New Years
and here we find ourselves fast approaching another years end but also a new beginning.
at least that what it should be
should feel like
but as
fate
would have it I once again find myself not seeing much to look back fondly on and even less to embrace the newness of the future towards.
as unoriginal as it feels I am woefully, tremendously, deeply, and secretly so very worried about this next year.
I don’t need it to feel as oppressively imposing as it
but it …..does.
another birthday awaits me next year and it’s the birthday everything changes.
A crossing of the threshold of life and while I have battled and won against the fear of age the beauty industry insists and tirelessly tries to poison me with
I have not defeated the social contract.
The expectations.
The dreams and hopes
that by —— I’d have something to show for it.
1. A savings account
2. A 401k
3. A home
4. A stable income
5. practical and commendable life skills
I have none of that and each new years I enter jt feels less and less appropriate
and even less like anyone cares.
Perhaps however I simply need to grow up.
Stiff upper lip and stop whining.
All the horrific catch phases meant to tell a fellow struggling human “ get with the program.”
…….and if the program has ….exhausted me?
has left me behind, insulted me , wore me to bone , corrupted my mind and frozen my heart….and my ability to offer geace to the one person who needs it most……
myself.
what then?
The year is fast approaching and I am once again staring it down bubbles in hand , confetti at the ready and heart heavy because …
this is the year for change
and I am not up to the task this year.
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not to be annoying but i do think a lot of people mischaracterize falin. shes got the most drastic canon v fanon thing going on. which i guess makes sense bc 1. we dont see much of her and 2. lot of the fan stuff are anime-onlies that have seen even less
but i think like a good 90% of the time i see falin-centric art or posts im like hrm hrm hrm thats all wrong no nope no-siree
she's just a cool chick that takes life as it comes, doesn't hold grudges even against a mother that apparently was trying to beat the magic outta her, finds her older brother the coolest person in the world, and has autism about observing life (and death, she loves the ghosts she has a connection to) and nature and taking care of things (including taking care of her brother, which is why she's even in the dungeons; she saw her scrawny mess of a brother and decided she had to fix that).
and i think my favorite part that people don't talk about is... she would have done the same for marcille or laios if it were one of them that was eaten. you could see it in her eyes:
it's what shuro misunderstands about her. it's easy to see her feminine, cute, good girl pieces and forget the rest of her. but she loves things to an ends-of-the-earth extent; the kind of caring that makes you a little insane. and that's how I think she and laios end up on the same page with their weirdness. they have different interests, but they are the same level of committed to those interests.
it's easy to love her, because she probably loves you just as much, if not more.
EDIT: for the love of god stop reblogging this only to add some comment or tag or reply saying 'op you forgot [BLATANTLY FANON INTERPRETATION]'. falin as we know her is not a pushover/people pleaser/infantilized, see this version of my post. also stuff like 'female shuro was in love with laios in the genderbent comic' and 'falin was going to marry shuro because she felt bad' are just things you made up in your head
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we need to destroy the idea that girls should wear makeup. normalize bare faces on prom queens and flower girls and cheerleaders. no products at all instead of '7 product simple makeup routine.' no more 10 step skincare and regular facials and dermablading and gua sha just to be comfortable with yr natural face. i want to see eye bags on the funny librarian and acne on the swim coach and wrinkles on all our adult role models. i want to see a 16 year old girl that has never tried putting on eyeshadow. i want to see a 7 year old girl who doesn't have to go out and buy powder for her dance recital. i want to see trans women and girls everywhere to never have to wear makeup, regardless of how well they 'pass.' no more 'contouring to look masc' either. a post-beauty industry world is possible
reblogs are on but if you bring up the stage makeup point that i have addressed three times yr blocked on sight ☹️
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Size/Height difference poses
I love height differences aesthetically, but posing them can sometimes be a pain! So to cater to those that also struggle with posing smols and tols, I have a few options-
Meant for art of any type and ask memes, for drawing, writing, photography (like gpose!), ect. Gender nonspecific and for any sort of relationship type, romantic, platonic, and antagonistic!
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just had an absolutely sickening conversation with a 20 year old I work with wherein I had to impress upon her that her and her friends need to be extremely cautious going to the gay clubs right now with increasing attacks happening. make sure any very young, very newly adult queer people in your life know that we're a family and community and part of that is being willing to fight for your siblings lives if they're under attack. even if it's a person you despise, you stick up for your family and they will stick up for you. we are all we have. the cops refuse to help, and so do most people outside the community. we cannot survive without each other
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