#i posted this on twt yesterday so i did make it in time just not here lol

[nanjokaoru]

happy belated bday my king 😔🤲🏻🩷 (kojiro then set this picture as his lockscreen)

twt > cloudyhl | don’t repost!!

[ender-princee]

Okay, I'm putting this here because God do I have a lot of thoughts, and I don't have a limit here hehe.

Okay, so we all know how yesterday all the eggs (at least the ones that woke up) showed up dirty and with various other traumas. (Chayanne having the feeling he was supposed to wake up, Tallulah feeling in pain and like it would never end, Leonarda just very drawn back and quiet.) And how those with hats had them skewed off and all that.

So I know the theories for those were either a) hatching b) rotting c) they got taken by the federation and beat up.

Based on today, the eggs being missing and the only thing being left is their signature thing, all three things are still a possibility with the way they work. (Although some are more likely than others)

So a) hatching. Honestly out of the three, this is the least likely even if I want it to be true. In mythology from what I can remember, Dragons typically like much warmer climates (ie: volcanoes, deserts), so the eggs could have left of their own volition to go hatch in a warmer climate like they're supposed to. However, This is helped by cellbits code the other day that said the word "eclosion" which means to come out of a shell or pupal state, and would also be explained by quackity studios post of "Oops 🍳" (which is where I got the warmer thing because technically this would be the eggs getting "warmer")

b) rotting. This is still a big possibility as I read from someone who's owned several snakes, and since dragons are technically classified as reptiles we can guess at how their gestation period would work using snakes. It's been about 4 months since the egg event started and most snakes hatch in 45-70 days (sorry if this is inaccurate I did my best but cannot look at snakes at all so this was a little difficult to look up) and taking into account that dragons are much larger than snakes we can guess that they would have at least double the amount of time of the largest snake gestation time.

Which is about 4 months.

Of which after, snake eggs can begin to start rotting because of some shit idk (I am terrified of the things) but they would show discoloration if they did, and/or also growing bigger like Chayanne seemed to look the day before they all left.

Which could imply they are rotting, and they all left to be together when they were rotting as they didn't want to see their parents see them in that state, or the federation took them because this was happening and the plan of federation experiments had failed. (I know it's a lot and probably a long stretch but I have thoughts and I need to put them down and thanks to that one person on twt for mentioning the discoloration and sending me on a rabbit hole of thinking)

Okay finally c) the eggs got beat up by the federation. This is honestly the most likely solution for when they all showed up dirty and such. Because this followed by being kidnapped with no warning other than the cryptic code sent by quackity studios yesterday would make a lot of sense.

We saw evidence of physical attacks in ways other than the dirt and items being messed up in Chayanne being confused, Leo being uncharacteristicly quiet, and Tallulah claiming that her entire body hurt. All of which was likely the punishment of letting one of the new players die on the way back to spawn which they were specifically instructed not to do. It also makes sense as to why they waited to do this, because if they had just done this immediately, they wouldn't have everyone on the server concerned and it wouldn't be an overall punishment. They would have to wait for the new players to get to know the eggs and then the punishment would have more effect when the federation took them.

This would also make sense as none of them would just leave, and especially not without their trademark item/clothes, which has never happened (as far as I'm aware) even in the previous two times they've been kidnapped. That and the federation does not wish well for the eggs or the islanders even if cucurocho claims that we'll know where they went soon.

So in summary most likely is c, least likely is a, and god what the hell were you thinking is b because I feel like that is a major stretch but idk there's my thoughts Tumblr.

Honestly, kudos to you if you read that entire basically essay of me rambling about theories. There's probably more that I forgot lol.

[natsmagi]

tbh you should just sexualize your fem Tsumugi more. I'm talking full on fetish hentai style. Put her in the open boob sweater. Have her accidentally flash while leaning fowards. Have her slip and show pantsu. Full kink with no breaks. Please shut these anons up. People trying to police your creativity like it has some sort of reflection on your morals or beliefs. I also wish you would stop answering them? or at least tagging it as anon hate because it's so sad to keep seeing people be so mean to you over and over when most of us just want to enjoy your big brain takes and drawings. Maybe I'm getting parasocial bc I get so sad seeing people hate on your Tsumugi I love her she's just like me fr!!! All that matters is that you enjoy how you draw her and I hope you don't feel pressured to change your headcanons.

HWEISUHRUHKDHG I SHOULDDDDDDDDD I SHOULD UR RIGHT ive been too prudish as of late. need to be insane again. Tbh ive made some art that was made purely bc i am a freak and insane but i feel like its never the art people would expect it to be. And thats really funny to me. like my more explicit stuff is just drawn for fun But if uve ever looked at a drawing of mine and gone "this seems kind of freakish conceptually even though the execution isnt super weird" Well thats probably bc it actually is freakish. sorry. My suggestive art is usually just for the vibes tho i DID also like. yesterday?? discover a twt acc that will sometimes post various lingerie fits SO!! MAYBE ILL DRAW SOME SOON 💪💪

AND AUGHHH I KNOWWWW in the beginning i thought itd be worth replying to people bc i was like "well this is all kind of niche. im sure they have good intentions so we might aswell talk it out" But as things progress its been made clear thats doing me or anyone else no favors. i love having discussions, so i reply to most of my asks! but i do hope that ive made myself clear enough and that we can all just continue doing our own things im sorry to hear its made you sad though!!!!! rest assured its not something that demotivates me, nor is it something that makes me feel i need to change how i draw. i do what i do because i enjoy it! and i know others enjoy it too! i will never be able to appeal to everyone, and that has never been my goal. i like having fun with others though, which is why i enjoy hearing why others might think differently than me!

but yes! i already feel ive said my piece on the whole discourse thing by now and i hate walking in circles, so even if i get negative asks about it i likely wont answer unless i feel its warranted. but! if that does happen, ill be sure to tag it! you can mute "#discourse tag" ahead of time incase i ever end up using it

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Me yesterday after an 8 hr shift: oooh, jikook in tokyo and then sapporo. Yes, pretty, pretty winter view. What? New jikook clips from PTD US? Yes, yes. Mm-hmm. Of course, there are tons of jikook moments. As usual.

