#i just wanna feel “tolerated” but mostly have room for my traits to just be with someone

[weenhands]

i dream about being loved just the way that i am. i think sort of an indifferent boyfriend towards my traits would be the dream

[spencerspecifics]

Badass lady from SWAT coming and Spence always gets nervous about seeing her even though it’s painfully obviously that she feels the same way :) but Spencer is just baby af 🥺

I think this idea is so cute, and I hope I did you justice!! Thank you for requesting, i made it a fem!reader x Spencer fic :)! (So sorry this took forever!)

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SWAT

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You walked into the bureau building tiredly, you were grateful the events of yesterday had somehow wrapped themself up into a neat little bow. But now, you had the aftermath to deal with.

The aftermath of beauacracies, of files and paperwork, of court hearings. Because yesterday was a lot. There was an attempted bombing in downtown Quantico. Key word being attempted, thankfully though- it never happened. And your SWAT team had a big hand in helping.

So yeah, now you were here, meeting up with the BAU- who had lended your team a helping hand in finding where the bomber was located.

~

You entered into the bureau building, making your way up to the BAU’s floor through the elevator. As the machine whirred to life, taking you up to the floor- you were suddenly hit with the fatigue.

You were tired, you had worked nonstop yesterday to prevent a catastrophe, and then when you got home, you couldn’t sleep- who could expect you to? Especially after something like that, your mind was racing. You did eventually get to sleep at around 3 in the morning, but that didn’t help much considering you had to meet with agent Aaron Hotchner at 8 a.m. sharp.

So, fuck. The adrenaline and anxiety of the events had passed, and now you were feeling tired.

It’s not like you could do much about how sleepy you were, though. You had to talk to Hotchner, then you had to speak to their technical analyst to help you input your files into VICAP (SWAT’s computer system wasn’t as fancy as the bureau’s, so you weren’t fully familiar with the system.) but then, maybe after you spoke to the analyst you could get some coffee and go home. That would be nice.

~

The elevator got to your stop, and you stepped out with ease. You hadn’t been in the BAU’s office before, but the layout was simple. Bullpen was straight forward, there was a hallway past that (but you weren’t sure where that exactly led to, you supposed you’d find that answer out when the time came.) and you could see the larger offices past the bullpen, you were guessing that’s where you needed to go.

You entered through the glass doors into the bullpen, there were a few agents sat behind their desks, on phone calls or typing out on their computers- after all, the aftermath was always a lot of work.

~

You didn’t really know anyone in the BAU, except for Aaron Hotchner, Derek Morgan, and one very awkward guy- Doctor Spencer Reid.

You met Spencer a while ago, a few cases back when there was a local robbery turned hostage situation. That’s when your teams first interacted. As a local law enforcement group, you weren’t used to working with the feds- but the BAU was surprisingly tolerable. They let you and the police do what was necessary, all they did was observe and figure things out.

But how they figured things out, you’d never understand. You’d especially never understand Spencer, he would walk into a crime scene and be able to figure out the unsub’s mental state just by how the room was organized. It was surprising, and it was fascinating.

Though, that wasn’t the only reason Spencer especially took your attention when you first met the BAU. The other agents you met were very cut and dry, their personalities were kept mostly separate from their work. Spencer wasn’t like that, his work self and his regular self were one and the same. It was refreshing to see an agent so personable, you found it as a handsome quality.

He was awkward at times as well, which you thought was also an adorable quality. He’d go on to in depth explain a behavioral trait and how that probably meant the unsub was abused as a child or something, and before you knew it the conversation somehow shifted into his favorite medieval weaponry.

So whenever you got the chance to work with the BAU, you embraced it. Mostly because of the cute and awkward doctor, but also because if that meant you could solve a case and arrest a sick son of a bitch, you would.

~

You walked through the bullpen, making your way up the stairs to the larger offices you had seen earlier. You looked for a sign on the door to tell you whose office was whose, and thankfully the first door you saw said in simple lettering “SSA Aaron Hotchner”.

You knocked, hearing agent Hotchner’s voice say a simple “come in”. You opened the door, stepping into his large office.

“Agent Hotchner, good morning.” You said, a polite smile on your face as you made your way to the nearest seat across from his desk, Hotchner rose from his seat to give you a handshake. All these manners and rules were so tiring to do, but you could understand why- especially in such a beauracractic setting. Maybe that’s why you loved being in SWAT, though. There was no time for niceties or manners. You just got to go in, kick ass, and go.

“Good morning, y/n.” He replied as he sat back down into his chair, he reached down to a desk drawer, pulling out a fresh file.

“We just have to recount everything from your point of view, just so the bureau understands what the SWAT’s role was in our investigation.” He spoke as he reached for a nearby audio recorder on his desk, pressing the button on its side to turn it on.

“Sounds good.” You nodded, “Great, I’ll be taking some notes within the file as well. Just start talking.” Hotchner explained simply, before quieting down. You took a breath in before starting to speak, after all- the story was a long one.

~

Once you finished with Hotchner, you decided to wait on going to their technical analyst. After all, they were probably swamped at the moment. So, as you headed out of Hotch’s office, you weren’t sure what to do.

But then, it hit you.

It literally did hit you, and by “it”, it was Spencer. He was walking past Hotchner’s office at the same time you were exiting- you both practically collapsed into each other as the unexpected forces pushed against each other.

“Oh- shit! Sorry.” You apologized almost immediately, trying your best to pull yourself together. You were running on only about four hours of sleep, you were well aware you looked like shit- you were just hoping Spencer couldn’t tell.

“Y/n, I’m sorry- I was on my way to Rossi’s, I didn’t mean to-“ Spencer started, rambling again. And as much as you found it endearing, you didn’t want him to apologize.

