#i'm so stupid i deleted my pinned post

[katara]

we need a miracle

i had to remake this post one more time because it's been a nightmare lately for me and my family, our financial situation has gotten worse so please don't ignore this post.

we currently have no money to pay for our bills and we can barely buy groceries because money is really tight and unfortunately we're a large family, we are desperate and praying for a miracle

paypal   /  kofi

if you can spare something even less than a dollar it would mean the world to us, if you can't please just reblog!

[therhythmafterthesummer]

reminder: add an indication of you being an adult in your bio/pinned post if you want to interact with me. otherwise i'll just block you because you could potentially be a minor, and this is certainly NOT a minor safe space.

if you think this isn't necessary, then let me tell you, the amount of people with "minor" or ages from 13-17 listed in their bios that have followed me, liked my fics, etc, is just ridiculous considering the amount of warnings i've got all throughout my blog and my works.

as i always say, i can't stop you from doing anything, nor can i force you to do anything, but that also means that you can't stop me from blocking you, and i will block you. this is my blog, and i do what i want with it.

with that being said, i'll be blocking people that have followed me recently without an age indicator later in the day. for more information on what "having an age indicator" means, you can refer to my pinned post, to the "BEFORE YOU FOLLOW" link in my bio, or send an ask.

if i do block you, know that it's nothing personal, it's just a boundary of mine that i want to keep very very clear. adults can always request to be unblocked once they've added that age indicator by sending a message to @therhythmafterthesun

[ghostingcrows]

Genuinely nobody ever fucking talk to me about Hobies age ever again because theres literally an interview where the director or someone is talking about the process and Hobie, Margo, and Miles are all referred to as teenagers

Literal months of watching people bitch and whine and moan about my two fav ships and be weird about my favorite character and you were all wrong

[jinxxedmisery]

God... WHY!? (NSFW)

Headcanons plus a short fic.

Warnings: NSFW content.. this is literally a scenario about Gojo being a goofball during the deed...

Anywho... enjoy...Hope you like dead memes and cringe... (I hate myself for writing this... This should be a war crime)

Generally Gojo enjoys bringing humor into the bedroom, he really loves seeing you laugh.

But sometimes... He can get so fucking annoying.

As you lay on your back, hands pinned down to the bed, Gojo on top of you, thrusting into you in just the right way to make you scream...

A song you know all too well comes on... He's played it during sex so often. After that damned reddit r/AITA post he will not stop.

You've begged him to delete it from your Spotify playlist, but he never did.

Nasty little shit likes to see you go from whining about wanting him deeper to whining wanting him to stop acting like an idiot

Ofc.. He likes calling you really stupid pet names as well.. in and out of the bedroom..

And you better believe he thrusts with the rhythm of the song playing.. not the beat... Like a psychopath.

"Satoru....." you whine. A smirk appears on his lips as he continues the eratic thrust pattern.

"Hmmm? what is it munchkin?" He says with a mischievous glint in his eyes. You roll your eyes

"Please... for fuck sake turn that shit off... and wait... 'Munchkin' did you just call me 'Munchkin'?" You resist the urge to push him off of you and onto the floor

"Aww does my little boo thang not like what I call them?" You narrow your eyes at him

"Do you want me to shrivel up and die down there?" He rests his head on your shoulder and you feel him grin against your skin, you gulp in response fearing what would come next.

"Oh pookiebear~ You'll be okay won't you? You still want my girthy meat stick right?" he whispers in your ear, you hate to admit it but it could almost be hot... If he weren't whispering the most deranged shit into your ears. "You love it when my hotdog is inside your moist cavern don't you?"He whispers making you cringe. "And when my hands move to touch your sensitive nubbins" He says, moving his hand over to your chest, teasing your nipples. "How about I purple your nurple, would you like that my candybear.. the jelly to my peanut butter~"

"Satoru.... I hate you so much right now" You complain, He evidently takes pleasure in your cringing as he chuckles leaning in to kiss you. His thrusts once again moving to a pleasurable rhythm. No matter how much you groan and act like you hated him for it, you still truly love him. And that included all of his bedroom antics. In fact, you appreciate it sometimes, he always knows how to make you laugh and well today was indeed one of those days.