Me after waking up this morning with one eye open: what? there's more?? Jikook still jikooking?? What do you mean that was like half of the dvd?? *drowns in jikook content but still wants to keep it coming* 😤😭

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Ask 2:

I can't help but remember all your posts from the past 2 years saying jikook hasn't changed really. Let this be lesson no 999 for me to not doubt jikook,, I prayed for days like this

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Ask 3:

BPP the change in sentiment on my tl is like night and day. My moot basically turned into a PJM last month and was dragging JK 247, but now she is reposting PTD vids about how she misses BTS and always knew they loved each other yada yada.

Am I in the twilight zone? Did the lack of OT7 content this year really make people go crazy and forget how BTS are with each other? I asked my moot if she's still a PJM that hates JK and she started denying she ever hated them! But her rants calling him a 'Bongo sucker who has no talent and backstabs his friends' was up on her profile until she deleted the posts today.

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Hi Anon(s),

It's starting to feel a lot like Christmas, isn't it?

With all that footage coming in, ARMY twitter feels a bit more like its former state, of BTS fans awwing and ooohing over all seven guys and their interactions with each other, while gaining more respect for BTS after seeing how hard they work (and play) together. ARMY twt still feels like a shadow of its former self though, partly because:

Most ARMYs are actually off Twitter. Using a personal anecdote, about half of my Twitter mutuals have been dormant since Butter era (when many fans were fairly certain BTS would begin enlisting), and even more have left Twitter since the Festa Dinner. Looking at likes on BTS posts from early 2021 which could easily crack 2 million, and on ARMY tweets that regularly hit 350k, compared to now when the most engagement peaks at <100k on average. And this is on Musk's X, where bots are even more rampant.

There's fewer genuine fans. Using the moot of anon in ask 3 as an example, there's so many stans exactly like that. Like I keep saying, the way a lot of people behave in fandom has more to do with them than anything actually happening with jikook or BTS. All that footage is from a time when people claimed BTS hated working with each other and wanted to leave the group or claimed that jikook weren't close anymore. Those narratives were everywhere despite what in reality was happening with BTS and jikook, which, again as I keep saying, just drives home the fact that a lot of people here, a lot of k-pop stans generally, have no real idea on what they're talking about. The way we see BTS in that footage is consistent with how they've been with each other for years, so anybody asserting doom in paradise during PTD era was high on their own supply.

It's the same with BTS in Chapter 2 btw. For anybody actually paying attention.

[prestonmonterey]

TLT UPDATE!! BEFORE I GO TO BED

(gods im so tired...)

@vincentaureliuslin @tatsumisheep3

no photos today so heres my cat :P

OPENING NIGHT!!! it went super well!!!!! (i think)

it was PA night so the understudys were percy and annabeth and they killed it!!!!!! :DDDD

also my director gave me a compliment today so im in a good mood (it was somethin along the lines of "you finally did a good job as cerberus" but ill take what i can get...) (i still have beef with him but.. whatever....)

its crazy how fast this show is going and that itll all be over after sunday,, but also i am SO tired bc we literally spend more time at school than at home this week :(

also getting a lotta acne bc im not used to wearing this much make up every day :P

but hey at least ill get to rest a teeny bit on the weekend (just in the morning TwT bc we have matinees)

also my parents and some of my friends are comin tomorrow so they BETTER FUCKIN BUY ME CANDY (i really really really want candygrams... one of the stage managers got like 4 boxes of candy i am so jealous...)

also also also we did the legacy robe last night before preview night and my friend (and mother /ij) got it :DDDD very happy for her

um um um i felt like i had more to say but idk this is already a lot and i cant remember things im kinda tired :P

oh i finally got my camper necklace!!! the beads were missing for like a week but they were just on the table in the costuming room... anyway my friend made it for me during tech class bc shes so so sooo sweet <3 (while i was in math trying to force my friend to study... *stares at neeks* /aff) i got four beads that kinda almost make the ace flag!! (black for tech, silver for the fall play, light blue for this show, and purple for my grade)

idk if i explained it before but all of our necklaces represent how much theater we've done,,, bc its kinda like how long we've been at camp. theres a bead for each grade based on our class colors, and the tlt bead, so everyone gets at least 2. theres also beads for each of the past musicals and plays at school, and a black bead if youve done tech, and a white bead if youve done leadership :D some of the seniors have like most of their necklace filled because of how many shows theyve done

heres another cat pic to keep you engaged and reading this /hj

also also also many many thanks to my wonderful actor and tech friends i would not survive without them (especially thanks to tech bc they have to put up with us actors... /hj) its poseidon's actors first show i think and they have a LOT of quick changes so their section of the rack is,,, kind of a mess. also the lamp for the oracle scene has broken multiple times i think already... and i already left my make up bag out yesterday and my watch in the cubbies today TwT we are a hot mess

my graphic design teacher was acting today :D (the farmer in drive is a teacher role, and they switch out every night) and i love him being so absolutely perplexed by the energy circle before show :333

also i remembered to put setting powder on for the first time,,, and... i forgot that my mom is SO much paler than me TwT (i was very washed out...) so ill probably stick to spray for the rest of the week :P

sorry i really am rambling tonight...

