#i havent drawn them in so long [sobs]

[cyberstarlope]

rayman resurgence in my brain let's go gaymers

[buwheal]

Bro the askers treat spamton so much better on that askblog.

While over here we send him drawings of his joints and tell him "go puppet boy go!"

Honestly I love seeing the difference.

LOLLL they do… and maybe a little bit of that is my fault based on the ones i choose because im really picky with the ones i do answer (being nice to him, in this case) because there are SO many people who are trying to make him feel better, but ultimately they always bring up something or other to remind him of the shit he’s gone or is going through..

..Like,, “so you know how youre always failing and you’re uh… maybe alone with the (physical) things you’re going through? Yeah? Well ive failed too. Sometimes. Hope you feel better after i just reminded you!” Kind of stuff. Obviously im very much exaggerating what people say but YIPPPEESS its like they’re trying to get him to cry or something. I appreciate their efforts and how much the care but damn i dont think that they’re thinking about how that’d sound to him, especially since his immediate thought towards things like that is that its ingenuine.

I think less of Loki’s audience wants to see him suffer. A lot of mine do. LMAO. The difference /is/ funny.

[dandyshucks]

one of the kiddos really loves rabbits and we're not able to really do much for Easter related activities irl so I thought I'd draw them with their favourite rabbit 'mon ... perhaps a gift from Guz,,,,,

[sinhasfluffyheadfur]

in a constant battle between wanting to draw funky pointy sun and wanting to draw squishy chibi sun. squeeze him

[godsfavoritescientist]

you’ll always be my favorite ghost - Big God, by Florence + The Machine

[Image description: Lineless digital painting of Ford kneeling in front of the stone statue of Bill, hugging it and crying. He is in the woods, surrounded by birch trees, with beams yellow light streaming down from the treetops. The grass around Ford is shaded to be reminiscent of the shape of the portal.]

[fusion-ego]

man it's been so long since i drew luci (they/she), i've missed this gal

[meikostan]

OK finally watching oshi no ko anime, it turns out all i needed was to go outside for like an hour and im normal again

my thoughts under the cut (writing as i watch) (long) (lots of thoughts) (beautiful and true?) (manga reader) (don't read if anime only) (spoilers) (seriously) (i talk alot) (lots of thoughts)

at this point i've reread oshi no ko enough times that even if i didnt already know japanese i could probably make it without the subs SDJLF but its so cool to see lines and panels that im so familiar with brought to life!! i also liked goro's death scene, especially the way they used static and cut between shots. i keep on pulling out my physical copies of onk (well mostly vol 1) and pointing at my screen and the corresponding part of the book like

2. AIIIII little known fact about me is that ai is genuinely my favorite character... WHICH SUCKS BECAUSE SHE DIES IN THE FIRST VOLUME. seriously we only ever get to see her after this when a. her name or demeanor is invoked by another character b. aqua has his numerous mental breakdowns or c. flashbacks (including but not limited to aqua's mental breakdowns). i am always down for ai content!!!

3. its so much easier to ignore the weird vaguely sexual stuff from their babyhood because i know the rest of the series is normal and cool and not into that sort of stuff👍

4. speaking of normal yayayay it's aqua back when he was actually normal and not "normal" :D like he is just a baby. do you think now that oshi no ko is popular people will get into internet arguments about whether you can ethically have aqua as your favorite character post-normalification. actually wait this may already have been happening in the dark depths of some discord server out there.. but i dont use discord so im blissfully unaware

5. OH i dont think ive seen all of the OG b komachi before? or at least not in high detail. epic!

6. infant ruby telling people on the internet "kys" before age 2... truly a model twitter user

7. not gonna lie i havent really ever liked the way babies are drawn here (including manga)... idk their heads just look way too big like adult heads drawn on toddler bodies then ""cutified"". but this is a personal gripe

8. do you think because of infantile amnesia the twins forgot about the whole pretending to be amaterasu moment. do you think miyako still remembers. can you imagine being the foster mother of two kids who you believe to be gods sent to earth. do you think she remembers that she was "charged by the gods with keeping ai's secret" and then aqua. you know.

9. imagine: you married the ceo of a mid production company because you want to date hot men. there are no hot men in sight. you have to watch over one of the idol's twin infant babies. they reveal to you that they are divine messengers of god and also they can speak normally. there are no hot men in sight. you tend to their every need because you don't want divine retribution. you explain the intricacies of the idol industry in detail every couple of days when they complain about the injustices of the world. there are no hot men in sight. you become their foster mom after they witness the traumatic death of their mother, whose secrets you where charged with keeping safe. at least 12 years pass. they never mention any of this again. you manage the idol group one of them is in. there are still no hot men in sight. your name is miyako. every day you wake up.