Just as you were soaking in the serious affection he was finally giving you after his goofiness.

Two Trucks came on. And he began bobbing his head and syncing his thrusts to the music. You scream in exasperation. "SATORU GOJO I SWEAR TO SHIT I'M NEVER LETTING YOU TOUCH SPOTIFY EVER AGAIN!!!"

He slept on the couch that night.. As he should.

[madeforstarker]

Heya, it's Made! 𐙚˙⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩

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I post things about IRL, other ships like Stucky, Hannigram, Wincest. But my ULT is Starker.

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[itsquakey]

Not a call-out post, but a message for others within this community

Trigger warning for noncon/ the grape word and other stuff below

Hello, just like I mentioned this is NOT A CALL-OUT. This is a note for mainly minors and people here that may be sensitive to things an account covers I discovered.

The user that I have stumbled onto is someone called currupted-galaxy-soldier-army

WHO IS A MINOR WHICH MEANS YES THEY MAY NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE DOING AND NO YOU CANNOT HARASS THIS PERSON OR PUT THEM AT COMPLETE FAULT. IF YOU DO HARASS THEM AND I CATCH YOU I WILL DEAL WITH YOU PERSONALLY.

This user uses from what I've seen Noncon (known as nonconsent) in their stuff which is not handled properly in my opinion. (It almost is which I'm glad at least this person is trying to do)

HOWEVER.

From what I have witnessed this person does NOT USE IT AS A FETISH. This person is using their own trauma and projecting it onto a character as a coping mechanism. Also no, this isn't proship, "Proship" would allow rape and abuse in a relationship as a form of romance which this person has not depicted from what I've seen. Honestly it's stupid how many people see a series or art depict rape in a way that isn't romanticized and call it proship. (In terms of non romantic uses of this my point still stands).

IF you are uncomfortable with the stuff they do be free to block them. This is mainly for those who are uncomfortable with these things.

And for user currupted-galaxy-soldier-army if you are reading this, may I suggest making a pinned post regarding outright stating the things your account covers to allow people to understand what you do instead of blindly walking into it. I'd also recommend for content that is moreso NSFW in nature or covers content viewed as mature in nature, leave a trigger warning at the top and leave a READ MORE option so people don't have to see it.

Edit: So I got a couple asks as well as talking to a friend and from what I have been TOLD (I do not have proof due to their main blog being deleted) this person is indeed that type of Proship, meaning yea blocking and avoiding is likely the best way. I haven't seen any of that stuff on the blog aforementioned just a really strange usage of rape which I still do believe it's a unusual case of a minor using this shit to cope with their trauma sadly, the self shipping with a 9 year old and metakirby shipping? Yea that's bad and there's no defense for that and I can only say I hope once they become an adult they realize that that's not good. I also have been told this user dabbles in ACTUAL nsfw porn-type stuff online. Here's a message to minors for this: IT IS FINE TO DRAW NSFW AS A MINOR ITS GONNA HAPPEN SOMETIMES (AND I AM AN EXAMPLE OF THIS) JUST DO NOT POST IT ANYWHERE ON THE INTERNET KEEP THAT SHIT IN A VAULT LOCKED WITH A KEY.

Quakey

[13tinysocks]

hey dude! What's up :)) been just a little since l've said something

Initially, this is me saying thank you and goodbye

This isn't supposed to be a weird pity story, so l'm so unbelievably sorry if it comes off that way, lol.

When I began reading your work, I was enamoured with fiction because of personal issues (as many usually are, honestly, I know I'm one of god knows how many people trying to run away from life for just a second with fanfics or media in general). I don't know if I will ever be able to communicate this properly, hell, this will even be unbelievable funny or dramatic but I need to get this across because it's coming from a genuine place. Your stories and work thus far has brought me comfort, immense heaps of it, and even still when I deal with things that feel out of reach or too much to actually face head on I find myself wandering back to syg or just your blog in general

I mean this, from my entire heart, thank you and thank Bee. A million times thank you, for making that one silly silly stupid piece of fanfiction, because oh my god it got me through some major stressful hardships within my life for the past 3 years.