ok i will probably hopefully do at least one more update after strike on sunday!! (depending on how tired i am,, i might just curl up on the floor and sleep after the sunday show actually...) unless something goes horribly wrong,,, then ill probably post about it too

good night!! i need to collapse in bed and try to save up enough energy for tomorrows show :3

have a wonderful day/night and remember to hydrate! (or you'll die straight...)

[yuzu-all-the-way]

Hello! I just found out about hanyu yuzuru, so I guess that makes me a baby fanyu now haha, and I was wondering if you know any videos or sites of where to start to get to know about him more , thank you!!

Hi! I'm so happy you found out about Yuzu. It's unusual for skaters to gain new fans after they've gone pro. So, that's your first indication that Yuzu is a very unique skater and person.

(I strongly encourage people who see this post and have more resources to add, to either reblog or comment!)

Here's how I started to learn more about him:

1. Planet Hanyu - it's a forum that has a huge video archive (accessible if you sign up). There's a section called Yuzuru's journey with documentaries and interviews and competition footage + the new content after he retired. It's the most complete thing I can think of. There are also sections by year, competitions and ice shows.

However, the first step I took when learning about Yuzu was by reading this page from the forum: The Great Glittering Glossary. It's a comperehensive break down of lingo about Yuzu and it also helps you understand more about him.

I would also add Planet Hanyu's Twitter account - they make regular posts - and their #OnThisDay tag is very helpful to find vids and links with Yuzu content

2. The Yuzuru Hanyu wikipedia page. Yes. It's a very good, detailed resource, constantly updated, and very reliable. His page has the status of Good Article (see here what it means)

3. For more recent stuff (starting with 2019), I highly recommend the Axel with Wings blog. It's a team which works on providing subtitles and they also have some articles translated.

4. Frankly, the most important part for me, it's watching his competition programs - I watched on YouTube all his competitive programs at all competitions he participated. And what I could not freely find on YT because of geo-blocking, I found in the video archive of Planet Hanyu. The best way to understand his excelence, also, is to watch full competitions (or at least the group he participated in competitions). He will definitely stand out. But you can't gather info about him like this, except about his skating and how he expressed himself through it.

5. Google a lot. You find something in the Glossary that's unclear or a reference about an interview or something not linked, look it up. Chances are Google will spit out a Tumblr link that has fan-translations of content not available on the Planet.

6. His various ice show performances. Different from competitive programs (sometimes) and they allow Yuzu the freedom to express his artistry much more than competitions did.

I hope this helps. Learning about Yuzu is an on-going process, it never really ends. I began learning about him in February (shortly before the Beijing Olympics). Up until March/April, I was still finding "new" info. Even now, from time to time, there's old stuff about him that I find out - like yesterday I learnt he sometimes ate at McDonald's.

Keep an eye out on these Twitter accounts for fast translations of Yuzu content - this is not an easy way to learn about Yuzu since Twitter is a pretty messy place for archiving. Nevertheless, if you plan on keeping up with current content about Yuzu/featuring Yuzu, these accounts are great.

1) Marika

2) Lae

3) LGeorgin

4) SweetYuzu

5) Tsukiyomi

6) Sarah

7) This one is a bit more organized and recent: YuzuruHanyu_Eng

Update: ^YuzuruHanyu_Eng have set up a DaikyMotion acc to post from now on. Check their twt page for more info about the change.

(Also, curate your timeline very well - there are a lot of antis and sometimes drama that's better left out).

Of course, don't forget about Yuzu's YouTube Channel, opened on 7th August and also give him a follow on Twitter & Insta. News about his first self-produced solo ice show, Prologue, will be shared on those platforms (you can find the links on my pinned post).

I truly hope this helps and that you enjoy your journey as a Fanyu.

[h4venpha]

songs that make me think of trimax vashwood and why

MAJOR TRIMAX SPOILERS !!

like im serious please do not read if you haven’t finished the entire manga

oceans & engines by NIKI

- i saw a post on twt talking about where at some point in vashs immortal life, he starts to forget wolfwood. he begins to forget what his voice sounded like and how his hands used to feel in his.

- and instead he misses him more than anything. he misses the thought of him. and it hurts so badly that he cannot remember the only one he loves.

- oceans & engines is vash's last stage of grief: acceptance.

- “how is it now that somehow you're a stranger? you were mine just yesterday": this represents how regardless of vash's immortality and the decades he has lived after wolfwoods death, he still finds himself living the days he did with wolfwood. thats where he feels he truly belongs. hes finally caught up with the fact that its been years after his death and hes realizing that wolfwood is just a stranger to him again

- “i know ill be alright, some day ill be fine, but just not tonight.”: vash’s final push, a swear to himself that he’ll get over it and he’ll drop it for good. that this night will be the last night he grieves wolfwood. he knows that at some point he may forget everything about him but his name. too many years meeting too many faces and he can barely form wolfwoods in his mind. and hes accepting it.

