#i got so much more ideas for part two but my drawing stamina cant

[caelanglang]

Dazai and Chuuya’s relationship across alternate universes

basically me doing coloring and style exploration with soukoku as my muses

In an universe they are…

Young demigods, each carrying unwanted burdens and expectations—unfavored by the Fates. (the song of achilles kind of angst and hades game kind of comfort)

In another,

They are the most wanted criminals of the sea, yet no one seems to have information on the real names of the notorious “Demon Pirate” and the legendary “Stormbringer”……aside from ‘mackerel’ and ‘slug’…(the only universe where dazai gets the fancy hat title)

In one universe,

They are the most feared detective duo of Yokohama. Despite their violent history, Dazai Osamu and Nakahara Chuuya now set their hearts and abilities on saving people and protecting orphans. (and are father figures to several of them including the wanted weretiger)

In yet another universe,

They are world class figure skaters, known to be bitter rivals by the media. Famous for their own record breaking programs and titles, their rivalry would always be the main attraction of every competition. (only for them to announce something completely unexpected during their last olympic gala performance: their engagement)

And perhaps in another one, or in a timeline they’ve live through in the past…

They are warriors of the sword in their ancient homeland. A fearsome duo—powerful enough to defeat armies; cunning enough to end dynasties of schemes. (yet a tragic time they lived in, a tragic ending they got)

…📖✍️… (part one, part two)

[swtki]

Cedric Diggory NSFW Alphabet

Pairing: Cedric Diggory x Fem! Reader

A/N: I’m gonna be working on more headcannon stuff like this, so follow me if you want to see them when they are posted!

WARNINGS: SMUT, ORAL SEX (F RECIEVING), MENTIONS OF PUBLIC SEX, 18+ ONLY

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

I think Ced won’t hesitate to clean his partner up. Just a warm rag and quick wipe. Sometimes Ced will pass out as soon as he hits the mattress, but most times he’ll hold his naked body to yours and talk until you fall asleep. 

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favorite part of your body is your lips, for sure. He loves to watch them wrap around things, even when you put his finger into your mouth it drives him mental. His favorite part of himself is hands, he has fairly large hands so everything in them looks small. He loves that when he holds your waist its like his hands were meant to be there. Not to mention his long fingers, one hand can do so many wonders. 

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

I honestly don’t see him as someone who loves anything to do with cum. He would be more than happy to wear a condom while you’re dating, because that way he can make sure you enjoy it without the worries of unprotected sex. I also can see him not wanting to go raw because so many things could go wrong, but if you’re on birth control he will definitely be persuaded to pull out. Once he pulls out the first time he is utterly hooked and loves cumming on your stomach while you lay there on your back, looking all fucked out.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Not to say that Cedric secretly wants to explore public sex, however I am saying every time you two go out hes thinking of railing you in an alley against a brick wall. He loves public affection in a sfw way so I think he would be eager to explore nsfw public stuff. Now this all being said, he doesn’t ask you for a long time though, until you’re walking home from the shops and he starts to kiss you because god you look so gorgeous in the soft lighting, and then the kiss gets more intense. Then, he basically says fuck it and asks you if he can eat you out on the wall.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Like I said in Cedrics headcannon post, I doubt he lost his virginity with anyone other than Cho when they were maddly in love. When he meets you he wants to be nothing less than perfect. When things started to get serious in your relationship he swallowed his pride and looked up sex tips because he was worried he wasn’t experienced enough. 

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Cowgirl. No doubt about it. He loves how accessible it is for you, he can rub your clit, he can be chest to chest and thrust into you, he can be hypnotized by your perfect tits, it has everything. 

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Theres times where he kills the moment because he makes a joke in between thrusts, but more often than not hes got his head in the game. It will always start of playful and innocent with Cedric, but as soon as hands start roaming, he gets focused on the task at hand.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He isn’t shaven, but tidy for sure. Just a nice little bit at the base and he’s groomed. 

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Cedric loves nothing more than to brush the hair out of your face and stare into your eyes while your blissed out. Also he loves kissing and touching even before clothes come off. 

