#i saw nothing on twt but i feel like smth…..smth happened

[pekodayz]

was there a splatoon challenge today or is that tomorrow

[songmingisthighs]

every time i open x (twt) i immediately get reminded why i hate that shithole

within the past 5 minutes, i saw 2 things that got me going "heh ???"

- the absolute boycot towards eric nam and dive studio bc dive studio is being funded by a company who openly support israel

- an atiny complaining about ateez's group photo teaser and calling kq cheap and saying shit like "ateez don't eat dirt anymore" (it's user hvpnosis and i decide to not like this person based on that one tweet)

i'm ranting. ignore if you don't care. and i'll be talking about the eric nam and dive studio situation in regards to their stance on palestine and israel so if you think you might get triggered or you can't objectively understand my point, just ignore this.

NOW IN MY DEFENSE, i don't know what's going on between palestine and israel like i know there's bad beef and it started bc england promised both sides gaza during world war or smth and i know civilians are being (X - X) from both sides and something about abduction or kidnapping or hostages ??? i don't follow the news and frankly the only battle i'm keeping up with is the battle going on in my head and that's hard enough to watch as it is. but from what i read about the eric nam situation is that people are boycotting him and dive studio for something they didn't even do ?? like a company who invested in dive studios did smth but apparently... it's eric nam and dive studio's fault ??? like make it make sense. and under this atiny's comment, people are like "SILENCE MEANS SUPPORTING ISRAEL" like g0rl i don't even know the shit going on in my own country but i know innocent people paying the price is BAD bad and it shouldn't have happened at all but so far i don't see eric nam or dive posting anything about palestine or israel but people took that as them supporting israel ??? like idk that whole comment section and the hate it support just made me feel uncomfortable

NEXT THAT FUCKING ATINY. I feel like this person equates ateez's success to kq expanding to a monster company WHICH IS SO NOT TRUE. kq is still a small and young company and idk this might be me, but i think kq put the money ateez made more towards paying ateez for a job well done than corporate expansion ??? and how do you think they were able to make sure their idols are thriving while still being able to make comebacks and tours ? financial planning and budgeting. as simple as that. even with investors, there's NO WAY kq could shell out $100,000 per comeback bc the way idol companies work is do your best but don't overdo because there's always a chance of failure. not to mention they have to pay not just for the set, but the photographer and videographer, editing, actors, dancers, outfit rental, collateral (on outfits bc ateez are performance monsters, shit is bound to rip), staff overtime, transport, music stage decor, and more bc those are just off the top of my head. i don't see anything wrong about the published comeback teaser photo bc in my head, i literally thought "ooo hot men" "ooo what is this concept?" but apparently people on twt think it's ugly beyond any excuses and absolute trash ??? what a way to talk about ateez. ew. and i don't see these people who complain do anything to get what they want (which they shouldn't and couldn't bc kq is not your parents who you can just call a bitch and cut contact with) like it's the same logic with fanfic writters like if you contribute nothing to a creation, don't complain. don't like it? DON'T BUY :D simple concept really

rn my manic is making me want to scream out into an abyss or smth bc W H A T T H E F U C K T W T elon musk should just shut that site

[yourbuckies]

(Sorry in advance that this is long) I just stumbled upon your post about all the recent Sebastian drama spanning from July and I just want to say thank you for being one of the few people on the internet that makes sense. I’m Asian and I wasn’t a fan of Sebastian’s (I liked Bucky, but never looked into him) when the whole girlfriend thing happened, and even then I just remember thinking "this is so fucking stupid." And even now with the whole Buddha thing, I just think it's so shallow and 1/?

damaging to respond to something so innocently-intentioned and ultimately not a big deal with the same backlash that one would with an actual hate crime or legitimate prejudice. It blurs the line of what racism actually is, it pisses people off, and it pushes them away from whatever "cause" these armchair activists are trying to support. Sure, I can see how the photo was mildly disrespectful, as someone who grew up around Buddhism. But is it worth all this outrage? Absolutely not. He didn’t 2/?

