#i really do think that there's this kinda. young lovers aspect to just because of how fast they went. kinda like a teenage couples thing but

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ASTROLOGY FUCKING NOTES

WHY do people say that if someone's planets falls into your 7th house, then YOU'RE THEIR IDEAL LOVER??? Bitch bye. If someone's planets falls into YOUR 7th house, then U DIG THEM OR HATE EM, AS IT'S YOUR 7TH HOUSE! Let's say that your crush planets falls into your 1st and 7th house, then obviously u like their looks (1st house) and the way they show themselves off 2 other people, (how they treat other people/people u know (7th house! Don't project.

Pluto conjunct Ascendant in synastry, is a stalker aspect🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️. It kinda reminds me of Hailey running around after Justin at his interviews, when they were young and he had no idea🤨🫣😭🤣 . SO FUCKING CREEPY. Pluto is obsessed, and way 2 "fixated" on the asc person. It can get dangerous, cuz ASC person has no idea about how deeply the obsession runs with Pluto, fr💀. The worst part is that they usually know that the Pluto person can be kinda "creepy", but not about how deep it actually runs. U won't ever really know with Pluto, cuz they won't even give out 20% of their secrets - they can't help it. Unless they literally have no aspects from Pluto 2inner planets in their own natal chart.

Your Bella asteroid - 695 conjunct/trine/quintile someone’s ASC means that the ASC person finds u really beautiful, (physical attraction) 🍒🫦. With the opposition it's on & off, like sometimes yeah and other times no - It switches. With the square/quincunx - takes time, but grows into a really strong attraction, the longer you're 2gether/know each other.

Why the fuck do people think that 8th house energy is only about sex and intense connections? If a person has planets in your 8th house = that person does not like u 9/10 times. They'll talk shit about u when u ain't present/gaslight u/do things behind your back. They're usually jealous of u. Trying 2 cross your personal boundaries all the fucking time. WHO GOT TIME4THAT?? NOT ME LOVE⚠⚠.

Why do Cap inner placements/points always get a "boring", or a "cold" rep? We just don't like u? Trust me. We'll show u a good time, if we think you're worth it.

Jupiter is not only good. It enlarges EVERYTHING. So if someone has Sado asteroid (118230) conjunct Jupiter in their natal chart = a very smart/knowledgeable Sadist. They want to know everything! Hours&hours of research. They can't get enough with Jupiter! They're into some sick shit, and can use some really AGGRESSIVE ways 2 create that "pain and suffering". "shhh, I'm here baby, it's okay"🤨. 9/10 times = addiction 2 being that Sado "teacher" with Jupiter here🔞🔞. They can even brag about it!

Nessus asteroid - 7066 in synastry can definitely cause sexual attraction. But the Nessus person will always take advantage of the other person, no matter what. It may not be as "in your face"/prominent, like it is with the conjunction/square/opposition, but it will take place. Some can like Nessus contacts in synastry, if they have Nessus aspecting their own planets - especially inner planets, or points. And they can also handle Nessus energy way more, than someone who doesn't really have any Nessus contact, as they're already used to it. It doesn't make it good tho.

WOMEN with Black Moon Lilith conjunct/square/opposite Mars can hate being touched by men. Can also have trouble regarding intimacy with men in general/bc of their experiences with them🪚🪚. I have this, and if a man touches me out of nowhere = I'll punch him back 2 the year he should have stayed in a fucking condom 🦄.

Lilith asteroid - 1181) in 3rd house synastry can mean that the house persons siblings doesn't like Lilith if it's "poorly" aspected😮‍💨😮‍💨. Or that house persons siblings doesn't even want 2 try 2 create a relationship, because they already heard so much "shit" about Lilith🫠🫠.

💜 Pluto conjunct asteroid Valentine - 447) in a natal chart loves so fucking hard. They'll literally take a bullet 4 the person they love. They don't “create” a connection with anyone easy either. They're so intense when it comes 2 love, and with how they connect 2 another being. They transform/find themselves - Pluto, through those few people they do end up loving. Most people can't handle their intense ways of showing love🖤🔫.

Inner planets in Gemini degrees 3/15/27° in a natal chart are the real champions, when it comes to overthinking - but knowing everything beforehand. They already thought about ALL the different outcomes, 2 every fucking situation!🫰🫠😍🤭. They already know what time it is, before u tryna tell em.

Look at your Vertex persona chart 2 c what kind of fated things you're supposed2 go through in this life ✍👀. Make a synastry chart and c if your Vertex chart makes any significant aspects 2 your natal! It can show important life events/secret fated "events" that won't be seen in just natal or Vertex pc alone👽.

Lol, I'VE SEEN A LOT OF PEOPLE SAY THAT ARIES RISING WILL HAVE RED HAIR, OR COLOR THEIR HAIR RED AT SOME POINT? I'm an Aries rising, and I would rather get shot in the face. I'm naturally blonde, and honestly? I haven't met a single Aries rising who has red hair, or would color their hair red.

Anti - Vertex persona chart shows what YOU choose2 let into your life, and what u choose 2 do without fate intervening. It also shows u how u choose 2 act, in moments where u find no "meaning", and that's where your Vertex pc comes in right after - Fate intervening 🔮🔮.

Pluto opposite ASC/conjunct DSC in synastry can show the Pluto person deciding/or trying to at least, who the house person talks 2/surrounds themselves with. They can think a person is "bad company" 4 the house person. They can be in DSC persons business, a lot! House person is alarmed/or not, depending on how Pluto is aspected in their own chart. If Pluto is afflicted = they kinda like it.

ANYONE who has benefitted/benefits from me = a planet/point/NN/Vertex/asteroid conjunct my POF. Your POF is all the things (material/or spiritual wealth/growth), u have "picked up" on/will pick up on throughout your life. U "help" others with that planet/point or asteroid in synastry💰🦉💳.

Star asteroids - Starr - 4150), Kallisto - 204), Fama - 408), Europe - 52), actor - 12238), Lumiere - 775 - acting, Apollo - 1862), Talent - 33154), Klio - 84), Fan - 151590), Records - 30718), Varuna - 20000) Webb - 3041).

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Music, writing&poetry asteroids - Polyhymnia - 33), Euterpe - 27), Apollo - 1862), Terpsichore - 81 - song and dance) Luscinia - 713 - Singing), Melpomene - 18, Harmonia - 40), Erato - 62), Kalliope - 22), Singer - 10698), Cantor - 16246 - singing), Poesia - 946), Parthenope - 11 - singing), Tone - 1266), Echo - 60), Mnemosyne - 57). 

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"Lucky asteroids" - Fortuna (19), Opportunities - 39382), Paradise - 2791), Winner - 15606), Abundantia - 151), Angel - 11911), Bless - 92891), Bonus - 10028), Tyche - 258), Midas - 1981), Magion - 2696), Spirit - 37452), Nike - 307).

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Please look at these asteroids in synastry. Prey - 6157), Sado - 118230), Devience - 21419), Nessus - 7066), Pain - 5188), Lie - 26955), Blink - 4425), Nemesis - 128), Swindle - 8690), Lilith - 1181), Hades - h41), wild - 1941), Fanatica - 1589), Medea - 212), Savage - 29837), Not - 2857), Pervert - 18624), Hard - 28077). 

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THANKS4READING BABE!!

Appreciate u, always❤️

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Light cone art so powerfully homoerotic someone (me) furiously pumped out a 6k word fic in 2 days. They're going to kill me. 🔗 : AO3

Extensive notes/ramblings below!

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I have not recovered from the mental power I had to pool to write this lmao I couldn't do anything at work except figure these two out and why Aventurine looked so BESOTTED but the absence of the little white dots in his eyes in the light cone and in the leaked models made him look like there's such an edge to him (someone on twitter pointed out that he has no light in his eyes!) and it really fanned the flames like what the fuck is this GUY ON and why is it directed at Dr. Ratio LMAO (I mean why not Ratio is so pretty)

So then I thought, there is NO WAY Ratio is going to react surprised or scared for Aventurine he's going to be ANNOYED lmao. There are possibly 2 more chances in that cylinder before it's 100% in there and I was looking at the probabilities on Wikipedia and I was laughing at myself at how a gay ship was going to make me STUDY probability when I hated this type of stuff in university and I was like yeah Ratio will probably be like hey, you can't stop there, and pulls twice lmao

And I was thinking they would make eyes at each other homoerotically while doing so because wow sexual tension so potent you can taste it through the screen in the LC art and everything just went from there I really cannot get over how Aventurine seems so... sooooooo in love with Ratio and in my head Ratio is like this man is insane what is he on but he gets a taste of that and it's like wow it's actually a little good but Ratio is also cautious so he won't ride that wave too hard but Aventurine looks really down bad for a man who seems like he doesn't care

So initially I really wanted to wait until Aventurine came out before I start my hyperfixation train because we know so little about him other than key facts I have formed in my head-- -he's perpetual smiler (confirmed by a leak of the loading screen blurbs) and like, idk from his design it just suits him and even in his voice cameo with Topaz his VA sounds like they are smiling while they are talking ALLL the time idk at least I got this one right -mr gambling gambler who is very self-assured about his luck, mr smug man. when I wrote he'd win 99.9-0.1 he believes this and if he dies I think to him it would just mean his time's up for realsies anyway and whatever idk man is not very sane -there's some really weird leaks and I'm not sure if it's confirmed but he was invited to be a Masked Fool which made him ALLL the more interesting for me because as a Sampo Mr Scammer fan it doesn't mean if he joins the Masked Fools he wouldn't be able to amass money but this guy seems to really like the thrill being an IPC senior manager provides then which is like this guy is a lives fast dies young kinda guy -I HC from that neck tattoo he could have been an indentured servant (cough slave cough) or a prisoner of some kind, but eitherway it says he wasn't privileged in any sense of the word but the way his character design is so decked out in rings gold watches and even a bracelet it means he's climbed very far, so he is an ambitious man, lots of "material pleasures" as Dr Ratio puts it in my fic and he still wants more. That kinda guy makes for a very intense lover imo very "I get what I want" type, and I really wanted to balance that with his attraction to Dr Ratio and how he doesn't want to drive Dr Ratio away with his crazy but he's also very horny... Anyway I also totally underestimated his height difference with Dr Ratio I really should have pulled up that leak of them side by side but ahh being a short king dom top is so cute on him

As for Dr Ratio I really cannot see him top unless Aventurine power bottoms why but he's so "diligent" in all aspects but I see him being a pillow princess in bed

I also feel a little bad that I wasn't able to write more bickering between the two of them but I also feel like the normally talkative Dr Ratio keeps HIGH HIGH walls around Aventurine because it's hard to tell what this guy is thinking so he's thinking so hard trying to make sense of it all and he says little as not to give away anything that might be wrong

I feel like adding "all is fair in love and war" in Latin omina iusta sunt amore belloque was a little gratuitous but I also want to subtly sprinkle in that Aventurine is so obsessed with Ratio, so down bad for him, that he reads stuff about Dr Ratio a lot enough to come across a translation of the quote and I'm like no yeah way Ratio can deal with crazy-eyed Aventurine saying/declaring love while he's still computing the electric exchange they had so he's definitely like picking up on Aventurine's obsession/infatuation with him and he's like NOPE DON'T SAY IT and would rather kiss him to shut him up than hear it lmao

I honestly despaired at how I was going to start closing the scenes because it was like nighttime and I wanted to finish it already because they're killing me, so like, making Ratio fall asleep while Aventurine pours his heart out (I asked a friend who read it what he thought Aventurine said and they got it spot on so I figure it was conveyed properly on my end and I was really proud of this bit) seemed like a cute way to do it. The narration lied, Dr Ratio heard it but he got selective hearing and totally did NOT want to reply/acknowledge it. Poor Aventurine, but it's not as if he won't try again

I have waaay more ideas about them and I wonder if I can hold off until Aventurine releases or we get more crumbs idk but I want to write some kuudere Ratio (with a bit of tsun hehe)

Special mentions other than the lightcone art that fueled me: this art from Twitter that and this post that kinda made me think long and hard...

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༊*·˚ My Youth - Haechan ||

Pairing: Rockstar! Haechan x fem! Reader

Plot: Donghyuck and y/n were highschool lovers, not until y/n moves to another city for university. After graduating she finds herself in a difficult situation so she flights back to her home city after 5 years. Now Donghyuck performes in local festivals with his rock band NCT, but they meet again not sure about how to start again.

Genre: Romance, fluff, Ex to lovers, fiction

Contains: cuss words, eventual smut, alcohol, oral (f! receiving), vaginal, no protection (use protection and do not copy this idiots silly)

Wc 4,4k

A/n: thanks for reading everyone <333 Would appreciate if reblog or follow me tho😭 ily guys🫶

SPIN-OFF

MASTERLIST

MDNI‼️

Picture from nct’s official twitter while banners and dividers are self-made.

(y/n’s pov)

Some people say starting a new life in a new city is a great and awesome experience, thats what I always thought before doing it.

Moving out of my home city was probably one of the worst mistakes I’ve ever made, sure it was great at first but since graduating college, luck has been avoiding me. Companies wouldn’t accept my job applications, I was running out of money and even some of my friends I made there stopped talking to me.

I was left with nothing so I decided to go back home and start again, I missed my bedroom full of The Beatles and AC/DC posters, I also missed my friends from there, especially Mark, he always supported me and took care of me. Thats why as soon as I landed he was waiting for me in there.

“Maaaark” I said with a nostalgic smile, we both hugged until our arms were tired and when we pulled apart he was crying “You haven’t changed at all, still a crybaby” I wiped his tears and shook his messy hair with my hands as I always used to do.

“How have you been y/n” That question made me cry, “well, let's say not the best” He knew what I was talking about but didn’t say anything and just hugged me. Mark gave me a ride home where my parents were, I waved my hand to say goodbye to him and entered home. Finally home, this welcoming feeling after 5 years was very special to me.

They didn’t know I was coming back so I kept it a surprise for them. When I knocked on the door no one answered nor reacted, I kept knocking it a few times hoping someone would open it but no, so I just thought they could be out.

I went to walk a but when I encountered the park I always used to go when young, I had so many memories in there like when I used to fall a lit of times, or when I meet Mark for the first time in there, also my first ever kiss…

(6 years ago)

Donghyuck asked me to go meet him at the park, it wasn’t that weird for us to meet up, but this time it felt that way because he wanted to tell me something.

When it was 9pm, the time when he asked to meet me. I went out to see him already there sitting in the swing, he looked nervous which wasn’t something you would normally see. As soon as he saw me arrive he got up “Hyuck, what did you wanted to talk about?” I asked innocently while watching him playing with his fingers.

It was kinda awkward, “So I just wanted to tell you that..” What if it was a confession? I wasn’t interested in being in a relationship at the moment, and especially with one of my friends but a new feeling towards him awakened inside of me.