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

I can see Cedric having a pretty high sex drive and sometimes you have to tap out for the night because your body can only take so much, so he’ll for sure be rubbing one out in the bathroom as soon as you fall asleep. He doesn’t mind of course, he’d rather you be comfortable even if that means he has to jerk off in the shower to the memory of twenty minutes prior.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

I thoroughly believe that Cedric Diggory has a praise kink. He loves nothing more than growling “So fucking perfect, my perfect fucking girl” into your ear during sex. I also think he has a roleplay kink, because you dressed up as a nurse for halloween and he was in another dimension.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

As I said previously, Cedric likes the idea of walls. However, I think he much prefers the bed or floor of your room. It just feels like you two are the only ones in the world and he cant deny how much of an angel you look like while surrounded by his soft white sheets. He would settle for a car, but your home is much better.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Kissing is his number one movement to start things off, so I think just kissing him would make him ready to go. I can see him having a thing for lip biting, especially when you’re reading or doing some other innocent task.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

If its something you don’t like, he won’t ever do it. He draws the line at bodily injury and excretory body fluids, Cedrics not hardcore like that. Wouldn’t mind choking you but he could never slap you or hurt you in any other way.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Cedric prefers giving, he feels bad because he takes so long to finish so he always leaves it up to you. He is an absolute got at eating coochie though, he pays attention to what you do and don’t like. And he would honestly eat you out anywhere. Like sometimes he just drops to his knees and hikes your leg up. His eyes when he looks up at you tho....fuck.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Definitely depends on the moment but I think most of the time he’s sensual and slow. He wants the world to stop and for it to only be your bodies moving in sync with each other, and especially so he can look into your eyes while he gets you closer and closer to orgasm.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Loves the whole rose petal romantic 2 hour long sex thing but will rip off your underwear in a closet to eat you out if he can.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He only takes risks by asking about something. He would always get your consent before anything else happens, so he knows worst you could do is say no. That being said, if you ask him 97% of the time he’s on board. Public sex took some convincing but he was in love with it.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

I just think he’s ready to eat pussy 24/7 despite how hard he is. He’s horny all the time (in spirit if not physically) so I think he would go for multiple rounds. Though he will eventually get tired in one position, so you end up switching through 50 different positions in the span of the hour.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

The only toys Cedric uses on his partner are handcuffs at most. He prefers to use his skill because after all, he’s the one who should be making you feel that good.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Cedric isn’t the tease, you are. He wants you but simply can’t take you from behind during potions class, so he rests his hand on your thigh. He secretly loves how cocky you get, and secretly you love how turned on he is from your legs.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Listen to me: breathy moans. He’ll get so close to your ear and start whisper-moaning the most risque words. But, volume wise he’s quiet and he prefers it that way. He never wants to drown out the pretty mewls you make because of his fingers and cock.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He eats pussy that way iykyk. I’m glad every fic writer agrees that Ced is a pussy conesiour, because he loves grabbing your hips and pulling you down closer on his tongue, thats non negotiable. He probably has the strongest tongue in the world.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

He thought he was small until he met you and was like “Sorry, I’m not that impressive 😔” then pulled out 6 inches of cervix shattering dick. Its thick too, but not like the porn-type thick, like it fits in your hand comfortably and fills you up perfectly.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Like I said: Always horny. Every time he watches you bite your lip he’s got a million things he wants to do to you in a broom closet.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He would rather watch you fall asleep even if that meant he never slept. But once he knows you’re sleeping, he wraps his body around yours with his chin on your shoulder and falls asleep. Prefect rooms= naked naps.

Taglist: @annasdani @mullthingsoverinthehotwater @faeinorbit @anchoeritic @cedricsyellowscarf

[gaijinhunter]

Monster Hunter Rise: 2nd Trailer and news blowout

Hey guys this is Gaijinhunter. I am uploading this as a text post since I caught a cold and have been unable to edit a video.

There was a huge second wave of news for Monster Hunter Rise with the reveal of the 2nd trailer the other day during the Game Awards 2020 show. Keep in mind the actual full length trailer is much longer and better than the shorter edit they showed during the show so makes sure you watch it. It showcased a second map, 2 new monsters, several returning monsters, and more. They also updated their official website with a ton of information so instead of doing a trailer reaction or breakdown, I am going to give you all the info they shared but split up by category, trying to focus only on the new stuff.

