#i go to sleep at 3am and i wake up around 10-11 am

[neuroticboyfriend]

I just saw a post someone made about what they usually do in a day (re: disability) and it really made me feel less alone. I've been really beating myself up for not doing or being enough. So I wanna share what my days are like too.

I wake up anywhere between 9:30am and 3pm, because I can't keep a consistent sleep schedule.

I pray, take my morning meds, and hydrate.

I sit in my room for around 30 minutes to an hour and a half, depending on if I have the wherewithal to leave my room or, if I have somewhere to be.

Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday I have therapy in the afternoon. The ride comes around 11 on Tues/Weds. I miss appointments a lot, and spend around 3 hours at the clinic when I do go.

*I may eat a meal, or have a snack. Maybe not, who knows. I sit on the couch, on my phone/computer. Lately been playing minecraft with a few small creative activities sprinkled in.*

At 4:45pm, every day, I go across the street to work on addiction recovery. I come home around 6:15-6:30pm. Mondays I take a ride with some friends to another place, from around 6:30 to 8:30pm.

Repeat asterisked bullet. Except maybe I watch something with my boyfriend. Maybe I call a few friends, if I didnt already early/for a few days.

Around 7:30-9:00pm I work on my addiction recovery at home.

More lounging on the couch on my computer/etc. Take meds between 10:45pm-12am. Hopefully I can get back to taking them at 9:30.

Fall asleep around 1-3am.

Repeat (+ i bring my cane or rollator, and fidgets, and often earbuds, everywhere i go). I only shower or do laundry when the energy burden is worth not feeling like total crap.

And you know what. That's enough. I'm alive. I'm sober. I may be in a lot of pain, may have a lot of fatigue, may still struggle with depression and mood swings and anxiety, but. That doesn't make a bad person. It just makes me a person - one with disabilties. I am inherently worthy just by virtue of being alive, too.

What you don't see by that list is the kindness I share with my friends. Or the strength it takes to get through the day. Or any of the personal emotional and spiritual moments I have, or any of my dreams. But I see them, the people close to me see them, and they don't want me to hurt or hate myself.

So to hell with what anyone else thinks or has said to me. What matters is that I love, and I am loved, and I always will be. Because there will always be people in this world who see me as a person and love me unconditionally for it. This world is bigger than the people who spread hate.

[dollsonmain]

I've forgotten how to sleep and startled myself when I looked in the mirror on my way to bed last night. The eye wells in my skull were very, very visible. Slightly less bad this morning.

So sleep hasn't happened due to both anxiety/stress and the AC having been broken for a while. AC was out for about a week and once it was fixed, I was too stressed about the absences thing at school to sleep the first night, and then too stressed last night because Son broke his school laptop yesterday and we have to tell That Guy today, AND That Guy had gone out partying with friends after work which means he drives home like that in the middle of the night and I always worry he's not going to make it. I can't sleep until I hear the garage door open. If he crashes, with the way he has our finances set up, Son and I are effectively homeless immediately. Part of why I am trying to work. Him not coming home until 1am also prolonged the anticipatory anxiety of having to wait to tell him the problem and get over the aftermath.

And then I woke up at 3am like always and couldn't get back to sleep.

Anyway.

Work stuff ish again

I will not complain about being expected to work 6 hours a day because that's less than a "normal" job anyway, but really at that point I'd rather work a full 8 and get benefits.

I very much think it should be illegal to schedule people juuuuuust under the cut off for benefits to be required by labor law. You should have to either schedule people 40 hours or 20 hours, no in between, IMO. Scheduling someone exactly 20 hours gives them plenty of time to go work SOMEWHERE ELSE for the other 20 hours without having to worry about being scheduled to work 60+ hours a week because both employers are cheapskates that will work you 30 hours.

I also need to completely change my daily routines AGAIN to get to work on time.

My current-new routine is:

wake up at 3:30 and get my morning coffee

sit around and wait for That Guy to leave for work which is usually 4-4:30

Son gets up and we have the morning together

Son leaves for school at 6:50

I don't get hungry until somewhere between 7 and 9 and will have breakfast then

depending on how exhausted I am I will or will not do chores between 5 and 10

leave to walk to work at 10:20

get to work at 10:40/10:45

work 11-3

That Guy picks me up on his way home from work, though I did have to walk home yesterday

do chores

dinner between 4-5 or so

vegetable time

Now, I'm going to have to skip my morning coffee because it makes me poop and I don't want to be pooping while I'm also the only cashier at work.

So it's going to be like....

wake up around 3 and shower OR shower in the evenings and deal with being gross from night-sweats at work so wake up at 3:30, I do prefer to show up to work nice and clean but it is a gas station...

force feed myself some sort of solid food while waiting for That Guy to leave for work around 4-4:30

make sure the boy gets up no later than 5

leave to walk to work at 5:20

get to work at 5:40-5:45

work 6-whenever (she hasn't decided when????)

leave work to walk to home whenever that happens to be and I'd rather it WASN'T noon because it's going to be stupid hot, then, but stop on the store's "porch" to put on sunscreen real fast... which means I need an opaque travel size bottle for sunscreen, and eat something so I don't pass out on the way home (yesterday I took a small bread roll and some jerky and ate that and drank a second V8 Energy while walking)

get home around 1 if I left at noon because the walk home is slower than the walk to work

eat a real lunch? finally have my poopin coffee?

chores

Son and That Guy get home at 3

profit???

I'm going to have to prep and take multiple sugar drinks so my blood sugar doesn't bottom out while at work. Right now I've been taking one bottle of water with a Real Lemon lemonade drink stick mixed in and I forget to drink it but it's there so I can slam it before leaving. I'll need to also take a meal replacement shake got sugar, salt, and other nutrients, I think, and an extra water.

Manager keeps trying to get me to buy something at work before my shift starts and I'm like no thanks those are MY monies, now, you're not getting them back on your overpriced bottled water.

Today I need to do laundry, deal with the fallout of telling That Guy that Son broke his school laptop, go to Kohl's and see if I can find some New Balance cross trainers to wear to work since I will be doing walking, standing, and lifting and I think cross-trainers would be the best option AND already know NB is the brand they primarily carry, need to find a hi-vis vest or couple of belts because I'll be walking to work in the dark, and That Guy said he'd take me to dinner today for leaving me to have to walk home from work Yesterday but what does that matter? That's going to be every day from now on.

A few more paychecks and I'll look for a scooter again. Or something. Still kind of like the idea of getting a cargo trike, ngl. Would be harder to steal than a bike anyway.

I don't know what I'm going to do in the winter.

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Running a salary and income tax calculator and factoring in about $3k in short-term hobby income, even putting that no tax is withheld, it looks like I'd expect a tax return of $3k? Because there's about $3k in tax credits??? Whatever. I'll figure it out when it's closer to the right time.

