#i mean it would be the biggest city there but thats just a place to start

[delayshay]

Weird impulse to move to Anchorage, Alaska so far away from everything I've ever know and just like reinvent myself.

[desire-mona]

more modern poets hcs for greenie!

charlie -

charlie used to post like "annoying gay ppl vs normal gay ppl" memes, had a huge turnaround and they cringe when they think of that time. mentioning blaire white or kalvin garrah would make him jump

has an "i <3 milfs" design of every article of clothing, could make an entire i <3 milfs outfit. shirt, hat, pants, socks, belt, shoes, hoodie, you name it.

todd -

todd is nonbinary bc he is autistic and autistic ppl generally view gender differently. not debating this. this is a fact and this is canon. they/he/she todd anderson, what of it.

chronic procrastinator when it comes to anything besides school. they will put off doctors appointments, finishing tv shows, even charging their phone.

neil -

doesnt use tiktok but he watches todd scroll thru her fyp sometimes and gets very mad at those "acting pov" videos. hes like "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN ACTING POINT OF VIEW" "POINT OF VIEW YOU ONLY HAVE A LIMITED NUMBER OF WORDS???????? WHAT DOES THAT MEEEEEAN"

i see ppl saying that neil would be a swiftie but i would like to suggest that he's a big ethel cain fan, a collection of songs that tell a fictional character's story? tell me thats not right up his alley

meeks -

i dont think this is the type of math meeks bases a career off of but i do think he rly pays attention to architecture and city layouts and stuff. will forever complain abt how inconvenient it is to have a car centered society and how every place should be walkable OR have public transport

collects records despite not having a record player, tapes despite not having a walkman, and cds despite using his cd player maybe 3 times a year. quite honestly its just to have a physical collection of his music taste

pitts -

pitts went thru a "nice guy/ vaguely incel-ular" phase in middle school, but he didnt talk to a singular woman in those years. by the time it went away there was no harm done to anyone but himself and a very annoyed meeks who had to listen to how girls "only go for assholes"

he has a fashion sense so good that ppl online *ask* him to post fit checks, he doesnt do any if theyre not requested of him. pitts is also the one with the biggest online presence, most notably tiktok and twitter

knox -

type of guy to constantly post shit like "like for a tbh" or post anonymous question things on his story. nobody interacts with any of it so he usually just deletes them after half a day

haaaaaaaates texting and will either send very long voice messages or just ask to call whoever he's talking to (me fr i send ppl voice msgs almost exclusively)

cameron -

cam is suuuuuuuper creeped out by ai "art", especially the ai washing feet commercial during the superbowl, which he had nightmares about for a week

his parents are constantly trying weird diets (most notably keto) so he has the weirdest assortment of random ingredients in his pantry. has come up with the strangest "meals" any one of those boys have ever seen

[starxiasstuff]

Hello! Can I ask for some headcanons for Mikey and Izana with a s/o who's the president of the biggest all-female gang in the city?

OMG YES we love a girlboss y/n I'm just a bit confused on if you want Mikey+Izana×y/n or of you want it individually l, so I'll do all three!

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!!Mikey+Izana×y/n

-How they found out!

-Izana was just having a casual meet up with some tenjiku members, yk just walking around the area and eating street food nothing serious at all, but they walked past an abandoned dump.

Ran was like "ooooo looks haunted we should totally go!!"

and he just dragged everyone there, they were checking the place out and found some gang like markings, which were bloody looking roses painted on significant areas. Getting curious they went further into the dump and started to hear some girls talking about an upcoming gang meeting, now they were kinda taken aback since the largest all female gang has been inactive for almost a whole year, basically no one has ever really heard of them and ppl just thought they were stupid rumours, like please women in a gang?!?! senju side eyeing this.

They got even more curious when they see more girls coming from here and there so they decide to ask a short looking girl who was walking towards a secluded corner of the dump, she was for sure wearing a gang uniform a button up shirt and some pants with some heeled boots the shirt had carefully embroidered bloody looking roses on it, the same type that was painted on the other areas of the dump, she explains that the largest all female gang in the city is having a comeback, they were having a meeting discussing on how to a avenge a member who was unfortunately taken advantage by another gang.

Ran being the idiot he is decided to "cHaRm" the petite girl he got kicked hard .

She then says that they should get utta withered roses (gang name) hide out and that the leader y/n wouldn't be happy with non members here.

Upon hearing your name Izana went into a literal frenzy, you a gang leader he never ever imagined it, he took a picture of the dump and markings and ofc sent them to mikey

-izana's and mikey's chat-

*Izana sent three attachments*

*Mikey is online*

*Messages viewed*

M-HOLY SHIT ARENT THOSE WITHERED ROSES MARKINGS?!?!

I-YES THEY ARE DUM BITCH, ANYWAYS I JUST THOUGHT THEY WERE A RUMOR, BUT THEY'RE COMING BACK!!

M-AYO- I wonder who the leader is, she must be really badass is she's leading a gang that big

I-.....

M-?? what's the matter?

I-i know who the leader is.

M-ok and?? It's nothing to be freaked out about, I think it's nice that gang leaders know eachother.

I-Stupid, we both know who the leader is.

M-the only female delinquent I know of is senju.

M-so spill, who is the leader.

I-Y/n

M-

M-WTF WTF WTF!!!! YOU MEAN THE SAME Y/N WE LOVE AND CHERISH WITH OUR WHOLE LIVES WHO IS ALSO AN ANGEL AND WOULD NEVER WVER HURT A FLY IS ALSO SCARY GANG LEADER Y/N

I-BITCH YESS

I- I THINK WE'RE OVEREATING BUT IM IN SO MUCH SHOCK.

M-^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

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Headcanons

-Mikey would literally just say "omg you go girl boss" every time you were the tiniest bit sassy

-both of them would be super concerned for your safety esp if you had fights late at night

-you being so badass would give Izana yet another reason to show you off "HEY OVER HERE EVERYONE THIS BEAUTIFUL WOMAN HERE IS THE LEADER OF WITHERED ROSES AND IS MY BEAUTIFUL S/O!!!" Mikey would also join in.

-three way alliance

-would totally watch all your fights and cheer you on

"AYY THATS MY GIRL BEAT HER SORRY ASS TO A FUCKING PULP!!"

-both of them would let you in on their battle secrets. "so y/n

This is what you do if you and your enemy have a height difference "

"hm?"

"bite their shins."

"Mikey wtf."

-if you didn't know how to ride a motorcycle they would be the best teachers for sure, girlie you just graduated from "Sano and Kurokawa's school of motorcycling".

-they would cry if you came home with injuries

-you guys would train/spar

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Hello my Luvs and hello to you anon!! This is all I can finish for now, I'll hopefully finish it tomorrow and I hope this is what you wanted anon!

I'm back this time I'll finish it.

!!Izana Kurokawa×y/n

-How he found out!

"Hey Izana did you see my gang uni?"

"Ohhh the uni with roses all over it, it's in the laundry room I just ironed it!"

"wait... THAT'S YOURS?!?!?"

*cue Izana choking on mikey's taiyaki*.

You gave him the news of his life when you told him the you lead withered roses, bro choked on his food and stared at you in disbelief for the rest of the day.

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Headcanons

-Tags along if you have gang meetings

"WASSUP GIRLIE POPS ITS YO' BOY IZANA HERE!!"

-thinks you're so pretty in your uni

-admires you when you take on an opponent who's clearly stronger

-gets worried and calls all your subordinates if you're coming back late from a fight

-brings you to tenjiku meetings more often now that he knows that you can defend yourself against touchy feely members

-if the police bust your hide out he lets you and your top members hang out in tenjiku's hide out

-if your uni needs washing (cause of blood). He'll turn into fucking ayano aishi and clean your uni until it looks brand new

-tries to set your respective members up with tenjiku members for the fun of it

-be ready for extra training hours at the gym

"you have a upcoming gang fight, you need to train more if you wanna win this, y/n."

*insert y/n being dragged into the martial arts training room*

!!Manjiro Sano(Mikey)×y/n

-How he found out!

"Y/N-CHIN"

*practically kicks the door open to find you having a meeting in your room*

"i-... MIKEYY HII UHH THIS ISNT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE THESE ARE JUST SOME OF MY FRIENDS AND WE'RE TRYING TO SUMMON DEMONS!!"

"OMG DEMON SUMMONING SOUNDS SO FUN CAN I JOIN IN!!"

"y/n.. girl no offence but your boyfriend is kinda stupid.."

*cue you and the other girls nodding in unison*

"Oh Mikey you poor poor thing.."

"huh what makes you say that-?"

"you dimwit, your seemingly harmless girlfriend is the prez of the biggest all female gang in the city."

*Mikey passing out."

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Headcanons

-Passes out as soon as he finds out, when he wakes up he will hug you and cry, he's genuinely so scared of someone dying while being a delinquent (baji)

-Takes you to meetings on his bike

"y/n-chin, i have lots of free time, if you have a meeting I can always drop you off"

-you become an honorary touman member, Mikey was crying like a proud mom after the *ceRemOnY*

-if he gets into a petty fight at school he'll just say while being overdramatic

"YOU KNOW WHO *sniff* MY GIRLFRIEND IS, SHES THE PREZ OF THE BIGGEST ALL FEMALE GANG IN THE CITY, SO DONT *over dramatic sob* FUCK WITH ME!!"

-he gets less protective knowing that you can fight for yourself

-he along with chifuyu very politely asked you to punch kisaki's nose

-you'll teach Emma some moves.

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Hello my luvs, I'm done with this post as promised my requests are still open!!

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

Not to be overly morbid, but do yall ever think about suicide in prythian? Personally, i think killing yourself would be pretty common. I mean, it has to be given how few old people seem to exist in this world even though fae (or atleast high-fae) seem to insanely powerful and difficult to kill

And I dont think its because living in prythian sucks THAT much or even because being immortal is THAT bad, i mean arguably the biggest issue with immortality would be to watch all your loved ones die and thats not something that sjm's fae have to deal with. I think its moreso a thing of people just kinda getting tired of living after a few centuries and being like "welp. ive experienced pretty much everything, time to explore the world beyond" yknow. Thats why I think Velaris would have a pretty high suicide rate, because if youre stuck in a city thats presumably completely stagnant and never changes because its already perfect, youre going to run out of new enjoyable things to do wayyyy more quickly and get tired of your existence. It would also explain how this city full of immortals that can never leave but can reproduce hasnt already collapsed under the weight of overpopulation after over 5000 years

One idea that i like because it could make for some poignant commentary is that suicide rates are really high among faeries because theyre a lot more likely to live in poverty and its really hard to escape poverty and its really fucking miserable so after a few decades most of them decide they dont wanna live like that, and its gotten to the point where the high fae think they just naturally have shorter lifespans for some biological reason when they can actually live just as long as high fae, its just that they take poison or some shit to die in their sleep or something idk. Maybe thats a little very dark for acotar, but then again, sjm is constantly throwing around domestic violence and abuse and rape in this series so

I think suicide rates among high lords would be pretty high as well because I imagine their lives are pretty monotonous and tiring because of their responsibilities and because its not like they can leave prythian for an extended period of time to experience some new things or have some fun adventures, theyre tied to their court geographically. And god, can you imagine what would happen if theres a crisis. Yknow how a while ago the UK went through like 5 prime ministers in two weeks because of some bullshit that was happening? Imagine that but its just all these newly-chosen high lords killing themselves because they cant handle their court for some reason. I actually have a theory that thats what happened in the night court because theres this weird little throaway line where they say like, Mor's family used to be the ruling family but then the highlord power somehow got transferred to Rhys' family and its been driving me insane because WHAT do mean by that??? So basically, I think there was a time when Mor's highlord-chosen ancestors kept killing themselves for one reason or another, none of them wanted to be highlord and the magic of the land kept reaching out further and further until it landed on like, Rhysand's great-granddad who was only distantly related to Mor's ancestors and the ruling line just continued from there

Anyway, Id like to end this post on a more positive note and talk about the demographic that I think is the least likely to kill themselves, and thats the youngest children of noble families with multiple children. As ive said, im mostly basing this off of any given fae's ability to have a lot of new experiences to keep their lives from becoming monotonous and tiresome (combined with their material circumstances) and I think the youngest children of nobles hit the sweet spot of being pretty wealthy and not needing to do a lot of hard labour that would take up their time while also not being tied down by responsibilities that would force them to stay in one place. (Unless its a family of all girls and the youngest is their only son ig because as of acomaf, prythian is super patriarchal but i try not to think abt that ngl)

[eohpmdsteams]

Her heart was racing, pounding loud enough she could hear the thundering beats in her own head, every part of her face warm with anxiety and nerves. Bluey had spent over a year designing what she thought would be the perfect thindle to give to Percy and admit how she'd felt, what his reaction would be she wouldn't fully know unless she asked. She'd been so afraid to admit her feelings because she always feared she'd be rejected, but how wonderful would it be if he accepted her feelings? How wonderful would it be to possibly one day be welcomed into another family, even if it was a fractured one. As she walked around town searching for the familiar red shine of Percy's armor amongst the crowds she could feel her stomach turning and drool pooling at the back of her throat, her body's way of saying she was so nervous she was probably going to throw up. Bluey paused for a moment to rest her hand over her chest and relax, to give her a moment to settle her nerve and steel her resolve, 

"C'mon Bluey, choke it down, if your dad could do it so can you." She said under her breath, "after all the worse he can say is no, right? Doesn't mean you can't be friends."