New Map

Director Ichinose hinted in an interview that one of the new maps would be nostalgic and boy he wasn't kidding. The Flooded Forest from Third Generation has been massively remade and is back in MH rise. Of course given this game’s focus is verticality, there is no underwater combat sections but they really nailed it from what I can see. One of the most iconic parts of the forest was the ruins in the backgrounds, and now you can scale up it using the wirebug. How cool is that. 

With the new map we also got the reveal of 2 new monsters.

First up is the mermaid wyvern, the Somnacanth. This marks the much hyped return of the leviathan class of monsters which were missing in world and iceborne. This Monster looks so wild. It has a special breath that will put you to sleep, is super aggressive, and has this crazy taiko drum like chest in which it will grab oysters and other things and bust them against it to break them open and buff itself. The Japanese name is quite a mouthful and is called Isonemikuni. This is the monster that Ichinose teased with his cute drawing on twitter.

Next up is the tengu beast, Bishaten. This monster is really unique, it looks like a mix of a monkey, bat, and bird. It has a huge and powerful tail it uses for massive mobility and it will chuck various fruits at you as well. One of the most iconic fruits it throws are persimmons, which are very Japanese and if you haven’t had them before, they are kind of an acquired taste. It’s Japanese name is Bishutendo. 

For returning monsters we have a few. First is our favorite sponge, the Royal Ludroth. This is a fan favorite and a great early to mid game monster. It has one of the best move sets in my opinion, very telegraphed but it can still catch you off guard even if you are super used to it. Strategically figuring gout where to stand in order to cut off its tail or break the sponge has always been really fun and intersting so I’m delighted to see this monster return, also look at that texture of the sponge!

Then we got the return of the Great Wroggi, the anti-poison skill tutorial monster. This thing really messed me up back in MH3G until I spent the time to get the materials to craft anti-posion decorations and even then, like the Great Izuchi, it fights really well with its sidekick small wroggis and I cant wait to see the improved cooperative AI that they are making for the Great Izuchi applied to this monster as well. It’s armor also spots a really cool Crocodile Dundee hat and look in the trailer and you can see the palico armor as well. So cool.

Finally, we got a small scene that appears to show a snow map and a group of baggi getting hit by a Khezu lightening shot. Does this mean the Great Baggi will return? Not sure. But that scream 100% is a Khezu, and I cannot wait to see how it looks with higher resolution texturing, I bet it will be creepy as heck. So while not technically confirmed, I’d say it’s safe to say Khezu is returning in some form. The balance of all these monsters is so great, I love the selection so far.

As far as other returning monsters that might return, I think we all expect nargacuga and zinogre. These are flagship monsters from games directed by Ichinose and he even tweeted his palamute and palico both named after these two monsters. Especially given the Japanese aesthetic, I think it’s pretty much guaranteed they are returning. Then I think mizutsune is also highly likely given its Japanese design, the fox theme, the kimono armor. Plus the model for it doesn't look that far off from the new Somnacanth. Anyway I have super hyped.

Interaction with animals and endemic life

One of the huge features of Monster Hunter Rise is the focus on wild life and animals to buff your hunter or be used as tools during a hunt.

There are 4 major types of Endemic Life: Temp Buffer, Permabuffer, Hunting Helper, and environmental.

For Permabuffer, we got a new render of the Spiribirds, which will buff your hunter if you move near one, and the effects depend on the color of the pollen it is carrying. Green increases your max Health, Orange increases your defense, red increases your attack power, and yellow increases your max stamina. There is even a special rainbow colored one, which I assume will buff all 4.

Via their website, Capcom announced a new item called the Petalace, a bracelet made of a plant called a Sending Sprig that each hunter has equipped. This is what collects the pollen from the birds and buffs your hunter. There is a variety of Petalaces in the game and some may increase the amount in which an attack boost is applied from a single Spiribird, raise the max value that health can be boosted, and more. Here in the screen shot we can see the caps for each and the amount gained for each buff. Just a quick note but this is not going to be replacing charms as we know that they are giving away a talisman for pre-order.

For Temp Buffer creatures, they revealed the name of the Clothfly, a butterfly that will temporarily increase your defense once you interact with it and cause it to generate a cloud of dust. In previous videos we have seen Peepers that reduce stamina usage, birds that raise your base stats, and a dragonfly that boosts your affinity and I had calculated it out to being applied for 90 seconds but we’ll have to wait for hte final game to see if that depends on the effect or if they change it, but it sounds about right.

