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night night everynyan !!! ^_^ exams are tomorrow :3
#ok ramble time !!!!#i feel like i haven't studied /anything/ tbh ... this happened last time too TT#but this time it feels so much worse bcus our schedule was said only a few days before & they kept giving us assignments during that week :(#so we barely had time to study TT#studied for precal earlier and cried bcus nothing was going into my brainnn TT i sort of got the hang of it after another hour ..#i think i'll be fine on genchem since i have stock knowledge ! and perdev too ^_^#just precal ... sighs#it is what it is !#i'll still do my best though ><#going to maximize the one hour they're going to give us !#ok that's enough ramble#(precal is pre calculus btw)#that's all !#gn to u if u made it this far :3#𓂅 miro's diary.
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How my first playthrough of Scarlet Hollow is going:
"I'm so locked in guys, we have to solve this mystery, here's my theor- OH HI TABITHA!!!! 🥺 Hiiiii 🥰 How r uuuuu 🤭 What? Stay here and do nothing?😉 Of course tabibi 🙂↕️You go queen 😋💅 yeah ssry mystery team, I have to win the best cousin contest real quick...........yeah I'm the only participant.......no it doesn't make it easier......no
#I just want to be friends with her:(#which. doesn't say the best about me.#IT'S NOT THAT BAD ACTUALLY. I STILL DO RESEARCH THERE AND STUFF. I SIMPLY DON'T WANT TO BREAK MY PROMISES TO HER OK#<- excuses. cheap excuses.#it's just that I have principles to do as I promised alright 🙄💅#narrator could never do to me what Tabitha Scarlet can#I'm only in the middle of the second chapter so don't judge me. i still have the time to get disappointed in all of them#i still don't trust anyone though 🙄💅 even tabitha 💅#especially Stella. Something about her doesn't ring right. Even though she's been nothing but nice. I don't know....#I'll stick around for the mysteries but I wouldn't trust her my life y'know#I like Kaneeka though. She's relatable to me#and Avery seems cool except for the fact I can't stop messing their name with Evrart from DE hahhsj#oh and librarian is really cool#wait it's so funny. I believe weird guy in a bloody bag more than Stella. why. what are you trying to tell me brain#quoquegiggles#scarlet hollow
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#I'm sure things will be okay with the babies#I'm sure things will work out#I'm sure everything will be all right#it's just going to take time#I've barely adjusted and I'm a human#my boyfriend is barely adjusted at all and he's a human#fancy has a lot of adjusting to do and she's just a little cat#a little gray cat who lost her very best friend in the world#the house still feels so empty without them because even though the babies are here#the babies are still not in the spaces that the boys used to be in#Raleigh used to sit in my window in the mornings and bring me the sun in his fur#he used to meet us standing on top of the washing machine and ask for hugs#I just miss them#just one and I could bear it#this year's been so cruel and I'm so afraid#but I'll find a way to be all right#I'll find a way to stay safe#somehow#I don't know#we'll find a way
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about marrying...
There was a magazine interview where they had Ai answer a couple of questions, and well, she didn't say no when asked if she had someone she wanted to marry. Seeing how she pictured a cute and loving family with Hikaru... I believe they really could have gotten married if things weren't this messed up.
#hikaai#oshi no ko spoilers#oshi no ko#hikaru kamiki#ai hoshino#seriously though I don't see ANY point in making Ai love a crazy serial killer. that's RUDE!!! I'd never write a story like that. it's bad#what is this story even...nervous laughter#I never.. really say any remarks towards the writers but I would not understand their writing choices. it's just.. really bad;;#doodle#spoilers#I'd love to draw these guys being lovey-dovey and having weddings and stuff but for now I'm.. I'll have to see this plays out till the end#because you know..; I..do want to follow canon and if he ends up being terrible then it's not fair for Ai but oh..gosh...;#if canon does fail them it's another thing. then I'll just completely give up and just start creating AUs#rn I...still do want to keep to the nuance for now even if it may be little#I am doing my best. I really am.
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Books of 2025: DARLING by K. Ancrum.
I didn't mean to binge this in a sitting and a half on a Sunday afternoon, but that's heat advisories for you, I guess. Hello, Contemporary Peter Pan Retelling, and WHAT a gorgeous cover you have.