Clapping her hands together she pulled them up to her face and gave a quick hard blow of air as she threw her arms out to her sides to expel the fluttering feeling in her stomach.

She continued eyeing between stalls and round the usual patrol route she'd seen his brother and him take when on the job, she wasn't sure if they were on patrol today but that would be the best place to look if they were. Spotting the familiar pale gold of his axe peaking from behind a stack of crates that blocked a portion of the alley, Bluey felt a tweek of excitement pass her lips before she paused again to straighten out her poncho and to last minute dust off her hooves to make sure she hadn't scuffed up the hours of polishing she did the night before to make sure she looked as good as possible. While she wished she had a prettier mirror like finish to her metal like bastion had, she thought she did a really good job making her mat-blue shine. Swallowing her nerves, she rounded the corner and gave her biggest brightest smile.

"Good morning, Percy! Good morning, Bramble!" She tweeded greeting the two brothers.

"Hello miss Bluey." Percy greeted back as his brother waved, "How are you?"

"I am doing splendid today, I brought you and Bramble some stew Bastion made last night for you and Bramble to enjoy for lunch if you're interested!" She beamed handing the bowl to Bramble, "I made sure all the veggies and meat were small enough and soft enough so Bramble could eat it with no hassle."

"Thats nice of you!" Percy smiled while looking at the soup, "Bastion always makes good soup!"

"We're always happy to share with you guys so I'm sure Bastion will be happy to hear if you like it. Although Percy if you have a moment do you mind if I ask you something in private? Just right over there by the trees, if that's ok?" Bluey asked while tilting her head slightly to the side as she scratched the back of her left heel with her right foot out of nerves.

"Is something wrong?"

"N-no nothing wrong just something that's better to ask one on one. It's a good thing though! Or well...I hope you think it's a good thing!"

Leading the other Bisharp over to the tree's Bluey could feel her metal rattle slightly as she vibrated where she stood, she wasn't a fan of how shaky she was, it must have made her look a lot less confident than she would have liked to look. Once Percy had walked over as well, she sighed before beginning.

"Well, ahem. Where I am from my city has a traditional gift to give called a thindle. If you really like someone you carve them a trinket you think best represents what they are like to you. It's something you give to someone if you really REALLY like them and want to initiate a courtship with. An if you give them a thindle they have three days to accept it or deny it. If they accept it, well then you are dating for as long as they keep it, if they wish to end the relationship then they just return the thindle. But if they deny it you have to break the thindle and you can never ask them out again unless they change their mind and ask you."

She gave a hard swallow as her face grew warm and crimson while she pulled out a necklace with a blue and red piece of wood carved to look like a berry with a gem serving as the leaf and another jewel like marble at the core of it.

"F-for the past year i-i've been working on this because I've really liked you alot since meeting you. I designed it to look like a berry because I know how much you like to try different foods, but I also wanted it to represent your family like your brother and your cousin who are grass types which is also why I made it out of wood. Cause I know your cousins and your brother are really important to you and I wanted to respect that and show that it would also be as important to me. And I made it blue and red because we are blue and red...But I am rambling...hehheh...The truth is I think you are really great and I would love to possibly earn the honor of being welcomed in your family one day."

Bluey took a deep breath and looked the other Bisharp in the eye with her face red as a Scizzor's as she stumbled her words,

"Percy Sharp, I-I Bluey B-Bella Bonozo, w-would like to ask if you w-would accept this thindle and g-go out with me?"

Will Percy say Yes or no? That answer will come soon.

[ayizan]

Translated from the tomb of the Pharoh Tuk Ur, part 3

Part 1, Part 2

As they ventured up the hills, Daa ni had the distinct feelings of walking into the dark unknown. Quickly the sounds of the city gave way to the eerie and vast silence of the desert. The kind of silence that made every step feel like a disturbance, every labored breath a shout. Nothing could be seen beyond Sa’ma’s lamp, and as the last bit of sun disappeared from the sky, the divide between earth and sky became uncertain. Were they walking up the mountain? Or were they journeying into the heavens? Daa ni couldn’t be so sure. He glanced behind him and marveled at the view of the city, the lamps and torches shining like golden stars against deep and endless black.

“How much further do we have to walk?” Tuk Ur panted. He was not used to the physical labor of climbing a mountain, even one as tame as this.

“Not too far,” Sa’ma said. She lifted her lamp up so that they could all see a little more of the path ahead. “There’s a tree where I left a few things, we should be seeing it soon.”

Sure enough the vague shadow of a tree came to sight, a tall acacia for them all to settle under. During the heat of the day, Daa ni could see this being a good spot for traveler to rest, to marvel the view of the Nile and the terraced roofs of Amm’Ti. Sa’ma had been right, it was the perfect place to view the many boats floating down the river. The brightest and biggest of them all came from the Pharaoh and his royal court, their decks veneered in gold and copper to reflect the torchlight and make them shine even brighter.

“What a view,” Tuk Ur said, taking a moment between labored breaths to grin.

Sa’ma handed the two boys two clay cups with a strong smelling liquid.

“Is this…grain wine?” Daa ni said, taking a sniff and then cringing at the familiar scent. He had smelled it many times before on his father’s breath.

“Twenty year old,” Sa’ma said lifting up the dusty jug she had poured the drink from. “I snuck it out from my mother secret stash while she wasn’t looking. Its quality stuff.”

She kicked back her drink and took it in with one swig before hacking and coughing.

“It burns!” she croaked.

Daa ni politely placed the cup in the dirt beside him. It wouldn’t bode well for him if he came home drunk. His father probably wouldn’t notice, but his sister and mother would definitely scold him.

Tuk Ur for his part took a small sip, puckering his lips as the taste hit. “Thats stronger than anything they give us at the banquets.”

“That’s because they water it down,” Sa’ma complained, already pouring herself a second. “I doubt even the Pharaoh drinks the good stuff.”

“Don’t say that,” Tuk Ur warned, “The head chef would lose his head.”

Sa’ma shrugged and took a sip of her grain wine, this time taking it in moderation rather than all at once.

The three settled against the acacia tree, taking in the view and their own company. Daa ni’s mind couldn’t help wandering to the future, how he might look back at this moment. Would he treasure it, like he did now? Would they still be friends?

“When I become Pharaoh I’m going to make Amm’Ti the brightest star in all of Egypt,” Tuk Ur sighed.

“When you become Pharaoh?” Daa ni said.

“What? You think I think I can’t?” Tuk Ur said, a little defensively.

“I mean, I’d want you to but do you really think…” Daa ni wasn’t sure what to say. He didn’t want to tell Tuk Ur he didn’t believe in him, but reality was reality.

Tuk Ur stood up and turned to look down at them both. “I’ll become the Pharaoh and when I do, you two will be my closest advisors.”

Sa’ma raised her hand. “Thanks Tuk Ur, but I want to be a priest of Osiris.”

“Wait seriously?” Tuk Ur slumped. “I thought you just said that cause you wanted the attention.”

Sa’ma crossed her arm, looking annoyed. “Yes, because that’s all women have going on in their brain, is it? We’re just doing it for the attention.”

Tuk Ur sighed and rolled his eyes. “Oh my ra, ok! I get it.”

Daa ni laughed as Tuk Ur slumped back down to his spot on the ground. He wrapped around Daa ni’s neck, pulling him close. “What about you Daa ni? Please tell me you’ll be my royal sorcerer.”

Daa ni tickled the Tuk Ur’s sides forcing him to squirm away. “Sorry, Tuk Ur but I want nothing to do with my parents. As soon as I’m old enough I’m going to travel and see what’s beyond this valley.”

There was distant look of sadness on Tuk Ur’s face. “I see,” he said looking down at the valley below. “I guess everyone has got their own plans.” For a moment there was a quiet silence between them in which Sa’ma and Daa ni shared worried glances.

“But we’ll still be friends,” Sa’ma said, putting an arm on Tuk Ur’s shoulder. He nodded and smiled.

“And hey,” Daa ni grinned, “if the the Pharaoh thing does work out, you are always welcome to join me in exile.”

Tuk Ur elbowed him in the ribs and two boys began to play tussle in dirt while Sa’ma looked on, rolling her eyes.

“Ugh boys,” she murmured taking another spicy sip of her grain wine.

Part 4

[pansyfemme]

Hello Jude I am losing my mind waiting for my pakige. How is life treating you? I'm a month on T again! I think my voice is Doing things. But I also was getting over a head cold.... Such is life! (I am all better now!).

Anything fun planned? How are your ocs? What do they do on mundane days? Do your ocs live in a big city? Sometimes, without meaning to my ocs always ended up in a version of the town I grew up in. Does that happen with yours as well?

hellooo elias ^_^ sorry ive been kinda offline the past few days (not completly, but more than usual lol) but i’m at my cousins place in vermont and theres not very stable wifi or cellular up here lol!! Life’s been pretty good! since it was my bday last week im gettin lotsa nice bday wishes (and gift cards) while im seein family lol.. We’re actually going away again in a few days.. nothing crazy just to hang with family in massachusetts but yknow. its exciting. Is the package the shirt u told me abt? And congrats on one month (again)!! my voice started doing shit abt one month in and like. i didnt believe anyone when they told me bc i was like. nah it doesnt do that this early but then it kinda. became obvious. that chart they give you for informed consent is kinda laughable bc the changes vary so much from person to person..

We’re leaving tommorow at 9am and driving like four and a half hours home which im not looking forward to but its kinda funny that that’s a ‘big trip’ for me when i know ppl who travel like. much further without complaint but to be fair i live in like the smallest reigon of usamerica lol.. i think it bugs me most that i cant be on my phone most of the drive bc of there being no signal. again….city/suburb dweller problems. i don’t claim any of my complaints to be particuarly valid…! we’ve come up here every 4th of july i remember.. we’re not rlly partrotic people just tend to have work and school off so its an excuse to meet up for a family gathering.. my extended familys pretty typical irish massachusettsan so theres a lot of us and its a bit loud…

As for my ocs.. ive been thinkin abt them a lot.. their plotline has changed so many times based on changing factors im thinking of rewriting it completly. starting from scratch, just keeping the basic vibe of the characters and setting and editing them pretty liberally.. and yes. their city is soooo based on my hometown its silly. it didnt start off that way. they were in boston at first. and then it made more sense for them to be in a smaller city. and then it made a lot of sense for it to be my city. so it yeah. its set in my city pretty much.. i describe where i live as a small city bc thats what everyone here calls it but its so small a lot of people from bigger states/major cities would call it a town😭 but its like one of the biggest ones in the state lmao.. but like. theres somethin comfy cozy about it. its a very queer, artsy area. i tend to think my ocs would fit in nicely there..