For Hunting Helper creatures, we got an adorable new render of the Stinkmink. You can carry up to 5 Hunting Helpers and use them like items. The Stinkmink can be used to cover yourself in a special pheromone that will attract large monsters to you, even allowing you to lure one monster toward another to cause a turf war. I personally can think of other applications like luring a monster toward a trap and stuff like that.

And for environmental endemic life, they didn't show it in the trailer but there are also wildlife that can be used like environmental traps. For example, use raw meat and the giganha fish will go crazy, damaging anything nearby be it a hunter or monster. I can’t wait to see someone hunt a Great Wroggi using only raw meat. I love that we finally will have more use for this item.

NPCs

In the new trailer we got to hear several of the NPC villagers talking and on the website they go into a lot more details. They have quite the star-studded cast in Japanese and the English voice actors are also very interesting picks. This really marks the first time in Monster Hunter that the main cast of villagers will all be called by name and speak, which I think adds a lot of personality to the game.

First we have Fugen the village elder of Kamura and skilled long sword user. 

Then we have Hinoa the Quest Maiden, a cheerful and optimistic girl who serves as the quest giver in the village while her twin sister runs the gathering hub. While not announced in any other language, the French and Italian language sites for the game list her sister’s name as Minoto. Hinoa’s name is Hinoe in Japnaese and for the rest of the cast their names are identical between the two languages.

One thing I am excited for is that they said that one of the ways they will help communicate the uniqueness of Kamura is through songs and they shared a sample of one of them in the full trailer. This one is sung by Izumi Kato. If you remember back in Monster Hunter 4 Ultimate they featured songs by the wyverian Diva, and I am so happy they decided to do songs again, they add so much richness to the world and are just lovely to listen to.

Next up is Yomogi, our village chef. In this game you will eat meals at her Tea Shop, where her speciality is the Bunny Dango she makes along with the help of some palicoes. I love that we’ve seen her in past videos with a heavy bowgun, so the idea that all the villagers are active participants in the story is great. 

Then we have Hamon the blacksmith. He used to hunt alongside Fugen back in the day but now creates weapons for the hunters of the village. His grandson also appears in the game and is a kind-hearted youth that loves your hunting companions.

Next is Kagero the merchant. Despite his mysterious appearance he is actually very warm and kind. If there is a sale going on, not only can you buy most items for half off, but you can also participate in a lottery where you spin a wheel and it dispenses a colored ball. Get a rare color ball to win a rare prize. You can do it once per sale, but you can also scan an amiibo to spin two more times, but only once per day per amiibo you own.

Finally we have Komitsu the sweet-tooth, she sells candy apples in town. What these do is still not yet revealed.

Companions

We got an adorable render for the Cohoot, the pet owl that shows the positions of monsters on your map. You can interact with it in the town and even dress them up in fancy outfits.

Kamura Village

We got gameplay showing that the entire village is open to the 4 person multiplayer session and you can even ride around on your palamute and use your wirebug while in the village to zip around and have fun. There is still a gathering hall but the ability to see each other in the village as well as jump around and really explore it is a lovely change they are making.

Story wise we got more info about the Rampage, both a story mechanic and new quest type. For some reason the monsters will sometimes gang up and attack the village all at once and no one knows why. They call this a Rampage. There was a really bad rampage 50 years ago that nearly destroyed the village and in response the town has created a Stronghold to stop further invasions. This looks like a new quest type with multiple monsters all at once, and a slew of different artillery options at your disposal. I could see this as being a really fun type of quest to do online with other players. 

And of course the most exciting news was that there will be a demo in January with more details to come later. That is far earlier than I expected and I now have to finish up my back catalogue of games in like the next month.

And that about wraps it up. Cpacom said that they will be sharing weapon preview videos for all 14 types very soon and if they do the way they used to do it, we’ll get one new video a day for 2 weeks. I hope you enjoyed this recap of the news and please let me know down in comments what you thought about the second trailer. And until next time, happy hunting.

[seokjinsleo]

BTS as Fuckboys (+ but being soft with you)

I feel like this will be too long but I got this idea out of nowhere. Them being fuckboys at uni and falling in love with you. Then being soft with you bc they are so damn in love with you and they cant help it OMFGHAHSJSJ.

