#i know the holidays fucking suck

[elegiesforshiva]

Hii there! You remember the girl whose dad passed away nearly two years ago? That's me!

I think it is important for me to ask you how have you ben doing. Fine, I like to think. Hope life has beeb kind to you. I must admit, this is very likely close to a farewell. This year, rough like the past two, gas surpassed the nightmare that was 2021. And, 2022, even if I like to think it had been good (actively ignoring the grief of losing my dad) if I am honest. This year might be the last.

I must tell you that if that is the case, I loved your work. It was so brutally tragic and beautiful. Hope time allows you to continue; and if not, please know that what you delivered was beautiful. Hope this message finds you well.

Hey this is an incredibly alarming and scary thing to recieve in my ask box and I don't know what's going on, but please ask for help from someone who actually knows you or is a professional in some way. I'm literally just a stranger with too many problems who copes with writing and art. And I know everything sucks but please know the pain that's lead you to send me this is not infinite... And regardless of whatever is going in your life, it's not unsalvageable, or a waste. There is meaning in you being here, and I think you just need to find a way to tap into it (or even create it from the ground up sometimes)... I won't pretend like happiness or a sense of fulfillment is easy by any means, but that's not to say it's not worth pursuing. Aside from all that, based on what you've said about your dad, I don't think he would want to be seeing you so soon. Please take care of yourself and take back your power. There's still a version of you that you've yet to meet and there is love that you have yet to discover. I'm sorry this isn't as well put or inspiring or something as I wish I could write right now, I'm really shaken up recieving this. I hope you're okay... in case you need it, I tried to find some posts and resources. I have no idea where you are, but mental health is so important and you need to commit to it, practice what works for you as much as you can. Please start, you don't have to be perfect at it, just start somewhere. Just cup even a small thing that brings you a moment of joy in your hands, and breathe it in as long as you can, and go from there. https://www.tumblr.com/thetiredstuff/704228836045422592/please-do-not-hesitate-to-contact-suicide https://aurorajalexander.wordpress.com/2023/12/28/heal-after-the-annual-christmas-blues/ also here's some music therapy i play sometimes when im feeling super angsty and batshit lol. It really helps if you're into that and have a pair of headphones. Just put that shit on and tune the world out and the music in and do your best to breathe: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3AAH7vINhmQ&ab_channel=DestinedDynamics

[grahamcore]

so would hannibal eat turkey on thanksgiving or would it still be people meat

[bilestat]

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[blackpearlblast]

woooohoooo massive allergy attack on christmas! i bet all the advice lines are closed so we'd better be able to figure it out by ourselves!

[talentforlying]

every late november i am cursed with the knowledge that constantine hasn't done any sort of formal or informal holiday gathering since his sister died, and flat-out avoids people as soon as december starts so no one will invite him to anything bc he knows his seasonally bad mood will haunt whatever room he walks into. basically i'm saying this is your chance to ambush him while it's still november and harangue him into agreeing to attend your non-denominational ugly sweater parties or split a bottle of wine before he's cognizant enough to weasel out of it.

[0809sysblings]

it is always a little funny to me when people try to make psychologists and psychiatrists out to be the only people ever capable of being able to accurately diagnose mental illnesses and disorders and that their word is law as a way to criticize self diagnosis when like. once i was hospitalized and the psychiatrist there who i had not even known for more than a day tried to diagnose me as bipolar despite me having No history of mania because he.. couldn't really understand why i acted the way i did i guess???

[montanabohemian]

soooooo this afternoon i found out some devastating news about my current financial situation and am basically screwed. if ANYONE can help me out with rent and some recent medical and vehicle emergency bills, i would so greatly appreciate it. (or just sharing this helps i guess i don't know.)

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[lynxfrost13]

Fucking Christ

[hella1975]

‘you’re all i got, cousin’ crying over richie of all people. can this day get any worse

[lux-scriptum]

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[neonganymede]

Every time I post a fic with the doa, I lose ao3 subscribers. Maybe I'm overthinking it, but that still does not feel good.

[thedreadvampy]

honestly I am big time upset about this holiday-Pride clash for some reason and I THINK. it's that I already feel like there's not enough time for me to just like. do fun things with my friends without thinking about work. and like work is the one thing that doesn't give. so any time I do Leisure Activities they get traded out against different leisure activities and I'm only ever missing out on stuff that's GOOD and that I WANT to do. I can't be like 'hmmm hmmmm work or hang out with friends?' it's only ever 'pick which friend to hang out with in the slivers of time you have around work'

like fuck me. goddamn. there's ONE WEEK I'm taking off work and suddenly THAT'S the time everyone's going to be in the same places doing fun stuff? when I'm not there? and the only way I could be there is to not do the other fun thing I'm excited about? FUCK YOU MAN. FUCK YOU. my life should contain more fun shit and less worrying about how to fit fun shit in. I don't need to be at work 39 hours a week and have that take precedence over everything else in my life!!!!! fuck off!!!!! fuck offffffff!!!!! I want to go to a party! I want to be on the beach with the leatherdyke meetup! I want to go on a rollercoaster! I want to have a nap! I want to tend my garden I want to get drunk I want to go to a barbeque I want to climb a hill I want to take mushrooms and lie in the grass I want to draw I want to make t-shirts I want to cook I want to go for coffee I want to drink wine and bitch I want to have difficult but important conversations I want time to travel and see friends I've not seen in years I want to look the fuck after myself and do things that nourish me and make me happy!!!!!! I don't want to choose!!!!!!!! I don't want to work!!!!!! I should get to choose between work and fun sometimes instead of between fun and fun! This sucks! This fucking sucks!!!!!!

[aberooski]

Every day I tell myself "all I have to do is make it through today" and I'm realizing that I don't know how I feel about the fact that I feel like I have to tell myself that every single day.

[anotherpapercut]

people will be like "my favorite thing about music is how it makes you feel so many emotions" then be like "ew no I don't like jazz, the blues or country music why would anyone listen to that"

[goldkirk]

Here’s what I know.

1. I am not dead

2. I don’t need to suffer to justify being alive

3. I can’t save other people

4. I will always want to try

5. That’s not stupid of me

6. I have a responsibility to save myself

[jackinalex]