#i get confused easily and don't deal with stressful situations well

[ms-hells-bells]

working with male driving teachers reminds me why i hate men.

[guardian5tiger3]

An honest love reading (general)

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Group one

A cycle has just been completed in terms of love and romance and either you or someone else did not this to happen. They're almost like, dramatic about that.someone involved , you or someone connected to yourself somehow, is overly focused on love and it stresses them out and it feels extreme though I can't pick up on any situation extreme enough to justify this. Someone could have insomnia and or hair loss you could also possibly see someone's tiredness in their eyes. Someone's money might be affected. I keep picking up on a a group of, as in multiple, people. Either someone here is polyamorous and if that's the case it has something to do with denial about something or the want to be in control of something or someone, or for others there's a group of people you're dealing with and they're "heated " about something . I also heard " eyeing you" who the hell uses phrases like this if you know that's a confirmation for ya. You have a group of people somewhat obsessed they seem like obsessed people in general they may be obsessed with something to do with you or just you, I'm also picking up on one individual who has something to do with you that (is very weird, and the groups I'm picking up on more or less give me weird vibes,) well connected to this person I'm getting something about childhood and I'm seeing candy this is really weird and I just involuntarily made an angry or confused look with my eyebrows you know I pushed them down I don't know why. This person may have known you for a long time or thinks they do or something idk this is super strange g make sure you're not overly trusting of every single person ever in your life you know. Someone also could be trying to take something that isn't theirs. Lock your doors , literally. Wow.sorry y'all . Genuinely. I also am somehow picking up on someone's long straight hair and something about glitter. I also saw a purple dress.

Group Two

You guys are easily manipulated and people who are going to want to manipulate you can notice this probably way more than you can about yourself also someone needs to not bite their fork when they take a bite of food it's bad for your teeth I don't know how or why that would come up for me to say sorry. Somebody needs to literally or metaphorically open a window. Um you're on the path to love and it will happen exactly when it's supposed to how it's supposed to with who it's supposed to and honestly unless you really go out of your way you may not have any romance at all until then even if that isn't what you want like for some reason I guess it depends but either your soul wants people in the meantime or you want someone sooner or what I don't know it just don't work like that though you know. I'm generally getting like if you're the type to hope your person isn't with anyone else before they meet you then this is probably for you also. Or your person is like this and I guess they are somewhat powerful cause therefore that's the way it's gonna be and in the meantime I guess you're gonna have to be solo. Somehow this seems better and more productive for your personal development than learning by Interacting with other people and being with "karmics" and stuff.

Group Three

I'm seeing two energies that are basically, literally, nothing alike. Yet somehow they're paired up. You're with this person right now in the past or future or you wanted or want to be with them lol. Some of you it's your soulmate ,though and that's really special and actually really cool and refreshing. Like 99% of you are supposed to at least at one point be with someone like this to you. Or for like very few of you this is just about your signs like fire and water but I really doubt that's as far as it goes you are probably very different either way. You guys are very deep and cool refreshing people very beautiful , good listeners and balanced. Someone has ADHD or something else so you might doubt the good listener thing I'm getting but I think you pay attention to detail or something like somehow this is still infact accurate and you may be don't see it about yourself . I think you all are very deep mentally and have a deep capacity to hold a lot lot lot of information, knowledge, wisdom, n stuff. A lot of people might be drawn to you or notice you and also possibly a lot of different types of people as something about you a lot of different people can still connect with somehow. Yeah also someone's a hater here though and they might tease you with something somehow so I really hope you stay aware of that possibility, realize this about whoever they are and stand up for yourself basically I feel like you have the potential to retaliate and as long as it is nothing illegal I kind of feel like saying I want you to . ????????? I don't know o feel like it would be really satisfying maybe to your guides or it is when you do, fight back or argue cause you're good at it and it would not be easy to win against you or come up with any comeback especially if you plan something. Wow. Hahaha. I'm leaving it here.

I heard desperado and I know three songs called that well two are just remixes of the og you could look up the og or the Mike bars desperado lol . Or just the word maybe is significant, goes with your picture anyway. I feel like most of you that will hear the song will just like the song lol . I can dig it

Group Four

There was a conditional love given and when this was taken away it had someone really stressed out and hurt. Someone was being a complete dick that was giving love conditionally and then stopped . I feel like the shit they do or say is old as f... Like it's ugly and getting old man anyway. This very well could be past energy like long long ago for some of you. This person might have lied. They might be selfish. They may be downplaying your come up or they will when you do come up. Or some , even saying you don't deserve it but I'm being shown you very clearly do. Like this person only gets dustier through time nobody is ever gonna pick up this old kick knack and undust them theyre old and lame. I'm picking up on like, when people say the type of person that peaked in high school. Yeah so this person has their qualities but eventually everyone's like ok whatever yawn. They're definitely super greedy as I just got a card saying " GREED " lol. In terms of future love y'all will be good I'm picking up generally most of you just need to become more comfortable within yourself first and I'm picking up on like cozy night chilling and watching movies and stuff by yourself or with a pet even a friend but you get me just learning to be content also and have good times like that without the need for someone else romantically. Either way somehow some time after you get into that energy a person will come along softly and surely and it will be really nice and happy . Around that time maybe shortly after you will have something happen positive when it comes to work or their work . I also channeled the movie my big fat Greek wedding as I was channeling this last part haha so I thought I should mention that, I know I'm partially Greek and always loved that movie. Someone might like telling stories ? But yeah in the movie she has a glow up and then she sees this guy she thought was cute again and things just worked out and he asked her out and they fell in love it was just simple smooth and sweet and the timing matched up with what I said may happen for you so that's really cute y'all stay hopeful and focus on relaxation. And for some of you if you know this is true though also studying .

[ryotono]

Hashiras/Pillars reacting to a [Y/N] having three husband's (like Uzui lol) pt2!

The Part One!

Reader's here is GN!

Enjoy!

Ft. Uzui (THE MAN HIMSELF), Mitsuri and Rengoku!

AN: in the Uzui and Rengoku parts there are mentions of violence, especially against dilfs

Satoshi is known to practice archery as a hobby, being your most reserved and serious husband, he is already used to dealing with more critical situations, but sometimes stress makes him anxious and he calms himself by practicing in the backyard. Often you and your other husbands get together and watch him practice, it helps calm him down.

Eiji is recognized for his skill with wood carvings. Coming from a family of woodcutters he is already used to using an axe, so is usually seen on the porch carving something in the wood, being her loudest and easily irritated husband, he is quite calm when he works.

(He's the one who break down the wall in the first part)

Ichigo is known to be extremely loving, especially to you and your husbands. However, he can become overprotective with his loved ones, he completely changes personality and becomes aggressive around other people who try to hurt you. And it's worse by the fact that he knows Martial Arts.

(He's the one who growls at Sanemi)

So imagine that they all got the opportunity to demonstrate their skills to your comrade Hashiras.

ik you all waiting for him hihi

See, you two are not really close before

Just some talking in the Hashira meeting

You then were sent on a mission to a far village, hoping it would be something simple.

Poor you

You were surprised by not just one demon, but five of them

It should be easy to cut their heads off if they don't keep running from you.

Uzui was sent for backup

You barely exchanged words, just informed him about the demons

In the middle of the battle you noticed that there were still many civilians there, you quickly ordered something for your crow which took off in a hurry

You two continues the fight

A demon was about to attack you from behind, an arrow hit him in the throat making him fall before you.

You quickly turned around and cut off the head.

Uzui was confused at first, where even that arrow came from?

He sees a young man running to you, asking if you are okay, then he introduces himself to Uzui as Satoshi, your husband

Well, that's was unexpected

Continuing the fight, your husband accompanies the two of you in the fight and helps with the demons.

But Uzui was amazed by Satoshi's talent with the bow, the fact that he can keep up with and protect two Hashiras was something brilliant

Two more young men appears

And also introduce themselves as your husbands

He's more confused??

You explained that you called them to help get people out of the danger

Uzui already knew you were married just by seeing the ring on your finger.

But he didn't expect that he had three more of those rings

INSTANT RESPECT!!!

I mean, he thought he was the only one to have three wives, then your three husbands show up in the middle of the fight to help the citizens

Finally a worth opponent, OUR BATTLE WILL BE LEGENDARY!

After the battle, you weren't seriously hurt, but Satoshi and Ichigo had to help you stay on your feet

Eiji was crying at your side begging you not to die

Uzui invites you and your husbands to his estate to recover and meet his wives

You and your husbands exchange confused glances but nod with a smile.

Y'all had to calm Eiji before

He starts talking about his wives and how beautiful and very talented they are, and also threatens your husbands if they try to do anything to them (tenten my dude, they already have a owner, they not gonna flirt with pretty wives chill)

Eiji starts screaming at Uzui claiming that his lovers are the most perfect thing in the world.

The two start fighting halfway through.

In the end you all arrive at Uzui's estate and meet the wives, you all get along

Satoshi helps Hinatsuru and Makio if the cooking and cleaning, while Eiji continues some random discussion with Uzui and Ichigo remains by your side talking with Suma.

You two are now quite close, your lovers get along and often meet

Uzui likes to tease the other Hashiras about how flamboyant he and you are for having three lovers.

Nobody cares.

You happened to run into Mitsuri and Obanai while they ate together.

Since you two are close friends, she happily invites you to join them

How could you not accept it, right?