“Don’t even worry about it, Spencer- you alright?” You asked him as you stepped back a bit to give him more room. He nodded, you’d swear there was a small blush on his face, but maybe it was the terrible fluorescent lighting off the office that was making it appear that way.

“I’m alright, thank you.” He smiled sheepishly, looking down to adjust the strap on his messenger bag.

“Thanks for your help with yesterday, by the way. I still have no clue how geoprofiling works, but it saved the day.” You complimented him, his sheepish smile only got larger.

“Well, we still couldn’t have done it without your SWAT team. I didn’t go in to stop the bomber- you did. That takes courage.”

Now you felt yourself blushing, maybe it was because you were so sleep deprived. But you had a feeling it might be for another reason as well. You just shrugged, though, doing your best to be casual about it.

“That’s what I train for, all part of a day’s work.”

Spencer nodded, “Still, though. It doesn’t make you any less courageous.”

You broke into a small grin, god- you’ve only spoken to this guy a handful of times. But you really enjoyed talking to him, and he seemed interested in talking to you.

“What are your plans after work?” You found yourself asking, mouth moving too fast for your brain to tell it to shut up in time.

“Uh, I don’t know..” Spencer started, awkwardly fumbling with his hands. “I just had to talk to Rossi, but then after that I’m free to go.”

“You already did all your paperwork?” You asked him curiously, surprised at how fast he could get it done. He nodded simply, “Yes, I didn’t really sleep a lot last night- so I got a head start.”

You frowned slightly, “How much sleep did you end up getting?” Spencer shrugged, “A couple hours.” You nodded silently, before the gears in your mind started turning.

“What do you think about coffee?” You asked him after a beat of silence, Spencer’s face twisted into a confused look.

“The concept of coffee?” He was lost, and it was adorable. You chuckled, “No- I meant, do you wanna get coffee with me after you finish talking to Rossi? I didn’t sleep enough last night either.”

Spencer nodded almost immediately in response, “Yes- yeah. That would be great, I would really enjoy that- you could, um, wait down in the bullpen if you want.” He offered, obviously unsure of what to do now.

You just found that once again, endearing, as you smiled at him kindly. “Sounds good, I’m excited.” You told him, he gave you one last smile before turning to go into Rossi’s office.

With that, you turned to go back to go down to the bullpen, waiting for Doctor Spencer Reid.

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[musesofolive]

Ahh I have been posting a lot today, I’m sure you’re all waiting for me to shut up lol. But not right now! Now that I think of the multi-muse house in my head and how my beloved oc’s are just like living in the place like they’re all roommates, I wanna explore that a lil bit.

Isla:

She is pretty much the closest thing to the mom of the house. She may not be the oldest, but she is the most emotionally and mentally mature for sure. Which, she constantly finds amusing considering Rowan is there and is her older sibling, but I digress! She’s the one who’s got the house set up on a system that works, who’s cleaning what room, who’s getting the dishes, who’s washing the laundry. She settles any disputes that come up in the house that may lead to violence, and she’s always the best shoulder to lean on when you’re not feeling the greatest.

She’s the natural leader of the house and everyone tends to trust her, there’s no one she really dislikes or doesn’t get along with. She gets along well with everyone, but mostly with Ciri and Rowan since she’s known them the longest. She tends to treat Nova like she’s her daughter, is always glad to have Sahar’s level headedness, and does appreciate Riley’s laidback ways.

Ciri:

She definitely keeps things the most lively in the house. She’s an agent of chaos, what can she say? Once she flies into the room, any hope of the atmosphere staying quiet is completely ruined. But she does have a habit for putting people in a good mood...most of the time, when she’s not pranking them or they’re not next to her room where they can constantly hear her singing. She can be more serious and stick to rules if she sees Isla getting overwhelmed though, but that’s really the only scenario where she loses her goofiness.

Isla and Nova are the ones she sticks by the most, with Rowan falling closely behind those two. She knows that they’ll enable her chaos whenever she decides to cause it. Riley is next after that because he’s just so easy to get with pranks, and it’s super funny teasing him, especially when he thinks his flirting is getting him literally anywhere. Sahar she doesn’t stick around too much, she gets the sense that the soldier can’t tolerate too much of her shenanigans and so for Isla’s sake, she leaves her be for the most part. But Sahar does tend to stop by to listen to Ciri’s songs when they’re not too bombastic.

Nova:

I love my girl, and it’s because I love her that I tend to deem her the emotionally wounded teen of the house. She’s not an actual teenager and she doesn’t act like one really, but Nova has been the most emotionally and physically scarred out of all them and has not had the time to heal any of it over yet, like the other roommates. So, she sticks to herself a lot. She used to only come down for meals and stay holed up in her room, but Ciri eventually wouldn’t have any of that and dragged her out from time to time. That came to the agreement that Nova will spend time with some of them outside of meals so long as Ciri stops busting her door down and dragging her by the arm. But for the most part she just follows the rules set and keeps her head down.

Ciri is the one she hangs around most, not entirely by choice, but she is the one she’s most familiar with so it’s better than a stranger in her opinion. After that is the Comerde siblings. Isla is very comforting, warm and treats her nicely. And she helps in such subtle ways so that Nova doesn’t have to feel embarrassed for asking for help. So when it comes to who she likes Isla actually sorta takes the cake. As for Rowan, they’re quiet and don’t usually ask too many questions. So, when Ciri and the others get way too overbearing, she rolls up to their room and just vibes with them while they read or do work, it’s a very mutually beneficial thing. Sahar’s not too far behind, she’s a bit too intense sometimes for Nova to vibe with her properly like she does with Rowan, but she’s helpful in getting her anger out, and helps her get better at self defense which makes her feel safer and less like she needs to lash out constantly. And then there’s...Riley. She does not like Riley. A. He’s a human man. B. She knows all the charm and flirting is just a facade, and she hates it. She doesn’t like people being fake with her, because then it reminds her of Dorian and makes her wonder what they’re really hiding. Also he’s way too touchy for her liking. Everything about him just rubs her the wrong way so she tends to stay away from him, and if she can’t, then those two are going to get into a fight.