- “this is the last falsetto, ill ever sing to you, my great lost love.”: his great lost love, what better wording for him and wolfwood!

welcome and goodbye by Dream, Ivory

- this song because of the unspoken mutual understanding of each others motives and wants/needs. so honestly this song can be from both perspectives.

- “thats the reason im afraid, youre the thoughts that cant be tamed.”: no matter what either of them do, its so very obvious of the vulnerability and understanding they share. even if they bicker so often (as seen in the manga), they cannot ignore the bond they share.

- like how is it that this man knows these things about me? how is it he knows exactly how i will act? that somehow hes the one who knows everything about me with ease?

- “and im trying to be sane, and im trying to be sane.”: this line is more vash imo. at the end after he kills legato, when hes talking about “you[wolfwood] died for him[livio], i couldnt let that go to waste”. this line and what he said shows how even in death, wolfwood has such an affect on him

- how vash went against his insanely stubborn, strict morals because of wolfwood

pistol by Cigarettes After Sex

- post trimax vash to deceased wolfwood

- “and ill waste my time, til you lift me off the floor and love me again”: vash talking about how he’ll waste the years of his immortal life waiting for wolfwood to come back to him. oh he knows its impossible, but he can’t help but hope, hope that somehow wolfwood will find his way back to him

- he knows wolfwood won’t come back? yet he still waits, he waits and waits for all of eternity for him because he doesnt know what else to do

- “i know if i saw you, and we kissed just once; you could be happy, maybe you’d come back”: hes oh so desperate. vash who only realized the depth of his feelings for wolfwood as ww was dying. he cursed himself day and night that he never got the chance to kiss him at least once

- maybe if he kissed him or said something he wouldnt have died, its silly to say but hes so so desperate.

- he wants just one more chance to see wolfwood, to feel him and kiss him, maybe then he would decide to come back to him.

[snake-bytez]

Hey, I'm putting this in some Quackity tags, specifically for some answers and spread awareness on it, so if you see this, yes it's related to Q, but more specific the QuackGiveaways account on twt

(it's a long one, so if you don't wanna read through, I'm cutting the more section here haha)

I know this is usually against tumblr tag etiquette, I'm sorry for that.

From the replies still there it seems like some random person's account, replying to things during 2022 but I thought I saw it get swapped over during the 12th (August 12th 2023) at around 7 PM EST, so just a few days ago, and so the replies don't add up. I haven't seen anyone talk about it and it's strange. Did Blays own the account name and handed it over during the giveaway time and then deleted every trace of the account being in Q's hands in the past few days?

Anyways, does anyone know who "Blays" is besides their main account and why they (now?) have the QuackGiveaways account on twt (the merch giveaway account that was active during the Las Nevadas merch drop, "made" to prevent main account spam [made in quotations because it says the account was made in 2019?])?

It's still linked in the QuackityMerchh (has 2 hh's but it's got the official yellow "organization" checkmark and affiliates with all Q's accounts) account bio and it's all confusing.

On Blays's main account (blaystweets) it has a checkmark, but that could be a blue sub, they run an Origins SMP (and have a "verified" account for it under OriginsSMP_ which is also highly possibly a blue sub) and they posted on the Origins "verified" account showing a screen recording of them switching accounts [EDIT: i kept this post as a draft all day as I'm slowly working on it, it looks like they deleted this and any of their other posts that outright said they hacked into it, but put up a screen recording of just them clicking the QuackGiveaways @ in the Merch account bio and showing the profile I screenshotted and have above.]

They also posted about "hacking" into other accounts, except those accounts seem to be their friends unlike the QuackGiveaways account.

There's also a QSMPGiveaways_ account which looks to be part of the same group of people Blays associates with and the name was changed recently but shows absolutely zero signs of being official, especially since it's not tagged in any of the official QSMP account directories and there's nothing the QSMP has to "giveaway" in the first place. That account has been used to fool fans into thinking they won free Quackity while Blays laughs at said fans.

[edit: it seems like the Origins account is also partially run by "Ark" @ _Ark58, who seems to have small bursts of activity on their personal account]

I tried to message the QuackityMerchh account because it was the only official account that has dms open, but I haven't heard back and it doesn't say that it was seen. Which, makes sense considering if the dms are open, they probably get flooded every single day with nonsense. I'm debating whether or not I should send an email, but right now I just want people to be aware about it.

That's all I know so far about this, unfortunately. I've been too busy the past few days to look into it again. It's just the dates of the account being created and some of these replies that's throwing me off.

I also think a lot of the tweets I saw and spoke about got purged yesterday (started forming this post last night on august 14th) which is why I couldn't gather any screenshots of the tweets themselves :/

I'm posting this today, which is currently August 16th, 2023, 12:02 AM EST, thank you for reading

[bubbaluz]

Hey I just wanted to ask, what is going on with taz Skylar in regards to Palestine? I can't find what you're talking about and wanted to know. I don't have Twitter so maybe it was there? I don't follow him on ig but I have checked his profile a few times and thought it was weird that he hadn't made any statements (as well as the other cast members I saw) and kept posting regularly like normal. I feel like them staying silent is weird considering the themes in the show they act in and praise so much. And him in particular cause I believe he's from Arab descent, Lebanese specifically if what I saw was correct, which would make him standing with the occupiers or even neutral that much worse imo

(You can answer this privately if you're getting hate about it btw)

I woke up yesterday and went on twitter. I see artists on my tl complaining about Taz, saying how they definitely won’t be supporting/ will be dropping the show. So I’m curious. From what I gather, he promoted a fundraiser marathon he did, for the British Red Cross. While the BRC stands as a neutral organization, they still fund Israel. If the fundraiser/organization had gone to the Palestinian people in Gaza, no one would’ve really had a problem. Most people would’ve liked it, since that would make him the first main cast member to speak up in support of Palestine, (I mean main as the main group, Morgan who plays Koby has shown support). Majority are displaced/homeless, are being starved, more than 20,000+ of them of died and are continuously still being bombed.

