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yummatumtum · 2 months ago

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Lock the fuck in

#welcome home #lock the fuck in #i’m going insane #Theres a still tension in the swell #me in 10-20 years if I don’t lock in #Eddie dear mentioned ig #eddie dear #i love him #Hawaii part 2 has been in repeat for a week or more #I wanna be alone but I hate being alone #this is not a vent #I don’t vent in public #I barely vent to my boyfriend #freaky time ig #I need to goon #adopt me is a gooner game #Alone at the edge of a universe humming a tune #im going insane #feeling nothing at all is so cheeks

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youngpettyqueen · 1 year ago

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I know the decision to have Julian's parents have him augmented was made on the fly but imo its pretty obvious from early on that Julian has Family Issues because he avoids talking about his family like the plague and I think they should've incorporated this into the Julian and Sisko dynamic right from early on because I think it would've made for some really compelling stories and moments and could've set up a REALLY interesting Julian and Jake dynamic which they kinda started to do but never fully went for

#star trek: ds9 #julian bashir #benjamin sisko #jake sisko #s1 Julian being so young and eager to prove himself and latching onto Sisko as this mentor figure to look up to #seeing Sisko with Jake and low-key seeking that fatherly figure connection which he won't even let himself think about #Sisko seeing this young brilliant doctor who's got all the makings to be something great and he's just GOTTA help him along #I think he would also catch on pretty quick that Julian's got Parental Issues #he tries to ask one day all casual like 'tell me about yourself :)' and Julian talks about nothing but Starfleet and med school #any attempts to ask about his family are met with awkward brief answers and redirections #and then theres the way Julian's eyes light up the first time Sisko invites him to watch a baseball game #like he Knows. he's a dad he Knows somethings up #but he doesnt pry #I also think it makes their dynamic more tragic towards the end of the series #where we have Sisko asking Julian to compromise his morals again and again #Julian's trust and respect for him gradually deteriorating #and then at the end of course Sisko is gone and they have no idea when he'll be back #which I think Julian would have a lot of complicated feelings about #but of course theres also Jake #I imagine they'd get closer #very brotherly dynamic #you know that scene in TNG where Wesley goes to Riker for girl advice and Riker and Guinan start flirting?#absolutely happens but with Jake asking Julian for girl advice and Julian wooing a girl at Quark's and Jake absolutely loses the plot #makes the events of ...Nor the Battle to the Strong more intense as well I think #also I like to think there'd be an episode where the B plot is Jake gets mad at Sisko and impulsively decides to move out #ends up at Julian's because he did not think this through #Julian is now very much caught in the middle of this family drama and he Fucking Hates It #also him and Jake are NOT compatible roommates but he's trying so so hard to be nice #eventually they have a talk and Julian cryptically hints at his own home life and tells Jake he's lucky he has a dad who cares so much #them being closer would work into what Alone Together sets up for them

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necromycologist · 3 months ago

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re: lrb like. how do i explain it. alvar in canon sucks balls this is known but im just fatally obsessed with what he couldve been. vacker legacy if it was good >>>>>>> !!

#home cooked hijinks #kotlc #literally the vackers would be so good if they were good. i cant even #like duuuude what if alvar biana dynamic existed. what if keefe alvar dynamic fleshed out.#what if fitz was oh so golden and did everything right but was still so so alone among his siblings!!#what if alvar and biana found comfort in being misfits together but fitz was too perfect to be weird and too weird to be perfect.#what if alvar tried to recruit biana...#what if you realized your family were the ones that caused the injustices you rail against. what if it drove you mad.#what if you all wanted so so much to be a vacker. what if you all hated it so so much.#what if the allegorical queerness of it all!!!#thinking about the lynch brothers like hrngh. hourgh. huaoirgh. alvar COULDVE EEN THIS GOODDDD

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willyhoos · 5 months ago

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"shadows are inverted flames" -> wilsons hair is made of shadow -> YOUR BOYFRIEND'S HAIR IS MADE OF FLAME??? PETPETPETPET

also wilson can't leave the throne so he just has to deal with her doing this 24/7