Obanai isn't happy about this at all, you just messed up his moment with Mitsuri

He stares at you thinking of murder

Kaburamaru probably hissed at you, but yeah u don't care 👍

You ask for a portion of food, and Mitsuri immediately asks how your last mission went

The two of you start talking about how your missions went, how delicious the food at that restaurant was, and how great the weather was that week

She probably talked about how cute her 4 cats are and her 5 siblings

You and Obanai just die inside of cuteness

You had already finished your meal, but you decided to stay a little longer and talk to your friend

Obanai just stay there, silent still thinking of murder

You actually tried to bring him to he conversation, asking about Kaburamaru

But instead he sends you a message mentally

"don't talk to me"

"okay"

After you all finished, you left the restaurant with Mitsuri saying that she wanted to eat some Sakura Mochi

She turned at you and ask if you want to go if her and Iguro-san to buy some

The Snake Hashira was deadly staring at you

"I would love to go Mitsu, but I'm going to meet my husband now"

Wait

Husband?

"Mitsu are you alright?" You asked her

Give her sometime, she processing

"[Y/N]-San are you married?"

"Yes? You didn't know?"

You then explain that you were already married for two years, and you imagine that all the Hashiras knew since Uzui kept asking you about

She blushes embarrassed

"I did not pay attention! I'm sorry!"

"it's okay Mitsu" You pat her head smiling

After she apologize over a million times, she asked about your husband

"Oh Eiji is awesome Mitsu! Here, look" You show her a necklace, with a heart carved in wood " He gave me this, even put our initials" (Eiji is a cliche romantic okay? give him a break)

"Aww that is so cute! What about that S and I?"

"These are my other husband's initials, Satoshi and Ichigo"

Wait what

Now even Obanai is surprised

You kind of expected this reaction from them, so you explain that you are married to three people and that you were now going to meet one of them to return home

Or was that your plan, if you didn't hear Eiji's voice calling you

And Ichigo's

And Satoshi's screaming with they

Well, unexpected but already accustomed so

Your three husbands running towards you, well, Eiji and Ichigo ran towards you while Satoshi tried to hold them back at all costs

In the end Mitsuri get to knows all your husbands

They are much taller and strong, that Mitsuri can't help thinking they are beautiful (she does that to everyone, after all she's the Love pillar)

Let's just say that all of your husband loves Mitsuri, especially Eiji since she so lovely and kind, and praise him for his work.

After that, he carve a wooden cat for her as a gift, which you give her in the next Hashira meeting

Does Obanai get jealous? Probably

But don't worry snake baby boy, Eiji made you a gift too!

Yes a snake made of wood, wow

He acts like he doesn't care, but Kaburamaru likes

So your husband gain some points

i miss him so much

Now, Rengoku knows you are married with three people

You two are actually very close!

He's even close with you husband's (your hubbies love Rengoku and his young brother fr WHO DOESN'T)

You guys know each other since your first day as a hashira, so it's been a while

Often you two are practicing together, so it's pretty normal to see him in your state, you two training in the backyard

Satoshi sometimes is making y'all some meal (he likes to cook for Rengoku, since he always praise Satoshi's food) or training his archery in the garden with you

Eiji is always in the porch, carving something or just watching you

And in your physical training, Ichigo usually helps

But, in a different way

He points out and corrects some mistakes you make, like stepping wrong on the ground can hurt a muscle

But he does it all, just sitting on the porch with Eiji

Why?

Because he was forbidden to help when you train

See, it's a long story, but in short, he used to help you two how to position yourself in a fight, and even taught some strokes

And in some of those lessons, Eiji ended up with a broken arm

How?

VERY LONG STORY, BUT JUST KNOW THAT ICHIGO HAS AN OUTSTANDING STRENGTH

And Satoshi grounded him

Ichigo is afraid of Satoshi when he is angry

Anyway, this time you were in the Rengoku's garden training, the usual you know

Senjuro like always makes you guys some tea to eat with the cookies Ichigo baked for y'all (remember what I said abou loving these two)

So after training and drinking tea, you're waiting for Ichigo to arrive so you could go home together

Even if you lives close to Rengoku he insists to come and accompany you

Rengoku and Senjuro wait with you to the entrance of the residence, talking about your training

Soon Ichigo arrives and greet everyone

"Good evening Kyoujurou-sama, hello Senjuro-kun!!" Your husband says happily, running towards the three of you, taking your hand in his

"GOOD EVENING ICHIGO-SAN"

"Hello" answer Senjuro smiling

The 4 of you start chatting happily, about training and what they thought of the cookies

Everything was great you know, but I'm here to make the CHAOS

Suddenly, the front door of the Rengoku's house was brutally opened, by none other than the boys' father

well fuck

Senjuro quickly goes to his father to ask him to calm himself, Rengoku stays by your side looking at his very angry father. Ichigo moves closer to you, and squeezes your hand protectively.

"Every day, you train with this Hashira, either here or at they house, every single day. When are you going to understand that it's no use training until fatigue, if you're going to die anyway?"

Rengoku had already told him about his father's problem with demon slayers, and now seeing his own father complaining and cursing you two for just being Hashiras, it was sad

You looked at Kyoujurou's face asking if there was anything you could do

He just looked at you, and you notice in his look "it's ok, you can go home now"

What you didn't notice, it was your husband's growing anger at the words of the older Rengoku

"We apologize for any inconvenience" You say and head out taking Ichigo with you

"I DIDN'T FINISH TALKING TO YOU" You just kept walking

"Father no!" Rengoku scream

All you heard were very loud noises and a commotion behind you, you quickly turn and face the scene

Basically

There was a drunk man lying on the floor

The front door of the house was broken

And Ichigo was in the position of someone who just punched someone

well fuck, again

"Don't you dare touch my Wife/Husband" Ichigo says angry

Senjuro runs to his father to see if he is okay, Ichigo looked at Rengoku

"I'm sorry for this"

What you don't expect was to Rengoku smiles and answer "it's okay Ichigo-san, your punch is very strong!"

You two leave after that, with Ichigo holding your hand

"please don't tell Satoshi about that"

"oh im definitely going to tell him"

"[Y/N] NOOO" Your husband screams desperately while trying to convince you.

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Extra! After the Mugen train Arc

Senjuro: I'm so sorry about my father

Tanjiro: it's okay

Senjuro: but you know, it's not the first time he's been knocked out

Tanjiro: wait, who did before?

Senjuro: a very angry and protective husband

Tanjiro: what

Guess who's back, back again

I'm sorry for making you wait so long for this ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

Life is not easy for someone who broke they arm after falling out of a car, yeah that happened

ANYWAY!

Thanks y'all so much for 100 followers!

I'm going to write for the rest of the Hashiras, don't worry (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

I finally did Uzui's part, even though it didn't turn out so well

but meh

Hope you all enjoyed, thanks for reading! ♡

[raointean]

Elrond and Elros and Political Hostage Situations

Okay, so I just finished the second season of "Rise of Empires: Ottoman" which covers the story of Vlad "The Impaler" Dracula (yes, that Dracula), and to a lesser extent, his brother Radu. They were given to the Ottomans as political hostages to be killed if their father "misbehaved".

That gave me Thoughts about E&E! With Maedhros and Maglor, no matter how much they actually cared for the twins, were absolutely holding them as hostages; first to try and get the silmaril back, and then to deter pursuit by Gil-Galad. If he had tried to attack them in retribution for Sirion, all M&M would have to do is hold up a twin and a knife and Gil-Galad would have to back off.

Then, when they were given to Gil-Galad, he could have held them hostage as well, or else it could easily be misconstrued as that. Gil-Galad has a somewhat shakey claim to the throne, especially if you interpret the confusion about his father as in-universe or him being an illegitimate heir. Elrond and Elros likewise have a shakey claim to the throne. They are the great-grandsons of the last high king... through his daughter.

Gil-Galad COULD hold them hostage just to keep them under control and make sure they don't try to overthrow him in the confusion during the War of Wrath. Or, he could have genuinely been trying to make sure they were okay and they just misinterpreted it.

Back to the Ottomans, I think Elros parallels Vlad. He matured faster (in my mind) and more fully understood what was going on. Because of that, he had to deal with constant stress and anxiety, which takes a serious toll on the mind.

Perhaps, like Vlad, that shaped him into a very uncompromising person. As soon as Gil-Galad let him go/sent him away, Elros declared himself king of all Men. As king, he started making some... shady decisions regarding children (conscripting young boys, trying children as adults, refusing to show mercy to children on the other side, etc.) He received no mercy when he was a child. Why should they!?

Elrond matured much more slowly (again, in my mind) and was never really able to grasp the level of danger he was in. He was just swinging from caretaker to caretaker and trying to keep his sense of safety intact.

The mind, especially those of children, is EXCELLENT at twisting the facts until things are okay. Elrond didn’t focus on the fact that Maedhros held a knife to his throat to ward off Gil-Galad, he focused on the extra rations he got that night and the fact that HE was the one to save the camp from conflict. That rose-tinted view probably prevented him from examining what happened from an objective point of view until WELL into his adult life.

Gil-Galad may have offered Elrond the position of herald to a) quell rebellious whisperings that Elrond should be king instead of him, and b) to give Elrond a place in life where he FINALLY had some leverage. Elros, in his black and white view of the world, just saw it as another means of control. That was the biggest fight he and Elrond ever had.

[javaghoul]

Can it make Akira or Amon having a bad day? Or Nishiki?