“Remember the day Mark introduced to us? Since that day I had a really big fat crush on you, like disgustingly big. I just think that you are an awesome and very beautiful person in all aspects” I totally remember the day I met Donghyuck, we weren’t that close at first but then slowly started to become closer.

I didn’t know what to do, a side of me wanted to reject him and move on and the other side wanted hug him and accept the confession. Both would end up changing our current relationship anyways, so I decided to go big.

I put my hands on his red burning cheeks and slowly approached my body towards him. He realized what I was trying to do so he put his hands on my waist as if it was made of thin glass. I also had to stand up on tiptoe since he was taller than me, then my lips touched his.

His lips were sweet, ir was like savoring fresh sweet fruit. Then I realized, my first kiss. We pulled apart slowly “So what kind of answer is that?” He giggled, I wanted to die of embarrassment, it wasn’t planned at all but it was what my heart wanted, I could feel it.

(present)

Since that day Donghyuck and I have been dating until I decided to move out, then we broke up hoping that I won’t be able to see him again. We were a happy couple, I would say he is my first everything.

I snapped out of my memories. Was I missing him so much? Probably if we saw each other right now I would pretend I don’t know him, but I’ve got no clue about what he was up to.

Suddenly a familiar car arrived, it was my parents. When they entered home I waited about 10 minutes to appear. I knocked the door, this time hoping they would open it, they did. “Y/nnnnnn” My mom hugged me very tightly, “What are you doing here honey, you could have called me I still haven’t made dinner” Then tears started falling down her cheek “awww mom, I wanted it to be a surprise don’t worry, I’ll help you make dinner”

Then my father appeared and he was even more surprised than you thought he would be. We had a talk about how did I do there and why Im back. Mom wanted to invite all her friends and family to make a welcome home party but it was too late so we decided to do it tomorrow.

Nothing changed in here, instead it was exactly as it was when I left. My room was also the same, my mom didn’t dare to touch anything. Things like my posters, desk and even things I thought I threw was there without any dust. Mom cleaned my room every month, I mean she was a clean freak but it was comforting.

Thats when I saw my album photos and decided to take a look. The first few pages were baby me, wondering how cute I was, then 10 years old me started to appear. It was my princess phase, which today I regret I looked so stupid thinking it was cool.

And then saw my first photo with Mark, he was like a baby and we were holding hands. I remembered that we took that photo on his 11th birthday, few months after we meet. We were so close that felt as if it was my real brother since I had no siblings.

While looking at my teenager photos I remembered how rebellious I was, I had my rock band phase with my friends at 15 but it started to fade out quickly. I still looked cool tho. When I decided to color my hair I did blonde highlights with it, my parents grounded me 1 month after it but I still miss it.

Then I froze when I saw a photo of me and Donghyuck kissing. We were at my room alone for the first time so I decided to take a selfie with him, we made out and we both lost our virginity that day. Thats why he was my first in almost everything.

I could still remember when he tried to put his dick inside me, it was painful and pleasing but the pain was taking over and I had to gently push him. We tried as many times as possible because I was insisting in it. At the end it ended up being a funny and embarrassing story that he told to almost everyone.

But I should stop thinking about him, it was in the past, is not like I would meet him again the chances are very low. When I finally unpacked everything Mark texted me.

Mark: Heyy y/n, did you finish accomodating?

Mark: If so you could come where I am to celebrate your welcoming with some old friends

Since I had nothing else to do I decided to go. He said there were some old friends so my heart was beating very fast when I arrived, I wasn't that shy but that feeling of seeing your friends again made me. When I arrived, Mark texted me it was Jeno's house so I thought it wasn't going to be a big party but it wasn't, it was disgustingly big.

There were a lot of people, but I mean a lot. It was a welcoming party, but it felt like a uni frat party, When people realized I entered they came each to hug me, and when I felt a little bit of pressure I went to find Mark.

On my way, I got some beer to relieve the stress and then I saw Jeno with a mic starting to give a speech. ''So y'all know why this party is being held right?'' He laughs ''Of course to celebrate the welcoming of Y/NNN'' He screamed as if his lungs were about to die. When everyone turned around to see me and cheer me, I laughed awkwardly but luckily Jeno says something to interrupt that awkwardness.

''And to make it worth it, our lovely NCT is gonna play some songs, so ladies and gentlemen, please enjoy yourselves'' NCT? That was the name of my old rock band group. But then a familiar melody started playing, it was a song that we composed.

When I looked at the stage Yuta, Hendery, Jeno, and Donghyuck were there. They were the same members as before, the only difference is that I'm not there. When Hendery started playing the drums to start the song, Yuta sang and Jeno and Donghyuck played the guitars. I used to be the lead guitarist but Donghyuck took my place as I could see.

I smirked at them receiving the same face, the killing part was Donghyuck's and he did them really well. I remember when I met him and introduced him the guitar, he was a newbie but wanted to learn then we created the group where he improved a lot. And now he's here playing it without any guidance doing the killing part. The crowd went feral so I did. After some other songs, it was time to take a break so I went outside where I met Mark smoking. ''Hey y/n, I haven't seen you in there, what do you think, you like it?'' I was shocked, he was the typical good guy but his smoking was something else. ''Woah wait a minute, since when do you smoke'' He laughed hiding his face with his free hand. ''Well I do not smoke that often but you know''

After having a very comforting conversation it was getting cold so we both went inside. ''Mark, do you know where's the bathroom?'' having a sudden urge to go pee. I followed him and led me there ''thanks, see ya later''. The satisfaction of peeing after keeping it for a long time was everything I needed right now, but someone opens the door and closes it immediately without noticing I was there. He unzips his jeans when he realized I was there sitting on the toilet peeing. He turned around quickly and I blushed, ''Donghyuck you should know how to knock right?'' I said dryly. ''y/n you should know how to close the door right?''. Then the silence was real, I finished quickly so he could pee but stopped me.

''Aren't you gonna say hi?'' he cornered me with his hands not letting me move, his face was leaning closer but I smelled alcohol so of course he was drunk. ''We shouldn't be doing this'' I said while trying to escape but he made me sit back on the toilet before I could. ''I missed you a lot you know? I missed everything about you, and now you came back. We should be together'' ''Sorry not now Hyuck, amazing performance by the way'' I said while running out and hoping he won't catch me again.

Not gonna lie, talking to him made me feel very sad but angry at the same time so why not drink to fill that up. After some time of drinking and avoiding Donghyuck I wasn't wasted at all since I have high alcohol tolerance so I decided to go home. Mark offered to drive me home since he hadn't had any alcohol tonight so I accepted.

On my way home we didn't talk a lot but still felt comfortable. ''y/n, what do you think about me?'' I didn't expect that question ''what do you mean Markie'' He seemed nervous ''What do you think of me as a man'' We both stayed quiet ''I mean you are my friend-'' He interrupted me ''No y/n no, I liked you since a very long time but then I had to bear my feelings when you started dating Donghyuck'' When Mark said that it left me speechless. ''Now that Donghyuck and you are over and you are back, I wanted to tell you what you think about me'' I didn't know how to answer, maybe I was a bit drunk after all but I always saw him as my best friend and even brother sometimes.

''Mark, sorry let's talk another day I'm not in the right condition right now'' I lied, I was perfectly fine. ''Yea sorry y/n, I got carried on, don't remember this conversation please'' The drive was quiet and maybe uncomfortable too.

The sun rises, it was a new day. Today I wanted to start searching for a job and find an apartment I could afford, after spending half a day doing so I took a break and went to meet with some old friends. I arrived at the park where everyone knows each other, but literally, since it wasn't a very big city. ''Hey y/n, how are you?'' One of my friends said, I greeted them and went to hang out. The city itself didn't change at all so I recognized all the streets.

While walking freely someone asked ''So what's your relationship with Donghyuck right now?'' That was the last question I wanted to be asked, ''Oh no, we are over, is in the past-'' I got interrupted, ''Speaking of the devil look who's there'' It was Donghyuck with some of his friends, they were buying some ice cream in front of us. I wanted to turn back but they were already waving hands at them. ''Hey girls'' He said to start a conversation, we all sat in the café. I wanted to avoid looking at him because of yesterday's incident. ''y/n are you okay you look a little sick'' someone asked. ''Yea maybe is from yesterday so I think I have to go home'' I got up quickly '''l'll make you company, I'm sure you don't remember the way back'' Donghyuck said but that's the least I wanted from him. I insisted but still he made me company.

''Aren't you tired of avoiding me y/n?'' True, it was exhausting. ''Aren't you tired too of following me?'' He then stopped walking so I did. ''About yesterday, I was serious, I wanna start our relationship again'' I felt how his puppy-looking eyes were looking at me. ''no Hyuck-'' ''Why not? We only broke up because of you moving out, there isn't any other reason right?'' He took my hand which surprised me. ''Yes but because of how many years we haven't been in contact I just don't feel the same Hyuck''.

''Then why do I still love you?'' I didn't know how to answer. But do I still like him or is just me not wanting to accept it, it felt wrong not going back to him but at the same time it also feels right. I was getting Deja Vu, so my heart just took over. ''I still do Hyuck, I still love you a lot'' We hugged, I didn't want to break that hug, I wanted it to continue forever it felt so warm. ''Do you wanna start over?'' I nodded and the very next second he leaned forward to kiss me.

Our lips meet passionately, him being dominant while playing with my tongue. ''You don't know how much I missed those lips'' He shared and made me blush, ''Want me to rile you up at my home?'' It surprised me and I just laughed it off but my phone ringing had to interrupt the moment. It was my mom telling me to go home because guests were at my second welcoming party, ''Hyuck wanna come to my second welcoming party? You know my mom loves you'' He absolutely agreed. My mom and him were like best friends so why not.

We arrived home with our hands held together, and that's when I saw Mark coming toward us. I needed to pretend that I was drunk during yesterday's conversation so he probably thought I forgot about it seeing us holding hands. ''Oh damn, are you guys together again'' He laughed to not seem sad or whatever feeling I knew except happiness, ''I know right, she's hard to get every time'' Donghyck said not knowing anything Mark and I were thinking so I felt sorry for him. Mark liked me and he was his best friend also.

At this party there were neighbors and my parent's friends so I didn't feel that much pressure. My mom kept asking Donghyuck and me if we are ever getting married but all I could see is Mark's uncomfortable face, it made me feel sad and bad knowing he always had that face since Donghyuck and I dated. When the party was coming to an end Donghyuck insisted if he could stay the night over and my mom heard it so of course he could. While saying goodbye to the guests it was Mark's turn, again I had to pretend nothing happened which was very tiring. ''Thanks for coming Mark'' I smiled at him like I always used to so he did the same but it didn't feel like a real one. I didn't wanna lose my best friend but he didn't feel the same way about me.

My parents were already sleeping because of the alcohol they drank earlier but me and Donghyuck were still awake. ''Your room didn't change that much, I still remember the first time we did it in your bed'' We both laughed and covered ourselves with the blanket, I wished this moment went on forever. He was the big spoon which I liked because of how warm his hugs were, ''Did you date any guys while you were away? I didn't date any girls, look how loyal I am'' I didn't date any guy but maybe a few one-night stands but how do I tell him. ''What if I told you I did'' He lifted his head looking annoyed ''Then you had sex while I was here waiting for you?'' I felt very bad but I've never thought of coming back to him so it wasn't an excuse. ''Maybe'' I said quietly to not annoy him more.

''Want to fuck?'' Did he just say that straight to me? I felt something growing quickly on my ass, I knew he was hard. We kissed and pulled apart when we were out of breath, and he made me lay on my bed carefully while kissing my neck. Donghyuck took off my clothes so I tried to take off his shirt, ''If you wanna see my body so bad, lemme eat you out first'' I nodded because of how desperately I needed his tongue on my clit right now. I slightly moaned when he put his tongue on my pussy, ''Babe open your legs wider for me, please'' Realising it was difficult for him to eat me out with almost closed legs. I opened them so he kept sucking my clit, my hands landed on his hair pulling it carefully to not hurt him.

When Donghyuck inserted one finger inside me I could tell how much I missed being eaten out because of my moans, I kinda begged for more in the middle of my moans. He inserted two more which made me breathless of how sudden it was, I tried to push him a bit but it felt so good although painful at the same time, ''babe how are you so tight if you fucked with other guys'' Then he went to suck my clit while hitting my g-spot aggressively. I could see my orgasm coming ''Hyuck I'm close'' I tried to say and then I felt something, I just squirted and came at the same time, it felt awesome, and didn't want to stop. Donghyuck didn't stop with his fingers so I rode it while my legs were twitching, ''didn't know you could squirt, or you learned while fucking other guys too''.

I've never squirted in my life and he was the one that made me do it, ''No Hyuck, is my first time'' He then kissed me ''you want a break or keep going, baby'' I wasn't sure but seeing Donghyuck's stoner made me say keep going. He took off his clothes and started to accommodate his body above me. Missionary was his favorite, he could see my face while he fucks me, I obviously remembered that.

He slowly rubbed his tip in the lips of my hole, and when he slowly made it inside we both realized I was tight as fuck. The feeling of Donghyuck's cock inside me was thrilling, painful but pleasing. ''God you are so fucking tight'' He moaned out of pleasure, I was loosing ny mind by the time Donghyuck’s thrusts were faster. I could feel my second orgasm soon, i gripped my hands on his naked shoulders and moaned harder than before. He knew I was coming soon, “don’t cum yet baby” I did as he told but I couldn’t resist anymore “Hyuck, please”. Then he used his finger to rub on my clit while thrusting faster. He knew how to satisfy me perfectly, and soon I was coming all over his dick while at the same time his cum was filling me.

We both panted as desperately kissed even tho we were put of breath, “Fuck I missed seeing my cum slipping out of ur pussy” He said after licking it. “Welcome home y/n” Those words were enough for me to sleep comfortable, we cuddled to sleep “So what are you doing for a living” I asked out of curiosity. “Nothing in special, just concerts at local festivals even tho we are trying for a label to contact us” I didn’t know he took music seriously, when younger it seemed like a fun activity to do but never imagined he would be living of it. After asking some questions I was already sleepy and Donghyuck kissed my forehead before saying goodnight.

It was 8am and since mom is a morning person she went to my room and see how we were, the thing is that we were both naked but covered in blankets while hugging each other. She knew what we did last night just by looking at us, When I woke up Donghyuck wasn’t anymore in my bed, he probably had to do something so I don’t blame him. When k went to the kitchen to eat something he was there cooking breakfast with my mom, Donghyuck was a very good cook and thats another reason why my mom loved him.

“So how was list night young couple” my mom sai d while we were eating, after she said that I started choking on my food surprised. She just laughed and looked at Donghyuck “We were great last night thanks miss ___” He smirked at me. After tidying things up I saw that Mark texted me, my heart was racing but not of excitement but of fear.