[dianight]

It is friday and tomorrow is June, you know what that means. Tonight is the start of my slow (and eventually fast) descent into madness.

Groups of kids from early morning, groups of adults (tourists (<- extreme hatred)) galloping around during the day and then the bars/pubs have their music on until 3 am. Some places will have music from 10am to midnight aswell.

You think I can close the windows? It's hot as fuck girl. If my windows are not open during the day at night I'll be cooked alive in my bed. Can have them open at night too but I can't sleep until 3am+ anyway, and despite global warming mosquitos still manage to get in (I do have one of those netthings).

Nevermind that I have a regular person (whatever that means) schedule right now. I wake up in the morning (8-10) and go to bed early (12-2). Soon I'll be going to bed at 6am if I'm lucky, to be woken up at 11:30 by a band playing under my window and then spend my days in a daze, unsure if I'm human or butterfly.

Earplugs you say? I've tried them. They hurt a bit and they are very uncomfortable. Perhaps sleep during the day? Still noisy, windows open to prevent death by oven and somehow I'll have people complaining at me that I have a weird schedule again. Yeah I wonder why it happens. It's almost like I can't go sleep at a normal hour. Curious.

I can't even drink!

[whentherewerebicycles]

ughh last night was rough and it was 100% my own fault. I wake up a lot in the night and I know I should never do kick counts then because his sleep cycles are 30-45 min and if I wake up in the middle of one & try to count I’ll get panicked and end up waiting out the whole thing to make sure he’s okay. I’m doing so much better with anxiety around pregnancy loss! but this is one bad habit I have not quite managed to break yet. I think as I get farther along I’m also starting to get a little bit more anxiety around being alone in my house. like last night I was pretty sure everything was fine & I just needed to wait it out. but if it hadn’t been I would’ve had to make the decision to go in myself and driven myself there at 3am (which I shouldn’t do when I’ve taken a sleeping pill). and then I start being like well that’s just going to be the future you know!! deciding whether to take a sick kid in or wait till morning without having anyone to consult! making all decisions by myself!! which is fine but also a lot!! so idk I think mentally running through that while waiting for him to wake up just jolts my brain AWAKE and then it is impossible to fall back asleep. AAAAA sorry this is boring to write about and boring to read but the takeaway is I’m soooo tired this morning and it’s my longest day :( although I am thinking about skipping choir since we’re working on music for the summer concert that’s after my due date… we will see. I’ll just keep that get out of jail card in my pocket and decide at the end of the workday.

day should be fine though… project work in the morning, meetings in the afternoon. here we go:

7:30-8 lounge + work emails

8-9ish synthesize notes from yesterday’s mtg and do priority brainstorming for year 2

9:30-10 shower/get ready, breakfast

10-11:30 small tasks uhhh what should I work on what should I work on

11:30ish commute to campus

12:30-1 student advising

1-2 data program mtg

2-3 team mtg

3-4 PC workshop mtg

4-4:30 commute home & listen to game? would be great to do returns on the way home if I feel so moved

walk dogs

maybe choir but I can see how I feel

[lightspren]

uuuugh

i was like mostly asleep by 10:30 or 11 last night, idk, but then i got up to pee around 11:30. cat followed me, as one does, and i’d swear i saw something crawling on her

cue paranoia keeping me from going BACK to sleep until like 1am, then i woke up at 3am, then i woke up at 4:45am, then my alarms started at 5:45

so i am Very Tired. and need to get out of bed and off my phone and i don’t wanna

eta also i forgot but i DREAMED about dealing with fleas. oh my god. i don’t remember the exact dream now but i remember being annoyed about it at one of the wake-up times listed above

[snowsoar]

I was tagged by @flowers-all-around-me 💜

Rules: Share 10 facts about yourself and tag 10 other blogs! I want to get to know my mutuals, and the people I follow a little bit :) The facts can be about anything!

I love to cook, and I'm happy to try cooking anything once but I tend to favor more dessert dishes... My current all time favorite is the lemon tart recipe by "pretty.simple.sweet" but melon pan (don't know the recipe writer for this one) and a Portuguese tart recipe from my friend over there are my favorites :D

I have a betta fish named Mr Cobra Bubbles because I liked the name and he is grumpy but also incredibly sweet for a betta... he has not eaten any of my cherry shrimp cleanup crew 🦐 💜

I like to try different crafts so the doll hobby is so much fun. I love doing face-ups, re-rooting hair and creating really cool outfits! Plus seeing what other artists like dollightful and hexian come up with is so cool! It does take me a while to finish a project though

I am terrified by spiders but I hate the idea of killing them! Huntsmen in particular freak me out but I will dutifully capture them in a glass cup and put it outside (hopefully without getting said spider on me). I have captured a white tip to take outside when I was younger and told off by my auntie :( which was probably a good thing 😅

I adore birds! I don't care about species or rarity, seeing a birb out doing its thing always makes me happy! Even seagulls, their brazen thievery just makes me like them more...

My online name comes from a mlp oc I made in highschool and I have basically committed to that name ever since

My sleep schedule can be affectionately called a hot mess, I am currently trying to get to sleeping at 10pm and waking at 7ish... It was previously 3am to 11 😅

Actually my whole organisational side could be called a hot mess, I struggle to keep to a schedule and the procrastination is strong in me. It's another thing I am working on lol.

I cannot stand mint. It actively makes me nauseous as I had some minties while sick when I was younger and that association has stuck around ever since

I am almost finished with my master's degree and I still have no idea what to do next. I was contemplating a phD but I don't think I have the academic stamina for it.

I'm not sure who to tag but @rainbowkittenism @little-korora @nos4ay2 @picopaintsrainbows if you want to have a go?

[muff1nqwq]

sorry i havent been around in a while, things have gotten crazy, im sure you get it. my first day of being a sophmore (10th grader) starts tomorrow and while im not extremely nervous it is also 11:50 at night and i have to wake up at 6:15, ignore the specific time as it is never specific, its an estimate at best.

i have this thing called band camp that has been going on for the last couple of days. basically i play my trumpet (her name is Margaret) for 4 hours in preparation for football season (im in the band, we have to play at football games) idk where you are ofc, so to clarify, this is american football. the concussion sport.

i picked up tarot reading and it's super silly, i would recommend. its funny to think that the cards are supposed to have their own personality. id say that i dont see it, but they told me to shut up once, sassy ass cards...

i havent been hurting myself as much because of how busy i am + how cold it is. a thing about me is that i cannot ever cvt when its cold. maximum discomfort. 0/10 stars. not funky fresh.

my ex and i started talking less often and im kinda glad it happened, which might be mean to say, considering were friends still, but theres so much to do, to worry about that i can barely keep up with things.

anyways, i think thats most of it. btw if you ever dont know how to respond to one of my rambles, id love it if you might just add your own story? about anything!!!! i like hearing from you!