Yeah, I'll write all 3 💪

This is my first ask. Thank you for sending it 🌠

Akira

First off, Akira is one of those rarities that handles stress incredibly well. She switches off from work easily, and once she is home in her apartment, work-Akira is left at the doorstep, and relaxing-Akira steps in

Alas, she is human, and sometimes things get to her. It just takes a lot

She's the suffer in silence type. She doesn't believe in making others' miserable because she feels pissed off. To the untrained eye, nothing is wrong. She keeps her composure

There are a few tells though: Akira is an eye-roller, she also snaps back quickly without considering her words first. She's also one that can't eat/drink when she's feeling pressured or angry

I don't think there's any particular trigger for Akira, rather a culmination of small things that have built up over time. She tends to deal with problems head on, but if she's very busy at work, they may get put on the sidelines until a later date. That's what tends to trip her up, and she's more annoyed feeling like she created her own problems rather than the issue itself if that makes sense? She holds herself to an unnecessarily high-standard

Hormones don't help either

In terms of getting herself out of the bad mood, Akira is a list maker. She'll make a list of everything bugging her, and tackle it one by one

She doesn't want to waste any more of her life feeling grumpy, so will endeavour to change her day around ASAP

CCG staff will be going about their day, when out of the blue, Akira marches up to them -

"*Name*. Three weeks ago, on Tuesday afternoon, you said *this* to me. Well I do not appreciate it, and I would prefer for it not to happen again. Thank you."

It makes Akira feel better, and confuses (scares) the heck out of her colleagues

She'll promise herself a treat after getting through her "problems list". A lady who appreciates the value of positive reinforcement

Amon

Whenever he wakes up knowing that ghouls have not spontaneously eradicated themselves is a bad day for Amon

This dude is the opposite of Akira; he feels things quickly and deeply and it is apparent for all to see that he's having a bad day

Amon is the type of guy to turn hatred/anger/annoyance into a powerful motivator. Whenever he hears about ghoul attacks, rather than being "That's terrible! I hate this! 😭", Amon is more -

"That's terrible! I hate this! I AM GOING TO STOP THIS RIGHT NOW 😤💪"

So those situations aren't enough to put him in a bad mood. I think what'll cause him to go into a slump, are things completely out of his control such as office politics involving the higher-ups

Amon having a bad day isn't an angerfest. Rather, he's sullen, melancholic. A very gloomy fellow indeed

He struggles to break out of it. This man is a ruminator: one bad hour will bring back a bad memory, and so it continues

The best remedy for this is for him to be around others, although he isn't aware of this. Fortunately, his colleagues and friends are, so when they suspect he's on a downer, he gets dragged out for food/drinks and is forced to hear Akira bickering with Seidou or Suzuya terrorising Shinohara/everyone until he at least has a tiny smile on his face

Nishiki

This guy is an absolute party to watch when he's having a bad day

The insults/language that come out of his mouth are savage af, and the more he swears, the angrier he makes himself...

... and Nishiki gets clumsy when he's angry which is comedy gold for those around him

Anyway. Nishiki having a bad day

Nishiki needs sleep. He doesn't do well on little rest, which is problematic when you're a student and also when you can only acquire food stuffs at night. And working part-time. And having a girlfriend

He also gets hangry

And he's doesn't handle being sick well

So it's more likely an underlying physical problem that's affecting his behaviour -and tolerance for things- rather than a particular event that's made him unhappy. When you've lived a life like his, not much can bother you 🤷‍♀️

It is clear as day that he's in one. Everyone knows it, even the campus staff that walked -swiftly- past his room knows it

He's shitty with everyone, whether they're at fault or not. He'll take out his bad mood on Koma (who Nishiki wrongly believes is too soft/weak to snap back), he'll mouth off to Yoshimura... He's a petulant brat

And like most petulant brats, the best way for them to get over their tantrum is to let them ride it out. Everyone at Anteiku (bar Touka, who is also a fiery idiot) has learnt to ignore him

As soon as he's caught up on sleep/eaten/got over the manflu, he may give an awkward apology to Yoshimura and Koma

But Touka can go screw herself.

[tinywitchgoblin]

hello ! could i request a bad batch ship please? ive never done one of these before so bare with me 😭

im afab (she/they/he), 5"2 and quite curvy, slim waist and large hips / thighs. i have greeny-blue eyes and dark red hair (dyed) thats around bust length (and a straight fringe), along with 2 ear lobe piercings (on each ear) and a septum piercing. i've got an gothic / alternative sense of style, like wearing all black with fishnets, legwarmers, bold makeup (like with heavy eyeliner and eyeshadow), large spiky earrings and chunky boots, etc.

im an artist ! i LOVE drawing, especially characters / people because i just love the way humanoid characters look (like the human form and stuff). my favourite part on the human body is the back and shoulder area - its really weird but i just love all the details like the shoulder blades and muscle definition etc. i also love music and travelling ! my favourite genre of music is drum and bass (along with metal / nu metal) !

i also have autism and i stim with my hands and mouth a lot - like shaking my hands or tapping my collarbone. when im comfortable with someone i literally just meow or like do "mow/mrow" sounds at them randomly. im so embarrassed by it but i can't help it because ive been doing it since i was young 😭 i hate large crowds and start to panic if there's a lot of people around me and we're in a small space (like a shop for example) and i have the need to leave the place immediately. i also cannot deal with any sort of confrontation or if someone is to start raising their voice at me because it makes me tear up and i'll sometimes cry bc of it. like i get arguments happen but you don't need to shout at me, man 💀

when you first meet me im super shy and quiet, but when you get to know me i do not shut up 😭 i will keep yapping all day about the things i like especially if it's my hyperfixation at the moment. romantically, im super physically affectionate (my love language fr) because i struggle to verbalise how much i love said person, so i just cuddle and smooch said person until they get the point lol. i also prefer to hold someone's arm (although i don't mind holding hands !) as it makes me feel secure and i like squishing said persons bicep (not hard and if they're okay with it ofc ^^) bc squishy,, and it feels comforting in my hands.

sorry theres so much here lol

ty :) ❤️

I'm so sorry this took me a whole ass month to answer but thanks for being patient!!

I ship you with...

Wrecker!

Wrecker absolutely loves physical touch. It's one of his biggest love languages (along with making/sharing food). One of his favorite things to do is pull you into his lap whenever you're not doing anything specific and just relax. His brothers aren't super into a ton of physical affection, so when you and he started dating (and maybe even before), he gave you all of the hugs and cuddles! It means so much to him, and you really like it as well.

As for your stimming, Wrecker doesn't see anything wrong with it. He just knows you're different, and that's okay! He was a bit confused about the meowing at first, but once you explained it to him, he never really mentions it anymore. Not in the ignoring sense, but just in the sense that that's part of who you are, and he loves every part of you. If you're into using stim toys, he'll ask Tech to make you a couple of them to help you get out some of the latent energy, and if not, he'll do what he can to help you stim in whatever ways are most comforting to you.

Wrecker is relatively social by nature, but he understands that you get overwhelmed very easily. You and he have developed a system that allows you to non-verbally communicate to him that you need to go somewhere private and relax. He's super protective of you, and when you find yourself in a stressful situation, he will do his best to keep you safe (both physically and otherwise). And if someone raises their voice at you, by god, he will stand there menacingly until the other person backs off, and he'll hold you and make sure you're okay once they leave. Again, he wants to make sure you feel safe, because he loves you and doesn't like seeing you hurt.

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Thanks for reading! If you want a ship request like this, drop it in my ask box (but be warned, it might take a while for me to get to it- oops), and don't forget to reblog <3

[erithel]

Ah, no, it's not like I think you have a hit list of Commentors Who Piss Me Off The Most or anything. For one, who has time for that? For two, especially on tumblr, writing out those usernames would probably make me laugh too hard to be mad anymore. I mean, ymmv and all that, but it's a bit overkill ;)

Precise apologies are a bit of a me thing, and online I tend to assume I'm the one that was in the wrong. My humour is *very* sarcastic and relies heavily on tone and body language, so it's very easy to misconstrue online. Even with people I'm quite good friends with in real life that switch can be jarring and confusing for them, and I usually apologize when that happens. That's why I'm a stickler for the difference between things like "I'm sorry you're dealing with that", "I'm sorry to hear you're upset", "I'm sorry I accidentally contributed to this", and "I'm sorry, I did this on purpose but didn't expect this result". It helps me clear up the issue, it makes the other person feel heard, and it still only holds me accountable for things I actually did. (Pro tip: this works really well with customers/clients as well, and since I deal with them in high-stress situations by default it's even more helpful). On a personal level as well, I feel like it cheapens my apology to give them for things I don't think need an apology or that I didn't do. So I just don't.

I also know I get caught up in the rising tension as a story approaches it's climax (wink wink nudge nudge) and can't easily promise I wasn't in the chorus chanting KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS. Not because I want them to at this point or think they will, but just because the story is affecting me the way it's supposed to and I'm excited.

I feel you on the repetitive replies to comments. I'm not much of an active writer anymore, but I remember it. It's not that every single one isn't appreciated and cherished, it's just that replying to them gats really dull at a certain point.

So this is both an interesting and important thing to talk about.

Because obviously tone can't often be conveyed through the internet, and it is very easy for something to come off in a different manner than its original intent.

I am a firm believer in giving people the opportunity to understand how their words made someone else feel without resorting to a blatant, personal, and public call out.

People make mistakes, and it's important that they be given the opportunity to change without immediately resorting to shaming them for something they may just not have known.

It's important for people to learn and grow, and become aware of better ways to convey their thoughts and feelings.

