#i repeat this to myself constantly /hj

[amarayys]

DRDT episode 13 theory. So.

so i was meant to be making a general episode 13 analysis video. but um. i dont have the energy for that. so what am i gonna do instead? TALK ABOUT TERUKO try find out wtf david is doing in this scene

SO. time to find out what possibly the FRUITIEST look ever from david means!!! disclaimer:

I suck at theories. And formatting. Yipee.

I'm painfully unfunny so excuse any dumbass jokes i make.

I'm going to find any and all excuses to rant abt teruko. be prepared...............

4. I may repeat myself a lot. Forgive me if it sounds really repetative... :( 5. Any points surrounded by - these things - are just things that are unlikely, but I think should still be adressed.

So, the context of these images is Teruko revealing "her secret"; You're constantly blaming yourself for the death of your parents and siblings. It doesn't matter that it's not your fault, just that you didn't go with them.

(pls excuse the shitty quality.) She has to be either lying or MAYBE unsure about her secret. Here's why: 1. She had a conversation with Whit (and technically charles, but he was just listening in) about her family. She reveals that she's never known her parents and grew up in an orphanage. She did grow up with her biological brother, but he was adopted by another family when Teruko was five, and she says she doesn't remember him much.

2. The wording of the secret is quite specific - You're constantly blaming yourself for the death of your parents and siblings. Like I've mentioned, she's never known her parents. Even if she *somehow* knew they were dead, why would she blame herself for it? I could see it maybe working in some way, but the next bit disproves it - SIBLINGS. Teruko has only mentioned having one sibling, and this wording is plural. This secret cannot be hers, she only has one brother. - To add on to this

2.5. Maybe one could argue that siblings and parents could be her friends/people she considered family in the orphanage she grew up in. However, the specific wording of parents and siblings, instead of just using the word "family", makes me think otherwise. - Okay, so let's dissect what this means. - I think if maybe she was unaware/TRULY thought that this was her secret, the only point that would support it is 2.5. Maybe she considered people she grew up with in the orphanage her "parents" or siblings", but its just not very likely. While I wouldn't be surprised if Teruko blew up an orphanage or something (/hj) , I think it's a stretch to say this secret is referring to that. - With that out the way, we come to one conclusion - Teruko is lying about secret. "Amari, we know that already, can we move on??????????" yeah yeah whatever i may have just wanted to rant about teruko. MOVING ON. So, what is Teruko's secret? It's pretty wildly agreed upon that Teruko's secret is the one regarding the killing game, which David recieved - "How could I even select what secret to be your motive? Just about everything you've done in your life is worth killing for. The killing game is all your fault."

We think that this is Teruko's secret because: 1. She's the only one that fits it smh. /hj 2. The guy at the start of the prologue (who is probably xander but that is a WHOLE other theory you can find here ) mentions having to kill Teruko Tawaki (how DARE they) after talking about ending the killing game.

My interpretation of this is that Teruko is the reason the killing game is actually happening, though I doubt she's aware of this/the mastermind (or she could be, idk??). A really good theory that I feel explains what I mean by Teruko causing the KG but not being the mastermind is the time loop theory which is linked here. (accirax i love you for this theory /p) Obviously, this lines up with "The killing game is your fault." 3. David gives her THE LOOK right after she "admits" her secret, which sort of maybe kind of implies that he knows she's lying, which he does, since he has the secret. - As for the remaining secret: Xander's secret (which we assume min recieved) is the one Teruko claimed to have:

"You're constantly blaming yourself for the death of your parents and siblings. It doesn't matter that it's not your fault, just that you didn't go with them." Why do I think this? 1. In Xander's bonus video, it is VERY heavily implied that he has survivor's guilt as well as outright confirmed his family is dead. Go check it out for the full context.

