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[starrfault]

[ the edge of the universe ]

time for a new intro post

welcome to my personal internet void, i'm your host on this weird journey, pidge! you can also call me star or starfault, i dont mind :]

oh, and really quick before we continue: i swear, sometimes a lot and sometimes not at all. it fluctuates. but, if you're not okay with that, this is your warning! ^u^

here's our next segment: random bullet points about me

i am an adult, specifically 21! i know some minors are uncomfortable with people that are substantially older than them [which is very valid in this day and age of the internet] which is why i mention this!

i use they/it + voidself pronouns, i identify as nonbinary, and im attracted to fictional men for some reason [basically; i'm queer, and that's the best way to describe how i attach to people]

i like the tumblr community so i'll be upfront: i am diagnosed with adhd, anxiety², ocd, and a whole host of other issues that make it hard for me to understand others and for others to understand me. some things i say may come out wrong/not the way i intended them to be understood, so please bear with me!! not to mention that i forget i have an account here, so i do have gaps in my posting as you can see lol

please be aware that i am critical of the creators of various media and do not knowingly financially support creators who are terrible people, however i do like what i like and pretend that the media came from the ether one day or smthn idfk

anyhootinanny, for a dni i just ask that you don't hurt yourself, others, animals, or minors. i surround myself with normal people [as in, people who don't do the aforementioned shit] and prefer to keep it that way tyvm

if i have you blocked on any of my social media [which you should know who you are], then please kindly get off my blog. you're blocked for a reason, and i don't have to elaborate on that reason

i am happily married to the love of my life, n from pokemon black/white/black2/white2 so you may hear about him a lot im ngl [basically, i do selfship because why not. pleeease let me have this]

and i think that's all.

tldr; i'm an odd, neurodiverse and mentally ill adult with too much free time on their hands. i also have common sense, but occasionally i have poor comprehension due to adhd.

i think that's everything

byeee :3

[cyborgpulsebooks]

Newest book is... actually one of my own fics, called (in parentheses)! This is one of two fics of mine I have plans to bind because they’re my two favorites. This one definitely has a special place in my heart, I think because I was able to say everything I wanted to say about the Thancred + Urianger + Ryne dynamic through the lens of Thancred’s ptsd, and did it pretty well to boot.

In binding terms, this is actually I think the best book I’ve done yet. The typesetting is good, my lines are getting cleaner for cutting/measuring, and the endpapers glued in perfectly. (I bungled the spine, but we don’t have to talk about that. :p) Also, dat epigraph.

[limelocked]

If, somehow, two people win because of their time being the same

I really want to see them like in an hourglass on its side a la infinity symbol

Equal in death, trapped by time, faced by the inevitable

[mxxnlightwriting]

i know this sounds like a very weird question (and I'm probably shouting into the void), but would anyone like to be writing buddies/critique partners? as in, we'd chat about writing, exchange chapters of our current wips for feedback, maybe scream (or cry) about our ocs and plots...

i mostly write ya/na romance and fantasy, and i'm not picky when it comes to reading. if you'd be interested, let me know!

[lemongrass77777-moved]

what do you mean ‘this aged horribly’??

what did nick do 😭

did i miss something??

basically, Nick’s friend Lex was SA’d by a member of a YT channel called Supermega. Supermega fired the person who SA’d Lex as soon as they found out, but didn’t publicly say why he was fired because Lex said not to. Then Nick made up a lie that Supermega tried to cover up the SA of his friend(among a few others) then after he was called out on it he pushed all the blame onto Lex. He also laughed at a woman who was crying because people kept saying they wished her boyfriend would rape her. All that woman did was post a video where she and her bf were kinda cringy(and even if they did actually do something wrong that would still never be justified.) Nick still called himself a feminist after this.

[nnnneeev]

HSHSHSJKWIWWJ YALL SEND ME PRAYERS IM GOING TO PULL TOMORROW FOR SOLOMON AND SIMEON 'S CARD ICANNOTBREATHE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

AAHHHHH GOOD LUCKKKK YOOOO!!!!!!! Avenge me haha he didn't come home in my 10-pull 😭😭😭😭

[drdone]

♾️♾️♾️?

Lost Boy by Ruth B.

Together we will fly away in a cloud of green To your beautiful destiny As we soared above the town that never loved me I realized I finally had a family

I Wanna Get Better by The Bleachers

So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself "Hey, I wanna get better!"

Take Two by BTS

사막도 바다가 돼서 we swim forever 외로워했던 고래도 이젠 singing together 함께니깐, 영원을 바래도 무섭지 않아 내 믿음은 너고 하나뿐인 이유니깐

Translation: Even the desert has become the sea, so we swim forever Even the whale that was lonely is now singing together For we’re together, I’m not scared anymore to hope for eternity For you are my faith and my one and only reason

Put a “∞” in my ask box and I'll shuffle my music player and give you my favorite lyric from the song that comes up

[ppeanutz]

wade actually knows about both

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[puppygirlkat]

I think about how I can bend my ankles 90 degrees. I think about how i can stack my fingers and hook them around each other. I think about how I can bend my knees back 20 degrees. I think about how this happens often when I walk. When i stand I have to focus to make sure I am not hypextending my knees. I think about how my knees wobble and buckle.