[wheeboo]

i will gladly accept if it's from u<33 seungkwan is literally an angel and no one can tell me otherwise and YES JEONGHANS MU BIASS 😭😭 i will greatly love u for even saying that istgg

JSHSK MAKE SURE TO GET REST THOUGH ITS IMPORTANTT 💗 u can take all the time in the world and people will gladly be waiting even if it's centuries fr, the day it comes out i will be it's biggest fan and i will fight off other ppl for it 🤞🤞

the meaning really does describe uuu, urw genuinely so heart eyes 😭 shdgis I GET WYMM CATS ARE JS SO ADORABLELE and they def make fics sm more wholesome !! if u ever go back make sure to take more picss id love to see those angels and im a dog person but these days cats have just been so cuddly istg i need onenen 😭😭 i used to feed stray cats back home but they used to be scared of me so they never came close but each time i wanted to pick them up and just kiss their tiny little headss

stop rabbits are so cute, how many did u havee and did u name themm?? i will pray that u have a pet one day bc they are js heaven idc 😭😭 CORGIS ARE ADORABLEE I LOVE THEMM, if u ever do get one, please please send a pic 🙏 omg i feel like ud be perfect with a cute little brown cat, they js feel like ur vibebe 😭 and i own a dogg, he's a pomefanian but i think he's a mutt so it's like a debate in our house 😭😭

alsoso have u ever been to any other cafess? i heard there were red panda ones and im like omg??? i really wanna go 😭😭

this is gonna sound so weird but everytime i imagine u, i keep imagining a panda like those baby ones and i had to tell u im sonsoryry

(id love to listen to u ramble bae it's so cute 😭)

okay i was gonna send a jeonghan edit but then i found this seungkwan n jeonghan edit I LOVE THIS EDIT SO MUCH DKFL;SDF that is literally us frr ☝️☝️

DJFHDSF THANK UU :(( my sleep has been slowly improving lately hehe but make sure U get a lot of rest as well !! and aaa ur so sweet how do i deserve u omg :((

HEART EYES ?? gonna sob fr 🥺🥺 LITERALLY i get the cute aggression whenever i see or write a cat in a fic LMAO and don't worry if i ever go back i will for sure send more pics !! byee not the two of us falling in love with cats 😭 stop thats so cute feeding stray cats n kissing their lil heads🥹🫶 i used to have some cats somehow get into my backyard at times HAHA. i would def take them home n care after them if i could 😔😔😔

i had 2 rabbits and their names were sheldon and cinnamon!! we also used to care after stray rabbits too n gave them away to some family/friends !! dw i will send ALL of the pics of my corgi i'll become a literal menace DFHDSFSD STOP A BROWN CAT IS SO CUTE :(( i'm not good at cat breeds but i've always wanted to have a siamese or a ragdoll !! AWW A POMERANIAN THATS SO CUTE :(( what's his name?? <33 maybe he's a mix too!!

if we're talking abt animal cafes i haven't!! my sister has an australian shepherd tho n she lives in the city and theres a lot of dog-friendly places n cafes there !! THERES RED PANDA CAFES??? WHAT I NEED TO GO TO ONE RIGHT NOW I LOVE RED PANDAS SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭

whwaa i love pandas too i'm glad u can imagine me as that :<< hmm idk why i imagine u as a samoyed dog u seem so quirky, cute, and fun to talk to!!

[place-appreciator]

Chair Appreciation Time!!!

Ok I wanted to add this to my liminal space post at first, but while writing i realized how interested I actually am in this set of chairs. So well, im making this a separate post where i talk about a bunch of chairs, so lets do this!

Alright down bellow you can see the picture and I want you too just take it in for a moment and think about it for yourself.

Ok done? Nice! So here are my thoughts.

This is in my City's biggest hospital, the one wich im currently a patient at. Today i went out with a friend of mine here to explore and we went into an unlocked door into the first underground floor. On that floor there is just a tunnel that connects a bunch of buildings and elevators to these buildings. Also an area wich is off limits because automated vehicles roam there.

So at the end of the tunnel there are these chairs and an elevator to the left, and I cant stress this enough, what non-weird person would sit down here?

There is nothing to really look at and since this is the end of the tunnel, you already are at you destination, so no need for a break.

It isn't a relaxing environment either, its a facking tunnel. This place has a very liminal vibe, wich isn't something a lot of people are into.

But that makes me feel understood, this is a place for those that like odd places. Probably not tho, they most certainly just didn't put any thought into it.

Still this is one hell of a piece of underapreciated indoor architecture....

I just looked at it again and the whole picture gives me a "end of the line" vibe, if you ever been to a sidewalk that just randomly ends, you know what i mean. Plus these chairs tho, its just perfectly weird.

Let me show you a picture.

This is not exactly what you would see, its before the chairs, but looking in the direction of the chairs. But you get the point, this is kinda what you would see.

Pretty darn weird innit?

Last of i just wanna say that im sad that i didn't sit down here, all these thought just came to me after looking at the chair picture in my room.

Still i find chairs like these so entirely important, just to fill the gaps that would make it look empty. So lets look at it one more time for the sake of it.

Im gonna sit down here when i get the chance and tell you guys more, but for now these chairs will remain lonely, albeit not unapreciated, just because a weirdo like me made a whole ass essay about them.

Thank you so much if you read the whole thing, I hope I opened someones eyes to the beauty of odd places.

Allright thats its, thanks, byeeee

[firewalkwithme36]

Sometimes growing up means breaking your own heart

A day ago I said good bye to someone my heart never really felt safe with but a little piece of me still kinda wanted it to work. He'd been a complicated person in my life. We worked on/made art together for two years. There was this spark between us that made it exciting to work together, to play in a creative space. But he also let me down with one of those projects. He let me down with so many things, but he surprised me too. He's about four years younger than me and that doesn't mean much if your both in your thirties but it's a lot when you're in your twenties. There's just so much that happens in your life, in your heart and head. It puts a pretty big gap between every year you go through them. And omg do you fuck up so many things, shit you care about. But I guess that means you're putting yourself out there enough to really learn something about who you are.

Anyway, about this guy. We dated a few times and he'd always bail when things got to real and wouldn't really talk about any of it. So after college, after the deep lonely blues really set in and 50 job rejections later, I decided to reconnect with him. I was so nervous the whole time sweat was dripping from my arm pits. We kept in touch for while and then met to talk in person when I moved back to the city he lives in. ( Thats a whole complicated story but I'd lived there before and it was the one I'd have the easiest time more permanently moving to. So I did.) He started to do the same song and dance, so I stopped him and said that I want to actually think about doing this not get back into the same cycles again. It ended with him telling me a few days later he wanted to fall in love with me as a friend. I told him I didn't know if I could do that because I'm not sure my heart works like that and I felt too much that he was asking to cut up his favorite parts of me and our relationship to make it into something easier. Also we would never be just friends, we'd always be moving away from being romantically involved. So it's not like we would really be friends. We'd both get jealous when the other started dating some one new and it also wouldn't be appropriate for anyone we were serious about to meet either of us. Our "friendship" would die off.

Things ended with us spending one last night together not pretending that we were just friends or holding anything back. It was a night of last things. A night of dinner, card games, music, movies, talking, holding each other and sex for the last time. Because there aren't many times that you know when the last time will be the last time and I've had to many hastily done good byes to take one more with some one it didn't work out with but I still have deep love for.

So now it's done and keep wishing and secretly hoping he'll text or call and suddenly he's all in the way I always wished he was and it all just works finally.

But life never is like the movies and so I haven't washed my sheets or pjs he wore just so I still have something around other than me, that he's touched. I sniff the necklace he left me because when my heart is breaking and begging me to talk to him it helps trick my brain into thinking he's still around. I make sure that the sheets are tucked in, pillows placed and the boxers he wore just like he left them for me, because I know taking care of people with the little things is his biggest I love you.

Growing up sucks, It's lonely as hell and there are so many times that it means breaking your own heart so you can get where you're meant to be and become who you want to be.

[thewurstgirlfriend]

Fear Is An Understatement

So I'm stepping into my new life as a openly trans person with much anxiety and trepidation. I don't have the biggest network of allies and supportive people, and the trans community in my small city is probably less than 100 individuals. I've reached out and connected with a few, but being freshly out I'm the new kid in town and its hard to make inroads with a guarded, close-knit community at 40 years of age.

For reasons I still haven't discovered, I experienced a sudden job loss ( I suspect there's connections to my coming out in October) just the day before my 40th birthday. Got it on a text message, guy told me not to bother coming in & he's got my shifts covered....unceremoniously dumped, and I'm far too accustomed to being treated like that.

I'm more upset that I had to give the company vehicle back than losing the job. Frankly it was toxic and it fucking sucked for the past year of the 3 that I had been with that business. So I lost my job, the car I was driving, and my extended health benefits. So I'll be paying out-of-pocket for my hormone therapy now, but thats okay cuz that little boy knocked this girl down for a day...but I'm only coming back stronger!!

The hormones are wild! And I knew they would be, but no one prepared me for just how quickly a mood swing can happen. I'm incapable of watching a Disney movie with my child without crying now. I find myself happy, sad & angry all at the same time but I'm learning to hold space for and fully experience each and every emotion. I approach problems and people in a different way...I am thinking and information-processing in a new manner.

So its been wild n crazy, all-over-the-place kind of emotional experience for me. Lots of crying.....and peeing!! No one told me about the peeing!

I'm taking spironolactone as my testosterone blocker, in lower doses its a blood pressure pill...and its classified as a potassium-sparing diuretic. Which means I pee...alot! And because it affects my electrolytes, I also have to alter my diet slightly to avoid foods high in potassium.

It was a sad day when I had what could end up being the very last banana I ever consume, have you tried making a protein shake without one?! Someone told me avocados would give the same texture but its just not the same, and where I am they're like $3 each, so no...

At the end it does really boil down to fear:

Fear of rejection

Fear of failure and isolation

Fear of financial uncertainty

Fear of never being able to eat a banana

And a constant, overriding fear of peeing my pants

Much love🙏✌

Genni

[uberlin-sternspeier]

SOUNDING THE TRUMPET OF TRANS REBELLION (Part 1)

"The Greatest Cruelty is this: A million people may be subject to the decisions of a single person or handful of people and we are always of the millions.

Our name for this is fate."

- Body Snatcher Manifesto, 2024

"Alright, Imma shoot U out the cannon in 57 seconds, ok!?" she shouted barely loud enough to outvol the city noise. Cars in the area usually had cranked up sound pollutors, that way the drivers would feel real big when they dashed through the narrow streets.

"Je!", I shouted right back, blending into the car cacophony.

"U hit that megadrone right on top! Shouldn't be any pilot! If there is ... well, there shouldn't!"

"If there is Imma yiff that fuckoids sternum and scat in their frothdead braintube!"

The night was watching closely. Just the night. Everyone else ignored or didn't see us.

"Bitch, what!?" she asked like she didn't know.

"U heard!"

"Je ... I just think like ... 90% of those words were illegal!", she made an unreadable expression. Couldn't really see her in the dark anyways.

"I don't care!", I screamed.

"... Whatev! ... The drone should be m2 serial m226448261-L! If thats true the stick'll land it!"

"What!? Be louder!"

"I SAID THE STICK WILL LAND THE DRONE!"

"OKAY!"

"IF IT AIN'T, GO MAKE FUCKOID OR WHAT! SAME IF THERE'S A PILOT!"

"I KNOW THAT! I GODGORE KNOW IT ALREADY. U THINK I DON'T LISTEN, BUT I CREAM."

"U THE WEIRDEST OF US ALL, SHITMONKI! ... ANYWAYS, IMMA FIRE THE CANNON NOW, SO GET READY AND DON'T DIE, PLEASE."