Rowan:

They are simultaneously one of the chillest and one of the strictest in the house. Which makes no sense, but it’s true. Like, no, go ahead, do whatever you want, as long as you’re not bothering them, they really don’t care. But also, if they catch you not doing your chores or not following the rules, they will harp on you subtley like no tomorrow. They helped design the system set up actually, and they tend to supervise how it goes, suggesting different things to try to Isla when they notice something that can be improved. They sorta tried to take over as leader of the house since they believed they could run it better...yeah that lasted about a week before they handed that title back to Isla with a shake of their head. This group is nothing like their tribe, they just can’t. So, instead they’re like Isla’s left hand, enforcing the rules and keeping the peace from the shadows...but also not, because they are an enabler of chaos at their core. Not an agent, but if someone is looking to fix up some good natured mischief, they will gladly help and sit back and watch it all unfold. But usually they’re either in their room or in the library, working on papers for the trading business to send back to their father.

The Skywings are the two they get along with best, but for different reasons. Ciri creates glorious chaos while still following the rules, and they find that absolutely immaculate as they do whatever they feel like to help her. Nova is quiet and precisely what they need when they get into one of their “I’m surrounded by idiots” moods. Isla comes next, there are worse people, and she is still family. When they’re homesick they spend more time than usual with her, just to be reminded that there is still a piece of home with them. Sahar and Riley come afterwards. Not that they really dislike anyone here, if they don’t like them, then they have a neutral disposition at most. Sahar is just neutral territory because they’re very alike in some aspects, but she also shares some of Torin’s traits. It’s like an amalgamation of them and they find it interesting. And Riley is also someone who causes mischief, which they like, but also, they just...cannot deal with the flirtiness. Like at all, it flusters them way too much. If they are with Riley, it has to be in a group setting because otherwise they’ll just be blushing like no tomorrow at Riley’s endless flirting and charm.

Sahar:

If Isla’s the designated mom, Sahar is oddly enough sort of like the dad. She respects Isla and her desicions greatly, and enforces them more directly than Rowan does. She is Isla’s right hand woman for sure. She makes sure everyone is safe physically since that’s her better strong suit as a guard/soldier, she lets Isla handle the emotional aspects. She’s also the one to break up any fights physically, she’s tall and strong, it’s what she’s good at. She usually spends time in the training room, especially when she’s worked up, but honestly she makes her rounds to just about every room in that house that isn’t someone’s bedroom. She likes knowing the layout.

She prefers Isla’s company more than anyone else’s. The elf is just one of the few she doesn’t have to be all soldier-face with (and Isla is 100% teaching her how to dance. Sahar wasn’t convinced she’d be any good at it, but Isla’s proving her wrong.) and genuinely feels like she can be relaxed around. They respect Rowan’s professionalism and regards for the rules, even if they do let mischief happen. She feels both pity and admiration for Nova, she has clearly gone through things that would probably kill weaker people. And she wants to let her know that her battle is over, there’s no more need to keep fighting and it’s time to heal. But, words aren’t always her strong suit, so she tries to express that with how she spends her time with the young elf. She finds Ciri annoying and troublesome, but in a good way, if that makes sense. She’s like both a pesky hummingbird that keeps flitting around her face, but also reminds her of her brothers so she doesn’t mind it. So, she tolerates the Skywing so long as she doesn’t get herself into too much trouble. She tolerates Riley the least. They’re just two very different people. Sahar is about upholding the law and protecting others and being selfless, Riley is a con man who is selfish and literally only thinks about himself. Plus he’s committed crimes in her very country. Safe to say, opposites do not attract this time around. She’s much more no-nonsense with him than anyone else.

Riley:

I feel so bad but this one just like...gets picked on mercilessly. He is constantly bullied in this household, but not in a way that’s genuinely like upsetting just, teased a lot so that he can learn and get character development. And I promise the others aren’t treating him too badly and Isla always steps in if she feels everyone needs to lay off. That woman is basically Riley’s saving grace because she’s the only one who doesn’t pick on him. Not to say others don’t enjoy his presence on occasion, he didn’t learn his people skills for nothing after all, he’s usually one of the bigger talkers at the table and keeps the atmosphere nice and light. Either with his skills, or by being the comic relief. He’s starting to get fond of libraries all things considered, so he does find himself there often. And if he’s not there, he’s usually in the game room fiddling with some pool or playing cards. If he can rope the others into joining him, he’ll play some poker or just generally a game or two. And the bar, that man loves his alcohol.