I read somewhere that this is a super faithful adaptation (like. Beat by Beat fidelity with the source material), which seemed like a neat trick given how utterly Contemporary this was versus the magic of the original. Admittedly, I haven't revisited that source material in many years, but I was pleasantly surprised by how many specifics came back to me as I read through Ancrum's adaptation--Peter's shadow became a jacket, the Mermaid's Lagoon became a drag bar (staffed, yeah, by mermaid-themed queens), flying was scaling Chicago trellises, pirates were cops, etc. Tink (beloved) was there, Nana was there, the Crocodile was there, Detective Hook (begrudgingly beloved) was there, and also there was an ace Russian boy and I love ace Russian boys (iykyk).
I thought Ancrum did a good job keeping the classic children's story tone intact despite the (brutal, brilliant, Holy Shit!!) twist. Although it didn't initially send me, the straightforward, clean prose anchored me to the source story, and by the end I was firmly sold on "good stylistic choice." Overall I had fun!! Planning to revisit it with the source text in the other hand sometime, just to see.
#books#book reviews#books of 2025#darling#k. ancrum#book photos#anyway! i definitely was hyped for this since literally the pub weekly announcement#i remember reading about it in my cube at my LAST job before ronatimes#i definitely preordered it as soon as physically possible.#and then it. languished. on my shelf. for *checks watch* four years 🫥🫥#Doing Our Best Over Here lmfao#also also. i was interested because i have a fairy tale retelling project too and i wanted to see what ancrum did#i do think I'll revisit this but ill revisit it and the source text In Tandem because im curious and i want to take it apart 👀👀#good time. glad its on my shelf!#i will say though. some of the descriptions werent working for me?? and i could not for the life of me distinguish the lost boys#(even the ones she described in great detail for the purpose of distinguishing)#i think its the abundance of was/were type descriptions#and the fact that those descriptions were usually bricked and not woven into the narration. and happened all at once really early on/quick#i mean the prose was Fine but it wasnt shiny. and it was a lot of standalone descriptions divorced from context/movement/meaning#i do want to see the OG text again to see if thats intentional (i suspect it might be?). and it didnt turn me off her writing forever but#it makes me cautious about icarus#(i do still think ill give icarus a shot)
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❗️Important announcement❗️
Hello everyone! 😁 January is finally here, and this is very exciting news for me because I'm going to New Zealand!!! 🤩✈️ It's a huge trip that I've been planning for a whole year now. It will be the first time I ever take the plane. The first time I visit another country in years. The first time I travel so far away from home! And what's more, this will be the longest trip in my life. Over a month. I can hardly wrap my head around it still! 🤯🗓
I've also had some time to reflect, and... I've decided to use this opportunity to step back and go offline for a bit. 🌱 I wanted to tell you about this sooner, and I apologize for how sudden this probably is for most of you. I promise that I'm alright and doing this with a peaceful mindset! Although- I'm a bit sad at the thought that we won't see or hear from each other for a while. 🥺 It's a bittersweet feeling, but at the same time, I'm sure the temporary change of pace will be a good thing. Lately I've been feeling the need to take a break from social media again, and the timing is perfect. I'm ready. 🤲💫
To my lovely friends and followers here: I hope you will all have a great time these next few weeks. I hope the beginning of 2024 will treat you well and that you will get to experience new and exciting things. Wishing you lots of inspiration, fun projects and plenty of fascinating conversations until I return. 🙏🥰
Take care, everyone! I will miss you dearly. 🫂💗 Thank you, and I love you all,
- elita 🌸
#Even though I probably won't see my notifs until I get back- don't hesitate to tag me or message me anytime 🥲#I promise I'll do my best to catch up once I get back! 👀 x3#It may take me longer to respond... But you can be sure I will nonetheless ✨️#And don't worry: I still very much intend to share those next few pieces as well! 🤭🖼#Thank you in advance for your patience and understanding^^#See you all again soon!! 💕#personal message#elitadream
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wake up! ⏰
[sleep version | awake version]
#LUCY#Band LUCY#LUCY fanart#Band LUCY fanart#Shin Yechan#Choi Sangyeop#Cho Wonsang#Jo Wonsang#Wakey Wakey#잠깨#gif#// gif#kitkatart#once again i have no idea how to tag this lol#but i knew i had to draw something for this! it's soooo cute!!!#i already learned the little dance even though i'm not good at dancing and i know i'll never upload a cover/challenge or anything LOL#everything from the song to the mv to the styling is just adorable#the little sheep in the mv were too cute i had to add them#although so many different colors and patterns whew!! i was struggling haha#awake is the gif version and sleep is the still version!!#i wasn't sure if it would be better to have them all posted together but i thought it might be best to keep the gif version separate?#i haven't done one of these silly little gif drawings in so long i had to actually find a new site to make it into a gif with!#i'm very late but#my goal was to finish and post this before the album was out so! i'm glad i made it!#i'm soooo excited for the new album!!!#the bit that they spoiled during their busking set sounds AMAZING ugh#if you look at any of this and any of it looks weird just suspend your disbelief for a moment :)#they're in dreamland :) it's fine :)))#anyway i hope you're all doing well!!! it's rough out there these days!#but at least it's spring <3
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Well I've got pretty bad news
I'm not too sure when I'll be posting. I can't make anything right now, art is the only thing I can do but I'm not sure what it is but it's disagreeing with me so I can not make any art. I don't really have anything else I can do so I might just be sleeping until things are normal again, sleeping for months till something works
It's actually depressing but sadly it's out of my control and there's nothing I can do about it.