#i cant believe i frankensteined this piece back to acceptability. wack.#dont starve #dst willow #wilson higgsbury #willowson #i kind of uh. hated the linework for this. so then i just. threw every trick i knew at the piece until it tuned out ok #still. dont look too hard.#real talk... it probably feels like thick clouds of smoke... incredibly soft... very soothing yes yes.#i will always come back to willowson. Actually Mad mad scientist x escaped asylum felon arsonist.#and its always a toss up as to who is going to be more unstable in any given situation.#they take turns.#usually wilson is Responsible. he likes feeling adult unlike willow. but sometimes he goes WACK and willow goes (sigh) guess ill clock in #what if we were both horrible people put in a situation where it didnt really matter anymore #could we find some kind of solace in the now-mundane insanity. could it become borderline domestic.#the closest thing to a home either of us have really ever had #i know wilsons parents canonically loved him very much . but #what has it amounted to for him? does he even believe he was loved at all?#his comments about nannies... they left you alone a lot didnt they poor boy. with nothing but books and bad ideas and worse thoughts #and willow. (gestures to the ashes of the orphanage and the Metaphor of 'seeing shadows')#wilson (haunted by his mind) (as in the threat is internal and the threat is Him)#willow (haunted by her mind) (AS IN SHE IS LITERALLY BEING HAUNTED)#(alternatively a metaphor for a vague and nameless mental illness. more of an allusion to the old 'asylums' than a specific diagnosis)#also they have fangs. ok goodnight #my nyart

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gammaraydeath · 3 months ago

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ok property management is not doing anything about the dumbass above me letting his dog shit and piss on the balcony i'm gonna give it a few more business days of complaints and if they don't get back to me i'm escalating it to animal control or SOMETHING because oh my god

#i've even offered to help this guy out with dog care. like i'm home most of the time i can take him out potty #NADA #he saw me throwing my patio furniture out but i think he's genuinely too stupid to put two and two together #WHY DID YOU GET A DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE A DOG!!!! YOU ARE NEVER HOME #i'm seriously suspecting neglect i never ever see him take the poor thing out #and he got a puppy - of course - so is it being trained or socialized in any way?#probably not if you're leaving it home alone for 10+ hours daily #i hate this guy sooooo much holy fuck #stupid ass wannabe fratboy

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sukibenders · 9 days ago

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I feel like, in the upcoming days given everything that is going on, it could be really beneficial if everyone (specifically Americans) researched and understood specific tactics such as pinkwashing and imperialist feminism and how many times those in positions of privilege use it to justify harm towards those (countries) they view as "lesser than" or "uncivilized" in comparison to them/their own.

#us politics #breaking news #iran #us #united states #bc that interview from the view were they called iranian women “not very smart” even tho iran has the highest number of women graduates was #so....it deeply read along the same lines as how some in america (especially yte feminist) will go on and on about how poorly these #countries treat women and use that for justification of bombing the area (those who are extreme) or to justify any misfortune that plagues #them as a way to uphold themselves and their country as being the pinnacle of women's rights while ignoring how women within said country #are still facing levels of harm that either goes ignored or is brushed off as being the victims fault. this is especially common regarding #woc who are often ignored/left out/or used as examples without much concern afterwards within these conversations #this same rhetoric happens with queerness as well bc people especially americans will frame over here as being a perfect haven for queers #while ignoring how many queer individuals are still being hate crimed and their experiences ignored as well as our government painting us a #the enemy for someone to fight against while ruling back our rights #“look at how they treat women/gays over there and then come talk to me-” women and queer individuals are/can be treated #poorly anywhere even in places like america which are deemed “safer”#that 1 doesn't mean that these people who live in these countries deserve what they experience 2 that these countries don't deserve rights #to basic safety and livelihood 3 that you as someone who is privileged get to use their experience for your rhetoric without having lived #bothering to step foot in these places let alone actually allowing for the people you are supposedly championing for to speak on it #it also really gives the vibe of speaking over the voices that you're supposedly championing for bc believe it or not #i don't think the people of those countries would fair off better with their homes being bombed in the name of “liberation” bc....let's be #real how does that make any sense logically? think about it

