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vividfriend · 2 years

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Laudna has never been particularly good at waiting.

Ah, ah, ah! Wait until after dinner, Little One, her mother would say with a fond smile when Laudna would try to sneak sweets in the afternoon, grabbing with all the gumption and confidence of a six year old.

Gods, at least put on some shoes! Her father would call after her when she would speed out of the house barefoot, crossing the farmland and into the woods, desperate to find more crafting materials.

When the letter came that she and her family were cordially invited to a great feast at the castle of Lord and Lady Briarwood, she was excited.

She remembers it felt like sitting on pins and needles the entire day leading up to the feast.

She remembers the night before as she sat by candlelight, fingers twitching with nervous energy as she braided and unbraided her long brown hair. Anything to do something, to release the energy bubbling inside.

She remembers the first time the darkness came. How she fought back against the ravens begging for her to slumber. How she never rested. Couldn’t. She had no patience for it. Something in her knew this wasn’t right, that she was meant for something more, something greater.

She remembers waking up swinging gently in the breeze. How she struggled and clawed at the rope around her neck.

Death is but a waiting game, Delilah whispers into her ear now as she’s surrounded by the ever-darkness once more.

No, Laudna has never been particularly good at waiting.

But she’s played this game before.

#i had to get this out before Thursday #but wasn’t long enough that I wanted to post it in ao3 #so here ya go!#Laudna #delilah briarwood #bells hells #crirical role #critical role campaign 3 #cw: death #unbeta'd #my writing #ficlet

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rannadylin · 8 months

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Adventures in the American health care system: So my employer changed insurance companies this year, which is of course always a hassle. New Insurer sent a letter saying they do not cover Humalog, the bolus insulin I was on, but I could switch to Novolog or Fiasp. Fine, whatever, I had to switch from Novolog to Humalog when the previous insurer canceled their friendship with Novolog and I actually like Novolog better. So, saw my endocrinologist last Thursday and she put in the Novolog prescription. Comes Sunday, and the prescription is still "processing" at the pharmacy so I call and find out they are "waiting on approval." Turns out New Insurer is demanding a Prior Authorization.

For insulin.

For a type 1 diabetic patient.

For the specific brand of insulin THEY TOLD ME TO GET.

*smackhead*

Meanwhile, I am halfway through my last insulin pen and sending frantic messages and phone calls to the pharmacy and the doctor to get that PA processed so I can avoid rationing my insulin and, y'know, not die.

#sigh #t1d #diabetes #insulin #they pulled a PA shenanigan with my last refill of my CGM sensors too #new insurer will do whatever it takes not to pay for stuff it seems #how very american of them #i should've called my endo before the checkup last thursday to get the new insulin prescription in sooner #before i was this close to running out #but every other time i have had an insulin prescription the pharmacy has filled it *day of*#and who would ever expect a PA demanded for INSULIN for goodness sake?

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belligerentbagel · 2 years

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even Atlas has only two hands

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#this one's for all the teachers out there #horror cw #hands cw #draws #after 2.5 years of caution and masking everywhere; i tested positive for covid on wednesday morning (first day of fall semester) 😔#at earliest; i can be back in the classroom on monday #wednesday itself was an absolutely horrible 24 hours (but admittedly the anatomist side of me has been going 'ah! physiological data!')#but thursday and friday were a grim indicator of how much capitalism has rotted my brain #because after getting through 24 hours of a MASSIVE illness with undetermined long-term effects; i felt compelled to return to the #6-hr-sleep 18-hr-waking cycle that i was accustomed to; out of GUILT for falling behind in work #(note: i was NOWHERE near 100% back on thursday. i could have charitably been put at 50% - still headaches & fatigue & productive coughs)#a friend had to very sternly tell me 'you cannot solve structural problems through constant 80-hour-week heroic measures'#'you especially cannot do this when you are recovering from a debilitating illness which has the potential to remain a -#- serious lingering problem if you overwork yourself'#like. gods. yeah. it's not my fault that my classrooms are stuffed to the student maximum that our union has valiantly maintained #it's not my fault that the district only gave us one pre-semester prep day; meaning that my room & plans were left unfinished before day one #and - even bigger; it's not my fault that public health in the US is careening into 'can we pretend hard enough like nothing's happening'#my students will have a milquetoast start this fall semester. that is fine.#their teacher might not be able to stand and talk for longer than ten minutes at a time #i will do what i can. i still care about them. i am reading their introduction emails and smiling a bunch.#but i refuse to allow myself to be consumed in order to keep this fire lit.