People in his comments did say “hey, taz, i know you have good intentions but this organization also supports israel” “can you post something for Palestine too?” He deleted the post. Sometime after that he tweeted out:

“Our opinions can be different. And that's okay. Just because my opinion is different to yours, doesn't mean either of us are wrong. It just means we see things differently. If you go to war with everyone who differs in opinion, we'd all be at war with everyone all the time.”

(Also now deleted, twt is priv) (scrolling through twt, someone got blocked for calling him out?)

Vague tweet on the surface, but the timing and climate that we are in, this tweet can only be referencing what we believe it is in reference to.

At this time he has not said anything. I don’t know if he will say anything in response. I’m sure many people hope for and would appreciate an explanation or an apology or just anything, because this fucking hurts okay? If there’s any Palestinian fans of his or of OPLA, or just the general fans like me, of course they would hurt/disappointed/angered by this. We have every right to. Especially since we all think he and the cast are decent people, you never want to assume people who are tied to your favorite piece of media are bad people, you know? Edit: And I wish he hadn’t reacted the way he did. He could’ve said anything afterwards to clear things up, or at least answered the more calmer people in his comments, rather than deleting and privating. If he genuinely comes to understand and talks, I’ll probably calm down since this situation has been quite rage inducing. But as of right now, I don’t want to look at him…

It is ironic that the cast of One Piece has remained silent throughout, except for Morgan. I know Iñaki posted a little insta story about how there’s a lot of hurt in the world right now. I saw a screenshot of Jacob’s story, telling people to look out for their Palestinian and Jewish friends during this time. That’s about it. Whether it’s an issue of not feeling educated enough or being fearful of the consequences about speaking out (i.e. Barrea being fired from scream, Jenna quitting in solidarity etc.) (I’m iffy on Mackenyu though? I don’t know if he’s allowed to say anything either way, doesn’t he belong to an actor company in Japan? Maybe advise against?) I don’t know. You don’t have to be out here speaking like your in a VICE video, even just a retweeting, liking, sharing news, or just acknowledgement would be a nice sentiment.

At the end of the day, these people are just actors. But in today’s stan culture, when something like this happens, some people will not let go of that image of the celebrity that they have in there head so they end up defending or sticking by their side through the worst of the worst of allegations. I’m sorry if I came off as harsh in that last vent, but in this scenario you have to. You have to be hit in the face with it in that hope that you’ll realize what the fuck is going on.

[anonymous-dentist]

Hi! I love your fic ''You're Dead'' but I saw your post about not updateing it/turning it into an original piece. As much as I'd love to read it w/ original characters, I'm also very attached to yd!karlnapity :'3 So I wondered - it's due to Dream allegations right? Idk too much (I saw some stuff on twt about it but there were so many re-tellings I'm not sure what is true) but if the allegations turn out false, will you continue the piece? Or maybe I don't know something and it's all been proven true?

(Here’s what I say as of 8:24 a.m. on the 19 of October:)

At this point I legitimately don’t know what’s true and what’s not. What I do know comes right from Dream’s Twitlonger. He did some weird messaging with fans, and- even if they weren’t minors- that’s really freaky. Shitty, even.

This isn’t my first rodeo with this kind of thing. I was an Achievement Hunter and Funhaus fan back in 2020. I also know to always believe the victim and to not believe, say, random fucking people saying things and then immediately leaving.

I’ve never liked Dream. It’s never been a secret. I’ve never watched any of his videos besides the face reveal and I’ve never watched any of his streams because I’ve never liked him. I’ve never defended him outside of saying he isn’t ugly. All the stuff he’s done in the past has been horrible. I firmly believe that you can grow as a person (I know it firsthand), and I’ve always been able to separate art from artist as you can tell by c!Dream being in my fics, but at this point it’s legit just too much. Because even if the allegations are true, the way he handled this plus the Manatreed situation earlier this year plus him, again, admitting to sending weird and very parasocial messages to fans just makes everything he’s touched tainted.

You’re Dead won’t be continued. I have cried over this. It isn’t the most important thing in the world, and the priority here should be with the victim(s?), but it still hit hard yesterday when I realized I’ll never be able to finish my fic.

Even if I was to play devil’s advocate here, I’d say that he’s still too gross. Dream’s character was going to die in the end, anyway, but I’d still have to write and include him in the second half of the fic, and I’m. Not doing that. So it can never be continued even if the allegations are somehow false. It sucks and I’m heartbroken. There, I said it, but it isn’t worth hours and hours of seeing his name there. He doesn’t deserve even a single hit on the Google search bar.