2. Xander's secret message on the DRDT tumblr is the definition of survivors guilt. Really self explanatory, huh?

3. XANDER ACTUALLY HAS MORE THAN 1 FUCKING SIBLING. anyway. okay, this is getting a little confusing to remember, so here: Killing game: Teruko's secret, recieved by David. Survivor's guilt: Xander's secret, recieved by Min. (all remaining secrets remain the same.) MOTIVE

So, why would Teruko lie about her secret? I mean, shouldn't she just point it out? And why didn't David point it out? - 1. Teruko is aware that her secret is the killing game one and is lying because she's the mastermind or something. We see her thoughts, so I really doubt it. To further disprove this theory: Teruko has stated like 15 times (/ex) that she doesn't know which secret is hers, due to her having too many secrets. So, yeah, pretty unlikely she knows which secret's hers. Discard this theory. -

2. a) Teruko doesn't know her secret, but knows it's probably bad, and therefore doesn't want to share it, so she lied. Pretty straightforward, really. Now, for the theory that I think is most likely: 3. Teruko doesn't know which secret is hers, but she knows neither of her secrets are the ones left unrevealed. She knows somebody is lying about a secret - but she's come to the conclusion that secrets are irrelevant to the trial and murder, so she's lying about her secret to avoid everyone getting off track once again.

We know that's she's accidentally led the trial in the wrong direction twice now (motive secrets, time of murder) Also, this is the most in character.

As for David: A. David knows her secret, but keeps it hidden in order to cause distrust and just generally fuck Teruko over. He plans to reveal it either post trial or in a future daily life. B. David knows her secret, but earlier, he and Teruko made a pact to keep it hidden. However, since he's a little bitch boy (/j), he's going to reveal it anyway, either post trial or in a future daily life. - Just to add on to this point ^ - I know Teruko's protag and we see her thoughts and all, but Kaede happened, so I don't think this is out of the question. - I think the most likely combination is point 3. and point A. : Teruko's lying about her secret to avoid the trial heading off topic. David isn't calling her out because he wants to use it in the future to throw suspicion onto Teruko and cause havoc.

SO. Let's recap! Secrets: Teruko: "How could I even select what secret to be your motive? Just about everything you've done in your life is worth killing for. The killing game is all your fault." Received by David. Xander: "You're constantly blaming yourself for the death of your parents and siblings. It doesn't matter that it's not your fault, just that you didn't go with them." Received by Min. Rest remain the same as canon. Why can't Teruko's secret be about her family? 1. Teruko never knew her parents, and never mentions them being dead. 2. Teruko hasn't seen her brother since she was 5, and she never mentions him being dead, just adopted. 3. The wording of the secret refers to siblingS, which is plural. Teruko has only one sibling. 4. The secret fits Xander much better - His secret quote is the defintion of survivors guilt, and his bonus episode heavily implies he has survivors guilt, and it is confirmed his family died in the same bonus episode. Why is Teruko's secret about the killing game?

• The guy at the start of the prologue mentions having to kill Teruko Tawaki after talking about ending the killing game. This implies Teruko is the cause of the killing game, whether on purpose or not. Motive for lying: Teruko doesn't know which secret is hers, but she knows neither of her secrets are the ones left unrevealed. She knows somebody is lying about a secret - but she's come to the conclusion that secrets are irrelevant to the trial and murder, so she's lying about her secret to avoid everyone getting off track once again. David knows her secret, but keeps it hidden in order to use it in the future to turn everyone against Teruko and just generally cause distrust in the group. He plans to reveal it either post trial or in a future daily life. **btw, just a fun afterthought - i think either whit or charles will eventually point out the conversation regarding teruko's unbringing and how it contradicts her secret - and david will use that opportunity to reveal teruko's secret. ANDDDD that's it! feel free to correct/add on any points you'd like. this took AGES but i had so much fun!!! i love you drdt. (ESPECIALLY TERUKO.)

[lyn-ne]

askahdjhaksjjskhdkahaj i can’t find it rn so i do know if i made this up or not but my friends are bullying me (/hj) for saying that you have an epic the musical au for pjsk characters because “isn’t that just an odyssey au?” like no, they can be different

anyways i want to say i support you in your efforts/desires to but akikoha in any other media you want and no one can tell you what your au is or isn’t. i love that you are constantly inspired by everything so don’t let anyone tell you you can’t do something or that your ideas have to be different in a way that fits their ideas!