Mark: yo y/n I was wondering if ur free rn

Mark: If u are could u come meet me at the park in our neighborhood?

I knew what his intentions were, he wanted to confess I was sure. But then Donghyuck noticed the text Mark sent me “are you going?”He said which it startled me a bit, “Im not sure, should I?” He nodded his head, I could trust him. “I’ll wait you here if you need anything baby” He then hugged me, it was as if Donghyuck also knew about Mark’s intention but I wasn’t sure at all.

Seeing Mark and feeling awkward was not normal, when you arrived he first acted normal but the topic changed. “Y/n I know that you and Donghyuck are back together but I just wanted to tell you that I’m here to support you, if you need anything I’m here, and I want you to think of me as someone who will always take care of you” Realization hits when his voice started to became fragile, as if his words were hurting him. “Mark… You know you are my everything like literally, you’ve been with me at my worst and literally saved me from everything. I want to thank you, and the other day… I wasn’t drunk at all so I know why are you saying this” He looked at me with his red cheeks, maybe from embarrassment, nervousness?

“So you know…” I nodded and hugged him, this hug felt different is like a new and different type of one. One that means all the friendship and love between us, one that if we ever break everything does. “I will try and change but I don’t want to loose you, you are everything I could ask for even if we stay like this” His words felt sincere but liking your best friend isn’t a crime either. “Mark, liking your best friend isn’t a crime silly, take your time don’t worry ill help you somehow” After some time you went home but feeling kinda heartbroken and felt pity for Mark, but Donghyuck was still there.

“What happened baby, everything alright?” We both hugged desperately, some tears started falling from my eyes and landed on Donghyuck’s chest. “Not gonna lie, I knew Mark had a crush on you way before we started dating, he told me himself but I just couldn’t contain myself” Those words made me surprised, he knew but never told me? “Hyuck be so for real” I tried to break the hug but Donghyuck’s arms were definitely stronger. “y/n I want you to focus on us, let’s love again but stronger this time, okay? I didn’t spent all my youth trying to make you fall in love for me for nothing” He was right, I wanted to free myself for a bit from adult life. The sudden change of becoming an adult is shocking, I wasn’t prepared at all but right now I really wanted for Donghyuck to comfort me, I wanted to be comforted by him.

Thanks guys for all the likes ive been getting😭🫶🫶 And bro Im super excited for ISTJ, im sure is gonna be good asfff and im prob gonna get some material to write with it ;) And again thanks everyone <33

[rosesradio]

may i ask why ppl hate caleo so much? I'm reading ToA rn so idk if it's based on stuff that happens there, but in HoO I didn't really catch anything that would make it this "don't touch with a ten foot pole" ship, yk?

/gen

Hi !! Thanks for sending this in. I feel like I and others have kinda gone through some things in the anti-caleo tag, but I'm gonna go through some of the reasons with as much textual evidence and objectivity as possible. (minus my inevitable unorganized rambles, they're contextually relevant, stop looking at me--)

That being said, this is completely a matter of opinion, as all shipping is. I don't mean to say that you are "allowed" to ship or that you're "stupid" for shipping xyz, I couldn't care less what you ship--let's all just be nice to each other.

That being said, let's start with the two most common reasons why most people dislike caleo:

1.) the age gap

2.) their "bickering to lovers" dynamic is not written well/they seem to dislike each other/etc

The easier one to start with would be the age gap. Now (warnings for rent-lowering gunshots around my blog), I meant what I said when I said I don't care about ships. Most of my beloved mutuals ship the nastiest shit imaginable, and I am very anti-censorship (but that's several other posts). I generally have preferences for healthy ships when it comes to a Fluffy Endgame (dark fics with toxic ships are different to me).

That being said, I don't typically enjoy ships with a large age gap, and most other people find them unappealing as well. I could be persuaded with some (nipollo and rachel/apollo, i'm looking at you), but caleo just kinda grosses me out in this regard, probably due to other aspects of their relationship.

(Some people say she's "mentally fifteen", but I don't really buy that--if she were like a faerie or something, maybe, but I see her more as Edward in Twilight--looks young but has wisdom beyond her years. There's no definitive answer on this so it's not something I would like to debate (none of this is lol) but I thought I would mention it anyways.)

Although your question is about ToA, I'm only going to cover HoH through the first ToA book, because I'm still reading through the ToA books (though I know the big spoilers). I know caleo takes on a bigger role in the second book so i might come back and do a part two to uh...complain about their dynamic more? lol

so, without further ado--

The House of Hades

So, this is the first impression we get of Calypso from Leo's perspective--the highlights to keep this from being 1 million years long (it still will be lol)--

"She looked maybe fifteen, about Leo's age, and, sure, she was pretty; but with that angry expression on herface she reminded Leo of every popular girl in every school he'd ever attended—the ones who made fun of him, gossiped a lot, thought they were so superior, and basically did everything they could tomake his life miserable.Leo disliked her instantly.

---

The girl clenched her fists. Leo was pretty sure she was going to march down the crater and punch him in the face.

---

"Show yourself!" the girl yelled at the sky, completely ignoring Leo. "It's not bad enough I am exiled? It's not bad enough you take away the few good heroes I'm allowed to meet? You think it's funny to send me this—this charbroiled runt of a boy to ruin my tranquility? This is NOT FUNNY! Take him back!""

--pg 213 of The House of Hades pdf.

Now, keeping in mind that I read this for the first time at 13 and he was my book boyfriend (Or Whatever), I was not a fan of this, but even now that I've grown out of that, this still rings unfavorable to me.

He compares her to his bullies, the ones who made fun of him and created insecurities within him. And, making no effort to clear her name from this association, what is one of the first things she does? Screams at the gods for sending someone so conventionally unattractive. One of Leo's biggest insecurities in the books is not being as conventionally attractive or built as the other guys in the seven. One of his other insecurities is not having a girlfriend when everyone else is coupled up. So the solution is not to have him learn self-love and/or the love of friends, but to instead give him a girlfriend--the build-up time of which is short and intense. Not only that, but his love interest insults one of his biggest insecurities.

We're off to a great start.

Of course, I can't really blame Calypso for being pissed about the wreckage and about being sent another hero instead of being freed from the island. I would be pretty pissed, too, but she still treats him pretty badly, seemingly because he's not the "right" hero.

(For this next bit I am going through their time together in House of Hades and just noting anything that rings as a red flag to me--which is not a stretch as it's pretty much every other line lol. The brackets [] add context for dialogue, the parentheses () is my commentary, though most of these speak for themselves imo)

""Oh-gee-gee-ah." The girl pronounced it slowly, as if Leo were five years old.

---

She looked like she was about to answer but stopped herself. "It doesn't matter. You'll be gone soon. You're obviously a mistake."

That was harsh, Leo thought.He'd spent enough time thinking he was a mistake—as a demigod, on this quest, in life in general. He didn't need a random crazy goddess reinforcing the idea

---

"What am I supposed to do, then? Sit in the sand dunes until I die?" [Leo asked]

"That would be fine...." The girl threw down her trowel and cursed at the sky. "Except I suppose he can't die here, can he? Zeus! This is not funny!"

---

She looked the same age as him, but he wondered how old she really was. (age gap thing, delicious!)

---

"Would you be sweet," [Calypso said], "if they laughed at you by sending another hero, but a hero who looked like—like you?"

---

"Three thousand." Leo's mouth felt tingly, like he'd just eaten Pop Rocks. "Uh, you look good for three thousand."

---

"And now...the worst insult of all. The gods mock me by sending you." [Calypso said]

Anger bubbled in Leo's stomach.Yeah, typical. If Jason were here, Calypso would fall all over him. She'd beg him to stay, but he'd be all noble about returning to his duties, and he'd leave Calypso brokenhearted. That magic raft would totally arrive for him. (heartbreaking to hear about leo's insecurities but also...he is so gay for jason jdskjfs--)

But Leo? He was the annoying guest she couldn't get rid of. She'd never fall for him, because she was totally out of his league.

---

Despite the gifts, Calypso obviously didn't want to see him. One time he poked his head inside the cave and she freaked out, yelling and throwing pots at his head. (how to treat an abuse survivor 101)

Yeah, she was definitely on Team Leo. (this honestly just reminds me of the Echo scene and, honestly, I'd ship him with Echo Big Time over calypso)

He ended up pitching a more permanent camp near the footpath, where the beach met the hills.That way he was close enough to pick up his meals, but Calypso didn't have to see him and go into a pot-throwing rage.

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"They are completely fireproof," Calypso promised. "They'll stay clean and expand to fit you,should you ever become less scrawny." (the prev part about her repairing the clothes was actually sweet in a platonic way...could have gone without the body-shaming !)

---

Then he remembered that this annoying fifteen-year-old girl was actually the immortal daughter of a Titan."

--pages 214-227 of The House of Hades pdf

Now, at this point I'll say that their relationship actually becomes quite sweet once they get past the frankly horrible section of time where they want each other to die. They're both lonely, they come to some understanding...I suppose this is a matter of opinion, but the romance aspect does feel forced. Time is different in Ogygia so it's hard to say how long Leo was there, if I were to estimate I'd say 3 weeks, but given that it's like 19 pages (and the text is larger on the pdf copy lol), it does feel rushed. Man do I wish they went for the platonic angle, but Richard could never.

The Blood of Olympus

Everyone's favorite book! lmao.

Now that our lovebirds are in Lovebird Territory (i guess), the amount of toxicity dwindles, but let's bite:

"'Sit tight, Sunshine,' he told Calypso's picture. 'I'll get back to you, just like I promised.'

Leo could imagine her response: 'I am not waiting for you, Leo Valdez. I am not in love with you.And I certainly don't believe your foolish promises!' The thought made him smile. (I guess this is supposed to be sarcastic, but way to reintroduce the concept of her really not liking him?)"

--pg 64 of The Blood of Olympus pdf

So, most of this book has mentions of Calypso from Leo's pov, and I gotta say (forgetting entirely that this doc is supposed to at least try to be subjective)...they neutered my boy. I often don't reread past MoA because of the caleo content, though what glimpses I've seen shows that his pov has experienced a massive shift. I think having so little page time and such an intense relationship buildup causes some readers to dislike how fundamentally she alters Leo's pov.

Additionally, I've seen some posts about Leo's suicide ideation. That is not something I want to go in depth about on this post, but I did want to draw attention to this excerpt I caught:

"Now the Argo II was approaching the end of its voyage. Leo's whole life – his childhood with Tía Callida; his mother's death in that warehouse fire; his years as a foster kid; his months at Camp Half-Blood with Jason and Piper – all of it would culminate tomorrow morning in one final battle.

He opened the access panel. Festus's voice creaked over the intercom.

'Yeah, buddy,' Leo agreed. 'It's time.'

More creaking.

'I know,' Leo said. 'Together till the end?'

Festus squeaked affirmatively.

Leo checked the ancient bronze astrolabe, which was now fitted with the crystal from Ogygia. Leo could only hope it would work.

'I will get back to you, Calypso,' he muttered. 'I promised on the River Styx.'

He flipped a switch and brought the navigation device online. He set the timer for twenty-four hours.

Finally he opened the engine's ventilator line and pushed inside the vial of the physician's cure. It disappeared into the veins of the ship with a decisive thunk.

'Too late to turn back now,' Leo said.

He curled on the floor and closed his eyes, determined to enjoy the familiar hum of the engine for one last night."

--pg 224 of The Blood of Olympus pdf

I'm not going to draw any definitive conclusions on the subtext of this or his plan with the physician's cure, but I will say Leo definitely needs therapy and the support of his friends over his want of a girlfriend. (And I'd say this regardless of ships--even if it were my beloved valdangelo. If Leo's mental health isn't addressed, it just makes it seem like a lazy fix-all)

I'm not going to pretend to be the best writer or understand character arcs better than our good friend Richard, but I think one of the reasons why Leo's character arc failed in this final installment is that Leo got what he wanted instead of what he needed. The best character arcs will display what a character wants, but by the end of the journey, a character will realize what they really need.

For example, in Gravity Falls (great show btw), towards the end of the series, Mabel wants to stay in a magical bubble created as a trick by Bill Cipher so she can stay in Gravity Falls forever. In the end, however, she realizes that what she really needs is to go back home to California with her brother, where they can get through high school with the support of each other.

If Leo had undergone an arc in which he really wants a girlfriend, but later realizes he needs to love himself first, that would have been really great and nice for kids to see that they don't need a significant other to make them whole.

Additionally--surprisingly--there were no glaring red flags for the rest of this book. They have a general vibe of "she doesn't really like him and he's a silly little guy" that I feel like is just rick pulling a "can I copy your homework?" with percabeth but it came out Wrong, but that's a matter of opinion.

ToA: The Hidden Oracle

""Here you go." Leo handed her a glass of lemonade. His expression seemed darker and more anxious, as if...Ah, of course. Leo had rescued Calypso from her prison island. In doing so, Calypso had lost her powers. Leo felt responsible."

--pg 239 of The Hidden Oracle pdf

This seems like something they'd have to work through, which is possible, but also a very intense thing to put on a relationship between an already traumatized 16 year old (and his over 3000 year old girlfriend, etc.) I suppose if this was written through in a thoughtful way I'd understand, but it's kind of one of those things that makes me look at them and go...realistically, at best I see them lasting 6 months to a year.

(tbh a lot of the ships outside of percabeth don't seem to have that...well, percabeth longevity--i mean just look at how jiper broke up. not that Richard would break caleo up atp, of course...unless...)

Final Thoughts (unless I return after finishing ToA but no promises)

And so, we conclude. I think I learned some stuff by revisiting canon instead of just remaining amongst online fandom & my memory of canon. Honestly, I can see why people would like this ship--I still hate it the most out of any pjo ship, but I gotta admit it had its sweet moments. Just as I pointed out red flags and had opinions stated as subjective, other people could point out what they consider green flags and why they think the ship is great.

To conclude (my English teachers quaking in their boots rn), myself and other caleo haters dislike the ship due to the age difference, the rushed nature, and the enemies to lovers dynamic being written in a way that ultimately gives the energy that our love birds do not like each other. I hope this dive into the foundation of their relationship clarifies some of these things for you, and thanks for the ask!

[mytalemyworld]

Mhmmm, in the movie the female character said “I was very young when I lost my mother...I lost my father one year ago as well." Then camera turned to them. She spoke to him so seriously and her voice was full of emotions. It's like she couldn't find any words strong enough to describe how glad she is to have him.

It reminded me of this scene again. Sigh.

He makes her life easier and happier. She knows it and it's him who she exactly needs in this life. I know family is also important but let me say this without meaning malice. Ömer is kinda someone who tires people out. Pessimistic, angry, always complaining and makes you stressful with his panic and agressive nature. I am not saying Ömer is bad, he has serious problems and I love their twins bond. I always enjoy watching their scenes but truth is truth. Asiye needs someone who spirits her up, makes her forget sorrowful moments and feel her like she is never alone, also reminds her that she is a teenager too.

