#i need to stay out of the supercorp tag

[mary-aries]

WIP Wednesday

It's not Wednesday anymore! But thank you to the lovely @johaerys-writes for tagging me! Here is a snippet of a work in progress for my Sky High AU Patrochilles series .

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Patroclus never minded if Achilles was late back from missions. That’s the thing about loving a superhero, Achilles supposed – by the time Achilles rocked up home, Patroclus was just glad he made it home at all.

Achilles would apologise just the same, of course – he was sorry. SuperCorp wouldn’t let him have his phone on his person during missions (too much confidential information on one device) so Patroclus relied on updates from the assistants and techs to keep him in the loop. Just as often he heard about Achilles’s exploits via HeroApp (Get the news on your favourite superheroes anywhere, anytime!). It was shitty, and Achilles resolved he would demand better communication with Patroclus just as soon as he could, but he had been making a lot of demands lately, and would have to choose his moment carefully.

Achilles had been away for four days – a whole fucking day longer than he signed up for – and he missed Patroclus too much. Achilles Pelides had wanted Patroclus from the first. He wanted him, but having him hadn’t sated that – it heightened it, turned want to need. They were each two whole and complete people, but when they were apart, Achilles felt less himself. A person can take you into their heart, and that’s a wonderful thing, but then a part of you can walk away from you, and that is the pain of loving.

“Patroclus?” Achilles called into their apartment (a short term rental). They never stayed anywhere very long. Achilles was still fresh from Sky High making a name for himself. Super fast, strong, able to fly – you take that shit across the country, get your name out there. Achilles would be one of the greats, but that meant touring. Patroclus was not one of the greats, so he followed.

No response came, and Achilles collapsed on the couch.

Patroclus was easy on him about missions going overtime, but he worried. He tried to be cool about it, but it made Achilles smile that when he returned home, he often found Patroclus asleep on the sofa waiting up for him. He never minded when Achilles woke him up – he would start awake, only to take a deep breath and pull Achilles down into his arms.

Are you hurt? he would ask tiredly.

Not much, Achilles would reply. Achilles was tricky to wound – between his trifecta of gifts, Achilles was already shaping up to be the best of a generation. But he was not impervious, and Patroclus was always quick to find his nicks and bruises.

My work’s never done with you, Patroclus would tsk, half teasing, his fingers trailing Achilles’s battle wounds. I’m fucked from the hospital. Take me to bed and undress me and I’ll heal you.

Patroclus was a Tactile Healer, of sorts – he could heal injuries and illnesses through sustained skin to skin contact. The secret to that was that Patroclus was a Blood Healer – his healing powers came from his blood, and his healing was by far more efficiently done via blood transfusion, or – somewhat grossly – by ingestion or smearing on the affected area. Achilles never wanted that from Patroclus, though. Not ever again.

Achilles would take Patroclus to bed, undressing first himself, and then his love. Is healing all you wanna do just now? Achilles would ask.

The answer depended on the time, whether Patroclus had worked at the hospital (and whether it was as a Tactile Healer or Blood Healer), and how banged up Achilles was. Usually they did more than convalesce.

But this evening, Patroclus wasn’t waiting for him. Achilles frowned into the empty apartment. Patroclus’s phone wasn’t on the charger, so Patroclus was out. It was almost lunch time. Finally reunited with his phone after four days, he called Patroclus and went straight to voicemail.

“Hey, Pat,” Achilles said tiredly. “I’m back. Sorry for the lack of reliable ETA. If you’re getting lunch, grab me something. I don’t mind what – just get a lot of it. And wake me when you get in, alright. I’m fucking tired, but I wanna see your face. Okay?”

Achilles would kick himself, later. When he woke up at 5pm, no sign of Patroclus, he would see that Patroclus’s SuperCorp lanyard wasn’t in its resting place by the phonecharger. He would realise that Patroclus had never returned from his night shift at the hospital.

But Achilles slept through the day – five hours of peace before the storm.

[ao3feed-supercorp]

No grave can hold my body down (I’ll crawl home to her)

by iv3gotamigraine

After Kara and Lena have their falling out over Karas super secret, Kara almost dies during a fight where the villain possess a new type of Kryptonite. Can Lena put aside the past to save her dying ex best friend?

Words: 5153, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Supergirl (TV 2015)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F

Characters: Lena Luthor, Querl Dox, Kara Danvers, Nia Nal, Alex Danvers, Kelly Olsen (Supergirl TV 2015), J'onn J'onzz | Hank Henshaw, M'gann M'orzz, Lex Luthor

Relationships: Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor, Alex Danvers/Kelly Olsen, Querl Dox/Nia Nal

Additional Tags: SuperCorp, Fluff, Kara almost dies, Lena Luthor Knows Kara Danvers Is Supergirl, Lena Luthor Needs a Hug, lex stays dead, Useless Lesbians, Lesbians, They talk things out, Near Death Experiences, fix it fic?, i hate the cw, they ruined everything, we deserved supercorp, Kryptonite (DCU), Violence, Happy Ending, Idiots in Love, i was listening to work song by hozier and got in my feelings, Mutual Pining, Eventual Smut, Oblivious Kara Danvers, Stubborn Lena Luthor

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[matan4il]

It all makes sense now why I have always loved your blog. I'm a hopeless romantic, too!!! I used to bring romance novels to school to sneak read in the library. I blame Elizabeth and Darcy because that was the first angst desperate love story. Now I look for it everywhere?? Even if I am watching or reading something that doesn't have it, I will rewrite it or retell it in my head to just add that couple.

And yes, pretty much every show has one for me. It's not always the main or straight couple it's "that couple". Buddie, Grudd, Jin and Sun, Tara and Willow, Captain Swan, SuperCorp. The list goes on and on!!!

But yes the Buddie of it all really is that they share the great aspects of soul mates and they aren't a couple yet. They also allow me a bit to fill in the blanks of their story because we just know certain things happened off screen we didn't see.

For instance, of course Buck stayed and helped Eddie after the shooting. Purely logical aspect is he had his discharge care, he probably covered any physical care Chris needed when Eddie couldn't, he is one of the few people strong enough to help Eddie, and he was just shot!! Do we really believe Eddie didn't want someone capable with him and Chris at night??? So then in return its easy to fill the love story aspect of it you know?? The why's, intimacy and vulnerability of it all.

But hopeless romantics forever!!! I just love, love!!

Awww, darling! That makes me so happy to know, that we’re both on the same train. Hopeless romantics of the world, unite! XD *huuugs* And yes, that was exactly it. Even as a kid, no matter what I watched, there was always a pair that I had to root for. I don’t blame anyone but me. And Anne Shirley, I might blame her for the fact that she taught me some of the best lovers start out as enemies, which means potential romance truly is everywhere. That doesn’t mean any two people work for me as a couple I’d be cheering for. But her and Gilbert showed me there are so many different points you can start from and end with a romance, and I love that!

Absolutely, Buddie hit so many of the soulmates tropes and romance plot points, there’s not a bit of doubt in my mind that they would be a couple if they weren’t both men. And I also agree that they allow us to fill in so many blanks! For example, what did things look like when Buck and Chris first met at the end of 203, after Buck watches the Diaz boys hug? Did Buck already know that these two are his future? Did Chris sense that this is about to be his other dad? What did Eddie think while watching Buck interact with his son? Just an example of things that keep me up at night, and variations on this theme and these questions have shown up in some of my fics.

And you’re absolutely right about the aftermath of the shooting, too! IDK to what extent Buck was present in the Diaz household during that time, but you just KNOW there was no force of nature that would keep him away. Not that Eddie even thought of putting up any resistance. Or the period when it’s implied Hen, Chim and Eddie all stayed with Buck. You just KNOW Buck and Eddie shared a bed and I’m just still going feral thinking about that...

Thank you so much for this lovely ask! I hope you have a great day, and that we always get to be hopeless romantics together! As always, here’s my ask tag. xoxox

[scribbling-punk]

Coming from a long-time lurker of your writing...

I cannot express my gratitude enough for the dedication and commitment you put into your work, not only posting/updating fics but answering asks, replying to comments, posting on Patreon, etc etc. I found your writing through Supercorp kink tags on AO3 and I’ve genuinely enjoyed every single work you’ve put out.

The little snippets of characterization, description, and dialogue you add to even short prompt fills or one-shots to make us care about the characters in these fics are amazing. Yeah, that may be part of writing but I’ve *never* seen someone able to turn a character with a ‘canon’ personality into someone completely different just by using different descriptions or dialogue as skillfully as you can. Mommy Lena feels so different from Doctor Lena, who feels so different than any other type of role you could use for her, and it’s all thanks to your eye for character-building and attention to detail.