What you've mentioned here with apologies is a great example. Because it gives you an opportunity to learn from your mistakes without feeling shamed for them, and it also gives the other party the opportunity to express their feelings and discomforts without feeling shamed, as well.

Wording is important when tone is taken at face value in an online setting.

There is a huge difference between reading a comment that says:

"I NEED THEM TO KISS ALREADY! STOP DRAGGING THIS OUT!"

and one that says:

"I know this conversation is needed, but I am also just really excited for them to kiss."

The essence of it is that most people don't do well with demands, or things that made them feel invalid.

[inhaledpie4]

Hi so I'm really confused about something. I keep hearing that men always find traditionally feminine women (in the biblical sense) more desirable, but it's been the opposite for me?

I dress in feminine clothes that don't show my body, I don't engage in masculine activities, I don't drink or smoke, I'm saving myself for marriage, I don't use vulgar language, and I'm good at cooking and cleaning. But men seem to think I'm too plain and boring and prefer more rebellious/wild/free spirited women. What am I doing wrong?

I have a couple of thoughts on this.

Age and maturity. Of both you and the men. How old are you and how old are the men you wish to attract? How mature are you in comparison to these men? If you're ready to settle down and have kids right away, you might have to wait a little longer to find a man who's ready (and possibly financially established enough) to do so. Especially if you're under 30 in today's dating pool. It sucks, I know, but hold out hope. Another thing is, if you or the men are young, there is an intimidation factor. If you are perceived to be "out of their league" or "too good for them" or seem exceedingly put together, or even if you look like the type of person who would turn someone down for this reason or that, young guys don't generally have the confidence to pursue. I know that "smile more" is often perceived as a patriarchal slap in the face to women who don't want to be told to act happy, but a genuine smile really goes a long way in being perceived as open and kind - both things that are key to getting a man's interest in the first place.

Do you show any interest in their interests? That is, if a man likes hunting for example, do you ask him about it? Can you engage in deeper-than-surface-level conversations in the interests of the men you're wanting to get to know? If you have nothing in common with them, or aren't interested in learning about their passions, they might be turned away by that. As well as by other intellectual disparities... you don't want to end up in a relationship with someone who is too far above or below you in intelligence. You need to be able to at least understand what each-other are saying (even if you can't engage in a topic on the same level). My husband and I have many of the same interests. We read the same genre of books and generally have the same intellectual pursuits. He is smarter than I in some things and I him in others, but we are roughly equals. We also share a passion for games, so we got to know each-other playing board and video games and now that we're married, we've started the process of making our own (video) game.

My husband shared a great deal of wisdom with me in a statement I will paraphrase. A man's strength is easily seen and known. A woman's strength is not. A woman's virtue, wisdom, and everything else that makes her a good wife and mother need to be looked for carefully. A man can't know how well you'll cook, clean, raise his kids, etc, until he's actually seen you in all of those situations. And it's not until marriage has occurred that -all- of those things are revealed because.. well, those are wife things, not friend or even girlfriend things.

These men may be overlooking you because they don't (yet) have the wisdom to look further than the allure of a woman who puts on an exciting front. If you truly want to appeal to those men, I suggest finding a side to your personality that is more outgoing and "fun" for lack of a better word. Trust me when I say you don't have to compromise your morals to do so. Sometimes men just need slight assurance that you are actually nice to be around and that they can have fun with you. Most importantly, they need to be able to relax around you. And here's why: nothing is better than coming home after a long day of work to a wife and a home that instantly bleed away the stress of life, and to a wife that can bring back the fun and joy of life once the stress is gone.

[comet-ribbon]

My Fix-it for Ts4

I've collected my thoughts and ideas that could have made Toy Story 4 a decent (yet then again an unnecessary sequel) in my take since sometimes this movie gives me headaches and wishful thinking that my true characters were there.

If some of you liked how this movie went, I respect your opinion. I, in my case, didn’t so this is for those who didn’t like it or just indifferent by it.

First of all, the starting point is Bonnie. If they followed up her love about Woody, then it would have easily respected everyone’s characters as they should be and the plot would have been better.

At this point everyone has commented how it went off character with her too so I won’t elaborate it here.

So, if Bonnie cared so much about Woody in ts4, it might have been a parallel to Andy missing him and Buzz when he was like 7(?)

Bonnie would be stressed and sad that she doesn’t know where Woody or Forky is. As shown in the montage she seemed happy playing Woody with Forky, being this new duo sort of pals.

And probably TS first all over again. But the thing is! That Woody's learned SO MUCH from the first movie and all that jazz.

He would have totally taught Forky About how being a toy is. Not in the funsies way in which the first TS did, they were obviously fun humor when it needed to. But with the falling point of Buzz' arc, it was a big deal and Woody helped him about his purpose.

Including Buzz and Jessie being now more experienced in this thing. Probably they could have become a stronger couple in assessing the toys and would have been cute af.

Forky wouldn’t be throwing himself away every damn time, in my take he would be confused in everything. He doesn't know why he's here. He doesn't even know why he has the form of a spork.

In my rewriting, he's literally a first-born, like Pinocchio.

Now ppl might be wondering, what would actually happen if Forky would have thrown himself away from the window? And the sidewalk thing happens?

Well. I have an idea. Instead of Bonnie cuddling Forky in her sleep. It’s Woody. Her parents would have told her that sleeping with her fork would be dangerous as it can hurt her when she doesn't know it.

Or it can be Jessie! since Bonnie is showing her sweet love to the cowgirl as well without making Woody being “neglected” She gets more appreciated in a good way, without shadowing Woody.

But I believe Woody has to be the focal point of this otherwise we wouldn’t get the talk on the sidewalk lmao.

If it’s the former, Woody has to make a quick decision whether stay in place with Bonnie or just going to bring Forky back.

Since we know our favorite doll and his great loyalty, he just tells Buzz they’ll be back soon, not knowing that he might see Bo again, delaying his mission and all that.

Probably Forky would still don't know about the dangers and he gets curious of going to the window. Again, his conscience is not developing yet. Bc he genuinely doesn't know anything yet.

Maybe and probably, once he gets sucked in, for the first time he's got a sense of fear and danger. Probably adding more personality than before.

For the first time ever, he developed the feeling of fear.

So, probably Woody would have told him in his experience, how when he was with Buzz, he saw the mutilated toys from Sid. And how they weren't able to speak or talk. Bc the actual body proportions were out of place, must have caused abnormalities in them.

That could make Forky more aware of his physical proportions. He also listens to his adventures of how Woody got his arm accidentally pulled off and how it even harmed him by the prospector when he threatened him.

Forky gets very fascinated by his storytellings and learn that strangers having to take things from you by force is morally wrong because of what Woody told him.

Heck, he even would have told him about Lotso! And how they were in the trash. Making Forky very scared, and just terrified of being there being useless.

So that situation happens when he sees that Gabby wants his voice box but remembers Woody's saying.

Might have changed the plot for the better.

So yeah, here are my thoughts so far! Would have loved to see my favorite trio work together in saving the spork and more suspense in facing the villain. Woody and Bo would have better off stayed being friends instead of a couple in the end because sometimes things don’t work anymore and could have been a good message for the audiences about relationships.

What do you guys think?

[jerzwriter]

Hi from Edgy OC meme

12 and 16

Hey Nonny! You didn't say for what characters, so I'm going to attempt to give brief answers for an array of them.

From this list

12) Is your OC self-destructive? In what ways? 16) What is your OC's pain tolerance like?

12) Is your OC self-destructive? In what ways?

Ethan (OH) was totally self-destructive in his private life; ironically, he got better with that with the assistance of Kaycee, and then he became a bit self-destructive (to a far lesser extent) in his professional life, where he never, ever let that happen before. I think post-series, he's made big progress here. He can still self-sabotage but on a much smaller scale with less important things.

Kaycee (OH) She was never really self-destructive, but perhaps a little impulsive. But she's learned. Kaycee isn't one who allows things to get in her way, including herself.

Tobias (OH) was very self-destructive in his private life in the past. He was with his father and brother. Some things from his past left him feeling confused, lost, and betrayed... and he didn't always deal with it in healthy ways. It also impacted how he self-sabotaged his relationship with Ethan and why he never allowed himself to have a real adult relationship until he was nearly 40. He hid it well so people didn't see he was self-sabotaging, but deep down, he knew. He is in a much better place now. :)

Casey (OH) isn't usually, but she can be, especially during times of extreme stress if her anxiety is in control. She is normally very focused, confident, and self-driven, but during these times, her insecurities come to the forefront, and she feels unworthy. If left unchecked, she will self-sabotage. Fortunately, she knows the signs and knows what to put in place to avoid more problems 99% of the time.

Eli (WTD): He was the king of self-destruction prior to meeting Zoe and her crew. Given all the trauma he endured, and the world they live in, it's understandable, but still, it was damaging.

Zoe (WTD): She is not self-destructive. She probably turns lemons into lemonade better than any other character I've created. Like Eli and all others in her world, she's endured some really traumatic shit, but she tries to put it and the damage it's done to her aside and moves forward.

Trystan (CoP): This one is difficult. I think Juliana's death left him with a sense of self-culpability. He definitely bought into the guilt and held himself accountable... but he still was living the best life he could, so I don't think he let that impede him. However, I'm not sure where his trajectory is going right now, so ask me again in a few months. lol

Carolina (CoP): Absolutely self-destructive with relationships in the past. The loss of her father impacted her and led her to close doors that appeared to lead to true emotion for most of her adult life. That's changed a bit now, but it's still baby steps.