commit a hate crime, he didn’t throw around slurs, he didn’t even do anything outrageous with the statue (ie. flip it off or throw it, etc). These people are acting like he fucking killed somebody. I didnt even think "I'm offended" when I saw it, all I thought was "twitter isn't going to like this." I feel like that says a lot, honestly. I've always had such a big problem with social media activists, and this whole situation is just another example of why. These people don't care about the 3/?

issues they're relentlessly attacking people over. They just want to feel like they’re a good person and show everyone else that they're great because they care enough to make an incredibly hateful tweet in the name of a social issue. It's all so self-righteous, and the way they're doing it is unbelievably harmful in terms of actual progress for actual social issues. The whole point of activism is trying to educate people and get them on your side. Ever since social media activism, I've seen 4/?

more people than ever say they feel less and less inclined to be involved because these “activists” are actually dividing people and alienating anyone that doesn’t already think like them by being aggressive and rude and unforgiving. Especially for stuff that literally doesn’t matter, such as this whole Sebastian debacle. I wish people understood that if they’re posting stuff that only people who already agree with them would like, then there’s literally no point to what they’re doing. 5/5

i'm gonna respond to this final one cause it's mostly about what i glossed over here, when i said i fundamentally disagree with how stan/fandom approaches activism. but yes, i largely agree. i'm a woc - i've mentioned that before in an old entirely unrelated ask, but i didn't bring it up for any of this cause i generally believe that you should determine whether or not you agree with a point by the strength of my reasoning, rather than being worried you're going to be perceived as racist/sexist for disagreeing with a woc.

i think the disproportionate response is smth i'm struggling with - i think we can generally agree that even if you think he's fucked up in the past, he's done nothing to warrant a year (and possibly more, judging by the twt accounts of the ppl at the center of this) long campaign against him. it's disproportionate to put so much focus on just him when like you said, there are so many issues out there that genuinely needs attention that they don't ever look at unless it's handed to them in the form of already viral twts, so it is really hard for me to take at face value ppl presenting this out of all things as their demonstration of allyship.

and yeah, i basically had the exact same reaction to the picture. i saw it, went, oh ppl are gonna make a big deal about this, and then was kinda surprised when no one said anything for a while. the same ppl who fawned over it for hours until they were told it was problematic did a complete 180, which isn't a bad way to approach smth if you're told you're wrong, except in their case, they didn't know it was problematic so they're in the clear, but he must have posted it with full intent to offend.

and to your point about the point of social media activism, this is actually a topic i've been struggling with for the past few years. sm activism is increasingly useless because with certain exceptions where being loud is what helps best, everything is treated the exact same way. apart from literally donating money, if your approach to activism is the exact same for every single issue, which is just publicly being loud, you're not doing anything.

but i think this also comes from the way we've learned activism on social media, which largely comes in neatly packaged phrases you get in a viral posts/twts; "silence is complicity" "cultural appropriation" "your feelings are valid" "hold ppl accountable" etc. but these threads don't have space for nuance, and there's no critical thinking applied after ppl read them.

cultural appropriation originally entered the public conversation as a way for ppl to be cognizant that multiculturalism isn't a free for all. because of historical and cultural context (which varies country to country!), not everything in a different culture will be for you too. sometimes it'll only be for you if you're invited, sometimes only if you're invited by specific ppl of that community. but we've gotten to this place where cultural appropriation is now just segregationist, but woke, and you end up with stuff like this, where you actually end up hurting the group you're trying to support:

this was also a part of my issue about july - i didn't actually think what ale did was cultural appropriation. she didn't wear it in a disrespectful way, she didn't try to claim it as her own - the thing that was a microaggression was actually of the conflation of jpn/chinese cultures, but that doesn't fall neatly under the buzzword of cultural appropriation for you to explain when someone asks why you're sending this specific woman death threats!