This is long enough but I also wanted to thank you for making consent such an integral part of the works that need it (heavy kink focus, etc.) It’s something that’s not addressed enough in mainstream kink/NSFW media and I really appreciate your attention to it, even just in little dialogue snippets. I hope it helps raise awareness as to just how vital it is to kinky play.

Stay safe and healthy. I wish you all the best.

I'm a wee bit convinced this was meant for someone else instead of me (I've never written Doctor Lena, but know a popular writer who has) but definitely appreciate the good vibes in my inbox! 😁

[maggiencpdsawyer-blog]

Of course the Supercorp Shippers would get blamed for shit they didnt do. So again, Some Kermlins and WestAllen/Iris Stans are accusing supercorp shippers of being racist because supposedly Supercorp shippers are saying they were boycotting black lightning (Which By the way, No supercorp shipper even said) because BL is forcing the Legends to take up Supergirls night? That is just hilarious and makes Zero Sense. Why would the Supercorp fandom, the people who are happy about the Nine Week hiatus, Say they would Boycott BL because of it?

If you couldnt tell, these are karamel shippers here, not supercorp. These are Karamel shippers who are showing a big distaste for BL because of the hiatus.

These are supercorp shippers who are excited about the hiatus and Supercorp shippers who are excited for BL. So why are people trying to accuse them of not wanting to watch BL because of the hiatus? Why are people bullying the fandom off of rumors? If your going to accuse a whole fandom for something like this than you should bring some actual proof and facts before doing so other wise its going to make you look like a dick who is just trying to start shit. I could easily get more screenshots of the Supercorp fandom saying they were excited for black lightning and how they were excited for the hiatus but I legit threw this together in 10 minutes and these were the only screen shots I had.

[saberies-stuff]

just what we need, another crazed mon-hell worshipper to disturb the fandom peace and make apologies for a sexist, slave-owning, heterosexual piece of crap. i don’t know whether you used to be a part of the fandom or not since you made a new blog, but if you were, you weren’t missed and you probably should have stayed away, because i promise, absolutely no one wants you back <3

Five days. Literally five days of being back and I’m already getting stuff like this. Normally I would just try to ignore this, but unfortunately for you, anon, you caught me on a day when I have some big stuff happening and my emotions are very high. Which means I have the capacity to be angry at you right now and I am absolutely going to.

First things first, I am not a Mon-El “worshipper.” I am not writing a Karamel-centric fic. Mon-El is not my favorite character. I just happen to think the ship is cute and sweet and gets an unfair amount of hate, and if I need a romance in one of my stories, it’s gonna be them. This latest fic called for a romance. That romance is Karamel. And I ask you…so what?? With all the Supercorp stories out there, I promise you won’t die from content-starvation if a few people dare to write something else. What’s it to you?

Second things second, let’s not use heterosexual as an insult, ‘kay? Straight is not a slur and it’s just as valid as any other sexual orientation. Period. End of sentence.

Third things third, yes, I was a part of the fandom. And guess what I wrote? Gen or ship-ambiguous stuff so that people could enjoy it regardless of what they shipped. Wanna know why I stopped doing that?

I stopped because of all the psychotic shippers that popped up in my inbox claiming to love my work and demanding I turn it explicitly Supercorp so they could “love it even more,” then insulting me and belittling me when I refused.

I stopped because I found out how much the Supercorp fans had been bullying the cast members, particularly the guys (primarily Chris and Jeremy from what I saw, but apparently y’all have been making Staz’s life pretty difficult too since I stepped away).

I stopped because I saw how absolutely gross and disturbing some of you acted towards Melissa when she married Chris, and how some of you have been stalking every detail of the woman’s life ever since, hating on her husband for everything he does and inventing imaginary signs of everything from divorce to domestic violence just for the sake of a fictional ship between fictional characters.

I stopped because of the bloody idiot who showed up in my messages to inform me that I could not call Lena an abuser because I had no experience with abuse. When I told them I spent fifteen years with a narcissistic, emotionally and verbally abusive father, I was treated to a lecture on why I was not truly abused because nothing physical took place and “you felt safe enough to be angry about it, if you were really abused you would be more subdued.”

I stopped because of one simple reason- a large portion of the SC fandom is comprised of hateful, hurtful bullies, and I could no longer, in good conscience, allow myself to write things for that ship, even ambiguous stuff. The only thing you guys ever accomplish with your behavior is to turn people away from you and your ship. I’m living proof of that, and I’m willing to bet that by the end of Season 6, the show will be too. But I’m back now, and I’m writing what I want to write without any fear of what anyone else will say about it, and I don’t care if anyone “wants me back” or not. What someone else wants is not my problem.

A side note- before receiving this lovely little screed from you, I had exactly one post up. One. Tagged with Karamel. Which means you only found me by stalking the tag of the ship you hate, presumably searching for people to harass. In which case, get some therapy. Or a life.

[lena-in-a-red-dress]

Loved your tags on the Brenda Strong reblog! We need it as the new supercorp au!

Well, sOMEONE gave me an idea of OG!Lillian losing her memory and staying with Eliza for a while, and all day during work I was daydreaming of amnesia!Lillian slowly being told her life and being eager and excited to meet her daughter, only to find herself facing off against each member of the superfriends first as they try to suss out whether the memory loss is legit and/or whether she deserves to be in Lena’s presence. But finally she passes the final test (Kara) and when Lena still resists meeting her, Lillian overhears her trying to explain why it’s a bad idea. “None of you get it: she is a master manipulator. Lex didn’t exist in a vacuum-- he had to learn it from somewhere, and he learned it from our father and from her.”

But Kara ultimately talks her into it, and Lillian finally finds herself face to face with the woman who is her daughter. Her beautiful, beautiful daughter. Except her daughter doesn’t do anything except sit there-- no eye contact, no attempts at conversation. Lillian finally breaks the silence. “It’s so good to finally see you...”

She reaches over to take Lena’s hand, but Lena pulls away before she can make contact. Lillian instead lets her hand rest on the table between them. A peace offering. 

“I’ve heard a lot about you. About your work in National City.”

Lena doesn’t respond.

“They say you’re a such a force for good--”

“Just-- stop,” Lena says finally. “You might have fooled them, but I’m not.”

“What they’ve told you is true-- I don’t remember--”

“And even if that were true, I’ll let you in on a little secret.” Finally, Lena meets her eye, but her gaze is cold. Cruel. “You are not a good person.”

Lillian’s heart falls, and only now does she realize how bad an idea this had been.

“I spent half of my life trying to earn your love and the other half trying to get away from you. Don’t think for a moment that I’m going to let you weasel your way into my life after I’ve finally gotten you out of it.”

So... it doesn’t go well. Ostensibly, Lena and Kara are in Midvale to visit Eliza over the fourth of July weekend. Kara planned to spend the night in her childhood home, but Lena refuses. 

“I won’t be under the same roof as her--”

“I’ll leave,” Lillian says. 

Eliza looks at her in sympathy, but doesn’t protest. “Perhaps it would be for the best. We can put you up in the local bed and breakfast for the weekend, and then after...”

After. After doesn’t matter to Lillian. Not when her only free and living child wants nothing to do with her. She lets Eliza make the plans, and collects her meager belongings into a borrowed suitcase. In a bout of stubborn refusal to quit, when Eliza invites her to the community cookout and fireworks display, Lillian accepts. If only to be in the vicinity of Lena, to observe her daughter and feel a part of her in even so distant a way, if only for the opportunity to show Lena that she is different than whoever she might have been.

But when she arrives the following afternoon, she learns that Lena remained behind alone. “To watch the house,” Eliza says, though the excuse is clear to everyone who hears it. Lillian also notices that her daughter’s partner Kara is also missing. 

“Called back to work in National City,” is the official party line, but Lillian isn’t sure she believes it any more than she believes Lena’s excuse. She tries to enjoy herself, but her thoughts are blocks away, with the woman who refuses to be her daughter.

The evening deepens to night, and as the fireworks display commences, Lillian tries to lose herself in the explosions that rock the very air. Soon though, the feeling of wrongness that’s been following Lillian all night catches up to her with a foggy sky and the scent of not sulphur, but woodsmoke.

“Fire!” a voice cries. “Fire! Fire!”

All heads snap towards the distant voice, and widen when they spot the glow of a building fire in the direction of Eliza’s cul-de-sac. The crowd on the beach move as one towards the scene, Lillian at the lead. Heart pounding against her ribs, she hears the wail of sirens approaching: too distant, too slow.

“Lena!” she screams as the burning house comes into view. “Lena!”

Lena isn’t on the street-- she isn’t anywhere to be seen. Realization hits like a bolt of lightning, and someone tries to hook an arm around her as she makes for the front door. Lillian wrenches herself free. “My daughter is in there!” 