I strapped in all tit and neat into the casing. It was a big copper thing made from scrap and a shitty seatbelt, freshly stolen from some of those maggotbrain low tier wizard cars. The cannon was diy, using online tutorials for building space trash cannons, but with less power than those. Truly our pride and joy (and some of our shame, too). The metal was cold and itchy. The smell was oily and something else. Sitting there, adrenaline puffed up my face, contorting towards a mean old grin. I expected. Anticipated even. I giggled my true name and hit my chest, becoming as graphene. I felt unkaputtbar.

I shouted: "U BETTER NOT MISS, CUMSQUATSH"

"FUCK U!", she shouted back, and ...

Nothing.

FIRE!

My ass lit up. So loud that tinitus entered my braintubes. Pants literally burning. Melted with the casing, bottom broken through. I screamed like a cartoon freak, but the sound barrier was already broke. Adrenaline flooded now completely. All rushing, pumping, blood through my mind and bare think. No face but all faces. My minimum remained. I squeeled all silent, full tasmanian, and fucked right out my seat. A billion sparks thrashed through the air. Wind freezburned me, but my skin was real tough. Struggle to feel all everything at once.

Then it all calmed down for the longest of all split seconds. My eyes were crying, my blood and body floated, suspended in space, and I saw from the heavens a most beautiful and most horrific sight: the city, build, crashed, rebuild and recrashed, evercyclic: the place of sweet nightmares and grim: the city arm, aber sexy: Uberlin. In this tranquil moment, all my body went soft. Drool left my mouthhole, sticking to my face, and I pissed my pants right then and there. Strangely, I couldn't have cared less. All was good.

Then I fell. Softly almost, compared to before the least. There was barely any air tho. Couldn't breath enough, so I half passed out. Yet, the drone was there, right in front, closer and yet closer.

They had a delivery to the Charite, Uberlins most biggest hospital. Delivery by drone to the highest floor, cuz they thought we couldn't reach. Poor rich folk, always underestimating the power of a few very determined individuals. My whole body tickled, even the artificial parts. From my brain electric towards the nerves, through the jamports into external bones and over bluetooth, through the atmosphere, barely functional, to the non wired parts, I started the rocketboosters to slow my fall and target.

BAMM! With a bashing of metal against metal I arrived, a small crater in the hull! The drone strayed from the impact, two of the droneblades almost dying. My body felt numb to the touch, my soul was gross beyond. One leg at a time magnet stomped across the flying beast, slowly creeping itself to the head. My mind unthunk all thought and drove by instinct. The wind shrieked. Lightcutter in hand, I opened the hood up and found, of course, no wires. No ports or tubes, not even some fucked up bio experiment or a bomb with a middle finger on it, but a live fucking pilot.

"FUCK!", we both screamed in unison.

The pilot started cursing to himself like someone who was way too online. Maybe that's rich of me to say.

I paused. "ALRIGHT, GUESS U'RE A HOSTAGE NOW, HON! LAND SEESTRASSE!"

He seemed to pause, but he didn't. Instead moving his hand slightlike, my watery eyes didn't catch his motion. Right then, he held a gun to my face and before I could curse he shot me.

He fucking shot me! In the head, too! Bullet drumming my numbwit skull, I fell back. Almost off vehicle, but a reflex, a twitch, had me touch the hull again with one of my magnets. I felt dead, but wasn't. Hadn't even penetrated my skin, just shook the brain around severely and made a bunch of noise; and so my surface toughened yet more upon me rewhispering my true name. Only, the shock stuck: High pitch noise had filled my ears. Unable to control my body I vomited, all the way down, 500 metres below, on a very unhappy medical student. Then the will triumphed and my body moved again. I crawled on all fours to get a better hold for next when he shot me. He did in fact do that, a lot. Shit hurt like unimagination, but pure spite kept me up. My heart felt a trillion explosions.

As I neared, I wanted to say something. Perhaps something witty or at least fucked up. I didn't manage more than a gurgle. Eager, zoned out hands grabbed his skull. He struggled. I couldn't get a good hold. Then I managed to reach forward and unbuckle him.

He grasped my hand. I tried to throw him off, but he kept pulling.

Then, again unthunk, I shredded his back on the droneblades.

He let go

.

He fell

.

He cried for help

.

He cried o so terribly for help,

forever lost.

And I could do nothing but stare stupidly at the terrible thing I had done.

Altho I could not yet fully comprehend the doing of it.

That a person died right then and there, without much grace and with even less blame and I had done this.

Even the drone, in some grim acknowledgement of its pilots horrific fate, turned heel. One rotor blade now finally giving in from the added strain of cutting human flesh. There was no time to contemplate. I took the seat, now empty, searched the port and sticked it.

The megadrone did not like that. It wasn't the make the stick was intended for. Of course it wasn't, this one had had a pilot. It went by the side, gaining speed while half falling. And so we, too, crashed.

___

I woke up minutes or hours later, probably not days. Hopefully not days. At some point it must have rained, and stopped raining, cuz there were puddles all over. In fact, I was lying in one of those puddles, right on my back, where some sharp object was poking me. It was still night. The drone had crashed into a park of some sort or other. Maybe a forest, but probably not. My system was shitlike and I nonunderstoodly sobbed for half a minute. Life is rough, I suppose. Thankfully no one was around to see.

My mouth had a pelt to it, but I could whisper my true name well enough and pry myself from the mess. Standing next to the trashcan, I realized my fuckup had in fact taken a second life today. She(?) was crushed under the drone. Maybe more, actually. I couldn't really see.

I started sobbing again. "No," I then spoke aloud to myself. "Not yet. We can break down at home. Now we have to pull through." As always, I listened, knowing full well the day of sobbing would never come. My body shook and moved very slowly, but that it moved at all was good enough. With a bit of stubborn will, I managed to put a foot forward. Whispering my true name the second foot followed. I thought to myself that I had endured thus far and that I was, in fact, the best at enduring in the whole wide world. I thought to myself: Wow, I really AM the shitmonki. As if that meant anything. Still it cut somehow. My mouth opened, but I couldn't come up with a cuss, so I just shut up and walked away, maybe five metres.

We couldn't use any tracking and I sure as hell was in no state to look it up, so I didn't really know where I was. I asked C-Witch through the pager, which was a tech spell too ancient to be understood by mortals. But basically it was old and hacked and couldn't be easily tracked, which was good. It beeped with terror, answering immediatly: "u r n britz neukoelln grab w u can & get t h out." and wow, if that wasn't clear.

Magboots itching on my feet, I walked right back and tried and failed to not feel sorry for myself like a big stinking loser. My stares went towards the corpse again, paralyzed. This time I'd really done it, my life was now rightfully forfeit, I thunk. Doubly forfeit, even. Yet, despite the injustice of my continued existence, I somehow continued anyways. Looking unblinkingly at the megadrone instead, I moved again. Prying it open wasn't tough, cuz it was cheaply made. Still, what was inside truly wasn't: a metric shit ton of prostetics.

As my friendly witch had advised me, I grabbed what I could, which was exactly three crates and one cybernetic arm half tugged into my belt. Then I walked into the night.

[cartmankisser]

For the Alphabet thingo with Jimmy Jim Jim My BOI B, D and R!

YES I LOVE JIMMY SO MUCH

I WENT A BIT OVERBOARD ON THIS ONE COMPARED TO THE OTHER ALPHABET ONES BUT ITS FINE I HAD FUN WITH THIS

Beauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

he knows that looks aren't everything in a relationship, but come on!! you're literally so stunning?!?!?! BUT besides a pretty face,,, definitely patience is very important to him! for multiple reasons!!

1 : he needs someone who can listen to him. if either of you guys get upset, listening to eachother is a top priority. he loves that you guys can listen to eachother and hear each side of the story instead of just getting mad. he adores it when people are understanding!!! especially when it comes to things that are personal to him!! (cough his s/o cough)

2 : this one's a bit obvious but definitely for his disability. he's used to being cut off mid sentence because of his stutter and people not inviting him out on the weekends because he walks slower and has limited mobility compared to most of the people in south park.

i feel like that's a such huge reason he likes special dates with just the two of you. he knows you will listen to his jokes all the way through and you don't mind walking at his pace. he just thinks it's so sweet that, even if he's having a difficult day, you don't mind waiting for him?!??!? (also he gets to do cringy pda because nobody's there to cringe at you guys)

Dreams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

he just wants to keep the fun dynamic you guys have. his biggest fear is that you guys would drift apart or kinda burn out, so he likes to keep things casual with you.

he doesn't want anything to be super extreme or obsessive, so probably just a simple little life in the city or a place where he could still do standup

like comedy is not his first priority, you are, but he still wants to pursue his comedy career. but like i mean he'd still be happy living in a cozy town with you 100% if anything came up or if he lost interest by the time he gets older (but he won't)

Romance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

averagely romantic i would say! he likes cliche dates with flowers and candles whenever your upset and fun, spontaneous dates whenever your in a good mood!!!

he prefers chill dates mostly at home. just playing board games or super smash bros mostly, maybe make fun of stupid movies or shows for toddlers.

totally random but i feel like he would love window shopping at the mall. only going into the stores that seem cool. definitely spends a bit too much at candy stores,,

every now and then he would love to go all out on a cheesy date. he likes the idea of dressing up all fancy for you but also he loves that he gets to show you off to everyone!! its literally his favorite thing to do. just to ramble about you to anyone who will listen

and this increases by a ten fold whenever you guys go on dates.

he makes sure to tell anyone around him thats he's dressed up for his partner and that he only takes you to the best places like these. it's part adorable part annoying 😅😅

[heyitsyn]

Manager!Inarizaki

a/n: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i would put in all the reqs but there were so many people who requested for our fox babies that it would literally take up every space :”) and im happy to comply so here it is

AAAA LOOK THEY’RE SO CUTE OMG LIKE BLS BUT IM A RIN SIMP :’)

alkdfjlsdfi

sunarin simp is typing😍🍃💞..........

ogeiogeiogei

hehehehehe

so im actually just going to include the starting lineup like i knowwwww theres subs but im only most familiar with the regulars :(

okay so anyways!!

now

you might be wondering

how in the hell did you become the manager of these crackheads

from calm papi kita to psycho tsumu,

why are you their manager

you, the cute and shy and innocent not wittle first year, somehow became the manager of the powerhouse volleyball team of inarizaki high

it all started with our dear lovely samu

hehe bet you didnt see that coming

now we all know baby samu literally is the biggest foodie in the team and he constantly thinks about food 24/7 therefore there isnt much room in there for anything else except for volleyball

basically, 

the dude loves to eat

it just so happens that you made food

your family owned a cafe down the street from the school and you worked there after school to help your parents

now how does this tie in with samu you ask

this chile was so hungry that he had to skip practice

sending kita a quick text about doing a quick errand, he walked down the street on the hunt for a quick place to grab a bite

he totally ignored kita’s warning of cramps if he ate a lot then practiced but whatever food is life

it just so happens he stumbles upon your family’s cafe

when he entered, the smell of bread and food entered his nostrils causing this baby to just float right in

you were manning the register while your brother was at school so you smiled at the incoming figure of this familiar boy

and because you recognized him, you couldnt help but grin and gasp a little

‘oh! miya-senpai!’

you exclaimed and osamu was confused because he’s never seen you before but he thought you were probably a kouhai in school

you looked young and definitely not a face he’s seen before so he concluded you were most likely a first year

and you were really cute

like really

really

cute

that thought caused this babe to blink awkwardly and nod at your direction

‘uh, hi’

he greeted and you smiled at his awkward nature

‘what can i get you today, miya-senpai?’

he must’ve been busy looking at you to actually look at the menu behind you and he fumbled, rushing to find a food to get

‘wh-what do ya recommend?’

he asked and you paused then thought deeply

‘hmm, we have onigiris freshly made! and we also have milk bread thats really good!’

did you just-

did you just say onigiri?