Hyung line / Maknae line 

Jimin: The Dancer Fuckboy 

     As fuckboy: 

* lets be real here, hes a shy cute pie but when he dances hes just a demon 

* and thats exactly why girls stick to him like bees with honey 

 * as a comtemporanean major dancer he has an amazing body and he knows how to use it for his pleasure 

 * he never thought girls would like him but since freshman year girls were crazy about him 

 * he once fuck three of his dance girl mates in the dance studio before a performing test. it was beautiful. such an art, as he would say. 

 * tbh he dont do much, girls just come to him since he is too shy to actually talk to them same in sex he is a good switch but he enjoy being a sub 

 * thats something girls die for. men tend to be dom but this chimchim loved being fucked real good by a girl and they loved being dom with him 

 * his innocent face attracted a lot of looks in his direction but his signatura thing was his demon like smile 

 * demon like bc it was so big and beautiful that u couldn’t resist it no matter what and he knows it 

 * loves to praise his lovers and loves to make them feel good 

 * feels like shit when he has to break things up bc he gets tired of them in a week or less 

 * dont be fooled by his cuteness he still a fuckboy 

 * ofc that was until he met this chemistry student a year ago 

      As softie: 

 * hes a natural softie and everyone knows but with you he is another level. you are his flower he wants to take care of. 

 * he met you when you went to his class by accident and left when u saw that it was the wrong classroom. you were a freshman by that time. 

 * a year later hes still so whipped with you like literally he cant stop fucking you like the first time you two did it 

 * also hes so fucking in love. he never felt that way. he cant see his future without u and he tells you that every night by text or when you stay in his dorm. 

 * you love his intense laugh and the way he hides his face with his hands when hes too embarrassed 

 * he always was very clear with you with who he was before meeting bc he knew rumors were hard 

 * he always wanted to please in any way 

 * he always kiss your lips goodbye after licking his lips 

 * he loves to wait for you outside your classroom with very sweet hot chocolate, just how u like it 

 * he would make you feel so wanted while he fucks you in his bed and his lips are licking every part of your neck 

 * he would never stop his pace this he has you shaking at least 3 times * “you are such a good girl, you take so well”, besides what he is normally he became very dom with you and he loves it. best sex he has ever had. 

 * “i never knew i needed a chem girl to feel this good. what a waste of time i had before you, baby.”, he said with his beautiful smile. 

 Taehyung: The Effortless Fuckboy 

      As fuckboy: 

 * girls were actually mad at him bc hes so bloody gorgeous 

* with his 4d face and personality he had the world at his feet 

* like he didnt even try to be a fuckboy, he was just born to be one 

 * all he needed to do was to look at someone and they would be at his service and he knew it but he didnt care tbh 

 * he was just living life while painting, playing instruments or taking pictures and thats how he met his muses 

 * he loves the artistic beauty of naked bodies, and he couldn’t resist when after a photoshoots his muse would spread her legs for him 

 * he would take pics in the moment so he would save it for his memories 

 * missionary was his fav pose bc he could see everything in his muse; to her expression to the slightly shaking of her legs 

 * he would do that every thursday when a new girl entered his art studio to be photographed and fucked 

 * he loved girls that looked like art 

 * thats how he noticed her; by her almond shaped eyes and plump lips 

 * he wanted her to be his muse so bad 

      As softie: 

 * lets be real, you got fucked by him the first time you talked but he wanted more and more 

 * he didnt notice how he started to go less to his art studio and more to your or his dorm to hang out and cuddle and fuck 

 * slowly he started to ignored every of his ex lovers 

 * he was enchanted by the beauty he had between his legs while you deep throat him 

* sex with him was a real art. he loved to taste, lick and bite every space of you. 

* he notice his feelings when one night alone in his dorm his brain couldn’t stop talking about you 

* next day he went to your dorm early in the morning just to kiss you good morning 

 * he would always talk with you about your inspirations and he would always looked at you amazed everytime you talked 

 * clingyyyyyyyy 

* he couldn’t help but give you a a boxy smile everytime he could; he was just so happy GIRL YOURE MAKING HIM SO FUCKING HAPPY OMGKAISJ 

* art studio sex? Hell yes. with paint all over your bodies while he pounds deeply into you. 