OH MY GODDD THANK YOU!!!

sometimes I feel like I’m repeating myself by putting the sillies in everything. lol. But that’s just what inspires me sometimes!!

also yes I do have an epic au!! (Two actually, lol). One is white day trio (Tsukasa - Odysseus, Akito - Eurylocus, Mizuki - Polites, etc etc) and the other is Leo/need (Ichika - Odysseus, Shiho - Eurylochus, Saki - Polites, Honami - Penelope etc etc). Also I have one that’s akikoha but I’m hesitant cause Akito isn’t very much Odysseuscore

I still need to draw it and stuff, but let me know which is better!!!!

[darlingpwease]

*taps the mic* uhh, well I just uhh well y'know I umm– >:ロ I truly never know how to respond to you most sometimes /ht ?? Really?? /neu ME?! I'm the bully?! I can't believe you!!! "heheheh" ( ° _°) ...wait, now I'm kinda questioning myself... hm (ಠ_ಠ ;) /gen /kinda confused tbh /in a neutral way tho, if that makes sense??

WHAT– darling, we can talk this out,, :'C there is just no winning with you hhhskjgfh /t /pos /hpos 😒

Karma is unfair and biased, but I try for our writebabies <//33 /hj I'm playing hot potato with it currently, but give me like a day and then I'll properly be lazing around for a whole day lmao

Although that image made me laugh, no <33 They are ours, and we will all stay here~~ <333

A waffle cake, a panna cotta, the more nicknames given the more sweets I find out about lol /t /gen /pos ?? Haven't I told you before tho??? I'm pretty sure I told you that before?? /neu

...(°ㅂ°╬) I haven't seen in that direction so you are taking and innocent person, don't you think that is unfair? >:(( I do! Unfortunately, I haven't been able to paint as much the past year, but I still draw, and I enjoy watching people paint :DD Hm,, I mean there is the painter Albert Bierstadt, I absolutely love his paintings, but I don't really have a "deep meaning" with them, they just fill me with a lot of awe and joy :)) But his paintings definitely inspired me (still do) when I was younger, and they actually encouraged me to start photography years ago lmao. The same is with Oswaldo Guayasamín, I don't really have any "deep meaning" with them, but I grew up with his paintings due to my ma's family, so I enjoy looking at his works, they remind me of family, in an odd way. mwah♡

/┬┴┬┴┤(⁄ ⁄•̀⁄_⁄├┬┴┬

/everyday I endure abuse and straight up murder by you, yet here I am... repeating the same damn process... (╥_╥) /t /nsrs

-panna cotta

yes, I know. you fall into a tremor, you make this puppy-scared face and everyone looks at you and thinks, "oh my god, get him out of here, someone give him silence, he's going to cry urgently, turn down the volume, turn down the volume" sjshhddhdhdhd sjhshsh the truth is told "the family rests on the patience of a panna cotta" /t /j ? of course, cutie~ provokes me to tease you even more hehehe~ someone is just a shy flirt, I see, although you used to be quite smooth~ are you getting old~? yes!!! you're a bully!!! constantly tormenting the poor dove!!! hooray hooray gaslighting works!!! jshshdhdhd /t /j /i get you don't worry, sweetie♡

can we???... maybe, but I only crave blood >;33333 this is a family trait on the maternal side; only my mom, me and my younger sibling possess it. fortunately, my youngest is not that good yet, but imagine the battles when she and I come together in battle if we lack the prudence to give up earlier dhdhhdhdhdh hehehe,,, kith kith<333

in my opinion, now it is more than fair and on time~ almost instantaneous~ <333 I know, dear. it remains to be seen whether you are lying down because you are conserving energy or because you are easily exhausted hwhwhhw /ht /affectionate