I am leaving tumblr, however I’m aware I have submitted asks with my actual accounts before, so you'll likely be able to see they're still gonna be up. I'm just deleting tumblr the app instead of my account, but for other social platforms they will be deleted properly (such as quotev) so I won’t be indulging in much reading anymore when it comes to fanfics and such lol

I don't know if I'll come back, if I do I likely will not be back for long or to be as active as l've been because of the toll social media’s taken. So even as ridiculous as this feels, to tell someone I’m simply a fan of and barely truly know, that their fanfic of murderers and their love story with my self insert kept me pushing through a lot of tough days, I genuinely just had to.

I needed to thank both you and your partner for the work you've both put out. I still have that smiley pin I’d made, and I will cherish what you made quotev have been for me ( I literally found out about the website during early or late 2020 I can barely remember, then later found your fic, I was DEEP DIVING into that shit LMAO )

I hope whatever happens for you and bee in the future is only good, and I only will wish nothing but the best of luck with everything man.

feel free to post this (idk what it’s called but when you publicly reply lol) or not, as long as you read this it’ll mean lots to me !! >:))

your coolest weirdest ticci toby fan whose also named toby, 🐚 annon

I always struggle to convey gratefulness for messages like this and readership- especially repeated readership. My life would be different if it were not for comments and messages egging us on to keep writing from syg to ho1c. While it's easy to say that writing is solely out of passion for the craft there is also the drive to share something with others. Hearing those others loud or quiet as a favorite- does push us forward when we have no motivation or desire to work. That drive has made us closer as a couple, better thinkers, and a halfway decent writing team. I thank you and all the others who send us stuff even if it's shit post asks I never answer because I like having them in my inbox like a personal horde of platonic Valentine's. I like keeping the pieces you give me to myself sometimes. I know it may seem like I'm ignoring you but I find genuine comfort in these messages. That there are so many. That they are so varied. That we have reached beyond our shut-in existence to touch the lives of others.

I find myself wondering where an anon has gone when I do not hear from them in awhile. I wish them well. I wish them better standards than us.

Maybe we'll meet again someday space cowboy. If you're ever back in town feel free to shoot me (a message).

Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for reading. I wish you peace and love and good books.

[your-sunny]

I'm too stupid to suspect them until it's too late. I tell my friend that someone's been leaving me odd asks on my tumblr- sharing details I never posted about. I don't tell them that the descriptions and threats that go along with them have me soaked.

My friend listens to everything I say. I don't even begin to piece together the messages only started once I met them. How they just suddenly appeared into my life one day when they sat down across from me at a coffee shop when no other seats were open.

I started to get scared as the threats and descriptions include so many details: my real name, my allergies, what I wore that day. I delete my blog and decide to just make a new one after I'm done hanging out with my friend.

My friend checks their phone and their eyes light up. One second were sitting next to eachother on the couch and the next they have me pinned, already flipping up my skirt and tearing off my panties.

"You deleted it because you found out it was me, right? You didn't want to talk to anyone else because now all you want is me! Fuck I've been waiting for this- gonna make you feel so fucking good."

I can't even finish my cry for help once they kiss me.