The movie they were watching made it clear. I am for once surprised by this subtlety of the show. Lol. It's a nice change.

And also let me say OMG. Because he said "I am glad you chose me. Thanks to you I am the happiest man of the world." The writers never forget and let us forget what kind of man he was and how he tried to be worthy of her love. He still remembers it too. This is just so heartwarming and makes me emotional. He is peaceful too when he is with her. Like this is not one-sided. She is also what he needs. He is proud of the man he became. His feelings for her makes his life more joyful and meaningful. So simply put but all these words weigh a lot.

Also knowing even the little things about your lover is not superficial. They have been always like this.

Remember this flashback...She even knows how he walks when he gets angry, Süsen can't even imagine the level of adoration these two has for each other.

If you love someone, you know what makes them happy, what posture they have when they get angry, what their tendency to do is when they are stressful... Because everything about them seems interesting to you and you kinda memorize every little detail without noticing, this becomes kinda second nature to you. Sometimes you don't even need to ask, you just learn it within the process.

For example you know if they are a morning person or not, they like cold weather or not, they prefer tea with sugar or not... 

Some bits that I can't stay silent about...

I found this so funny. Doruk was not in the lab and the writers satisfied our curiosity about his whereabouts because it's so unrealistic and unusual that he wan't glued to Asiye at that moment. Like, this was the only occasion he could sit with her. Lololol.

I thought she wore a bunny costume then I remembered this is an Atv drama and a few second later they made it clear that it was an elephant. Weird.

I mean, was it really not a costume party? I thought he was cosplaying James Dean.

He lit up like a Christmas tree when he saw her.

Okay, if Nebahat had warned her out of concern (like there is blood between them.) I would have understood it. But she is like you two will end up breaking up because you guys live in different worlds. Meh. But the intersting thing is that she tried to explain how she and Doruk have a good relationship, how their dreams are compatible. Also the fact that her voice became unstable and shaky killed me, sometimes she can't understand how people can be this cruel... Even after all she has seen... I think she got upset immediately because Doruk is her soft point, even though he makes her stronger in other aspects, he also gave her a new weakness. He is the weakness.

I am gonna end this post with this view. The fact that he used stuffed animals to prevent the screen from tumbling down... This cute boy.

[mariejordans]

Do you have any TV show recs with really good romances?

oh boy, do i! one thing about me? i’m gonna watch a show for the romance subplot. but also this is such a broad topic, i’ll try to narrow it down into two categories: show recs with romance as a main plot, or at least a good majority of the plot, and show recs with romantic subplots that aren’t the main focus! so without further ado…

starting with the former:

bridgerton. i know there’s a lot of mixed feelings about this show, a lot of them are definitely valid, and while the first season romance is kinda meh (and questionable), the second season makes up for it completely imo. i was obsessed with kanthony for a good few months after s2 came out, just because the chemistry between the actors was just so potent and explosive. it’s a true enemies to lovers trope if i’ve ever seen one and it’s just so well done imo

one tree hill. early 00s cheesy teen dramas are kind of my kryptonite and oth is probably the king teen drama of all imo. i wouldn’t say the romance is the main plot of most of the show (and not a lot of the romance is great 😭), but it is a major plot point of a lot of the seasons. i’m recommending this for one reason and one reason only: nathan and haley. it’s a classic popular guy x nerd girl and they get together after she starts tutoring him in secret and i just love what their relationship turned out to be. haley is a badass and i Love her and naley basically raised me, so that’s why it’s here :)

doom at your service. honestly, i could recommend quite a few kdramas, bc a lot of them do have what i consider “true” romantic main plots, but i thought i would narrow it down to one. it’s about this young woman who has an extremely shitty day and wishes on a shooting star for the world to end, not knowing that the spirit of Doom himself is actually listening. idk how else to describe this show honestly, the main couple between the young woman and Doom is just soooo so so so good, it’s so sweet and very romantic, i just really can’t recommend it enough.

as i was starting this list, i realized i didn’t have very many true romance shows so let’s move onto the next category, which are the romantic subplots 😭

marvel’s runaways. i think i would maybe recommend this show before everything else just because it has a lot of similarities to gen v and the romantic subplots are *chef’s kiss*. i LOVED karolina and nico, one of my favorite wlw ships, and i also really loved gert and chase as well. it did, unfortunately, get cancelled pretty early but still well worth the watch imo.

agents of shield. another marvel show, honestly one of their most underrated shows. i’ve never really been super interested in the mcu, but i loved some of the older, adjacent tv shows (aos, runaways, CLOAK & DAGGER.) my favorite romantic subplot in this show is fitzsimmons, one of my FAVORITE friends to lovers ships, i think the way they were developed was so perfect, had just the right amount of pining, angst, and slowburn. i also love mackelena and may and coulson!

the wilds. okay, so i have a complicated relationship with this tv show, but just know that s1 is AMAZING. shelby and toni are another one of my fave wlw ships and don’t even get me started on leah and fatin…they weren’t a crackship, it was real to ME. i don’t wanna talk about s2, but s1 is definitely worth the watch.

anne with an e. gilbert and anne. that’s all i have to say. if you liked the rivals to lovers aspect in limoreau, you’ll love shirbert. also, it’s just a very cozy and comforting watch.

the good place. this show had me fucked up but in a good way. the romance between eleanor and chidi isn’t the main focus, but i think it adds so much to the characters development and to the plot of the show. even the crackships are good, tahani and eleanor had great chemistry, and jason and janet were just hilarious.

alchemy of souls. another kdrama and i want to preface this by saying kdramas, especially costume dramas like this one, can be super hard to get into. they’re very long (episodes can go up to an hour and a half) and often veeeery slow, but it’s TOTALLY worth it in my opinion because this show has one of my favorite romances EVER. that first season ending? oh it’s so good. i binged this in like a week and i couldn’t watch anything for a while after because i couldn’t stop thinking about it.

mozart in the jungle. probably the most obscure show on this list, and FARRRR under appreciated. as a classical musician who is currently studying music in university, this show was right up my alley when it came out. the romance between hailey and rodrigo is slow and a bit subtle at first but they were such a fun and dysfunctional duo that somehow fit together perfectly. they just got each other perfectly, imo. the ending left me heartbroken a bit, but i’ve since come to realize it was the best possible ending they could’ve given us and i’ve made peace.

ALRIGHT THAT’S IT THAT’S THE LIST (pt. 3)

i had fun making this! anon, i hope you find that one of these shows works for you and also that you still think i have great taste after 😭

[mars-onthe-moon]

Favourite ship and least favourite ship?

Gravity Falls wise…

My favorite, unfortunately, would be Billdip.

I love both redemption fics and and psychological horror fics. The fact that one ship can do both either at the same time or go completely dif routes I think it pretty interesting/fun. I’m a freakin sucker for demon gone human shiz, then trying to cope (Some Devil’s a part-timer mood). And then enemies to lover’s is *Le chef’s kiss*

Least fav (besides the other rancid ships you can find in this fandom, like seriously wtf) is Dipcifica.

It’s not even because of billdip, I just, idk I always see them as close friends that shit on each other. Though, I’m grown enough to admit that they do have their cannon moments, I’m just not a fan. Also like Mabel and Pacifica! Those girls are perfect. If you’re gonna have a redemption arc (which is gonna have to happen anyway because it’s Pacifica and she’s also horrible) with her and a twin it should be Mabes! They shared a backseat, post-golf battle burrito! Like how you gonna do my girl like that 😭 Is it that I’m incapable of shipping straights?! Maybe?!

But if we’re talking about my fav ship of all time…

It’s Bubbline!

I know its Cannon so some people don’t count it as a ship but like, I grew up with them, even more so then Gravity Falls. I think young-ass me even knew there was something fruity afoot. This was like, before they came out and said it too, only subtle hints. So I kinda shipped them as a little kid (even though shipping wasn’t a popular term and I didn’t really know about gay people, weird right?). It was nice to grow up with them see the changes that allowed their story to finally be cannon.

But confession, even though I write a fanfic and do a lot of ship fanart. Im like… not a huge shipper? I mean, I am, but also like, I usually just do art for Gravity Falls, same with reading fics. I used to read Klance fics with my friend back in highschool, but Klance and Billdip are the extent of my fic library. I guess I’m just goofy like that.

Also fuck Voltron, that show could have been so great. It was good in some aspects but like… looking back on it I’m soooooo bitter 😂 but I can’t get into that.

EDIT: I also meant to say, though I don’t ship it, I appreciate Billford. I’m more of a Ford x McGucket fan myself, but Ford and Bill were fruity with each other and that’s a rock fact you can take to the bank! I don’t ship Billford, because (unless changing the outcome of the entire show) we know how that story ends, so there’s not a lot of room for fluff. When it comes to Bill and ships, I like future redemption ones the best, so therefore we have Dipper instead of Ford.

[shotforfavor]

assigning a mychem song to each tma entity :o)

i dont have anything for dark and buried. umm. also i dont know how to put a cut in a post sorry

corruption- demolition lovers. the relationship isnt good for either of them, but hes still willing to die for her ("im trying to let you know just how much you mean to me, after all the things we put each other through") all of his expressions of love for her are violent in nature ("id end my days with you in a hail of bullets" "you're the only one, like a bed of roses theres a dozen reasons in this gun") their love is built on violence, its hurting both of them, yet he still wants to die with her to prove his love and devotion to her

desolation- early sunsets over monroeville. life is perfect, him and his lover are on a mall date, feels like a movie. ("then holding hands and life was perfect") then it all comes crumbling down out of nowhere when a zombie outbreak kinda thing happens and said lover is bit. ("not knowing you'd change from just one bite, i fought them all off just to hold you close") he can't exactly leave the mall he's hiding in, ("trapped in by all these mountains") and now he has to kill the one good thing he has left. then he's just defeated. he has nothing else worth living for. "but does anything matter if you're already dead?"

end- the end. obvz. "when i grow up i want to be nothing at all" most of the song to me is him expressing he wants to die/he knows hes going to, and he takes it very casually, buttttt the very end of the song... "save me, get me the hell out of here, save me, too young to die my dear, you cant take me" hes afraid of death when actually facing it

extinction- scarecrow. this ones about a nuclear bomb and trying to run from your death and look at things positively even though you know everyones going to die. but theres kind of an acceptance at the end- "love wont stop this bomb, run, run, bunny, run" after this point, the only lyrics are saying to run and hide. no more "i'll keep you safe tonight", no more romanticism that makes the destruction sound poetic and almost beautiful. just running and hiding and hoping someone makes it out alive

eye- teenagers. me personally i think this one fits. "because they sleep with a gun and keep an eye on you, son, so they can watch all the things you do" he feels like he's constantly being watched by the adults in his life, and they're just waiting for him to make one wrong move that they can use to justify calling him a bad person. he stands out, his classmates make fun of him and spread rumors about him. in the context of the song, the lyrics are all rebelling against all of this, but on their own, they sound very paranoid about what others think of them

flesh- cancer. i think this one works, the patient expresses a lot of hatred for what his body is becoming due to the disease in verse 2 especially. "turn away, cause im awful just to see" its got the aspects of insecurity and physical change out of ones control characteristic of the flesh.

hunt- vampires will never hurt you. this one isnt really a fear of being prey, but rather his fear of becoming the hunter. "can you stake my heart?" "i'll never let them hurt you, i promise" he feels that his vampirism is a different side of him completely, one thats out of his control. he'd rather be killed now than lose control and make his loved ones his prey.

lonely- ghost of you. he lost someone important, and he can't stop thinking about it and replaying their memories in his head because he doesn't want to forget them, but dwelling is only making him miss them more. ("if i died, we'd be together now, i can't always just forget her") he just replays her death over and over in his head, constantly reminded that he's now alone. ("i remember now, at the top of my lungs in my arms, she dies" "all the things that you never ever told me, all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me, never coming home, never coming home")

slaughter- mama. i mean its literally about a soldier who did awful things during a war and his mother can't help but hate him for it. "but there's shit that i've done with this fuck of a gun, you would cry out your eyes all along" he acknowledges that he fought his hardest because he thought he'd die at war ("so raise your glass high, for tomorrow we die") and his mother would be even more terrified of him than she already is if she knew the full extent of it. the song even ends with her sobbing

spiral- drowning lessons. after the death of his lover, he is haunted by a manifestation of his guilt that takes her form and makes him relive the day over and over again ("lets say goodbye a hundredth time and then tomorrow, we'll do it again"). he desperately wants it to go away but his own mind wont leave him be ("without a sound, i wish you away" "i adore every inch of sanity, all im asking for"). a lot of things in the song also sound like hes experiencing visions of her death, twisted by his brain- describing her as a "twisted shell" and saying "these hands, stained red from all the times that ive killed you"

stranger- blood. i dont know this one just really fits to me? "well they encourage your complete cooperation, send you roses when they think you need to smile" "so give them blood, blood, gallons of the stuff, give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough" does this not give the image of like weirdly happy all the time doctors who keep doing procedures on you but you dont know like what exactly they're doing ever. also the very fun chipper tone and its contrast with the disturbing lyrics is very stranger core to me

vast- disenchanted. this one might be a stretch? after all his attempts to make life meaningful, he's left thoroughly disappointed. he realizes at the end of his life that everything has all been meaningless. he thinks life itself is overrated.

web- the jetset life is gonna kill you. this ones about drug addiction but the song portrays that as a woman who's controlling his life. "gaze into her killing jar, id sometimes stare for hours" she has him completely trapped and in the palm of her hand. "alright, she wants it all to come down this time"

very much willing to discuss any of these

[necro-man-sir]

I never read they both die at the end(adds to cart) i will now....I did kinda skim online quickly so im not sure if they both die or just one....honestly do if my lover would die...necromancy...idgaf....who allowed you to die

So Mateo is close to your personality? or looks? or how you express yourself? or how you wanna be loved?

also yeah i agree....we are programed from a young age whats attractive and what isnt...so to people like us the Addams were kinda a "now hold on you were thinking right dont fall for the propaganda"

also did I just out myself like a morron?

Sincerely...your creepy stalker

Who knows

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But the book is actually really good, it's definitely a favourite of mine and I love the concept, reading another book by the same author now. Mateo though struck a lot with me because I didn't find anything that wasn't one to one in him that was in me. A main aspect of him was he was a shut in, too scared to live his life and do the things he was passionate about or have friends or see the world or just act, and now his life was over, and he wanted to stick his neck out so life stopped passing him by. He wanted to be brave, and live.

There were a lot of moments in the book that I had to sit with involving him, of him being bold and his innate kindness. His values were a lot of my own, and his situation resonated with me because I've only just this last year started living my life and acting.

I love him, he reminded me a lot about my own hobbies he also shared with me, and his passions were the same. It felt like the author just wrote about me, it was sometimes just completely uncanny. I've definitely started to tell people to read the book to understand me better.

