing here. anytime im making text posts it's about The Situation.#i wonder how evident my grief is to you all. i feel it in my every breath.#i havent been working yet i feel weak. it's hard to feel much at all.#either im existing and im helping with packing or im crying again bc i remembered my dad cant help me pick out a car now#(in the Vaguely In The Future me buying a used car idea. for after i get my license. whenever that is.)#or im crying bc of jackets or colognes or a letter in a lockbox or a stupid minions hat picture in a too-big frame#or laughing bc Dad In A Bag (his ashes are downstairs. im far too unbothered by their presence)#ive been having an... okay time. we watched Dune today and i started building a lego set. it was nice.#but im only ever Okay. emotions hard to access. interests certainly not accessible.#making it hard to be creative at all. im literally only going through the motions here.#theres no heart. i left it behind when i got that 2 am call and had to rush to the hospital to watch my dad die.#i left it behind when i touched his cold arm for the last time. when i walked out of that room & knew id never see him again.#i know a week is still far too soon to be over it. but im sick of feeling this way.#it still doesnt feel real. feels like im following the bad end route just to see. i should still be able to reload my past save.#but this is my life now. forever until the end. out of nowhere hes dead and hes never coming back#and it's just really fucking hard to care about just about Anything else right now.#i prommy im gonna use the journal next time i get the urge to vent about this. im sick of this crap too.
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thedrotter ยท 23 days
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Re:Kinder Fun fact time!! Did you know? ๐Ÿ˜Š
Yuuichi's theme song (the one that often accompanies his entrances with "Vamos Cantar!"), ๆ–ฐใ—ใ„ๅคใฎใƒŠใƒŠ, is not in any latin language such as Spanish or Portuguese, despite its lyrics sounding as such. It's actually in Hanamogera, which to put it simply is nonsense speech based on japanese syllables. So the song's lyrics are essentially gibberish meant to imitate the sound of latin music! ๐Ÿ˜Š
It is listed as such in the source site for the song, oo39.com, where the song can be found as "YS068" in the hanamogera category.
Additional fun fact! The song can also be found in Spotify as Vien Nana by Oo39.com themselves alongside a few other select songs from the site. So you can properly enjoy the song on the platform without having to import it from your local files.
Those are the fun Re:Kinder related fun facts for today... Use them to entertain your friends at parties ! โ˜บ๏ธ
#re:kinder#not art#now tiny storytime in the tags!!! ๐Ÿ˜Š...#what prompted me to look into this months ago was the fact i genuinely thought it was in spanish at first#AS A SPANISH NATIVE SPEAKER. I HEARD THIS SONG VAGUELY AND WAS LIKE... WOW... i wonder what it says!#because i thought i didnt understand it as i was mostly paying attention to the text or because of my computer's speaker#plugged headphones in and heard carefully... i didnt understand anything. but it sounded just like it i was so confused#for a second i wondered if it was portuguese but there was no way it was because even then i would have known๐Ÿ˜ญ#the magic of knowing either language of spanish (at least latin spanish) and portuguese is it makes the other very recognizable#this was not it looked for the opinions of other latin speaking language people THEY DID NOT UNDERSTAND A THING#and thats how i ended up looking into the source and finding this out ๐Ÿ˜Š#i was very pleasantly surprised to see it was gibberish because IM NOT SURE HOW TO EXPRESS TO YOU ITS VERY GOOD#VERY WELL DONE GIBBERISH SO WELL DONE IT MAKES A PROPER SENTENCE AT ONE POINT#gibberish so well done it fooled native speakers into thinking it was their own languages . so good im so obsessed with this#i had to share this fun fact eventually somrwhere other than yourjbe comments#and i remembered i could acrually speak here about the game and not only post art of it teehee๐Ÿ˜Š#so thats your awesome fun fact micht also drop more if im confident in doing so and their validity because theres more tbat are in japanese#and im trying to figure em out watch as i study the inner workings of a language so i dont have to learn how to actually speak it#(i love conlangs so this is a good excuse)
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i-mybrunettelady ยท 5 months
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weirdly specific dating related rant below the cut
One thing I need to let go of in 2024 is the instinct to go to the scarcity mindset. I have a solid group of friends, people like having me around, I'm not worried about that. But every time I fail a talking stage, I can fall into the temptation of feeling like I've wasted my one (1) chance to find someone, which,, no! I am simply a little weird around guys I may be considering in a romantic sense and that's it! Nothing you can't grow and learn from! Or maybe they weren't meant to be and that's also okay!
Like, this year, I really wanna condition my brain to not fall into the trap of this kind of thinking. And yeah, there are worse things than this, but like, it's something I need to work on in regards to my personal life. And it feels nice to say it somewhere
To anyone who's stayed and read this you're a champ
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kate-m-art ยท 7 months
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Keep seeing Zelda movie news reactions and like feel like my only contribution right now is I'd much prefer live action to an illumination style animated movie...
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