‘yea ill take some onigiri’

he decided and you lit up

‘perfect! the total is-’

he completely blanked out because wow your smile was really pretty

‘miya-senpai? miya-senpai?’

you called out and he snapped out of it

‘oh, sorry, here’

he gave you the cash and you gave him back his change before wandering to the glass case where the savory foods were placed

you seemed to glide over and osamu watched you with fond eyes, interest bubbling in him

there was something about you that made him curious

but he just didnt know what

it confused him because maybe you were just someone he hasnt seen before and not the same fans he sees all the time

‘you’re really lucky, miya-senpai. i just finished making them minutes before you walked in’

you commented

this took him aback

‘you cook?’

he suddenly asked and you chuckled, soft and airy laughs filling the air

‘of course, senpai! learning to cook is an essential for a business like this’

and thus created a beautiful friendship

he would come over to eat nearly every day of the week while you would happily serve him

sometimes, he would even buy extra so you could eat with him

while you were talking, he noticed you lacked the accent others from there had and he thought you were not originally from hyogo

he learned that you were actually from miyagi and you moved here just this year

‘so, how ya liking it ‘round here?’

he asked one day, after swallowing his food

you thought about it before shrugging

‘i mean, its still the countryside so i guess everything’s the same. maybe the dialect? my neighbors have strong accents, haha’

samu chuckled

‘its common over here. ya sound a lot more from tokyo. my best friend’s from there, ya see’

you raised an eyebrow

‘hm?’

‘rin. suna rin is in the team and hes from tokyo so he sounds like a standard city boy. ill take ya to meet him sometime’

nah he really wasnt

he wanted to keep you away from the others as much as possible, especially his brother, because he was a greasy mf

but that didnt really work out into plan because you approached him in school the other day

you saw him and you hurriedly ran to him where he stood with his twin and some guy

tsumu saw you coming from behind his brother and he smirked before nodding at you

‘samu, ya got a girlie running for ya’

samu turned, confused, until he saw your adorable face

‘y/n. whats up?’

you grinned

‘you left your team jacket, miya-senpai’

the red jacket was clutched in your hands and the two boys behind him shared a surprised look because osamu never mentioned a girlfriend

and with the way you were holding his jacket, the two boys immediately jumped into conclusions

well

more like atsumu started whining at osamu for not telling him he had a girl

‘i thought we were brothers! brothers for life!’

samu just awkwardly stands there and he has a sheepish look in his eyes that were looking at you apologetically

‘sorry about him, y/n. but thank you for returning it’

you handed him the fabric before smiling

‘it was a good thing you had a spare one for me, miya-senpai. who knew the rain would come so suddenly’

osamu sighed then playfully poked your forehead with his finger

‘how many times do i have to tell you to call me by my first name? i really dont want to hear anything that associates me with this bastard’

atsumu socked osamu at the shoulder causing the gray-haired boy to look away from you and start yelling at his brother

‘touch me again! see what happens then!’

‘yer just showing off for yer girlie! ya aint doin nothing!’

suna shook his head before turning to you with a sympathetic look

‘you really want to be with this guy? him and this idiot are practically a package’

you tilted your head

‘im,,, not with miya-senpai?’

suna blinked

‘but he gave you his jacket. he doesnt even give it to me. i guess its not part of best friend privileges’

at the mention of best friend, you lit up

‘oh! you must be sunarin! the tokyo boy!’

baby rin choked a little at the sight of your grin and he scrunched his eyebrows while awkwardly raising the corner of his lips to a smile

‘you,, uh,,, you know me?’

like it was the most obvious thing in the world, you nodded

‘at first, when miya-senpai told me, i didnt know who you were. but! youre actually very popular, suna-senpai! too bad i never saw you until today, though, because we’re in different floors. but! a lot of girls talk about you!’

poor rin didnt know how to react to that because he didnt want to look flustered but he didnt want to look cocky either

so he just opted to smile gently

‘oh. well, in that case. let me introduce myself to you. suna rintaro’

can we normalize suna being an actual nice guy instead of the cold stand-offish player bastard?

you shook his hand and said your name as well

like samu, he asked you to call him by his first name too since you were close to his friend therefore should try being close to you too

speaking of samu, him and atsumu reduced the violence to just bickering and they were still teasing each other even after you and suna talked

the coochi bangs boy rolled his eyes then slapped atsumu’s arm to gain their attention

‘yo. theres a girl here. try and be nice and civil’

atsumu seems like he forgot your existence because his eyes brightened at the sight of you

‘oh! heya!’

you nervously smiled at him because his hyperness and overall atsumu-ness was quite overwhelming

‘h-hello, miya-senpai’

atsumu pouted at how apprehensive you sounded

‘eyyy, why are you being nervous, girlie? im just samu, yanno! same face and everything!’

osamu knew you well enough that you were kinda awkward and you didnt know how to approach a hyper person like his brother so he naturally saved you

‘hey, y/n, the bell’s about to ring any moment now so try to not be late and ill be sure to see you later. do you want me to pick you up from your class and we can walk together?’

to you, it was just a simple offer from a friend but to the two, that was the confirmation of your relationship with the wing spiker

‘wahh, atsumu, your brother really is better than you. he knows how to treat girls good’

atsumu took offense to this

‘excuse you! i would be too if there were genuine girls in this school!’

osamu’s aggressive blinking was his signal for you to hurry along and you noticed causing you to chuckle before bidding goodbye

‘it was nice meeting you, rin-senpai. and,,, you too, miya-senpai. samu-senpai, later at 3?’

osamu softly smiled while nodding

‘later at 3’

the TEASING HE FACED from the two was unbearable and despite the amount of times he denied it, they were still teasing him

‘samu’s got a girlfriend~! samu’s got a girlfriend~!’

‘tsumu, i swear to god if you dont shut your trap’

‘imagine having a girlfriend’

true to his word, osamu was waiting for ya at the bottom of the stairwell from the one that led to the second floor, absentmindedly kicking some invisible thing in the floor

you were fixing your bag straps on your shoulders when you saw him at the end of the hallway and you couldnt contain your excitement seeing the grey haired boy

‘samu-senpai!!’

you shouted, getting his attention that made him whip his head up

the blank face contorted into a small smile and he raised a hand

‘yo’

when you made it next to him, you were grinning really big and samu felt flustered at your happy face

so he cupped your chin with his large hand that allowed him to squeeze both cheeks

‘cutie’

he mumbled but you didnt catch it, too busy trying to get him to stop squishing

you were originally supposed to go walk over to the cafe but you didnt know that osamu was actually trying to skip practice and he was trying to hide from the members

okay first off, i dont think samu would ever skip practice willingly bc he has the same drive as miya atsumu but he also just wants to spend time with you asklfjldfjdlk

but the loud mouth tsumu saw you guys as you turned a hallway

you were busy talking to osamu about some cooking chef guy gordon and he was nodding and talking but then he heard a loud shout

‘SAMU!’

osamu babie didnt know what was happening so he protectively placed an arm in front of you and hurriedly shoved you behind him in case something happened

duh you didnt know what was happening either so you were clutching his jacket and peeked from his arm to see atsumu stomping over with suna trailing behind him, seemingly texting on his phone

osamu lazily glared at his brother

‘what’

atsumu blanched and sped walk faster until he was right in front of him to yell 

‘IM TIRED OF YER EXCUSES! JUST CUS YA GOT YASELF A GIRLIE DUN MEAN YA GET TO SKIP PRACTICE!’

you furrowed your eyebrows

you tugged at his jacket and osamu turned to peer down at you and he gulped, preparing himself to hear your scolding

it wasnt the first time you scolded him as you just told him off the other day for not eating enough vegetables and fruits to balance out his unhealthy love for onigiri and sweets

‘samu-senpai,,, you told me you guys were taking an off week. why are you skipping practice today’

you were genuinely worried and you didnt seem to understand why he did that but the other two did and atsumu didnt hesitate

‘CUS HE WANTS TA SPEND TIME WITH YA, Y/N! BASTARD CANT EVEN BOTHER TO TELL ME THE REASON! YER SICK?! WHAT THE HELL EXCUSE IS THAT! YA NEVER GET SICK!’

poor suna is just watching this go down and he felt bad that you were caught in the middle

so he suggested a compromise

you watched sunarin push atsumu’s chest to make him back off and he gently smiled at you before looking at the two

‘how about we all go to practice and if y/n-chan wants, she can wait and osamu can spend time with her when hes done? besides, atsumu, you know osamu has been doing good on his spikes. maybe we can persuade coach and kita to let him off early since hes,,, quote unquote,, ‘sick’’

osamu debated but you emerged from behind him

‘sure! samu-senpai would love to go to practice! right, samu-senpai?’

you smiled at him but it was a stern smile

you just wanted him to go to practice because you knew now of how important volleyball was to the school and they needed to get all their time and energy to win the sport

atsumu agreed to this plan but osamu was forced to accept it

simp

just for extra measure, sunarin and tsumu walked behind you guys to the gym so you and samu had time to talk

you were chiding him of course because why would he waste time with spending time with you

‘just wanted to see ya, y/n-chan’

he winked but you pouted and wrinkled your nose

‘you cant weasel yourself out of this, samu-senpai’

osamu has never heard you scold him before so he was like o.o but inside he was like,,, hot

the gym was already on full practice and kita saw the second years from the door

aran LAKDJFLAKSFJLASDKF ARAN AAAAAAAAAAAAA nudged mimi with a smirk

as much as they loved the underclassmen, watching them get told off by kita was too funny to not watch

but what caused them to curiously peer behind the three was the appearance of a girl

a girl?

‘why’s a girl with them?’

aran mumbled and mimi shrugged, but also intrigued

you were behind osamu and he could tell you were nervous because youve heard of the reputation of the team

they were seen as practically as popular as the basketball team and everyone worshipped them

they were who put the school’s name in the map and you were about to meet the legends of inarizaki

thankfully, atsumu and rin walked to the front of you two so you and samu were at the back

samu didnt look at you but he reached behind him to open his palm as a signal for you to take it

you gratefully grabbed it and leaned closer in case something happens

‘KITA-SAN! WE GOT EM!’

atsumu shouted and suna chided him for being really loud

‘you’re late’

an even voice said in front of them and you leaned over to the side to see who it was from

your eyes bulged out of your head because one, wow he was handsome, and two, he looked like someone from miyagi

YALL KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT BYE-

‘oh wow’

you mumbled absentmindedly and samu looked at you at the corner of his eye before scoffing

your face was totally bright red and your eyes were super wide

kita? really? of all guys? it was kita?

‘SORRY! was samu who took so long!’

atsumu lowered his voice down but he didnt tell the captain of his brother’s plans to skip

‘he has a stomachache and he was at the nurse’s office’

suna smoothly came up with a lie and he might look cool and calm, his hands were clasped behind him with it clenching his phone

your eyes left kita to notice that habit and you had a small smile because it was another reassurance that these boys werent as high and legendary as everyone made them to be

in the end they were still just students and boys

they were still human

‘oi, osamu, who’s the girl?’

aran finally bit the bullet and asked the question everyone has been wondering since the beginning

both you and samu stiffened at the direct question to you but he nodded

‘this is l/n y/n’

he introduced and you raised a shaky hand as a greeting but let go of samu to bow slightly to your seniors

‘hello, my name is l/n y/n, i’m a first year’

a few players also raised a hand but it was mimi who spoke at last

‘nice to meet you’

kita nodded at you but turned to the three

‘why is she with you? are you skipping again, osamu?’

again?

osamu inwardly cringed 

obviously, kita was sharper than they would think because he easily saw through suna’s lie

he also knew that samu never really got sick

he watched the younger shovel 5 bowls of ramen and still have enough room eat a plate of mochi and he was perfectly fine

it was silent between the four of you and atsumu and suna were looking at each other as they ran out of lies

dang they even planned the entire walk of what to say to kita

you looked between the twins and their friend before speaking up

‘samu-senpai really did have a stomachache. i was-uh-helping the nurse! um, i want to be a doctor or a nurse when i grow up! and-’

you started to ramble but because you were trying to lie and it was never your forte

ALKESDJFLKD Y/N I NEED TO TAKE YOU UNDER MY WING WE NEED TO TEACH YOU THIS IMPORTANT LIFE SKILL OMG

‘we were tryin to convince y/n to be a manager. thats why we took so long’

atsumu huffed

you froze

a what?

a manager?

you were genuinely truthful about wanting to go into a medical profession but not a manager

you were already a manager before and you didnt really want to do it again

kita was inspecting suna’s and atsumu’s and osamu’s faces to see a trace of dishonesty

you saw him raise a dark eyebrow and you knew then that these three cannot tell a lie to save their life

so you nodded frantically making kita look at you

‘mhm! they asked me! miya-san wanted someone they knew already so they asked me because i’m samu-senpai’s friend! so here i am!’

your awkward smile and stiff outstretched arms might’ve seem suspicious but kita moved his gaze from you to atsumu and the blonde nodded

‘yea! ya’ve been talkin bout bein worried of next year cus yall aint here no more so i got sum person responsible enough fer us!’