* “waited for you so long. i cant see myself without you”, he caressed your lips, “jagi, im so in love.“ 

 Jungkook: The Golden Fuckboy 

      As fuckboy: 

 * he was your typical fuckboy: nice face, nice body, nice flirty methods. But something very interesting about him was his passion such as dancing, singing, drawing and photography/films. thats why he is in indisciplinary major. 

 * he was very picky with girls tho. he would actually take them home if they had a nice convo. 

 * he looked at that as a foreplay 

 * if a girl could have a nice convo with him and get him interested he would ask her by the end of the day if she wanted to share a night with him 

 * and if he ever ask you that you better say yes bc GUUuuUrLllL that boy is so good in bed 

 * he love teasing so before fucking u he wanted u sweating and hot for him 

* he has great stamina do be prepared to be all night and all day if u dont want to go to uni 

 * hes the fuckboy who knows is a fuckboy and knows that every1 knows and dosen’t care 

* actually he feels kinda ok with the title 

 * he adores older women so he tends to flirty with his young-adult professors with any luck 

 * they flirt back and all but bc of the uni student/prof laws it dosen’t occur anything 

 * so thats how he actually met her, she was a year older and oh yes he was a sucker for noonas 

      As softie: 

 * at first you ignored him everytime which seems to affect him really bad 

 * that was bc he was actually in love with you and he didnt even knew 

 * thats why kept going for you; this time with flowers or chocolates, not flirting but just his real him 

 * after a while you started to date and GURLLLL this guy in so fucking in love with you he cant even believe it 

* he would always call you noona, noona this noona that but it was until he was needy that his tone became pleading, “noona~~~ i miss you, you miss me?" 

* even tho there was just a year gap, he was such a child and he would love to tickle you and play with your hair 

 * he is crazy about you and everytime he see you entering his dorm his doe eyes get wide and his bunny smile becomes bigger 

 * rumors of cheating were always there no matter what and at first it really affected you to the Point you almost broke up 

 * "baby, believe me- hey, look at me, dont give up please dont. yes i was a fuckboy, casanova, whatever you want to call it but that was before i ever met u i swear, i want no one but you noona. you are my noona, mine. im your kookie, yours okay?" 

* sex was beautiful. 

 * he would taste you, bite, slap you, degrade you, praise you, just everything fine and spice. 

 * "You are so good, noona, so fucking good- ahhh”, he moaned in your neck while he got lost in the beauty of your body 

 * you were his baby, he would always protect you, he always had your back 

* “Yah, noona, your face looks like the woman i want to marry”, he would say while giving you a sly bunny smile.

[extradan]

Hey I like your art a ton and I was wondering just how long you have been drawing and working to improve as an artist.

Oh my gosh haha thank you so much for liking my art!

I have been drawing for the longest time, I think ever since kindergarten, well at least the artistic dedication! 

I used to draw my when i was in middle school, starting from fourth grade i have been drawing more and more frequently until fifth grade in which I was drawing on a daily base, back then I would also be sitting and making animations on flash, which unfortunately I dont have backups of

but from middle school, up to high school 2012, my art never improved, it was just all the same all the time, I was back then on ritalin and I decided to start my first pony blog, while updating my blog, I couldnt consider yet Tumblr being part of the effective social websites that I go on as nobody was following me and I had no one to intreact with back, tumblr would be the thing i would check once every few days, it was nothing to me but a mere another google plus, until i was sponsored by catfood-mcfly back when he was running the Herpy Derpy blog, and thats where I got recognized and I was determined to continue my activity on tumblr as an ask blog, and I have gotten to become more interactive with people, being inspired by the many of the art I have been seeing from following other people, I would adopt and experiment with what I saw mostly shines through their art, and 2012 was the year I have made the biggest change in my art throughout the months, whitin 6-8 months I have improved by a ton!  tumblr was a very resourceful to the evolution of my art! and I also made so many friends and I have as well learned to become a better person! I am a better person of who I used to be in the past, and i am still improving! there are still a lot of things I need to work about myself as a person!

