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frogmanfae · 1 year

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I love Ben Fankhauser

#surprisingly this has not been brought to the surface by newsies #i mean obviously thats where it started #but i just listened to his version of Run Away With Me #I'm a simple man #a simple man in love #i love #I'm in love with ben fankhauser #ben fankhauser

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haemosexuality · 1 month

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being this fluent in english kind of fucked me up because now i have this huge standard i set for myself when it comes to languages that im never gonna achieve again and it makes me feel disheartened and intimidated about start learning a new one

#like im probably never gonna achieve this level of fluency in any other language and thats ok #english is extremely over abundant onlyne theres whole WEBSITED (like this one) with millions of people where over 90% of users post #exclusively in english #all the most famous tv shows and songs and books and youtubers etc are in english #obviously other languages also have all those things but theyre not gonna be as easy to just come by #and youre not gonna be swimming in it. they arent gonna be the norm like english is #so yeah ill probably never gonna be as fluent in any other languages and i need to let that expectation go or ill just be scared forever and #never learn anything else #anyways. i kinda want to start officially learning spanish #as a brazilian thats kind of just whatever like its not hard or Different™ by any means but its gonna be more useful in my day to day life #than something like idk french of mandarin (which i would also like to learn)

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months

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Lineup of all of the characters that appear long enough to need a visual representation of them in the game lol

#I added a few people that you can randomly run into around town (like at the inn or in the forest or etc) and have very short conversations #with just to kind of flesh out the world a little more in a more natural-ish seeming way. Like nobody in the main cast would really #have much reason to talk about the actual city you're in or anything. Since most of them havent lived there that long anyway.#But if there's a ''city inspector'' that you can run into whilst he's writing up notes examining the local inn. then maybe there could be a #few dialogue options with him where you can ask about things like that. since he would know more about the area as an offical Government #Worker or etc. Optional of course. since I have to be so wary of my natural inclination to lore dump lol and am trying extra hard to make i #all stuff thats easily avoided/skipped. But for the people like ME who deliberately choose to exhaust every possible optional dialogue #option and explore every single inch of the world and try to collect as much information as possible - then there are a few extra places to #do that. Though obviously not all of them just give exposition for like 15 paragraphs blandly. Some you don't really learn anything from #and it's kind of just.. random flavor to make the non-shop map locations more ''lived in'' feeling. Like the random #little girl you can talk to in the park doesn't bizarrely start reading out the wikipedia description of some War that happened 10 years ag #or whatever. she's just complains about school a little and asks if you've tried the nearby ice cream cart treats and etc lol #ANYWAY..#some of the art is so so evil but I'm not going to spend 800 years trying to clean it up and update it. whatever the hell mess I sketched #out in 2018 or whatever is just what I'm keeping lol... it is what it is #One of the many trials of the whole 'briefly work a few months on something and then abandon it almost entirely only to pick up work #on it literally like 4 - 5 yrs later and now you must contend with trying to decipher whatever weird shit you did years ago' experience lol #Also given the population breakdowns of the world in general I think there's an unrealistic amount of jhevona in this lineup since #they're a much rarer species to just see out and about anywhere but.. it IS a global trading center type area. and the game #takes place in the north (the country of Asen. near the coast. for the maybe 2 or less people who actually keep up with my worldbuilding #enough to know where that is lol (the same continent as Navyete (where the avirre'thel live)) and there's a decent concentration #of nothern jhevona only a short ways away so... tee hee..I shall pretend it makes sense and not merely me just wanting #to represent more of that species because I think their lore is interesting lol #I MEAN also realistically there would NOT be a human here because humans are extremely isolated species that don't even know the rest #of the world exists really and human territories are extremely protected from the outside world but... of course it's like.. well we need #at least One of them to be there for the Optional Lore. Same with the Ythrili. But at least those are like.. PLAUSIBLE.. not nonsensically #outlandish. If I had a Verrucalt or something in there THEN that would be truly lore-breaking almost lol #ANYWAY.. rambling that only means anything to me because nobody else knows what I'm even referencing but hbjh #also I think my character designs are so funny in the sense that I really do just love to do the same thing over and over again ghbjh #wow... random asymmetry and belts and arm straps and high collars where the neck is completely covered?? you dont say..how novel

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magstorrn · 2 months

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every few years im reminded that the war of the worlds stage show exists which is never good because i always find something new to hate about it