STOPP I HATE IT HERE I CANT SEEM TO WRITE OUT ATSUMU’S ACCENT LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

after the longest 3 seconds, kita finally nodded and closed his eyes warily

‘alright. l/n-san, come here’

you froze at the way he said your name but suna was kind enough to walk over to your place beside samu to gently push you forward to kita

‘its okay’

he mumbled and you were so thankful because that gave you enough motivation and strength to keep going

your height was staggering between these men and kita seemed to tower you

but you kept an even and calm face 

‘yes?’

you asked

kita looked at you and he stared at your face, pupils moving as a sign that he was inspecting your eyes and every feature 

oh my god you shouldve plucked your nose hairs this morning

before you could feel more self-conscious, he spoke

‘you said you want to be a doctor?’

‘well, more like a nurse but um same thing’

‘you know medical stuff? know how to treat injuries?’

‘yes. i was a manager back in my hometown so i have experience’

‘where are you from?’

‘miyagi’

‘ya familiar with shiratorizawa?’

you cringed but nodded

‘yes’

‘are you from there?’

‘yes’

the three stooges from behind you had wide eyes at this sudden revelation because that was a school theyve played before

even the last interhigh, they were familiar of how strong that school was

the eagle and the guess monster

and you were their manager before? 

must’ve been during middle school as you were just a first year

‘so you know how plays and stats work?’

‘yes. anything you want me to do, im familiar and capable to do it’

god why are you saying this

you didnt even want to be a manager in the first place

yet here you are again

you were getting flashbacks from the war ajkfdfd

kita looked at you silently once more before finally standing up straight and pointing you to their coach who was watching the whole thing with crossed arms and furrowed brows

‘there. talk to him and you can finalize everything. i think its too early to say this but nonetheless, welcome to the team, y/n’

AND THUS STARTED YOUR JOURNEY WITH THE BOYS

akldjklfjsdlakj

IT WAS ALL BUILT ON LIES BUT WHATEVER

AS LONG AS NO ONE DIED ISSOKAY

no but really dont tell lies in general yall, maybe white lies, but try not to do that

OKAY MOVING ON

MOMENTS WITH THE TEAM

duh you are much much closer to samu than the rest of the team so you tended to stick to him more

like you would go to him first if you needed something or if you wanted someone to help you with the crate, he would be your go-to

that would make atsumu whine because he felt that samu was better than him

‘oi, y/n! im really good with ma arms! i can bench 300 yanno?’

you politely smiled and nodded

‘thank you for telling me, miya-san’

then you would proceed to nudge samu’s arm yum to ask for help

butbutbutbut

dont worry!!!!

you do end up warming up to him

for my atsumu stans, yall tend to go to him when samu is either busy or you just need a good laugh

this mans will embarrass himself both on purpose or accidentally to make you laugh lmao

you also have extra bottles for his medicine because he has adhd and the guys are like,,,, yo chill

and duh atsumu would forget to take them so youre practically his reminder

we all know how tsumu was practically attacked that one time when he insulted those girls, right?

yall may have forgiven but i will never forget >:(

well, during matches, you as their manager, always have to tell the stands to be quiet when atsumu is serving 

but no one told you this

you kind of figured it out during your time like when his eye would twitch if samu was talking to suna too loudly or when he would close his eyes to shut off his hearing because of the loud spikes on the other side

you noticed it

so you would go to the stands and nicely tell them that if they see atsumu serving, to be quiet

‘i understand you are all excited when he does his serve but we would all benefit more you could release that excitement inside and silently’

*cue atsumu pretending to faint in sunas arms*

OH SPEAKING OF SUNA

YES I SAID THAT I DONT REALLY LIKE FANON SUNA BC,,,

WEED

AND DRUGS

AND RUDE 

JUST OVERALL

NOT RECOMMENDED

but canon suna :”)

as a player, suna is seen as really manipulative and snarky and witty

he loves to poke fun at the other team, even his own, and just all-around annoying

but off-court

suna is a very quiet and reserved person

totally different from the one who talks and yaps constantly to the other side of the net

and hes a really pure person in some topics

like he would turn red when you would compliment his new picture that he posted in inasgram 

PLEASE SUNA IS TOTALLY A PHOTOGRAPHER LIKE HE TAKES PICTURES OF SUNSETS AND STUFF

or when you would offer to bandage him up for him because it’s hard to do it himself and your hand would touch his

dont tell anyone this but suna is very relieved that you and samu weren’t dating

thats all

thats all for now

;)

OOOO kita!!!

okay so kita is the captain, right?

but he doesnt play

like he plays rarely and aran is usually the on-court captain

this causes you and him to be at the sidelines a lot

he would tell you what he thinks would happen next or what the next plan should be and you would provide your own input

in a way, he was the one who really taught you the mechanics of volleyball and he would tell you the different tricks that techniques that the twins came up with 

what makes you really soft and fall for him is when he starts to compliment his players

his pride in aran for being one of the top aces that has led them to nationals

his pride in mimi for being able to go on the longest on court and not be tired

his pride on akagi for being able to receive each ball and successfully give it to their setter

his pride on hitoshi for being the one who could handle the team personality wise and his plans for him to be his successor

his pride on ATSUmu for being the best setter he’s ever seen and his drive to get better no matter what

his pride on samu for being so strong and still getting stronger despite his dream career to be something not volleyball-related

his pride on sunA being motivated enough to help the team and make sure everyone knows that every ball can be stopped

like pls you almost cry all the time when you hear kita saying that because he seems to not say it to the others but only to you

it makes you happy that kita relies so much on these guys as much as they rely on him

OH MY GOSH OMIMI

okay

so omimi ren is a very quiet and calm character

hes kinda like suna where they dont really say much but when they do, its usually important and not irrelevant like atsumu

and he didnt say much when you got inducted in the team as a manager

like he just stared at you and you were just like o.o

ngl he did scare you a bit bc of his tall height looming over you and the way his dark eyes just pierces you through your soul

hes the type that you cannot willingly tell a lie to him bc you know he will find out one way or another

he can see right through you

maybe thats what makes him such a good middle blocker

but you started to warm up to him really quick and he would sometimes walk you home if the others cant mainly bc he knows his appearance will make anyone back off

its the simple things that make you appreciate him

two words: ginjima hitoshi

he is so two-faced

NO LISTEN BEFORE YALL BEAT ME UP JUST HEAR ME OUT

you know how like the 4 second years (PLEASE I KNOW THERES A GUY NAMED YUTO BUT LIKE I DONT KNOW MUCH ABOUT HIM AAAAAA TELL ME IF YOU WANT HIM IN HERE)

like suna, the twins, and hitoshi

the twins are the annoying ones who causes trouble, suna is the one taking pictures and evidence while cheering them on, and hitoshi is the one trying to break it up

BUT

i think that hitoshi is really the worst out of the 4 and he keeps in because who else would be the responsible one of the bunch

hello? they were about to be third years next year like are we really gonna go on with possibly a miya twin or suna being captain?

no

so he tries to force down his inner chaos to take on the role of the responsible one

BUTTTTT

you try to release that inner chaos

you sometimes hear him egging on atsumu under his breath like ‘do it’ but quietly so no one hears him

and youre like

?-?

please? we’re not? supposed? to allow? atsumu? to eat? and swallow? a whole? raw egg?

at first, duh he was also like that with you but you want him to be himself and be comfortable with you so you work hard to make him open up

now

you kinda regret it

because he now wants to go through the mcdonalds drive-thru, with no car, just to get mcflurries

you stared down at hitoshi from your bedroom window with a confused expression

‘but? you dont have a car?’

he grins up at you

‘but i got a CART! they said as long as it’s a car and car is in the word cart and the extra ‘t’ is just a bonus!’

‘hitoshi no-’

AAAAAA MICHIMICHI BABY

so akagi is the libero of the team and he is the one responsible for the make sure the ball doesnt touch the ground type of thing

you get really worried about him bc he does a lot of flying saves and his knees always get roughed up and such

so you try and stitch him up as much as you can like you even send him sites for good warm packs to buy

something that isnt known about akagi is that he, like atsumu, really likes to cook

but more like

he bakes

he bakes as a stress reliever and its like his meditation time

you go over to his house a lot to go bake something w him and share it to the guys later on

during ina get-togethers, him and samu are in charged of the food while youre the sous chef

SPEAKING OF SAMU

we forgot about him for a sec aldfjklkfdjlk 

it was all thanks to him

because of him, you became a manager despite your initial refusal to become one again

you made friends with more people and you were able to have a fun high school life because of it

because of him

osamu does get a little sad or irritated whenever the guys start to hog you up

like he has to push down the tantrum of ‘I SAW HER FIRST!’

he wants to be the better twin lmao

he gets really butthurt when you would go to someone else even during the middle of your conversation

like he would be talking to you on the side but suna calls you over for tape and youre going

he pouts and atsumu teases him about it causing him to bark at him

LOL HE BARKS

okay so training camp

i think therell be an imagine for this so ill try to not make it as detailed

lets just say its a mess

suna really wants to go hiking bc he wants to go the top of the mountain for pictures of the stars and stuff

but atsumu whines of the bugs and possible creatures in there

this causes osamu to tease him and call him a coward and a wimp

and leads to a fight which aran tries to break up but gets sucked in anyways

and omimi just stands by and watches but he intends to intervene if it gets too much

then akagi gets taken by suna to go the hike with him even though hes scared of bugs so hes whimpering and complaining

while kita and hitoshi are off in the kitchen talking about new grains of flour and stuff

where are you?

youre at the lodge, drinking your f/d (favorite drink) and watching all this go down bc at training camp, it’s every man for themselves

there is a lot of bonding times as a team bc these boys may seem like all they think about is volleyball but they like to do something else outside of that

what they love the most is going to the beach

not only do they get to have fun, they get to relax and see you in a swimsuit alkfdjkfj

especially when kita accidentally falls asleep? they bury him with sand and make him look like a mermaid

because they are players who work out so great bodies duh

and they get so much attention for that

but they all mainly pay attention to you and oh my

youve expressed not being comfortable in wearing a swim suit and watch these guys absolutely start throwing compliments at you

but the third years would softly tell you that it’s okay not to wear one bc all that matters is if youre comfortable or not

HELP I WANT AN ARAN AAAAAAAAAAA

OH SO

we know how kita’s family are rice farmers, right?

well

he farms to help his granny and sometimes, youre the only one who’s free enough to go and help him 

so you go over there all the time and granny really loves you bc one, you take care of her shin and thats beyond everything, and two, youre reliable and make shin laugh and such

like one time, you were carrying a basket to the back deck and granny saw you from the kitchen

she smiled before waddling over to the door so she could talk to you

‘y/n-chan!’

you whipped around quickly at the call of your name before grinning and hurrying up to her

‘yes, granny?’

she gave you a bottled water then gestured down to the field where shin was tirelessly tending to the rice