[ravensvirginity]

🚺anonactiv Follow

if i see one more person off mainworld posting about wanting to fuck trigon i'm literally killing everyone y'all don't take things seriously and it shows

🤰trigonsdiscordkitten Follow

maybe just say you hate women??? fiction and reality aren't the same lmaooo why do you want to rob people of their coping strategies

🚺anonactiv Follow

i hope your planet gets blown up /srs

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😡trigonpride Follow

Stop posting that the revolution attempt on Xynthia was """based""". If you get doxed your planet could literally get destroyed over it

🐎silentarmor Follow

💀💀 how does this post have over 10k notes op's pinned is about how we'd all die without trigon

#you guys don't know how to spot dogwhistles and it shows #genocide cw

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👱‍♀️femmeinism Follow

is it bad that I kind of hope Raven comes back? I know it's problematic but I want to see a woman in a position of power for once :/

🫡funnywench Follow

are people really this stupid

🍑smallttot Follow

me after getting brutally publicly executed for breathing wrong by trigon's daughter (this is such a win for feminism)

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👸royalupdates Follow

There's a rumor that my favorite princess might be given up as a concubine. I literally don't know what I'd do if that happened... seeing pictures of her always brightens my day. God, if I never got to see her face again... 😭

🤴princefucker Follow

🫂

👑princezzlovr Follow

Sending you strength! 💞🫂

👯‍♂️yaoihell Follow

what the fuck

🐺furrywolf Follow

royalty rpf literally makes people braindead

👸royaltyupdates Follow

I'm turning reblogs off. This post was just meant for my mutuals anyway. I've gotten so much anon hate over this, just because I was upset and tried to share how I was feeling with my friends. What happened to ship and let ship? I might delete my blog. This site is awful.

🌿blazer829 Follow

is this post real. can anyone else see this

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mememan-deactivated

how does trigon have a breeding kink this out of control and still only have one kid lmaoooo

🫡funnywench Follow

trigon killed op for this post

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😶‍🌫️countryliving Follow

i'm 28 years old and i literally just learned that trigon's soldiers don't wear pants under their thigh high boots??? like they're just wearing underwear and that's it???

[tuherrus]

Could you do a TL;DR of the whole Kino thing, please?

i can't promise that this will be much shorter but i'll do my very best for you anon!

DISCLAIMER ONCE AGAIN DO NOT HARASS KINO OR DO ANYTHING STUPID, i'm not your dad but use some common sense

i'm pulling info from the doc currently available here and asks and messages i've received which are available in the tag kinodraws on my blog, everything is alleged, use your own brain and make your own judgement on whether you wish to support kino

kino (they/them), current account kinodraws on most platforms, is a fairly popular online artist and now tattoo artist who has for years on various accounts scammed people out of money via unfulfilled commissions, fundraisers and recently even a charity zine (the doc mentions a bunch of other allegations of bad behavior and random stuff like ghosting webcomic companies etc but i'll try to keep this brief and focus on what i feel is most relevant)

some of kino's previous accounts and their scamming related to them:

PAISELEY, currently permabanned on furaffinity, here's a livejournal of a bunch of people corroborating their experiences being scammed by kino through unfulfilled commissions

CAPONE, also permabanned on furaffinity for the same reasons

RIVETS, permabanned once again on furaffinity for scamming

ARTIST BEWARE PAGE, the user got a refund after nearly an entire year of messaging kino about the subject

RUN ME THROUGH ZINE, all pages of which kino deleted, the proceeds of which were supposed to go to charity, you can find a lot of the things related to this on my tag and pinned post it was an ofmd zine and was very badly managed (missing artists and pieces etc etc) that ended up never being released kino ghosts the zine, deletes the pages and pockets the money made (allegedly $1300 but we have no real way of knowing how much the proceeds actually were), posts a falsified receipt only after people pressure them to speak on the matter after months of silence, people contact the charity and the charity reports kino donated just $1 kino once again goes silent and only after a giant uproar they FINALLY donate the money to the charity, but not before they blame someone else for not posting receipts about it (it was kino's responsibility) and guilt tripping people about how they've been harassed (again i do not condone harassment but people literally wanted them to just donate the money where it was supposed to go in the first place and they refused to even address that nor why they forged the first receipt)

kino also has a tendency to make expensive frivolous purchases (electronics, a hot tub, tattoos, a custom chair....) time and time again once they've scammed money out of people via whatever method they've chosen (they often post about these purchases too after deleting whatever emergency commissions post or a post asking for donations), and while far be it from me to tell someone what to do with their finances, they can't seem to stop scamming in order to get money