 They aren’t strong enough or quick enough to stop her before she barrels through the front door. Lillian’s brain works rapidly to piece together that if the fire started on the ground floor, then the only reason Lena wouldn’t have made it out is if she were asleep on the top floor, where she would likely be unconscious from smoke inhalation. She thunders up the stairs, coughing as the smoke grows dense. Staying low, she sweeps through each room until she finds Lena in the attic room, unconscious on Kara’s bed. 

Lillian gathers her daughter up as best she can and drags her back downstairs, through the front door and out onto the grass of the front lawn, coughing all the way. Eliza and her daughter Alex look at her as though they’ve seen a ghost, but all Lillian can think of is that her daughter isn’t coughing.

“She isn’t breathing!” she cries, desperately. Tears spill down her cheeks, and not just from the smoke. Without hesitating, she lays Lena flat and begins to administer rescue breathing. Counting and breathing and crying, her world narrows to her task alone, until the hands of paramedics crowd her vision, moving her aside even as they reach for Lena.

“It’s all right ma’am,” one says gently. “We’ve got her from here.”

Lillian follows them to the hospital, and waits as her daughter is treated for smoke inhalation. Soon, she’s informed that Lena is comatose, and on a respirator. 

“I’d like to sit with her, please.”

No one thinks to tell her no. And so Lillian waits, for hours, over a day for her daughter to wake. Doctors come in and apprise her of Lena’s condition, but nothing prepares her for the fear that creeps into Lena’s eyes when they finally open, and she realizes there’s a tube down her throat. Nothing prepares Lillian for the way that fear amplifies the moment Lena lays eyes on her.

“Sweetheart, please,” she begs, “it’s okay, you’re okay. Please, calm down--”

But when Lillian reaches for her daughter’s hand Lena recoils again, and begins to thrash against the restraints that have kept her from pulling out her tube. Choked, muttering sobs emerge around the tube, and sickening gurgles chill Lillian to the core even as a new body inserts itself between them.

“Lena!” Kara says, taking Lena’s face between her hands. “It’s okay, I’m here. You’re safe. I promise you’re safe. Please, calm down... come on, breathe with me. In... out... don’t fight the tube, Lena, okay? Breathe with it... in... out...”

Slowly the monitors cease their shrill screaming, and only then does Lillian realize that doctors have converged as well, only to hold back until Lena was calm again.

“It’s okay, Lena. She’s leaving. She’s leaving...”

And Lillian does. She leaves the room, and doesn’t look back.

---

She can’t leave the hospital. Lillian makes it as far as the emergency room doors before the pull of Lena draws her back. This time, she sits with the others, waiting with bated breath for Kara to come back with news. 

When she does, Kara sits next Lillian directly. 

“They’ve extubated her,” the girl says softly. Woman, really. Kara is young, comparatively, yet old beyond her years with a weight Lillian can’t quite place. She offers Lillian a tired smile. “She’ll be okay.”

“She was afraid of me.”

Kara nods, not bothering to deny the truth. “She thought.... well, it doesn’t matter what she thought.” She runs a hand across her eyes. “You saved her life.”

“She’s my daughter.” The words come soft, almost plaintive, as though Lillian herself can’t quite believe them. 

“Thank you,” is all Kara returns.

---

Lena’s released a few days later. Kara takes her home to National City, and Lillian believes it to be the end of anything she might have had with her daughter. She tries to banish it from her mind, and focuses instead on Eliza, who now has the unfortunate burden of having had her home burn to the ground. They, at least, are friends, and Eliza seems to appreciate her support, however meager it is. 

Two days later, Lillian gets a call she isn’t expecting. 

“She wants to see you,” Kara says.

Lillian leaves Midvale that very minute with Eliza’s blessing. She makes the drive in record time, and soon finds herself in an apartment that’s both lavish and cozy, full of a warm life she thus far hasn’t been privy to. 

In the bedroom, Lena sits propped up with pillows, a box of tissues on one side and a waste bin on the other. “Sorry for the mess,” Lena croaks, cracking open one eye as the door creaks shut behind Lillian. “What I’m coughing up hasn’t exactly been pretty.”

Lillian sits on the furthest end of the bed. She itches to reach for Lena, to care and to mother her, but folds her hands in her lap instead in deference to the undercurrent of wariness that still runs through her daughter’s voice. 

“You saved my life,” is all Lena says after a moment. “Usually you don’t do that unless you have an ulterior motive. Like murder.”

Lillian flinches, but then freezes when she catches the slight hint of a smile playing at Lena’s lips. 

“Joking,” comes the rasping assurance. “Old-you would’ve gotten it.”

Instead of jumping in on the joke, Lillian finds herself fighting tears. “I really haven’t been much of a mother to you, have I?”

“No, you haven’t.” But this time it comes without malice, without judgement. 

Lillian wipes her eyes. “I’m so sorry, Lena. I wish-- I wish I had been better to you. You-- you deserve--- every happiness.”

“I do,” Lena agrees again. “But the good news is, I finally have people who let me believe that.”

“Good,” Lillian says breathlessly. “That’s... good.”

A long moment of silence passes between them. 

“I believe you,” Lena admits finally. Her shoulders lift in a shrug. “I don’t know what that means for anything between us, but--- I believe that you’re not... yourself.”

Lillian nods carefully. “It’s hard to hear the things I did. It feels like some other person entirely. I know it’s not,” she says quickly, “not really. But... I want to be better than her. Than who I was.”

Lena looks at her carefully. This time, Lillian looks back, holding her daughter’s gaze. 

“Will you help me?”

[witchpieceoftoast]

(i wrote thing???  just a little continuation from the scene on the couch in 6x13 because the show not letting kara process her trauma is my villain origin story. and tagging @bluedragon-silence because my entire current supercorp situation is all her fault)

so kara keeps finding more and more reasons for lena to stay, and honestly lena is in no hurry to go anywhere because kara is finally home, and lena's home, and why would she put in the effort to find an excuse to go back to her cold, empty apartment when kara is here? 

but also with each new thing to keep lena close, kara seems to be getting more frantic, and it's getting late and lena is tired.

finally, after the 3rd 'oh just one more episode, lena, please?' lena takes the remote from kara and sets it aside and turns to her to ask her what's wrong.  kara deflects, of course. a lot of 'i'm just happy you're back!' and 'i've missed you!' which is all well and good, and lena absolutely believes the truth in kara's answers. but also, kara's lip is trembling and her eyes are glassy and when lena twines their fingers together, kara's hand is shaking slightly.

'kara, i'm not going anywhere. i would happily stay the night,' lena promises, and the relieved sigh and blinding smile kara gives her is almost enough to drop it and let kara carry on. it's so wonderful to have kara want her company.  kara's fingers around hers are clenching almost enough to hurt though, and they continue to shake, and there's no way lena can brush whatever this is under the rug.

'please tell me what's wrong, darling. i'm not going anywhere, but i don't want you to feel like you have to hide anything from me.'

after minutes of clear internal struggle and a few sniffles, kara finally admits, 'i've been having nightmares.'

lena's gasp isn't out of surprise, because honestly she would be surprised if kara wasn't having nightmares after her ordeal.  it's from how strained her voice is, wet with unshed tears, verging on a sob, and it strikes right at lena's heart.

'since i came back. every night i have these nightmares that i'm back there, that this is all some delusion. you went away and in my nightmares, it was for good and you ne-' kara takes a shuddering breath and lena pulls her close. the rest is said muffled in lena's sweater, soaking up kara's tears. 'you never came back. you didn't want to be near me ever again. i would wake up crying and everything was cold and empty and you weren't here, and i'm terrified that if i let you go, that will be real.'

lena is crying too, now, as she holds kara as close as she can manage.  her fists are clenched around kara's shirt in a death grip, and she places kisses on kara's hair that she knows kara is too trapped in her own head to notice.

'i'm here, kara. kara, darling. look at me, please?'  it takes more strength than it should to loosen her fingers, but her need to sooth kara's tears is far greater.  her fingers swiping over damp cheeks, grasping at kara's face to assure her that lena is right here with her, calms kara enough to look up.  'i'm so sorry that i went away as soon as you got back. but i promise i'm not going anywhere.  there's nowhere i want to be more than right here with you.'

they both choke on their tears as they smile sadly at each other.

'and, if this really is just a delusion -' kara's entire body tenses at the thought, but lena's smile softens and she runs comforting fingers through kara's hair - 'if it is, i promise you with absolute certainty that the real me is doing everything in my power to make sure you come home.  okay?'

kara smiles brightly as she nods.  she laughs until she has to sniffle again, and then she laughs some more. 'okay.'