— rin

hiya Rin :DDD I missed u!!

GL in school!! I'm gonna b a Freshman this year and I'm excited-nervous abt it... At least its gonna b the same ppl ( even though the principal warned us abt a rush of new students, but its better than going 2 a brand new school ) I gotta fix my sleep schedule so bad, I stay up till 3am and wake up at noon :'3

:0000 IM IN BAND TOO :DD I play clarinet :3 ( btw I love how u called football the "concussion sport" XDDDD )

Tarot reading sounds so cool :000 i rlly like astrology and numerology ( I'm an Aquarius :3 )

4 me it's still hot af here, even though snow melted like 3 weeks b4 summer break :> but yesterday I went 2 go walk my doggo and right as we were turning back, it started raining, and my dumbass didn't bring a jacket and I was wearing an oversized T-shirt and shorts, so I was running ( in flip-flops ) 4 ten mins in the rain tryna get back 2 my house lolol X'3

That sounded like a line from a book I read a few yrs ago XD ( but I hope ur still finding time 4 urself :) )

A few nights ago I was rlly, RLLY hyped up 4 highschool... Same school, few new kids, new teachers, maybe a new rep... Then I thought abt what my rep would b like. I mean tbh I don't mind if I'm known as a weirdo furry theatre kid, but last yr my ex-bestie spread nasty rumours bout me, manipulate me and my friend group, and overall make everyone avoid me. At least my friends knew what she's all abt and stuck w me 4 the whole yr, but like... What if the rumours spread 2 the new kids and bad stuff happen?? So then I stayed up thinking bout that and at 2am I multiswiped 10 times and I named the cvt Jeffo :3 ( I haven't cvt in weeks cuz I didn't have many Band-Aids left )

Have a good day Rin :DDD

-Muffin

[ask-danger-waders]

I realize no one looking at this knows when the three are available, so I am going to be writing down a schedule for them, so if you are looking for them on base, you know where to look, and I will also include radio frequencies to reach all of them at!

At 6:00 sharp, everyone on base wakes up, and gets ready for the day. Ivan goes to see if things are set up in the vehicle bay and check to see what is being sent in. Kurt is taking a morning shower and Charlie is making getting some games in before getting to the vehicle bay!

At 7, people go to get breakfast, people sometimes don't eat, and they have their own reasons. Ivan eats because nutrition is important, and Kurt eats because according to everyone, he is big and need to! Charlie is just talking with Ivan, he won't eat breakfast, says it doesn't taste good!

People get a bit of free time now to start their day, Ivan likes to spend it in the armory trying to learn things in there, Charlie is in the Vehicle Bay getting an early start on his work, and Kurt gets in a early morning workout!

9am hits and everyone is on work! Ivan and Charlie work the vehicle bay and Kurt often ambles about the ship during the day, this goes until 6pm, with a, hour break you can take between 12-3 for 1 hour for lunch. Kurt is there for lunch from 12-2 since he doesn't have a on ship, Ivan is there from 1-2 and Charlie is found at it's emptiest from 3-4. Again Charlie will not be earing, and will instead be messing with some cards, optimal time to talk to him because he will talk about people on base! From 4-5 pm Kurt will be unreachable due to him being a high rank he attends daily meetings, which he calls 'bullshit'

After 6 pm people are free to do as they please! At 6:30 on a Saturday, Ivan and Charlie leave out to the a near by forest planet and are there from 7-9. Kurt is getting in a evening work out.

Dinner is served from 8-10pm, Charlie and Ivan ear dinner together, Kurt will join them drinking water and taking whatever Charlie won't eat, which is usually like a fruit cup or something.

10:30. People take an evening shower and go to bed! Charlie is up till 11:30 playing games.

3am! Charlie is weird sleeper. He is often up between 3 and 4 hanging around in the vehicle bay, working on a few thing, though I'm not allowed to talk about it. Kurt walked in once during it. He asked what was going on and Charlie told him he couldn't sleep... Kurt and Charlie just talked about stuff.

And that's it! If you wish to get ahold of Ivan during his time in the boonies with Charlie, please radio him at 41.8 hz. If you like to get in contact with Kurt during his wandering, radio him at 30.7 hz! This is CH4, signing out!

[mollydsails]

November 14 - 22 hours and 163 miles later, Molly D anchored at Cumberland Island. Long day and night! I’m too old to stay up for 22 hours with just 3 hours sleep during that time. The sea state and winds weren’t horrible, but we did have to motor sail. Molly D did a lot of surfing down waves, which is far easier to stomach than hitting the waves bow first! The moonlight improved our visibility and we were able to spot running lights over 3 miles away! Our green starboard bow light lit up the water to the side of Molly D. The light gave a greenish tint to our bow wake and gave a good visual to the waves. There were times that I wish I hadn’t seen the size of the wave we had just surfed off! Molly D had a white bird (couldn’t tell what the bird was other than it was white) flying from midship to midship. We could see it because it was lit up by the bow light. The bird had its fun for about 10 minutes and then flew away. There was little cloud cover so we were able to see Mars, Jupiter and Uranus in the night sky. Neptune was also there but it was too dim to be visible. During my watch, at around 3AM, I realized that Molly D was going to pass a cargo ship coming out of Brunswick within a distance of a third of a mile. Time to wake the Captain! Molly D deviated from her course so that she would pass behind the ship. We returned to our course once Molly D was out of collision range. The ship then stopped to allow the harbor pilot to depart. We had enough distance from the ship that another course change was not needed. The turn into St. Mary’s River around 5 AM from sea wasn’t too much fun. Molly D had following seas on the ocean. When we made the right-hand turn into the river, we were now broadside to the waves. It was still dark and we could not get a handle on the size of the waves. As it turned out, some of those wave heights approached 5’! As we were coming into our anchoring spot, several boats were hauling their anchors and heading out. More room for us! As is typically the case, the wind was blowing 22 when it came time to drop the anchor. The air temp was 62. I was wearing my life jacket. My coat doesn’t fit well over the life jacket so I wasn’t wearing it. I figured that the life jacket was more important. With the wind blowing over 20, I quickly became chilled to the bone. A preheated mattress pad on the bed felt really good against my chilled body! Our sleeping lasted until 11. We ate chili last night at 6:30 so we were quite hungry for food. Hmm. Should we eat breakfast or lunch?? Cheese omelets fit the bill. Late morning we were treated to the sight of an Ohio-class missile submarine heading to sea from its port in Kings Bay. Awesome sight!

Molly D’s position off Cumberland Island.

An Ohio-class submarine heading out to sea.