I wish I could make atleast a small doodle but I can't even get myself to do that either, I'm sorry about that
I'll try to hope that someday things would start to get normal
#No arts. sorry:(#I hate having to go back to my sad hibernation times again but I've got nothing else#on the summer break too? I feel miserable#I'll still try my best to get my moms help before this starts to get dangerous#I was doing good with my oc refrences too:') I was all “Life is worth living!” a few days ago. now it's very wrong...#I know it's been only two days with this feeling but I think...a LOT...and panic way to much when something small goes wrong haha#The feeling is very bad that I want to cry but in my whole life I cry way too much!#I'm still trying my best to stay calm and trying to think on what I should do#I'll try to talk to my mom! having a mom who doesnt really take panics/emotions or mental health seriously is going to be a challenge though#we'll see#sorry for the negative yapping! I usually want to keep things happy and stuff but I had to give a reason on why I can't post well#I'll see you then! when? no idea again!
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if I ever mysteriously disappear one day with my account deleted, becoming the missing mutual, rest assured that it'll probably be because I have continually lied about myself IRL and find this account to be attached to that mentality. I will one day return
#I still like this username but I might abandon it. might return to it too though#just a solid reset on my online presence#idk if I'll go through with it but I'm acknowledging it here just in case#andy rambles#btw I love to use the shitty phrasing of calling myself a pathological liar but I'm just gonna explain that real quick#I'm pretty open about how my main OCD obsession is emotional contamination#long story short I have continually distanced myself from anything about myself that I share with others#(“I can only be what you're not”)#where I have met a lot of people and whatnot#it used to not affect me much until I turned 13 when it began to spiral out of control#I stopped engaging in almost anything I actually enjoyed (I'm drawn to people who like the same things as me (unfortunately))#I started to latch onto anything that I could possibly enjoy and “claim” it as my own w/out fear on infection#(another persons soul infecting my own authenticity has been a deep rooted fear of mine)#(that if I am ever even vaguely influenced by someone else I am going to become them and therefore be inauthentic)#(which is in my eyes the worst crime a human can commit)#pair that with yearly-ish “emotional rebrands” (ie. doing whatever I can to distance myself from a past version of myself I hate)#and you get a recipe for “this guy isn't who he says he is”#I refused to engage in my own interests -- get new interests -- do just about anything#I say refused like its past-tense but this is still happening#this has actively ruined my life & ability to connect with people#I have a lot of personal moral shit (OCD obsessions are rarely one-man shows) against lying to people#(its a display of inauthenticity which is the worst crime of man)#so I've decided to refer to myself as a pathological liar as this pattern is in practice a series of lies that have done nothing but stack#rn I'm doing my best to decipher what about myself is truly me vs. distancing myself from others out of fear of infection#big ones I've realized is that I'm not into dudes. at all.#I consistently identified as a lesbian for 3 years before I met other people who were also lesbians#then I didn't and I am certain it was out of fear that I'd become them somehow#(don't we love magical thinking?)#anyways that's the short of it#if that makes sense at all
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Gojo Satoru Sketch Attempt #2 09162024
WIP Sketch
#I spent three days trying three different mediums I used to use often to see what muscle memory remains#I'll just keep practicing really but this one is marker and it's still messy but I'll work on it#have to replace the pen to my tablet that is (checks notes) 10 years old at least so I'll give digital a try again later#the mouse method did okay for a bit until I waned to do strands of hair and eyelashes then I just threw my hands up#We're going to pretend the colored pencil method didn't happen. even though that was the best clothing outcome of all of them.#He's fun to draw. More screencap practices will come I'm sure#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu gojo#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#my art
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Just in case you're wondering: I'm still on my Kingdom Come Deliverance 2 (and now Avowed as well) holiday and I'm so in love with this game that I'm basically playing it every free minute of my day... which kind of interferes with me making gifs or even just watching BL - so I've decided to take a short break from both until I see the KCD2 credits roll.