'okay,' lena says again, kissing kara's forehead and smiling into the warmth of her skin.  kara is home. she's traumatized and hurting and there's so much that's needed from both of them, but she's home. 'now, as much as i'd love to stay up all night watching trashy tv with you, how about we get some sleep.'

[bixqueen]

supercorptober (supercorp october writing prompt)

i stumbled upon this prompt on AO3 a year after this happened lol but i’m wondering if we’re doing it again this year. and if someone makes a 31-day prompt list or we come up with it all ourselves? anyways, i’m interested in participating this year (hopefully although college decision process is a lot) and seeing how supergirl goes starting in august maybe it’ll help us with the pain lol

31 days

no.1:

- lena doesn’t understand how her friend can be eating an ice cream cone in the middle of fall while she’s freezing, yet she finds it cute and kara just doesn’t know why she’s blushing

no.2:

- sam and alex force lena and kara on a blind date

- they’re best friends

- they both think they’ve been stood up and sam and alex are screaming inside watching this happen

no.3:

- its karas first time at a high school party and she spots a special someone she is very into

- 5 mins in heaven or spin the bottle

no.4:

- kara and lena are both single and attend homecoming only to fall into each other’s arms (literally or metaphorically)

- can be at the game or the dance

no.5:

- baking and making a mess only for alex to walk in on them making out then begins cussing as she leaves

no.6:

- halloween themed game night with all their friends trying to get them to realize they love each other

no.7:

- first sleepover at Danver’s house

- kara and lena are freshman besties and decide to have a movie night and sleepover (ofc they make out DUH)

no.8:

- engagement (proposal) party with the superfriends being exposed for betting on the relationship

no.9:

- protective kara while lena works with DEO on serious (dangerous ofc) case

- nobody gets why supergirl is so worried

no.10:

- the way the ending of the 100th episode could’ve gone (GO WILD lol)

no.11:

- ice skating and hot cocoa days !!

- kara and lena go ice skating and casually fall on top of each other any chance they get then go back to karas for some cocoa and do some more falling on top of each other…

no.12:

- a flight with supergirl while lena is all bundled up and cozy on a fall night

no.13:

- visiting krypton and learning about their fall customs (/halloween idk if they do that most likely not)

- kara introducing lena to her parents

no.14:

- teaming up for a not so serious mission only to be scolded by j’on and alex ofc (be silly with this)

no.15:

- what really happens before a soccer game and your girlfriend shows up early to show support…hmm

- or lena pulls kara aside during their group warmups and have fun before the game

no.16:

- an accidental slip-up in front of lenas coworkers happen of her and supergirl kissing (though they don’t know it’s the same person)

no.17:

- moving in together after dating for a while but they don’t get to do much unpacking once one of them finds a movie (halloween one) only to find out the other hasn’t seen it

no.18:

- who you gonna call? SUPERGIRL!

- or lena doesn’t really need any rescuing, she just likes being held in karas strong and secure arms

no.19:

- supercorps child first halloween

no.20:

- elementary school kara doesn’t know anything about love until she spots an adorable black-haired girl and can’t stop thinking about her

no.21:

- they’re at a bar and kara accidentally spills a drink all over lenas clothes (expensive) and instead of being pissed she knows a way kara can make it up to her

no.22:

- kara and lena happen to be put together for some science project and that hatred that was once there slowly dissolves into something else

no.23:

- “what do you mean you don’t go trick or treating?”

- “well kara, we are in high school now. don’t you think it’s a bit odd to dress up and beg others for candy? i can buy you some at the store.”

- “yeah but that’s not as fun,” the blonde girl whines in an attempt to make the shorter girl put on her (_) costume and tag along.

- or lena doesn’t want to go trick or treating with kara, alex, and sam but gets guilted into it

no.24:

- lena and kara agree to babysit ruby one night and against their better knowledge they let her watch a movie that’s probably too scary for her (as well as them)

- supercorp cuddles

no.25:

- kara reveals she has a special surprise for her best friend lena

- she gives her a clue everyday going into halloween and her friend must figure it out in order for it to be revealed (this can be like some fluff love confession thing that takes lena until the very last day to figure out bc she’s a useless lesbian)

no.26:

- school trip to a museum (science or art) and the two best friends (who are hopelessly in love with each other) find any moment to slip their hands together and run off for a few moments

no.27:

- lena travels to ireland in hopes of discovering what really happened to her mother while kara stays in national city but keeps tails on lenas heartbeat and whereabouts. she ends up flying there once a day to be there physically and they both end up going to THE river/lake (they’re either together or just friends in this)

no.28:

- lena walks into her office only to find her best friend struggling to catch a puppy she brought (named pumpkin hehe) as a halloween surprise gift

no.29:

- lena knocks on the door of her best friends house begging to build a snowman in the middle of the night since she can’t sleep and seems to (for some reason) find comfort in those ocean blue eyes

no.30:

- alex gets tired of hearing kara complain about how much she likes lena but doesn’t know what to do so she decides to ask lena out from karas phone

- lena agrees and kara still doesn’t know what’s going on until after the “date” and she sees her messages. let’s say she’s not that mad at alex

no.31:

- lena has been missing for 3 days now and even the super can’t seem to find her. until she picks up on certain hints around the city and finds that she’s been captured by lex (i’m bad at horrors lol this is me trying)

I began this idea process back in like mid-june but i thought this might be really fun! we don’t know how this season will end but i thought we can at least have some happiness during it lol. anyways, it’s officially autumn so i finally got to post and it’s in a month advance which is nice! so repost and comment if you want to take part. i think it’ll be in A03 again but im super excited for this!

[yvonkayvonki]

Rules: make a new post, don't reblog, and tag some people you want to get to know better (tagged by @sprqpointintern) thanks for the tag!

Favourite colour: purple

Currently reading: currently on readers block, but i'm reading a shitton of fanfic,

Last song: Like my father loved my mom by jax

Last movie: rurouni kenshin

Sweet, savoury or spicy: sweet and savoury (i like both)

Three fave ships: Supercorp, karmy (faking it, i've gone back to my fave) wildmoore

First ship: jeti (i'm old, tiffany and jessica from snsd)

Currently working on: this and currently staring at something i'm writing hoping maybe it will finish itself.

Comfort food: kbbq,

Favourite time of year: winter, i like snow, even though i hate being cold. i always say that you can bundle up during winter but you cannot go around naked in summer.

Favourite fanfic: i have a lot mostly angst and kidfics.. also i didn't realize how this was going to be till i started choosing my faves.

firstly Nothing gold can stay by @inkedroplets (kidfic and lillian is trying to be a good mom, our bb lena needs a good mother ok!)

A rich girl with issues... Lots of issues by @inkedroplets (honestly... all of ops stories are wonderful! go read and give them some love!)

and when i'm feeling alone, you remind me of home by @mooosicaldreamz (god reading this fic made me laugh so much! it made me love agentcorp friendship so much.)

so glad to meet you by @writershapeholeonthedoor (there is a special place in my heart and this fic lives in it. combo of soulmate and kidfic! they also have a shitton of supercorp fics that i know you guys would love go check em out)

kids have no filter and neither do we by @c--and--b (kidfic! this one is so adorable)

brave by @cautiously-optimistiic (god this was one of the first fics i've read and can i just say this fic broke my heart and mended it immediately. they also have a lot of really amazing fics that you guys would love!)

don't you hear sincerity in my voice when i talk by @cyclothimic (this fic was just delivered angst and the ending was just so perfect!)

and darling is there a cure for this hunger by m_oliverfan on a03 (beautiful fic just read it! they have a lot of sc fics but this is my fave)

okay that's it, i have more but i don't wanna spam you guys with sooo many fics.

tagging,

@ostropest @supercorp4ever @stayclose--dontgo @mycatismyeditor @ididntseeyournameonthebiline @archerslove

[inkedroplets]

Fic Writer Review

Thanks so much for the tag @godhatesoliviaa

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

15

2. Whats your total Ao3 word count?

404,420!

3. How many fandoms have you written for?

I've only posted for one but I've written for so many. I used to write so much Marvel stuff...

4. Top 5 fics by kudos?

A Rich Girl With Issues - A slowburn vigilante Lena fic that I've been having a lot of fun writing. A dash of Batman and a lot of yearning.

Somewhere You Can't Follow- Crossover fic with Legends of Tomorrow. A lot lighter than some of my more angsty stories but there's a couple tearjerker chapters hidden there.

I Thought You Knew- My take on 'There was only one bed' Pretty fluffy and has one of my favorite sweet lines that I've ever written

Denial is Not Just a River in Egypt - Jelly Kara crashes what she thinks is Lena and Andrea out on a date

Nothing Gold Can Stay - Single Mom AU with Lena coming back to National City with an adopted daughter in tow.

Take a drink every time I have Lena move away from National City...