[karischoii]

It’s currently 11:38 pm when I am typing this TUMBLR post. Last night, I slept a total of five hours, from 3am-8am. The sleep was not the best, since I kept waking up in the middle of the night. The first thing I did in the morning was go to Kerckoff Hall to sit at 9am to 10am. I then went to office hours for my Math 31B office hours with my Teacher’s Assistant. Afterwards, I went to Ackerman union to eat two tofu spring rolls and drink some delicious, crispy water. I then went to sit again at Kerckoff Hall from 12pm-2pm. I then hustled to my Political Violence Cluster Lecture at Covel Commons. The lecture was great and I really enjoyed my teacher’s passion for the subject. When class was finished, I hustled to Janss steps to hangout with my friend where we played volleyball and vibed to some great jams. We also had an in-depth conversation about how to find the cat that lives at Powell. I then walked back up to my dorm at Hedrick Hall where a fire alarm thankfully did not go off. I walked down at 6pm to meet my other friend for dinner. I had the best udon of my life at Marugame and hope to go back soon. There were also cool shops around such as one that contained plush animals as well as Daiso. The final part of my day consisted of an intensive workout. I had the chance to improve my cardiovascular capabilities, abdominal strength, arm strength, and vocal strength. Overall, I would rate this day a 7/10.

[number1mingyustan]

3AM☾ ♡

bf!soobin x fem!reader

Warnings: wet dream, dry humping, handjob, spooning sex, penetrative sex, unprotected sex, creampie, cockwarming

Summary: It’s the middle of the night and your boyfriend seems to have taken "sweet dreams" too literally

Word Count: 1.2k

(a/n: not proofread but it’s been 3 days since i posted so here you go 😁)

You’re not entirely sure what time you fell asleep last night. It was probably somewhere around 11 considering you and Soobin started a movie at 10 that neither of you watched to the end.

You look at your nightstand clock, seeing that it was now 3 am. The heat is what woke you up. You and Soobin fell asleep cuddling last night, but now his strong grip on your body alongside the layers of blankets was too much.

You woke up, ready to kick the layers off your body when you remembered that Soobin still had his arms wrapped around you. Despite being asleep, he still had a strong grip on your body in the spooning position.

You squirm a bit, trying to free up his grip but it’s no use. He stirs in his sleep a bit, only pulling your body closer into his. With you being the little spoon and him being the big spoon, it was going to be hard to get up without waking him in the process.

You continue to squirm, attempting to relieve yourself of the heat until you hear him gasp behind you. You think you might’ve woken him up, but he doesn’t say anything and he hardly moves. You huff out in annoyance.

You squirm again, wriggling out of his grasp a little bit when you hear him make another noise. This time it’s less of a gasp and more of a groan. His breathing picks up a little and you feel him push his hips against your butt.

Oh.

You realize what all your movement against him has caused and stop moving all together. However, he doesn’t. He continues grinding his his against you slowly. Soft groans and pants slip from between his lips as he pushes his hard length against you.

You’re frozen in place. You don’t know what to do. On one hand, you’re burning up under this blanket and need to get out. On the other, your sleeping boyfriend is getting himself off against you and it’s sending another rush of heat down between your legs.

You feel his grip on your body tighten as he pushes himself into you harder. He moans softly in your ear. You squeeze your thighs together firmly, feeling the moisture begin to well up in your panties. Naturally, you push yourself back against him. He lets out a breath against your ear, squeezing your waist.

“Soobin,” you call his name in a whisper. He continues to snore softly, his body still pressed firmly against yours.

You push your body back against him harder. “Soobin.”

This finally gets his attention, jerking him awake. His grip on you loosens as he gains consciousness. This allows you to turn around so you’re facing him. He looks at you, eyes heavy and licking his lips.

“What time is it?” he rasps.

“Like 3,” you respond. “What were you dreaming about?”

He’s still in a sleepy state, but you don’t miss how his cheeks heat up at your question. “W-What?”

“I asked what you were dreaming about,” you repeat.

“I uh-” he stutters. “Don’t remember.”

Liar.

“You sure?” You tease, slipping a hand into his pants. He lets out a hiss. “Nothing like this?”

You stroke your hand along his length slowly, swiping your thumb over his tip to collect his precum.

“Oh fuck,” he lets out a soft moan.

“You we’re all over me while you were sleeping babe,” you tighten your grip on his cock. “Had to be dreaming about something.”

Your small hand feels so good around his cock that he can’t even muster up the words to respond to you. He’d been aching for your touch so much as he slept that the relief you’re providing him now already has him close to cumming.

“M-Maybe I was, don’t really- ah fuck,” he moans. “-Remember”

Soobin swears he’s seeing stars right now. You’ve picked up the pace of your hand, only bringing him closer to the edge after such a short amount of time. He slips his hand in his pants, squeezing yours.

“Wanna cum inside you,” he pants.

You bite your lip, anticipation stirring inside your core. You retract your hand from him bottoms, turning around so you’re back in the spooning position. You pull your pyjama bottoms down in one swift move.

You feel him press his free cock against the material of your panties. He pushes them aside, drawing the head of his cock along your wetness from behind. You gasp at the contact, letting out a soft and drawn out moan.

He then pushes his cock inside of you slowly. The both of you let out a moan in unison. He starts moving his hips at a slow pace, gradually picking up his speed.

His hand slides to the front of your thigh, squeezing on the flesh as he pounds into you from behind. Realizing he won’t last much longer, he slides his hand up, reaching your clit. He gathers your moisture on his fingers, allowing him to run quick circles along your sensitive bud.

“Ah shit,” you hiss.

You’re an absolute fucking mess. It hasn’t been long, but you were so fucking horny that having him inside of you was already bringing you near an orgasm.

He continues to fuck you from behind, soft pants and moans ringing close behind in your ears. You let your hand travel up your shirt, pinching on your nipple to add to the stimulation.

It all becomes too much for you, and soon you’re dreaming on his cock. Your mind goes blank as you enter a state of bliss, drawing out his name alongside your needy moans. As your orgasm overwhelms you, you push back against him.

Your movements alongside the feeling of you tightening leads him to his orgasm seconds later, He bites down on your shoulder to suppress his moans as he fills you up with his cum. He paints your walls white, shooting out hot spurts of white cum into your pussy. He continues thrusting sloppily as he fucks you through both of your orgasms.

It takes a few moments to recover, but both of you finally come down from your highs. The only thing that can be heard echoing through to room are both your breaths as you try to regulate your breathing. Both of your arms fall limp as you recover from your highs.

He goes to pull out, but you stop him. “No, can we just stay like this for the rest of the night?”

Your question catches him off guard, but truth be told you were so wet and warm around him, he never really wanted to pull out in the first place. And you were filled with his cum? Sleeping inside you sounded like heaven.

You pushed the blank down so it was only covering the lower halves of your bodies. You sighed at the cooling sensation it brought.

