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#i’d cry losing all that
streetslost · 1 year
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📱- when you’re so desensitized to tumblr fuckery at this point and also there’s a deep part of you that hopes the site nukes itself because that’ll be the only way i’m free
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fumifooms · 4 months
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I think you made me start shipping Marchil
Your posts got me thinking about their dynamic then I wrote a fic that was supposed to be platonic but midway through I realized it could actually be interpreted as romantic too and now I'm just sad about how little time they'll have together
First of all, you have a lovely icon, second, I’m so honored… I finally read Not a bad way to go and it was soo so good like. My god!!! Pre-canon is underused and you did so many interesting things with it.
It sounded like a cruel joke, that the one who needed her concern the most was also the one least interested in it.
^^^ go read it go read it
Chilchuck was drunk enough that he needed to hold onto the walls not to fall, but apparently still sober enough to remember emotional vulnerability was his worst enemy, as he made sure to avert her eyes and said: “Namari made me come talk to you ” to make it clear he wasn't being nice voluntarily.
Yeah.
“Of course I'm scared of dying.” He scoffed. Did she really think so little of him? “But if I could choose, I would want to die doing something I love, like drinking. Or maybe fucking,”
Maybe you wish you didn’t know but my new favorite HC because of this is that Chil dies yes prematurely not of liver failure though but during coitus. Especially if marchil, the thought of him busting a nut and his heart giving out makes me laugh so hard. My god. Lmao. Oh god. Lmfao. Worst day of her life
Marcille knew Chilchuck wasn't a kid, but she often struggled to take him seriously as an adult because he was just so adorable and small. In this moment, however, she saw them exactly for what they were, even if it was just a glimpse. A sheltered, naive little girl trying to tell a tired, much more experienced man how to live the rest of his life.
Standing ovation
She tried to find an explanation to give him, but she couldn't even find one for herself. Why would she miss him? He was just Chilchuck, her coworker, Chilchuck who was cold, aloof, sometimes crass, evasive, and even outright mean. He who was level headed, reliable, trustworthy, perceptive and clever. He who had the least time left, even in a best case scenario. “I guess that despite your best efforts, there's still a lot to like about you.”
This fic goes so hard, standing ovation pt 2
“I just think it's better if we don't get too close. Don't you agree?” “I… maybe” she said, uncertain as he didn't know how to feel about that. Caring about people would only hurt her in the wrong run, she knew that, but unfortunately she couldn't help it.
I looove how they can be read to be similar on this aspect. My hand clenching around my phone as I rear up to rant about Marcille and the way she does keep people at an arm’s length subconsciously again my god my goood. Obsessed with this obsessed with this, underused for marchil. Terrified of loss through death vs rejection duo I love youuu
Brilliant ending I’m in shambles. I’m not gonna spoil it
You get marchil so much you truly do. The way they mesh, the way their views on mortality clash and both soothe & bruise… He doesn’t have much time left even in best case scenario (which Mr I won’t eat well I’ll drink and smoke a lot I’ll stress all day every day is determined to not make happen) which makes it all the more meaningful for Marcille’s arc when she learns from him to finally enjoy the present moments… It’ll only be a fraction of her life, but to him he’s giving her the rest of his life. What are some decades of love worth? Worth it, surely, if nothing else
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suashii · 11 months
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i quite often think about rin and i as underwear models. a little duo campaign with tastefully sexy photos of us laying on each other and what not
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cazluvsu · 15 hours
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hope both these teams lose tn 🙏🙏
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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months
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about to be sooo nosy so. my apologies. but. morgan frost? girlfriend? do share (or don’t! again this is so nosy i’m sorry)
for legal purposes i can neither confirm nor deny anything about morgan and his girlfriend but afaik i think he’s single right now? at one point (within the past four years 😭) he did for sure have a girlfriend and that is the extent of my wag knowledge
#anon PLEASE i am the nosiest person in the world i understand i want to know everything. ever. however#because i have no evidence and don’t want to spread unfounded rumors i will state for the jury i am not a gossip blog#& anything i say should be taken with a grain of salt. or a vsco deep dive & also maybe a dig into the flyers media archives. wrt UNfounded#but i will gossip in your dms because it’s a vital method of communication and important for community building.#also i’m like 95% sure i just osmosed the fact that morgan and his girlfriend broke up sometime earlier in the hockey season from someone#else (probably flyerskay) and accepted it at face value like absolutely i’d trust kay with my life. she would never lie to me and therefore#i can’t be lying to you. i can’t remember morgan’s gf’s name tho but i can like. vividly remember her artsy possessive vsco photos 😭 help#that man posts more about tom petty than he does anyone else in his life besides joel so really how would we know if hes posted her less#the answer is we wouldn’t and i want to say her name is katie SO bad but i know that’s tyson’s gf it’s like. victoria or stacie or somethin#& i want to see if SHE deleted all her vsco pictures of him bc that’s how we’d know they broke up. frosty stop following so many girls#i want to try and find her and see (she’s a model and she was public and had her vsco linked so all of this is public info btw.)