A lot to say if you pick it up I hope you enjoy it, it's a sweet and horribly sad book, but an easy read. I appreciated the books expression of queer romance too, as well as being diverse and kind to the characters who were presented. It was also really cool in writing style where each chapter is first person from different characters, and the narration and writing changed to fit their voice tone and how the character would describe and tell the story, rather than a third person narrator.

[dogwhizzer]

thinking about trindel so hard that i throw up

[joyliiejolly]

As a lover - SEVENTEEN's Vernon

Disclaimer: This reading is for entertainment purpose only, so please take it as a grain of salt and live laugh love all the way besties!!

This reading is done by my friend @bluerabb (she usually doesn't post any reading on her blog and she wants me to post them here so please considerate follow my blog if you want to read more from her ^^). I took note during her reading, proofread and added some of my own thoughts along.

Without futher ado, enjoy the reading!

Happy birthday to our Little Prince 💙💖

The cards:

Tyldwick Tarot: Six of Wands, Page of Wands, The Lovers (clarified by The Moon and Ten of Swords). At the bottom: The Devil.

Cosmos Tarot and Oracle: The Devil, King of Swords, Eight of Cups (rx)

Being in love with Vernon is so easy and comfortable, so young and free, so simple and sincere, it's is like being in love with your best friend.

The man might seem chill and carefree all the time but when it comes to love, Vernon is actually quite active, which makes it kinda obvious when he is in love (he will be a little OOC :D). He would do things that he wouldn't do to others. He would be the one who makes the first move and initiates all the interactions. He wants people around him to know his person, how proud he is of them and their relationship. He would brag about them to his friends lol. He is like a kid, telling people about his favorites with so much enthusiasm. He will celebrate every milestones of the relationship. And he will definitely be the first one to congratulate his lover whenever they achieve anything.

Vernon sees his lover and their relationship as an inspiration to many of his ideas in work and in life in general. His love is his muse. He will talk to them a lot, about his day, his work, and his music.

He doesn't have much experience in love, but poor boy, he has gone through the some tough shits. He might never really been in a normal relationship before. He has been hurt, someone might have told him that he's a little bit different and they can't accept his feeling because of it. This leads to his insecurities. He thinks of himself is someone who is hard to love, that people won't be able love him for who he is, that he has to hide a big part of himself to be loved and accepted :( That's why, when the one he like/love accepts his confession/proposal, it feels like winning a big award for him, and if they shows him that they love him dearly, wholeheartedly, he will worship them and the land they walk on (y'all I can't with this-). And he doesn't ask for much. You don't need to make it fancy, show him grand gestures, using big words for him to feel happy and satisfied in a relationship. He's just happy that someone loves him (my boyyyyy TTTTTT).

He does have a possessive side to him, due to his insecurities. At the beginning of the relationship, he might have some issue with jealousy and self-esteem. But once he feels safe and comfortable with the relationship, even tho he would still get jealous, he will keep it cool, since he knows that his person ain't gonna for fall anyone else now.

The Universe already has someone for him, who is made for loving him. But in order for them to meet, he himself must believe that he is worth of loving first.

He might has a mature mindset in love but the way he acts on it is pretty much like a young teenage boy, all fluffy and goofy. He tries to not think much of the future, of whatever obstacles might come to his relationship. He wants to fully live in every single moment with his love one. He will be the one to open up his lover's world, show them many new things, let them see many new aspects of life, and guild them on their way of changing their perspective.

Vernon is an attentive lover. He will be very careful around his person. He will observe them, notice all the details about them, and taking mental notes. All of that just for him to know when to make a move, how to act, what to do to make his person happy. He will be extra focused on whatever his lover gotta say. They can just said something out of the blue just for one time, but he's gonna remember it for infinity.

For his love language, again, PHYSICAL TOUCHHH. Gifts giving, too, they often are handmade by him. Another type of things that he would gift his lover is a small, cute and unique thing for house decoration (like a vintage flower pot, a mattress with funny patterns, a picture frame in a shape of an animal,…you know what I mean?) He would also give his person love letters every so often, and he's gonna handwriting them (my heart can't take this any more). You know how much he enjoys watching cute cats videos? Yeah, he's definitely gonna send them to his person so they can cry about how cute the cats are together. Both of them could be co-parenting a pet, too.

[jananakookie]

Beauty | kth - Chapter 5

Pairing: Taehyung x OC (Reader) , slight Jimin x OC

Genre/Tags: Strangers to Lovers, Idiots to lovers (kinda), single dad; humor (-ish?), slow burn, angst, fluff, smut

Chapter Warnings: Non really, just your average dose of swearing

Word count: 8k

Series summary: Taehyung knows what beauty is. He sees it every day.

You feel like you haven’t seen real beauty in a while but you think you remember what it looked like.

Or maybe you both have no idea?

A/N: So I actually wanted to publish this chapter over an hour ago but then I started editing and casually added another 900+ words 🙃

But here it is now and I really hope you enjoy reading it :)

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Chapter 5

Unlike most other people your age, you’ve totally ditched that weird phase everybody else had when they suddenly started hating children for no reason whatsoever. When you think back to your school days or even the couple of years after that, it seemed to be some sort of trend but somehow you never found yourself to be part of it.

Instead, you were always one of the rare teenagers that adored children.

You know they can be a handful. They’re loud, they don’t have any filters and tend to embarrass you whenever they feel like it and they can sometimes even be a “little“ annoying when they just won’t understand that you don’t have time to play right now. You grew up with children, having lots of young cousins probably toughened you up at an early age.

But there’s so much more to children that most of those people don’t even realize.

They’re cute, they’e funny, they are much less complicated than any adult will ever be because they actually say what they feel and think without making up a shit ton of lies. And then there’s the emotional aspect because children can give you so much joy. It’s actually quite incredible seeing them grow each day, learn new things and getting excited by almost everything.

As you watch Hyejin happily jump around inside the flower shop, that came to be your second home in Seoul, you can’t help the look of absolute adoration covering your face. She wanders around as if she’s in some sort of magic forest and if what you heard is correct, that’s exactly the game she’s playing right now. She said something about how she needs to find the dragon and kill the witch or something.

Today marks exactly four weeks since you started looking after her and it’s going quite well so far. You don’t have to watch her everyday since Taehyung is fortunate enough to shift his working hours to the early morning at times. Even if you remind him all the time that you’d love to have Hyejin by your side every day, he insists on giving you at least two days a week off for you to relax. What he doesn’t know though, there’s nothing for you to do on your own but you don’t want to tell him that. Not yet at least.

So even if you’ve taken care of Hyejin for four weeks now, today is the first day that you’ve taken her to your other work — your actual working place — the flower shop. It’s not like you’ve spent all your days in Taehyung and Jungkook’s apartment, no you’ve taken Hyejin out to see a movie, eat ice cream — without losing her — and do lots of other stuff outside but there’s never been a chance before today to take her to your own apartment or the flower shop but since Mr. and Mrs. Yang are both absent today and Yoongi needs your help, there was no other option.

At first you were afraid it could easily become way too boring for Hyejin after a while and that she would start getting annoyed by you having to work and thus not having time to play but fortunately that isn’t the case at all.

This little girl is absolutely capable of keeping herself busy, “Don’t move! You’re trapped. Now get on your knees and beg for your life you mean orc!“

Laughing silently with your hand covering your mouth, you watch in amusement as Hyejin jumps around with a playful frown on her face while hitting Yoongi with an empty kitchen paper roll, that even has some symbols painted on it as if it’s a real sword.

“Who are you calling mean orc, you little dwarf? I could nudge you with my little finger and you would fall over in an instant.“ Yoongi being Yoongi, only grunts at her before he turns his attention back on his phone, while watering some of the plants that are placed right in front of the display window.

Hyejin groans, frown now turning more serious as she continues to look at him with her “sword“ still drawn on him. “Nooo, you’re doing it all wrong!“ She stumps her little feet on the ground in an annoyed manner, making Yoongi look up again. “You have to beg for your life now because I obviously have you in a tight spot!“

“Or what?“ He challenges.

Hyejin grins slightly. “Or I’ll just have to kill you with my sword.“ She confidently says tightening her grip on her self-made sword.

“Oooh, I’m so scared. What are you gonna do, stab me with your lame, little cardboard tube—Ouch! What the…“ Before Yoongi or you even realize what’s happening, Hyejin skillfully jumps onto some of the stacked boxes which are placed right next to Yoongi and starts to hit him with the kitchen roll.

“My daddy made this for me so you better be nice about it, do you hear me!?“ She screams, hitting him like no end.

It takes you a few seconds to decide what to do. On one hand you know that — as an adult, who’s responsible for this little child — you should probably help him, on the other hand it's a lot of fun to see how someone as small as her stands up to him without any struggle. And it’s also incredibly cute how she tries to defend her father’s crafting skills.

Nevertheless, you ultimately decide to help him. But not before you think he's learned his lesson though.

“Alright, alright Hyejin, please stop.“ You walk up to her and try to take her off of Yoongi, which isn’t as easy as it sounds because the little one is quite the fighter. You somehow still get to take her in you arms and lift her off the boxes before you set her on the ground again.

“Holy shit, what in hell did you bring here!?“ Yoongi loudly exclaims, looking at you with a frightened face, that almost makes you laugh.

“That’s a bad word! You’re not supposed to say that in front of a child.“ Hyejin then says, still looking very mad at him.

“Oh great. Not only is she fu—fricking aggressive, she’s also a little smartypants.“ Yoongi says, frowning at you.

“She’s a child, Yoongi. Watch your mouth.“ You sigh.

“Oh? And why do you bring a child here, knowing I don’t like them?“ He asks you, rubbing his head where she hit him just a few minutes ago.

“How was I supposed to know that!“ You snap, getting quite annoyed with him yourself.

“___, I barely get along with adults. How in god’s name did you come to the conclusion that I like children?“ He reasons, watching you intently.

You open and close your mouth a few times without anything coming out because yeah… How did you actually come to that conclusion?

“Look at her, she’s absolutely adorable. How can you not instantly fall in love with her?“ You whine as you try by all means to turn his head in Hyejin’s direction. The little girl on the other hand, sends an absolute death-glare at Yoongi, who then looks at you with an unimpressed face.

“How about you ask me this question again in a few days, after my concussion subsided.“ He then says, making you simply roll your eyes at him.

You sigh and get on one knee, to be on eye level with Hyejin. “Honey, you can’t just hit people with you sword just because they say something you don’t like, alright?“ You try to tell her but it doesn’t look like she agrees.

“But he was being mean.“ She grunts, crossing her arms in front of her chest and you need to suppress a laugh because in that moment, she looks exactly like Taehyung when he’s mad at something Jungkook did.

“I know but he didn’t mean it like that, Hyejin.“

“Yes I did—“

“I said, he didn’t mean it like that.“ You cut him off, repeating your words a little louder this time so he would catch on. He only huffs and stays quiet at least. “Look, that’s just how he is, darling. He doesn’t really know how to be anything but mean but he actually means well.“

“I don’t understand that.“ Hyejin says, giving you a puzzled look.

“I don’t either but he’s my friend and I want you to be nice to my friends, can you do that?“ You ask her, offering her your biggest smile.

“Why would you be friends with him?“ She asks you instead, looking indeed very confused. Just the mix of her puzzled and Yoongi's attacked facial expression almost makes you laugh, but you decide to stay serious and only give her a look that’s supposed to tell her what you think of her saying stuff like that.

And it works because Hyejin finally groans loudly and nods, “Okay… but only if he says my sword isn’t lame.“

You expectantly look at Yoongi who only raises a brow. “That’s a joke, isn’t it?“ But seeing that you absolutely mean it, he lets out an annoyed groan as well before hesitantly looking at Hyejin. “Okay fine… Your sword is kinda cool. I had one too when I was your age.“ He mumbles.

Hyejin immediately grins from ear to ear and happily runs to him, hugging his legs in the process. Yoongi awkwardly stands there and lightly pats her back a few times before looking at you with an alarmed expression on his face.

You actually find it kinda cute. Both of them. You love how Hyejin never seems to hold a grudge for long but then again, most kids don’t. They just want to play and have fun. And you know that Yoongi doesn’t really hate her, he just doesn’t want to come off as soft.

“Alright little heroine, I gotta go now. I need to work.“ Yoongi awkwardly coughs and tries to successfully peel her off of him. You smirk at him as he gives you a short nod before walking away without another word.

You know he thinks she’s cute. You know it. But he would never admit it.

“Darling, your dad will probably be here in a few minutes. Make sure you have all your toys ready when he’s here.“ You call out to her when you realize, she’s already on her way to kill the witch again.

Hyejin immediately stops her game and whips around to look at you with big puppy-eyes. “But I don’t wanna go home so soon!“ She whines, trotting towards you.

You pout and take her into a hug. “I’m sorry darling, your dad texted me. He finished a little earlier today and he’s on his way right now.“

“But can I come back tomorrow then? I love it here there’s sooo many colors and flowers it’s like a garden but inside.“ She asks you with hope clear in her voice. You chuckle at her funny comparison before gently stroking her hair, heart clenching at her sad posture.

“I’m afraid we won’t see each other for a few days, baby.“ You carefully watch her as her eyes become teary. Mouth falling open in disbelieve, “I have to go home for a while and help my mum because my dad doesn’t feel well. You understand that, don’t you?“

You watch as her lips start to quiver and she stubbornly shakes her head. “No. We need you here too. Please don’t leave!“

You feel like you might cry with her when you suddenly hear someone clearing their throat. You lift your head and see Taehyung already here, leaning against the door frame and watching you both with a sad smile on his lips. “Hyejin, please don’t make her feel guilty. ___ has a mum and a dad too who want to see her and need her help from time to time.“

He takes a few slow steps towards you and gives you an apologetic smile before he takes the sniffing princess in his arms.

“I don’t want her to leave, daddy. Make her stay please.“ She sobs in the collar of his shirt, probably soaking it in the act but he doesn’t seem to care about that as he pulls her a little tighter and looks at you apologetically.

You don’t even know what to say to this. You expected her to be a little sad and pouty about it but you would’ve never guessed that she’d be that heart broken.

“Hyejin. I know you love her but you have to understand that there are other people who love her just as much. You can’t keep her all to yourself, honey.“ He chuckles lightly, looking at you.

“No. They don’t love her as much as I do.“ She cries again, burying her head deeper inside her dad’s chest.

You actually find it quite cute how much she already seems to miss you, even if your still standing right in front of her. The scene that’s unfolding right now doesn’t make you smile like you actually want to though.

“Look, Hyejin.“ You carefully try to make her look at you by walking around Taehyung, not knowing how she would react because she seems to not want to see you right now. Surprisingly, she doesn’t back away and instead looks at you with red, tear stained eyes. “My dad has had a very bad pain in his arm for years now and now he had to take surgery, do you know what that means?“

She nods her head as she wipes her snotty nose on her sleeves. “It means he had to go to the hospital.“ She answers.