Isla and Rowan are at the top of his list. Isla, for being the motherly saint she is and constantly getting the others to stop bullying him, plus she’s the only one who can in all actuality, handle him. She plays along with his games without ever actually losing, and she never gets boring to talk to. Which surprised him, because she’s one of the most sentimental, family-oriented people he knows. He didn’t think he’d ever get along with someone like her, but she’s just that inviting. And then there’s Rowan, again another family-oriented type. But he knows he started liking them because they fluster so easily at his flirting. He does love to get under people’s skin and tease them. Plus, for as family-oriented as they seem to be, they care in a very sensible way. And when he’s at the bar, usually drunk, he wonders if he could have ever been like them had he been with a proper family. He doesn’t really dislike Sahar, so much as he is just...frightened of her. Like, every time she looks at him, he can just tell she’s imagining putting his head on a pike or something. He’s very happy there’s a no fighting truce in that house, otherwise he’d have fled that house so fast to avoid getting either murdered or brought to jail for so many years by her. And Ciri and Nova are tied for the ones he dislikes the most. Ciri’s got an annoying habit of pranking him, and it sucks because nothing he ever does seem to get under her skin, he’s tried everything. But there’s nothing that does the trick, but she gets under his skin so easily and it drives him crazy. He only approves of her mischief from afar, and he hates that she constantly makes up little tunes that mock him. And then there’s Nova, and he was a little surprised. He didn’t think he’d ever end up liking her, sure, but like the animosity she shows him for literally no reason just astounds him. There’s nothing he can do to rectify it either. Everytime he tries it just gets worse, and he hates working with people he can’t control at least a little. That, and I mean, the guy is 40, she’s 25, the difference in mentality just makes them even less likely to enjoy the other’s presence. He’s constantly saying “who do you think you’re talking to, little girl? Hasn’t anyone told you to respect your elders?” To which she always snaps back “I’m an elf, you crusty bag of bones! Just because I look younger than you, doesn’t mean I am! And there’s hardly anything to respect from someone who’s an outlaw in every nation they can hide in!” Like just...keep them away from each other. The insults are funny at first, but it’s not long before someone makes a move to attack or say words that are going to cut too deep.

[griffblack]

(fionn whitehead, twenty-two, cismale, shapeshifter) Blimey! Is that (GRUFFUDD ‘GRIFF’ BLACK)? (HE/HIM) is/are the (RIGGER) on the Cursed Serpent and has been onboard the ship for (FOUR YEARS). Legend has it they are (TRUSTWORTHY & HARDWORKING), but don’t get on their bad side, because I hear they’re (APATHETIC & SLY). Aye! Stop staring! (GRIFF) has their (DIRK) out! (ooc: roman, gmt, 23, they/them, triggers: trypophobia)

Potential triggers for below the readmore: abuse, religion

QUICK FACTS

Full Name: Gruffudd Rhys Black Nickname(s): Griff Age: 22 Birthday: June 5th Zodiac: Gemini Birthplace: Betws-y-Coed, Caernarfonshire, Wales Languages: Welsh, English Gender: Cismale (He/Him) Sexuality: Homosexual, closeted edition Relationship Status: Single

APPEARANCE

Hair: Dark brown Eyes: Hazel Height: 5′8′’ Tattoos: May or may not have a dragon tattoo on his butt. Piercings: Ears Scars: Lash marks on his back from being whipped with a belt, a small one on his right cheekbone

PERSONALITY

Myers-Briggs: INTJ Alignment: Lawful Neutral Best trait: Loyal Worst trait: Secretive

FAMILY

Parents: Bran Sayer Rhys Black, Jordana Black (née Evans) Siblings: Bethan Black, Sioned Black Family Relationship: They don’t talk, it’s as simple as that. Griff is the eldest, he was the absolute pride and joy of his parents until they realised he could shape shift. His mother branded him a demon, tried to beat the devil out of him, when that didn’t work she stopped acknowledging him. His father tolerated him, at times even seemed fond of him, but as soon as Griff’s sisters were born they used them as an excuse to ignore Griff completely. When he ran away, he left a note detailing his plan to go out to sea. Nobody came looking for him and he doubts they’ll ever meet again.

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ABOUT

What little people know about Griff is that he grew up in the heart of the countryside in North Wales. Anyone who’s ever ventured there knows it’s all hills, streams, and forest. He was always a good climber, stronger than he looked, quick with knots and quicker with a knife. He popped up on random ships and took whatever job he was given, mostly runt work that involved picking up after the rest of the crew. He was young and seemed to appear out of nowhere, but he assured everyone he ever worked for that nobody would miss him and nobody came looking for him.

Griff had a reputation before he was a part of The Cursed Serpent’s crew. He was a shadow that kept out of the way but his absence was noticed, especially as he aged and gained more experience, earning more important roles. He eventually got too big for keeping out of the way below decks, only coming out when something needed to be cleaned or they needed someone small to get into a spot nobody else could reach.

It was Bradway that put him to work on the rigs, challenging Griff to work hard and pushing him until he thought he might snap. Griff was quiet and generally polite but he had an ego, it was obvious any time someone new came aboard and his new role gave him enough purpose that he was put in his place. He’s proud of his role and passionate about his work.

Griff never thought much about the sea but now he thinks about it a lot. He thinks about how nobody knows where it ends or what lives at the bottom of it. When he’s on the deck and looks between the sea and the sky, he feels like he’s floating between them. It would only ever take something like going overboard to make Griff as introspective as this and even though it’s been a year, he can’t forget it.

It wasn’t the worst storm they’d ever been in but the winds were strong and Griff couldn’t keep control of the sails. He doesn’t remember the whole ordeal; he remembers one moment he was on deck and the next his mouth and lungs are full of salt water. There was no North or South, there was water roaring in his ears and the rope around his ankle, the single thing keeping Griff from being flung out to sea. I am going to drown was the only thought in his head but it was enough to kick him into gear, to get him to thrash around in the water until he got a hold of the rope with his hands to drag himself back above water. Then he was back on deck again, rope splinters in his hands and coughing up water by the gallon. When he wakes up in the middle of the night, he can still feel the burning in his throat.

Since that day, Griff has been paranoid. It isn’t like him to worry about what the rest of the crew think of him but he does now. He works harder like he has to prove to them and himself that he isn’t afraid of it happening again, even though every time he climbs up to the crow’s nest his heart beats so quickly he thinks it’s going to explode. So he makes an effort with the others, going out of his way to be sociable and helpful, laughing off the events of the previous year and hoping that even if he can’t forget it, they will.

There is much room to think about anything since Bradway died. All captains are replaceable, even Bradway, but even now it feels like there’s time and space empty without him. Griff feels his absence, sometimes he looks around and waits for Bradway to appear, to nod at him and tell him to get back to work; the sails aren’t going to tie themselves.