After a few moments of silence you let out a loud yawn as you felt the tiredness start to take over your body.

He planted a kiss on the side of your neck as he began rubbing his hand across your waist soothingly. “Sweet dreams, my love.”

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[bex-la-get]

A Second Chance (Ethan x f!MC)

Book: Open Heart, Book 2

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x Natalie Cusack

Word count: 2175

Summary: While the hospital reels from the assassination attempt, Ethan gets his miracle. Sequel to What If...

Author’s Note: So @adiehardfan​​ asked if there would be a part 2 to What If and at the time, I wasn’t sure but this came to me the other day and I thought this would be the perfect sequel piece after I ripped your hearts out (sorry about that, by the way). Enjoy! 😘

Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional. Nor do I remember the specifics from Chapters 10/11 in OPH Book 2. Any and all mistakes are my own. Thank you.

Please, he pleaded silently. Let her live. We have so much lost time to catch up on. Please. Let. Her. Live.

Ethan watched Natalie breath, her chest moving slowly as it rose up and down. He could tell she was struggling, growing weaker by the moment; but he could also see that she was fighting it. Fighting to get oxygen to her lungs, fighting to make it until morning, fighting to stay alive. He brushed some loose hair behind her ear and closed his eyes, listening to the sound of her breathing and silently praying that the combined efforts of Edenbrook and Mass Ken would be enough to save her.

He didn’t sleep that night. Too concerned of what might happen if he closed his eyes, Ethan stayed awake through the whole night, watching Natalie’s breathing and monitoring her vitals. He briefly stepped out of the room to splash some water on his face and wipe away the stray tears that were still sliding down his cheeks but that was the farthest he would be away from her. He refused to leave the room otherwise.

At around 3am, Harper and Naveen arrived with a couple and a young man; Ethan could only assume these were Natalie’s parents and brother.

“Ethan,” Naveen said on the other side of the door, “Dr. Cusack’s family is here.

Ethan nodded, stepped out of the room, and quickly changed out of the hazmat suit to speak with them; he stayed close to the entrance, however, and kept an ear out for the systems monitoring Nat’s vitals. He didn’t want to miss anything crucial while out of the room.

“Mr. and Mrs. Cusack, I’m Doctor Ramsey. It’s good to meet you, though I wish it were under different circumstances.”

The Cusacks shook his extended hand and he turned to Natalie’s brother, greeting him as her mother, Julie, spoke. “Likewise, Doctor. Is there any update?” Her green eyes were filled with concern and worry and Ethan’s heart tightened.

“Not at the moment, I’m afraid. But we have a team working around the clock on a cure; some of the best doctors in the country are working to help your daughter,” Ethan answered.

“Is there anything we can do to help?” Vic, as he had introduced himself, asked.

Naveen shook his head sadly. “I’m afraid not; but thank you for offering.”

Vic’s shoulders deflated somewhat and his father wrapped an arm around him. “Thank you for watching over her, Doctor Ramsey,” Elias said, his voice quiet. 

Ethan nodded. “She would do the same for me; for any of us.”

Elias smiled sadly. “That’s just like my Nattie.”

Julie sniffled and gazed at her daughter through the window, her eyes wet with unshed tears; Harper laid a gentle hand on her shoulder. “Why don’t we wait in my office? You’ll be comfortable there and it’s close by so we’ll know when there’s updates.” Julie nodded in agreement and the Cusack family quietly said their goodbyes, following Harper down the hall.

Naveen rested a reassuring hand on Ethan’s shoulder. “How are you doing, my boy?”

Ethan shook his head and swallowed back a sob. “Not good.”

His mentor gazed at him sadly. “I wish I could reassure that she would be okay, but I cannot in good conscience say such things. But I do want to believe them.”

Ethan nodded and sniffled. “Me too.” He looked back through the window where Natalie was fast asleep, her chest rising and falling with every breath. “I can’t lose her, Naveen,” he said, quietly. “I-- she’s everything to me. I don’t know what I’m going to do if she doesn’t make it.”

Naveen squeezed his shoulder. “We have to believe she will make it, Ethan. Thinking otherwise will only drive us crazy.”

“I know; I just feel so useless. I can’t help with the cure and I can’t do anything for her in the meantime.” Ethan could feel the tears welling up again but he fought against them. Crying wouldn’t help anything right now.

“Being there for her in her hour of need is doing more than you can possibly imagine, Ethan. Trust me.” Naveen paused for a moment before speaking again. “Does she know how you feel?”

Ethan nodded solemnly. “I told her before she fell asleep. I just wish I hadn’t waited so long. I should’ve told her a long time ago, from the moment I knew.”

“We all have things we wish we could have done differently or sooner. The important thing now is that she knows.” Naveen squeezed his shoulder again then stepped away. “Go. Be with her. We’ll let you know when there’s news.”

“Thank you, Naveen,” Ethan said, making his way back into the quarantine area. 

“Ethan,” Naveen said. Ethan turned to his mentor, finding a sad smile on his lips. “Assuming she makes it and they can make a cure, I hope you won’t let her go.”

Ethan shook his head. “I’m never letting her go again,” he said, resolutely.

Naveen nodded and watched as Ethan once again dressed in the hazmat suit before returning to his place at Natalie’s side.

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It was nearing six am when several members from both the Edenbrook and Mass Ken teams appeared at the window of the hospital room. Ethan’s heart pounded at their appearance, trying not to let his fears get the better of him. Please be good news, please be good news.

“Well?” Ethan asked, his throat going dry.

Tobias looked to Elijah who grinned and held up a small vial in his hand before handing it to Baz. “We did it. We were able to synthesize a cure!”

Ethan barely held back a sob as he watched Baz and June suit up and join him in the room. “What about the EMT? Rafael?”

“He made it through the night,” Tobias confirmed. “He’s being administered his own dose as we speak.”

Ethan nodded, fighting tears. “Thank you,” he said, quietly. “All of you, thank you.”

“She would’ve done the same for any of us,” Elijah said, looking at his sleeping friend sadly. “I just hope we did it in time.”

Baz and June administered the dosage to Nat and Ethan swallowed hard. “Only time will tell.”

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“Nat? Natalie. Can you hear me?”

Natalie’s brows furrowed as the familiar voice pulled her out of her deep sleep. 

“Natalie,” the voice said again. “Please Nat, wake up.”

She groaned and slowly blinked her eyes open, squinting through the bright lights of the room. She looked for the source of the voice to find him sitting next to her, a look of worry on his face. “Ethan?” she asked, her voice hoarse.

Ethan released a sound that was a mix of a sob and a laugh. “Oh thank god,” he said. 