You nod approvingly, offering her a wide smile. “Exactly. And now he can’t move his arm, which means my mum has to do everything by herself and I don’t want my mum to get stressed out, do you understand?“ You ask her again and she once again nods her head, making a proud smile appear on your lips.

“So you understand why I have to leave now?“

Hyejin hesitates for a second but finally nods again. “But you can take me and daddy with you.“ She suddenly proposes, making Taehyung snort before he carefully sets her down again. You and Taehyung both get down on her eye level, Taehyung holding her at her shoulders.

“Darling, she can’t just take us with her. Besides I have a job to attend to and do you really want to leave uncle Jungkook home alone?“ He jokes making her eyes widen in shock.

“We can’t do that, he easily gets scared when it’s dark.“ She whispers.

You and Taehyung both suppress your laughs for the sake of keeping the conversation a little serious. “Exactly. We can’t do that to him.“ Taehyung agrees.

“But we can help ___’s mum too! And then she can come back way sooner!“ Hyejin tries to reason again.

“Why are you such a smart girl?“ Taehyung proudly looks at his daughter, stroking her tears out of her face. “___ won’t be gone for long, right?“ He then looks at you, followed by Hyejin, both of them kinda have the same look of desperateness on their faces, though probably for different reasons.

Taehyung actually needs to hear the answer from you too. You already talked to him about it yesterday, after you had a long phone call with you mother, who absolutely wanted to get you to stay in Seoul and tried by all means to make you believe that she was fine. But you know your mother and she would never admit it if she needs any help so you rather take matters into your own hands.

“I promise you, that I'll be back so quickly you won't even have the chance to miss me.“ You put one hand over your heart while you hold the other one up and wink at Hyejin who finally shows a small, insecure smile.

“That’s something you probably shouldn’t promise because I can guarantee you, she will miss you right after we leave today.“ Taehyung buts in. You simply roll your eyes at him before you give Hyejin a big hug.

Taehyung quietly watches you two together. It makes his heart melt, seeing his daughter be so irrevocably attached to you and seeing you acting the same way around her. He’s so incredibly happy the universe send someone like you to give his daughter something she desired for such a long time but neither him nor his friends could ever give her. A mother figure.

Without noticing, he begins to stare as he does so often. He only shakes himself out of it when he sees you look at him questioningly, with slight rosy cheeks. He coughs quietly and acts as if nothing happened but he knows you noticed.

“Okay, darling. Go get you stuff. We don’t want to keep ___ from work any longer.“ He then says, wanting to talk to you alone for a bit, without Hyejin being glued to your leg.

“You guys could never. I love having you around.“ You honestly tell him the second Hyejin reluctantly leaves to get her stuff.

“You see, you say that all the time but I can’t understand why. Not even my own mother can bear us for as long as you can.“ He says, making you laugh in return.

“That’s definitely not true and you know it.“

Taehyung only shrugs. “Was everything okay today? She didn’t cause you any trouble being here, did she?“ He then asks you, fearing that there might’ve been a problem, seeing as this was the first time you had to take her to work with you. He feels bad putting his problems on you, just so he can have it easier.

“No, no, everything is alright. Don’t you worry.“ You smile brightly. “I mean, she did have quite the encounter with grouchy Yoongi back there but they got to work it out.“ You chuckle as you think back to her beating Yoongi up with a piece of cardboard.

“Oh no, was he mad?“ Taehyung asks, looking concerned.

You only laugh it off, lifting a brow in the process. “It’s Yoongi. He’s always mad at everyone and life in general.“

Taehyung has only met Yoongi a quick couple of times and he never really got to talk to him but he can see that he definitely means a lot to you. You always talk about him with a slight glint in your eyes, even if you barely ever have anything good to say about him.

Before he can say anything further, Hyejin already comes back looking very displeased. “Daddy, I can’t find my backpack anywhere.“ She pouts.

“Well it has to be here somewhere. Go look for it.“ Taehyung sighs looking around himself.

“You know what, I think we may have left it upstairs in my apartment. Could it be there, Hyejin?“ You ponder as you go through all the places you've been today. Luckily there weren’t many.

Hyejin’s face immediately lights up as she nods her head. “Yes, I left it on the table!“ She nearly screams, making you and Taehyung cringe from the noise.

“Alright, let me just tell Yoongi real quick that he has to take the counter for a few minutes and then we can go upstairs.“ You tell them before you’re already on your way to the back of the shop.

As you already expected, Yoongi made himself comfortable between two large flower bouquets, “resting his eyes“ as he would call it. Forming your eyes into slits, you cross your arms over your chest before kicking his leg until he wakes up in a rush.

“Are you being serious right now?“ You grunt at him. “Tell me you didn’t need me to come here today, for you to take a nap during working hours.“ You frown, looking at him expectantly.

“Uh… I didn’t need you to come here today, so I can take a nap during working hours?“ Yoongi smiles apologetically.

“You have to be kidding me…“ You shake your head and try to look annoyed with him, while you have to admit that it’s such a Yoongi thing to do. You could’ve thought of that yourself.

“You can’t be mad at me. I’ve taken over most of your shifts for the past month, just so you can play house with a fucking male model and his hyperactive daughter.“ Yoongi says, a proud smirk covering his face as he sees the way you blush at his comment.

“I’m not—… It’s not— We’re not playing house.“ You try to defend yourself but fail as soon as your voice gets way higher than it actually is, which just makes you blush even more.

Yoongi laughs. He obviously enjoys you being in this uncomfortable state. “I was actually just kidding but seeing how you react to it, makes me think there might be something going on there.“

You swear you’re close to slapping that stupid grin out of his face but you do what you do best and casually try to ignore him.

“I know you’re just joking. As if someone like him would actually go for someone like me.“ You scoff, looking at him with a bored expression.

“What do you mean by that?“ He asks, looking closely.

You sigh loudly, just wanting to run away at the moment. “Do I have to remind you of anything concerning my face?“ You ask him, not exactly wanting to address the elephant in the room.

Yoongi immediately seems to interpret something into your words which you didn’t mean and frowns deeply. “No, because I’m looking at you right now and I don’t see anything wrong with you. Did he say anything to you?“ And suddenly your little bickering is about to take a turn you really didn’t intent on taking.

“Of course not, don’t be ridiculous. He isn’t like that. He wouldn’t say it out loud…“ You sigh. You see how he wants to say something else to that, actually looking at you with a serious expression but you don’t feel like having this conversation right now so you quickly change the topic to say what you originally came here for.

“Can you please go behind the counter and watch the shop for a few minutes? I have to go upstairs in my apartment because Hyejin left her backpack there and her dad is here to pick her up.“

Yoongi doesn’t look very happy, but agrees whatsoever.

When you arrive back at the shop entry with Yoongi hot on your heels, the first thing you see is Taehyung looking at the many different flower bouquets as Hyejin tells him something about them, like what flowers there are and whatever. You smile to yourself because she asked you about all the different flower species as soon as she stepped foot into the shop and now she proudly passes her knowledge on to her dad, who looks equally as impressed.

“Alright guys, we can go. Yoongi is kind enough to take over, even tough he’s very busy himself.“ You smirk, watching him roll his eyes next to you because of your obvious sarcasm.

Taehyung turns around, looking at you both for a mere second before he comes a little closer to shake Yoongi’s hand with a smile on his face. “Hey man, I don’t think we properly met before. I’m Taehyung.“

Yoongi takes his hand in his, actually putting something that looks like a smile on his face as he inspects the man in front of him further. “Yoongi. Nice to meet you.“ He introduces himself before nodding his head at Hyejin. “You’re going home already, little heroine?“ He then asks her, surprising you. You wouldn’t have guessed that he’d start a conversation since he almost never starts a conversation when he doesn’t have to.

Hyejin nods, pouting again. “Yes, my daddy said I have to.“ She sighs a little over dramatically. “I like this place sooo much. It’s so pretty. And I like spending time with ___.“

Taehyung chuckles, ruffling her hair and making her protest. “Don’t be so dramatic, you will come back, darling.“

You watch as Yoongi takes out a single Astilbe flower from one of the bouquets and gives it to Hyejin with a small smile on his face. “___ told you a little bit about flowers, didn’t she?“ He asks her when she cautiously and somewhat uncertainly accepts the flower.

Hyejin nods and continues to look at him with curious eyes.

“Did she tell you something about this one?“ He then asks her.

She shakes her head, eyes growing bigger with every passing second.

“That’s an Astilbe flower. It symbolizes patience and means that we’ll be waiting for you to come back.“ He winks, making her blush in the process. “You can keep it.“

You only stare at Yoongi in pure disbelieve while Taehyung nudges Hyejin, who suddenly becomes shy and stares at Yoongi with big googly eyes. “What do you say to that?“

“Thank you.“ Hyejin nearly whispers, face as red as a fire truck.

Looks like someone just developed her first crush. You think, hiding a smile, as you look at Taehyung who also looks at you with a slight grin on his face.

“How come you never give me flowers?“ You ask Yoongi in a joking manner, raising a brow in the process.

Yoongi turns his head back to you, face almost instantly falling back into its typical bored expression. “I dedicate my soulful side only to special women.“ He carelessly answers, making you scoff in the process.

“Okay guys, let’s go. We don't want to prevent Yoongi from getting back to his important work.“ You say towards Taehyung and Hyejin, the latter still focused on Yoongi with pink cheeks.

“___, do you have a vessel for my pretty flower?“ Hyejin asks you as soon as you step into your apartment.

You chuckle, nodding your head. “Yes honey, let me just check real quick.“ You throw your keys onto the table, where Hyejin’s backpack is placed and walk into the kitchen to look for a small jar.

You don’t notice Taehyung following you until you whip around, wanting to look somewhere else and nearly crash into him. He quickly catches you though, holding your arms tightly to prevent you from colliding with him and hurting yourself.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you. I just wanted to… Actually I don’t know.“ He chuckles uncomfortably, hand scratching the back of his neck again, making you grin wildly.

“It’s okay, I just wasn’t prepared for someone standing so close behind me when it’s usually just me in here.“ You say, also getting a little flustered by his close proximity. Not to forget that he’s still touching you with one hand, unknowingly warming the skin on your right upper arm.

He doesn’t seem to realize it though and you yourself only really notice it when he suddenly pulls his hand back, focusing his attention on something behind you.

“Woah, what happened there?“ He asks you pointing his finger at one of your hanging kitchen cabinets that is actually barely hanging and threatens to crash onto the worktop every minute.

“Oh that… It’s been like this for a few months now actually… I can’t fix it and I always forget to call someone to do it for me.“ You laugh a little awkwardly, embarrassed that he’s seen it. You don't want him to think of you as some kind of slob or something.

His interest in it seems to lay somewhere else though. “Damn ___ that’s not safe. It looks like it could come crashing down any moment now.“ He frowns looking at you with a look you cannot quite assign.

“Ah, it’s not a big deal. Like I said, it’s been like this for months now.“ You assure him but it doesn’t seem to calm him down.

“I can fix it for you if you want.“ He suddenly offers, surprising you.

“You can do that?“ You ask him, a little amazed. It's not that you think he can’t do it but he also doesn't look like someone who does manual repairs in his spare time.

Taehyung looks pretty confident though, already walking towards it. “Do you have a screwdriver?“ He asks you.

You tell him to wait a second before you walk out of the room to look for the little toolbox your father got you when you first moved out because apparently “everybody needs a toolbox“. You never used it before, obviously not being very useful when it comes to repairs. To be fair, you never needed it until now because you always had Jimin to take care of those kinds of things.

You hand Taehyung your little tool kit and he immediately gets to work, lifting himself up to sit on the counter while carefully unscrewing all of the screws before he cautiously puts the cabinet on the floor. You watch him, casually making conversation and enjoying the view because damn… how have you never noticed before that he actually has fairly defined muscles? It’s the first time you notice how strong is arms look when he lifts the — certainly not exactly light — kitchen cupboard up to put it back on the wall.

You almost shamelessly check him out while he innocently tries to repair your broken cupboard, holding the screws and nails securely between his lips.

He suddenly slips with the screwdriver, making a noise which shakes you out of your thoughts with a quiet shriek. Taehyung still notices though and offers you an apologetic smile. “Sorry, I slipped.“

You clear your throat, suddenly getting hot because of the embarrassment you feel from actually checking him out like that when he innocently tries to help you. You really just checked him out!

What the heck? You’re definitely alone for too long…

As you further inspect him now, you can’t believe how deep in thought you must’ve been while staring at him, when you didn’t even notice before that he looks like he doesn’t for the life of him know what he’s doing. It’s only now that you see him looking confused at the scenery in front of him like he's thinking hard about what to do next and it’s as cute as it’s worrying.

“Hey, is everything alright? Can I help you or something?“ You carefully ask him, trying to hide the smirk that forms itself because of his confused demeanor.

Hearing your voice, he instantly whips his head around to look at you. “Huh? No! No… everything’s alright, I’m absolutely fine.“ He uncomfortably laughs but his eyes show a completely different emotion.

After a while of him struggling further but not admitting it, you decide to leave him be and call Yoongi instead to inform him that it will take just a few more minutes until you come back. Let’s just say he’s not very amused by your announcement, actually hating to stay behind the counter, having to talk to customers and actually be decent to them. He throws a couple bad jokes your way that all more or less have to do with “at least hold on until the poor child is not around“ but you just ignore him and simply hang up instead.

You walk back into the kitchen, checking on Hyejin on the way who’s happily running around, playing with her sword again and you put her flower in a little vessel filled with water.

You look at her for a little while, eyes growing soft. There’s no way you won’t be missing her as soon as you’re back in Busan by tomorrow.

You’re just about to take a quick stop and cuddle her when Taehyung calls you and tells you to come to the kitchen. So you walk to him instead but Hyejin, being as noisy as always, follows you hot on your heels.

The first thing you see when you walk into the kitchen is an overly happy Taehyung wearing the biggest smile you’ve ever seen as he proudly points to the cabinet tat’s successfully hanging on the wall again.

“Wow, you actually did it.“ You say slightly cringing by the huge amount of surprise that’s laced in your voice and makes Taehyung raise a brow in question.

“Of course, I told you I would.“ He only says watching your every move as you inspect his masterpiece carefully.

“What did you do, daddy?“ Hyejin’s small voice finally comes through, as she’s looking around the kitchen but doesn’t see anything new.

“Oh nothing much darling, I just quickly repaired ___ 's kitchen cabinet.“ He says, feeling kinda cool as he swings an hammer in his hand, before he almost lets it slip and tries to cover it up, hoping no one would’ve noticed.

After Taehyung's answer, Hyejin doesn't seem to find the spectacle so interesting anymore and immediately runs away again.