SECRET

Gruffudd was the name he was given by his father; his mother called him Demon. There are tiny snippets of memory, Griff sittin in the garden and wandering off towards the forest over the back fence. Too small to climb it and too big to crawl underneath, then things get a bit dizzy and suddenly the air smells different, he’s taller, heavier and uglier. He didn’t know it then but years later, when he met another boy with the same talent, he was more of an oddball than he’d originally imagined. “Who else can you do?” The boy asked. Who else? Griff didn’t know he could change into more than one person. But he tried, he thought really, really hard about someone else he wanted to be. But no matter how hard he thought about turning into his sister, the milkman, the farmer over the hill, there was only ever one thing he could turn into: a man that scared him and seemed eerily familiar. 

KEY RELATIONSHIPS

SHAPESHIFTING HELPER FRIEND - So Griff isn’t a very good shapeshifter: he can only turn into one person. But he wants to be better at it, he wants to stop feeling like there’s something wrong with him. This individual, also a shapeshifter, is trying to help. They are, however, sworn to secrecy. Griff doesn’t want to admit it but he’s embarrassed, so if he could somehow learn to shift into someone else, he would greatly appreciate it.

NIGHT OWLS - Griff doesn’t sleep so well these days, he often finds himself awake and about at the same times as this individual. They don’t have to be close, but they value each other’s company to pass the time; playing card games, chatting about meaningless things, just sitting quietly until the sun comes up. 

(I’ll update this and add more on my wanted connections page!)

ANYTHING ELSE

He’s got some unresolved stuff about shapeshifting which is preventing him from getting better at it. His mum was VERY against shapeshifting, she saw it as demonic and treated Griff horrifically for it. 

The person he can shift into is an older man that looks like this. Griff doesn’t know it but this man, Bran Sayer, is a pirate and also his biological father, who he only met once when he was too young to remember his properly. It would be cool if he could find out about this one day, however this would only happen if they came into contact with each other again.

He also has some unresolved things about the time he went overboard. I wanna get him back in the water at some point so he has to confront it head-on. Until then, he does not have good feelings about the ocean.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Fic, Fake Smiles

Got a request for a fic where Roman puts a specific spell on Anxiety. They had a very specific idea on what the spell would be. Read to find out if you haven’t seen that ask. Normally when I write magic, it’s witch Anxiety doing the thing, but sorcerer Prince works too. Oh, yes.

Tip Jar

Warnings: Non consensual change of behavior. 1,597 words.

Abstract: Roman thinks he can “fix” something about Anxiety.

Anxiety is not happy. That’s just how he is. Patton is happiness. Roman is hopefulness and confidence. That wasn’t his job. He didn’t need to be happy or positive. That wasn’t his job.

Roman didn’t understand that. Not in the slightest. One day during a brainstorming session an idea clicked in his head.

Magic. Of course, it’s so simple. If he could force a change, maybe the problem would go away. He decided to consult with Logan.

“Well,” Logan said after considering for a moment, “I doubt that it would actually cause a change in Thomas’ thinking, but it is worth a shot. The mind can have quite an effect on itself. Placebo effect and all that,”

“Excellent,” Roman said deviously. “then it shall be done immediately,”

Anxiety was talking to Patton, trying to talk him out of something. However, he quickly forgot what he was saying when Patton looked confused at something happening behind him.

Anxiety turned around to see Roman chanting something with his eyes closed. A white glittery fog was beginning to swirl at Anxiety’s feet. He tried to move, but it wouldn’t let him. In a matter of seconds, he was engulfed by the spell and the brightness of it hurt his eyes.

He began to think about yelling, but then he didn’t. A fake feeling of calm overcame his body as his mind remained frantic. It was terrifying. It wasn’t right. His face relaxed against his will. A calm feeling mixed with the panic in a confusing way. What was this?

When the fog cleared, Roman and Logan waited expectantly. Morality looked mildly concerned. What they saw was Anxiety standing there with a mostly blank expression on his face.

Slowly, the emo trait looked up and a warm smile appeared on his face. It wasn’t like the rest of them. It was toothy and full of unspoken laughter. However, there was something, something off about it. Something off about the new twinkle in his eye.

“Roman and Logan. Hey, when did you get here?” Anxiety asked, like they were long lost friends.

“Oh, it worked!” Roman said.

“Now Roman, we don’t know that yet,” Logan said trying to hide his amusement.

“Anxiety, are you okay?” Patton asked.

“What? Oh yeah dad, I’m fine. Did you change your mind yet?”

“Uh, no kiddo. I still want to do it,” Patton said, unsure.

“Oh, well that’s okay!” Anxiety said, smiling warmly. “I get that. I’m going home. Bye guys!” He called out.

Anxiety sunk out of the suburban house. Patton slowly turned to roman and gave him the serious dad look.

“Roman, what did you do to him?” Patton asked sternly.

“I fixed him,” Roman announced. “I made him a positive thing and perhaps now he will not harm us as much,”

“I believed it was worth a try. The mind can do wonders on its own at times and he does tend to be quite negative,” Logic added.

“But that’s not who he is,” Patton said. “Pretending to be something you’re not isn’t healthy,” He insisted.

“Nonsense. This shall be wonderful,” Roman insisted.

Later, Roman went to visit Anxiety and see the fruits of his labor. Thomas hadn’t been any less anxious than usual and he was beginning to wonder if the spell had worn off.

Anxiety’s hallways looked as dark as ever. However, when Roman opened the emo trait’s bedroom door, things did not look normal.

The room was clean from top to bottom. The usual mess of negative memory papers in the corner had been neatly stacked and organized. The walls had no stains and it looked as if a fresh coat of black paint had been put on them. Anxiety was happily organizing his bookshelf and arranging a bouquet of black and white roses on the shelf.