Her eyes adjusted to the room around her and she realized he wasn’t wearing a hazmat suit. Her eyes widened. “Ethan, you’re-- you look… normal. What--”

“Elijah and the joint teams synthesized a cure,” Ethan said, helping her move to a seated position in the bed. “You’re okay; the toxin is gone, completely.”

Nat took a shaky breath. “And Raf?”

“Also alive and okay, though he was in rough shape by the time his dosage was administered. It’ll take longer for him to recover but he will recover. You both will.”

Natalie felt tears welling up in her eyes. “Does that-- does that mean I can kiss you now?”

He gave her a watery smile and nodded. Without waiting another moment, Natalie pulled Ethan towards her and kissed him soundly. He cupped her face with his hands and returned her kiss with equal fervor, ignoring the tears slipping down both of their cheeks. “I love you,” he whispered against her lips.

She broke away to cough out a sob and buried her face into his shoulder. He held her tightly and kissed the top of her head, letting his own tears fall freely. “I love you too,” she said through sobs. “I was so worried I wasn’t ever going to be able to tell you again.”

“So was I,” he sniffled. “I love you, Nat. I love you so much. I’m never going to let another day go by without telling you that.”

She looked up at him and wiped some tears away from his cheeks. “Us until the end of time, right?”

He smiled and nodded. “Until the end of time.” He sniffled again and placed another soft kiss on her lips. “Your parents and brother are here; they’ll want to see you. Are you up for visitors?”

She thought for a moment before nodding. “Yeah, I am.”

“Okay, let me go get them.” He placed one more kiss on her lips, this one lingering for a long moment before he broke away, kissed her forehead, then left the room. Nat adjusted herself in bed so she was sitting up fully then waited for her family to arrive.

Less than five minutes later, her mother practically burst into the room, making a beeline for her daughter. “Oh Nattie,” Julie said, when they locked eyes.

Unable to hold back the tears, Natalie began crying, falling into her mother’s tight embrace. Her brother and father quickly joined the hug, holding onto each other tightly, crying tears of relief and happiness that Natalie was okay. She was safe. She was alive.

Ethan stood outside of the hospital room, taking steadying breaths and trying to control the tears that kept slipping out. He was exhausted and was holding it together just enough so he wouldn’t collapse from relief. He sniffled and ran his hands through his hair, sending a silent thank you to the gods that listened to his previous pleadings.

“Ethan?” a voice said.

He turned to the source to find Tobias looking at him, an inscrutable look on his face. “Tobias, hi.”

“Are you okay?”

Ethan glanced into the hospital room where Nat was giving her family a watery smile and looked back at Tobias. “I am now. I--” he hesitated for a moment, then stepped closer to his old friend. “I can’t thank you enough for what you did. I-- you gave her-- me-- us a second chance. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to put into words how much that means to me. How grateful I am.”

Tobias smiled. “It was my honor to help, Ethan. Natalie’s a good doctor, and an even better person. This world is better with her in it. You’re better with her in it.”

Ethan’s lips quirked into a small smile. “Yeah, I know.”

Tobias rested his hand on Ethan’s shoulder and squeezed. “I know our past has been rocky and this year has had its own struggles and difficulties; but I’ll always be around to help if you need it, Ethan. No rivalry or competition will ever outweigh our duty as doctors… or my loyalty to an old friend.”

Ethan nodded thoughtfully, feeling a twinge of fondness for his old friend and [former?] adversary. “Thank you. And the same stands for me.”

Tobias smiled again and he stepped away. “I have to get back to my own hospital and patients. But I’m glad to see she’s doing better.” He nodded respectfully to Ethan. “See you around, Ramsey.”

“See you around, Carrick.”

As Tobias disappeared around the corner, Ethan looked back through the window to find Natalie gazing at him, a fond smile on her lips. He returned her smile. “I love you,” he mouthed.

Her smile grew and she mouthed “I love you too” back to him. 

His heart thumped in his chest as he locked eyes with her for a long moment before her attention was called back to her parents. He stood outside the room for another moment debating on whether or not he should stay when a new voice caught his attention. “Are you doing okay?”

He looked to the source and smiled at Harper. He nodded. “Yeah; better than okay.”

She smiled. “Good, I’m glad to hear it.” She looked him over and raised an eyebrow. “Did you sleep at all last night?” Ethan shook his head and Harper nodded knowingly, her lips pursed. “I can tell.”

He rolled his eyes. “Thanks.”

“Just calling it like I see it,” she said, smirking. She stepped towards Nat’s room and gestured forward with her chin. “Go clean up; and maybe take a nap while you’re at it. Or at least get some coffee in you; I know you too well to think you’re going to sleep right now. I’ll keep an eye on Nat for you in the meantime.”

He looked down at his rumpled clothing and chuckled. “Yeah, that’s probably a good idea. Thank you, Harper.”

She smiled. “I’m happy to help. And I’m happy to see you happy. It’s a good look for you.”

He chuckled. “I’m just glad I have a reason to be happy.”

“We all are.” She glanced at Nat and smiled. “She’s one of a kind, that one. You hold onto her.”

Ethan gazed back at Natalie and smiled. “I plan to.” Forever.

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[passport-guardian-benrey]

All the OC Asks with Paint and String? :00

1. Would they choose the beach on a warm sunny day or a starry forest night?

String would choose a starry forest, because stars, while I think Paint would pick a beach

2. Their favourite song comes on the radio, what is their immediate reaction?

Paint would probably start singing it and String would just quietly hum it or just listen to it

3. They meet up with their best friends after a long time without seeing them, what are they gonna do?

Paint would just hug them so much

String would probably just catch up and do some stuff together

4. They are going shopping for a new outfit, who are they going to bring with them and why?

String would bring Target, because he knows a lot about fashion and he knows that Target would tell him what looks good and what doesn't

Paint doesn't really have anyone to bring with himself to go shopping

5. What is their go to comfort food?

For String It's definitely chocolate

Paint doesn't really have a comfort food, but I guess he just drinks some paint from his vials to feel better

6. Would they much rather go on a road trip with friends or a weekend out partying with friends?

Both would go on a road trip

8. Their best friend just got a new puppy, what is their reaction?

String wouldn't be exactly happy, he doesn't really like dogs

Paint would find the puppy very cute probably

10. Who would they want to take goofy pictures with?

String would probably want to do that with his partners

Paint wants to do it with any friends he has

11. If they had a picture frame with slots for 3 pictures, who/what would be in the picture frames?

String would put a pictures of his partners, of his friends and of his "family" in the picture frame

Paint would put pictures of himself and maybe a few places he likes

13. Who would they go to for relationship advice? Why would they go to this person/people?

String would either go to Target or Cyan, to Target because partner and also romantic, to Cyan because best friend

Paint doesn't really have anyone, maybe would try to go to an Ink that Has a partner or Ask around lust aus

14. Their best friend comes over at 3am to go on an adventure, where are they going?

String would probably be sleeping, so the best friend would get slightly yelled at for waking him up at 3 am and just go to sleep, unless they're going star gazing, then he will join

Paint would probably go along, he would probably want to go to one of the newest AUs, to check it out and stuff

15. What is an outfit they feel most confident in?

Their current ones :)

[supportivespaceforsurvivors]

An explanation of recent events

Hi all. I am posting a timeline of the recent events that have ended up with me inviting some of the mods I trust from @advicetotraumasurvivors to this blog. It is incomplete; as of this posting (4pm CST, August 23, 2021), nobody has admitted any wrongdoing, but I know a lot of you aren't really sure what happened at all. I apologize in advance for the verb tense shift midway through. I unfortunately don't have the spoons to edit it.