so i'd strongly suggest not supporting kino! they manipulate, lie and steal and claim they're a victim of some mass bullying campaign when in reality they've spent seventeen years scamming people out of money and people are getting rightfully angry! they also will likely continue to do so as long as people give them money

again use your own brain when reading people's testimonies about kino, a lot of them in the tag on my blog, but i believe these people and that their experiences are real considering the number of messages i've received (some of which people wished to remain private)

kino's made their bed and i want them to finally lie in it, so even if one person is convinced not to support kino via all this information then i'll be satisfied

i'm sorry this still got so long!

[arctic-bookclub]

after seeing this amazing post by @the-purest i felt compelled to create this so enjoy :] jurgen leitner rant [code monster edition] under the cut because it’s long:

Ph1LzA: THE CODE MONSTER?

STUPID IDIOT MOTHERFUCKING CODE MONSTER? GODDAMN FOOL PICTURE TAKING EGG KILLING CORRUPTED BINARY BASTARD SHITHEAD IDIOT AVATAR OF THE WHORE BIGGEST CLOWN IN THE CIRCUS LAUGHED OUT OF TOWN COWBOY MOTHERFUCKING CODE MONSTER

STOP PINNING ME WHEN I TALK ABOUT THE CODE MONSTER I HATE IT SO MUCH WHY DOES IT HAVE SO MANY FUCKED UP WEAPONS WHY DID IT DECIDE TO FUCK AROUND AND FIND OUT ONLY TO REFUSE TO FIGHT ME IS IT AN EGG? IS IT A BASTARD? BINARY BITCH HAS SUCH A VISCERAL EFFECT ON ME NOT EVEN ON THE SERVER NEVER SEEN THIS CODES FACE AND I KNOW IT HAS THE WORLDS SHITTIEST HAIRCUT GET AWAY FROM ME

if i wanted to get into heaven and god said the code monster is waiting inside i would piss on gods feet for the sole purpose of getting sent back down

if i have to deal with the code monster dropping one item in person on quesadilla island in minecraft not only will i close the game i will delete my launcher out of spite and have to redownload all the mods again for the experience of being able to miss all the times when its mentioned or alive

i don't even know why i hate it so much. it takes pictures but i am just mad because i am angy

it better have some fucked up backstory to explain this if it’s just some federation shithead who’s a fan of angst and wanted the eggs dead i'll go ham

better have had a been a failed corrupted egg because if it isn’t i'm going to make it

paypal.com/IFuckingHateTheCodeMonster

servers not even about it. vaguely mentioned what is supposed to be maybe its purpose and i lost it

where the fuck is the code monster if it’s still alive i'm going to so deeply wish it wasn't

weak creative mode code

i'll punch the code and its sad cowardly creative mode binary numbers will simply flake apart under my epic huge meat fist and it will disintegrate until all that's left is one final picture it kept on it at all times titled Now You Fucked Up in ancient morsecode

i'm not breathing i'm hyperventilating at this point

i hope there's a date given for when the code died or will die so i can make it a reminder on my phone

everyday once a year i will see it and do anything but pay respects to the code who had so many fucked up if true theories about it

[steviewashere]

If my stupid headcanons about Steve Harrington, a character that's not even fleshed out in his canon universe, bother you so fucking bad, go ahead and block me.

All rude asks at this point get deleted. I'm not wasting my time answering them because you're all pissy about an opinion.

For reference, this is about my headcanon where I said that Steve's six kids and winnebago dream is something he grows to hate/dislike because it embarrasses him now. I've said that. It's something I've already argued with somebody else about.

There are so many real world problems that you can be directing your unmitigated anger at, rather than a person who just has an interest. Like be so fucking for real right now.

Once I'm done sharing all my headcanons, I'm just gonna turn my asks off. I'll turn them back on when necessary, but this is ridiculous. For my mailing list project, for any questions/concerns/comments, you can either DM me or send me an email on the form provided in my pinned post.

Thanks.

