#ib vyache

[asoftepiloguemylove]

i think my body is falling in pieces i think my blood is passing me by

Micah Nemerever These Violent Delights / I.B. Vyache Excerpt 07.01.21 / Silas Denver Melvin excerpt from Grit: A Poetry Collection / Christa Wolf excerpt from Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays / Ethel Cain Family Tree (Intro) / unknown / Fiona Apple Left Alone / Richard Siken The Worm King's Lullaby / Gwen Benaway Holy Wild

i. Micah Nemerever, These Violent Nights

[ "I don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you. / We've found each other, out of everyone else in the world. Does that hurt, too?" ]

ii. I.B. Vyache, Excerpt 07.01.21

[ "It's time to forgive my hands for being hands. I'm going to hate myself a little less tomorrow. I'm going to hate myself a little less tomorrow." ]

iii. unknown

[ "have you shot a gun? is your blood authentic? is your blood authentic? is your blood authentic? can you prove it to me?" ]

iv. Christa Wolf, Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays

[ "You looked at me / (did you still see me?)" ]

v. Ethel Cain, Family Tree (Intro)

[ "The fate's already fucked me sideways / Swinging by my neck from the family tree / He'll laugh and say, 'You know I raised you better than this' / Then leave me hanging so they all can laugh at me" ]

vi. unknown

[ "I fight. I resist. It doesn't even matter what I resist; there is simply something in me that tends to resist things as they are. I have been fighting since I was very small." ]

vii. Fiona Apple, Left Alone

[ "[Chorus] / How can I ask anyone to love me / When all I do is beg to be left alone?" ]

viii. Richard Siken, The Worm King's Lullaby

[ "Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story." ]

ix. Gwen Benaway, Holy Wild

[ "I am tired of explaining the fire, / it burns because it must." ]

[texaschainsawmascara]

Waves - Mr Probz / Crazy/Beautiful / Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce - IB Vyache / Normal People / Skins / The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998 - Nikki Giovanni / Neon Genesis Evangelion / Golden Age - Ethel Cain

[faerie-aurora]

“I am trying to make myself digestible. I am trying to make myself easy to love.”

-I.B. Vyache, from Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce

[tunisian]

it hurts to love you because you dont love me back

mark strand / colette lush / edward m. forster / christian kuria / salma deera / flannery o’connor / blythe baird / ijeoma umebinyuo / richard siken / ib vyache / blythe baird

[dogrotpdf]

I WISH I WAS BITE SIZED.

tanya tucker / cj hauser / franz kafka / mary lambert (@heavensghost ) / ib vyache / cj hauser / sun yuan and peng yu / mitski 

[eurosleazarchive]

LIST 5 SONGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE.

1.   it’s only sex -- car seat headrest

the other night i cried while thinking of having sex with you / not out of desire or shame but some subconscious impulse to feel pain / i wiped my tears on my face and neck and the backs of my ears / and said, "now it's sweat, now it's sweat, it's sweat now"

2.   existential crisis hour! -- kilo kish

if i'm in my body and you're in yours (yes) with no way to swap / how can we ever truly be together? (can't) / no matter how hard i press my face into yours / a space remains, so am i alone? (yep, nope, god, no)

3.   sour breath -- julien baker

and i thought that if i tried a little bit harder you'd change your mind / i've still got nowhere to be, and i don't do too well; nobody's worried/ when nobody's worried about me

4.   real men -- mitski

real men don't need other people / and real men suck it in / real men don't flinch or bleed in public / oh, i think i'm a real man

5.   tonight, tonight -- the smashing pumpkins

and you know you're never sure / but you're sure you could be right / if you held yourself up to the light

LIST 5 QUOTES THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE.

1.  when your name is antigone, there is only one part you can play; and she will have to play hers through to the end.  --  antigone, jean anouilh (trans. lewis galantiere)

2.  i am trying to make myself digestible.  i am trying to make myself easy to love.  --  conversations over sanguinaccio dolce, ib vyache.

3.  a death-ridden woman, haunted by dreams.  --  the crucible, arthur miller.

4.  the most common causal factor in female self-abuse is that women have been taught that it is ‘unfeminine’ to voice anxiety in an assertive way, so they tend to internalise it - and when it needs to find expression it tends to take the shape of self-directed violence.  --  house of psychotic women, kier-la janisse.

5.  i tried to copy other children but lacked their tough skin. i was a glove turned inside-out, softness showing.  --  gut symmetries, jeanette winterson.

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[asoftepiloguemylove]

永い言い訳 (The Long Excuse) (2016) dir. 西川美和 (Miwa Nishikawa) / Natalie Díaz, from American Arithmetic, "Post Colonial Love Poem" / Warsan Shire, from "Backwards," Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head / Ib Vyache / Mary Tuomi Lonely in Paris / Blythe Baird If My Body Could Speak / Ethel Cain A House im Nebraska / unknown