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niredsw · 6 months ago

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#i handwritten all this. no copy paste.#just leave me alone i wanna go home #but home is not home either #why did he have to hug me #or get that close to me even tho i told him to go back and stay away #i told him i didnt like it #i told him several times with the most respectful ways i DO mind him tluching me or being so close to me #i hate his presence next to me #he fucking thinks i dont realize it when hes looking at me all class like a fucking psycho yandere #he looks like he is about to kill everyone i touch other than him #i hate it i hate him i hate everything #yet he just told me im the only reason he is alive and the worst part is i KNOW he is just guilt tripping me so i dont leave him #just like everyone else did because he is a fucking pscyhopath with no humanity in him #i hate him i want him to leave me alone he is not my friend i hate his touch i hate his eyes i hate his smell i hate him presence i hate him #no wonder everyone left him hes fucking OBSESSED with every female he gets close to #silver just leave me the fuck alone i hate you i dont wanna be your friend anymore #but i dont wanna lose everyone else like before #i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it #just. leave. me. the. fuck. alone.

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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7hrs into my work day lets play a fun game of how much overtime will they make me do 🥰

#i should be going home in AN HOUR!#if im here until 7 again im pulling a sickie tmr idgaf #making me run this stupid thing twice in a day bitch it takes 5 hours!!!!! and i had to do an hour of washing up this morning from #yesterdays run bc we havent had a functional lab dishwasher for 3 months yep we have been fucking handwashing every piece of lab glassware #FOR THREE MONTHS!!#u guys dont even fucking know how much glassware we get thru in a fucking day its shambles #i dont think i even have enough glassware for my second run this afternoon so im gonna have to wash up more #one of the other techs made up the most time consuming reagent for me tho which saves me an hour bless her #but fuuucking hell. hoping when i get back from lunch theyll tell me i dont need to do any more 😭#so i can LEAVE. ON TIME. PLEASE #i cant do another 11 hour day man im not on a fucking shift pattern. if i was then at least id be able to fucking meal prep in advance #but nooooo theyre addicted to giving me unscheduled overtime to do tasks i fucking hate #also did i mention they made it even more complex so now i have to take readings every 30 seconds while constantly titrating this shit #for TEN HOURS. the amount of focus it takes is horrendous i have to keep the number in a 0.0016 range and there are so many dilutions #all this and u can still only analyse 3 samples in 5 hours bc everything has to be in triplicate its fucking sisyphean. hell on earth #puts my head in my hands and wails. im fine ahahahhaahaha. everyone in the lab is being nice abt it at least im getting a lot of pity #i wish i could work shift pattern by this point man or like a 4 day week w 10 hour days. when my managers back im gonna ask her abt it #bc theyve let a few other ppl have custom hours. they wont let me work weekends which is annoying bc im SO productive alone #i might ask again lol so much of my shit is fully independent anyway. aourgh. i get so twitchy from staring at the numbers it makes my #vision swim a bit..... well im used to it #aight vent over im going back in..... wish me fucking luck guys #.diaries

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sleepyjuniper · 3 months ago

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Tmw you haven't eaten all afternoon but you know damn well there's nothing in the house you want to eat

#how am I gonna survive this weekend bro #i keep getting fast food because I'm sick of the stuff we have at home. have to force myself to eat a sandwich i hate and it doesn't make me #feel satisfied #meanwhile fast food actually feels like it sustains me? and i enjoy eating it? and there's so many options out there?#i wish that i could be living like my mom rn #she's never hungry anymore because of the new medication she's on and that alone sounds like such a dream.#barely being hungry and never needing to eat much to feel full #but i don't know how to cook shit on my own and she doesn't cook as often anymore so it's like. what is there for me here #fuck this brain and it's stupid pickiness #why can't you derive pleasure from simple things. ugh #i fucking hate having ADHD it's literally ruining my life

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literaila · 10 months ago

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On a scale of one to ten how emotional was readers reaction seeing megumi alive again

8.7 but she never really believed that he was gone. call her crazy but her son isn’t going to blindly submit to some manic gym bro from the heian era

megumi takes back his body and she’s basically jumping up and down with yuji and applauding. a standing ovation for her son, obviously.

and then later she goes home and cries herself to sleep because a. she’s really proud of him and b. the world is a terrible terrible place