#ANON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA OANDJRIWNDHOWHDB IT IS 1:38 AM AND I HAVE JUST MANAGED. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD ANON HOLD ON#BUCKLE YOURSELF THE FUCK IN FOR AN ANSWER YOU DID NOT ASK FOR BECAUSE THIS IS A R I D E AND I NEED TO YELL ABOUT IT I CAN’T MY GOD I CANNOT#B R E A T H E i’m about to start crying again but the backstory is that. i have had a fic that i have been working on for literal years.#my version history says March 15 2021 and it started in my notes app about 3000 words before that and it’s based off of a tweet i thought#calla had quoted and just said ‘Joel’ about but in my notes i never#saved the actual tweet and many times throughout the years i have gone back and advanced searched every version of joel and joelle and bee#and behavior on calla’s blog that i could possibly think of and just assumed like. it must’ve gotten deleted or the account suspended and i#could never remember the wording well enough to just google it but believe me i tried and put in every variation. never found it in 4 years#i try periodically. fast forward to about twenty minutes ago i am looking through kay’s twitter and searching vsco because i SWEAR she has#the picture of frosty’s gf’s fingernail marks in the back of frosty’s shoulders i am talking about / I can’t find her vsco linked anywhere#but i’m like ok. search up a couple other things and think about who might have it and on a WHIM look up vsco in ash notthequiettype’s acct#no results okay whatever i think about what else could maybe pull it up for me so I have SOMETHING for you. I search frosty. I scroll. GUES#WHAT I FUCKING FIND FROM NOVEMBER 13TH 2020 it is THE FANTASTIC TWEET THAT SPAWNED 16K OF NOTES & FIC & A SPREADSHEET OF JOEL’S CLASSES#AND I NEVER WOULD’VE FOUND IT AGAIN IF NOT FOR THIS!!! LOSING IT!!! by it I mean my mind and my sleep schedule!!! it’s 2AM now good night!!#liv in the replies#morgan frost#philadephia flyers
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drivemysoul · 2 months
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idk i just kind of regret every choice ive made in the last 2 years
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people begging me to do something to make a certain someone happy aren’t taking into account that i hate this person and i will revel in the knowledge that i kept them from getting the most perfect version of what they wanted. in fact i hope they mourn the loss of this for the rest of their life and die unhappy about it
#i wish i could do worse. i wish i could go through and ruin everything i ended up giving them (all against my wishes) and i wish#i could ruin everything they love because god do i hate them and i will laugh when they finally fucking die#i have no idea why everyone glosses over all the shit this person has done to us and all the pain they’ve caused and i can’t fathom why#everyone wants to make them happy and why they’re willing to beg and bribe for me (and one other person who also hates them) to#give in but it is amusing and i hope they all fucking cry about it like oh nooo did poor [REDACTED] not get something they will never#get another chance to have ? oh well that sucks so bad for them i’m oh so sorry i caused that i can’t believe i managed to ruin their#chances for this how awful that this person i hate who has done and gotten away with so many horrible things didn’t get their perfect#little fantasy how sad we should all comfort them and call me a bitch who has no respect for anyone#god sometimes i wish i gave into violence more in the past bc i wish i got to fucking beat their ass up back when it would be self-defense#unforch i will never get to now. SAD!#i suppose i have murder fantasies and the thought of being able to ruin their funeral to soothe my soul#and the knowledge that i could make them fucking hurt by refusing to cooperate w them#and ough every time an opportunity presents itself for me to fucking take back what they took from me arises i have to fight myself#on it bc everyone will know it was me. i don’t even want what they have i just want them to know they will never get it back and#god it would upset them so much but they never should have had it in the first place ough if i get the chance before i ditch everyone here#for good i’d want to take it and stick around just long enough to hear how much they’ll cry about it before i fuck off#unforch i would need to know where all of their copies of things are but fuck i hate knowing they’ve taken so much from me bc i didn’t#get a fucking choice and they think they have to right to keep it all bc oh it makes them so happy they love having it they’re so fucking#afraid of losing it but it’d be so easy and i doubt they’d even notice for a while and i genuinely could disguise it as a mistake something#got misplaced some files corrupted etc etc but whatever this is fantasy a sweet little daydream of mine my second fantasy involving#them has smth to do with setting their house on fire and my third fantasy is desecrating their grave when the time comes#okay i’m done w this lalalalalala *skips off into the distance* i think revenge is not productive but god is it delicious to think about
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I watched Scrubs for the first time in college, when I knew nothing about hospital culture or the weight of working in medicine. I liked it, I laughed, I cried, but I didn’t fully get it.
I’m rewatching it on the other side of the covid pandemic and three and half years of nursing later. Now it’s like therapy. It may lean more towards satire and be pretty silly at times, but it captures hospital dynamics and the emotionality and trauma of working in healthcare in a way that makes me feel seen.
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daincrediblegg · 1 year
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Shy-ish anon from before here ! Was skimming thru some posts I missed in ur Lady Terror tag and saw those gorgeous dresses (I’m literally so jealous of anyone who had worn them when they were in fashion ough they’re so elegant 💕💕) plus the sim u made of her which inspired me to draw her in one of those outfits (and maybe her in her junior ice master uniform who knows lolol😏)
With that being said u can expect to see some art from me p soon !! V excited ajfkskfksk >_<
HEY NONNIE WANT TO SEE HOW HARD I CAN CRY???!