‘please give that to shinsuke. poor boy has been pushing himself too hard with the field and his sport and not taking care of himself’

she chided but there was a certain hint in her tone that made her sound so proud of her grandson

you looked down at the bottle and squeezed it

‘kita-san works hard not for himself, but for everyone else. it makes me sad when he neglects his health and tends to the team instead. so dont worry, baa-chan! i’ll take care of kita-san for him! for you!’

nah bc granny was already gossiping with her neighborhood ladies about this beautiful girl that shin got and how they should be jealous their grandsons don’t have someone like you

OOOOOOO 

since your family owns a cafe, the guys goes there all the time

its kinda like the ramen shop for the seijoh boys

they go there mainly to see you even outside of practice ANDDD

they wanna look good in front of your family

like tsumu suddenly knows cleanliness bc he cleans up the mess on the table or kita is no longer an introvert as hes now talking to your mom about the benefits of rice water and her not needing one bc her hair is already beautiful

PLEASE WHAT

and even during the summer, theyve helped out a lot when it was busy lunch times and you couldnt handle it yourself

GOSH IMAGINE SAMU BEING YOUR MOM’S APPRENTICE AND HANDSOME BOYS TAKING YOUR ORDERS WHILE SOME ARE CARRYING HEAVY TRAYS THAT MAKE THEIR ARMS POP

okay imma stop now

OH DONT GET ME STARTED DURING THE DEFEAT WITH KARASUNO

I DONT CARE YALL CAN HATE ME FOR SAYING THIS BUT KARASUNO SHOULDNT HAVE WON LIKE INARIZAKI WERE LITERALLY THE SECOND PLACE IN NATIONALS AND COMPETED AGAINST I T A C H I Y A M A

LIKE WHAT

OKAY ANYWAYS

everyone was already down and moody bc of the loss

and you wanted to be at the back bc you didnt know how to handle the situation

in your time as their manager, not once have you seen them lose

during those 10 months of being a manager, you have not once seen them be defeated during a game even with practice matches

then with those nobodies?

karasuno?

last time you checked, karasuno went down under when coach ukai retired

so having them lose was a real shock

and a really bad event

there was a certain air around you all during the bus ride to the hotel which made the entire time very uncomfortable

everyone finished their crying either in the locker rooms or the bathroom so all that was left was their red eyes

the coach sent everyone off to bed and although they were allowed more days to stay, they all collectively chose to just go home and keep those excused days as a rest day

‘we all would like to just stay at home and recharge’

kita’s request was everyone else’s, even yours, as you were both worried and tired for the boys

so that night, the coaches were able to book train tickets for everyone the next day back home

you stayed up, watching tv in your own room out of boredom because the group chat was quiet and you were too tired to do anything else

the next day, everyone 

osamu claimed your shoulder and he held your hand tight with his

his breathing was ragged and even with his closed eyes, the redness around them made it obvious he had been crying

the bus that was filled with excitement before, became quiet and the sound of the engine and wheels took over the silence

you thought samu had fallen asleep so you raised your free hand to stroke his hair

‘hey y/n?’

you flinched at the surprise but hummed 

‘imma tell him today. later, but today’

his voice was low and he was murmuring to hint that this was the extra sensitive topic you both discussed a few days ago at the cafe

you nodded but made sure he knew that no matter, he still got you

the coaches were upset and mad at the loss

but in the end, they all realized that this was the last game the boys would play as a team

sure, they could have practice matches and they could play again together in the future but nothing would change the atmosphere and feeling of playing the important matches 

this was the team that brought them closest to nationals with placing second out of the entire country

they were a good team that somehow got defeated

but the coaches were still proud

they didnt even yell at the boys to take laps and instead brought them into a team meeting

you stood beside the coaches, your own sniffles with everyone else, and listened to them talk

‘-year has been the most productive this school’s team has had in decades. i hope you all are proud of yourselves as we are proud of you. you lost so you are no longer in the competition and we talk about it tomorrow. but for now, go home and take a rest because tomorrow, we will be running laps and drills and miss y/n will be timing you until you pass out from exhaustion’

you blankly looked at the coaches bc you thought this would be a heartwarming talk but quickly turned into a threat

‘but thats for tomorrow. so go home and rest up. expect what is to come’

you were just wanting to leave lmao

like you wanted to hurry home and make something for the guys to eat tomorrow

just do something to make them at least smile

the guys were quietly packing up and you watched them with trembling eyes at their dismissal

you wanted them to stay longer

stay here and laugh and mess around

like tsumu poking kita and pretending he didnt

or mimi talking about something and aran staring blankly at him but he’s really sleeping with his eyes open and startling him awake

‘guys!’

you shouted

they all stopped and turned to look at you

‘hm?’

hitoshi asked

you hurriedly looked around to find something to stall them here and you noticed the cherry blossom tree that’s blooming 

must be the time of the year

‘l-lets! have a-take a picture! outside! by the tree!’

you pointed and they looked at each other

you were acting strangely

but they were simps for you so they just nodded and went outside

they didnt even complain and went to stand out in front of the tree

you had your phone and pulled it to the camera app to raise it to get the team in the frame

they looked sad and tired and worn out but they were still trying to joke around and have natural smiles

‘closer, you guys! bunch in closer!’

you motioned with one hand but they stopped

‘um? y/n? aren’t you gonna join us?’

ren asked but you shook your head

‘its? for you guys? besides, no one will take it for us, silly’

the boys insisted on you prop it up on a bench over there because they wanted you there with them

‘hey, come here! lets all be in it!’

aran shouted and you had no choice but to follow them

the boys had to stand closer to the camera as the bench was a ways ahead of the tree but dont worry, the tree is still there

they wanted you in the front bc they were all taller than you but they really wanted to showcase you

you were their manager and the person who took care of them

they treasure you so much

‘smile!!!’

someone shouted and the timer hit zero and the picture was taken

sure, their school’s motto was that they didnt need things like memories

to not have anything tying you down to the past and to challenge yourself with everyone focusing on the future ahead

in years from now, you could just be another thing from their past and nothing else

but they would be damned if that happened

any fragment of you to remind them of the best time of their youth and the person who loved them more than anyone else did

so yea, sure they wanted to represent their school’s motto

but this time

they can make an exception

a/n: HII!!!! IM BACK AND SUDDENLY IM ABLE TO WRITE AND FINISH THIS I SWEAR I CANT BELIEVE IT TOOK ME THIS LONG TO PUBLISH THIS I CANT WITH THIS YALL IM LOWKEY DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF AND IM ASHAMED IM SO SORRY

[venusguks]

— saccharine boy

pairing : reader x jeon jungkook

summary : the new transfer student is a bit strange…

genre : yandere jk, future smut, angst, dark, obsessive/possessive jk

warnings : this includes DARK themes with heavy topics. i dont support this unhealthy relationship dynamic irl. a huge TW for suicide, suicidal thoughts, tendencies, coaxing, themes. this is pure fiction so please know that if you’re struggling with suicidal thoughts, this may be really really horrible to read :(( yn and jk both say shitty things

part 1 of ??

☽

i loved you before i even knew you

in days fleeting moments, the sun dipped into the ocean, casting a surge of honey waves to engulf the city whole.

it’s vast, golden essence poured through the mid-open windows and into the empty school hallways.

moments before, the laughter of the baseball team dissipated, and those who confessed to the whim of spring filtered emotions had left with tear stained cheeks.

it's empty enough that you can hear your own slip ons click against the floor.

click, click, click.

you walk up the stairs, stopping right in front of the rooftop door.

the rusted knob is cool under your skin, and bracing yourself for the wind, you twist it open.

the wind whisks past you ferociously, as if urging you to turn back. you should've heeded the warning then (how foolish of you not to), but instead, you open your eyes to the tangerine streaks of the sky.

that’s when you see him.

— ❝ hey, do you regret it? ❞

his silhouette wavered beyond the metal railings of the rooftop.

you don’t know why—what had possibly gone through your mind when you spoke. it wasn't your business—you could honestly care less for people like him,

because people like him were the same as you.

despite that, you couldn't stop yourself from screaming, "you're such an attention freak, you know that?! do you really want to be seen that much?"

his head slightly lifted.

would he listen to you? would he care?

because if it were you past that railing right now, you wouldn't stop for anyone.

but doesn’t he see?

if he jumps, right now, right in front of you,

doesn’t he know how much that would break you?

please, the wind swallows your desperation. i’m already broken enough, so please don't make it any worse.

when i muster up the courage like you someday, i need to die without the thought of you jumping in my head.

— ❝ oh, i see… you're scared of me.❞

"there are so many other ways to kill yourself. drowning, the rope—you can jump off literally any other god damned building for all i care—but don't you dare make it this building! don't you dare jump off in front of me."

you saw it, as the wind danced past him, just how lifeless his eyes were

it was as if the sun himself feared him—preferring to quickly drown into the blue abyss rather than be in his mere presence.

"i know this place is terrible—but the janitor is so kind. he's a single father of three children and if you jump, he'd have to break his back scrubbing your blood for hours. he'd come home and put on a happy face despite worrying if his children will turn out like you. so please, for the janitor's sake, deal with haunting this school a different way. your death would affect more people than you’d know, so please.”

he doesn’t move, so hesitantly, as if it would change anything, you quietly add, "ah, he gave me food one time too.”

the boy’s back quivered, and your own trembling heart ached for him—but what you thought was sniffing turned into a loud, hearty laugh

you stood there, dumbfounded as you watched him.

"you're..." he tries to say through his giggles. when he catches his breath, he finally turns to you with the biggest smile.

"you're really stupid."

— ❝ but would it help if i said i've always loved you? ❞

frozen, you can only stand there gaping at him.

"i was just watching the sunset, but your reaction was so funny. you don't know how hard it was not to laugh."

what…?

you blink once, twice—then turning your heel, you begin to walk away.

"h-hey! wait!" he called from beyond the railings. "i'm sorry, okay? i was having too much fun—i didn't mean to scare you. please forgive me."

"scare me?" you scoffed. "kill yourself for all i care. it doesn't have anything to do with me."

— ❝ since that day... ❞

you just blurted it out of spite. you knew it was cruel, you didn’t mean it. you were just so angry. how dare he make a fool out of you? make a joke out of this? in your eyes, he was far more cruel.

“fine then.”

you turn back with a vile glare, but your heart stops as he takes a step back.

the boy hums in viscous amusement when he sees the horror in your eyes. in front of the blazing red of the sun, wearing his wide smile, he resembled a demon.

"forgive me, or i'll let go."

"d-don’t be stupid," you scowl, but you could barely feel yourself breathe.

then, just like that, one of his finger tips leave the metal bar—then another, and another.

you don’t know when you started running or how you even got there, but as soon as you hooked your fingers around his collar, you gave everything to pull him back.

"are you crazy?!" you scream, hot tears trickling down your eyes.

his annoying fit of laughter only angered you more.

— ❝ i loved you before i even knew you. ❞

"like i said, forgive me—and i won't try it again," he chimed in a playful tone.

you couldn't tell if he was joking or not.

it scared you, his carelessness.

he scared you.

“okay, okay! i forgive you!” you yell exasperatedly. “god, you—you think this is funny? what the fuck is wrong with you?! you could’ve—just because i—y-you could’ve…r-right in front of me…and i-i…”

"hey, hey..." he chuckles softly, interlocking his fingers with yours through the metal fence.

you refused to look at him, but you could still feel the tingling warmth of his skin. you were close, the bars only stopping at your torso. when you look back at it, you remembered the seeping reality of his beauty.

his voice, his touch, him...

everything he did made you feel so out of control, so vulnerable.

who was he? why did you have to meet him?

"i knew you'd catch me, its fine."

"that's not the point here you suicidal bitch! i mean—what were you thinking? are you out of your mind? i swear to god—if you jumped and i became a suspect of murder, i'd dig up your own grave and kill you again!”

the boy’s eyes widened, shock dancing with his own bemusement. they were the same lifeless brown, but golden specks glimmered in where he looked at you.

finally, he smiles, “you’re horrible.”

you give a viscious glare, but before you can retort something, he continues, his hand trailing up your arm.