10. i like how gotanda gives his business card to a toddler. whats he gonna do, call you on his fisher price dial phone? well actually nevermind aqua is probably the only other toddler (alongside ruby) who could make use of a business card

11. KANAA LETS FUCKING GOOOOO but also nothing will ever top 'lick a lying snitch/flick a crying switch'...... nothing ever... :( also taking the opportunity now to say ive always found it hilarious she assumed 'aqua' is his stage name and not his actual legal name, that's how ridiculous it is DSKLFJ

12. sobbing at the ruby ai dance... dont even have that many words i just really like it.. do you guys think ai was thinking about her own mom [& abuse/lack of relationship thereof]? not even just in this scene but in her more serious moments when she's thinking about her kids it's like "i want to make millions so they can go to the nicest schools and have the nicest things" "i want my daughter to dance freely and happily and i will support her in this" which ig can also be excused as 'thats just what a normal parent wants' but idk i like taking into consideration her own past and lack of parental support when looking at the way she tries to raise her children (not that she exactly got a chance to, even while still alive)

13. also i realized at this point that ep 1 is like an hour long not just because of the whole 'we gotta make sure no one drops this before the reveal that shows what this story's actually gonna be about', but also because it would be kinda awkward to have cut any of these scenes out? or not like out completely but like from each other. like if we had ended ep 1 at for example where they do their silly baby dance and go twitter viral (chapter 5 aka the midpoint of vol 1). that wouldve been terrible. but we can't cut it any earlier, or any later. ai's death feels like the natural conclusion to this problem. also i can't really see much of the other sections being stretched out to fit a full episode length being done very well. having ep 1 be a full 90 minutes lets them be as long as they need to be, aka a 1:1 adaptation of the manga.

14. oh boy chapter 9 time

15. i don't have anything to say about ai's outlook that has not already been said but this is the scene that made her my favorite character. not being able to tell at what point your lies become reality.. not really knowing if you've ever loved or been loved truly because your entire concept of 'love' was based off insincerity necessary for survival.. and now not ever being given the chance to explore what 'real love' means to you. FUCK

16. aww i love all these little family moments they added! very cute ^_^

17. yayy go kids get traumatized ^_^ also for some reason i remember the stalker as having really light hair o-0 fascinating. i remembered his name though!! just like ai fr

18. speaking of hair i also did not realize saitou was blond i thought he had brown hair..

19. hey the bandana (? i forget the word) guy holding the ai fan sign during the news montage is from one of the intros to the vol 1 chapters where hes like 'oh yeah i wonder where those dancing babies are now'!

20. another part of that montage shows a house with a wii in it, which came out november 19 2006. characters are shown using twitter which started earlier that same year; it was a pretty popular website even in 2008, but the mobile app only became a thing in like 2010. i'm seeing a mix of flip phones and smart phones so this has gotta take place sometime around 2010. it's kinda difficult to tell exactly what age the twins are in the main story because like the first page of vol 2 has ruby listing her age as 14, but - and the proof is not at my finger tips rn - i swear to god they're like 16 at this point. i have legitimate reasons to believe this but i need to grab exact proof adding to that we also have 15 years of lies, which if im remembering right would be referring to the twins age? i was trying to logic out exactly what year oshi no ko takes place in even though i already know the answer is 'in the modern day' but anyway yeah i'll just finish my episode and move on

21. THE IPHONE RUBY IS HOLDNIG HAS A HEADPHONE JACK. i want so badly to say that's an iphone 4 but there's like a separation between that and the power button. i also dont have an iphone 4 with me so i cant check it irl :( but anyway the iphone 4 was released in 2010, meaning the evidence is piling up for this part of the story taking place some time around 2010. or maybe i'm looking too deeply into this and should go back to actually watching the episode.

22. this is reminding me i was gonna write a fic specifically about this time period where the twins go to therapy and have to adjust to life without ai, having miyako graduate from fake mom to actual mom, aqua faking being fully recovered from the incident so he'd be released from therapy (fic concept was inspired from him stating this in like vol 6), etc. i never did because i spent like 3 hours researching play therapy and never got anywhere with it.. but maybe...

23. THE KIDS HAVING TO WATCH HER FUNERAL THROUGH THE FUCKING CAR WINDOW... I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF

24. YESS AQUA NORMALIFICATION COMPLETE

25. AM I INSANE OR IS THAT AKANE? HER HAIR COLOR IS THE SAME BUT IT'S SO SHORT

26. MEM!!!!

27. AHHH POST CREDITS AI MAKING HER VIDEO FOR THE TWINS "i don't think i'll still be an idol by then" YEAH BUT AT WHAT COST 😭