and it's not just this issue where we're kind of going backwards. if you're in the lgbt community it's not uncommon to see theory now that borderlines on homophobic. gen z is especially obsessed with posting pronouns publicly, which originally was supposed to normalize it so it'd be easier for those that want to have them but are scared, but now they use as a shorthand for whether or not someone is a bigot. if your assumption is that everyone but bigots has a public pronoun, you're going to be forcing a lot of ppl to misgender themselves, or come out when they're not ready, all to not be deemed Problematic. glaad actually did a survey that showed 18-34 years old are becoming more uncomfortable with the lgbt community, and while it doesn't say why, i figure stuff like this doesn't help.

and it's the same when it comes to activism should be about educating/getting ppl onto your side. it's clearly not now, and just largely about your own appearances. this is a good thread about why i'm not a huge fan of the whole silence is complicity idea wrt to sm, but basically it's just this:

but at the end of the day i don't have an answer for any of this. it took us years to get to this point, and it'll probably take even longer to realize we've gone too far on issues, if there ever is a reckoning for it. i don't know if that'll ever happen fully in fandom spaces - i think ppl like the ones that started this are very aware they're using this as a cudgel; they have no problem with this behavior in their faves, and they regularly exhibit it themselves. i also think there is too much fear of being "cancelled" or at least piled on for hours having abuse hurled at you if you disagree.

anyways i could go on for a bit, but we're not solving anything today. i don't really have a neat wrap up for this either, but i hope you have a good day, anon.

[janiedean]

Is it bad that I really enjoyed reading the kinda fandom history/fanw*nk history posts abt j*nsa? XD Tbf I'm also a bit addicted to fanlore articles. XD Anyway I think in the tags of one post you mentioned j*imexs*nsa starting as an antijb thing? Would you mind elaborating on that? Sounds like an interesting, albeit bonkers, story, too.

dw I don't think it's bad I mean... we all enjoy catching up on wank we weren't part of (and my friends the things I could tell you abt spn fandom or when I was around at the sidelines for the worst rpf fic ever..) but anyway *deep breath* SURE THING LET'S SAY IT I mean....... it's not like it hasn't been years and I can talk abt it so whatevs, under the cut because reasons, also I'm saying now that a lot of this was what I deduced from circumstances and you've got to take my word for it unless someone who was around then remembers it and can confirm my impressions bc it was a lot less obvious than the j*nsa stuff

but going from the premises again:

I got a tumblr in like may 2011, read asoiaf june-july of that year, started being active on the tags around august-september 2011 so it was before S2 aired and 95% of the people that were bnfs/around then aren't on tumblr anymore/are here rarely these days so you've gotta take me at face value

in the main asoiaf bnf group there was this one jc shipper who like... I mean she's still active on twt and blocks everyone shipping jb on sight but good bc let's just say she's a piece of work not to mention that she spent months/years writing meta abt how jb was like fanfic stuff and had no book basis and how if you liked j but not c you were a misogynists which was wildly popular

I would like to add that person is basically... let's say everyone in jb fandom who ever got harassed knows exactly who I'm talking about and I'll leave it at that and was not for ship and let ship let's put it like that

so basically this person was on my dash bc I followed ppl who followed her and I saw a lot of jaimes*nsa stuff from her

in the sense that like... she was doing with it what I did with jonc/brynden back in the day when I was wanting to convince the world they were the crackship that was promised as in posting abt it/spamming it/discussing how it made canon sense/more canon sense than jb anyway and the likes, and like there was a fairly numerous amount of stuff for that ship back in the day - like before S2-3 aired jaimes*nsa had pretty high fic numbers/fanwork numbers considering that in canon they haven't interacted once

and that went hand in hand with keeping on trying to burn ground around jb before S2 aired/before they met in canon with that meta