16) What is your OC's pain tolerance like?

Ethan: Pretty good for physical, not so good for emotional.

Kaycee: Strong for both.

Tobias: It's very strong for physical unless he has a man cold. In general, it is good for emotional, but he tends to burry a lot, and it can come out later.

Casey: Tends to be above average for physical, but can waver on emotional. Generally strong, with some moments.

Eli: Extremely strong for physical, very low for emotional.

Zoe: Very strong for both.

Trystan: If he's in a dangerous situation, it's very strong for physical pain. If he's not in a dangerous situation, it's pretty shitty lol. For emotional, he can be strong, but he's always on that fault line and can come undone fairly easily.

Carolina: For physical pain, she has an enormous tolerance; for mental, it's strong, but there is a lot of repression and denial, which is not good.

Thanks for the ask, Nonny! :)

[icharchivist]

Sorry, drama again, just remove ask if you are tired/don't want to talk about it anymore and take care <3

I feel bad, but also I am kind of sipping tea, because when I was able to recognize his voice easily, because Lucifer, but... Welp... Somehow his voice never fitted Lucifer for me, both in gbf and rage of bahamut anime (didn't played the game) and generally when I head him I felt like I would like to punch him. No idea why, just his voice alone was pissing me off, the more I was able to recognize him in anime or game from sigh alone, like "it's you again, Sakurai". I have no idea why, seriously, it was few years ago and now I think it's kind of hilarious.

Tbf, I wouldn't mind recast or something, especially if it would help get Lucifer faster or something. *Sips tea* i feel so unable of emotions, like I should feel sorry and bad for those he cheated, but on the other hand... Will it change anything? My brain is rewired too much around Lucifer to really care... Oh welp, I will deal with it some day

I must say I am pretty excited for next stream. I think gbf mentioned earlier evokers 5* around this time and curious about Vikala uncap. Oh, don't they show trailer for anniversary around this time? Also I am finally getting close to my first transcend eternal and right now I am blocked by... Whorls and orbs, damnit. I think have most/can easily get most of materials for 150lvl and here I am... With not enough whorls and orbs, damnit *angy* Super Ultimate Angel Halo when with Super Ultimate Rewards, hmphf

Remember to drink water, but not too much!

ahah it's okay

I can't relate at all to how you feel about it since Sakurai was legit one of the first seiyuu i really obsessed over (he played two formative characters from my childhood that i was obsessing over when i was 13, ironically also paired with Suzuken, so i've had a lot of affection for his voice ever since, and seeing him paired with Suzuken in gbf again felt really on brand. All the more reasons for me to be sad), so personally i could never find he was out of place anywhere, it was just, ah, funny Sakurai following me around and giving me characters with similar thematic to haunt me!

I guess now you have justifications to your kneejerks reaction lmao

of course i feel bad for the victims of it all first and formost, especially since both mistresses came forward with a lot of health issues due to the stress the whole situation put them through it's just. another layer of horrible. I don't think it's fair to think about the outrage in the sense of "will it change anything?" i think just having compassion for the people involved is enough. We don't even have to address it per se, it's not like our voice matters, but i think it's at least the minimum before talking about our grieves for fictional matters that don't matter as much.

When it comes to his roles, it's so tricky because it's not just GBF to take into account. None of the big franchise that relies on Sakurai's name has done anything to distance himself from him, hell, between those two scandals ff7 released a new game where Sakurai took back his iconic role, and mp100 got its new season where Sakurai's character is just as beloved as ever. And we know GBF brought him back for the NY's intro with Lucio as well. And i also saw a recent anime announcement of a brand new IP hiring Sakurai, while they don't even have the excuse of trying to stay consistant with legendary characters he played.

It's like everyone is agreeing it's a very fucked up things he's done but he's too associated to their brands for them to do anything about it. It's so wild and confusing and hard to really predict where it's going to go from here.

GBF alrready announced 5* Lucifer and i don't see them announcing a recast so far, so it's really difficult to know if they even can terminate their countract with Sakurai at this point.

(To this day the only efficient seiyuu scandal solving i saw was with a3 when one of the seiyuu came out as rancid and a3 and his company literally dumped him the day after everything about him came to light, and they replaced him in the following week by the actor who played his character in the stage adaptation of the game. Then in the month that followed his voicelines were completely muted from the game and they revoiced the whole thing with the new VA in the following year. It was so swift and efficient that now when i just see them all go silent and wait for it to get quiet again, i just think they don't think it's worth addressing to start with lmao. Tho we are talking vastly different level of crimes so it is probably not the best scale for me to judge that with).

Next stream should mention things about Evokers's 5* yes, and we're all waiting for Vikala's 5* announcement. They should also show a trailer for the new anni event there, so we gotta stay tuned.

Congratz on the soon transcendance! Whorls and orbs are the worst, sorry you have to deal with it o7 this is such an Eternal grinding thing to happen lmao. More Halo jail for you rip.

Thanks for the reminder, and same goes to you! take care!

[yaffles-world]

🌾🥧🕯 for the autumn ask game!

Thanks for the ask!!! I decided I'd answer this one for Serizawa Katsuya!

🌾: You and your f/o attempt to make it through a corn maze. How does that go for you?

So… I've got a story for this one.

Reigen, Mob and Serizawa had been called to deal with some spirits haunting a carnival ground, and they asked me to come along - despite my lack of powers they said it could be fun. Turns out, it was a very minor spirit problem so Reigen and Mob stayed to deal with it, but offered that Serizawa and I should explore the area a bit. Carnival is a strong word; they just had the maze, a petting zoo, and a food stall, but still. More interesting then ghosts.

Serizawa, Reigen and I had only had our first date as like a polycule the other week. We had been friends for a while, so it's not as if we didn't know that Serizawa was still dealing with lots of anxiety and agoraphobia, and it wasn't a secret that I was bad at dealing with stress and also was a bery anxious person… But, when your with a cute guy, and you see a corn maze, it strikes you with a stupid idea - let's go in.

Needless to say, we got unbelievably lost. It seemed like we had made a huge mistake and we were never going to get out. We both started to panic as the reality of the situation set. We ended up calling Reigen, who found us pretty easily, and lead us with confidence. Confidence fueled both from a perceived duty to protect and absolve us from anxiety but also confidence fueled by Reigen being Reigen… Needless to say, we got lost again. Reigen didn't admit that. But we called Mob who had just finished with the spirit. He used his powers to find us… And was very confused why Serizawa hadn't thought to use his own powers.

Oh well. We got some candy apples after that.

🥧:What are you and your f/o’s favorite autumn treats?

Uh… I don't really know what an Autumn treat is, specifically, but I would say our favourite dessert is apple pie. We cooked one last year, and I hope it's a continuing tradition.

🕯: Do you observe Daylight Savings Time where you live? If so, how do you and your f/o adjust to it? How do you feel about the days getting darker earlier?

Not to be boring about it, but no, we don't, so no opinion there.

[happyselves]

Law of Attraction { Lando Norris x reader }

Disclamer : Swearing !!!

It was a busy weekend for the Mclaren team, they were about to get associated with a new partner. It was a huge contract and it was your first big deal. Mclaren just hired you, you were on probation before your contract will be real. You couldn’t mess up, you needed this job, needed to make your proof. You just got your law degree and it was your first job as a lawyer and you got lucky that you found yourself working as a Mclaren F1 Team new attorney.

This contract was important for both parties and it would go to the press as well. You were set to make your client sign during the next grand prix weekend and it was this weekend.

You spend hours and hours in your office reading the partner offer but something was bugging you and you couldn’t put your finger on it . You had to fly this afternoon to join all the team in Austria and you were starting to feel stress because you knew you had to put that deal on your boss table for him to sign, but that it wasn’t a good one and that we would basically get screw over by some clause or something, you knew it in your guts, you just need to find which pieces of puzzle you were missing. If the partner attorney thought he could easily screw you over like this because you were in your first year of work, he was wrong. You might be a newbie but one thing your mentor had taught you was to never show your weakness. That’s why you spend all night writing a new contract, word by word like the original, to find that little detail and you end up finding it. You were ehausted and tomorrow was the signing day, but now you were ready to show that we can’t fuck you over easily and that nobody should ever underestimated you. That was probably why mister Brown had give you the job, hearing things from is old attorney and your mentor was one thing, but proving how worth of the job you were is another and it will be soon be your moment of glory, but you couldn’t celebrate victory to soon, another thing you mentor had teach you.

Today was the day of the signing, you were stressed, you didn’t know how this would turn out. You were scared to have made a mistake and the lack of sleep was starting to rub on you. You had your plan in your mind, letting the other party think they had the upper hand and not tell them you had found the hair in the soup that will make your client profit and not lose all his money. It was important for you to not show your whole game to the adversary, but let him build his ego before you put that last card that will make you win the whole game in hand.

To make it official, Mclaren had to make the deal in their motorhome, Mister Brown wanted his two drivers to be there with him while signing as well because it was an important partnership for the whole team. It will be your first time seeing them since you entered the company, you were based in the factory back in Woking, but never had met any of them. You were quite intimidated, but the job was coming before anything else, no matter how many hours you spend in your free time to search about these two drivers, focusing on one in particular because he was around your age and something was telling you that the two of you were somewhat alike in certain ways of your life. You would lie to yourself if you didn’t find him attractive as well, but your personal preference when it comes to man can’t interfere with your work, it was your first and most important rule in your code of conduct you had set yourself on when you started studying law.