But! I really like the new concepts I have for You’re Dead: the Remake. It’s tighter and more focused while making adjustments to the characters that bring them to life in new ways and allow them to act like total fucking freaks all of the time (because tbh they were super ooc for a fanfic.) There were a lot of plot threads in YD I don’t think I could have ever successfully concluded in a satisfying way. Things were jumbled and messy and, honestly, pretty bad. But now I can fix it and make it actually good!

If the allegations are somehow false and other creators ditch the asshole motherfucker piece of shit, maybe I’ll be able to write about their characters in peace. Maybe. Karlnapity are so fucking important to me, you don’t understand. But the way things are looking based on what I saw on Karl’s stream last night and by how silent twitter has been on the subject… it’s not looking too good.

[sapybara]

Sorry if this is unrelated, but I was eatching George's pov yesterday and when at the very end he was talking about making allies with the spanish streamers, the chat exploded screaming "racist" and "neo nazi" when i believe Bayit? Biyit? Starting talking to George. Do you know what all of that was about, cuz I'm confused as hell, like chat said that in english and spanish so I only assumed that they are widely known in some way?

Oh that's long to explain. But if you've been around here for long enough you probably saw my posts about how the english community would blacklist auron in a heartbeat for all the shit he did when he was a YouTuber. Now when I made those post I was talking about the "pranks" (they were just crueal) he did and the type of humor he had in his videos but it was so much worse than that.

Long story short, Biyin (aurons gf) and Auron (+ a few more that aren't in the pic now) were self proclaimed nazis during 2013ish. They would talk about how disgusting ppl from latam are, make fun of our variations of Spanish, terrorize people on the internet (one of the worse things was harassing a mother who was looking for his missing son telling him that he was dead and was probably raped multiple times and calling her to give her false info and tell her horrible things about her son) and a million things more. They excused themselves saying that it was "black humor". Now the thing is that the latest tweet of them calling themselves nazis are from 2017, where auron post a pic with biyin saying that "twt favorite nazis couple is back" <- tweets now deleted of course.

I honestly not sure if they apologized, I know Biyin did a stream washing her hands and saying it was not her (it was) and that the whole mother thing was false and just a random trying to take her down; but idk what Auron said.

So there's that. People who defend them say that it was 10 years ago and people change, I don't think I heard Auron saying anything bad lately (last two years maybe?) But I don't actively watch him and i know less about Biyin. Take that as you want.

[lusree]

Saeyoung ADORES you, you know that, right?

He always wants you to be happy, you know. And If you are having a bad day, he's always there for you and to comfort you. He is gonna do his best to cheer you up and stick by your side through your worst just like you stuck by his side when he was miserable.

Anything you want? He's gonna do it, no doubt. If you need some alone time? Sure, just make sure to reach out to him later. Need cuddles? Kisses? Absolutely! He'll SHOWER you with them and fill your face with smooches because you deserve them.

You taught him that he can be happy and he wants to make you feel better as much as he can. You made his life INFINITE times better, he can't imagine a life without you, his precious lover.

He is gonna hold you close and give you affection any time you want him to. You need any compliments or reminders? He's got you, totally. He thinks you are so cute and wants to hug you and cuddle you all day. Even cuter than Elly and Loooongcat combined!! More pretty than the ENTIRE galaxy!!!

He is gonna make sure you are giggling from his jokes and affection once again. He would go through hell just to see you smiling and being okay. He is gonna do anything to see you happy and safe.

He is proud of you, too. He thinks you are so amazing. He is so, so happy that you love him so much as well. Nothing will seperate the two of you when your relationship is this strong and beautiful. He feels so warm and nice inside just by the sight of you. Keep being amazing.

He loves you so, so, SO much!!!! And he is gonna whisper his love for you forever because not even words can explain how much he adores you, he loves everything about you.

Everything will be okay, he's there for you, he is always gonna be here for you.

Oh my god thank you so much 🥺♥️♥️♥️

My head started spiraling into not so nice..... thoughts yesterday. So much for my first day at college. I was feeling very demoralized and demotivated. Thinking about him helped a LOT, so did your wonderful post and some beautiful art I saw here ♡

But then the day ended in a not so nice way either :) though I sometimes think that I might not deserve him.... I'm sure he's going to lovingly scold me about it and comfort(spoil) me.

I am so saving this ask for my future self TwT ♡♡♡♡

Thank you so much for sending me this ♡ and I'm sorry for worrying you :"

I would like to relay this message to everyone who needs it as well♡

[bandzboy]

wait what did people do to svt?

to put it simply as of recent, with svt going to airports and etc people have been acting pretty weirdly by mobbing them and not only that fansites and etc taking photos of them in places where it's not allowed but also people getting private information of where they are and where they are staying etc yknow private information and bc of that yesterday pledis released a statement talking about it and this fan etiquette rules everyone should follow since it was happening a lot recently and then literally today (i think it was today idk... timezones) they are in manila and apparently some people bothered some members at this mall (?) idk the details bc these things give me second hand embarrassment and also makes me upset so i just know the surface of what happened but yeah it was a public place and they had to tell them to go away (they as in the members in that situation) but what is... upsetting was this happening especially a day after pledis warned these people abt these things like i said in my post... obviously there are still gonna be people who will do these things to them no matter what and most of the time these people aren't even carats they are people who love to torment svt and think they are so amazing for it when they are the worst of the worst but it's honestly very sad that 1) these things happen and 2) that pledis had to drop smth like that to begin with bc some so called carats don't know how to act and sigh... i'm rambling at this point but if u wanna know details u can find them easily on twt since everyone is talking abt it

[zoekrystall]

Added more in my pinned post and accidentally talked too much in the tags to hit the limit whoops. Added that txt yesterday bc I saw people primarily (some only) sharing donation links. Can you tell when I wrote stuff was I just ever so slightly irritated by all the emotions talk. Which yknow I get feeling angry and whatnot but I am specifically talking abt the stuff w "how can you not feel _". Idk if I already talked abt it or deleted it before hitting post some other time I think I did. Also was irritated by all the people yelling at people for being triggered like if you don't know the difference between discomfort and triggered do I not want you near me. That difference is very significant.