After which I'll probably start a fresh replay of the first game immediately but that shouldn't interfere with my gifmaking duties. 🙏
#jane watches stuff#(or not)#it's got to the point where i just get sad about “having” to watch something when i could instead be playing kcd2#which is ridiculous of course#so i'll just let my new hyperfixation run its course#and it's not even just about henryhans#it's honestly the best game i've played in a very long time#the amount of love i have for this game is ridiculous#most of the time i just take my pixel horse for a slow ride through the pixel woods#and it reminds me so much of home and of the summers here#and tbh it's also probably not much of a surprise how burned out i am from having to keep up with a dozen shows each week and making gifs#it's become quite a chore even though i still love bl and giffing very much#so a little break/reset will probably do me good#stay delightfully queer everyone ilu very much 💜💜💜
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just some convos i headcanon northern brazilian shoyo doing with his karasuno peeps after watching too many short videos about "weird latinos" and gringos talking about brazil after living here for a while
(written by a north brazilian)
(warning: contain northern dialect)
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*at training camp*
hinata: *blinking heavily while sitting on the futon*
daichi: oy, hinata! *starts talking about the day and what they're supposed to be doing etc etc*
hinata: what...? wait, i'm still downloading my soul... *yawns*
daichi:
suga: pfff-
hinata: *weird loud noises while stretching* morning... *big yawn*
suga, still laughing: you're really weird, you know that?
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hinata: what do you mean you train on sundays?!
tanaka: what about it? it's normal, though?
hinata: it's sunday!?
tanaka: ????
hinata: IT'S SUNDAY
tanaka: *louder confusion*
suga: apparently they don't work on sunday in latin america?
hinata, still bewildered: *points at suga* SUNDAY!!!!
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hinata: why would i be scared of him? with that mucura¹ face?! not in this life, mermão²
karasuno: ?????
hinata, not realizing no one understands him: telezé³, he wants a husband⁴
takeda: sometimes i ask myself if hinata forgets he can speak japanese (• ▽ •;)
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training camp part 2 - breakfast
daichi: where's hinata?
noya: woke up early to make breakfast, something about real food or something
daichi: ...what
suga: lol i want to see that
*arriving at the dining hall and coming face to face with a weird looking white pancake*
noya: shoyo! what is this?
hinata: tapioca!⁵
karasuno: ????
hinata, proudly: you know, you take the cassava, crush it, mix it with water, then.... what is the word again? anyway, you have this whole process with the cassava to make a... flour? and then you fry it and can put any kind of toppings, actually! i love to eat it with fried banana! but this one i used brazilian nuts! made one for everyone, go eat!
karasuno, thinking: weird food
karasuno after eating: GOOD FOOD!
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1 - mucura = amazon opossum; used as a slang in northern brazil, means "ugly"
2 - mermão, slang from "meu irmão" means my bro/my brother or just bro
3 - telezé = northern brazilian slang from a full sentence lol "tu é leso, é?" means "are you stupid?"
4 - he wants a husband = slang, i think it's local from my city, though? means more or less that they want too much, can also be used with mother or wife (depends on the sentence)
5 - tapioca *starts singing tapioca song* = GOOD FOOD! actually a snack lol exactly how shoyo said, but here's what it looks like (it's our famous "caboquinha" with local ingredients, some that you only find here ehehehe)
#northern and northeastern foods are the best i'm telling you#i may be biased#amazonian first brazilian second#haikyuu#haikyuu headcanons#haikyuu hinata#hinata shoyo#hinata shoyo imagine#brazilian hinata shouyou#imagine him doing the vapo or cr7's ziuu after making a good block lmao#being br he would be better at vball though#as in like#in middle school i was taught what karasuno is still learning lol#karasuno#hq sugawara#sugawara koushi#sawamura daichi#hq daichi#nishinoya yuu#hq noya#author is a bit in love with sugawara#guys you can ask me things about my country for your fics pls do it let me help ya#like please#the things i read sometimes make me wanna cry#anyway it's carnaval soon#and i'll probably write a sequel for this#author is tired#my writing#bnnywngs imagine#bnnywngs writing
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Books of 2024: GHOST STATION by S. A. Barnes.