FINAL THOUGHTS: i liked it alot ^_^ i dont really watch that much anime anymore (not that i watched an incredible amount before, but i am familiar with it) but i really liked this. i think they did a very good job of adapting the first volume! i know the rest of the episodes will be not-film length which does make me a bit sad because i think it would work out well, or at least not badly, if they were. it does also make me really excited for the future, seriously i will actually explode when i see the theater arc in full. cannot wait to see aqua mental breakdowns and ruby evil arc and and and and

the only thing i would've liked is if they could somehow have found a way to incorporate the pre-chapter intro scenes from the manga where they're talking about 15 years of lies, interviews with their pre-school teacher, etc. though both the pre-school teacher and the aforementioned bandana guy appear which may have been their way of doing it? like adding a fun detail for obsessives like myself to point at like 'my god it's those guys from exactly 2 panels in the manga'

tumblr ate my post and erased everything up to #2 while i was writing it and i was about to flip but it turns out that it automatically saves posts while youre writing them now and it was in my drafts safe and sound soooo crisis averted ^_^ anyway those were my thoughts on ep 1

[minmin-pal]

i am?? having whiplash from how rad your art is?? i know i said your rendering is nice but i actually wasn't expecting the second image?? someone please tell me why: 1. i kept looking at it for like 10 minutes straight just analysing all the details, rendering nd brush strokes (they were all immaculate as heck and there was such a cool variety of them)

2. i forgot how much range of style/phases an artist can have? /not serious /lighthearted

your art is just generally one of the coolest i've seen tbh, even the anime-ish one was just super cool (it was like i was looking at a sketch of a magical girl manga artist /positive) and thank you for the infodump, it's always very fun to read them and thank you for showing us some of your other artworks :D i know you said you didn't not show it for any special reason just that it would be jarring but it honestly was very cool to see them and they were lovely as heck, so thank you for being willing to show us /genuine also since it helped me remember that art isn't linear and that it's a form of self expression, i tend to forget it since i always just see a singular style with most artists i follow so the whiplash here was very much appreciated, likely weird and unwarranted to say this so i apologise in advanced but thank you again :) /genuine

hope you have a nice day and sorry for the long ask, it kind of derailed ^^; have a flower :)🌷 /not forced

I DONT MIND THE LONG ASK AT ALL /srs

im so glad u like the other art styles as well as my blog usual :sob: and im super happy u like my art this much and yes, i will feel free to share more art,as well as thank u for. your kindness 😭 like this was genuinely so sweet (also onto ur last point; even though i self proclaim myself as an artist, i feel like its so easy to just stick to one thing and never really branch out, like even with all my styles, i sometimes find myself having everything looking the same overall.. this is derailing. um. BASICALLY. its like if u make houses; if u keep making all your houses look the same, youll... get used to it, so youll never try doing other stuff, so i as this hypothetical builder, like building all kinds of houses, so i dont get too comfortable with one type. that was a really bad metaphor.)

(second image was quickly edited. and looks scuffed, the original one u can find on this post > (tw drawn self harm)

but basically it sorta shows a cool contrast between the two, despite really similar posing, and both being the exact same version of how i draw myself (minus the clothes)

[aayo-whatt]

tagged by @herefortears thanks sm lovie, i love tag games

Your name: i typically go by 'aayo' online, but sometimes it's 'lucinda' (either or i don't mind-)

Your first fandom(s): uhh, in all honesty either Haikyuu, Harry Potter, or mcyt stuff- i honestly don't remember it was so long ago-

Your current fandom(s): Supernatural, Merlin, ACOTAR, TWD, Stranger Things, Throne of Glass, TGS, POTC, OUAT, Haikyuu and MHA

How did you first get into fandom? I've honestly got no idea- uhh, i just started watching/reading a bunch of series and one day i got bored and went searching (online) for someone i could rant to about everything, and who would understand what im going on about- (totally didn't started on wattpad-)

How long have you been engaging in fandom spaces? hmm, minimum five years, but it was really scattered and i didnt do much in the early days

How often do you read fanfics? not often enough, i try to read as many as i can, though i can almost never find the time to

Top three characters from your current fandom(s): Supernatural: gabriel, gadreel, charlie Merlin: gwaine, gwen, and merlin ACOTAR: helion, cassian (pfp), tarquin/mor TWD: glenn, maggie/carl, negan Stranger Things: robin, dustin, erica (OR eddie) Throne of Glass: fenrys, dorian, lysandra/aedion (cant choose 😭😭) TGS: rachel, hyde and lanyon for sure POTC: sobbing, i havent watched this in ages (minimum 5 years) i can barely remember these people- OUAT: regina, hook and henry Haikyuu: sakusa, suna anddd either tsumu or bokuto MHA: kaminari, kirishima, sero

Have you ever written fic for a fandom? God yes. So many that were so cringe and got abandoned, and even more that have never been published.

Have you ever drawn fanart for a fandom? Yes. Never posted, but yes.