#missives #the war of the worlds #jeff wayne #watched a few clips of the latest tour and brooooo why does it suck so bad #it doesnt have to be this way. make me the single divine arbiter of what goes into the show and ill fix it i promise #lile obviously it is successful somehow but that doesnt make it good #rip it from jeff's clammy little hands and make it into a proper musical please please please. they were on the right track in 2016 #with the dominion theatre production #its been downhill ever since #like. its just a bunch of decrepit old men way past their prime who desperately need to retire (looking at jeff and herbie flowers and JH)#and a stupid fucken hologram of an actor nobody likes. put a real actor there PLEASE #its soooo painful watching these genuinely talented performers being forced to rush their lines #anyway! my latest gripe #every new iteration of brave new world ive seen since 2018 keeps making the song worse #2018 is on thin fucking ice bevause i like the cast so much but thats where it all began im pretty sure #turning the end of the song into this weird combo love duet and whole cast ensemble song (life begins again) out of fucken nowhere #its the artilleryman's song holy shit get that out of here!#and i get that the latest tour is the 'post covid' life begins again tour or w/e but holy FUCK #can someone please explain to me why they now even have the other cast members on the screen saying lines at the same time #as the artilleryman #e.g. im not trying to tell you what to be #and its going to have to start with me and you etc etc etc #its annoying and even worse it doesnt make sense!!! why are they there!!! why are they saying the lines!! those lines have a very #specific meaning within the context of the song #idk it just seems like the song keeps being stripped of all its original meaning and i really like it so it's driving me bonkers #anywya. ANYWAY

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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I don't understand why it's generally not socially acceptable to recognize your good qualities. Like I don't understand why it's bad to be a show-off or a know-it-all or to brag. Like I think most people know "those things = bad" but not why.

It also seems like people are always either waaaaay into one end of the scale where they are just so unbearably full of themselves and have preposterously high self esteem (and most people act like this is fine too? Like a lot of celebrities and white men specifically seem to be like this) and I don't understand why so many people respect them then. Or they're the complete opposite with self esteem way too low despite the fact that they have redeeming qualities.

I feel like maybe the reason it's considered bad to brag is because you might 'make' other people feel inadequate but see that seems like a stupid reason to me because the problem then is not that you stated an opinion of your own self worth but is actually that everyone else is conditioned to compare themselves to each other in a very unhealthy way. And I think instead of discouraging people from opening up about what they take pride in, what they like about themselves, what makes them feel happy or content or confident, maybe we could just be discouraging people from viewing those things as personal threats? Idk just trying to formulate some thoughts on this

#idk why but this feels like a very convoluted topic #like so many people are probably coming from different starting positions on this than i am and im afraid that might #make it be misinterpreted or something #like i feel like there definitely is a balance where some self esteem is too little and some is too much #it just feels like it is exceedingly rare to find anyone with ideal realistic self esteem and idk why #i also dont mean this in a way to say that every action is the responsibility of the people taking offense either #because obviously thats not how that works. its understandable to demand a certain amount of respect #and to accept that your words (even the ones you say about yourself) could negatively impact other people #and thats not necessarily on them for being defensive #idk social concepts are strange and foreign to me so im still figuring this stuff out and through an autistic lense to boot #so sometimes i feel a bit like im conducting a study or an experiment more than writing a blog post #im just trying to understand people because i need to #it seems like the overwhelming majority of allistics have absolutely no interest in why they do the things that they do #so i have to go around experimenting instead of asking direct questions about this stuff #because when i do ask direct questions they look at me like i just asked them if the sky is actually blue or if its just gasses up there #in case you are not the most common dimwit. the sky is both of those things. however when you ask someone a question #phrased like that about a topic they dont want to admit they dont know about. they will usually avoid the question or answer absurdly #its actually kinda funny you should try it sometime #now im distracted because i dont know enough about how the sky works and i need to know #anyways gonna go down a research rabbit hole methinks

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fruitsyrups · 22 days

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blank eyed girl and ghost fly and the first investigation and stakes miniseries (but specifically the parts that involve finn and jake) and also sometimes kind of objects or scenes (like the sword finn gets from hunson and the scene in the same episode where they're all eating pizza after marcy's concert ... all has a certain kind of atmosphere to me... a vibe.. if you will. i dont know what it is though. but im a little bit crazy about it to be honest