Hayden does not plan to stay with the blog. Olive plans to stay at least for now. I will likely stay. I'm not sure about Henrie or Berry at the moment. Those are the only mods that currently have access to this blog. (Edit from Mod Henrie: I’ll be staying.)

The timeline will be under the cut as it is fairly long. All times are in Central Standard Time.

Around 5:30pm CST last night, April messaged the Discord telling us she was leaving the blog. She left both the Discord and the blog shortly thereafter. We got some anons asking about why she'd left and I directed those towards her @traumasurvivors blog because I didn't feel comfortable trying to speak for her, One of them felt my answers was dismissive. That anon ended up being a mod in the Discord who was triggered by my tone. We received more asks from them, one passive-aggressive and one outright guilt-trippy.

At 7:30pm CST Henrie made an announcement that everyone who participates in the blog is a volunteer. Several mods offered in the Discord to mediate since the mod who was upset didn't feel comfortable addressing the issue with me directly.

Around 9:00pm CST we started getting some positive messages to the blog. I started to think maybe the situation had blown over. I tried to answer one of the positive anons. Tumblr gave me an error code.

We discovered the upset mod had deleted all of our inbox messages.

At 9:30pm CST Berry noticed posts were disappearing from our blog. I had noticed some weren't showing up for me, but because Tumblr is a Hellsite I figured they were there and it was just a glitch. Even the pinned post got deleted.

I panicked and asked what if the Carrd got deleted. Unfortunately, whoever the mod was, saw that and changed the email and password to the Carrd.

At 9:36pm I started adding Henrie, Hayden, Berry, and Olive to this side blog. This ended up taking several hours because we were all disoriented and triggered pretty badly by then.

At 9:45 pm I noticed they deleted my mod tag. We kept trying to encourage them to stop. Henrie reblogged all the asks that were still there to their personal in case they got deleted.

At 9:55pm I left the server and asked Berry to invite me to the new one they said they'd make so the handful of us could discuss the situation while feeling a bit more safe. There's a gap of about 20 minutes in the timeline here but I'm not sure anything super important happened during it.

Olive rescues most of the info from the Carrd by 10:21pm. April offers to transcribe the pinned post that I managed to screenshot on my phone.

Hayden makes a post around this time saying we've moved URLs. The upset mod deletes it.

I ask April if she will write down the URLs of all of our followers on advicetotraumasurvivors and send asks to them one by one to let them know what's going on. An extremely inefficient method, but at this point I'm at a loss. Henrie starts sending the asks to our followers. April finishes transcribing the pinned post at about 10:30.

At this point I have taken my sleep med and am losing reading comprehension rapidly. I say I'm going to bed but end up not sleeping until something like 4am.

At 10:31 Olive discovers that the upset mod has password-protected the blog. Henrie copy pastes the only ask in the inbox. It came in after the others were deleted.

At 11pm Olive announces she has a download/export of the blog in progress to hopefully preserve some of the posts and information on it. I ask April to boost the new URL. Henrie asks Tumblr's customer service system about uploading the file to the new blog.

At 11:10 Berry notices the queue is being messed with. Several mods go back and forth with the saboteur mod changing how often the queue posts. I suggest that we reblog ask games to the new blog so people can get to know us better once this all dies down.

At 11:21 Hayden announces the blog title has been changed to DON'T TALK TO US. A few minutes later Olive says some extremely tasteless tags are being added to queued posts, including the r slur and the n word. We won't go to any more detail about any of the other things that were said because they were extremely triggering, but we are deeply sorry to any followers (and mods) that may have seen those tags.

11: 38pm: Henrie makes posts on both blogs saying it's not us typing these awful things and to block advicetotraumasurvivors.

11:40pm: We decide to delete all the posts on the blog and the whole queue. April starts mass deleting.

11:53pm: I screenshot all the asks in the drafts. We delete all the drafts. The upset mod continues to change the blog title to triggering and inflammatory things.

1am today (Monday): Henrie asks if it's okay to announce to the original server that we moved discords and blogs. I ask if we can avoid adding people to the new discord until we know who the mod is that's upset. We eventually agree to hold off on adding people into the new discord.

2:44am: April gets an anon apologizing for their poor/inflammatory actions on her traumasurvivors blog and posts a response separate from the ask. We wait, hoping that the anon will message April.

3am: We get a similar apology on the new blog. It gets screenshotted and sent the new Discord so everyone can see it. I delete the ask from the inbox with everyone's permission because it feels very guilt trippy to me.

3:23 April gets more anons blaming her for the situation spiraling out of control, presumably from the upset mod.

12:22pm: April has more anons when we all wake up. All of us in the new server agree that we're tired and just want the situation resolved. No one comes forward.

Edit from mod Henrie: This is a timeline of all of the “major events”, but it doesn’t convey how frantic we all were. We were all feverishly working on deleting triggering tags/deleting posts/trying to find out who was doing this/etc. in between each of these times. It was chaotic and messy and incredibly exhausting for everyone involved.

[just-some-moss-and-bones]

tw: rant, sleep disorder, mention of self harm, swearing, all caps.

you know when you randomly wake up at 3 am because of some random sleep disorder you probably have. and you just know your not going to get any more sleep after that .

like wtf am I supposed to do. just not be asleep until 5 but then , uh oh it's now too late to sleep might as well get up.

it's not even like this is a normal thing for me. it used to be the other way around, like I wouldn't sleep until 5 in the morning then sleep past midday.

but for the last 2 nights I got to sleep fine at about 10:30 /11:00 (that's really early for me)

like at least if I was still not sleeping at the right time it was at least for long enough but now I don't even know what to do

add my probable ADHD the mix and I can't even 'just rest' like my mum tells me to do cause I have to do something otherwise it's just painfully boring. and that usually means I'm on my phone seeing as my stupid fucking brain can't think of anything else to fucking do!.

like logically I know what I have to do like not on my phone and make sure I have a nice comfortable bed or space to be. if I need to do something get up and do it not in my bed. but brains not working properly so that doesn't happen.

having my mum in my room used to help but now it doesn't cause I get anxiety over the fact that I'm keeping her awake and then I just end up crying for hours👍.