Idk man I am just tired of people equating empathy w humanity the most. I'm really glad I hardened up more bc I just think abt 2020 where I think I got first truly radicalized or/and learned a fuck ton but also all that guilt tripping and all made the already bad mental health further nosedive and that is just not sustainable neither for the cause or us. Like yes sharing and all actions that do help are important but it's also important to step away and do anything else to not burn out in like a day or two. Luckily the people that get followed got shaken up a bit and dash and rbs get focused more on positivity in general since then and that def helped long term (was gen "would _ rb that" "would _ scold if I would rb that" until it became a no brainer when my lifeline wasn't there. not the time to gush but fuck do I think I would still be in the same mud without him). Still not the best but better than then so sharing is easier on the mental health.

I feel. So weird for not being able to feel empathy for others but def feel it when others irritate me. Yeah I feel bad when I don't feel anything but what does it bring to force myself to feel something. I already knew in 2020 that the trying to force myself was empty I only felt like I have to try to feel awful bc of all the guilt tripping. It's hard to explain how it feels I think it's such a strange feeling. Anyways I'm at least aware enough to know if I get irritated around this I shouldn't constantly be vocal abt it bc it really does not matter in the grand scheme of things this is the only post and if further will I just on private bc no-one needs to see that but sometimes venting is needed.

I'm only really talking abt that bc reg the trigger stuff like ffs people still need to be able to function and there are things to do without getting triggered if the heavy topics are what do it. Also the people that want to help through sharing those can look at that if they know what they'll see and can get prepared first. I got ptsd doesn't mean I never ever look at any triggering stuff ever again I just need to be in the headspace and a heads up would always be very good. Really wish twt would do it like here w not completely not showing the tweet (minus in replies where you can click to show) if it has smth muted but saying "yo this post got this muted thing ya wanna see it". Like. People getting triggered are absolutely not the same people bitching bc they're just uncomfortable. The latter are the bad ones I do agree but know the fucking difference. Feeling uncomfortable just living happens like daily for the most standard reason so feeling that abt a horrendous situation should be a given. You however shouldn't get triggered daily. Also yes we can admire the people there but not everyone is as strong you shouldn't guilt them into dealing w more than they can. I'm gen (starting to consider, already did a few though) immediately blocking everyone posting that stuff esp the aggressive ones. I do not care if you have x or y not everyone experiences things the exact same way. I am being so good abt holding back insults.

And reg the emotions thing like people learn not everyone feels empathy and that it doesn't make people anything bad and that actions count challenge. Not everyone w aspd for example is automatically a evil person. What matters is if they talk abt things and if they genuinely stand behind them. Idk if I speak for most or if just past self but writing in all caps "how can you not feel bad/sad/angry/etc at seeing [atrocity, usually as video attached]" will make people not magically care if they didn't prior it'll just irritate them and scroll away. Factual information is what can make people turn around more (like, literally just share without that commentary for example). So many "both sides bad" focus on emotions afaik. Compassion, empathy, etc for both. There are people that see and feel bad abt what happens to them but still say both sides bad.

I'm tired I'll likely sleep now but yeah I just. Wanted to write abt it and get it out ig. Rb disabled and I won't bad faith argument idc if any of this sounded privileged to you. I can prob write all this way more eloquent but man idc this isn't a post that is supposed to spread and I wrote this while being sleepy. I also think there is, for individual people that aren't big names, some nuance reg having to talk abt something and being allowed to not engage in every important topic but 1 that is too complex to just kinda ramble about 2 this current event is less nuanced reg that I def think try to share as much as you can even if just occasionally. I think I only don't like it bc not saying anything online doesn't equal not doing anything. Someone could go to every protest they can and write and call but just not using their socials bc that takes their energy enough or smth. And some have multiple accs and only focus spreading it on their main (and/or w the biggest following, which should be used). I think that is what specifically gets me. But yeah didn't think abt it enough to form enough abt it and also maybe talking more abt it when this is over bc how I said it is less complicated rn. And. Yknow. When I am not tired as hell.