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decisions-at-3am · 2 months

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We met waiting for the train. And when it went astray, You asked if I'd seen it pass. I said I thought it was delayed.

Apparently that's all it took, To strike up a conversation. The world seems less lonely. What luck, I was at the station.

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miodiodavinci · 3 months

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collapses to the ground like a deflated balloon

#my god #stage one is finally complete . . . . . . . .#if you can recall that poll i reblogged about passing out #that important contact i received was mr. seto of the vocaloid team #who messaged me asking about a collaboration and quite literally nearly caused me to pass out #i read the message preview on my phone #stood up #saw stars #and collapsed onto my bed and had to lay down for like. 10 minutes before my body would stop feeling distant and weak w #i similarly felt ready to pass out today when i sent a message to ask when the announcement tweet would be #and they tweeted it. immediately after w #no joke rice and i were scrambling behind the scenes to get our act together and figure out what we wanted to say KHGJGSJKFHGKJ #all the while screaming because yamaha said they'd be posting it on valentine's day and we thought they meant our timezone w #because the whole point of this collab was to get the zolas more well known in the english-speaking sphere w #EITHER WAY #i am. so so tired and now i need to pass out so i can get enough sleep before more internship tomorrow w #which is heating up because my seminar professor wants a detailed plan of my final project goals This Friday #but my mentor won't know anything about where to fit that in until Thursday at the earliest #and my supervisor just hounded me over email to coordinate with the two other people at my station and choose an activity to lead #but that requires. planning. that our mentors won't have until thursday........#perishing . . . . . .

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 24 days

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

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castielafflicted · 5 months

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distinct possibility that things are going to start to get very bad for me in a few days because of medication reasons </3

#zeph posting #my birth control refill got denied bc i hadnt had an appointment in too long but i had no idea about that ahead of time #and i just took my last dose #i scheduled an appointment and the guy says they probably will do another refill since its a few weeks out #but! its not a sure thing #and i wont know until at the latest thursday #and so !#this is the thing that keeps my mental health stable even moreso than the mood stabalizer #and also makes sure my physical health doesnt get horrifically worse for like 10 days a month #over 10 bc i have to recover too #so ill either be fine! or have to wait until like january 15th before i feel okay again #this is very bad to happen at christmas bc i have to be around people and do things #so i just. god if they dont give me a refill #if u see me say im posting from the ER after christmas its bc i dont have them and got suicidal </3

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uselessmonsterboy · 11 months

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I hope that you are recovering well mute. I know at times it might not seem like it but you have a lot of people that care about you.

Hope you feel better. If I could make you homemade soup I would, get better soon. And make sure you get plenty of bed rest don’t want you pulling any stitches or having to go back to the hospital.

I can sit up now (sorta) and am allowed to now walk to the front door and back on my own (gotta get my body to not hate me lmao)

And i know thank you, lovely :)♡

I am able to stay awake longer than a few hours at a time now too since my meds are getting spaced out further and further and my body isn't as shakey but alas my art isnt on the up and ups yet woop

#mute tones #asks #dragon-wolf68 #i appreciate the soup :)♡#and also i dont have stitches they just glued my body together and honestly i already ripped them before i even left the hospital #im very capable lmfao #also i cant talk for shit bc of the intubation i sound like those anti smoking ads where you just kinda croak instead of talking #but its getting better #i can have meat and rice today (lean meat but still) so im gonna have some goodies i cant wait for ice cream i want sweets so badly #i had a potato yesterday and it was so fucking good #i had surgery thursday so im now 3 days out heehee #the works

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vogelmeister · 7 months

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i’m so fucking done with this group assignment

#so basically i messaged my group about a week and a half ago saying ‘hey is there anything else i should do’#and they all left me on read #then last thursday i come to class and find out theres a whole part of the assignment not done and low and behold it gets assigned to me #and knowing i had a big weekend of social activities i decided to find somewhere before work and smash it out ya know #so already stressed with my 50 million other assignments and quizzes and stuff i do this #and then last night at wicked i get a message saying it’s not done even tho ot was never specified what i had to do #its not even like im doing all the work but its the last minuteness of this all that’s stressing me and the lack of communication #if we had just communicated with each other this wouldn’t have happened #moreover this should have been assigned to me in the first place

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eddiediazofficial · 2 hours

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