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daboyau · 3 months

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I got an idea when looking at this post by @tangledinink. I couldn’t rest until I’d jotted it down. The art possessed me like an evil spirit. warnings for body horror, vomiting, general fuckery. 💚

what probably happened directly before Leo found himself in this situation:

Leo: Fairies? No way those sparkly little assholes are real.

The fae who happened to be within earshot: and i took that personally.

Anyway, here we gooooo:

Leo opens his mouth to scream, but the sound won’t come out. He gags on the feeling of it catching inside his throat, and then again when the trapped scream begins to grow thorns. It scrapes its way up, and he claws desperately at his throat, trying to tear the feeling out, falling to his knees as he gags around the forced silence.

The threat of suffocation is enough to tear his attention, however briefly, away from the horror of what is happening to his shell. His body is changing itself on the urging of some other thing’s whims, and even though his nerves didn’t seem to get the memo that a dissolving shell (you know, the thing that most of his internal organs and, like, half of his bones need to stay inside his body?) should probably hurt a lot, he can still feel it.

He retches as the first flower falls from his lips. It hits the ground with a disgustingly wet sound, coated with bile and saliva. It shines wetly, rich orange hues standing out brightly against the black soil. The rest follow shortly after, a painful deluge of familiar colors, and he’s helpless to do anything but dig his fingers deep into the rich soil and try not to let the horrific impossibility of the situation drive him crazy. Tears flow freely, staining his cheeks before they fall to the ground below, greedily absorbed by the cursed earth of this place.

“Oh, dear,” a voice says, too close for him not to have noticed their presence. He tries to jerk back, but he can’t pull his fingers from the dirt. It hurts when he tries. A high pitched whine escapes his throat, but he’s too terrified to be embarrassed by that. The voice shushes him, soothes him, and warm fingers wrap tight around the back of his neck. They come to rest just above where the lip of his shell should be. He sobs at the way his back squirms as heat shoots down his spine and something begins to grow. The furred fingers drag like velvet against his scales as they squeeze, the sharp prick of claws threatening to break skin, and then release him just as suddenly.

“So much sorrow and pain. And, oh, so many regrets,” the thing says as she circles him, humming a tune that makes his head pound in rhythm with his racing heart. His hands have sunk beneath the black soil, and it has begun licking greedily at his wrists as well. He can feel tendrils of something wet and cold winding themselves around his fingers, and he wants to scream again, but the bursts of bile-soaked colors decorating the ground keep him from opening his mouth. He can feel a petal still clinging to his bottom lip, and when the thing kneels before him, she reaches out to pluck it off, unbothered by the way he shrinks as far away from her touch as he can manage.

She slips it between her lips, and he catches a flash of a blackened tongue as it darts out to meet that single purple petal. Her teeth are sharp when she smiles at him. They hadn’t been sharp, when she’d first approached him in the Hidden City. Nothing about her had been.

In the dim lights of the underground world he and his brothers had only recently begun to explore, she had looked soft. He’d seen her approaching, and the first thought to flit through his head was, aw, bunny. A fluffy, rounded face. Big eyes, dark and deep as a still pond as they reflected the flickering neon of a sign in the shop window behind him. A pink nose had twitched when she’d smiled at him, sweet and kind, and asked him for his name.

(What had he told her?)

Now, she would be unrecognizable, if not for the same strawberry patterned dress that drapes over her stretched out frame. He’d think to compare her to a hare now, but the hares he’d seen when watching Animal Planet with mikey had never looked like they would take delight in tearing his nails off one by one or plucking out his eyeballs. They had never made his vision swim or his body shake when he’d looked at them. Maybe she’s become more of a wolf.

The soil has reached his elbows. Those cool, slimy tendrils have circled his wrists like shackles. They’re squeezing tighter and tighter, and he feels his fingers throb and tingle as circulation is cut off.

His mind flashes briefly to raph and how he used to tell them not to wear rubber bands on their wrists, convinced that their hands would fall right off if they got squeezed too tight. He wonders if the things that live beneath the dirt will steal what they’ve claimed, just like she’s stollen his shell. Another sound wants to bubble up his throat at the thought, and he lets it, because what use is a swordsman without his hands?

The hysterical giggles escape as big, iridescent bubbles. They glitter pink and blue and leave a bitter taste on his tongue. They only float a few feet into the air before they fall back to the ground, their attempt to flee the horror of this situation not getting too far at all. Soft green grass rises up from the dirt to catch them, but they do not pop. They rest, suspended on those tiny blades, for far longer than any bubble he’s ever blown before. He watches, transfixed, as his laughter is eventually swallowed by green. It begins to spread.

A hand cradles his chin, and his gaze jerks back to the thing that brought him here. She is watching him intently, eyes darting to take in every tiny change in his expression. She looks curious, in the same way that donnie does when he’s thinking about all the ways he can take something apart, and what he can do with those pieces to create something better.