hooray, soon our communication will reach a point where we will share a sense of humor~ finally, you won't be able to brush me off with "we're not close enough" anymore, because even if a common sense of humor doesn't give you intimacy, then you're obviously a biorobot and I'm not sure if I want to let kids communicate with such a pamna,,,, /t /j /nsrs

dear,,,,, waffle cake,,,,,,, everyone knows waffle cake, it's practically the best thing in the world,,,,,,,,,, It's like a napoleon cake ??? I know that you love me because you continue to communicate with me, but, dear, if you love me even despite the fact that I constantly kill you, I have a question,,,,,,, many questions,,,,,,,,,, /t /hj

why are you reacting as if I'm leading you into a dark forest towards a strange hut while there's not a single living soul around pretending to be a minor and accusing you of something you're sure you're not to blame? relax, it won't hurt, you might even like it >;33333 mmm!!! how interesting... you know what I'll ask next — favorite painting / paintings by Albert Bierstadt and your first acquaintance with it / them? mwah mwah♡

/ AWWWWWW,,,, cutie cutie cute pie,,,,, little one,,,,,,,, sjdhjdhdjdhd sweetheart<//333333 mwah mwah mwah<3333333

/ well... you're just masochistic, honey — we both knew it for a long time, though, but I'll let you deny it because sometimes I have to be kind to you<3333 /t /j /nsrs

[straight-into-the-animus]

jacob the first time they have to try to comfort arno through his dysphoria: your balls are so big they put them on your chest

arno:

[kuiinncedes]

hjfhgfhghfj

[lovetals]

coming out as asexual

synopsis: you and diluc aren’t dating despite it being somewhat obvious that you like each other, yet there’s something holding you back. not wanting to stop yourself any longer, you finally come out

character: diluc

deets: fluff, he accepts you dw :), diluc is ace btw (canon) /hj

notes: hehe, happy pride month! i wasn’t planning to make this my first post/story, but i don’t mind Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ. plus, i’ve been wanting to try this idea myself since i’m also asexual!! i can’t make the ending work for me so it kinda falls flat 😓 ah, well, if i ever find a way to improve it i’ll just edit it ^^ also, diluc feels way too ooc for me, sorry about that ugh (⇀‸↼‶)

❀ it’s beginning to grow dark as diluc walks you home, a gesture he’s repeated for months. you definitely don’t mind being able to spend more time with the man with your crush on him only growing bigger and worse. once, his hand brushed against yours on accident and you let out a squeak out of surprise and happiness

❀ for so long you’ve wanted to confess to diluc, to finally have the opportunity to call him yours, but there was just too much holding you back

❀ the main one? you being asexual

❀ it wasn’t common to find someone that fit the definition, making it a rather obscure label to the public. many times you’ve met people that would reply with “what’s that?” when you would come out. the question wasn’t what annoyed you, really, it was their response after your explanation

❀ “oh, you just haven’t met the right one, yet.” “give it time, you’ll feel like that one day.” “you’re just confused.”

❀ yeah… you stopped coming out not long after

❀ it contributed towards your hesitation to come out to diluc, constantly you’d wonder how he would react. was he just like them and would pass it off as you just being confused? maybe he’ll roll his eyes and ignore you?

❀ these thoughts plagued your mind often and would even slither their way in during your time with the redhead, who noticed

❀ “(first name)? is everything alright?” he asked and stopped walking

❀ you can try and pass it off, try to brush off his worries with a few words, but you’d be mistaken to think that he’d let you go

❀ “you’re clearly not. you’ve been rather quiet as of late and don’t seem to notice what’s going on around you—i’ve been talking and not once did you chip in with a reaction like usual.” he pauses as you avoid his gaze, finding the dirt road more interesting. eventually, he says, “is it because of me?”

❀ your head shoots back up with widened eyes as you assure him otherwise. “no, no! of course no—well, actually…”

❀ it technically is because of him and you’re so focused on trying to figure out what to do that you don’t see his frown

❀ “oh? would you like to tell me why?”