“Oh, hi Roman! What brings you here, man? What’s up?” Anxiety asked, rubbing the dust off of his hands.

“Well, I wanted to see how you were getting on with your new attitude,” Roman said. “Are those flowers?”

“Yes they are. Here, have one,” Anxiety said, holding out a white one. “It goes with your shirt,”

“Okay,” Roman said, stifling a laugh. “Well, I’ll leave you to your organizing then,”

“Sure thing buddy,” Anxiety said, returning to his bookshelf.

Roman teleported back to his castle grinning widely. He liked this new Anxiety.

Anxiety still didn’t know why he was acting like this. It didn’t feel right. His face hurt. It was like he was trapped in his own body, and yet he was making the decisions. It was very confusing. He smiled happily at the roses he was arranging on his desk as an angry tear fell out of one eye and made a black trail down his face.

After about a day of nothing happening, Patton decided to pay Anxiety a visit.

Before Patton could even knock on the door it flew open.

“Hey Patton! What brings you here?” Anxiety asked affectionately.

Morality studied Anxiety carefully. That smile looked slightly more strained than it had yesterday. There was something off-putting about how he didn’t hesitate to make eye contact and stand up straight.

“Are you okay, bud?” Morality asked.

“Well, duh. Why don’t you come in?” Anxiety asked.

Patton walked into the room. It was so clean and crisp there was no proof actual living. The covers on the bed were tucked in and neat. Not a speck of dust was to be found. Vases were around the room with various black and white flowers in them. It was beautiful, but somehow it didn’t seem right.

“Kiddo, I didn’t know you liked flowers,” Morality said, trying to stay cheerful.

“Ah well, I know you’ve got a bad memory but that’s okay,” Anxiety said.

He went to a little pot in the corner that had some rosemary blooming in it. Instead of purple, the flowers were stark white. He plucked off a couple of flowers and happily pressed them into Morality’s hand.

“Here. If you eat these they can help. That’s what I’ve heard at least,” Anxiety said.

Patton carefully pocketed the flowers. “Uh, thanks kiddo. I’ll think about it. But really I wanna know if you’re okay. Roman kind of didn’t ask for consent, and I don’t think that’s right. And it’s my job to know right and wrong, so…”

“Patton, dude, you’re worrying for no reason. I’m fine like this. I’m fine,”

Anxiety’s face was ever so slightly strained. A tear ran down his cheek and he seemed to not notice.

“Don’t worry, Anxiety. I’m going to fix this. Just hang tight,” Patton said.

He gave Anxiety a quick hug and then ran off. Anxiety yelled after him “Have an awesome day, dad!”

Patton appeared in Prince’s castle and found him reading.

“Roman, you change Anxiety back this instant,” Patton said, pointing downwards to emphasize his point.

“I don’t think so,” Roman said. “Even though he still has a negative influence he has become far more tolerable. Wouldn’t you agree?”

Patton’s face became dangerously serious. “He is not himself. You are literally torturing him. Anxiety and I have been trying to tell you for how long now? I’ll say it again, Princey. You can’t think though everything,”

“I like that he is not himself,” Roman insisted.

“Lying is wrong, Roman,” Patton said.

“It is entertaining! He is putting flowers everywhere and being so positive. It is hilarious,”

Patton grabbed Roman by the wrist and dragged him out. Despite Roman’s efforts to twist away, he was forcibly dragged along.

Once in Anxiety’s area, they saw the walls had become unstable. They couldn’t focus on any of them. They seemed to wave dangerously. When this happened it was usually a good idea to take cover.

They walked into Anxiety’s room without knocking. Anxiety was playing a video game, but paused it when he saw the other two walk in.

“Hey guys!” He said warmly.

“How are ya doing, kiddo?” Patton asked sympathetically.

“Well, my face hurts a little, but other than that, everything is great,” Anxiety said, beaming.

There was that strain again. That little look of pain and fear in his eyes.

“Roman,” Patton said, “he’s hurting. Please change him back. This changes nothing. Please Princey, do heroes let others suffer needlessly?”

“He is the villain. It is not needless,” Prince insisted.

“Now,” Patton said.

Roman sighed and snapped his fingers. A white mist slowly came out of Anxiety’s every pore and the dissipated.

Anxiety fell forward and caught himself on his bookshelf like he had just run a marathon. The horrifying forced positivity was gone. It was gone. He was back.

“I’m back,” He whispered. “Oh my God,”

“Yeah, you’re back,” Roman grumbled.

“You moron!” Anxiety yelled.

He looked up. It was obvious he was holding back even more anger.

Patton smiled. “Well, it’s good to have you back,” he said, reassuringly.

Anxiety looked at him hard. “Obviously not. You wanted me to be different, didn’t you? Well I never stopped. Get out of my room,”

The look on his face was so dangerous even Patton didn’t hesitate to leave.

Anxiety yanked the covers off his bed and then buried himself in them. The linen was horridly clean and fresh. He pulled it closer to himself to block out the competing smells of flowers around him. It still lingered like a bad taste in his mouth. He hadn’t been himself, and yet he had. He had never been happy. It was two days of fake smiles and forced behavior.

Why? Why did Roman ever think that would be a good idea?

Part 2

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50 More interesting questions

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

I was tagged by @praxid!

1. What kind of food can’t you stand?: I’m sort of picky about texture. Not big on things that are sort of gelatinous - so no jello for me. I’m also not big tropical fruit person so I don’t like pineapple or most melons.

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick?: Brushing my hair. It mats up while in a braided bun as I sleep. It takes hours to brush out. 

3. Have you got any useless talents?: I don’t have any talents really.

4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be?: Film/photography/writing.

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: Melissa McBride, Sonequa Martin-Green, Andrew-Lee Potts, Kit Harrington, Karen Gillan, David Tennant, Scarlett Johansson, Jamie N Commons, Danai Gurirra, Donald Glover, Milla Jovovich, Tatiana Maslany, I should top. I find lots of people pretty. 