Also stepping out of drawing in flash and starting doing my stuff in sai was revolutionary to my art, flash back then wasnt recognized fully as an animators program by macromedia and neither by adobe, as they saw it an all purpose program for making goptimized ames and ads, only until all browsers and webpages grew out of flash and flash officially was blocked by all browsers since you could have implanted malicious codes into flash files, only then flash recognized as an art and animation tool for creators.

So moving to sai allowed me to build sketches and bodies easily and paint and yadda yadda and it was all great and helped boosting my art upwards

Flash limited my improvement as I wasnt drawing sketches on flash since you couldnt just lower the opacity of the layer you drew the sketch on, you would have to go through several actions to achieve that, but you would be lowering the opacity of your selected drawing and not the layer, I couldnt also paint on flash and flash ever since the stone age had those horrible vector tools that SUCKED DICK unless you do stretching and smoothing and fixing, in my opinion at least, they did improve the vector system a bit BUT IT STILL SUCKS, i prefer bitmap brushes more, which why I prefer Toon Boom harmony as a program for animators.

If you have been back in the days, you could have watched me go through a several phases! like drawing like atryl, raikissu’s shading and coloring styles, florecentmoo’s shading techniques and eye pupil style, and I uhh.. dont remember the rest, but theres have been a lot of artists out there whom I adopted artistic traits like:

theflyingtacoz, kittentoots(drunk fluttershy), w300, Santi, belaboy, dr idiot, inzergue (big impact on my current style), David (the guy who now works on mighty magiswords along with kyle), fungasm, colorlesscupcake (known as caek now), ahappypichu (a pretty powerful current impact on how i paint my art today), uhh, also “pinkie in private” which, to this day, drawing the way the draw the cheek for their characters, and some other artists I that I couldnt come up in my mind but I did adapt a trait or two from.

My current big inspirations are artists who work on OK KO and as fake as it might sound, my own fiance! yes!! they have been an inspiration for me for quite a while even back at 2012, but to how I viewed it, I never really dared to adopt anything from them because I was so out of their league, and my art was still shaping and i already had ideas that I wouldnt think would work if i mixed some of their’s, but now that my art have been developed and has a solid state of how it looks, they inspire me so much!!

Drawing ponies was probably the best practice I have ever had that thanks to that I have pushed so far in the art that I do, ponies are so simplified!! and easy to draw! it allowed me to produce more and that means that it allowed me to experience differently with each time! 

It helped me improve with a lot of stuff like gesture, facial and painting and other other minor stuff! drawing ponies was such a booster seat for me!

But unfortunately, from drawing ponies alot you wont learn how to draw humans, which understanding muscle, action line, figure and bones is so crucial for drawing, anything really! understanding how the body works is extremely fundamental and its there for you to know how to manipulate the drawings your making, of any specie, its not there to just teach you how to draw the anatomy of the human body, that will only serve as a plus.

I have learned a lot from ponies but how bodies work and draw clothes lmafo, to this day I cant draw clothes for days

in 2014 I ordered a really good book and I have polished my anatomy and human drawing skills, I yet dont know some stuff because i stopped practicing because of varios reason like relationship, access and physical health.

In the begging of the year I acquired a cintiq and it been nothing but dreadful to me, but im using it because i spent.. so much money on it.. and i have been so concerned about bringing it to my home country as well.. but it has the adventage of a screen so... 

its just, I dont have a low enough desktop or high enough chair to draw on it, its always above my shoulder no matter the angle and it puts so much weight on my shoulders, the thing is heavy too so its not something you could lean on your legs while you draw, neither it is portable, it made work much more harder and difficult and I wasnt drawing as frequesnt because my time wasnt so so enjoyable, my 2015 as well become a dreadful year to me and I was feeling guilty and shitty everyday, and it was my fault because it was all my doing and i let myself feel that way, and I had barely the stamina to work on my art ever over the year, I also lost my passion and motivation to draw and basically it dragged also to 2016, I drew a few commissions but I didnt produce much art neither, then I flew over the united states and I didnt have acess to drawing for 4 months as i was away from my equipment, my fiance had the equipment, but that means that I would have to use their computer for all the dedicated hours I use to work on my art and they would have nothing but a mere phone to entertain themselves, also our time togehter was really precious and every minute counted, so we rathered having fun other than doing work work work