❀ you stop for a minute to figure out how to say what you want to get out, but how can you as your crush stands in front of you, staring directly at you while waiting for a response

❀ fuck it, you think as you take a step back

❀ “ok, diluc, i want to say that i really like you!”

❀ he smiles

❀ “but—!”

❀ nevermind

❀ “before you reply i want you to know that i’m asexual! i don’t feel sexually attracted to anyone and i never will! i won’t sleep with anyone ever no matter what they say! and-and-“ you pause to figure out how to end it, but you don’t get to as diluc speaks up

❀ “i really like you too.”

❀ …huh?

❀ did—did you hear him correctly?

❀ diluc lets out a small smile as he approaches you and grasps both of your hands, his gloves bringing heat back to your cold hands (and making your face warm up as well heheh)

❀ “you being asexual doesn’t affect how i feel about you at all, i’m actually pleased to hear that you’re the same as i.”

❀ were you going deaf or did you actually hear diluc say he was asexual too??

❀ diluc gently squeezes your hands as he continues

❀ “you don’t ever have to worry about me pushing your boundaries or to force you into something you don’t want to do. i want you to know that whatever you feel i feel the same way.”

❀ he lets go of one hand and turns towards the direction of your house, a sign that he wants to continue walking you home

❀ “would you like to discuss more about this on the rest of the walk? i want nothing more than to make sure you’re comfortable and happy in our relationship.”

now, onto the hcs of after coming out! ( •̀ω•́ )σ

❀ diluc takes no shit from anyone that tries to tell you that you aren’t really asexual, his glare from behind you is more than enough to make them shut up

❀ if someone were to use the “you haven’t met the right one yet” line he’ll show up right behind you (with an arm over your shoulder if you said you were fine with it) and say, “are you saying that i’m not the right one for them?”

❀ diluc isn’t really one for pda in general so if this is something you don’t feel fine with then this works out! but good luck if you are someone who adores it, you won’t get them often unless someone ticks diluc off

❀ if the label is something you’re really proud of then diluc might make a drink after it, most likely naming it “ace” or something. flavor is up to you of course :)

❀ when someone tries to ask way-too personal questions about your relationship diluc shoots it down immediately. if you’ve said you want others to know about it he’ll explain that you’re ace, not letting them butt in with their own objections. if you’d rather keep private, he’ll just say that it is none of their business

❀ bonus: if ace colors are a thing in genshin or you introduce him to them he’ll remember it when buying something

❀ if he ever struggles between picking a gift for you that comes in various colors he’ll remember how you described the flag and choose the one that’s available in that shade

❀ tries to make the ace drink match the flag colors, too :)

[painless-innit-colourful]

Alright, I’m doing an appreciation post because this latest lockdown has made me realise the 🌟 positive impact 🌟 some of you have had on my life :)

(putting it under a read more this post is looong)

sidenote: also if you’re seeing this and you’ve ever left a nice comment on anything I’ve written I saved it and I love you.

Starting with the Mutuals:

@anti-kalvin-club: My first mutual, hopefully now that you’re getting into the SMP the spam from my blog isn’t as annoying? I dunno. Anyway, we met during the mcrblr renaissance (I miss it) and though it’s only been a year since we met, it feels like we’ve been friends for years. Sometimes I think of you like a big brother :) Thank you for the emo nerdery, the help with the gender, and your fantastic commentary of the Dem Debate (one of the funniest mornings of my life was waking up to the post-it note memes).

@ozzie-mandias: We’ve only spoken like once? But your blog is really cool? I remember meeting you through the MCR playlist exchange, and then we just vibed. You’re cool :)

@nixavia: Oh Nix, my weird little sibling, my streaming pal, my Texan friend who only ever seems to sleep from 5am onwards, bless you for putting up with me springing into DMs at any time of the day, either loaded with ideas or covered in paint, again XD You know how much I appreciate your friendship, but it bears repeating: DUDE YOU’RE SO COOL WITH THE ART AND THE MINECRAFT AND THE JRWI AND THE GETTING ME INTO THE DSMP, YOU GO YOU FUNKY LITTLE RANBOO KIN /hj that last part