and like... it's not like it started as an antijb thing in itself bc I'm sure that there must have been someone into it before the show aired same as there were ppl who as I was reminded lately wrote brienne/loras hatesex and so on, but the explosion which was during S1-3 (then it lost a bit of traction I think mostly bc jb exploded and sansa/tyrion happened on the show and the ppl involved kind of went more on twitter and didn't produce that much content anymore tho it still has numbers™) was also continuously fanned by person above + her followers who most likely were like... genuinely into it but again the antijb meta was around quite enough at the same time, so

also like... let's just say that back in the day I was the main t*robb ship contributor and I also wrote jb though less but jb was smaller as a fandom so I did post when the ao3 tag was at like... 30 fics or smth so I separately had my foot in both ponds and like until S3-S4 any t*robb fic where jb was the sideship would get tangentially less views/reviews than ones where they were not which in itself wouldn't be a problem bc obviously maybe ppl wouldn't ship one of them, but then there was this uuuh specific case

where someone who followed me for the t*robb who also followed her at some point asked me in private if a 22k t*robb fic that was the sequel to... my most famous/popular jb one let's put like that had a lot of jb in it because they were die hard jc people and it was triggering to them (which... I mean fair enough but in retrospective using that term instead of 'you know I really don't vibe with jb and I'd rather not read it' felt a bit like they were trying to guilt trip me ngl), I said that they showed up together in two scenes and were in the background and at most it was 1k worth of fic and the answer was that it was way too much so they were going to have to skip and like again their prerogative but idk that conversation kind of left me like is this some kind of roundabout way to say that it'd be better if I didn't sideship them? idk but until S3-4 I had the distinct feeling that at least for my own stuff having both ships together meant less readers and ngl I didn't update the infamous t*robb wip fic for a year because I was planning to make jb fairly prominent as a sideship there and I was there like 'oh god what if I get wank over it' and I didn't but again I would like to state it wasn't just because of one person, it was... the general atmosphere that seemed unfriendly unless you stayed on the jb tag/kept both separate

and I would like to add that the moment S3 happened and it sailed anyway bc it was going to was when the targeted harassing of anyone who was active on the tag started ssssso :|

basically like... I have a lot less evidence to go on re ^^^^ than the j*nsa stuff because that is well-documented the rest is my very humble opinion about the background of when j*aimesansa started getting popular but like it also was v. prominent in between jc people (same with the jcsansa threesomes) who were also following that person - I would like to also add that a bunch of ppl who shipped both were absolutely lovely and nice to interact with in other situations and not harassing anyone about it and again nothing against ppl into it as a thing but the moment of its peak was in conjuncture to the burning ground around jb moment driven by that specific person so *shrug*

[kae-karo]

I am ruined by your fics; help they are so so amazing. I saw on Twitter that there were some ficlet s inspired by prompts and I wanted to ask if you are still accepting them?

awe hi hello dear!!! that's so kind of you to say 🥺🥺🥰🥰 okay, let me try to be coherent & concise lmao

to answer your question, yes! i'm basically always accepting prompts, but a couple quick things i should mention about how i typically write (i won't say 'rules' cause it's more like guidance i guess? for anyone who sends prompts outside when i'm like 'hey send me these prompts!' specifically)

i definitely have an easier time working with a vague prompt like a ship + an au/trope or a piece of dialogue + the character that said it or a vague "what would happen if..." sort of thing. not to say I can't write for specific prompts, but that does run the risk that it might be smth I don't vibe with or don't feel inspired by, and if that does happen, it's unlikely that I'll write it (nothing against the sender or the idea, but everyone finds inspiration in different places and ways!)

obvs i've been writing genshin lately, and i'm mostly feeling inspired to write kaeya diluc tart zhongli xiao and venti, but i'm not opposed to trying some of the other genshin chars as well! (reminder that i don't write xreader stuff, just not my jam!)