I can't take sleep pills or something like that because I'm scared that it will somehow affect my brain to make it even worse than it already is (stupid ik but that's my brain for you).

I can't get up and sleep in a different place that, doesn't make a difference (I've tried many times)

I usually just resort to watching YouTube or violently crying so I don't end up throwing things or hurting myself.

plus the fact that it's genuinely affecting my normal life so much. I haven't been in a full day of school for literally weeks. I've missed all my mock exams and I'll probably miss all the catch-up ones as well. literally the only time I'm going in is for drama lessons because if I'm not in I'm effecting 3 other people in the group.

I think school is part of the reason I can't sleep because it just causes me so much dread to even think about being in school even though when I do go In it's not even that bad.

I get anxious in the evening about school the next day and about trying to get to sleep and failing for hours, then when I'm trying to sleep I work myself up with worry about school and how that will effect my wider life after I leave school. then I cry for a few hours, watch YouTube and maybe occasionally sleep.

at least that was the routine. bur now it's completely switched itself around and I'm sleeping from 10pm till 3am and then I just end up sleeping through the day .(I slept from 9am till 3pm today👍)

I'm failing every subject but art and history (and mayby drama) but the schools not going to know that because I'm not in for any of the fucking tests.

I don't even know what I can do to even try to start making a difference

I'm full of anger at the world. full of rage at myself for not being able to just be a normal functioning human being. I feel like I need to just shout or punch something but I don't want to hurt myself so o don't know what to do. if it's not either of those im just full of unmoving cripleing despair. is this what depression is like idek it just feel so hopeless and doing anything just feels pointless

it feels like a east of time to go to sleep just to have to wake up the next day and then go to sleep again at night .

my brain just tells me to do one or the other and then I end up doing both in a really fucked up time scale.

at least when I had that routine I knew what was happening and I could prepare (that's probably the autism).

and now it's gone half 4 in the morning and I'm still not even FUCKING TIRED just exhausted.

there's probably more I could write but I can't be bothered rn. I might talk to my counselor about this and I'll update if I get anything helpful but in the meantime bye.

(sorry this wasn't supposed to be that long. if you have read all the way to here have you got any advice? (don't worry if not))

I genuinely don't know what to do.

can anyone help? please?

[lots-o-stuff]

okay so i’ve been obsessed with your writing like god damn, save some talent for the rest of us please 😔 but i would like to make a request 😳 headcons of tsuki, sugawara, and daichi with a s/o that sleeps very late. like 3am+ type late, so they’re always on the verge of sleeping during class and usually don’t have breakfast since they wake up last minute n all. stuff like that. thank you 😭💕

EEEEEE oh my god!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ahhh I saw this as I was leaving school and I was like trying not to cry happy tears!! Alos this was EXTREMELY self indulgent because, like, who sleeps?? hahah not me thats for sure! This was seriously so much fun so thank you for the request!

Tsukki:

I believe that Tsukki himself is quite the night owl, he will be up till 12 reading, listening to music, maybe studying but he always make sure to be in bed by 12:30

you however can lose track of time VERY VERY easily so before you and tsukki started dating you were up till 3am on a daily maybe even later on a weekend

when you both got together you had offhandedly mentioned to him that you were a bit of a night owl, this prompted him too ask how late you stay up exactly

because well… he was a night owl so you cant be that much worse than him right? WRONG

He was quite surprised on the inside that you stayed up till 3am daily, I mean how did you not fall asleep halfway through the day?

after that he started to notice how much not sleeping and staying up so late actually affected you

you would always complain about missing breakfast from sleeping in late, as well as that he noticed how you would daze out during class and not be paying attention

after that Tsukki made a promise to himself. When he went to sleep he would text or call you and tell you to go too sleep

at first you were very confused because… Tsukki? are you ok? awww you care?

You listened to him after that because he could always tell when you stayed up later… no matter how much you tried to hide it hmph

Suga:

ok so suga is NOT a night owl at all, i firmly believe that he needs, in his words, his "Beauty sleep"

and well… you aren’t exactly the fall asleep at 9pm type person. Your more the "Im going to be in bed by 9:30 tonight" but end up awake till 3 watching a how to play the harmonica video on youtube and no you don’t own a harmonica either

when you both got together sleeping schedules weren’t something mentioned so he never realised that you stayed up so late

when he did find out it was because you sent him a youtube link to a tiktok POV compilation that you somehow had ended up on at 2 in the morning

honestly a first he was annoyed because well if he doesn’t get enough sleep he looks like a walking trashcan whereas you look like an angel and its not fair

but then he realised just how tired you were during the day and decided to put an end to your late night youtube spirals

so he annoyed you… no i’m not joking i personally believe that Suga can be bitchier than Oikawa so yes he ANNOYED YOU into going to bed early

how you ask? well he started with spam messaging you at 9pm to sleep, when that didn’t seem to work he made reasons for you too get up early, like getting you up early so you could get breakfast at a cafe together

and then as a final attempt at getting you to sleep he said that he would stay up as long as you do and obviously your like "No way" because He needs his sleep

well lets just say that you now make sure to go to bed semi early so around 10:30, 11:00.

Daichi:

Daichi is in bed by 8:30pm or on big day maybe 9-9:30, sorry but thats just who he is. He needs his sleep so he can be well rested and ready for school/practice the next day

you? ah what’s wrong with a little sleep deprivation every now and then aka everyday it’s not THAT bad your just a lil tired ya know?

i honest to god feel as though that is how you two met and got together, you fell asleep in your last class of the day and Daichi had come up and woken you

you in your dazed half asleep sort of mumbled out a "sorry i didn’t get much sleep last night" whilst packing up your stuff and leaving the room rubbing your eyes

the next day in that class Daichi comes up to you as it ends you actually stayed awake this time and asked if you got better sleep last night?

you slightly confused realised that this was the same person who woke you up yesterday so you sorta of shyly jus said that you don’t get much sleep any night, thus your friendship and eventual relationship

You can not tell me that Daichi isn’t the person who would go onto your phone with permission of course and secretly set up screen time so you cant be on your phone past say 9:30 except for messages because he still wants you to be able to message him if you need him

at first you were shocked, and then you became really annoyed because, wtf, why? and you would bug him for the password (which he refuses to give you)

….it worked…. somehow this stupid screen time that your very loving boyfriend set for you worked to get you too sleep earlier and on days where you just couldn’t sleep he would be up texting you till 3 am if need be

You are extremely grateful for the day that Daichi saw his classmate sleeping in the corner of the room and decided to be nice and wake you up

Again thank you so much for requesting I loved this. If you have any request please just hop int my ask box and send away because i LOVE writing requests!!!