I went to the store yesterday. I bought nuggets, lunchmeat, ramen, bananas, raspberries, apples, a loaf of soft wheat bread, a loaf of nicer 11 grain bread, lactase enzyme, razors, and two tubes of red matte lip cream. The bag was very heavy for me. 15lbs. My arm was a taut rope spinning freely every time i bumped into the bag. My shoulder was raised high compensating for the weight. It felt as though it could pop out of its socket at any moment. I thought, are limbs supposed to do this? My knees started to wobble towards the end of the trip. I felt as though bones were grinding against each other. I stumbled going up the stairs to my apartment. Inside, I sat down for a few minutes. I put the groceries away. I laid down. My joints burned and ached. I felt thankful I wore tights. I always wear tights when I go out. The thicker and the more they compress my legs the better. I dont feel comfortable without them. I wonder now if this is compensating. I remember when I used to go out walking before I came out. My knees would always hurt a lot. I rarely went out because of it. An unfortunate cycle.

I had to replace my boots recently. The padding had worn thin. I would stand around on the sides of my feet, flexing my ankles back and forth, standing on my soles, standing on the sides. A form of fidgeting.

I walk on my toes sometimes. I often walk up stairs on my toes. I walk around the apartment on my toes, pretending I am wearing 6 inch heels. It feels fun for a period. It feels like it exercises my thighs and calves. Often when I go on walks I stretch out my arms, look at the ground, and walk around on my toes. I pretend I am undergoing a sobriety test. I dont drive. I try to walk as straight as I can. It is difficult. I meander as a sine wave. I pretend I am a bird and flap my arms.

In my old worn out boots my knees would wiggle all over the place. I would hobble down the street. My ankles would bend and curve and twist. I always assumed twisting your ankles meant your foot was facing backwards. My friend told me what it actually means. I thought to myself, I do that all the time though.

I think about how I went to a physical therapist in my mid 20s. She said I have no strength in my gluteous muscles. She showed me exercises. I still remember them. I should do them. Maybe my knees will wobble less. She showed me to lie on my side with my knees bent, and twist my leg and hold it for a couple seconds. I cant remember the angle she said I should do. I can bend it 90 degrees. Sometimes more. I sometimes straighten my knee while my leg is twisted this way and move my leg forward in front of me, feeling the stretch extend further. The physical therapist also showed me strengthening exercises for my leg muscles. I lie flat on my back and lift my legs up and hold for a few seconds. Six reps straight, six reps twisted to the inside, six reps twisted to the outside. I dont know if I exaggerate these angles or not. I cannot feel it unless my leg is twisted at least 70 degrees. I can almost get my leg twisted to 90 degrees this way. I feel if i did these consistently I could get my legs straight up in the air as well while they are twisted. As it stands I can only do about 80 degrees. Almost pointed straight up.

I walk pigeon toed, I have noticed over time. Sometimes I exaggerate it on purpose. I twist my legs inward, lean forward, and walk around pretending I am some kind of strange creature. It is fun. I like to be a little weirdo.

I experience a lot of knee and hip pain. Elbow and shoulder pain. Joint pain in general. I view doing these things as helpful for keeping my muscles toned. Is this what ehlers-danlos syndrome hyperflexibility is like? I wonder. My skin is not super stretchy but it is very soft and i bruise easily. Who knows.

[caramelldansenu]

[bet-on-me-13]

Danny commits to the Bit a bit too hard...

So! For the first few weeks after his accident, whenever Danny would try to help the people of Amity Park, he would be treated as a Villain.

No matter if he had just defeated the Big Bad of the Week or saved a Cat from a tree, everybody in town only saw him as a Monster or Villain to he feared and hunted down. Danny was really getting sick of trying to get them on his side, until Sam made a suggestion.

"Why not just...play into it?" She said, barely looking up from painting her nails.

It was just an offhand suggestion, but it stuck with Danny. Why shouldn't he lean into it? The people of Amity Park already saw Ghosts as Evil, and they already assumed he was in cahoots with the Ghosts attacking the town. Why shouldn't he just...play into it?

So he does just that.

From that day on, whenever Phantom was spotted he would dramatically monologue about his Evil Plans, or claim that another Rogues attack on the City was his own act of terror.

Box Ghost destroys the towns Warehouses? It was on his orders.

Ember mind controls masses of Teenagers? All part of his Plans somehow.

Every Adult in Town is kidnapped by Young Blood? Danny gave them over to a friend as a Gift.

He crafts an identity for himself as the most Vile and Horrible Ghost that has ever attacked the City, using his own infamy to cement his legend even more firmly. The town only sees a Monsterous Villain, who has eveded capture near effortlessly for months on end, who constantly attacks their City and gets away with it.

Of course he still needs an excuse for how his plans keep getting stopped, and he gets it when his girlfriend Valerie becomes the Red Huntress. Before that, he just claimed infighting or the Fentons getting lucky, but Valerie becoming the Town's Hero meant he had a plausible excuse for how he kept getting "Foiled".

Val was suspicious, because she was not as involved as Phantom painted her to be, but in the end she had no proof of him faking his defeats. And she couldn't come up with any explanations for why he would do that in the first place. I mean, who would fake being a Supervillain? It had to he something else.

This did come back to bite him a while later, when the Justice League decided that enough was enough, and dispatched Justice League Dark to recruit Red Huntress and help Deal with him.

Coincidentally, that was the same day Pariah Dark attacked the Mortal Realm and sucked Amity Park into the Ghost Zone.

And honestly? Danny had spent over a Year proclaiming himself as a Villain who commanded Ghosts to attack the Human Realm, and he had heard about the Right of Conquest being Absolute in the Ghost Zone, so why not make it official? Why not overthrow the Ghost King, become the Ghost King, and cement his identity as a Villain while also forbidding Ghosts from entering the Human Realm without his permission?

He may have gotten a bit carried away and forgotten that the Villain thing was a disguise...but hey! He was still preventing Ghost Attacks! ...mostly. That's got to count for something right?

He may have let the Bit run a bit too far...

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[machinerot]

[coffeebrownn]

[ra3kiv]

few recent commissions i made!!

[astearisms]

but it ain’t called love without a little tragedy 🍁