these are a bunch of prompts i've done in the past for anyone who wants to send smth but isn't sure what (tropes - x, dialogue - x, x, x)

if you (or anyone) have a more specific prompt and you're not sure if i'll write it, feel free to just chat with me abt it! it can be via anon asks if you'd prefer, or dm me here or on twt

okay, all of that said - i am a tiny bit behind on writing the two prompts i do have in my inbox right now (another project came up that's a bit time sensitive so i'm trying to focus on that as much as i can), but that doesn't mean i won't write for prompts that get sent in!! like i said, prompts are basically always open, but it may just take me a minute to get around to them!

let me know if u have any other questions dear!! tysm again for the kind words and the interest!! 💜

[intergalacticpcy]

What happened on twitter

I saw a tweet showing 3 different pics of exo with girls (they were all white, for some reason that mattered) and everyone was saying in the comments how disgusted they were bc exo dares to look at white women 🙄

anyways one of the pics was chanyeol with the acqua di parma ladies when he went to Italy and had lunch with them, and everyone was like "I've never seen that pic before" and "oh not you chanyeol" and "look at the caption" (it said lunch time with pcy) I didn't know why that was a problem and I saw some comments like "I think it's bc they're white" like ???

an the problem was that one of my friends asked what was wrong with pcy's pic and I answered her sarcastically that it was scandalous bacause he apparently likes to hang out with white ladies for fun (yes I used the word scandalous) my friend knew perfectly that I was joking, we both know where that pic is from

and the next morning I found people calling me out on spreading rumors and malicious comments against him and even someone told me they took ss of my comment to send it to sm and sue me like ??? People really can't read sarcasm for shit on twt

I saw that they were all friends and one saw it from another one of them and so on, my friend defended me bc she understood the joke and later they were like nothing, but it triggered my anxiety like if it was because of something I really said ok I endure it but they twisted my words and I'm too sensitive and I don't like fighting, I ended up deleting my tweet and going private, it really made me so anxious

Thank you for asking and I'm sorry for the long rant but I feel like if I tell someone I might feel less anxious, I know it seems like something small not to worry about but it really made me feel like I badmouthed him or smth and ffs he's my fav, maybe my humor crosses the line sometimes idk

[transrightsjimin]

i dont like to talk abt this much bc itll make me feel sad but i feel bad abt not remembering much of the concert itself but rather more all the interactions w other fans that i had and just everything happening that wasnt the concert itself. i had the same thing as w the two previous bts concerts i attended where i did think it was super good and laughed and nearly cried when thinking abt how much i love and will miss them but also most of the time i was, even while smiling, just thinking so much abt my depression and wishing i would feel MORE like just nothing ever feels real nd i hate it! i especially had that feeling this concert bc the members were so far away. i could finally see their entire bodies rather than sometimes the top of a head like at the previous two concerts, but they were still too far away to make out their features well so it took a few seconds to recognize e.g. who was standing at the front or w his back to us or smth and i had to look at the screens more which was nicely filmed (w cameras sometimes switching late to a member but thats all) but that wasnt the REAL them abd i wanted to look at that and just. man at every concert i attended thus far i just couldnt see shit in one way or another. maybe i saw them the best at the first concert. i mean i saw them the best at the interview and lottery thingy at kcon paris where i won the lottery and honestly? i think that kind of ruined my experience to some extent. i hate fans who want to seek only attention (or as annoying twt ppl call it, "wanting to be y/n") but i am a super needy person nd this fan interaction has given me unrealistic expectations and they were so CLOSE and VISIBLE the first time i saw them snd that just wasnt the case in the concerts like. they were there and i was there but it didnt seem to be in the same place nor irl. and time passed so fast in the paris concert! the amsterdam one seemed to take ages but that was bc i was dead exhausted but at bts stade de france the 3 hours seemed to pass within an hour and it was just so fast and i didnt know mikrokosmos was the final somg so i was li e wait why are they bowing?? nd i wanted to cry so bad, maybe crying wouldve made me feel more alive. i just want to feel alive and i guess i want bts to give me that feeling and they do, but when im at their amazing concerts i can only think abt how depressed i am and how much my depression ruins everything and fuck im crying. i truly had an amazing trip and the concert was great, i just wished i truly FELT it was great! maybe im just also remembering mainly the bad stuff bc of depression. and i filmed so much of the concert so i could look back at it again and while i did try to look at them irl at the same time, it was hard to balance my phone and army bomb and flag and watch them irl and on their screens and the fans and just. i didnt know where to look and i could only see them well on the big screens. man fuck depression. my new therapist recommended me mindfulness apps and first i thought oh god and i still dont truly understand the floaty(?) abstract concept that no one seems to b able to reply but shes right, it would help me a lot to just be able to focus on one thing only and live more in the moment. it's just hard when youre depressed and autistic and stressed / anxious and very likely have adhd. man i needed this good cry. i want to see bts again and again and again. i want to go back. i wish i went for two days. i wish it wasnt windy so jungkook could fly in the air towards us and bts could jump on the bouncy castle. i wish we managed to do the two singing fan projects. i wish i wasnt so fucking sad while seeing my favourite boys in the world.