#something something night time something something investigation something something pizza. for some reason ? because they're also getting #pizza at the start of blank eyed girl. and that is undeniably part of the vibe.#something something paranormal/supernatural (are those synonyms or no) elements ... smth smth Hanging out while that stuff is going on...#the episodes where marcy and pb and finn and jake and pepbut are hunting the vampires in the woods ... condense that and inject in directly #into my veins. thx #i dont think i ever talked about these much because theyre conceptually very out there and kind of embarrassing but #ive got these aus... heehee... one of them is a modern/teacher au(bonnie/marcy are teachers . finn is a student . jake is finn's caretaker)#and also a vampire au. and you might be thinking Thats not au marcy is already a vampire... but THE THING IS! not in this one. actually.#because the whole thinngggg is that PB is a vampire and its a SECRET and marcy comes from a family of vamp hunters #so she obviously suspects PB of being a vampire but they both talk around it and flirt obviously and its all sooo silly. and i love it.#AND THEN THERES ANOTHER ONE. and it's another modern/everyone-is-human au (sorry i'm boring) EXCEPT finn is a werewolf. so like... finn is #dog (in a way) and jake is a human. you get it.#and pb is studying to become a scientist . and jake is still finn's caretaker because even in modern aus finn is a double orphan to me. soz #btw when i say jake is his caretaker i mean that joshua and margaret were the ones who adopted him but then they died and jake got #custody. finn and jake still have a brotherly dynamic even in this scenario. jake is responsible for him but they still see eachother as #brothers. just to be clear. like it's not a father figure kind of situation. i love their unconventional family dynamic 😽 i love them so #much. ermmm hang on i got off track...#so finn is a werewolf and jake is aware of it and they drag PB into it because she knows Science .#pb is like ... well i can't just NOT cure lycanthropy.#so thats that whole thing...#love it. great idea . whoever came up with all that must be sooo cool. and cute too. probably really smart and funny too. 😇#and aaalssooooo. i was tossing around the idea of another modern/human world au (i knooow im sorry i dont know why i keep doing this) and #it's a chatfic. and i know how that all sounds. BUT!!!! yeah this one has a twist too. because how could it not ! i am Me after all.#actually recently all of my ideas have been grounded af. borderline slice of life even. so boring i know.#but these AUs are all stuff i came up with a little while ago so they all had to be silly in order to even keep my attention for 5minutes.#so the twist in this one is that BMO is an AI (but like actually sentient not just a boring chatbot bc what wld even be the point of that)#and then robots try to take over the word or smth. and then bmo saves the word and stuff #no real plots for any of these AUs but the ideas are there. and i do want to try to do something with them somedayyyyy. eventually.#i hardly ever move on from anything actually. thats my truth.

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gibbearish · 10 months

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so like i want to talk more abt what suicidal means but the problem is "suicidal ideation presents in two general forms, active and passive. the thing most people think of as suicidal is the active version, where the person *actively* desires to be dead and/or is making a plan to get there. the passive form however gets almost no attention in media so many people experiencing it are unaware they are even depressed, much less passively suicidal. some examples: not wanting to experience death but feeling like you wouldn't mind if you didn't wake up tomorrow or just stopped existing; feeling deeply exhausted with just the entire concept of being alive; even feeling like you want to run away, change your name, and start a whole new life; none of these look like suicidal ideation to most people because they don't involve actively doing anything to get from point a to point b, especially the more abstract ones like the start a new life thing - but remember that in order to truly start a whole new life, you have to destroy your current one. it's not suicidal as in wanting to actually DIE die, it's just. wanting something close enough to scratch the itch. but just because you haven't booked the ticket doesn't mean you don't still revisit the 'vacation activities at point b' tab occasionally to daydream, yknow?" is i think very informative and specific, but its also quite long and run on-y so people are v likely to tap out like a third of the way through it, whereas "suicidal doesnt necessarily mean wanting to die" is way shorter and therefore catchier, but is also the kind of nonspecific phrasing that gets you a thousand angry anons about how you said all suicidal people are just pretending they actually want to die or some dumb shit. so it's a fun line to toe