I've been intrigued by this one since the hardback release, but since I'm more of a paperback person I Waited™, intending to preorder said paperback.
Un/fortunately: In the course of my waiting, @asexualbookbird read it, and ey had Beef. Like. Enough Beef that I canceled my preorder and checked out a library copy instead. Library copies suck to photograph, my lighting setup for this was unhinged. So! We'll see how this goes!
#books#books of 2024#book photo#ghost station#sa barnes#asexualbookbird#my expectations are MANAGED my heavy sigh cannon is PRIMED i am READY!!!#i am bummed though i really wanted to vibe with this#and it really sounds like i will Not based in my insider intel#i'm still pressing my hand against the glass and gazing longingly at DEAD SILENCE too#but if this one is as rough as i'm braced for i'll probably just library that one as well :(#haunted house in space sounds too hard to fuck up#why would you fuck it up with gratuitous romance :(#anyway i'm fear but i'm HERE because i SUBJECTED YOU TO BWB DAMMIT EZ#doing my Best#also the last few pages are falling out of this book (???)#i'm already anxious about telling the librarians that lmao#'hi i swear it wasn't me but. pages are falling out.'#'of your new book'#'that i borrowed'
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Oh ok. I get now why a lot of people didn't vibe with the ending.
All and all: excellent manga, overall very good final act, too rushed final 2-3 chapters but weak and honestly mediocre epilogue, which makes the high of the ending kind of leave a bitter taste. I think Noda had a good steed and suddenly he had to finish and had to rush all. So the ending in the sense of the final arc was good but the ending proper (final couple chapters) + epilogue......... Not so much
#i liked rhe ending (though made the mistake to read comments so now I'm like 'yeah you are right that did not make sense' when on my own i#probably would not have noticed. but ok. I'll work my suspension of disbelief. HOWEVER the epilogue WAS indeed very lackluster#i get it's an epilogue but it was so rushed. we barely get a closure for ume and saichi and tanigaki did not get to#take asirpa back to uci as he should have (though he was instrumental for that). overall it was super rushed#like we did not even see how Sugimoto was rescued. the epilogue was faaaar too rushed tbh and also too vague in parts#siraishi not really saying goodbye.... also sugimoto and asirpa living together that's cute idc and i think the line into nastyness was not#crossed but oh boy is it a thin thread... i still choose to believe they are platonic soulmates lol but i want to see an official#translation of the volume that's all i say. what else... oh yes. the way the gold never got to actually be distributed doesn't sit right#with me at all but the worst part was definitely the sugimoto/ume thing oh god that was BAD#we did get to see osoma which was cute#OH AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON VASILY??? We didn't even see him. the epoligue for him in particular was great though but his ending was not#like he just hanged around ogata gor chapters and chapters on end and we don't even get a glimpse of him during the final showdown??#tbh i think noda wanted to do something more with him but realized he did not quite fit into the story and in the end got#caught up with all the main lines he did have to close and he obviously had planned and probably combined with his own exhaustion well#did not go nice for vasily! i also would have liked a more proper epilogue for tsukishima and koito. they deserved it#I don't like how pre-epilogue the tsukishima-tsurumi-koito tension seems to reach a breaking point only to kind of not get resolved because#they have to keep fighting lol.#laura reads#also i get the sentiment of the ending regarding the ainu and i think noda did his best but it seems like a rather soft thing for asirpa to#do like... sure. museums and stuff. i GET it but it goes a little too soft in the actual colonialism that went on from the japanese. i feel#noda starts off fairly critical of that but in the end softens his stance which is a shame but ok. the bar is in hell so this is actually#much better than average from what i can personally gather of my little knowledge#golden kamuy#gk spoilers
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I brought in some homemade peanut butter fudge for my coworkers, today, as well as some ornaments as little holiday gifts, and everyone who saw me expressed appreciation ... it felt really nice, I won't lie. Just ... to do something small for others like this. And I've been noticing that whenever I reach out and try to help or comfort or offer something to someone else, it makes me feel a bit better.