[lelandmylove]

Pinned post because I'm finally not lazy and uh I wanna change my description. So.

Basic information about me

HAIIII CALL ME AGUSTIN!

He/Him

Uh I'm 14! So yk don't be weird or gross. Birthday January 15th! My zodiac sign is a Capricorn ♑!

Trans/Pansexual

I like Leland idk if that was obvious..

Proshipers, Transphobic, Homophobic, Zoophiles, and yk just basic DNI.

Blog info

This blog is mainly for my Tcsm OC Cindy Mayfield and sometimes just me ranting or rebologing random shit.

Sometimes when I get frustrated I'll vent on here but usually after like an hour or smth I'll delete it but in case you don't really wanna see any of that and are just here for my OCs then I'll direct you to this blog- @lillambtotheslaughter

I do plan on making more side blogs for other OCS and maybe for my original story I wanna bring back to life sooner or later but for now I only have that one. Yes I know that my second blog doesn't have many posts but that's because I'm trying my best to finish the pinned post for it when I get motivation too.

RULES FOR THIS ACCOUNT!

Pretty basic nothing too big or anything.

•Don't make weird/rude comments on my blog. (If you don't like the shit I draw or what I post then block me. Don't be a little bitch.)

•You are allowed to draw my OCs so long as you tag me in the art and also ask permission before hand!

•This goes for rule one don't harass me by abusing the anonymous opinion in the ask's because of something you don't like. Just grow up and hit the block button it's really tiring having to deal with that.

•Honestly just have fun here. Giggle at the stupid shit I draw, comment whatever you want (except hate fuck you) on the drawings, just enjoy yourself on my blog

MY HUSBAND'S AND WIVES😍‼️

(also known as my f/o's)

Tcsm

•Leland McKinney. (Been married for a full year already 😏)

•Sonny Williams (believe it or not I actually have quite a few drawings of him and Cindy)

•Sissy slaughter

Creepypasta

•Ben drowned (FUCKING LOVE BEN)

•Eyeless jack (SAME AS BEN BRO LOVE THESE TWO)

Demon slayer

•Sanemi Shinazugawa

•Zenitsu Agatsuma

•Genya Shinazugawa (Ye I got both the brothers)

•Kanaroji Mitsuri

•Goto (that one Kakushi that's always finding tanjiro and his friends)

I have more I just need to remember because they're all scattered from different fandoms 😭

Other blogs:

@lillambtotheslaughter @hillyhay

And that's it. That's the end of this pinned post. Tbh kinda disappointing but Idrc. You kinda learn more about me the longer you get to know me so👰💍

[homeshippinglikeapro]

not gonna ask you to delete your blog but can you like. correctly tag your posts proship and not just include ship names and an obscure term only terminally online people use? because im not prepared to block every single incest/etc. ship name at 1am just so i can avoid a very genuine trigger that ive tried to axe entirely from my content pool for years

I'm sorry you never heard of the tags. I understand "comship", but "shipcest" is common in all fandoms and it's well known, that's why I use it. And if YOU (not "tErMiNaLlY oNlie") don't know it, it's not really my problem, I do not own you any tag, just to not tagging it incorrectly (which I didn't).

Also, if this entire blog is triggering for you, why do you even bother coming here, scrolling, and send me anonimously all of this?

I did use all the right terms and if you didn't know them, I'm sorry, but learn and move on. Just like I did before it was possible to do such things like "blocking tags of stuff I don't like/triggers me" - I was young and didn't know how it worked for very long time; STILL never complained or send such comments to people, even when I saw very inapropriate stuff for my age or stuff that triggered me as well, so no, it's not an excuse for your behaviour and I won't accept it. That's why I was aggressive and I don't regret it AND I will still be if somebody else, for WHATEVER REASON, comes in MY space and comments "eW wHaT iS ThIs?" instead of learn and move on.