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid?: Reading, interneting, hitting my brother with sticks and getting hit back.

7. What is something you’re proud of?: I decided I wasn’t going to let another student film festival go uncaptioned at my college. I was the only one who captioned every film and I don’t think anyone has captioned the film festivals since, but I know that there were a few students that were able to attend the festival I did because they felt welcome for once. Fuck the kids who bitched about the captioning, it wasn’t for you.

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate?: Lying. For fuck’s sake just tell the truth. Also, don’t be cruel or intolerant of people’s differences or differences of opinion. Fuck you, there’s room for everyone and everyone’s thoughts. 

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower?:  I’m a leader when I feel I must be - if absolutely no one else will step up, but I much prefer being a follower.

10. What kind of student are/were you?: I worked harder than anyone else to achieve mediocre status. 

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life?: I told someone I liked a wristband/sweatband they were wearing and we became fast friends. I picked a school based on school colors. I followed my roommate to an ASL club meeting because she wanted me to get out of the dorm. I got a tumblr hahah. Honestly though the people I’ve met on tumblr have saved me so thank you.

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion: Eyes - I don’t like eye drops, people touching their eyes, eye things happening in movies. I don’t like spiders. I’m still a little afraid of the dark. 

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable?: Tim Wright,  Jay Merrick, Clint Barton, Abby Maitland, Connor Temple, VERONICA MARS, Jessica Jones, 

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties?: I get the munchies. And giggly. And sleepy. And I desire Left 4 Dead. Its my drunk video game. 

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone?: I fall in love with concepts. I fall in love with characters. I fall in love with every dog I meet. But I’ve never had the opportunity to fall in love with a person. I love my friends, but I think that’s a different question? 

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends?: One close friend.

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak?: I’m a neat-freak who has given up. Dog hair will never be eradicated. I don’t have the energy to clean the way I want. My mind is too chaotic and I need clutter around me or I feel uncomfortable. Weirdly enough I was watching a documentary on Carrie Fisher and her mother, and I saw Carrie’s house and went “that’s me!” It seemed that her house was that way because of her bipolar status. I’m not bipolar but I do have major crippling anxiety and I think I clutter and throw art and things all over the walls as some sort of comforting mechanism. I’m unable to decorate like Adults do - I can’t do minimalism. It stresses me out. 

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: Pacific northwest. Woods near a big lake or the ocean. Older farmhouse with brick and reclaimed wood. I have a room decorated in my usual chaos. There’s a bay window big enough for me and Ruby to both be on it at the same time. Its raining and the fall leaves are piled on the ground. I have candles and incense burning. Good music. Maybe a friend sitting on the computer next to me. There’s coffee and marionberry pie. Its october and everything is foggy and spooky and gentle and calm. Its probably sunday.

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday?: I don’t have any human kids. I like them, I think they’re funny. I’d want some if I was confident in my ability to care for them and raise them right and take care of them in all the ways they deserve.

20. What was your favorite book as a child? Harry Potter. To find something that not everyone else my age would say....Everything’s Eventual?

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: Undertale. Its fine but I can’t get into it in the way everyone else does. 

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: Films on YouTube by indie filmmakers.

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose?: Andrew-Lee Potts during the early days of Keychain Productions. Blood On Benefits made me want to make films, and I think spending a month with him working on all those short films would have made me actually live my dream rather than giving up on it. 

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday?: I want to make films. I want to write an original story. Maybe make a video game? I want to make something. Do some crafting. Meet someone and actually date them. I’d like to have a kiss at some point, to see what that’s like. Have friends that live nearby that I can see frequently. 

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat?: No! Opinions are dangerous and people don’t like having friends that have different opinions than them, and I’d never have friends because I either don’t share the same opinions or I don’t feel strongly about my opinions. I’m very open to having people change my opinions. I’m not married to them. Please change my mind, I like thinking about things in a new way. But I am not going to share my opinions because it just causes so many fights among people - I just don’t feel safe doing it. 

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in?: I’m sure it was fashion related but honestly I don’t care to think too hard about it. 

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for?: Only doing eyeliner on my bottom lids?

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable?: True empathy. The ability to have practical skills that help people. 

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.): Hmmm....nerdy things? I mostly get gifts from Tumblr friends because we share fandoms so while the fandoms vary its usually homemade things based on our favorite things. And bless you all for it too - As my mom could tell you I beam for weeks upon receiving your guys gifts! I wish I could repay the kindness!

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones?: I can do some really basic ASL. I used to do some basic spanish but that was many many years ago and I don’t think it would come back easily.

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside?: Woods, middle of. I need my million dogs and my lots of land and fresh air. 

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving?: the MCU lol

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else?: Being the center of attention gives me anxiety.

34. Favorite holiday?: SPOOKY SCARY

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously?: My anxiety demands I have plans. Now, those plans are allowed to change, but I need to start with plans. 

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.): No.

37. What hobbies do you have?: Internet. Fanfiction writing (hahahahahaha). Photography. When my hand heals I wanna do leatherworking.

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have?: I just want to know what my dog is thinking. So a superpower that lets me know what dogs are thinking/saying?

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: Could someone answer this for me? Because I don’t think anyone’s ever given me feedback on this one. 

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: That I needed to do something about my anxiety. It gave me so many health problems and kept me from living my life. 

41. Worst injury you’ve had?: I’ve slammed my head against giant rocks. Hurt my knee in volleyball.

42. Any morbid fascinations?: Weirdly enough, not really! Post-nuclear apocalypses maybe? http://althistory.wikia.com/wiki/1983:_Doomsday was something I spent weeks immersed in to the detriment of my mental health.