#especially when youre far too lazy to dig up sources however if u google passive suicidal theres a lot of info #pretty front and center altho you will get jumpscared by the size 1000 font suicide hotline number #or maybe you wont but i sure was. why was it so big #in this house we simply post both as part of another hashtag relatable post in the hopes that the two for one bargain #will entice viewers to read the whole thing and go 'wait but /i/ feel like that what do you mean'#and then make a meta joke about it in the tags so the viewers think we're hip and cool #nah but seriously i see ppl not knowing abt this . so much and every time im like !!!!!!! no youre not crazy youre not supposed #to feel like this!!!!#so its one of the things where im like nah idc if im being annoying abt this as long as i hit the one (1) todays lucky 10000 who needs it #this one i dont remember seeing on any articles but id like to propose also that having trouble imagining your future can count too #and like obviously all of these have exceptions right like. ppl can just want to start a whole new life for non suicidal reasons #but if theres a pattern of these things or you find yourself being drawn back to one over and over again thats #when you should start being like ok somethings afoot #like the imagining ur future one you could easily have trouble visualizing things or even just Not Be Especially Imaginative #...or... it could be that deep down you dont feel like you /have/ one so your brain just. steers away from the subject entirely #and ykno. knowing which one it is is usually pretty helpful LOL #anyways. sorry theres no paragraph breaks i could not for the life of me figure out a good spot for them #/suicide #/suicide mention #/suicidal ideation #/depression #/death mention #and of course i think also like a lot of things this is more of a spectrum than a binary like obviously 'run away and #start a new life' is def a bit less active than 'id be ok w it if i didnt wake up tomorrow' but theyre still both on the lassive side #passive*#eugh im rambling now and not even in the slightly contained way the post itself is #im hitting post without rereading for the 40th time otherwise ill remember another tangent so if theres #any errors left my apologies

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doublekanble · 5 months

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Hi. Read your fic WHAT THE FUC- (/POS ITS SO GOOD??) BRUH I WENT INTO IT BEING LIKE "oh I'm just curious as to what this'll be, I'm sure it's just like some short self indulgent thing" THEN GOT STABBED LIKE TWELVE TIMES OVER. INSTANT FOLLOW. OH MY GOD.

its actually IS self indulgent! just in the opposite direction! i want him to kiss me so badly but i also want him to hate me until its all he knows its a bit of trouble really

#im going with this not because i want to. but because i want to survive even if its horrible-#but i will also be complaining the whole way through.#alastor did one wrong thing that he thought would've been ok but turns out that of all thing is the-#invisible line he could never cross so oops he's hated forever and ever now nothing to do about that #/kbtalk #TYSM WAHHH WORDS LIKE THIS ARE THE REASON I WRITE SO MUCH #MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!! TY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #and since whenever someone send me an ask like this i just start diving into my thoughts on al and shit-#i have great trouble processing my own worth and the fact other people think of me still makes me go ??#also a general sense of #like very obviously morally corrupt protag but not to the point of murder on their own accord #my favorite thing ever is also #thats why al never get his happy ending fully its always him biting #im very firm on my take of al already its just dif flavor of him #if i want to kiss him i wouldve just kiss him but what about the fun part where he agonized over the idea of loving something so much-#he can die for it but also refusing to lay his ego down for it #to love is to be vulnerable and frail and weak and to accept the unknowing. alastor hates all of the above. in this essay i will-

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infizero · 1 year

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i dont think i made this clear in the prev post but WHAT I WAS GETTING AT WAS i think toby specifically wants players to get attached to ralsei and make choices playing into that so that the inevitable reveal of our distinction from kris and their own opinions and feelings and everything hits even harder by sort of slapping you in the face and being like HEY BUDDY. THEY DONT WANT THIS. and also a slap in the face to ralsei too who i again would like to say is parasocial asf with us and needs to go to video game therapy :heart:

#some of the ways he makes us like ralsei is just by having him look rlly cute and act super nice and stuff obviously #but i think him looking like asriel could play into that too #theyres definitely a deeper significance to his resemblance to asriel but in addition to whatever that ends up being #since ur supposed to play deltarune after having played undertale... having ralsei look like a character who most ppl remember very #positively (as well as in the context of deltarune being kris/''''''our''''''' nice older brother #im not saying that *IS* why a lot of ppl take a liking to him im just saying that i wonder if that was something toby specifically had in #mind. idk. but i do think he intentionally wanted us to really like ralsei #and now in chp 2 hes intentionally made ppl start to be suspicious of him #where is this going? no idea! but toby is definitely considering how the player currently views ralsei i think #i mean thats just common sense. considering what your audience is (probably/''should be'') currently thinking and using that as a guide to #what you show them next. if you have any sort of mystery element to ur story then u should always be thinking about ''how much does the #audience currently know about whats going on based on what clues ive given them so far? how much information can be gleaned from this? how #much do i ideally want a viewer/player/reader/whatever to know at this point in the story?''#and i think with ALL his characters and story beats and secrets #toby is very precise about how much he shows his hand #esp after undertale lol. hes definitely always very considerate of how much theorists and coders and stuff will be able to piece together #from what he gives us #at least i assume so LOL #he SEEMS to be very good at it #serena.txt

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dirt-str1der · 2 years

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I dont care about majima x sagawa btw but i care a lot about their relationship regardless because i want them to have the most toxic dealings and skewed power dynamics with each other as possible and i them both to have increasingly warped perceptions of each other (worlds most incorrect uncle-nephew relationship)