Share a personal headcanon that you feel very strongly about: aedion has the manliset man bun you've ever seen there's more, but that's a big one for me

You’re trying to convince a friend to get into your current fandom(s) with you. what episode, clip, or scene are you showing them? idek- smth that either made me laugh so hard i nearly peed myself, smile so much my face hurt for hours afterward, want to punch [character/writer/director/whatever name] in the face so many times, or made me cry so much i could barely get out of bed days later

And finally, what does fandom mean to you? hmm, being able to all caps rant to someone about this thing you hated/loved in a fandom, or just being accepted by a group of people/person who you might not know irl, but consider family/really really good friends like holy fuck we're besties, i want to marry you platonically and we can adopt all of our blorbos even from fandoms we dont share we can all be one absolutely massive family that puts the fun in dysfunctional

(no pressure) tagging @aliens-took-my-iwa-chan @reverie-starlight @gay-destiel and anyone who'd want to join!

[sporksaber]

I'm really drawn towards reading/writing stories that could be tragic but are filled with hope. An offshoot of this is romances that arent romances, where it doesnt work out but they grow as people.

I've had this one brewing in that back of my mind for awhile (I havent written Anything for it yet, bc 1 I'd need to fo research and 2 I need to explore my own identity more first). Based on the line "I could never love you as a woman and you could never love me as a man."

A straight couple finds out they're both trans and gay. They both mentally come to terms with wanting to explore that part of themself at the same time. One brings it up first in this big moment of vulnerable intimacy, and the other is like, "oh, fuck."

And it sucks for them for awhile. Like really sucks. There's this raw awkwardness in their interactions. It takes awhile for their communication to get to the point where neither is carefully treading around the theoretical boundaries the other could have. And this open wound of wishing they felt differently. Because they are in love with eachother.

In every version I've thought through of this they are living together, sometimes engaged. They do try to make it work. It had been a long time since either could imagine life without the other.

It doesnt work though.

There are moments where it almost seems to. And moments where it couldnt be more wrong. And the issues grow and fester. They try not to let it but they cant go on the way they are.

They are still a solid support for eachother through it all. As they transition they try their best for one another. To affirm one another. But there is also a desperation to stay together that doesn't let them do what they need to.

There is a point that peaks into an unhealthy relationship. It's accidental, they dont mean to hurt eachother, but theyve relief on eachother a bit too much while burying far too many emotions.

It's not an explosion of a resolution. It's a moment of no longer fitting together followed by a night of sobbing in different rooms leading into a quiet morning of coffee and acetaminophen.

They still love eachother. But it's not the same.

It's possible they could of made it work. They'd always love eachother, always trust eachother unconditionally. But there is a lack of attraction and affirmation that they want. And that they see themself as always wanting.

So they reach the point of breaking up. It's incredibly painful for them. They still live together and still support eachother, but it hurts. It just hurts.

The hurt slowly dulls into an ache.

There are a lot of late night conversations, far more than before. ("I mean, I obviously can love a woman. I was in love with you," and that statement pressed hard on her aching heart. But the understanding soothed it.)

There is a lot more stumbling together into who they're meant to be.

When they part completely in the end, its bittersweet. They are so happy for eachother, but the ache hasn't faded yet. It will eventually, but for now they still press down on it when they miss eachother.

[milkymagg0t]

BACK ON MY BULLSHIT HIIIIIIIII

[renemesis]

hiiiii can i request a puddle for the art requests......... :pleading:

Spent so so long fixing my tablet just forhim... love u so much puddy ♡♡

[miraclestitch-a]

@lunaerising​​ asked: [ DRAMATICS ]  for a near death experience to drive receiver to confess their feelings to sender.  ( we havent talked a Lot about them but i just think this is a little neat to consider for todomira you kn- i just love . :) death)

Even in the darkest night, I feel your heart. / accepting selectivity.

🦋 – Training camp wasn’t meant to go this way. It was SUPPOSED to have been a fun time where they all IMPROVED and HONED their skills. Just a few hours ago they were TRAINING, LAUGHING, and COOKING together. Then, all Mirabel could hear were the sirens of the ambulance and her own SOBS. She doesn’t remember much aside from DARKNESS afterwards, occasionally eyes opening just briefly only to be BLINDED by the light of the hospital. She felt WARM, much too warm. She could constantly hear muffled voices, none of which she recognized.

🦋 – But after a bit, there was SILENCE. Though, she didn’t know if that was BETTER. The silence left her alone, half awake with her THOUGHTS and her FEELINGS. It scared her, she didn’t LIKE how scared she was. She didn’t like how WEAK she felt. She should’ve been STRONGER, she should’ve been QUICKER ... then maybe ... maybe ...

🦋 – There’s a groan as she tries BURYING those thoughts. She’s too tired to deal with them right now. Her eyes slowly open up, thankful for the dimmed lights and the curtains drawn. The sun is almost out of the sky, leaving for a COOL light inside her room. She groans at the HEADACHE she feels. She looks at her arms, all bandaged up ... god, her mother was going to kill her. She wonders how the others are doing -- thoughts drifting back to the others hurt during the attack. Was anyone else badly injured that she couldn’t get too? 