"but at the same time, horrible people don’t try to save a horrible person from dying. no, you can’t be horrible,” a cold shiver runs through your body when his fingers brush against your collarbone. “you’re just a sweet girl, aren’t you? an angel who saved me…”

he pulls you closer by your neck, his lips barely touching the shell of your ears. your breath hitches, and your knees suddenly feel weak.

“i’d love to ruin you.”

nothing comes out of your mouth.

all you can hear is your heart thumping against your chest. all you can feel is the unbearable heat blooming on your cheeks, and all you can see is him.

finally, his words settle in.

“get the fuck off me you creep!”

— ❝ you're never leaving me, my love. i won't let you. ❞

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a/n : i’m so so so sorry if this triggered some people. this may be poorly written as well as i’ve written this YEARS ago. as you might tell, i was suicidal then and i often incorporated that in writing—its a way to get it off my chest sort of. to have relatable characters is something thats always made me comfortable. honestly rereading it again nothing makes sense LOL but i thought i’d continue it just for fun. i hope whoever has come across this is having a lovely and healing day, stay safe starlights <3

[ground-riot-jack]

Number 1 | K. Bakugou |

idk what this is man, an origin story maybe?? idk bakugou is an asshole and reader is a badass

The ratings where in, this is it, the big moment. After years of hard work and dedication, you’re finally about to find out if you made it the number Number 1 Hero Spot. You walk out on the stage with the other Top 5 heroes, one being your long term boyfriend, Bakugou. You’d been dating since highschool and worked at the same agency that he created.

“And for our number 2 Hero, we have...Ground Zero! Number 1... Angel! Thank you heroes for protecting and sacrificing your lives for us!” The announcer practically yelled at the large crowd of people.

You couldn’t believe it. You did it. You were the number 1 hero in all of Japan and your boyfriend was right behind you. The lights of the stage felt like power surging through your body. Your large white wings fluttered in excitement. You took your place at the number one podium and felt warm tears of joy stream down your face, you feel pata on your back and can hear congratulations swirling around but you can barely stand up straight.

Soon someone hands you a microphone, the crowd quieting down.

“Thank you all so much, I will work hard every single day until my body gives up to make sure this great nation is protected. I’ve worked very hard to get here so thank you all for recognizing my hard work and determination. I wanna thank Ground Zero, for being the best partner and for helping me get where I am. It won’t be easy but I will take this number 1 spot and wear it with pride. Thank you, i love you all” You spill out happily, you turn and grab onto Katsuki, hugging him and congratulating him on Number 2. You’d both climbed so high and so quickly since you’re UA days, it’s made you happy that you’ve come so far with the person you love most.

Bakugou however, didn’t look happy. It was extremely rare to see a smile on his face, but at the very least you’d expected his bored face. But now, he looked angry. He looked like he was ready to level the city withy he scowl pressed on his face.

“babe, what’s wrong? you good?” You grab his large bicep, getting him to look at you. His bright red eyes snap to yours and you feel locked in with how much animosity they hold.

“I’m ready to go home” He spits out before turning and walking back to the car you’d both arrived in.

You took a few more pictures with fans before following your grumpy boyfriend. As soon as you sat in the car, you could feel the tension thick in the air.

“Ok seriously babe, what the hell is wrong? We got the top spots, that’s amazing!” You turn towards him as the driver head back to your place.

“It’s nothing” He managed to say through his teeth with his are locked together with how tight he’s clenching his jaw.

“It’s something, you’re getting ready to blow this car up”

“I said it’s nothing, Angel” He speaks, the name oozing in malice and anger. Suddenly it clicked.

“You’re jealous that I got the number one spot while you got number two. jesus christ katsuki, could you be any more pessimistic. Why can’t you just be happy for me that i’ve reached a goal i’ve been trying to get my whole life? Number two is in no way shape or form bad.” You huff and fall back against the seat, you watch Bakugou clench and unclench his fists while staring out the window.

“I have to be number one and be better than All Might” He growls quietly, you knew it was a somewhat sensitive subject, but you couldn’t believe your ears.

“All might? Katsuki, you’re 23 years old, you can’t truly expect to be better than All Might right now? All might wasn’t even this good at this age yet, you’re way ahead of schedule. You can’t be happy for me because you wanna be better at 22 years old than All Might was in his prime? You’re delusional katsuki.”

“I HAVE TO BE NUMBER ONE”

“THATS FINE BUT WHY CANT YOU BE HAPPY THAT TOUR GIRLFRIEND IS NUMBER ONE?”

“BECAUSE IT SHOULD BE ME”

“so you think I don’t deserve this katsuki? You think what? I haven’t worked hard enough? I’m nor strong enough? I’m not good enough? WHAT IS IT KATSUKI? Why don’t I deserve to be number one? Why do you think your were unfairly judged?”

You both stared at each other in silence for a while, anger boiling into the atmosphere. You understood the only thing that drove bakugou in highschool was his need to be number one. You were both adults now, and you were in love with each other. You’d hoped that you’d made a big enough impact on bakugou that your life and love together would be enough of a motivator to be great, the way it was with you.

You felt that car pull into your large home, and immediately jumped out, racing up to your shared bedroom. You got out of your hero costume and into leggings and a tank top. You took off all your makeup and picked the confetti out of your wings. You looked up as Bakugou walked in the room.

“Im not sorry that I’m not settling for number two, I never will and you know it, but i am sorry for yelling at you and the way I acted.” Katsuki grumbled while looking at the floor. Usually, his awkward and hesitant apologies warmed your heart and made you gush at how cute your angry boyfriend was, but now you find yourself staying angry.

“That’s not an apology katsuki. You refuse to be happy for me, even though you promised you would be. You refuse to even acknowledge how much work I put into this to be number one. I am THE youngest Hero to hit number one and you can’t even say good job babe. Instead you get angry and jealous and mean because it wasn’t you. Never mind the fact that you jumped from 10 to 2 which is THE biggest jump anyone’s seen in years bakugou. You won’t even let yourself be happy at what you’ve done, because you’re too busy being jealous” You poke his chest, finally standing in front of him.

“It’s not a bad thing to want to be the best” He crosses his arms, getting defensive.

“Of course not babe, I want you to be the best too. So why don’t you want me to be the best?”

“It’s not that, it’s-“

“It’s what Katsuki?”

“I made a promise to myself-”

“YOU MADE A PROMISE TO ME KATSUKI. You gave me this fucking promise ring and told me that you you’re gonna support me no matter what. That we were gonna work hard to get to where we need to go and we were gonna do it together. You promised me you’d be by my side. That’s the difference between us babe. You need to be number one for yourself, I need to be number one for us. You’ve forgotten that” You wipe your tears and move around the tall man in your way. It hurt that Katsuki couldn’t see this was bigger than his highschool days. This was your life together. You hadn’t spoken to All Might or even Midoriya in years, so why was it so hard for him to accept you as a permanent part of his life.

“Baby, i’m sorry I just. I get one track minded and I was so hopeful that this was finally the day. I needed so bad to be number one-“

“THIS IS NO LONGER ABOUT BEING NUMBER ONE KATSUKI, THIS IS ABOUT HOW YOU CANT SEE THAT YOURE TREATING ME LIKE A SIDE CHARACTER. I AM YOUR GIRLFRIEND!! For fucks sake katsuki, we live, work, sleep, eat do and do everything together, so the fact that I’m not even one of the reasons you go out and do what you do hurts because this” You pause and gestured to everything around you. “This is the reason I wake up every morning, you are the reason I fight crime and your reason is, a childhood rivalry. You’re am adult now, you’re supposed to be friends with midoriya and all might and you’re supposed to be over this whole thing. This isn’t supposed to be the thing that drives you. I’m not saying I have to be too of the list but it would be nice to be on the list” You sigh and look at your boyfriend. You knew this wasn’t healthy to yell at each other like this, but you needed him to understand where you’re coming from.

“Baby, Of course you’re my reason for waking up and being a hero, I would do anything to protect you, it’s just I always pictured me at Number 1 with my agency and you and a family. I have a need, a primal urge to be number one and that’s never going to change. Doesn’t mean i don’t love your dumbass”

“Well I’m number one Katsuki, and I earned the hell out of it. I worked my ass off day and night for weeks and months and years so that I could have this. And to see you pout and complain and look me in my face and tell me you don’t think I deserve this spot hurts more than some cute little apology where you call me dumbass lovingly. So i’ll ask you again, why don’t you think I deserve this spot? What makes you better?” You squinted your eyes at the tall man and clench your jaw.

“Im physically stronger-“ You interrupt your boyfriend by grabbing his arm and kicking his legs out from under him, using your wings to flip him over in his back, pinning him down.

“You’re so close minded katsuki, that you don’t even know what i’ve. been doing for the past 8 months. I an the number one hero you think i didn’t train to be stronger than everyone around me?” You ask, hurt laced in your voice.

“Fine, you deserve this spot. You’re the best.”

“You dont meant that, I’m gonna make you fucking mean it Katsuki. One day you’re gonna see me and i’m gonna be the best and you’re gonna be in awe of my power and then you’ll finally see that i deserve this.” You push off of him and stand up your wings tucking close to your body.

“Just-give me a week babe. I promise I’ll make it up to you and I’ll show you I am happy for you, it’s just difficult being let down like this. I’m a sore loser and you know it.” Bakugou grabs your shoulder and pulls you close to his chest.

“You haven’t even said you’re proud of me yet. or that you love me. or even good job katsuki. You don’t believe i’m your heart that i deserve this do you?” You look at him, heart in your throat.

“I believe I should be number one. Every time.” Katsuki mutters in your hair like it was a compliment. You push him back, rage filling your body.

“You’re fucked up katsuki. I’m fucking leaving” You spit, throwing on a jacket and shoes, heading towards your front door.

“Where the hell are you going?!” Bakugou snarls as you move past him.

“Katsuki, I love you with every fiber of my soul, but right now looking at your face makes me wanna throw you across town and beat the shit out of you. I’ll be back tomorrow maybe” You mumble the last part, not really sure how long you wanna be away from your hot headed boyfriend.

“you can’t just fucking leave y/n, how do you expect to be number one of you can’t even stay and win a fight against your boyfriend.” Katsuki let’s out a dry laugh, causing you to turn away from your front door.

You lunge at Katsuki, ready to punch him until he understands you’re the number one hero. You two roll around fighting and spewing things typically reserved for villains. Bakugou pins you down on the floor, his knee on your chest and his hands holding both your wrists beside your head. You close your eyes and focus all your energy into your chest, a faint ball of white light glows from your heart. Ktsuki looks at it with realization before the energy is expelled from you and your boyfriend is sent flying across the living room.

“You did not just use Power Surge on me.” He growls. wiping the sweat from his brow.

“I did, and i’m fucking leaving and your not gonna say shit or so help me god katsuki, i will shoot a beam of light so bright and hot that you wake up blind, burnt and fucking single.” You use your wings to send you flying straight to your front door, you look back at your confused boyfriend once more before taking to the sky.

Bakugou began the cleaning process, shocked and confused. Why didn’t you understand he wants to be happy for you, he truly does, but his pride won’t let him get away with not winning. He decided to let you fly off to calm down for the night, opting to call and talk to Kirishima. The two friends ended up talking for a bit longer than expected, bakugou trying to get kiri on his side, not his girlfriends. It didn’t work however, Kirishima understood that bakugou would let his emotions cloud his mind, even when it came to you. By the end of the conversation, bakugou was almost has heated as he was while fighting you. He concluded the best option was to head to his agency and train for the night.

He arrived and decided to do some things around the office before heading to the training and workout wing of his large building. While going thru last minute files, there’s a knock on his door.

“Ground Zero, i wasn’t expecting you to be here so late.” A stranger smiles in Bakugou face as he opens his office door, his secretary smiling sheepishly.

“Who the hell are you?” He cocks his head and tries to figure it out before he’s told, one of those weird habits he’s picked up being a hero.

“My apologies. I’m Niko Takeyama, I work for the Hero Commission. How would you like to be the number one hero by this time next month.”