[howlnikiforov]

As touch deprived as I am, I feel like I can’t really get the intimacy I crave bc I’m so deprived of it. Like idek, I don’t remember the last time I properly hugged someone and what that felt like. I nearly cried bc someone touched my back and the touch was so gentle and caring and ???? Honestly, I know friends are supposed to like help you, but mine don’t. And I have different intimacy standards with friends versus partners. I’d be way more intimate with my partner than I’d ever be with a friend. And like, my friends don’t understand anything I say I feel like, which hurts because I take the time to listen to them and understand them. And honestly I feel like crying bc there’s just so many things wrong with what’s around me and nothing can change until I move out to college and even then I’ll be surrounded by fairly toxic family members and I just. I want to change my life but I’m not in a place where I can change it and it just sucks bc it hurts. It actually physically hurts. I need a hug, I need intimacy, I need to be understood. Yknow, my friends call me a stalker bc I let myself loose in kpop. Bc I use kpop as my safety net, as my safe space. and I saw some things on twt abt a sasaeng who’s popped up and it made me realize they’re inadvertently calling me a sasaeng and that hurts. People at school call me a koreaboo bc I’m the president of the Korean Arts and language club at my school. I literally started the club bc I wanted to get those kboos and educate them and prevent any further koreaboo things, not to be called one. It hurts guys. It hurts so much. And I can’t even fully immerse myself into kpop bc just watching those vids hurts bc it’s just a reminder of how painful things are. As much as I love them, for every second of happiness I get, somehow I’ll end up with a minute of sadness be it from the actual video or smth happening in my life or just my overactive brain. Idek anymore

[fluffi]

so should i reply in tiny font or just regular font?

hybe should do better in spreading out the comebacks of the groups under them :/ they're already at a huge advantage, might as well use it strategically. AHA streaming mvs is so convenient for a multi. the filler vids i could use in between could be mvs from the other groups that i stan. also you know what, i still haven't watched a single final performance bc im waiting for a friend to watch with me :D

i have a chinese movie recommendation in case you want something to cry over. i still love its ost and it's been months since i watched it. i'm not sure if you watched it already but more than blue. i've never cried over a movie as much as i cried for that one. the angst *chef's kiss*. i'd do anything to wipe my memory of it and watch it again for the first time.

also sungchan is mc-ing in inkigayo every sunday! and honestly, what the hell is nct hollywood :D but a part of me thinks it's just going to be a bunch of asians living in america like johnny that'll be a part of it. just a hunch tho. imagine having all 4 units coming back in a year with like 1 unit per quarter of the year. i'm not sure if sm even has the money to do this, especially when they filed bankruptcy recently.