🦋 – Almost as if SENSING her thoughts, the door to her room opens up. Her eyes glance over to see who it is. “T ... Todoroki?” for the first time in the past few hours, she managed a SMILE. He walks over to her, pulling up a chair and sitting by her bed. They sit there in silence for a moment, not sure what to say to the other. Mirabel forces out a laugh, which makes Todoroki look up at her.

🦋 – “I failed, huh?” She manages to choke out. She doesn’t know why NOW she’s letting this out, but it’s not like she could ever hide her emotions WELL from Todoroki. Ever since the sports festival it’s like he could just TELL. “I couldn’t KEEP them from taking Katsuki, i couldn’t STOP them, i c--” Todoroki’s hand on her cheek stops her from finishing. Her eyes meet his, and she can SEE the stress he’s been feeling too. Oh, god, what had he been through? 

🦋 – “You did what you could,” he tells her, thumb brushing over her cheek. Mirabel’s breath hitches, before the tears begin streaming down her face. Todoroki takes her face in both his hands, and she NUZZLES her face into his palm. She can hear him gently comforting her, albeit AWKWARDLY. After a few seconds, he wipes at her face with a tissues, and she chuckles. “I’m alright, todo, i’m alright ...” Still, though, she wasn’t stopping Todoroki. She doesn’t think she has the strength to do that.

🦋 – She scoots over on the medical bed so he can lay down with her. They lay there, mostly in ... SILENCE. Not a tense silence, just .. silence. One they could enjoy despite the HELL they’ve probably face the past few days. She doesn’t remember how long they were there, until Todoroki’s phone BUZZED. He had to go. 

🦋 – “I’ll visit tomorrow,” he promises as he gets his stuff. “And i’ll sneak some of your favorite food in,” in a whisper, which makes her giggle. As he turns from her to walk out, the words slip out past her lips before she can stop them;

🦋 – “I love you.”

🦋 – Mirabel freezes, and Todoroki stops walking. Mirabel wishes she could COVER her mouth ( damn these casts !!! ). “I mean --” panicked mode activates, and she’s trying figure out how to WORD things. Her panic blinds her from Todoroki turning around, walking back to her. He places a hand on her head, and she stops talking. The silence is now TENSE, and neither of them like that. Mirabel stares at him, and he stares back. He leans over, and bumps his nose against the top of her head. Not a kiss, but it held the same sentiment as one. It made Mirabel’s panic nearly DISSIPATE, and her giggles are like a little song to Todoroki’s ears.

🦋 – “Tomorrow,” he tells her again. Not just a visit, but more of a ... a TALK. They have time to figure out whatever they are. But for now ... Mirabel needs to rest, and Todoroki needs to go. She nods, and he can finally leave. She rests her head back on her pillow, and sighs.

🦋 – Tomorrow.

[heleizition]

every once in while i think of ur jayroy art and my heartrate goes AAAAAA

KFNDKFNKD AAAAA i miss jayroy i havent drawn them in so long sobs gently

[cloudsrust]

Bonjour it is sleep deprived French girl again :) Just wanted to know, what other fandoms are/were you in ? You play a lot of video games ?

Oh damn didnt see this one yesterday,, hope you managed to get some sleep! And ohhh boi- I was in a TON of fandoms since I jump a lot between them (note: I consider being in a fandom as is- I created artwork/headcanons and was obsessed with it for atleast a month or more)