@boxofnothingness: Hello Box! We’re still quite new friends, but your blog is just. Really. Cool, okay? I don’t really know much about you, but it always makes me smile to see you pop up in my notifs, and honestly I’m so glad you jumped in on the group pfp thing Nix roped me into. Hope to talk more in future :)

@garlic-dead: Hey Crow! I see you as the D&D cryptid mutual, and honestly I like to not look at your blog for a few days then binge the chaos in a big flurry of note spam (whoops, ‘pologies). I don’t really have anything else to say other than you’re cool and I will get to that ask you sent when I get around to actually watching Vibes of Rude Mountain (because I’m a dummy that gets excited for things and then doesn’t watch them for ages).

@pain-is-a-temporary-emotion-ii: I don’t really see you as a mutual since I know you irl, but anyway, all I’m gonna say is this: one of these days I will get you out of your darn house and on a walk with me :)))))

Okay, next up is the people I don’t think I’m mutuals with but I see you a lot and value your existence! Starting with-

@kowore: I hope you don’t mind me holding onto that ask that you sent me for a while, it made me feel really warm inside :) I don’t mind the note spam (I do that a lot myself haha), and I loved it the other night when we were vibing with the same gender thoughts lmao. I’d love to be mutuals or something, you seem really cool!

@tommy-and-tubbo: I think I tried to send an appreciative ask to you before but you’re inbox’s closed lmao. I see you in my notifs a lot and you tend to leave tags on everything, and as someone who also does that I love going through your blog and reading all of them; love hearing what people have to say. I just think you’re pretty darn cool. OH, and also you reblogged a couple bits of my writing saying nice things, which means I’ll now cling to you forever like a koala.

@universe-not-taken: YOOOOO I LIKE YOU. You’re another person constantly saying things in the tags so even when you don’t make your own posts you’re adding opinions - and I like that! Also your tags are just really, really funny and whoooo ClingDuo supremacy! I’d really like to get to know you better - you seem really cool!

And finally, couple quick </3 to @your-discs and @classyzombie. I see you two in my notifs all the time, and seeing you is like seeing the regulars at the bar. Your blogs are both great and I appreciate you hanging out :)

[ughgclden]

bee, love, don’t apologise, please, it’s okay, and first and foremost, are you alright?? i hope you’re taking care of yourself, love, but i understand, i don’t think there’s been a year since third grade that i haven’t gotten pneumonia in the winter. I hope you’re feeling alright!!

honestly, dead poets society is one of my only personality traits anymore, i find myself drawing parallels to it constantly, for no reason but i love thinking about it. i’ve watched it so many times at this point, it’s,,, concerning. those tests always take me way less time than they give me, and i used to feel really awkward, i remember i took a bio one once, four hours they gave me, 45 minutes in, i was finished, and the moderator didn’t believe me. i aced it too, like the silly little neil kinnie i am. i’ve gotten used to the ‘worse’ side of being a neil kinnie, and honestly, now that my mum isn’t as controlling about everything as she used to be, it’s easier to deal with. i remember once, i’d gotten an 89 in algebra, and she threatened to pull me out of the fall show. that was a neil perry moment if i ever had one lol. the biggest thing these days is just imposter syndrome, imposter syndrome like oh you’re not hispanic enough, but also, you’re not queer enough, nonbinary enough, things like that. It’s exacerbated some days, but i try.

i watched the it movies on my cousin’s hbo,,, i may or may not have used it without her permission since she forgot to log out of my computer, but that’s neither here nor there. i remember having such a hard time taking the first one seriously initially, because of all the new kids on the block jokes, having a mum who was obsessed with them made it hard, especially when i actually got them all- in truth, the only midnight premiere i’ve been able to make was the force awakens, and i had school the next day too. i’m definitely a richie kinnie, and i have the internalised homophobia (only towards myself though) to prove it /hj my waterbottle has both a sticker of neil on it and a sticker of the r + e carving on it. in case there was any doubt about me lmao. stan kin makes sense for you, honestly, i can see it, i can see it.