and i've seen a lot of twitter memes saying taro's ghosted stans T_T alexa play ghosting by txt T_T sm come on give him smth to do, you're wasting talent.

the mall didn't burn down entirely (like from the outside it looked fine). the ventilation system caught fire so it was more internal—ceilings and all that. covered things with soot(?) and ashes so the entire mall was closed for nearly 2 years. and hey, i've experienced a school fire too back when i was younger. i, too, thought it was nothing but a fire drill until i saw the charred remains of the buildings behind our school : D thankfully, no one died.

the new nct track is for a samsung commercial AHAHA it's funny because nearly everyone uses apple TT_TT and the mv screams neo culture tech tho (well as it should lmao). yes, i was talking about that part in hot sauce but yes, it grew on me too.

ateez really know how to do a performance. they put the standard so high for me when it came to performing. their facial expressions and overall stage presence just impresses me. it's been a while since i've seen idols draw me to them by those standards.

ah, the long stan list! good luck in getting through it and i hope you do have fun as you go :] (also you can check out aurora by ateez and whiplash by tbz. the songs popped up in my head as i was typing this reply, you might like them)

ohhhh, what was the pd48 scandal? i don't watch survival shows so i don't know any of the stuff going on. would you care to elaborate? about their disbandment :(( i hope you're okay now tho! are the other girls still debuting in new groups? anyone eyeing an acting career instead of being an idol?

YES, A PATTERN IN THE BIASES (if you count an analysis of two ppl as a pattern, that is.) because it's the same pattern i have for my biaswreckers :D jake & seungmin, not only do they have the same animal to represent them, they have the same 'golden retriever' type of personality that just makes you go all soft. ygwim ;n; i wish i could elaborate but both boys just devastate me in the same level and my friends pointed out that they were quite similar in some aspects.

jaemin used to send really long bbl messages :< like if there was anything he loved most it was nctzens and it was obv in his messages. speaking of dream, album repackage news today! idk what to feel bc my hot sauce albums haven't even arrived yet :D + i'm dead br0ke.

how do you even manage to read 30k TT__TT i cant handle long fics bc of my attention span :D also, yes, i found the user now, i'll check if i'll like their works soon. <33

YES YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THERE T_T what a day that was. i think seungmin is still sweet and active in bbl. not a single cent goes to waste with him. also i think i'll post the drabble some time this month.

and oml seungmin vs jake :o let's see how that goes O.O XDD

clickity-clackity AHAH do you have a mechanical keyboard? :c i wanted one too but i haven't got around to saving up for one. but yes indeed, typing asmr v relaxing \m/

sunny hyuck day, fullsun sunday, fullsunday T_T feels were very strong that day. i kept seeing edits on my twt tl and i would just s o b : D i've only stanned nct for a year but i've seen him grow so much i just wanted to crie i love him sm :') yk my mom didn't cook spaghetti for my birthday, but she cooked for hyuck's? : D

and i checked ur recs blog and indeed, full of nct T_T

also have i mentioned that your desktop thing amuses me so much HAHAH i got confused for a sec if i had twt opened or tumblr. plus, i've been wanting to mention that i noticed that our mobile themes are opposites. black and red, white and blue. it's cute XDD <3

help, people have been telling me that our asks are long but i highkey love it. i added a ‘keep reading’ for the mobile users though, sorry in advance hh.

honestly, both works. tiny font saves space but regular font does more justice for my poor eyes haha. its your call!

hybe comebacks :( yeah enhypen got lucky because they came back right before cb season so they got three wins (yay)! on the bright side, txt just got their first win and bts has six wins, so it all works out i guess. omg yes, the streaming thing is perfect. i stan like 20 groups so i have a never-ending cycle of filler mvs and its always so helpful. ooh for the final performances - you wont regret watching any of them! literally wild, kingdom's budget and talent are wild.

ooh, I don't watch any cdramas lmao. i want to but i can barely finish kdramas. if its a movie ill watch it! ive never heard of more than blue but ill check it out <3 where can i watch it?