[liquorisce]

so many thoughts (don’t click on this if you don’t want to read anything to do with current world affairs and politics)

recently i tried my hand cosplaying as makima at comic con. i had a blast, took pics with a lot of cosplayers, enjoyed the nerd central vibes. but.

it felt strange posting about comic con or being at a cute cafe and taking selfies when different parts of the world are at war. i couldn’t stop thinking about it. i still cannot. when i am at work i think about it, when i eat food i think about it, when i sit to write, i think about it.

when i was at cc listening to people i came with spout shockingly transphobic comments about cosplayers, i thought to myself: why did i do this? why am i spending time with people who cannot appreciate different forms of humanity? why didn’t i just go to the protest instead? — i felt a sense of disgust at the choices i made, the things i decided to spend my time on instead of the moral choice.

some time back when i was feeling contemplative about aot i read the wretched of the earth by frantz fanon. his works are a brutal philosophical look into the process of decolonisation. when i read it i was teeming with emotion: i related it to my country’s historical background and aot. aot is fiction and my country’s struggle for independence was in the past. (i am not relating the two things in importance or magnitude in anyway, that would be idiotic) now i revisited his texts and i only feel hopelessness. when i started reading it, i was reading about a fight-back, a chance at a surviving population, the possibility of survival and victory against occupation. now with every sliver of news that comes in, that possibility feels more and more remote.

i also spent my time reading about the occupation and decades of war crimes committed in palestine, and now i am a little more educated than yesterday. but i have no idea what to do with this education. people more knowledgeable than me, people from the region are talking about it. i amplify it. what else can i do? i found links to donate food. but i don’t know if food is reaching the people of gaza bc there is a blockade. from a place of privilege, the experience of watching a genocide take place is terribly sobering and makes me realise the helplessness of the individual.

back home the legal authority decided not to rule in favour of same sex marriage and has left it open to the whims of the heavily religious-right-leaning parliament. i left home to escape the bleak and oppressive politics of a developing nation. i thought being in a developed nation would mean i would be amongst a developed sense of progressivism. but i was wrong. here people only progress in the direction of what serves them. here there is a largely homogenous population that dislikes diversity unless it is to exploit them and get rich off their backs. today they stand with colonisers because that’s what they know, that’s what brought them development. (at the cost of others)

recently a teenager on twt was dogpiled on for calling the war a hot button social issue. this irritates me greatly. there is so much we can learn but time is spent on this. that girl could have chosen not to speak and read a book instead. what is the point in saying new things if you have nothing useful to add? repost information that you believe in instead. thousands of people chose to amplify that instead of posting links to donate to people in need. the only way i rationalise this is that all of us privileged people fighting internet wars are incapable of doing anything real and substantial so we engage in our own wars of morality. it feels useless, it probably is useless.

there is no real point to this rant. i feel distressed, but there are others who feel much worse at this moment. my thoughts are with them.

[kawamagi-crow]

November 30th, 2022 (7:39 AM) entry 14

a lot happened yesterday!! first, i had two exams in one day (and i have another exam today TwT), I think i did well tho.

After school finished, i went to the house of one of my friends to make the group project we had for today. we baked a cake!! and made the project out of pasta americana (idk the english name), I'm gonna post the pics of the cake here later <3

Anyway. after that, we watched The hunchback of notre dame while we ate pizza >:3

it was pretty fun!! there was a moment were my friends smaller sister, turned to us and said "Look what i do to (friend's name)" and slapped him so goddamn hard (not in the face, in the belly lol) it made a loud sound. AND IT LEFT A MARK LMAO

like, you could OUTLINE her hand!! and she's a kid! like a little kid. You could see the fingers in the mark and it was super red lol. it was pretty funny tho (and he later said that she never slapped him this hard)

Also, after we got of the subway (when we were going to my friends house), A sweet woman called me over, to whisper to me "Oh your pants are dirty", bc i got my period and didn't notice because i was so distracted. I swear to God she's an angel. she made sure i knew about it without calling too much attention to it. My other two friends helped me hide it.

Funny enough, Both friends that helped are AFAB, one is a trans dude, and other is nonbinary. they INSTANTLY knew what to do once we noticed, my nb friend offered their hoodie so i could hide it (another angel lmao)

the two other friends that were with us were both dudes (AMAB) and they got so goddamn confused lmao. like they're going "wait is everything okay? whats happening?" and we all went "nothing is happening. its okay."

if there's an AFAB Bro code, its this.

(TW BELOW: DEATH,CANCER, IT GETS PRETTY SAD)

AND THERE'S MORE! when i was going back home, i was informed my parents's friend died :(. he had cancer, and his cancer was so fast in killing him, i was kinda surprised. like we knew he was dying but not THIS fast...

bc of covid, my parents weren't able to say goodbye to him (they both have covid), so this sucks extra hard for them.

for those who don't know, my dad also has cancer(on both kidneys), but we're lucky he got in a GREAT treatment program (that's still being tested, but so far his cancer is being cured!) that's covered by our insurance. My dad tried to get his friend into the program too but wasn't able to.

My dad's friend wasn't so lucky, and he went with SUS (our public health system), outside of the waiting, he did beat the cancer once but it came back a second time. Since he was already weak because of the previous treatment i guess that was worse...

Once the doctors realized there's nothing they could do, they tried so hard to get him out of the hospital (which was kinda weird, but i get it. you need to open up beds for those who CAN get treated), in the end before he died, they gave him a lot of morphin (is that the drug that sedates you?... like he wasn't feeling any pain) so he could pass on without any pain.

I'm more sad for my parents, who lost a friend they made in college (back when they were around 20-25, and they're 57 and 60 now), and weren't able to say goodbye one last time (i know that pain tho. lost my grandpa and didn't get to say goodbye either...)

I didn't know my parent's friend well. and I'm also pretty weird with grief so I'm not feeling like, rlly rlly rlly sad. I'm just sorry for my parents who have to see their friend go without saying goodbye.

(TW ENDS HERE)

Well. yesterday was rlly messy huh. hope today is more calm.

Outside of all of... that. and the sad part. i think in total my day was good. messy and busy. but good.