5. Do you respond to comments? Why/why not?

I do! I'm terrible at leaving comments sometimes because I can't organize my thoughts so it means a lot when someone leaves a message even if it's just a thank you. I also crave validation

6. A fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending

I have one that I'm putting the finishing touches on now that will have the angstiest ending I've written so far. It's taking me so long to finish because it's depressing me

7. Do you write crossovers?

I adore crossovers. I have way too many crossovers in the oven. I like seeing how characters interact and bounce off one another. The Lucifer crossover I have had in progress since forever will get my complete focus this week and it should be a lot of fun

8. Ever received hate on a fic?

Sometimes but not too often. Just have to move on or try and find some constructive criticism in the hate.

9. Do you write smut?

I have in the past but not so much lately

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think my fics are worth stealing xD I hope not though.

11. Ever had a fic translated?

Nope. I terrorize English speakers with my bad prose, I don't need to horrify even more people.

12. Have you ever co-written a fic?

A long time ago I co-wrote a Marvel/Tomb Raider fic that's floating around the net somewhere. I write too slowly to co-write anything now

13. All time fav ship?

Supercorp. With every fiber of my being, Supercorp

14. WIP you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I will finish all my WIP's (or die trying)

15. Writing strengths?

Oh, I have no idea. Do I have any? I really wish I had a stats page like in a video game.

16. Writing weaknesses?

Action scenes

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

Could be interesting

18. First fandom you wrote for?

The X-Files. Please don't ask how hard I shipped Mulder and Scully

19. What’s your fav fic you’ve written so far?

That's really tough. Either A Rich Girl with Issues or Swear Not by the Moon

tagging @fandom-is-us @from-a-recklesswriter @thebluewritingbench @sazernac @frenchpuppycormier @red-cape-morgana @screwyourdefaults

[jennysparksandtheauthority]

Hi, so I started reading recently "They only lack the light to show the way" and I love it soooo much. I was wondering if you will continue it (crossing my fingers sooo hard) or if it has been dropped (I blame the ending of the show). Thanks and stay safe.

Hi lovely person!

Thanks for the question. You reminded me I gotta go put the little “hiatus” tag on TOLTLTSTW.

Yes, I’m gonna finish it. I love it with all my heart. But life is getting in the way and also the toxic CW and all that surrounds it wasn’t very good for my mental health.

I gave my reasoning in this other ask, if you have the time to read me rambling about fandom dynamics and fandom burnout: https://jennysparksandtheauthority.tumblr.com/post/669134423436001280/hi-i-love-your-fic-they-only-lack-the-light-to

BUT long story short: yes, I intend to write for “They only” this summer and maybe finish it this year. It’s my baby. I need to finish it. It’s personal. I’ll do it. I want to. It’s happening. But LIFE, you know how it is. Plus, I’d love to write more Supercorp but on shorter formats, of course 😊

Thank you for the question! Take care ♥️

[firelxdykatara]

I was the anon who sent the ask about cs, and you actually addressed some of the major arguments i've seen - being with hook turned emma from a strong, independent woman into just a love interest, hook pursued emma with no reciprocated feelings, and that he never really redeemed himself. I've also seen arguments that cs is abusive, which i've seen to some extent in anti-kataang posts. i try not to dive too deep into the anti tag for my own sanity but these are some of the main things i've seen

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ok, sorry, i was just caught up in the euphoria of reminiscing about my captain swan feelings that for a moment there i lived in a world where the Anti CS Brigade didn’t exist. but no, yeah, i know exactly what you’re talking about and honestly i think i just......blocked 90% of it from my mind because so many of those arguments were so vitriolic and widespread but also baseless, like...

gods, ok, here we go. anon you have activated my dormant ouat wordvomit processors and idk if i’ll be able to shut up any time soon but i have A Lot Of Thoughts Here, and also a lot of really bad memories cause ye gods, the ouat shipping wars of the days of yore were vicious.

ANYWAY, like, the vast majority of these arguments came from the ‘swan queen nation’, which is where you can trace a lot of super toxic wlw ship stans back to--just for a little context, but clexa and supercorp both had their roots in swan queen, among other ships, but those are the Big Three i always go back to because what they have in common is ‘the main character of the series is explicitly abused/treated horribly by another woman and for some reason the shippers go nuts over this pairing and will insist the show is queerbaiting them if this specific pairing is not made canon’. and swan queen stans, in particular, had it out for captain swan, because they were incredibly insistent about regina and emma being in love, and naturally the existence of emma’s romantic arc with killian threatened that.

as a result, they quite literally made shit up.

it’s funny (not ‘funny ha ha’ but like funny depressing), because a lot of what they accused CS of is actually shit that happened explicitly on screen with regina and emma. they claimed that emma was no longer strong or independent because she fell in love with killian, while ignoring the fact that she’d become a literal doormat for regina’s many abuses (there are so many things regina did to emma even after her alleged redemption which, if she weren’t being so coddled by the narrative, emma would never have let her get away with--like blaming her for saving the life of a woman regina had murdered in the past, or like telling emma to her face that she wanted to tear killian’s throat out because he managed to come back from the underworld while the man regina loved stayed dead) because, for some reason, they interpreted emma being happy and no longer closed off to the people she loved, choosing to let down the walls she’d built up over a lifetime of trauma as her being ‘reduced to a love interest’ which just did not happen.

like, factually, straight up, emma was every bit as badass while dating killian as she was back in season 1. the only difference is, in season 1 emma didn’t trust anyone, she was closed off, she had a million walls built high around her by trauma, and she wasn’t willing to let anyone in because she believed that if she did then she’d only be traumatized again when they inevitably left. by season 4, when she started officially dating killian, many of those walls had come down, she was happier and healthier, she was falling in love and she was letting herself be in love, she had her parents, her son, the whole town full of people she loved. she was fucking happy, but she wasn’t happy with the right love interest, so swan queen shippers insisted they wanted ‘season 1 emma back’. because they would rather emma be miserable so they could interpret her antagonism with regina as closeted gay pining, than have her dare to be happy with a man and a family that didn’t include regina.

as to the other claims, while hook did make his feelings for emma clear once he realized he felt them, the ball was in her court almost completely. he made comments, told her how he felt, said things like ‘when i win your heart, and i will win it, it will be because you want me’ where the clear emphasis was on emma’s feelings--he believed she had some feeling for him, but he wanted anything between them to be because it was what she wanted. emma initiated every explicitly romantic interaction. killian made a flirty comment, which he was wont to do, and which she could easily have brushed off--instead, she grabbed him by the coat and yanked him into a kiss which lasted far longer than it needed to if all she wanted to do was make a point. (sorry, that scene is just burned into the brain of every CS shipper, i know it literally by heart lmfao) he made it clear that if she wanted him he would be there, but i she didn’t he wasn’t going to push her. he followed her through an entire damn portal into the past because he wanted to help her, because he’d go anywhere for her--to the end of the world, or time--but emma was the one who invited him to dinner with her family. emma was the one who noticed he hadn’t come in yet, and went to see him. emma was the one who kissed him, initiating their relationship.

like @storynightlight said in the replies to the last ask you sent, a majority of the important milestones in killian and emma’s relationship were initiated by emma. she was the one constantly progressing their relationship, it went entirely at her pace in large part because one damaged soul recognizes another, and killian had been through enough trauma in his long (long, long) life to understand that emma needed to work things through on her own terms. he wanted to be part of her life, but it had to be when she was willing to let him in. and he was perfectly content to wait for her to be ready.

as far as the ‘abuse’ claims go, that was honestly just straight up fabrication on the part of swan queen shippers mostly, which is intensely ironic considering the state of emma and regina’s ‘friendship’ for literally the entire damn series. most of them referenced things that happened while emma and killian were enemies (they called their sword fight ‘abuse’, which like.... i’m sorry but two people on opposite sides of a violent conflict having a fight is not abuse, and incidentally that’s an argument that zutara gets hit with too, to this day, clearly words don’t actually mean things anymore), and ignored the fact that killian’s behavior changed as his redemption arc progressed. he didn’t become a good upstanding citizen overnight, but he did feel remorse for his prior bad actions and the harm he caused, he went to great lengths to make up for that harm when and where he could, and he tried to be as good a man as he possibly could in later seasons, even when circumstances (like, oh, gold having possession of his heart and using it to control him, which anti CSers also blamed him for, go figure) made that nearly impossible.

meanwhile, as late as season 6, regina was still blaming emma for everything that went wrong in her life. regina happily browbeat emma about everything she ‘stole’ from her for basically the entire series. regina, in the context of their friendship after her alleged redemption, was constantly verbally and emotionally abusive to emma--and yet that behavior was completely overlooked, or deemed ‘pining’ or some other obvious evidence of romantic feelings, by swan queen shippers who would prefer to claim emma was being abused by her caring and loyal boyfriend who constantly believed in her even when she had trouble believing in herself. (incidentally, it truly is incredibly rich of regina stans (and rumple stans, a lot of them say this too) to claim that killian never redeemed himself, when regina is the one with a vault full of hearts she never returned to their proper owners, and regina is the one who murdered someone emma cared about and never confessed to it, let alone apologized for it; graham died in emma’s arms while regina crushed his heart, and it was never once brought up again. regina got away with it scott free, and it is just one on a list of crimes she literally never expressed even the slightest bit of remorse for, let alone tried to atone for. yet killian is the one who ‘never redeemed himself’ mmhmmm ok sure jan.)