Her hand is soft where it touches him. She is gentle as she wipes a cloth across his mouth. It feels like water, soothing and cool, and he finds himself leaning into this tiny offer of comfort among the stomach churning violation of what is being done to him. His eyes flutter, and he distantly registers that the face she wears seems to swim before his eyes with each rapid blink, shifting back and forth between bunny and wolf and something other. She looks like she wants to devour him whole, no matter which face she wears.

From this close, he can see the way her eyes sparkle and dance when she smiles. He can’t help but think that maybe being swallowed whole wouldn’t be such a bad way to go, after all.

The writhing shackles around his wrists tighten.

She laughs, breathy and soft, and the sound is layered and beautiful like wind chimes. It conjures a hurricane inside his mind. Her cool breath gusts over his face. It smells like churned dirt and funeral flowers and pustulous rot. He doesn’t know if he wants to gag or breathe deeper.

“Little blossom,” she croons, cupping both his cheeks, dragging their faces close. He doesn’t resist. She giggles, and she drags those soft hands and those sharp claws down his neck and over his shoulders, fingertips bumping against the disgustinghorriblewrongparasitetumor gathering of delicate buds that have sprouted up all across his back. She pinches one between the pads of her fingers, and he wants to screamcrybeghertostoppushherawaycutherdownandtearthemalloutbytheroots be good for her.

“Little blossom,” she says again, and those dark eyes catch his gaze and hold it as a heavy feeling settles against his skin, across his shoulders, around his neck, and he can’t look away no matter how desperately he tries. But he doesn’t want to try. Her smile stretches wider, wider, and for one brief flicker of a second he can see blood on her teeth as she asks, “Do you believe now?”

(Side note just for fun. The flowers that appear in this but aren’t actually described or named are:

Orange marigold, for grief and despair

Purple hyacinth, for sorrow and asking for forgiveness

Red cyclamen, for goodbye and resignation

Yellow zinnia, for missing a friend and remembrance

Bluebells, for gratitude and everlasting love

#Rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #faeries #rottmnt leo #body horror #Sorry sorry sorry #i checked your faq and it said you were cool with fanworks about your stuff and i didn’t want to clog your ask box so i’m just posting this #Lmk if you want me to get rid of it or anything #That picture (you know the one YOU KNOW THE ONE) grabbed me by the throat and made me write this though #Its all dark while the actual art is so light and adorable #Whoops #also fun fact blue bells are also known as fairy flowers and are said to call the fae to their revelries #I thought it was fitting that that would be leo’s flower even though nothing is ever mentioned by name in the actual writing lol #I wanted there to be a flower for splinter too but i wasn’t really sure what his signature color would be so #Shrugs #I am playing loose and fast with flower language #But its all based on like two hours of research to find the perfect ones at 3am lol #Bc again this idea would Not Let Me Go #Which is nice actually bc i’ve been in a slump so getting possessed by an idea was refreshing actually #ok shutting up now #Hope you like it #Bye now #Wait i have to come back to say that i am so so so excited to see where tangledinink is taking things #It is going to be so amazing and i am ready to cry #I love this sort of thing so so much

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gumy-shark · 2 months

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Do you ever think about the Ritsu confession arc fight from Shigeo's perspective. I read a very good post a while ago suggesting what Shigeo was trying to do was check Ritsus head for injuries and I've never been the same. Do you ever think about it. I do all the time. Mobs screaming that he's a monster and to step away from that Thing. Do you ever think about it. Do You Ever Think About It. <- is normal. <- is lying. Is not normal. (Sorry this is incoherent. I am rattled by uh. Current events. Gestures. Anyway

it’s the only confession arc confrontation where there’s not really any hostility at all from shigeo. which is just. wow!!

first he immobilizes ritsu. i’m honestly not sure where i stand on the “shigeo was checking ritsu’s head for injuries” stance (although it is awesome), but i do 100% believe that whatever i think he was doing, it wasn’t aggressive. (however i will say that i also believe ritsu Would have been badly hurt if he hadn’t hit his 100%- shigeo’s power output was extremely high and considering his steps were CRACKING THE CONCRETE i don’t think having him touch your head while leaking that much power is very safe)

and then the bouquet man. ritsu attacks the bouquet- teru tried this and shigeo damn near killed him. what did ???% do? launch him in the air (and cushion his landing presumably since ritsu wasn’t hurt afterwards).

and ritsu being the first outside person to see and outwardly affirm ???% as a part of the brother he loves? incredible.

(AND MOB YELLING TO GET AWAY FROM THAT THING. THE MONSTER. BUT THE THING AND THE MONSTER ARE JUST. HIM. SHIGEO BECAME SOMETHING TO BE FEARED ONLY BECAUSE HE FEARED HIMSELF)

#ask!!#skye!!#mp100 spoilers #the kagebros man.#also i love that it didn’t fix their issues!!#but ritsu acknowledges their trauma #in the big cleanup arc ritsu struggled as he realized he wasn’t known or understood by anyone even himself #and that equipped him to realize that shigeo was going through a similar struggle #ritsu DIDNT understand shigeo!! he thought the explosion came from being rejected by tsubomi!!#but there on the bridge he goes 100% and says. im ready to understand. whenever you’re ready i’m here and i want to know you #and just. RAGHHHHHH

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