Mhh- think I’ll divide them in “categories”: Been in and never going back for either reasons or disinterest: Creepypasta (first ever fandom I was in- regret;;; except for Slendy man) Rick and Morty (I just casually watch now) Showdown Bandit (Lost interest, too bad for some characters I liked sobs) Batim (Had its chance- but now I lost interest. Bendy is still adorable tho) Villainous (just enjoying the characters rn) Been in and might come back to it: Cuphead (can’t stop loving them characters and King Dice and many other bosses are still in my heart sob) TF2 (Man I love the comic and them homicidal dorks) Sally Face (I loved the aesthetic of that game so much,,, lowkey want to retry making art of it) Hello Puppets (extremely underrated, them puppets be hella creepy and funny all in one- still stanning my boi Nick Nack lmao) SCP (Want to read more of them but I got so much I want to do nghhh;;) Always in my heart someway or another: Undertale (the fandom that made me and my irl best friend get closer :,> doesn’t matter how weird it got I got beautiful memories because of it (also my first cosplay was in this fandom!)) OFF (Might not show it- but I think I’ll die in this fandom dshdgsh) Hollow Knight (Too good too leave and it got some of my fave artists) Deltarune (I’ll surely get back into it when more comes out aaa) Underhero (extremely underrated but absolutely amazing characters, would recommend) Luigi’s Mansion 3 (found so many cool people and friends through it, it was a good time :,>) Smile for Me (comfort game right next to undertale sobs;; the style and characters are perfect and I love it to bits) Currently into: No Straight Roads (duh asdhdh- absolute current obsession right there) A Hat in Time (Lurking again in the fandom- want to do some more fanart cause I miss it;;) OFF (Always down for it) Lobotomy Corp/Library of Ruina (Another absolute obsession- and I’m excited for what LoR is gonna bring next aaa) Animal Crossing/ Enchanted Folk (Both amazing to relax and to look at cute as heck characters) Grey zone(?): Stardew Valley (havent played in so long;; but I used to be hella into it- completed the quests and married Elliot the dork poet sydsdujsh) Drawn to Life (I miss Wilfre and Heather so much sobs;;) Don’t Starve (Was hella into the lore and characters but didnt play much whoops;;) Pokemon (I mean,, it’s there but??? Idk if I can consider myself in the fandom?? Still love it in general) Darkwood (I love the game but havent been much into the fandom or drew much of it;;) Phew- and that’s all on my fandom history kinda ahahah. For games- I don’t play many;; I usually watch gameplays while drawing, writing or working to multitask.  Games I played tho- Practically all Pokemon Gens starting from Platinum (with also serie spin-offs like pokemon ranger and one Mystery Dungeon), all Professor Layton Serie until either Azran Legacy or Miracle Mask (forgot which is the “ending”;;), OFF, Undertale and Deltarune, Animal Crossing Wild World and New Horizons, Hollow Knight, Cuphead, Lobotomy Corp and No Straight Roads. Plus a lot of other rpg maker games. Let’s say I’m for games with a lot of lore and story more than action eh;; Platformers and the like I can deal with ‘em but boss rushes? Cool but they kick my ass so much sdhsdh. OH and my best friend is getting me into playing Ace Attorney (we play together via discord) and lowkey getting into it-.. unfortunately I know some of the twists so heck;;;

[sexualtea]

Hey! How about an imagine where ur ringos lil sister (couple months younger than Paul) & u go on tour with them bc u and ringo are super close, & u have a crush on Paul that u havent told anybody but George and John notice u acting different around him. Ringo thinks theyre just messing with him and Paul is literally oblivious so John and George try different ways of setting u 2 up and nothing works til finally John blurts out that u have a crush on him and ur embarased and Paul reveals his crush

Here you Go!! Hope you like it as much as I liked writing it! Really had fun with this, although I was in a rush so it hasn’t been checked for errors. That said, bon appetit!

Starry Eyed

Word Count - 2,422

Paul McCartney x reader Fluff

Your beatle boys love you deeply, but part of you deep down wants Paul to love you a little more.

When Ringo left Rory Storm and The Hurricanes to become a Beatle, apparently you did too. You sometimes felt like you were the luckiest girl in the world to have Ritchie as a brother, you never argued and always had a good laugh - So imagine your surprise when you found yourself with three more big brothers!

You and George got on like a house on fire. You were drawn naturally to him after hearing of how hard he fought to have your brother in the band, and even more so when you found out how much effort he put in trying to make sure Ringo felt included. He took you under your wing as well, and put together you were an unstoppable trio.

John was uncertain at first. Ringo had told them all that you were off limits, and so John was never particularly interested. If he couldn’t chase you, what was the point? But you persisted, and one day when he was deep into reading A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess, you told him how much you liked the book, but that you liked the Buddy-Holly style glasses perched on his nose even more, And he began to realise that maybe you weren’t so bad. A firm friendship ensued, enjoying relentless teasing and hours upon hours of intellectual conversation about books and films and art - Sometimes Ringo felt as though John preferred you to him.

But Paul, oh Paul. He was a whole different story. The last thing you wanted him to be was a brother to you. You wanted him to hold your hand and kiss you, for all the amazing songs he wrote to be about you. You wanted him to spill his hearts contents to you; his thoughts, his fears, his ideas, his dreams. You wanted all of him, unconditionally and completely.

It nearly killed you to watch him everyday, writing songs about girls who weren’t you, parading around with groupies after every show. He’d buy them drinks and keep them close to him all night, before leaving discreetly, a hand on her back and always throwing a cheeky wink to the group. But what hurt you most of all was that you could never have him.

Even if Ringo didn’t forbid them from going after you, Paul would never be interested. How could he ever be? He was perfect. He was kind and thoughtful, willing to go out of his way to do anything for anybody. He was beautiful, his smile brighter than anyones you had ever seen, the longest eyelashes known to man, and a silly mop top that he pulled off so well it has inspired a new fashion trend. He was untouchable.

And recently, he bothered you more and more than you’d care to admit. Every night before each show, the boys would stand in a line as you wished them good luck and pressed a kiss to their cheeks - But with Paul, his hands would fall to your waist and you had to force yourself to pull away before you were tempted to give him a kiss. You feared if you started you’d never be able to stop.

