#i’m overthinking it i know i am

[shekilledherself]

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[shima-draws]

My boss: Schedules a Teams meeting titled “Check In”

Me: Ah. I’m going to be taken out back and shot

[courfeyracs-swordcane]

[pointing towards you emoji] favorite blaseball team. go

(if you want to practice drawing in another style, then draw yourself as a transformer OR as a human character)

WE ARE FROM CHICAGO

[itspileofgoodthings]

I think it’s such a lovely thought that the stuff you’re going through now is preparing you for the things you want.

[tflaw]

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[campbyler]

i JUST hit the end of chp.4 and could not be more thrilled about being late to the acswy party, as spring is here where i am and i am VIBING. Questions: 1) which of you is the over-thinker? Mike talking about the scientific method re: will is WILD. 2) please explain exactly what the camp whiteman water tasted like irl if possible. 3) SHARK PATTERNED SWIM TRUNKS. Oh boy i am going to make this LAST

OMGGGG WELCOME!!! it’s crazy to me that you just read chapter 4 but i am also so excited you just experienced it now!! especially bc as you said we are approaching summer so the vibes are perfect 😎☀️

1) i’d say we are Both over thinkers but i actually was def channeling suni during that part! suni is a woman(?) in stem and i love the way she includes a lot of more scientific terminology into her writing so i was Thinking of That during this part. however i am def also an over thinker myself sooo 😗 2) it unfortunately tasted like Metal and a little bit like Salt even tho it was fresh water sooo idk what they were doing but probably not their best!! 3) SHARK PATTERNED SWIM TRUNKS!!!!!

[lynxfrost13]

Man for some reason the “not living up to my potential” in terms of my art is really hitting today which is stupid.

Hey brain you know that art is a forever journey and that it’s okay to grow and learn and not be perfect right???

[spooksforsammy]

Is also hard trying text because timezones. They different for everyone :(

And don’t want text when my time early in morning and their time zone middle of night. But also timezones are just confusing because like

What do you mean it’s 9 in the morning for me and 2 at night for you??

Also school doing asl club. Want join because want learn asl for self. But also because have so many deaf hoh students in the school (to point where they able have own classroom) and because thats their language and want be able talk to them.

But couldn’t do club even if wanted. Tried to middle school and it ended horrible for me. So scared

[kuiinncedes]

:c

[ultimateaclrecovery]

Been trying to have more conversations with the boy but it’s hard. I’m bad at it and he’s even worse. It just feels like we aren’t always very good at talking to each other both about small things and big things and it’s like if we don’t have that what we do we have?

And like sometimes the conversation is easy, but then it’s almost always about frisbee. And it’s like I do not want to either be carrying the whole conversation or talking about frisbee for the rest of my life (and yes that’s a hyperbole and I’m being dramatic but like still)

And then when I finally talk to him about how it feels like he gives me all these one word answers it’s always that he’s just tired and if he doesn’t think the answer is important he’s not gonna put his energy into it. And like he’s being apologetic but it’s not like if talking to me isn’t worth your energy what is? And like we only see each twice a week and sometimes only once a week.

And partly it’s because with the holidays I’ve been gone for two weeks and then had a Covid exposure and now he’s gone so we’ve barely seen each other. And I’m an abysmal texted so it’s hard to maintain connection when we don’t see other (and yes I really am the problem here and yes I’m working on it (although he was always says it’s fine)

I just feel sometimes like I just don’t understand him very well especially considering we’ve been dating almost a year.

And when I brought up doing something for our year, that is when he mentioned that his grandmother had died earlier this week and so he’d be leaving for her funeral. And I had asked him about various aspects of week like seven times at this point and he had yet to mention it. And I have no idea how to be there for him or if he even needs or wants that because he just never shares.

And then because he never shares I feel like I’m being over emotional and needy whenever I share. And then we just talk about anything ever.

And his family’s going to Italy in may and when I saw his family over thanksgiving she invited me but he has never even hinted if he’d like me to go with them (I probably can’t regardless but like I would like to be asked)

And even when his family was here for thanksgiving he only invited me to see for actual thanksgiving even though they were here for like a week and he did lots of other stuff with them. And I had to be the one to ask if he even wanted me to meet them when they came and to let me know what he wanted me to join them for. And turns out the answer was very little.

And it just sucks that it feels so hard to build an emotional connection because he’s so great in other ways. Like he’s so sweet and kind and thoughtful. And he remembers all the things I like and is always seeking them out or trying to do things to make me happy. And whenever I do manage to try and talk to him about the things I feel he’s always really nice about it and never makes me feel like my feelings are stupid. (He sometimes get hung up the logistics (it almost always twice a week and only rarely once a week) )but also always ask what he could do make me feel better. But like how do you tell someone to just be a more emotional human?

