i became more comfortable with myself and the world around me. i learned more about myself through them.
i have gained a handful of incredibly wonderful friends. we don't talk all the time, but i treasure them all the same, and i'm better for having met them.
i gained love, in many forms. for a wonderful character who embodies love. for myself. for humanity. for my friends who entertain my ramblings about them. for the writing (i follow the writer's work still and love all of it <3). for the world, that could create a character that inspires so much love from me.
because of them, i've greatly improved my art. i draw them all the time (and the other astoria characters) and am always seeking to get better, because i love to make art of them, because it brings me joy to express my ideas involving them. the same goes for my writing, too.
i've gained a newfound appreciation for deer; they always make me think of alex, which in turn makes me happy.
there was a time where me and a friend (sarah!) were just going wild bouncing ideas off of one another here on tumblr and it was so fun, i hadn't had that kind of exciting fandom engagement since earlier ML days..... i missed it. i miss it again. but i'm thankful to have had it for as long as i did.
when i hear just about any song, it brings them to mind, especially if it's about love. it sounds better. it feel it more intensely.
i don't think i've ever loved love quite so much before them.
i spend so much of my time (all of my time) thinking about them and the depths of their love and devotion and wishing that i might find something close to that someday.
how do you love someone so much that you would fight against a god for them, knowing it would kill you?
how do you love someone so much that you just want them to be happy, no matter what else happens?
they inspire me to learn to love that strongly. i am trying every day to put more love into the world.
do you see?
i've gained everything from loving them. love and friends and joy, the feeling of inspiration, the desire to create, the need to explore every potentiality, every possibility. i have felt sadness and heartache and resonated with them in a way that i haven't with any other character. i have learned to hope again, for a better world, for a better self.
As we enter Over the Garden Wall season, remember: Friends don't let friends pigeonhole Over the Garden Wall as being about death and the afterlife and Dante's Inferno.
okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is
Ohhhhhhhh shiv’s face when she realized that she’s going to be cut out of the boy’s club AGAIN and this time with a baby she can’t even talk about with her husband without risking being seen as soft … Kerry being humiliated by Marcia and the rest of the family… shiv falling down in front of a room of snickering men… gerri being thrown out as easily as garbage… connor’s mom being talked about less like a human being and more as fodder for a pr campaign…
I'm lowkey pissSed that we had a whole chapter from Laurent's pov but there's no Damen around so i DIDNT get to read how he sees him, and describes him, and maybe how he notices details that damen himself obviously wouldn't even point out im sososo mad about this happening to me why did pacat do this ohmy god
The Jiangs - the adventurous wild child sect, led by a neurotic rule-stickler
The Nies - the hardcore jocks led by a theater kid allergic to exercise
The Jins - the rich snobby kids led by the bastard child of a prostitute everyone mocks
The Lans - the notoriously strict rule-followers led by a man and his younger brother that will break and bend any rule for their beloveds
The Wens - cartoonishly evil sect hunted to almost extinction, with their only two members left some of the most kind and gentle characters in the story.
been watching Prozd and Steve play Zero Escape: Virtue's Last Reward these days, and I really had to draw Phi cause she's the best! collecting fascinating and edgy white-haired characters is my passion apparently
I genuinely believe Naksu haunts the narrative. Her actions and existence as Naksu heavily impact the entire story. Her past, the life she lived and the shadow of it in Mudeok. But we don't actually know any of it because Naksu is not in the story.
Like. What she lost as Cho Yeong is something that we are never allowed to forget, the loss of her body, her powers, her freedom, and her impending death as a soul shifter hangs over Mudeok's head like guillotine.
All the while we don't actually know the Shadow Assassin Naksu, she died in the first episode, as soon as the story began. Other than training and killing (soul shifters) what kind of person was she when she didn't have to rely on another person else or hide or live as someone else? We don't know and we don't ever learn any of that.
Still, her absence is the plot, yet her former existence as Naksu influences everything; Yul's actions and what she was to him, Jang Uk's goal of returning her powers, the revelation of soul shifters to Park Jin, Jang Gang's departure, Jin Mu's accomplishments, the King's Star even.
Everything is about her existence but she doesn't actually exist at all anymore.