Every morning, you would wake up the lads with a cup of tea - at their insistence as you ‘make it just right’ as George liked to say. But not Paul. You didn’t know what would be worse; seeing how perfect he looks in the morning, all soft and gentle, Or seeing some blonde model in his bed, still wrapped around him.

Avoiding him was difficult, and more noticeable than you thought. The boys had clocked your strange behaviour, and quickly confronted Paul, wanting to know what he had done to hurt you so much. Paul was as clueless as ever, and desperately tried to rack his brain to work out what he had done wrong. He couldn’t bear the thought that he had hurt you - You meant so much to him.

He loved everything about you, how could he not? You were stunning, easily the most beautiful girl he had ever seen in his life. The groupies were merely a substitute for you, distractions. You would never want him, and even if you did, it wouldn’t be worth destroying the band.

You were the reason the band was so successful he thought, you inspired him. When he looked at you, it was as if the lyrics wrote themselves. And when he talked to you, it was music to his ears. He admired your passion, your talent, your intelligence. You kept him going, and every time you pulled away and shut him out, his heart broke a little.

—

John couldn’t stand it any longer. He was sick to death of Paul’s moping and he was beyond fed up with your erratic behaviour. He was a clever man, and he couldn’t realise it had taken so long to realise what was up with the pair of you.

The two lads were squashed up on the bed of a stuffy hotel room, guitars in hand and notebooks scattered between them. They worked silently, the only noise being chords and strums as they examined lyrics, when John decided to peer down at Paul’s notebook, his eyes straining to see what it said. In the younger lads typically messy scrawl, John squinted to make out words dotted along the page,

If it’s something that I’ve said or done, tell me what and I’ll apologise

Tell me Why

I really can't stand it I’m so in love with you

But then his eyes finally adjusted, and amongst the lyrics on the page that they were currently working out, John nearly gasped at the sight.

Y/N, Y/N, Y/N, Y/N.

Your name, over and over as if it was a song in itself. John couldn’t believe his eyes. He couldn’t believe Paul would disregard Ringo like that, but he also couldn’t believe Paul wouldn’t act on his feelings. John loved you like a sister, and he only wanted the best for you, and he was pretty certain that Paul would treat you right. The only thing left, John thought, was to see if you felt the same.

—

You stood at the kitchen counter, stirring the mugs of tea you were making for Ringo and George. You were softly humming ‘do you want to know a secret’ to yourself, a favourite of yours. You found Georges voice so comforting, but not when he snuck up behind you, laughing ‘Yes, I’d love to know a secret!’ You let out a squeal in surprise and his hands fell onto your shoulders and he rested his head on yours.

‘Jesus George, what do you think you’re doing,’ you gasped, hand on your heart to feel it racing.

You whipped round to meet his eyes, his eyebrows quirked and a teasing smile. ‘Cmon y/n, whats going on with you?’ He poked, and you could see the tinge of concern in his eyes.

‘What do you mean? I’m fine,’ you shrugged, carefully handing him his mug. He took it with a smile and muttered a ‘ta.’

He sipped at his drink, watching you carefully. ‘Y’know if I didn’t know better, I’d think Paul had upset you.’ You went to protest, scrambling to find the right words that wouldn’t reveal the truth.

‘But I do know better, and I know Paul wouldn’t do anything to hurt you. And not just because he knows Ringo would win in a fight,’ He offered you a smile and rubbed your shoulders comfortingly. ‘So whats going on?’

You looked up, deep into Georges eyes. Since you couldn’t tell Ringo, George was the next best thing. There was something about his soft brown eyes and gentle gaze that made you crack, and your eyes slowly began to well up.

‘Oh George,’ you sighed, and he pulled you into a tight embrace. ‘I think I love him.’

—

George made sure to hold you tight till you stopped crying, and brought Ringo his tea so he wouldn’t get suspicious and come check up on you. When he was making his way back to the kitchen, He bumped into John.

‘Hey, want me to get you anything? Y/n’s in there and she’s pretty upset, don’t think she wants anyone to see her at the moment.’

‘She’s upset? Why? Whats happened?’ John demanded, his eyes narrowing.

‘Well. Oh I don’t know John, I don’t think she would want me to say. Especially if you’re gonna be all Lennon about it.’ George shrugged, trying to squeeze past the older man.

‘Hey now, I care about her just as much as you, I promise I won’t make jokes or tell everyone,’ John protested, ‘I promise.’

George was torn, and if it wasn’t for your muffled sobs coming from the kitchen, he would’ve ignored Johns persuasion tactics and come right back to you. But he felt a little out of his depth, knowing what he knew, and trusted John to protect you as well.

George inched closer to John, his voice dropping to a whisper. ‘She’s in love with Paul. Got ‘erself a bit worked up about it, y’know,’

Johns eyes widened and his face split into a huge grin. ‘This is fantastic!’ He cried, ‘Don’t you see?’

George looked up at John with confusion, immediately regretting his decision to share your secret.