You arrive early in the paddock, hoping to visit around and discover this whole new world that you knew nothing about. You gotta visit the garage of your team, mechanics were happy to explain to you one thing or two, having a silent competition between them for the one that will have the testosterone level at his highness and find a way to make you fall for them. You already know their little trick going to law school with men, nothing could surprise you anymore. You knew you were pretty or had a little something more perhaps, but seeing gentlemans thinking the same was actually really flattering. After this pleasant little escapade, you find yourself walking the stairs of the Mclaren motorhome reading to meet everyone in the meeting room. You were the last one to enter the room, but you could give yourself the right to make an entrance after the thing you discovered during your sleepless night of searching dirt on the company represented by the douchebag sitting on the opposite side of the table. By his face you knew this man was an asshole and that it wasn’t his first rodeo and you were ready to put a stop into his little illegal business.

However when your eyes meet the drivers, especially the youngest one, your heart skips a bit, before you turn yourself and find your boss judging your rather late presence. You quickly apologize with a nod of the head before inviting them all to sit around the table and start the meeting.

Everything was going smoothly, everyone was happy, except you. You already hated what you were about to do,but you had to act fast otherwise it will be too late and the papers would be signed in front of your eyes.

“ Excuse me, I have one more question before we head toward the signature. “ You interrupted the conversation, looking at your boss, waiting for his approval to continue. After all you were only doing your job to assure everything is well covered, he couldn’t argue on that. The opposite camp didn’t have any objection for you to give a go to your wonder, thinking it would be innocent coming from a young lawyer that is still learning about the job. He made a gesture toward you, avoiding getting over this.

“ Well, mister Backfield, without due respect I was wondering why you were so eager to help our company, I did some research, you know. Usually you are investing in smaller businesses, which will lower profit. Why show the Mclaren F1 Team when it's new territory for you ? “

And action, you knew that every word that was about to leave this man’s mouth would only be total lies, but he didn’t know that. You had the upper hand by far and you won’t give him the satisfaction to put down this team and family.

And he tried hard to explain, save his case, defend himself and if you were naive you would have believed the guy but you weren't and could give a shit about his speech.

" Well I'm afraid I can't let this go on further. "

Everyone around the table was stunted, not knowing what to say. Mister Brown was reading to make you go before you heard him a piece of paper and that's when his face changed and he let you continue.

" You see Mister Backfield, you thought you could screw us over and try to go fish at a bigger price. Unfortunately for you I find out who you truly are. A piece of garbage buying company when they must need it, making them believe you will help them develop until somehow by some miracle they are forced to declare bankruptcy a couple years ago and then you buy them twice the price they truly worth before miraculously going back on the high to sell them three times the price. I don't know you but I call that stealing and corruption and I'm not ready to let my company get fucked over by an asshole like you so you can take you goddamn deal, walk away from here and never show your face around us again or I can talk to the press and trust me they are going to love it. One thing for sure is that if it happens I might win big and no negotiation put on the table will make me give you your money back. " You threw him middle fingers as you stood up and showed him the door.

Everyone was so shocked they couldn't speak, not because of the revelation in itself but how you had handled the whole situation like a true boss, with confidence and pride.

Someone in the room was even more impressed and couldn't even close his mouth, clearly admiring you. If you knew better you would say that right there Lando Norris was falling in love with you and if that wasn't boasting your ego then you didn't know what will.

Mr Brown was the first one to come to you as you all watched the security guys escorting Mr Backfield out of the paddock. He was about to say something but the rush of adrenaline was making you bold and you beat him to it.

" I am so sorry mister Brown I know I should have informed you before the meeting, but honestly I wasn't even sure before entering in that room that my information was right and I only received the confirmation a minute before being here, explaining why I was late. Truly I'm sorry if I put your entire team in a difficult position, I will try to find the best replacement for you I promise you. " You were almost out of breath as you finish you log apologize but realize soon enough that it didn't really matter here.

" I am impressed with you, first month on the job and you are already making yourself irreplaceable, you shouldn't have to apologize and I certainly should be thanking you and giving you a raise. Your mentor was right to gush about you. You are someone else." Proud could be seen in his eyes and his smile couldn't leave his face as he hugged you awkwardly saying thank you one more time before leaving and going back to the garage with Daniel who made sure to wink at you and make a big thumbs up at you before heading out.

However, someone hadn't left his seat, Lando. You thought he was just going to stay there and ignore you but as you were opening the door he smashed it back close behind you.

" I observed you all weekend, wondering why such a little fragile person was headlining such a big deal like this but it turns out I was wrong, never judge a book by it's cover. I'm learning it the hard way. "

You turn to face him ready to get back at him but his lips on you made you shut up. He pushes you against that door again, putting his hands on your lower back. At first you were confused as to why he was kissing but eventually you just stopped resisting and let yourself enjoy the moment. You had a thing for him and you were now sure that these weird eye contacts weren't that innocent. He had a thing for you too.

His kiss could make you reach the roof, you never felt something like that before, not that you had much experience, he knew exactly what would make you moan into his lips and lose balance so he could tighten the grip around you. You needed air but you would not allow it to yourself, you wanted more, you wanted him.

The adrenaline in your system was still pumping through your veins and you couldn't really think straight, your hands found the back of his head, playing with his loose locks of hair. You were holding on for dear life on this ride despite the fact you barely knew the guy.

Lando ends up breaking it up and you realise you were hooked around him as he put you down on your feet again.

" Just for the record, what you did before was so fucking hot that I would gladly be a criminal if that means you would be the one to put me in jail. "

He made you laugh, you were gasping for air, messy hair, swallow lips and redness on the cheeks, no speaking of your clothes being runned and unfolding and your shoes not even on your feet anymore. Everyone knows what they say about aan that can make a woman laugh and you wouldn't argue on that, not with him anyway.

Now that you had a taste of Lando, you wanted more, so much more and by the look on his eyes he was willing to explore the " more " area with you too.

" Okay that was unexpected, but the good kind, so here's what we're going to do. You will knock twice on my door at 23pm tonight, room 344, not a minute before and not a minute after, hope you know what punctuality is because you won't get a second chance. " You gathered all your things, trying to clean yourself to make it look like nothing had happened before you caught Lando's chin in your palm.

" Hope you will have a good defense, because tonight is going to be the trial of your life " You blow him a kiss before leaving his sight, a pride face drawing on you.

MASTERLIST

[lit-in-thy-heart]

and the next instalment of the merlin gif analysis saga is...

gwaine realising he's in love with merlin

because i want to make myself cry

Glossing over the fact that the first gif actually makes something in my chest clench, this seems to be the episode where Gwaine realises that he might be a lot little in love with Merlin.

Elyan definitely seems to believe that Gwaine is in love with someone in 5×06 (thanks @sneakyboymerlin for reminding me of that) and you could argue that Gwaine's lack of interaction with Merlin in 5×05 proves that it's not Merlin he's in love with, but think about it.

Gwaine rarely reveals his true feelings when he's around other people, but Merlin seems to be the exception. He's put himself out on the line before (yes I'm thinking about the 'Not Arthur' scene, I'm always thinking about that scene) because he can't seem to help but lay himself bare in front of Merlin. So if he's realised that he cares for Merlin a bit more than he should, he is going to be terrified of revealing that fact, and avoids Merlin because that's the only way he is going to be able to process his feelings.

Because Gwaine has it bad.

He loves Merlin subtly, powerfully. In the first gif, he casts a glance over his shoulder to make sure that Percival is still behind him and has still got hold of Merlin (honestly I don't know what they'd do without Percival, he's essentially the assigned transportation knight) and what's really interesting is what Gwaine is doing with his hand. It's not quite gripped on his sword, but hovering above it, with the fingers splayed. And perhaps I'm projecting but that is a movement I usually associate with trying to calm yourself down when panicked. As if he's telling himself to take a breath and everything will be fine. And the way Gwaine takes Merlin from Percival is so painfully gentle. He lets Merlin's body fall into his arms, rather than actively manipulating his form with his hands. Gwaine seems very reluctant to disturb Merlin in any way at all, choosing to kneel behind his head and slow down the process of setting Merlin down, despite the situation being quite dire. He handles Merlin like he's a glass ornament, as if he's afraid of him shattering at any moment.

Merlin is relatively well-supported by the makeshift bed they've got going on, yet Gwaine chooses to leave his hand resting on Merlin's shoulder. In fact, it doesn't look just like it's resting, but he's moulded his whole hand to fit around Merlin's shoulder. His hand doesn't need to be there. Gwaine doesn't even need to be there. He could easily be stood with the other knights, yet his instinct is to be as close to Merlin as he can. The only way he could be closer is by having Merlin in his lap, but that would probably make it more difficult for Gaius to examine him.

Gwaine has never really been one to shy away from physical contact. In the season 3 episodes he consistently provides Merlin with hugs (mostly when Arthur has rejected him but we'll get onto that whole thing in a bit) despite not knowing each other for that long. Even later on in this episode, he drops all the firewood to give Merlin a hug when he recovers. There seems to be an instinctive urge to be close to Merlin. And the fact that Merlin's head is resting on Gwaine's forearm is making me want to curl up in a ball and scream. And maybe Gwaine has never questioned this eagerness for physical contact before. But by the second gif, I think he knows what his initial refusal to be away from an unconscious Merlin means.

And a key part to this analysis is something I never thought I'd be looking at in depth, as glorious as it is: Gwaine's hair.