I’M SO SORRY ANON, you probably had no idea the can of Worms you were opening with these asks, but CLEARLY i still have a lot of damn feelings about this fucking show lmfao. THANK YOU THOUGH!!! i haven’t talked about captain swan or even really reminisced much in a while, and i miss them a lot, so it was nice to dive back into my Feelings and remember so much of what i loved about them! i may do a rewatch soon >.> it’s ok if i just skip 4b except the finale and then turn it off immediately after emma and killian’s reunion at the end and pretend the entire show ended there, right????

i hope you’re having a good night! thanks again for the asks <33

[protectwoc]

why all reylos are racist

y’all can go ahead and cancel me now because some of you are not going to like what i have to say and i am completely okay with that.

this recent gq interview with john boyega has incensed me. hearing all the things he went through, from disney and from “fans” and with no support from anyone… i’m livid. sometimes when i think about it for too long i start shaking, i’m so furious. and the response from the reylo fandom has infuriated me to a degree i honestly didn’t know was possible.

some of you may have seen my recent tumblr rampage. it’s reylo bullying hours here on my blog, and i’m not sorry either. one person threatened to post screenshots of my comments, which like… okay? i know what the fuck i said, it wasn’t that long ago. in fact i was going to include the screenshots in this post right here, but they blocked me before i had the chance. sorry. i’m sure somebody has them. anyway…

over the past two days in the star wars fandom we have seen something unprecedented: an outpouring of support for john boyega. both reylos and anti-reylos have joined forces to voice support for john in the wake of the gq interview (and the blm protests, let’s be real, some of y’all would not have given half a fuck if it wasn’t suddenly cool to be antiracist). and this showing of unity is one of the most rage-inducing things i’ve ever seen in a fandom (which is saying something; i have seen some shit).

reylo fandom, full offense intended, but where the fuck do you get off? you’re supporting john now? where was this support when tfa came out and you couldn’t stand the thought of him next to your white-girl-self-insert? where was it when tlj came out and your boy ryan completely sidelined him? where was it earlier this fucking year when y’all twisted a harmless joke (like yall haven’t spent years writing reylo-throne-room-sex-meta BULLSHIT) and ignored the vile racist shit coming from your own fav’s mouth? but you’re supporting him now? now that being antiracist is trendy? fuck outta here with that bullshit.

your fandom is the reason for the vast majority of the absolutely subhuman treatment john has endured over the last few years. your fandom influenced ryan (yes i know what his name is) to write tlj the way he did, you have behaved indefensibly here on tumblr.hell writing and drawing and fantasizing about all sorts of racist bullshit, and y’all have STAYED in his twitter mentions spewing hatred seven ways to sunday. but NOW, without a shred of self-reflection, you’re supporting him? now his experiences are valid?

the way that your fandom refuses to take accountability for its actions makes me see red. y’all stay on some “not all reylos” nonsense and i am SICK OF IT. i’m only gonna say this once, and i want you to hear me: you cannot be a reylo and be “antiracist”. you cannot participate in a fandom that has behaved the way yours has and say “blm, uwu acab.” you can’t. like do you think black people are dumb? that we can’t see right through you? we can.

“but rae,” i hear you whining. “you’re gonna say just because i like two characters together i’m a racist?” and of course not. that would be ludicrous. i think just because you knowingly engage and participate in a fandom that has racism encoded in its dna, you’re a racist. i think because y’all are in bed with racist harassers, racist trolls, and racist content creators, you’re a racist. that’s what the fuck i think. y’all lost the right to “it’s just a ship” me the instant you dragged john boyega into this.

here’s an example: i watched tfa about three days after it came out. i watched the first half, saw the obvious relationship set up between finn and rey, and thought, “aw, cute.” then i watched kylo and rey fight, watch him offer to teach her, and thought, “... interesting.”

when i got home i checked tumblr for finnrey content, saw the outpouring of love from black fans, all the cute fanart and fics blooming, and smiled. then, slowly, guiltily, i searched “reylo.”

BOOM. racism. the things i saw in the tag that night are tattooed on my brain. reylos rejoicing about the obvious rey/kyle pairing because “sw would never put her with that monkey finn”. calling him an “oaf”, “useless”, “bumbling”, “stupid”. reylos joking about how “when they talked about the Dark side, [they] didn’t think they meant that kind of dark.” “woke” reylos pretending to ship stormpilot in an obvious ploy to get finn away from kylo. and in between all of that, cute ship art. fun fics. talented gif makers. and nobody saying shit about the reprehensible behavior going on in their tag.

reylo is built on a foundation of racism. from that first week, racism has been woven into the fabric of your fandom, and it’s been going unchecked. and i don’t mean calling out other reylos. that’s not enough. i mean taking actual steps. y’all have been sitting in a cesspool of racism for five years, and its time for you to get the fuck out or shut the fuck up about being an “ally”. y’all need to leave this fandom.

don’t agree? here’s another story. in 2017, when i still watched supergirl (before i grew taste) i shipped karamel. for those of you who don’t know, karamel is the ship of kara zor-el (supergirl) and mon-el, her second love interest. when supergirl was moved to the cw for its second season, the decision was made to abruptly end her romance with jimmy olsen, played by mecahd brooks (a black man) and replace him with mon-el, played by chris wood, a white man, who was revealed to be, among other things, an alien slaveowner, as well as a playboy and all-around terrible person. and i shipped them. look, i’m not defending myself, but i never really bought the chemistry between jimmy and kara. even though mon-el’s introduction and the way that they carelessly disregarded kara’s feelings for jimmy made me uncomfortable, i thought the way melissa played her attraction to chris wood was more believable (and again, i’m not defending myself, but they are now married so it’s not like i was wrong). so i shipped them. simple as that, right?

well, no. not really. because the inherent racism in the way the writers wrote out her admittedly sweet romance with a black man in favor of a white slaveowner jerk kept bothering me. and finally i decided that it made me too uncomfortable to participate in. i never really reblogged any karamel fandom stuff, but i completely divorced myself from the fandom. i stopped reading karamel fic, and i switched to reblogging exclusively jimmy/kara content until the fandom died out/i stopped watching. i made a choice that real life racism is more important to me than a fucking fandom or a ship, and then i acted accordingly. simple as that.

and i’m not saying you have to stop liking the reylo dynamic. i still like the chemistry between kara and mon-el. i’ve shipped problematic ships before (bamon comes to mind) and i don’t think there’s anything wrong with that (to a point). but there’s a difference between liking a ship dynamic and engaging and contributing to a fan culture of racism. you have to stop participating in the fandom. y’all are in bed with people indistinguishable from confederate-flag-waving-all-lives-matter-touting racists and you don’t feel the need to get out of that environment? there comes a certain point where you have to decide if fandom bullshit is more important to you than fighting racism, and unfortunately, reylos have chosen wrong. that, ladies and gentlemen, is why all reylos are racist, regardless of what they say. roll credits.

except i have more to say, so i’m gonna say it. first of all, i’m not trying to hold myself up as some kind of paragon of virtue. i’m not holier-than-thou because all my ships are “woke” or whatever. chemistry is subjective, and we’re all going to be attracted to different ship dynamics, and there’s nothing wrong with that in theory. what matters is the execution. i finally had to say one day, “you know, this ship and the racist baggage it carries is actually less important to me than battling systemic racism on every level, including the fandom level”. y’all thought being antiracist was gonna be easy? that you wouldn’t have to make some actual changes, to make some actual sacrifices? sorry not sorry to disappoint. and if i, a normal-ass person with flaws and problematic thinking that i’m still dealing with and the whole ine yards, can make that decision, then other people should be required to as well.