‘John,’ he warned, his voice firm, but it was too late, for John was bouncing to the living area, calling for everybody to join him. George shook his head nervously but began to make his way over.

—

‘Listen Star, you won’t believe this,’ John nearly sang, eyes swimming with mischief and glee.

‘Well what is it?’ The drummer asked, setting down his magazine.

‘John,’ George again warned as he entered the room, ‘Don’t do this…’

Ringo tilted his head like a lost puppy, till John exclaimed, ‘Paul and Y/N are in love!!’

Ringo’s eyes shot open with surprise. ‘Wipe that shit-eating grin off your face Lennon, and tell me whats going on!’ He nearly yelled.

‘I’m telling you Rings! Paul’s infatuated with her! He’s like a teenage boy! You should see the sap he’s been writing, And I’m quite sure she feels the same.’ John insisted eagerly. He was so caught up in his excitement he never noticed you sheepishly enter the room, cheeks red and eyes puffy.

‘You must be joking, it’ll never work!’ Ringo argued.

George hid his face in his hands as you opened your mouth to speak.

‘What won’t work?’ You asked quietly.

‘You and Paul!’ Ringo exploded, and the room descended into silence. You couldn’t believe George would go running straight to Ringo, you should’ve known better. ‘Rings…’ you started.

‘She cant help how she feels,’ John came running to your defence, standing with his back to the door, as Paul ever so casually sauntered into the room, ciggie in mouth. ‘If she’s in love with Paul, she’s in love with Paul!’

‘Lennon!’ George shouted as you squeezed your eyes shut and let a tear slowly escape, Praying and praying for the floor to open up and swallow you. Your throat tightened and you paled, a sick feeling beginning to burn in your stomach like acid.

You didn’t want to know whether his perfect lips had formed into a surprised ‘O’, or if they were pulled up into a smirk, finding the idea of you loving him the funniest thing he’d ever heard.

You felt someone gently place their hand on the small of your back and guide you out of the room and back into the kitchen, where you finally choked out a very audible sob.

‘Georgie I cant belie-’

‘I’m not George,’ a voice whispered, hands gently holding your face, ready to brush away the tears. McCartney, you cursed.

‘Can you please look at me?’ He eased, tilting your chin up. You opened your eyes to be met with his, bright and eager.

‘I can’t believe it. I can’t believe you love me too,’ He smiled, his own eyes welling up as he began to press butterfly kisses along the landscape of your face.

‘You’re everything. Absolutely everything to me. Let me take care of you,’ He breathed out between kisses.

‘I don’t understand…’ you stuttered out, cheeks warmer than ever.

He pulled back to look at you deeply, before taking in a breath to calculate his next move.

‘Listen. I love you. I love you so much. I want you to be mine, snotty nose and all,’ he smiled, as he poked at your nose gently. ‘Thats if you’ll have me.’ He tilted his head to the side and looked at you pleadingly.

You could’ve screamed. You felt like you were on fire. Your skin burned where he was touching you and your heart was thumping against your ribs so hard it could bruise.

‘I’d have you anytime,’ you grinned, as your hands made their way to his dark locks to pull him into you.

Your lips met in a passionate kiss, exploring one another fondly, before a stunted cough interrupted you.

You turned your heads slowly to see the lads. George stood smiling proudly, John, with the biggest cheesy grin known to man, and Ringo, looking stern. But his eyes revealed the truth, and they looked at you lovingly.

‘Listen Y/n, I want more than anything for you to be happy, as long as I’m still your number one, eh’ Your big brother smiled tentatively. You couldn’t believe your luck, the best brother in the world and maybe, just maybe, the best boyfriend?

You looked up at Ringo, your best friend, with all the love in your heart and replied ‘Oh Rings, you’ll always be my number one.’

‘Do you, ehh. Do you mind lads?’ Paul coughed out, His hand resting determinedly on your bum.

‘We just wanted to tell you you’ll make beautiful babies!’ John exclaimed, pretending to wipe tears from his eyes. ‘And I personally wanted to say John is a beautiful name - girl or boy!’ You all rolled your eyes and laughed, apart from Ringo, who balked at the idea. ‘Enough of that!’ He exclaimed. ‘You’ll give me a heart attack!’ He took a step closer to you and Paul, outstretching his hand. ‘But seriously. Take care of her.’

Paul stretched out and they shook hands firmly. ‘I will.’ He promised. Ringo shrugged but couldn’t hide his proud smile. ‘I know.’

The two lads nodded their heads at one another, before Ringo turned to pull George and John out of the room, ‘C’mon lads,’ he said, ‘I don’t want to see what he’s gonna do to my baby sister.’

John let out a childish whine ‘Aw, but I do!’

You snorted, as Paul’s attention returned to you. He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.

‘Where were we?’ He mused, his hands returning to your bum. ‘Let me remind you,’ you whispered seductively, pulling him in for another kiss, one of many to come.