#i just thought they okey :))

[fallenfawnn]

get high with me <3

[wyvernity]

sss day my favorite national holiday WOOOOHHHH

bonus

[luntiian]

i too am having very not best friend thoughts

[taradactylus]

Been off from tumblr a bit but I just wanna share my general thoughts about TSAMS, especially today's episode...

‼️Quick warning for suicide and self harm mention‼️

I feel betrayed. I legit cried. Out of embarassment, betrayal, and pure but well-reserved anger.

I'm not going to be quiet about how to show handled Sun's problem. Not one fucking media type ever dares to normally bring up suicidal problems, the people who suffer from this, the amount of kids and adults who DIE from such thoughts. This isn't about the overly edgy teenagers who want to normalize cutting yourself is okey and cool. This is about the people who suffered for months and years with such conditions while the world made fun of them or ignored their calls for help. Ignored the signs.

USA doesn't have much of a public transport where the show is going on. But here we do. And a lot of trains are late every day. Late for hours because of "mechanical issues". 8 out of 10 times the mechanical issue is a local kid who jumped front of the train. A teenager fed up with life. An adult who lost their way. An ederly too impatient for death.

I have waited months. Months. To see how Sun deals with it. A character I fell in love with not in a romantic sense, a character who shared way too many of my own problems from hallucinations from abuse till betrayal. A character who was pushed and pulled their entire life around people who slapped you then said they love you. I wanted to see how he heals out from it.

The signs were there. Everywhere. Sun said it out loud once that he at least fantasized about death. EVEN OLD MOON KNEW ABOUT THIS! He literally told New Moon Sun would be capable of doing it.

So why... why through Miku, the character used as the "weird fandom girl" symbol do they bring up such a delicate topic? A topic that is not delicate because you have to tip toe around the people who live with self destructive thoughts day and night, but delicate because it matters to be properly heard out AND NO ONE LISTENS!

Not one fucking media listens. A lot of us out there rely on fandoms. Stories we can escape to because the world never listens. And call me a self-projector all you want dear creators or whoever writes the story, but you either just pulled the cheapest and most dumbest way to close off a story line with solving Sun's problems off-screen, or you just legit don't give a fuck about people who "self-projected".

Honestly, what if I did? What if in a sense, I saw myself in Sun? A Sunshine of a character ruined and changed by the things that happened to him. Am I not allowed to relate to him? Am I an annoying "fan-girl" for caring about how he heals because I myself have no idea how to do it either? Or am I like Miku for hoping someone calls out on his behaviour because that's something I've wanted my entire life and never got?

And here I am, still somehow hoping Sun is lying. That he is in denial. That there is more to what was shown... but honestly? How long should I wait and hope while the character I started to like is now becoming a bit too toxic?

And with all due respect, I'm taking this episode personally. The creators watch the fandom. Probably have their secret accounts to see what the people theorize. And if Sun is not lying, and suicide is an annoying topic and we are self-projecting too much onto Sun, with all due respect, dear creators... grow the fuck up and educate yourself.

I don't need the world to pity my ass for having self-harming habits, wishing to die and even attempted suicide before (I'm getting my ass to therapy in the meantime so do not worry about me), but all I want from content creators to fucking educate themselfes before bringing up such topics. TO CARE A BIT MAYBE?!

I have survived my worst times, but not everyone does (it's not about who is weaker or stronger, only utter guilt held me back, without that I'd be long gone), andI want for those who has no help feel like they're heard and seen. Cause literally that's all itt takes sometimes to maybe save someone's life.

So yeah. I'm utterly disappointed in this episode. Not because I want the world to know that I'm suicidal and everyone should tip toe around me and "omg pls give me attention" ect ect ect...

Im disappointed because I had hopes for TSAMS to maybe, maybe be an example and bring this topic up normally for a change. But well... here goes my hope for an educational approach of suicide and self harm in a popular show.

[hugh-lauries-bald-spot]

thinking about the reality of house and wilson actually confessing to one another, in whatever form that takes.

they could fuck on the desk 2 seconds after the confession, but in my mind intimacy would take a long time after that. house seems comfortable liking men, but wilson is another story. in his mind, having sex once doesn't make it real, but initiating it in a domestic setting makes it something more than impulsive. it would take wilson a while to get used to dating house. even cuddling or holding hands would be hard for him to come to terms with. it would mean conceding to the fact he loves a man. he's not ready for an admission like that.

house is a whole other problem though. he wants this all so badly. he's wanted it so badly for decades. he's known he wants it, this isn't some back-of-his-mind subconscious wish, he's been fully aware of it since it began. he can tell wilson isn't ready, but neither of them are going to deny the attraction because they both want to move forward with it. he wants to rush it, he wants to poke fun at wilson for taking it slow, for not knowing sooner, but that could mean alienating him. he's already risked everything by kissing him once, he doesnt want to hurt him with something he himself has struggled with. he could potentially lose something hes craved so strongly that it's eaten him alive for years.

so he isn't going to start anything that doesn't happen naturally, and wilson isn't going to dig his grave of "forbidden desire" any deeper. they're going to need another spur of the moment surge of emotion to get them to the next step.

[keeps-ache]

here i am!!

[separate figure and background below]

[konfizry]

it's not all sunshine and rainbows for me either I'll have you know im in a constant struggle over my online personal branding between the mostly harmless, quirky, omg so chaotic 🤣 funny bunny and this entitled, ultimately miserable and friendless 30 year old who won't stop posting spiteful hot takes literally no one asked for.

just your reminder that we all have our demons even when we might not seem like it from the outside

[tunabesimpin]

I just found out that most of my irl friends thought i was intimidating when they first saw me-

I PROMISE THERE ARE NO THOUGHTS UP THERE!!!!

[whimsicalcotton]

thinking about rachel&kate some more

[astrxealis]

btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!

[lemonlovemeanslove]

my ideal lacho fanfic is nacho killing lalo himself and lalo going what WHAT no wt- dead and then nacho is like OMG OMGG I AHAH I WIN LIKE..I win....i....won.....im...sad :(? da end.

[unnamedsoul]

God I'm so scared no human should be suffering this much (I'm going out with a cute outfit as a personal challenge)

[feline-evil]

Twiddling my thumbs thinking about Vkaz for fun (aka: being sad abt them)...

Like. The man you once loved took everything from you; your home, the future you'd built. You shed blood for him, lost limbs for him, lost years of your life for him. There is a man he also took everything from; his face, his life, his memories. You feel a solidarity in that, a kinship, a closeness. But. He has his face. He has his goddamn face, grafted and stitched together to look just like him. So this man, this one man who you feel the most understanding with looks like the man you now hate the most, the man you broke your heart. How much time does it take for that wound to start to heal, how much time before you can start to get close enough to see the imperfections in his face; see those little differences, too subtle for it to matter but noticeable enough to you, because you know this face through and through. How much time before that face becomes his own to you, instead of his. How many times does he say he's sorry before you tell him he's not him, he's not him he didn't do this; no matter what he says he's not him. He's a phantom, an empty space molded in the shape of him, but he can be something more; he can choose, he can be better than him, his future is his own. How much time before you take his hand and look into his eye and tell him you'll help him find that future. Together.

[akira626]

Why can't I flirt like a normal person. Why am I so awkward???

[mynameisbillandimaheadcase]

🏳️‍⚧️🎉HAPPY 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF ME REALIZING THAT I AM TRANS!!!🎉🏳️‍⚧️

[fallenfawnn]

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