Taehyung scoffs at her disinterest at his craftsmanship but ignores her, turning his full attention on you instead. “Go on, you can start to put all your stuff back in there.“ He points at the glasses and cups you kept next to your sink, since the day the cabinet started to fall down. Just in case it would come crashing down suddenly and break everything inside.

You’re about to, when something catches your eyes, making you hesitant. “Uhm Tae…“ You carefully start, “Why are there so many screws and nails lying around here?“ You ask him, looking at him with a puzzled look on your face while he just casually shrugs it off.

“I just had too many. Those are the ones I didn’t need.“ He simply answers, not easing your worries in the slightest.

“But they were also built into it before, weren't they?“ You ask, watching him. “How come they found them to be important in the original setup but now they suddenly aren’t needed any longer?“

Taehyung only smiles at you, taking an empty glass into his hand and coming a few steps closer to you. “Oh ___,“ He chuckles, “That's what craftsmen always do. They usually use more materials than they actually have to because that ensures that the products do not fall apart before the warranty period expires.“ He tells you, as if it’s common knowledge.

You’re pretty sure that doesn’t make any sense and as sorry as you are, you trust the awkwardly nailed-together thing even less than you did before. You don’t want to tell Taehyung though because he actually looks so proud of himself. And that’s why you watch in awe when he opens the cabinet, puts the single glass inside and doesn’t even get the chance to change his facial expression from a wide smile to… well, anything else before everything comes crashing down in a loud crash.

For a little while nobody says a word before Taehyung grunts loudly, staring at nothing while muttering something under his breath that definitely sounds like a swear. You on the other hand can’t help but laugh loudly which makes him look at you in surprise.

“I guess I’ll just call a real expert then, as soon as I’m back home.“ You chuckle as soon as you calmed down a little.

Taehyung looks at you apologetically but obviously can’t help but laugh as well as he shakes his head. “I just wanted to be the one to help you this time… Now I feel stupid.“

“No, don’t. It’s… Maybe you should’ve used all of the materials though.“ You say thoughtfully as you look at the little pile of misery that used to be your cupboard.

Taehyung, doing his signature neck scratch, stares at it as well. “I mean… In some way I may have saved your life just now because this thing was definitely about to fall down anyway. What if you had been standing under it right then? It would’ve crashed you.“ He shrugs, watching your reaction closely.

You smile, “So what you’re saying is, you’re practically my hero because you broke my cupboard before it could break on its own?“ You frown, lifting one eyebrow in the process.

“I would have phrased it a little differently but in the end I probably can't turn the truth away from myself.“ Taehyung shrugs, sending a confident smirk your way. “You’re welcome, princess.“

Desperately trying to not get flustered by the new nickname he called you, you simply try to laugh it off. But it’s easier said than done when he’s looking at you like that and standing so close to you…

“We should probably go now before your friend kills us.“ He suddenly says in a much more quiet voice than before.

You know he’s right, even though you really don’t want them to go. Knowing you won’t see them for a little while now doesn’t help either. You already know you will miss all of them terribly. Hopefully your dad’s arm heals just fine so you can come back as soon as possible.

With a crying Hyejin clinging on to your leg, you try to say goodbye to the pair, having to get back to work and help Yoongi with the shop. She started crying again as soon as Taehyung called for her to stop running around and say goodbye to you, throwing a tantrum and refusing to come with him.

Taehyung looks so uncomfortable right now and you actually feel sorry for not only him but Hyejin as well because she looks actually heartbroken. She probably doesn’t understand yet why you have to leave and that you’re coming back very soon but you can understand that it’s nerve wrecking for Taehyung.

“My god Hyejin, she isn’t leaving for god knows how long. She’ll be back in a few weeks — if even.“ He sighs, touching her shoulder but she shakes it off, not wanting him to get her off of you. “We already talked about that and you understood, remember?“

“But I changed my mind. I don’t want to understand anymore.“ She cries.

He groans, running his hand through his hair and looks at you. “I’m so sorry, ___. This is embarrassing.“

You offer him a smile, signaling that everything is fine and he shouldn’t feel sorry. “It’s actually kinda cute.“ You mouth to him but judging by his facial expression, he doesn’t seem to feel the same way.

Wanting to help out a little, you try to talk to Hyejin one more time in hope she’d stop her crying. “Hyejin, please don’t cry my dear. I promise you can call me every day at any time and I’ll answer, okay?“Her big, glassy eyes look at you in pure disappointment, making your heart break all over again.

“Promise?“ She whines.

With a big smile, you stretch your pinky out and hold it in front of her tiny face. “Pinky promise, little one.“

Hyejin hesitates for a second but finally decides to hook er pinky in yours to seal the promise.

“See? The promise can’t be broken anymore.“ You grin.

“Great… Just wait until she can’t sleep and wants to chat at one am or something.“ Taehyung buts in.

You look up at him and shrug your shoulders in disinterest. “Then I guess you’ll just have to call me at one in the morning.“

“Awesome.“ He mutters lowly, not saying anything else to this while you give Hyejin a final big hug.

“I will miss you so much, my little princess. Please take good care of your uncles and your dad while I’m gone, okay?“ You feel Hyejin nodding her head as she buries her face in your neck, nearly suffocating you.

Taehyung smiles at the heartwarming sight in front of him. “You’re leaving tonight, right?“ He asks and unintentionally gets you out of your and Hyejin’s little moment.

You nod, standing up again. “Yes. This way I can start fresh tomorrow.“

“Well, do you need me to drive you anywhere? The airport or something?“ He asks growing a little restless for whatever reason.

“Oh thank you so much, Tae but Yoongi already offered to drive me to the train station after we closed the shop today. He said he needs to run some errands anyway; but between us both? I bet he’ll miss me and wants to spend some time together.“ You wink at him, laughing about your own assumption.

Taehyung won’t tell you but he’s actually a little bummed. Call it selfishness or whatever but he wanted to drive you for the same reason… kinda. He wanted to because of Hyejin in the first place. He just wanted to give his daughter the chance to have you around for a little while longer. He still forces a smile on his face and nods, not saying what he actually wants to say.

“Okay come on, Hyejin. We’ll let ___ get back to work now.“ He smiles at his daughter — a real smile this time — and takes her little hand in his. Hyejin still seems reluctant but offers you her other hand, making you and him each holding a hand of hers. If someone would see you right now and didn’t know any better, they’d probably think you’re a little family.

Taehyung almost blushes at his stupid thought, shaking his head while he also wears an angry frown on his face. He can’t believe he has such immature thoughts running around his mind. What the actual fuck?

When the three of you come out of the building, Yoongi is also standing outside, watering some flowers. He stops when he sees you though and Taehyung can see him mustering not only your hands but you as a whole. For a second he asks himself if Yoongi maybe had the same thought that was clouding his mind just a minute ago, but he probably just misinterpreted his glance.

“So you are still alive then.“ Yoongi simply states when you’re right in front of him.

“What do you mean, I called you to say that it’ll take a little while longer.“ You huff. “Taehyung tried to repair my kitchen cabinet.“

“Oh, so that means it’s no longer on the verge of killing you?“ He asks, his attention now more on Taehyung.

The younger man raises his brows, looking from Yoongi to you and back at Yoongi when he sees you simply suppressing a laugh. “Yeah, no… Yeah I think you could say that.“ He stutters, feeling his ears get a little warm. “It definitely won’t kill her anymore.“ Taehyung smiles, even showing his teeth and ignores the way Yoongi looks at him funnily.

“Cool.“ Yoongi then says before getting back to watering the flower pots without another comment.

Well that was easy.

Despite not having exchanged a lot of words with Yoongi, Taehyung can’t help but like this guy. He seems to be very straightforward but in some way also caring. Just like when he tried to cheer Hyejin up with the little flower back then. And he seems to have a special place in your heart, which means that he simply has to be a good guy. Otherwise, someone like you wouldn’t get along with him.

“Good, I’ll let you guys go then.“ You suddenly say and bring him back to the sobering reality in which they finally have to say goodbye — for good this time. What Taehyung has not yet realized though, is that this time you are addressing him in particular. He only really becomes aware of it when he looks into your warm eyes and sees you looking at him as well. And as if that wasn’t enough already to make him get flustered, he doesn’t even get the chance to think clearly before you throw your petit arms around his body and embrace him in a tight hug.

Although he is surprised at your sudden initiative, he doesn't even need a blink of an eye to return the hug. Since that day at his apartment and that awkward arm around you shoulder move he pulled, he didn’t dare touch you again like that — in fear he could make you uncomfortable. But now you’re doing the first step and he enjoys it more than he probably should. He can perceive your scent — sunscreen and cinnamon — with just the littlest sniff of his nose right now and he already knows that he probably won’t get it out of his head for the next couple of days.

It feels good to hold you like this because until now he has only watched you get so close to Jungkook and even Namjoon but you never come to him and he just doesn’t understand why. Maybe there is just something about him that you don't like. Is he too rough, too intimidating, too aloof? Is it something he said or something he did? Do you just not like him? He doesn’t want to admit how his stomach drops every time he thinks about that specific possibility. Or maybe he was wrong and deep inside you aren’t over that little incident at the café last month… Maybe you think he’s a creep?

Whatever the reason might be, all these thoughts vanish the moment you embrace him as if you’d do it all the time; and in that moment, he doesn’t really care. It simply doesn’t matter right now.

He sinks too much into the feeling of pure comfort you’re giving him right now to notice the little “disgusting,“ which Yoongi mutters under his breath when he takes a quick glance at you both.

You, however, do hear it and quickly let him go while you look at him intensely.

You don't allow him to say anything to you though, when you turn your head at Hyejin and grin. “You know what to do, little one,“ you only wink and ruffle her hair, knowing how much she actually hates it but wanting to end the day on a lighter note.

Taehyung is about to say one last goodbye when an elderly lady suddenly comes walking in your direction and sends a happy and bright smile your way as she walks by. “Oh dear, that’s such a pretty flower you have there.“ She says, pointing at the little flower Hyejin immediately took back from Taehyung as soon as she had her hands free again.

Hyejin, although being a little shy around the stranger, nevertheless smiles proudly at her and nods her head. “Thank you. It’s an Astilbe flower and it means they can’t wait to see me again.“ From the corner of you eye you see Yoongi desperately trying to hold back a smile but it’s too late — you’ve seen it and you will never ever let him forget about it.

“Oh, if that isn’t nice,“ she laughs. “Where did you get it from?“ The lady further asks, smiling at you and Taehyung as she does so.

Hyejin blushes a little and points at Yoongi, who’s also looking at her right now. “I got it from my boyfriend.“ She then raves, in a small but confident voice, proudly grinning at the man who’s standing only a few meters away from her.

In the few seconds that follow after, Hyejin is the only one looking very happy while making heart-eyes at Yoongi, while Taehyung almost dies from a coughing fit, Yoongi nearly drowns all the flowers while violently blushing, you just standing there in shock while your heart bursts from all the cuteness and the lady looks at all of you as if you’ve each grown two heads.

After a few seconds of pure silence, she simply gives you all a little awkward smile before she walks away without another word — probably ready to call the FBI or something.

Needless to say, you definitely got to end the day on a lighter note instead of ending it in tears like you originally feared.

Copyright © 2021 jananakookie please do not repost, and thank you for reading :)

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. this is more of an art thing but why is there no sense of light or darkness in this comic?  because anyone can be up on earth in the full sun or down in the darkest parts of the underworld  and it looks exactly the same, the background just changes from a pink to a black void. even then theres no sense of uniqueness to the settings either. The courthouse for example doesn't give away it's in the underworld, it's so generic it could easily be on Olympus too. The settings are so flat for this.

2. Id like to complain about Hera for a hot second (and anyone feel free to correct me if my knowledge of the timeline is wrong)

So, doesn't Hera have a meeting with Persephone at some point so she can discuss with her an "opportunity" to work as an intern at Underworld Corp and is using that essentially as an excuse to push Persephone and Hades together (because she knows they like each other).

And with the knowledge we have now - why the f*ck would she do this?

Hera overheard the gross conversation Hades had with Poseidon and Zeus and she even stated herself that Persephone is young and inexperienced and impressionable. On top of that Hera is Persephone's Aunt, yes?

Why would Hera, who has been / is having an affair with Hades (her husband's brother) be pushing her teenaged niece into a position she is not qualified for (Persephone said it herself that she wasnt qualified and didn't really wanna go).

Is it because she desperately wants to move on from the affair and is looking for a replacement for Hades (despite knowing he is dating Minthe)? Is it because she thinks Persephone (her f*cking teenaged niece) is a better match for a 40 yr old (2000+) man whom she was having an affair with, then either her or the woman he is currently with?

I just don't understand the logic here. Hera is a terrible aunt - with all of this baggage why would she be pushing Persephone towards Hades? (Also so does that mean that Hades was cheating on Minthe with Hera while she was cheating on her husband with him, And Minthe was also cheating on Hades with Thanatos?)

Also why why why was the photo that Hera was looking at (for Persephone's file) have Persephone look like shes 12 and posing at a spelling bee?

This is the girl Hera wants to match with her ex lover??? Why?? Why wasnt the photo like a current update? Couldn't she have found a more current photo? We know Hera is sending her (Persephone) to the underworld with the intention that she and Hades will click (again. Despite him already dating someone else, whom she doesn't approve of) - so all this does is reinforce how very young and impressionable Persephone is.

Logic! Make it make sense RS! 

3. So I know RS said somewhere that her choice in colors has to do with complementary purposes, environment, mood etc. But on that note - I just dont understand some of the color choices - like Demeter is green and purple, so why is Persephone pink? (Whos Persephone's father in LO? Is she just pink because its hereditary and a recessive trait and she's related to Rhea?)

Also sometimes I swear it feels like the reason RS picked blue for Hades and pink for Persephone is because subconsciously she went "blue is for boys, pink is for girls"

Poseidon is a nice green (like seaweed) so that kinda makes sense and Zeus is purple (for royalty), and Hestia is yellowish/orange - probably for the fire/hearth aspect of her character. Athena might have something to do with silver idk.

Eros I guess is pink and hes the god of love, and I kind of get why Apollo and Artemis are purple (their twins and Zeus's kids) - but again, then why isnt Persephone purple or green? Is she just a reincarnation of Rhea? (Her being with Hades then seems kinda sus since that was his mom).

Why is Hermes red? Why is Minthe (a mint plant known for its green color) red? Why is Hera yellow? Why is Hapheastus reddish/orange? Is it because hes supposed to be Ares's brother?

Like, Ares is reddish orange probably because hes the god of war and supposedly angry all the time, but what about Hapheastus? He might be Hera's son but does anything about his character suggest that he's angry? If its just a genetic thing and not based on personality/traits then once again, why is Persephone pink and not green?? 