(what really irks me is that the karamel fandom wasn’t even really that bad! i definitely could have gotten away with being a karamel stan in 2017. thankfully the supercat and supercorp shippers were doing the lord’s work and bullying them into submission (don’t think i’m letting y’all off the hook either, y’all have got some racism to deal with as well but that’s an essay for another day) but like most of the racism happened at the writing level; the fandom itself wasn’t engaging in racist clownery on the regular. but like the reylos are. y’all see racist bullshit coming from your neighbor, fav fic writer, artist, gif maker, whatever, and don’t say shit? don’t feel the need to distance yourself from them? gtfoh.)

i made this argument earlier when i was on my rampage (which i’m still on btw so don’t clown in my inbox, you will get your shit rocked) but i’m going to make it again because i feel like its important to note. when i pointed out that existing in the reylo fandom while you are aware of its racism makes you complicit in that racism, a white reylo told me earlier that (paraphrasing, my memory’s not as good as it used to be and i did mention that they’d blocked me) “you don’t solve a problem like systemic racism by ignoring it. leaving the fandom would be allowing it to happen.” when i pointed out that that’s police officer rhetoric almost verbatim, she (a white reylo) admonished me (a black woman) not to compare police brutality to a “ship war.” lmao.

look, clearly y’all need a refresher on what “systemic” means. it means, quite simply, that there are systems, large and small, allow for racism to exist, and it also means that allowing for racism to exist on the small scale means expecting it on a large one. like you think police officers spring fully formed from the head with racist ideals already ingrained? no! they learn it and learn to justify it with “well just because my friend made a racist joke doesn’t make me a racist” and “just because i laughed at my friend’s using a racist term in my video game doesn’t make me a racist” and “just because my friend is a racist doesn’t mean i’m a racist” and then we have people watching their coworkers kneel on a man’s back for 8 minutes with no remorse. i’m not gonna solve police brutality by fighting reylos on tumblr, but fandom racism is real racism with consequences on our world, and i don’t tolerate ANY type of racism. and the fact that you are so willing to not just tolerate it but justify it should say something to you.

and not all reylos are like this. similar to cops, good reylos don’t last. i have seen people grow so disgusted by the racism in the reylo fandom that they publicly turned their backs on it, and those reylos i respect. you’ve heard of “the only good cop is an ex-cop” well get ready for “the only good reylo is an ex-reylo”.

(and also like far be it from me to justify a cop but one could at least say they have their livelihoods to think about (not like they couldn’t just pick a nonmurderous profession but i digress) but you reylos can’t even choose between taking a stance against the hateful and unjustified bullying of a man who had the audacity to… get a job (?)... over a ship? come on now.)

the point of all this is, for all their posturing about “being antiracist” and “fuck 12” and “support john boyega”, reylos have decided that a relationship between two fictional people is more important than all the black and brown people who are hurt by that decision and the consequences of that decision. and before y’all pull some “b-but there are POC reylos!” (stop fucking using poc as an adjective, its a noun, it stands for person of color, please use it as such) internalized racism is a thing. busting out your token “reylo of color” (see how easy that was?) is not going to change my mind. all reylos are complicit in the racism of their peers, and being complicit makes you culpable. full stop.

and that is why the public support of john boyega from the reylo fandom has me seeing red. renounce your fandom or keep that man’s name out of your mouth. anyway, this was long and ranty and entirely stream-of-consciousness and i’m refusing to edit it so it’s probably completely incomprehensible to anyone besides me but if you made it this far thanks for reading ig. all reylos are racist, blm, fuck 12, acab, stan john boyega, don’t clown in my inbox unless you’re coming to bully me for being a karamel shipper, which i deserve (or do, i couldn’t give less of a fuck). good night.

[little-luthottie]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supergirl (TV 2015) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor, Alex Danvers & Kara Danvers, Alex Danvers & Lena Luthor, Querl Dox/Nia Nal, Eliza Danvers & Lena Luthor, Alex Danvers & Eliza Danvers & Kara Danvers Characters: Kara Danvers, Kara Zor-El, Lena Luthor, Alex Danvers, Nia Nal, J'onn J'onzz | Hank Henshaw, Eliza Danvers, Brainy, Querl Dox, Lori Luthor, sc oc kid Additional Tags: SuperCorp, Established Relationship, Married Couple, Kidfic, supercorp kidfic, Mild Angst, but I swear it gets fluffy, they just want to have start a family, dansen isnt meantioned but assume that its happening okay, they're in LOVE your honour, Married Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor, KARA AND LENA ARE MARRIED AND HAPPY, ...mostly, they sad but then they happy again, mentions of death but nothing graphic, Promise Summary:

"Its just hearing the heartbeat of their child for the first time only for it to slowly give in and there is absolutely nothing they— she with all her superpowers could do, Kara doesn’t feel any bit of the hero she’s come to be. Not a single ounce , not when their child’s vitals were slowly deteriorating and watching as Alex and Eliza flounder around for ways to stop yet another foetus from dying. Lena’s on the medical bed doing all she can to aid in keeping their child alive , even if its just to keep her own heart rate steady."

Kara and Lena are ready to expand their family but complications keep them from it. Kara's at her limit and is so close to losing hope ...

until she finds her

and then everything changes.

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The heart rate monitors beeps are slow as if trying to tell Kara she can’t stop the inevitable. That again she’ll lose someone dear. Its only their third time and they knew going in this wouldn’t easy. But Lena was determined she could do it and Kara believed in her wife.

Its just hearing the heartbeat of their child for the first time only for it to slowly give in and there is absolutely nothing they— she with all her superpowers could do, Kara doesn’t feel any bit of the hero she’s come to be. Not a single ounce , not when their child’s vitals were slowly deteriorating and watching as Alex and Eliza flounder around for ways to stop yet another foetus from dying. Lena’s on the medical bed doing all she can to aid in keeping their child alive , even if its just to keep her own heart rate steady.

This time around they’ve opted for an artificial womb. One that could support the genes of a half human and half kryptonian baby since the others…failed to. Lena’s idea after their last try and everything seemed to be going well. In fact little Lori survived far longer than her other two siblings had— yes they’d gotten enough hope to name her and now, now it feels like that hope is slowly shattering , another crack for every painfully delayed heartbeat. Its only a matter of moments before she says goodbye to her sweet girl but Kara can’t stomach the idea of being here for another flatline. Another deafening, gut wrenching beep taunting her , ripping away a future she so desperately craves. So leaves , she flies out of there fast enough that when everyone realises she’s gone , she only barely here’s the whisper of her name from Lena’s lips.

It’s the final punch to the dam before the wall completely breaks and out gushes the tears. She’s far away and at a high enough altitude not to be seen , she doesn’t think she could handle the publics questions as to why their golden girl was spotted a sobbing mess in the sky.

In that instance her eyes , though blurred by tears , find the star she once called home. Kara finds herself go silent , her chest still rising and falling rapidly but despite the shallow breaths of all the sobs she’d just erupted , she’s completely still. As if in a weird limbo , floating in the air above the city that’s seemed to have gone silent like its paying its respects to the hero and her losses.

 She’s just there. Floating. Staring. Waiting. For what she doesn’t know. Her tears have ceased and its remains slowly drying on her cheeks it feels like there’s a sign waiting to be shown. That if she stays up here long enough she’ll find it , see it , hear it.

 And she does. The sound of loud wailing muffled by every other sound of the night which resurfaces right as the wails start. Before Kara knows it she’s following the sound , zipping through the skies , between buildings until she finds it.

 Not it, her.

 There in a dilapidated cardboard box that looks about ready to fall apart is a bundle wrapped in white cloth. For a moment the blonde just freezes in her tracks , her feet hovering mere inches from the ground as she watches the baby , who seems to be barely older than a few months scream for her missing family. The moment her boots touches the concrete of the alley the child’s crying halts.

And like before there is this moment of silence , a moment of serenity between the two. Its in this moment of what feels like sizing up that Kara notices the golden wisps of blond locks flicked in wayward strands and the most enchanting green eyes. There’s this intelligent curiosity to them , and the blonde kryptonian can’t help but compare them to similar orbs she knows so well and loves.

It becomes abundantly clear what she must do. What she will do. Kara unclips her cape from her shoulders and reaches down to swaddle the bundle who feels alarming cold. However the little girl makes no sound but stares in wonder , green eyes twinkling in the dim florescent light. Once she knows the baby is tucked snuggly in her cape she takes off into the sky ,mindful of the precious cargo.

 She lands at the tower once again and watches everyone hault at her presence. There’s a silence once again but this one doesn’t feel as comforting , this one she fears is filled with pity and sorrow. She wants to take off again, she can feel her heart rate start to pick up , especially at the confused and alarmed stares Alex and Eliza are giving her right now. She’s just about to take off when the small bundle shifts in her arms , eyes now closed as she sleeps soundly. For a minute Kara is stunned by how immediate the child had taken to her and couldn’t help but think how perfect she seemed not to mention the physical traits that made her seem as if somehow , in some twisted way the universe had given her , given them this precious gift.

 “Kara?” Lena calls , standing a few feet off right before her. She’s in the sweatpants and old college hoodie Lena loves to wear on days she can spare to sleep in.