2017 came and I still had the sense of drawing lost in me, I would draw whenever i would have a piece of paper available to me since I find fun in that, since im comfortable and cozy and i dont have to concentrate the entirety of my body weight on my hand and arm as i draw, but I would never draw on the cintiq unless its a miracle or if had a crazy comic idea in mind that i had and MUST HAD executed, i almost didnt draw anything in 2017, and neither in this year but the ok ko drawing i have recently created, but I found a new comfortable focus and its doing 3d, I am using my mouse to do everything and i dont have to feel my horrible chair scraping againt my butt like sandpaper, and I dont to feel like my shoulders are about to give up, I did try Tam’s 13hd and it was so much more comfortable and nice to draw on as i could put it on the bed or on my legs, but I cant afford another expensive piece of equipment, especially not in this generation of technology, wacom fucking sucks but no other brand is willing to be their competitive because tablet is not the purchase the average person would make.

Another reason why I have been so held on drawing and using the cintiq, which was probably the most major thing was it’s total, hot flaming shitty garbage diarrhea poopy stank abysmal horrible disgusting nasty dumbass smelly drivers which made every chance i had to draw a miss because i would battle myself from 30 minutes to over a hour fixing my tablet to draw a single thing, and its been like that every time i would turn my cintiq on! the situation was severe and everytime i would find a solution, it would be later suppressed, it was so harsh that i had a few months in which nothing I would do would make the drivers function, i was basically tabletless, so many, and a lot of opportunities for me to create a piece of drawing was flushed in the toilet with the rest, and so it was a deeper burden on my passion, determination and motivation to draw.

But yeah, now im doing 3d and it feels like a fresh hobby to me since I felt that im not going anywhere in and with my art (even though I yet have to learn how to draw bodies better, let alone drawing limbs, feet and CLOTHES!!)

and now the future has yet to be revealed!

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Life thoughts and stuff. Nothing serious just wanted to ramble. I don’t think I need to warn for everything but if I’m wrong let me know and I’ll defiantly tag it!

When I was younger I wrote for hours straight every day no problem. Now I cant write for more than an hour at a time without feeling like I need to pass out for 3 hours. I'm not sure where my stamina went. I don’t think its because of the content, its always been dark. Maybe its because I have so much more time spent not in class, it was fun to write during class when I was supposed to be doing something else. Now if I am not listening every second during class I will fail the weekly quiz or whatever, writing isn't an option. And outside of class I can play on my phone or the computer and I should probably be doing homework. Maybe that’s the problem, there’s always homework due and I feel guilty for writing. I've been drawing less too. I was drawing everyday, now I do about two pieces a week just for class. My head has been jumping around projects for awhile. I've started another WIP this week and working on it. I haven’t worked on any of my original pieces in almost a year besides for tumblr posts. I want to work on them but the mental energy is too great and I get really stressed worrying about the public reaction to them even though I still don't have a draft that I dont want to do a complete rewrite of. Part of me wants to dive into some of my old stories again just to get that good feeling about writing back. Sometimes it feels like I just keep writing about the same thing over and over and it gets stale. I feel like I used to get more original ideas when I was younger. I read a lot more and consumed different media more. I was in band, theater, forensics, soccer, math and science center, and took creative writing at the same time my first year. I was exposed to a lot of different worlds. I now take four classes two of which are creative (acting and studio art) and two that don't really make me feel creative (research writing and sociology). Sociology stresses me out because there's a lot of political talks and it feels impossible to say the right thing and research writing is very hard for me because I do not have a high vocabulary and, as I ranted about earlier, they took all the voice out of writing papers. I am a little excited for the paper after the one I’m writing now in that class though because I get to choose the topic and I want to write about the history of censorship in fandom and how the purity based culture has switched from using religious language and reasoning to stereotypical liberal language in order to recruit people to their cause. I also want to write a paper on the discourse on the misuse of the word p*d*ph*le in online spaces. I already got permission from my teacher so that’s neat.

I’m thinking of posting some of my previous drafts of learn to be on tumblr. They're already on wattpad but they're mixed in together with other things so its hard to find. I also wrote a soulmate au for my characters that I didn’t post anywhere that I might post on here if anyone is interested. I think seeing my characters in action will help people understand them and actually care about them xD I’m not really sure of the posting etiquette on tumblr or the standards that people use so I'll learn as I go. If you have any advice I'd love to hear it!