The first image directly follows the first gif, and the second image precedes the second gif. You can see that Gwaine's hair in the first image is much flatter than it is in the second. By the time Arthur and Co have left and Merlin is still unconscious, Gwaine seems to have been running his hands consistently through his hair. It's significantly messier and, whilst it could be argued that the wind plays a part, Gaius's hair remains largely unaltered. And one way to try and deal with stress or panic is to run your fingers through your hair again and again. It's not difficult to believe that Gwaine has been pacing up and down doing exactly that because Merlin is still not waking up.

If he was panicked before, then he's feeling tormented now. His hair, pushed out of his face in the first gif and image, is falling unchecked into his face and Gwaine, who usually keeps his hair in a relatively immaculate condition, is doing nothing about it. Because Merlin is lying right in front of him, potentially dying, and he has no clue how to deal with that.

In the second gif, Gwaine partially turns away and looks up, seeming to take a quick breath. He's deliberately not looking at either Merlin or Gaius, and this reaction comes after Gaius implies that Merlin could have internal injuries. And if there's internal damage and Gaius doesn't know how to deal with it, then Merlin doesn't stand a chance. And it's quite possible that Gwaine is looking up like that to try and blink away tears or just to ground himself. Merlin has been seriously injured before (think of the writers using him as a bit of a punching bag in season 4) but that damage was always external and Merlin was healed rather quickly. If it's internal, then nothing can be done by Gwaine. And it is when Gwaine is faced with the thought of being without Merlin that he realises just how much he needs him.

And when there's the slimmest chance that Gwaine might be able to help, he launches himself into it. When Gaius tells him to get firewood, he starts off in a manner that is almost a sprint, before seeming to realise that being in that much of a rush would expose his feelings, and he hesitates before electing for a fast walk instead. Because the only way he can keep himself from falling apart is to focus on helping Merlin and the possibility that he might be alright after all.

Look at his face here. He is stunned, then ecstatic, then confused. And the way that he moves towards Merlin makes it clear that he is not going to give him the trademark one-armed hug, but a full-on embrace. And Merlin brushes Gwaine off, because he doesn't have the time because Arthur is in danger and Gwaine probably should be paying more attention to what Merlin is saying but he's not. He's giving Gaius a tender smile as if to thank him for helping Merlin.

Gwaine hasn't made any mention of Arthur or the knights, even though it is a dangerous mission with or without knowing it's a trap, and his preoccupation with Merlin shows just how deeply he cares for him. The fact that his first instinct is once again to make physical contact with him, even though there was the prospect of internal damage and hugging Merlin might not have been the best thing to do, just says that Gwaine has got it tremendously bad for Merlin.

It took the thought of Merlin dying for Gwaine to realise that he was in love with him, and Gwaine spends the rest of the series struggling to deal with that.

He distances himself from Merlin for two episodes, not engaging in any conversations with just the two of them, until--

THE SUBTEXT.

Merlin's glance down in the first gif, demonstrating that he'd also do anything to protect his mother, is one thing, but Gwaine's reaction? The subtle sag of his body, the eyes darting down away from Merlin, the gentle swallow. In that moment, he's thinking how he would do anything to protect Merlin. Gwaine's gaze lingers on Merlin for a moment before he looks away, realising that Merlin has no idea how he feels about him. There's so much tenderness in that one look, especially after the slight annoyance that there seemed to be when Merlin kept talking about Arthur.

Gwaine was Merlin's friend before he was a knight. But Merlin only seems to see him as a knight these days, and Gwaine seems to decide that the only way he can indicate any of the love he has for Merlin is by being what Merlin wants him to be: a soldier to protect Arthur.

You have my word on it, Merlin.

You have my word that I will protect the one you care about the most. You have my word that I will keep him safe for you, so you don't have to feel the same pain I did. You have my word that I will put my life on the line for him, because he means more to you than I ever will.

Because this is when Gwaine realises that though he may love Merlin, Merlin will not love him back.

The way Gwaine falls back in his chair is incredibly interesting. There seems to be a bit of an impact with his shoulders, suggesting that he's hitting it with some force, but his limbs seem pretty tense. He's not slumping back in it from fatigue, he seems to be subtly throwing himself back in it. Because when Merlin was injured, Gwaine was thinking only about him and worrying about his welfare. But when Gwaine himself is injured (or has faced a threat of injury), Merlin spends the whole time talking about Arthur. And Gwaine can never measure up to Arthur. Gwaine only received hugs from Merlin when he'd been rejected by Arthur; a part of him believes that he's second best to Arthur in Merlin's eyes. And Gwaine is resigned to that, to never being able to measure up to Arthur, but is not happy about it. But he clings on to Merlin in whatever ways he can. By protecting Arthur. By greeting him when he's released from the cells and being one of the first faces he sees.

And just before their final interaction in the finale, Gwaine doesn't give Merlin a hug after Merlin has faced injury, but a touch on the arm. A touch that is incredibly similar to the one Arthur has given Merlin many times.

Because maybe, just maybe, if Gwaine can prove that he's similar to Arthur, then Merlin might look at him in the same way he looks at Arthur. Might prioritise Gwaine for once. Might even return a fraction of the love that Gwaine hasn't known what to do with for most of the season.

Gwaine would do anything for Merlin, but, by the final season, Merlin only sees him as a shield for Arthur.

[redwhump]

Whumpmas In July Day 1: (Re)Introduce Yourself

i never actually did an intro post, so hello! i'm briar/red, i write whump sometimes. i currently have a scifi whump series (which should get to the actual torture in the next part), and will be posting the first part of a vampire whump series soon, whenever i manage to finish that. i don't post/reblog any explicit nsfw stuff on this blog, i want to keep it sfw.

i'm going to try to complete all the whumpmas in july things, but i'm generally not good at completing events like this (i've failed at lex/ember twice so far), so we'll see.

favorite whump tropes:

character stuff: whumper turned whumpee + whumpee turned caretaker, reluctant caretaker, carewhumpers, vampire/immortal/nonhuman whumpees, defiant/angry whumpees, desparate whumpees who are just doing what they can to make the situation better, "professional" whumpers (who are mostly doing the whump because it accomplishes some other goal. professional isn't quite the right word but i couldn't think of something else), intimate whumpers

story/plot stuff: sleep deprivation, starvation, stress positions, captivity, whumpee having to choose how they'll be hurt, torture, whumpees dealing with the effects of trauma, recovering from trauma, trauma nightmares, gore, non-consensual body modification, mind control/telepathy

random facts:

i'm genderqueer & bi. gender is confusing so i've stopped trying to figure out aomething more specific than nonbinary and genderqueer.

i've been a writer for a while, but there was a several year gap before i started writing for this blog where i didn't really write anything. whump has helped me start to get back into writing, which is really nice, i missed writing.

my love of vampires started through me playing oblivion, finding out there were vampires in the game, and then using my at the time limited english to go to a wiki to figure out how to become a vampire

EDIT: saw the template whumpmasinjuly posted, so i figured i'd do that as well

❤️ Name: briar/red

💛 Gender: genderqueer / wtf is gender anyway /j

💙 Favorite season: where i live now, fall. back in finland, winter or summer.

❤️ Average amount of sleep: uhhhhhh 6.5 hrs maybe.

💛 Dream job: fuck if i know. something stable where i have free time and enough money to easily provide for myself.

💙 Blog established: honestly i don't remember qhen i made this sideblog. i started actually using it in like march 2022.

❤️ Reason for URL: it sounded cool

💛 Fave Whump Tropes: already did above

💙 Projects you’re working on: the Dust series, plus the vampire whump series i mentioned. also possibly a hero/villain thing.

❤️ Favorite color: very dark blue

💛 Anything else you’d like to add: i guess not?

@whumpmasinjuly

[toujoursmiraculous]

Thoughts and Reaction to Guiltrip!

Alright, so this one is a bit more of a serious one for me. But I'll be going in order of the episode so the more serious talk will be a bit further down! First thing we get is this lovely moment:

I've already addressed it in a post, but I'll say it again here. Guiltrip is episode 11, several episodes take place before Guiltrip that we haven't seen yet, so this is awhile after Marinette and Luka broke up. We also know that Marinette has always had feelings for Adrien, even when she was with Luka. Luka always knew that fact too. None of this is new and is to be expected, obviously, when Love Square is endgame. But! I also want to point out here that this is just a soft look. Very gentle, very common. I see people looking at each other both in real life and in other shows all the time. A look that says "I adore you". And I think it's sweet! Very subtle, but enough. Something's wrong with Rose. We never get told (in this episode anyway) what it is, but it's a chronic illness that's a worry in Rose's life, ever since she was young. I feel really bad for Juleka, knowing that her friend's been struggling with an illness, and whenever something happens she has to worry about it alone. Also that really sucks when you try to cheer somebody up and make a joke, that because you were mislead about a situation you end up making things worse. Poor Marinette. :c Adrien when he realizes he's bumped into someone (and the pink bubbles to remind us of Marinette's feelings for him):

Adrien when he realizes just who it was he bumped into!:

Scroll up now and look at how Marinette was looking at Adrien earlier that day. It's the exact same look. Yet, something feels different from usual to me, idk. But continuing on. Marinette gets slightly jumbled with her words, but manages to give herself a kick and says nope not now! Good for her! You can't expect to change overnight, but she's working on it.