4. LO’s designs and story has always disgusted me as a mythology nerd, like hey take what you want from stories about the Gods as canon or not but LO just seems to do everything completely wrong even with everything being open to interpretation

5. wait thats a good point. why does hephaestus have the same exact coloring as metis if thats not his grandmother? idk why RS retconned that when the colors tell otherwise? and like that other anon said it just seems to say adopted families dont count as "real" family which is ... gross to say the least.

6. I’ve studied Greek mythology since I was 9, it’s been a long time hyperfixation, and LO was the first non Percy Jackson media that was based around it. (No hate to PJ though lol) I was so excited at the time, I caught it when it just came out, but I was very disappointed in the inaccuracies. I’ve caught glimpses of it a few times until now but mostly ignored it. I didn’t think anyone else would notice or care because there’s a pretty big fan base. So, I’m pretty happy I found this blog! 

7. TBH the fact even Persephone isn't up for punishing Apollo def seems like RS is planning to "redeem" him via throwing Leto under the bus, because like you said, he's too important of a god to just kill off or imprison, so she has to think of someone else to punish instead. Leto isn't a major figure, she's against HxP AND Hera, and seems to be abusing/manipulating her children to do her bidding, so it's so easy to use her as the scapegoat. This is so well planned out and feminist /s.

8. Rs has always done Hera so dirty as a character. She stripped Hera of being a fertility goddess and just made her the goddess of marriage when she is much more powerful. She also cheats and is awful to those below her and yet we’re still supposed to root for her. I get that it’s Smythe’s version of the myths but you can only distort the Greek gods so much before they’re nothing like themselves.

-----FP Spoilers/Mention-----

9. As for the new fp - 1st my eyes are bleeding from these awful colors combination. 2nd yay women hating each other. 3rd yay more hate on Demeter. Well at least no more poor hxp romance

10. SHUT UP IM THAT WRITING ANON SHE DOES NOT SERIOUSLY ASEXUALLY BUD OFF HERSELF DOES SHE TELL ME THATS A JOKE (FP SPOILER OBVS IF THATS THE CASE)

From OP: In the episode, Persephone basically offers to make him a heir. Like us, Hades is surprised that she said that. Persephone explains herself by saying there’s more than one way to make a baby and this was the example: “Maybe you could make some fire, and I could carry it around. And then, the fire will become sentient!” So asexually budding off herself is definitely possible. Unless I’m understanding asexual budding wrong (science isn’t my best subject lmao).

[marshmallowgoop]

[Image description: The cover art for Volume 9 of Kill la Kill, found on the official site here. Ryuko holds Senketsu in an embrace, smiling.]

In honor of the 8th(!) anniversary of Kill la Kill’s first episode, and with Venom: Let There Be Carnage out now, I kinda wanted to self-reblog a post about how this wildly and understandably controversial 2013 anime series is actually a sailor uniform love story, no, really.

But the dozen essays I’ve written on the subject are so long and meandering and tl;dr that I’m just gonna plagiarize myself here for the important bits because, like. This aspect of the show deserves so much more recognition.

So. Kill la Kill (yes, THAT Kill la Kill) is literally a love story between a young woman and her alien shirt, and if you don’t believe me, consider the following:

✄ The cover art for the final volume of the series (pictured at the top of this post)—or, you know, the number-one thing that the show wants you to take away from it—is an illustration of Ryuko and Senketsu wrapped in a tender embrace, presumably just about to Synchronize and become one. To further bring my point home, this image is constantly featured on the homepage for the official Kill la Kill website.

✄ (Plus, an earlier draft that character designer Sushio drew is maybe even more intimate and adorable.)

✄ In scriptwriter Kazuki Nakashima’s comments for the final episode in The Complete Script Book, he notes that he felt the story had to end with Ryuko and Senketsu parting because it began with the two meeting.

✄ Which, I mean, is a pretty blatant acknowledgment that Kill la Kill is ultimately all about Ryuko and Senketsu’s bond.

✄ Nakashima has also outright stated that he “wanted to make a form of intimacy that transcends love and species” with the series.

✄ Further, the OST supports that the anime is centered on Ryuko and Senketsu’s relationship because its theme and most iconic song, “Before my body is dry,” is literally a duet between the two, with lines like, “Let’s let no one break the bond that is ours” and “Don’t be afraid my sweet heart.”

✄ In the Kamui Bansho, the Kill la Kill Official Guidebook, Ryuko and Senketsu are the only characters to get a “Best 3″ section focused on their relationship, in which Senketsu is repeatedly referred to as Ryuko’s “大切 (‘important,’ ‘precious,’ ‘beloved,’ ‘cherished’) partner” and even flat-out described as her “one and only ‘partner.’”

✄ And while voice actors are generally largely uninvolved in the writing of a TV series and can’t exactly state any “canon” information, Ami Koshimizu, Ryuko’s VA, has argued for the significance of Ryuko and Senketsu’s partnership herself, saying, “Senketsu and Ryuko are like family, like friends, like lovers, are in a very comfortable/close-fitting relationship. Had they both been human, it would not have been possible for them to have this relationship. I think that is what this wonderful work depicted.” (Emphasis added.)

Long story short? The Venom films are basically a live-action Kill la Kill because their entire main focus is, just like Kill la Kill’s, the similarly loving relationship between a human and alien clothes.

And if Venom can be recognized for telling a story all about an impossible love that’s really not impossible at all, Kill la Kill deserves some dang recognition for doing the same thing!

[uweiy]

I'm intrigued by Love is Science? but know nothing about it. Can you give me a run down on what kind of thing to expect and who it might appeal to? Thank you!! 😁

Ooooo boi *gremlin smile* I'm glad you asked. You've entered the dragon's den, broken the dam and thus this post turned out to be a monster so I'm gonna link here another post from @accidentallyadramablog which imo gives a nice (and short) overview.

That said let's get into

Love is Science?

Summary :

Yan Fei is a the CEO of the Love is Science marriage agency, that matches people based on scientific data. Hsuan Yu, 8 years younger than her, is a promising young hairstylist who has been in love with her thoughout their entire childhood when she has only ever seen him like a little brother.

Unexpectedly they meet again. Between the way they've each built their lives and how Yong Yan Fei's ex husband still looms over Yan Fei's life, how will their relationship develop this time around ?

Now,

just reading that summary I know what you're thinking.

Indeed, if you have some experience with dramas, you might recognize some TYPICAL TYPICAL tropes – let's get them out of the way :

love triangle (though we all know who she is going to end up with don't we)

childhood friends

'noona romance'

And they are every bit as present and as trope-ey as you would expect.

However, as they say, the devil is in the details.

And particularly, in the side characters. Let me give you a quick rundown of the lot of them :

As such, we follow the stories of multiple relationships that develop parallel to one another.

The relationships

• Yan Fei/ Hsuan Yu : Not much needs to be added I think. Their storyline might be the most predictable but they are pretty sweet and heartwarming. pining for like 12 years though poor Hsuan Yu. Anyway you can enjoy it or find it boring or but you can't hate it.

• Mark/Ouwen : Noooow we're getting to it. Their dynamic is so... Refreshing and unique. Confident gay with a soft heart and dumb disaster bisexual I mean *chef kiss*👌delicious

After the disasters of their first meetings, it's a cat and dog relationship where Ouwen is the hsssssss don't touch me– cat and Mark is the golden retriever trailing after him not really realizing the rampage he's creating in Ouwen's heart. while Ouwen is like "Remind me why the FUCK I caught feelings again ?".

IDK it just has everything 'Enemies' to friends to lovers, (not actually) unrequited love, pining, sweet moments, jealousy, feelings realization, snarky banter... What more could one want.

• Cho Nai Hui / You Fu : they are. So. So sweet. Both are older and have experience, and as such they are not so naive or stupid as the youngsters. Them sharing their life experiences and going on dates like typically teenagers (in movies or TV shows anyway) would is refreshing to see and really really heartwarming.

• Liu Sheng Ying/ ??? Her ex ? : The show hinted at a wlw storyline and this arc seems to have JUST begun. Basically Sheng Ying's ex comes to Love is Science as a client and requests Sheng Ying as an advisor, while Sheng Ying still seems heartbroken over her. I can't WAIT to see how it develops.

The friendships :

Something I greatly appreciate is that both the romantic relationships AND the friendships have a great importance in the drama.

• Joanna and Yan Fei : Jo, queen Jo 👑. She's just here to gossip, get all the gossip and be the voice of reason and we love her for it. You can see how comfortable they are around each other and how they were there for each other during tough times and still are. Kudos to the actresses because I believed the characters were besties in a heartbeat.

• Hsuan Yu and Mark : they are honestly... Such polar opposites you kinda wonder how they became friends but they are and it works perfectly.

Hsuan Yu still hasn't gotten he maybe shouldn't take Mark's advice, and Mark still hasn't gotten that he, definitely should take Hsuan Yu's. It also enables to develop a more playful and mischievous side to Hsuan Yu, giving him more depth?

• Ouwen and Sheng Ying: rivalry to reluctant solidarity to friends-but-i-will-deny-it-if-asked to just friends. IT'S GREAT

I also ejoy the fact that these multiple storylines are allowed to coexist. The romantic ones, the friendships, older, younger, m/f m/m and f/f like take your pick !! And tbh a WLW storyline ?????? These are so scarce I will take anything.

The recurring themes :

The show more or less subtly touches on some topics/issues, to which the dating aspect contributes to.

A non exhaustive list would be

Divorce, and how divorced women can be viewed as failures for some reason

How successful men over 30 are sought after but successful women after 30 are somehow deemed undatable

Preconceived notions and homophobia

And beyond the topics, there's just things like... Joanna not being interested in long term relationships nor wanting to get married, reporting sexual harassment, older people going on dates.... I'm not saying it's a groundbreaking activist drama –which is not really what I was looking for– I just appreciate the fact that it is a pretty mainstream drama and that these things are there.

Mad respect if you've made it up to here ! but we're not quite done yet.

The cast and crew :

The other element that made this drama stand out for me besides the side characters is the cast.

It might be weird that such a meta thing impacts the appreciation of the show but it did, for me at least.

📣📣TMI WARNING 📣📣

For me what happened is I stumbled onto Mark and Ouwen cuts on YouTube, then somehow onto the behind the scenes. They weren't subbed at the time so I could barely understand a word of what they were saying, thus I'm not sure what but something about how the rest of the actors, the director and the crew were interacting just told me it was a show worth watching or at least checking out.

📣📣END OF TMI📣📣

The cast honestly seems to have a blast and to have, how to say it, come together really well. It seems like most of them have become genuinely friends, or despite differences in personality have truly enjoyed working with one another and with the rest of the crew, and it shows.

Where it's lacking

In my opinion the show does have some aspects where it underperforms.

As previously mentioned, the main plot is kinda tropey, furthermore, in a drama typical fashion when something is about to get resolved, immediately something else happens. Nothing unexpected from a drama though.

The pacing : Some moments of the main plot especially dragged on, so I admit I skipped through some parts.

Because I feel so strongly about all the characters though, I don't really mind the previously mentioned points. I just think it's a shame because I feel like if it had been crafted a little bit better it could have made the show go from an 8/10 good drama to an 11/10 friggin amazing drama easy.

Lastly, there is a pretty unequal time distribution so Yan Fei and Hsuan Yu do tend to occupy the most part of an episode. However some episodes are more centered on some pairings (like ep 11 that will probably have an important Mark/Ouwen part).

Overall

it's a drama that warms my heart, as simple as that. It's not that deep, it's pretty funny, the acting ranges from good to excellent and I have taken a liking to a lot of the characters, which is what I think fuels my interest for the drama.

And I feel like it managed to attract a wide range of audiences because the romances and relationships are so diverse. Whether you watch the show for its entirety or for one aspect/storyline/character is entirely up to you and I feel like the creators of the drama are aware of it as well : and you can easily find subbed compilations about each specific pairing on Settv's official YouTube channel.

Take that aspect that you like–if you find one of course–and enjoy it, that is all ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

What's left to say besides.... 🎉🎊 Congratulations for making it to the end of this lengthy post !

[dixie12]

Ok, but like I'm obsessed with the idea of 1988 getting together in their late thirsties. Not necessarily as hockey players. Maybe one of them known he's into men for a while and the other one had no idea men were an option for him ever. And all that sweet sweet slow burn self discovery going from friends to lovers. All the first times where they feel like there's not much in life they haven't seen yet...

ahhhh i love this idea so much!! i think it would be hard for me to write, because it would require a slow burn that i'm terrible at, but it does ring so true for them.

consider that we look at pat and jonny as OLD, and they are only 33! in any other aspect of life, that is still so young! i have med students i teach who are just starting school in their mid-30s- like there is soooo much more to come outside of hockey at this age.

i do think jonny will need some help transitioning out of hockey. there are some amazing fics about post-hockey jonny (my absolute favorite being the incomparable You and Me of the 10,000 Wars by sahiya) and i think they're fics that have a good bit of truth behind them. jonny is someone who is SO single-minded and so dedicated to hockey that i truly see him floundering when he doesn't have it anymore. i mean, there are quotes out there that his parents didn't let him do basic chores when he was a kid bc they were worried about him getting hurt and having it impact hockey.. so imagine taking that constant away, pretty much literally overnight, and what happens??

i try not to think too much about real-life pat and jonny, and their real life partners, but i think even that works in this scenario. pat has amanda and now the baby, so he has more of a support system for outside of hockey. BUT. his entire relationship with amanda has been during his playing career, and when he ultimately retires, that's going to be a seismic shift in their relationship. i went through a smaller version of that when covid hit- my partner transitioned to work from home and then lost his job, and it was HARD going from having him out of the house 8-6ish to being home quite literally 24/7 for 2 years straight. it was a legitimate strain on our relationship that we had to work at resolving.

so imagine pat and jonny retiring, and pat goes to live a "normal" suburban life with amanda, and jonny finds himself at loose ends. maybe he ends up back in arizona, or canada, or wherever he was during his convalescence. and he loses touch with some of the guys, starts to withdraw, and maybe no one has seen him in a while. and at the same time, pat and amanda are realizing that they don't work as a couple when pat is home full-time, so they amicably split.

the guys still have a group chat, and they realize that they really haven't been able to draw jonny out, so pat, seabs and sharpy plan a reunion (i think 20 years from their rookie season would work, timing-wise. that puts it in 2027-2028, which would give them a few more years to play and then retire). and jonny shows up, mainly because he knows he'll never hear the end of it if he doesn't. and he.. doesn't look good. and not just "not in playing shape" bc let's face it, none of them are 25 anymore. but he's pale and withdrawn, too thin, and his eyes are kinda dull.

and amanda's taking pk3, who is by now 7 or 8, to visit her family for the summer, so pat just follows jonny back to canada. and that's when jonny finally opens up (after a few drinks, or a joint) about how much he's been struggling without hockey. and pat wants to be there for jonny, so he stays. and they start to get closer, re-establishing a friendship they haven't really had in 15 years at this point.