I think sending out tree messages yesterday had a similar effect, and helping the kiddos on Thursday with building gingerbread houses and making shakers for their sing-a-long. It's hard to put into words, but it feels like I'm finally coming out of the funk I've been in, and it's because I'm choosing to be kind in spite of everything I'm going through.
#I think it's fair to say 2024 was really hard on me ... but I'm glad I'm ending it on a strong note#we still have a ways to go before the new year‚ but I feel happier than I have in a long time#and I'm going to choose to be kind and positive rather than letting myself constantly stew in bitterness#I'll be doing my best to sort out this blog before the new year comes‚ but I won't try to do more than I can realistically do#also I wanted to say thank you to you guys‚ again /gen#I haven't been the most active here but it means a lot that you're all still here#I'm very slowly allowing myself to enjoy things again and express the same passion I did in the past#so hopefully I'll seriously get back into posting about my ships and Project Moon stuff soon#I have many thoughts and opinions--as usual /lh#I also want to start replaying Linbus from the beginning ... I think it's time to take a crack at rewriting it with Sherry as a Sinner#I'm going to try and finish reading Red Chamber‚ first‚ though--because I think I want to liveblog things when I replay#just share it with you guys ... I want you to know why I love it and the characters so much--and also why I dislike certain characters#okay--this got long‚ but I do seriously feel a lot better#and the fact it's on RolEva anniversary too ... perhaps I will finally post about them again#scattered pages
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The fact that pots and cfs/me is incurable (I'm convinced that that's a lie, just like with "incurable" stuff like cancers, there is possible treatments, but doctors couldn't give less of a fuck about us and thus aren't doing research on what could help us) and this constant song and dance of fighting with parents and doctors to get help or even believed at all and going nowhere. And most importantly, that this is my new forever, and I'll NEVER be able to go back to what i could do only 2 years ago, is finally sinking in
And I'm only fucking 21, 20 when it started
I'm seeing people lamenting about not being able to do what they did in their 20s now, but i haven't even got to try adulthood at all before it got ripped away from me forever
How the fuck am i supposed to keep going knowing that no one will ever understand or give me help, i will constantly get not believed and pushed into crashes by doing the bare minimum, and everything i was planning and excited about doing because of the freedom of adulthood, be it learning new hobbies, travelling somewhere, or just where and how I'd like to move in and live in the future, has to be dumped in the trash
But yeah it's all anxiety in my head. Go take walks, loose weight, drink water, play less video games (i play around 6 hours a week) and go play board games at the public library, they say
Great
This is my new "life"
#usually those kind of vents never leave my drafts#but i'm so fucking done#if i keep getting pushed while refusing to give me the help i need#I'm gonna get stuck in a wheelchair at best. or genuinely bed bound at worst#i know it. i SAW it in cfs and pots spaces while looking for advice and help#it keeps happening. and i can see how the same thing that made them end up like that is happening to me#having to live in and fight this body is already bad enough#why do i have to keep fighting *everyone* around me on top#the more I'm forced to have to interact with government official healthcare like assurance maladie centers or the mdph (disability house)#the worst i get treated#so far. what I've seen is that the best way for me to get help is going to highly specific. rare. and scattered around the country. private#and expensive specialists#it's how i got my autism diagnosis after 15 years of running around therapist to therapist#it's how i (half) got my pots diagnosis after almost 10 years of being told I'm “just fat and don't do sports” (a lie on both front btw)#if i want anything. i need to avoid official infrastructures. save up money. and drive for hours. and hope that i win the coinflip of them#knowing what they're talking about#thought getting a diagnosis still hasn't gotten me any help. but at least i can fill up the official disability paper and wait for an answe#though I'm sure I'll have to fight with them too#cfs/me#pots syndrome#PROBABLY CAN'T DRIVE TOO BECAUSE OF MY DISABILITIES. SO STUCK RELYING ON PUBLIC TRANSPORT. OR OTHER PEOPLE TO DRIVE ME TO THOSE PRIVATE#SPECIALISTS. WHILE I HAD TO DROP OUT OF SCHOOL AND GENUINELY DON'T KNOW HOW I'LL POSSIBLY GET A JOB LATER. SO CAN'T MAKE MONEY#IT'S FUCKING GREAT. I LOVE IT HERE /S#vent#rant
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