yes yes i have just realized that sungchan is yujin's co-mc! i watched their special stage (which is literally adorable) and was today years old when i realized that the dude is sungchan pls. nct hollywood was so unexpected and i still have mixed feelings about it now. LMAO JUST ASIANS LIVING IN AMERICA...help. that would be interesting (?) but the concept reminds me of those horrendous awesomeness tv shows. lets hope sm pulls this off well and proves me wrong. lmao all 4 units coming back would probably happen, but i hope none of them get overworked :( i constantly feel like mork lee has four clones :'( also...sm filed bankcruptcy??? dang, what happened?

ugh omg yeah shotaros talent is seriously being wasted in the basement right now. as for fires, scary T-T i wasnt that fazed by them until the australia wildfires happened, and i learned about the consequences of fire and got really scared. its good that the entire mall didnt burn down though! although its weird that no one is opening it :( schools really need to tell us the difference between drills though, it might be dangerous for those rebellious kids.

yeah i just realized that the nct track is an endorsement which partly explains why i cant listen to it. the mv's visuals are stunning!! the set and people are so gorgeous aa i cant

oh yeah im not an atiny but i have acknowledged since 2020 that they have one of the best, if not the best stage presence and expressions on stage for 4th gen. i think their only worthy competitor would be stray kids actually. theyre truly one of a kind and all of them are cute especially that yeosang guy. i will definitely check out your song recommendations though!

oof the pd48 scandal is extremely complicated. to condense it in a few statements: all of the girls' rankings have been rigged since the very beginning and it was rumored that they already had their end group before the show even started. it was like this for pf48 and pdx101 (group x1) which was why x1 disbanded within a month of debuting, and izone were on hiatus for like 4 months. im not the best at explaining stuff like this haha, but i think you get it. you can check out yt or search up 'pd48 scandal', a ton of articles and videos. as for new groups, nothing has been made clear yet. theyve only made instagram handles for now and appeared on variety shows haha. as for acting career, hyewon was supposed to do acting but was forced to join pd48 so maybe she'll continue acting afterwards? nothing is confirmed yet!

lmao two similarities, its okay it counts. ah, true, i can see their similarities now that youve mentioned it, as well as how jeno is kind of like that. however, i am currently attached to jaemin so we'll see what happens from there hehe. i swerve easily.

jaemin on bubble grr, that would be a whole experience. from the bare minimum of vidoes ive seen for him wbk jaemin is so whipped for czennies. ah yes repackage! i saw the post on instagram and went to the comments to see everything screaming ‘iM bROke!’ and it was lowkey hilarious lmao. kpop is really trying to suck our money T-T.

ope the longest fic ive read is like...40k words i think? and it was by jeonginks. ill read anything eiko produces lmao, theres always so much substance in her work. ooh, tell me what you think of luvdsc’s stuff, i just finished binging their entire masterlist lmao.

seungmin vs jake yeah, i havent been catching up on skz enha content because im still obsessing over the dreamies but when that saga is over then im going to focus on my ults lmao (which might include dream soon, hehe).

yes yes i have a mechanical bluetooth keyboard that i use to connect to my computer! it literally sounds amazing lmao, its only 10am here but i feel like im going to doze off from the clickity clackitys already. i cant wait for you to get one! tell me when you do, we can match hehe.

hyuck is an aodrable brat please. hes like the best comedian of nct at this point, so hilarious and filled with variety i love him. he rose up my bias list pretty fast too. LMAO YOUR MOM IS SO COOL I LOVE HER ALREADY. if only my mom would cook for my ults’ borndays.

yes my rec blog is a mess right now, ill organize it soon haha.

omg thank you and yes my website theme is one-of-a-kind. even i get confused when i open it or edit it, and i constantly get comments about it. also i just realized our opposing theme colors and i love it! its adorable.