#Listen to my problems #sagawas like majima chan i bought pudding for you since chewing is hard right now and majimas like (muffled) can you kill yourself . and #sagawa is like (laughs) keep up that tone and ill break your jaw again #like obviously sagawa isnt doing charity work putting majima back on his feet because majima has to pull his own weight too but over time #majima became less of an ‘investment’ and more like his hotheaded young apprentice / nephew who is really smart (sagawas very proud of him)#but also doesnt know anything good for himself because hes an idiot and sagawa needs to do everything for him sometimes or he’ll pull the #most ASININE stunts imaginable. like kid i do Good by you and you do the same for me as long as you keep your head down and run the grand.#he cannot fathom why majima wants to claw his way back into the tojo because sagawa Knows shimano and he Knows that shimano is bad news and #will definitely send majima into the jaws of death over and over and seriously what a WASTE of good talent !!! unfortunately majima is the #same type of stupid as his oath brother but it doesnt mean he wants to see the kid get himself killed (wise words from a man who got himself #killed) | and majima ... it was not difficult to start going crazy about sagawa at first sight because he just came out of a very violent #place where every touch meant more torture and pain then suddenly hes being put in the capable hands of a man whos like a fucking angel #sagawa feeds clothes and bathes him and majima cant help but act like being cared for is the worst thing thats ever happened to him theres #too much touching and hes completely dependent on sagawa who checks his weight daily and changes his bandages and cleans his leaky infected #eye and he wants nothing more than to be left alone but he cant do anything by himself and hes too devastated to be grateful. its gross !!#and whenever he inevitably breaks the hell down sagawa is always there to hold and comfort him and what the hell else can he do but seek #comfort in the only person that ‘cares’ about him when sagawa is so good at pretending ... is he pretending ? who gives a fuck anymore man #sagawas punishment and comfort all in one ... hes a means to an end .. hes majimas caretaker and his gaoler. the guy who knows everything #about him and the one who’ll use every last bit of it against him oh god wait #this is just isabelle and emma damnit damnit im gonna go read purromised neverland again

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arolesbianism · 1 year

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What's up gamers I'm bored

#rat rambles #Ive been in my 3d animation class for 2 hours and Im gonna be here for another 2 hours god help me #I have a decent start of a draft for our current 2d animation assignment but I am now kinda burnt out so Im taking a break #which ofc means Im bored as hell I should have brought snacks fr #idk I might dip out of class for a sec to buy some since I think theres some vending machines on campus?#idk where tho I forgor #I also do feel like I need to keep pushing forward tho since ngl I havent even touched this project before today #and I wasnt at the last class so idk I feel like I need to prove Im trying or smth #idk either way Im tired and bored and wish I was playing rainworld rn #also Im animating some of my slugcat ocs! the mama cat boon accidentally possessed and her two kids #I was originally gonna animate different characters but then I decided to stick with some simpler designs to make things faster #like I Could animate more humanoid designs but given Im already behind I dont wanna risk it #rly my biggest issue is having to animate at 24 frames per second Im more used to animating at 15 #its not too hard its just gonna be frustrating filling out the like 300 frames I need to do #obviously Im gonna pad with loops and stills this is an animation class after all the teacher will get it #but still thats a lot of frames to figure out what to do with

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cherry-shipping · 1 year

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i think its awesome how every single one of my f/os, romantic or otherwise, would smoke weed with me EXCEPT dave. hed joke about it but if i asked him he would be so fucking scared. mf would never

#and thats MY TRUTH!!!!!!!#like i ask him and he says yes out of instinct so i set everything up and start to just like walk him through the basics #but he just chickens out. he does NOT smoke WEED im SERIOUS!!!!!!#hes scared little scared idiot baby little fucking loser cant pick up a blunt #he wishes he could cause its cool or whatever but he could never. or alternafively he doesnt get affected due to adhd #but hes too scared to say anything so he just. pretends #i dont care if this is ooc maybe he smokes when hes older but if you asked him before like 25 hed be so scared #cherry chats #im going to bed. im just mourning the 2g i LOST awhile back #like i just. forgot where i put it. and i havent been able to find it so i havent gotten high in like. months LMFAO #shit lets be rails ill be the shoosh to your pap #that said i bet he loves messing with me while im high. hes like the worlds trolliest trip sitter #and by troll i obviously dont mean the. homestuck kind. whatever you get it #hed think thats so fun hes so great

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godsfavoritescientist · 2 years

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