okay so listen- no really, i’d bought them with the intention of only drinking half of one that night and spreading them out like that, but then came 9:45pm, and i had a research paper (on womens’ pockets/lack thereof) due at 10am that i simply hadn’t even started, so i downed them all in an hour and got the paper turned in at 5:56 in the morning. but i scare you huh? /hj bee, you’re too sweet, in truth, i’m fairly inelegant, but i try, as for the comforting and cosy, i’ll take you at your word, since that is something only someone interacting with me could discern. i do try to be kind to others for the most part. mainly i think because i’m usually on the other end of mean people.

i’m just perceptive like that bee, i dunno what to tell you, something just tells me, you know? /j and thank you, i always feel a little silly talking about it, because most of the tattoos i want are dead poets society tattoos, i guess some part of me, within the part of me that feels so incredibly tied to it, feels as if if i were able to get a tattoo i’d owe it to the movie in some way, if that makes any sense. i’ve already begged a friend of mine to go with me to get my first once i get to new york, the question though, is what to get first. i’ve got time to make a decision (for once in my life) i just spend a lot of time thinking about it.

honestly, i have never known a school rule to make sense. banning ripped jeans? banning dyed hair? it’s almost as if if they don’t stifle everything natural about kids expressing themselves they dont feel like they’re doing anything. but i digress. the same-sex couple rules were. awful. 12 year old me had enough going on without having an administrator yell at my friend and i for hugging in the courtyard and not leaving until we were a foot apart, but hey.

okay, jumping over a fence to go to a mcdonalds? how coming of age indie movie manic pixie dream girl of you /hj

200k words, is that a challenge? also ahaha not at all like my italian uncle up there just opened a ‘pizzeria’ /hj but mob!star au? might be a project i should start… granted, i’m not as good a storyteller as you, but i can try.

when i was little, i wanted to revolutionise things, i guess. i even actually wrote out a campaign, i wonder if its still somewhere. thank you for believing in me, but these days, bee, i’m thinking less about changing the world, and more about making it the next few weeks, and then the ones after that. little star was aware of so much, but also so little. i wonder what they’d think of me now, honestly.

i did, in fact, teach archery, it was so fun but my arms got SO SORE, and the kid who challenged my archery skills seemed surprised when i actually,, hit the bullseyes. my inner susan was happy then. incidentally the experience is also why i made a playlist called “touchstarved and wanting to teach you to shoot a bow” which low-key slaps when i’m lonely. and bee omg i cannot believe you said im better than susan pevensie i will be thinking about this for the rest of my life thank you- and yes, yes it was named aslan, however did you guess? /j prince caspian<33333

i’ll let you know my results from the tournament, as soon as they come out, and i say this having just put on pjs after taking off my suit, and sitting in the room with my cat in my dear evan hansen hoodie, frantically refreshing the results page because i’m anxious and impatient.

i hope you have a good night, with fitful and restful sleep, i’m sorry this got to be so long, but you know me, i certainly can talk. i’m honestly shocked i even made it to finals, considering i was running off four hours of sleep, having gone to bed at three last night. whoops.

all my love, hugs, and a warm mug of tea,

yours,

star✨

p.s i said yes so that?? happened?? it honestly feels surreal but we’re not gonna be in the same place anymore come the end of this year, so that’ll be something to deal with

P.p.s might just start adding spanish or latin or russian phrases to these if i keep having to translate your cute french bee /lh /hj

star my love, i know you said don't apologise, but i think the word 'sorry' makes up about 60% of my vocabulary. i'm okay!! was just a bit icky, but luckily i've recovered now!!