Second of all, please don't be so STUPID! "It'S 1Am I cAn'T bLock-" yada yada yada, BRO, it's literally something you're doing FOR YOURSELF, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW YOU OR WTF YOU'VE BLOCKED OR NOT. BLOCK THOSE FUCKING TAGS, BLOCK THIS FUCKING BLOG AND GO AWAY. YOU LITERLALLY NEED TO DO THIS SHIT ONLY ONCE, stop complaining or I'll just assume you're here to bitch around because you hate yourself and trying to make it MY problem for some reason.

+ I am not using ANY terms incorrectly, I want to make it clear. On my main blog I used to tag "incest" and such, I know how tf tumblr works and I know they won't put down my stuff. I tag it shipcest because it's a COMMON term in fandoms, which I'm using FOR COURTESY. I do not own you this shit, I can literally tag it "homestuck" and call it the day, so stop fucking complaining.

EDIT: did this just to let you know how stupid you are, hope you'll enjoy babe

Took me approximately 2 seconds to search and read. Develop a brain to learn how to read yourself or recognize your limits and don't accuse other people, thanks.

(NOT fucking taggin my shit "proship" because it wouldn't make any sense wtf)

EDIT2: also, because I'm bitter about it now:

This is my INTRO post, my PINNED post. Stfu.

[dollsonmain]

I deleted most of the posts about yesterday because I noticed I was kind of in a panic and wasn't being kind at all (I usually keep that kind of thing to my whining blog), but I'll make one post (this is a compulsion to be accountable, it's not like I think anyone needs to hear this), and get all of it in one place.

Yes, this is about the door sweep, but it's also about living with That Guy.

So the door sweep shredded and needed replaced. At some point it got to where it was difficult to close the door, too. I thought that was because of the door sweep, but now I'm thinking it was because the frame piece that the hinges are screwed into is cracking.

I did some measurements as well as I could, ordered a new sweep online, and it doesn't fit. Not only does it overlap the kickplate on the door, but there is too much material in the flaps on the bottom to fit into the gap.

We had to take the door down to remove the old sweep, destroying it in the process. I told That Guy how to take the door down without stripping the hinge screws and he said that was stupid, we would unscrew the hinges instead.

I did get a little validation when the instructions for the door sweeps all said to remove the pins instead of unscrewing the hinges

That Guy won't permit the kick plate being removed and that area being painted over, so that sweep can't be used there at all and will be taken down to the basement where we can use it.

He also can't handle when things don't go exactly his way the first time every time, so he was throwing a tantrum the whole time, which is the opposite of helping.

We ran to the store to get another sweep, taking the old one with us. I compared it to the ones there, showed him, picked one, and we brought it home.

At this point he's tantruming about spending money. He does that. HE has spent $10 so far.

Part of his tantruming is pedantry and deliberately being obtuse about how people are talking. Like, if I say "Let's try putting the old one back on." even though we've been discussing and fighting with door sweeps all day, he sneers and asks THE.OLD.WHAT. It's a problem I've had with him for a long time and a way he tries to enforce control when he's having an anxiety spike because things aren't going his way. I call it The Script.

The door wouldn't close with that one on, either. I was convinced it would fit but with closer inspection discovered that the flanges for the kerf channels on the old sweep were 1in apart and on the new one was 7/8in. 7/8in is the current standard (our house is over 20 years old), so most listings online don't even note that measurement.

With the flanges being in the wrong place, the sweep can't be installed flush with the door, and the door can't close.

All this time, I did NOT want That Guy "helping" because every time he "helps" it goes the same. He makes a 20 minute job take hours on end. But I couldn't get the heavy door up and down myself.

He also says everything I research and everything I KNOW is wrong and stupid, and that's infuriating. That treatment by him makes it really hard for me to keep being kind about his anxiety about change and I do often fail to keep it up.

At one point he tried to force the door closed with the second sweep, causing the board the hinges screw into to crack more.

We've had to take the door off and on a few times, and that proved to him that he's gotten physically weak, which pissed him off, which exacerbated the tantrum.

He's decided it's my fault that the hinge screws are now loose.