She looks to the side, gathering her surroundings for a split second and she misses the top step. I'd like to say that this is just a joke for the show but well, this kind of thing has happened to me a lot because I'm that much of a klutz so I feel for her here. (On Halloween I forgot that there was another step as I was walking down as I wasn't paying attention. I couldn't walk on my foot for 2 weeks. It's a serious problem, guys. Really. xDD) Marinette had told Adrien she's concerned it was something she said that upset Juleka and Adrien tells her while sometimes she doesn't make sense, what she says is never mean. This scene reminds me of when Ladybug's worried about something and Chat Noir's there to keep her grounded and remind her of how things really are. I very much appreciate seeing such a scene with Adrienette! Makes the Love Square much more rounded. Also the way he stops her and says let him go talk to her to try to help the situation and any possible misunderstandings from taking place. ;-;

Can I just say... oh my gosh. He went from determined, to hearing Marinette trying to comfort her, to looking with confidence "This girl is amazing." and the whole Ladynoir vibe I'm getting from this scene makes me happy. The thing that's unrealistic about this scene though is you expect to tell me that 8 kids went down those stairs and came up behind them and Marinette, Adrien, and Juleka didn't hear? XD Now here's where the serious comes in. Rose is hospitalized with an illness we don't know about, but has been a long-term thing that has Juleka really worried a lot. That must be so stressful :c I'm going to be honest and say I never really saw Julerose romantically. Like I can see how people do, but to me, I could see that their bond was really unique. It didn't really fit completely in the "BFF" category either. But if felt like there was more to them that I didn't really understand. I think the best example off the top of my head was during Zombizou, when Rose was going to help Chloe after she slid down Chat's stick and she went too fast for him to catch her. Juleka seemed especially worried and concerned for her. Rose never seemed to get concerned about Juleka in the same way Juleka was about Rose. Juleka's always been more protective and worried and it was always one of those things that made me go "hmm, interesting". Now this episode finally explains why and I'm honestly super glad for it. Because this kind of a relationship is not a common one in media, especially kids media. Partially because having such serious illnesses in young people is not particularly common, and having someone who's so caring and protective of that person is even less common. And most people probably don't realize how amazing it is to have health problems and then have someone in their life who acts like Juleka does for Rose. I had a life-threatening illness as a kid, one that still affects me greatly today. When in school, my friends knew about it without me having to say anything unfortunately, and while they didn't usually treat me differently, sometimes they were pretty ignorant and didn't understand why I wasn't "normal" like them. They asked questions that were harder ones to answer, and tended to forget my answers. I got a lot of "I know you have X problem but I still don't see why you can't..." as well as thinking I was lying if I said I wasn't well and couldn't go to a party, and that was hard to deal with, being limited in what you can do which makes you different and being judged for things out of your control. So seeing these kids who only know something's wrong with her, but are willing to do so much to make her life better and happier, not judging her at all, wanting to take care of her no questions asked was really heart-warming for me. I only had one friend during that time that was anything close to this. I never had to explain anything to him if I didn't want to. He never asked me personal questions I didn't want to answer. And he seemed to know what he could do to make things for me easier if I was having a hard time without me ever saying so. And this is another reminder to me that this show is aimed at kids. To show kids that they'll likely encounter someone around their age that's going through something serious like a health problem, and what that kid needs most is kindness and not to be made to feel like they're even more different from the other kids than they already feel. The way they handled that aspect of it for such a short, limited intro to it, I think they did good. I discussed this next bit with a friend. She mentioned it first, the trope where those with chronic or serious illnesses are usually an "inspiration". With this episode, you kind of get the feeling that because Rose's been through so much, she's therefore a really positive and bubbly person and it kind of gives off the vibe that if you don't view things the way she does, then you're not doing it right. "What matters isn't the problem, but how you handle it." While I agree with this, and that when you come out of or regularly deal with

such hard times, automatically trying to see the world better and brighter can easily happen, but it's not exactly realistic either, at least not to the extent Rose and other people the media has portrayed. For one, I think you have to have always been more of that kind of person from the start to realistically be so positive. As my friend said and I agree, positivity is just who Rose is, she's not who she is just for the sake of a trope. But honestly, when you've gone through something so difficult, and if life continues to throw you more difficulties on top of it, being positive so much can sometimes turn into a negative and be harmful too. When you've been through a lot, it's important to allow yourself to feel the negative too because it's part of dealing with such problems. And if you've been through a lot in life and you haven't come out of it being all sunshine and rainbows, always looking on the brighter side of things, that's perfectly okay. Life's hard and tends not to work out how we'd like, or even for the better sometimes. If being positive and hopeful after struggling is hard to do, you're not bad or wrong for feeling that way, everybody handles things differently. c: ANYWAY, moving on to the rest of the episode! Juleka being all irritated and worried that the class was going to expose her spilling Rose's secret xD While the situation isn't ideal, it's nice that this is the most involved she's seemed with everyone in the entire duration of the show. But Rose knows something's up, and I love that she talks to her about it and realizes that she should've told everyone herself instead of Juleka being the only one who knew. Which has been such a burden on her. (Oh no, what if this is a reflection of Alya knowing Marinette's Ladybug later on? I'm hoping not.) Ugh these children and how much they care about Rose! These kids are the absolute best. But then they kind of ruin it a little with going overboard. Which, frankly, I think is just ignorance of her situation really. I mean, we don't know what exactly is wrong with Rose. Just that she ends up in the hospital. If they knew about her condition, what causes her to get sick, what to look out for, etc, they'd be much more informed and much less likely to be frantic whenever something's not perfectly "normal" with her. All of these kids are going to be overprotective parents someday, aren't they?

Okay so like... are Adrien and Marinette going to question at all how Ladybug and Chat Noir showed up immediately after Juleka was akumatized, and no damage had happened outside of the school for it to be known to the public? Literally the only ones that could've possibly known were the class to have shown up that fast. ??? I am confusion. "I can't help my best friend face his father." "No, Nino..." Two things: The fact that THIS is what he's feeling guilty about? My poor Nino! Dx I just love him, he really doesn't get enough love and appreciation imo. Also, um, isn't Ladybug like right by Chat? Didn't she hear that? What? Idk but I feel like we're really missing something here. Usually we get things that are kind of hints, that make us wonder if they know right, but this? This is a bit too blaring-in-your-face, and there's two major things so close together. Really strange. Chat about to use Cataclysm on himself. Good grief that was not expected. Chat Blanc threatened to destroy himself along with everything else. Now Chat Noir while affected with negative emotions from an akuma almost Cataclysmed himself. This show really is getting deep and dark isn't it. o.o Also is there something Adrien needs to work out with someone...? Daizzi and Rose saying the other's so cute, ugh they're both so cute! And Pigella's costume and transformation is so adorable omg. Okay so Pigella's power allows people to see their biggest wish, the thing that'd make them the most happy and feel positive emotions. I know some people probably think "That's it?" Considering that Shadow Moth preys on people's negative emotions, such a power is actually extremely useful facing Shadow Moth. (And let's not forget, that while that's her power, she has the ability to fight and make a difference just from being transformed too) BUT AWWW Juleka's wish! And her face when Pigella said it aloud. ;-; Am I the only one wondering if Pigella may someday use her power on Shadow Moth and that's how they learn his motive? I'm so impressed with how Rose knew how to handle everything. She knew she can't slip up with Juleka. She knew to sneak away to detransform and come back as Rose. She knew to subtly give the Miraculous back so nobody would ever know she had it. Even Chat Noir had no idea! I don't know why, I'm just so very proud of that. "She doesn't need a Miraculous to be a superhero." She really has the characteristics of one, and I can't wait to see more of Pigella. Also I'm really wondering. This scene here:

All the kids that are part of that friend group are there...except Marinette and Adrien, of course. Alya knows why Marinette isn't there. But is she wondering about why Adrien isn't there too? LOL Marinette being like "I'm taking your pillow back, sorry! Gotta wait for it like everyone else." and the boys being like LE GASP. Marinette's right, she's not fragile! The fact Rose jokes with her and makes everyone laugh, and Chloe saying "Hey, why doesn't everyone laugh when I say something like that?!" Adrien: Because in your case, it's never a joke. Chloe: Hm, that's true. Which is super funny, especially how he just so casually says it. But also it really shows again how Chloe wants to be liked. She wishes the kids would laugh when she makes comments, but it's because they're said in a serious/obnoxious way, instead of making light of something like in Rose's case here, that they don't. I know she talked about it with Ladybug in an episode, but it again shows that that's what she'd like. All that needs to happen is someone helping her get there. Maybe Zoe and Luka will somehow help with that later on. Anyway, this was a really great episode! I feel like some things might not make quite as much sense as they should if we got it in order, but what can you do when Gloob has to air them? Even a friend of mine who's been doing what she can to avoid spoilers, still got spoiled. She's having to delete tumblr to avoid future spoilers because people can't help themselves and tag things properly. So thanks Gloob. :P All we wanted was the episodes in order. We've waited this long for S4, we can wait a bit longer. But they gotta make money I guess. I'm glad other countries are trying their best to keep it in order anyway. c: Guiltrip also has some really great Adrienette moments, and covered a more serious topic which was really interesting and shows how much the show's changing. Especially with some of the choice of camera angles and movements! Like the zoom-in on the door with Adrien and Marinette, the boys LE GASP scene. Very cool artistic choices! Looking forward to the episodes that come before this one to try to help fill in some of the gaps! And apologies to those that frequently read these posts from me, I started writing it up late and couldn't finish so you get it the day after instead. xD