#i mean she could potentially cry in front of him #but i feel as though she absolutely HATES being upset in front of the children and after ten years she’s learned how to control her emotion #in the moment #definitely a bittersweet feeling #but no #when people were like ‘if megumi does blah blah—‘ she would interrupt and 🤓☝️ ‘WHEN he does blah blah’#and yuji is wholeheartedly agreeing #nodding along #she’s also like… probably fighting for her life in the moment??? so she can’t be super dramatic #but using that as ammunition for the rest of their lives for sure #and her and megumi go home and talk about gojo and tsumiki #they were always very close but it brings them together for sure #and i think it gives megumi the same kind of perspective that she gained when she was a kid and her friends died/left #so a loooot of understanding going on #but hey #they’ve got each other so it’ll all be alright #(and then megumi and yuji make out and take seven years to confess to each other)#jjk spoilers #a typical family #OH #AND she definitely talks to megumi about guilt #about not taking it all alone #they could’ve saved everyone together but they weren’t strong enough #because you can never be strong enough #and she tells him that it’s okay #that’s why strength exists in the first place #(aka not letting him go down your typical satoru route)

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cringengl · 8 months ago

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And what if I said that the reason Sheila hates Sammi so much is because Sheila sees her own worst qualities in Sammi that she hates herself for

#its 3am so im not gonna make an in depth post about it now but cmon guys #she hates sammi for being a clingy and needy bad mother #sheila is clingy and needy!! like at the start of s4 when shes around the gallaghers all the time and wont leave them alone #also she needed karen so bad and got super attached to frank #shes also scared about being a bad mother and felt guilty about the times that she was one like she apologises to karen about how her #agoraphobia and ocd affected karens childhood #'but sheila never kicked karen out to have sex with a random guy' yeah but sheila did bring a random man home to stay (frank) and slept with #karens husband #likeeee #anyway i actually do want to make a post on this later when im less tired #shameless #shameless us #sheila jackson #sammi slott #frank gallagher #karen jackson

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marshbarks · 4 months ago

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i need to rewatch all of south park i need to become one of those people who screenshots every time the two guys i like are standing near each other

#pine prattles #i'm still talking about tweetters.#i have so many little ideas and headcanons and they make me cry #especially bc theyre not exactly the most fluffy functional relationship in the world #but butters is so good at listening.#and tweek is really good at being a springboard for when leo needs to sit down and half-yell about his family #he gets frustrated and starts punching his knuckles together and grumbling and tweek asks him whats wrong #and then he yells for 20 minutes about everything hes got bottled rn. and then he's fine #holds out his arms and asks tweek for a hug. and of course he gets it. of course #tweek used to get jumpy about the yelling but now he understands that it isnt About Him (took a while) so he doesn't mind #and he and butters will cook and bake together!!!!! butters is better at cooking and tweek is a bakey boy #and also like. butters hates organizing things. (twauma) but tweek finds organization relaxing #(unless its his own controlled chaos [like his room!])#so he'll sometimes come over when butters is home alone and just help him with chores #he doesnt touch glass things out of concern for breaking them. but he'll do the rest of it all.#and then they go up to leo's room and watch stuff together while snuggling with tweeks laptop on their laps

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shigussy · 1 year ago

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i keep getting tiktoks of these younger gen z kids referencing a time they did something relating to fandom in public and now they're embarrassed by it and everytime i see one i sit there thinking over all of middle and high school and having genuinely 0 moments that i feel embarrassed by, like i definitely did a lot of shit these kids would be embarrassed by but i think these are all just really fucking funny

also photographic evidence of the kinda kid i was. these are from 2014/15 when i was in 8th grade

-desolation row one shot(still on wattpad gerard way/reader smut)

-twerk it on (mcr crack fanfic no longer on wattpad but i have another fic in my library called twerking in taco bell which definitely ALSO used for my reading log)

-frank iero must die(a serial killer/assassin frerard fic, still on wattpad)

-hair (really vague maybe a phanfic? nowhere in my wattpad library rip)

my binder i used in 7th grade i had a blue one that looked pretty similar to this for 8th grade but idk where it went, also the parts i scribbled out are my full legal name i had written on it. i wrote it normally and then the big spot is where i wrote my name REALLY BIG in elysian code from the vladimir tod books. also the lines are from when i used an exacto knife to cut up some papers and forgot that my binder was underneath