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No but for real holy SHIT????? oh my goodness I’m so hype??? WHAT???? dreams really do come true and people WANT to draw my oc and get invested in her even though I haven’t done anything (except a 50 page doc with all the important dialogue)????? YO!!!!
… how can I not return the favor??? By including some more caps of her I’ve been hoarding? You know, for reference 😉
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forestofmemories · 1 year
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i know the most uh. let’s say important matches are satoshi vs gladio and satoshi vs kukui but to be honest my fav matches aside from those are suiren vs mao and kaki vs maamane, they never fail to make me cry
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bilestat · 11 months
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LIVE ACTION ZELDA MOVIE????????
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pissfizz · 1 year
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It’s college application season and I have no idea what to do or what’s going on where I want to go or anything ready and 👍 my life feels like it’s already over because of how unprepared I am for this
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I’ve had a lot of house MD clips show up on my tiktok fyp n the way that ppl just like. suck his dick. yay he’s ordering more tests whos paying for them ??
ofc getting tests is good but if u can’t consent to the tests and then the expense of them at the end of the day I don’t think that’s a good idea ?? especially in America.
this was inspired by the clip that said vaccinations are $40 per shot so that’s what ~$60 AUSD per shot and most of our shots are free. X-rays are free if a doctor asks for them. like.
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Why does “Dark Woods Circus” have to be so hard to sing
#To be fair I *did* slather it thick with a lot of super-unnecessary voice acting so it’s probably not that hard if I sang it normally#There’s a part where I have to distort my voice and make it smoky/mysterious/intrigued (“happy despite their STRANGE appearances”)#In Japanese the part where it goes: へんなけれど specifically#Like that “the LAST surviving dinosaur of the Amazon Rainforest” tone of voice#Basically I put a lot of air into a few low-mid notes (results in me partially closing off my throat in an attempt to lighten my voice)#while trying to project it loudly and hit a low note at the end of it (the low note suddenly switches to a full gravelly quality)#and I “grind” the airy mid notes like I do my D3 — A2 range to make it masculine-ish#but the problem is because the note I’m hitting is all air I have nothing of substance to project#and nothing to “grind” except my actual throat against itself#It obliterates my vocal chords#Obliterates them completely#So that I can only do it once or twice before my voice is wholly unusable for the song if I were to try it again#my neighbors probably think I’m getting tortured in here shdbdbdjbddjnd#between the fake crying and random guttural hacking from losing my low range (imagine that: a contralto losing her low range; sheesh)#I’d post it but… certain parts are too bad to be displayed (in my opinion)#The first try isn’t technically bad but I’m not in character because it’s the first try so it sounds weird#The second try is technically horrible but I am 100% In The Zone with regard to character voices#ugh#Someday I’ll get a good take#Someday I’ll be able to properly reproduce the vocals I hear in my head#If I have a voice left (don’t worry I’m chugging water)#hhhhhhhhhhh#No trust me it’ll sound great when I perfect it#by then I’ll be a little bent-over granny in my retirement log cabin… unironically in the middle of the woods#probably in Ireland because I heard it rains a lot there and I like rain#Yes
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#2022 was such a long and grief filled year#ever since I became an adult I’ve felt like an acrobat on a tightrope far above the ground#I thought I’d die if I fell#if I made any mistakes it would be over I’d have ruined my life#and then it happened- I fell#dropping out of college seemed like a really big failure at the time (though it has since proven to be one the best things I’ve done)#and my parents were there to help me pick up the pieces#they were the safety net below me that I couldn’t see#and then when I became a mom I felt like I was failing every single day#and every single day I knew I could at least call my parents and they’d be there to cry to and ask for advice#over and over again they caught me and I became less afraid of falling#but last year my dad died and it changed everything#it completely yanked the safety net out from under me#sure I have my mom but she’s a completely different person now#she tries so hard and does so much for us but losing my dad has had a profound effect on her and I can’t ask her to catch me#I worry it’ll break her#so there I was on the tightrope without a net this time#and then we found out we were having our third child- not unwanted but completely the wrong time#I fell again and this time it felt like the world came crashing down#suddenly my life was far too big and I had to shrink it all the way down so I could get out of bed#I didn’t talk to anyone except my partner and my mother#it was the only way I could give everything I have to my kids#but I didn’t have the capacity to maintain friendships and I lost them as well#and now I’m doing a lot better but I don’t know how to grow my life again and be okay inviting people back in#partly because I’m not sure if I may have hurt anyone and if I did then I don’t deserve to just come back#but also because I don’t know that anyone actually noticed or cared and it would be pathetic to draw attention now if no one cared#I’m comfortable with the world being small right now- it’s safer- but my kids deserve better#they deserve friends and they can’t have friends right now if I don’t socialize#I’m not sure how to do this#but I hit the ground and I didn’t die and now it’s time to climb back up and try again
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purrrcrastination · 2 years
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