Karas focus is immediately brought back to reality , back to the point of why she was here , why everyone seemed concerned and she can’t believe she almost forgot. Almost.

 “Look Lee just hear me out okay?” the blond says and hovers over to her wife. Lena seems exhausted and all but ready to go home but she still nods , still humours Kara anyways.

“I just- I’m sorry I left but I couldn’t take another second and I just needed a moment by myself to grieve the loss of our baby”

“Kara-“ Lena tries , but Kara’s on a role she needs to vent all of this right now or otherwise she won’t be able to explain herself properly.

“I know I left you alone in that moment and I’m sorry Lena really-“ the blonde steps forward scared Lena might leave because of it. “but I just lost it and I couldn’t understand why we keep losing them. I don’t want to keep losing them!”

 Kara stops. Knowing she’s raised her voice , can see the alarm in everyone’s eyes and the sympathy. She shuts her eyes , takes a breath and focuses on the movements of the little one in her arms. When she opens them there are those curious green staring at her and its doubled when she looks from the baby to Lena. She knows Lena finally noticed the bundle , realised what it was and is now worried.

 “Kara whose baby..” Lena trails off as if scared to finish that sentence in fear of what the answer will be.

 And no! She’s got it all wrong. Kara would never— no matter how distraught.

“No no no! Lee this- that’s what I’m trying to tell you this baby was abandoned in an alley! I heard her cries and immediately rushed over—she was just there in this tattered box. She was confused by why the people who were supposed to love her-“ Kara consciously pulls the bundle closer , “just left and here we are-struggling to just-And I just had to do the right thing and save her but I thought what if. What if this is our chance?”

Kara is now smiling down at the little girl , whose eyes never leave her and misses the way Lena reaches for her stomach and then grabs Kara’s bicep.

“Darling I understand” the brunette says earnestly , unshed tears glistening in her eyes. “we have been through unbearable pain with the last two pregnancies and I understand your pain believe me” a tear slips down Lena’s cheek and the first instinct is to wipe it away. Lena should know its not because of her body , that there’s nothing wrong with it. There’s nothing wrong with her. So she moves in to tell her but Lena just squeezes her bicep. Those green eyes so intelligent and vibrant , shines with a knowingness Kara is so familiar with. As if she had the power to read her mind , Kara wouldn’t be surprised if Lena could though she-

What was that?.

Her train of thought out the window as Lena guides the arm not supporting the bundle to her stomach and- oh.

There it is , loud and persistent as if scolding Kara for doubting it , doubting her.

“Lori?” just the name alone makes the tears fall from Kara’s eyes once again. How could she have missed that? Her daughters heartbeat. That was once so weak is at a steady rate. Their baby made it. They’re going to have a baby!

She finds Lena’s eyes , tears falling as well , the knowingness shining so bright. Kara thinks its more the pure relief of not losing another child. She pulls her wife in , hugs her as tight as is humanly possible with one arm. She feels so happy , so filled with love and hope.

And that’s when their little guest grunts , probably shocked by the sudden confined space and Kara laughs , just pure joy ripping out from her lungs as if it was held captive there for too long.

“I’m sorry little one” the blonde loosens her grip but doesn’t let’s go of Lena. She still keeps her close. Now there’s two pairs of forest green eyes staring at her and she’s surprised by how enraptured she is by both.

“Lee I , I can’t abandon her too. Please-“

“Kara I would never do that.” Lena pushes the sides of the cape aside so she has a view of the cherub face. “its not going to be easy but we can make this work. In any case we did agree on a big family” the grin that splits onto Lena’s face is enough for Kara’s heart to feel as if it just grew that much bigger. After all these years Lena could still make her so happy , feel so loved and understood.

 “Now hand her to me so I can check her vitals” Lena takes the bundle from Kara’s arms , cradles her close and steps away towards the medbay Alex and Eliza have been in this whole time eavesdropping.

“What why? Did I hurt her?” Kara immediately frowns and follows , notices now how everyone hadn’t moved since she’d flown in and now seem to have found it in themselves to move and act busy. Shameful.

“No honey but you did say you found her in an Alley and we need to see if she’s suffered any harm from it.”

 “oh” is all Kara says , and watches how Lena unwraps the bundle to reveal the baby in a soft pink onesie. She still doesn’t make any cries of protest but just watches Lena with those intelligent eyes.

And Lena’s smiling. Smiling the whole time. From checking her heart rate with the stethoscope to taking her temperature with a thermometer , Lena smiles and is so gentle with the little girl it makes her heart melt.

“So I’ve got two nieces now huh” Alex remarks , nudging her side with an elbow. Kara watches as Eliza goes to aid Lena in her tests and it makes her rock back and forth on her heels for a bit.

“Yeah” Kara grins and looks to her sister with such a wide smile her cheeks are protesting. She’s giddy , she can’t even contain it. At one point tonight she’d thought she would never have this but here they are. Two girls. One on the way and one already here. Granted they would have to go through the right adoption processes but there’s no doubt that, that baby is already theirs. How could there be when Eliza rocks the child gently in her arms while Lena stands at the computer probably waiting for test results, a hand caressing her stomach while her attention is on the blonde little girl whose seem to have everyone gravitating towards her as Nia , Kelly , J'onn and even Brainy enters the room.

“despite it being so early and you guys actually have to legally adopt her still-“

“I know Alex but-“

“Hey I’m not raining on your parade okay? I know how long you’ve been waiting for this and I have every bit of faith you’ll get custody of her” Alex grabs her sisters shoulder and squeezes it gently. Kara needs more than that though , so she pulls her sister in a little too tight of a hug and laughs at the grunts Alex dramatically elates but she hugs her back nonetheless.

“so you have a name yet?” Alex asks after they pull away.

Kara turns to where their family is surrounding Lena , who is now holding the baby.

It’s the purest sight , the most wholesome. A vision of everything she has desired right before her.

“Well I need to run it by Lena first but yeah” she turns back to her sister , eyes twinkling  with mirth.

“Elan”

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hope y’all liked it uwu

[tvcoroner]

Finale Thoughts Pt. 04: Dansen

Let’s do this. I’m not going to talk much about the episode itself because honestly there’s not much to say. I’m just going to talk about what I thought of the state of things after, and of course my thoughts on Kara and Lena and Mon-El etc. I’m a shipper everyone, this is mostly about the various ships. I’m breaking these up into separate posts otherwise the tags would be a pain in the ass and the reading way too damn long. Considering these are the last posts I’m ever going to make about Supergirl, I’m using the shipping tags even if I have nothing good to say about that ship. You can always ignore or block me if you don’t like that. I’m also using the anti tags, so you can easily block anything I say if you haven’t blocked that tag already.

Alex and Kelly (Dansen)

Oh I’m getting to Supercorp eventually, just wait. The moment Kelly showed up I knew they would be endgame. Partly because Kelly and Alex are really good together, partly because I knew the writers weren’t going to fuck this one up after the disaster ending of Sanvers. They needed to lock a relationship in and go all the way.

I felt like their relationship went at a good pace. We saw them start out as sort of friends who obviously have a romantic interest in each other and watched their feelings grow, their relationship begin and have it’s ups and down, and eventually adoption and marriage. It sounds small but A LOT happened. Their relationship didn’t get as much attention as I often felt it needed, but it didn’t slow down for anything.

The treatment of Kelly and her actress Azie definitely made me realize how wildly racist this fandom can be though. When Mehcad was being harrassed, I didn’t like attributing it to racism because, as a Snowbarry shipper, I’ve been accused of being racist for who I ship and don’t ship. I know how much it can really suck when someone thinks you’re that type of scumbag just because of a differing opinion.

So I was reluctant to say racism was behind Mehcad’s abuse. I had hoped when Azie joined the show she would get treated better. And she was! Sort of. Sanvers shippers decided that what this fandom really needed on top of the Supercorp insanity was a healthy dose of racism and even MORE abuse. We had a surplus of that already, and they decided to add more.

It was really disappointing. I used to be a Sanvers shipper until they became toxic. Same thing happened when I was a Supercorp shipper.

In the early days of the ship, a lot of SC shippers hated Kelly for the high crime of being related to James Olsen, but that has changed a lot over time. Sanvers just got worse and stayed worse in their treatment of her. Instead, SC shippers just went to pretending Dansen didn’t exist so they could continue making claims about queerbaiting and hating gay people. Dansen got in the way of their narrative so they tried to leave them out of the conversation unless they wanted to use them to make more noise, something I saw that the Dansen fandom became increasingly annoyed with.

Dansen was a beautiful, wholesome relationship that we got to see all the way through to it’s wonderful conclusion. It could’ve been done better, like literally every other relationship on this show, but it is by far the best ship this show had.