And like I hate that it’s always me telling him things. Like I know I can be annoying and I’m far from perfect but like he just never has any complaints, often even when asked point blank. And even when I did ask him what he would change about the relationship he one made me answer first and two just said he’d like it if I texted him back a little quicker. Which while fair I had just told you five minutes ago how was feeling disconnected probably in part to me being a terrible texter so is that really what you want or just what you think I want? It’s also annoying because when we first started dating I told him I was bad at texting and he said he actually preferred to not text that much. And like it could be that it’s a spectrum and also things evolved but it makes me worried that he’ll just tell me what I want to hear and then just deal with it even if it’s not really what he wants. And then I worry that he’ll end up resenting me for that and then just break up with me out of no where.

And this fully me just being anxious but I can’t help but feeling sometimes likes he’s just waiting for a good time to end things because he’s too nice to do it at an inconvenient time.

And I guess a lot of it just circles back to the thought I’ve been having since this summer that while he’s a really good boyfriend, he’s just doing the things that a boyfriend should do because he likes having a girlfriend and not that he likes me in particular. It’s like I check all the boxes so he’s committed to make it work and emotions are irrelevant. I like I want to have that deep emotional connection and it feels like that’s not enough. But then I go to describe what is that doesn’t feel like “enough” and it feels like I am describing a really good relationship.

And I don’t know if I’m just getting caught up in the holiwood or social media fantasy of relationships where people jump into each other everyday and talk endlessly for hours and no every last detail of the other persons psyche, because that’s not what we have.

He’s pleasant to hang out with, even if sometimes I feel like I want to shake him until more words fall out. He’s like the least annoying person I’ve ever met, he’s super easy to travel with. He’s considerate of me and my feelings. He puts effort into the relationship. He can be silly and we can have goofy moments together. He checks all the lifestyle “boxes” and my ideal life and being with him work perfectly together. He’s never dismissive of me. He’ll do things just to make me happy even if they aren’t his favorite. He feels safe.

And I don’t know how to balance all the wonderful against the intangible lackluster emotional connection. Especially when I am the other half of the emotional connection.

Like is the reason I have more deep feeling conversations with my girls friends just because THEY are good at it? And does it feel hard with Anthony because I am actually bad at it or because he is? (I mean probably both). And at the end of the day does it matter? Even if I’m the problem if I can’t figure how to make it better, it’s still not really working. And we all know the answer to every relationship question is just to talk to the other person. I just wish that didn’t feel so hard

[monochromemoomin]

ok so we all know will wood dropped new merch right? some of it drawn by the fantastic @potato-lord-but-not and some by will himself. you didn’t know? now you do.

‼️prescription 31 spoilers ahead‼️

now anyone who’s read all of the prescription knows the last thing jimmy does (in his POV) is go for a drive

will has dropped this lovely piece of art as the illustration for jimmy mushroom’s last drink:

you see that? that cup of petrol (i assume)? that exhaust pipe?? the tyre???

and you all remember the subject matter of the song? the lyrics?

i’m worried for our good friend jimmy mushrooms

[lesbianfakir]

So finally broke my art block a little bit but l! Painting my girl anthy and want to make a commentary on how she’s constantly oversexualized BUT running into the trap of oh now how to do this tastefully since she is in fact 14 years old. And just aaaaaaa how to draw her in a “sexy” pose while still getting across that I am making a commentary rather than trying to sexualize her myself. You know.

[00queasy00]

Rambles in the tags as always lol

[exopelagic]

i said i wouldn’t do it this time but it’s 3am and mods asleep. boy

[bravevolunteer]

also. if i THEORETICALLY were to simply draw michael afton in a slightly different font and removed from the actual plot of fnaf, should i make the fake plot a...

horror comedy about ghosts in a silly little purgatory situation . he's still working minimum wage

food service sitcom/family drama. that's it. perhaps also a romcom.

[sakura-code]

[Yuma ponytail anon] I'd also imagine that it was no.1s usual hairstyle, or at least the one he had b4 (gestures at game)

Id also bet that part of the reason Makoto (presumably) bleached his hair was to match the body double

I just believe that Yuma had his hair in a bowlcut to either look professional as Number One, or so he could have looked more approachable in the game.

I more assumed that Makoto bleach his hair blonde to separate himself from Yuma/Number One’s identity and be his own person. I also personally headcanon that Makoto also dyed his hair blonde to make him resemble or have connections with the Former CEO of Amaterasu Corporations. If you have seen his model, you would see how he has bleached blonde hair like Makoto, and it was implied that the two seem to have a close relations with each other considering Makoto seemed to have visited him frequently even after he died and became a zombie.