Either way, right now there is no sweep on the front door and it's periodically popping loudly now and then.

Now.

The real reason I wanted to make this post, the whole accountability compulsion, is to say that yeah, I'm the reason there's no sweep on the front door right now.

I'm aware that I tend to scramble to not take the blame when something happens. That Guy has a habit of blaming me for literally everything that happens even when he's the only one involved. It's always my fault somehow.

However, I have no problem admitting when I was actually wrong.

I also have no problem admitting that I am destructive. Often, me fixing something involves a lot of destruction, first. I have destroyed things in an attempt to fix them.

I saw the problem, took some measurements, didn't get all of those measurements right because I didn't know there were two more measurements than I had taken that were needed.

Yes, I looked it up. No, the places I looked didn't mention those measurements for some reason (the size of the gap, which is really important, and the spacing between the flanges because I didn't eve know how this thing was attached before taking the door down), likely because they were all assuming the doors people were researching for were in the current standard, until I found that video later by the older man

which also re-validated me saying that to take the door down the hinge pins should be removed but proof doesn't matter with a narcissist.

I plowed ahead because if you ask That Guy to change anything, even if it's to change something on the house that's falling apart, if it costs any money he says no so I have to just do things without asking or including him in the process to keep the house in one piece.

I did measure insufficiently, and I did destroy the old sweep removing it (though that tends to happen when an old kerf sweep is removed).

I do not take the blame for the door hinge screws being loose. If we had taken the door down the way I said to instead of the way That Guy decided is right while knowing literally nothing about construction, the screws wouldn't have been touched. If the board they are screwed into hadn't already been cracked, they wouldn't be loose. He decided it's my fault for using too much torque on our very low-powered electric drill, when I didn't use nearly as much force as a construction worker does, it's a low-powered drill, and I would have used a manual screwdriver but he decided we'd use the electric and he unscrewed it the first time.

So. I will take the blame when it is mine but I will go to great lengths to not take it when it isn't because I've been blamed for literally everything wrong whether it's my fault or not for so long and I'm tired of it.

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Thursday ‘Hey Little Girl With The Crooked Smile’ Radio Prompt List

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Feeling the pain when you walk away

Kiss me and tell me it's not broken

Well, you may not see me when you come back

Come on, and feel alive, lover

Something about the way that you walked into my living room Casually and confident lookin' at the mess I am but still, still you want me

I could be sharin' someone else's pillow

No more pain and no more shame and misery

He likes a promise if he don't have to keep it

You're like a diamond shining underneath a billion rocks

I kinda love being the one that got away, It didn't work out and that's okay

How could you think, darling, I'd scare so easily?

Not even tryin', but damn I think it's beautiful

Hey little girl with the crooked smile You got a love so warm, make a heart run wild

I'll make a list of all my vices

Down on my knees starting to pray

And my love for you is better than diamonds

I’ve loved some girls that I barely knew

Can you break the chains, off her

A girl like me you'll never choose

And there's a tear that falls between the pages

And oh, stupid things I do, I'm far from good, it's true. But still, I find you Next to me

I know people say that you're a misfit But that's the thing I like about you

I need something, give me something wonderful

He came, he disappeared, He was too good to be true

I've been lied to, I've been cut and deleted

I'm dying to show you This could end happily ever after

Hey little girl, set my soul on fire You're the gasoline, my one desire

I see you crying, crying like you can't take no more

Calling for my demons now to let me go

See, I'll give you the stars from the bruised evenin' sky

I could throw it in the river and watch it sinking

Why would we talk? Nothing to say

I know that pain's supposed to heal in stages

So thank you for taking a chance on me I know it isn't easy But I hope to be worth it

And dance with the ghosts upon the dawn

Funny how a fantasy can end up as a tragedy

You know I'm struggling To hold onto what's left

I shouldn't be your one regret

We'll dance to an orchestra on the lawns

You had all the charm, I was young and stupid

And I'll need a kiss for my head that's achin'

Begging you to forgive, Begging you to forget

You always play the victim, used to be convincin'