43. Describe your sense of humor: Sarcastic, bitter, shitty puns? 

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose?: 80s? Goth scene, I could have seen Depeche Mode and The Cure in their prime. 

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at: life

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: Being a shitty friend. Now I know how to not be that shitty?

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.): Gimme that face tattoo.

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?: I like to think pessimistically so that if its true I’m not surprised but if it turns out better I can be pleasantly surprised!

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you?: That they genuinely loved me and that I made a difference in their life. 

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: I don’t know........ How bone achingly lonely I am? Maybe someone can help me out on this one too. I don’t know if anyone really “understands” me - I don’t communicate my mindset well. 

I’m tagging: @gallifreystands @the44thpilot @autumnxtoxashes @ms-fagerstrom @marionarnold

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50 questions about me

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

Tagged by @shadyraisincookie

1. What kind of food can’t you stand? Spicy food, it’s rlly bad for me

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick? There are so many things i don’t even know where to start…

3. Have you got any useless talents? I know how to roll my tongue into a 3 leaf clover

4. If you were really really good at one thing, what would it be? Knowing ppl’s true feelings/ thoughts (I’m so DENSE when it comes to ppl’s true thoughts/ feelings, if they don’t tell me what they feel/think or show it explicitly i’ll never know)

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: Ian Somerhalder, Tommy Karevik, Jared Leto (it’s a big list so i’ll stop here)

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid? Reading books (i get so lazy to do it nowadays)

7. What is something you’re proud of? I can summarize rlly long things and i can develop rlly big stories from one phrase

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate? Ppl who hide their true personalities

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower? It rlly depends on the situation I’m in, sometimes i like to be the leader, but if there’s someone who’s way better than me to do it then i don’t mind staying as a follower

10. What kind of student are/were you? I’m the kind of student who doesn’t study and gets good grades (if it’s maths though, i’ll have to cram the day before if i want to pass)

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life? Starting to watch subbed movies (i mean, my english was always good, but it improved a lot when i started to watch them in their original language)

12. Name your most irrational fear/ aversion: Losing a member of my family (i get so paranoid about it, you have no idea)

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable? I always get related to so many characters, it’s rlly hard to mention a specific one

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties? I don’t like to drink and i’m the kind of person who sits with my cellphone till the party’s over (i’m not a sociable person soo…)

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone? I develop some kind of interest, but to rlly come to love someone other than my family takes at least a year or 2

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends? I think i already have both?

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak? When it’s my own room i’m kind of a slob, but if i’m in a school trip i’ll probably be the neatest in the whole school

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: Any house in a state called Teresópolis (It’s in Rio de Janeiro), every house there is so CUTE, idk why but I feel so cozy just by looking at them

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday? I want to have kids someday

20. What was your favorite book as a child? It was (and still is) ‘’The Lord of the Rings’‘

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: Fidget spinners, they’re like meh

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: The Versus Song ‘’Die is Cast’’, it’s so AWESOME but not many ppl know it

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose? I wouldn’t choose anyone, i don’t like meeting new ppl so much, so being glued to her for 1 month is impossible (but when i get to know the person, i get very flexible)

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday: Go to Japan! 

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat? i don’t generally hold back, so I speak my mind without being afraid of what ppl will think

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in? Getting overly excited to see that my favorite manga ‘’Devils Line’’ was being translated again (I cried out of happiness… i know it’s too much, but it’s such a great manga and it had so few chapters translated, i thought i’d never read it again, but then a miracle happened, i thank God every day for it)

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for? Speaking rlly formally and using difficult words when i was 7 years old (i had to stop cuz ppl didn’t understand me well…)

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable? Ppl who admit their mistakes and are willing to fix them

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? I can’t think of anything…

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones? In order of fluency: portuguese, english and still learning hebrew and japanese (i don’ wanna brag, but what can i do if it’s true?)

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside? I can’t choose, i like both!

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving? Starting my high school in Israel. I thought everyone would hate me in there and it would be awful, but the girls in my school are so nice, the mood is light and everyone gets along well, i rlly like it

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else? I don’t like being in the center, i get too nervous if everyone suddenly starts noticing me

34. Favorite holiday? Hanukkah (not joking, i’m jew)

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously? If it’s on a competition or a risky situation, i do my best so nothing goes wrong, but most of the times i just go like ‘’que será, será’’ (what will be, will be)

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? Going to Disneyland

37. What hobbies do you have? Mostly drawing, singing and analizing situations (like pretending to be a detective haha)

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have? I’d want to be able to fly, it would be super useful

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: That i get rlly scary when i’m angry bcz i’m cute and it doesn’t seem like i’d explode so easily (altough depending on the situation i cool down rlly fast)

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: Finding out the order of the DL games (I was rlly struggling to know it back then, but now i feel dumb about it…)

41. Worst injury you’ve had? When i was 8 i crashed my bike in the corner of a pillar in my playground and i opened a medium ‘’V’’ scar in my left knee (i screamed so loud it seemed like the world had stopped) and it hurt so much, my parents got rlly worried (although it hurt more when the doc put the anesthesia than when he sewed it…)

42. Any morbid fascinations? Any horror movies/ games (specially Corpse Party or The Evil Within)

43. Describe your sense of humor: It’s one of the traits ppl know me for, so  it’s very good 

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? I’m fine with this era, thank you very much

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at: Always judging ppl for bad

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: That misunderstanding that happened about my HDB translation posts, but we always have something to learn from everything that happens

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? I don’t like tattoos, so neither of them

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist? I’m more of a realist, but between those 2 i’d say pessimist

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you? That I’m as smart as Kira haha

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: Ppl think I’m like Ayato, but in reality i’m a Reiji at heart

My tag goes to @vampiretsuki. That’s it guys! Hope you found it interesting! See ya~!