that's so nice - and again, makes so much sense for you. i think you would work perfectly in welton, i know it. i love bringing the messages from that film into my own life, as silly as it may sound. i'm astonished, and so fucking jealous of you. i used to finish tests maybe half an hour early, but hours is so impressive??? fun fact i did finish my physics final in about 45 minutes and slept for the other hour <3 neil would b proud my love!!! oh my god - i'm so sorry that happened??? but that is also so neil kinnie??? it seems futile me saying this, but i assure you that you are hispanic enough, and queer enough, and non-binary enough. you are enough, period. more than enough even. imposter syndrome is the worst, and i'm so so sorry you're dealing with it.

she did that to herself, you just saw an opportunity /lh a midnight premiere of the force awakens sounds so cute though omg - i hope you had the absolute best time. the r + e carving actually broke me. as a die hard reddie shipper since 2017, seeing the movie make it basically canon?! had me a mess in the cinema.

you are ridiculously comforting and cosy, everything about you feels like a warm hug from a familiar face and i love it. and the way you write is so smooth, it makes me think of a quill smoothly gliding across parchment, the deep black ink unsmudged and pristine. that seems a little pretentious of me, but oh well.

i also want some dps tattoos!! i desperately want "and still we sleep" from todd's poem, and was also so so tempted to get an outline drawing of meeks + pitts dancing on the roof. i love that, and i can't wait until the day you get it, whichever one it may be. my one concern is becoming addicted to them and making my bank account suffer - at least my piercing obsession is a little easier to fund /hj

i've NEVER gotten that - they claim it's 'distracting' but how on earth would it be?? when i got to college, no one was distracted by my dyed hair, and i certainly wasn't distracted by other people's outfits or painted nails. you were yelled at. for hugging. a friend.. what the fuck is wrong with these people??

just call me ramona flowers star /j it was possibly the highlight of my school career, sans hiding in the back room of the music room to avoid a maths test

i bet you're an amazing storyteller, if these letters are anything to go by. it would be a new york times best seller, i know it

we all have to take things one step at a time, i think. that's the only way i really get through things if i'm honest. one day after another and the cycle repeats. i love wondering what young me would think of me now - i'd probably be intimidated of myself, but i like to think i'd be proud that i'm still here, pursuing something i love

that playlist. sounds nothing short of sheer perfection. i too am touch starved and want to teach someone to shoot a bow - even though i.. cannot shoot a bow... but i can wield a sword so, it's close enough.

i saw your message about the tournament results - im so fucking proud of you!!!! you deserve it so so much and i couldn't be happier for you. see, your words and ideas are changing the world, even if you don't realise it.

ps; that is so fun???? omg im so happy for you star, you deserve tis <33 i hope towards the end of this year whatever happens leaves you both happy, no matter how far the distance.

pps; omg no.. please don't do that.. aha that would be awful... definitely wouldn't make my heart race.. haha not at all

all of my love, star. pardon the pun, but you are out of this world ;) i'll leave you with one of my favourite quotes;

il n'y a qu'un bonheur dans la vie, c'est d'aimer et d'être aimé <3

[himbo-only-zone]

This is not a request, since I see that yours are closed. I just wanted to take the time to thank you, your Byakuya fics bring me a lot of comfort and happiness, i can't stop thinking about how beautiful you write Byakuya the whole day. I know you're stressed, so i hope you drink water and remember to not overwork yourself.

This was just an ask for me and your followers to take the time to recognize and admire the way you write, and how you constantly put out beautiful pieces of writing. Make sure to stay safe, hydrated and healthy 😊

hey is there a crying byakuya sprite? no? shit- /hj

But holy FUCK thank you???? Like I am incredibly soft just from that, thank you so much? I don't know how to take compliments very well so I'm probably just repeating thank you over and over again-

But yeah, I love writing Byakuya, he's my comfort character and obviously a lot of other people's. Creating content is fun, and I genuinely love sharing it with everyone. I'm so, so glad people are enjoying it.

Thank you for supporting me, I genuinely never expected myself to get over 100 followers, and have people genuinely telling me that they love my work. I appreciate it. I appreciate it so, so much. Seeing the way you guys interact is amazing, I feel special for once. I know you're probably gonna scroll past this and move on with your day, but I appreciate you.

Thank you, so so so much.

- Mod Anna